I Asked God to Choose When I'd Quit Smoking, and His Answer Changed Everything

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Have you ever wondered what would happen if you stopped trying to change yourself and instead asked God to choose the perfect timing? After an emotional breakdown in my previous episode, I disappeared from podcasting while secretly battling a spiritual crisis that was pulling me back toward old destructive habits.

In this raw, vulnerable conversation, I share how one month away from my faith showed me what "hell" truly feels like—not flames, but the emptiness of living without divine connection. The testimony unfolds with a moment that can only be described as supernatural: a fellow believer receiving a vision during prayer that perfectly mirrored words I'd spoken in my previous episode, proving God had been listening even when I wasn't speaking to Him.

The centerpiece of this spiritual journey involves my eight-year smoking addiction and the surprising approach that finally worked. Instead of making promises I couldn't keep, I surrendered control entirely: "God, YOU tell me when I'll quit smoking because I'm tired of breaking promises." His answer—"end of February"—manifested in perfect timing when my vape died on Valentine's Day, the first day of vacation when I could manage withdrawal symptoms without work pressures.

This isn't just a story about quitting a bad habit; it's about discovering how joy becomes a choice regardless of circumstances, how God prepares ways before we even ask, and why authentic faith exists beyond the failures of religious communities. For anyone who's felt like they've wandered too far to return, this testimony offers hope that the way back is already being prepared.

Whether you're a devoted believer, someone curious about spirituality, or even someone who has been hurt by religion, this deeply personal conversation explores how finding purpose sometimes requires losing your way first—and how divine timing works even when we've given up on ourselves.