Welcome back to Selfed . . . again. After a bunch of choices I've made recently and experiences reflecting the need for Men's Intimacy, I caught myself having a series of pressure building explosions occur. I learned that these series' of explosions have the power to really fuck up a lot of good things I have going on, and I'm thankful for the ways they were handled and the outcomes. I have developed a new found sense of gratitude for my ability to be present and prioritizing that since choosing not to drink for the month of July this year. While that has carried into today (as I'm leaving Las Vegas typing up this description), I got to experience myself in an environment that has its image and not allowing that to engulf my energy and influence me into anything out of alignment with my intention.
I came here for Mr. Locario and Miles Cunningham's Game Kings Seminar 2: Definition of a Man, and I want to give these two men credit for validating my current beliefs and experiences navigating manhood in 2023. It's isolating, it's lonely, and I sought to alleviate that loneliness by leaving my environment only to realize that no matter where I go, there I am. Me being lonely has minimal to do with my environment, and almost everything to do with who I am because THAT influences my experiences in the environment. The need for Mens' intimacy was something I observed there along with hearing things I've heard consistently, but in a new way that helps me see my own lived experiences in a way that I'm able to learn from.
I believe Mens' intimacy has been demonized as we navigate a world where our appreciation is omitted and it's even shamed to express gratitude and appreciation to men. This causes us to seek out appreciation, respect, and being needed for our instinctual drives in potentially unhealthy ways, giving us the illusion of intimacy. This often comes at the expense of women or sexual partners. What I'm learning is that there's a natural pressure build up men experience that NEEDS to healthily be released in the safety container of men and this is something only men can offer one another. That said, this is my accountability episode for me to create that space that serves as the underground locker room for Men to depressurize as man do. This is a space for a code to be lived by that I choose to only allow to exist intentionally out of the social media space. I'm giving myself a deadline of beginning this on October 1st this year and holding myself to that regardless of any hiccups or hold ups that may occur. This podcast will continue to serve as my identity expression and call in those who feel aligned with this mission of healing with purpose. Oooh Selfed - Healing with Purpose: The Underground Locker Room. There's something there I'll use, I'm just not sure what exactly yet.