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Speaker 1 (00:00):
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Speaker 2 (00:31):
I'm back.
I really probably should stopdoing this.
I definitely need to startposting more consistently, but
that's another note.
Hello everyone, welcome toanother episode of Standing In
your Truth Podcast.
I am your host, yanni Jones.
Welcome.
How have you guys been?
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I really think the last time Irecorded a podcast episode was
the beginning of this year, eeks.
So I just think it's time for agood old life update and to
bring you guys up to kind ofwhat I've currently been doing
and all that good stuff.
For those who don't follow me onsocial media, if you're on
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social media, then you kind ofknow what's going on.
But so I am back in school,which is very exciting for me.
I am back in school, which isvery exciting for me.
I think this time around looksdifferent.
I know it sounds crazy, becauseI've been to plenty of online
schools, but this one isdifferent just because I am an
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online student, but at a localcampus.
So I'm a student at OdessaCommunity College.
I was happy to be able toreceive the Presidential
Positive VOC Scholarship.
So what that means is, for twoyears for me, school is paid for
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, which is very exciting.
But what's more exciting iswhat this program requirements
are, which sounds crazy, but therequirements are 16 hours of
community service.
We have to post positive thingsonline on Twitter and we also
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have to keep a certain GPA,attend monthly meetings.
And while these requirementsfor some people they may be like
what the heck, I honestly thinkthese requirements is what my
life actually needs.
What I mean by that is, if youknow me, you know that I love
volunteering.
Like volunteering just is likea cup of coffee for me.
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It fills me up to keep going.
So you know, that's one thingthat I just love doing and the
not this last Monday, but thelast time we had a Monday
meeting I had.
I was having a very rough day,like it was giving Monday vibes
for sure.
Um, so to be able to walk in ameeting and the whole meeting is
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about, um, positivity and howto show it, how can we spread it
, um and it.
It just gave me that jump, butit kind of I don't if anyone
walked out of that meetingfeeling the same.
I don't know how, or maybe itwas just me and I needed the
meeting, but that's nice.
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And then obviously I mean youwant, everyone wants to have A's
and B's and to keep theirgrades up, so that's been nice.
You get to also meet somereally amazing individuals that
are doing amazing things in thecommunity, and I think to be a
part of this, you also have tohave a like mind as far as
wanting to spread positivity.
So that's nice as well.
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So school's going great.
I started technically in thesummer, so I'm in my first fall
at OC and I'm enjoying it beinga non-traditional online student
.
And then also, so like lastweek, I had my family came down
from California, so I had mybrother, my sister-in-law, my
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nephew that I hadn't had achance to meet.
He was, I think, like 17 monthsat the time.
He was 18 months now but, um,he came down, got to meet him
for the first time, my sister,my mom, so, um, it's been a long
time.
I actually a really long time.
I don't think we've ever reallyall been together at least not
for long, because they were outhere for a week For us to be
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able to host them here at thehouse and spend some time, a
love on them and then show themall the amazing things that
Odessa has to offer.
It was quite lovely.
I was able to see how I havegrown, I think for sure, with
counseling and just workingthrough some things, it just
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made this experience with themjust so much lighter and easier,
since I'm in a healthier placementally, um, so that was nice,
um.
And then also, I don't know ifI mentioned before when I was on
here, which I probably shouldhave, because I think at that
time I was definitely alreadysigned up, but I am a part of
the big brothers, big sistersprogram, so I have a little
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which is so much fun.
I don't know I they do a greatjob of telling you what the
program is, for sure, but, um,45 minutes a day, I mean, for,
yeah, 45 minutes a week.
I'm trying out a day a week thatI get to spend with her um, and
I kind of get to choose for themost part what we do.
I get, I think, about whatshe's interested in for sure,
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but I get to pour into her.
So we've made a positiveaffirmation jars, um, bracelets,
just had conversation, we'vedone homework together, um, and
I realized for me the reason whyI really enjoy it so much is it
gives me a chance to um, Idon't want to say step out of
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reality, but I just, you know,obviously put my phone up and
I'm just focused on her for that45 minutes to an hour and she
gets all my attention and Ithink that is just I don't know
it's.
It's nice, like a breath offresh air.
Then I also go see her at theum boys and girls club, the
woodson on the south side ofodessa.
So also while I'm pouring intoher I get to meet all these
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other amazing kids, um, and getto love on them as well.
So it's just really nice.
If you're interested in becominga big, I highly suggest you get
plugged in to your localchapter.
It's definitely worth it.
They have more than one option.
If you don't have theopportunity to go see them
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during the week, you can go onthe weekend and have a community
one as well, which is reallycool, um, but just to be able to
swing over there after work hasbeen nice, um.
I've also been doing a lot ofcommunity service projects with
between hope alive church andleading outreach there.
We've given backpacks to mchoutreach foundation.
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Um.
They have a grandparentsprogram which I thought was
really really cute and cool.
They support grandparents thatare taking care of their
grandkids and we all know mosttimes grandparents are on fixed
income.
Sometimes their health isn'tthe best.
So as a church we wanted tocome in and support those
grandparents.
So we provided the kids thatare signed up I think it was
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like 45 kids, 12 families orsomething like that um, we
provided them with schoolsupplies, so that was one less
need that the grandparent had toworry about.
Maybe next year we'll be ableto do school supplies and
clothes, because I know theclothes is a tough one too.
So, but but doing that, um, andit's been nice.
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And then I think also what I'mrealizing is I know it sounds
crazy, but I can't help everyone, even though I do have a
servant's heart and I feel likeI can.
I can't, um, and I have to stepback and be very intentional
about where I'm giving my time,to make sure that I am giving
the best of me when I'm givingmy time and not giving an
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organization no leftovers or thetired version of yawning,
because that's just not fair toanyone.
So I'm just realizing that youhave to take some steps back for
some organizations and somethings.
And my plate is definitely notas full at all and I love it, I
wouldn't change it.
I am wholeheartedly enjoyinglife and I don't think I've felt
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this light and full of joy in along time.
I would definitely say probablythe last six months to a year,
fighting my voice, fighting whento use my voice, really honing
in on what I actually like, whatI want to do.
My goal is to open a communitycenter.
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I don't know why, but that,right there, that that is me
Like.
I want to be able to providethe community that I'm a part of
with different classes, lifeskill classes, first time
homebuyers classes, fix yourcredit class, maybe English to
Spanish, spanish to English,sign language.
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Those are just some examples ofthings that I would like to be
able to provide.
So that's something that's inmy head and I have to just
figure out how to get it onpaper for sure.
But other than that, I havejust been enjoying life.
You know, I went throughpremarital counseling with Aaron
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.
I highly suggest, by the way,if you are thinking about
getting serious with someone, todefinitely do it.
I jumped around, which isprobably not really funny, but
whatever, if I would have hadthis type of counseling when I
got married the first time, Iprobably wouldn't have got
married.
That's just the honest truth,because you were able to touch
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on those hard subjects.
You know the in-laws.
How do you want to raise kids?
If you want kids money to death, do you part?
Those are just some of thetopics that we discussed and I
didn't get that conversation thefirst time so I wasn't able to
make sure that for the most part.
You know that we're aligned andyou know the communication is
there where this go around.
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We've always had um open andhonest conversation, so it just
made it so much easier.
But with that counseling also,um, I had to realize that for
the most part I was not in safeplaces to be able to share my
feelings.
So you know, my feelings for mefor the most part were like sad
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, mad, angry.
Well, there's more feelingsthan that.
So we went through counselingat Hope Alive Church.
So we had Pastor Martha was ourcounselor and she, you know,
gave me a feelings chart and Iwas like whoa and I remember I
don't even remember the questionshe asked me but she was like
how, how were you feeling inthat moment?
And I wasn't able to express it, mainly because you know, I
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knew the basic three feelingsand when she gave me that chart
I was like wow, like you havebeen suppressing your feelings
and trying to fit in theselittle boxes, when there's just
more than that.
So you know, with conversationslike that, you know you begin
to or continue to heal, andobviously me, healing not only
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helps me but it also helps myrelationship.
I have no clue where that soundcame from, by the way, that is
funny.
But, um, it's been nice, likeliterally, I'm just, I'm
grateful, I'm thankful, um, fullof joy.
I guess she.
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No, I guess I shouldn't say Iguess you can say, because you
can definitely say it, I amwholeheartedly in love and just
enjoying life.
Um, I no longer put myself inplaces and spaces where I don't
feel safe and, whether that bephysically or emotionally, I'm
like it's not worth it, it's notworth my peace, um, it's not
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worth me being uncomfortable.
My health and mental health, um, come first.
I guess you can say I've, I'mfinding my why and my reason for
living and I'm enjoying it.
And I would definitelydefinitely suggest that, if you
have not found yours, to digdeep and find it.
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And life does not have to behard.
Yes, there's hard moments, butlife just every single day keeps
going.
It doesn't have to be thatSomething has to change
Something I would say thatyou're doing needs to change, I
think, for me.
I thought I could help everyoneand do everything, so I was
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stretched, overstretched, um,honestly, I think I had reached
burnout and I had to tap in andrealize, hey, what am I doing?
Some of these spaces that I'mwalking into and they're causing
me all this discomfort and it'sjust not a healthy space for me
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and I'm like, why am I there?
And I also had to realize thatI didn't pray for some of this
stuff before I just jumped intoit.
I just jumped into it because Ithought it sounded good and I
was doing some good.
Little do I know, just becauseit sounds good and I'm doing
some good, it's not me and itcame from God.
So I had to take some stepsback and be like, okay, lord,
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help me fix what I just did,because I don't think any of
this is where I and space to bepresent and to hear him and um
realize that, no, that's whyyou're getting burned out, cause
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you ain't supposed to be doingall that.
So that's just, um, my take onthat.
I don't think I really have toomuch else going on, honestly,
just enjoying life, um.
So, yeah, I, I'm gonna pray forus, heavenly father.
Thank you, lord, for allowingus to see another day.
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Lord, I just pray for thelistener that's listening to
this um, that they they don'thave a relationship with you,
lord, that they will get one.
Um, that's something that Isaid on this podcast will plant
a seed and that someone willcome along and just water it.
Father, for those who do knowyou, lord, it's probably just
continuing to look to you toguide them through life, um, and
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allow them to be filled withjoy.
I feel like joy is somethingdifferent from happiness.
Joys cannot be taken away.
With the good and the bad, youstill have joy.
There's always, um, insituations that may be tough,
there's always something therethat is a positive moment or a
positive thing, lord.
So I just say thank you.
Thank you again, god, and welove you In Jesus' name.
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I pray Amen.
Bye, guys, have a great day.
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