Sometimes You Need A Mental Break From The World With Kallie Freya

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Express that and explore that isbecause of how dangerous and how
like harmful homophobia is within male communities right.
Like if you go out and kiss a guy, you might get fucking
jumped right? Like if you kiss a guy on the
street. Now, this isn't to say it's.
Yeah, because I know it gave youGod tell people when you go to

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these conventions, it gives you confirmation of how far you have
grown in your career. And also, I'm pretty sure you
had a bunch of the top towns that you haven't shot with, say,
we've seen your video. Yes, yes, I've had people who
come up who can make money off of it.
But see, you think about these. OK, let's just keep it 1 honey,

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the girls nowadays don't give a fuck about the money they want
to go buy. Yeah, so so it's kind of like
the girl, a lot of the girl thatdon't show their face with the
feet. It ain't because they make more
money with the feet back to where you're not doing the
content housing, you're shootingcontent, but you're not shooting
with everybody got their Mama now just kind of the circled and

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closed up a little bit to make yourself.
No, you ain't got to show your tits today.
We going to bring you back for that, You know what I'm saying?
Which is a surprise because they're my biggest worry because

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I had a situation that happened with a lady.
Yeah. And I had to get a video and my
family were hitting me up. Was like, what?
You were mad about this, that the third and I was like it.
I'm the kind of person I like nipping shit in the bud before I
get started. But kind of females love the
talking this business. I mean, it's been this long
enough to know, you know, period.

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And the way she made it seem like making her show her tits
when I always explain to everybody you know, That's why I
try to switch it up with you lately.
Oh my tits. See, she was going to show her
tits, but because I need a episode for the smokers now, but

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do not worry, after this show isover, we're going to discuss
when we're going to bring you back sooner than later for the
premium smoking. So you could do that.
So yes. Yeah.
Because you get even as a broadcaster and I'm not even in
the same room with these women, I'm worried about coming off
thirsty. You know what, some people just

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like to say shit just to say shit, you know, and I don't
know, I feel like if you're in the industry and you don't want
to show yourself, that doesn't make sense, you know what I
mean? Like I think there's a certain,
you know, element of hedonism that kind of is involved in

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doing this type of, you know, career.
So it, it's interesting to me when people are like, what?
So I don't know. The same female show her tits on
her timeline every day. Yeah.
And she was like, I don't feel comfortable doing it for for for

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free. And when she say she didn't feel
comfortable doing it for free and she wasn't getting any
clientele from the podcast, I'm like so you expecting my my
podcast to be Backpage or something?
You know, that's another thing, like it'd be different if you
were asking and she just wasn't interested to begin with.

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But like if someone's yes and plans it, you know what I mean?
Like, I don't know, I just, I don't understand sometimes, but
everybody has their own situation.
I guess so. Not me, my thought process is
this and and and I'm saying a young might be controversial.
This. Don't bring your book shit to my
podcast. If your money ain't money,

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that's not my fault. Right.
Right, if your money, Boo Boo, ain't money, that ain't my
goddamn fault. No, I feel you.
I get, I get that. I really do.
Because because to me, it's right.
Hold on. I'm gonna try to get my back.
Yeah, I was cleaning my kitchen people, so you know, my studio
slash kitchen. But yeah, it's just, to me,

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that's the one thing that male times worry about.
And I'm pretty sure even some male pocket, especially with
those that's right now in the sexuality business of the
podcast, you know, which they ain't many, many, very few black
men. Yeah.
And we don't want to come off Thursday.
And like I said to me, some people can understand this.

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Do I enjoy looking at tits? Yeah.
Do I need to see tits? No.
Do I've been in porn for close to 25 to 30 years.
I just seen tits and pussy more than some of you.
Motherfucker seen them on a timeline.
Yeah, that's how I feel about Dick pics now.
It's funny, 'cause like I'll getthem and they'll be like, Oh
yeah, baby, you like it. And I'm like, not really.

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I I've seen, you know, like, I'drather, you know, wonder, you
know, 'cause people just. She'll be back in a minute.
The Internet let me tell her real quick.
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She's right. Now hold.
It up, get on the floor is there?
I think she's in the elevator right there.
I definitely heard you come here.
So once you stop, we'll do the introduction.
The stairs at the end didn't go to a porn.
Driver I am so confused how am Iin like ghost town?

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I am still dying I'm lost in my hotel.
I know I'm the worst, I'm so sorry.
Oh no, you good Boo 'cause I mean you know how many time I've
been in the hotel and got lost my damn self?
I don't. It's like my floor that I was on
disappeared. I legit came down the elevator

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and then it. What the actual fuck?
Oh my God. We'll try to get back up.
I'm So you're going to punch me,aren't you?
I apologize. Oh, no, no, let me play
something to you about podcasts.The fans, the the listeners, the

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smokers, they love shit like this because it's real time.
Yes, OK. Good, because I'm losing my
stopping mind I I'm in a ghost town apparently.
People County friend, OK. So I'm on the 4th floor, right?
But. It only goes to three.
The room numbers are three O 1. OK, we're going to the lobby.

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We're going to go to the lobby. Here.
Here's my DoorDash friend. Hopefully you don't mind being
on there. Yeah, I'm really confused.
Really fucking. Interesting.
It's a fourth floor on a three floor hotel.
That's like that's like trying to.
I'm on, I'm on the invisible floor and all my shit's up

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there. I'm more upset about that.
I I have no idea what happened. Because people, it's funny,
right? Because people don't realize if
you go into any building that has more than let's say 13
floors, there's no 13th floor. I noticed that in a lot of

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hotels, a lot of buildings, no 4th floor.
My floor. Weird.
What is happening? I'm on the 4th floor, right?
411 'cause I in 211. I'm on 211, right?
Am I in 211? I'm way different, aren't I?
OK. I was on the 2nd floor.

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I'm not even high. I'm so sorry.
Thank you. I apologize.
Although you can give me my food.
Oh my God, I swear I thought I was on 4th floor.
I'm not an idiot, I promise. Thank you, I appreciate it.
Don't tell anyone about this. Oh my God, you got I seriously

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like I convinced myself. This is why the fans love her
dog. This is why the fans love her.
I'm awkward. I'm throwing the shoes on you
guys. It's crazy.
What room did you say? Two O 8 and then I.

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Entertained. Like seriously, do you see?
I have no I have no socks or shoes on so.
It is all good babe. It like I said it, I didn't.
Get into my damn room, Jesus Christ, I swear.

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Did you let me know this right here is just an example of the
crazy week I didn't had, and I'mnot even I'm not even my crazy
energy. The the went through the screen
to her. So I apologize.
So I can't get out of shit and Ihit you.

(11:55):
I apologize. I got my food, I'm happy.
I'm not going to eat it yet, but.
Previous smokers, guess what? You might get it.
You get a boot bang. Oh God, how you doing?
You know what, I I was OK until I realized that I made-up a

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floor number and then I genuinely got confused as fuck.
I, I'm not kidding you, I sincerely believed that the
floor was disappeared. Like, or the floor did
disappear. Even got on the damn elevator
and went to the third floor and everything and then I was like
where on my floor? Jesus.
No, Yeah. Hey, I ain't gonna lie.
It happened. Oh, yes, It I ain't gonna point.

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It happened. So even with me, right?
Even high though. She said she ain't been high and
she. Did she did a a a high?
She did a high moment at this motherfucker.
Oh my God. Oh, so how you doing, baby?
How you doing? How it?

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Been, you know, I'm doing good. I'm pretty good.
I'm pretty good. I got back to my room so at
least I have my shit that I can take with me when I leave so.
Oh yeah. That's a plus, so.
Oh my God, yeah. How are you?
I'm doing OK. Just been a word.
I can see him say that the monthof June has probably been the

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craziest month this year for me and in the past two years, you
know, switching jobs. Yeah.
And if and dealing with a whole bunch of shit, you know,
mentally, emotionally and all that shit.
What have you? So it's been, it's been, it's

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been 1 hell of a month for me. What about you?
Yeah, same. I mean, obviously for different
reasons. I've been traveling and stuff
going back and forth between like Cincinnati and New
Hampshire because my kids are there just trying to get my shit
together and get back on my feet.

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I I did delete my ex Twitter whatever a little bit ago and I
was bummed because I was almost to like 11 K and I was doing
like so good and then I freaked out and deleted it.
But then I was able to get it back but I had to start from
zero. So I'm really trying to.

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Get back real fast because you got 13 K right now so.
No, only 1300. Dirty hydrate.
But I mean, that is a lot. I, I looked at my analytics and
I was actually really with myself.
So I felt really good about that.
But yeah, I I don't know if I'llget back to where I was, but I
hope so. Why did you delete it in the

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first place? Why did you delete your heads?
I went through like APHP, like a, it's like a partial
hospitalization program. I did it for to try to deal with
trauma and abuse that I had fromway, way long ago, like when I
was a kid and I needed to focus on the healing and stuff.

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And in doing that, I needed to get rid of distractions and
things like that. And I was letting you know, the
content and stuff like that kindof takeover and I was feeling
really disappointed with myself just in general.
So, so yeah, I deleted it. But then I am a million times

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better. Well, I thought I was better
until I completely made-up a floor to this hotel.
But but yeah, I, I, I, I'm in a better headspace as far as like,
you know, emotionally and all ofthat stuff.
So I'm back and I'm better and ready to get this show on the
road and see what I can do, see if people like me, you know, go

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from there. Yeah, 'cause I do take what I
call social media blackout moments where I just don't
interact on social media or eventry to go on social media
because it's crazy as fuck. I know what people was that
probably listening and watching.He's probably saying, well, how

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would you be stressed out? You can just close the computer.
And I used to think that too. But when your business is
surrounded by the Internet, it, it, it's kind of hard to, and
plus when you dealing with running your business through
it, because a lot, a lot of us, our businesses ran through X,

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you know, period. That's why I I give people props
that cut shut down the X and go to what is it blue sky.
And blue sky is not even as popular.
Yeah, I'm on the queue. But yeah, I don't really get on
that one too much, but I am, I am there.
I have more followers there currently.

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But but yeah, it's like you weresaying though, it's, it's not as
easy to just turn everything offbecause when that distraction is
there and when you feel like I got to get on there, I got to do
my thing. And especially someone like me,
I'm very open and transparent about my situation.
And like, you know, I have ADHDADD and I have, you know, a

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lot of other things that I'm trying to work with and I get
impulsive and it's easy for me to just check it if it's there,
you know, so, so I honestly didn't think I would create a
new one. But then I kind of like thought
about this past year and things that helped me get through and

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content and the people I've met doing this have been a huge
proponent of my well-being rightnow.
So and I do, I feel good. I feel confident.
I've met some really amazing people.
I was going to be homeless at the end of December last year
and had I not met Roxy and Ben, I don't know what would have

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happened. So because I don't have that
support system back where I'm from, and that's a whole long
story, but my life has just beencrazy.
So there are a lot of variables that have gone into where I'm at
right at this moment. And it's just, it's wild, but
this is a huge part of it. So and I love to write also.

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So I'm I'm not what people expect when they actually meet
me. I have a lot of different things
I like to do and this is just one of them, but I want to be
good at it so. Yeah, because the one thing and
I had this concert went back with social media.
Social media gives a false facade that we are doing OK.

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You know I remember I did it oneof my episodes that time.
Y'all see this, see them being y'all can go back and look.
When we were talking about B Simone and B Simone was talking
about how she been going broke. She had to go from which was
laughable to hear this shit shopping at Bloomingdale to H&M.

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Last I checked, H&M was just onestep down for Bloomingdale's.
That's just expensive. I get it, She said.
I had to go to Target or Target,you know, you know what I'm
saying. Or shit.
Target is expensive for clothes too.
Yeah, you know what I'm saying? I'm like, shit woman you still

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got anyway. But it's like, I love
celebrities. I love porn stars and stars that
show that everything ain't fucking sweet.
Even through on the Internet there were a lot of people look
at me like, but why do you put out say this and this?
I said so my fans in the world can see that.
I am fucking real. Everything ain't sweet all the

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goddamn time, you know? Period, right?
And I think that's part of the reason why a lot of times the
fans have resentment towards porn stars and girls and sex
work because they thinking that they're making money all the
damn time and they don't respectwhat y'all do to a certain
extent, even though they buy it,you know?

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So right for you, how important is to show that yes, I'm a real
person. I go through similar shit as the
rest of you motherfuckers. Don't think because I fuck on
camera it like it's sweet all the time.
Right. One of my biggest revelations
that have like helped me and I think honestly, it's so fucking

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simple to treat people the way you want to be treated, right?
But like nobody feels like they can do it.
It's like, you know, and, and I'll be the first to admit when
I was married, I remember being really upset when my ex would
watch porn. I'd be like, I don't look like
those women, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
And it was all a jealousy thing.But I remember just like

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thinking it was awful like whatever.
And now doing what I'm doing now, I've realized a lot of
things and it's like, First off,I realized I was sex addiction.
That's crazy. But I mean, why not try to get
paid for it, right? But I hate the deeper damn.
Term sex addiction. What?

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I hate that. I mean, it's just I'm really
happy with my sexuality, I guess, yeah.
That that to me would I say thatis because they act like it's
hit unhealthy for you to enjoy. They want to have sex a lot.
Yeah, girl, we fucking humans. Well, yeah, I mean, it's like

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shopping, you know, like people love shopping, you know, or it's
everybody has their own hobby, right?
So like, yeah, why not try to make money off of your favorite
hobby, which is fucking. But one of the things that
really kind of connected with meand hit home and why I wanted to
come back is a lot of the peoplethat I've met, we, we all have

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sexual abuse in our background. That's what we just do.
And to do sex work or porn or whatever.
It is a way for us to control things that we could not control
when we were younger. It's empowering is what it is.
So when I look at it that way, or I try to tell people that
it's like, it's like anything people are either going to

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listen or they've already decided they're not going to
listen. And there's always going to be
negative connotations. And I think a lot of it is
someone who may be afraid to explore their own sexuality or
they're not allowed to explore their own sexuality or, you
know, 'cause we're just, we're fucking animals, you know, like,

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like in all, you know, we're not, we're not meant to sign
paper. You know, like, if people, you
know, look at it from all of this and people are like 01,
man, one woman signed the papers.
Like fuck you. Paper wasn't even around then.
So like, it's, it's just everybody should be free to do

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what they feel comfortable doingas long as it's consensual and
as long as you're open, if you do have like, you know, a
partner or whatever. Because I've seen a lot of
people with open marriages or like Polly situations and it's
like they're happier people. There's so much happier because
they don't have that going behind your back element of

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cheating or whatever, because they don't have to be afraid to
say, Oh shit, I'm attracted to someone.
I want to fuck that person, you know, So there's just a lot of
things that I've learned in the past year and it's it's wild.
It's not as bad as people think and people just want to assume
all these horrible things. They want to assume everyone's

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dirty. They want like it's it's crazy
because the people that are intocontent creation, especially
like the the stream, like the mainstream, you have to be
tested. You fill out paperwork that has
to be legal, but you, you know, there's so many hoops you have
to jump through in order to evenfilm something because it has to

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be so careful and because it's so regulated.
So the people that are like, Oh my God, it's trashy, dirty,
whatever. It's like, actually it's not.
I'm sure there are those like, you know, back alley places that
you know, are like the ones thatyou hear about, like the
trafficking and things like that.
But for the most part, everything I've been involved in

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or been exposed to, it's all been amazing.
And there've been people that are, you know, they come from
all backgrounds, you know, like I had a corporate career for 23
years and my life fell apart andmy life shifted entirely.
And here I am so. And I'm happier now than I've
ever been because I'm finally learning who I am and I'm OK

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with that. When before I had no fucking
clue and I was dying slowly so. Yeah, 'cause that that was my
orientation. The lady looked at my my stuff
and I had been at the last job would have been 11 years.
So I've been there for a decade.And she asked, damn, you've been
there for 10 years, what made you decide to leave?

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You know, I said it's simple. I got tired of washing people's
shitty clothes and washing shitty minute.
Sometimes you get tired of the daily grind and want to change.
That's why a lot of times when people don't realize that a lot
of the porn stars, not all of them came into this because they

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were broke, they were destituted, they was homeless.
Actually want to be truthful about it, That's a small
percentage. Most of the people had corporate
careers, government jobs. Some of these mother fuckers own
their own business, legal business.
We ain't talking about porn. And them know some of them got
salons, stores. I know one girl owned the

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restaurant. You feel what I'm saying?
You want. Yeah, you.
Want to change in your daily grind because you didn't got
bored with you didn't got complacent?
You feel what I'm saying? Yeah, and, and honestly, I
didn't do it because I was, you know, struggling and broke and

(26:42):
stuff. I could have tried to do other
things. I, I genuinely really enjoyed
doing content where I wasn't making money.
I was just had, I had a friend with benefits and we would
record it and it was like reallyhot to like rewatch it and
stuff. So it kind of like went from
there. And then it was like when I
created the Twitter, the original Twitter, I started
getting fans and on Fetlife, I started getting fans and it was

(27:04):
wild because the people that wanted to do content were like
sexy young men. And I'm like in my 40s.
So for me to be able to start and say fuck, I did, I did porn
and I started when I was 43, like that's, that's huge.
Like for me, it's like it's a big ego boost honestly, because
I feel like I'm in my prime maybe like I don't know how long

(27:29):
I'll be able to do it, but I want to try to continue to enjoy
my life day-to-day. I love being able to travel
when, you know, when things workout where someone wants me to
travel, I love being able to, you know, see how things work
behind the scenes. If I work for production, if you
know, I love being able to do iton my own and edit and manage my

(27:50):
own stuff. Like I like doing all of that
so. Yeah, because right.
For example, don't get it twisted.
Do I want to get to the point where I was in between 2010 and
I say 2015, where I was? I didn't have, I didn't need a

(28:11):
job. I was working for myself.
We sit here and we talk about generational wealth.
We see here talk about entrepreneurship.
Porn creates that for the ladiesas well as the gents, especially
for the women. Because what of a fucking
profession? Can y'all create generational
wealth and own your own career? You know, pretty even even to a

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certain. Day.
So what? Oh, I just said because pussy is
power. Yeah, because even with the
movie stars, they don't own their own career.
They don't, unless they end up becoming a producer and produce
movies, you know what I'm saying?
And half of them they have, unless they got back from a big

(28:59):
studio. That shit going to Tubi, you
know what I'm saying? And the other part of it is,
even with me, I always wanted torun my own business.
That's why I didn't go to Hollywood, you know, even when I
did music, I had my own record label to a certain extent, Lucas
Entertainment Records, because Iwanted to have my own.

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And you can't create your own working for someone else, you
know what I'm saying, right? You know, period.
Who going to fire you? If you run your own business,
you can't fire yourself. Yeah, right.
You just pivot and do something different if you don't like it.
Yeah. So, yeah.

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So for you, like I said, becauseof everything going on, how much
has point been a refuge for you?It's, it's really, well, that's
a really good question. I would say it's it's definitely
been a significant part of my healing and for that I'm it's

(30:09):
worthless or no worthless. It's like, you know what I'm
trying to say. God damn, I created my own floor
and now I can't say words right.It's priceless.
It's worthless. No, it's priceless because I am,
you know, I have kids and I don't, I try not to talk too

(30:31):
much about like my personal stuff involving my kids and my
ex and stuff. I try to be better about that.
But you know, it has helped me to where I've been able to
afford to go visit them every month for several days because
I'm not able to move back yet. You know it, it's kept me afloat
in a way that has kept me fed, kept me, you know, sheltered

(30:57):
too, because like I said, I wouldn't have had a place to go
had it not been for Roxy and Ben.
And it's 16 hours away from where I was.
But like, you know, I, I have porn literally to thank for
everything that's kept me going in the past year.

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So it's, it's, it's very seriousfor me.
It's very, it is a refuge. You know, it has been and I
enjoy it. I love fucking.
Yeah, because it like, put it this way, right?
In a lot of cases, yeah. I'm about to piss off a lot of

(31:38):
you motherfucking vanilla motherfuckers.
These females make more fucking money.
Put shit on only things y'all motherfuckers do working at
McDonald's. Some of these women make more
money then some of you motherfuckers working in
corporate America making six figures and they have more
freedom, you know, Period. Let me tell you this right now,

(31:58):
I am not one of those women. I mean, I'm on only fans, but
that is not me. I am happy.
See, that's another thing, like I am super content with knowing
that people like what I'm putting out there.
They like that I'm awkward, theylike that I'm enjoying myself.

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And you can tell that everythingabout me is genuine.
Like I'm not one of these peoplethat's trying to like fake it
till I make it like this. I'm putting myself out there.
This is me. Like it, hate it, whatever.
You don't have to watch if you don't like it.
I actually just lowered my any, my hell, my fucking God, I can't
even talk. I just lowered my only fans

(32:40):
price. I was at 799 and I changed it to
five like yesterday because I would rather have people come
because they want to see me. And then it helps me
exponentially to just have the people that want to support me
and encourage me for less than acup of coffee each month.

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That means a lot. So I don't want the big bucks.
I mean, I don't need like, I'm simple.
I'm a simple person. Fuck yeah.
I want to be able to like, maybego to Bloomingdale's one time
and buy a shirt or something. But like, I don't need that.
I want to be able to help my kids, you know, be what they

(33:23):
need to be. I want to be able to bra, like,
buy bras and underwear and stuff.
Like when I see it, you know, like, I want to have extra money
to where I can do that or like if I want to buy a concert
ticket or, you know, simple things like that.
Like I would love to have like acushion, but I don't need to go
and do all of these things that,you know, make me have a hard

(33:45):
time sleeping at night. You know, like I just want to do
what I am good with. And if I make good money, that's
great, but I'm I'm not. We see sometimes.
It's about the money. It's about the Peace of Mind,
'cause sometimes point and give a person Peace of Mind.
You feel where I'm coming from, you know?
Period. It I don't like yeah, I know a

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lot of people like well now y'all got to make money off of
sales, but like I told everybodythe money in this business grows
the longer you stay in it. It don't it must be want to say
that no, it don't decrease now do you have good months?
Do you have bad months yes. But if you actually look each
year your profit grew whether y'all believe it or not, it may

(34:32):
not have grown and from here to here, but it doesn't matter
because he he I guess what I want because I can see him say
right now personally, I'm makingmore money now with my porn and
I ain't even shy to say. Yeah.
All my shit. Oh, you know what I'm saying?

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But that's the whole purpose of why we do this, is to make money
in our sleep, you know, Period. And they have freedom to move
around because when you have a job you restricted, you know
what I'm saying? So for you how, how when it come
to you being in the business youtake away the money?

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How much have you gave you a Peace of Mind?
Oh, tremendously. Like, like in all honesty, if I
didn't love what I was doing or what I am doing, I wouldn't do
it. You know, like I, I, you know,
this is something I never in a million years would have thought

(35:38):
I would do, but it's like, it feels like I've been doing it
forever now. It's very weird.
It's it's, it's kind of a crazy mind fuck really.
But you know, it's, I feel like it's a good thing because I also
feel like being a BBW that has helped me as well because I
think there are a lot of thickerwomen out there in just normal

(36:00):
day-to-day life that don't understand how beautiful they
really are. And I was one of them because I
never had confidence ever. I, I didn't think anybody would
ever want to touch me, look at me anything.
And to be able to look at all this content and be like, holy

(36:24):
fuck, there's a lot of people that want to, you know, watch me
or want to fuck me or whatever. And it's, it's eye opening and
it makes me feel really good about myself.
And it's weird because not a lotof people want to be treated
like a piece of meat. But like for me I wanted that

(36:45):
like and I want that like I but.Let's be honest.
Actually enough. Let's be honest, because see, a
lot of these women don't want tobe honest.
They want to be treated like a piece of meat.
And the reason why I say that because a lot of.
People like. From talking to a lot of female,
a lot of women have said this and even the girls in porn and
regular women, many of them wouldn't mind doing the gang

(37:07):
bang, money wouldn't mind being ran through.
Many of them want to be lusted for and found attractive and all
that. The problem is they're worried
about the scrutiny of the porn. Yeah, what are the people Fanny?
What are people now like whatever.
But I, I am definitely the firstto admit that, you know, I

(37:29):
wanted to be like wanted superficially.
I wanted people to be like, oh damn, I love your tits like
awesome. Come and touch them.
Like, you know, 'cause I, I am not in a head space emotionally
to connect with someone on a level, you know, to be a partner
or date and have like, you know,a situation like that, maybe

(37:50):
like friends with benefits, but like I'm not in the headspace.
I'm, I'm way past that point. So for me, I love the fact that
I'm going to go. We know we're fucking, we're
recording or whatever and then boom, go ahead and leave.
I've done that Irish goodbye to a couple of people, you know,
'cause I just, I'm like peace. And I'm like, I don't, you know,

(38:15):
'cause like, I, I don't, I don'tneed that other connection right
now. I've never really had it in the
sense of the way that I've wanted it.
And I feel like I would want toomuch from someone.
So I've completely pivoted to I just want to touch and lick and

(38:37):
suck and fuck and go from there.You know, like.
And see to also the other part of this is a lot of ladies,
especially meals, many of them already went down people, they
already did the marriage thing. It didn't work.
They was more happy after the marriage was over.

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Yeah, I I'm not the person to talk to about anyone wanting to
get married because I, like, I imploded my own world.
I'm the one who initiated it after years and years and years
of us just being not good for each other.

(39:21):
And I still love him very much. But I also know we're not good
together, period. And there's no way we would be
or could be. But to know that we were done
and then we were still forced todeal with each other, to go
through that paperwork and actually get through the
divorce, that part was the absolute worst fucking time of

(39:46):
my life. And I think that that is why I
will never ever get married again, ever.
Because it's too heartbreaking and it's too difficult because,
you know, why put somebody through that again, you know,
like it's you've already broken up or whatever.
But then why be like, all right,well, I'm going to force you to
keep in touch through this legalprocess and charge you a shit

(40:09):
ton of money. Also that you don't have because
you're starting over and you know, that's why it's like the
whole paperwork thing. I'm like, fuck that.
If I find someone that I want tobe a partner with or something
or multiple partners with, as long as everyone's communicating
and I wake up and choose you andI go to bed and choose you and
same with you, I'm good. I'm good with that, but I don't

(40:33):
need it. I don't want it.
I don't have to have it. But if I find someone to do life
with, great. But exactly.
Like with my situation, I told somebody the other day, I said I
probably won't get married. They were like, wow, I'm already
50, the fuck don't get married. It's OK.

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I'm at best I might have a long term girlfriend.
You know what I'm saying? I'm like, because the person I'm
with, you know, I'm part when I call her a partner, even though
we still live together. It's crazy.
It's it's weird. They just say that you know what
I'm saying, but if I didn't get married to her, why the fuck I'm

(41:13):
looking to get married in anyway?
Because I was with this one for 20 fucking years.
We still around each other and it never happened.
You feel me? For whatever reason, because one
leaving a night marriage costs two, your debt becomes their
debt. That's.
Where I lost my dream. Yeah, yeah.

(41:37):
That's why I like That's the real concerts mother going on it
because everyone was like a lot of the people, you know, 30 and
below are not trying to get married because they don't want
the next motherfuckers day. Well, that and I mean, they've
always talked about the statistics of like 50% of
marriages and or whatever. And it's like, well, they've

(41:57):
seen their parents go through bullshit.
They don't want to deal with it.They're learning from their
parents mistakes. Generational trauma is a thing,
you know, And we have people that are thinking for
themselves, you know, sometimes,not all of them, but sometimes.
And they're realizing, I don't want to be like my fucking
parents. I want to, you know, live my

(42:19):
life for myself and whatever. So I don't know.
That's crazy. They sat there and listened to
that their Mama and she was talking to her aunt, talking
with the aunts or her best friend and what they always say,
just stay with him, work throughit.
You know, this generation comingup figured out I don't have to
stay with this motherfucker. If I'm not happy, I'm out.

(42:41):
Plus, they're learning about Polly, Polly Adams, you love
about swinging our Mama and them.
It was so secret if not everyoneknew about it because trust and
believe, you know, back in the 60s and 70s, if it was cool like
it is now, you'd be surprised how many They're all they were
doing it because you don't thinkgrandma didn't know about the

(43:04):
other goddamn family thing again.
Yeah, they just ignored it. They're like, yeah, whatever.
Don't tell anybody. You think Grandma won't get
hers? Uncle Charlie wants your uncle.
Oh my God. Uncle Charlie wants your uncle.
Dad. You.
What the hell? Uncle Charlie always coming

(43:26):
over. Great.
Mama always did. The billies do.
But all of a sudden the billies pay.
But Mama don't work. Yeah.
You're. You are.
Not I just think that we societyand Christianity pressures us to
have this facade of what marriage is.

(43:49):
Yeah, you know, period. And it's based off of just like
most of our laws in this wonderful country of America is
based off of religious beliefs. Even though in the Bible cranky,
you motherfuckers would cheat more than us.
Men. Yeah, it's cranky white men who
want power is where it all started.

(44:14):
Because it's it's funny, like when you think about the women,
the only woman that they considered virtuous was the one
that was impregnated spiritually, which you already
know how I feel about that shit.That's all.
I don't want to go to. There's a whole conversation for

(44:36):
a whole another show, you know, just give me an example and
anarchy anyway. But it's like they if you even
look in the Bible, Solomon had many wives, David killed his
best friend to take his wife. But y'all love David so much,

(44:56):
don't you? So.
Abraham's daughters. If anybody really reads the Old
Testament, it's terrifying and so much worse than what we're
all doing collectively. So yeah, I have my opinions

(45:17):
about that as well. So it's, it's baffling to me
that people can be so stuck in their echo chambers and not
think for themselves or try to figure things out.
It's a shame. It's really sad.
So, and I'm not one knock anybody for their religion, but
I hate when people knock other religions because they're

(45:38):
different. I fucking hate that every
religion, if you look at it is all based on the same
principles, a higher being. You live your life, you be kind
and loving. There's a lot of other things
that go into each one, but when you get down to the end of it,
like just brass tacks is literally there's a higher

(46:02):
being. You're trying to do your best to
live your best life and be peaceful.
And then you've got these peoplethat are like, well, mine's
better than yours, mine's betterthan yours.
Go fuck yourself. Nobody's better than anybody
else. It's like we're all here, you
know? Yeah, I always make this joke
because everybody favorite, I guess we, we, we love talking
about King Arthur when it be advanced, right?

(46:25):
Right now if y'all actually heard, I don't know if this
generation know of King Arthur, y'all probably do with the gene
X anyway. Lancelot fucked Guinevere.
King Arthur did not leave Guinevere.

(46:46):
Now. Think about it.
Oh, and that's like came back tohelp King Arthur.
Yeah, they're trying. To write some cock shit, don't
you think? I love that you need to write
that story. Yeah, you know what I'm saying.

(47:07):
Napoleon Bonaparte, right? If anyone saw the movie, guess
what it was in the windy. He was a cook cause Josephine
was fucking. Yeah, that's so funny.
There's a stigma with that too. Like the people that are cooks.
There's such a stigma and there shouldn't be.
I apologize. I am hungry.

(47:28):
Is it OK that I eat? Sneaky mukbang mukbang, you shit
motherfucker. Hey, hey, hey, there's nothing
wrong with watching a woman eat.I'll be as dainty as I can.
I'm just really hungry. I haven't eaten anything.

(47:48):
Come on. Get your eating on baby.
I ain't mad at you. No, because even to the point
where like, I'm going to tell you one thing, I'm glad they
left the BBWS with the weight gain fetish.
Oh, I hated that shit. Hated it.
Yeah. I mean, I'm not planning on.
I'm good with maintaining or losing I, but I don't judge
anybody. No, it's not my place to because

(48:12):
the BBWS complain. It's like this.
They complain about the way the industry look at them, the way
that people treat them. But then you plan to the the
actual I'd be having a word on the tip of my tongue and it'll
never come out. Perpetuate what you complain
about they they they talk to shit about you know period.

(48:35):
So and to me it's like just likefor example and and I was going
to talk about these two because I was sitting back and I was
scrolling and we talked about the regular girls.
The reason why I say all these girls want to be porn stars,
they want to do this this this because if you look when it

(48:56):
comes to a certain size female, damn if it ain't the same body
type. When I Scroll down the only
variety of woman I get is in theBBW game.
Really. Let's go there.
Yeah, because think about it. Everybody wanted to look like
Pinky Sarah. They they want the big tits.

(49:18):
You get small, you get you feel what I'm saying?
Because even when I look it be like, damn, is all the girls
built the same? I'm like even there, there's
some slam chicks out here, you know?
But to me it's like that's the reason why the fans rejected

(49:41):
those type females and they wantthe BBW.
They want the older women because you see different type
women. You feel what I'm saying?
I'm like, I can see the time looking at the same type, body
type for damn near 5 damn pages.I want some differential, you
know, good. And it's kind of like to me that

(50:02):
how can I put these? There's also an issue in our
business because they don't wantto push, they want to screen
body positivity, but they want to push one type body type.
Yeah. And it ain't even the skinny
girls no more. They want the the Amber Rose
built. The what?

(50:24):
Oh. Amber Rose, let me see Miss
Sapphire. I can think I'm really bad with
names. Yeah, you know who?
I think Iggy Azalea. Fucking.
Say what, Iggy? Did you say?

(50:45):
Iggy Azalea Yeah, they won't They.
Want to be did fancy. Yeah, 'cause, you know, she
built, she built like a sister. I mean, she built with that when
they consider it OK. I thought you were saying she
did porn. I was like, what?
No. No, I well no, she do have her
own fans. Ain't nobody checking for me.

(51:11):
No, yeah, no, my like, ideal lady I think is like the hottest
is fucking Angela White. She's so pretty and she's
perfect. She I mean, she's literally
perfect. Like I think her whole body is
perfect so. But I know I'll never be that.
So I'm trying to embrace my own so and I get lucky because I

(51:36):
didn't realize that my freckles and being a ginger were actually
beneficial to me. So that's been an interesting
thing that's been a realization lately.
So but she. Also, like I said before, if
they're not noticing, the fans are rejecting that type by the

(51:59):
type they want to see the BBWS, they want to see the Super side
BBWS they want to see, you know what I'm saying?
They want real women. And that's the reason why you
you've seen the way the game is,you know, and because we talk
about authenticity, how many of these people are really

(52:21):
authentic? Because every month of the one
underneath the knife, No shade ain't knocking you fool.
But. Right.
What? What body type is dominating
social media? The BBL type Body type.
Yeah. You know, period.
And even though social media wants you to see that, let me

(52:44):
give you all a little bit of information.
They want to see BBWS because BBWS are the top seller in
fucking porn you sons of bitches.
Are they really? I didn't realize that.
Yes, I tell people, do the research.
Do the research. I should, I'm in the field.
I should do it. I just know I get a lot of

(53:05):
messages and a lot of people that want to fuck me and they're
all hot. So I'm like, sweet.
Yeah, because, because, because of course they're going to say
well, everyone wants to look at the only fan girls and that that
that top 10 or what have you. We'll talk.
If you look at the industry a whole the BBWS are the

(53:27):
dominating money makers, the smaller girls is in spots.
You feel what I'm saying? Yeah, there's always been a case
that been the case when I was back in the day.
So because that makes sense. Go ahead.
I. Was just saying that makes

(53:49):
sense. I I didn't think of it that way,
but. Yeah, because go back to is, it
was like it was funny as fuck, right?
I was watching. I just really, I begin to like
this. Damn.
But Once Upon a time in America,they had, if you name every
mafia actor, it was in that movie, right?

(54:13):
They had a big girl in it that would the one that everybody
wanted to fuck. They want the smaller girl.
They want the big girl with the big titties.
If you go look at back in the inthe in the old western days, it
wasn't a skinny girl that was getting our attention.
It was a big girl with the big titties that was in the brothel
that was getting all the money. But society wants you to think

(54:35):
it's a small girls dog, no? Yeah, I've asked a lot of people
that I've met and a lot of them have told me that they like the
thicker women because they're softer.
And you can obviously, like, especially when you have a big
Dick, if you're fucking them, you could actually go all the

(54:56):
way in and you're not worried about fucking fucking through a
skinny person. And you're just like able to
kind of go harder, you know? And but there's that nurturing
kind of feel too, you know, likebeing able to relax and like,
you know, that whole motherly thing, you know, milk, all that
stuff. It's like all of that stuff does

(55:17):
appeal. And, you know, there's probably
a lot of men that want that too,and they're embarrassed to want
it, but I don't know. It's it's it's interesting.
It like for example, right? There's the reason why I say a
lot of men, all men want to BBW want to know why I like to need

(55:39):
the drugs right? How many motherfuckers hide
their drug? Drug abuse which means that
there's more motherfuckers doingdrugs than we realize.
How many of you motherfuckers isscared to say you like a BBW but
we'll fuck a BBW in a heartbeat.That means there's a lot of me
and more many y'all think want aBBW they just ain't got the ball

(56:00):
to say because they're afraid their homeboy is going to tease
them. Even their homeboy want to fuck
that same BBW that you want to fuck.
The one guy's probably already fucking BBW.
Yeah. I mean, I believe you.
A lot of sexy men that I would never think.

(56:21):
And it's the muscular younger guys that surprise me and they
want it and they they want a lotof them that I've talked to
recently. I've had, I think like 5 or 6
people that I've talked to recently that because I always
ask, because I'm always curious,it's because I'm like, why would
you want to fuck me? Like whatever.

(56:41):
And I had one in particular who was like, I just love women's
bodies. He's like, give me, give me a
thicker woman, give me a muscular woman, give me
whatever. If you've got curves, any way
you have curves. I want that.
And I was just like, wow, that makes sense.
Like so it it's it's interesting.

(57:03):
Yeah, because into a point when I think about God, I know this
young man shots out to make you think Devante.
He does a lot of commentary on porn like he'd be he's the black
dude to be having the the housecoat and he he tried to be
like he they called him Stephen A on porn and I like him.
I like dude. He'd be saying some shit I

(57:25):
really have on the show so we can compensate, but.
Yeah. What what I find funny about it
is, is that right? Is that I would tell people
this, I said when I think about the magazines that I came up
with, right, Let's keep it 1 honey Black Tails magazine for
all the people. Remember that?

(57:46):
Go back in the archive and see how many girls that was Black
Tails Model of the year. That wasn't BBWI can tell you
right now it was three. That magazine was was up for 20
years. Every girl except for three was
model of the year was BB dub. Stop playing with me.

(58:12):
You know, you know what I'm saying?
Because it's kind of like peopledon't realize and see that's a
reason why I think especially women or men that that see here
and got a negative viewpoint. It's because they don't want
everybody to be lusted for. In my opinion.

(58:36):
They see that porn empowers women, especially women.
They don't power us. No, we get only we get out of
his pussy. Women get way more to get plenty
empowerment, confidence and all that shit, you know, Period.
Yeah, that's why they don't wantgirls to do porn.
I, you know, I think you're right.

(58:57):
I I agree. Yeah, so, So what?
So I know you've been going. So what shoot you been having
going on? Let's get to the sexy shit.
I haven't really had any lately.Like I said, I was going through
that program and I really kind of shut down a bunch of the

(59:20):
extra stuff I was doing. So I pretty much I've decided
I'm going to do like Chaturbate,it's, you know, kind of go from
there. And then I've been like doing
like bookings, like meeting people and stuff like outside of
it because, you know, I've had alot of fans ask about that.

(59:42):
So, you know, I've just been doing my thing on that sense of
it. But I'm planning on doing
content probably in the next fewweeks.
I've done a little bit of solo content, like I said that I
lowered my price on my only fans.
So I'm trying to just kind of figure out what works best for
me. And I, I want to make that fair

(01:00:05):
for everybody because I know everybody like works hard to
make their money, you know, and I'm not trying to fuck people
over. I, I want to be able to go to
sleep at night, you know, I, I want to be able to know I've
done whatever to be myself that day.
You know, I don't want to like lose my soul along the way or or

(01:00:25):
whatever by getting to like. Greedy or overwhelmed or
whatever. So I'm just kind of seeing what
works for me. But I do have some people that
I'm looking into trying to do content with that I've not met
yet. So I'm excited about that.
I have other people that I've done content with that I'm

(01:00:45):
planning to do like more contentwith just because I think that
that's kind of cool to have likefollow-ups to content that
you've you've had that have worked really well for you.
Like like with Alice and stuff like Alice Marie, My, have you
interviewed her? Who?

(01:01:08):
Alice Marie. She's a trans woman.
Nah, actually hook it up. See, I like interviewing trans
women. It's just they actually scared
to come on here, you know? I want to tell you, black women,
trans women, I have the hardest to catch as well as Mill County,
them three and I'd be scared to come on the podcast.

(01:01:31):
Really like. I've had some trans women, you
know, Jamie Castle. God damn.
Yeah. I can't figure out the name.
Sydney Screens girlfriend has been on here before as well as a
couple other people you know. But to me it's like I'm starting

(01:01:56):
to see more of that of women shooting with trans.
It's just funny. All the stuff that would kill a
career. Y'all are doing that?
I think everyone's feeling freerto like, explore, you know, like
that's me. I'm exploring.
So I just think the more people are accepted in the industry, I

(01:02:21):
think the more people are willing to be like, you know
what, hey, I have this idea. Do you want to kind of try to do
it? And then they're like, fuck,
yeah, I'll do it. And then you kind of see what
works, you know? But Roxy and I still are doing
Crimson Chaos. We kind of took like a little
bit of a hiatus just because of what I was going through.

(01:02:42):
And, you know, life happens, butyou know, we're planning on
doing more stuff together too, which is exciting because we've
gotten a lot of messages and people that want to meet up with
us and like be our third, which I'm excited about and I know
she's excited about. So we'll figure out how to make

(01:03:04):
that happen. But but yeah, I'm, I'm
definitely looking forward to seeing what the last, you know,
half of 2025 looks like. Oh yeah, me too.
Because the first half was hell for me.
I ain't going to lie. It was just.
Yeah. But my mom always said we're up.

(01:03:25):
Beginnings made for great endings, so.
Yeah, yeah, I guess that. I love that.
But either way, I like I said, II just think that as damn, I'm

(01:03:45):
that way. I'm about to go and I ain't
smoke no weed all week. So we'll let you know.
OK all. Week.
All week I have not had no weed all week Bob, yes, I am not
scared to say yes. What is the name of this show?

(01:04:08):
Hey, money, I ain't afraid to say it.
My money ain't been money in this money.
I'm just saying I. Feel you.
But they're about to change about you got the three days out
of this bitch because getting the money always great.
It's happening bills and then plus with me not having this
nine to five. Oh yeah, bro.

(01:04:28):
It was bro. Yeah.
You know, period. Because it's like, it's like I
tell people don't ever think I'mnever baroque.
I didn't get to some money if necessary.
It's just I'm not one that can get to money like that.
You know what I'm saying? Sometimes it's a waiting period.

(01:04:48):
You know, that why it's kind of like, once again, when I hear
about social media and I had this conversation with my
partner Tisha, because I was saying the way social media is,
social media has two things thatI one, they love to perpetrate
on social media. Yeah.
Oh, I'm making money. I've never broke.

(01:05:10):
No, no, no. And the other one is they don't
never show anything positive. All we see is negative.
I remember this young boy saved some people that fell in the
water, saved them. We hardly hear about it, right.
Somebody cheats. Oh, everybody do a faint piece.

(01:05:41):
Oh, Oh my God, let's be so. Oh, I'm just glad that you came
out on the better side of things, baby, because I, I knew
how it is. Me too, thank you.
Realize we do deal with, there'sa lot of people that deal with
mental health issues in our business.
We it just don't be highlighted as much because it's not as sexy

(01:06:03):
to y'all. Right.
And and that is, I think that issomething that should be
highlighted honestly, because I mean, graded, not all of us want
to have that conversation about being sexually abused or, or
assaulted or, or having rough childhoods or being abused in

(01:06:24):
different ways. Like, not everybody wants to
talk about it, but I feel like the community as a whole should
at least be aware of it so they can at least say, wow, you know,
they've been through some shit and they're trying to explore
this piece of them to heal. Because I think a lot of us heal
in doing it. You know, I obviously never in a

(01:06:48):
million years would have imagined that this is what I'd
be doing. But it's been so cathartic to me
to be able to explore, feel safewhile I'm exploring, and have a
fucking good time. Meet some great people, you
know? Also with porn it ain't just a

(01:07:09):
business it's also a community. Because I can understand what
she deal with some of you vanilla motherfuckers let me
tell you what y'all going to say.
What trauma is she sitting therefucking all the damn time?
Will sometimes it's called taking back your power.
Do y'all understand what that is?

(01:07:29):
OK, taking back your power, these females just like a gang
bang. I had this conversation with
white women. Yeah, I'm about to go there.
White women, when we hear about gang bangs, it's positive to a
certain extent. Not so much outrage.
It's not as negative because they let it be known.
I wanted to do this. I enjoyed this so forth.

(01:07:53):
Because the black community is all negative.
They got the R word. That's why it was a gang bang,
you know, Period. It's like you don't realize this
can't be therapy for somebody because it allows you to take
the power back that was taken from you, because now it ain't
that. When I got gained on, I had no

(01:08:16):
choice. No matter in this, I got a
choice and I picked the motherfuckers.
What more powerful than that? Yeah, it's like you're, you're
replacing repressed or horrible memories, you know, with good
stuff so that it can kind of make room for, you know, your
enjoyment, your, your pleasure center, you know.

(01:08:39):
Yeah, I when you said that aboutlike what kind of abuse, it kind
of like triggered me a bit because I, I had a lot of
horrible things happen to me when I was young.
A lot of it happened before I was 3.
So I we'll openly talk about things like that because I've

(01:08:59):
been through a lot of therapy tohelp me with that.
But nobody, nobody would want togo through what I went through.
But it's the same like everybodyhas their own path and journey
that they've been on. So I'm not going to judge
somebody if they've had a wonderful life.
But you know, I would, I would definitely go off on someone if

(01:09:20):
they tried to say something to my face about like, what kind of
trauma? Oh, well, fuck you, lady.
Why don't you sit down? I'll tell you about it, you
know, because you know what I mean?
Because it's like, OK, have you been through this or, you know,
and, and people can't just assume that they know what they
would do in a situation because on paper things look a lot

(01:09:44):
better or a lot worse than they really are.
And unless you've been given that particular situation, you
can't fucking tell somebody thatthey how they should do or how
they should feel. So that's why I try not to judge
people. You know, I mean, obviously I'll
get defensive if somebody's judging me and then I'm going to
tell them about my stuff. But yeah, don't be an asshole.

(01:10:07):
Like just be nice to people. I'm saying but.
Y'all swear y'all Christians, right?
Honey, don't even get me started.
I had this station earlier with someone.
Oh, it was it was rough because certain things I I would open a

(01:10:34):
whole new can of worms. And I know we're coming to the
end, so I'm not going to go there.
But I'll just say that I have a big problem with people who are
all thoughts and prayers and they don't do, they just
condemn, but then they don't do things to help the other problem
or the other situations. So it's like I'll.

(01:10:57):
Go 1 better. You know how many of your
preachers and their wives and swingers on the low?
You know how many church motherfuckers actually do gang
bangs? Go to swinger parties.
Really. Yeah, let's keep it 100.
I believe I just talked to my girl.
Wisconsin deal that was about todo a scene in the church with

(01:11:20):
the actual preach and maybe his wife was swingers.
He was just going to cover his face.
Get the fuck out of my face. You know what they say about
preachers kids. They're the freakiest
motherfuckers. Where you think they got it
from? I've heard that before.
Yeah, yeah. I said the people that y'all sit

(01:11:40):
there and hold to a high regard of some of the biggest, nastiest
freaks, they just don't let you see it because they got to pay
the facade because they need to get your money.
To go do the freaky that they'redoing.
Basically So yeah, I don't hear this gorgeous lady up here.
So you know what that means. Next time she will be coming

(01:12:03):
back on here for the premium smoke room because I never got
her by herself. A premium smoke room, actually
one bedroom do avip smoke room. And I'm going to let you premium
smokers ask her questions. Oh yeah.
So you get to see titties. Oh yeah, you get to see titties.
You can ask some questions and we need to.
Hear some music. They're really big.

(01:12:25):
I thought I was going to be ableto show them on this one.
I'm really sad. I it the only reason why I
didn't do it because like I saidI you keep it 100 I got enough
premium smoke room episodes going all the way to damn near
December. I need some VIP smoke room
episodes and I damn sure need some smokers because all the

(01:12:47):
girls wanted to come on the premium smoke room.
That's why that female pissed meto fuck off everybody.
Wants to show their titties I'm.Sitting right, I'm like you the
one that went especially the last time when I talked to you,
she was like when we did the last show, it was an STO show.
She was like, so I'm doing pretty much smoke on the next

(01:13:08):
one, right? Because I wanted to pull out my
tits. I said sure, then you're going
to see here and tell me I don't feel good after talking to my
publishers anyway, whatever. And if she listened to this, let
me tell you something. No disrespect.
I got much respect and I got love for you.
But the way you came off on me and that damn fucking DM, it's

(01:13:30):
why I got so much to say becauseat the end of the fucking day,
all you had to say was I'm not interested in doing the premium
smoke room. I'm cool.
Can we do the smokers lounge or I ain't got to do it.
You ain't had to sit here and tell me about you got them
little publisher saying I don't feel good about my titties
coming out for free and I'm not getting no, no, no clients from

(01:13:52):
me. I'm like, babe, who the fuck?
I never guarantee you won't be clients in the first place.
Yeah, maybe that's you ain't gotshit to do with me.
Yeah, it's a bummer. And that's one thing obviously I
hated when I was in the business.
Women love blaming the men, the producers and the directors for

(01:14:15):
y'all shortcomings. We can't do how the fans react
to y'all motherfuckers. Right.
See, I would never even think todo that.
Yeah, you know, it's no different than when y'all pick
the dudes. Y'all can't predict how the fans
going to react to how y'all how they enjoy watching get fucked
by him. Yeah, you don't know somebody I

(01:14:38):
did a scene with. Oh, sorry.
Go ahead, go ahead. I was just going to say I I did
a scene with someone, I'm not going to say his name, but he
kept getting too close when I was giving him head and I was
happy about it because I was like this.
I'm really good at this. But then like he asked me later

(01:14:58):
to like not release the scene and then he blocked me and stuff
and I was like, what the fuck, dude.
It's not my fault that like in in the video, like you can tell
like he was getting close and I think he was just pissed because
he was all talking this big, youknow, game about being like
super professional and all that stuff.
And like I but I got upset because I was like, we agreed to

(01:15:20):
do a content share or whatever and then he just, I don't know,
but it bothered me and it was because he didn't like the way
it looked because he looked I guess like an amateur or
something. Like he looked like just like a
friend with benefits that I had instead of like a pro.
And it just rubbed me the wrong way cuz I'm like dude, just do

(01:15:42):
the scene. If you liked it, then that's
good. Like, I don't know, but it
pissed me off because it's like he wanted to look a certain way
because he didn't. He was trying to screw me over
on my content. And I was like, I fucking flew
across the country to try to do a couple of scenes and one of
them was with him. And then to do that I was, I was

(01:16:04):
pissed still. I am obviously.
I'm about to have me a quick little rant while I do these
clothes because I'm a male town and producer.
I take my glass off of this if you do, if you know who you are
and you hear this right that's some beta ass fucking energy my
dude. You know how many times a girl

(01:16:26):
made me park quick? You know what the fuck I did you
dumb son of a bitch. When I know I'm about to park I
got right especially especially she.
Give me here one I step back or we switch positions.
If I'm about to come off their head, guess what?
I step back, eat the person, letmy shit go down, and then we go

(01:16:49):
to the next position or here's another fucking fuck you dumb
son of a bitch. If you pop, go ahead whisp my
ear. Look, you're about to make me
pop. So look, I'm going to go ahead
and pop me your face and then I'm going to get it back up and
then we just going to finish outthe same here and I'm going to
that's the smart thing to do, you dumb son of a bitch.
It's called editing, You know, Imean trying to mother in the

(01:17:11):
cock quick and move the shit to the fucking end.
It's called editing. It's called you being a lazy
piece of shit and you mad because you couldn't handle her
blowjob nickel. Guess what that means she got
good throat. That means, motherfucker, maybe
you need to work on your mental aspect of walking in the
goddamn. You need to work on your mental
shit because it's mental. It's mental.

(01:17:33):
Simple as that. It's nothing wrong if you pop
quick. It fucking happens.
Now if you do that for the main companies, you will go on that
white list because they don't want you to pop quick.
But if you talk about content trade, *** I didn't pop twice in
the scene, bitch. *** I didn't pop three times in the scene.
Kept the bitch. You know, I mean, and honestly,

(01:17:55):
if you can do it multiple times,that looks good on you, right?
Like. Oh, or even back there was times
that I couldn't keep it hard. We turned it to a blowjob scene.
Yeah, motherfucker, it all can be used.
But see, the problem is your fucking ego.
Fuck your ego, *** Because guesswhat?
You ain't the star she is. Well, he's sorry.

(01:18:19):
I see your ego. I don't know.
And he honestly, he might have too big of an ego to even
realize that he's the one I'm talking about.
But I mean, I, I have part of the because I recorded on my
phone and then he recorded on his the other part of it.
So I didn't have the complete anything.

(01:18:40):
But what I do have is multiple times where he is trying to like
stop me and then stop me and then stop me and then stop me
because it was like at first I was insecure because I was like,
well shit, am I like grossing him out?
Like why is he backing away fromme?
And then I was like, Oh no, because this sound does not go

(01:19:02):
with me thinking he's not likingit.
It goes with me thinking, holy fuck, he likes this.
So it took me realizing like, oh, he was just embarrassed.
But instead he turned it into like a I'll block you thing and
not talk to you and I just don'twant to have your content kind
of thing. And I was just like, this is

(01:19:22):
wild to me. Like I it was just really weird.
So I just put a bad taste in my mouth.
You. See to the type that I am after
we did that shoot, I want to shoot with her again to get my
face back. I'm like, Oh no, she had me
popping like that. Let me get my mind right.
We going to shoot again. Hey, look, we want you to come
back. I'll pay for that trip.

(01:19:42):
There's a problem. For you damn male towners, y'all
lack testicle. God damn it y'all that forward
to y'all know the rest of it. You like balls, cojones?
OK, you know what I'm saying? You beat your cop wrong, you
feel me? And y'all know what I mean?
He's a bitch ass. He's a bitch ass, no disrespect.

(01:20:03):
And if I interviewed you and I stand on my shit dude, I don't
back down and keep that coming. So that way, I say, a lot of
these dudes claim to be great male talents.
No y'all just me and they want to fuck on camera.
It's a. Difference.
Yeah, period. It's so funny that you're saying

(01:20:24):
that, though 'cause it does. It seems to be the ones that are
trying to back up and say it so often.
It's frustrating because I'll see different things or hear
different things about all I worked with so and so.
And I'm like, really? How was your experience?
Because, you know, and it's just, it baffles me.

(01:20:45):
Yeah. Now.
'Cause I ain't going to front asa as a male talent.
There's some female that going to get you bro you.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, ain't going to be some girls that
going to get you, whether it's the blowjob or the doggy, you
know, pretty, there've been times when the girl arrived me,
I came, I came on her ass and put it right back in and said
let's keep going. Fuck that.

(01:21:07):
Yeah, I love. That that's hot.
It didn't finish with a popular goddamn face.
Oh, I know what it was. You can't come up but once, huh
buddy? You, you, you can't get it back
up after you bust a nut. That's what it is.
You were one shutting out and you got to wait all the six
hours for you to shoot again. That's what it is.

(01:21:27):
You can't have a 30 minute breakand get it right back up.
That's what it is. That's why you were so
embarrassed. Motherfucker.
My shit. I bust a nut.
My shit still be fucking hard. What's your problem?
It's a big game. Because I did it for 15 years
with damn good edit. Go look at my fucking videos,

(01:21:47):
motherfucker. You're cracking me up.
I love you. You're so funny.
Yeah, because shoot, I'm talkingabout now because I get sick of
tired of these *** acting like they're great male talents and
y'all don't even know how to be good male talents.
Y'all don't know how to got themused off hand to move the hat.
Damn face. So you don't use the on camera

(01:22:08):
hand. I can't even see her sucking the
Dick no goddamn more. But you swear every guy you a
great meal time get fucked out of here.
You want to pound over 15 fucking minutes?
I can't even see the Dick going in the pussy.
But then you want to complain when you pop quick.
Yeah, because you see they're trying.
You think you can last pounding the girl like that without
nothing? Yeah.
Boy, if they had a brain it'd bedangerous.

(01:22:40):
Oh God, should have got me revved up about this
motherfucker. That what I'm talking about.
Shit. I know, sorry.
But yeah, that was rough. It, I mean, it was annoying.
So like, I'm glad that you find it annoying too, because I was
like, do I have a right to be pissed about this?
And I'm like, yeah, I do. I fucking have a right to be
pissed about this because like, you know, you have an

(01:23:01):
arrangement, you want to make itwork, and then, you know, I lost
a week's worth of content because then I don't have those
clips I can do to build up to the actual video on my pages.
So now I got to start from scratch and try to figure out
who I can do content with or whatever.

(01:23:22):
So it was just really frustrating.
It wasn't this year, it was lastyear, but still it was very
frustrating. And even with me, it was a scene
that I didn't like, especially if my partner shot it.
I told him, you go ahead and runwith it.
I'm I'm good. You feel me?
But I ain't never sit there and say, hey man, don't push that
up. They kind of make me look bad.
Fuck that. Because that's what editing for

(01:23:42):
dumbass, for example, right. Like for example, I was
watching, it was a long time ago.
I was watching a conquer. It was when they started doing
the compilations where you had the straight fuck scene.
That was just straight fuck scenes.
Even they came from scenes that had skits.
But straight fuck scenes, you know, I mean you.

(01:24:05):
Yeah, mind you back then sex scenes probably lasted the sex
in the scene probably lasted maybe 10-15 minutes and backs.
So if you're talking about trying to do a straight fuck
scene DVD, you want the scene tobe at least 30 minutes.
So guess what they did copy and paste.
No, I said wait a second. I just saw that doggy style
position her to say the same thing about two minutes ago.

(01:24:27):
I rewind it back. I said, oh, they just basically
took that same scenic and to theend just extend it.
And the people that are watchingdon't give a flying fuck about
it 'cause they're just trying toget off unless.
You have them not paying attention.
Yeah, it ain't paying attention.See, I'm an observer
motherfucker like that. Some of y'all ain't.

(01:24:49):
Right. So hey, let me show you the A we
we're going to bring it to the premium smoke room OK, so we can
really chop it up. Y'all can see some tits and all
that and we're going to do avip smoke room.
So if you're listening and you're a premium smoker, go
ahead and start go ahead and start sending the questions.

(01:25:10):
You feel what I'm saying so she can answer them and everything
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(01:25:31):
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(01:26:13):
saying. I got whatever you want podcast
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tell everybody where they can find to spend money on you baby.
You can call, you can call me. You can call me.
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(01:26:35):
Same thing with my only fans. It's all under the same Cali
Freya. I do have like mini bids and oil
fans also, but like I don't knowif they're the same.
Somebody else set those up for me.
Then I also have cash app. That's the most important.
Oh yeah. Give me a tip.

(01:26:56):
And nothing wrong with that CashApp baby.
So people, you know, we at the end of you know what, you know
how we do this, right? What did you smoke over?
What did you learn? We're going to make this quick
and simple one. Sometimes you have to take power

(01:27:16):
back from the things that took your power and you may have to
do an unconventional way. Everybody's not going to want to
go to no goddamn therapist all the time.
Everybody ain't going to go to psychiatrist sometimes.
Your profession is your healing place.
You feel me? You know, I've been telling and
heard. I remember a pro wrestler by the

(01:27:39):
name of Kylie Ray. She has anxiety real bad.
She left wrestling back. She left wrestling a couple of
times because anxiety. Guess what?
She's now in the WWE, working inEvolve.
You feel what I'm saying? You have basketball players that
deal with anxiety. Got to go on that court and play
basketball. They use the basketball court as

(01:28:02):
their therapy. Two, let me make this clear.
Not every woman in this businessactually went through trauma.
Some of just love being in this business.
Some of these women that did youwent through trauma use this to
take back the power that the trauma took from them.
You can't tell somebody how to do therapy for themselves.

(01:28:24):
You can't some of you motherfuckers do drugs for your
therapy. Nothing.
I mean, hey, if it's weed, got no problem with it.
If a little bit of coke, I've got no problem with that.
If we do meth, I'm going to lookat you sideways.
But nonetheless, we, we live. We live one life and part of

(01:28:48):
living life, especially me hitting 50s, I want to be able
to experience to the fullest. I can't experience to the
fullest if I'm worried about what the fuck y'all something
bitch is thinking about and how you feel about me and this that
the third because you want to know why opinions are like
assholes. Everybody got one.
They're shitty. Yeah.

(01:29:10):
With that being said, life is a learning experience.
What's the point of the experience if you haven't
learned anything? Smoke this over.
Say goodbye to them, Miss Captain.
Bye, thanks for watching. None.

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