June 4, 2025 • 36 mins
Birthdays in recovery are powerful milestones that remind us of both how far we've come and the work that carried us here. In this deeply personal episode, we celebrate Rob's 14th sobriety birthday with surprise calls from sponsees and friends while exploring the universal principles of recovery that apply to healing of all kinds.
Through heartfelt conversations and raw reflections, we uncover the striking similarities between physical rehabilitation and addiction recovery. Both journeys demand consistent effort, particularly during those lonely moments when no one is watching. As Rob shares, "The difference between an average athlete and a pro athlete is what they do when nobody's watching"—a principle that applies perfectly to recovery work.
The episode takes an unexpected turn as we examine the profound wisdom from Jeremy Renners experience recovering from being crushed by a snowcat. His journey through physical trauma mirrors the addiction recovery process in surprising ways, revealing how all forms of healing share common elements: community support, personal determination, and ultimately, the desire to help others walking similar paths.
Perhaps most powerfully, we discuss how true growth never happens during the comfortable "mountaintop experiences" of life. Though the view from the peak is breathtaking, nothing actually grows there. The real transformation always occurs in the valleys—those painful periods of struggle where we're forced to dig deep, confront our limitations, and push beyond what we thought possible.
If you're walking through recovery of any kind, this episode offers both compassion for your struggle and conviction that the work is worth it. Listen in as we celebrate not just years accumulated, but a life transformed through persistent effort and the willingness to help others along the way.
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Speaker 1 (00:03):
you sit on the toilet .
Don't you use that as yourmeditation?
Speaker 2 (00:06):
not my wife, not your wife, nor anybody listening to
this podcast has eaten a shitsandwich.
We didn't welcome recovery I'mfilter.
I'm larry.
I'm an alcoholic.
I am rob.
I am also an alcoholic.
We are not professionals.
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We know very little.
However, you will hear the wordgod and a four letter word in
the same sentence.
You will also be offended.
So if you are easily offended,just pass us by.
(00:26):
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Speaker 1 (00:29):
If you don't agree with what we're saying, that's
okay.
We're gonna love you anyways.
Speaker 2 (00:32):
We are not, anyway, affiliated with aa so sit back,
grab a beverage of your choiceand get ready let's go.
Speaker 1 (00:39):
Hello, robert.
What's up, buddy?
Oh, you know, you are know, I'malways up.
Speaker 2 (00:44):
You are Look at here.
Speaker 1 (00:46):
So hey, v8, baby V8.
V8.
You listen.
Sorry, I had to turn aroundthere for a minute.
I got very, very much theprivilege as we get started here
today.
Today is June 1st, June 1st,june 1st, june 1st.
This will drop on June 3rd, butJune 1st is your day, my
(01:09):
sobriety birthday.
Yes, it is.
I can't tell you how much of aprivilege it is to be recording
on your birthday.
Speaker 2 (01:15):
This is the first time.
Well, we haven't done this fora year yet have we.
Speaker 1 (01:19):
This is number 48.
Okay, we're going to record 49in a little bit.
Speaker 2 (01:25):
I got 52 will be a year.
Speaker 1 (01:26):
Yes, 52 will be a year and I got a couple special
ones.
I think.
I think they're worked out.
Um, I've spoken to a couplepeople.
I've got a couple special onescoming up.
Uh, if everything works out Idon't want to say and don't want
to um, don't don't want to jinxit, but I think we got, we got
a couple good ones coming up.
But hey, I, I just got to tellyou something, that is, you know
(01:50):
, I, I get to introduce you anddo this on your on the 21st at
primary, but I want to do thistoday, I want to do it this
morning.
I have for you your 14th coinand I love this thing.
So, happy birthday, brother.
I love you.
Speaker 2 (02:07):
Thank you, I love you too, buddy.
Yeah, I'm going to take apicture.
Speaker 1 (02:11):
Yeah, I'm going to take a picture of that and put
it up, just to show everybodythat I'll put it up on Instagram
so we can.
Can I open it?
Yeah, fuck, yeah, open it.
Let me mute that mic, though,so you don't fucking that.
Well, never mind, you alreadydone it.
Speaker 2 (02:26):
Now, jesus christ that's one higher power, by the
way anyways, this one I'll putit up on instagram.
Speaker 1 (02:35):
That's awesome that I it's pretty cool.
I like that one.
It's bill and bob, a picture ofbill and bob and it's got.
Speaker 2 (02:39):
His birthday is 14 years and it's on the back of it
, though, which I think it's theI think it's uh serenity, isn't
it?
Speaker 1 (02:46):
no, is it the third step?
No, what is it?
Speaker 2 (02:48):
well, no, it's not, it's, it's.
It's the beginning of how itworks really yeah, yeah, yeah,
that's right, that's rightthoroughly, yeah, I bought.
Speaker 1 (02:55):
I got that about three weeks ago, so I've had it
here for a little bit and thismorning I was.
I was planning on giving it toyou at primary and then, shit, I
shit, I didn't even think aboutit.
I knew your birthday was June1st, but I didn't even think
about today being June 1st.
So I was like you know what?
I want our audience to hearthis and to thine own self be
true To thine own self, be truebaby that is plastered on my arm
(03:17):
.
Speaker 2 (03:17):
That is good, yeah, congratulations brother, you
know what I appreciate too, andI'm going to tell my wife to
listen to this episode, becausethis morning I wake up and I get
out there and I'm walkingaround.
She's made coffee scratching mybutt.
You know the shorts on.
Speaker 1 (03:31):
She's scratching your butt or you are I'm scratching
my butt.
Speaker 2 (03:33):
Oh, I just wanted to clarify that she goes hey come
here and she opens up this boxand she puts she goes, I'm
getting ready to take a picture.
She puts a what's that called Asash Satchel, satchel, whatever
the thing you know that thewomen wear for the pageant.
All right, whatever, honey.
And I looked down and I saidshe pulls out some candles,
we're going to put them on acake.
That's nice.
If it was the right year, damnit.
(03:55):
I said no, not with 13.
That's a fucking jinx.
Ain't happening, damn it.
So next year, if she gets theright year, I'll look like an
idiot.
Speaker 1 (04:09):
Damn it, bonnie.
I'm sorry, I don't know what totell you, honey, your husband's
an asshole.
But you got it right, becauseit's him.
Speaker 2 (04:17):
Well, hell you fucking talk about it all the.
They just forget.
They're terrible with datesBoth my kids and my wife they're
terrible.
I'm pretty good.
Speaker 1 (04:25):
Yeah, well, you know what, like I said, you are a
privilege to know, you are aprivilege to be around.
You're an amazing man and I ama better man knowing you and I
appreciate that.
I appreciate everything you'vedone for me and my family and I
love watching what you do forother people.
It's absolutely an inspirationfor me.
So we're going to do a littlebirthday show and um birthday
(04:50):
show and we got some guests thatare going to be calling in and
wishing you a happy birthday andfrom time to time here today
and as long as, if you guys hearme distracted, it's because I'm
calling the boys and tellingthem to call them, because
they're all going to call andwish you a happy birthday.
Be distracted is because I'mcalling the boys and telling
them to call them becausethey're all going to call and
wish you a happy birthday.
So if we get on a topic and andsomebody calls and we get
distracted, uh, that's what'sgoing on, because everybody
(05:12):
that's been on the show is goingto be calling hello, nathan.
Hey, hold on a second, hold onthere, you go there, you go,
nathan, you there.
Well, sir, there he is how areyou doing that?
that's pretty cool I got itgoing through the my.
You know I've only done this inthe beginning, so I kind of
texted everybody this morningsaid, hey, everybody call in
(05:34):
when I text you so you can wishrob a happy birthday.
So here you go, nathan happybirthday, rob, thank you.
Speaker 4 (05:41):
I appreciate that.
Thank you for everything you doHelp changing my life.
Brother, my pleasure Iappreciate you, you know.
Speaker 1 (05:54):
I thank you, nathan, for taking the time to call in
today.
You know I gave him his.
We gave him his birthday chip alittle bit early and so he, you
know, I was so happy that.
You know, I guess god works ina certain way, right, because
our guests are showing up latetoday yeah so we decided to call
.
We decided to do the birth thisone first, and which gave me the
(06:17):
opportunity to have nathan andall the other guys call in
before they all get into church.
So you know what, nathan, thankyou for calling man.
Speaker 2 (06:25):
Thank you, brother.
I love you man, love youbrother.
See you on Wednesday or Monday,if not before, yeah.
And then jujitsu practiceWednesday How's?
Speaker 1 (06:34):
that going, Nathan?
How are you feeling with that?
Speaker 4 (06:36):
Going great If it wasn't.
And then On my AA birthdaysobriety birthday Rob took me to
a fight and the whole team wasthere and stuff, and then that's
when I really like wanted tostart doing Jiu-Jitsu, and then
(06:58):
Shit.
Speaker 1 (07:03):
Did I just hang up on him?
Yep it, brandon you there yeahthere he is, you're on, hit it,
I'm on.
Speaker 3 (07:12):
Yes, sir first time caller, along with timeless damn
it.
Speaker 1 (07:20):
what's happening?
There you go, you're on're onTell him.
Speaker 3 (07:23):
Happy birthday, Rob.
Thank you, Brandon 14 years isa big deal, man.
Yes, it is.
That's awesome.
Yes, it is.
I'm glad that I met up with youand asked you to be my sponsor
to change my life, man.
I know God had a big part in it, but I appreciate the guidance
he's given me.
Speaker 2 (07:42):
I appreciate you putting your trust in me.
Hey, the guidance he's given me.
I appreciate you putting yourtrust in me.
Hey, by the way, I got tickets.
Me and Logan are going to be atuh Justin's fight on the 14th.
Speaker 3 (07:49):
Nice yeah, the uh original uh opponent backed out
and he got a new one.
Good yeah, he's pretty pumped.
Congratulations, man.
Speaker 2 (08:03):
Thank you, brandon pumped, but congratulations,
brandon, thank you brandon, Iappreciate it.
Speaker 1 (08:05):
Thank you, brother.
Thanks buddy, all right later.
All right, have a good onelater you hung up on nathan I
know I'm gonna call him back.
I you know what.
Speaker 2 (08:12):
I'm very special individual, just so you know oh,
I know you tell this is thefirst time.
Speaker 1 (08:17):
If ever in doubt, just ask this is the first time
I've done this, so you're like acop and a fireman you never
have to.
Speaker 2 (08:24):
You never have to ask them what they do for a living.
They're gonna fucking tell younate that, sorry about that.
Speaker 1 (08:28):
Brandon was calling in.
I went to put him on hold andhung up on you.
So tell your.
Tell that story again all right.
Speaker 4 (08:35):
yeah, I was like I was saying on my sobriety
birthday, rob took me to a cagefight and the team we trained
with was there.
His son was fighting or doing ajiu-jitsu match and and um, you
know, I had mentioned that Iwould want to get that, want to
get in there and do that, and um, rob kept on kind of talking
(09:01):
about doing it and then one dayhe said that he was going in,
going to practice.
I said, right on, come get me,I'll go or I'll never go.
Yeah, he did, and I starteddoing it.
He said just come get me.
Speaker 2 (09:14):
And Nathan's already competed, but he competed before
me and kicked ass.
I mean, I wish I had a video.
Speaker 1 (09:19):
How's that working out?
With your mental state, though,nathan?
Did you see a difference in youand how you felt, how you were
approaching everything when yougot back to rolling?
Speaker 4 (09:28):
Oh yeah definitely.
It's, you know, kind of chasinga dream that I've always had,
and just you know.
But if I would have continueddoing that, I would have never
met my kid's mom and I had mykids so I don't regret not doing
it back then, but I do you knowdid have regrets of not getting
(09:49):
back into it awesome um I, butmy mental state it's it's way
different.
I think I feel like the jujitsuI get.
I almost get more out ofjujitsu than I do out.
Of you all know me.
Speaker 1 (10:04):
Nice, nice.
We don't want to put anythingagainst the meeting, but you
know it goes back.
Speaker 2 (10:09):
And on that let me say this what Bonnie told me the
other day.
She, okay, I came home becauseafter I dropped Nathan off I
picked Nathan up.
We go, and after I drop him offI call her and she says she
just hit my door, smiling at mewhen you know my wife, like the
(10:30):
cat, take the canary kind ofsmile.
Okay, what's going on?
She says the look on your facewhen you come back from jujitsu
is the same, look the same light, as when you come back from
doing step work with a man.
It's the same look on your face.
It's the same excitement.
It's that same childlike, youknow joy.
She says I don't want you tostop doing this.
So I understand what nathan'stalking about.
It is it's the same reason I goto.
(10:53):
I've been going to the gym fortwo decades and it's the same
thing I've always.
Speaker 1 (10:56):
That's why when nathan was here.
Is he still here?
Yeah, he's still on there rightnathan yeah, when he was on the
show and did his recording Iwas, like you ever thought about
getting back on the mat.
I'm glad to hear he is.
And the other thing is I'mgoing to bring this up real fast
I also said when he was talkingabout his kid's mom.
I'm like, well, something'sstill there.
(11:17):
And he's like, yeah, maybe, Ihope so, Nathan.
Speaker 2 (11:20):
Yeah, what's the update on that?
Speaker 4 (11:25):
Is there something still there?
Yeah, about a month and a halfago we got back together and
we're.
I didn't think I could everlove her more than I already did
, and every day it seems to justget stronger.
Speaker 1 (11:40):
Promises baby promises.
Speaker 2 (11:43):
And she was at the competition when Nathan competed
.
It was awesome.
Yeah, it's just, it's Godpromises.
But just like Jeremy talkedabout the little clip, he said
we have to do the work Right andNathan's absolutely done it
Done it.
He's still in his 30s, so he'sgot time.
I'm at the end of my competedays, but I can get a little bit
while my son's up.
He's a scrapper man.
(12:03):
It's going to be good watchinghim.
Speaker 1 (12:05):
When do you fight against?
When do you fight again?
Speaker 2 (12:07):
July 19th.
Speaker 1 (12:08):
We're at Stockton, I'll be there.
Speaker 2 (12:12):
We're all going to be competing then.
Speaker 4 (12:13):
You are going to compete.
Then the other thing aboutjiu-jitsu you know not many
people get to choke theirsponsor?
Speaker 1 (12:22):
yeah, nice, and hey, they don't hold back.
Speaker 4 (12:23):
Maybe I should get back in there and vice versa,
not many sponsors get to choketheir sponsees, so there's many
times you want to, but we justdon't get to nice all the
sponsees I want to choke aren'tin there.
Speaker 1 (12:35):
Nathan was on point all right, nathan thanks, thanks
, brother.
Speaker 2 (12:38):
Love you, man, very much.
Speaker 1 (12:39):
Love you, nathan, so happy for you, man, so happy for
you.
So, yeah, this has been fun.
Like I said, this morning Istarted making a couple phone
calls and I was hoping that afew of these guys weren't going
to be in church so we can dothis.
So we got another one coming inright now.
Hello, oh, my god, that's asexy ass voice, you got going on
(13:01):
.
Who is?
Speaker 3 (13:03):
that I'm using my radio voice this morning boys,
oh okay.
Speaker 2 (13:09):
He's using his porn voice.
Speaker 3 (13:12):
You're live here on KKWBR Recovery.
Speaker 1 (13:18):
So welcome into the birthday show from Mr Rob.
Speaker 3 (13:22):
Well, happy birthday, Rob.
Speaker 2 (13:23):
Thank you, brother.
Now Aaron's been with me for adecade.
Speaker 1 (13:27):
You guys have been together like bubble gum on the
bottom of your shoe.
Speaker 3 (13:33):
Yeah, I've been singing Hokey Pokey in the
program since about I don't knowwhat 2015?
Speaker 1 (13:38):
2015 yeah, explain that real fast, aaron.
We're gonna get you on the showto talk about that, but now
that you brought that up,explain that for a minute.
Speaker 3 (13:46):
Pokey, pokey recovery uh, pokey, pokey recovery, you
know get, get about year, yearand a half in the program, then
just had to go back out.
You know, left leg in, left legout, when you're in, when
you're out, yeah, one year inone year out.
Yeah, trying to figure thingsout.
Where are you at right now?
Just over 60 days again, attaboy.
Speaker 2 (14:07):
But his mom and dad are down right now from
Pennsylvania.
He's on point right now.
Speaker 1 (14:10):
Putting in the work.
Putting in the work.
Very happy for you, aaron.
Love you, brother.
Love you guys too.
All right, love you, brother.
Love you guys too.
All right, take care, brotherLove you buddy.
Speaker 3 (14:18):
Happy birthday, Rob.
Thank you, brother, I love you.
Speaker 1 (14:20):
Do you know how many years it is, aaron, 14 years.
Sorry, bonnie.
Speaker 2 (14:26):
Love you.
Speaker 3 (14:27):
Bonnie got it wrong this morning.
Speaker 2 (14:28):
Aaron, she got it wrong.
Speaker 3 (14:29):
What did Bonnie say?
Speaker 2 (14:34):
She got a whole little package with it.
She was going to let it happenwith a cake, but she had 13.
I said I'll wear it, but you'renot taking no pictures until
you have the right year.
Speaker 3 (14:44):
Lucky 13.
Speaker 2 (14:45):
That was last year.
Speaker 1 (14:47):
Is she there?
Speaker 2 (14:48):
No, she's not here.
Speaker 1 (14:50):
She's at home, she is going to listen to this one.
Speaker 3 (14:54):
But there is a special place in heaven for a
woman like Bonnie.
Remember that.
Speaker 2 (14:56):
No doubt about it, but there is a special place in
heaven for a woman like Bonnie.
Remember that.
Oh, no doubt about it.
Speaker 3 (14:58):
Anybody that can put up with me, not because of Rob,
not because of Rob, because shehas to put up with the rest of
us.
Speaker 1 (15:02):
You ain't lying.
She has to give her time to lethim.
Speaker 2 (15:06):
When we get Aaron on here, if he does tell that part
he can bring it when I've had totake Bonnie to help my backup.
All right, brother.
Speaker 1 (15:14):
Love All right brother, Love you, Love you
buddy, Love you too.
Love you guys.
See you, that was fun, allright, so I'm going to try and
get a couple more, but, like Isaid, I want to play that one
again because I don't know if wegot to hear the whole thing to
begin with.
Speaker 5 (15:30):
Hold on Recovery as you know, everybody's injured in
some sort of way.
It's a lonely road.
It's only you.
No matter how much help youhave, or PT you have, if your
tendons go or whatever the heckhappens, you still have to put
in the work every day and endurethe pain and manage the pain
and mitigate it.
It can be quite lonely, but Ialways found that my daughter
(15:53):
and my family I see their faceswhen I get better.
I could stand up, let's say, ornot pee in a jar.
I could get in a wheelchair Anysort of milestone I'd see their
faces get a little bit lesshorrified, even relieved, even
quite joyful.
Even so, as much damage as Idid to my family and their
hearts, me getting better canrelieve them of that burden.
(16:16):
So it was an easy one-way roadto recover and that's why I
recovered fast and I attributeit to my love for my family.
Speaker 1 (16:25):
You know, and, like I said, we're going to get
interrupted here in just aminute.
So if one of the things that Itook from that is when I was
listening to that and I heardhim say that the pain that he
saw in his family's face startto disappear upon here's, here
(16:47):
we go, here we go.
Hello, mr Jason.
Welcome on to the recoveryunfiltered podcast again,
apparently, god bless it hey heymorning, mr jason.
Speaker 4 (17:00):
Welcome on the recovery and filter podcast
thank you, can you hear me?
Oh, everybody can hear you hey,just wanted to say a special
happy birthday to my sponsor andsponsor of many, rob.
Speaker 2 (17:15):
Thank you brother.
Thank you very much how youdoing.
Speaker 1 (17:18):
I'm doing great.
Are you actually in the Valleyand not up camping fishing,
hiking in the middle of?
Speaker 4 (17:24):
nowhere.
Well, yeah, I don't want tomake this about me, but I'm in
town.
Speaker 1 (17:30):
No, I wouldn't have had you call me if I didn't want
to make it about you I haven'tbeen caught up with you in a
little while.
Speaker 2 (17:34):
That's a good man right here.
Speaker 1 (17:35):
Oh, buddy, I you know what.
Here's the thing I go over.
He works over in the bay and Igo over once a week and I got
the opportunity to have dinnerwith him one time.
Now he's ghosting me every timeI go over there.
I swear to god, it's like ablind date and he never wants to
see me again, I get it, jason,I absolutely get it damn it.
Speaker 2 (17:55):
Yeah right, buddy, I still owe you dinner but the
14th, right there was brandon'shis kids fight.
But we're gonna be, we're gonnado the go to the lake, yeah,
the houseboat right, we'll getto see jason there we'll do all
that together.
Speaker 1 (18:11):
So, jason, thanks for calling in brother love you.
Speaker 4 (18:13):
Thank you, brother, I appreciate you yeah, I love you
, yeah, I love you guys.
Speaker 1 (18:16):
Happy birthday Rob.
Speaker 2 (18:16):
Thank you man.
Speaker 1 (18:28):
Anyways, that's um when he talks about as he was
going through his recovery andseeing the joy on his family's
face, or that pain in hisfamily's face disappear as the
milestones as his milestonescome up.
I'm thinking, you know, like Isaid, I didn't listen to it
originally to get anything else,except I just listened to Joe
Rogan, right?
But man listening to that, itjust kept going back how that
(18:50):
physical recovery that he wentthrough, even the mental
recovery, is no different thanwhat we go through.
To me it's almost identical.
Speaker 2 (19:01):
A lot of similarities .
Speaker 1 (19:02):
So much right, Because I was very lonely during
my recovery, well, stillrecovery.
Speaker 2 (19:07):
But having a support group is important as you said,
but we have to do the workUnless someone's been through
what you've been through it'shard, for sure.
You can't just, you know Right.
Speaker 1 (19:21):
No, and it's like I said, it's one of those things
that we are when we're away from.
We can't be around a group allthe time, right, right, and most
of our hardest work we do iswhen we're alone.
That's when the, that's whenthe war.
Anybody can perform in front ofsomebody, right?
(19:43):
Anybody can't.
You know, they say what makesthe difference between an okay
athlete and a pro athlete?
It's what they do when nobody'swatching right is the the work
they put in when nobody'swatching right.
That's the difference betweenan average athlete and a great
athlete, right, or a pro athlete.
That's the difference betweenan average athlete and a great
athlete, right or a pro athlete.
That's the difference of what,and it's no difference to me and
(20:05):
I say the same thing.
Well, I feel the same way whenit comes to this recovery, when
we say this how free do you wantto be right?
If you want the freedom, if youwant that serenity, if you want
that peace, you have to put inthe work.
Oh, absolutely, absolutely.
When you're by yourself, whenyou're traveling, when you're
not around people watching you,when you're not around your
family, and when you do thosethings and you get back around
(20:29):
your family, your family's goingto see the difference in you
and what you're doing.
They're going to see thosemilestones, you know I, so I you
hear me say this so many timesthat live in amends that we do
right to our wives and to ourfamilies.
And you know we're going to getmore and more into families
here in the next few episodesbecause I think we got it worked
(20:51):
out that my family is going tostart coming on 50, 51 or 52 is
going to be my daughters, mywife and Rob's wife.
Uh, we have our 52, 52ndepisode coming up, which is our
birthday episode.
Right, our, our recovery,unfiltered birthday episode and
(21:13):
I want to make it's amazing howwe, how we put this together
after a year.
Right, it's god, it's 1000 god,from the very beginning but on
your healing thing, let me bringthis up.
Speaker 2 (21:23):
I got a call not what was yesterday, saturday, friday
evening afternoon-ish, brandonGonzalez called me.
He had got, he had a bad hipYep, due to my hip.
So he went in and he was justcalling me.
He was on day 17.
He was on day and he wastalking about this ache and then
he started bringing back, youknow.
Oh, then I started bringingback Because you forget me.
(21:44):
It's been a year for me, justover a year, you know to get
back to me from you know, andand a lot of the memories.
But in what they don't like,you talked about the shit that
you don't say, except Brandon,when you know, the only reason
I'm after the first week I usethat Walker was just to uh, uh
me.
Wow, rob, you're lookingamazing, you know.
(22:04):
Just, you're healing, great.
But they didn't see monday,tuesday, wednesday, thursday,
when I'm crawling on the floorbecause I pushed myself too hard
.
You know, like I do, yeah, butwe all put in that extra work
because I want, I wanted to beon the mat with my son, I wanted
, you know, and then, right,getting back from cancer, right,
then, okay, then I had to getthe hip done, so that pushed me
back another year.
But you got to put in the workyou have.
(22:26):
If you're not going to, itdoesn't matter how much support
you got, doesn't matter.
Uh, if you've got the bestadvice, the best doctors, the
best whatever.
If you don't have the desire,the willingness, it ain't gonna
happen nope, not at all.
You know, not at all, but again,there's going to be down times
there's, oh my god there's timesjust like, fuck, is this even
worth it?
Right, man, I can't do this andyou're, but then that's where
(22:47):
that support group comes right,that's where if someone's you
know been through a thousandpercent.
Speaker 1 (22:51):
You know, and I've probably said this, and it's
this isn't a poor me, this isn'tanything but I, I haven't had a
sober day without pain, righthow many surgeries have you had
now?
I've had four surgeries since Igot, since you know that's four
and three April 10th yeah.
So putting my hip back together,my two back surgeries and my,
(23:13):
and I'm probably going to haveto have another one.
So do I say that for poor me,fuck.
No, I did that damage back whenI was 18 years old and I got in
a bad accident because of mydrinking, you know.
Then, three weeks later, I getanother.
Actually, four and a half weekslater, I get another, just
horrible accident, because of mydrinking.
(23:34):
So am I, you know, now that I'mGod's putting me back together.
I remember all those things.
Right, it is what it is.
I did all this to my body, theyears of being overweight, the
years of misuse of my body, justthe years.
And you know, and I'm and I'mokay with it.
I come into peace and don't getme wrong, it's frustrating,
(23:54):
buddy.
I'm going to tell you thatdaily pain is.
I mean, it's, it's brutal, butI I've been very fortunate that
I have a wife that understands.
You know, I don't get me that.
I have a wife that understands.
There's days that I think thatshe gets frustrated, that I
struggle, but I don't stop.
(24:15):
I continue to do what I have todo.
I got to do stuff around thehouse.
I got it the same way as I gotto get into this book every day.
It's the same thing, whetherit's mental, physical, no matter
what it is If you don't put inthe work, you're going to
fucking die Period.
Speaker 2 (24:31):
And you won't get the results that you want.
What?
Speaker 1 (24:32):
did you tell me the other day you start dying from
the ground up.
Speaker 2 (24:35):
Death begins in the legs.
Death starts in the legs Right.
Speaker 1 (24:39):
And I'm midway, right In my lower back, in my hips.
I don't put in the work I needto start working out here.
You know there's just a lot ofthings, but you know.
But I'll go work outside alldamn day and put eight hours in
outside doing shit I shouldn'tbe doing doing.
(24:59):
But then I'm in misery for, youknow, three days because of it.
Speaker 2 (25:03):
But see that.
But I enjoyed that.
But, like I said, when I wouldwith a hip, because I mean I was
headed back to the mat, youknow, with my son, and then,
well, I promised myself I'd geta new hip when he got done with
wrestling, wrestling Right.
So I did, and he's Dad, I'mgoing to do jiu-jitsu.
So he started doing that, Likehere's my other opportunity.
But now and I was tellingBrandon friday evening, now my
(25:25):
left because I'm not with me andmy family have not been limber,
the limber, you know, shortstopwe're not very limber, but my
left hip, the titanium one, isstronger, yeah, more flexible,
all right, than the right one.
Right, because I've worked that.
I mean I'm left side dominantanyway, but I worked that son of
a bitch extra and now I gottacatch the right side up.
(25:47):
But what a gift, right, becauseI put in the work.
Speaker 1 (25:49):
You have to, you have to.
But here's the thing, and Iwant to read this one thing this
is another part of what jeremysaid later on.
It says people need to sufferto see the real love.
What he's talking about is thatif we never suffered a little
bit, we don't understand thevalue or the we don't appreciate
(26:11):
.
We don't appreciate Any giftsNothing.
Speaker 2 (26:14):
That's why God makes us work for these things.
Speaker 4 (26:15):
Oh, for sure.
Speaker 2 (26:16):
You know these prayers that we try to get
answered the seventh step, thethird step, and then we do those
steps, then we do the actualsteps afterwards.
Then we would appreciate Ifit's just given to us, we would
never appreciate I wouldn't.
I know that I wouldn't I wouldtake it for granted, you know,
and that's when we talk aboutthe mountaintop experiences,
which are beautiful, right, lovethem.
The view is great, the air iscrisp, but nothing grows up
there, nothing.
(26:36):
The growth takes place in thevalley, yes, and you must
experience both to appreciateabsolutely and we have.
I mean.
Speaker 1 (26:42):
So that's when you know what bible talks about, but
we still go and we still gothrough them we go through those
peaks and we go through thosevalleys.
Those valleys are brutal, butit's because we put in the work
to make that peak that we know.
When we start to slide off thatbackside and we see that valley
coming, we know fuck, here itgoes.
I better put on my boots.
Speaker 2 (27:00):
We got to do some work here.
Sometimes they're they're aself-inflicted yes sir, and
sometimes they're just life onlife's terms, yeah.
Speaker 1 (27:08):
I mean daily.
Daily, I deal with that Right.
Speaker 2 (27:11):
Scott says why keep putting one foot?
Speaker 1 (27:13):
in front of the other .
Just do what you're.
Just do what you're expected todo right now.
Right, this is all I'm expectedto do right now.
I'm expected to sit right hereto talk to you on this podcast
that we're reaching out topeople.
What we do after this podcast,who knows?
God will show me what to doafterwards, right, but we put in
everything that comes in frontof us, what happens in front of
(27:34):
us, we deal with it.
We deal with it the way we knowhow to deal with it.
Speaker 2 (27:37):
But now looking, but now we got, now I've got 14
years to look back on and thegood, the bad, the ugly.
I'm so grateful for all ofthose to get me to here.
Absolutely, I'm.
I mean I'm grateful for thework.
I'm glad you know, and the workwas where.
What I'm saying is the work wasworth it.
Yes, the work was absolutely.
I can't.
I don't know if I've ever askedpeople this.
I mean, is there any time youever put in, you know, put in
(28:09):
the effort, that it wasn't worthit?
That's always.
Is the juice worth the squeeze?
Even if I didn't accomplish mygoal, say where you're going.
Your goal is to stand on thetop of the podium, but you
didn't cheat yourself, youdidn't cheat your opponent.
You did the best you could.
You didn't beat yourself.
Speaker 1 (28:15):
They had to beat you Right and I you know what you
need to work on.
Speaker 2 (28:17):
Yeah, and I've always said that, even back coaching
football Make sure the effortyou put in before, but it's the
effort that people don't see,right, if you're not doing that,
then don't bitch.
Speaker 1 (28:32):
No and 1,000%.
My grandson, I mean, he wantsto be the best at baseball.
But I tell him the same thing.
What are you doing whennobody's watching buddy?
What are you doing whennobody's watching?
How many tees are you taking?
Speaker 2 (28:43):
Right.
Speaker 1 (28:43):
Yep, what are you doing?
Nobody's watching, I mean, ifyou want to be the best.
Speaker 2 (28:46):
That's why he said that, because Logan stopped
jujitsu when he was real littlemaybe six, maybe a little older
than that and then he went anddidn't play baseball for a while
and then he quit baseballbecause he's not going to be a
baseball player.
He was, you know, he's a greatathlete, but I had everything in
the effort.
Now then he starts wrestlinghis freshman year.
(29:07):
Now, watching him do that tothis, right, people don't see
what he does, right, I do.
That's why he.
That's why now he's on top ofthe podiums, right, because he's
put in that effort for theseyears and he puts in all the his
own diet, he does his owncooking, he shops for himself.
I pay for the bills most ofthem, but you know, but that's
what he's supposed to, but hepaid for all that and he's paid
(29:27):
his damn dues, right you know,um, and that's like I said.
Speaker 1 (29:31):
That's where I kind of wanted to go with this.
The recovery is recovery period.
It doesn't matter if it'sphysical right.
Speaker 2 (29:37):
Certain ingredients you must have.
You know there's a lot there.
There are a lot of uhmiscellaneous, but there are
certain ingredients, if you wantto be successful, that are the
same right physical mental andit does it like you know.
Speaker 1 (29:48):
If you that that episode with jeremy on joe rogan
is is, um, I don't know.
I, like I said the whole time Iwas listening to it, I I know
the pain.
The guy was squashed by a snowcap, for god's sakes, and if you
don't know what that is, lookit up up.
That is a massive piece ofmachinery and he was smashed on
(30:12):
the ice, not the snow, right?
If you listen to him explain it.
If it would have been on thepowder he wouldn't have been as
bad, but he was literally on theice.
When that snow cap went overthe top of him, did it track
over him?
The track went right over thetop of him, full-length.
The track over him.
The track went right over thetop of him, full length body
Full length body.
Oh no, kidding, From foot tohead.
From foot to head, not side toside, foot to head Right.
(30:34):
So every 36 crushed bones inhis body Right.
And listen to him how he cameout of that recovery and his
mental state of mind when he'scoming out of that.
I just equated the whole thingfor my, my recovery of my
alcohol and talking about.
There's another section in therewhere he talks about being with
(30:56):
other people that have beenthrough the same thing and the
community that he has around himnow of people that have went
through that same squashed, thatsame multiple broken bones, and
the group of people that he cantalk to in the group.
It's incredible.
And the other thing is is hisoutreach to other people doing
(31:18):
the same thing.
I mean, the whole thing wasjust this recovery.
It doesn't matter what you'redoing, whether it's alcohol,
drugs, broken bone, whateverit's doing, it's a mental state,
and then you've got to reachout and help people, to
continually help yourself.
Speaker 2 (31:33):
Absolutely Well, I do the same thing with cancer.
Speaker 1 (31:35):
For sure, my doctor gives out my number.
Speaker 2 (31:37):
But here's something that God gave me a gift when I
was going through it, when I wasforeman, where Brad is now.
Brad knows the story because heworks with her.
My wife knows the story, uh,because he works with her.
My wife knows the story becauseher and her and my wife are
fitbit buddies, but my waymaster, uh, well, they're their fitbit
buddy, her and sherry, uh, butsherry's having headaches.
She was my waymaster right andshe kept.
(31:59):
You know, you know me.
I say, listen, if you're notgonna do something about it,
quit bitching at me, right?
Well, she had a golf ball takenout of her head at the same
time.
I was going through cancer, ohboy.
So, all right, I had toremember, like I said, I
couldn't.
I couldn't sleep laying backbecause I choked to death.
She couldn't, she had to sleepat a certain angle or the
pressure would rupture her.
So we would text each other hey, you get any sleep last night?
no, you know, and then right,but at the times I would use
(32:20):
your buddy but at the times Iwould be down yeah man like I,
because that things I wouldn'ttell my wife like man, I just
don't, you know eight hours ofchemo coming back.
You feel like god's like Idon't, she's like I had chemo go
.
I just don't know if I can dothis.
You know I would text that kindof shit and she's like you have
to.
You've got wife, you've got kidsyou have to do this, I have to
well, I'm gonna, she goes, I'mgonna get back to work, and so
you know, and then the timeswhen she would go and come, know
(32:46):
, and I said, well, you know,and I was 149 pounds, I said
I'll tell you what.
You still help you lose, youhelp me, but but that, having
someone who kind of knew what Iwas going through, we could.
You know, there was a certainyep dude that helped more than
almost anything.
Speaker 1 (32:59):
It like I said, and that's what we've talked about
so many times with our group youknow, get with somebody and,
yeah, be with a group of people,get into your AA, and it
doesn't matter whether you'redealing with a physical, a
mental, whatever you're dealingwith, there's other people that
have gone through it.
You're not alone.
Keep God in the middle, by theway.
Speaker 2 (33:18):
Yes, and you're not alone, whatever you're going
through, whatever you're doing.
But if you are alone and youwalk through it and God gives
you the victory.
Absolutely you're doing anybody, but if you are alone and you
walk through it and god givesyou the victory.
Speaker 1 (33:29):
Absolutely go find someone, so they're not.
Speaker 2 (33:30):
Yep, go help and you will find a joy that you can't.
You can't get any other placeyou know, like these men that
have been calling right.
Speaker 1 (33:36):
Yeah, you know, it's incredible what we have, and I
mean there's 27 other people, 27other people that have it, you
know, with everybody.
But I promise you, you've allgiven me right, more than I've
ever, oh, and I know thatreceived more, more than I've
ever given you, oh and.
Speaker 2 (33:48):
I know that feeling I've received more than I've
ever given.
Speaker 1 (33:49):
I just finished with Blake.
He got through his 12 steps andI'm going to tell you right now
, I needed him probably morethan he needed me during that
period of time.
Speaker 2 (33:58):
I know exactly what you're talking about.
Speaker 1 (33:59):
I needed that.
I needed that refresher oneverything all those steps, oh
my gosh.
You know, I am consumed withwhat I have to do here for work.
I'm consumed with that, and I'mconsumed with stuff around the
house and I'm consumed withstuff.
And then you get to that pointin your life and like I need me,
(34:20):
I need me.
The fuck I do.
I need to give to somebody else.
That's what I needed to do.
Yeah Right, I kept tellingmyself I need time.
Speaker 2 (34:24):
So now, now, when you hear that you know time for me
is fucked, it's not healthy.
We look back when we're littlekids and Christmas is coming or
your birthday is coming.
You're just waiting to receiveRight.
And then you know your parentswill throw that quote at you.
You know, jesus says it's moreblessed to give than to receive
I don't know what you're talkingabout.
Speaker 1 (34:40):
But now it is Don mean lord.
Now I know what you mean.
Yeah, and like I said, I giveit.
I love to give it at work, Ilove to give it everywhere I get
and when I feel that mentalthought of mine that says I need
me time, I I got to get out ofthat head because that me time
causes problems.
Right when I get inside my ownhead I can't do it.
Speaker 2 (35:02):
They don't go there alone either.
Speaker 1 (35:04):
No, no, it's dangerous to be dangerous,
dangerous, dangerous, dangerous.
All right, mr rob, this isshorty.
Happy fucking birthday.
You midget motherfucker, Ifucking love you.
I love you too god damn it.
Love you brother, love youbuddy is it on the toilet?
Speaker 4 (35:22):
don't you use that as your?
Speaker 1 (35:23):
meditation thank you for joining us today.
Speaker 2 (35:29):
We hope you learned something today that will help
you.
Speaker 1 (35:31):
If you did not come back next week and we'll try
again If you like what we heard,give us a five-star review.
Speaker 2 (35:36):
If you don't like what you heard, kiss my ass.
I can't say that, can you?
Anyway, if you don't like whatyou heard, go ahead and tell us
that too.
We'll see what we can improve.
We probably won't changenothing, but do it anyway.
Speaker 1 (35:45):
Hey, thanks, rob.
Come back next week andhopefully something will be
different and something willsink in.
Take care, this has beenRecovery Unfiltered, thank you.
you sit on the toilet .
Don't you use that as yourmeditation?
Speaker 2 (00:06):
not my wife, not your wife, nor anybody listening to
this podcast has eaten a shitsandwich.
We didn't welcome recovery I'mfilter.
I'm larry.
I'm an alcoholic.
I am rob.
I am also an alcoholic.
We are not professionals.
There are no letters after ournames.
We know very little.
However, you will hear the wordgod and a four letter word in
the same sentence.
You will also be offended.
So if you are easily offended,just pass us by.
(00:26):
This podcast is not for you ouropinions are just that.
Speaker 1 (00:29):
If you don't agree with what we're saying, that's
okay.
We're gonna love you anyways.
Speaker 2 (00:32):
We are not, anyway, affiliated with aa so sit back,
grab a beverage of your choiceand get ready let's go.
Speaker 1 (00:39):
Hello, robert.
What's up, buddy?
Oh, you know, you are know, I'malways up.
Speaker 2 (00:44):
You are Look at here.
Speaker 1 (00:46):
So hey, v8, baby V8.
V8.
You listen.
Sorry, I had to turn aroundthere for a minute.
I got very, very much theprivilege as we get started here
today.
Today is June 1st, June 1st,june 1st, june 1st.
This will drop on June 3rd, butJune 1st is your day, my
(01:09):
sobriety birthday.
Yes, it is.
I can't tell you how much of aprivilege it is to be recording
on your birthday.
Speaker 2 (01:15):
This is the first time.
Well, we haven't done this fora year yet have we.
Speaker 1 (01:19):
This is number 48.
Okay, we're going to record 49in a little bit.
Speaker 2 (01:25):
I got 52 will be a year.
Speaker 1 (01:26):
Yes, 52 will be a year and I got a couple special
ones.
I think.
I think they're worked out.
Um, I've spoken to a couplepeople.
I've got a couple special onescoming up.
Uh, if everything works out Idon't want to say and don't want
to um, don't don't want to jinxit, but I think we got, we got
a couple good ones coming up.
But hey, I, I just got to tellyou something, that is, you know
(01:50):
, I, I get to introduce you anddo this on your on the 21st at
primary, but I want to do thistoday, I want to do it this
morning.
I have for you your 14th coinand I love this thing.
So, happy birthday, brother.
I love you.
Speaker 2 (02:07):
Thank you, I love you too, buddy.
Yeah, I'm going to take apicture.
Speaker 1 (02:11):
Yeah, I'm going to take a picture of that and put
it up, just to show everybodythat I'll put it up on Instagram
so we can.
Can I open it?
Yeah, fuck, yeah, open it.
Let me mute that mic, though,so you don't fucking that.
Well, never mind, you alreadydone it.
Speaker 2 (02:26):
Now, jesus christ that's one higher power, by the
way anyways, this one I'll putit up on instagram.
Speaker 1 (02:35):
That's awesome that I it's pretty cool.
I like that one.
It's bill and bob, a picture ofbill and bob and it's got.
Speaker 2 (02:39):
His birthday is 14 years and it's on the back of it
, though, which I think it's theI think it's uh serenity, isn't
it?
Speaker 1 (02:46):
no, is it the third step?
No, what is it?
Speaker 2 (02:48):
well, no, it's not, it's, it's.
It's the beginning of how itworks really yeah, yeah, yeah,
that's right, that's rightthoroughly, yeah, I bought.
Speaker 1 (02:55):
I got that about three weeks ago, so I've had it
here for a little bit and thismorning I was.
I was planning on giving it toyou at primary and then, shit, I
shit, I didn't even think aboutit.
I knew your birthday was June1st, but I didn't even think
about today being June 1st.
So I was like you know what?
I want our audience to hearthis and to thine own self be
true To thine own self, be truebaby that is plastered on my arm
(03:17):
.
Speaker 2 (03:17):
That is good, yeah, congratulations brother, you
know what I appreciate too, andI'm going to tell my wife to
listen to this episode, becausethis morning I wake up and I get
out there and I'm walkingaround.
She's made coffee scratching mybutt.
You know the shorts on.
Speaker 1 (03:31):
She's scratching your butt or you are I'm scratching
my butt.
Speaker 2 (03:33):
Oh, I just wanted to clarify that she goes hey come
here and she opens up this boxand she puts she goes, I'm
getting ready to take a picture.
She puts a what's that called Asash Satchel, satchel, whatever
the thing you know that thewomen wear for the pageant.
All right, whatever, honey.
And I looked down and I saidshe pulls out some candles,
we're going to put them on acake.
That's nice.
If it was the right year, damnit.
(03:55):
I said no, not with 13.
That's a fucking jinx.
Ain't happening, damn it.
So next year, if she gets theright year, I'll look like an
idiot.
Speaker 1 (04:09):
Damn it, bonnie.
I'm sorry, I don't know what totell you, honey, your husband's
an asshole.
But you got it right, becauseit's him.
Speaker 2 (04:17):
Well, hell you fucking talk about it all the.
They just forget.
They're terrible with datesBoth my kids and my wife they're
terrible.
I'm pretty good.
Speaker 1 (04:25):
Yeah, well, you know what, like I said, you are a
privilege to know, you are aprivilege to be around.
You're an amazing man and I ama better man knowing you and I
appreciate that.
I appreciate everything you'vedone for me and my family and I
love watching what you do forother people.
It's absolutely an inspirationfor me.
So we're going to do a littlebirthday show and um birthday
(04:50):
show and we got some guests thatare going to be calling in and
wishing you a happy birthday andfrom time to time here today
and as long as, if you guys hearme distracted, it's because I'm
calling the boys and tellingthem to call them, because
they're all going to call andwish you a happy birthday.
Be distracted is because I'mcalling the boys and telling
them to call them becausethey're all going to call and
wish you a happy birthday.
So if we get on a topic and andsomebody calls and we get
distracted, uh, that's what'sgoing on, because everybody
(05:12):
that's been on the show is goingto be calling hello, nathan.
Hey, hold on a second, hold onthere, you go there, you go,
nathan, you there.
Well, sir, there he is how areyou doing that?
that's pretty cool I got itgoing through the my.
You know I've only done this inthe beginning, so I kind of
texted everybody this morningsaid, hey, everybody call in
(05:34):
when I text you so you can wishrob a happy birthday.
So here you go, nathan happybirthday, rob, thank you.
Speaker 4 (05:41):
I appreciate that.
Thank you for everything you doHelp changing my life.
Brother, my pleasure Iappreciate you, you know.
Speaker 1 (05:54):
I thank you, nathan, for taking the time to call in
today.
You know I gave him his.
We gave him his birthday chip alittle bit early and so he, you
know, I was so happy that.
You know, I guess god works ina certain way, right, because
our guests are showing up latetoday yeah so we decided to call
.
We decided to do the birth thisone first, and which gave me the
(06:17):
opportunity to have nathan andall the other guys call in
before they all get into church.
So you know what, nathan, thankyou for calling man.
Speaker 2 (06:25):
Thank you, brother.
I love you man, love youbrother.
See you on Wednesday or Monday,if not before, yeah.
And then jujitsu practiceWednesday How's?
Speaker 1 (06:34):
that going, Nathan?
How are you feeling with that?
Speaker 4 (06:36):
Going great If it wasn't.
And then On my AA birthdaysobriety birthday Rob took me to
a fight and the whole team wasthere and stuff, and then that's
when I really like wanted tostart doing Jiu-Jitsu, and then
(06:58):
Shit.
Speaker 1 (07:03):
Did I just hang up on him?
Yep it, brandon you there yeahthere he is, you're on, hit it,
I'm on.
Speaker 3 (07:12):
Yes, sir first time caller, along with timeless damn
it.
Speaker 1 (07:20):
what's happening?
There you go, you're on're onTell him.
Speaker 3 (07:23):
Happy birthday, Rob.
Thank you, Brandon 14 years isa big deal, man.
Yes, it is.
That's awesome.
Yes, it is.
I'm glad that I met up with youand asked you to be my sponsor
to change my life, man.
I know God had a big part in it, but I appreciate the guidance
he's given me.
Speaker 2 (07:42):
I appreciate you putting your trust in me.
Hey, the guidance he's given me.
I appreciate you putting yourtrust in me.
Hey, by the way, I got tickets.
Me and Logan are going to be atuh Justin's fight on the 14th.
Speaker 3 (07:49):
Nice yeah, the uh original uh opponent backed out
and he got a new one.
Good yeah, he's pretty pumped.
Congratulations, man.
Speaker 2 (08:03):
Thank you, brandon pumped, but congratulations,
brandon, thank you brandon, Iappreciate it.
Speaker 1 (08:05):
Thank you, brother.
Thanks buddy, all right later.
All right, have a good onelater you hung up on nathan I
know I'm gonna call him back.
I you know what.
Speaker 2 (08:12):
I'm very special individual, just so you know oh,
I know you tell this is thefirst time.
Speaker 1 (08:17):
If ever in doubt, just ask this is the first time
I've done this, so you're like acop and a fireman you never
have to.
Speaker 2 (08:24):
You never have to ask them what they do for a living.
They're gonna fucking tell younate that, sorry about that.
Speaker 1 (08:28):
Brandon was calling in.
I went to put him on hold andhung up on you.
So tell your.
Tell that story again all right.
Speaker 4 (08:35):
yeah, I was like I was saying on my sobriety
birthday, rob took me to a cagefight and the team we trained
with was there.
His son was fighting or doing ajiu-jitsu match and and um, you
know, I had mentioned that Iwould want to get that, want to
get in there and do that, and um, rob kept on kind of talking
(09:01):
about doing it and then one dayhe said that he was going in,
going to practice.
I said, right on, come get me,I'll go or I'll never go.
Yeah, he did, and I starteddoing it.
He said just come get me.
Speaker 2 (09:14):
And Nathan's already competed, but he competed before
me and kicked ass.
I mean, I wish I had a video.
Speaker 1 (09:19):
How's that working out?
With your mental state, though,nathan?
Did you see a difference in youand how you felt, how you were
approaching everything when yougot back to rolling?
Speaker 4 (09:28):
Oh yeah definitely.
It's, you know, kind of chasinga dream that I've always had,
and just you know.
But if I would have continueddoing that, I would have never
met my kid's mom and I had mykids so I don't regret not doing
it back then, but I do you knowdid have regrets of not getting
(09:49):
back into it awesome um I, butmy mental state it's it's way
different.
I think I feel like the jujitsuI get.
I almost get more out ofjujitsu than I do out.
Of you all know me.
Speaker 1 (10:04):
Nice, nice.
We don't want to put anythingagainst the meeting, but you
know it goes back.
Speaker 2 (10:09):
And on that let me say this what Bonnie told me the
other day.
She, okay, I came home becauseafter I dropped Nathan off I
picked Nathan up.
We go, and after I drop him offI call her and she says she
just hit my door, smiling at mewhen you know my wife, like the
(10:30):
cat, take the canary kind ofsmile.
Okay, what's going on?
She says the look on your facewhen you come back from jujitsu
is the same, look the same light, as when you come back from
doing step work with a man.
It's the same look on your face.
It's the same excitement.
It's that same childlike, youknow joy.
She says I don't want you tostop doing this.
So I understand what nathan'stalking about.
It is it's the same reason I goto.
(10:53):
I've been going to the gym fortwo decades and it's the same
thing I've always.
Speaker 1 (10:56):
That's why when nathan was here.
Is he still here?
Yeah, he's still on there rightnathan yeah, when he was on the
show and did his recording Iwas, like you ever thought about
getting back on the mat.
I'm glad to hear he is.
And the other thing is I'mgoing to bring this up real fast
I also said when he was talkingabout his kid's mom.
I'm like, well, something'sstill there.
(11:17):
And he's like, yeah, maybe, Ihope so, Nathan.
Speaker 2 (11:20):
Yeah, what's the update on that?
Speaker 4 (11:25):
Is there something still there?
Yeah, about a month and a halfago we got back together and
we're.
I didn't think I could everlove her more than I already did
, and every day it seems to justget stronger.
Speaker 1 (11:40):
Promises baby promises.
Speaker 2 (11:43):
And she was at the competition when Nathan competed
.
It was awesome.
Yeah, it's just, it's Godpromises.
But just like Jeremy talkedabout the little clip, he said
we have to do the work Right andNathan's absolutely done it
Done it.
He's still in his 30s, so he'sgot time.
I'm at the end of my competedays, but I can get a little bit
while my son's up.
He's a scrapper man.
(12:03):
It's going to be good watchinghim.
Speaker 1 (12:05):
When do you fight against?
When do you fight again?
Speaker 2 (12:07):
July 19th.
Speaker 1 (12:08):
We're at Stockton, I'll be there.
Speaker 2 (12:12):
We're all going to be competing then.
Speaker 4 (12:13):
You are going to compete.
Then the other thing aboutjiu-jitsu you know not many
people get to choke theirsponsor?
Speaker 1 (12:22):
yeah, nice, and hey, they don't hold back.
Speaker 4 (12:23):
Maybe I should get back in there and vice versa,
not many sponsors get to choketheir sponsees, so there's many
times you want to, but we justdon't get to nice all the
sponsees I want to choke aren'tin there.
Speaker 1 (12:35):
Nathan was on point all right, nathan thanks, thanks
, brother.
Speaker 2 (12:38):
Love you, man, very much.
Speaker 1 (12:39):
Love you, nathan, so happy for you, man, so happy for
you.
So, yeah, this has been fun.
Like I said, this morning Istarted making a couple phone
calls and I was hoping that afew of these guys weren't going
to be in church so we can dothis.
So we got another one coming inright now.
Hello, oh, my god, that's asexy ass voice, you got going on
(13:01):
.
Who is?
Speaker 3 (13:03):
that I'm using my radio voice this morning boys,
oh okay.
Speaker 2 (13:09):
He's using his porn voice.
Speaker 3 (13:12):
You're live here on KKWBR Recovery.
Speaker 1 (13:18):
So welcome into the birthday show from Mr Rob.
Speaker 3 (13:22):
Well, happy birthday, Rob.
Speaker 2 (13:23):
Thank you, brother.
Now Aaron's been with me for adecade.
Speaker 1 (13:27):
You guys have been together like bubble gum on the
bottom of your shoe.
Speaker 3 (13:33):
Yeah, I've been singing Hokey Pokey in the
program since about I don't knowwhat 2015?
Speaker 1 (13:38):
2015 yeah, explain that real fast, aaron.
We're gonna get you on the showto talk about that, but now
that you brought that up,explain that for a minute.
Speaker 3 (13:46):
Pokey, pokey recovery uh, pokey, pokey recovery, you
know get, get about year, yearand a half in the program, then
just had to go back out.
You know, left leg in, left legout, when you're in, when
you're out, yeah, one year inone year out.
Yeah, trying to figure thingsout.
Where are you at right now?
Just over 60 days again, attaboy.
Speaker 2 (14:07):
But his mom and dad are down right now from
Pennsylvania.
He's on point right now.
Speaker 1 (14:10):
Putting in the work.
Putting in the work.
Very happy for you, aaron.
Love you, brother.
Love you guys too.
All right, love you, brother.
Love you guys too.
All right, take care, brotherLove you buddy.
Speaker 3 (14:18):
Happy birthday, Rob.
Thank you, brother, I love you.
Speaker 1 (14:20):
Do you know how many years it is, aaron, 14 years.
Sorry, bonnie.
Speaker 2 (14:26):
Love you.
Speaker 3 (14:27):
Bonnie got it wrong this morning.
Speaker 2 (14:28):
Aaron, she got it wrong.
Speaker 3 (14:29):
What did Bonnie say?
Speaker 2 (14:34):
She got a whole little package with it.
She was going to let it happenwith a cake, but she had 13.
I said I'll wear it, but you'renot taking no pictures until
you have the right year.
Speaker 3 (14:44):
Lucky 13.
Speaker 2 (14:45):
That was last year.
Speaker 1 (14:47):
Is she there?
Speaker 2 (14:48):
No, she's not here.
Speaker 1 (14:50):
She's at home, she is going to listen to this one.
Speaker 3 (14:54):
But there is a special place in heaven for a
woman like Bonnie.
Remember that.
Speaker 2 (14:56):
No doubt about it, but there is a special place in
heaven for a woman like Bonnie.
Remember that.
Oh, no doubt about it.
Speaker 3 (14:58):
Anybody that can put up with me, not because of Rob,
not because of Rob, because shehas to put up with the rest of
us.
Speaker 1 (15:02):
You ain't lying.
She has to give her time to lethim.
Speaker 2 (15:06):
When we get Aaron on here, if he does tell that part
he can bring it when I've had totake Bonnie to help my backup.
All right, brother.
Speaker 1 (15:14):
Love All right brother, Love you, Love you
buddy, Love you too.
Love you guys.
See you, that was fun, allright, so I'm going to try and
get a couple more, but, like Isaid, I want to play that one
again because I don't know if wegot to hear the whole thing to
begin with.
Speaker 5 (15:30):
Hold on Recovery as you know, everybody's injured in
some sort of way.
It's a lonely road.
It's only you.
No matter how much help youhave, or PT you have, if your
tendons go or whatever the heckhappens, you still have to put
in the work every day and endurethe pain and manage the pain
and mitigate it.
It can be quite lonely, but Ialways found that my daughter
(15:53):
and my family I see their faceswhen I get better.
I could stand up, let's say, ornot pee in a jar.
I could get in a wheelchair Anysort of milestone I'd see their
faces get a little bit lesshorrified, even relieved, even
quite joyful.
Even so, as much damage as Idid to my family and their
hearts, me getting better canrelieve them of that burden.
(16:16):
So it was an easy one-way roadto recover and that's why I
recovered fast and I attributeit to my love for my family.
Speaker 1 (16:25):
You know, and, like I said, we're going to get
interrupted here in just aminute.
So if one of the things that Itook from that is when I was
listening to that and I heardhim say that the pain that he
saw in his family's face startto disappear upon here's, here
(16:47):
we go, here we go.
Hello, mr Jason.
Welcome on to the recoveryunfiltered podcast again,
apparently, god bless it hey heymorning, mr jason.
Speaker 4 (17:00):
Welcome on the recovery and filter podcast
thank you, can you hear me?
Oh, everybody can hear you hey,just wanted to say a special
happy birthday to my sponsor andsponsor of many, rob.
Speaker 2 (17:15):
Thank you brother.
Thank you very much how youdoing.
Speaker 1 (17:18):
I'm doing great.
Are you actually in the Valleyand not up camping fishing,
hiking in the middle of?
Speaker 4 (17:24):
nowhere.
Well, yeah, I don't want tomake this about me, but I'm in
town.
Speaker 1 (17:30):
No, I wouldn't have had you call me if I didn't want
to make it about you I haven'tbeen caught up with you in a
little while.
Speaker 2 (17:34):
That's a good man right here.
Speaker 1 (17:35):
Oh, buddy, I you know what.
Here's the thing I go over.
He works over in the bay and Igo over once a week and I got
the opportunity to have dinnerwith him one time.
Now he's ghosting me every timeI go over there.
I swear to god, it's like ablind date and he never wants to
see me again, I get it, jason,I absolutely get it damn it.
Speaker 2 (17:55):
Yeah right, buddy, I still owe you dinner but the
14th, right there was brandon'shis kids fight.
But we're gonna be, we're gonnado the go to the lake, yeah,
the houseboat right, we'll getto see jason there we'll do all
that together.
Speaker 1 (18:11):
So, jason, thanks for calling in brother love you.
Speaker 4 (18:13):
Thank you, brother, I appreciate you yeah, I love you
, yeah, I love you guys.
Speaker 1 (18:16):
Happy birthday Rob.
Speaker 2 (18:16):
Thank you man.
Speaker 1 (18:28):
Anyways, that's um when he talks about as he was
going through his recovery andseeing the joy on his family's
face, or that pain in hisfamily's face disappear as the
milestones as his milestonescome up.
I'm thinking, you know, like Isaid, I didn't listen to it
originally to get anything else,except I just listened to Joe
Rogan, right?
But man listening to that, itjust kept going back how that
(18:50):
physical recovery that he wentthrough, even the mental
recovery, is no different thanwhat we go through.
To me it's almost identical.
Speaker 2 (19:01):
A lot of similarities .
Speaker 1 (19:02):
So much right, Because I was very lonely during
my recovery, well, stillrecovery.
Speaker 2 (19:07):
But having a support group is important as you said,
but we have to do the workUnless someone's been through
what you've been through it'shard, for sure.
You can't just, you know Right.
Speaker 1 (19:21):
No, and it's like I said, it's one of those things
that we are when we're away from.
We can't be around a group allthe time, right, right, and most
of our hardest work we do iswhen we're alone.
That's when the, that's whenthe war.
Anybody can perform in front ofsomebody, right?
(19:43):
Anybody can't.
You know, they say what makesthe difference between an okay
athlete and a pro athlete?
It's what they do when nobody'swatching right is the the work
they put in when nobody'swatching right.
That's the difference betweenan average athlete and a great
athlete, right, or a pro athlete.
That's the difference betweenan average athlete and a great
athlete, right or a pro athlete.
That's the difference of what,and it's no difference to me and
(20:05):
I say the same thing.
Well, I feel the same way whenit comes to this recovery, when
we say this how free do you wantto be right?
If you want the freedom, if youwant that serenity, if you want
that peace, you have to put inthe work.
Oh, absolutely, absolutely.
When you're by yourself, whenyou're traveling, when you're
not around people watching you,when you're not around your
family, and when you do thosethings and you get back around
(20:29):
your family, your family's goingto see the difference in you
and what you're doing.
They're going to see thosemilestones, you know I, so I you
hear me say this so many timesthat live in amends that we do
right to our wives and to ourfamilies.
And you know we're going to getmore and more into families
here in the next few episodesbecause I think we got it worked
(20:51):
out that my family is going tostart coming on 50, 51 or 52 is
going to be my daughters, mywife and Rob's wife.
Uh, we have our 52, 52ndepisode coming up, which is our
birthday episode.
Right, our, our recovery,unfiltered birthday episode and
(21:13):
I want to make it's amazing howwe, how we put this together
after a year.
Right, it's god, it's 1000 god,from the very beginning but on
your healing thing, let me bringthis up.
Speaker 2 (21:23):
I got a call not what was yesterday, saturday, friday
evening afternoon-ish, brandonGonzalez called me.
He had got, he had a bad hipYep, due to my hip.
So he went in and he was justcalling me.
He was on day 17.
He was on day and he wastalking about this ache and then
he started bringing back, youknow.
Oh, then I started bringingback Because you forget me.
(21:44):
It's been a year for me, justover a year, you know to get
back to me from you know, andand a lot of the memories.
But in what they don't like,you talked about the shit that
you don't say, except Brandon,when you know, the only reason
I'm after the first week I usethat Walker was just to uh, uh
me.
Wow, rob, you're lookingamazing, you know.
(22:04):
Just, you're healing, great.
But they didn't see monday,tuesday, wednesday, thursday,
when I'm crawling on the floorbecause I pushed myself too hard
.
You know, like I do, yeah, butwe all put in that extra work
because I want, I wanted to beon the mat with my son, I wanted
, you know, and then, right,getting back from cancer, right,
then, okay, then I had to getthe hip done, so that pushed me
back another year.
But you got to put in the workyou have.
(22:26):
If you're not going to, itdoesn't matter how much support
you got, doesn't matter.
Uh, if you've got the bestadvice, the best doctors, the
best whatever.
If you don't have the desire,the willingness, it ain't gonna
happen nope, not at all.
You know, not at all, but again,there's going to be down times
there's, oh my god there's timesjust like, fuck, is this even
worth it?
Right, man, I can't do this andyou're, but then that's where
(22:47):
that support group comes right,that's where if someone's you
know been through a thousandpercent.
Speaker 1 (22:51):
You know, and I've probably said this, and it's
this isn't a poor me, this isn'tanything but I, I haven't had a
sober day without pain, righthow many surgeries have you had
now?
I've had four surgeries since Igot, since you know that's four
and three April 10th yeah.
So putting my hip back together,my two back surgeries and my,
(23:13):
and I'm probably going to haveto have another one.
So do I say that for poor me,fuck.
No, I did that damage back whenI was 18 years old and I got in
a bad accident because of mydrinking, you know.
Then, three weeks later, I getanother.
Actually, four and a half weekslater, I get another, just
horrible accident, because of mydrinking.
(23:34):
So am I, you know, now that I'mGod's putting me back together.
I remember all those things.
Right, it is what it is.
I did all this to my body, theyears of being overweight, the
years of misuse of my body, justthe years.
And you know, and I'm and I'mokay with it.
I come into peace and don't getme wrong, it's frustrating,
(23:54):
buddy.
I'm going to tell you thatdaily pain is.
I mean, it's, it's brutal, butI I've been very fortunate that
I have a wife that understands.
You know, I don't get me that.
I have a wife that understands.
There's days that I think thatshe gets frustrated, that I
struggle, but I don't stop.
(24:15):
I continue to do what I have todo.
I got to do stuff around thehouse.
I got it the same way as I gotto get into this book every day.
It's the same thing, whetherit's mental, physical, no matter
what it is If you don't put inthe work, you're going to
fucking die Period.
Speaker 2 (24:31):
And you won't get the results that you want.
What?
Speaker 1 (24:32):
did you tell me the other day you start dying from
the ground up.
Speaker 2 (24:35):
Death begins in the legs.
Death starts in the legs Right.
Speaker 1 (24:39):
And I'm midway, right In my lower back, in my hips.
I don't put in the work I needto start working out here.
You know there's just a lot ofthings, but you know.
But I'll go work outside alldamn day and put eight hours in
outside doing shit I shouldn'tbe doing doing.
(24:59):
But then I'm in misery for, youknow, three days because of it.
Speaker 2 (25:03):
But see that.
But I enjoyed that.
But, like I said, when I wouldwith a hip, because I mean I was
headed back to the mat, youknow, with my son, and then,
well, I promised myself I'd geta new hip when he got done with
wrestling, wrestling Right.
So I did, and he's Dad, I'mgoing to do jiu-jitsu.
So he started doing that, Likehere's my other opportunity.
But now and I was tellingBrandon friday evening, now my
(25:25):
left because I'm not with me andmy family have not been limber,
the limber, you know, shortstopwe're not very limber, but my
left hip, the titanium one, isstronger, yeah, more flexible,
all right, than the right one.
Right, because I've worked that.
I mean I'm left side dominantanyway, but I worked that son of
a bitch extra and now I gottacatch the right side up.
(25:47):
But what a gift, right, becauseI put in the work.
Speaker 1 (25:49):
You have to, you have to.
But here's the thing, and Iwant to read this one thing this
is another part of what jeremysaid later on.
It says people need to sufferto see the real love.
What he's talking about is thatif we never suffered a little
bit, we don't understand thevalue or the we don't appreciate
(26:11):
.
We don't appreciate Any giftsNothing.
Speaker 2 (26:14):
That's why God makes us work for these things.
Speaker 4 (26:15):
Oh, for sure.
Speaker 2 (26:16):
You know these prayers that we try to get
answered the seventh step, thethird step, and then we do those
steps, then we do the actualsteps afterwards.
Then we would appreciate Ifit's just given to us, we would
never appreciate I wouldn't.
I know that I wouldn't I wouldtake it for granted, you know,
and that's when we talk aboutthe mountaintop experiences,
which are beautiful, right, lovethem.
The view is great, the air iscrisp, but nothing grows up
there, nothing.
(26:36):
The growth takes place in thevalley, yes, and you must
experience both to appreciateabsolutely and we have.
I mean.
Speaker 1 (26:42):
So that's when you know what bible talks about, but
we still go and we still gothrough them we go through those
peaks and we go through thosevalleys.
Those valleys are brutal, butit's because we put in the work
to make that peak that we know.
When we start to slide off thatbackside and we see that valley
coming, we know fuck, here itgoes.
I better put on my boots.
Speaker 2 (27:00):
We got to do some work here.
Sometimes they're they're aself-inflicted yes sir, and
sometimes they're just life onlife's terms, yeah.
Speaker 1 (27:08):
I mean daily.
Daily, I deal with that Right.
Speaker 2 (27:11):
Scott says why keep putting one foot?
Speaker 1 (27:13):
in front of the other .
Just do what you're.
Just do what you're expected todo right now.
Right, this is all I'm expectedto do right now.
I'm expected to sit right hereto talk to you on this podcast
that we're reaching out topeople.
What we do after this podcast,who knows?
God will show me what to doafterwards, right, but we put in
everything that comes in frontof us, what happens in front of
(27:34):
us, we deal with it.
We deal with it the way we knowhow to deal with it.
Speaker 2 (27:37):
But now looking, but now we got, now I've got 14
years to look back on and thegood, the bad, the ugly.
I'm so grateful for all ofthose to get me to here.
Absolutely, I'm.
I mean I'm grateful for thework.
I'm glad you know, and the workwas where.
What I'm saying is the work wasworth it.
Yes, the work was absolutely.
I can't.
I don't know if I've ever askedpeople this.
I mean, is there any time youever put in, you know, put in
(28:09):
the effort, that it wasn't worthit?
That's always.
Is the juice worth the squeeze?
Even if I didn't accomplish mygoal, say where you're going.
Your goal is to stand on thetop of the podium, but you
didn't cheat yourself, youdidn't cheat your opponent.
You did the best you could.
You didn't beat yourself.
Speaker 1 (28:15):
They had to beat you Right and I you know what you
need to work on.
Speaker 2 (28:17):
Yeah, and I've always said that, even back coaching
football Make sure the effortyou put in before, but it's the
effort that people don't see,right, if you're not doing that,
then don't bitch.
Speaker 1 (28:32):
No and 1,000%.
My grandson, I mean, he wantsto be the best at baseball.
But I tell him the same thing.
What are you doing whennobody's watching buddy?
What are you doing whennobody's watching?
How many tees are you taking?
Speaker 2 (28:43):
Right.
Speaker 1 (28:43):
Yep, what are you doing?
Nobody's watching, I mean, ifyou want to be the best.
Speaker 2 (28:46):
That's why he said that, because Logan stopped
jujitsu when he was real littlemaybe six, maybe a little older
than that and then he went anddidn't play baseball for a while
and then he quit baseballbecause he's not going to be a
baseball player.
He was, you know, he's a greatathlete, but I had everything in
the effort.
Now then he starts wrestlinghis freshman year.
(29:07):
Now, watching him do that tothis, right, people don't see
what he does, right, I do.
That's why he.
That's why now he's on top ofthe podiums, right, because he's
put in that effort for theseyears and he puts in all the his
own diet, he does his owncooking, he shops for himself.
I pay for the bills most ofthem, but you know, but that's
what he's supposed to, but hepaid for all that and he's paid
(29:27):
his damn dues, right you know,um, and that's like I said.
Speaker 1 (29:31):
That's where I kind of wanted to go with this.
The recovery is recovery period.
It doesn't matter if it'sphysical right.
Speaker 2 (29:37):
Certain ingredients you must have.
You know there's a lot there.
There are a lot of uhmiscellaneous, but there are
certain ingredients, if you wantto be successful, that are the
same right physical mental andit does it like you know.
Speaker 1 (29:48):
If you that that episode with jeremy on joe rogan
is is, um, I don't know.
I, like I said the whole time Iwas listening to it, I I know
the pain.
The guy was squashed by a snowcap, for god's sakes, and if you
don't know what that is, lookit up up.
That is a massive piece ofmachinery and he was smashed on
(30:12):
the ice, not the snow, right?
If you listen to him explain it.
If it would have been on thepowder he wouldn't have been as
bad, but he was literally on theice.
When that snow cap went overthe top of him, did it track
over him?
The track went right over thetop of him, full-length.
The track over him.
The track went right over thetop of him, full length body
Full length body.
Oh no, kidding, From foot tohead.
From foot to head, not side toside, foot to head Right.
(30:34):
So every 36 crushed bones inhis body Right.
And listen to him how he cameout of that recovery and his
mental state of mind when he'scoming out of that.
I just equated the whole thingfor my, my recovery of my
alcohol and talking about.
There's another section in therewhere he talks about being with
(30:56):
other people that have beenthrough the same thing and the
community that he has around himnow of people that have went
through that same squashed, thatsame multiple broken bones, and
the group of people that he cantalk to in the group.
It's incredible.
And the other thing is is hisoutreach to other people doing
(31:18):
the same thing.
I mean, the whole thing wasjust this recovery.
It doesn't matter what you'redoing, whether it's alcohol,
drugs, broken bone, whateverit's doing, it's a mental state,
and then you've got to reachout and help people, to
continually help yourself.
Speaker 2 (31:33):
Absolutely Well, I do the same thing with cancer.
Speaker 1 (31:35):
For sure, my doctor gives out my number.
Speaker 2 (31:37):
But here's something that God gave me a gift when I
was going through it, when I wasforeman, where Brad is now.
Brad knows the story because heworks with her.
My wife knows the story, uh,because he works with her.
My wife knows the story becauseher and her and my wife are
fitbit buddies, but my waymaster, uh, well, they're their fitbit
buddy, her and sherry, uh, butsherry's having headaches.
She was my waymaster right andshe kept.
(31:59):
You know, you know me.
I say, listen, if you're notgonna do something about it,
quit bitching at me, right?
Well, she had a golf ball takenout of her head at the same
time.
I was going through cancer, ohboy.
So, all right, I had toremember, like I said, I
couldn't.
I couldn't sleep laying backbecause I choked to death.
She couldn't, she had to sleepat a certain angle or the
pressure would rupture her.
So we would text each other hey, you get any sleep last night?
no, you know, and then right,but at the times I would use
(32:20):
your buddy but at the times Iwould be down yeah man like I,
because that things I wouldn'ttell my wife like man, I just
don't, you know eight hours ofchemo coming back.
You feel like god's like Idon't, she's like I had chemo go
.
I just don't know if I can dothis.
You know I would text that kindof shit and she's like you have
to.
You've got wife, you've got kidsyou have to do this, I have to
well, I'm gonna, she goes, I'mgonna get back to work, and so
you know, and then the timeswhen she would go and come, know
(32:46):
, and I said, well, you know,and I was 149 pounds, I said
I'll tell you what.
You still help you lose, youhelp me, but but that, having
someone who kind of knew what Iwas going through, we could.
You know, there was a certainyep dude that helped more than
almost anything.
Speaker 1 (32:59):
It like I said, and that's what we've talked about
so many times with our group youknow, get with somebody and,
yeah, be with a group of people,get into your AA, and it
doesn't matter whether you'redealing with a physical, a
mental, whatever you're dealingwith, there's other people that
have gone through it.
You're not alone.
Keep God in the middle, by theway.
Speaker 2 (33:18):
Yes, and you're not alone, whatever you're going
through, whatever you're doing.
But if you are alone and youwalk through it and God gives
you the victory.
Absolutely you're doing anybody, but if you are alone and you
walk through it and god givesyou the victory.
Speaker 1 (33:29):
Absolutely go find someone, so they're not.
Speaker 2 (33:30):
Yep, go help and you will find a joy that you can't.
You can't get any other placeyou know, like these men that
have been calling right.
Speaker 1 (33:36):
Yeah, you know, it's incredible what we have, and I
mean there's 27 other people, 27other people that have it, you
know, with everybody.
But I promise you, you've allgiven me right, more than I've
ever, oh, and I know thatreceived more, more than I've
ever given you, oh and.
Speaker 2 (33:48):
I know that feeling I've received more than I've
ever given.
Speaker 1 (33:49):
I just finished with Blake.
He got through his 12 steps andI'm going to tell you right now
, I needed him probably morethan he needed me during that
period of time.
Speaker 2 (33:58):
I know exactly what you're talking about.
Speaker 1 (33:59):
I needed that.
I needed that refresher oneverything all those steps, oh
my gosh.
You know, I am consumed withwhat I have to do here for work.
I'm consumed with that, and I'mconsumed with stuff around the
house and I'm consumed withstuff.
And then you get to that pointin your life and like I need me,
(34:20):
I need me.
The fuck I do.
I need to give to somebody else.
That's what I needed to do.
Yeah Right, I kept tellingmyself I need time.
Speaker 2 (34:24):
So now, now, when you hear that you know time for me
is fucked, it's not healthy.
We look back when we're littlekids and Christmas is coming or
your birthday is coming.
You're just waiting to receiveRight.
And then you know your parentswill throw that quote at you.
You know, jesus says it's moreblessed to give than to receive
I don't know what you're talkingabout.
Speaker 1 (34:40):
But now it is Don mean lord.
Now I know what you mean.
Yeah, and like I said, I giveit.
I love to give it at work, Ilove to give it everywhere I get
and when I feel that mentalthought of mine that says I need
me time, I I got to get out ofthat head because that me time
causes problems.
Right when I get inside my ownhead I can't do it.
Speaker 2 (35:02):
They don't go there alone either.
Speaker 1 (35:04):
No, no, it's dangerous to be dangerous,
dangerous, dangerous, dangerous.
All right, mr rob, this isshorty.
Happy fucking birthday.
You midget motherfucker, Ifucking love you.
I love you too god damn it.
Love you brother, love youbuddy is it on the toilet?
Speaker 4 (35:22):
don't you use that as your?
Speaker 1 (35:23):
meditation thank you for joining us today.
Speaker 2 (35:29):
We hope you learned something today that will help
you.
Speaker 1 (35:31):
If you did not come back next week and we'll try
again If you like what we heard,give us a five-star review.
Speaker 2 (35:36):
If you don't like what you heard, kiss my ass.
I can't say that, can you?
Anyway, if you don't like whatyou heard, go ahead and tell us
that too.
We'll see what we can improve.
We probably won't changenothing, but do it anyway.
Speaker 1 (35:45):
Hey, thanks, rob.
Come back next week andhopefully something will be
different and something willsink in.
Take care, this has beenRecovery Unfiltered, thank you.
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