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You are awareness.
Awareness is another name foryou.
Since you are awareness, thereis no need to attain or
cultivate it.
All that you have to do is togive up being aware of other
things, that is, of the not-self.
If one gives up being aware ofthem, then pure awareness alone
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remains, and that is the self.
Ramana Maharshi, welcome toSelf Talk.
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I'm Rachel Estarte.
Thank you for being here Today.
We're going to continue ourdiscussion about the
fundamentals of the foundationof self by talking about
awareness.
Awareness is the first tool weuse to build our foundation of
self.
We'll talk about how that toolis used later on.
Before we do that, let's defineour terms.
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It's always a good place tobegin.
Awareness is the act ofconsciously placing our
attention, just that.
Awareness is the act of placingour attention on something
outside of us or within us, withconsciousness.
When we do that, you could saywe have metaconsciousness, or
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awareness of being aware.
So let's try a simplemetaconsciousness exercise
together.
Look at something next to you,say a pen or a book or a mug of
tea or a chair.
Got it by looking at that item.
You have placed your attentionon it, you have become aware of
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it.
You are practicing awareness inthis moment.
Keep looking at it this moment,keep looking at it.
So, in this case, the subjecton which you have now just
placed your awareness is theitem you've chosen to look at.
Okay, you can stop now.
Notice how other things aroundyou kind of fell away from your
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awareness.
You directed your attention tothe one thing, away from your
awareness.
You directed your attention tothe one thing, which necessarily
meant that the other things didnot take priority.
It's not that you couldn't seethem in your peripheral vision,
but they were not prioritized byyour awareness in that moment.
You did not actively bring theminto your consciousness.
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So, one more time, focus onthat thing again, the thing you
chose before.
Keep the focus but begin tonotice other items closely
surrounding it.
Notice how you can keep focuson your object but still allow
for those peripheral things tocome into your consciousness.
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So you have a main focus theitem you chose and a lighter
awareness of the things aroundit.
Okay, great, I'll ask you tohold on to this concept as we
continue.
There are many types ofawareness, but for our purposes,
as awareness relates tobuilding a foundation of self,
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we're going to look at threeAwareness of self, awareness of
interconnectedness and awarenessas we practice, as in doing our
inner work.
Awareness of the self has twoparts awareness of the mind and
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of the body.
So let's talk about the mindfirst.
When we think aboutself-awareness, we have to ask
if I am aware of myself, who isit that I'm aware of?
In other words, who am I?
Spiritual teacher RamanaMaharshi, whom you heard at the
beginning, taught about this inhis book of the same name who Am
I?
You can download a copy of itfor free off the internet.
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It's available in 39 languages.
I'll add the link in the shownotes.
Ramana Maharishi taught themethod of self-inquiry to bring
awareness to the true self, notthe ego self.
Self-inquiry begins with thequestion who am I?
And as the layers of thosedefinitions of self get peeled
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away, such as our physicaldescriptions, our titles and
labels, we see that there is auniversal self.
The true self is a universalself, the true self that is at
the core of our being, pureawareness, and we can call this
self the capital S self, whilethe ego self, the self that is
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defined by those physical traits, titles and labels, etc.
That's the small s self.
In this way, we actually havetwo mind selves, to be aware of
the true, eternal consciousnessself and the false ego self.
We strive to stay in the stateof the true self, unbothered by
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the false self.
This is part of the foundationwe speak of when we refer to the
foundation of self.
But until we reach that point,there will be a lot of interplay
between these two versions ofself.
Remember that we don't judgeOne is not better than the other
.
They work together to create awhole human being, which we will
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get to later on.
So now let's bring in bodyawareness.
Body awareness doesn't meanbody assessment, as in looking
at your body, but it's more likelooking from within your body
through sensation.
The felt sense of the body iscalled interoception.
We most commonly associateinteroception with body
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sensations like needing tosneeze or being hungry or
thirsty or having to use thebathroom.
Interoception also allows us tofeel into the sensations that
emotions bring up in us.
We don't think our feelings.
We feel them.
To bring awareness to our bodiesmeans that we feel into or drop
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in and pay attention to what'sgoing on within our physical
bodies, just like you did inthat first exercise when you
selected an object to bring yourattention to, except now we get
quiet and we bring ourattention to what is going on
inside our bodies.
Let's try that together For 30seconds.
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I'll keep count.
Drop in and simply witness whatis going on in your body.
You're not trying to changeanything and you're certainly
not judging what you sense.
You're simply witnessing, likea reporter on the scene.
Okay, so let's start our 30seconds now.
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Now take a moment to notice howyou feel, note that connection
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you have between the inner selfand the outer world.
Try to hold this, if you can,as we continue to the awareness
of interconnectedness.
We've talked about the mind andbody.
This idea of interconnectednessbrings in the awareness of our
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spirit.
Again, we return to RamanaMaharshi and his teaching of the
philosophy of Advaita Vedanta,which says that there is no
separation between the self andthe universe.
They are the same.
They are the same.
All is energy communicatingwith itself.
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We as individuals are part ofthe greater whole.
It's helpful to keep this inmind as we interact with other
people and the world around us.
We are all part of the samefamily, originating with a big
bang and radiating out into allforms.
This is what quantumentanglement shows us, or
Einstein's spooky action at adistance.
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Very simply, two particlesseparated by great distances
communicate with each other,which researchers tested by
measuring the spin of oneparticle, and then they repeated
the measurement on the otherdistant particle and noted that
its spin correlated with thefirst particle.
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Fascinating stuff.
Go look it up.
When we practice self-inquiry,peeling away those layers of
false self, we begin toexperience that unity clearly.
We understand that the trueself we are exists in others as
well.
We all carry and have access tothat eternal consciousness,
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from your mail carrier to themycelial network, underground
network, underground.
Okay, we've covered awarenessof self and of
interconnectedness.
Now let's talk about awarenessas we practice.
As we discussed in the lastepisode, non-judgment is the
lifeblood that runs throughfoundation of self-work.
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The first tool we use in thiswork is awareness.
What that means is we bring ourconscious attention to what is
happening in our lives.
We notice when we're feelingout of alignment, because the
feeling of misalignment is theindicator that we need to course
correct and realign ourselves.
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Sometimes your first indicationwill be awareness in your body.
Someone cuts you off in trafficand your stomach lurches.
Your face flushes.
You feel agitation in yourupper belly, which is your solar
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plexus energy center being outof alignment.
Perhaps a friend or partner orparent has tuned out while
you're telling a story and yourmind says, hey, they're not
listening to you.
That's wrong, right.
That's awareness.
Sometimes our awareness ofmisalignment is not triggered by
someone or something outside ofourselves, but something within
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Usually it's the voice of thesmall S self or the ego self,
the self that is concerned withthe minutiae of day-to-day life.
The small S self oftenfunctions from a place of fear.
Will I be liked?
Will I say the right thing?
What do others think of me?
This self-talk is clearly notour true selves.
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Talking, our true self, theself that is pure awareness,
pure consciousness, the I thatis I, the witness, is eternal
and therefore isn't bothered bythese issues.
So, for example, the small Sself might say I'm no good at
public speaking.
But the capital S self, thetrue self, might say instead, I
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will learn how to get better atpublic speaking.
So the ego self again, there'ssomething wrong with me.
That's some self-talk, that'sego-based, right.
But the capital S self wouldsay I'm unique in all the world.
This is who I am.
One more example no one likesme, no one loves me, no one
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understands me.
That's the ego.
Oh, the loneliness, theisolation.
The larger self, the eternalself, the capital S self, says I
am liked and loved in ways Imay not even realize.
I understand myself and I'mdoing the best I can in this
moment.
Right See, there's a muchlarger view than the small S
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self offers us.
So as we do this deep inner work, it's essential to continue to
practice non-judgment, becausewe may be looking at parts of
ourselves we want to change orrealign and we'll have a
tendency to judge them as bad.
We spoke in the last episodeabout this othering and how it's
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not helpful.
It shames us and stops us fromgrowing helpful.
It shames us and stops us fromgrowing.
Likewise, as we begin topractice tools like awareness,
we may unconsciously slip intoold, unhelpful behavior patterns
.
It happens, it's just part ofthe deal.
But consider this the fact thatyou are aware that you slipped
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into old patterns is itselfawareness.
It means you're using the toolcorrectly.
So be patient, don't judgeyourself.
Instead, note where you lostyour way and learn from the
experience so that you can avoidit in the future.
For example, let's say I work ina place where I'm often talked
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over or interrupted.
I've been working on speakingup for myself by calmly and
clearly calling it out when ithappens, for example excuse me,
I was speaking, I'd love to hearyour thoughts when I've
finished, right?
But one day I'm in an impromptuteam meeting and I'm tired and
I'm just not paying attention.
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So I speak, but then acolleague cuts me off and
unconsciously I slip into my oldpeople-pleasing habit of being
quiet and just letting othersspeak After the meeting.
I'm feeling agitated and Ican't figure out why.
And then it hits me, thatperson cut me off again.
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What happened?
I was doing so well, speakingup.
Why is this still happening,you know?
And then the judging thoughtscome in.
Am I doing this wrong?
What's the point?
Why am I bothering?
If I practice non-judgment, Ican look at the situation from a
clearer perspective the capitalS self perspective.
I was tired.
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I let that one get past me,that's okay.
I'll get it the next time.
I am proud of myself forlistening to my body's agitation
and finding the source of it sofast, because in the past I
would have let that ruin my dayRight.
So take the wins when you getthem, because that is awareness.
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There is no failure.
Failing means stopping, notdoing the work at all anymore.
If we make a mistake, if wedon't do it right, we learn from
it.
Pretty simple.
We don't do it right, we learnfrom it.
Pretty simple.
Now remember that as we bringnon-judgment to our inner work,
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that means we don't declare thesmall S self to be bad and the
capital S self to be good.
They work together.
The small S self allows us toexperience life in a fully human
way.
Capital S self holds thisexperience and reminds us not to
get attached to those temporarythoughts, feelings, emotions
and behaviors.
Think of the two selves dancingtogether the fully human self
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and the divine self.
It's what Indian mystic Oshoreferred to as Zorba the Buddha.
Zorba is the titular characterin the Nikos Kazansakis novel.
Zorba, the Greek Zorba ispassionate about life.
He makes his own rules.
He loves drinking and food anddancing and women.
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He's all here on this earthsucking it up and of course you
know about the Buddha, who wasbasically the opposite of all
that.
You know about the Buddha, whowas basically the opposite of
all that non-attachment, etc.
So the message here is to beboth Be in this world, but not
of it.
Why do we want to do that?
Because we are ambassadors ofsource.
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Our true nature is eternal.
Our energy and everything isenergy contributes to collective
consciousness and the quantumfield.
We are generators of energy.
You are a generator of energy.
You create the world you livein by the way you choose to live
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it, the world you live in bythe way you choose to live it.
Next time we'll look at thethird and final core principle
of foundation, of selfgentleness.
Until next time, be gentle withyourself.