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Speaker 1 (00:00):
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Truth podcast with your host,yanni.
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Speaker 2 (00:35):
Hello everyone,
welcome to season three of
Standing in your Truth podcast.
I am your host, yanni.
I had an energy drink fromscooters, so that's why you got
the little extra personality onthe intro.
But how are you guys doing?
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It's been a minute I don'tthink I recorded since, like
February, took a little breakand then life happened.
I don't even think I honestlymeant to take a break.
I just felt like life startedto happen, um, and I think I
felt like I went through somegrowing pains.
Um, I feel like I've beenstretched a little bit, um, even
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sifted a little bit.
I've had to realize that somethings for me had come to an end
, like it was time to endcertain errors, even though it's
like I just got started, butall is well.
But I think I'm definitelygoing to title this episode
Growing Pains, because I don'tthink the idea of growing, when
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you think about it, sounds great, because that means you're're
learning something new.
You've learned something.
You can maybe close a chapter,but it's that work that's put in
to learn something new, toclose the chapter that I think
I've been going through for thelast couple of months.
So let's just get started.
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First thing I want to say is ifyou guys haven't watched SWAT I
know this sounds crazy, but ifyou haven't watched SWAT, I
highly suggest you watch it.
So that's been one of the showsthese last couple of months
that I've been binge watching.
And to where I'm out there infloating clothes, washing dishes
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are just stuck on the couchbecause I feel like I've had a
lot of mental health days hererecently.
But anyway, I've been watchingSWAT and I could just say God's
in the details, because youdon't realize how he can use
literally anything if your earis tuned to him, to talk to you
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and to make you realize things.
And one of the things for SWATthat kept hitting home for me
was the idea of I want healthyrelationships.
If you watch SWAT, they alwaystalk about how their family and
they tell their secrets.
They're deep in I want to saydeep and dark, but like deep
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thoughts um to each other.
And as I was watching it I waslike I want someone to have my
back, like I want a hondo.
You got to watch the show toknow who that is, but he's one
of the main captains but youwant someone like in your life
that can like that.
And don't get me wrong.
Like you know, I have aboyfriend.
I have Aaron.
That's great and I know forsure he's in my corner.
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But I feel like a lot of times Ican say, especially for myself,
you know, I say I had friendsand I had to realize those
friends really weren't friends.
You know I've talked aboutfriends before on this podcast,
but I just want to justreiterate, like how important it
is to have a healthy teamaround you, team that can check
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you, push you to grow, tell youyou're doing something wrong,
but at the same time, a teamthat you can open up to and say
like, hey, I'm having a bad dayor hey, these are my inner
thoughts, without any judgmentor without worrying about the
idea of it one day coming backthat you had these thoughts.
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Like, no one wants to live thatlife.
Um, no one wants to have toworry about, you know, the
person that you opened up to tojust kind of, you know, go back
and use that against you.
So that was one thing for me.
That was a big deal and overthe last couple of months I've
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dropped some more people.
But I've had to also realizethat I'm a very like.
Once I meet you in my head.
You're my friend.
The idea sounds really good.
As a grown adult, I reallyshould know better, because
adults be tripping and they alljust about most times I
shouldn't say all a good amountof them have alternative motives
, like they're trying to use mefor something or yeah well
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trying to use me for something,whether I realize it or not.
Like they're coming to me forsomething.
Are they going to be somethingbig or do they mean to use me?
Maybe not, but it is what it is.
So I have to realize that somepeople are your friends, some
people are your associates andsome people just are really nice
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and it's cool to talk to themand hang out with them.
But you know, that's that.
Some people just are reallynice and it's cool to talk to
them and hang out with them.
But you know that's that.
And it's crazy to say that, like33, turning 34 this year, that
I really had to like step backand relearn that lesson.
And then the importance of likeguarding your heart.
God gave me this heart for areason.
He definitely gave me one forthe community to have the desire
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and the want and the passionand the drive to want to help
this community.
But I have to guard it becauseif I don't guard it, it gets to
the point where I feel like hererecently I got tired, but I
think I got tired because I wasgetting used.
And I feel like I was gettingused because I wasn't guarding
it and I was giving everyone,like all the help.
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If you called me, I would, youknow, definitely help you, and
don't get me wrong, I definitelywill now to a certain degree.
Um, but I have boundaries.
So depending upon I can talk,depending upon what you're, you
know, asking me for, it may bejust me giving you a phone
number versus me doing the legwork.
It's something that you know Ihad to learn.
But go watch SWAT and once youwatch it, just let me know what
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you get out of it.
Maybe the Lord will show yousomething different than what
he's told me.
I took some time also off ofsocial media again to digest
that as well.
If you haven't had a socialmedia fast and you're feeling a
little drained, take a second tostep off of it.
And then also, something Ididn't think would bring me so
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much joy the people who don'tline up with your path in life.
Maybe they once did unfollowthose people.
Remove them off of your socialmedia.
There's no reason why, you know,if you're not in the partying
vibe or the partying lifeanymore, or maybe you're just
not friends with someone anymore, I mean, unless I mean mentally
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.
If it's, if you're okay withstill looking at it, then
obviously you can keep it.
But if you feel some type ofway when you look at these
people, like you keep scrollingthrough it really fast, just
don't follow them people.
There's no reason why yourtimeline should be full of
people you don't like, or theydon't like you, or it doesn't
bring you joy or peace.
Bye.
I didn't realize that was somuch pleasure in that, but that
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was nice too.
I've also started school again.
If you've been on this podcastjourney you know your girl has
started, stopped, started,stopped.
A lot of my family doesn't evenknow that I started school and
I don't think that's even onpurpose.
I think I just started it and,like Aaron knows, and a couple
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of my friends know, but I don'tknow, sometimes I think doing
things and just doing them andnot telling everyone, there's
some peace in that.
So, but I am going to OdessaCollege.
They have a four-year degree inleadership and entrepreneurship
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, which is fun.
This is my first week of classand I'm doing human relations,
which is very ironic because Ifeel like that has been my
struggle for the last man, likecouple of months.
I'll tell you the Lord manwhenever you think he's not
listening or he's not near, ifyour ear is tuned you'll realize
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that he's right there.
He ain't left you.
He may look a little differentor how he's talking to you may
look a little different thisseason, but he hasn't left you,
he's still there.
So anyway, in the first week ofthis class it doesn't seem too
crazy.
It's a five-week class.
So there's, you know, nothingreally going on there.
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And then let me see what elseis new with me.
I think I've slightly taken astep back in the community.
Nothing crazy, I'm stillinvolved, but just removed
myself out of some unhealthyenvironments for me.
I think as an adult.
You kind of have to realize,not even as an adult, just a
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person in general.
If you're a teenage listeningto this, if you walk into a room
, especially when you're notgetting paid and you're
volunteering, and it's just likeeither you leave feeling
drained or your stomach feels acertain way or it's just doing
too much to your mental health,it is okay to remove yourself.
I know for me.
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At first I didn't want to justbecause of my.
I feel like the flesh, the ego.
No one really wants to.
If you get to a certain pointyou're like okay, I'm on the
board, no one wants to.
Well, at least I didn't.
Anyway, I was like I don't wantto step down from that.
That was kind of like anaccomplishment.
I was like I'm going to seethis through.
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Then I had to check the fleshand the ego and I was like I'm
going to see this through.
Then I had to check the fleshand the ego and I was like sis,
you're dying over here Now, whyare you staying here again?
And then I was like well, youknow, this position allows me to
help the community.
Then I feel like the HolySpirit was like again, girl, you
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have, this is not the only waythat you can help the community.
And I think once I have kind ofhad those two I guess you can
say realizing those two things Iwas like wait, what am I doing?
No, I don't have to do this, Idon't have to be here and I, you
know, remove myself from someof that which, removing yourself
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from a toxic environment, youdon't realize.
I think a lot of times youdon't realize how toxic it is
and how much it weighs on yourbody and your health, and you
just feel really greatafterwards and you're like I
should have done this a longtime ago.
So that's that, um, I just wantto remind everyone that it's
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okay for not everyone to likeyou.
Like I saw a quote on Instagramand you know what?
Actually, I'm changing thetitle of this podcast episode.
It is no longer going to begrowing pains, it's going to be
um, I know I'm not everyone'scup of tea, because I'm
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champagne.
That was a good one.
I know, like we have to be okaywith not everyone liking us and
I think that takes a journey,because I think you kind of have
to process you and you have toknow and fall in love with
yourself and realize that no, Imay not be perfect Yannianni's
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not perfect.
I know I will never be perfect,but I love me and I accept me
and I know that there is somedays that I do some stuff and
I'm like sis, the more hours youwake up, at the end of the day
you gotta do that better.
But at the end of the day, I'mme and I'm 100% me and I'm
genuinely me and that's that.
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And I know that not everyonewalking around here, as much as
they think they can standflat-footed and say that they
cannot.
So once again, I'm going torepeat it I am not everyone's
cup of tea, because I amchampagne, bow, bow, bow.
If I had like like the soundeffects, I would do like that
Pew, pew, pew, pew, pew, pew.
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But you're going to get thatversion of that.
But that's pretty much my lifeupdate.
Honestly, I'm just living lifein school.
Living life in school in ahealthy relationship, have
healthy relationship with myfriends, diving deeper in my
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relationship with the Lord.
And it's so crazy how, for thelongest, I just thought the
religion part of it was a bigdeal.
Like you know, you go to churchon Sunday, you go to church on
Wednesday, um, you have to openyour bible, like some of those
things.
Like I feel like I feel likethat's kind of like their
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religion.
But the relationship is like,um, taking those moments, um and
praying, finding those praiseand worship songs that the
second you click on the TV, it'scrazy how the song that comes
on is like meant for you andbeing in that moment and not
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just praying, but like reallytalking to God and confessing
like where you are and what youneed and how much you love him
and how much he means.
That to me is the relationship.
So, but yeah, that's prettymuch where I'm at.
I feel like this is more of arant than a podcast, but
whatever, I'm definitely goingto put it out.
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It goes back to that whole.
I'm just going to do me.
But if no one's told you guystoday, you're loved, I love you.
No one's perfect.
I don't care what Instagram orFacebook or whatever tries to
put out.
No one's perfect.
Everyone is struggling withsomething.
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You just have to realize thatand don't expect yourself from
everyone else either.
That's what I'm most glad torealize.
God made one of me and noteveryone's built the same, which
is fine, which is why I had torealize there's only one of me.
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Once I realized that, I wasfine.
That's that I am going to prayus out.
Heavenly fathers want to juststart by just saying thank you,
lord.
Thank you for allowing us tosee another day, lord, not only
just see it, father.
I pray that those are listening, or listening with the clear,
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sound mind, lord, in a healthybody, father, or listening with
the clear, sound mind, lord, anda healthy body, father.
I just pray, father, that as wego about our day, lord, that
you will just allow us to havean appetite for you, father, to
want you, to want more of you,lord, and for each person
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listening, lord, I pray theyjust dig into that and realize
what that appetite means forthem.
Lord, and how they can feedthat appetite, lord, whether
that be praise and worship,music, lord, getting into your
word, whatever it looks like forthem.
Lord, only you know.
And them, father, I just prayfor those that are struggling,
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lord, that may be contemplatingsuicide, struggling with mental
health.
Lord, just pray that you justrealize, help them realize, lord
, that they are yours, that youlove them, that you have not
forgotten them, that they matter, that they're one of a kind,
that you allow them to wake upand see this day.
Lord, for a reason there'ssomeone out there that needs to
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hear their story.
Lord, I just say thank you,lord, thank you for allowing me
to have this platform and tohave listeners and to have
people that Lord want to get toknow you more.
Father, I just pray for them inthat journey.
Lord, in Jesus' name, I prayAmen.
But I just pray for them inthat journey, lord, in Jesus'
name, I pray Amen.
Hey, season three, we back All Igot to say.
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But anyway, thank you guys forlistening.
I love you and have a beautifulday.
Bye, wait, before I go, I haveone thing to share.
I just literally I have thisspiritual inspiration on my
facebook account and thescripture popped up and I just
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was like I have to share this.
I don't know why, every time Igo to record, my voice decides
it wants to give out w and I'llhave my voice.
I will get this verse out, forhe will order his angels to
protect you wherever you go.
Psalms 91 11.
Angels are assigned to you,miracles are coming your way,
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healing will be released.
Something good is about tohappen to you.
On that note, I say goodbye andI love you.
And guess what?
So does Jesus.
Speaker 1 (18:05):
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