March 4, 2025 • 18 mins
Have you ever wondered how life's hardest challenges can lead to healing and strength? Join me as I explore my journey of faith amidst chaos, sharing my experiences of living in a van, the struggles of daily life, and the profound connections I found along the way. This episode dives into the unexpected lessons learned while cleaning toilets, navigating relationships filled with jealousy, and ultimately leaning on my faith in God.Â
From facing the decision to file a RICO lawsuit after years of challenges to exploring the depths of my personal belief system, this episode presents an engaging narrative about transformation and resilience. Discover how my experiences led me to a deeper relationship with God while grappling with earthly struggles. You'll gain insights into how adversity can lead to profound self-discovery and personal growth.
Let my story inspire you to trust in your journey, recognizing that every setback can lead to a stronger foundation. I invite you to engage with the content, subscribe to the podcast, and share your own stories of triumph over adversity!
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello there everybody .
It's Heidi and this isSurviving Changes Podcast.
So Mark will be with us againthis weekend.
With the time differencebetween us, it's five hours.
He has to be at work during theday, it's just.
I don't want to make you guyswait for a whole week for us to
keep going, for two reasons.
One I would miss you and I hopeyou would miss me.
(00:22):
But the other reason is I thinkat the end of all this, we are
going to go ahead and file thatlawsuit, that big old RICO
lawsuit that I was planning forfor 13 years now.
More than perhaps, it just feelslike such a let down.
Doing all of this work, lookingat this big old tattoo ondown,
(00:47):
doing all of this work, lookingat this big old tattoo on my arm
where all of this evidence isburied, knowing that I didn't
kill Janet in her sleep.
There's just too much.
I think that needs to go to ajury.
Quite honestly, I know a lot ofwhat happened and I've told you
(01:10):
a lot of it, and then I'msaving a lot for either a
criminal case or a civil case orboth.
But I think a jury.
There's some stuff.
I don't know what happened andI don't think we'll ever know
the truth, and I think the verybest that we'll ever get to
knowing the truth is having ajury be a finder of fact, and so
(01:30):
I think that's what we're goingto do.
So where we're at now is Markhas just gone through his
radiation.
I'm getting a van fromsomething called the WIG
Committee, and me and him willtalk more about that.
I'm getting a van fromsomething called the Wig
Committee, and me and him willtalk more about that.
But essentially, what the WigCommittee is is another one of
(01:54):
my brother's friends,essentially from school, that
have come in and for differentreasons financial jealousy, just
a variety of reasons havebefriended me.
It's the same pattern, right?
I would have been able to seethis pattern by now.
Regardless, this is the thirdmajor time Jan has done this to
(02:15):
me, chris has done this to me,and now this supposed wig
committee has done this to me.
I see a pattern going on here.
They come in, they befriend youright when you're down.
Um are oh so kind it's.
It's a very clear pattern.
But remember by this point I hadbeen listening on that little
um earphone to Chris and also toJana.
(02:40):
I had been hooked up tointernets of both of theirs.
And so I I gotta I know what'sgoing on.
At this point I still don'tknow this, uh, that the people
in charge of it are like from afusion center or anything like
that.
I don't know about the, what afusion center is yet, but I do
(03:02):
look at.
I have texts, different grouptexts, I text.
I have enough stuff, um, that Iknow what the wig committee is
about and um, at this point Ihad a choice to make, um kill
these people because clearlythey weren't going to quit, or,
um, lean on god a lot.
(03:22):
And so, from here on out, Ileaned on God a lot, and I don't
just mean like weekly or evendaily, I mean sometimes hourly.
This is when me and God, webecame close.
I would say we became morepartners.
At this point I knew we'dalways had a contract together
(03:46):
that's good for 150 years.
That's why people are alwayslike well, how come you didn't
get killed?
You think, and things like that.
I'm like, well, it's because Idon't think any human has the
ability, or even Satan has theability, to cancel a contract
between me and God.
Only me and God have that theability to cancel a contract
(04:07):
between me and God, only me andGod have that.
So but at this point in time Iam very heavily relying on that
Bible and also the connectionthat I have now got with
Johnning, my Spirit Guide, withthat book, with the energy
classes.
I'm just pretty comfortable inmy own skin at this point and it
(04:29):
was pretty clear that there wasa whole lot of people that
wanted to make me feel bad aboutmyself, wanted to ruin my
credibility and all of that.
And at this point I had todecide because I had enough
evidence to out a lot of peopleat that point.
But it wasn't time.
God said it wasn't time and Idon't.
(04:53):
I didn't think it was time yetanyway, in fact I know it wasn't
.
If God says it's not, it's notright.
So I just let them continue tobehave the way they were
behaving and not confronting anyof them with it.
I got this cheap ass thousanddollar van out of the deal, so I
did try to work them for alittle stuff here and there.
They thought they were costingme my soul when in reality it
(05:14):
was costing them their soul.
God was very, very, very clear.
So, just so I can be very clear, I'm human and, with everything
that I've been through.
At this point it's natural towant to kill people, right, do
some mass shootings up in a fewplaces?
(05:34):
But my relationship with God?
At that time he kept sayingover and over and over again, my
relationship with God.
At that time he kept sayingover and over and over again
(05:55):
look, if you go mass shoot, Iwould probably forgive you for
that if you ask, and I believeyou, but it's for sure going to
keep you probably out of heavenand it's for sure going to keep
them out of hell.
At this point in time, based ontheir book, book of life record
, they're not getting in heaven.
They might not get anotherchance and they very well could
be looking at hell.
Heidi, so, um, do you want me tohandle it in the future or do
(06:19):
you want to handle it now?
Um, I, there's no love lost.
I don't want anybody to thinkthat I'm like some sort of angel
saint or anything like that.
I'm not.
I am a first Testament.
Um, you should have some fearin God and his wrath type person
(06:40):
.
And so, um, every single daythat I get up, I hope that I can
pray for them, and some days Ido, but every day I asked God to
make sure about that wholewrath deal, to make sure that he
(07:03):
wasn't fibbing about that stuff.
And I'm okay if it doesn'thappen on this on earth.
I see what's going on here.
I'm so over it.
I'm just not like I want to goout of here, but I'm just so
over earthly thoughts andearthly that crap the wig
(07:26):
committee, my brother killing mypuppy, the bar association.
I'm over it.
I like living in peace and meand God are at peace.
But so, um, at this point intime I'm moving into this van,
this thousand dollar van that Idon't know for sure if it's
going to get me down to mexico.
(07:48):
Um, I think mark, and he'lltell you.
I think he had a few bucks forme, um, but for the most part,
remember they had closed all myaccounts.
Uh, they had called me a thief.
I I had still, at this point,open charges because I missed
and probably a warrant because Imissed that last hearing on
Mark's last radiation day orwhatever I know what.
(08:12):
I took off and we can pull therecords, but who knows if
there's still good records ofthat.
But anyway, I was taking off,really needing some faith in God
.
I was able to work for DoorDash, because I had been doing that,
and Uber Eats.
And so, with the van, I packedit up with the few things I had
(08:36):
left, made it as comfortable aspossible, got Paloochie a little
spot in there, and then thethought was, um, with doordash,
you have to I mean, with um,uber eats, you have to get
approved for each city, uh, andit takes a little while.
So, like, when you're traveling, if you're going to a certain
city, you certainly can, um like, apply for that city and if
(08:59):
there's an opportunity, they'lllet you.
Uh, with doordash, you can justdrive into another city.
They find your location, theysay, hey, you're in a different
location, you want to swap, orat least at the time that's what
they did and you can swap.
And so, um, what I was doing wasI was going a little bit at a
time and because you can dodoordash and uberats with your
(09:20):
dog and with whatever vehicleyou wanted, we were living in
the van, pellucci was in the vanand to get a little bit of
money here and there, I just didDoorDash um all the way down to
Phoenix.
And once I got to Phoenix, um,I turned the Uber Eats on,
because from Phoenix on down tothe border there really is just
(09:42):
like Yuma and stuff left, and Ididn't have an opportunity to
earn any money from the borderall the way down to Cabo, and I
didn't know for sure what I wasgoing to do in Cabo when I got
there.
So, and remember, I ended upliving in Cabo Jacks, I'll tell
you about that.
So, remember, I ended up livingin Cabo Jacks, I'll tell you
(10:05):
about that.
But so the people on TikTokknow that I lived in the van
behind Cabo Jacks.
We'll get there.
But so, anyway, I planned onspending a little bit of time in
Phoenix, or at least in thePhoenix area, saving up money
until I had enough money to getacross the border and at least
had enough gas to get down toCabo.
Um, what that looked like wasso first I stayed at the top of
(10:30):
Phoenix, um, in different likewell, anywhere from like Walmart
parking lots, because I'mtrying to save money to um.
I don't know if you guys knowwhat Hip Camp is, but Hip Camp
is like an Airbnb, but for spotswhere you can just either park
or camp, and so I did a lot ofthat on the way down to Phoenix
(10:50):
and in that time, also inPhoenix.
I think it was on Craigslist,but I got a little job at Costco
.
You know those people that dothe little samples on the
weekend.
I did samples for a productcalled ZipFizz.
I actually call it ZipCrackBecause the people that used it
(11:12):
they were like it was like crackto them.
These people were.
I don't know if you've everheard of it, but it's called
ZipFizz.
I can probably still do thelittle speech for it, but I
won't bore you with it anyway.
So I did that for a little whilebut it was still getting
expensive and that it was onlyon the weekends, and so I
(11:33):
started working my way down alittle bit farther and I ended
up getting to a hip camp at WildWest RV Park in Maricopa County
, and so it's an RV park, butthey also were on hip camp and
it was I think it was $12 or $15a night to park there.
(11:53):
So it was a safe parking spot.
They had bathrooms and showersthere and they had internet and
power hookup.
So for me it was pretty good.
I would go there, had the vanall set up, had a little tent,
um that I got along the way indolan springs.
I can tell you about dolansprings.
(12:15):
I set up a hip camp for a gal inDolan Springs.
When I was waiting for myplates, for Mark to send the
plates and for to do that, shelet me stay there ten days and
gave me this tent.
So I also had a tent that I wasdragging along with me and so,
anyway, I am down at Wild WestRV Park and it's $15 a day To
(12:44):
make any decent money onDoorDash or Uber Eats.
You had to drive all the way upinto like Mesa and stuff like
that at least to start makingany money on DoorDash and Uber
Eats.
So every morning was kind of apain in the ass.
I had to go all the way up andthen start working, but it was
okay for $15.
(13:05):
So eventually, out of that deal, I ended up talking to the
owners and they gave me a RV,just a small little RV that they
weren't using, um, and it wasmy job to like clean it up, and
then I started cleaning the uhbathrooms and the showers in the
bathroom and, like their other,they had other little trailers
(13:28):
that they would Airbnb out, so Iwas just kind of like one of
their little handymen.
They had several little people,poor people that they kept
around as little working slaves,but for me it was fine, and
everybody so.
By this point, it truly was ajourney between me and God.
Now I know at any given time,if I want to, if I don't have
these gangstocking motherfuckershindering it, I have the
(13:51):
ability to like have a doctor oflaw for crying out loud.
I went from welfare to um,declining Obama's invitation for
business for the year,declining Obama's invitation for
business for the year.
I am not too worried about myability to get things done at
the time that I want to getthings done, but it's not that
time yet.
(14:11):
There's too much stuff that'sstill uncertain.
God still wants me to have afew lessons, several lessons,
and I'm still waiting for thendas to expire, um, and waiting
to see what's going to go onlike with the irs and and all of
those guys.
I I expect these guys will endup contacting me.
(14:34):
If I make enough, enough noiseat some point there will be a
boss that I can talk to.
You heard that conversationback in the ir, but so I was
also waiting for that call atthis point in time.
Now, there was a lot of peopleduring that time that really
gave me a lot of shit, becausefrom the outside it looked
(14:55):
really ugly.
Heidi's living in a van,cleaning toilets and showers at
Wild West RV Park.
How sad.
Toilets and showers at WildWest RV Park.
How sad.
When in reality, if anybodywould stop talking shit, they
wonder why they're like shedidn't miss us.
We gang stalked her and we allleft her and we thought she'd be
(15:16):
lonely.
She didn't miss us.
No, because you guys never didanything good for me.
I did the good stuff for you.
Guess what In the future, ifyou want someone to miss you, uh
, when you're there, be good tothem.
So there's something to miss,uh.
So I, at this point, I don'tgive a shit what these people
think.
All I care about is me andGod's relationship, because
(15:38):
eventually this stuff is goingto be corrected.
Whether it's by me, whetherit's by some guy named Trump
that gets elected, um by,whether it's by the hand of god
himself, I already know, um, wehaven't gone through all of this
for nothing, right, and so I'mwillingly cleaning these showers
and stuff like that.
(16:00):
And people are like why wouldyou do that?
And I'm like because, from hereon out, no matter what happens
if I turn around and makemillions of dollars.
One of the things you willnever hear me say is do you know
who I am?
And the reason is becausesomeone might turn around and
say, yeah, you're the chick thatcleaned toilets down at Wild
West RV Park.
(16:20):
That was between me and God.
It had nothing to do.
There's a lot of people thatwant to take credit for that,
but the truth of the matter isthat was between me and God From
leaving marks on down prettymuch every step, and it should
have been this way from thebeginning, but for sure it was
this way.
(16:40):
Once I got in that van, it wasnot about anything other than me
and god, period.
And so let's actually just stopat wild west rv park right
there and, um, I'll tell you howthat ended up going.
(17:01):
I actually loved.
I loved being there.
Was going to get too hot toosoon.
A phoenix in an RV, not, andcleaning toilets Totally not
worth it.
But there was a place out backwhere you could walk and get
fossils and crystals and justreally, really cool stuff, and
(17:22):
me and Pluchia would go walk outthere, talk to God, um, find
little fossils.
People would say, oh, heidi'scrazy.
And we'd be like, yeah, yeah,yeah, it's Heidi.
Heidi is the crazy one and shewalks with God.
So, um, yeah, let's leave itthere.
I'm in a van, looks really bad,doesn't feel that bad, but it
(17:46):
looks like it feels really bad.
And I'm letting people becausenow I know that there's a group
of people, I have their texts, Ihave their stuff.
There's a group of peoplewanting me to feel bad about
myself, wanting to discredit me,and first of all, I already
know from that Art of War bookif I was to fight them right
then with their resources and myresources, that was a for sure
(18:09):
loss.
So if they were working to makeme weak, might as well let them
think that it was working right, because the more I fought, the
harder they fought.
If it looked like I was givingin, it was a lot easier for me
to get stuff done.
So, all right, we'll leave itthere.
I'm cleaning toilets.
(18:30):
Wild West RV.
I'm Heidi and this is theSurviving Changes Podcast.
Hello there everybody .
It's Heidi and this isSurviving Changes Podcast.
So Mark will be with us againthis weekend.
With the time differencebetween us, it's five hours.
He has to be at work during theday, it's just.
I don't want to make you guyswait for a whole week for us to
keep going, for two reasons.
One I would miss you and I hopeyou would miss me.
(00:22):
But the other reason is I thinkat the end of all this, we are
going to go ahead and file thatlawsuit, that big old RICO
lawsuit that I was planning forfor 13 years now.
More than perhaps, it just feelslike such a let down.
Doing all of this work, lookingat this big old tattoo ondown,
(00:47):
doing all of this work, lookingat this big old tattoo on my arm
where all of this evidence isburied, knowing that I didn't
kill Janet in her sleep.
There's just too much.
I think that needs to go to ajury.
Quite honestly, I know a lot ofwhat happened and I've told you
(01:10):
a lot of it, and then I'msaving a lot for either a
criminal case or a civil case orboth.
But I think a jury.
There's some stuff.
I don't know what happened andI don't think we'll ever know
the truth, and I think the verybest that we'll ever get to
knowing the truth is having ajury be a finder of fact, and so
(01:30):
I think that's what we're goingto do.
So where we're at now is Markhas just gone through his
radiation.
I'm getting a van fromsomething called the WIG
Committee, and me and him willtalk more about that.
I'm getting a van fromsomething called the Wig
Committee, and me and him willtalk more about that.
But essentially, what the WigCommittee is is another one of
(01:54):
my brother's friends,essentially from school, that
have come in and for differentreasons financial jealousy, just
a variety of reasons havebefriended me.
It's the same pattern, right?
I would have been able to seethis pattern by now.
Regardless, this is the thirdmajor time Jan has done this to
(02:15):
me, chris has done this to me,and now this supposed wig
committee has done this to me.
I see a pattern going on here.
They come in, they befriend youright when you're down.
Um are oh so kind it's.
It's a very clear pattern.
But remember by this point I hadbeen listening on that little
um earphone to Chris and also toJana.
(02:40):
I had been hooked up tointernets of both of theirs.
And so I I gotta I know what'sgoing on.
At this point I still don'tknow this, uh, that the people
in charge of it are like from afusion center or anything like
that.
I don't know about the, what afusion center is yet, but I do
(03:02):
look at.
I have texts, different grouptexts, I text.
I have enough stuff, um, that Iknow what the wig committee is
about and um, at this point Ihad a choice to make, um kill
these people because clearlythey weren't going to quit, or,
um, lean on god a lot.
(03:22):
And so, from here on out, Ileaned on God a lot, and I don't
just mean like weekly or evendaily, I mean sometimes hourly.
This is when me and God, webecame close.
I would say we became morepartners.
At this point I knew we'dalways had a contract together
(03:46):
that's good for 150 years.
That's why people are alwayslike well, how come you didn't
get killed?
You think, and things like that.
I'm like, well, it's because Idon't think any human has the
ability, or even Satan has theability, to cancel a contract
between me and God.
Only me and God have that theability to cancel a contract
(04:07):
between me and God, only me andGod have that.
So but at this point in time Iam very heavily relying on that
Bible and also the connectionthat I have now got with
Johnning, my Spirit Guide, withthat book, with the energy
classes.
I'm just pretty comfortable inmy own skin at this point and it
(04:29):
was pretty clear that there wasa whole lot of people that
wanted to make me feel bad aboutmyself, wanted to ruin my
credibility and all of that.
And at this point I had todecide because I had enough
evidence to out a lot of peopleat that point.
But it wasn't time.
God said it wasn't time and Idon't.
(04:53):
I didn't think it was time yetanyway, in fact I know it wasn't
.
If God says it's not, it's notright.
So I just let them continue tobehave the way they were
behaving and not confronting anyof them with it.
I got this cheap ass thousanddollar van out of the deal, so I
did try to work them for alittle stuff here and there.
They thought they were costingme my soul when in reality it
(05:14):
was costing them their soul.
God was very, very, very clear.
So, just so I can be very clear, I'm human and, with everything
that I've been through.
At this point it's natural towant to kill people, right, do
some mass shootings up in a fewplaces?
(05:34):
But my relationship with God?
At that time he kept sayingover and over and over again, my
relationship with God.
At that time he kept sayingover and over and over again
(05:55):
look, if you go mass shoot, Iwould probably forgive you for
that if you ask, and I believeyou, but it's for sure going to
keep you probably out of heavenand it's for sure going to keep
them out of hell.
At this point in time, based ontheir book, book of life record
, they're not getting in heaven.
They might not get anotherchance and they very well could
be looking at hell.
Heidi, so, um, do you want me tohandle it in the future or do
(06:19):
you want to handle it now?
Um, I, there's no love lost.
I don't want anybody to thinkthat I'm like some sort of angel
saint or anything like that.
I'm not.
I am a first Testament.
Um, you should have some fearin God and his wrath type person
(06:40):
.
And so, um, every single daythat I get up, I hope that I can
pray for them, and some days Ido, but every day I asked God to
make sure about that wholewrath deal, to make sure that he
(07:03):
wasn't fibbing about that stuff.
And I'm okay if it doesn'thappen on this on earth.
I see what's going on here.
I'm so over it.
I'm just not like I want to goout of here, but I'm just so
over earthly thoughts andearthly that crap the wig
(07:26):
committee, my brother killing mypuppy, the bar association.
I'm over it.
I like living in peace and meand God are at peace.
But so, um, at this point intime I'm moving into this van,
this thousand dollar van that Idon't know for sure if it's
going to get me down to mexico.
(07:48):
Um, I think mark, and he'lltell you.
I think he had a few bucks forme, um, but for the most part,
remember they had closed all myaccounts.
Uh, they had called me a thief.
I I had still, at this point,open charges because I missed
and probably a warrant because Imissed that last hearing on
Mark's last radiation day orwhatever I know what.
(08:12):
I took off and we can pull therecords, but who knows if
there's still good records ofthat.
But anyway, I was taking off,really needing some faith in God
.
I was able to work for DoorDash, because I had been doing that,
and Uber Eats.
And so, with the van, I packedit up with the few things I had
(08:36):
left, made it as comfortable aspossible, got Paloochie a little
spot in there, and then thethought was, um, with doordash,
you have to I mean, with um,uber eats, you have to get
approved for each city, uh, andit takes a little while.
So, like, when you're traveling, if you're going to a certain
city, you certainly can, um like, apply for that city and if
(08:59):
there's an opportunity, they'lllet you.
Uh, with doordash, you can justdrive into another city.
They find your location, theysay, hey, you're in a different
location, you want to swap, orat least at the time that's what
they did and you can swap.
And so, um, what I was doing wasI was going a little bit at a
time and because you can dodoordash and uberats with your
(09:20):
dog and with whatever vehicleyou wanted, we were living in
the van, pellucci was in the vanand to get a little bit of
money here and there, I just didDoorDash um all the way down to
Phoenix.
And once I got to Phoenix, um,I turned the Uber Eats on,
because from Phoenix on down tothe border there really is just
(09:42):
like Yuma and stuff left, and Ididn't have an opportunity to
earn any money from the borderall the way down to Cabo, and I
didn't know for sure what I wasgoing to do in Cabo when I got
there.
So, and remember, I ended upliving in Cabo Jacks, I'll tell
you about that.
So, remember, I ended up livingin Cabo Jacks, I'll tell you
(10:05):
about that.
But so the people on TikTokknow that I lived in the van
behind Cabo Jacks.
We'll get there.
But so, anyway, I planned onspending a little bit of time in
Phoenix, or at least in thePhoenix area, saving up money
until I had enough money to getacross the border and at least
had enough gas to get down toCabo.
Um, what that looked like wasso first I stayed at the top of
(10:30):
Phoenix, um, in different likewell, anywhere from like Walmart
parking lots, because I'mtrying to save money to um.
I don't know if you guys knowwhat Hip Camp is, but Hip Camp
is like an Airbnb, but for spotswhere you can just either park
or camp, and so I did a lot ofthat on the way down to Phoenix
(10:50):
and in that time, also inPhoenix.
I think it was on Craigslist,but I got a little job at Costco
.
You know those people that dothe little samples on the
weekend.
I did samples for a productcalled ZipFizz.
I actually call it ZipCrackBecause the people that used it
(11:12):
they were like it was like crackto them.
These people were.
I don't know if you've everheard of it, but it's called
ZipFizz.
I can probably still do thelittle speech for it, but I
won't bore you with it anyway.
So I did that for a little whilebut it was still getting
expensive and that it was onlyon the weekends, and so I
(11:33):
started working my way down alittle bit farther and I ended
up getting to a hip camp at WildWest RV Park in Maricopa County
, and so it's an RV park, butthey also were on hip camp and
it was I think it was $12 or $15a night to park there.
(11:53):
So it was a safe parking spot.
They had bathrooms and showersthere and they had internet and
power hookup.
So for me it was pretty good.
I would go there, had the vanall set up, had a little tent,
um that I got along the way indolan springs.
I can tell you about dolansprings.
(12:15):
I set up a hip camp for a gal inDolan Springs.
When I was waiting for myplates, for Mark to send the
plates and for to do that, shelet me stay there ten days and
gave me this tent.
So I also had a tent that I wasdragging along with me and so,
anyway, I am down at Wild WestRV Park and it's $15 a day To
(12:44):
make any decent money onDoorDash or Uber Eats.
You had to drive all the way upinto like Mesa and stuff like
that at least to start makingany money on DoorDash and Uber
Eats.
So every morning was kind of apain in the ass.
I had to go all the way up andthen start working, but it was
okay for $15.
(13:05):
So eventually, out of that deal, I ended up talking to the
owners and they gave me a RV,just a small little RV that they
weren't using, um, and it wasmy job to like clean it up, and
then I started cleaning the uhbathrooms and the showers in the
bathroom and, like their other,they had other little trailers
(13:28):
that they would Airbnb out, so Iwas just kind of like one of
their little handymen.
They had several little people,poor people that they kept
around as little working slaves,but for me it was fine, and
everybody so.
By this point, it truly was ajourney between me and God.
Now I know at any given time,if I want to, if I don't have
these gangstocking motherfuckershindering it, I have the
(13:51):
ability to like have a doctor oflaw for crying out loud.
I went from welfare to um,declining Obama's invitation for
business for the year,declining Obama's invitation for
business for the year.
I am not too worried about myability to get things done at
the time that I want to getthings done, but it's not that
time yet.
(14:11):
There's too much stuff that'sstill uncertain.
God still wants me to have afew lessons, several lessons,
and I'm still waiting for thendas to expire, um, and waiting
to see what's going to go onlike with the irs and and all of
those guys.
I I expect these guys will endup contacting me.
(14:34):
If I make enough, enough noiseat some point there will be a
boss that I can talk to.
You heard that conversationback in the ir, but so I was
also waiting for that call atthis point in time.
Now, there was a lot of peopleduring that time that really
gave me a lot of shit, becausefrom the outside it looked
(14:55):
really ugly.
Heidi's living in a van,cleaning toilets and showers at
Wild West RV Park.
How sad.
Toilets and showers at WildWest RV Park.
How sad.
When in reality, if anybodywould stop talking shit, they
wonder why they're like shedidn't miss us.
We gang stalked her and we allleft her and we thought she'd be
(15:16):
lonely.
She didn't miss us.
No, because you guys never didanything good for me.
I did the good stuff for you.
Guess what In the future, ifyou want someone to miss you, uh
, when you're there, be good tothem.
So there's something to miss,uh.
So I, at this point, I don'tgive a shit what these people
think.
All I care about is me andGod's relationship, because
(15:38):
eventually this stuff is goingto be corrected.
Whether it's by me, whetherit's by some guy named Trump
that gets elected, um by,whether it's by the hand of god
himself, I already know, um, wehaven't gone through all of this
for nothing, right, and so I'mwillingly cleaning these showers
and stuff like that.
(16:00):
And people are like why wouldyou do that?
And I'm like because, from hereon out, no matter what happens
if I turn around and makemillions of dollars.
One of the things you willnever hear me say is do you know
who I am?
And the reason is becausesomeone might turn around and
say, yeah, you're the chick thatcleaned toilets down at Wild
West RV Park.
(16:20):
That was between me and God.
It had nothing to do.
There's a lot of people thatwant to take credit for that,
but the truth of the matter isthat was between me and God From
leaving marks on down prettymuch every step, and it should
have been this way from thebeginning, but for sure it was
this way.
(16:40):
Once I got in that van, it wasnot about anything other than me
and god, period.
And so let's actually just stopat wild west rv park right
there and, um, I'll tell you howthat ended up going.
(17:01):
I actually loved.
I loved being there.
Was going to get too hot toosoon.
A phoenix in an RV, not, andcleaning toilets Totally not
worth it.
But there was a place out backwhere you could walk and get
fossils and crystals and justreally, really cool stuff, and
(17:22):
me and Pluchia would go walk outthere, talk to God, um, find
little fossils.
People would say, oh, heidi'scrazy.
And we'd be like, yeah, yeah,yeah, it's Heidi.
Heidi is the crazy one and shewalks with God.
So, um, yeah, let's leave itthere.
I'm in a van, looks really bad,doesn't feel that bad, but it
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looks like it feels really bad.
And I'm letting people becausenow I know that there's a group
of people, I have their texts, Ihave their stuff.
There's a group of peoplewanting me to feel bad about
myself, wanting to discredit me,and first of all, I already
know from that Art of War bookif I was to fight them right
then with their resources and myresources, that was a for sure
(18:09):
loss.
So if they were working to makeme weak, might as well let them
think that it was working right, because the more I fought, the
harder they fought.
If it looked like I was givingin, it was a lot easier for me
to get stuff done.
So, all right, we'll leave itthere.
I'm cleaning toilets.
(18:30):
Wild West RV.
I'm Heidi and this is theSurviving Changes Podcast.
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