Shut the F**k Up

August 2021 I was going about my morning. I had just finished doing some strength training, or maybe it was a HIIT workout, and I was cooling down when my loving voice chimed in and said “let's start running”.

So, I listened.

Unfortunately, my mind was not going to allow this to happen quite so easily as I would like it to.

Listen in to find out more.

—————————————————————————

My mind won’t shut the fu...

My mind won’t shut the f**k up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve f**ken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single f**ked up word it has ever spoken to me. This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt ov...

Anna is a business mindset coach for women.

As a woman who has given her life to building her business over the last 6 years or so. I have come to know that the mind is the most important part of the equation. Because if the mind is not expressing love and kindness, then it makes everything feel so much harder. Our minds influence so much more than we realise.

Anna has a well accomplished list of qualifications that assist her in...

My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.

And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH!

The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore.

But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single fucked up word it has ever spoken to me.

This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over t...

My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.

And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH!

The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore.

But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single fucked up word it has ever spoken to me.

This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over t...

My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.

And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH!

The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore.

But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single fucked up word it has ever spoken to me.

This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over t...

My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.

And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH!

The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore.

But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single fucked up word it has ever spoken to me.

This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over t...

My whole life has felt like a waste.

That I was nothing special and I have nothing special to offer. There was no meaning and no direction. Each day as dull and repetitive as the last.

Why am I here? What the fuck am I even doing here?

Listen in to find out more. ————————————————————————— My mind won’t shut the f**k up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve f**ken had ...

Why am I so fat?

Why am I so fat?

Why am I so fucking fat?

I have asked myself this a million times over the last 30 plus years.

I have screamed this question into the darkness of my mind in the desperate hopes of finding an answer.

I have now found that answer.

Keep listening to find out what that answer is.

————————————————————————— My mind won’t shut the f**k up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, ...

Every morning I would awaken to my misery.

Perpetuated by my depression.

Fuelled by the thoughts and feelings my shitty voice endlessly and unfailingly echoed inside my mind and my body on a daily basis.

For decades.

I was so used to hearing it and I was so used to feeling those debilitating feelings that it ended up being comfortable.

So, why am I depressed?

Keep listening to find out.

————————————————————————— My mi...

Trust in yourself.

Trust in that quieter part of you.

Trust yourself to feel the difference between each part of who you are.

I never trusted myself. I never trusted there was more to me than a fat, useless, horrible girl. Who then became a woman.

It was these thoughts that kept me in the darkness of my fucked up mind. Living in denial and seeing myself with her dogmatic eyes. Here's how I have learnt to trust in myself. ——...

Confessing to yourself is not easy.

Confessing to yourself about your deepest and darkest thoughts and feelings should be left well enough alone.

You don’t need to know what’s really going on inside that mind of yours. Just keep it all tucked away where no one can find it.

Especially you.

Whatever behaviour you are living in now, it doesn’t have to be that way. You can change it.

You can feel better about the person you are.

Y...

Every day a new rule seems to appear telling us how we must eat, what we must eat and what we must avoid at all costs because it is very, very bad for you. To lose weight and be skinny.

Over the years of me trying to lose weight every single fucking day of my life I came across rule after rule after rule. And, I tried to follow them all resulting in overwhelm and overload.

—————————————————————————

My mind won’t shut the fuc...

Thirty fucking years. Thirty years of my life spent punishing myself.

For what?

Why on earth would someone do that to themselves for so long? And how? What possible reason causes such a daily torrent of abuse?

Hi, I’m Kelly and I am a recovering food addict. I spent all of my days thinking about food and punishing myself with food. I stuffed my face stupid until my belly was close to exploding. I loathed myself into this ridiculou...

This woman that I became was a real struggle.

A constant fight of who was who and what was what.

Somewhere beneath all the bullshit, I had a sense of something more, and, it was this sense that kept me reaching outside of myself to find something (ANYTHING) that would help me to rid myself of all that was dragging me down.

—————————————————————————

My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I a...

I am a thinker. A deep one at that. My mind is constantly seeing the world through the eyes of an observer.

People have always fascinated me but it wasn’t until a few years ago when I began this desperate need to feel better, to be better and to do better that the questions and observations took over so much of my thinking. In a good way.

Judgement still resides amongst my thoughts because my shitty voice cannot help but speak her...

Why can’t I just be fucking happy? Why can’t I let go of my misery and enjoy my life?

I guess I can sum it up in one word…depression.

How did I get to that?

How did I become the person who was so angry and mad at everyone and everything that it blinded me to so much?

I couldn’t see straight. I couldn’t appreciate all the good things staring me right in the face. I’d look around them to prove to myself that only bad things exist...

I can’t quite remember when my feelings began to dry up, I only know they did.

I think somewhere around the beginning of my teenage years. That’s when the weight really started to pile on. That’s when I really started to hate myself and my body.

My feelings were overtaken with anxiety and depression. Food became my only relief.

—————————————————————————

My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I...

The thoughts inside your head are really very mean. And nasty. They incessantly chatter all day long. Telling you you'll never be enough or that you aren't worthy of the wonderful life waiting for you.

What if you didn't have to listen to that voice anymore?

What if I told you there is another voice that is so much more loving, that you can listen to instead?

—————————————————————————

My mind won’t shut the ...