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Sometimes there's a part of me that just wants to be carefree
and have fun, and sometimes you need that part of yourself to
fucking rescue you. I have this part of me that just
wants to be carefree and have fun, and I've been realizing
that sometimes you need that part of yourself to come and
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fucking rescue you from your ownself, from your own misery.
What is up, guys? I'm Kayla Rose, your host today,
and this is Skinny Dipping, the podcast where we strip down and
we dive in. I love to talk about the mind.
I love to talk about the body. I love to talk about the soul.
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Of course, I love to blend spirituality and mental Health
Sciences and just different modalities and yeah, ways of
exploring your own internal landscape.
I am so incredibly excited todaybecause I've been thinking so
hard about my responsible self. I've been doing IFS.
If you listened to the episode last week, it's Internal Family
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systems. It's this form of therapy where
you have yourself, which is likeyour soul, the part of yourself
that is trusting that it's connected to your creativity
source. That's connected to just this.
Yeah, feeling of trust within you.
It's this curious creative part.And then we have the managers,
which are parts of ourselves that we've created to manage
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everything in our life. We have our firefighters, the
parts of ourselves that we've developed and created in order
to highly protect ourselves. And we have our exiles, the
parts of ourselves that are moretender, more wounded, more, you
know, in need of something, maybe some needs that just
weren't met in childhood or in your teenage years or something
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like that. And we have these parts of
ourselves that feel abandoned orlonely or overwhelmed or
overstimulated or not enough. And I love IFS and Internal
family systems in this therapy because it really shows you that
there are no bad parts. There are only parts that are
burdened, parts that are hurtingyou, parts that are no longer
serving you in the same way thatthey used to in the way that
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they developed, and their parts that have the ability to still
stay and keep their positive qualities.
Keep the parts that are trying to protect you.
The parts are trying to help youmanage your life and plan things
out. We want those parts.
We need those parts, but we needto unburden them and we need
them to be able to feel free so that we can feel free, so that
our exiles can feel heard, so that our self can be in the
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driver's seat. Because what I love about
internal family systems is this image that you can have all
these other parts of yourself speaking upright.
You can have this planner part, this perfectionist part coming
saying we need to do this. And you can have your
firefighter part being like, we're shutting it all down.
Or you can have your exile part coming and be like, I need this.
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This is what I need right now. I feel abandoned.
And you can have all these partscome in.
But what we really need to know is that those parts are just all
informants. They're not the person driving
the bus. The self, the soul, the
compassion, curious, connected self is in the driver's seat and
we need to put that self in the driver's seat no matter what.
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And then it's informants, it's parts of ourselves, it's
managers, firefighters, exiles, these other parts of ourselves.
They're in the back of the bus, they're hanging out, they're
letting us know what direction to go, they're informing our
choices, but they're not controlling it and they're not
driving the bus. They can't drive the bus.
And sometimes it feels like whena part, for example, when you're
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ruminating, OK, you're ruminating on a part, you're
ruminating feeling like I never feel good enough.
I feel really alone, XYZ. What I love about IFS and
internal family systems, it shows us that that's not all
there is to you in that moment. But maybe that part is speaking
up really loudly and getting allof your attention and all of
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your awareness and perception because it really needs the mic
and it really needs something from you.
And once you kind of listen to that part and unburn it and it
in some way and make it feel seen and heard and acknowledged,
and you can take action on what that part needs, You actually
notice it doesn't need the mic as much.
And you can have yourself take the mic again and lead and leave
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the party. Leave the crowd in ifs.
They call it a parts party. So in this process of learning
about IFS, I have been reflecting on my responsible
self versus the carefree fairy in me because I feel like this
is a common struggle that I havehad my entire life.
And I feel like it's really exacerbated right now.
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And I've just been noticing I have this responsible self that
can be such a goddamn perfectionist and can just be so
controlling and just can really ruin the vibe in the party.
But I also need her. I need her to be responsible
because that's how I accomplish my dreams.
And you don't make money for thethings that I want to do in life
and the travels I want to see and you know, the family I want
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to have in the future. Like I need this responsible
part. But I, I shun her away so much
because I, it's like a parent, like I feel resentful.
This responsible part has made me feel not good enough.
Or this responsible part has made me feel like I'm not doing
enough and I need to be productive to prove my worth.
And because of that, I have thisdeep resentment for this
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responsible part to the point where I've spent years pushing
her away. I've, I've spent years pushing
away what I would call my masculine part, the structure
part that comes in and wants to get things done.
And that part is a part of me that I love.
And actually this part makes me proud of myself.
Sorry I'm saying part a lot, goddamn.
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But this is the way that I'm learning how to speak.
And it feels so good to speak inthis way because instead of
being like I'm being irresponsible, I'm not trying
hard enough. I feel blocked.
I feel self sabotaged. No, instead it's like, oh, a
part of me is showing up that isresisting and feeling resentful
for this responsible self. And I actually need my
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responsible self. So I need to figure out how to
work with her. And then I also have my carefree
self. I call her the carefree fairy in
me. She just wants to play.
She just wants to play and enjoywith her friends and fuck off
and do nothing and be in nature and go with the flow and have no
time schedule and have nowhere to be.
And I crave this part because I had so much fucking structure
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growing up. It was, you know, I went to a
college preparatory school. It was very intense.
I worked really hard in school and then I worked really hard in
my extracurriculars, which was like theater, you know, I would
be a main person in the production or in dance.
I was dancing five nights out ofthe week, multiple classes a
day. Like my life was so incredibly
booked and busy my entire fucking life that I feel like
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like of course I created this carefree fairy part within me
that just wants no time schedule.
It wants to feel like she can dowhatever she wants.
It wants to feel like I could honestly just like, smoke my
joint all day and vibe and run and jump in the ocean and lay in
the grass. And the truth is, when I let
that part of me run the show theentire time, and when I let her
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drive the bus for weeks on end and ignore my responsibilities,
I end up more stressed. I end up more overstimulated, I
end up more overwhelmed, and I end up not feeling proud of
myself because I'm not taking action towards my dreams.
So this is the conflict, right? I just wanted to show you guys
the conflict within me of the responsible self and the
carefree fairy. And I've really been trying to
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allow these parts to talk to each other and allow the self to
come in and be like, OK, how canwe move forward?
Because we want to move forward.Because I want both parts to
feel seen and heard and validated.
Because I know I need both aspects of myself.
I need all these nuanced parts of myself to be there.
I need my responsible part and Ineed my carefree part and I need
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the way that they communicate and to flow back and forth to be
something that supports me and supports my growth and supports
my dream and supports my evolution.
That's what I need. So I can't disregard any, any
part. I can't disregard the
responsible self and I can't disregard the carefree part.
I need to make sure they're bothshowing up for me in a way that
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supports me, that supports my true self, that supports the
self. This is what I want you guys to
get with skinny Dipping summer. I am on this fucking goddamn
mission to make my life fucking amazing.
And for me, what I need to make my life amazing is I want
adventure and freedom, but I also want like I also want
success within my career and I want forward movement of what
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I'm creating and I want to. I'm not going to lie, like I
don't care if it's egotistical. I want to see my bank account go
up. I want to feel abundant
financially. I want to feel abundant in my
relationships. I just want to feel abundant in
my life. And in order to do that, we kind
of need to do the work. You can't just like wish for it
to happen. You need to manifest a line
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within and then you need to takefucking action on the outside.
You can't do one or the other. You need to do both.
They need to work together. And with skinny dipping summer,
I really want to encourage all of us to do whatever it takes to
make our life better, to show upfor ourself because that's what
I'm doing right now. I'm like, OK, what do I need and
what do I want? What do I desire and what do I
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need to do to get there? And can I take small steps every
single day to get there? That's the mindset that I'm in
right now. And yeah, with this skinny
dipping summer, I'm realizing inorder for me to get those things
that I want, I need to be able to have these, you know,
responsible and carefree aspectsof myself.
I need them to be balanced. I need to walk the middle way.
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I need to find that in between tightrope.
And when I do that, I know that I will be so expanded in my
life. I know that I will open up so
many more opportunities because I'm going to be taking action
and I'm going to be feeling my spirit.
And that's really what I want this responsible self to do.
I want her to take action, right?
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We want you to be able to take inspired action and also to take
uninspired action. We want you to show up when it's
mundane. We want you to show up for the
devotion and the commitment to whatever it is you want to
create in this life. This is your one fucking life.
What do you want your legacies to be?
What do you want the art to be that you leave behind?
What do you want to be the businesses that you leave
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behind? What do you want the financial
abundance that you leave behind for your family for years to
come? What do you want that to be?
And fucking do it. You literally can do it, but you
have to have the game plan and you have to take action and you
need this responsible self to show up for you.
We need her. We love her.
We love her and she gets such a bad rap because I think she's
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associated to the perfectionist within us, to the productivity
machine within us, and we get resentful of her.
I get it. But it's like we need her so.
And then I also need this carefree part of myself that
wants to just have nothing to do.
Because the truth is, the best ideas come when you are in
nothingness. The best creative downloads can
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only drop into your brain when you are doing nothing.
That's why when you're driving, zoning out, when you're doing
the dishes or you're going on a walk, you have the best idea
ever. And you have the best idea ever
because you're creating space for it.
And when you createspace for it,you allow those downloads to
drop in. You allow yourself to quiet the
mind so that Source and Spirit can speak to you and can tell
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you what it thinks you should donext.
How can you listen to the whispers of the universe if you
are too fucking busy listening to the loudness and the busyness
and the chaos of the fucking world?
World. How can you listen when there's
so much fucking noise? So you need to quiet the mind,
right? And I do that.
Not always in meditation, of course, sometimes in breath
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work. But the best ideas come when I'm
on my drive, when I'm on my walk, when I'm doing the dishes,
when I'm not trying to come up with an idea, when I'm just
being and existing and doing something completely different.
That's kind of almost, I feel like when we're walking or
driving or doing the dishes, it's like distracting that
prefrontal cortex, right? It's distracting, that front
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part of our brain that is so noisy and loud.
That's the word that I was looking for.
Noisy. Yeah.
When the world is noisy, how canyou hear the whispers of the
universe telling you what is thenext intuitive inspired action
That's next. So I need both.
I need to createspace for the carefreeness in me that isn't
the responsible To Do List part of me because that's when the
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downloads come in. And that's what I want you to
know is like, you need to Createspace for that
nothingness. You need to Createspace for that
nothingness, but you also need your responsible self.
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Also, I think I forgot to be like, hey, let's stroke down and
dive in. But we just dove into this
episode. I love you guys.
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If you're new here, I'm Kayla Rose and this is skinny dipping
summer. Summer for the curious, girlies
for the spiritual girlies for the adventure girlies, for the
girls that want to just feel so expanded and abundant in their
life. These episodes are for you.
These are thought pieces on things that I've been exploring
and considering in my own life. And I want to pull all the
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information together paired withactual steps from, for example,
you know, scientific backgroundslike IFS therapy.
You know, that's what I'm pulling this parts work from
because I want you to feel supported so that you can be
abundant. And I want all these episodes to
feel like that for you. I want to feel like you can take
notes on them, that you can receive your own creative
downloads on them. And I hope that if you found
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this episode, it's for a reason.I hope it, it shifts something
within you and creates a new neural pathway in your brain,
right? Because you don't know until you
know. How are you supposed to have an
idea until you know? Maybe you're exposed to it.
And I just hope that as I'm speaking, you're having your own
downloads and connections and neural pathways being connected
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within your own mind because youare your own healer.
I want to give you the tools so that you can figure out what you
need intuitively and you can move towards that.
That's what I want for you. And if you feel like you want to
be supported in that, I feel like you should join the Soul
and progress community because Ihave like classes that'll keep
you in alignment for meditation,breath work, Pilates, all those
things that I feel like I reallyneed for my mental health.
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But then we also have community.So on the feed page in the Soul
and Progress community, I love seeing for example, the small
wins where people talk about thewins in their day.
I just feel so supported by these women.
It is so incredible. And yeah, it's $10 a month.
I made it so that there's only one group and one tier so that
you can access everything withinthe community now for only $10 a
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month. There's astrology reports,
there's health reports, there's places for you to post your art,
post your hobbies, post, you know, yourself, singing,
dancing, painting. Like this is a place for you to
share that or it's a place for you to share your words.
I love when people post like almost sub stack like articles
where they share their takes andtheir words.
And I just want this to be a space where maybe somebody who
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doesn't feel comfortable sharingon social media with the people
that follow them, but they want to express and feel seen in who
they are. I want this to feel like a safe
space. So if you feel like you need
extra support right now, the community could be a really
great space for you to explore all these feelings and also move
towards your goals because we'realways all supporting each other
in the community. So just a little side note, but
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let's strip down and dive in. This whole episode was inspired
by Addison Ray's new song calledMoney Is Everything Money.
So fucking catchy. I have so many takes also on
Addison Rae and like her rebranding and like what social
media means for creatives and artists.
I want to do a whole episode on it 'cause I feel like it's so
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interesting because so many creatives on social media really
just want to be artists and wantto be paid for their work.
But we get caught up in like thecringy fucking trends.
And I understand that deeply. But she has this line in this
song where she's like, a girl just wants to have fun.
Can't a girl just have fun? And I was like, wow, that's what
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I needed to hear. Because I feel like this
carefree part of me just wants to have fun.
And sometimes I have this very trained part of me that's comes
from being, you know, raised in a private school and college
preparatory and with parents whoare hard on me about my grades
and how good I did in things andkind of were helicoptery.
And, you know, they were hard onme because they wanted me to be
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successful. And I adopted those traits.
I said I want to be successful. So I'm going to adopt this trait
of being hard on myself because it is this form of motivation.
And I adopted those parts of myself.
And I think what I need is to just have fun and to allow
myself to have fun. And I was driving and this
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download came through and I realized that sometimes I have
this part of me, right? I have this like responsible
part, this part that's like really hard on myself,
perfectionist. But then I have this part of me
that just wants to be carefree and wants to have fun.
And this is a direct quote from my Notes app.
I have this part of me that wants to be carefree and have
fun. And sometimes you need that part
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to fucking rescue you from yourself.
You need that part to fucking rescue you.
And when I, when I said that outloud, it, it gave me the
greatest body chills because I was like this carefree part.
I've developed her right in order to move through the
stickiness and the conflict withthese parts.
I like to know where they came from.
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And for me it's like, of course I developed this carefree part.
Who wants to smoke weed all day and run in the fields and do
nothing and ignore my work and put things off over and over and
over again Because that part needed to be developed in order
to fucking save me for my own perfectionism?
I needed to have this carefree part.
Who genuinely carefree equals didn't care?
And by having this carefree part, it sometimes rescues me
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from my own spiral perfectionismand being hard on myself.
And I fucking need her. And I love her and I just want
to have fun sometimes. And I notice on my most vibrant
self with my friend Kaimana. He is my best friend since we
were 12 years old. And when I am with him, I am, I
am explosively vibrant and joyful and fun and loud and
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talkative and I'm just cracking up and giggling the entire time.
And I fucking love that version of myself so much.
And I'm so grateful she came to rescue me.
And I want to feel the gratitudefor her.
Because as we feel the gratitudefor these parts and we see their
purpose, when we see the purposefor the parts, we unburden them.
So what does burden versus unburden mean in internal family
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systems? So first of all, last thing I
want to say on that is I just ambeginning to notice the ways
that I take myself too seriouslyand by noticing the ways that I
take myself too seriously and allowing this carefree aspect of
me to come in and rescue me. Literally, the word rescue is so
definitive here because it's like I needed to rescue me.
Like grab me from the whole of Alice in Wonderland that I'm
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falling down and rescue me. Rescue me from the drowning
waters of the Seas. That's how it feels.
I feel like I'm rescuing myself from my own perfectionism.
And I fucking love this part. So burdened and unburdened
aspects in IFS internal family systems.
Again, I'm not a fucking expert.This is just what I've been
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learning and experiencing, and it's been helping me.
So I hope this helps somebody. I always just pray that it helps
one person in a way that it'll change their life.
I always set the intention before diving into the podcast
that, yeah, I just hope it resonates with somebody.
So burden means that it's hurting us.
Unburdened means that it can do its job without hurting us,
basically. So, for example, the burdened
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carefree fairy, we'll call her that the burdened carefree
fairy. She yearns to be rebellious.
She yearns to be a rebel and sheyearns to be irresponsible.
She wants to be irresponsible 'cause she wants to say fuck you
all, fuck the responsibilities, I just wanna play.
But then she's so burdened because she's so miserable and
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she's acting from this place of irresponsible rebellion and not
rebellion and carefreeness that supports my creativity.
In fact, something that actuallyhurts me and my creativity and
my work because I feel like if II'm not showing up for my work
and then I get more stressed. I have too many thoughts going
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on that I can't even be creative.
Maybe you can relate to that. Does anybody understand me?
I know you do. And then we have the burdened,
responsible part. I noticed that the burdened,
responsible part within me feelslike they have to try to hold
everything together. She feels like she is just
holding all these parts and nobody is fucking listening to
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her, right? She's like, you guys, we need to
do this because we have big dreams and big goals.
Like listen to me. She's trying to round up the
troops, but the troops aren't listening.
The kids aren't listening. She's dealing with toddlers.
She's dealing with literal toddlers.
And so she's really annoyed, right?
And she's burdened in this way because nobody's cooperating,
nobody's listening to her, and she feels like things are out of
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her control. And that's why I developed this
part, because I wanted things tofeel in control.
So that's when the self comes inand the self you sense, close
your eyes and just sense that self within you.
Now taking a deep breath, holding at the top, taking one
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more little inhale, filling up to your lungs to your greatest
capacity and sighing it out. 321letting it all go and just begin
to sense the self within you. You'll notice because you'll
feel curious about how you're feeling.
She'll feel compassionate towards everything you're
experiencing. She'll feel creative and
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excited. She'll feel joyful, she'll feel
also calm and collected, like she can handle it even when it
feels overwhelming. Just begin to sense that part of
yourself that is always there, even when you don't see her.
Doesn't that feel good to connect to that part of
yourself? So basically what happens is
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when the self comes in, we can start talking with the fairy
girl and the responsible girl and we can say, hey girl, what
do you need right now, right? And the unburdened carefree,
what she needs to do is she needs to know this is from my
own personal self reflection. You need to do your own self
reflection. But I hope this helps you.
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When the carefree fairy is unburdened, she knows that her
time is important. Her freedom is important.
Her time of doing nothing is incredibly important and
valuable. And we she wants to be
recognized by the responsible self that she is also important
and powerful and important and valued.
And she needs to know that we will set aside designated time
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for her to have her freedom. She craves it.
She wants to have nowhere to be.And her trigger is if she feels
rushed right, then I'll feel triggered and overwhelmed
because I feel rushed. And if she's feeling rushed,
she's not going to be happy. She's going to be burdened.
So we want her to not feel rushed.
And we want her to know that there are going to be times set
aside, days that we're going to set aside that we can say you
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can do nothing today. You're going to throw everything
off the table and do what bringsyou joy.
And we're going to give you a couple days a week so that you
can really do that. But we also, we need to explain
to her, hey, girl, we really need our responsible self to
show up right now. We really need her because you
know, you want to do XYZ with your life, you want to travel,
you want to write a book, you want to make your podcast huge.
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Like I want those things for you.
The self wants it. We're aligned.
We want the same things. And in that, I need you to know
that we need the responsible self to sometimes take the wheel
and be in the driver's seat. Are you OK with that?
And just letting the carefree self know that she will get her
time? That for me makes me feel so
heard and unburdened because I feel like, OK, I'm kind of
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letting this inner child, pardonme, know that you will get your
time to be free. And we're going to set aside
time maybe today, Monday, Tuesday, we're going to work
hard. And then Wednesday, let's have a
day off. Let's go play with our friends,
let's go to the beach. Let's have nothing to do and
just go with the flow and do what feels good.
And then I get that time. I feel filled up.
And then I feel like I can come back to my responsible self.
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And then I go to the, you know, the burdened, responsible part
of me. And I'm like, hey, girl, hey,
girl, what you need? What's going on?
And, you know, she's like, well,I just don't feel valued.
I don't feel like anybody's listening to me.
I don't feel like you're listening to me.
And I just want to take action 'cause I want to get these
things done for you. And I feel frustrated because no
one's fucking listening. And we're letting toddlers and
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inner teens run the show. And it's like, OK, the self
comes in and it's like, OK, I hear you.
I want you to know that you are valued and you do have a
significant place in my life. I know that you are trying to
make me feel proud of myself andmake me feel successful.
Thank you for doing that. I want you to keep doing that.
Please keep doing that. And the wind hitting right now
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is wind confirmation. And I would love if you can do
it in short spurts. You can work hard, work
efficiently, and then you can take a break.
How about that? Because actually responsible
self, when you take breaks, you are more efficient, you are more
energized, you are actually moreproductive in the long run.
And then we don't get burnt out and we can stay responsible for
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longer. Because if we go really hard,
you see, if we go really hard and we're really responsible for
a long time and we just work so hard and drag ourselves into the
ground and we're so productive, we're going to get burnt out.
And then we're going to shut down.
And we're going to become overwhelmed and over stimulated
and we're going to be shut down.And that's not going to be fun.
And in the end of the day, you're not going to get your way
responsible self, if we burn out.
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So what we need to do is work efficiently and take breaks.
And actually, I want you to see when you take breaks,
responsible self, that yeah, youare better because of it.
And when you let the carefree girl have the seat, you actually
see that you have so many more ideas to act upon and so many
more creative ideas to take inspired action.
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When you take rest, you know that the energy that you are
moving forward with is coming from this internal place, not a
place that is forced because youcan't force it.
You're going to have more resistance if you force it.
So let's just go at a steady pace that feels good for us, OK?
And I promise you that when you do this, when you allow me to be
carefree when I need to be, and when you allow me to live
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unburdened, I promise you will live on.
Brendan too. You know, responsible self.
You will feel better, you will feel productive, you will feel
like you are doing the right thing.
You will feel proud of yourself,you will feel successful.
And that's what I want for you. And see how just talking out
these parts of ourselves that are conflicting with each other,
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See how it just begins to just work itself out naturally.
Even hearing me talk about theseparts of myself, I'm sure is
unweaving something in your subconscious, in your brain that
is making you feel seen. And that's what I want for you.
So I hope you also see what the ifs, the different ways that you
can work out the different partsof yourself.
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And I really encourage you to dothis journaling.
You know, I really journaled like, what does the burden part
feel like and look like? And you know, when the self
comes in and asks these questions of curiosity, what do
you need? This is something you can do on
your own in your journal. What does it need to do or feel
to be unburdened? You know, what does this part
need to be told and recognized with that will make it feel
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unburdened and more free to do its job in a way that benefits
us? And you have to understand all
these different parts of yourself that come up, even the
parts that frustrate us or feel,you know, limiting I, you have
to understand they have a purpose for you.
And if they are treated right, they will treat you right.
So we just need to take care of all these different aspects of
ourselves and honor it and know that nothing is right or wrong
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or good or bad. It just is.
And we are actually inherently perfect and worthy the way that
we are. And that's what this practice
teaches us, that, you know, we have complications, we have
contradictions, We have parts ofourselves that don't agree.
And that is totally normal and so human.
And I actually love that becauseI love being complex and
nuanced. And yeah, it is a beautiful
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thing. And I want you to see that you
have all these parts and every part is actually perfect.
I just want you to know that allthese parts are human and if we
can communicate with them, we are benefited from it.
I loved this episode so much. We're going to keep it short and
sweet. I love you guys.
Please share this episode. Tag us on Instagram where you're
listening at 70s KK as skinny dipping Diaries and I love
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skinny dipping summer. I love the person that I'm
becoming. I love the person you're
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Join the soul and progress community to kind of like, you
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I want you there. There's a free trial so you can
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I love you. Happy skinny to bring summer.
I'm going into my retreat or maybe I'm in my retreat right
now when this is premiering. This is so exciting.
OK, bye.
Sometimes there's a part of me that just wants to be carefree
and have fun, and sometimes you need that part of yourself to
fucking rescue you. I have this part of me that just
wants to be carefree and have fun, and I've been realizing
that sometimes you need that part of yourself to come and
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fucking rescue you from your ownself, from your own misery.
What is up, guys? I'm Kayla Rose, your host today,
and this is Skinny Dipping, the podcast where we strip down and
we dive in. I love to talk about the mind.
I love to talk about the body. I love to talk about the soul.
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Of course, I love to blend spirituality and mental Health
Sciences and just different modalities and yeah, ways of
exploring your own internal landscape.
I am so incredibly excited todaybecause I've been thinking so
hard about my responsible self. I've been doing IFS.
If you listened to the episode last week, it's Internal Family
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systems. It's this form of therapy where
you have yourself, which is likeyour soul, the part of yourself
that is trusting that it's connected to your creativity
source. That's connected to just this.
Yeah, feeling of trust within you.
It's this curious creative part.And then we have the managers,
which are parts of ourselves that we've created to manage
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everything in our life. We have our firefighters, the
parts of ourselves that we've developed and created in order
to highly protect ourselves. And we have our exiles, the
parts of ourselves that are moretender, more wounded, more, you
know, in need of something, maybe some needs that just
weren't met in childhood or in your teenage years or something
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like that. And we have these parts of
ourselves that feel abandoned orlonely or overwhelmed or
overstimulated or not enough. And I love IFS and Internal
family systems in this therapy because it really shows you that
there are no bad parts. There are only parts that are
burdened, parts that are hurtingyou, parts that are no longer
serving you in the same way thatthey used to in the way that
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they developed, and their parts that have the ability to still
stay and keep their positive qualities.
Keep the parts that are trying to protect you.
The parts are trying to help youmanage your life and plan things
out. We want those parts.
We need those parts, but we needto unburden them and we need
them to be able to feel free so that we can feel free, so that
our exiles can feel heard, so that our self can be in the
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driver's seat. Because what I love about
internal family systems is this image that you can have all
these other parts of yourself speaking upright.
You can have this planner part, this perfectionist part coming
saying we need to do this. And you can have your
firefighter part being like, we're shutting it all down.
Or you can have your exile part coming and be like, I need this.
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This is what I need right now. I feel abandoned.
And you can have all these partscome in.
But what we really need to know is that those parts are just all
informants. They're not the person driving
the bus. The self, the soul, the
compassion, curious, connected self is in the driver's seat and
we need to put that self in the driver's seat no matter what.
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And then it's informants, it's parts of ourselves, it's
managers, firefighters, exiles, these other parts of ourselves.
They're in the back of the bus, they're hanging out, they're
letting us know what direction to go, they're informing our
choices, but they're not controlling it and they're not
driving the bus. They can't drive the bus.
And sometimes it feels like whena part, for example, when you're
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ruminating, OK, you're ruminating on a part, you're
ruminating feeling like I never feel good enough.
I feel really alone, XYZ. What I love about IFS and
internal family systems, it shows us that that's not all
there is to you in that moment. But maybe that part is speaking
up really loudly and getting allof your attention and all of
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your awareness and perception because it really needs the mic
and it really needs something from you.
And once you kind of listen to that part and unburn it and it
in some way and make it feel seen and heard and acknowledged,
and you can take action on what that part needs, You actually
notice it doesn't need the mic as much.
And you can have yourself take the mic again and lead and leave
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the party. Leave the crowd in ifs.
They call it a parts party. So in this process of learning
about IFS, I have been reflecting on my responsible
self versus the carefree fairy in me because I feel like this
is a common struggle that I havehad my entire life.
And I feel like it's really exacerbated right now.
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And I've just been noticing I have this responsible self that
can be such a goddamn perfectionist and can just be so
controlling and just can really ruin the vibe in the party.
But I also need her. I need her to be responsible
because that's how I accomplish my dreams.
And you don't make money for thethings that I want to do in life
and the travels I want to see and you know, the family I want
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to have in the future. Like I need this responsible
part. But I, I shun her away so much
because I, it's like a parent, like I feel resentful.
This responsible part has made me feel not good enough.
Or this responsible part has made me feel like I'm not doing
enough and I need to be productive to prove my worth.
And because of that, I have thisdeep resentment for this
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responsible part to the point where I've spent years pushing
her away. I've, I've spent years pushing
away what I would call my masculine part, the structure
part that comes in and wants to get things done.
And that part is a part of me that I love.
And actually this part makes me proud of myself.
Sorry I'm saying part a lot, goddamn.
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But this is the way that I'm learning how to speak.
And it feels so good to speak inthis way because instead of
being like I'm being irresponsible, I'm not trying
hard enough. I feel blocked.
I feel self sabotaged. No, instead it's like, oh, a
part of me is showing up that isresisting and feeling resentful
for this responsible self. And I actually need my
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responsible self. So I need to figure out how to
work with her. And then I also have my carefree
self. I call her the carefree fairy in
me. She just wants to play.
She just wants to play and enjoywith her friends and fuck off
and do nothing and be in nature and go with the flow and have no
time schedule and have nowhere to be.
And I crave this part because I had so much fucking structure
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growing up. It was, you know, I went to a
college preparatory school. It was very intense.
I worked really hard in school and then I worked really hard in
my extracurriculars, which was like theater, you know, I would
be a main person in the production or in dance.
I was dancing five nights out ofthe week, multiple classes a
day. Like my life was so incredibly
booked and busy my entire fucking life that I feel like
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like of course I created this carefree fairy part within me
that just wants no time schedule.
It wants to feel like she can dowhatever she wants.
It wants to feel like I could honestly just like, smoke my
joint all day and vibe and run and jump in the ocean and lay in
the grass. And the truth is, when I let
that part of me run the show theentire time, and when I let her
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drive the bus for weeks on end and ignore my responsibilities,
I end up more stressed. I end up more overstimulated, I
end up more overwhelmed, and I end up not feeling proud of
myself because I'm not taking action towards my dreams.
So this is the conflict, right? I just wanted to show you guys
the conflict within me of the responsible self and the
carefree fairy. And I've really been trying to
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allow these parts to talk to each other and allow the self to
come in and be like, OK, how canwe move forward?
Because we want to move forward.Because I want both parts to
feel seen and heard and validated.
Because I know I need both aspects of myself.
I need all these nuanced parts of myself to be there.
I need my responsible part and Ineed my carefree part and I need
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the way that they communicate and to flow back and forth to be
something that supports me and supports my growth and supports
my dream and supports my evolution.
That's what I need. So I can't disregard any, any
part. I can't disregard the
responsible self and I can't disregard the carefree part.
I need to make sure they're bothshowing up for me in a way that
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supports me, that supports my true self, that supports the
self. This is what I want you guys to
get with skinny Dipping summer. I am on this fucking goddamn
mission to make my life fucking amazing.
And for me, what I need to make my life amazing is I want
adventure and freedom, but I also want like I also want
success within my career and I want forward movement of what
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I'm creating and I want to. I'm not going to lie, like I
don't care if it's egotistical. I want to see my bank account go
up. I want to feel abundant
financially. I want to feel abundant in my
relationships. I just want to feel abundant in
my life. And in order to do that, we kind
of need to do the work. You can't just like wish for it
to happen. You need to manifest a line
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within and then you need to takefucking action on the outside.
You can't do one or the other. You need to do both.
They need to work together. And with skinny dipping summer,
I really want to encourage all of us to do whatever it takes to
make our life better, to show upfor ourself because that's what
I'm doing right now. I'm like, OK, what do I need and
what do I want? What do I desire and what do I
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need to do to get there? And can I take small steps every
single day to get there? That's the mindset that I'm in
right now. And yeah, with this skinny
dipping summer, I'm realizing inorder for me to get those things
that I want, I need to be able to have these, you know,
responsible and carefree aspectsof myself.
I need them to be balanced. I need to walk the middle way.
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I need to find that in between tightrope.
And when I do that, I know that I will be so expanded in my
life. I know that I will open up so
many more opportunities because I'm going to be taking action
and I'm going to be feeling my spirit.
And that's really what I want this responsible self to do.
I want her to take action, right?
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We want you to be able to take inspired action and also to take
uninspired action. We want you to show up when it's
mundane. We want you to show up for the
devotion and the commitment to whatever it is you want to
create in this life. This is your one fucking life.
What do you want your legacies to be?
What do you want the art to be that you leave behind?
What do you want to be the businesses that you leave
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behind? What do you want the financial
abundance that you leave behind for your family for years to
come? What do you want that to be?
And fucking do it. You literally can do it, but you
have to have the game plan and you have to take action and you
need this responsible self to show up for you.
We need her. We love her.
We love her and she gets such a bad rap because I think she's
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associated to the perfectionist within us, to the productivity
machine within us, and we get resentful of her.
I get it. But it's like we need her so.
And then I also need this carefree part of myself that
wants to just have nothing to do.
Because the truth is, the best ideas come when you are in
nothingness. The best creative downloads can
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only drop into your brain when you are doing nothing.
That's why when you're driving, zoning out, when you're doing
the dishes or you're going on a walk, you have the best idea
ever. And you have the best idea ever
because you're creating space for it.
And when you createspace for it,you allow those downloads to
drop in. You allow yourself to quiet the
mind so that Source and Spirit can speak to you and can tell
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you what it thinks you should donext.
How can you listen to the whispers of the universe if you
are too fucking busy listening to the loudness and the busyness
and the chaos of the fucking world?
World. How can you listen when there's
so much fucking noise? So you need to quiet the mind,
right? And I do that.
Not always in meditation, of course, sometimes in breath
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work. But the best ideas come when I'm
on my drive, when I'm on my walk, when I'm doing the dishes,
when I'm not trying to come up with an idea, when I'm just
being and existing and doing something completely different.
That's kind of almost, I feel like when we're walking or
driving or doing the dishes, it's like distracting that
prefrontal cortex, right? It's distracting, that front
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part of our brain that is so noisy and loud.
That's the word that I was looking for.
Noisy. Yeah.
When the world is noisy, how canyou hear the whispers of the
universe telling you what is thenext intuitive inspired action
That's next. So I need both.
I need to createspace for the carefreeness in me that isn't
the responsible To Do List part of me because that's when the
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downloads come in. And that's what I want you to
know is like, you need to Createspace for that
nothingness. You need to Createspace for that
nothingness, but you also need your responsible self.
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Also, I think I forgot to be like, hey, let's stroke down and
dive in. But we just dove into this
episode. I love you guys.
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If you're new here, I'm Kayla Rose and this is skinny dipping
summer. Summer for the curious, girlies
for the spiritual girlies for the adventure girlies, for the
girls that want to just feel so expanded and abundant in their
life. These episodes are for you.
These are thought pieces on things that I've been exploring
and considering in my own life. And I want to pull all the
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information together paired withactual steps from, for example,
you know, scientific backgroundslike IFS therapy.
You know, that's what I'm pulling this parts work from
because I want you to feel supported so that you can be
abundant. And I want all these episodes to
feel like that for you. I want to feel like you can take
notes on them, that you can receive your own creative
downloads on them. And I hope that if you found
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this episode, it's for a reason.I hope it, it shifts something
within you and creates a new neural pathway in your brain,
right? Because you don't know until you
know. How are you supposed to have an
idea until you know? Maybe you're exposed to it.
And I just hope that as I'm speaking, you're having your own
downloads and connections and neural pathways being connected
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within your own mind because youare your own healer.
I want to give you the tools so that you can figure out what you
need intuitively and you can move towards that.
That's what I want for you. And if you feel like you want to
be supported in that, I feel like you should join the Soul
and progress community because Ihave like classes that'll keep
you in alignment for meditation,breath work, Pilates, all those
things that I feel like I reallyneed for my mental health.
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But then we also have community.So on the feed page in the Soul
and Progress community, I love seeing for example, the small
wins where people talk about thewins in their day.
I just feel so supported by these women.
It is so incredible. And yeah, it's $10 a month.
I made it so that there's only one group and one tier so that
you can access everything withinthe community now for only $10 a
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month. There's astrology reports,
there's health reports, there's places for you to post your art,
post your hobbies, post, you know, yourself, singing,
dancing, painting. Like this is a place for you to
share that or it's a place for you to share your words.
I love when people post like almost sub stack like articles
where they share their takes andtheir words.
And I just want this to be a space where maybe somebody who
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doesn't feel comfortable sharingon social media with the people
that follow them, but they want to express and feel seen in who
they are. I want this to feel like a safe
space. So if you feel like you need
extra support right now, the community could be a really
great space for you to explore all these feelings and also move
towards your goals because we'realways all supporting each other
in the community. So just a little side note, but
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let's strip down and dive in. This whole episode was inspired
by Addison Ray's new song calledMoney Is Everything Money.
So fucking catchy. I have so many takes also on
Addison Rae and like her rebranding and like what social
media means for creatives and artists.
I want to do a whole episode on it 'cause I feel like it's so
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interesting because so many creatives on social media really
just want to be artists and wantto be paid for their work.
But we get caught up in like thecringy fucking trends.
And I understand that deeply. But she has this line in this
song where she's like, a girl just wants to have fun.
Can't a girl just have fun? And I was like, wow, that's what
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I needed to hear. Because I feel like this
carefree part of me just wants to have fun.
And sometimes I have this very trained part of me that's comes
from being, you know, raised in a private school and college
preparatory and with parents whoare hard on me about my grades
and how good I did in things andkind of were helicoptery.
And, you know, they were hard onme because they wanted me to be
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successful. And I adopted those traits.
I said I want to be successful. So I'm going to adopt this trait
of being hard on myself because it is this form of motivation.
And I adopted those parts of myself.
And I think what I need is to just have fun and to allow
myself to have fun. And I was driving and this
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download came through and I realized that sometimes I have
this part of me, right? I have this like responsible
part, this part that's like really hard on myself,
perfectionist. But then I have this part of me
that just wants to be carefree and wants to have fun.
And this is a direct quote from my Notes app.
I have this part of me that wants to be carefree and have
fun. And sometimes you need that part
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to fucking rescue you from yourself.
You need that part to fucking rescue you.
And when I, when I said that outloud, it, it gave me the
greatest body chills because I was like this carefree part.
I've developed her right in order to move through the
stickiness and the conflict withthese parts.
I like to know where they came from.
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And for me it's like, of course I developed this carefree part.
Who wants to smoke weed all day and run in the fields and do
nothing and ignore my work and put things off over and over and
over again Because that part needed to be developed in order
to fucking save me for my own perfectionism?
I needed to have this carefree part.
Who genuinely carefree equals didn't care?
And by having this carefree part, it sometimes rescues me
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from my own spiral perfectionismand being hard on myself.
And I fucking need her. And I love her and I just want
to have fun sometimes. And I notice on my most vibrant
self with my friend Kaimana. He is my best friend since we
were 12 years old. And when I am with him, I am, I
am explosively vibrant and joyful and fun and loud and
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talkative and I'm just cracking up and giggling the entire time.
And I fucking love that version of myself so much.
And I'm so grateful she came to rescue me.
And I want to feel the gratitudefor her.
Because as we feel the gratitudefor these parts and we see their
purpose, when we see the purposefor the parts, we unburden them.
So what does burden versus unburden mean in internal family
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systems? So first of all, last thing I
want to say on that is I just ambeginning to notice the ways
that I take myself too seriouslyand by noticing the ways that I
take myself too seriously and allowing this carefree aspect of
me to come in and rescue me. Literally, the word rescue is so
definitive here because it's like I needed to rescue me.
Like grab me from the whole of Alice in Wonderland that I'm
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falling down and rescue me. Rescue me from the drowning
waters of the Seas. That's how it feels.
I feel like I'm rescuing myself from my own perfectionism.
And I fucking love this part. So burdened and unburdened
aspects in IFS internal family systems.
Again, I'm not a fucking expert.This is just what I've been
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learning and experiencing, and it's been helping me.
So I hope this helps somebody. I always just pray that it helps
one person in a way that it'll change their life.
I always set the intention before diving into the podcast
that, yeah, I just hope it resonates with somebody.
So burden means that it's hurting us.
Unburdened means that it can do its job without hurting us,
basically. So, for example, the burdened
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carefree fairy, we'll call her that the burdened carefree
fairy. She yearns to be rebellious.
She yearns to be a rebel and sheyearns to be irresponsible.
She wants to be irresponsible 'cause she wants to say fuck you
all, fuck the responsibilities, I just wanna play.
But then she's so burdened because she's so miserable and
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she's acting from this place of irresponsible rebellion and not
rebellion and carefreeness that supports my creativity.
In fact, something that actuallyhurts me and my creativity and
my work because I feel like if II'm not showing up for my work
and then I get more stressed. I have too many thoughts going
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on that I can't even be creative.
Maybe you can relate to that. Does anybody understand me?
I know you do. And then we have the burdened,
responsible part. I noticed that the burdened,
responsible part within me feelslike they have to try to hold
everything together. She feels like she is just
holding all these parts and nobody is fucking listening to
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her, right? She's like, you guys, we need to
do this because we have big dreams and big goals.
Like listen to me. She's trying to round up the
troops, but the troops aren't listening.
The kids aren't listening. She's dealing with toddlers.
She's dealing with literal toddlers.
And so she's really annoyed, right?
And she's burdened in this way because nobody's cooperating,
nobody's listening to her, and she feels like things are out of
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her control. And that's why I developed this
part, because I wanted things tofeel in control.
So that's when the self comes inand the self you sense, close
your eyes and just sense that self within you.
Now taking a deep breath, holding at the top, taking one
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more little inhale, filling up to your lungs to your greatest
capacity and sighing it out. 321letting it all go and just begin
to sense the self within you. You'll notice because you'll
feel curious about how you're feeling.
She'll feel compassionate towards everything you're
experiencing. She'll feel creative and
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excited. She'll feel joyful, she'll feel
also calm and collected, like she can handle it even when it
feels overwhelming. Just begin to sense that part of
yourself that is always there, even when you don't see her.
Doesn't that feel good to connect to that part of
yourself? So basically what happens is
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when the self comes in, we can start talking with the fairy
girl and the responsible girl and we can say, hey girl, what
do you need right now, right? And the unburdened carefree,
what she needs to do is she needs to know this is from my
own personal self reflection. You need to do your own self
reflection. But I hope this helps you.
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When the carefree fairy is unburdened, she knows that her
time is important. Her freedom is important.
Her time of doing nothing is incredibly important and
valuable. And we she wants to be
recognized by the responsible self that she is also important
and powerful and important and valued.
And she needs to know that we will set aside designated time
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for her to have her freedom. She craves it.
She wants to have nowhere to be.And her trigger is if she feels
rushed right, then I'll feel triggered and overwhelmed
because I feel rushed. And if she's feeling rushed,
she's not going to be happy. She's going to be burdened.
So we want her to not feel rushed.
And we want her to know that there are going to be times set
aside, days that we're going to set aside that we can say you
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can do nothing today. You're going to throw everything
off the table and do what bringsyou joy.
And we're going to give you a couple days a week so that you
can really do that. But we also, we need to explain
to her, hey, girl, we really need our responsible self to
show up right now. We really need her because you
know, you want to do XYZ with your life, you want to travel,
you want to write a book, you want to make your podcast huge.
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Like I want those things for you.
The self wants it. We're aligned.
We want the same things. And in that, I need you to know
that we need the responsible self to sometimes take the wheel
and be in the driver's seat. Are you OK with that?
And just letting the carefree self know that she will get her
time? That for me makes me feel so
heard and unburdened because I feel like, OK, I'm kind of
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letting this inner child, pardonme, know that you will get your
time to be free. And we're going to set aside
time maybe today, Monday, Tuesday, we're going to work
hard. And then Wednesday, let's have a
day off. Let's go play with our friends,
let's go to the beach. Let's have nothing to do and
just go with the flow and do what feels good.
And then I get that time. I feel filled up.
And then I feel like I can come back to my responsible self.
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And then I go to the, you know, the burdened, responsible part
of me. And I'm like, hey, girl, hey,
girl, what you need? What's going on?
And, you know, she's like, well,I just don't feel valued.
I don't feel like anybody's listening to me.
I don't feel like you're listening to me.
And I just want to take action 'cause I want to get these
things done for you. And I feel frustrated because no
one's fucking listening. And we're letting toddlers and
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inner teens run the show. And it's like, OK, the self
comes in and it's like, OK, I hear you.
I want you to know that you are valued and you do have a
significant place in my life. I know that you are trying to
make me feel proud of myself andmake me feel successful.
Thank you for doing that. I want you to keep doing that.
Please keep doing that. And the wind hitting right now
(26:17):
is wind confirmation. And I would love if you can do
it in short spurts. You can work hard, work
efficiently, and then you can take a break.
How about that? Because actually responsible
self, when you take breaks, you are more efficient, you are more
energized, you are actually moreproductive in the long run.
And then we don't get burnt out and we can stay responsible for
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longer. Because if we go really hard,
you see, if we go really hard and we're really responsible for
a long time and we just work so hard and drag ourselves into the
ground and we're so productive, we're going to get burnt out.
And then we're going to shut down.
And we're going to become overwhelmed and over stimulated
and we're going to be shut down.And that's not going to be fun.
And in the end of the day, you're not going to get your way
responsible self, if we burn out.
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So what we need to do is work efficiently and take breaks.
And actually, I want you to see when you take breaks,
responsible self, that yeah, youare better because of it.
And when you let the carefree girl have the seat, you actually
see that you have so many more ideas to act upon and so many
more creative ideas to take inspired action.
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When you take rest, you know that the energy that you are
moving forward with is coming from this internal place, not a
place that is forced because youcan't force it.
You're going to have more resistance if you force it.
So let's just go at a steady pace that feels good for us, OK?
And I promise you that when you do this, when you allow me to be
carefree when I need to be, and when you allow me to live
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unburdened, I promise you will live on.
Brendan too. You know, responsible self.
You will feel better, you will feel productive, you will feel
like you are doing the right thing.
You will feel proud of yourself,you will feel successful.
And that's what I want for you. And see how just talking out
these parts of ourselves that are conflicting with each other,
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See how it just begins to just work itself out naturally.
Even hearing me talk about theseparts of myself, I'm sure is
unweaving something in your subconscious, in your brain that
is making you feel seen. And that's what I want for you.
So I hope you also see what the ifs, the different ways that you
can work out the different partsof yourself.
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And I really encourage you to dothis journaling.
You know, I really journaled like, what does the burden part
feel like and look like? And you know, when the self
comes in and asks these questions of curiosity, what do
you need? This is something you can do on
your own in your journal. What does it need to do or feel
to be unburdened? You know, what does this part
need to be told and recognized with that will make it feel
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unburdened and more free to do its job in a way that benefits
us? And you have to understand all
these different parts of yourself that come up, even the
parts that frustrate us or feel,you know, limiting I, you have
to understand they have a purpose for you.
And if they are treated right, they will treat you right.
So we just need to take care of all these different aspects of
ourselves and honor it and know that nothing is right or wrong
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or good or bad. It just is.
And we are actually inherently perfect and worthy the way that
we are. And that's what this practice
teaches us, that, you know, we have complications, we have
contradictions, We have parts ofourselves that don't agree.
And that is totally normal and so human.
And I actually love that becauseI love being complex and
nuanced. And yeah, it is a beautiful
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thing. And I want you to see that you
have all these parts and every part is actually perfect.
I just want you to know that allthese parts are human and if we
can communicate with them, we are benefited from it.
I loved this episode so much. We're going to keep it short and
sweet. I love you guys.
Please share this episode. Tag us on Instagram where you're
listening at 70s KK as skinny dipping Diaries and I love
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skinny dipping summer. I love the person that I'm
becoming. I love the person you're
becoming and I'm so glad that we're doing it together.
Join the soul and progress community to kind of like, you
know, like see what's going on. It's so fun.
I want you there. There's a free trial so you can
just check it out. Share your thoughts on the
episode on the community. That would be super awesome.
I'd love to hear your own reflections and yummy if you
feel like you have something calling you.
(30:12):
I love you. Happy skinny to bring summer.
I'm going into my retreat or maybe I'm in my retreat right
now when this is premiering. This is so exciting.
OK, bye.
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