June 16, 2025 • 11 mins
I share my journey of soul-searching while balancing a fulfilling new job with podcast hosting and family responsibilities. After years of using the podcast as a lifeline during professional unhappiness, I now face the challenge of dividing my passion between multiple loves in my life.
• Used the glass ball/rubber ball method to identify priorities during a busy April work period
• Cleared my calendar of podcast commitments to maintain sanity—something I never would have done before
• Prepared my family for the difficult month ahead by communicating openly
• Considered ending the podcast but realized it would leave a "gaping hole" in my life
• Announcing a modified summer series with minisodes while taking my first big family vacation
• Fall lineup is already forming, with guest opportunities still available
• Committed to being part of the small percentage of women who maintain podcasts
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Hey everybody, this is Steel Roses podcast.
This podcast was created forwomen, by women, to elevate
women's voices.
You have just Jenny here withyou today.
Last weekend we closed thewinter spring series for season
three for the podcast and it wasa very interesting series for
(00:23):
me.
The guests were phenomenal, butbehind the scenes, outside of
the recordings and the episodesthat were airing live, I did a
lot of soul searching and I'vedone all quite a bit, and that
sounds so cheesy to say that outloud, but I've been on quite
(00:43):
the journey of self-discovery.
So, for everyone who's beenfollowing along, earlier in the
year I had started to do um,mini soads, because I do enjoy
connecting with you all very,very much, um, and I like to add
the mini soads in there so thatI can share some real world
perspective of, you know, beinga mom, being a woman, et cetera,
et cetera.
You know that, you know thedrill and and I, in April, I
(01:10):
knew that I was going to getbusy.
So I knew I was going to getbusy for work, and so I I went
ahead and I used the glass ball,rubber ball method that I
always talk to you guys about.
So I identified, you know, whatdo I absolutely need to do in
the month of April that I canhandle with my current workload?
Now I started a new job in 2025in January, very, very blessed
(01:36):
and happy with what I'm doing,but I'm very busy and I struggle
a bit because I'm so happy withwhat I'm doing.
Now it's difficult for mebecause I have a hard time not
throwing myself 150% intosomething that I'm really
enjoying.
So, for example and I'll walkyou guys through this Past two
(02:02):
years, I was throwing myself inpretty much 95% to the podcast.
Um, I still had a daytime job,but I wasn't happy, and so the
podcast saved me and it gave mea reason every day and it
actually kept me.
It kept me from really gettingdepressed and anxious a lot
(02:24):
faster than than than I did endup.
So the podcast and you alllistening really saved me.
Um, so flash forward and I geta new job, because you can only
sustain yourself at a role whereyou're unhappy for so long.
You know that's, that's notsustainable.
So I get a new job and I loveit.
(02:46):
I love the people.
The work is.
You know the work is typical.
You know it's nothing I'm notused to, but the people really
make a difference where I am nowand my boss makes a tremendous
difference where I am.
It's amazing how one person canso completely impact you when
you're at work.
(03:06):
I mean, we work, you know, 40plus hours a week.
We spend more, unfortunately,we spend more hours working than
we do anything else.
Um, and so it does have atremendous impact on you when
you're unhappy at work, and sonow I am, I'm incredibly happy
and appreciative.
Now, the double edged sword hereis that, because I'm so happy
(03:28):
at work and because I love Ilove the team and I love what
I'm doing so much, the balanceis having.
I'm having a really hard timebalancing this.
I have not, I've never been thetype of person that could to
evenly spread myself.
I'm either all in or not, and,as I'm talking this out loud to
(03:49):
you, I feel like I'm working itout a bit myself.
So January, I started my newjob.
February, you know things aremoving, I'm going in good pace
and everything.
March comes and I start to seethe writing on the wall that
April is going to be hot, likeit's just going to be a hot
month, and I start to see thewriting on the wall that April
is going to be hot Like it'sjust going to be a hot month.
So I made the decision to.
(04:09):
I moved all my podcastappointments out of April.
I canceled every extra activitythat I had on calendar.
I just made space.
Now, I made space to save mysanity because I knew I couldn't
try to do it all.
Now I'm going to take a minuteand give myself props because,
to be perfectly honest with you,that is not something I would
have ever done before.
Prior Jenny would have tried todo everything and I would have
(04:33):
been like, oh, I can handle itall while I was falling apart.
I didn't do that this time.
I chose not to do that thistime and I chose to do this
other path and make sure that Icould just prioritize what I
could.
I gave my whole family a headsup.
I told my husband and my kidsthis month is going to be really
tough on all of us.
Just get ready, okay, guys.
And I just kept preppingeverybody up for it.
I just kept saying, like thisis really hard on mommy.
(04:54):
I'm not happy with this either,but got to do it.
I'm, you know, dedicated.
I have to get this done.
We survived because we always do, work is not going to kill you.
Well, my work is not going tokill me and we got through it
(05:16):
and it was.
It was hard, it was brutal, butwe got through it as a family
and I was just very busy thewhole time.
And so after April, you know,may kind of just slid into place
and you know I'm still a littlebusy, but things are flowing.
But the problem that I'mencountering is that, again,
because I love what I'm doing somuch and I'm so happy, it's
making me deprioritize and Ihate to say this out loud
(05:37):
because it pains me, but it'smaking me deprioritize my
podcast work.
I get to the weekends, sousually I do work on the
weekends and I'll try to do somein between in the work, in the
work week or whatever.
But because I want to make sureI'm prioritizing my family and
kids at night, monday throughFriday, and because they have so
(05:57):
many activities, um, I couldn'tdo stuff during the week, you
know.
So that was getting a littlehairy for me.
And it just become a strugglebecause any free moment that I
had I wanted to spend time withmy family and this is probably
why majority podcasters are notwomen, because we do get spread
so thin, and then we have to,we're forced to prioritize, and
(06:31):
something that we love falls tothe back burner.
You know it's interestingbecause I've been struggling
with this for months now at thispoint, so much so that, well,
(06:53):
you can hear it in my voice youalready know what's happening on
this side, but I've beenstruggling so much with this
that I even considered justending with this series and
doing a farewell.
And now, as I sit here and Isay it out loud because I
(07:14):
haven't said it to anybody outloud, you guys are the first to
hear this.
I know that that's not okay,because I can actually feel my
throat chakra tightening up as Isay it, and I can feel my
(07:35):
myself tightening up, feelingthis massive release of.
I've been holding onto, thisscared feeling of I'm going to
lose something that I'm, that Ilove, and so, now that I've said
it out loud, I know for surethat that's not what I want, and
(07:58):
so what I'm working through isfinding a way to move forward
with my podcast and to continueon this path and this journey
with all of you, whilemaintaining, you know, my job
and my family and everythingelse, and I will find a way.
I always do.
But again, it's that practiceof balancing what you love
(08:21):
across multiple things.
I've never been good at that,so I guess this is my first time
giving it a real solid shot,balancing a couple of things
that I love at the same time.
So we'll see how that works out.
But I wanted to share all thatwith you because I think that
you know, a lot of times we doget caught up in our own heads,
and you've heard me do it livehere with you.
(08:42):
Um, I start crying while I'mrecording because I'm letting
something out that's been stuckinside.
I'm I'm beyond words at thispoint because which you all know
is difficult for me to say,because I usually always have
the words but I'm beyond wordsat this point because I'm so
grateful to be able to have thisplatform to to even think about
(09:07):
not having it next month, oreven to stop.
It feels like there would.
It would leave a gaping hole,and so I say it here and now I'm
going to do my best to try andmake it work, because this is
something that I love and it'ssomething that I enjoy, and
(09:27):
whether that means I, you know,shorten the amount of episodes,
whatever.
Whatever the case may be, Iwill figure out a way.
I will find a path.
Now, with that, we're starting.
I am starting the summer serieswith this episode.
We're starting.
I am starting the summer serieswith this episode.
So you are going to have a bitof a break for me while I am on
(09:48):
my first ever big familyvacation with my husband and
kids and stepkids and grandkidsand everybody.
So there will be a little bitof a pause.
There will be no guest episodescoming out this summer, just
little quick snippets,one-on-one minisodes with me, if
you will, and I'm just lookingforward to just getting back in
the groove of just podcastingand putting ideas out there and
(10:09):
putting thoughts out there withyou guys and having you all, you
know, come to me with thoughtsand ideas and your own voices.
If you are interested in being apart of the podcast, if you're
interested in being a guest, thefall lineup is actually already
falling into place prettyaggressively.
Um, there's several hundredemails that need to be addressed
(10:31):
.
So if you're one of the peoplethat has emailed me and said you
want to be part of the podcast,I apologize, I haven't gotten
back to you.
I'm working on it.
I'm doing my best.
Um, feel free to shoot me anemail steelrosespodcast at
gmailcom and I think there mightbe some contact information in
the description of this episodeas well.
But please reach out, I'm goingto stay with you.
(10:52):
I'm sticking with you.
Guys, I love doing this, I lovehaving this platform and I want
to be that small percentage ofwomen that continues to maintain
a podcast and that continues tospread good, positive messaging
and really making us thinkbefore we judge and really
making sure that we have a safespace to come to when we just
(11:13):
need to hear something.
So I greatly appreciate all ofyou.
I appreciate you being herewith me in spirit, even though
it sounds a little nuts.
You're all over the world, butI am so grateful for you.
I appreciate you being herewith me in spirit, even though
it sounds a little nuts.
You're all over the world, butI am so grateful for you.
So until next time.
Thank you so much for hangingout with me.
Take care.
Hey everybody, this is Steel Roses podcast.
This podcast was created forwomen, by women, to elevate
women's voices.
You have just Jenny here withyou today.
Last weekend we closed thewinter spring series for season
three for the podcast and it wasa very interesting series for
(00:23):
me.
The guests were phenomenal, butbehind the scenes, outside of
the recordings and the episodesthat were airing live, I did a
lot of soul searching and I'vedone all quite a bit, and that
sounds so cheesy to say that outloud, but I've been on quite
(00:43):
the journey of self-discovery.
So, for everyone who's beenfollowing along, earlier in the
year I had started to do um,mini soads, because I do enjoy
connecting with you all very,very much, um, and I like to add
the mini soads in there so thatI can share some real world
perspective of, you know, beinga mom, being a woman, et cetera,
et cetera.
You know that, you know thedrill and and I, in April, I
(01:10):
knew that I was going to getbusy.
So I knew I was going to getbusy for work, and so I I went
ahead and I used the glass ball,rubber ball method that I
always talk to you guys about.
So I identified, you know, whatdo I absolutely need to do in
the month of April that I canhandle with my current workload?
Now I started a new job in 2025in January, very, very blessed
(01:36):
and happy with what I'm doing,but I'm very busy and I struggle
a bit because I'm so happy withwhat I'm doing.
Now it's difficult for mebecause I have a hard time not
throwing myself 150% intosomething that I'm really
enjoying.
So, for example and I'll walkyou guys through this Past two
(02:02):
years, I was throwing myself inpretty much 95% to the podcast.
Um, I still had a daytime job,but I wasn't happy, and so the
podcast saved me and it gave mea reason every day and it
actually kept me.
It kept me from really gettingdepressed and anxious a lot
(02:24):
faster than than than I did endup.
So the podcast and you alllistening really saved me.
Um, so flash forward and I geta new job, because you can only
sustain yourself at a role whereyou're unhappy for so long.
You know that's, that's notsustainable.
So I get a new job and I loveit.
(02:46):
I love the people.
The work is.
You know the work is typical.
You know it's nothing I'm notused to, but the people really
make a difference where I am nowand my boss makes a tremendous
difference where I am.
It's amazing how one person canso completely impact you when
you're at work.
(03:06):
I mean, we work, you know, 40plus hours a week.
We spend more, unfortunately,we spend more hours working than
we do anything else.
Um, and so it does have atremendous impact on you when
you're unhappy at work, and sonow I am, I'm incredibly happy
and appreciative.
Now, the double edged sword hereis that, because I'm so happy
(03:28):
at work and because I love Ilove the team and I love what
I'm doing so much, the balanceis having.
I'm having a really hard timebalancing this.
I have not, I've never been thetype of person that could to
evenly spread myself.
I'm either all in or not, and,as I'm talking this out loud to
(03:49):
you, I feel like I'm working itout a bit myself.
So January, I started my newjob.
February, you know things aremoving, I'm going in good pace
and everything.
March comes and I start to seethe writing on the wall that
April is going to be hot, likeit's just going to be a hot
month, and I start to see thewriting on the wall that April
is going to be hot Like it'sjust going to be a hot month.
So I made the decision to.
(04:09):
I moved all my podcastappointments out of April.
I canceled every extra activitythat I had on calendar.
I just made space.
Now, I made space to save mysanity because I knew I couldn't
try to do it all.
Now I'm going to take a minuteand give myself props because,
to be perfectly honest with you,that is not something I would
have ever done before.
Prior Jenny would have tried todo everything and I would have
(04:33):
been like, oh, I can handle itall while I was falling apart.
I didn't do that this time.
I chose not to do that thistime and I chose to do this
other path and make sure that Icould just prioritize what I
could.
I gave my whole family a headsup.
I told my husband and my kidsthis month is going to be really
tough on all of us.
Just get ready, okay, guys.
And I just kept preppingeverybody up for it.
I just kept saying, like thisis really hard on mommy.
(04:54):
I'm not happy with this either,but got to do it.
I'm, you know, dedicated.
I have to get this done.
We survived because we always do, work is not going to kill you.
Well, my work is not going tokill me and we got through it
(05:16):
and it was.
It was hard, it was brutal, butwe got through it as a family
and I was just very busy thewhole time.
And so after April, you know,may kind of just slid into place
and you know I'm still a littlebusy, but things are flowing.
But the problem that I'mencountering is that, again,
because I love what I'm doing somuch and I'm so happy, it's
making me deprioritize and Ihate to say this out loud
(05:37):
because it pains me, but it'smaking me deprioritize my
podcast work.
I get to the weekends, sousually I do work on the
weekends and I'll try to do somein between in the work, in the
work week or whatever.
But because I want to make sureI'm prioritizing my family and
kids at night, monday throughFriday, and because they have so
(05:57):
many activities, um, I couldn'tdo stuff during the week, you
know.
So that was getting a littlehairy for me.
And it just become a strugglebecause any free moment that I
had I wanted to spend time withmy family and this is probably
why majority podcasters are notwomen, because we do get spread
so thin, and then we have to,we're forced to prioritize, and
(06:31):
something that we love falls tothe back burner.
You know it's interestingbecause I've been struggling
with this for months now at thispoint, so much so that, well,
(06:53):
you can hear it in my voice youalready know what's happening on
this side, but I've beenstruggling so much with this
that I even considered justending with this series and
doing a farewell.
And now, as I sit here and Isay it out loud because I
(07:14):
haven't said it to anybody outloud, you guys are the first to
hear this.
I know that that's not okay,because I can actually feel my
throat chakra tightening up as Isay it, and I can feel my
(07:35):
myself tightening up, feelingthis massive release of.
I've been holding onto, thisscared feeling of I'm going to
lose something that I'm, that Ilove, and so, now that I've said
it out loud, I know for surethat that's not what I want, and
(07:58):
so what I'm working through isfinding a way to move forward
with my podcast and to continueon this path and this journey
with all of you, whilemaintaining, you know, my job
and my family and everythingelse, and I will find a way.
I always do.
But again, it's that practiceof balancing what you love
(08:21):
across multiple things.
I've never been good at that,so I guess this is my first time
giving it a real solid shot,balancing a couple of things
that I love at the same time.
So we'll see how that works out.
But I wanted to share all thatwith you because I think that
you know, a lot of times we doget caught up in our own heads,
and you've heard me do it livehere with you.
(08:42):
Um, I start crying while I'mrecording because I'm letting
something out that's been stuckinside.
I'm I'm beyond words at thispoint because which you all know
is difficult for me to say,because I usually always have
the words but I'm beyond wordsat this point because I'm so
grateful to be able to have thisplatform to to even think about
(09:07):
not having it next month, oreven to stop.
It feels like there would.
It would leave a gaping hole,and so I say it here and now I'm
going to do my best to try andmake it work, because this is
something that I love and it'ssomething that I enjoy, and
(09:27):
whether that means I, you know,shorten the amount of episodes,
whatever.
Whatever the case may be, Iwill figure out a way.
I will find a path.
Now, with that, we're starting.
I am starting the summer serieswith this episode.
We're starting.
I am starting the summer serieswith this episode.
So you are going to have a bitof a break for me while I am on
(09:48):
my first ever big familyvacation with my husband and
kids and stepkids and grandkidsand everybody.
So there will be a little bitof a pause.
There will be no guest episodescoming out this summer, just
little quick snippets,one-on-one minisodes with me, if
you will, and I'm just lookingforward to just getting back in
the groove of just podcastingand putting ideas out there and
(10:09):
putting thoughts out there withyou guys and having you all, you
know, come to me with thoughtsand ideas and your own voices.
If you are interested in being apart of the podcast, if you're
interested in being a guest, thefall lineup is actually already
falling into place prettyaggressively.
Um, there's several hundredemails that need to be addressed
(10:31):
.
So if you're one of the peoplethat has emailed me and said you
want to be part of the podcast,I apologize, I haven't gotten
back to you.
I'm working on it.
I'm doing my best.
Um, feel free to shoot me anemail steelrosespodcast at
gmailcom and I think there mightbe some contact information in
the description of this episodeas well.
But please reach out, I'm goingto stay with you.
(10:52):
I'm sticking with you.
Guys, I love doing this, I lovehaving this platform and I want
to be that small percentage ofwomen that continues to maintain
a podcast and that continues tospread good, positive messaging
and really making us thinkbefore we judge and really
making sure that we have a safespace to come to when we just
(11:13):
need to hear something.
So I greatly appreciate all ofyou.
I appreciate you being herewith me in spirit, even though
it sounds a little nuts.
You're all over the world, butI am so grateful for you.
I appreciate you being herewith me in spirit, even though
it sounds a little nuts.
You're all over the world, butI am so grateful for you.
So until next time.
Thank you so much for hangingout with me.
Take care.
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