Season 2: Episode 14 - Processing

There's a lot going on in the world. In this episode I share my thoughts about Disclosure the Netflix documentary, civilians going to space & faith. Thank you for listening. Episodes released on Tuesdays or Fridays.

Episode Transcript

Darline Berrios (00:04):
Hey everyone, welcome to Share Your Sparkle.
And I'm your host, Dr. DarlineBerrios. This is season two,
Episode 14 processing. Heypeople, I hope you're doing well
happy Full Moon, it's the fullbook. And if you're a night sky

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fan like I am, so it's Friday,or depending on where you are,
we will be Friday on easternstandard time at like 10:37pm.
And moons full moons are a namedifferent things depending on
the time of the year some forcoming out of Native American

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culture some coming out of likecolonial America or European
sources but or, or some becauseof like it's a natural phenomena
that happens around the sametime as that full moon. So in
this case, this one is known asthe buck moon and it refers to
antlers of male deer also calledLux, which are particularly

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large at this time of year. Andjust FYI, deer grow and shed
their antlers every year. Butthis also is also has this full
moon as also referred to as thesalmon moon, the thunder moon,
and just wanted to share somenight sky fun facts. Also, for

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those of you who have atelescope, this time of year
between now and like the middleof August, the Jupiter and
Saturn are the at their closestand brightest, like for Saturn,

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it'll appear bright is on August2, and Jupiter on August 19. And
a bunch of like meteor showerscoming up. But those are just
some fun things happening in thesky. And I should buy a
telescope. I mean, it's beenreally cloudy over the past few

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weeks here on the east coast.
But in general, there's somegreat night viewing to do. I'm
sure other parts of the worldhave their own beautiful night
sky as well. But that's that.
Some fun things I didn't recordlast week. Because I was

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actually visiting cousin whobought a house, yay,
congratulations, your firsthome. And siblings and cousins
went down there to help paint beridiculous and laugh and eat and
drink for four days. And it waswonderful. I wish I could like

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give you the full experience.
But it was it's kind of reallyhard to capture besides like,
that's the most fun I've had ina really long time and laughed,
like in a genuine, heartfeltsilly with great people kind of
way. We were actuallyproductive. Okay, we probably

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didn't work as fast as we couldhave like it did take us a full
day to paint one bathroom. And Idon't know why it took five
people, the a team and the Bteam but whatever we got it
done. But a good time was had byall like, seriously, it was a
blast. So congratulations on thenew home. Many years of

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happiness, and wonderfulmemories there. And the health
to enjoy it all. And foreverybody who went down. Thanks
for the fun and the laughterbecause I know I needed it. I
know I definitely needed it. Sothat was that was great. So
that's why I didn't record lastweek, I was kind of busy

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helping. And today one of thethings I want to talk about was
actually something that happenedabout a week ago. And I'm
calling this episode processing.
And maybe this is something I'vebeen doing, like over the whole

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COVID experience in general. Butit's just like thinking and
about life and events. And maybenot necessarily. I guess I'm
gonna say the words like tryingto figure them out. And I don't
even know if it's that orunderstanding but I really don't
even know if it's that but it'sjust like there's a lot to

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process right now. So I'mprocessing and one of the things
that I'mputting Processing most recently
is the experience of watchingdisclosure, which is the
documentary on Netflix abouttransexual individuals. And
within literally two hourswatching Branson go up into the

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space, or I mean, I guess likethat's, you know, everybody's
talking about the Karman lineand having to go above that, as
far as considered space andwhat's considered an astronaut.
The idea is that, like civiliansare going up, and that's not
saints hasn't happened. I mean,they have like, had like, test
things happen. But like, Here,we have people going as

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passengers. And not just him,but bases in his crew, which was
just a few days ago, go up intospace. And the idea of now,
which potentially is this iswhat it's going to turn into
civilians like you and me whohave, I don't know, a quarter of

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a million dollars or more tospend on a flight to space. And
I'm joking about having aquarter million dollars to spend
on us flight to space, I don'thave that right now. But the
idea that this is what's next.

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So here, this is what I'mprocessing, one, the
documentary, which is reallytold, and I'm almost positive, I
could be wrong that everyindividual interviewed was
transexual. Like, I'm almostpositive. But that film was told

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through the lens of, ordocumentary was told through the
lens of like, film and media,and how transsexuals have been
perceived, like in film, overthe years, and that experience
as a transsexual, individualwatching, but not just that

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group watching, but everybodyelse, right. And it's really a
film, as I've said this beforeabout humanity, because
individuals are like literallytrying to just establish
themselves as a part ofhumanity, still, to this day.

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And at the same time, like Icried, watching it, it was
really powerful, it was reallygood, you should watch it. And
at the same time, within an houror so, I saw people like that
are not like astronauts thattrain for years and years and
years. Go up to space. And itwas just a very strange

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experience, that people arefighting for their rights as
humans, while others are goingup to space for fun. Like for
the experience of them. And Idon't know what to say about
that. Besides. Why, wow. We havevery different life experiences,

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depending on who we are, like,wow, like I'm so varied, so
varied. And so I'm justprocessing. I'm like processing
all this. And at the same time,both being very powerful in
their own way, for verydifferent reasons. I think like

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we're seeing the beginnings of alot. Do you remember how the
Wright brothers? Their firstflight was literally 12 seconds.
I feel like that's what happenedwith the space stuff that we're
seeing, like, what less than 20minutes? I think one was, like
10 minutes. The other one wasmaybe a little bit more than

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that. I think that's what we'reseeing right now. And now people
can get on a plane and fly like12 hours. I'm making that up. I
don't know what the longestflight is unplayed. But you get
you get my drift, right. Like, Ithink we're seeing the beginning
of a lot of things. Now, I don'tnecessarily think we'll see the
end of them, right. Like in ourlifetime, in these beginnings,

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seem to be very fast. Likecoming at like, fast. Like a
fast speed. I could be wrong. Icould be totally wrong, but
that's just what it feels like.
The engineer who did the basisflight, or capsule, whatever you
want to call it.

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He was talking about theexperience, and how they started
working on it 17 years ago. Andthen I think with a small group
of people, right scientists andengineers, and eventually, you
know, the, the company or thatpiece of it, Blue Origin grew,
you know. And then the otherwoman who was sitting next to

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him was like the broadcaster,I'm not sure specifically what
her title was, but how shejoined, maybe the company within
the past five to eight years.
And she was talking about howthey would, they talked about
that day coming, you know, the,the day of the flight, and how
they envisioned it, and what wasgoing to happen. And obviously,

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like, the biggest thing thatthey came about, that they
shared was that it was way morethan they could have imagined.
What I got out of that was, youhave to see, or somehow you have
to believe in that endpoint. Andit might not be the end, but

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that whatever you're shootingfor, you have to see it. And
vision it somehow, even ifyou're not there for that
moment. And then how your stepswill guide you, right? I don't
know. That's what the the bigtakeaway I got there. So what
I'm saying is watch the moviedisclosure. It was really not
movie documentary. It's onNetflix, watch it. Let me know

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what you think. I'm curious. Andthe other thing I heard the
other day was God. Faith. Thequestion on the table was, it
was a show a TV show host wascan you have faith? without

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religion? So I'm going to repeatthat again? Can you have faith?
without religion? I think so. Ithink absolutely. I didn't hear
the responses from the guests oranything. If you look up the
definition of faith, yes, one ofthem has to do with like a

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belief in a strong belief inGod, right, a religious belief.
But the first one, the firstdefinition of faith is complete
trust or confidence in someoneor something. You know, like
when you say to someone, I havefaith in you. It's not
necessarily to God, it's thatyou're believing in their

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capabilities, whatever it is.
But in general, I don't thinkyou have to have religion to
have faith. Faith, to me is abelief in one yourself, even

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when things are hard tounderstand or process. And if
you're not fully faithful orbelieving in yourself, I know
that sounds really kind ofstrange. I have faith or am
faithful. No, I've been faithfulto yourself. I think that's the

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biggest thing we can do in life,because then you're honoring who
you are your beliefs, yourvalues, and using that to guide
you. So I think it starts withhaving faith in yourself. And if
that's hard, because if you'reconstantly living by someone

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else, someone else's systems,values, whatever it is, got to
figure out how to get back toyou. But I don't have just faith
in myself. I, I feel like I havefaith in something way larger
than me, which I don't reallyknow what it is, but I call God.

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And I call on it and call ityour gut call whatever you want
to help. I don't always heardirect answers. I wish, I wish.
Would we listen, that's thequestion. That's a good
question. Would we listen? Ifthe answer like just showed up

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and was like, This is what youdo here. I wonder if people
would listen. But anyway, I callon that. To help guide me. You
know, I think that's how I useprayer as well. Like I call on
something bigger than me, butmaybe I should just be listening
to myself. I don't know. Okay,I'm blabbing right now. So I'm

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going to stop. I'm going to endon this pome bear with me. It's
a really good one. It's not toolong. I really like it. It's um,
Reuben alfs and he's a Braziliantheologian, philosopher. And let
me read it to you. I'm going torepeat Some other things because
I think they're really powerful.
But he wrote, what is hope. Itis a presentment. That

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imagination is more real, inreality, less real than it
looks. It is a hunch that theoverwhelming brutality of facts
that oppress and repress is notthe last word. It is a suspicion
that reality is more complexthan realism wants us to

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believe. And that the frontiersof the possible are not
determined by the limits of theactual Let me repeat that one
more time, because that's areally good one. And that the
frontiers of the possible arenot determined by the limits of
the actual and that in amiraculous and unexpected way.

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Life is preparing the creativeevents, which will open the way
to freedom and resurrection. Thetwo, suffering and hope, live
from each other. Sufferingwithout hope, produces
resentment and despair. Hope,without suffering creates

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illusions, naivete anddrunkenness. Let us plant dates,
even though those who plant themwe'll never eat them. We must
live by the love of what we willnever see. This is the secret
discipline. I want to go back.

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We must live by the love of whatwe will never see. This is the
secret discipline. It is arefusal to let the creative act
be dissolved in immediate senseexperience and a stubborn
commitment to the future of ourgrandchildren. Such discipline

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love is what has given prophets,revolutionaries and saints, the
courage to die for the future.
They emphasized they make theirown bodies, the seed of their
highest hope. I love that lastline. They make their own

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bodies, the seed of theirhighest hope. I think that's
what I'm trying to do right now.
You know, I've talked about likeour holy Wi Fi. And if we're
here, as an apple seed, let'snot try to be a pumpkin seed.
I'm trying to figure out. Imean, I've done a lot of things

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already. But I know this thisnext segment, this next piece,
falling 15 years or so. It'slike I'm trying to figure out
really how to make that. And ifI can't, that seed blossom and
if it's not supposed to blossomduring my my lifetime, how can I

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plant it so that it blossomsduring the next generations to
come? They make their ownbodies, the seeds of their
highest hope. Right peopleaccept your sparkle, surrender
to it and allow it to be sountil then, keep shining