December 18, 2023 • 46 mins
Imagine being in a room with over 1700 individuals, all deep in meditation, guided by the renowned Dr. Joe Dispenza. In November of 2023, I stepped into this transformative vortex, spending an incredible week immersed in 35-40 hours of intense meditation. Join me as I walk you through the corridors of my mind and the collective energy that reverberated through every soul present at this retreat.
If you've ever wondered how science intersects with spirituality, you're in the right place. We'll discuss the science behind Dr. Joe Dispenza's work, the studies that substantiate it, and the science of breath work in connecting with the quantum field. I'll also shed light on how this journey through the retreat led to my personal transformation. I'll reveal how his unique meditation techniques, coupled with the power of setting intentions, helped me navigate through my dark night of the soul, connecting me with like-minded individuals and sparking a profound spiritual awakening.
I also take you through my experience with coherence healings at the retreat, where we channeled our energy to heal others while in a meditative state. Hear about the seismic shifts in my daily routine post-retreat, involving early morning rendezvous with my cells and a newfound sense of connection to myself and the universe. Get ready for an enthralling conversation that will challenge your understanding of the mind-body connection and the transformative power of meditation.
More on Joe Dispenza here: https://drjoedispenza.com/
Headed to a retreat? Watch my top tips for preparing for a Joe Dispenza Retreat Here
Want to experience a quantum leap meditation? Experience it here.
About Nina
Nina is an author, artist, musician, Human Design Specialist, and podcast host of Receptive Impact. Open & curious to adventure and change, Nina Elise navigates the path of self-discovery, inviting you to explore the boundless opportunities that arise when we step out of our comfort zones.
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Nina Elise (00:02):
Welcome to the Receptive Impact Podcast.
I'm your host, nina Elise.
Hello friends, and welcome back.
I hope that you are having anincredible day.
I'm so excited for this episode, as always, because I have been
actually waiting to do thisepisode for a couple of weeks,
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and the reason behind that isbecause I wanted to give myself
some time to integrate.
So what I mean by that is Iwent to a week-long meditation
retreat.
If anyone is familiar with JoeDispenza, I have been studying
his work since about 2016 andhave been really, really into
his work pretty heavily for thepast two years, and I finally
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went to his event a couple ofweeks ago in Orlando, florida,
and it was intense andlife-changing and just amazing
and incredible and there are notenough words to describe the
experience of being there inthat collective energy and the
amount of love and just like.
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The things that happened duringthat week were just totally
magical and I don't really haveany other strong words than it
was incredible and life-changing.
So I'm going to go into alittle bit more detail about
this retreat.
We meditated about 35 to 40hours the entire week.
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It was pretty intense.
I would describe this retreatas like a mix between Tony
Robbins and Ayahuasca.
So if you are familiar witheither of those, I picked those
two things because, tony Robbins, if you've ever been to one of
his events, there's likethousands of people there and
the energy is just wild and justkind of just intense and
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overwhelming because of theamount of people there and the
energy that is generating fromthe collective there and it's
very motivating.
And with Ayahuasca it's muchdifferent than that.
It's a smaller group, butyou're going inward and you're
basically cleaning out andpurging things that are like
identities and emotions andbelief systems that you are
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looking to remove from your body, from your energy field, from
your thoughts.
So a lot of people go to bothof those things in order to heal
or change their lives.
And I really felt like this JoeDispenza meditation retreat the
advanced week long retreat thatI went on was a combination of
those two but much more softer.
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And when I say softer, there isabout 1700 people that were at
the event, maybe a little bitmore, and I was a little bit
worried because there were somany people there and I've been
kind of hermiting for the pastyear and I'm not really a crowd
person and I was actually justso pleasantly surprised by how
soft the energy felt there.
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It was not overwhelming, it wasvery welcoming and everyone was
so, so, so nice.
So before I get into the actualretreat, I'm just going to give
you guys a little bit of abackground of Joe Dispenza and
my history with him and the workthat I have done with him and
the things that have happened inmy life since I started doing
his meditation.
So Joe Dispenza is basicallythis guy who got in this
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accident when he was younger andwas told he was going to have
to have all these surgeries andwould be a little walk normal or
walk again, and he basicallyhealed his body through the
power of his mind and he vowedthat he would help other people
do the same if he was able towalk again and be able to share
what he did with himself.
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And so he's totally like aninvestigator, like scientist,
like he's going to go in andunderstand, like the why he's a
doctor.
I believe he's a chiropractor,I'm not entirely sure.
Anyways, he has a team andresearchers and other scientists
that are doing a lot ofresearch with him or have been
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doing over the years to provethe actual science behind
meditation and how people canheal themselves through
meditation and, in particular,his meditation.
So he is the type of personthat is just very like.
He walks the talk likeeverything that he presents.
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He has experimented withhimself and he has done it,
repeating over and over, andover and over again, until
something is repeated enoughtimes that it's actual like a
fact versus being like, oh, thismay or may not happen.
Like a lot of the meditationsand the experiences that he has
had, he's been able to replicatethat within himself with the
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people and the groups that heleads in his meditation retreats
, and he now has a science toactually back it up.
And so I'm not going to go toomuch into too much detail with
the actual like science.
I mean, I could be here forhours and honestly, this podcast
episode might be like atwo-parter.
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We'll see what happens, becausethere's just so much to talk
about and I really want to share, like what the event was like
and I want to share some of myexperience so you can kind of
understand, like what happensduring that week, because
there's some pretty wild thingsthat happen that are like kind
of really unexpected, especiallyif you're not used to this
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inner work or like if you'venever done ayahuasca or you
haven't had psychedelicexperiences or you haven't done
somatic therapy, where you'relike releasing emotions and
actually felt your emotions anddealt with them in a while.
So it can be kind of jarring inthat sense if you're not really
familiar with his work Not tosay that that's like a bad thing
or anything, but basically allof the science that he's doing.
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He's collecting blood, he'sdoing brain scans of people in
meditation before and after andweeks following.
They're doing MRIs before andafter.
They are testing people withcancer, they are testing the
effects of meditation on breastmilk, and they have hundreds and
thousands of people who arefreely volunteering themselves
to be a part of these researchstudies, and so they have
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massive amounts of data thatjust cannot be proven wrong, and
so they're looking for specificmarkers about like in the blood
that can help reduce certaincells in the body that may not
be so good, or help reducesickness or disease or illness
or whatever, and so it's really,really fascinating.
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Like I said, I'm not going to gointo too much detail into this,
but if you are interested inlearning more about that, you
can read.
He has a couple of books outand he also has some online
courses where he dives way moreinto detail with the actual
science behind his meditationsin his work, because so many
people are healing around theworld because of his meditations
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and what he is doing and it'snot because he's healing them in
any way.
It's basically he's empoweringpeople to go inward and to take
their power back and to healthemselves through the power of
belief and by basically goinginto the quantum field and
changing their energetic field,which, in turn, changes their
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bodies on this physical 3D realm.
So maybe that sounds a littlelike crazy or you don't
understand that, but I'll gointo a little bit more detail
about how I kind of simplified aformula that I'm playing around
with at the moment of how I'mapproaching reality.
So my history with Joe Dispenzais I got into his work in 2016
and read his books and was likesuper into it, but he didn't
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have like recorded meditationsat the time, so I kind of just
like dropped it.
And it wasn't until January2022, someone introduced me to
his online course and I took hisprogressive online course and
from there I started meditatingabout two or three hours a day
and at the time I had justgotten out of a long
relationship and I was just kindof like, okay, it's kind of
floating, I didn't really knowwhat I wanted to do with my life
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and I had not really developedemotional maturity and looked at
a lot of different thingswithin myself.
And so it was perfect, becausewhen you do his meditations,
basically what you're doing isyou're bringing up dense
memories or trauma or emotionsfrom those lower centers in the
body, bringing them up to befelt and acknowledged and
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released in some sort of way.
And so anyone who gets into JoeDispenza's work will tell you
that you will definitely gothrough some sort of change in
your life if you commit to hiswork.
And it may seem messy or crazyat work or at first, that's it.
It's an unfoldment of youstepping into your highest self,
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you stepping into your powerand basically creating a life
that is in alignment for you.
And so basically when I startedhis meditations all of my
things I wanted to manifest thatI would go into his meditations
for like healing my body andlike having my dream job and
like having my dream partner inthis dream life, and that's what
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I was basically meditating onevery single day, and the first
big change that happened afterdoing that, for a few months was
I lost my job, and that isactually pretty typical or
common for people who are goinginto his work.
There are these, I guess, thesebig shifts that happen in your
life, and so when that happened,I was like, how do I do it?
So, like any normal person, Ibought a one way ticket to
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Mexico and I had no idea what Iwas doing with my life, but I
knew that I wanted to take thissolo trip before I settled down,
so I bought a one way ticket toMexico and it was wonderful and
like such a beautifulexperience.
And when I returned back to theUS after about four or five
months, my world just completelycrumbled.
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And I have talked about this onprevious episodes and videos on
my YouTube channel, so I'm notgoing to go into extreme detail
about it.
But basically, like I wentthrough the spiritual awakening,
I went through a very, verydark night of the soul where all
of my shadows, all of my stuffstarted, just came up all at
once and I had to take radical,radical responsibility for the
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entire creation of my life,everything that I attracted, my
career, my relationships, likejust what was going on in my
body, and it was so overwhelming, like I thought I was losing my
mind at some point, like it wasjust so much emotions coming up
at once, years of suppressedemotions just coming up for me
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to basically process and release.
And, long story short, fastforward, from the time that I
got back to the US and likestarted to go through that, I
was like really hunkering downon Joseph Spence's meditations
and I basically made a vow tomyself like I am going to not
let this moment pass me by.
I know exactly what ishappening right now.
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I'm going to stand in integrityas much as I can and I am going
to keep my heart open as muchas I can.
And so I was doing hismeditations two or three hours a
day from months and months andthey really, really helped me
keep afloat, really helped openmy heart and just keep me like
in alignment with as much as Icould be in the moment when I
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was moving through all thatgrief and those emotions of
basically like the crumbling ofmy life and everybody in it and
letting go of so much.
And so, like I said, I reallyattribute this to his
meditations and again, I'm nottrying to scare anyone, it's
just I'm sharing this process oflike how I got into his work
and so, basically, as I wasgoing through this, I came to
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like this blank slate.
So when I came to that blankslate, it was like I was okay
with nothing.
Like I was okay, I just lostand let go of so many important
people in my life, like that Ihad been using as anchors and
giving my power away too, and soI was like so completely lost
and I was living at my dad'shouse.
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Everything I owned was in theback of my Jeep, and it was just
like, huh, I survived.
I survived the apocalypse.
Basically, I have nothing and Ihad no job, like nothing.
And I was like I'm still here.
And that was when I made it outto myself that I would continue
to show up for myself everysingle day.
And when I came to that blankslate, it was like, huh, okay,
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I'm not going to be creating ormanifesting anything from like a
place of ego.
It's going to be from like aplace of play of like and
curiosity of like.
Okay, if I can create myreality, I have this blank slate
in my life.
What do I really want to do?
What type of woman do I want tobe and like what type of life
do I want to create and whattype of people do I want in my
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life?
So it really, with all of thathappening, it really forced me
to get clear about, you know,that type of life that I wanted
to create.
And so I continued with hismeditations for all of 2023.
When I created my vision boardfor the at the beginning of 2023
, I, in the middle of the board,his was a picture of Joe
Dispenza at a retreat talking toan audience and I took my
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picture and I pasted my pictureon the face of an audience
member and that was on my visionboard earlier this year and I
kind of just like forgot aboutit.
I was just like, oh, I reallydon't have the money to do this.
Like, maybe I'll do it, maybe Iwon't.
It wasn't like the end of theworld.
And so this entire year of 2023, I was doing so much inner work
.
I was doing like hours ofmeditation and EFT tapping and
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therapy and somatic therapy andlike all of this inner work, and
I was like basically justcoming home to myself and
becoming my best friend andtending to my inner child and
just doing like this major innerhealing for myself, and I
finally got to the point where Iwas like, wow, I'm sick of
being sad and I don't know howto basically get moved to the
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next level on my own.
And that was when I decided afew months ago I was like I need
to be around other people, Ineed to be in a higher energy, I
need to be around other peoplewho believe that the power lies
within them, that they areunlimited, that we are a source
in these, these meat suits in inthis 3D reality.
And so that's when I was like,okay, well, maybe I'll look into
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, like, is there another choicekinds of meditation retreat and
there's one in Orlando?
And so I was like, okay, like Iactually had the money to go at
that time period.
And I was like, okay, I thinkI'll sign up for this.
So that was kind of like myjourney leading up to choosing
to go into his retreat, becausemy intention was not to like, oh
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, I want to heal myself orwhatever.
My intention was to meet newpeople, to be surrounded by
people who are doing their ownwork and they're curious and
they're not afraid to go insideand look at their bullshit.
And those are the people that Iwanted to be surrounded by.
And so when I signed up for theretreat, things started to shift
and change, like I was doinghis meditations, probably like
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one to two hours a day, when Iwoke up in the morning and when
I would go to bed at night, andthat really helped prepare me
for the event.
And then also I did his onlineprogressive course again, which
is required before you go to theretreat.
And it's done that way becausethere's so much science and so
much understanding that needs tobe learned before you go,
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because it helps create thisfoundation for going into your
meditation, so you understandwhat's going on on a scientific
level, which makes themeditations like more impactful
and even more believable thatyou can actually change your
life.
That's what I really love aboutthe meditations with Joe
Dispenza.
Some people may think he's outthere or this cult leader or
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something I don't know.
All I know is that there isnothing but love in that
community and I'm just observing.
I'm not fully immersed in thatcommunity, but I kind of take
what I need and do themeditations and then it changes
me and I'm able to give from amore of an open heart because of
his work and that's what Ireally appreciate about his work
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.
So about a month before hisretreat, I was going through the
coursework every single day,meditating one or two hours
every day, and my intentions forthe retreat I wrote them down.
I'm like, okay, if I could healor change anything about me,
this is what my intention wouldbe to heal this thing about my
body or whatever and change thisthing about my life.
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But I had no expectations.
I was like, if these happen,great, if not, whatever.
I was just here for theexperience.
So a big part of my intentionwas like connecting with other
people, with like-minded people,getting around that collective
energy and just being curiousand saying, okay, let's see
where this adventure takes me.
And because you hear thesestories about people who do his
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meditations and they healthemselves from cancer, and
these people who are getting upout of wheelchairs and walking
after doing his meditations,because they have mentally
rehearsed standing up andwalking on their own so many
times in their life and in hismeditations that they're able to
literally heal themselves.
And that is what is soincredibly empowering about
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these meditations and I've hadfriends who have gone to
retreats more than once and theyshare the same thing where
they're.
Like I was watching people getup and walk out of wheelchairs
that had been in wheelchairs formost of their life, or people
who were blind and they startedto see again, and just these
wild, wild stories and I waslike, okay, let's see what
happens.
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Like I said, I had noexpectations.
So actually, the day before Iwent to his retreat, I helped
host a walking meditation on thebeach with a friend and we had
like 15 or 20 people come andit's something that we're doing
monthly in the area just to likebring the community together.
And in that meditation, like Iwas receiving all of these
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downloads and these messages andI basically saw like my angels
surrounding me and like my likemy great grandparents were there
and my guides were there.
And when I say like I see them,it's like I close my eyes and I
just know, like I just knowthat they're there and I just
knew that they were.
Like Nina, you were going intosomething really, really
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profound and when I was doingthe walking meditation, I was
just seeing this version of me.
Like crossing the river ofchange is what what Joseph
Spencer calls.
It is like when you want tochange a belief and change
something about yourself andyour life.
You're going to walk throughthat river of change and it's
going to be hard and you'regoing to encounter resistance
and you're with your ego andlike you're going to struggle to
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let go of these identities.
And so in that walk I wasgetting these downloads of these
visualizations of me crossingthe river of change and looking
back and seeing like a net andlike versions of me attached,
like old past versions of me,like holding onto that net and
like dragging me down.
And I realized in that walkingmeditation I was like, oh my god
, I have to let those oldversions of me completely die
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and just let them go.
And so as the walk went on, itwas like I let go of those
versions of me and so thatversion was able to walk across
the river to maybe like themiddle or three quarters.
And then I saw the next versionof me and as I reached for the
hand of the next version of me,I realized that I had to die in
order to be that next version ofme.
And so it was kind of like thisforeshadowing of the actual
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event, because I did go throughthis like death and rebirth in
some sense during that week,especially in the longer
meditation that we did, Idefinitely I had a mystical
experience and just completelychanged me in so many different
ways and I will go a little bitmore into detail about that.
So I don't really want to sharetoo much about like the actual
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layout of the retreat.
Maybe when I talk I'll sharemore, but if anyone is
interested in going into hisretreats, I actually told my
friends not to tell me what toexpect because I didn't want to
have any expectations going intothe retreat.
I wanted to be surprised, Iwanted to go in not knowing.
So I'm going to share like bitsand pieces here and there.
I had a lot of pretty intimateexperiences with myself and my
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meditations that I will mostlikely not share with with
anyone here, partly because it'sonly been a few weeks after
retreat and I am stillprocessing so much that has
happened since then and I'm surethere will be another podcast
or something later down the roadwhere I might speak in more
detail about this as thingsshift and change, because there
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are things that I'mexperimenting with.
When I went to the retreat itwas almost like there are these
missing puzzle pieces that Ineeded in order for things to
like click in and for me toreally like play at the next
level and I'm still kind of likeprocessing that and playing
with those.
So, basically, the whole, thewhole retreat, it's it's.
It's one week long, from Sundayto Saturday.
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You're meditating six or sevenhours a day, and that's where I
think, if you have not preparedor done the meditations like, it
can be a little bit likeshocking or jarring for people
or really challenging for people.
But honestly, I did not findany issue with it, not just
because I've been meditatingbefore, but I think I like I'm
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the type of person that goesfully all in whenever I like get
interested in something, and soI was like I'm in this 500,000%
, I'm focused, I'm here and Iwanted to get the most out of my
own experience.
So I was like in it for everysingle meditation that we were
in.
But I do want to say that it'simportant to do the meditations
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before or like leading up, atleast a few months before,
because there you are shiftingenergy in your body and in your
energetic field and when thathappens there's typically
somatic releases, so you mightcry, you might scream, you might
shake, you might shiver, youmight feel really hot, like
there are so many different waysthat your body can release
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those emotions and thoseenergies and if you're not used
to that, it can feel a littlejarring or a little scary.
And so, if you can imagine,there are like 1700 people in
this ballroom and we're all deepin meditation for like two
hours and you get like theserandom people screaming or
crying throughout the room andit's like these people are
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processing years of trauma thatthey had suppressed for so long
that was causing illness intheir body or they're releasing
these old, outdated beliefsystems and they're going
through these deaths in thatroom.
And so to me I'm like, okay,like this is normal.
This is like an ayahuascaceremony, minus the like
physical purging, so it's moregentle in that aspect, but there
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is definitely like a lot ofsomatic releasing throughout the
week.
So that is something that Ireally wanted to mention and
share, because I think there area lot of new people that were
going there and it's really,really incredible and so
inspiring to see people just gohead on into that and to face
all of that and to have thatintimate experience with
themselves, because this retreatreally is all about you.
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It is about you coming home toyourself.
It's about you looking at yourstuff and having the courage to
let go of the parts of you thatare not serving you or anyone
else, and sometimes that meansletting go of a marriage,
letting go of a job, like movingacross the country, like so
many different things.
But it's also just like theseingrained identities that you
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have about yourself and havingthe courage to look them in the
face and saying, okay, like I'mokay with letting you go and not
knowing what's on the otherside and so that's what Dr Joe
talks a lot about is like you'rebasically walking into the
unknown and these meditationsbecause you are crossing that
river of change and you areletting go and those old
versions of you are dying offand you have no idea who or what
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you're going to be on the otherside, what's going to happen in
the 3D reality when yourenergetic field changes, and so
I think that that can feel veryscary, or like people may not
understand that, or they do andthey're just like I'm so sick of
like who I am or where I'm atright now that I will like do
anything, and it's really it'sbeautiful, like to see all these
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people come here to have thesechanges and so, like I said, I'm
not going to go too much intothe science, but basically we go
into these meditations andyou're going into the quantum
field, you're doing acombination of breath work and
you know we're basicallyactivating this electromagnetic
field in our heart center, we'reconnecting with our heart
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center, we're connecting ourheart with our mind and we're
going into the quantum field andwe're basically downloading a
program or a new program fromthe quantum field and
downloading it back into thebody with the combination of the
mind and that got charged upemotion from the heart center.
And so I would say that's likethe most easiest way to to
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describe like the meditations Imean there are so many different
meditations that we do andthere's a lot of science behind
it Like, when we do the breathwork, we're pulling energy up,
we're pulling cerebral fluid allthe way up from the perineum,
all the way up to the pinealgland and it's basically
activating a radio receiver inthe brain and sending out like
these electromagnetic,electromagnetic signals to bring
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back a similar matchingvibration or energy into your
life.
And so it can be very, verypowerful and everyone's
experience is so differentbecause everybody has different
intentions, they have differentthings, that they're dealing
with different traumas, thatthey're trying to release,
different identities thatthey're trying to release.
So it's never like, hey, likewhat's your experience, so you
know what to expect, like it'snot going to be something that
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that you really expect at all,because you're going into the
unknown.
So this is actually somethingthat I have been playing around
with on like a micro level isbasically like coming to a place
of silence, like closing myeyes and going into the quantum
field.
When I say go into the quantumfield, it's almost like I see a
door and I open the door andthere's just like completely
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black space and when I stepthrough the door, the door
disappears.
And even when I walk forward,I'm always going to be in the
middle of that black space.
I can walk forwards, backwards,side to side, go up, go down.
There's no up or down, there'sno Easter West, there's like
none of it.
It's just this empty space andthat's this quantum field.
That's what 99.99% of our cellsare at that empty space.
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So I like to look at it as likeI'm actually going deep into the
empty space that lies within meand the body is just the point,
zero, zero, zero, one percentmatter that is still there, but
I'm not putting my attention onthat.
I'm putting it into the quantumspace where everything and
nothing exists and an infiniteamount of potentialities exists
there, and so I look at it aslike when I go into the quantum
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field, I'm going in with myintention and I'm saying, okay,
here's my intention.
To get clear before I go intothe meditation, it's very key
that you do that and you connectwith your heart space.
You activate thatelectromagnetic field in your
heart and then you connect withyour brain and you set your
intention and you're in thatquantum space.
And I like to view it as likewhen I get in that quantum space
with my intention, so say, forexample, I'm like I want to step
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into the role of CEO who'sconfident and, you know, can
speak clearly and whatever, like, whatever trait, whoever you
want to be, whatever you want inyour life, and I look at it as
like there's rows and rows androws of infinite amount of NENAs
in this quantum space that justshow up, and when I say this is
what I want, this is theprogram I want to download, this
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is who I want to be, it's likeall of those NENAs disappear and
the one NENA of who I got clearon who I want to be is what's
left and from there it's almostlike I take her and I download
her back into this physical bodyand I do that by having an
amplified emotion from my heartspace.
So I've been really playingaround with this a little bit in
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my everyday life and have beenvery pleased with some of the
results that I've been getting.
It's been cool to play aroundwith that because it really is
just like the power of the mindand we're working in this fifth
dimension where everypossibility exists and when we
figure out these shortcuts ofhow to manifest things in this
3D reality, like we can play andwe can have fun with it.
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So there are obviously likebigger things, like illness in
the body and things like that,where it's going to take longer
to change or manifest or it maynot be as believable.
So it takes longer for that tochange in the 3D reality for
some people, and that's totallyfine.
Some people I know like whatthey talk about at the retreats
is that they've been doing thatwork for 10 or 15 years until
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they got their healing.
And then there's people who gethealings in an instant.
And so I think it's just more ofyou're making a decision to
show up for yourself everysingle day in those meditations
and you decide to know thatyou're changed.
Like you are, it's already done.
So when you go into thatmeditation, you're making that
change, and when you come outand you open your eyes at the
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end of that meditation, you knowyou're changed.
You're a new person, you havedownloaded a new character, you
have downloaded a new reality,and then you act as if and
that's where I think a lot ofpeople get tripped up, including
myself, where I'm like oh, Iopened my eyes, but I'm still
seeing my regular reality.
Well, this is where you kind ofhave to be delusional in some
sense when you're trying tomanifest these things in your
life, because you're workingwith quantum physics here and
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it's the power of the beliefthat is going to create this new
, like shift or change in your3D reality, and so you have to
be patient because this realitymoves a little bit slower.
The frequency is slow, moveslower, it's more dense versus
if you think about working inthe quantum field and the 5D,
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that frequency moves much, muchfaster.
Things can manifest so muchfaster versus like being here.
It's much more slower tomanifest, which is actually a
really great thing, because ifyou're not aware, you don't want
to be manifesting every singlethought in your mind, and so
this is where we get to havelike that pause in between and
we get to tweak and play aroundwith what we really actually do
want to manifest, and sometimesthat that takes some time.
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Some really big themes that cameup for me was connecting more
with my heart and opening up myheart.
So I was like literally havingconversations with my heart and
learning how to connect with itand connect my mind with my
heart, and it was very beautifulexperiences and really having a
deep, deep realization of howpowerful my mind is and the
effect of it, of my mind, on myactual body and really
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understanding on a deeper levelthe responsibility for what goes
on in my mind, how I'm speakingabout myself, how I'm speaking
about other people.
You know these things on asurface level, but like when you
really really go deep into itand you're really having an
intimate, like deep experiencein a meditation with yourself
and you're connecting withyourself on a deeper level,
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you're understanding and seeingthings a little bit deeper, and
so for me it was very much like,wow, I'm a very, very powerful
being, and at first I reallyshied away from that power.
But that was probably thebiggest theme for me for the
week was stepping into my powerover my body, taking my power
back and my body taking my powerback.
I was like taking my power backfrom other people that I had
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been giving my power away tothat were generating, creating
all of these lower negativeemotions that I was really
struggling to let go of, and soit was really just a completely
empowering week for me to reallystep into that and had some
pretty profound moments likemystical experiences during the
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week and my and my meditationswhere I was literally watching
like generational beliefssystemically leave my body and
like just watching that powerjust be reclaimed in my physical
body and then like feeling itand then really acting like as
if.
So it was pretty, prettybeautiful for me personally.
During the week I definitelycried a few times.
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I was like I'm like crazy, butthere was a meditation that
really really shifted things forme.
I was really having someanxiety during the week and they
have therapists and doctors onstaff, so I went and talked to a
therapist and she's like, yeah,this is normal and this is
before.
We went into a really longmeditation.
We meditated for a one morningand it's pretty long.
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It's like four or five hours.
Honestly, time did not existfor me at all that week, so like
it was honestly was nothing forme and for most people.
So she was like you know, whenyou go into that room, you have
to know that when you leave theroom you are not going to be the
same person, and so basically Imade the decision with
conviction that I was notleaving that room as I was in
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that moment.
So he basically like acceptedmy own death and I was at peace
with it, and in that moment itcompletely liberated me from
attaching myself to anyexperience that I might have in
the actual meditation, because Ialready knew the outcome.
I already knew that I was notleaving that room the same
person and so it took anypressure, expectation of, like
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what my actual experience wasgoing to be, and my only
responsibility in thatmeditation was to listen to
Joe's voice and his meditationand to put my focus on each of
the centers as we went up and aswe did the breath work and I
definitely had this experiencewhere I returned home to source
to myself and it was the mostjoyful, incredible, beautiful
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moment I've really everexperienced.
And that feeling has maybefaded a little bit, but it's
like more, like an inner knowingnow, and so for me it's like
it's something that I own withinmyself and it's very different
than before.
It's very empowering.
And when that meditation opened,like I had been like laughing
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and like smiling the wholemeditation.
And when that meditation ended,he was like okay, come back to
me, you can open your eyes.
And I like took my eye mask off.
And as soon as I took my eyemask off, I knew everything was
different.
I knew I was different, I kneweverything had changed and I
just started bawling my eyes outand it wasn't like a typical,
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like I'm sad cry, it was just avery cleansing cry and because
to me it was, it felt like thisdeath and this rebirth.
And I just turned to the womannext to me and I just like held
my arms out, I just like sobbedin her arms.
And after that I was like Istarted talking to a friend and
I was like oh my God, my voiceis different.
And I was like looking at myhands and I was like how's, like
my body is not even different,like it was like this totally
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surreal experience and I just Ishare that like.
To me, this part is not reallylike relevant, it's just the
after effects of the meditationand you can try to like put
meaning to all of it.
But that was the experiencethat I really wanted to share,
because I know people sharetheir healing moments and like
all these other things, and Idefinitely had really intense
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healing moments that I'm mostlike will not share on here, but
that was probably a reallyprofound one that I wanted to
share, just so you guys can getkind of like a sneak peek of,
like the potentialities of whathappens on their retreat and
what happens when people go inand connect with themselves and
they're able to return home toGod, to source whatever,
whatever you want to call it,the universe.
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Like I was like floating aroundin the universe for like 40
hours straight that week and itwas just really beautiful and
just it was really intense andrequired a lot of focus and
discipline to be there and toshow up, but to me it was just
an act of complete self-love.
I honestly have no idea howlong this podcast is right now,
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but I'm going to keep goingbecause I have a couple more
things I want to talk about, sothis may be an extra long
episode.
So there are there's walkingmeditations that we do.
So basically you get into thismeditative state but your eyes
are open and you're basicallywalking as if you are that
belief system that you're tryingto reprogram, whether it's a
healing in your body or amindset or whatever it may be.
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And those are actually myfavorite meditations.
I could do them on the beachhere a few times a week.
They're like 70, 75 minutes andthen you're like you're
stopping and you're like puttingyour hands on your heart and
then it's just evoking all ofthese emotions in you and then
you're like lying down at theend and you might do some breath
work as well with it.
But I am in such a state like ahigh state of joy after all of
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those walking meditations whichI love, love to do them so, so
much.
It is so worth the timeinvestment to do that, and I am
that crazy person on the beachthat is like waving their arms,
like with a huge smile on theirface and dancing and like just
having the time of their livesand just, and then stopping in
front of the ocean with justlike tears streaming down my
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face because I'm in such a stateof joy, and so I am that person
on the beach.
So, if you see me, just don'ttalk to me because I am in the
middle of an experience.
But yeah, the walkingmeditations were really, really
incredible.
They were my favorite part ofthe week and then even after,
and then we also did somethingcalled coherence healings.
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We did a couple of those duringthe week Really want to mention
this because there's a lot ofresearch being done on this,
because there's remote coherencehealings, there's in-person
coherence healings, and sobasically people were designated
as healers and healies at theevent, and I was a healer and
the healies were typicallypeople who have like cancer,
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like really big illnesses orissues that they're trying to
overcome, and so basically whathappens is the healies go into
the room.
They go into a meditative state.
They're laying on the ground.
There's six chairs around eachperson and then the healers
stand outside.
They get in a meditative state,open up their heart center, go
into the room.
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There's six of us that standaround or sit around each healie
and we basically like open upour hearts and we put our hands
over the people and that aresick and we're.
We can feel the energy likecoming out of your hands and
it's creating this coherentenergetic field over the body of
the healie.
And what we're essentiallydoing is we are changing the
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illness or whatever it may bethat's in that person's
energetic field to help healthem in some sense, and so we're
just giving them like a littlebit of a boost or some help in
that scenario, and so that wasincredible.
For me, it was like a completelydifferent experience.
We did three different coherenthealings that week and the
first one the energy was sointense in the room that I
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almost ran out of the room.
It was so overwhelming.
The second time, I was justcomplete, like a complete baby.
I was just broke, broke down intears, because to be able to
give that love and energy toanother person without wanting
anything in return was just likethis, such an incredible,
beautiful experience, and I willalways remember like those
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moments of being in those roomwith those people like just such
strong, strong human beings whoare there fighting for their
lives, and we were there likehelping them in some way, and
it's like such a gift to be ableto give or to share that with
those people.
I think that's all I wanted totalk about.
With the actual retreat, like Isaid, I'm still integrating it,
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so there are some things that Ihave changed and played around
with since I have gotten back.
I'm playing around with, I'mdoing and waking up at 4am in
the morning.
I'm doing the meditations inthe morning and then I do them
before I go to bed.
So I'm typically a night owland I'm up to like 12 or one in
the morning, but my entireschedule has flipped.
So now I'm up at 4am, I'll domy meditation for an hour and a
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half, I might fall back asleepor I might stay up.
Like today, stayed up and Iworked out and I was super
energized.
I just have so much energy fromdoing all of these meditations.
So my whole schedule has haschanged them in bed around like
nine or ten o'clock every singlenight and I'm like, wow, I'm
actually doing really, reallygreat with not having a lot of
sleep and I just feel strongerand it's a really.
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I just feel so, so energized.
And I'm a couple of weeks afterthe retreat and I feel like I,
you know, stuff came up and likeold stuff started to come up.
But I felt very much like in mypower was like I'm not giving
attention to any of that, tothose old belief systems of like
my body can't handle this orwhatever, and I'm just feeling
like, wow, our bodies are reallylimitless.
And so I'm kind of like testingaround and playing around with,
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like what those limits are forme and how this new schedule is
going to work for me, since Ilike basically completely
flipped it around and it'shelping me be more focused and
disciplined with my work, and Iguess that I'm just in this like
constant state of joy, like andhappiness all the time.
It's just really incredible.
And another thing that I want tosay is what I do every single
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morning after my meditations andget up and I basically have a
team meeting with myself.
So you guys might laugh at mefor this, but basically I am
talking to my cells every singlemorning.
I'm giving them this, this hugepep talk, and saying, hey guys,
like I love you so much, likewe are a team, we're working
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together, I'm going to do mybest to have the most uplifting
thoughts all day for you andlike basically just letting my
cells know that I'm theirbiggest advocate and they're
kind of like my minions, thatwe're all working together and
we're all just like one team.
And I really thoroughly enjoyedhaving those team meetings
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every single day and doing thatin conjunction with like dance
parties and just like reallykeeping my my energy up.
In that sense, I'm just havinglike so much fun with it.
So, yeah, I'm just being moremindful of my thoughts and just
having fun playing around withall of this.
So I may do an update laterdown the road just to see how
I'm feeling after all thisretreat and what other things
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have shifted.
I would say the biggest thing islike like people have been
messaging me or when I seepeople in person, they don't
recognize me and they're likewait, you look different, like
what's different about you, andI'm like I don't, I don't know,
like I'm just me.
So I really think that it'sjust a combination of a lot of
the work that I've been doing,but I just feel more free, I
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feel more alive, I feel moreenergized, I feel there's more
purpose and more connected tosource and myself and I don't
really care about what otherpeople think about me or
whatever I'm.
Just I'm in the highest statethat I want to be in and how I
want to show up every single dayand that is the type of woman
that that I want to be.
And anytime I dip down, I givemyself grace and I allow myself
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to feel things, because we'rehuman and we're going to have
the highs and the lows.
So it's not like I'm bypassingthat.
I still have those momentswhere I have the highs and the
lows.
The only difference is I'm notstaying in those states and
allowing myself to dwell inthose states.
And that is actually really,really huge for me because for a
very, very long time that waslike my set point of like EOR,
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where I was just like I wouldjust be like a magnet to those
like lower thoughts or be stuckon grief or sadness or whatever,
and I just couldn't get out ofthat.
And I am just so determined I'mlike that is not who I'm
choosing to be anymore and it'slike it just gets easier and
easier and easier every singleday as I show up for myself
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because I'm more grounded withinmyself and I feel more powerful
within myself and like who I amand what I really desire in my
life and the type of person thatI want to show up as every
single day, even when it'sreally really hard.
So those are, I think, the topthings that I'm really
experimenting with and workingin the quantum field.
So more to come on all of that.
And yeah, just overall, thatwhole whole retreat was
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incredible.
It was life changing in a lotof ways because there are a lot
of things that shifted for me onan energetic level, releasing a
lot of belief systems, and I'mreally excited to continue
playing around with this work.
Maybe I'll go to anotherretreat later down the road.
It's honestly not like top ofmy mind because there are so
many things that I still want toplay around with and I'm really
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curious to see how this isgoing to show up in my 3D
reality as things start to shiftand change because of the
shifts and changes that arehappening within my meditations.
So I hope you guys enjoyed thisepisode and it was
understandable to you, because Iknow it goes into more of the
science and the quantum physicsand I am not a scientist, but I
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do my best to understand andlearn as much as possible.
But this work with Joe Dispenzais.
It's very profound and it's oneof those things like it's just
another tool.
It is another tool to createchange in your life.
So whether you resonate withthis or not, it doesn't matter.
It is just another tool forshifting and changing your
belief systems.
And this is the route that I'mexploring right now and I'm
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having so much fun doing it andhaving these experiences and
really loving that.
It's bringing me back home tomyself even more, and so,
depending on what your intentionis or what you want to do,
maybe meditations your thing,maybe it's not.
All I know is that my dedicationand my curiosity and my
playfulness is an approach thatI feel like is very is serving
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me very well when doing thesemeditations, versus going in and
being very serious and havingexpectations, it's just like.
It's just like brushing myteeth.
I'm like I love myself enoughto show up every single day for
this, no matter how hard it is,and you're basically like
telling yourselves and you'reyou're telling your brain like
I'm going to do this everysingle day, no matter what, and
you're proving to yourself thatyou are committed to yourself,
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that you believe that this isgoing to work, and so, over time
, you actually do see theresults.
And so, depending on the personor how good you are at putting
your attention on that orshifting your thoughts
throughout the day or doing themeditations, the timeline is
that is going to be differentfor each person, not a good or a
bad thing, it's just, you know,everyone is different.
So, yeah, that is it for theadvanced retreat for Joe
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Dispenza, and I would love tohear from you guys if this
resonated with any of you.
I would love to hear from you.
So feel free to email me athello, at Nina dash Elisecom,
and I'm happy to talk to youguys.
I'm sure I will share more onmy social channels and as I
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continue to integrate and learnmore about all of this work and
just about myself in general,because this work has been so
profound for myself and I wouldlove to share more, the more
that I get comfortable with itand the more that I learn about
it and the impacts of it and howI can actually work with this
in a way that's easy.
That will be beneficial forother people as well.
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So more to come on all of that.
So thank you all so much fortuning in and I will see you
guys on the next episode.
Bye.
Welcome to the Receptive Impact Podcast.
I'm your host, nina Elise.
Hello friends, and welcome back.
I hope that you are having anincredible day.
I'm so excited for this episode, as always, because I have been
actually waiting to do thisepisode for a couple of weeks,
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and the reason behind that isbecause I wanted to give myself
some time to integrate.
So what I mean by that is Iwent to a week-long meditation
retreat.
If anyone is familiar with JoeDispenza, I have been studying
his work since about 2016 andhave been really, really into
his work pretty heavily for thepast two years, and I finally
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went to his event a couple ofweeks ago in Orlando, florida,
and it was intense andlife-changing and just amazing
and incredible and there are notenough words to describe the
experience of being there inthat collective energy and the
amount of love and just like.
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The things that happened duringthat week were just totally
magical and I don't really haveany other strong words than it
was incredible and life-changing.
So I'm going to go into alittle bit more detail about
this retreat.
We meditated about 35 to 40hours the entire week.
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It was pretty intense.
I would describe this retreatas like a mix between Tony
Robbins and Ayahuasca.
So if you are familiar witheither of those, I picked those
two things because, tony Robbins, if you've ever been to one of
his events, there's likethousands of people there and
the energy is just wild and justkind of just intense and
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overwhelming because of theamount of people there and the
energy that is generating fromthe collective there and it's
very motivating.
And with Ayahuasca it's muchdifferent than that.
It's a smaller group, butyou're going inward and you're
basically cleaning out andpurging things that are like
identities and emotions andbelief systems that you are
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looking to remove from your body, from your energy field, from
your thoughts.
So a lot of people go to bothof those things in order to heal
or change their lives.
And I really felt like this JoeDispenza meditation retreat the
advanced week long retreat thatI went on was a combination of
those two but much more softer.
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And when I say softer, there isabout 1700 people that were at
the event, maybe a little bitmore, and I was a little bit
worried because there were somany people there and I've been
kind of hermiting for the pastyear and I'm not really a crowd
person and I was actually justso pleasantly surprised by how
soft the energy felt there.
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It was not overwhelming, it wasvery welcoming and everyone was
so, so, so nice.
So before I get into the actualretreat, I'm just going to give
you guys a little bit of abackground of Joe Dispenza and
my history with him and the workthat I have done with him and
the things that have happened inmy life since I started doing
his meditation.
So Joe Dispenza is basicallythis guy who got in this
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accident when he was younger andwas told he was going to have
to have all these surgeries andwould be a little walk normal or
walk again, and he basicallyhealed his body through the
power of his mind and he vowedthat he would help other people
do the same if he was able towalk again and be able to share
what he did with himself.
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And so he's totally like aninvestigator, like scientist,
like he's going to go in andunderstand, like the why he's a
doctor.
I believe he's a chiropractor,I'm not entirely sure.
Anyways, he has a team andresearchers and other scientists
that are doing a lot ofresearch with him or have been
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doing over the years to provethe actual science behind
meditation and how people canheal themselves through
meditation and, in particular,his meditation.
So he is the type of personthat is just very like.
He walks the talk likeeverything that he presents.
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He has experimented withhimself and he has done it,
repeating over and over, andover and over again, until
something is repeated enoughtimes that it's actual like a
fact versus being like, oh, thismay or may not happen.
Like a lot of the meditationsand the experiences that he has
had, he's been able to replicatethat within himself with the
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people and the groups that heleads in his meditation retreats
, and he now has a science toactually back it up.
And so I'm not going to go toomuch into too much detail with
the actual like science.
I mean, I could be here forhours and honestly, this podcast
episode might be like atwo-parter.
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We'll see what happens, becausethere's just so much to talk
about and I really want to share, like what the event was like
and I want to share some of myexperience so you can kind of
understand, like what happensduring that week, because
there's some pretty wild thingsthat happen that are like kind
of really unexpected, especiallyif you're not used to this
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inner work or like if you'venever done ayahuasca or you
haven't had psychedelicexperiences or you haven't done
somatic therapy, where you'relike releasing emotions and
actually felt your emotions anddealt with them in a while.
So it can be kind of jarring inthat sense if you're not really
familiar with his work Not tosay that that's like a bad thing
or anything, but basically allof the science that he's doing.
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He's collecting blood, he'sdoing brain scans of people in
meditation before and after andweeks following.
They're doing MRIs before andafter.
They are testing people withcancer, they are testing the
effects of meditation on breastmilk, and they have hundreds and
thousands of people who arefreely volunteering themselves
to be a part of these researchstudies, and so they have
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massive amounts of data thatjust cannot be proven wrong, and
so they're looking for specificmarkers about like in the blood
that can help reduce certaincells in the body that may not
be so good, or help reducesickness or disease or illness
or whatever, and so it's really,really fascinating.
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Like I said, I'm not going to gointo too much detail into this,
but if you are interested inlearning more about that, you
can read.
He has a couple of books outand he also has some online
courses where he dives way moreinto detail with the actual
science behind his meditationsin his work, because so many
people are healing around theworld because of his meditations
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and what he is doing and it'snot because he's healing them in
any way.
It's basically he's empoweringpeople to go inward and to take
their power back and to healthemselves through the power of
belief and by basically goinginto the quantum field and
changing their energetic field,which, in turn, changes their
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bodies on this physical 3D realm.
So maybe that sounds a littlelike crazy or you don't
understand that, but I'll gointo a little bit more detail
about how I kind of simplified aformula that I'm playing around
with at the moment of how I'mapproaching reality.
So my history with Joe Dispenzais I got into his work in 2016
and read his books and was likesuper into it, but he didn't
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have like recorded meditationsat the time, so I kind of just
like dropped it.
And it wasn't until January2022, someone introduced me to
his online course and I took hisprogressive online course and
from there I started meditatingabout two or three hours a day
and at the time I had justgotten out of a long
relationship and I was just kindof like, okay, it's kind of
floating, I didn't really knowwhat I wanted to do with my life
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and I had not really developedemotional maturity and looked at
a lot of different thingswithin myself.
And so it was perfect, becausewhen you do his meditations,
basically what you're doing isyou're bringing up dense
memories or trauma or emotionsfrom those lower centers in the
body, bringing them up to befelt and acknowledged and
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released in some sort of way.
And so anyone who gets into JoeDispenza's work will tell you
that you will definitely gothrough some sort of change in
your life if you commit to hiswork.
And it may seem messy or crazyat work or at first, that's it.
It's an unfoldment of youstepping into your highest self,
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you stepping into your powerand basically creating a life
that is in alignment for you.
And so basically when I startedhis meditations all of my
things I wanted to manifest thatI would go into his meditations
for like healing my body andlike having my dream job and
like having my dream partner inthis dream life, and that's what
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I was basically meditating onevery single day, and the first
big change that happened afterdoing that, for a few months was
I lost my job, and that isactually pretty typical or
common for people who are goinginto his work.
There are these, I guess, thesebig shifts that happen in your
life, and so when that happened,I was like, how do I do it?
So, like any normal person, Ibought a one way ticket to
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Mexico and I had no idea what Iwas doing with my life, but I
knew that I wanted to take thissolo trip before I settled down,
so I bought a one way ticket toMexico and it was wonderful and
like such a beautifulexperience.
And when I returned back to theUS after about four or five
months, my world just completelycrumbled.
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And I have talked about this onprevious episodes and videos on
my YouTube channel, so I'm notgoing to go into extreme detail
about it.
But basically, like I wentthrough the spiritual awakening,
I went through a very, verydark night of the soul where all
of my shadows, all of my stuffstarted, just came up all at
once and I had to take radical,radical responsibility for the
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entire creation of my life,everything that I attracted, my
career, my relationships, likejust what was going on in my
body, and it was so overwhelming, like I thought I was losing my
mind at some point, like it wasjust so much emotions coming up
at once, years of suppressedemotions just coming up for me
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to basically process and release.
And, long story short, fastforward, from the time that I
got back to the US and likestarted to go through that, I
was like really hunkering downon Joseph Spence's meditations
and I basically made a vow tomyself like I am going to not
let this moment pass me by.
I know exactly what ishappening right now.
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I'm going to stand in integrityas much as I can and I am going
to keep my heart open as muchas I can.
And so I was doing hismeditations two or three hours a
day from months and months andthey really, really helped me
keep afloat, really helped openmy heart and just keep me like
in alignment with as much as Icould be in the moment when I
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was moving through all thatgrief and those emotions of
basically like the crumbling ofmy life and everybody in it and
letting go of so much.
And so, like I said, I reallyattribute this to his
meditations and again, I'm nottrying to scare anyone, it's
just I'm sharing this process oflike how I got into his work
and so, basically, as I wasgoing through this, I came to
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like this blank slate.
So when I came to that blankslate, it was like I was okay
with nothing.
Like I was okay, I just lostand let go of so many important
people in my life, like that Ihad been using as anchors and
giving my power away too, and soI was like so completely lost
and I was living at my dad'shouse.
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Everything I owned was in theback of my Jeep, and it was just
like, huh, I survived.
I survived the apocalypse.
Basically, I have nothing and Ihad no job, like nothing.
And I was like I'm still here.
And that was when I made it outto myself that I would continue
to show up for myself everysingle day.
And when I came to that blankslate, it was like, huh, okay,
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I'm not going to be creating ormanifesting anything from like a
place of ego.
It's going to be from like aplace of play of like and
curiosity of like.
Okay, if I can create myreality, I have this blank slate
in my life.
What do I really want to do?
What type of woman do I want tobe and like what type of life
do I want to create and whattype of people do I want in my
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life?
So it really, with all of thathappening, it really forced me
to get clear about, you know,that type of life that I wanted
to create.
And so I continued with hismeditations for all of 2023.
When I created my vision boardfor the at the beginning of 2023
, I, in the middle of the board,his was a picture of Joe
Dispenza at a retreat talking toan audience and I took my
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picture and I pasted my pictureon the face of an audience
member and that was on my visionboard earlier this year and I
kind of just like forgot aboutit.
I was just like, oh, I reallydon't have the money to do this.
Like, maybe I'll do it, maybe Iwon't.
It wasn't like the end of theworld.
And so this entire year of 2023, I was doing so much inner work
.
I was doing like hours ofmeditation and EFT tapping and
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therapy and somatic therapy andlike all of this inner work, and
I was like basically justcoming home to myself and
becoming my best friend andtending to my inner child and
just doing like this major innerhealing for myself, and I
finally got to the point where Iwas like, wow, I'm sick of
being sad and I don't know howto basically get moved to the
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next level on my own.
And that was when I decided afew months ago I was like I need
to be around other people, Ineed to be in a higher energy, I
need to be around other peoplewho believe that the power lies
within them, that they areunlimited, that we are a source
in these, these meat suits in inthis 3D reality.
And so that's when I was like,okay, well, maybe I'll look into
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, like, is there another choicekinds of meditation retreat and
there's one in Orlando?
And so I was like, okay, like Iactually had the money to go at
that time period.
And I was like, okay, I thinkI'll sign up for this.
So that was kind of like myjourney leading up to choosing
to go into his retreat, becausemy intention was not to like, oh
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, I want to heal myself orwhatever.
My intention was to meet newpeople, to be surrounded by
people who are doing their ownwork and they're curious and
they're not afraid to go insideand look at their bullshit.
And those are the people that Iwanted to be surrounded by.
And so when I signed up for theretreat, things started to shift
and change, like I was doinghis meditations, probably like
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one to two hours a day, when Iwoke up in the morning and when
I would go to bed at night, andthat really helped prepare me
for the event.
And then also I did his onlineprogressive course again, which
is required before you go to theretreat.
And it's done that way becausethere's so much science and so
much understanding that needs tobe learned before you go,
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because it helps create thisfoundation for going into your
meditation, so you understandwhat's going on on a scientific
level, which makes themeditations like more impactful
and even more believable thatyou can actually change your
life.
That's what I really love aboutthe meditations with Joe
Dispenza.
Some people may think he's outthere or this cult leader or
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something I don't know.
All I know is that there isnothing but love in that
community and I'm just observing.
I'm not fully immersed in thatcommunity, but I kind of take
what I need and do themeditations and then it changes
me and I'm able to give from amore of an open heart because of
his work and that's what Ireally appreciate about his work
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.
So about a month before hisretreat, I was going through the
coursework every single day,meditating one or two hours
every day, and my intentions forthe retreat I wrote them down.
I'm like, okay, if I could healor change anything about me,
this is what my intention wouldbe to heal this thing about my
body or whatever and change thisthing about my life.
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But I had no expectations.
I was like, if these happen,great, if not, whatever.
I was just here for theexperience.
So a big part of my intentionwas like connecting with other
people, with like-minded people,getting around that collective
energy and just being curiousand saying, okay, let's see
where this adventure takes me.
And because you hear thesestories about people who do his
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meditations and they healthemselves from cancer, and
these people who are getting upout of wheelchairs and walking
after doing his meditations,because they have mentally
rehearsed standing up andwalking on their own so many
times in their life and in hismeditations that they're able to
literally heal themselves.
And that is what is soincredibly empowering about
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these meditations and I've hadfriends who have gone to
retreats more than once and theyshare the same thing where
they're.
Like I was watching people getup and walk out of wheelchairs
that had been in wheelchairs formost of their life, or people
who were blind and they startedto see again, and just these
wild, wild stories and I waslike, okay, let's see what
happens.
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Like I said, I had noexpectations.
So actually, the day before Iwent to his retreat, I helped
host a walking meditation on thebeach with a friend and we had
like 15 or 20 people come andit's something that we're doing
monthly in the area just to likebring the community together.
And in that meditation, like Iwas receiving all of these
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downloads and these messages andI basically saw like my angels
surrounding me and like my likemy great grandparents were there
and my guides were there.
And when I say like I see them,it's like I close my eyes and I
just know, like I just knowthat they're there and I just
knew that they were.
Like Nina, you were going intosomething really, really
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profound and when I was doingthe walking meditation, I was
just seeing this version of me.
Like crossing the river ofchange is what what Joseph
Spencer calls.
It is like when you want tochange a belief and change
something about yourself andyour life.
You're going to walk throughthat river of change and it's
going to be hard and you'regoing to encounter resistance
and you're with your ego andlike you're going to struggle to
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let go of these identities.
And so in that walk I wasgetting these downloads of these
visualizations of me crossingthe river of change and looking
back and seeing like a net andlike versions of me attached,
like old past versions of me,like holding onto that net and
like dragging me down.
And I realized in that walkingmeditation I was like, oh my god
, I have to let those oldversions of me completely die
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and just let them go.
And so as the walk went on, itwas like I let go of those
versions of me and so thatversion was able to walk across
the river to maybe like themiddle or three quarters.
And then I saw the next versionof me and as I reached for the
hand of the next version of me,I realized that I had to die in
order to be that next version ofme.
And so it was kind of like thisforeshadowing of the actual
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event, because I did go throughthis like death and rebirth in
some sense during that week,especially in the longer
meditation that we did, Idefinitely I had a mystical
experience and just completelychanged me in so many different
ways and I will go a little bitmore into detail about that.
So I don't really want to sharetoo much about like the actual
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layout of the retreat.
Maybe when I talk I'll sharemore, but if anyone is
interested in going into hisretreats, I actually told my
friends not to tell me what toexpect because I didn't want to
have any expectations going intothe retreat.
I wanted to be surprised, Iwanted to go in not knowing.
So I'm going to share like bitsand pieces here and there.
I had a lot of pretty intimateexperiences with myself and my
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meditations that I will mostlikely not share with with
anyone here, partly because it'sonly been a few weeks after
retreat and I am stillprocessing so much that has
happened since then and I'm surethere will be another podcast
or something later down the roadwhere I might speak in more
detail about this as thingsshift and change, because there
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are things that I'mexperimenting with.
When I went to the retreat itwas almost like there are these
missing puzzle pieces that Ineeded in order for things to
like click in and for me toreally like play at the next
level and I'm still kind of likeprocessing that and playing
with those.
So, basically, the whole, thewhole retreat, it's it's.
It's one week long, from Sundayto Saturday.
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You're meditating six or sevenhours a day, and that's where I
think, if you have not preparedor done the meditations like, it
can be a little bit likeshocking or jarring for people
or really challenging for people.
But honestly, I did not findany issue with it, not just
because I've been meditatingbefore, but I think I like I'm
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the type of person that goesfully all in whenever I like get
interested in something, and soI was like I'm in this 500,000%
, I'm focused, I'm here and Iwanted to get the most out of my
own experience.
So I was like in it for everysingle meditation that we were
in.
But I do want to say that it'simportant to do the meditations
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before or like leading up, atleast a few months before,
because there you are shiftingenergy in your body and in your
energetic field and when thathappens there's typically
somatic releases, so you mightcry, you might scream, you might
shake, you might shiver, youmight feel really hot, like
there are so many different waysthat your body can release
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those emotions and thoseenergies and if you're not used
to that, it can feel a littlejarring or a little scary.
And so, if you can imagine,there are like 1700 people in
this ballroom and we're all deepin meditation for like two
hours and you get like theserandom people screaming or
crying throughout the room andit's like these people are
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processing years of trauma thatthey had suppressed for so long
that was causing illness intheir body or they're releasing
these old, outdated beliefsystems and they're going
through these deaths in thatroom.
And so to me I'm like, okay,like this is normal.
This is like an ayahuascaceremony, minus the like
physical purging, so it's moregentle in that aspect, but there
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is definitely like a lot ofsomatic releasing throughout the
week.
So that is something that Ireally wanted to mention and
share, because I think there area lot of new people that were
going there and it's really,really incredible and so
inspiring to see people just gohead on into that and to face
all of that and to have thatintimate experience with
themselves, because this retreatreally is all about you.
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It is about you coming home toyourself.
It's about you looking at yourstuff and having the courage to
let go of the parts of you thatare not serving you or anyone
else, and sometimes that meansletting go of a marriage,
letting go of a job, like movingacross the country, like so
many different things.
But it's also just like theseingrained identities that you
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have about yourself and havingthe courage to look them in the
face and saying, okay, like I'mokay with letting you go and not
knowing what's on the otherside and so that's what Dr Joe
talks a lot about is like you'rebasically walking into the
unknown and these meditationsbecause you are crossing that
river of change and you areletting go and those old
versions of you are dying offand you have no idea who or what
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you're going to be on the otherside, what's going to happen in
the 3D reality when yourenergetic field changes, and so
I think that that can feel veryscary, or like people may not
understand that, or they do andthey're just like I'm so sick of
like who I am or where I'm atright now that I will like do
anything, and it's really it'sbeautiful, like to see all these
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people come here to have thesechanges and so, like I said, I'm
not going to go too much intothe science, but basically we go
into these meditations andyou're going into the quantum
field, you're doing acombination of breath work and
you know we're basicallyactivating this electromagnetic
field in our heart center, we'reconnecting with our heart
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center, we're connecting ourheart with our mind and we're
going into the quantum field andwe're basically downloading a
program or a new program fromthe quantum field and
downloading it back into thebody with the combination of the
mind and that got charged upemotion from the heart center.
And so I would say that's likethe most easiest way to to
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describe like the meditations Imean there are so many different
meditations that we do andthere's a lot of science behind
it Like, when we do the breathwork, we're pulling energy up,
we're pulling cerebral fluid allthe way up from the perineum,
all the way up to the pinealgland and it's basically
activating a radio receiver inthe brain and sending out like
these electromagnetic,electromagnetic signals to bring
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back a similar matchingvibration or energy into your
life.
And so it can be very, verypowerful and everyone's
experience is so differentbecause everybody has different
intentions, they have differentthings, that they're dealing
with different traumas, thatthey're trying to release,
different identities thatthey're trying to release.
So it's never like, hey, likewhat's your experience, so you
know what to expect, like it'snot going to be something that
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that you really expect at all,because you're going into the
unknown.
So this is actually somethingthat I have been playing around
with on like a micro level isbasically like coming to a place
of silence, like closing myeyes and going into the quantum
field.
When I say go into the quantumfield, it's almost like I see a
door and I open the door andthere's just like completely
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black space and when I stepthrough the door, the door
disappears.
And even when I walk forward,I'm always going to be in the
middle of that black space.
I can walk forwards, backwards,side to side, go up, go down.
There's no up or down, there'sno Easter West, there's like
none of it.
It's just this empty space andthat's this quantum field.
That's what 99.99% of our cellsare at that empty space.
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So I like to look at it as likeI'm actually going deep into the
empty space that lies within meand the body is just the point,
zero, zero, zero, one percentmatter that is still there, but
I'm not putting my attention onthat.
I'm putting it into the quantumspace where everything and
nothing exists and an infiniteamount of potentialities exists
there, and so I look at it aslike when I go into the quantum
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field, I'm going in with myintention and I'm saying, okay,
here's my intention.
To get clear before I go intothe meditation, it's very key
that you do that and you connectwith your heart space.
You activate thatelectromagnetic field in your
heart and then you connect withyour brain and you set your
intention and you're in thatquantum space.
And I like to view it as likewhen I get in that quantum space
with my intention, so say, forexample, I'm like I want to step
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into the role of CEO who'sconfident and, you know, can
speak clearly and whatever, like, whatever trait, whoever you
want to be, whatever you want inyour life, and I look at it as
like there's rows and rows androws of infinite amount of NENAs
in this quantum space that justshow up, and when I say this is
what I want, this is theprogram I want to download, this
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is who I want to be, it's likeall of those NENAs disappear and
the one NENA of who I got clearon who I want to be is what's
left and from there it's almostlike I take her and I download
her back into this physical bodyand I do that by having an
amplified emotion from my heartspace.
So I've been really playingaround with this a little bit in
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my everyday life and have beenvery pleased with some of the
results that I've been getting.
It's been cool to play aroundwith that because it really is
just like the power of the mindand we're working in this fifth
dimension where everypossibility exists and when we
figure out these shortcuts ofhow to manifest things in this
3D reality, like we can play andwe can have fun with it.
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So there are obviously likebigger things, like illness in
the body and things like that,where it's going to take longer
to change or manifest or it maynot be as believable.
So it takes longer for that tochange in the 3D reality for
some people, and that's totallyfine.
Some people I know like whatthey talk about at the retreats
is that they've been doing thatwork for 10 or 15 years until
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they got their healing.
And then there's people who gethealings in an instant.
And so I think it's just more ofyou're making a decision to
show up for yourself everysingle day in those meditations
and you decide to know thatyou're changed.
Like you are, it's already done.
So when you go into thatmeditation, you're making that
change, and when you come outand you open your eyes at the
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end of that meditation, you knowyou're changed.
You're a new person, you havedownloaded a new character, you
have downloaded a new reality,and then you act as if and
that's where I think a lot ofpeople get tripped up, including
myself, where I'm like oh, Iopened my eyes, but I'm still
seeing my regular reality.
Well, this is where you kind ofhave to be delusional in some
sense when you're trying tomanifest these things in your
life, because you're workingwith quantum physics here and
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it's the power of the beliefthat is going to create this new
, like shift or change in your3D reality, and so you have to
be patient because this realitymoves a little bit slower.
The frequency is slow, moveslower, it's more dense versus
if you think about working inthe quantum field and the 5D,
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that frequency moves much, muchfaster.
Things can manifest so muchfaster versus like being here.
It's much more slower tomanifest, which is actually a
really great thing, because ifyou're not aware, you don't want
to be manifesting every singlethought in your mind, and so
this is where we get to havelike that pause in between and
we get to tweak and play aroundwith what we really actually do
want to manifest, and sometimesthat that takes some time.
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Some really big themes that cameup for me was connecting more
with my heart and opening up myheart.
So I was like literally havingconversations with my heart and
learning how to connect with itand connect my mind with my
heart, and it was very beautifulexperiences and really having a
deep, deep realization of howpowerful my mind is and the
effect of it, of my mind, on myactual body and really
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understanding on a deeper levelthe responsibility for what goes
on in my mind, how I'm speakingabout myself, how I'm speaking
about other people.
You know these things on asurface level, but like when you
really really go deep into itand you're really having an
intimate, like deep experiencein a meditation with yourself
and you're connecting withyourself on a deeper level,
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you're understanding and seeingthings a little bit deeper, and
so for me it was very much like,wow, I'm a very, very powerful
being, and at first I reallyshied away from that power.
But that was probably thebiggest theme for me for the
week was stepping into my powerover my body, taking my power
back and my body taking my powerback.
I was like taking my power backfrom other people that I had
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been giving my power away tothat were generating, creating
all of these lower negativeemotions that I was really
struggling to let go of, and soit was really just a completely
empowering week for me to reallystep into that and had some
pretty profound moments likemystical experiences during the
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week and my and my meditationswhere I was literally watching
like generational beliefssystemically leave my body and
like just watching that powerjust be reclaimed in my physical
body and then like feeling itand then really acting like as
if.
So it was pretty, prettybeautiful for me personally.
During the week I definitelycried a few times.
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I was like I'm like crazy, butthere was a meditation that
really really shifted things forme.
I was really having someanxiety during the week and they
have therapists and doctors onstaff, so I went and talked to a
therapist and she's like, yeah,this is normal and this is
before.
We went into a really longmeditation.
We meditated for a one morningand it's pretty long.
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It's like four or five hours.
Honestly, time did not existfor me at all that week, so like
it was honestly was nothing forme and for most people.
So she was like you know, whenyou go into that room, you have
to know that when you leave theroom you are not going to be the
same person, and so basically Imade the decision with
conviction that I was notleaving that room as I was in
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that moment.
So he basically like acceptedmy own death and I was at peace
with it, and in that moment itcompletely liberated me from
attaching myself to anyexperience that I might have in
the actual meditation, because Ialready knew the outcome.
I already knew that I was notleaving that room the same
person and so it took anypressure, expectation of, like
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what my actual experience wasgoing to be, and my only
responsibility in thatmeditation was to listen to
Joe's voice and his meditationand to put my focus on each of
the centers as we went up and aswe did the breath work and I
definitely had this experiencewhere I returned home to source
to myself and it was the mostjoyful, incredible, beautiful
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moment I've really everexperienced.
And that feeling has maybefaded a little bit, but it's
like more, like an inner knowingnow, and so for me it's like
it's something that I own withinmyself and it's very different
than before.
It's very empowering.
And when that meditation opened,like I had been like laughing
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and like smiling the wholemeditation.
And when that meditation ended,he was like okay, come back to
me, you can open your eyes.
And I like took my eye mask off.
And as soon as I took my eyemask off, I knew everything was
different.
I knew I was different, I kneweverything had changed and I
just started bawling my eyes outand it wasn't like a typical,
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like I'm sad cry, it was just avery cleansing cry and because
to me it was, it felt like thisdeath and this rebirth.
And I just turned to the womannext to me and I just like held
my arms out, I just like sobbedin her arms.
And after that I was like Istarted talking to a friend and
I was like oh my God, my voiceis different.
And I was like looking at myhands and I was like how's, like
my body is not even different,like it was like this totally
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surreal experience and I just Ishare that like.
To me, this part is not reallylike relevant, it's just the
after effects of the meditationand you can try to like put
meaning to all of it.
But that was the experiencethat I really wanted to share,
because I know people sharetheir healing moments and like
all these other things, and Idefinitely had really intense
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healing moments that I'm mostlike will not share on here, but
that was probably a reallyprofound one that I wanted to
share, just so you guys can getkind of like a sneak peek of,
like the potentialities of whathappens on their retreat and
what happens when people go inand connect with themselves and
they're able to return home toGod, to source whatever,
whatever you want to call it,the universe.
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Like I was like floating aroundin the universe for like 40
hours straight that week and itwas just really beautiful and
just it was really intense andrequired a lot of focus and
discipline to be there and toshow up, but to me it was just
an act of complete self-love.
I honestly have no idea howlong this podcast is right now,
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but I'm going to keep goingbecause I have a couple more
things I want to talk about, sothis may be an extra long
episode.
So there are there's walkingmeditations that we do.
So basically you get into thismeditative state but your eyes
are open and you're basicallywalking as if you are that
belief system that you're tryingto reprogram, whether it's a
healing in your body or amindset or whatever it may be.
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And those are actually myfavorite meditations.
I could do them on the beachhere a few times a week.
They're like 70, 75 minutes andthen you're like you're
stopping and you're like puttingyour hands on your heart and
then it's just evoking all ofthese emotions in you and then
you're like lying down at theend and you might do some breath
work as well with it.
But I am in such a state like ahigh state of joy after all of
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those walking meditations whichI love, love to do them so, so
much.
It is so worth the timeinvestment to do that, and I am
that crazy person on the beachthat is like waving their arms,
like with a huge smile on theirface and dancing and like just
having the time of their livesand just, and then stopping in
front of the ocean with justlike tears streaming down my
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face because I'm in such a stateof joy, and so I am that person
on the beach.
So, if you see me, just don'ttalk to me because I am in the
middle of an experience.
But yeah, the walkingmeditations were really, really
incredible.
They were my favorite part ofthe week and then even after,
and then we also did somethingcalled coherence healings.
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We did a couple of those duringthe week Really want to mention
this because there's a lot ofresearch being done on this,
because there's remote coherencehealings, there's in-person
coherence healings, and sobasically people were designated
as healers and healies at theevent, and I was a healer and
the healies were typicallypeople who have like cancer,
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like really big illnesses orissues that they're trying to
overcome, and so basically whathappens is the healies go into
the room.
They go into a meditative state.
They're laying on the ground.
There's six chairs around eachperson and then the healers
stand outside.
They get in a meditative state,open up their heart center, go
into the room.
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There's six of us that standaround or sit around each healie
and we basically like open upour hearts and we put our hands
over the people and that aresick and we're.
We can feel the energy likecoming out of your hands and
it's creating this coherentenergetic field over the body of
the healie.
And what we're essentiallydoing is we are changing the
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illness or whatever it may bethat's in that person's
energetic field to help healthem in some sense, and so we're
just giving them like a littlebit of a boost or some help in
that scenario, and so that wasincredible.
For me, it was like a completelydifferent experience.
We did three different coherenthealings that week and the
first one the energy was sointense in the room that I
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almost ran out of the room.
It was so overwhelming.
The second time, I was justcomplete, like a complete baby.
I was just broke, broke down intears, because to be able to
give that love and energy toanother person without wanting
anything in return was just likethis, such an incredible,
beautiful experience, and I willalways remember like those
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moments of being in those roomwith those people like just such
strong, strong human beings whoare there fighting for their
lives, and we were there likehelping them in some way, and
it's like such a gift to be ableto give or to share that with
those people.
I think that's all I wanted totalk about.
With the actual retreat, like Isaid, I'm still integrating it,
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so there are some things that Ihave changed and played around
with since I have gotten back.
I'm playing around with, I'mdoing and waking up at 4am in
the morning.
I'm doing the meditations inthe morning and then I do them
before I go to bed.
So I'm typically a night owland I'm up to like 12 or one in
the morning, but my entireschedule has flipped.
So now I'm up at 4am, I'll domy meditation for an hour and a
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half, I might fall back asleepor I might stay up.
Like today, stayed up and Iworked out and I was super
energized.
I just have so much energy fromdoing all of these meditations.
So my whole schedule has haschanged them in bed around like
nine or ten o'clock every singlenight and I'm like, wow, I'm
actually doing really, reallygreat with not having a lot of
sleep and I just feel strongerand it's a really.
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I just feel so, so energized.
And I'm a couple of weeks afterthe retreat and I feel like I,
you know, stuff came up and likeold stuff started to come up.
But I felt very much like in mypower was like I'm not giving
attention to any of that, tothose old belief systems of like
my body can't handle this orwhatever, and I'm just feeling
like, wow, our bodies are reallylimitless.
And so I'm kind of like testingaround and playing around with,
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like what those limits are forme and how this new schedule is
going to work for me, since Ilike basically completely
flipped it around and it'shelping me be more focused and
disciplined with my work, and Iguess that I'm just in this like
constant state of joy, like andhappiness all the time.
It's just really incredible.
And another thing that I want tosay is what I do every single
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morning after my meditations andget up and I basically have a
team meeting with myself.
So you guys might laugh at mefor this, but basically I am
talking to my cells every singlemorning.
I'm giving them this, this hugepep talk, and saying, hey guys,
like I love you so much, likewe are a team, we're working
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together, I'm going to do mybest to have the most uplifting
thoughts all day for you andlike basically just letting my
cells know that I'm theirbiggest advocate and they're
kind of like my minions, thatwe're all working together and
we're all just like one team.
And I really thoroughly enjoyedhaving those team meetings
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every single day and doing thatin conjunction with like dance
parties and just like reallykeeping my my energy up.
In that sense, I'm just havinglike so much fun with it.
So, yeah, I'm just being moremindful of my thoughts and just
having fun playing around withall of this.
So I may do an update laterdown the road just to see how
I'm feeling after all thisretreat and what other things
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have shifted.
I would say the biggest thing islike like people have been
messaging me or when I seepeople in person, they don't
recognize me and they're likewait, you look different, like
what's different about you, andI'm like I don't, I don't know,
like I'm just me.
So I really think that it'sjust a combination of a lot of
the work that I've been doing,but I just feel more free, I
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feel more alive, I feel moreenergized, I feel there's more
purpose and more connected tosource and myself and I don't
really care about what otherpeople think about me or
whatever I'm.
Just I'm in the highest statethat I want to be in and how I
want to show up every single dayand that is the type of woman
that that I want to be.
And anytime I dip down, I givemyself grace and I allow myself
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to feel things, because we'rehuman and we're going to have
the highs and the lows.
So it's not like I'm bypassingthat.
I still have those momentswhere I have the highs and the
lows.
The only difference is I'm notstaying in those states and
allowing myself to dwell inthose states.
And that is actually really,really huge for me because for a
very, very long time that waslike my set point of like EOR,
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where I was just like I wouldjust be like a magnet to those
like lower thoughts or be stuckon grief or sadness or whatever,
and I just couldn't get out ofthat.
And I am just so determined I'mlike that is not who I'm
choosing to be anymore and it'slike it just gets easier and
easier and easier every singleday as I show up for myself
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because I'm more grounded withinmyself and I feel more powerful
within myself and like who I amand what I really desire in my
life and the type of person thatI want to show up as every
single day, even when it'sreally really hard.
So those are, I think, the topthings that I'm really
experimenting with and workingin the quantum field.
So more to come on all of that.
And yeah, just overall, thatwhole whole retreat was
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incredible.
It was life changing in a lotof ways because there are a lot
of things that shifted for me onan energetic level, releasing a
lot of belief systems, and I'mreally excited to continue
playing around with this work.
Maybe I'll go to anotherretreat later down the road.
It's honestly not like top ofmy mind because there are so
many things that I still want toplay around with and I'm really
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curious to see how this isgoing to show up in my 3D
reality as things start to shiftand change because of the
shifts and changes that arehappening within my meditations.
So I hope you guys enjoyed thisepisode and it was
understandable to you, because Iknow it goes into more of the
science and the quantum physicsand I am not a scientist, but I
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do my best to understand andlearn as much as possible.
But this work with Joe Dispenzais.
It's very profound and it's oneof those things like it's just
another tool.
It is another tool to createchange in your life.
So whether you resonate withthis or not, it doesn't matter.
It is just another tool forshifting and changing your
belief systems.
And this is the route that I'mexploring right now and I'm
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having so much fun doing it andhaving these experiences and
really loving that.
It's bringing me back home tomyself even more, and so,
depending on what your intentionis or what you want to do,
maybe meditations your thing,maybe it's not.
All I know is that my dedicationand my curiosity and my
playfulness is an approach thatI feel like is very is serving
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me very well when doing thesemeditations, versus going in and
being very serious and havingexpectations, it's just like.
It's just like brushing myteeth.
I'm like I love myself enoughto show up every single day for
this, no matter how hard it is,and you're basically like
telling yourselves and you'reyou're telling your brain like
I'm going to do this everysingle day, no matter what, and
you're proving to yourself thatyou are committed to yourself,
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that you believe that this isgoing to work, and so, over time
, you actually do see theresults.
And so, depending on the personor how good you are at putting
your attention on that orshifting your thoughts
throughout the day or doing themeditations, the timeline is
that is going to be differentfor each person, not a good or a
bad thing, it's just, you know,everyone is different.
So, yeah, that is it for theadvanced retreat for Joe
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Dispenza, and I would love tohear from you guys if this
resonated with any of you.
I would love to hear from you.
So feel free to email me athello, at Nina dash Elisecom,
and I'm happy to talk to youguys.
I'm sure I will share more onmy social channels and as I
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continue to integrate and learnmore about all of this work and
just about myself in general,because this work has been so
profound for myself and I wouldlove to share more, the more
that I get comfortable with itand the more that I learn about
it and the impacts of it and howI can actually work with this
in a way that's easy.
That will be beneficial forother people as well.
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So more to come on all of that.
So thank you all so much fortuning in and I will see you
guys on the next episode.
Bye.
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