April 10, 2025 • 60 mins
The episode commences with a poignant reflection on the profound loss experienced by Samantha, whose dog recently passed away, creating a backdrop of vulnerability and authenticity. As Samantha and Melissa share their respective misadventures leading up to their private energy healing session with Terrie Christine, the conversation meanders through the intricacies of life's unexpected challenges. The duo recounts their attempts to navigate the chaos of a stormy day while simultaneously addressing personal tribulations, highlighting the delicate balance between grief and the pursuit of healing. Their candid anecdotes serve as a reminder of the resilience required in moments of adversity, emphasizing the significance of vulnerability in the healing process. Ultimately, this episode provides listeners with an intimate glimpse into the world of energy healing, fostering understanding and connection amidst life's trials.
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(00:00):
What's up, Scarce up squad?
It is Samantha and Melissa.
We are here for Season three,episode two.
My dog died yesterday, so I'mallowed to look like a hot mess.
I think you don't look like a.
Hot mess, but you're allowedto be grieving for sure.
Yeah.
So this was my dog that I gotwhen I was probably 20.
(00:22):
She's my shepherd that I'vetalked about a few times.
The episode that we're sharingtoday is like a sequel.
Yeah, it's a.
Yeah, a sequel.
Sure.
To the first episode.
An extension of our trip to dc.
Yes.
So you guys heard ourinterview with Terry, Christine,
(00:45):
and learned all about her.
We didn't really talk about.
Excuse me.
Our sessions.
This is a little insight of my session.
Yeah.
So you guys can see that andjust kind of get a feel of what an
energy session looks like,because I know that I couldn't fathom,
like, what would happen.
You were like, what is thiseven about?
(01:05):
Yeah, yeah, exactly.
So I think a lot of people.
Have just been curious what.
What is.
So that's why we are playingthis for you today, which I think
it.
Was really nice of you to belike, the guinea pig or like the
vulnerable one, because werecorded both of our sessions.
Mine was really, really personal.
Here's we.
There's no way we could, like,fix yours to leave out, like, question.
(01:27):
Yeah.
Maybe in the future we canplay some parts of it.
But I thought it was reallynice of you and it was really cool
that you're, like.
You are.
You're being vulnerable andyou're, like, letting people have
an insight.
Because energy work does pullout parts of you, I think, or point
out things.
Good things.
Yeah.
Things that we can work on.
Things we don't need to work.
I don't know.
It's just a very personal thing.
(01:48):
Right.
And then for you to, like, leteverybody kind of have a peek into.
Not knowing what was going tobe said.
Yeah.
I think it's really nice.
Yeah, it was interesting.
And actually, I would say thatmy fail.
I did like, a fail on that daywould have been.
Was a dark and rainy day.
It was so stormy.
(02:10):
Oh, my God.
That happened in Asheville, too.
Oh, my God.
Yes.
Yes, it did.
Our last travel, it was a darkand stormy day.
Yeah.
And so we're trying to findthe place to meet Terry.
And it really is only twominutes away from our hotel.
And we had planned on walking,but again, dark and stormy.
Rainy.
Equipment heavy.
(02:31):
Yeah.
And so we're like, oh, we'regoing to drive and for some reason,
that was confusing.
And then on, like, while we'redriving there, I get a call from
my mom, who was watching thekids and the dogs.
And she's frantic.
She's, like, unable to make words.
And she's like, oh, my gosh,the dog just got into a fight.
One of the puppies attacked Kaya.
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Kaya's, like, the oldest dogof the pack.
She's, like, 13.
And I'm like, that doesn'tmake any sense.
Like, Kaya usually bullies thepuppies, so I don't understand, like,
what has happened.
So I'm flustered because I'mlike, well, I can't assess how bad
it is.
Like, you're making it soundlike, oh, she's been mauled and she's,
like, dying.
At least that's what I heard.
(03:14):
Yeah, it definitely was alittle bit, maybe a teensy weensy
overreaction on that part.
Okay, okay.
I was like, maybe.
I.
Like, I got.
Sorry.
I do love you, but no, I mean,I could see if I were there, I also
would have been in, like,this, like, shock.
Yeah, she was probably in shock.
Oh, yeah.
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And I know for sure that,like, Emelia, she's the one that
called, right?
Oh, I don't remember.
One of the kids.
I guess you're right.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I think there was some shockthere, too.
Yeah.
And she didn't know, like,really what was going on.
She goes, I'll get Mimi.
And yeah, so Mom's, like,explaining, like, oh, the puppy was
latched onto her, like, tryingto kill Kaya, and Kaya was gonna
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die, and blood.
There's blood.
And I'm like, okay, all right,well, I need to see the puncture
wounds to know if she needs togo, like, right now.
Like, what do they look like?
I don't know.
There's blood everywhere.
And I'm like, okay, well,let's try, like, a FaceTime.
And show me the wounds and that.
They were struggling to dothat, but every.
You know, everyone's emotions are.
Are heightened.
And so I was like, well, Idon't know what to do.
(04:17):
Someone's gonna have to go whois calm and, like, assess this.
And so I'm like, who can go?
Who can go?
I try.
Andrew.
And he was gonna leave workand go.
But he also was, like, an houraway at minimum.
And so then I was like, oh,let me call my stepdad.
Like, can you help her?
I forgot he was out of town.
And so I was like, figure it out.
(04:40):
I guess.
I don't know, because, like,we were, like, in the parking lot.
Yeah, it was.
It was kind of like, I don'tknow, I can't do this right now.
But you did see a picture, andyou were like, okay, that's not.
It's not amazing.
There was blood, but you werekind of like, it's going to be okay,
but I have to go in.
But you were still kind offreaking out because every.
There was so many emotions.
Yeah.
And I think I left it as.
(05:03):
I was able to do that becauseI left it as.
Andrew, can you go and assessthis for me?
And he said, yeah.
I was like, okay.
He said, I'll leave work now.
And he.
Yeah.
And I said, just touch basewith Mom.
Y'all figure it out.
I can't right now.
I gotta go.
And so I was able to, like,feel like, okay, I can't do anything
about it, but there's someonecalm and can go and assess it.
(05:25):
And then we were, like, tryingto get in the building, and all the
doors were locked.
And she's, like, raining sohard, so hard.
And she's like, type this code in.
Type this code in.
Type this code in.
And we're like, it's not working.
So we ran around to the frontof the building and we knocked.
And then she was done.
She's like, oh, no.
I guess the cleaners orsomebody came in, like, yeah.
(05:45):
Locked the door.
And I didn't.
I don't know.
It was just like, I'm still,like, so flustered.
I'm like, God, this really sucks.
And.
And I remember thinking, weshould just.
I can't do this.
But then, like, we walked into her.
Her space, and it's, like,really calming.
It actually was.
It smelled good.
It was clean.
Like, obviously it was clean.
Like, yeah.
But, like, it was justsomething so neat and tidy and calm.
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Homey.
Yeah, even.
But there was definitely acalming presence, like, walked in,
and I was like, okay, I can breathe.
This feels good.
And by time I got on the tablefor my reading, I was like, I'm good.
Yeah.
But it was a whole.
A whole moment.
And I really, really couldhave easily, like, allowed myself
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to spin out of control and belike, yeah, I can't do this.
I mean, I know we came all theway here for this, but I can't.
It was a lot right then, and,like, you not being able to be there
and, like, you have no control.
You're like, that's also areally scary feeling, too.
Like, there's nothing you can do.
Yeah.
What I.
What can I Do.
Usually I'm the one that hasto answer all the pet questions.
And I'm like, I don't evenknow what's going on.
I can't see.
(06:49):
So it was interesting.
But that's a long way to sharemy little fail.
Oh, I think it was asuccessful fail.
A successful fail.
Because it could have been afail, but it was saved.
You kind of, like, said, Ican't do anything about this.
I'm going to try to, like, let go.
(07:09):
The universe can take care of it.
Whatever.
Andrew is going to take careof it.
And.
Yeah.
So it was nice.
I want to talk about your failbecause you still.
Yeah.
Have a reminder of it.
Yeah.
So it was really embarrassingbecause we went out to eat at this.
It was a pretty nice place.
(07:30):
Like.
Oh, it was.
It was so good.
It was really good.
I forgot the name.
Oh, I won't say the namebecause I should remember.
And we will say the name.
Silver Spoons.
I don't know, actually, Ican't really.
Remember the name of it.
I don't want to, like, make it.
Here's the thing.
I slipped and fell on their floor.
(07:52):
Which it happens.
Right.
But we weren't exactly thathappy with, like, the way it was
handled.
No.
We're walking to the bathroomand they're obviously mopping the
floors.
We can see that.
I actually did see it.
That's why I felt.
Oh, okay.
I saw that they were moppingthe floors.
We were talking, walking tothe bathroom.
(08:14):
So, like, I guess I just saw it.
Look, you guys, if I'm drivingand talking, I'm going to miss the
exit.
If I'm walking, talking, I.
Okay.
But I was very aware of uswalking to the bathroom.
And I know they were moppingand there was no wet floor sign out.
And so she mega fell.
I did.
(08:34):
And Sam, you almost scared mea little because you screamed.
No, I didn't.
Yes, you did.
You said Melissa.
I was like, oh, my God, thisis so embarrassing.
Oh, my God.
Are you okay?
It was.
Guys, this wasn't like a slipand, like, land on the floor.
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No, this was a go.
Like, whole body didn't knowit was coming.
One leg, one knee.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Oh, and my wrist, actually, Iforgot about that.
But yeah.
So I was like, oh, my God.
I'm sure everyone back at thetable, like, for sure heard that.
But they didn't.
So maybe it was just in my mind.
I was just embarrassed.
(09:18):
Maybe you're, you know, you'relike that.
You know, I was embarrassed.
And then when you were Like,I'm like, don't draw attention to
me.
You were really embarrassed.
And so we go into thebathroom, and I'm sitting here, like,
going over this in my head.
Yeah.
And I'm like, there wasn't asign out there.
And I was like, that's a problem.
(09:38):
Also.
No.
There were three employeesstanding there, and no one asked
if I was okay.
No.
And so then they all just kindof were staring.
And so I'm like, oh, we'regonna say something.
Like, this is ridiculous.
Like, they didn't say anything.
They didn't check on you, andthere was no wet floor sign for you
to acknowledge.
(09:59):
And when we came out of thebathroom, guess what was on the ground?
A wet floor sign.
And.
And who was in front of the wet.
The manager.
And what did he do?
What did he do?
I think he didn't do anything.
He didn't.
He just stared at us as wewalked to our table.
Yeah.
(10:19):
Like, oh, do you see the sign?
Do they.
Are they going to say anythingto us?
Yeah.
Huh.
Yeah.
So it was kind of weird, and Iwas pissed.
Yeah.
And then also, one of ourother friends who was there that
night was like, I'm mad thatwe didn't get a free meal.
I mean, but it's not about thefree meal.
Like, it's the fact that it happened.
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And instead of addressing it,the, like, tried to cover it up and
pretend it didn't happen.
Unless you complain.
Yeah.
And that is fucked up.
As, like, a leader, you shouldbe like, oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry
this happened.
You're right.
Like, if someone.
Yes.
Burnt themselves on yourcoffee machine at.
The shop, I would for sure belike, oh, my gosh, I have bandies.
(11:01):
I have.
What do I need to do?
Right.
Let me take care of you.
Even though that, like,literally would not be your problem
or, like, your, like, fault.
But.
Yeah.
So it's just really bizarre to me.
But it's not their fault.
I'm clumsy.
I just didn't like how it washandled either.
Yeah.
There should have at leastbeen a check.
And you still have a giant ass bruise.
(11:23):
And this is.
Yeah.
Is this a month or two months later?
Oh, shoot.
When did we go?
We went Valentine's Day,February, March.
So it's been a month and a half.
It's the end of March.
Still bruised.
Still.
No one said anything.
So.
Yeah.
I was actually, like, tryingto change shelves in a cabinet last
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night, and I was kneeling onthe counter, and I was like, oh,
that still hurts.
Why?
Oh, yeah.
Oh, yeah.
Okay.
Maybe I'm really salty about it.
I love it.
I love it.
It makes me feel good.
What is funny is, I know we'rerambling, like, way longer than we
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usually do, but we're having agood day.
We are.
What's funny is that in thisrecording, there's several moments
where Terry says something,and I, like, look at Melissa.
And she starts, like, cracking up.
And I'm like, oh, no commentsfrom the peanut gallery.
And then there's like, anotherpart where Terry says something that,
like, kind of rubs me thewrong way.
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I didn't, like, really agreeand not in, like, a bad way.
She just called something out and.
And I was like, wait a minute.
Give her some credit.
And I was like, you had my back.
No, I do.
I got it.
Because I wasn't.
I wasn't gonna say, like, oh,well, that's rude.
Like, I've done great.
Like, But Melissa was like,give her some credit.
(12:48):
Wait a minute now.
Multipar.
There.
That's my best friend.
I got you.
Oh, my God.
Look, be kind to everyone.
Anyway.
All right, well, enjoy this episode.
Yeah.
With video.
Get Real with Sam.
(13:10):
Hey, you.
You're tuned in to the Skirtsup show with Samantha and Melissa.
Join our mission to normalizefailure, but still uncover the positives
at every twist and turn.
Skirts up, but keep your panties.
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All right, so what I'm goingto do is I'm going to tell you exactly
what you're going to receiveduring this session.
I'll start by putting one handon your heart and the other on your
stomach.
I am clairvoyant,clairaudient, and clairsentient,
meaning I can see movies in my head.
I can hear conversations or.
Yeah, and the Claire sentientis I just know.
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So throughout your session,I'm going to say, Samantha, I don't
care what you say.
I can feel this.
I know it.
And it literally is.
What I'm looking for is what's in.
Your energy field, what isholding you back from dot, dot, dot.
Because you're saying, youknow, I could get frustrated, or,
why does this keep happening?
Or how can I get to this otherplace that I want to be?
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And that's where thesubconscious is holding you from
being able to get to that place.
So people come to me because Ican shift that energy.
I can shift within thatblueprint of what's going on from
your childhood.
And that's usually from the childhood.
It doesn't mean that you haveemotionally or physically abusive
parents.
It's nothing like that.
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I mean, that could be part ofsomeone's history, but it's not for
everyone.
And you could have aninteraction with mom.
She's on the phone, you'redrawing her a picture, and this is
an example.
And then you say, okay, Mom, Ihave this picture.
Okay, Samantha, I'll be rightwith you.
And she forgets.
Then what it ends up happeningis that you determine, all right,
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what can I do to be seen and heard?
And so then you start doingextra things in your life as a little
girl.
You start doing certain thingsto be seen and however that looks
like.
Right.
But as an adult, you go towork and you're really organized
and you're getting your job done.
And then you realize, wow,your co workers need some help.
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So you're like, hey, I canhelp you and help this one and help
that.
When you go home and you'reexhausted and you're like, why am
I the only one working so hard?
Well, it was because your momdidn't give you the attention you
needed, quote, unquote, at the time.
And that you chose to say, Ihave to work harder.
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And that's what it shows up asan adult.
You feeling like you'reworking harder than others.
And that's just an example ofmany, many things as something as
simple as your mom forgettingto come back to you.
Okay, so it's not allemotional and physical in our childhood
is the things that we say wewanted at that time and didn't get.
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Okay.
That's also yourinterpretation of what's going on
in your surroundings as well.
So there are five ways to pickup limiting beliefs.
Mom and dad or mom and dad,like figures, like grandparents,
God, someone else andsomething else.
You have a very strong mom block.
Me?
Yes, Very strong mom block.
And a block is the limiting belief.
And I'm going to pick it upand I'm going to share with you.
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But when I start, I'm gonnastart with the hand on the stomach,
hand on the heart.
And then I'm just gonna startbreathing a certain way.
And then I'm gonna startseeing movies and hearing things,
and I'm gonna share it with you.
Most of my things that I shareis what I'm seeing.
And then I might ask yes or no questions.
And then I might say, what'sgoing on when you were at a certain
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age?
Because I'll pick that up as well.
Well, and there's a littlefear in that, too.
So I just felt it.
My stomach did a little ripple.
Yeah.
Like, oh, what's going to beshown Today.
Right.
All right, so you ready?
Okay.
All right, here we go.
So your mom was veryoverprotective, huh?
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Yeah, yeah.
And, and as a child we'llthink, oh, this is a safety zone.
However, what can happen isthat overprotective, especially moms
can give a child a sense of,of feeling a little reserved or.
Well, I'll give you a list of them.
Procrastination, the fear ofmaking decisions because what if
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it's wrong?
Taking too long to make adecision because you have to reel
it in your head to figure outwhich direction.
You want to go in.
So you're overanalyzing too much.
Because when you have thatprotective parent.
When it's overprotective, whatI ended up.
Seeing was energy wall, likeright here.
And it felt really tight,like, oh, she's got you under that
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protection bubble.
And so you'll find yourselfsaying, and for you, oh, I can feel
it, like there's some fear inyour heart.
So feelings of.
When it comes to love orloving something, not just a physical
person, it can be a career, itcould be, you know that a party you're
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organizing, you'd love it.
You want to make sure it's allperfect and it's okay.
Maybe just a little.
There you go.
So, and, and that's how it canshow itself up when you have an overprotective
parent.
And so you've worked throughsome of it, but if I give it a score,
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a percentage, 80%.
You still, you're, you'retroubled, you're meaning it's not
free flowing enough for youand you probably get frustrated with
yourself, with, you know, hereI am with this pattern I'm trying
to get out of my head, but Iwant it to be right.
Can we get it right?
Can we be it right?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
So I can feel it.
But you know, everything is great.
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There's no right or wrong.
Even though.
Because when you're, what youdo is you'll end up putting it in
a box.
Meaning your end result.
I want it to look like X, Yand Z.
But what happens if it's likebetter than what you're putting here?
Right?
So let's say an example.
You know, if I do this job, Iwant to make $100.
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Well, what if you could make ahundred thousand?
You see?
So we have to be more broaderin what we're looking our end result
to be.
So, meaning if your end resultwas focused on an emotion.
Right.
So give you an example.
If you had a million dollarsin A bank.
The emotion attached to thatis comfort, is stability, is adventure.
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Because we got it, we don'thave to worry.
You know, if I get a flattire, I can buy a new car.
Right.
So we want to focus on thefeeling of what you want your end
result to be, and theneverything around what you're trying
to attract will naturally comewith it, like you're a magnet.
So if you're saying, I want mypodcast to have, you know, million
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followers, then that's fun,excitement, laughter, dancing, like.
And.
And feeling accomplished.
Right.
And feeling like you're givingback to the community and feeling
like people are gettingsomething out of it, which can feel
a sense of.
Of.
Of enlightenment, fulfillment,gratitude, all of that.
Right.
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So before you have a project,have this feeling first.
Go into it with that.
You'll have your million followers.
It works just like that.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Yeah.
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You have a lot of fear.
So the solar plexus is theportal of emotions.
But I feel it so fast, I can'teven move my hand fast enough.
Yeah.
And that.
That is the feeling of fearwhen it's like.
Right.
I'm not saying that a personwalks around going, oh, I'm afraid
of, like, a little timid mouse.
It's not like that.
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What happens is that you'reliving life, but having a sense of
will.
I could.
I.
Should I.
You're already questioningbefore it's even happening.
Do you find yourself.
Yeah.
Okay.
So when you're questioningstuff, you're already causing a sense
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of fear.
I feel that so much in my.
It just went right there in mysolar plexus.
Meaning.
Yes, you're spot on.
Right.
Yeah.
And so don't question life.
Live life.
Because if you're starting tostep into things, even if you're
not even thinking that, you'restepping into every moment that we
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walk, talk, move, you'restepping into something.
Every action is causingsomething to happen.
Right.
Right.
An action can be your mouthwith words coming out or simply walking.
That's an action.
Driving, listening.
Those are all actions.
Right.
But if you're spending so muchtime in your head questioning, that
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is being put out into thecollective energy to say, all right,
what if.
Okay, could I.
And if this happens.
And now you're putting allthese questions up here.
So this is the collective energy.
And when you're putting it uphere, people that are connected to
you or even walking by, youcan say, oh, wow, I just.
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I'm open.
My mind is open.
I wasn't thinking anything.
I can grab that.
Have you Ever had a moment where.
You went to, if you everworked in an office or a friend's
house.
You were driving and you'relike, man, I'm thirsty.
I could.
Like, I should have grabbedsomething before I left.
And you get there and beforeyou even say anything, they say,
if you want some water, orhere's a bottle of water.
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Never had those moments?
No, not that I can think ofright off the top of my head.
So we have to get you to bemore present as well, because when
we're just existing, you'remissing everything.
And it's kind of sad becausewhen you're fully aware.
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When I say present, peopledon't understand that sometimes.
Aware.
But it's not about what'soutside of you, it's all about what's
inside of you.
So if you are fully aware ofhow you're feeling in those moments,
like driving, going, I'mreally thirsty.
And then, like, what that justhappened, then you're fully aware
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that you are already sayingit, wanting it.
And then you made it happen before.
You got to the office or yourfriend's house.
Right?
Someone who's just existing.
I'm just driving.
I gotta get there.
I gotta think about my deadline.
Gotta think about what I'm wearing.
Okay, what's gonna happen?
All those questions in yourhead is.
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Not making room for all theanswers you want for the questions
you're already suffocatingyour head with.
Does that make sense?
Okay.
Bringing you back to presentmeans listening more, getting out
of your head, and being fullyaware of how your body is feeling
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in any setting, every moment,all the time.
It is a lifestyle.
So bringing you from justexisting to thriving and being fully
aware changes your entire life.
It's.
You start attracting thethings that you're saying you want.
You can have just a simplethought and let it go, and then all
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of a sudden happened.
Life is like that.
But all this other stuffyou're doing, all the questioning,
all the fear you're creatingis putting this big barrier of.
Not being able to bring forthwith ease the things you say you
desire.
Does that make sense now?
Yeah.
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Yeah.
A little doubt there.
No, it makes sense.
Okay.
Okay.
So get out of your head, okay?
Just stop thinking aboutthings because it's.
Going to work out.
Now, if you are tight, I see typing.
I gotta put this proposal.
Gotta do this next video,whatever it is, right?
I understand being in themoment and concentrating in that,
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but once you step away, youdon't have to concentrate in that
anymore.
Right?
You've already put the energyof success in it.
But if you're alreadyquestioning, doubting, you're putting
the energy of fear in will beseen and felt through any video,
any email, any phone calls ifyou're already doing that energy.
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Right.
It's a big thing.
So it's a change how, whattype of energy you are putting in
things.
That's why I tell people, ifyou're writing an email, don't write
it with anger, don't write itwith despair or frustration.
Because what will happen ispeople will read and say, damn, what's
going on with her?
Right?
And you're just saying, youknow, I'm hoping that things work
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out.
And they're like, why?
You know, and they're pickingit on up.
So go into something,especially when you're throwing energy
into it, emails, phone calls.
Videos, that you're doing itwith the highest purpose of giving
of the excitement of doing itand wanting it most.
Interesting thing is I wassuper excited about this all day
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long.
Like, this is going to be amazing.
And sometimes I'm not thatexcited about being a guest on certain
podcasts.
It depends on the person.
But I cocoon my energy.
I'm like, no, there's going tobe that best thing ever.
And then knowing that I'mdoing that will fill the room with
positivity, will show thatwhoever's watching the video is going
to be receiving this in thebest possible light.
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Makes sense.
Yes.
Yes.
So for shoulders, it's aperception of burden.
Perception of burden.
Left side, mom.
Right side dad.
Left side, feminine.
Right side, masculine.
So I'm feeling there'ssomething right here.
Like you were just like, oh,hanging onto it.
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It's a seat about that big, soabout the size of a quarter.
Right.
Right where my thumb is onyour shoulder.
And so a perception of burden,and this is dead.
Can be where you needed him ata certain time and he forgot or he
got distracted or work endedup taking him away from his promise
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to not accept.
And I said, as a child, we allend up just accepting because within
the four walls, this is whatour caregivers told us.
And we know nothing else.
They could be lying to us,like, I don't know what, or making
false promises.
And then we keep getting setup for failure because that's what
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they're doing.
Set a.
Setting the child up for failure.
Right.
Instead of telling the truthor holding off when they're making
a promise, following throughwith the promise.
Right.
And so now you've experiencedthings that you were.
Because I keep seeing thispumping with your hand, like, did
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you find.
When you were little, did youmove your hands around a lot?
I'm pretty sure that's what I'm.
That's my.
Yeah, it's an interest tick.
I mean, I think I still do it.
Okay.
So.
Yes.
Okay, perfect.
Because I can see you're, youknow, you're trying to, like, okay,
am I going to do this?
I feel excitement, butbuilding up with.
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And then you just let it go.
Like, I could feel the build up.
And then I just let it go.
Meaning you already know he'snot going to be there, you said.
Right, right.
But the hope of desire.
Because kids will see theirparents at certain events.
You might have a couple ofgirlfriends, and the dad is always
showing up, and you're like,inside, man, I wish mine was here.
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But you don't say it.
You don't have that exactsentence in your head.
It's a feeling ofdisappointment, of longing.
Right.
Belonging to.
Have you had longing.
I could feel that as soon as Isaid that.
The longing of being able tofill that void of feeling like you
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had.
And they could have had afather that was there for the baby
girl, like to hold the hand orto be there and clap while you're
on the stage with, you know,whatever it is.
The school play.
Were you ever in a school play?
I just saw.
I was in, like.
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I think so.
Yeah.
I just saw the stage andyou're on a school play.
And I saw the kids.
They were fairly small, soprobably more like 8.
9.
8, 8, 8.
That would have been second grade.
Little play, you know, wherethey come in with the, you know,
we are long.
Oh, wait, which grade?
Okay, that's actually really funny.
No, My cousin, when she was inhigh school, she was doing a school.
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Play, and they asked me, since I.
Was like, little, if I'd belike a munchkin or something.
There you go.
I picked it up.
Yeah.
That's interesting.
So, yeah, I saw you.
I saw the stage.
I saw you, though, so.
But, you know, to have thatparent, any parent, for that matter,
but to have the dad going,yeah, that's my girl up there.
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And then for him not to bepresent, that we can say you accepted
unacceptable behavior.
Meaning he's not here to love me.
He's not here to see how Iwant to feel important and be seen.
And any kid wants to feel that.
Right?
Yeah.
And you just got to the pointwhere you just accepted unacceptable
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behavior.
He's not going.
He's not there.
Well, you know, I'll Just doit for myself, mom, the other kids.
I'm gonna have fun.
I'm gonna force myself to have fun.
I feel like he.
You emotionally.
This.
I know I'm on this one.
Emotionally disconnected fromhim, so you would stop being hurt.
But having that longing is aspace of unfulfilled dreams.
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Do you understand what I'm saying?
Okay.
I know it's in you, and I knowyou're holding it back as I can see
it in your eyes.
I don't know, I think that there's.
Just so much, like, hate thatI can't remember a time, like, where
I would have been.
Like, oh, yeah, I wish I wouldhave been there.
Like, now.
It's.
Yeah.
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Well, again, I'm working inthe subconscious, and I had to remind
you of the munchkin moment,even though I saw it, right?
Yeah, but your subconscious istelling me the things that I'm picking
up.
Hate is such a strong emotion that.
That can also hold you backfrom being able to succeed when masculine
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energy is present.
And masculine energy can alsobe in a female body, a woman who's
very dominant.
Leadership role, stagepresence, that kind of thing.
That's that dominant masculinecoming through a female body.
Right.
But when you have hate toward.
But the.
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And I'll just say, becauselittle children, that's my prince.
That's my king.
That's my God, you know that.
Because that's like, he'sthere and then over time, being disappointed
and disappointed and disappointed.
I can feel like every time Isay it, I get a stab in my back.
So you are stabbed in yourback every time that you were hoping
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or, you know, can he do it?
Will he do it?
And then just being more inthat stab, it's more angry.
More angry.
More angry to the point.
And so that builds up is like,I can't see anything else but the
anger that I have.
Okay, that makes sense now.
Okay.
When I first work with people,what can happen is they're looking
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in their brain for a specificmoment in time that says, that's
why I hate him.
And it's not like that for you.
It was gradual because you.
To use 8 is a buildup of suchdespair, you know?
And I can use that wordbecause I'm talking to your child.
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I'm not talking to your adultperson right here, Samantha.
I'm talking to that person,the little girl who really desired
and wanted to have a dad.
More present, more caring,more showing caring, showing love,
showing attention, you know?
And attention could simplyjust be looking at you in your Eyes
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and saying, how was your day, baby?
You know, come over here, giveme a hug.
Or I'm going to come to youand give you a hug.
You see?
And when you don't have that interaction.
And you're feeling like, man,he's constantly setting me up for
failure.
Meaning it's the fear feeling.
Because I want you to thinkabout what a child would be thinking,
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not what you are thinking nowas an adult because you're an overthinker.
You know, you are so goingback and saying, yeah, when I could
think about that childhood,there were so many episodes that
I just stopped thinking aboutthem all together.
I just like, off with his head.
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You see how that.
You know what I'm saying about now?
Okay, okay.
Now you.
Now you get it.
Okay.
I just want to make sureyou're on the same page with me.
Okay.
Your hip is a little out of whack.
Do you have.
Do you feel like every once ina while you get a.
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Like a.
Sometimes I get stuck.
Yeah, there it goes there.
I can see the way you'relaying on the bed.
And it's always how anybodycan lay on the bed.
You could wear shoes that are not.
The laces aren't tied.
And it's telling me you don'tlike to be tied down.
You.
But look at how you'reliterally lopsided.
Oh, interesting.
Your whole hip is up.
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And it just shows me everytime somebody lays.
And you're really out of alignment.
But that's a physicalalignment as well, right?
But also not being supported.
The dad's side hips representsupport, so that's why you get tweaked
every once in a while.
On this hip, the body respondsto what your family or your life
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history is and was and evengoing forward.
So if you're an overthinker,you might end up getting pains in
your lower back, because that's.
Life is a pain in the butt.
So that's why we have to getyou out of your head.
But then you have this fear ifI don't sink it through, I have to
have control.
I have to.
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Then.
Then what you're doing isyou're slowing down the flow of what
you want the end result to be.
Do you understand that?
Okay, relax.
So that is a control mechanism.
So when I picked up your arm,some people would just let me do
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whatever I want, but you werealready holding it.
I see that with a lot of people.
And so that instantly tells meyou do have a very strong control
mechanism.
You've got to get things done.
You want it to be the right way.
You want to dance, you know,and that can be also your career,
where you have deadlines andwant to be.
You have to do all thesethings, but you have to trust more.
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And when you had a parent youcouldn't trust, then that's where
you turned up the volume tocontrol what you want to create and
project.
Does that now make sense?
Yeah.
All right.
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You know, part of your body istelling me, when I first started,
started putting my thumb hereon your hand, I could see a boxing
glove.
That's.
That's funny, actually.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Because I had an image of likea, like punching.
There you go.
So same connection there.
Yeah.
But when I asked you to relax,your arms started relaxing and I
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could feel very tired.
So you're tired of holding onto some of this anger and frustration
and guys to fight through things.
No one has to fight to get things.
They just trust and love andbe connected to source energy, God,
whatever you want to label it,I'll just call it God or higher self,
(38:59):
whatever.
But it causes a person to holdon the control mechanism.
Right.
So look at it as like put down false.
You have a string that's flying.
So if you're going to control.
So let's say the stream isflowing of energy and you control
a log comes down into thestream, you're trying to stop the
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flow of that energy.
That's with you controlling.
I don't want it to be that way.
Boom, long comes down, theenergy is still going to flow, but
now it's going to flow aroundthe log.
Then it could go to the right direction.
Right, Meaning.
Yeah, it could go in thedirection you want it to be, or it
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could go in another directionand take you a whole much longer,
like a whole hell of a longtime to get to your end result.
And then you get even more frustrated.
Why does this take so long?
Why can't I get to my endresult quicker?
There's where you're startingto question why, why, why, why, why,
why?
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And that why is a disconnectfrom source energy.
Look at as you pull in your.
Your energy into a cocoon.
I have to control this.
I have to do it my way.
I have to get this done.
Nobody was, you know, I.
I know.
I can do it faster.
I'm better.
I just got to do it right.
Instead of saying, I know I'mfully connected.
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I know that source has got my.
Back at all times.
I know that I can focus, getit done.
And voila, everything that Iwant is happening for me.
But if you're not living inthe space of saying I know the in
k n o w things are happeningfor me, then you're always going
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to cocoon and it's going totake a whole lot longer.
You're going to be frustratedon why it's taking so long and you're
going to get disillusioned ifyou're going in the right direction.
Is this for me?
Should I keep doing it?
And then that's where thedoubt creeps in.
It's bio.
Yeah, yeah.
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Relax.
And the first thing you'regonna tell me, I'm trying to relax.
It's so hard.
It's not hard.
You just have to trust to let go.
It's a lifestyle.
Yeah.
Trusting is the number one thing.
Someone who has a massivecontrol mechanism.
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I used to.
And it's, it's practice.
I mean it could take you threeto six months.
Closer to six months for you.
But you have to say, I am.
Going to trust no matter what.
I know there's so many thingsthat you want to accomplish, things
you haven't even thought ofyet, but they're going to start coming
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at you.
And the more you control the, the.
More you stay in the spacethat you've created with this control,
you're going to be questioninga lot of things.
Why did I do it?
You know, what, what?
And when I heard why.
You can get very selfdestructive in resume.
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Oh yeah, yeah.
That whole recent conversation.
Interesting.
Biggest thing for you,Samantha, is I could tell you stories
about you all day long.
But unless you can recall itand go, oh yeah, that's why I was.
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Angry or oh, that's why I washappy or oh, you're going to continue
to live in the space you'reliving in and I would hate to see
that happen for you.
You're very productive youngwoman who really has passion and
the passion to help, thepassion to succeed, the passion to.
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To be trailblazer.
Let's use that word.
Right.
However, if you're not goingto begin to trust and there's such
emotion, if you're not goingto begin to trust beyond what your
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body is feeling is knowing youhave to trust source you have to
trust.
But when you have that hatetowards that caregiver, then the
doubt of why God?
There's a lot of crying inthat one.
Why God did I have to dealwith him?
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Why did I, was I given him?
Why can't he see that I'm agood girl?
Why, why, why?
And Here you are as an adult.
The why, the why, the why.
Why.
Why can't I have this?
Why can't I do that?
Why can't it?
You have to eliminate why outof your vocabulary.
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Because if you ask me, terry,why is the sky blue?
And I'll say, the angels touchthe clouds, it's an opinion.
That's why.
You'll never get the answer ofwhy from God.
You will get an answer of how,what, when, where, who.
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So eliminate why, because thatcan give you a thousand different
answers, and it's only goingto increase your frustration in life.
Yeah.
(44:50):
I'll put my hand on your head here.
Actually going to move yourlegs over.
Just turn on the finger.
And there I want you to.
There.
That's what I was trying to do.
Can I even you out?
You're still lopsided.
That's okay.
That's all right.
Broken.
No.
So you just told me somethingthat you have to be really careful
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for.
Is that when you're speakingthe I am, you're stating, that's
what you are.
You're owning it.
So even though you might haveresponded just by meaning around
and may have been a joke orwhatever, but you're putting it out
there.
(45:34):
And so now you just threw it here.
And it's going to sit here.
And somebody's gone, oh, she's broken.
So we can take advantage ofher thing.
And so everything you sayshould be very positive toward yourself.
Right?
I'm in the process of healing.
That sound better than whatyou said?
Yes.
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Yeah.
I'm in.
Always in the process ofbetter and better every day.
Physical, emotional, and spiritual.
Never again.
Yeah.
It's time for you to love you.
And then it's like it justcomes out to everyone around you.
(46:17):
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
There you go.
It just went down, down, down.
And I felt this.
Like it hit a pillow.
(46:37):
Yeah.
Can be so subtle.
You have heard so much from somany people that you're overwhelmed
with hearing anything elsefrom other people.
Meaning this ear chakra is sofull, it's like.
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Like massive with the energythat it's like, I don't know if I
want to hear one more thing.
And I don't feel like you'veclosed the ear chakra because it
is still open, but you'reoverwhelmed or too much of what you
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have heard from others can beconflicting to what you want or desire
or think things through.
Would you resonate with that?
Yes.
Okay.
And so that can also cause alot of doubt.
Am I going in the right direction?
Am I making the right decisions.
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Because someone who's alreadyin their head is already doubting.
Someone who already has aparent who, you know, they're like,
oh, shut that door and seal itwith cement.
That, you know, there's a lotof doubt with God, which makes you
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say, I have to do more thingsfor myself.
And there's such emotionaround that.
Like, I'm tired.
Why can't this be easy?
Resonate with you?
Please.
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Yeah, she had tonsilitis before.
So much.
Yeah, I can pick it up rightin here.
It's a lot of bacteria feelingright now.
No, no, no, no.
Everything I.
No, not gallery.
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So everything I'm picking upis energy.
So it can be passed.
I can pick up, you know,broken bones.
I can pick up, you know, like,I picked up the braces, the jaw area.
I picked up the tonsils.
And, like, I can feel it.
And it was like.
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And it was big.
So it was telling me it waspretty bad.
Yeah, I had it a lot when Iwas little.
Okay, so.
And.
And that's the remnants ofwhat I'm picking up.
That's all.
So I'm not saying you have it now.
You have some old patterns inyour third eye.
The third eye is intuition, trusting.
I could feel this creakinessthat tells me it's just old patterns.
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So, you know, being able totrust is not questioning or doubting.
So we're shifting you to trust more.
What do you want to call it?
Source.
Yeah.
God, what do you want to call it?
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You know what?
God, that makes me cringe.
Yeah, I already figured that out.
I don't know.
I guess I haven't put thoughtto it.
Interesting.
So everything I've been sayingis so smile.
And it's crazy because in whatyou are living, you are just existing
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by God.
Okay, we don't want you to exist.
We want you to where I want itto live.
Live more deeply, live moreboldly, and you'll get in the car.
I do.
I am patient.
Is, you're not.
Based on what I'm alreadypicking up in your energy and your
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responses.
Okay, you're not broken.
It's just what you experiencedin your four walls and what you chose,
that's still in that subconscious.
The subconscious is rulingyour life, even though you're saying,
well, I had that, Bob.
I took a minute reaction on it.
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But as I was stating before weeven started, that you can have an
interaction with a girlfriend,and all of a sudden you're like,
I don't like what she's saying.
And then she Triggered you bysomething she said even.
It could be the word or how itwas coming out.
It's the feeling that bubbled up.
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Right.
But because you have such acontrol mechanism, you're not trusting
beyond what you say you'recreating on your own.
So.
Not when I use the, the word God.
It's nothing about religiousor the Bible.
It's nothing.
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It's.
It's the universe where wecome through from.
It's.
It's that all encompassing energy.
But when you set up like youhave been in your childhood, then
it's that anchor that we havethat can be generated and created
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toward that all encompassing energy.
And that's why the why creeps in.
Is that.
Does that make sense now?
Yeah.
It doesn't make you weak, sweetie.
You're actually a verydominant, strong individual.
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And by being able to let go ofthe control, which is going to be
a lot of practice, and you'regoing to find that life really is
worth thriving.
Copa that.
Yeah.
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I see you driving.
That's telling me you feellike you're in the driver's seat.
I've got your, my left hand onyour crown and the right, right there
at the occipital bone.
Right.
So.
So the crown is your fullconnection to source, higher self,
light, love.
Right.
But if you're in the driver'sseat, your connection is going to
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be really weak.
Want me to go into detailabout that or do you understand what
I just said?
I understand.
Okay.
So.
Well, I want to give you a tip.
When you get out of bed, don'tget out of bed until you become more
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aware of how your body is feeling.
And instead of saying, whenyou wake up, I'm tired, I want you
to say, I am fully rested.
And then when you flip yourlegs out of the bed, one foot hits
the floor first.
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And then is that the patternof always the right foot?
Right.
And then when you're walkingto the bathroom, how does your feet
feel on the floor?
Are you going from heel to toe?
Toe to heel?
Do you feel like the rightside of your right foot has more
(54:29):
pressure than the left?
If you truly practice what Ijust told you, you will immediately
become more aware.
You'll become more aware aboutyour body's feeling of what is going
on around you.
It is a very simple process,but you have to do it.
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If you really want to makesome changes in your life, you have
to do it.
And it can be as simple asbecoming more aware.
And that little process is massive.
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And it's not occasionally it'severy single time.
You are very impatient.
I can see your fingers doing that.
Yeah, you can run, girl, butyou can't hide from me.
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I'm scared.
So I see a brick wall in frontof your heart, but I see that like
an interaction with someonecould knock one of the like flick
of brick out of it.
And it doesn't have to be onthe end, it could be in the center
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or you know.
And I saw someone flick one ofthe bricks off of your heart.
So it's telling me that you'vebuilt up a protection of saying,
I'm not going to be hurtagain, dad.
Energy.
Right.
I'm not going to be hurt, I'mnot going to be disappointed, I'm
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not going to be blah, blah, blah.
Right.
But you're in life, livinglife, saying, I'm protected in my
heart, but I could have aninteraction with my girlfriend and
she just flipped one of thosebricks off.
Yes.
Right.
Yeah.
But that brick wall is still solid.
Even though one brick wasflipped off, another interaction
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will happen and it put thebrick back in.
And so what a lot of people dois that they'll get hurt somewhere
in life.
Usually it's childhood,usually it's a caregiver and they'll
over protect their heart.
And so what they're saying isI'm going to protect myself from
being hurt again.
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But they're also keeping outwhat it is they want in, which is
love.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Makes sense.
Yeah.
You drink a lot of a dark fluid.
A dark fluid.
Yeah, it's.
It's either or.
You're selling.
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Yeah, I just saw that.
Don't do it.
That's.
Oh, I know.
Yes.
Not good for you.
You have enough pain in thecenter of your back, spine wise.
Yeah.
In between the shoulder blades.
Yeah.
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You like to talk.
Yes.
I feel a lot of this energy inyour throat moving around a lot.
So it's telling me you like to talk.
That's good.
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Take a deep breath into yournose and up your mouth.
You've learned to silence yourself.
Meaning if you're upset,you'll silence that emotion.
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Those words don't show themyour weakness.
Meaning if you're upset orlike by you are, you've learned to
silence yourself.
Does that resonate?
Yeah.
Yes.
Yes, yes.
Yes.
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Do you have any finalquestions for you, sweetie?
From you.
How you feeling?
Relaxed.
Yeah.
Definitely cold.
Your emotions, that's for sure.
How am I supposed to feel?
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How you're supposed to feel.
Exactly how you're supposed to feel.
It's not about me having youfeel a certain way.
So how your body is feeling?
Right.
I'm not.
Okay.
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It is Samantha and Melissa.
We are here for Season three,episode two.
My dog died yesterday, so I'mallowed to look like a hot mess.
I think you don't look like a.
Hot mess, but you're allowedto be grieving for sure.
Yeah.
So this was my dog that I gotwhen I was probably 20.
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She's my shepherd that I'vetalked about a few times.
The episode that we're sharingtoday is like a sequel.
Yeah, it's a.
Yeah, a sequel.
Sure.
To the first episode.
An extension of our trip to dc.
Yes.
So you guys heard ourinterview with Terry, Christine,
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and learned all about her.
We didn't really talk about.
Excuse me.
Our sessions.
This is a little insight of my session.
Yeah.
So you guys can see that andjust kind of get a feel of what an
energy session looks like,because I know that I couldn't fathom,
like, what would happen.
You were like, what is thiseven about?
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Yeah, yeah, exactly.
So I think a lot of people.
Have just been curious what.
What is.
So that's why we are playingthis for you today, which I think
it.
Was really nice of you to belike, the guinea pig or like the
vulnerable one, because werecorded both of our sessions.
Mine was really, really personal.
Here's we.
There's no way we could, like,fix yours to leave out, like, question.
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Yeah.
Maybe in the future we canplay some parts of it.
But I thought it was reallynice of you and it was really cool
that you're, like.
You are.
You're being vulnerable andyou're, like, letting people have
an insight.
Because energy work does pullout parts of you, I think, or point
out things.
Good things.
Yeah.
Things that we can work on.
Things we don't need to work.
I don't know.
It's just a very personal thing.
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Right.
And then for you to, like, leteverybody kind of have a peek into.
Not knowing what was going tobe said.
Yeah.
I think it's really nice.
Yeah, it was interesting.
And actually, I would say thatmy fail.
I did like, a fail on that daywould have been.
Was a dark and rainy day.
It was so stormy.
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Oh, my God.
That happened in Asheville, too.
Oh, my God.
Yes.
Yes, it did.
Our last travel, it was a darkand stormy day.
Yeah.
And so we're trying to findthe place to meet Terry.
And it really is only twominutes away from our hotel.
And we had planned on walking,but again, dark and stormy.
Rainy.
Equipment heavy.
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Yeah.
And so we're like, oh, we'regoing to drive and for some reason,
that was confusing.
And then on, like, while we'redriving there, I get a call from
my mom, who was watching thekids and the dogs.
And she's frantic.
She's, like, unable to make words.
And she's like, oh, my gosh,the dog just got into a fight.
One of the puppies attacked Kaya.
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Kaya's, like, the oldest dogof the pack.
She's, like, 13.
And I'm like, that doesn'tmake any sense.
Like, Kaya usually bullies thepuppies, so I don't understand, like,
what has happened.
So I'm flustered because I'mlike, well, I can't assess how bad
it is.
Like, you're making it soundlike, oh, she's been mauled and she's,
like, dying.
At least that's what I heard.
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Yeah, it definitely was alittle bit, maybe a teensy weensy
overreaction on that part.
Okay, okay.
I was like, maybe.
I.
Like, I got.
Sorry.
I do love you, but no, I mean,I could see if I were there, I also
would have been in, like,this, like, shock.
Yeah, she was probably in shock.
Oh, yeah.
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And I know for sure that,like, Emelia, she's the one that
called, right?
Oh, I don't remember.
One of the kids.
I guess you're right.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I think there was some shockthere, too.
Yeah.
And she didn't know, like,really what was going on.
She goes, I'll get Mimi.
And yeah, so Mom's, like,explaining, like, oh, the puppy was
latched onto her, like, tryingto kill Kaya, and Kaya was gonna
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die, and blood.
There's blood.
And I'm like, okay, all right,well, I need to see the puncture
wounds to know if she needs togo, like, right now.
Like, what do they look like?
I don't know.
There's blood everywhere.
And I'm like, okay, well,let's try, like, a FaceTime.
And show me the wounds and that.
They were struggling to dothat, but every.
You know, everyone's emotions are.
Are heightened.
And so I was like, well, Idon't know what to do.
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Someone's gonna have to go whois calm and, like, assess this.
And so I'm like, who can go?
Who can go?
I try.
Andrew.
And he was gonna leave workand go.
But he also was, like, an houraway at minimum.
And so then I was like, oh,let me call my stepdad.
Like, can you help her?
I forgot he was out of town.
And so I was like, figure it out.
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I guess.
I don't know, because, like,we were, like, in the parking lot.
Yeah, it was.
It was kind of like, I don'tknow, I can't do this right now.
But you did see a picture, andyou were like, okay, that's not.
It's not amazing.
There was blood, but you werekind of like, it's going to be okay,
but I have to go in.
But you were still kind offreaking out because every.
There was so many emotions.
Yeah.
And I think I left it as.
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I was able to do that becauseI left it as.
Andrew, can you go and assessthis for me?
And he said, yeah.
I was like, okay.
He said, I'll leave work now.
And he.
Yeah.
And I said, just touch basewith Mom.
Y'all figure it out.
I can't right now.
I gotta go.
And so I was able to, like,feel like, okay, I can't do anything
about it, but there's someonecalm and can go and assess it.
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And then we were, like, tryingto get in the building, and all the
doors were locked.
And she's, like, raining sohard, so hard.
And she's like, type this code in.
Type this code in.
Type this code in.
And we're like, it's not working.
So we ran around to the frontof the building and we knocked.
And then she was done.
She's like, oh, no.
I guess the cleaners orsomebody came in, like, yeah.
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Locked the door.
And I didn't.
I don't know.
It was just like, I'm still,like, so flustered.
I'm like, God, this really sucks.
And.
And I remember thinking, weshould just.
I can't do this.
But then, like, we walked into her.
Her space, and it's, like,really calming.
It actually was.
It smelled good.
It was clean.
Like, obviously it was clean.
Like, yeah.
But, like, it was justsomething so neat and tidy and calm.
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Homey.
Yeah, even.
But there was definitely acalming presence, like, walked in,
and I was like, okay, I can breathe.
This feels good.
And by time I got on the tablefor my reading, I was like, I'm good.
Yeah.
But it was a whole.
A whole moment.
And I really, really couldhave easily, like, allowed myself
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to spin out of control and belike, yeah, I can't do this.
I mean, I know we came all theway here for this, but I can't.
It was a lot right then, and,like, you not being able to be there
and, like, you have no control.
You're like, that's also areally scary feeling, too.
Like, there's nothing you can do.
Yeah.
What I.
What can I Do.
Usually I'm the one that hasto answer all the pet questions.
And I'm like, I don't evenknow what's going on.
I can't see.
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So it was interesting.
But that's a long way to sharemy little fail.
Oh, I think it was asuccessful fail.
A successful fail.
Because it could have been afail, but it was saved.
You kind of, like, said, Ican't do anything about this.
I'm going to try to, like, let go.
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The universe can take care of it.
Whatever.
Andrew is going to take careof it.
And.
Yeah.
So it was nice.
I want to talk about your failbecause you still.
Yeah.
Have a reminder of it.
Yeah.
So it was really embarrassingbecause we went out to eat at this.
It was a pretty nice place.
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Like.
Oh, it was.
It was so good.
It was really good.
I forgot the name.
Oh, I won't say the namebecause I should remember.
And we will say the name.
Silver Spoons.
I don't know, actually, Ican't really.
Remember the name of it.
I don't want to, like, make it.
Here's the thing.
I slipped and fell on their floor.
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Which it happens.
Right.
But we weren't exactly thathappy with, like, the way it was
handled.
No.
We're walking to the bathroomand they're obviously mopping the
floors.
We can see that.
I actually did see it.
That's why I felt.
Oh, okay.
I saw that they were moppingthe floors.
We were talking, walking tothe bathroom.
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So, like, I guess I just saw it.
Look, you guys, if I'm drivingand talking, I'm going to miss the
exit.
If I'm walking, talking, I.
Okay.
But I was very aware of uswalking to the bathroom.
And I know they were moppingand there was no wet floor sign out.
And so she mega fell.
I did.
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And Sam, you almost scared mea little because you screamed.
No, I didn't.
Yes, you did.
You said Melissa.
I was like, oh, my God, thisis so embarrassing.
Oh, my God.
Are you okay?
It was.
Guys, this wasn't like a slipand, like, land on the floor.
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No, this was a go.
Like, whole body didn't knowit was coming.
One leg, one knee.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Oh, and my wrist, actually, Iforgot about that.
But yeah.
So I was like, oh, my God.
I'm sure everyone back at thetable, like, for sure heard that.
But they didn't.
So maybe it was just in my mind.
I was just embarrassed.
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Maybe you're, you know, you'relike that.
You know, I was embarrassed.
And then when you were Like,I'm like, don't draw attention to
me.
You were really embarrassed.
And so we go into thebathroom, and I'm sitting here, like,
going over this in my head.
Yeah.
And I'm like, there wasn't asign out there.
And I was like, that's a problem.
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Also.
No.
There were three employeesstanding there, and no one asked
if I was okay.
No.
And so then they all just kindof were staring.
And so I'm like, oh, we'regonna say something.
Like, this is ridiculous.
Like, they didn't say anything.
They didn't check on you, andthere was no wet floor sign for you
to acknowledge.
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And when we came out of thebathroom, guess what was on the ground?
A wet floor sign.
And.
And who was in front of the wet.
The manager.
And what did he do?
What did he do?
I think he didn't do anything.
He didn't.
He just stared at us as wewalked to our table.
Yeah.
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Like, oh, do you see the sign?
Do they.
Are they going to say anythingto us?
Yeah.
Huh.
Yeah.
So it was kind of weird, and Iwas pissed.
Yeah.
And then also, one of ourother friends who was there that
night was like, I'm mad thatwe didn't get a free meal.
I mean, but it's not about thefree meal.
Like, it's the fact that it happened.
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And instead of addressing it,the, like, tried to cover it up and
pretend it didn't happen.
Unless you complain.
Yeah.
And that is fucked up.
As, like, a leader, you shouldbe like, oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry
this happened.
You're right.
Like, if someone.
Yes.
Burnt themselves on yourcoffee machine at.
The shop, I would for sure belike, oh, my gosh, I have bandies.
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I have.
What do I need to do?
Right.
Let me take care of you.
Even though that, like,literally would not be your problem
or, like, your, like, fault.
But.
Yeah.
So it's just really bizarre to me.
But it's not their fault.
I'm clumsy.
I just didn't like how it washandled either.
Yeah.
There should have at leastbeen a check.
And you still have a giant ass bruise.
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And this is.
Yeah.
Is this a month or two months later?
Oh, shoot.
When did we go?
We went Valentine's Day,February, March.
So it's been a month and a half.
It's the end of March.
Still bruised.
Still.
No one said anything.
So.
Yeah.
I was actually, like, tryingto change shelves in a cabinet last
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night, and I was kneeling onthe counter, and I was like, oh,
that still hurts.
Why?
Oh, yeah.
Oh, yeah.
Okay.
Maybe I'm really salty about it.
I love it.
I love it.
It makes me feel good.
What is funny is, I know we'rerambling, like, way longer than we
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usually do, but we're having agood day.
We are.
What's funny is that in thisrecording, there's several moments
where Terry says something,and I, like, look at Melissa.
And she starts, like, cracking up.
And I'm like, oh, no commentsfrom the peanut gallery.
And then there's like, anotherpart where Terry says something that,
like, kind of rubs me thewrong way.
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I didn't, like, really agreeand not in, like, a bad way.
She just called something out and.
And I was like, wait a minute.
Give her some credit.
And I was like, you had my back.
No, I do.
I got it.
Because I wasn't.
I wasn't gonna say, like, oh,well, that's rude.
Like, I've done great.
Like, But Melissa was like,give her some credit.
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Wait a minute now.
Multipar.
There.
That's my best friend.
I got you.
Oh, my God.
Look, be kind to everyone.
Anyway.
All right, well, enjoy this episode.
Yeah.
With video.
Get Real with Sam.
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Hey, you.
You're tuned in to the Skirtsup show with Samantha and Melissa.
Join our mission to normalizefailure, but still uncover the positives
at every twist and turn.
Skirts up, but keep your panties.
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All right, so what I'm goingto do is I'm going to tell you exactly
what you're going to receiveduring this session.
I'll start by putting one handon your heart and the other on your
stomach.
I am clairvoyant,clairaudient, and clairsentient,
meaning I can see movies in my head.
I can hear conversations or.
Yeah, and the Claire sentientis I just know.
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So throughout your session,I'm going to say, Samantha, I don't
care what you say.
I can feel this.
I know it.
And it literally is.
What I'm looking for is what's in.
Your energy field, what isholding you back from dot, dot, dot.
Because you're saying, youknow, I could get frustrated, or,
why does this keep happening?
Or how can I get to this otherplace that I want to be?
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And that's where thesubconscious is holding you from
being able to get to that place.
So people come to me because Ican shift that energy.
I can shift within thatblueprint of what's going on from
your childhood.
And that's usually from the childhood.
It doesn't mean that you haveemotionally or physically abusive
parents.
It's nothing like that.
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I mean, that could be part ofsomeone's history, but it's not for
everyone.
And you could have aninteraction with mom.
She's on the phone, you'redrawing her a picture, and this is
an example.
And then you say, okay, Mom, Ihave this picture.
Okay, Samantha, I'll be rightwith you.
And she forgets.
Then what it ends up happeningis that you determine, all right,
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what can I do to be seen and heard?
And so then you start doingextra things in your life as a little
girl.
You start doing certain thingsto be seen and however that looks
like.
Right.
But as an adult, you go towork and you're really organized
and you're getting your job done.
And then you realize, wow,your co workers need some help.
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So you're like, hey, I canhelp you and help this one and help
that.
When you go home and you'reexhausted and you're like, why am
I the only one working so hard?
Well, it was because your momdidn't give you the attention you
needed, quote, unquote, at the time.
And that you chose to say, Ihave to work harder.
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And that's what it shows up asan adult.
You feeling like you'reworking harder than others.
And that's just an example ofmany, many things as something as
simple as your mom forgettingto come back to you.
Okay, so it's not allemotional and physical in our childhood
is the things that we say wewanted at that time and didn't get.
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Okay.
That's also yourinterpretation of what's going on
in your surroundings as well.
So there are five ways to pickup limiting beliefs.
Mom and dad or mom and dad,like figures, like grandparents,
God, someone else andsomething else.
You have a very strong mom block.
Me?
Yes, Very strong mom block.
And a block is the limiting belief.
And I'm going to pick it upand I'm going to share with you.
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But when I start, I'm gonnastart with the hand on the stomach,
hand on the heart.
And then I'm just gonna startbreathing a certain way.
And then I'm gonna startseeing movies and hearing things,
and I'm gonna share it with you.
Most of my things that I shareis what I'm seeing.
And then I might ask yes or no questions.
And then I might say, what'sgoing on when you were at a certain
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age?
Because I'll pick that up as well.
Well, and there's a littlefear in that, too.
So I just felt it.
My stomach did a little ripple.
Yeah.
Like, oh, what's going to beshown Today.
Right.
All right, so you ready?
Okay.
All right, here we go.
So your mom was veryoverprotective, huh?
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Yeah, yeah.
And, and as a child we'llthink, oh, this is a safety zone.
However, what can happen isthat overprotective, especially moms
can give a child a sense of,of feeling a little reserved or.
Well, I'll give you a list of them.
Procrastination, the fear ofmaking decisions because what if
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it's wrong?
Taking too long to make adecision because you have to reel
it in your head to figure outwhich direction.
You want to go in.
So you're overanalyzing too much.
Because when you have thatprotective parent.
When it's overprotective, whatI ended up.
Seeing was energy wall, likeright here.
And it felt really tight,like, oh, she's got you under that
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protection bubble.
And so you'll find yourselfsaying, and for you, oh, I can feel
it, like there's some fear inyour heart.
So feelings of.
When it comes to love orloving something, not just a physical
person, it can be a career, itcould be, you know that a party you're
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organizing, you'd love it.
You want to make sure it's allperfect and it's okay.
Maybe just a little.
There you go.
So, and, and that's how it canshow itself up when you have an overprotective
parent.
And so you've worked throughsome of it, but if I give it a score,
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a percentage, 80%.
You still, you're, you'retroubled, you're meaning it's not
free flowing enough for youand you probably get frustrated with
yourself, with, you know, hereI am with this pattern I'm trying
to get out of my head, but Iwant it to be right.
Can we get it right?
Can we be it right?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
So I can feel it.
But you know, everything is great.
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There's no right or wrong.
Even though.
Because when you're, what youdo is you'll end up putting it in
a box.
Meaning your end result.
I want it to look like X, Yand Z.
But what happens if it's likebetter than what you're putting here?
Right?
So let's say an example.
You know, if I do this job, Iwant to make $100.
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Well, what if you could make ahundred thousand?
You see?
So we have to be more broaderin what we're looking our end result
to be.
So, meaning if your end resultwas focused on an emotion.
Right.
So give you an example.
If you had a million dollarsin A bank.
The emotion attached to thatis comfort, is stability, is adventure.
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Because we got it, we don'thave to worry.
You know, if I get a flattire, I can buy a new car.
Right.
So we want to focus on thefeeling of what you want your end
result to be, and theneverything around what you're trying
to attract will naturally comewith it, like you're a magnet.
So if you're saying, I want mypodcast to have, you know, million
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followers, then that's fun,excitement, laughter, dancing, like.
And.
And feeling accomplished.
Right.
And feeling like you're givingback to the community and feeling
like people are gettingsomething out of it, which can feel
a sense of.
Of.
Of enlightenment, fulfillment,gratitude, all of that.
Right.
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So before you have a project,have this feeling first.
Go into it with that.
You'll have your million followers.
It works just like that.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Yeah.
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You have a lot of fear.
So the solar plexus is theportal of emotions.
But I feel it so fast, I can'teven move my hand fast enough.
Yeah.
And that.
That is the feeling of fearwhen it's like.
Right.
I'm not saying that a personwalks around going, oh, I'm afraid
of, like, a little timid mouse.
It's not like that.
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What happens is that you'reliving life, but having a sense of
will.
I could.
I.
Should I.
You're already questioningbefore it's even happening.
Do you find yourself.
Yeah.
Okay.
So when you're questioningstuff, you're already causing a sense
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of fear.
I feel that so much in my.
It just went right there in mysolar plexus.
Meaning.
Yes, you're spot on.
Right.
Yeah.
And so don't question life.
Live life.
Because if you're starting tostep into things, even if you're
not even thinking that, you'restepping into every moment that we
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walk, talk, move, you'restepping into something.
Every action is causingsomething to happen.
Right.
Right.
An action can be your mouthwith words coming out or simply walking.
That's an action.
Driving, listening.
Those are all actions.
Right.
But if you're spending so muchtime in your head questioning, that
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is being put out into thecollective energy to say, all right,
what if.
Okay, could I.
And if this happens.
And now you're putting allthese questions up here.
So this is the collective energy.
And when you're putting it uphere, people that are connected to
you or even walking by, youcan say, oh, wow, I just.
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I'm open.
My mind is open.
I wasn't thinking anything.
I can grab that.
Have you Ever had a moment where.
You went to, if you everworked in an office or a friend's
house.
You were driving and you'relike, man, I'm thirsty.
I could.
Like, I should have grabbedsomething before I left.
And you get there and beforeyou even say anything, they say,
if you want some water, orhere's a bottle of water.
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Never had those moments?
No, not that I can think ofright off the top of my head.
So we have to get you to bemore present as well, because when
we're just existing, you'remissing everything.
And it's kind of sad becausewhen you're fully aware.
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When I say present, peopledon't understand that sometimes.
Aware.
But it's not about what'soutside of you, it's all about what's
inside of you.
So if you are fully aware ofhow you're feeling in those moments,
like driving, going, I'mreally thirsty.
And then, like, what that justhappened, then you're fully aware
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that you are already sayingit, wanting it.
And then you made it happen before.
You got to the office or yourfriend's house.
Right?
Someone who's just existing.
I'm just driving.
I gotta get there.
I gotta think about my deadline.
Gotta think about what I'm wearing.
Okay, what's gonna happen?
All those questions in yourhead is.
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Not making room for all theanswers you want for the questions
you're already suffocatingyour head with.
Does that make sense?
Okay.
Bringing you back to presentmeans listening more, getting out
of your head, and being fullyaware of how your body is feeling
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in any setting, every moment,all the time.
It is a lifestyle.
So bringing you from justexisting to thriving and being fully
aware changes your entire life.
It's.
You start attracting thethings that you're saying you want.
You can have just a simplethought and let it go, and then all
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of a sudden happened.
Life is like that.
But all this other stuffyou're doing, all the questioning,
all the fear you're creatingis putting this big barrier of.
Not being able to bring forthwith ease the things you say you
desire.
Does that make sense now?
Yeah.
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Yeah.
A little doubt there.
No, it makes sense.
Okay.
Okay.
So get out of your head, okay?
Just stop thinking aboutthings because it's.
Going to work out.
Now, if you are tight, I see typing.
I gotta put this proposal.
Gotta do this next video,whatever it is, right?
I understand being in themoment and concentrating in that,
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but once you step away, youdon't have to concentrate in that
anymore.
Right?
You've already put the energyof success in it.
But if you're alreadyquestioning, doubting, you're putting
the energy of fear in will beseen and felt through any video,
any email, any phone calls ifyou're already doing that energy.
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Right.
It's a big thing.
So it's a change how, whattype of energy you are putting in
things.
That's why I tell people, ifyou're writing an email, don't write
it with anger, don't write itwith despair or frustration.
Because what will happen ispeople will read and say, damn, what's
going on with her?
Right?
And you're just saying, youknow, I'm hoping that things work
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out.
And they're like, why?
You know, and they're pickingit on up.
So go into something,especially when you're throwing energy
into it, emails, phone calls.
Videos, that you're doing itwith the highest purpose of giving
of the excitement of doing itand wanting it most.
Interesting thing is I wassuper excited about this all day
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long.
Like, this is going to be amazing.
And sometimes I'm not thatexcited about being a guest on certain
podcasts.
It depends on the person.
But I cocoon my energy.
I'm like, no, there's going tobe that best thing ever.
And then knowing that I'mdoing that will fill the room with
positivity, will show thatwhoever's watching the video is going
to be receiving this in thebest possible light.
(27:55):
Makes sense.
Yes.
Yes.
So for shoulders, it's aperception of burden.
Perception of burden.
Left side, mom.
Right side dad.
Left side, feminine.
Right side, masculine.
So I'm feeling there'ssomething right here.
Like you were just like, oh,hanging onto it.
(28:15):
It's a seat about that big, soabout the size of a quarter.
Right.
Right where my thumb is onyour shoulder.
And so a perception of burden,and this is dead.
Can be where you needed him ata certain time and he forgot or he
got distracted or work endedup taking him away from his promise
(28:37):
to not accept.
And I said, as a child, we allend up just accepting because within
the four walls, this is whatour caregivers told us.
And we know nothing else.
They could be lying to us,like, I don't know what, or making
false promises.
And then we keep getting setup for failure because that's what
(28:59):
they're doing.
Set a.
Setting the child up for failure.
Right.
Instead of telling the truthor holding off when they're making
a promise, following throughwith the promise.
Right.
And so now you've experiencedthings that you were.
Because I keep seeing thispumping with your hand, like, did
(29:25):
you find.
When you were little, did youmove your hands around a lot?
I'm pretty sure that's what I'm.
That's my.
Yeah, it's an interest tick.
I mean, I think I still do it.
Okay.
So.
Yes.
Okay, perfect.
Because I can see you're, youknow, you're trying to, like, okay,
am I going to do this?
I feel excitement, butbuilding up with.
(29:45):
And then you just let it go.
Like, I could feel the build up.
And then I just let it go.
Meaning you already know he'snot going to be there, you said.
Right, right.
But the hope of desire.
Because kids will see theirparents at certain events.
You might have a couple ofgirlfriends, and the dad is always
showing up, and you're like,inside, man, I wish mine was here.
(30:09):
But you don't say it.
You don't have that exactsentence in your head.
It's a feeling ofdisappointment, of longing.
Right.
Belonging to.
Have you had longing.
I could feel that as soon as Isaid that.
The longing of being able tofill that void of feeling like you
(30:31):
had.
And they could have had afather that was there for the baby
girl, like to hold the hand orto be there and clap while you're
on the stage with, you know,whatever it is.
The school play.
Were you ever in a school play?
I just saw.
I was in, like.
(30:51):
I think so.
Yeah.
I just saw the stage andyou're on a school play.
And I saw the kids.
They were fairly small, soprobably more like 8.
9.
8, 8, 8.
That would have been second grade.
Little play, you know, wherethey come in with the, you know,
we are long.
Oh, wait, which grade?
Okay, that's actually really funny.
No, My cousin, when she was inhigh school, she was doing a school.
(31:16):
Play, and they asked me, since I.
Was like, little, if I'd belike a munchkin or something.
There you go.
I picked it up.
Yeah.
That's interesting.
So, yeah, I saw you.
I saw the stage.
I saw you, though, so.
But, you know, to have thatparent, any parent, for that matter,
but to have the dad going,yeah, that's my girl up there.
(31:38):
And then for him not to bepresent, that we can say you accepted
unacceptable behavior.
Meaning he's not here to love me.
He's not here to see how Iwant to feel important and be seen.
And any kid wants to feel that.
Right?
Yeah.
And you just got to the pointwhere you just accepted unacceptable
(31:59):
behavior.
He's not going.
He's not there.
Well, you know, I'll Just doit for myself, mom, the other kids.
I'm gonna have fun.
I'm gonna force myself to have fun.
I feel like he.
You emotionally.
This.
I know I'm on this one.
Emotionally disconnected fromhim, so you would stop being hurt.
But having that longing is aspace of unfulfilled dreams.
(32:26):
Do you understand what I'm saying?
Okay.
I know it's in you, and I knowyou're holding it back as I can see
it in your eyes.
I don't know, I think that there's.
Just so much, like, hate thatI can't remember a time, like, where
I would have been.
Like, oh, yeah, I wish I wouldhave been there.
Like, now.
It's.
Yeah.
(32:48):
Well, again, I'm working inthe subconscious, and I had to remind
you of the munchkin moment,even though I saw it, right?
Yeah, but your subconscious istelling me the things that I'm picking
up.
Hate is such a strong emotion that.
That can also hold you backfrom being able to succeed when masculine
(33:12):
energy is present.
And masculine energy can alsobe in a female body, a woman who's
very dominant.
Leadership role, stagepresence, that kind of thing.
That's that dominant masculinecoming through a female body.
Right.
But when you have hate toward.
But the.
(33:33):
And I'll just say, becauselittle children, that's my prince.
That's my king.
That's my God, you know that.
Because that's like, he'sthere and then over time, being disappointed
and disappointed and disappointed.
I can feel like every time Isay it, I get a stab in my back.
So you are stabbed in yourback every time that you were hoping
(33:57):
or, you know, can he do it?
Will he do it?
And then just being more inthat stab, it's more angry.
More angry.
More angry to the point.
And so that builds up is like,I can't see anything else but the
anger that I have.
Okay, that makes sense now.
Okay.
When I first work with people,what can happen is they're looking
(34:18):
in their brain for a specificmoment in time that says, that's
why I hate him.
And it's not like that for you.
It was gradual because you.
To use 8 is a buildup of suchdespair, you know?
And I can use that wordbecause I'm talking to your child.
(34:41):
I'm not talking to your adultperson right here, Samantha.
I'm talking to that person,the little girl who really desired
and wanted to have a dad.
More present, more caring,more showing caring, showing love,
showing attention, you know?
And attention could simplyjust be looking at you in your Eyes
(35:03):
and saying, how was your day, baby?
You know, come over here, giveme a hug.
Or I'm going to come to youand give you a hug.
You see?
And when you don't have that interaction.
And you're feeling like, man,he's constantly setting me up for
failure.
Meaning it's the fear feeling.
Because I want you to thinkabout what a child would be thinking,
(35:25):
not what you are thinking nowas an adult because you're an overthinker.
You know, you are so goingback and saying, yeah, when I could
think about that childhood,there were so many episodes that
I just stopped thinking aboutthem all together.
I just like, off with his head.
(35:46):
You see how that.
You know what I'm saying about now?
Okay, okay.
Now you.
Now you get it.
Okay.
I just want to make sureyou're on the same page with me.
Okay.
Your hip is a little out of whack.
Do you have.
Do you feel like every once ina while you get a.
(36:08):
Like a.
Sometimes I get stuck.
Yeah, there it goes there.
I can see the way you'relaying on the bed.
And it's always how anybodycan lay on the bed.
You could wear shoes that are not.
The laces aren't tied.
And it's telling me you don'tlike to be tied down.
You.
But look at how you'reliterally lopsided.
Oh, interesting.
Your whole hip is up.
(36:28):
And it just shows me everytime somebody lays.
And you're really out of alignment.
But that's a physicalalignment as well, right?
But also not being supported.
The dad's side hips representsupport, so that's why you get tweaked
every once in a while.
On this hip, the body respondsto what your family or your life
(36:50):
history is and was and evengoing forward.
So if you're an overthinker,you might end up getting pains in
your lower back, because that's.
Life is a pain in the butt.
So that's why we have to getyou out of your head.
But then you have this fear ifI don't sink it through, I have to
have control.
I have to.
(37:11):
Then.
Then what you're doing isyou're slowing down the flow of what
you want the end result to be.
Do you understand that?
Okay, relax.
So that is a control mechanism.
So when I picked up your arm,some people would just let me do
(37:33):
whatever I want, but you werealready holding it.
I see that with a lot of people.
And so that instantly tells meyou do have a very strong control
mechanism.
You've got to get things done.
You want it to be the right way.
You want to dance, you know,and that can be also your career,
where you have deadlines andwant to be.
You have to do all thesethings, but you have to trust more.
(37:56):
And when you had a parent youcouldn't trust, then that's where
you turned up the volume tocontrol what you want to create and
project.
Does that now make sense?
Yeah.
All right.
(38:18):
You know, part of your body istelling me, when I first started,
started putting my thumb hereon your hand, I could see a boxing
glove.
That's.
That's funny, actually.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Because I had an image of likea, like punching.
There you go.
So same connection there.
Yeah.
But when I asked you to relax,your arms started relaxing and I
(38:39):
could feel very tired.
So you're tired of holding onto some of this anger and frustration
and guys to fight through things.
No one has to fight to get things.
They just trust and love andbe connected to source energy, God,
whatever you want to label it,I'll just call it God or higher self,
(38:59):
whatever.
But it causes a person to holdon the control mechanism.
Right.
So look at it as like put down false.
You have a string that's flying.
So if you're going to control.
So let's say the stream isflowing of energy and you control
a log comes down into thestream, you're trying to stop the
(39:22):
flow of that energy.
That's with you controlling.
I don't want it to be that way.
Boom, long comes down, theenergy is still going to flow, but
now it's going to flow aroundthe log.
Then it could go to the right direction.
Right, Meaning.
Yeah, it could go in thedirection you want it to be, or it
(39:43):
could go in another directionand take you a whole much longer,
like a whole hell of a longtime to get to your end result.
And then you get even more frustrated.
Why does this take so long?
Why can't I get to my endresult quicker?
There's where you're startingto question why, why, why, why, why,
why?
(40:03):
And that why is a disconnectfrom source energy.
Look at as you pull in your.
Your energy into a cocoon.
I have to control this.
I have to do it my way.
I have to get this done.
Nobody was, you know, I.
I know.
I can do it faster.
I'm better.
I just got to do it right.
Instead of saying, I know I'mfully connected.
(40:25):
I know that source has got my.
Back at all times.
I know that I can focus, getit done.
And voila, everything that Iwant is happening for me.
But if you're not living inthe space of saying I know the in
k n o w things are happeningfor me, then you're always going
(40:45):
to cocoon and it's going totake a whole lot longer.
You're going to be frustratedon why it's taking so long and you're
going to get disillusioned ifyou're going in the right direction.
Is this for me?
Should I keep doing it?
And then that's where thedoubt creeps in.
It's bio.
Yeah, yeah.
(41:08):
Relax.
And the first thing you'regonna tell me, I'm trying to relax.
It's so hard.
It's not hard.
You just have to trust to let go.
It's a lifestyle.
Yeah.
Trusting is the number one thing.
Someone who has a massivecontrol mechanism.
(41:31):
I used to.
And it's, it's practice.
I mean it could take you threeto six months.
Closer to six months for you.
But you have to say, I am.
Going to trust no matter what.
I know there's so many thingsthat you want to accomplish, things
you haven't even thought ofyet, but they're going to start coming
(41:51):
at you.
And the more you control the, the.
More you stay in the spacethat you've created with this control,
you're going to be questioninga lot of things.
Why did I do it?
You know, what, what?
And when I heard why.
You can get very selfdestructive in resume.
(42:18):
Oh yeah, yeah.
That whole recent conversation.
Interesting.
Biggest thing for you,Samantha, is I could tell you stories
about you all day long.
But unless you can recall itand go, oh yeah, that's why I was.
(42:41):
Angry or oh, that's why I washappy or oh, you're going to continue
to live in the space you'reliving in and I would hate to see
that happen for you.
You're very productive youngwoman who really has passion and
the passion to help, thepassion to succeed, the passion to.
(43:02):
To be trailblazer.
Let's use that word.
Right.
However, if you're not goingto begin to trust and there's such
emotion, if you're not goingto begin to trust beyond what your
(43:24):
body is feeling is knowing youhave to trust source you have to
trust.
But when you have that hatetowards that caregiver, then the
doubt of why God?
There's a lot of crying inthat one.
Why God did I have to dealwith him?
(43:46):
Why did I, was I given him?
Why can't he see that I'm agood girl?
Why, why, why?
And Here you are as an adult.
The why, the why, the why.
Why.
Why can't I have this?
Why can't I do that?
Why can't it?
You have to eliminate why outof your vocabulary.
(44:09):
Because if you ask me, terry,why is the sky blue?
And I'll say, the angels touchthe clouds, it's an opinion.
That's why.
You'll never get the answer ofwhy from God.
You will get an answer of how,what, when, where, who.
(44:29):
So eliminate why, because thatcan give you a thousand different
answers, and it's only goingto increase your frustration in life.
Yeah.
(44:50):
I'll put my hand on your head here.
Actually going to move yourlegs over.
Just turn on the finger.
And there I want you to.
There.
That's what I was trying to do.
Can I even you out?
You're still lopsided.
That's okay.
That's all right.
Broken.
No.
So you just told me somethingthat you have to be really careful
(45:14):
for.
Is that when you're speakingthe I am, you're stating, that's
what you are.
You're owning it.
So even though you might haveresponded just by meaning around
and may have been a joke orwhatever, but you're putting it out
there.
(45:34):
And so now you just threw it here.
And it's going to sit here.
And somebody's gone, oh, she's broken.
So we can take advantage ofher thing.
And so everything you sayshould be very positive toward yourself.
Right?
I'm in the process of healing.
That sound better than whatyou said?
Yes.
(45:55):
Yeah.
I'm in.
Always in the process ofbetter and better every day.
Physical, emotional, and spiritual.
Never again.
Yeah.
It's time for you to love you.
And then it's like it justcomes out to everyone around you.
(46:17):
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
There you go.
It just went down, down, down.
And I felt this.
Like it hit a pillow.
(46:37):
Yeah.
Can be so subtle.
You have heard so much from somany people that you're overwhelmed
with hearing anything elsefrom other people.
Meaning this ear chakra is sofull, it's like.
(46:58):
Like massive with the energythat it's like, I don't know if I
want to hear one more thing.
And I don't feel like you'veclosed the ear chakra because it
is still open, but you'reoverwhelmed or too much of what you
(47:19):
have heard from others can beconflicting to what you want or desire
or think things through.
Would you resonate with that?
Yes.
Okay.
And so that can also cause alot of doubt.
Am I going in the right direction?
Am I making the right decisions.
(47:40):
Because someone who's alreadyin their head is already doubting.
Someone who already has aparent who, you know, they're like,
oh, shut that door and seal itwith cement.
That, you know, there's a lotof doubt with God, which makes you
(48:02):
say, I have to do more thingsfor myself.
And there's such emotionaround that.
Like, I'm tired.
Why can't this be easy?
Resonate with you?
Please.
(48:23):
Yeah, she had tonsilitis before.
So much.
Yeah, I can pick it up rightin here.
It's a lot of bacteria feelingright now.
No, no, no, no.
Everything I.
No, not gallery.
(48:46):
So everything I'm picking upis energy.
So it can be passed.
I can pick up, you know,broken bones.
I can pick up, you know, like,I picked up the braces, the jaw area.
I picked up the tonsils.
And, like, I can feel it.
And it was like.
(49:07):
And it was big.
So it was telling me it waspretty bad.
Yeah, I had it a lot when Iwas little.
Okay, so.
And.
And that's the remnants ofwhat I'm picking up.
That's all.
So I'm not saying you have it now.
You have some old patterns inyour third eye.
The third eye is intuition, trusting.
I could feel this creakinessthat tells me it's just old patterns.
(49:31):
So, you know, being able totrust is not questioning or doubting.
So we're shifting you to trust more.
What do you want to call it?
Source.
Yeah.
God, what do you want to call it?
(49:52):
You know what?
God, that makes me cringe.
Yeah, I already figured that out.
I don't know.
I guess I haven't put thoughtto it.
Interesting.
So everything I've been sayingis so smile.
And it's crazy because in whatyou are living, you are just existing
(50:15):
by God.
Okay, we don't want you to exist.
We want you to where I want itto live.
Live more deeply, live moreboldly, and you'll get in the car.
I do.
I am patient.
Is, you're not.
Based on what I'm alreadypicking up in your energy and your
(50:36):
responses.
Okay, you're not broken.
It's just what you experiencedin your four walls and what you chose,
that's still in that subconscious.
The subconscious is rulingyour life, even though you're saying,
well, I had that, Bob.
I took a minute reaction on it.
(50:57):
But as I was stating before weeven started, that you can have an
interaction with a girlfriend,and all of a sudden you're like,
I don't like what she's saying.
And then she Triggered you bysomething she said even.
It could be the word or how itwas coming out.
It's the feeling that bubbled up.
(51:18):
Right.
But because you have such acontrol mechanism, you're not trusting
beyond what you say you'recreating on your own.
So.
Not when I use the, the word God.
It's nothing about religiousor the Bible.
It's nothing.
(51:39):
It's.
It's the universe where wecome through from.
It's.
It's that all encompassing energy.
But when you set up like youhave been in your childhood, then
it's that anchor that we havethat can be generated and created
(52:04):
toward that all encompassing energy.
And that's why the why creeps in.
Is that.
Does that make sense now?
Yeah.
It doesn't make you weak, sweetie.
You're actually a verydominant, strong individual.
(52:26):
And by being able to let go ofthe control, which is going to be
a lot of practice, and you'regoing to find that life really is
worth thriving.
Copa that.
Yeah.
(52:53):
I see you driving.
That's telling me you feellike you're in the driver's seat.
I've got your, my left hand onyour crown and the right, right there
at the occipital bone.
Right.
So.
So the crown is your fullconnection to source, higher self,
light, love.
Right.
But if you're in the driver'sseat, your connection is going to
(53:17):
be really weak.
Want me to go into detailabout that or do you understand what
I just said?
I understand.
Okay.
So.
Well, I want to give you a tip.
When you get out of bed, don'tget out of bed until you become more
(53:42):
aware of how your body is feeling.
And instead of saying, whenyou wake up, I'm tired, I want you
to say, I am fully rested.
And then when you flip yourlegs out of the bed, one foot hits
the floor first.
(54:04):
And then is that the patternof always the right foot?
Right.
And then when you're walkingto the bathroom, how does your feet
feel on the floor?
Are you going from heel to toe?
Toe to heel?
Do you feel like the rightside of your right foot has more
(54:29):
pressure than the left?
If you truly practice what Ijust told you, you will immediately
become more aware.
You'll become more aware aboutyour body's feeling of what is going
on around you.
It is a very simple process,but you have to do it.
(54:53):
If you really want to makesome changes in your life, you have
to do it.
And it can be as simple asbecoming more aware.
And that little process is massive.
(55:14):
And it's not occasionally it'severy single time.
You are very impatient.
I can see your fingers doing that.
Yeah, you can run, girl, butyou can't hide from me.
(55:35):
I'm scared.
So I see a brick wall in frontof your heart, but I see that like
an interaction with someonecould knock one of the like flick
of brick out of it.
And it doesn't have to be onthe end, it could be in the center
(55:57):
or you know.
And I saw someone flick one ofthe bricks off of your heart.
So it's telling me that you'vebuilt up a protection of saying,
I'm not going to be hurtagain, dad.
Energy.
Right.
I'm not going to be hurt, I'mnot going to be disappointed, I'm
(56:18):
not going to be blah, blah, blah.
Right.
But you're in life, livinglife, saying, I'm protected in my
heart, but I could have aninteraction with my girlfriend and
she just flipped one of thosebricks off.
Yes.
Right.
Yeah.
But that brick wall is still solid.
Even though one brick wasflipped off, another interaction
(56:40):
will happen and it put thebrick back in.
And so what a lot of people dois that they'll get hurt somewhere
in life.
Usually it's childhood,usually it's a caregiver and they'll
over protect their heart.
And so what they're saying isI'm going to protect myself from
being hurt again.
(57:02):
But they're also keeping outwhat it is they want in, which is
love.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Makes sense.
Yeah.
You drink a lot of a dark fluid.
A dark fluid.
Yeah, it's.
It's either or.
You're selling.
(57:23):
Yeah, I just saw that.
Don't do it.
That's.
Oh, I know.
Yes.
Not good for you.
You have enough pain in thecenter of your back, spine wise.
Yeah.
In between the shoulder blades.
Yeah.
(57:44):
You like to talk.
Yes.
I feel a lot of this energy inyour throat moving around a lot.
So it's telling me you like to talk.
That's good.
(58:10):
Take a deep breath into yournose and up your mouth.
You've learned to silence yourself.
Meaning if you're upset,you'll silence that emotion.
(58:33):
Those words don't show themyour weakness.
Meaning if you're upset orlike by you are, you've learned to
silence yourself.
Does that resonate?
Yeah.
Yes.
Yes, yes.
Yes.
(58:56):
Do you have any finalquestions for you, sweetie?
From you.
How you feeling?
Relaxed.
Yeah.
Definitely cold.
Your emotions, that's for sure.
How am I supposed to feel?
(59:18):
How you're supposed to feel.
Exactly how you're supposed to feel.
It's not about me having youfeel a certain way.
So how your body is feeling?
Right.
I'm not.
Okay.
(59:40):
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