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Darcy Cogdale made headlines when he was jailed for assault and drugs charges but his story began as a bullied high schooler who went from drug addict to successful fitness entrepreneur all thanks to a coffee in the shower?
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Speaker 1 (00:05):
Approache production. Well, I was out of school, but the
studying nine A bitting spelled from three schools already I
was suspended and I was just from wagging fighting everyone
like this. And when I started to hang around these
groups of kids like lads and essays and all I
(00:27):
saw a sudden. I was like, these groups would go, hey,
do you want to come over to mine and drink
on the weekend. And then I'm getting invited to like parties,
and I'm like fuck yeah, like I'm a part of
something now, you know. And then so I'd go there
drink with mates and everybody, so I have the best
web time ever. Older then that would have been about
twelve twelve, eleven twelve years old. Eleven twelve years old
and you've gone over to drinks some parties and all
(00:48):
that kind of shit.
Speaker 2 (00:48):
You know. I started like fuck, I started like heavy drugs,
and I was like I.
Speaker 1 (00:52):
Started like like meth and speed and everything when I
was like twelve thirteen years old.
Speaker 2 (00:56):
You know.
Speaker 1 (00:56):
And that's why when we were hanging around each other
like these things, as I was saying my role models
with these older brothers. And then late twenties, early twenties
in and out of jail like lads like they're like
smoking ice, fucking injected math like all this sort of
shit that was the scene. Would look up to them
and would always be drunk on the weekends. I'd smoke
weed you know this, and then but they would always
come out and they're like fucking like cooked and shit,
and I'm like, how can they drunk?
Speaker 2 (01:18):
You know what I mean?
Speaker 1 (01:19):
And then like one of the older brothers sort of
took me under his wing, like because I was we
have my best mate's older brother was like one of
the big older boys there that we all looked up to.
And I would always be over the house on the weekends.
I like, hey, bro, like this coming over. We made
we became a good amaze. But I was a little one.
They would always go and do everything with him, like
would go and break and edit together, rob bottle is together,
like fucking everything like that, run into service stations would rob,
(01:41):
take as much stuff as we could and run like
bottle of the same thing running belloclaves on take bottles
of run then run out like that was but I
was the only one to do. Everyone else is too scared.
But I had zero fus so me and him got
really close. So and he's like I'm talking like like
nearly thirty and I'm like twelve, thirteen years old, you know.
And then one night he pulled me in the room.
He's like, you have something this, eat this, and you
(02:02):
had like a note like a no, And he pulled
out the stuff and cle bags put this on your
tongue and me put that on my tongue and I'm like,
oh that in the next minute, like im fucking cook.
Like that was he fed me speed and then that
was me at twelve years old, you know. And then
I started taking speed and then that was my next thing.
Because we sat in the room just like this all night,
door locked, and I'll dream of having a connection like
(02:23):
this with someone, you know, and we'll sit in the
room off our fucking head all night chat and like
having big dnms, like talking about life and what we're
going to do together, like where we're gonna rob, we're
gonna do like yeah, we're brothers, like shut hug each
other and shit like off your fucking head.
Speaker 2 (02:35):
But I love this, you know.
Speaker 1 (02:37):
This was a connection I never had being a part
of something getting off my head, having friends, being in
a circle like these crime drugs, graffiti, violence.
Speaker 2 (02:45):
This was more important than my family. My family always there.
What was you brother doing? When you see he seen you?
Speaker 1 (02:49):
He did the opposite. He resented me. He was I
was me and him. He was always the good kid,
and he'd just be like this. He resented me a
lot because I'll be sneaking in and I'm like, don't
tell you I'm going out, and then he'll tell them
and I'll be like, fuck you your dog. Like you know,
I took a lot of stuff. I'd never beat him
or anything like that, but we did have like arguments.
Speaker 2 (03:06):
He's a little bit.
Speaker 1 (03:06):
I love my little brother death now, but back then
he was the one I was telling on me and
in the group I was coming from, like if you're
a dog, you're a snit training like this, you're fucking
you're you're med dead. To me, you stood a big kid.
Then when you got to I started losing a bit
of weight on the drugs bad. That's when I started
losing a bit of weight and I got pretty lean.
Like I got pretty I was pretty cracked out. I
was using drugs all the time. And then because what
(03:28):
I do my weekly if you'd be wake up or
if when I do wake up go stealing, you know.
I would go to Meyer's David Jones to go get
more drugs, like I go on to Meyer's David Jones
for like nordal Capolo is like you know, like lad shit,
you know what I mean. I'd go on there and
I'm going to Meyers and I'll be popping beepers. I
had a beeper gun at one point where I'll just
pop beepers off and then I'll just fill up, Like
I'll put a bag underneath the fucking set of clothes,
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like I tuck it under and they'll just roll up
shirts fill the bag. I'll get thirty forty polos in
this fucking duffle bag and they would just scoop up
the bag and then walk out, fucking walk out the
door and his cruiser with like forty fifty shirts easy.
I did that on a regular I used to get
shopping lists from people. I used to rob the sunglasses
that you're going there with a boost juice and then
try Sunny's on them when she's not looking.
Speaker 2 (04:09):
You put the Sunnies in the boot juice of his
like crim shit, you know.
Speaker 1 (04:13):
But I would go start for gear like I would
go fuck five grands worth of shirts for like one
hundred doll a point of gear, just one little hit.
I was like this to get me through that day.
Like I was just like here, pull this, and I
had people I could sell it. I can sell meat,
like doing meat.
Speaker 2 (04:25):
We're actually going to how much you're making a week.
I don't know money wise. I was just just spending gear.
Money was never I never did it for money.
Speaker 1 (04:32):
It was just I was just so you could just
put my heart and you get off my head because
I was like living on the streets.
Speaker 2 (04:36):
How much we were taking then how much we were
taking of that we.
Speaker 1 (04:39):
Fuck well, like you get a point and it'll last
me day at that point, so the points sounded like
one hundred bucks on the heavy using but that point.
Speaker 2 (04:45):
But then when I started using more regularly.
Speaker 1 (04:47):
You'd go through a ball a day, or like you
use a fucking the end of the week, you're going
through a quarter a half an hour. It's gear or
something like that, like eating points all day or two points.
And then when I started smoking ice, it's fucking there's
game over. Like none of the boys around you who
you're doing the robbin, we've seen you getting out of
control or they looked at it.
Speaker 2 (05:04):
They look we were living. That whole scene was like
that was normal. There was no one to be like.
Speaker 1 (05:09):
But they live with their parents too, No, yeah, some
some would live.
Speaker 2 (05:14):
Yeah we had houses.
Speaker 1 (05:14):
We stayed at it, but like the mom didn't really
give a function getting on the drugs with us.
Speaker 2 (05:18):
Things like that. That was the whole wom're just stealing fighting.
I was my whole. That's how I grew up. It
was this off metal time.
Speaker 1 (05:25):
Stealing violence is like fighting on weekends, painting trains, painting.
Speaker 2 (05:29):
Like I love graffeiting. I still love grafeeding. I love it.
It's like a part. But like you get off your head.
Speaker 1 (05:34):
You sit there all night sketching a book all night
and the sunrise is coming up and you're like, oh fuck,
and you meant to go out graffiti, go paint and
train or go paint something that night, but you get.
Speaker 2 (05:41):
Lost in this book.
Speaker 1 (05:42):
Because yeah, a lot of people relate to that if
you get GRAFEEDI and everything.
Speaker 2 (05:47):
But like that's the whole scene. And then after I
was using from what twelve or.
Speaker 1 (05:52):
Up till about I was eighteen, and then I started
seeing this chick, started seeing this chick that was hanging around,
was just getting on the drugs and she wasn't healthy,
you know, it was just but I started to get
comfortable with her.
Speaker 2 (06:02):
So I started to get real fat. I started to
I can hate myself.
Speaker 1 (06:05):
I wasn't a part of the boys, and so I'm like,
fucking seil add a bitch, I'm.
Speaker 2 (06:09):
Out run down back to the boys, like see, I'm done.
Speaker 1 (06:12):
So I broken off with her and then started going
back out with the boys, started paying, started doing everything
I love again, fighting, just having fun.
Speaker 2 (06:18):
That was fun to me, you know.
Speaker 1 (06:20):
And then while I was drinking my night at this
gil Hoollies pub with the boys in that and then
they got a message saying.
Speaker 2 (06:28):
That you misses out with two of my mates. So
meant to be two of my mates, and she's hooking
up with one of them. She's kissing, like getting with
them and shit.
Speaker 1 (06:36):
And to me, like I'm all about loyalty, that was
my whole thing. I was the most loyal person, Like
I have fought for these guys, like I've stolen from them.
I'll put fucking roof over the head when they didn't
have shit, I'll get them stuff like I'd steal them stuff.
Speaker 2 (06:48):
So they could eat. I was like I was always
for my mates.
Speaker 1 (06:51):
Like I was always for my brothers, anyone who they
were like family to me, you know, and I would
do anything for them, and I always did.
Speaker 2 (06:56):
I always wanted to throw the first punch when they
were too scared.
Speaker 1 (06:58):
I was one of someone was picking on them, old
stand up and that sort of shit like brotherhood loyalty.
Speaker 2 (07:03):
That was me a hundred through.
Speaker 1 (07:05):
So when I found out they did this to me,
I just seen fucking red and I was fat again.
I fucking hated myself and I was just like fucking
I just wanted to go kill these cans and everyone.
And then I ended up just breaking down crying in
this car park neim. I'm like in gil Hilly's terms,
which was close to my parents' house. I was just
everything's fell apart. Because when you're in the scene, you
get on a little time, you really your mental health
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doesn't come into it, you know, like you don't come
because I never came down, bro, I never had come
downs because I was always fucking high, you know, and
your mental health only starts getting bad later, like you
don't like have your first piping.
Speaker 2 (07:36):
Oh my god, my mental states fuck after a long time.
Speaker 1 (07:40):
So I guess over time when this happened, all these
emotions come up because obviously I'm going through the break
up as well.
Speaker 2 (07:45):
I was going through this.
Speaker 1 (07:46):
And then I haven't seen my family in fucking years,
like you know, I mean mylone's sleeping couches, Like what
am I doing?
Speaker 2 (07:51):
And I was fat again.
Speaker 1 (07:52):
I hated myself so and the trauma of me being
fat as a kid, like I've just got fat and
insecure again.
Speaker 2 (07:58):
So I just broke down crying.
Speaker 1 (08:00):
And then something made me this my parents' house, lived
this up the road, and so I'm like and go
back to my dads. I was just fucking drunk crying,
just walk back up to mom and dads. And when
I went back up to mom and dads, I got
like around the corner and I was just like, what
I meant to say to my mom and dad? I mean,
like I haven't seen them in years, like i've heard them,
I like I've been on the Missing Persons and so
I don't even see me what I meant to do,
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like I'll go up and just tell them all this shit.
Speaker 2 (08:24):
And I was just like fuck this. So and I've.
Speaker 1 (08:27):
Obviously really hurt from all the other stuff that's going on.
And then I went over to the school. So at
the school across the road from mom and dads, that's
where I started drinking when I was a kid, and
graffiti as a kid and ever like this, and started
getting in that like so when to the school used
to I used to drink up on this rooftop and
I was just up there just crying and crying and crying.
And then I can't see my mom and dad. I
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can't see them. I've hurt them my whole life, all
my mates. So I thought my were brothers. They were
meant to be there for me and my loyalty. They
were fucking spat in my face and I've got no one.
I'm alone and fat as fucking I fucking hate myself.
And then I tried jumping off the roof. I tried
taking my own life, and I was like hey, net
and then yeah, and then I came to after doing that,
and I just woke up. My bank was fucked, and
I was just like, I walked across the road to
(09:10):
mom and dads.
Speaker 2 (09:13):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (09:15):
Then I walked across the home back to mom and dads,
and it's knocked on the door and told him what happened,
and that Mum and Dad was like, what the fuck
you know what I mean, Like, are you fucking serious
do taking my life?
Speaker 2 (09:26):
And I was just like, well, I don't know what
to do. I'm so sorry, and I was broke down
to them.
Speaker 1 (09:31):
The plan was my dad was working over in christ
Church on the rebuilding for like builders and doing everything
over there. So the plan was and I was like,
I'm done. I'm fucking done with this life. I need
to get out of here, like you know, I'll just
fucking after that. I need to make a change. I'm like,
I got to change my life. And then the plan
was that I go over to christ Church to help
Dad with the rebuild, get over there, get off the drugs,
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get off everything.
Speaker 2 (09:52):
He start. Can't just start changing my life? And I did.
Speaker 1 (09:55):
So I went over to christ Church with Dad, started
to work with him, got healthy, got fit. One of
his building mates was a like a in the bodybuilding
and stuff. He did me up a meal plan and
he said, here, just go do this in the gym.
Gave me a little program and I was going there
morning and afternoon training.
Speaker 2 (10:07):
I was working during the day and.
Speaker 1 (10:09):
I was about one hundred and twenty one killers when
I went over there, and then I lost about forty
two kilos. I come down on what it was I
rock with down around seventies, so I took about forty
plus kilos over there. Was feeling good, have my abs out,
feeling fucking me again. I'm like, fuck, yeah, I feel awesome.
I'm like when I started getting back on social media
over in christ Church, I started looking and seeing all
people out at club them and having fun and like
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all made someone were going out and they having like
birthday parties and groups of mates doing that, and I'm like, fuck,
I'm missing out of life. I want to go back
and show over run that I've changed.
Speaker 2 (10:39):
You know, I've seen boys, yeah, no people I didn't know.
Speaker 1 (10:43):
There were people that were in the scene that I know,
and there was other people that knew like I knew everyone,
like I knew everyone from just being a part of
any parties and shit. But I seen like risk in
a way respectable people going out and then I was
like fuck, I started looking good and I said, I'm like,
I'm going to go back and show over and I've
changed everyone who dabed to me, the people who stabbed
me in the back. Actually, everyone, they can all get fucked.
We'll come back. I'm looking mad on the show over
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and I was like, going to be my I'm back.
I told Dad. I'm like I'm done, man, I'm gonna
go home and change my life. You know, I'll see
you later on fucking out. And he's like, God, I
don't think he's a good idea.
Speaker 2 (11:11):
This is like four months, three four months. And he's
just like, I don't think it's a good idea. And
I'm like, I don't give a fuck. I'm like, can't
I always I'm gonna want I'm getting a play in ASA.
Speaker 1 (11:21):
I'm like, I've got money, I'm getting my own plane.
Approache production. Well, I was out of school, but the
studying nine A bitting spelled from three schools already I
was suspended and I was just from wagging fighting everyone
like this. And when I started to hang around these
groups of kids like lads and essays and all I
(00:27):
saw a sudden. I was like, these groups would go, hey,
do you want to come over to mine and drink
on the weekend. And then I'm getting invited to like parties,
and I'm like fuck yeah, like I'm a part of
something now, you know. And then so I'd go there
drink with mates and everybody, so I have the best
web time ever. Older then that would have been about
twelve twelve, eleven twelve years old. Eleven twelve years old
and you've gone over to drinks some parties and all
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that kind of shit.
Speaker 2 (00:48):
You know. I started like fuck, I started like heavy drugs,
and I was like I.
Speaker 1 (00:52):
Started like like meth and speed and everything when I
was like twelve thirteen years old.
Speaker 2 (00:56):
You know.
Speaker 1 (00:56):
And that's why when we were hanging around each other
like these things, as I was saying my role models
with these older brothers. And then late twenties, early twenties
in and out of jail like lads like they're like
smoking ice, fucking injected math like all this sort of
shit that was the scene. Would look up to them
and would always be drunk on the weekends. I'd smoke
weed you know this, and then but they would always
come out and they're like fucking like cooked and shit,
and I'm like, how can they drunk?
Speaker 2 (01:18):
You know what I mean?
Speaker 1 (01:19):
And then like one of the older brothers sort of
took me under his wing, like because I was we
have my best mate's older brother was like one of
the big older boys there that we all looked up to.
And I would always be over the house on the weekends.
I like, hey, bro, like this coming over. We made
we became a good amaze. But I was a little one.
They would always go and do everything with him, like
would go and break and edit together, rob bottle is together,
like fucking everything like that, run into service stations would rob,
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take as much stuff as we could and run like
bottle of the same thing running belloclaves on take bottles
of run then run out like that was but I
was the only one to do. Everyone else is too scared.
But I had zero fus so me and him got
really close. So and he's like I'm talking like like
nearly thirty and I'm like twelve, thirteen years old, you know.
And then one night he pulled me in the room.
He's like, you have something this, eat this, and you
(02:02):
had like a note like a no, And he pulled
out the stuff and cle bags put this on your
tongue and me put that on my tongue and I'm like,
oh that in the next minute, like im fucking cook.
Like that was he fed me speed and then that
was me at twelve years old, you know. And then
I started taking speed and then that was my next thing.
Because we sat in the room just like this all night,
door locked, and I'll dream of having a connection like
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this with someone, you know, and we'll sit in the
room off our fucking head all night chat and like
having big dnms, like talking about life and what we're
going to do together, like where we're gonna rob, we're
gonna do like yeah, we're brothers, like shut hug each
other and shit like off your fucking head.
Speaker 2 (02:35):
But I love this, you know.
Speaker 1 (02:37):
This was a connection I never had being a part
of something getting off my head, having friends, being in
a circle like these crime drugs, graffiti, violence.
Speaker 2 (02:45):
This was more important than my family. My family always there.
What was you brother doing? When you see he seen you?
Speaker 1 (02:49):
He did the opposite. He resented me. He was I
was me and him. He was always the good kid,
and he'd just be like this. He resented me a
lot because I'll be sneaking in and I'm like, don't
tell you I'm going out, and then he'll tell them
and I'll be like, fuck you your dog. Like you know,
I took a lot of stuff. I'd never beat him
or anything like that, but we did have like arguments.
Speaker 2 (03:06):
He's a little bit.
Speaker 1 (03:06):
I love my little brother death now, but back then
he was the one I was telling on me and
in the group I was coming from, like if you're
a dog, you're a snit training like this, you're fucking
you're you're med dead. To me, you stood a big kid.
Then when you got to I started losing a bit
of weight on the drugs bad. That's when I started
losing a bit of weight and I got pretty lean.
Like I got pretty I was pretty cracked out. I
was using drugs all the time. And then because what
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I do my weekly if you'd be wake up or
if when I do wake up go stealing, you know.
I would go to Meyer's David Jones to go get
more drugs, like I go on to Meyer's David Jones
for like nordal Capolo is like you know, like lad shit,
you know what I mean. I'd go on there and
I'm going to Meyers and I'll be popping beepers. I
had a beeper gun at one point where I'll just
pop beepers off and then I'll just fill up, Like
I'll put a bag underneath the fucking set of clothes,
(03:49):
like I tuck it under and they'll just roll up
shirts fill the bag. I'll get thirty forty polos in
this fucking duffle bag and they would just scoop up
the bag and then walk out, fucking walk out the
door and his cruiser with like forty fifty shirts easy.
I did that on a regular I used to get
shopping lists from people. I used to rob the sunglasses
that you're going there with a boost juice and then
try Sunny's on them when she's not looking.
Speaker 2 (04:09):
You put the Sunnies in the boot juice of his
like crim shit, you know.
Speaker 1 (04:13):
But I would go start for gear like I would
go fuck five grands worth of shirts for like one
hundred doll a point of gear, just one little hit.
I was like this to get me through that day.
Like I was just like here, pull this, and I
had people I could sell it. I can sell meat,
like doing meat.
Speaker 2 (04:25):
We're actually going to how much you're making a week.
I don't know money wise. I was just just spending gear.
Money was never I never did it for money.
Speaker 1 (04:32):
It was just I was just so you could just
put my heart and you get off my head because
I was like living on the streets.
Speaker 2 (04:36):
How much we were taking then how much we were
taking of that we.
Speaker 1 (04:39):
Fuck well, like you get a point and it'll last
me day at that point, so the points sounded like
one hundred bucks on the heavy using but that point.
Speaker 2 (04:45):
But then when I started using more regularly.
Speaker 1 (04:47):
You'd go through a ball a day, or like you
use a fucking the end of the week, you're going
through a quarter a half an hour. It's gear or
something like that, like eating points all day or two points.
And then when I started smoking ice, it's fucking there's
game over. Like none of the boys around you who
you're doing the robbin, we've seen you getting out of
control or they looked at it.
Speaker 2 (05:04):
They look we were living. That whole scene was like
that was normal. There was no one to be like.
Speaker 1 (05:09):
But they live with their parents too, No, yeah, some
some would live.
Speaker 2 (05:14):
Yeah we had houses.
Speaker 1 (05:14):
We stayed at it, but like the mom didn't really
give a function getting on the drugs with us.
Speaker 2 (05:18):
Things like that. That was the whole wom're just stealing fighting.
I was my whole. That's how I grew up. It
was this off metal time.
Speaker 1 (05:25):
Stealing violence is like fighting on weekends, painting trains, painting.
Speaker 2 (05:29):
Like I love graffeiting. I still love grafeeding. I love it.
It's like a part. But like you get off your head.
Speaker 1 (05:34):
You sit there all night sketching a book all night
and the sunrise is coming up and you're like, oh fuck,
and you meant to go out graffiti, go paint and
train or go paint something that night, but you get.
Speaker 2 (05:41):
Lost in this book.
Speaker 1 (05:42):
Because yeah, a lot of people relate to that if
you get GRAFEEDI and everything.
Speaker 2 (05:47):
But like that's the whole scene. And then after I
was using from what twelve or.
Speaker 1 (05:52):
Up till about I was eighteen, and then I started
seeing this chick, started seeing this chick that was hanging around,
was just getting on the drugs and she wasn't healthy,
you know, it was just but I started to get
comfortable with her.
Speaker 2 (06:02):
So I started to get real fat. I started to
I can hate myself.
Speaker 1 (06:05):
I wasn't a part of the boys, and so I'm like,
fucking seil add a bitch, I'm.
Speaker 2 (06:09):
Out run down back to the boys, like see, I'm done.
Speaker 1 (06:12):
So I broken off with her and then started going
back out with the boys, started paying, started doing everything
I love again, fighting, just having fun.
Speaker 2 (06:18):
That was fun to me, you know.
Speaker 1 (06:20):
And then while I was drinking my night at this
gil Hoollies pub with the boys in that and then
they got a message saying.
Speaker 2 (06:28):
That you misses out with two of my mates. So
meant to be two of my mates, and she's hooking
up with one of them. She's kissing, like getting with
them and shit.
Speaker 1 (06:36):
And to me, like I'm all about loyalty, that was
my whole thing. I was the most loyal person, Like
I have fought for these guys, like I've stolen from them.
I'll put fucking roof over the head when they didn't
have shit, I'll get them stuff like I'd steal them stuff.
Speaker 2 (06:48):
So they could eat. I was like I was always
for my mates.
Speaker 1 (06:51):
Like I was always for my brothers, anyone who they
were like family to me, you know, and I would
do anything for them, and I always did.
Speaker 2 (06:56):
I always wanted to throw the first punch when they
were too scared.
Speaker 1 (06:58):
I was one of someone was picking on them, old
stand up and that sort of shit like brotherhood loyalty.
Speaker 2 (07:03):
That was me a hundred through.
Speaker 1 (07:05):
So when I found out they did this to me,
I just seen fucking red and I was fat again.
I fucking hated myself and I was just like fucking
I just wanted to go kill these cans and everyone.
And then I ended up just breaking down crying in
this car park neim. I'm like in gil Hilly's terms,
which was close to my parents' house. I was just
everything's fell apart. Because when you're in the scene, you
get on a little time, you really your mental health
(07:25):
doesn't come into it, you know, like you don't come
because I never came down, bro, I never had come
downs because I was always fucking high, you know, and
your mental health only starts getting bad later, like you
don't like have your first piping.
Speaker 2 (07:36):
Oh my god, my mental states fuck after a long time.
Speaker 1 (07:40):
So I guess over time when this happened, all these
emotions come up because obviously I'm going through the break
up as well.
Speaker 2 (07:45):
I was going through this.
Speaker 1 (07:46):
And then I haven't seen my family in fucking years,
like you know, I mean mylone's sleeping couches, Like what
am I doing?
Speaker 2 (07:51):
And I was fat again.
Speaker 1 (07:52):
I hated myself so and the trauma of me being
fat as a kid, like I've just got fat and
insecure again.
Speaker 2 (07:58):
So I just broke down crying.
Speaker 1 (08:00):
And then something made me this my parents' house, lived
this up the road, and so I'm like and go
back to my dads. I was just fucking drunk crying,
just walk back up to mom and dads. And when
I went back up to mom and dads, I got
like around the corner and I was just like, what
I meant to say to my mom and dad? I mean,
like I haven't seen them in years, like i've heard them,
I like I've been on the Missing Persons and so
I don't even see me what I meant to do,
(08:22):
like I'll go up and just tell them all this shit.
Speaker 2 (08:24):
And I was just like fuck this. So and I've.
Speaker 1 (08:27):
Obviously really hurt from all the other stuff that's going on.
And then I went over to the school. So at
the school across the road from mom and dads, that's
where I started drinking when I was a kid, and
graffiti as a kid and ever like this, and started
getting in that like so when to the school used
to I used to drink up on this rooftop and
I was just up there just crying and crying and crying.
And then I can't see my mom and dad. I
(08:47):
can't see them. I've hurt them my whole life, all
my mates. So I thought my were brothers. They were
meant to be there for me and my loyalty. They
were fucking spat in my face and I've got no one.
I'm alone and fat as fucking I fucking hate myself.
And then I tried jumping off the roof. I tried
taking my own life, and I was like hey, net
and then yeah, and then I came to after doing that,
and I just woke up. My bank was fucked, and
I was just like, I walked across the road to
(09:10):
mom and dads.
Speaker 2 (09:13):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (09:15):
Then I walked across the home back to mom and dads,
and it's knocked on the door and told him what happened,
and that Mum and Dad was like, what the fuck
you know what I mean, Like, are you fucking serious
do taking my life?
Speaker 2 (09:26):
And I was just like, well, I don't know what
to do. I'm so sorry, and I was broke down
to them.
Speaker 1 (09:31):
The plan was my dad was working over in christ
Church on the rebuilding for like builders and doing everything
over there. So the plan was and I was like,
I'm done. I'm fucking done with this life. I need
to get out of here, like you know, I'll just
fucking after that. I need to make a change. I'm like,
I got to change my life. And then the plan
was that I go over to christ Church to help
Dad with the rebuild, get over there, get off the drugs,
(09:52):
get off everything.
Speaker 2 (09:52):
He start. Can't just start changing my life? And I did.
Speaker 1 (09:55):
So I went over to christ Church with Dad, started
to work with him, got healthy, got fit. One of
his building mates was a like a in the bodybuilding
and stuff. He did me up a meal plan and
he said, here, just go do this in the gym.
Gave me a little program and I was going there
morning and afternoon training.
Speaker 2 (10:07):
I was working during the day and.
Speaker 1 (10:09):
I was about one hundred and twenty one killers when
I went over there, and then I lost about forty
two kilos. I come down on what it was I
rock with down around seventies, so I took about forty
plus kilos over there. Was feeling good, have my abs out,
feeling fucking me again. I'm like, fuck, yeah, I feel awesome.
I'm like when I started getting back on social media
over in christ Church, I started looking and seeing all
people out at club them and having fun and like
(10:31):
all made someone were going out and they having like
birthday parties and groups of mates doing that, and I'm like, fuck,
I'm missing out of life. I want to go back
and show over run that I've changed.
Speaker 2 (10:39):
You know, I've seen boys, yeah, no people I didn't know.
Speaker 1 (10:43):
There were people that were in the scene that I know,
and there was other people that knew like I knew everyone,
like I knew everyone from just being a part of
any parties and shit. But I seen like risk in
a way respectable people going out and then I was
like fuck, I started looking good and I said, I'm like,
I'm going to go back and show over and I've
changed everyone who dabed to me, the people who stabbed
me in the back. Actually, everyone, they can all get fucked.
We'll come back. I'm looking mad on the show over
(11:04):
and I was like, going to be my I'm back.
I told Dad. I'm like I'm done, man, I'm gonna
go home and change my life. You know, I'll see
you later on fucking out. And he's like, God, I
don't think he's a good idea.
Speaker 2 (11:11):
This is like four months, three four months. And he's
just like, I don't think it's a good idea. And
I'm like, I don't give a fuck. I'm like, can't
I always I'm gonna want I'm getting a play in ASA.
Speaker 1 (11:21):
I'm like, I've got money, I'm getting my own plane.
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