Ep. 3.2 Mental Health Medication and Street Skating

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Rebel (00:09):
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Shove (00:17):
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Yeah.

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Okay, so what's up everybody?
Welcome to This Week of skateday.

Shove (00:39):
It's another Wednesday.

Rebel (00:41):
It is another bright and wonderful hump day. And, yeah,
so I'm rebel. I'm shove andtogether we are shovel.

Shove (00:51):
Can you dig it?

Rebel (00:52):
I can. slinks so. Yeah.
Anyways. I don't know. I justthink it's so funny that we're
like, we can dig it. We almostcall this podcast the dig. Or
like the digs. The digs wasshovel. Mm hmm. Yeah. And so now
it's just that's how we did it.

(01:13):
Anyways,

Shove (01:14):
I think the camera is slightly crooked, but we're just
gonna roll with it.

Rebel (01:19):
I feel like for some reason, like way taller, just

Shove (01:22):
hold your phone a little different.

Rebel (01:24):
Yeah, it's fine. Um, today we're going to talk about
medication. And streetscaping soit's gonna be an interesting
episode. I'm really excitedabout what you have lined up
because

Shove (01:37):
new painkillers when do you hurt yourself? streetscaping

Rebel (01:41):
No, but that's an excellent connection. But that's
not the kind of man I don't want

Shove (01:45):
to listen to this this podcast then. Wow. Okay, I'll
come back next episode.

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(02:11):
But anyways,

Shove (02:12):
I'm just like, it'll happen when it happens. But Rob
has been very proactive. Somaybe it will. I'm trying

Rebel (02:17):
to be proactive. We're trying to do this. So how was
your week babes?

Shove (02:22):
It was great. I skated three times in a row, which is
really great. Um, I haven'treally been skating because you
know, depression. So that's beencool. My body is so dead right
now. Especially like my upperback, which is weird. And like,
my arms are just so tired. Andthen like, my good knee, like me

(02:45):
that doesn't get like the kneeinjuries, like, was hurting
really bad the other day but oryesterday, but, you know, I'm
hanging in there. It was worthit. Skater die.

Rebel (02:54):
Yeah, hell yeah. Skate or Die. I've had a good week. I've
been really busy. I've beenworking. I finished up my last
week of the intercessionteaching. And tomorrow, or I
guess, two days ago for y'all ismy first day of the spring
semester. So I've just beenprepping for that. And spending

(03:14):
a lot of time trying to likeorganize my holiday, you know,
throw up all over the house.
Just stuff is just everywhere,because I just didn't want to do
anything for the break. So yeah,we've just been trying to do
that. And then it's been cool,because my shop has been kind of
popping off a little bit. And Ihave a Valentine's Day drop.

(03:35):
That's happening. Actually. Ohmy gosh, what day is Wednesday?
Sunday is the 30th 31st Well, Ihope it's dropping before. Yeah,
it's dropping before so theValentine's Day drop just
happened yesterday. If youhaven't checked it out, you
should go and check it out.
There's a bunch of new stuff ontears to the queers.com right

(03:59):
now there's a bunch ofValentine's Day stuff. And also
like Valentine's Day adjacentlike like hearts and like pinks
and reds and I was

Shove (04:10):
at a photo shoot today for it. I was a model.

Rebel (04:13):
Yeah, we have a rainbow of heart sunglasses now with
glitter in them. And a bunch ofnew bags, one of the bags that I
think is gonna sell outinstantly because they are so
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haven't done that, you shouldcheck that out and then start
spending all my time doing I'mtalking

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I don't know. What's your thing? Yeah, you get five I
always forget I'm like, is it $5or 5%? So I just say for a
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if you use code shove and thenshove gets money if you use
ketchup, so it's pretty dope.
Thanks. Yeah. Someone actuallyused her code for first time
yesterday, so

Shove (05:01):
it was so I was like finally Gu. Yeah.

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Shove (06:33):
now people are thinking about you and they get off. I
love it. So fun. Not gonnaparty. No, murder them all.
Alright, so let's jump on in.

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Shove (07:04):
Oh, capitalism. Yeah.

Rebel (07:08):
We're basically just trying to pay for this podcast
so that it can stay running. Themore

Shove (07:13):
if I actually get paid for this. I might like, be like,
hell yeah, let's do thatpodcast. Right? No, me the money
for my time. Right now. I'm justdoing it like it's like a soul
project. What do they call itlike a heart project? It's
called a Heart Project. I don'tknow what I'm talking about. But
like the whole like, it's alabor of love.

Rebel (07:34):
Yeah,

Shove (07:35):
so yeah, heart pretty much.

Rebel (07:37):
But yeah, so the basically the thing is, is that
we pay for a platform to holdall our episodes on, and then we
also pay for a musicsubscription every month. So we
know we're in the hole everymonth for this podcast. So we're
just trying to like even it out.
And that's why we also want moresubscribers on YouTube because
then we can monetize ourYouTube. Exactly is is the
thing.

Shove (07:59):
Alright, so now it's time to comment about a comment about
a comment from last week. Yeah,we're

Rebel (08:05):
gonna pick our favorite comments and add them in there.
Well, there

Shove (08:08):
was only two comments on the channel. So it was really
easy because one wasn't aquestion. But I was asked where
my shirt was from, it wasactually a dress a very who T
body con tight dress. If you goto my Instagram, you'll see me
wearing it with blue tights. Igot that from Forever 21 It's so
cute three years ago, maybe fouryears ago, literally

Rebel (08:31):
so cute. When she wears it with a Bray. I'm like, oh my
God is so cute.

Shove (08:34):
I've worn the dress twice. And the first time rebel
wasn't around, but I did have abreak. And I sent her a picture.
Yes, she was out of state. Butit was one of those things that
like I wore when I got first gotand then I never worry again.
And then three years later, Iwas like, I'm gonna finally wear
this.

Rebel (08:51):
I love that. So the comment that I got is actually
in the form of a DM on ourescape D Instagram. And it was
in response not necessarily thelast episode because I think
people don't know we startedagain yet, which is why there
aren't as many comments andstuff. But the it was bringing
up the fact that there is amusical that is specifically on

(09:15):
roller skates. I know we hadtalked about like musicals and
like roller skates and stuff,but it's called Starlight
Express. And apparently it'sactive in Germany or something
but apparently it's been goingon for like a very long time.
And it is like this wild what itappears to be. Is this like wild
like fantasy land robot ask it'snot robots for sure. But they're

(09:39):
like very like fantasy but notlike mythical creatures more
like I would I would say likethe capital and Hunger Games
like that. That's what theiroutfits seem to be. Almost it's
like almost steampunk. Yeah,yeah, maybe. But I also only had
a clip in like a differentlanguage and I was like trying

(09:59):
to watch but they have thesestages, and like their audience
members in between the stages.
And then they skate from stageto stage and they like dance and
like, do all this stuff. And Iguess the whole, the whole show
is just everyone is on rollerskates. That's dope, which is
wild. So anyways, so someonemessaged us about that. And I
was like, that's so cool. Sothat's my response. I think
that's cool. I'm now going totry and find it in English. If

(10:21):
anyone has it in English, pleaselet me know. So I can find it
and watch it and make sure youwatch it even though she
probably will hate it. Awesome.
But that being said, let's jumpright in. Finally, let's go

(10:51):
is the real world?

Shove (10:53):
Yes is? Oh, yeah, right before this, we were changing.
We know that. Now. See thingthat happens when you're like,
get that bile filete in yourthroat and I thought it was
gonna throw up. And I was like,oh, no, all I have is like a hot
tea.

Rebel (11:07):
Right here.

Shove (11:08):
So I did, but I feel like my throat is burning. Oh, gee,
when that happen?

Rebel (11:12):
I hate when that happens.
It's a worst. And it's like,just reminds you that you're
getting old. You know? I mean?
Like, what random shit happensto me like that. I'm like, I'm
not sick. I'm just not younganymore. No, no, it

Shove (11:24):
happens even when you're young. It's just like, it just

Rebel (11:27):
happens more often when you're older. And you're eating
like foods that you used to eatwhile you're young. Yeah, that's
how I feel like anytime I eatextra bad foods. I'm like, I
have more repercussions now.

Shove (11:37):
Don't call out people.
All right. So we're going totalk about medication.

Rebel (11:41):
So when you say medication, what do you mean?

Shove (11:45):
crazy pills.

Rebel (11:47):
So we're talking about mental health medication, we're
not talking about like, we'renot going to be your pharmacist
right now. And we're not sayingjust like a disclaimer, that the
medication that we've beenprescribed that we take is the
correct medication for you. Thisis medication that we have been
prescribed by a person who has adegree in it, and who has

(12:09):
tailored their life mendationOh, a license. Yeah. And has
tailored their recommendation toour individual needs. So this is
just our personal this is justour personal story time. Story
time.

Shove (12:23):
Okay. Hmm. Maybe they're not as crazy as they used to be.
Or a little different.

Rebel (12:32):
You know, what's funny, I actually just saw something on
Instagram right before coming inhere. That was like, oh, like,
there could only be one crazyone in the relationship. And I'm
that person. And I was like, No,dude, like, we were even
talking. What was it? Was itlast week or a few days ago when
we were talking? Like, I don'tthink that I could be in a

(12:53):
relationship with someone who is100% sane. Oh, no. Like, I don't
know that a sane person like Iwas like, I would you wouldn't
understand me and I would feelnot inferior, but I would just
feel weird. Like, you feelguilty. And

Shove (13:10):
I'd be like, oh, man, like I am just another part of
luggage he after carry. Butinstead of being like, hey, we
both struggle with this. It'slike, now I struggle with it.
And you have to help be there,like and not understand and
struggle with instead of havingyour own demons to struggle.

Rebel (13:26):
Yeah, and I do think that there's something really
beautiful about being like,like, there are times when both
of us are in the pit. And that'srough. But more often than not,
it's like we switch off likethat we have our kind of crazy
moments. And we're able tounderstand what's happening. You
know, even if it's not like afull understanding. It's like,

(13:47):
Oh, I understand there's like amental health issue going on
there. And I can kind of justlike ask, like, what you need.
And then just like, move fromthat as opposed to being like,
what's going on? Even though inthe beginning, I think we're
both trying to figure each otherout a bit. And we definitely had
those moments. Way less now.
True. Yeah. Anyways, somedication.

Shove (14:09):
You want to go first?
Sure. Um,

Rebel (14:11):
so I feel like I've talked about this a little bit
already. When I started it. Andwhen I felt like it was going
well, but before so I had a biglike preconceived notion about
medication. I was really, reallynervous about getting on
medication for my ADHD. I wasactually nervous about being

(14:32):
officially diagnosed. And thenthat really wasn't that big of a
deal. It actually was likerelieving to me. But then I like
was given medication, actually,oh my gosh, before I was given
medication for ADHD, I wasactually given medicine for my
depression. And I never took it.
Like I was like, I don'tactually feel comfortable taking

(14:53):
that medication because I feltlike I was on my way out of the
Very, because I was in a very,very dark place. I don't know
how many of you could tell inJanuary of last year, but I was
not doing so hot. And so I wasin like a very, very dark place.
And that's when I startedtherapy. And I think that my
prescriber was kind of like,whoa, like, she's in a really

(15:18):
dark place. Like we should giveher something. And I got it. And
I asked my mom about it, becausemy mom is all sorts of crazy and
has many, many, manymedications. And so are actually
all of is it just the feet? No,it's all the people in my family
except for my dad. Pretty muchbut my Yeah, everyone has mental

(15:41):
health problems. So my mom'staken a lot of meds. So I asked
her like, Hey, have you evertaken this Med, and it was
Wellbutrin, which is like, alittle good for ADHD and also
good for depression. And I justdidn't feel comfortable with it.
And she said that it reactedwith her really poorly too. And
that was already after mefeeling uncomfortable about it.

(16:04):
So then I just decided not totake it and just see how therapy
could get me by. And therapyreally helps with depression. So
I was like, I already just hadthis kind of trepidation towards
medication, you know?

Shove (16:17):
Well, you're a rapper now.

Rebel (16:20):
Well, I just feel like, I feel like when you have when you
grow up, and I don't know, like,Were your did your parents have
a lot of medications when youwere young? No, they

Shove (16:29):
robbed talk reality.

Rebel (16:31):
Yeah, so my parents, my mom, I don't know if my dad
really had many medications. Butmy mom always had like, a lot of
medications, like there were shehas a lot of she has a few
illnesses, and then also mentalhealth issues on top of that.
And so for me, I was alwaysscared of like, that medication

(16:53):
would make me end up be like mymom. And I really didn't want
that. And so I just was, I don'tknow, fearful of it. So then
they finally like prescribed meAdderall for my ADHD. And they
were like, seriously, this isgoing to help you so much like,
you should just try it. And so Itried it. And they put me on 20

(17:13):
milligrams of extended releaseAdderall. And from the very
first day that I tried it, I waslike, Holy crap. Like, I feel
now that I know what it feelslike to be on medication and be
on medication for a while. It'slike when I'm not on Adderall.

(17:36):
It's like, there is like, mythoughts are all running, like
marathons around each other allthe time. Like, there's always
so many thoughts, and there'sall and it's always going a
million miles per second. Like,I would have a really hard time
even if I was talking to someonelike I would be talking to

(17:57):
shove, who I obviously am veryinterested in. Obviously, I love
her very much. And like, even ifshe was talking to me about
something I really cared about,like, I would find myself like
off in another world all of asudden, because I would start
thinking about like, my to dolist or I would start thinking
about like, and it wasn'timportant things I was thinking
about. It wasn't like seriousmatters that needed to be

(18:18):
addressed. It was that my brainjust like could not focus on
whatever was going on. And Iwould get really bored easily
and just I had a lot of I havevery severe ADHD. So um, yeah,
so ever since I've been on thatit's been a lot better. And I
feel like clarity. And now itdoesn't feel like the first week
or so I was like, euphoric aboutit. Because I just felt like I

(18:42):
could be in the moment in waysthat I could never be in the
moment before. And it felt likefor the first time in my life I
was in the moment like I hadnever felt like what it actually
felt like to be in the moment.
Like whenever people use thatphrase. I was like, what kind of
insane shit are you talkingabout? But I like finally got
it. And it blew my mind. Yeah,but now it doesn't feel like

(19:06):
that all the time, obviously,like your body gets used to it.
But is very clear. I think Italked about this last week.
Like it's very clear when I havea day when I'm definitely taking
my medicine and there. It's veryclear when I have not taken my
medicine like even today. I waslike What have you not taking
your medicine yet? And I waslike, Oh no, I guess not. Just

(19:27):
like, Huh, okay, well, here itis. Because I think that I'm
like a lot less miserable to bearound when I've had my
medication and not saying thatI'm a miserable person or that
ADHD makes someone miserable.
It's just that in the same waythat I think medication helps
shove to be like, so much. Like,I don't know, I just I really

(19:49):
like being around her even morethan I did before. I think I'm
the same way not that I was badbefore but just that like the
things that can be don't know,

Shove (20:00):
my patience isn't tested anywhere, like sometimes it's
just like or like being upset.
Like, why don't you rememberthis? We just talked about it
like little things where itdidn't feel like she cared
enough where it was just youwhat? wasn't listening because
she was distracted, and notconcentrated in our memories
really bad. And like all theselittle things that just like
narrow down to like, Oh, youhave ADHD that we didn't know

(20:23):
about?

Rebel (20:25):
Yeah. And I remember always feeling so bad, because
like, you would tell me things,and then you'd be like, you
don't remember that, like, superimportant thing that I told you.
And I would literally be like, Iliterally don't remember it. And
that still happens a lot. Likedefinitely Adderall doesn't
solve for my memory issues. ButI feel like it maybe happens a

(20:48):
little less. And yeah, so that'scool. And it's cool to like,
have knowledge of like, why Iwas like certain things

Shove (20:56):
or like the emotional part of it, too. I think like,
now, it's easier to like talkout emotions and you feeling
things so strongly? The firsttime, I think it definitely
helps you and things like that.
And then were you nervous whenthey said Adderall, just knowing
that like, Adderall has such abad rap for just being abused.

Rebel (21:21):
I don't know. So actually, something about the
story that I left out is theytried to offer me a different
medication first, and thedifferent medication that they
tried to offer me I looked uplike as we're talking about it,
and like the first reaction orthe first like, side effect is
like sluggishness, and I, I knowthat I will not continue to take

(21:46):
a medication that makes me feelsluggish. Like I just, it goes
against my lifestyle, it goesagainst who I am as a person.
And I think that was my biggestfear more than Oh, like Adderall
or something, whatever. Mybiggest fear was not continuing
to be myself. And I do believethat my kind of, you know, hyper

(22:07):
hyperfocus on things is actuallylike, a cool part of who I am,
you know, even though it's alsolike an annoying part of ADHD,
you know, like, they're, they'rejust my ability to accomplish so
much like that stuff. I was veryworried about that dissipating
like, yeah, and, you know, notbeing me. And so I said, I don't
want to take something that'sgonna make me sluggish. And then

(22:30):
it was like, sluggish, andweight gain. And I was like, No,
I can't do that, like, that'sgonna spiral me, like, that's
not gonna put me in a goodplace, like sluggish is like the
number one red flag. So thenthey were like, Okay, well,
we'll put you on Adderall. Andhonestly, when I heard Adderall,
I just thought, I guess we'llfind out if I really have ADHD

(22:52):
or not. Like, that was literallymy thought it wasn't necessarily
like, oh, it has this bad rap. Iwas like, am I gonna get
addicted to this because I don'twant to be addicted to it. And I
also was, like, I really don'twant to be more hyped that I am
already. Like, if I somehow endup being more hyped than I am,
this will not work

Shove (23:14):
then this mean, you know, yeah,

Rebel (23:17):
it would not like life wouldn't work. Like it would be
really bad. And so my, you know,prescribed was like, oh, yeah,
like you. If you do get likesuper hyped. That means, yeah,
that you did not have ADHD. AndI was like, Oh, okay. So I took
the medication, not reallyworrying about that kind of
stuff. So it was more like I'vetold people about it, and had

(23:38):
people react kind of weirdly,but I don't really care what
people think I just care abouthow I feel. So

Shove (23:44):
how long has it been since you've been on? Adderall?
It's been six months. Do youfeel like there's been because I
know they say are you 20milligrams, which like, I'll
mention this later for myselftoo. But like, is not like
fishing for someone that hasn'ttaken any medication for what
they've big nine is diagnosedwith yet. Like, I know, they'll

(24:06):
be like five or like 10 but theywent straight for 20 because
they did tell you you had likean extreme case. So it's
starting at 20. And then sixmonths later still being on 20.
Do you feel like it stillaffects the same? Do you feel
like it's weaker? Has it kind ofjust been the same all around?

Rebel (24:24):
Yeah, it's been pretty much the same. I do notice that
there are things that aren't aseffective like I do still notice
that I kind of get likescatterbrained still. But I feel
like I'm not ready to bridgethat like can we up my medicine

(24:44):
yet? Because I'm still I don'tknow. I'm just it makes me
nervous to up the medication atall. I feel like it is serving
me for sure. Whether or not it'sserving me less I think I still
I need some more time to figure

Shove (25:01):
out I think like medications on a magical pill.
Like, it's not like boom, nowyou're cured. Your mental
illness is gone. As long as youtake this magical pill, it's
just making it manageable.

Rebel (25:11):
Yeah. And that's what I didn't realize. I thought like,
Oh, I'm gonna take Adderall. Andthen like, all everything's
gonna go and honestly, that'show it thought it. That's how it
that's how it felt for the firstweek, like the first week. I was
like, I have never experiencedthe world like this. Is this how

(25:31):
people feel? Is this like, whatis it?

Shove (25:35):
I have an important question? Yes. Because we were
just watching something likethis, do you think there's any
chance that it was like, themedication mixed with placebo
effect? Like because, you know,I'm taking something I already
think this pill is gonna cureeverything. But then it's like
working and it is doing likehalf like 70% Maybe a what your
like your high, like, whatyou're really putting it up for?

(25:58):
So maybe that's why and thenlike, after a week, he got used
to it. And it was like, Oh, I'mstill doing better, but it's not
like the high or do you think itwas just because it was the
first time taking it?

Rebel (26:07):
I think it was because it was the first time taking it.
And this is gonna sound reallylike weird and straight edge. I
mean, even though I'm not atall. But like, I've never really
taken medication for anythingbefore except for asthma. And I
don't really do drugs thatoften. And I don't really drink
that often. And so for me likethat first week, and this is

(26:29):
going to go against everythingthat people say that you should
feel when you first startedmedication, but like I felt
high, almost like, I am nothigh. Like I felt like I was
like like that there was a sheetcovering my body. And for the
first time that she had beentaken off. Like, I remember, I

(26:51):
No. No. So like, this sounds Iagain, I don't know why I feel
like almost emotional right now.
I

Shove (27:00):
was like, Are you gonna cry? Yeah, like, but like,
because I see amazing grace.

Rebel (27:05):
No, it's because I was thinking about the the most
impactful moment. Oh my, I'mtotally gonna cry right now.
Okay. So the most impactfulmoment for me was that first
week, I don't remember if it wasthe first day or the second day,
I put my skates was the firstday because you called me. I put
my skates on, and I skatedoutside. And it was like, I had

(27:28):
never experienced skating likethat before. It was like, I was
like, in touch with my body andin touch with the ground. And
like, in the moment, actuallyjust skating for the first time
ever. And it felt so amazing.
Like, if I can imagine what, youknow, people say that like the

(27:50):
most biggest amount of blissthat you can feel like that's
what it felt like. And I wasjust blown away. I was so blown
away. And I didn't even knowfeeling like that was possible,
you know. And so I don't knowthat it didn't feel. I don't
think that I could trick myselfinto feeling like that, because

(28:14):
I wouldn't even have known howto like, what to expect. Like I
didn't know what to expect. Theydidn't tell me what was going to
happen. They just told me like,you know, take this, it'll help.
So I don't think I could havetricked myself. I think maybe
like, it was enhanced, probablyby my like, I think because I
honestly didn't think it wasgonna work. That's why I don't

(28:37):
think it was a placebo thing.
But I think once it did startworking, and I did experience
that that first day. I was like,I had a very positive attitude
towards it. Yeah. Nice. Yeah, sothat's pretty much my journey
with Adderall. What about yourjourney with medication?

Shove (28:57):
Alright, so about a year and a month ago, I started le
maqtal That is a mood stabilizer

Rebel (29:07):
sounds like the name of a dinosaur. It has

Shove (29:11):
a longer name. I can't think about it right now. But
it's My Little Mac tool. Andit's way easier to say it's
let's just call it a metal. Thisis I talked about being on it. I
did have because I'm very vocalon social media about medication
and mental illness andeverything and one because I
want to break the stigma and twobecause I know I have so many

(29:31):
followers that there's gonna bea good amount of people that
have had or gone through or youknow, do have whatever things
I've experienced, so they giveme good advice, whether it's
negative or positive and Ireally love that because it
helps me make an informeddecision besides just Googling
and looking at Reddit and hopingto find an answer. So with a Mac

(29:54):
tool, a lot of people were likeoh like bla bla bla person like
by My partner really liked thisone. But there was a side effect
or other people are like, Oh, Iwish to go back on this one, or
I really liked that one. So Iwas like, Alright, cool. And it
started with 25 milligrams. AndI was like, the side effects

(30:15):
were like, a little weird. Likemy words, were getting jumbled
up or like, I already getanxious and forget a lot of
things and stumble over mywords, but I was like, way
worse. And that lasted like aweek or so. The side effects
were like too bad with that one.
It was just like little slightthings here and there. And then
like, every couple weeks or so Ithink every three weeks they

(30:36):
upped it again. So then it waslike, oh, take two of them to be
50 milligrams. And then Ifinally got me the 50 milligram
pill, so it wasn't taking somany pills, and then it went up
to 100. And each time Iincreased, like the first time I
was like, Ooh, my brain feelslike it a little change. It was
definitely a more like, a weekor two for it to kick in. Not

(30:57):
like Adderall where it was likeinstantaneous. Your body did
have to like get used to it. Butit didn't take that long, like a
week or two. I was like, Okay,there's something. What's
interesting, though, it wasn'treally like cheery, my
depression, it was more like,instead of filling Six Feet

(31:17):
Under, I feel like maybe I'monly one foot with a straw that
I can still read. But there'ssoul weight on my chest, if that
makes sense. You know? Yeah,totally. Um, so then I would
still experience like, my upstoo, but they weren't as happy.
The anger wasn't as strong.

(31:39):
There was like little things. Itwasn't like as often like, there
definitely were like littlechanges here and there. But I
think not enough that can noticebecause in my head, I think I
was expecting I think I didn'tunderstand the definition of
mood stabilizer and antidepressant. So I was really
thinking like, this is gonnahelp get me out of that hole.

(32:00):
But therapy definitely helpedmore than the medication. The
mood stabilizer just made itless of a topsy turvy roller
coaster.

Rebel (32:11):
I mean, I could definitely notice the change
when you started the medication.
So I think it was doingsomething I just think it wasn't
doing. It was like one step. Youknow, like, it wasn't the whole
shebang.

Shove (32:24):
Yeah. And like my mania didn't last as long or get as
crazy as like, I know, it getsinside because like, I think
like with mania, it's reallyeasy for me to kind of like,
hide or just seeing comes off aslike, Oh, she's not depressed.
Like it almost feels like it'sweird. Like I saw me and I was
like, Is this mania? Like, isthis me doing better and being

(32:48):
healthy? Or is it just mania?
It's like, because it starts offis just like, you think you're
good. But it's like, also, like,I do feel this kind of rush
inside me. And I do feel like Iam invincible right now. And I
might make bad choices. And it'sthe typical, like shops way too
much. Or it's just like, I don'tknow, like a lot of hyper things
in my mind that like I don'twant to like, I don't talk about

(33:10):
really, but it's just like inthere. And then that's, that's
that's like easier for me tolike, I guess not talk about
depression, it's easier to talkabout.

Rebel (33:21):
And you think also like, I didn't used to be able to
notice when you're manic becauseI just thought like, ooh, fun
shove. Now, I can definitely putmy finger on it pretty quickly.
Pretty quickly. I'm like upthat's mania. But yeah, before I
was just like party time, butit's cool to be able to notice

(33:43):
too, and I think it's yeah, it'sdefinitely something that it
takes you a long time of knowingsomeone to recognize

Shove (33:49):
once I was diagnosed, I was like, sorry to kind of do
the math and be like, Oh, that'swhat that was. Like. That's
like, I thought I just didn'thave guilt for things or I just
thought like, that was a littleweird, but like, it's looking
back, I can see the ups anddowns are like how that
happiness was not healthyhappiness. So it definitely
helped with that. But as timewent on, I noticed like

(34:12):
specially maybe, I don't know,in this summer, so like the
depression was like last name,uh, we too long, up to this
month, like it was just goingdarker and darker for me. And I
felt like, usually it doesn'tlast that long. So I was like,
Okay, what the hell? Like is mymedication not working anymore?
And maybe I need to be up on it.
I finally decided to like talkto someone about it. So I talked

(34:36):
to my health care provider, andI was just like, Yeah, honestly,
I even told my therapist becauseI wanted to start trauma therapy
and she already said I wasn'tready, but I had told her I was
ready. And I really wanted toget in there so I didn't tell
her but I told my provider whichI know is shady but whatever. I
was just like I get the drugslike maybe that'll help because

(35:01):
like this therapy I've been in ayear, and we haven't started
yet, and like, I really thinkI'm ready, but at the same time,
Mimi, I'm not ready. And ofcourse, like she picked up on it
because we started like a monthafter, but I was talking to her
to my provider, and I was justlike, fully broke down. And I
was just like, yeah, like thethoughts of suicide are coming

(35:22):
back. I'm not in a good placelike my medication. Like, I
know, it's helping some, butit's not helping with this
feeling of despair. And so shetalked to me about
antidepressants. At first, shewanted to put me on Zoloft. And
I was just like, Okay, I've seenthe commercials, because
apparently just in Americabouncing Yeah, the little
bouncing bubble and all sad, youknow, and you want to smile. So

(35:45):
I was like, okay, like, see thecommercial out that she's
telling me I'm like, What's theside effects and she's same
thing like weight gain, like,all that stuff. And I'm like,
Well, I'm already like, tryingto, like, remain active. Like, I
now have a job where I said,ask, like, I don't want to add
to that the shoe the weight, andthat has nothing to do with not
being body positive or not beingbody positive. It's just I don't

(36:05):
want to add something that'slike, gonna put weight to me if
I don't need to. Yeah. So shewas like, well, we also have
Prozac. Prozac can be weightloss, but it cannot maybe wait
to weight gain. But peoplebecause I told her like, wow,
like, I struggle with bingeeating. And so I don't want
like, what everything is like,gonna go hand in hand. And I

(36:27):
guess they actually prescribedProzac to people that are under
have anorexia. Really? Yeah. Andbulimic? I don't know, like,
something about it. They give itto people with anorexia,
bulimia, and with depression andwith acute anxiety.

Rebel (36:50):
They actually give Adderall to people extended
release the one that I'm on topeople who are really struggling
to lose weight, and they can't.

Shove (36:56):
Oh, wow. Interesting.
Interesting. Makes sense. Um,but so it was just like, it was
I got really scared because theside effects were really long.
When I looked at the packaging,and even online, I was like, oh,
no, but she went ahead anddiagnose new 20, which I later
while I was like, researchingwas like, oh, usually, people
start off with 10. But okay,whatever. I used to always

(37:17):
wonder why people would alwaysbe like, Oh, medication, like,
it's the hardest part and blah,blah, because the mood
stabilizer I was taking waslike, oh, a weekend and there
you go, you're good. You shouldbe feeling it. And then we'll
just up it more and more. Versuslike, with the Prozac, like,
literally like five to sixweeks. So even like, feel

(37:38):
something wild. That's so long

Rebel (37:41):
and to have like side effects to? I don't know.

Shove (37:45):
Yeah. So um, Prozac is what's called a selective
serotonin reuptake inhibitor.
It's an SSRI, which it's wayeasier for me remember, so SSRIs
are pills that are going to helprelease serotonin and my brain
serotonin, if you don't know isthe happiness that our mind
already our brain creates. Sopeople that are depressed

(38:08):
usually don't have thatserotonin boost that they need.
I had someone in my class andcause Beauty School, don't think
I'm bougie and I'm in college.
If you need to go my coworker ormy co say, my classmate, my
classmate was like, Oh, I don'tget it. Like, isn't therapy like

(38:30):
your medication? Like I thought,like, if something was wrong, if
you're depressed, like you justgo therapy, like, why do you
need medication? And I was like,so some people are depressed,
and they can talk to someone andfeel better. Some people have
something mentally, like,physically wrong in their brain,

(38:52):
and they need that medicine tohelp it just like if someone has
a headache, they're gonna takeTylenol. Now who just talked to
someone and then their headachegoes away.

Rebel (39:02):
I always call it to explain it to me. She would say
I'm clinically depressed whichYeah, I need medication to help
me with my depression.

Shove (39:09):
Yeah, I think he felt bad because he's always like, I'm
just so depressed. I'm sodepressed. And then there's me
and one other girl that I like,actually go to therapy, and
we'll just look at each other.
Like, you don't even know. Youdon't know you're sad. You're
sad. You're not depressed. Ifyou're really there, but people
just always like they're like,I'm so so bipolar is my ADHD or

(39:30):
it's my LCD, near like, like,can you not? But yeah, so it has
been a little over five weeks.
Um, I took my first pill on NewYear's Eve. Because he now
seemed right. No, it actuallyjust came by it's perfect way to
start me here. I would say thatit's almost crazy because like,

(39:54):
It's been roughly five weeks andI think I'm starting to feel a
difference. The next week Ishould really no. Which is
great. But the side effects werereally tough. Yeah,

Rebel (40:06):
what were your side effects,

Shove (40:07):
the main one was nausea.
I got really nauseous to thepoint of where one day we're
moving the warehouse likebecause we had just moved Moxie
HQ, while I'm also on new medsand it's very physical. And I
went in, I didn't really eatthat morning, straight into,
like heavy lifting, had taken mymedication already. And I
literally had to run to thebathroom and throw up and then

(40:29):
just lay outside, like on thefloor, like in the parking lot
for a while. The nausea stillhappens. I haven't thrown up
again since then. But now Ireally need to make sure I'm
like drinking water and eatingwhen I take it, because
otherwise, like it'll be like 30minutes or two hours of really
nauseous, kind of like seasick.

(40:51):
And then the rest of the day,I'll be fine. So I'm like, okay,
I can deal with that. Dry mouth,which is just like annoying
because like, I can't whetherI'm like drinking water nonstop
all day, I'm just like, my mouthwas dry, like right now dry.

Rebel (41:08):
That was the one symptom that I had with my Adderall was
my mouth got dry. But then itwas like went away.

Shove (41:15):
My anxiety I've had like, super, I had a little bit of
anxiety the other day when wewere doing that shoot. And I was
just I think like, I was like,overwhelmed. I can do were
running late. And they knew,like I didn't feel safe. We were
skating. So I was just likelittle normal things. But like
now I bounced my leg a lot.
Like, like, don't even noticeI'm at work. And I'm just like

(41:36):
doing it. My leg. Yeah,

Rebel (41:39):
I was like, Babe, what are you doing?

Shove (41:40):
Yeah, now that's just the thing I do daily, pretty much.
I'll wait a few more weeks,maybe a whole month, if like the
side effects are too much. AndI'm like, Oh, I don't think this
is for me. I will let them knowwhether they need to lower it.
Or I need to try something else.
But it's just like, if thisone's not the one and I do need
to take something else, thenI'll really really understand

(42:01):
why people on antidepressantsare always saying like, Oh, just
sucks so hard to find the rightpill because that means I'll
take something else and have towait another month or two to
know if it works.

Rebel (42:13):
Yeah, that's really frustrating and annoying. And

Shove (42:17):
yeah. But yeah, definitely, um, I know it's
happening to you too. Butposting online about it. I did
get a handful of people, morepeople were supportive, but they
were like, don't do it, likemedication. So bad, like will
ruin you and all this stuff.

Rebel (42:36):
Yeah, I really hate that.
Because I think that that'sanother one of those things like
not to compare it to gearpolicing, but like, you don't
know what's going on in my body.
Like, just because you had acertain reaction to medication
and you have a certain maybepolitical opinion about
medication doesn't mean thatthat's what's going to be the

(42:58):
same for mine. And like, Ireally think like, if you really
do have like a negativeexperience with the medication,
like the way to go about itisn't just like, hey, stop,
don't do it. It's like, Hey,I've had a certain experience.
Would you like me to share thatwith you? Like, that's the way
the conversation should start?
Not let me dump all of myexperience with this right on

(43:19):
you. Because just because youposted it on the internet
doesn't mean you're asking tohear all about someone else's
experience and their advice foryou. Because in all honesty, are
you do you have a certificationor a license to prescribe
medication? Do you know allabout my like, like mind and all
the things that are going onwith me? Probably not, since

(43:41):
you're just a follower onInstagram.

Shove (43:45):
I appreciated when people shared their story whether it
was good or bad. I just didn'tappreciate the people that were
like, don't just told me not to.
It was like, just give me theinformation and I'm gonna make
my choice but don't like judgeme because I choose medication.
My mom didn't choose medication.
And she was she was diagnosedbipolar, bipolar, and it made

(44:08):
things so much worse. I believelike, just to know that I could
have had a more sane motherpossibly with better memories is
such just cut. My mom thoughtthat she would be a zombie if
she took medication, and I amdefinitely not a zombie. I am
not

Rebel (44:24):
even kind of I'd say you're more yourself now than
you are off of them.

Shove (44:28):
Exactly. So um, yeah, I mean, make informed decisions.
Don't just jump on it, reallythink about it. But that's all I
could say really. And don't addtoday if you feel like Hey, I am
looking to get on medication.
Can I have a little bit moreinformation after listening to
this? Go ahead and sign in myDMs. Rebel I don't know if you

(44:49):
feel the same way but I have noproblem talking to you about
like my personal like DelBeneand even more because of course
we've already been talking for along time. I'm sorry. But like,
if you have more questions, oryou want me to expand on this, I
have no problem. Just go aheadand message me.

Rebel (45:07):
Yeah. And to be clear, I also don't have a problem with
people expressing theirexperience with medication. But
my problem is explicitly whenyou say, Oh, don't do it because
of blah, blah, blah, or youshould ask for this because of
blah, blah, blah. It's like, No,I don't think you know, what's
good for my body, you might knowwhat's good for your body, you
might have an experience. AndI'd like to hear that

(45:28):
experience. But I don't want tohear your opinion about it,
about what's going on in mybody. And I think that that
comes from some history oftrauma in my life. So, but like,
I know, like, I'm super gratefulI reached out to someone who I
don't know extremely well, butthey had been open on the
internet about ADHD and likestarting Adderall and stuff, and

(45:51):
I reached out to them because Iwas having like, a really like
hard moments before I took it.
And they really, really helpedme navigate through the process.
And I was really, reallyappreciative of that. So if
there's anyone who feels like ohmy god, I have ADHD or think
I've he and I don't know what todo or whatever, like, my inbox
is definitely always open.

(46:13):
Awesome. Alright, anyways, timeto jump into the wheel world.
Welcome to the we'll world wherewe're going to talk about

Unknown (46:38):
streets, street skating,

Rebel (46:41):
what street skating

Shove (46:43):
when you skate mystery.

Rebel (46:45):
Okay, so what kind of street skating? Are we talking
about? Or are there differenttypes of street skating? Or is
all street skating the same?

Shove (46:51):
So there's casual street skating, and that's what I do
that is just in what rebel does.
That's just like, skating inyour neighborhood. I like to
joke that I'm like, my, like,Baby aggressive street skater.
Only because like, I don't dotricks. But I am a daredevil
when it comes to cars. Like I'mjust like, I don't care. Like
just like you see, like, I'mactually New York when you see

(47:15):
like bike messengers, andthey're just like, diving,
weaving in between trafficwhenever I get a rush from that
and like, I don't really care.
I'm really good at like seeinglike the velocity of the car
knowing I have enough time. Butof course, that's not aggressive
skating. That is just like, I'mbeing a concrete surfer, not
asphalt surfer.

Rebel (47:33):
Yeah, I definitely when I give it. When I skate in the
streets, I definitely see myselfas just like, a person escapes
on all surfaces, and enjoysskating on the actual street.
But I would love to be somedayin my dreams and aggressive
street skater.

Shove (47:52):
You better hurry up because they're yet no, yeah,
I'm gonna skate park enough,because we're talking about go
wrestle the streets. Yeah, so

Rebel (48:01):
we're talking about aggressive street skating,

Shove (48:03):
we're talking about like what you saw in street fighters.
Yeah, if

Rebel (48:07):
you didn't watch roller ghuli, aka Carly Craig street
fighters. You should watch thatwe'll link it down below. But
basically, street StreetFighters was a compilation of a
bunch of street skaters.

Shove (48:20):
Yes. And street skating can be like, you'll see some
people just turning like theworld into their skatepark.
Whether it's just like, on aledge somewhere, or there might
be like, like, a little safelike a handicap drill, and then
they can fly it on it or theycan like jump up on it. The

(48:42):
like, see things that you'll seeat the skate park on the street
side and we'll be like, I'mgonna do that. And then there's
like super super scaryaggressive where it's like
really sketchy situations likewhere you're gonna end and go on
to a busy street like

Rebel (48:55):
Yeah, I think a lot of aggressive skating is sketchy
situations illegal. I'm gonna goout here. Yeah, MSA before we
like super get into this is thatstreet skating is definitely
illegal and definitely superdangerous. And we are not
necessarily advocating that yougo and try aggressive street
skating. That is a decision thatyou have to make on your own

(49:18):
with complete knowledge that itis dangerous and you can get
really hurt and that you couldget in trouble but that out of
the way.

Shove (49:27):
Oh my gosh, you just mean like the lawyer this episode no
interest.

Rebel (49:31):
There. We're just suggesting a lot of things today
that we don't normally see.

Shove (49:35):
We're not suggesting should suggest seem we're just
talking or

Rebel (49:39):
talking about it. Yeah.
But so when you see people likejumping gaps, like say you you
see like big concrete slabs andthen people are jumping from
slab to slab or if you seesomeone on an in and out sign,
and they're like riding that orif you see someone like grinding
on Different ledges and randomstuff that wasn't created to be

(50:02):
like, skated on

Shove (50:06):
where they're like, look at that Tim stair. I'm gonna
jump in, look at that 15 stair,I'm gonna freakin ride that rail
and you're like, oh,

Rebel (50:15):
like are they like, get on top of a roof, and then they
jump off. Now let's jump overstuff.

Shove (50:21):
A lot of this you'll see in skateboarding and you look at
like any skateboarding moviethat you can find on YouTube.
That's like, street skating,like, you're gonna see what
we're talking about. And thenit's like, insane. And then a
lot of airliners do it. But whenit comes to roller skaters,
we're now finding out we justfound out this is new for us.

(50:43):
It's like, it's that it's nonexistent. Yeah, considering how
many roller skaters there are.
It's so minuscule the amount ofskaters that are street skaters,
like aggressive streets likewe're talking like the Ghoulies
of the world, and estrogens andthe spicy IVs.

Rebel (51:08):
Yeah, like, there's so few of them. And so we're on a
hunt to find more aggressivestreet skaters. Yeah, because
there's got to be more andthere's got to be more, but just
no one talks about it. And it'snot showing up anywhere on the
internet. But I've beensearching.

Shove (51:23):
Yeah. And then like the people that I put out, like a
call to action link, let meknow. And there was like all
people I knew. And even when Ilook at those people, it's like,
they are street skating. They'restreet skaters. But are they
doing like, this crazy date?
like Uber dangerous, like scarystuff

Rebel (51:42):
that Nick the medic does?
Yeah. So insane. So

Shove (51:46):
then I'm like, No, those people are far in between. Like,
I'll see it on Instagram hereand there. And I can see people
starting the one that had thatway because they're getting
missing tours. Yeah, becausethey're getting like bored at
this skate park. Because I feellike all these people you see,
on the street side at the skatepark, like just need someone to
be like, Yo, come out into theworld with me. But heads up, you

(52:09):
could get a ticket or get hit bya car. Like so

Rebel (52:11):
terrifying. Are you open to this? And if you are, let's
do it. But like your risk,you're choosing this?

Shove (52:20):
Yeah. And I think that's why some people are afraid
because like, unless they justlike, see someone doing it.
They're like, Yo, I want to dothis cool. But people don't
really want to be responsible tolike, go cherry pick skaters and
be like, come with me. You'llprobably really get hurt. But
yeah, I'll teach you and thenlike feel like shit when
something goes wrong. So like Iunderstand it, but like, there's

(52:42):
got to be more people out there.
Like, I don't know, the skatecommunity. So make so

Rebel (52:45):
big. Yeah, I definitely am on the level of like, skating
in places I'm not supposed toskate in. Like, I skate in so
many places that I've I'vegotten kicked out of so many
places on my skates. My defaultsetting is I'm just gonna skate
here until I get kicked out. Andthen I might be like, Why are
you kicking me out? I didn't seea sign. Even if there was a
sign. So like, I'm on that levelwhen it comes to like streets

(53:09):
getting but shine of anything.
But yeah, so the reason so whyare we like talking about this?
Why do we care about streetskating? Are we just trying to
let the people know like whatstreet skating is? And then find
more aggressive street skaters?
Or do we want to becomeaggressive street skaters? Like
what's, what's our thoughts?

Shove (53:29):
I just want to talk about it. Well, I guess you too,
because it was in conversationwith some skaters. Like we have
some street skaters that are intown right now. And like, it's
like crazy, because you see thestreet skaters that do exist and
the near like, Well, for meright away. And one of my
friends. She's a woman of color.
We're like, Oh, my God, arethere only white street skaters

(53:54):
like this can't be. I onlystarted really thinking about
it. And then we even talked tothem about it. And they were
saying how they always haveconversations about how like,
where are all the people ofcolor, like, but some of the
ones like at least female likefemale, non non binary, because
there's a couple guys that dostreet skate. Like if you

(54:18):
remember from Street Fighter, sothere's guys in there. But guess
what? All those guys were inliners. Yeah, they didn't start
as roller skaters. And it'sreally easy because they already
got it on in lines and then theyswitch to quads. And then they
just ace it. And I know ifyou're listening to this, how
many times do you see even askateboarder but specifically in
inliner, put on rollerskates andjust shred and they're like,

(54:42):
immediately and you're like why?
Yeah, they're like already doinggrinds and dropping in and like
all kinds of stuff like withouthesitation and you're like, it's
I've been doing this for a yearand I can't even do that. Yeah,
it's wild. So to find like,someone that started and
quality, like only skates quads,and is an aggressive street

(55:05):
skater is really rare, like,female or non binary. So I think
and then like you like periodlike as a white like a white
person. And then a delve evenmore into a subcategory and be
like when we have someone that'sa POC, female or non binary
person that aggressive streetparts. And like after having

(55:25):
that conversation, it was justlike there have to exist. Like,
I was like, This is bullshit.
There's got to be people incolor that are like super
hardcore, like throwingthemselves like deep in danger,
like the most dangerous shit,you can think. Like, there's got
to be these people that existthat are like, I don't know, I
couldn't find them. I justcouldn't find them.

Rebel (55:47):
I feel like they are just not proliferating on the
internet, right? feel like theyare there. And they're just
like, being gnarly, and likekilling it. And we're just not
seeing their content, or they'renot creating content. I
definitely feel like there are,I'm sure, like a bunch of like

(56:08):
super gnarly skaters in likeLatin America, that I just like
don't know, oh, 100% of LatinAmerica, there's I know that
they're there. But I want toknow that

Shove (56:19):
because a lot of them don't even have like the
appropriate skate parks or likeenough of them. So they have to
head into the streets. And thenyou think about like the
impoverished cities that likebarely have like nice sidewalks
already. So if you think aboutit, it's like, that looks like a
ramp because it's alreadybroken, or that's a gap because
of this. So they're kind of likeget creative, because they just

(56:41):
have to because that's theenvironment already. So they're
already skating on gnarlyterrain.

Rebel (56:47):
I just feel like they're out there. So if you know
someone, or if you are thatperson, comment, we want to see
you we want to know you. We wantto admire you. Basically, is it
because we just started tryingto learn rails for the first
time and wow, it's wild. I'm sofreaked out but I also Oh, you

(57:08):
said rails with these railreels. Oh, right. Like no rail.
Looks like what we've beendoing. No rails. Yeah, no, like
I we just started for the firsttime and I was like,

Shove (57:19):
Yeah, again, why we're talking about this because all
the talk about freakin streetskating. And then I had the
opportunity to have a lovelyfriend and boss lady. The
estrogen is in town for work. Sowe wanted to all hang out. After
we clocked out on Friday. Andrebel was at home because you

(57:41):
know, working a boring job athome. And wish I was like we
should skate so that I was luckyI had my something told me it
was so weird to cuz I had leftmy park skates at the office and
some of my other ones and like,something was like, just leave
them here. It's fine. And I tookmy other skates home and then
Michelle left to get theirskates. And then they brought EV

(58:02):
skates because he was like,okay, my skates too. So, like
I'm back and then as soon as Ihit five, we're like, all right,
and they pulled out the heartrail. And it's like a nice flat
rail. And in my head I'm like,Okay, I was wondering what they
meant by we would be skating upthe warehouse and I played it
hella cool. And that was thefirst time I was like, huh,

(58:23):
bench to medication saying thekicking because I didn't like go
oh no, I can't do this. I had nokneepads nothing I had no year
all I have never gone on a railbefore. And I'm over here like,
okay, cool. Okay, that's fine.
Even Evie has me pads on Sydneyhazard earbuds on? Michelle.
Chris has nothing. And then likethey're like, Okay, so let's put

(58:45):
your foot on that sound likeOkay, I just kept going. And
then I'm like, Okay, who am I?
Like, usually, especially if Idon't have safety gear. I'm
like, Y'all crazy. I'll be overthere. And I was proud of myself
for just doing it and I had somuch fun. And I like called
Rebel and I was like, You needto get over here. Grab your
skates come right now.

Rebel (59:05):
Yeah, and I was like, I actually have to finish some
things but okay. And then I cameand then it was super fun and I
was really scared but then I didit kind of not really but kind
of did it. And then

Shove (59:17):
Mockito that was was cool too as Michelle before you got
there and Michelle was reallyteaching us names and terms like
if a trick is like if you tookthat and pretended it was like
coping and you were on aroundlike what it meant if it was top
and top is like when your chestlike your crotch is facing into
around like that's taught. Andthen how like finally got to ask

(59:39):
question like about slidesversus Grimes.

Rebel (59:42):
Is it really this versus this? So say for the people that
aren't watching? Oh, I thinkthat a slide is when you so like
if your skates are pointingforward and the coping or the
rail goes perpendicular to yourskin. And then I think a grind
is when your, your, your trucksand your like blocks or whatever

(01:00:07):
you have one foot is in front ofthe other and then your skates,
like almost hug the coping orthe rail. And it's like that.

Shove (01:00:17):
Alright, so a lot of people do say that and depending
on where you're skating respect,that is what I learned. But
technically, it's whicheverything is a grind. Because
if you really wanted to talkabout it, if you're doing a is
it 5050? Or is a 5050? When yourboss is 50? No, not 5050. If

(01:00:37):
you're doing a like, porn star,or a train, I remember all the
names because I had them down.
I'm really bad at grind names.
But like when you have one skateone way and when the other than
what's up, because technicallylots of slide and grind. Yeah, I
wonder trumped other, I feellike, we thought, Oh, it's a
grind just because one foot goeslike that. But you don't one

(01:01:00):
doesn't trump the other. So whenit started, when I started
going, it was like, thereweren't always blocks, right. So
it was called a plate stall or aplate slide. And then if you
went on the truck, it was atruck slide or a trunk, a truck
glide, so your truck or it wasplate, then people's arguing
blocks, and then it was called ablock grind, or it was the limit

(01:01:22):
kept switching back and forth.
So a lot of mom like if we tryto not be too crazy, because
like if roller skaters starteddoing that, after in liners,
there was already a trick namemade before a roller skater came
and they're calling them grinds.
They should all be grinding tomake it less complicated,
because we're all skaters. Yeah,it makes sense. But they call
them slide blocks. But you hearsome people say grind blocks.

(01:01:42):
And that's why we now know thoseare both correct answers. But if
you go somewhere at a skatepark, and everyone's like,
saying that term, and that'sjust like the language of the
land, just respect that and justcall it that and don't be like,
actually, it's this

Rebel (01:01:57):
interesting. I always thought it was like grind on the
trucks, and then slide on theblock.

Shove (01:02:03):
Yeah, I don't come from you. If you're like, actually,
that's wrong, because it's alldebatable and like, some things
are debatable. I'm not skatingtrying to be like CIB and like
rewrite the whole dictionary.
And like, be like, it's reallyhard to like, have one entity,
say like, we're gonna write atricky scenario. And this is
what it is. I think you needpeople from like, that have been
in skating for so long. And thatall skate something different,

(01:02:26):
like your park, your streetskaters. Like, I think they need
to come together to agree onthese terms. Because there's so
many things just wrong in thereor like disagreeable or like,
you know, like there seems to bean agreement. Yeah, like it's
just not the word of law. Andnot take it so seriously. Like
I've heard people get inarguments about TRICARE. Yes. So

(01:02:47):
serious. And it's like, howabout we just do the thing with
the thing and then when you doit, you're like, whoo, good job.
You did that thing. Yeah.

Rebel (01:02:56):
But obviously like respect that people that came
before you I think that that's abig thing that I like think is
important is like when you knowsomeone did come up with a name
like respecting them andrespecting that.

Shove (01:03:08):
Yeah, only bad thing I saw was like, people trying to
name tricks that have alreadybeen done, like have a name. And
now like, I

Rebel (01:03:15):
mean, yeah, I'm so annoyed by that. Like, you're
you are just started here. Likewhat?

Shove (01:03:20):
And then they're like, no, because they did it at a 25
degree angle and I didn't know30 degree angle. Like it's the
same trick. You just went alittle higher. I'm gonna call no
names, but I've seen that. Butyeah, so

Rebel (01:03:35):
so that street skating.
Yeah, I hope you enjoyed ourlittle conversation. I feel like
street skating will come upagain in the future. But that's
what we've got right now. Wejust wanted to start talking
about it up a little

Shove (01:03:47):
bit. Oh, season three we're schooling and have long
episode I know right? Yikes. Weneed to go back to being
depressed and not wanting totalk that shorter.

Rebel (01:03:56):
Alright, let's move on.

Shove (01:04:12):
Trick of the Week, this time rebel found someone yo

Rebel (01:04:17):
I'm so excited about this Trick of the Week. Okay. So let
me explain it to you everyonewho is like, not watching right
now. But basically the trick ofthe week is Maddie Quayle posted
this ma di Q UAIL on Instagram.
And basically what it is, is askater is like standing there

(01:04:41):
ready. And then a another personhas a big cement block like one
of those things that you park islike the parking block. They put
that on top of a skateboard, andthen they release this
skateboard down around And theroller skater comes up and

(01:05:01):
slides on the moving blockthat's on the skateboard. And it
is red. Let me show it to you.

Shove (01:05:17):
at us, it's so cool.
Like, the timing has to beperfect with that. Yeah.

Rebel (01:05:23):
Also, who's grabbing it afterwards? Because I'm scared.
It's gonna hurt someone's ankle.
Um, yeah, so that's the trick ofthe week this week. I'm like,
hella impressed by that. I have.
I'm okay. The reason why Ipicked that is because I'm super
obsessed with when people uselike skateboards and different

(01:05:45):
objects, found objects to addand like, make tricks more
interesting. So like, I'm a bigfan of people who like put a
skateboard at the top of a ramp,and then they come up and then
they stall on the skateboard.
Instead of the coping, like I'ma big fan of that. So I just
thought that this was a movingelement and then the like cement
block. I was like, Oh, it wasamazing. Such a good skater.

(01:06:06):
Incredible. Great job. Thanksfor being our Trick of the Week.
Matty Qualls trick you're

Shove (01:06:16):
there like to just call me a what? A trick. Yeah, no,
your turn.

Rebel (01:06:21):
Your tricks are awesome.
And they made our week. Yeah.

Shove (01:06:25):
Oh my gosh.

Rebel (01:06:27):
Alright, let's move on to our obsessions.

Shove (01:06:44):
Okay, so we're gonna talk about these websites. When I
looked down at the notepad, andI saw rebel dongan watching. It
says, Do you wrote dog?

Rebel (01:07:00):
Okay, well, I guess I'll go with my obsession first, then
because you blew it. That'sokay. So my obsession this last
week has definitely been doingand watching. Get Ready With Me
videos. If you don't follow meon social media, I now make a
get ready with me video prettymuch every day. I've been doing
it everyday. This week. I'mtrying not to do it on the

(01:07:21):
weekends, necessarily. So I givemyself a break. But what I like
about it, and the reason why I'mso obsessed with it is one it's
forcing me to actually, like getdressed and an outfit that I
really like in the morning. Andit helps me to feel better about
myself, and really helps me tobe just like a little bit less

(01:07:41):
depressed and more motivated.
And to it's forcing me to bemore creative with my outfits
because I feel like I have thatpotential. And every time I'm
put to the test, I can pushthrough. But a lot of times,
I'll just be lazy with it. Andso I'm trying to give myself a
reason in the morning to like,really, like push the envelope a
little bit more with my fashion.

(01:08:07):
Nice. Yeah. And so I lovewatching other people's because
it inspires me and then I'mreally enjoying like, posting it
because I think it's fun. It'slike pretty easy to do. I
definitely throwing more clothesaround all over the place and
like trying more things or likehouses definitely more messy,
but going to learn how toregulate that moving forward.
And yeah, I'm just like totallyobsessed with that. So that's

(01:08:29):
what I'm obsessed with. And I'mtotally obsessed with the fact
that like other people are nowlike, oh yeah, we're gonna do
outfit of the day too. Becauseit's like, I hate that once you
are like a well known rollerskater or whatever, like people
only expect you to post rollerskating content. And so I just
decided, like fuck that I wantto post fashion content. I'll

(01:08:51):
also post rollerskating contentbut like, let me be me. And I
like that. It's like empoweringother people to do the same
thing as well because we are notjust roller skaters we have more
to us than just our rollerskating. You might not believe
that but there are many aspectsto us as humans.

Shove (01:09:12):
Oh my god yes.

Rebel (01:09:14):
What what are you obsessed with this week shove

Shove (01:09:17):
I'm back on my murder Reno shit again. I have been
listening to my favorite murderas I am driving to and from work
again. As well as jumping backon my Bailey Syrian Diana you
know the suspicion the nene themakeup murder Mondays? She's

(01:09:42):
amazing.

Rebel (01:09:44):
Yeah, she's awesome. I love her

Shove (01:09:46):
pill. Like I just you know I identify as many levels
like I love my my favoritemurder, right and like they're
cool and they're funny. Theymake me laugh, but I feel like
my I wouldn't hang out withthem. But I want to be like best
friends with them, you know, butlike Bailey, Sara, and I would

(01:10:06):
be besties. Like, I want to beher sister. I feel like I want
to hang out all the time. And Ifeel like her kind of sense of
humor and the things she says,and her weird faces. I'm like, I
love you. And she's just like,the amount of research she does
all by herself. And the factthat she can do her makeup,
which is amazing. Yeah,

Rebel (01:10:24):
she does it so well.
Yeah. And, like,

Shove (01:10:26):
tell these stories, just like I really appreciate the
effort that she puts into it. Soshe's pretty amazing. I have
been, I'm like upset cuz I dohave episodes to catch up on.
But I'm like, I need more.
Because I love new ones, but I'mtrying to get into her podcast,
but it's just not hitting thesame. Um, but one day I'll get

(01:10:47):
there.

Rebel (01:10:50):
Okay, so I know that I already had one. But I just
realized that I actually haveanother one that I'm way more
obsessed with next week, andbecause I'm going to be obsessed
with someone else or somethingelse next week, but this girl
drew off vuelo I don't know howto pronounce her last name. Dr.
EWAF u a l o. TED talk. She ison tick tock and she just like

(01:11:15):
listens to these guys who likeare just trash humans who are
saying shit like, oh, yeah,you're fat. Why even exist and
like, all this sort of stuff.
And then she'll just laugh atthem and then literally destroy
them like, she will just takethem down like completely like
she will just annihilate them.

(01:11:36):
And I and her laugh is so funnyand contagious. And she has such
good energy and it's just like,it's the best like I for reeking
love it so you should 100% Gowatch all of her Tik Tok. And I
think she's on Instagram too.
Like, you've got to find her.
You got to watch her stuff. It'shilarious. And I am totally

(01:12:00):
obsessed with it. I literallyspent like, a solid hour today
just watching all of her stuffto catch up because I was like,
wait, I haven't seen them atease. Because I'm obsessed. I'm
obsessed. Do

Shove (01:12:11):
you want me to blow your mind right now? Yes. Do you know
she has a podcast?

Rebel (01:12:15):
Oh, she has a podcast?
Yes. What is it to

Shove (01:12:19):
idiot girls? Oh her and another girl and it's just cargo
in so I think we need to checkit out. Because there was a tick
tock where had a clip of her oneof our episodes. I was like,
Holy shit, she has a podcast Ineed to listen to it. And I
forgot until you mentioned itright now.

Rebel (01:12:36):
I literally I don't know this is why I created this
segment of the podcast isbecause I am literally obsessed
with her and I needed to talk topeople about it. So please get
into it and talk to us about it.
Oh, that's that's all that's allI'm gonna say.

Shove (01:12:53):
Okay, just like play one.
I think you should just put asound bite and have a reaction
on it right like okay, let's dothis.

Rebel (01:13:00):
Okay, let me see. Okay, here's one

Shove (01:13:03):
better be a goodie.

Rebel (01:13:04):
I know I'm like trying to see the like most seen one.
Okay. Okay, so this one says itis this guy and it starts with
Why Are y'all trying tonormalize girls with body hair?
Sorry but no and this is what itlooks like for the people on the

(01:13:26):
YouTube and this is what shesays

Unknown (01:13:37):
Good luck in the irony of this being sure don't have a
bitch but that's besides thepoint this is my impression of
what I think it was like thisthing happens when they post
this bucket bullshit.
Street packs no foreigner Thisis my impression of what they

(01:14:01):
think women doneither of which happened
instead you got me mostembarrassing part about this
video to me you were second hereLipson the whole time when you
push them out they look thefucking same no pinion Arthur
Christmas head ass.

Rebel (01:14:24):
Anyways, so that's just like a best Tamala sound by
Yeah, she doesn't really readsthem and really does her
research too. She like therewill be ones where she's like,
your tick tock profile had nopictures of you. So I found I
found you. I know what you looklike your Instagram and then
we'll just rip them apart andit's amazing. And you've got to

(01:14:45):
go and I love that she's like,Okay, I promise I'm gonna stop
talking about this like so soonbut like, she'll literally be
like, Yo, you know that likethat like the hottest girl
you've ever thought of andyou're like, Man, I wish she was
mine. That girl follows me Sheis um, she like she's in my
group like

Shove (01:15:07):
I think like one of them when she was just like, because
people will talk like wheneverthere's like a douchey guy
saying something that's sosexist or homophobic or
transphobic any like everyonewill Tiger and Tiger Tiger so
she back alright, but and thenlike the like you said just her
research and sometimes it's likepeople already like these men
already know so they likeblocker real fast before they're

(01:15:28):
like who keeps getting tagged?
Oh shit she's gonna come for meso they blocked her and then
she'll find it cuz she's like,you think I've got more than
what I tell like

Rebel (01:15:38):
so that's we're obsessed.
Yeah, so yeah, so you should gocheck it out and some good
laughs I'm good. Definitely goodlaugh because that's like us.
Yes. And tell us what you'reobsessed with so we can check it
out. All right, that we've donea very long episode, so maybe
that's just it. Party. We lovehanging out with you. So well
see you next Wednesday

Shove (01:16:02):
if we're lucky. We will bye

Rebel (01:16:25):
That's it right you just spit on the microphone.

Shove (01:16:27):
Bye everyone. Bye

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