October 22, 2023 • 50 mins
- SMC makes her exit to work on other LRF projects, but will be returning for Dirty Book Corner occasionally.
- Guest is Deanna Ogle - also known online as Ms Eldritch
- Known for her Magic the Gathering content and DnD content online.
- https://linktr.ee/MsEldritch
- Sexy Profile:
- Grew up religious
- Bisexual
- Switch
- Leans more as a top these days
- Exhibitionism
- Voyeurism
- Praise kink
- Degradation
- Grew up religious/sheltered
- Married at 20
- He was vanilla, she was not
- Heard from friends who were attending sexy dungeons and wanted to try it real bad.
- Ended up getting divorced.
- Dove into full polyamory and kink at that point.
- Tosin regales a story of the person he was dating during the height of his jesus years and the compromises they made to get sexy.
- While making out fully clothed, laying down in bed, there had to be gospel music playing and they would pray into each other’s ears.
- Processing feelings through impact play
- WE ARE NOT SUGGESTING/PROMOTING COPING MECHANISMS - just sharing experiences.
- Therapy’s great! We recommend that!
- Deanna gives Tosin ON OFFICIAL RECORD that he can show the video she made for him to people if he wants. 😀
- Tosin revisits early days with LiveJournal doing cum-tributes for people.
- Tosin loses concentration because #SexyKaceyVoice
- Deanna reminds us she’s real queer
- The keys to successful dirty talk are commitment and enthusiasm.
- Tosin gives a tutorial on dirty talkin’
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Well, well, well, go ahead and open up your ears,
your mind and whatever else youneed.
You're listening to Talk DirtyTo Me.
Speaker 2 (00:23):
Hello all you sexy beasts and welcome back to Talk
Dirty To Me, the podcast wherethree friends with three
different perspectives on kink,fetish and sex talk dirty to one
another.
And today we have two of ourfabulous hosts with you.
We have Tosen Aouf Esso.
Orochol and we have me, kasey,your neighborhood femdom
extraordinaire, femdom-ishextraordinaire, and we have a
(00:46):
special guest for you today.
But first I'm going to do alittle business.
I just want to let everybodyknow that our darling Sarah
Murray is stepping away fromTalk Dirty To Me.
For the time being she will bedropping in to do Sarah Murray's
dirty book corner and thingslike that and being an extra
host when we need one, but she'sgoing to focus on other little
run-and-gade projects with hertime.
So we all love her and we'llmiss her, and now we are three,
(01:09):
we'll two today.
Anyways, tosen, I'm going toleave the intro to you.
This is your beautiful, lovelyguest.
Speaker 1 (01:15):
Yes, sarah Murray, you will be the best.
We love you.
You're great and press on.
You're awesome, but today wehave Deanna.
You will also be able to findher online as Ms Eldridge, with
various things.
Probably one of the more nerdyand intriguing things to me is
that you're pretty decentlywell-known online for magic, the
(01:38):
gathering content creation andD&D content creation.
So, before we get into thedirty things, do you want to
talk about that, how you gotinto that, how people got to
know you that way, and also sayhi.
Speaker 3 (01:48):
Yes, also hi.
Speaker 1 (01:50):
Hello everyone.
Speaker 3 (01:50):
Yeah, I was sort of like a product of the pandemic.
I have dated people over theyears that have been very into
magic, and so I feel like it wasonly a matter of time until I
kind of got sucked into it.
And then, the summer of 2018, Ibelieve, I had a friend that
was just like come over andteaching you and taught me a
particular format calledCommander.
And then I found Arena, whichis like a desktop client, and
(02:13):
then the pandemic hit and I wasable to maintain a social life
through Twitter and found abunch of other magic people and
found a way to also play withour physical cards both people
across the world and then itjust kind of took off and found
my little corner of the internet.
Speaker 1 (02:27):
So, yeah, we love fun fancy corners of the internet,
so I like to you know start outgetting to know people about.
You know we're a kink sexpodcast and we do kinky sexy
things.
So how would you identifyyourself on the kink BDSM
spectrum and how did you getinto it?
(02:48):
Things like that.
Speaker 3 (02:49):
Let's see.
Well or well, some bisexual,very queer, also switch.
These days I am more topleaning, so I'm a little, I
guess, left of the of the slash,more than I used to be, and how
I got into, I mean, we can getinto like the whole, like list
of you know all of theparticulars that we want to.
Yeah, please.
All the particulars, all theparticulars, okay, but I would
(03:12):
say my top ones that just add to.
Like the, the bisexual in theswitch is like I also have, you
know, exhibitionism andvoyeurism and a praise kink and
also love degradation as well.
So it's like this whole mix ofall of the things and what you
did.
Tell me that I'm a good girl,but also like the best filthiest
girl, or like the you know thebest, I love it.
Speaker 2 (03:31):
Whatever?
Speaker 3 (03:32):
Yeah, it's a little weird on paper but I'm like I
promise you know it makes senseto me and my in my body somehow.
But yeah, I think the way I gotinto it was I so actually Tosen
you and I should chat sometimebecause it sounds like we might
have sort of similar backgrounds, as I grew up very religious
and so I was sheltered for along time and then kind of came
(03:52):
out of it into like the adultdating world.
But I got married at a veryyoung age and so I got married
at 20.
Don't do that, don't recommendit to anybody.
And then, but like as I wassort of married and kind of
coming into the real world andgetting to know things, I was
like man like my husband willnot even like pull my hair,
won't even like hold my wristsdown a little bit, like come on,
give me something.
So he was just very like themost.
(04:13):
You know, that's great Ifyou're vanilla, totally fine.
If that's what you're into, Ithink that's lovely.
But I'm not.
So I had I had a friend.
Speaker 4 (04:21):
Did you know you?
Speaker 3 (04:22):
were kinky.
At that point I think I hadsome suspicions.
I had a couple of friends thatwould tell me about their like
when they would go to dungeonsand like some of the things that
they were into, and I wasalways just like I want to try
that, can I try that?
Let me try that, can I just canI do it?
And I had this like littlesuspicion that I would be like
very into it if I was given thespace to try it and then ended
up going through a divorce.
(04:42):
And then, yeah, like basicallyonce I once I hit being
unattached, I went fullpolyamorous and full kink and
just dove into all the thingsthat I felt like I've been
missing for the past you knowhowever many years and found a
lovely group of people and thenmoved to Texas and then found a
bunch of other kinky people andso, yeah, it was kind of just
say I had a suspicion that Iwould like the things I was
(05:03):
hearing about.
Speaker 1 (05:03):
And then I got to try them and I was correct.
So and I'm still discoveringnew things, so yeah, yeah, I
think the adventure, I think thegetting out of church and
falling into kink pipeline is avery popular one.
I mean, our other host hassimilar stories and you know me
myself you know, I went tochurch also being the queer and
bisexual and into all kinds ofbodies and just being like Jesus
(05:28):
is going to be mad at mebecause I like that dick.
I don't know what to do aboutit and you know you spend all of
that time.
One of the jokes I like to makeis like the only thing that I
really miss about being superChristian is, like man, you
cannot be Christian.
Sexual tension it's just likeoh man, jesus says we shouldn't,
but I really want it.
Speaker 3 (05:50):
It's hard to replicate oh man, you cannot be
Jesus.
Speaker 2 (05:55):
sexual tension yeah, that's it.
It's like go to the night.
Speaker 3 (05:58):
Yeah, yeah, definitely.
There was some like just great,a, just peak, dry, humping for
sure during like the well, weshouldn't because we're still
Virgin's but we want each otherreally bad.
And then just gets really hotbecause, like you're trying to
figure out all the things youcan't.
Where you can do the things,like well, it's cool.
Maybe we can make out if we'relike not laying down and we have
all our clothes on, or likewhat if we?
(06:19):
What if we're like laying downwith still all the clothes on?
Or like, well, what if we?
What if we take like just theouter things off but like all of
the you know underwear andstuff is still on, so
technically, you know, and thenit just progresses from there.
But yeah, it's hard toreplicate like it's.
It's very hot in its own waywhen you don't have the full
menu.
Speaker 2 (06:35):
I like that.
The more near you get like, themore Lineart.
Speaker 1 (06:41):
Matt, you want to hear the Wildest but also
sexiest compromise that I'veever made for Jesus.
I was dating yes, I was datingsomeone who, like I like wanted
really bad all through highschool and it basically got to
the point where, like they werefinding God Right when I was at
the peak of my Jesus Ness and so, like they, at that point they
(07:03):
had considered me be the personthat like had brought from the
Christ.
Anyway, we liked each other fora really long time, hey, but
they lived in a different cityand after we started dating, we
were like kind of visiting eachother back and forth on one of
the Whatever is this to come seeme.
We were laying down in bedtogether and like we had a whole
like Christian thing we're likeGod can't do us in a dream and
said it's gonna be okay for usto make out because we were
(07:24):
diligent About being like.
No, like, the first time I sawher after we were not going to.
We had met.
We're like we're not gonnatouch each other, like we've
known each other for five yearsand it was like, oh you know, to
stop temptation anyway, at thispoint time we're allowing each
other to make out, but like wehad like progressed to like
making out, laying down in a bed, clothes dry humping, super hot
(07:45):
.
Our compromise to keep us fromslipping into temptation was to
be listening to gospel music andPraying in each other's ear.
Which, which?
This is what that?
Which is just the, just the,just the most Roundabout version
(08:05):
of dirty talking ever, becausewhat that sounds like is, while
dry humping each other, we'regonna be like dealer.
Honey, father, please do notlet us slip into temptation, do
not let our bodies, as much asthey want each other to pass the
, keep your eyes on us as Likewe're making out dry humping,
while we're doing the saying ofthis into each other's ears.
Speaker 3 (08:26):
And I like and also like your voice.
Yeah in the ear.
Speaker 1 (08:31):
Yeah, she's, she's, she's a very talented singer.
She was so it was like andwe're listening to gospel music
and we're like also Singingalong to the songs, like
harmonizing each other whilealso praying to keep each other
from fucking each other bybasically Pray dirty, talking to
each other, and I was like thisis what I mean by like I
couldn't get in that situation.
Now I could like fake it, Icould do it again, but there's
(08:51):
like the thing I was like Ilegitimately was like both of us
so badly want to fuck eachother and the only way to stop
ourselves is to pray At eachother while gospel music is
playing and we're dry humpingeach other, which we have deep
emotional feelings about, shit.
Speaker 3 (09:08):
Yeah, you just can't replicate it when you're just
like I can do all the thingsthat I want to with a variety of
humans.
Now, it's not gonna have thesame, but yeah, like both of us
here, I just like feeling somefeelings about that story.
So, yeah, I just can'treplicate it.
I think that might also be sortof where I got some of the kink
stuff from.
Is some of the like Authoritythings wrapped up in religion,
but now I get to do it in a waythat's fun for me and rewards my
(09:32):
agency, instead of just likedon't do the thing.
We've got a giant scoreboardand we're checking everything
you do because of the Lord hadreasons.
Speaker 1 (09:38):
So yep, I mean no gets to be like the, the
original, the original DS.
Dynamic is the Lord and yoursoul.
Speaker 3 (09:48):
Yep, mm-hmm, being being subservient to God.
Our father, mm-hmm?
Yeah, you know.
Speaker 1 (09:53):
But yeah, no, I think Christianity pipe like gets in
there and the a lot of.
I just recently wrote a poem.
I'm waiting for Stephanie toget back about it.
That's like talks about thatspecifically.
So stick around.
We'll keep that Show up for allthe people sounds awesome so
fun, like sort of related story.
Speaker 3 (10:10):
Yes, okay, it's like still in little ways kind of
turns me on.
And one of my favorite likeirreverent things that I've done
is I was in a Bookstore.
There's a very, very oldbookstore.
It's like three stories justpacked with like old editions
and kind of unique and rareinteresting books in downtown
Detroit.
Right, I didn't live in Detroitbut I lived kind of nearby and
I was with someone who Iprobably shouldn't have been
(10:32):
with and got fingered in.
It Was like one of the upstairsback sections that was full of
like old coral music and I wasjust like, yes, I feel like this
is like forbidden andirreverent, like really hot at
the same time and like that's agood time.
Speaker 2 (10:45):
Yes, the blazes people finger or get fingered
for the first time is alwaysvery interesting.
I feel like, because you'reyoung so you can't really like
do it at home, you don't reallyknow how to be appropriate is
sprung upon you, you don't havewillpower, like, so you're just
like well, here we are in thecorner.
(11:07):
This is happening right now.
Speaker 3 (11:11):
Nope, yeah.
Speaker 1 (11:14):
Hello, daryn.
Now man, I I used to.
I did used to masturbate inwild places, but I don't know
that I figured anybody anywhereweird.
Well, actually speaking ofexhibition and doing things in
public and being watched andliking it, and my apologies, I
got excited.
I like the end a lot.
I don't think I actually eversaid Hi, this is Deanna, we're
friends, we are part of asimilar Austin kinky community
(11:36):
together and you know I'm notexactly sure how we first
started talking, but I do knowour probably first interaction
with one another is.
You're also a content creator.
You make like online sexycontent that people can have and
see and I ordered a custom fromyou a custom like video, so
like you request some.
(11:57):
Sexy activity and you know,deanna graciously made in this
is holding on.
There's a time stamp on it.
I can just check.
I've had it for early pandemic.
It was like three years.
Speaker 2 (12:09):
So, Danny, you have an only fans?
Yes, I'm an only fans.
Do you consider yourself a sexworker?
Speaker 3 (12:15):
I think so.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
A spicy worker?
Yeah, spicy worker, yeah.
And is it like a hobby or justnot?
Full For funsies?
There's a full time.
Speaker 3 (12:21):
No for funsies.
I also have a day job Forfunsies, yeah, so I'd still say
sex worker, but not you know.
I feel like there's a linebetween like what I do online
versus like full service sort ofthing.
Speaker 2 (12:31):
But yes, I still think it's a realm of like you
don't, you don't see people, butyou sell videos of yourself.
Speaker 3 (12:35):
Right, exactly, yeah.
Speaker 2 (12:37):
Gotcha yeah.
Speaker 3 (12:37):
Cool.
Speaker 1 (12:38):
Yes, and I partake of this particular service a few
years ago and so if people onthe podcast know that, like my
big jams are, I love hearingpeople climax.
I love hearing people climaxwhile they say my name and I
like attention to me pledgingmyself to another person.
So this custom is basicallyDeanna sitting in a chair saying
(13:00):
your woman, your name, and inthe three years that I've had
this video, I've came to thatthing hundreds of times,
hundreds.
Speaker 2 (13:09):
It is literally.
Speaker 1 (13:10):
I have a specific folder that's like the hurry up
folder, so it's like I only havea certain amount of time in the
master band.
It's your one of the three orfour videos that are in there
and I was just like that'll bethe easy, quick finish.
So again you were sayingearlier was like I'm an
exhibitionist.
I have a praise team.
I like being told a good girl.
I was like I'm gonna get youlater.
Speaker 3 (13:29):
I'm gonna get you later.
Oh, yeah, yeah don't worry.
Yes, oh, no, that makes me sohappy.
Speaker 2 (13:35):
I, how long have you been doing?
Speaker 3 (13:37):
only fans, let's see it, this sort of done it in two
sections.
So I did it from like 20, 20 to20, 21, I think.
So I did for about a year andthen had a decent amount.
I made some like a little bitof money and then closed it
because of work stuff.
Basically I sort of do thething where, like, I started a
new hobby and it's reallyexciting for a while and then
(13:59):
I'm like, oh, it takes somemaintenance.
Speaker 4 (14:00):
I got to like yeah, keep doing this thing.
Speaker 3 (14:03):
And so it was like a combination of like work.
Stuff was kind of taking overand also kind of running out of
steam, and so I shuttered it fora while and then restarted it
back in last December.
So I've been going for 10months.
Nice, it kind of feeds my like.
I already kind of like doingthis anyway.
I already kind of like, youknow, sharing nudes and sending
hot videos and turning people on, and so it's like now I get to
(14:25):
do that and also get paid for it, so like a fun.
Speaker 2 (14:28):
Nice.
Speaker 3 (14:29):
Yeah, yeah.
Speaker 2 (14:31):
How many followers do you have on OnlyFans?
Speaker 3 (14:33):
I've had a peak of like just over 400.
I think I'm at, like Nice, alittle under 300 right now, kind
of like ebbs and flows,depending on like how much.
Yeah yeah, content I'm making,how much I'm promoting it, that
kind of thing.
Speaker 2 (14:45):
That's awesome though .
Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 3 (14:47):
I also feel like my video is getting a little fuzzy,
but yeah, I really like it.
It's been really fun andvalidating and it kind of feeds
to like the praise kink and theyou know like.
Yeah, just tell me what youthink about me.
And then I love the idea thatthere's like videos and photos
of me floating around and peopleare coming to it.
I really like really does itfor me.
Speaker 1 (15:03):
So Well, I can anecdotally say that that
happens frequently for sure.
Speaker 3 (15:11):
Well good, that makes me really happy.
I'm just going to put that inlike my little going to put that
in my cap of like mostflattering things people have
ever said to me, Cap.
Speaker 1 (15:20):
Yeah, keep it it is.
It is a prize possession.
I appreciate it greatly.
I should bother you for anotherone of these days.
Speaker 3 (15:27):
You should, so just let me know.
Speaker 1 (15:29):
A question that I've wanted to know from you for a
while, because I feel like we'reboth I was looking for
explorers or cartographers ofthe kink world Like I think
we're fascinated by the varioustypes of experiences that we can
have.
Usually, when I hear someonethat says something like I'm
sexual, I'm also a switch.
I also like being watched and Ilike watching other people.
Usually that that usually hitsthe spot of being like I want to
(15:52):
see and do all the sexy things.
So what is one, what issomething that you've been like,
always wanted to try or alwayswanted to get into that you
haven't been able to do yet, andwhy haven't you been able to do
it?
Speaker 3 (16:05):
Something I want to try but haven't been able to get
into.
Oh, I feel like there's so manyI would love to.
I think I would love to do likebe the receiver of Shabari,
like suspension, like tie up andkind of hung up sort of, and
that one is just because Ihaven't.
I know there's like workshopsand I know there's like a really
pretty decent community ofpeople around here that do that
(16:25):
kind of thing.
So I just really haven't goneto seek out to be like, okay,
this is something I would liketo experience, and then go and
seek the people that would dothat.
I'm trying to think what elseI've had.
Well, I don't know if that's akinky thing, I want to try
cupping.
I think would be great.
I've seen it done like a littlefire cups.
Yeah, so they're like theselittle.
They're either plastic or glass.
(16:45):
So if you've ever seen, therewas a thing a couple of years
ago when Michael Phelps was inthe Olympics and he had these
like suction marks all over himand people are like what
happened to his back, likewhat's going on.
So they're like plastic orglass and they kind of put them
on your mostly on your back, andthen heat up the cups and it
creates this like suction andthen it some of it is used for
like pain relief.
Some of it is just for becauseit feels good.
(17:07):
Some of it's, you know,definitely like kinksters, I
know.
Have you know sort of done itas well?
So that's something that I'veseen done to other people but I
have not experienced myself.
Yeah, those are, those are kindof like the ones I can think of
off the top of my head.
That is it sort of pinned, islike, yes, I would like to do
the thing and I have not donethe thing.
Speaker 1 (17:23):
So it's nice.
Yeah, you also said that you'releaning towards the top side of
the slash.
I'd love to hear how did?
How did you get into?
Because it also sounds like youdidn't start there, like that's
been.
That's a newer development inyour journey, so how'd you get
into that which?
What have you done?
What fancy things.
Speaker 3 (17:43):
Yeah, I definitely didn't start there.
I for sure started on the yeah,definitely on the much more
like sub side.
And you know I really like youknow I love insects like a bit
of pain, I love being held down,I love being restrained, I love
like breath, play hands on the,you know, in the neck, pulling
the hair, that, all that sort ofstuff.
So it was sort of that was myintro into like, well, okay, I'm
(18:05):
going to be the receiver ofthat.
Therefore, I'm more on thebottom side, but especially
during the pandemic, I startedseeing someone that was more
subby than I was and it was sortof a long distance thing.
It was in the middle of thepandemic so we couldn't like
really go and see each other.
So we did a lot of like hotsexting, like erotic
storytelling with each other.
That was really, really fun andso that's sort of how I kind of
(18:27):
ended up leaning into that inthe beginning.
And I'm also the kind of personthat I think to your point
earlier, when you kind of haveall the stuff and you want to
try all the things, I reallylike finding stuff that people
are into being like, oh, youlike that.
It's one of those like maybe I'mnot into it or haven't thought
that I'd be into it, but they'reinto it and then it gets really
hot and then I'm just like cool, we're doing that thing, it's
(18:48):
delicious, and that that's partof it.
Is like finding peopleespecially as my dating has
gotten queer over time findingpeople that kind of either are
switchy or a little bit moresub-bottom leaning than I am,
and then I kind of justnaturally like float into that
and I think just kind ofaccepting my own power and my
own ways I can influence peopleand finding my own sense of
(19:10):
satisfaction when that happens.
So it's definitely more.
I'm not necessarily like animpact top, it's much more of a
like mental top, more emotionaland, yes, mental.
It's a great way of saying it.
Yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 (19:24):
No, no, I feel as I feel as I'm weighing, you know
like I consider myself like aservice switch.
So, like most of the activitythings that I like to do, I'm
generally like indifferent aboutinternally.
Like the way that the decisionis made is like what is this
person going to like?
And I'm going to do thatbecause the center of most of my
kinks is like I derive a lot ofpleasure from getting other
(19:45):
people pleasure.
You know, kind of like it'saddictive and oral addiction in
general.
Most people seem like that, butyou know it's like I don't take
.
Well, that's not true.
I'm starting to get like alittle bit more enjoyment about
like exerting physical effortand physical dominance on people
, but I don't get a lot ofpractice.
I have a what I like to call thebeast, just because usually
(20:05):
what happens to me when I'm intop situations is like I'm a big
guy.
The part of my system that islike throw you around and
dominate you is very vigorous.
So I'm like I'm aware that I'mlike, okay, I haven't found a
person that like once ago thereand I don't have like enough
trust in that.
So like I call, I call thoseconversations conversations with
the beast.
I'm like, okay, we got to dothis at 14%, all right.
And I was like we'll findsomebody that's we'll let the
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beast fully out of the cage forone of these days, but we'll get
there.
So that part of it I'm like I'mstarting to get like physically
into.
But I'm definitely more likewhat do you want, how do you
want to do it, and then doing itvery, very, very well.
And I'm also more into likemental domination than I am
physical domination, like Ienjoy pushing somebody on the
bed, but for personal enjoymentI am much more like what's been
(20:48):
in your sit down and thenwaiting and then deciding they
don't have any other choice.
That is more fun for medomination wise than like
shoving somebody.
Plus, I was blessed with thisvoice.
So it's like, why not, yeah,yeah?
Speaker 3 (21:04):
Yes, you, I had somebody in the last year to
tell me they were just like oh,you have sort of a sadistic
streak, and I was like I don't,I don't know that.
I, I don't know that I do.
I think I just like the personI was talking to at the time, it
was responding to the voice, itwas responding to those types
of things.
So they were responding to likescratching and biting and like
(21:25):
gripping, and you know if that'sthe thing.
And then you start makingreally great noises.
I'm going to keep doing thething, and so those like I don't
know if that's so much me as itis, like I'm going to sort of
find the thing that turns you onand I just want to like hone in
on it and do it really well.
Speaker 1 (21:41):
And then you know, but that comes in like a variety
of forms, depending on who I'mlike yeah, I was like you gave
me all the green lights, I'mgoing to, I'm going to drive
faster on them.
You keep, you keep moaning likethat.
Speaker 3 (21:50):
We're going to do, we're going to push that pedal.
Yeah, exactly, yeah, exactly,yep.
Speaker 2 (21:57):
Can you was there?
Can you tell me about yourfirst kinky experience?
Speaker 3 (22:01):
My first kinky experience yes, it was with
someone who actually was aformer, former coworker was so
someone I worked with and Iheard a lot about like this is
one of the people I becamefriends with and like we were
sort of in different sections ofthe company or whatever it
became friends with and, youknow, it became close and
started talking about like someof those experiences that they
had.
(22:21):
But we were actually bothmarried at the time.
We both, under separatecircumstances, slightly
different timelines divorced andthen I ended up.
So then we were both single.
One of us had left the companyand suddenly we're not coworkers
anymore and they were the firstperson to do like a full impact
scene with me.
So it was, you know,introducing me to vloggers and
(22:42):
crops and had me fullyrestrained onto the bed and
experienced my first subspace.
That was a whole new thing.
Speaker 2 (22:50):
So you went from not having any sort of kinky
experience to having like fullon impact play extravaganza yes.
Speaker 3 (22:57):
Yep, which it which sounds like a big like you know,
yeah, but it was a discuss thethings, and I had been fully
curious for quite a while andalso was very, very, very into
this person and so just kind oflike went into it and they were
really good about like talkingme through the whole thing, also
had like co-words wereimportant.
So you know, you've got the red, yellow, green, all that kind
of stuff and checked in with methrough the whole thing to make
sure I was enjoying it.
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And it actually ended up beingkind of cathartic because I find
that the more emotionallydistressed I am, the more I end
up liking impact because itallows, like it just helps me
process some of those feelingsand also the big, you know,
endorphin highs and sort of somepain relief, and so it was a
really, really gratifyingexperience.
But yeah, so I went from likenothing at all to like very
vanilla sex and to just bang inthe hot co-worker and get in the
(23:40):
full impact scene, so yeah, andthen just went from there.
I also then got into FetLife,started meeting people through
there, which I don't do as muchanymore because I had a couple.
You know, I feel like meetingpeople to go on dates with
through FetLife and be kind of amixed bag.
For sure.
I had a couple of like notgreat experiences and then ended
up meeting many more lovelykinky people and then that was
(24:02):
actually so.
I got divorced in 2016, endedup moving to Texas early 2017
and then found a bunch of peoplehere, Tosen included so then
was able to just plug into somelovely, lovely folks here and
then started going to parties,meeting people, dating kinkier
people.
So yeah, all sorts of goodthings.
Speaker 1 (24:18):
You talk because this is something that fascinated me
about like impact in general.
So you talked about that likethe more distress that you are
in general, the more helpfulimpact play is for you
personally.
Can you talk more about indetail, about like what it is
about processing your ownfeelings, like through the pain
(24:39):
of impact that is helpful foryou?
Speaker 3 (24:40):
Yeah, so you know and I know that linking like
emotional distress and likephysical pain may not be like
the most helpful thing, but Iwill stress that it's like it
works really well for mepersonally.
Speaker 1 (24:52):
We're not recommending solutions for
people's coping mechanisms.
Please speak to therapists andmedical professionals like that.
Right, yes, this is anecdotal.
This is just because I likehearing how people think of
experience things.
Speaker 3 (25:03):
Yeah, so for me, especially when I was going
through a divorce, I was therewas a lot of fallout in my life
for a variety of reasons andalso like losing this
relationship I've been in for 10years and you know it's a
really, really messy and unhappylike situation.
It was the best decision I'veever made in my life, but it was
painful on the way out, and sofor me, I guess the pain sort of
(25:24):
helped create an externalversion of what I was feeling on
the inside, and then it justhelped provide, I guess, sort of
like you know, some relief,like when you're when you're
feeling really pent up and yougo for a workout, or when you go
for a run when you're reallyupset, or you know, I, when I'm
feeling really frustrated,sometimes going for a walk just
moving my own body, orexperiencing that those types of
things can sort of help workout some of the feelings.
(25:46):
And then it was just kind of amore extreme version, because
I'm, instead of going reallyhard on the elliptical, I'm
getting a flogger on my back.
And then the first time that Isaw that first experience I was
just telling you about, I didend up going into sub space.
So for me it felt like, insteadof sort of wincing and bracing
and having physical reactions tothe hits as they were coming,
my body just sort of just Ialmost got very sleepy, very
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sleepy, very body high.
I just have my like my eyesclosed, like my, my eyelids were
very heavy, and that's sort ofwhen it was kind of like, okay,
it's time to time to time to tapout because the person sort of
in this like bloaty space, andthen I woke up the next morning
and I felt so clear and so calmand so just awake and alert and
I was like Whoa, like if that'swhat this process has on me, and
(26:33):
so I was able to carry on thatrelationship through, basically
until I moved to Texas, you know, and I know there's the whole
kind of like enough pain inducesthe endorphin high, which then
can be like pain relief and alsofeel really good and kind of
euphoric, and it was just a verycleansing experience.
So yeah, no that really kind ofwild.
Speaker 1 (26:53):
Yeah, that makes complete sense.
You know, I think about a lotof my intense attraction and
desire for like oral sex.
Things is a lot has a lot to dowith that.
It's regulating to my systemand so like I totally get like
if you have you know, I think oflike a mode, like.
I think of emotions as likeblocks that you have to grab and
like move into the right place.
(27:14):
It's very difficult to do thatwhen they're intangible, so any
activity that kind of likeconnects them to something that
you can like physicallyunderstand is easy and like in
getting myself out of like theChristian church mindset of like
rules, of being like pain isalways bad and pain is a bad
thing and, you know, never hurtsomebody, which is accurate,
don't actually hurt peopleunless they want to be like.
(27:36):
One of the ways that got me tobeing more comfortable with
delivering pain to other peoplewas like delivering pain to
other people was realizing thatlike this is giving them a
tangible way of grabbing anemotional block and like being
able to like understand it andfeel like exactly what you said
making an external version of ofan internal feeling.
Again, not suggesting copingmechanisms.
Please don't use that as yourbase coping mechanism for
whatever emotions you're dealingwith.
(27:57):
Go to go see therapists,therapies incredible, everybody
do it, but no, that makescomplete sense.
And like whatever you find thathelps regulate your system
that's not harmful to yourselfand other people.
Speaker 3 (28:06):
Please explore safely , often vigorously, if you need
to yeah, safely and consensuallywith yourself and other people.
I think regulating is a niceword for it.
There's just a way to.
But, yeah, I love the idea oflike being able to grab a hold
of it and like do something withit.
Whether that's yeah is that Ifeel like there's also a lot of
you know, very, very big linksbetween emotions and like you
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feel it in your actual body, andso sometimes you have to do
things with your actual body inorder to like, even if it's it's
regulated, or get it out or youknow you know it, around people
keep saying that King processesregulate their nervous system,
and every time they say that I'mlike, yeah, it regulates their
nervous system.
Speaker 2 (28:44):
And then I'm like, what the fuck does that mean?
And I'm trying to relate itright now to something like is
it like the equivalent of goingto be tired and waking up
refreshed?
Speaker 1 (28:53):
how do you feel after you do yoga and you haven't
done it for a while?
like you're yoga instructor, sothat's probably, it's probably
low in the system.
Okay.
So for me, like for example,I'm in time out right now, so
that means I have not engaged inoral sex since the beginning of
the month and what I can tellmy body once is the I'm piling
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on.
Different stresses, differentthings in life are stressing me
out which makes me clench moreand makes me various activities
of different stress.
It gets easier for me to getanxious, irritated.
It's harder for me to think,but things like that.
Then usually if I get a prettytherapeutic amount of being able
to deliver oral sex to someone,because it is the same
repetitive task, because theconfirmation and affirmation of
(29:38):
like Tosen, you're doing a goodjob, how it feels, tack to leave
the oral fixation of it all,all of those things at once,
resets a lot of those nervoussystem reactions.
Afterwards I'm like, okay, Ican think easier, my body is not
clenching as much, I am moreconfident in my choices of
decisions I can make better.
Speaker 2 (29:59):
So it's like it's stress relief Stress relief.
Speaker 1 (30:02):
Yeah, I could put it as stress relief.
I like to say regulating,because instead of just stress
relief, because there's likemasturbating is considered
stress relief, but it doesn'tput my nervous system back to
normal, it just kind of like isa momentary fix for it, and so I
guess if I need to regulateregularly, it's momentary.
But yeah, stress relief isanother way to put it.
Speaker 3 (30:26):
I think I sort of feel the same way about sex in
general.
So I feel like, in particular,things like impact I don't
necessarily do on a very regularbasis, but having a regular sex
life for me and alsomasturbating regularly also just
helps me feel better in my ownbody.
I know if I've gone a while andobviously this is with consent
(30:47):
and partners and all sorts ofstuff, all the caveats but for
me, having regular sex for mejust helps me feel better in my
body, helps me feel morerefreshed, more centered, calmer
, more happier in my own skin.
So I wonder if it's that samekind of thing of just not both
stress release and also just a.
(31:07):
For me it feels all in the samecategory of eating and drinking
water as part of just a regularbody system that when it's in
regular practice and things feelgood, it helps make the rest of
my life better.
So maybe it's the same kind ofthing.
Speaker 1 (31:20):
Oh, I think that's the other part of saying stress
relief, instead of dysregulatein, is dehydration is a
dysregulated state, right, andthen drinking water will
regulate that system again,anxiety is a dysregulated state
and whatever the various formsof relief in that thing is well
regulated.
And so lots of sex things for mepersonally, because it's one of
(31:42):
the few things I also have avisceral reaction to.
So, like you know, I'm autistic, but well, I guess I haven't
been tested, but I have twoautistic children.
So like what it's likely that Iam, and you know I resonate
with a lot of the things of thatnature, and so because of that,
most decisions and happeningsof the world are usually some
form of fashion scripted for me.
So usually things happen, theyrun through a process in my head
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and then I decide the reactionto it.
This is one of the few thingsthat are like this were
reactions to stuff, and sothat's why it's like regulating
to my system and I seek it allthe time.
I'm also a regular masturbator.
I did spend been quite sometime that I haven't like
masturbated every day.
That rarely, rarely don'tmasturbate every day.
Speaker 2 (32:21):
You masturbate every day.
Speaker 1 (32:22):
Probably twice a day, I would say.
I would say on average.
Speaker 2 (32:25):
What?
Even if you have, even if youhave sex, oh, yeah, I've.
Speaker 1 (32:28):
I've had sex four times in one day easily.
And so like I said, it's likeit's.
It's like drinking water for me.
Like it's.
You know, one of the the, thebeast gets angry and wants to
get out of the cage, the moreand more horny.
Speaker 3 (32:40):
I am.
Speaker 1 (32:42):
And so, or the longer in between me climaxing.
So it's just easiest for me tolike masturbating regularly.
I've been smart though I yeah,I'd probably say I masturbate
twice a day, Like I'vemasturbated three times a day.
Speaker 3 (32:53):
It's probably going to be four after this Okay, at
least once, sometimes, sometimestwice for me, yeah.
Speaker 2 (32:59):
A day.
Yep, I'm going to startmasturbating more.
Speaker 1 (33:02):
I highly recommend it .
Speaker 3 (33:05):
Like I think it's a great time, but you know, I feel
like it does, definitely.
Speaker 2 (33:08):
Do you masturbate because you feel aroused or just
because you want to?
Speaker 3 (33:12):
Both, both there's some kinds of words.
Speaker 4 (33:14):
Always.
Speaker 3 (33:16):
It's like I've got a, I've got an itch to scratch and
I've just like I saw somethingreally hot.
Or my partner has been textingme like dirty things all day and
I want to do that.
Or or sometimes it's, you know,before bed.
When I wake up first thing inthe morning, you know if I've
got like a little time beforeyou know I need to start work
and my head's hot.
She's just sitting right there,you know.
Start the day with a greatorgasm and then I just like wake
up, refresh and start my dayand feel clear minded and yeah,
(33:37):
so it's a little bit of both.
Speaker 1 (33:39):
Yeah, okay, I'd say the same.
It's like it's either because,like I am familiar with the draw
from my attention, so like I'm,I work from home and so and I
code, so it's like I kind ofneed very detailed focus and I
could tell that like I'm losingthe focus because I need to
masturbate.
Speaker 2 (33:56):
Wait, is it because you're aroused and it's
distracting, like you keepthinking about sex, or just
because you're like dysregulatedand you need to like focus?
So you go masturbate and thatfix?
Speaker 1 (34:05):
Yeah, I would say it's like at this point it's
early stages of arouseddistracted.
Like I'm familiar enough withmy body system that I can tell
me like, ah, the horny cloud iscoming and I, and like the, the
the horny are, I get, the harderit is to like get back to where
I need to be at.
So it's like if I can catch itright when it's pooling, I'm
(34:25):
just like, okay, knock it out,let's get back to work.
But I mean, like today has beenyou know, I knew I was going to
talk to the end of this evening.
Very close to Jason to think ofDeanna is that video.
So I was like no it is justright there on my computer Now
I'm thinking about it, rightthere and, you know, in the
quick folder, in the quickfolder.
So just right there.
Pin on the side of my windowsexplorer.
(34:45):
It's just looking at me.
Oh my God, it's pinned to ohyeah, yeah, I have a folder
that's right in there.
This is the quick folder andyou are.
You are right there, good to go.
Speaker 4 (34:56):
It's, it's, it's so good.
Speaker 1 (34:58):
I was like you know, I don't show people's videos to
other people for that, but veryoften, like this is a custom
that I request all the time,like I bought this from other
only fans, creators and otherpeople Like I've accepted it as
payment for services.
Like I'm just like you can giveme cash you don't have cash and
anything else Like you can if,like we've talked about it, I've
had sexy interaction before.
I'm not like people aren'tasking me to play gigs at clubs
(35:20):
and I'm just like, well, youdon't have to pay me, you can
send me that custom.
But very often I'm just like,if you're curious about what it
is that I like and how it goes,this is perfect and would show
them your video.
But I haven't done that becauseI wouldn't ask you first before
I do that.
But I was just like this, thisis, this is the blueprint that
works perfectly.
Speaker 3 (35:41):
Well, you start, you, I can stay on a very official
record that you have.
You have permission to share itas much as you like.
It's like that turns me on too.
I was like I've always toldlike partners where I'm just
like you can also just showpeople my nude photos and I just
want to hear the reactions,like I just want to know, like
what they think, just want tohear the.
Speaker 2 (35:57):
yeah yeah, like you're the one person who's like
, here's a nude photo Also showme.
Speaker 3 (36:02):
Exactly, please, yeah , feel like listen.
I get to do that, you know justshow your friends yeah.
Speaker 1 (36:08):
Man, my one of my early kinky.
One of my early kinkyadventures in the live journal
doing come tributes for people.
Speaker 2 (36:16):
What does it come?
Speaker 1 (36:17):
tribute.
So in the live journal days,that was, they would link to
photos of themselves in variousforms of sexiness.
You would print that photo outand you would ejaculate onto it,
and then you would send them aphoto of you having ejaculated
to the photo that you haveprinted out of them as a tribute
to them.
Speaker 2 (36:35):
I mean like this I'm sorry, I missed this entire
phase of the internet.
I received no come tributes.
Speaker 1 (36:42):
I mean, the phase isn't over.
Speaker 3 (36:46):
Like I was saying it's still a thing.
Maybe just I was on livejournal at the time, but I was,
you know, being like good, very,very good little Baptist girl
at the time and not getting cometributes.
I do get those on, only fans,though.
Very occasionally someone wouldbe like can I send you a video
of me getting off to you?
Or like you know, if someonesends me like a very detailed,
like, oh my God, I saw thisphoto that you posted the other
day and I just did you know XYZ,and sometimes I'm sneak a
(37:08):
little discount and just be likeI was so hot.
So, though, I think I'm gonnabe like.
Speaker 1 (37:12):
I'm gonna be like.
I'm gonna be like.
I'm gonna be like.
I think.
Speaker 2 (37:14):
I've sent you three over the years.
Now You're so hot, you takethis yeah.
Speaker 1 (37:19):
But the the come tributes now are a little bit
more high tech.
Speaker 3 (37:24):
Slightly more high tech, maybe less on printer
paper and more.
Speaker 1 (37:28):
Yeah, I got two cameras, One of my favorite.
Speaker 3 (37:31):
Yes, oh, there you go , yeah, and I can do a full
thing.
Let's say, one of my veryfavorite photos that I have is
an ex that basically came ontoan iPad with a photo that I had
sent him, and it's still one ofmy, just like it's so good.
Speaker 2 (37:43):
I have an appropriate response to sent to nude photo,
receiving nude photo or a sexyphoto.
I have never gotten anappropriate response from
sending a sexy photo.
It's always like I don't know.
Men don't know what the fuck tosay.
It's so weird, Like they wantit and then they get in there
like thanks, oh really Cricket.
Speaker 1 (37:59):
Oh yeah, that's a shame.
Speaker 2 (38:07):
I've stopped sending them as a result and I'll like,
if I'm dating somebody and youall give all that you know, I'll
do it once and see what theirresponse is and if it is
inadequate I won't do it again.
Speaker 1 (38:16):
Yeah, no, that's, I don't know.
It feels like I can't evenimagine being like getting a new
phone, be like thanks the end.
Speaker 2 (38:27):
I mean, nobody said thanks, but I'll get like a
maybe, like an oh baby, andthat's it.
Speaker 3 (38:31):
And that's it.
Oh yeah, you know.
One more response.
Speaker 2 (38:35):
No, hot, okay, they should, they should Cool.
Speaker 3 (38:41):
And I feel like they should be in return, like
worshiping the ground you walkon and singing your praises and
being like, okay, great, but canI have some more?
Because that was really hot andyou are just like blowing my
mind with it.
You know obviously much sexierversion than what I'm saying off
the cuff, but yeah.
Speaker 2 (38:56):
I'm glad you are, though, because I think many
people need to hear theappropriate response to
receiving a nude or sexy photo.
Speaker 1 (39:02):
Listen.
Look, I understand.
Not knowing what, not beingable to know what to do.
A great response Peoplereceiving the nude photos who
want to respond in a lovelyfashion.
Here's a great line Steal it,you can have it.
Oh my God, that was soincredible.
I would.
What can I do to repay you forthis bounty that you have
brought me?
You can use that exact phrasehow can I repay you for this
(39:27):
bounty that you have brought me?
Write it down, copy, paste it,send it when you get the
response.
Do that, okay.
Speaker 3 (39:34):
Yes, yeah, I had someone that I was dating back
in I guess like 2019, and itsort of fizzled because, like we
had, we were, we had reallygood conversation in person.
But anytime in between, when weweren't seeing each other, I'd
try to like send sexy photos orlike try to, you know, dirty
talk or whatever, and it justlike would just hit the dirt
every time.
(39:54):
Just would not.
It would be the same sort ofthing.
The response.
Just be, like, yeah, just belike, ooh, baby, and that and
that, nothing.
And I'm like, okay, but likecan we versus?
Now I will sing the praises ofmy current partners, who not
only just tell me how much of afucking queen that I am and how
much they adore my body, butthen also will be like can I
have some more?
What can I?
You know again?
How can we, again, in their ownform, offering bounty to you,
(40:18):
know, their own repayment forthe that is a great response.
Speaker 2 (40:20):
How can I please get more of that?
Yeah, can I please have?
Speaker 3 (40:23):
some more like please have some more, because you are
so incredibly hot.
Speaker 2 (40:26):
Please, I would love yeah, here's my semen upon the
floor.
Speaker 1 (40:31):
You did that yes yep all appropriate responses and
effort and appreciation is alsovery, very valuable.
Like you know, right Casey'svoice is very sexy to me if oh
thank you, I literally forgotwhat I was talking about.
Okay, I got it like there's anepisode of no, it's the
(40:56):
recording that we have at theend of that comes at the end of
the podcast.
That has a bone in it and whatand like.
So I have a recording that islike a chunk of, like Casey's
bones to do that that I cut,looped the best ones next to
each other and has have used asmaster 28 for a while, and I've
(41:20):
let Casey know about this for achunk of the time.
For a chunk of the time, I waslike requested to like inform
Casey, like how, when I relievemyself to it, especially right
after I made it, it was a highvolume and I was just like,
because we know like we havelike I know you didn't know,
yeah, I did.
Well, it's like you know, I, Idon't want to, I don't want to
(41:43):
feel uncomfortable and like wedon't, we are like, we're like
just over the line of like we'renot like we have sexual
interactions.
We like, we're aware of you'reaware of my attraction to you
sexually, and so I was like I'mnot going to send this five
times today.
That's, that's, that's probablybad, that's probably bad.
Let me not, let me not, let menot say let me not mark up all
(42:03):
you five times this.
I listened to this recording.
Speaker 2 (42:07):
I mean this is a appropriate response to
receiving sexy materials.
Speaker 1 (42:11):
It is an appreciation effort is good.
Like you know, there's there'sanother person in the pink
community who does really goodlike audio, like.
They just have a skill set forlike doing like jackoff
instructions and being like Iwant to see come on to like
making audios of it, and theyreally like doing it, and so
we're in a rhythm.
They're like they will surpriseme with it on snapchat and I
(42:31):
will, within 15 minutes,whatever I'm doing, be like I
came here it is and so I lovelike, if you if you, if you
surprise me with toaster and Iwant you to come things, it will
be immediate.
Speaker 3 (42:47):
So you know, and I've made videos of it and and this
is impressive because, well, Imean, they're gone during the
day and so, like, a lot of mymath reading happens like in the
time frame of like eight tothree when I just am working at
my desk and so, but yeah, Iwould say that the how me and my
long-distance partner are islike he gets really excited when
he sees the spoiler in uh, indiscord, because you can
basically flag flag photos orvideos or whatever in discord in
(43:09):
case it's lewd.
So it's not gonna like just popup with like a nude photo.
So he was, you know, tells melike his it's butterflies
whenever he sees the spoiler tagand I like I like doing that
the surprise mutes for sure.
Yeah, also, I will say on thatnote, like it's okay if you
don't know the right words ormaybe you don't feel good at
dirty talking or maybe you don'tquite know what to say, but,
like tosem is saying, enthusiasmand effort goes a long way.
(43:31):
So even if you don't feel likeyou're like I don't know what to
say I don't know if they'veprobably heard it a million
times or I don't know what toyou know, just try the bounty
line and then just try it andwork on it and I feel like
enthusiasm goes.
So so so far, at least in myexperience, yeah, doesn't that
really does right by the book.
Just the enthusiasm andexcitement works every time.
Speaker 1 (43:49):
You know, like you know, lyrical, literary ability
is not the key to successfuldirty talk.
The key to sexual dirty.
Successful dirty talk iscommitment and enthusiasm.
Right so it's.
It's just that's true ofeverything, exactly, yes, I was
like thinking there's anotherway that I like to describe it
like how to dirty talk well isthe same thing as like musically
(44:10):
accompanying well, and that iseasier for people understand.
I was like if I was playingpiano for somebody and that to
sing a song and the way I wasdoing it was like, oh, I hope
this is the exist, gonna be theright chord, and I know maybe it
shouldn't, and just if I wasdoing that they're gonna have a
lot worse time than if I wasjust like bam, we're doing it
and so and it will matter likewe'll figure it out if I'm like
(44:32):
definitively saying somethingand that's enough information to
them to do something that givesenough information to me and
you'll find your way.
Just be okay with like thefirst 10 exchanges being clunky
as long as it's likeenthusiastic and committed.
After that you'll find eachother's rhythm.
So just you know, haul off andbeing there and be like your
butt makes my heart so big andmy and my pants so big.
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I really love it like that's,you know, not the best writing,
it's like you can.
Speaker 2 (44:58):
Good starting place.
Speaker 1 (44:59):
It's better than oh baby it's better than, oh baby,
in silence and crickets yeah,yeah, oh, baby hello yeah, and
describe in another dirty talkthing that's the help that was
super helpful early on in thegame.
Describe what you want to doand detail the body part
connections right the easy.
So what do you?
mean instead of being like I waslike, oh, you're really hot, I
want to fuck, you say I was likeI want to put my hands, your
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hands, whatever part of theirbody you want to connect with.
I want to put my hands on yourshoulder and then put you, your
body, on the bed and I want tograb your hips and slide them
into my hips and feel me growharder in between your legs
until I hear you just hit thesensory things, just like pick a
sensory thing, pick body parts,put them together the way that
(45:43):
you want.
So if you're like, instead ofsaying I want to fuck you, just
detail the body part connectionsand the sounds and touches you
want to hear.
That'll take you so far, yeah.
Speaker 3 (45:53):
I would add on to that.
Speaker 1 (45:55):
I love that lesson.
Speaker 3 (45:56):
Yeah, that's perfect.
And also I love when peoplenotice things about like the
photos or videos I send.
So like you're so hot, I wantto fuck.
You was like great, that's likelevel one.
But if you go, I really lovelike the way your ass is curved
and like, or you know, I reallylove the way you rolled your
eyes back when you came reallyhard, or I really love that bone
that you made, or I noticedthat I can see, you know, I can
(46:19):
see that, yes, specifics.
If you notice like a little, alittle detail and I'm like
paying attention and and then Iget a sense of like what really
turns you on, then if I knowthat like that pose really turns
you on, really like my ass inparticular, then I can like lean
into that and then it excitesyou more and then it excites me
more.
So, yeah, I would say just add alittle detail to you, even just
.
I feel like that's good datingadvice.
If you're just like you thinksomeone's really beautiful, just
(46:40):
be like.
You know, casey, your eyebrowsare like gorgeous I've just been
noticing them and your hair isreally beautiful tonight.
I feel like that's better thanyou know.
Just some generic compliment soyou can add that in the dirty
talk to you.
Speaker 2 (46:51):
Yeah yeah, yeah, I love this.
This is great so we're learningwe, we're learning.
We are at about an hour.
Is there anything, deanna, thatyou feel like compelled to say
or would like to leave everybodywith?
Speaker 3 (47:05):
no, in particular other than just know know is an
okay answer to yeah, I wouldjust love to impart the like
just don't be afraid to explorestuff, don't be afraid to try
new things if you have like alittle inkling that something
might be kind of hot or personmight be kind of hot, or like a
thing you haven't tried, or like.
That's one of the mostrewarding experiences of my
adult life is just being able totry like foods I didn't used to
(47:27):
like, or new, new sexual thingsthat I find really hot, or new
things that I can say to turnpeople on, or you know.
And I feel like that justsummarizes a bunch of what we
talked about.
So that's all I would say yeah,yeah, and also anyone listening
you look really hot today.
Speaker 2 (47:42):
Oh, sexy face.
You all just got a compliment.
Oh, where can we find you?
Speaker 3 (47:48):
on.
Speaker 2 (47:48):
OnlyFans.
What's your handle?
Speaker 3 (47:50):
My OnlyFans handle is Ms Eldridge, so MS and then
Eldridge and, if you like,ELDRITCH everybody.
Yes yes, and if you are onTwitter at all and or like Magic
the Gathering at all, you canalso find me by the same handle
on Twitter.
So fabulous, come find me, comegive me come tribute.
Speaker 1 (48:08):
Come find me the truth that you put on your phone
exactly just come over here Ihighly recommend it, highly
recommend it, well, well done 70out of 10.
Speaker 2 (48:18):
100 out of 10.
Thank you, thank you.
Speaker 1 (48:24):
Yeah, no, I don't know anything.
Ann, thank you for coming onfor being the first guest of
season two and for saying, yes,I know you and I have talked
about it for a while.
Speaker 2 (48:33):
Thank you.
Speaker 1 (48:34):
I'm glad we chatted.
Speaker 2 (48:35):
And for all the sexy beasts out there, remember we do
have a patreon, please.
Littlerenngadefilmscom is ourwebsite and we have a form there
.
If you follow all of thebreadcrumb trails you can get to
the talkdrogymy form.
You can fill it out.
If you want a specific kink ortopic discussed, if you know of
a guest that might be good, orif you yourself think you would
(48:56):
make a good guest or anythingthat we can put anything you
want on the form and I will readit.
And what else I don't know,maybe that's it Not me getting
Speaker 3 (49:06):
ideas for that.
Speaker 1 (49:06):
Maybe that's it Get all your case your best.
I also recommend getting Caseyto say things to you.
It's a great time yeah on theform.
Speaker 2 (49:15):
you can put requests for me to say sexy things in my
sexy voice and I'll do it.
I'll do it for you, amazing.
Speaker 3 (49:21):
Audience.
Speaker 2 (49:22):
Anywho, thank you for tuning in to episode two of
season two of talkdirty to me.
Until next time, let's all talkreal dirty to one another and
when somebody sends you anythingsexy, respond with commitment
and enthusiasm.
Speaker 4 (49:38):
Later I'll use sexy beasts.
Bye, bye.
Talkdirty to me is a podcast bylittle renegade films.
It stars Sarah Marie, currie,casey, sammie Casey.
Why don't you sound real sexywhile you do it, do I?
No, why don't you?
Oh, why don't I?
Yeah, like you remember how youread your synopsis and yeah,
you want me to do it like that.
Yes, okay, genius, okay.
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Talkdirty to me is a podcast bylittle renegade films.
It stars Sarah Marie Currie,casey, sammie, tosen Alifaso and
Stephanie Smith, with silentcontributions by Taylor Novak.
Title and closing themes byTosen Alifaso.
Follow us on the social mediasat talkdirtytomepod and for more
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of our offerings, go tolittlerenegadefilmscom.
Well, well, well, go ahead and open up your ears,
your mind and whatever else youneed.
You're listening to Talk DirtyTo Me.
Speaker 2 (00:23):
Hello all you sexy beasts and welcome back to Talk
Dirty To Me, the podcast wherethree friends with three
different perspectives on kink,fetish and sex talk dirty to one
another.
And today we have two of ourfabulous hosts with you.
We have Tosen Aouf Esso.
Orochol and we have me, kasey,your neighborhood femdom
extraordinaire, femdom-ishextraordinaire, and we have a
(00:46):
special guest for you today.
But first I'm going to do alittle business.
I just want to let everybodyknow that our darling Sarah
Murray is stepping away fromTalk Dirty To Me.
For the time being she will bedropping in to do Sarah Murray's
dirty book corner and thingslike that and being an extra
host when we need one, but she'sgoing to focus on other little
run-and-gade projects with hertime.
So we all love her and we'llmiss her, and now we are three,
(01:09):
we'll two today.
Anyways, tosen, I'm going toleave the intro to you.
This is your beautiful, lovelyguest.
Speaker 1 (01:15):
Yes, sarah Murray, you will be the best.
We love you.
You're great and press on.
You're awesome, but today wehave Deanna.
You will also be able to findher online as Ms Eldridge, with
various things.
Probably one of the more nerdyand intriguing things to me is
that you're pretty decentlywell-known online for magic, the
(01:38):
gathering content creation andD&D content creation.
So, before we get into thedirty things, do you want to
talk about that, how you gotinto that, how people got to
know you that way, and also sayhi.
Speaker 3 (01:48):
Yes, also hi.
Speaker 1 (01:50):
Hello everyone.
Speaker 3 (01:50):
Yeah, I was sort of like a product of the pandemic.
I have dated people over theyears that have been very into
magic, and so I feel like it wasonly a matter of time until I
kind of got sucked into it.
And then, the summer of 2018, Ibelieve, I had a friend that
was just like come over andteaching you and taught me a
particular format calledCommander.
And then I found Arena, whichis like a desktop client, and
(02:13):
then the pandemic hit and I wasable to maintain a social life
through Twitter and found abunch of other magic people and
found a way to also play withour physical cards both people
across the world and then itjust kind of took off and found
my little corner of the internet.
Speaker 1 (02:27):
So, yeah, we love fun fancy corners of the internet,
so I like to you know start outgetting to know people about.
You know we're a kink sexpodcast and we do kinky sexy
things.
So how would you identifyyourself on the kink BDSM
spectrum and how did you getinto it?
(02:48):
Things like that.
Speaker 3 (02:49):
Let's see.
Well or well, some bisexual,very queer, also switch.
These days I am more topleaning, so I'm a little, I
guess, left of the of the slash,more than I used to be, and how
I got into, I mean, we can getinto like the whole, like list
of you know all of theparticulars that we want to.
Yeah, please.
All the particulars, all theparticulars, okay, but I would
(03:12):
say my top ones that just add to.
Like the, the bisexual in theswitch is like I also have, you
know, exhibitionism andvoyeurism and a praise kink and
also love degradation as well.
So it's like this whole mix ofall of the things and what you
did.
Tell me that I'm a good girl,but also like the best filthiest
girl, or like the you know thebest, I love it.
Speaker 2 (03:31):
Whatever?
Speaker 3 (03:32):
Yeah, it's a little weird on paper but I'm like I
promise you know it makes senseto me and my in my body somehow.
But yeah, I think the way I gotinto it was I so actually Tosen
you and I should chat sometimebecause it sounds like we might
have sort of similar backgrounds, as I grew up very religious
and so I was sheltered for along time and then kind of came
(03:52):
out of it into like the adultdating world.
But I got married at a veryyoung age and so I got married
at 20.
Don't do that, don't recommendit to anybody.
And then, but like as I wassort of married and kind of
coming into the real world andgetting to know things, I was
like man like my husband willnot even like pull my hair,
won't even like hold my wristsdown a little bit, like come on,
give me something.
So he was just very like themost.
(04:13):
You know, that's great Ifyou're vanilla, totally fine.
If that's what you're into, Ithink that's lovely.
But I'm not.
So I had I had a friend.
Speaker 4 (04:21):
Did you know you?
Speaker 3 (04:22):
were kinky.
At that point I think I hadsome suspicions.
I had a couple of friends thatwould tell me about their like
when they would go to dungeonsand like some of the things that
they were into, and I wasalways just like I want to try
that, can I try that?
Let me try that, can I just canI do it?
And I had this like littlesuspicion that I would be like
very into it if I was given thespace to try it and then ended
up going through a divorce.
(04:42):
And then, yeah, like basicallyonce I once I hit being
unattached, I went fullpolyamorous and full kink and
just dove into all the thingsthat I felt like I've been
missing for the past you knowhowever many years and found a
lovely group of people and thenmoved to Texas and then found a
bunch of other kinky people andso, yeah, it was kind of just
say I had a suspicion that Iwould like the things I was
(05:03):
hearing about.
Speaker 1 (05:03):
And then I got to try them and I was correct.
So and I'm still discoveringnew things, so yeah, yeah, I
think the adventure, I think thegetting out of church and
falling into kink pipeline is avery popular one.
I mean, our other host hassimilar stories and you know me
myself you know, I went tochurch also being the queer and
bisexual and into all kinds ofbodies and just being like Jesus
(05:28):
is going to be mad at mebecause I like that dick.
I don't know what to do aboutit and you know you spend all of
that time.
One of the jokes I like to makeis like the only thing that I
really miss about being superChristian is, like man, you
cannot be Christian.
Sexual tension it's just likeoh man, jesus says we shouldn't,
but I really want it.
Speaker 3 (05:50):
It's hard to replicate oh man, you cannot be
Jesus.
Speaker 2 (05:55):
sexual tension yeah, that's it.
It's like go to the night.
Speaker 3 (05:58):
Yeah, yeah, definitely.
There was some like just great,a, just peak, dry, humping for
sure during like the well, weshouldn't because we're still
Virgin's but we want each otherreally bad.
And then just gets really hotbecause, like you're trying to
figure out all the things youcan't.
Where you can do the things,like well, it's cool.
Maybe we can make out if we'relike not laying down and we have
all our clothes on, or likewhat if we?
(06:19):
What if we're like laying downwith still all the clothes on?
Or like, well, what if we?
What if we take like just theouter things off but like all of
the you know underwear andstuff is still on, so
technically, you know, and thenit just progresses from there.
But yeah, it's hard toreplicate like it's.
It's very hot in its own waywhen you don't have the full
menu.
Speaker 2 (06:35):
I like that.
The more near you get like, themore Lineart.
Speaker 1 (06:41):
Matt, you want to hear the Wildest but also
sexiest compromise that I'veever made for Jesus.
I was dating yes, I was datingsomeone who, like I like wanted
really bad all through highschool and it basically got to
the point where, like they werefinding God Right when I was at
the peak of my Jesus Ness and so, like they, at that point they
(07:03):
had considered me be the personthat like had brought from the
Christ.
Anyway, we liked each other fora really long time, hey, but
they lived in a different cityand after we started dating, we
were like kind of visiting eachother back and forth on one of
the Whatever is this to come seeme.
We were laying down in bedtogether and like we had a whole
like Christian thing we're likeGod can't do us in a dream and
said it's gonna be okay for usto make out because we were
(07:24):
diligent About being like.
No, like, the first time I sawher after we were not going to.
We had met.
We're like we're not gonnatouch each other, like we've
known each other for five yearsand it was like, oh you know, to
stop temptation anyway, at thispoint time we're allowing each
other to make out, but like wehad like progressed to like
making out, laying down in a bed, clothes dry humping, super hot
(07:45):
.
Our compromise to keep us fromslipping into temptation was to
be listening to gospel music andPraying in each other's ear.
Which, which?
This is what that?
Which is just the, just the,just the most Roundabout version
(08:05):
of dirty talking ever, becausewhat that sounds like is, while
dry humping each other, we'regonna be like dealer.
Honey, father, please do notlet us slip into temptation, do
not let our bodies, as much asthey want each other to pass the
, keep your eyes on us as Likewe're making out dry humping,
while we're doing the saying ofthis into each other's ears.
Speaker 3 (08:26):
And I like and also like your voice.
Yeah in the ear.
Speaker 1 (08:31):
Yeah, she's, she's, she's a very talented singer.
She was so it was like andwe're listening to gospel music
and we're like also Singingalong to the songs, like
harmonizing each other whilealso praying to keep each other
from fucking each other bybasically Pray dirty, talking to
each other, and I was like thisis what I mean by like I
couldn't get in that situation.
Now I could like fake it, Icould do it again, but there's
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like the thing I was like Ilegitimately was like both of us
so badly want to fuck eachother and the only way to stop
ourselves is to pray At eachother while gospel music is
playing and we're dry humpingeach other, which we have deep
emotional feelings about, shit.
Speaker 3 (09:08):
Yeah, you just can't replicate it when you're just
like I can do all the thingsthat I want to with a variety of
humans.
Now, it's not gonna have thesame, but yeah, like both of us
here, I just like feeling somefeelings about that story.
So, yeah, I just can'treplicate it.
I think that might also be sortof where I got some of the kink
stuff from.
Is some of the like Authoritythings wrapped up in religion,
but now I get to do it in a waythat's fun for me and rewards my
(09:32):
agency, instead of just likedon't do the thing.
We've got a giant scoreboardand we're checking everything
you do because of the Lord hadreasons.
Speaker 1 (09:38):
So yep, I mean no gets to be like the, the
original, the original DS.
Dynamic is the Lord and yoursoul.
Speaker 3 (09:48):
Yep, mm-hmm, being being subservient to God.
Our father, mm-hmm?
Yeah, you know.
Speaker 1 (09:53):
But yeah, no, I think Christianity pipe like gets in
there and the a lot of.
I just recently wrote a poem.
I'm waiting for Stephanie toget back about it.
That's like talks about thatspecifically.
So stick around.
We'll keep that Show up for allthe people sounds awesome so
fun, like sort of related story.
Speaker 3 (10:10):
Yes, okay, it's like still in little ways kind of
turns me on.
And one of my favorite likeirreverent things that I've done
is I was in a Bookstore.
There's a very, very oldbookstore.
It's like three stories justpacked with like old editions
and kind of unique and rareinteresting books in downtown
Detroit.
Right, I didn't live in Detroitbut I lived kind of nearby and
I was with someone who Iprobably shouldn't have been
(10:32):
with and got fingered in.
It Was like one of the upstairsback sections that was full of
like old coral music and I wasjust like, yes, I feel like this
is like forbidden andirreverent, like really hot at
the same time and like that's agood time.
Speaker 2 (10:45):
Yes, the blazes people finger or get fingered
for the first time is alwaysvery interesting.
I feel like, because you'reyoung so you can't really like
do it at home, you don't reallyknow how to be appropriate is
sprung upon you, you don't havewillpower, like, so you're just
like well, here we are in thecorner.
(11:07):
This is happening right now.
Speaker 3 (11:11):
Nope, yeah.
Speaker 1 (11:14):
Hello, daryn.
Now man, I I used to.
I did used to masturbate inwild places, but I don't know
that I figured anybody anywhereweird.
Well, actually speaking ofexhibition and doing things in
public and being watched andliking it, and my apologies, I
got excited.
I like the end a lot.
I don't think I actually eversaid Hi, this is Deanna, we're
friends, we are part of asimilar Austin kinky community
(11:36):
together and you know I'm notexactly sure how we first
started talking, but I do knowour probably first interaction
with one another is.
You're also a content creator.
You make like online sexycontent that people can have and
see and I ordered a custom fromyou a custom like video, so
like you request some.
(11:57):
Sexy activity and you know,deanna graciously made in this
is holding on.
There's a time stamp on it.
I can just check.
I've had it for early pandemic.
It was like three years.
Speaker 2 (12:09):
So, Danny, you have an only fans?
Yes, I'm an only fans.
Do you consider yourself a sexworker?
Speaker 3 (12:15):
I think so.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
A spicy worker?
Yeah, spicy worker, yeah.
And is it like a hobby or justnot?
Full For funsies?
There's a full time.
Speaker 3 (12:21):
No for funsies.
I also have a day job Forfunsies, yeah, so I'd still say
sex worker, but not you know.
I feel like there's a linebetween like what I do online
versus like full service sort ofthing.
Speaker 2 (12:31):
But yes, I still think it's a realm of like you
don't, you don't see people, butyou sell videos of yourself.
Speaker 3 (12:35):
Right, exactly, yeah.
Speaker 2 (12:37):
Gotcha yeah.
Speaker 3 (12:37):
Cool.
Speaker 1 (12:38):
Yes, and I partake of this particular service a few
years ago and so if people onthe podcast know that, like my
big jams are, I love hearingpeople climax.
I love hearing people climaxwhile they say my name and I
like attention to me pledgingmyself to another person.
So this custom is basicallyDeanna sitting in a chair saying
(13:00):
your woman, your name, and inthe three years that I've had
this video, I've came to thatthing hundreds of times,
hundreds.
Speaker 2 (13:09):
It is literally.
Speaker 1 (13:10):
I have a specific folder that's like the hurry up
folder, so it's like I only havea certain amount of time in the
master band.
It's your one of the three orfour videos that are in there
and I was just like that'll bethe easy, quick finish.
So again you were sayingearlier was like I'm an
exhibitionist.
I have a praise team.
I like being told a good girl.
I was like I'm gonna get youlater.
Speaker 3 (13:29):
I'm gonna get you later.
Oh, yeah, yeah don't worry.
Yes, oh, no, that makes me sohappy.
Speaker 2 (13:35):
I, how long have you been doing?
Speaker 3 (13:37):
only fans, let's see it, this sort of done it in two
sections.
So I did it from like 20, 20 to20, 21, I think.
So I did for about a year andthen had a decent amount.
I made some like a little bitof money and then closed it
because of work stuff.
Basically I sort of do thething where, like, I started a
new hobby and it's reallyexciting for a while and then
(13:59):
I'm like, oh, it takes somemaintenance.
Speaker 4 (14:00):
I got to like yeah, keep doing this thing.
Speaker 3 (14:03):
And so it was like a combination of like work.
Stuff was kind of taking overand also kind of running out of
steam, and so I shuttered it fora while and then restarted it
back in last December.
So I've been going for 10months.
Nice, it kind of feeds my like.
I already kind of like doingthis anyway.
I already kind of like, youknow, sharing nudes and sending
hot videos and turning people on, and so it's like now I get to
(14:25):
do that and also get paid for it, so like a fun.
Speaker 2 (14:28):
Nice.
Speaker 3 (14:29):
Yeah, yeah.
Speaker 2 (14:31):
How many followers do you have on OnlyFans?
Speaker 3 (14:33):
I've had a peak of like just over 400.
I think I'm at, like Nice, alittle under 300 right now, kind
of like ebbs and flows,depending on like how much.
Yeah yeah, content I'm making,how much I'm promoting it, that
kind of thing.
Speaker 2 (14:45):
That's awesome though .
Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 3 (14:47):
I also feel like my video is getting a little fuzzy,
but yeah, I really like it.
It's been really fun andvalidating and it kind of feeds
to like the praise kink and theyou know like.
Yeah, just tell me what youthink about me.
And then I love the idea thatthere's like videos and photos
of me floating around and peopleare coming to it.
I really like really does itfor me.
Speaker 1 (15:03):
So Well, I can anecdotally say that that
happens frequently for sure.
Speaker 3 (15:11):
Well good, that makes me really happy.
I'm just going to put that inlike my little going to put that
in my cap of like mostflattering things people have
ever said to me, Cap.
Speaker 1 (15:20):
Yeah, keep it it is.
It is a prize possession.
I appreciate it greatly.
I should bother you for anotherone of these days.
Speaker 3 (15:27):
You should, so just let me know.
Speaker 1 (15:29):
A question that I've wanted to know from you for a
while, because I feel like we'reboth I was looking for
explorers or cartographers ofthe kink world Like I think
we're fascinated by the varioustypes of experiences that we can
have.
Usually, when I hear someonethat says something like I'm
sexual, I'm also a switch.
I also like being watched and Ilike watching other people.
Usually that that usually hitsthe spot of being like I want to
(15:52):
see and do all the sexy things.
So what is one, what issomething that you've been like,
always wanted to try or alwayswanted to get into that you
haven't been able to do yet, andwhy haven't you been able to do
it?
Speaker 3 (16:05):
Something I want to try but haven't been able to get
into.
Oh, I feel like there's so manyI would love to.
I think I would love to do likebe the receiver of Shabari,
like suspension, like tie up andkind of hung up sort of, and
that one is just because Ihaven't.
I know there's like workshopsand I know there's like a really
pretty decent community ofpeople around here that do that
(16:25):
kind of thing.
So I just really haven't goneto seek out to be like, okay,
this is something I would liketo experience, and then go and
seek the people that would dothat.
I'm trying to think what elseI've had.
Well, I don't know if that's akinky thing, I want to try
cupping.
I think would be great.
I've seen it done like a littlefire cups.
Yeah, so they're like theselittle.
They're either plastic or glass.
(16:45):
So if you've ever seen, therewas a thing a couple of years
ago when Michael Phelps was inthe Olympics and he had these
like suction marks all over himand people are like what
happened to his back, likewhat's going on.
So they're like plastic orglass and they kind of put them
on your mostly on your back, andthen heat up the cups and it
creates this like suction andthen it some of it is used for
like pain relief.
Some of it is just for becauseit feels good.
(17:07):
Some of it's, you know,definitely like kinksters, I
know.
Have you know sort of done itas well?
So that's something that I'veseen done to other people but I
have not experienced myself.
Yeah, those are, those are kindof like the ones I can think of
off the top of my head.
That is it sort of pinned, islike, yes, I would like to do
the thing and I have not donethe thing.
Speaker 1 (17:23):
So it's nice.
Yeah, you also said that you'releaning towards the top side of
the slash.
I'd love to hear how did?
How did you get into?
Because it also sounds like youdidn't start there, like that's
been.
That's a newer development inyour journey, so how'd you get
into that which?
What have you done?
What fancy things.
Speaker 3 (17:43):
Yeah, I definitely didn't start there.
I for sure started on the yeah,definitely on the much more
like sub side.
And you know I really like youknow I love insects like a bit
of pain, I love being held down,I love being restrained, I love
like breath, play hands on the,you know, in the neck, pulling
the hair, that, all that sort ofstuff.
So it was sort of that was myintro into like, well, okay, I'm
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going to be the receiver ofthat.
Therefore, I'm more on thebottom side, but especially
during the pandemic, I startedseeing someone that was more
subby than I was and it was sortof a long distance thing.
It was in the middle of thepandemic so we couldn't like
really go and see each other.
So we did a lot of like hotsexting, like erotic
storytelling with each other.
That was really, really fun andso that's sort of how I kind of
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ended up leaning into that inthe beginning.
And I'm also the kind of personthat I think to your point
earlier, when you kind of haveall the stuff and you want to
try all the things, I reallylike finding stuff that people
are into being like, oh, youlike that.
It's one of those like maybe I'mnot into it or haven't thought
that I'd be into it, but they'reinto it and then it gets really
hot and then I'm just like cool, we're doing that thing, it's
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delicious, and that that's partof it.
Is like finding peopleespecially as my dating has
gotten queer over time findingpeople that kind of either are
switchy or a little bit moresub-bottom leaning than I am,
and then I kind of justnaturally like float into that
and I think just kind ofaccepting my own power and my
own ways I can influence peopleand finding my own sense of
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satisfaction when that happens.
So it's definitely more.
I'm not necessarily like animpact top, it's much more of a
like mental top, more emotionaland, yes, mental.
It's a great way of saying it.
Yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 (19:24):
No, no, I feel as I feel as I'm weighing, you know
like I consider myself like aservice switch.
So, like most of the activitythings that I like to do, I'm
generally like indifferent aboutinternally.
Like the way that the decisionis made is like what is this
person going to like?
And I'm going to do thatbecause the center of most of my
kinks is like I derive a lot ofpleasure from getting other
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people pleasure.
You know, kind of like it'saddictive and oral addiction in
general.
Most people seem like that, butyou know it's like I don't take
.
Well, that's not true.
I'm starting to get like alittle bit more enjoyment about
like exerting physical effortand physical dominance on people
, but I don't get a lot ofpractice.
I have a what I like to call thebeast, just because usually
(20:05):
what happens to me when I'm intop situations is like I'm a big
guy.
The part of my system that islike throw you around and
dominate you is very vigorous.
So I'm like I'm aware that I'mlike, okay, I haven't found a
person that like once ago thereand I don't have like enough
trust in that.
So like I call, I call thoseconversations conversations with
the beast.
I'm like, okay, we got to dothis at 14%, all right.
And I was like we'll findsomebody that's we'll let the
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beast fully out of the cage forone of these days, but we'll get
there.
So that part of it I'm like I'mstarting to get like physically
into.
But I'm definitely more likewhat do you want, how do you
want to do it, and then doing itvery, very, very well.
And I'm also more into likemental domination than I am
physical domination, like Ienjoy pushing somebody on the
bed, but for personal enjoymentI am much more like what's been
(20:48):
in your sit down and thenwaiting and then deciding they
don't have any other choice.
That is more fun for medomination wise than like
shoving somebody.
Plus, I was blessed with thisvoice.
So it's like, why not, yeah,yeah?
Speaker 3 (21:04):
Yes, you, I had somebody in the last year to
tell me they were just like oh,you have sort of a sadistic
streak, and I was like I don't,I don't know that.
I, I don't know that I do.
I think I just like the personI was talking to at the time, it
was responding to the voice, itwas responding to those types
of things.
So they were responding to likescratching and biting and like
(21:25):
gripping, and you know if that'sthe thing.
And then you start makingreally great noises.
I'm going to keep doing thething, and so those like I don't
know if that's so much me as itis, like I'm going to sort of
find the thing that turns you onand I just want to like hone in
on it and do it really well.
Speaker 1 (21:41):
And then you know, but that comes in like a variety
of forms, depending on who I'mlike yeah, I was like you gave
me all the green lights, I'mgoing to, I'm going to drive
faster on them.
You keep, you keep moaning likethat.
Speaker 3 (21:50):
We're going to do, we're going to push that pedal.
Yeah, exactly, yeah, exactly,yep.
Speaker 2 (21:57):
Can you was there?
Can you tell me about yourfirst kinky experience?
Speaker 3 (22:01):
My first kinky experience yes, it was with
someone who actually was aformer, former coworker was so
someone I worked with and Iheard a lot about like this is
one of the people I becamefriends with and like we were
sort of in different sections ofthe company or whatever it
became friends with and, youknow, it became close and
started talking about like someof those experiences that they
had.
(22:21):
But we were actually bothmarried at the time.
We both, under separatecircumstances, slightly
different timelines divorced andthen I ended up.
So then we were both single.
One of us had left the companyand suddenly we're not coworkers
anymore and they were the firstperson to do like a full impact
scene with me.
So it was, you know,introducing me to vloggers and
(22:42):
crops and had me fullyrestrained onto the bed and
experienced my first subspace.
That was a whole new thing.
Speaker 2 (22:50):
So you went from not having any sort of kinky
experience to having like fullon impact play extravaganza yes.
Speaker 3 (22:57):
Yep, which it which sounds like a big like you know,
yeah, but it was a discuss thethings, and I had been fully
curious for quite a while andalso was very, very, very into
this person and so just kind oflike went into it and they were
really good about like talkingme through the whole thing, also
had like co-words wereimportant.
So you know, you've got the red, yellow, green, all that kind
of stuff and checked in with methrough the whole thing to make
sure I was enjoying it.
(23:17):
And it actually ended up beingkind of cathartic because I find
that the more emotionallydistressed I am, the more I end
up liking impact because itallows, like it just helps me
process some of those feelingsand also the big, you know,
endorphin highs and sort of somepain relief, and so it was a
really, really gratifyingexperience.
But yeah, so I went from likenothing at all to like very
vanilla sex and to just bang inthe hot co-worker and get in the
(23:40):
full impact scene, so yeah, andthen just went from there.
I also then got into FetLife,started meeting people through
there, which I don't do as muchanymore because I had a couple.
You know, I feel like meetingpeople to go on dates with
through FetLife and be kind of amixed bag.
For sure.
I had a couple of like notgreat experiences and then ended
up meeting many more lovelykinky people and then that was
(24:02):
actually so.
I got divorced in 2016, endedup moving to Texas early 2017
and then found a bunch of peoplehere, Tosen included so then
was able to just plug into somelovely, lovely folks here and
then started going to parties,meeting people, dating kinkier
people.
So yeah, all sorts of goodthings.
Speaker 1 (24:18):
You talk because this is something that fascinated me
about like impact in general.
So you talked about that likethe more distress that you are
in general, the more helpfulimpact play is for you
personally.
Can you talk more about indetail, about like what it is
about processing your ownfeelings, like through the pain
(24:39):
of impact that is helpful foryou?
Speaker 3 (24:40):
Yeah, so you know and I know that linking like
emotional distress and likephysical pain may not be like
the most helpful thing, but Iwill stress that it's like it
works really well for mepersonally.
Speaker 1 (24:52):
We're not recommending solutions for
people's coping mechanisms.
Please speak to therapists andmedical professionals like that.
Right, yes, this is anecdotal.
This is just because I likehearing how people think of
experience things.
Speaker 3 (25:03):
Yeah, so for me, especially when I was going
through a divorce, I was therewas a lot of fallout in my life
for a variety of reasons andalso like losing this
relationship I've been in for 10years and you know it's a
really, really messy and unhappylike situation.
It was the best decision I'veever made in my life, but it was
painful on the way out, and sofor me, I guess the pain sort of
(25:24):
helped create an externalversion of what I was feeling on
the inside, and then it justhelped provide, I guess, sort of
like you know, some relief,like when you're when you're
feeling really pent up and yougo for a workout, or when you go
for a run when you're reallyupset, or you know, I, when I'm
feeling really frustrated,sometimes going for a walk just
moving my own body, orexperiencing that those types of
things can sort of help workout some of the feelings.
(25:46):
And then it was just kind of amore extreme version, because
I'm, instead of going reallyhard on the elliptical, I'm
getting a flogger on my back.
And then the first time that Isaw that first experience I was
just telling you about, I didend up going into sub space.
So for me it felt like, insteadof sort of wincing and bracing
and having physical reactions tothe hits as they were coming,
my body just sort of just Ialmost got very sleepy, very
(26:08):
sleepy, very body high.
I just have my like my eyesclosed, like my, my eyelids were
very heavy, and that's sort ofwhen it was kind of like, okay,
it's time to time to time to tapout because the person sort of
in this like bloaty space, andthen I woke up the next morning
and I felt so clear and so calmand so just awake and alert and
I was like Whoa, like if that'swhat this process has on me, and
(26:33):
so I was able to carry on thatrelationship through, basically
until I moved to Texas, you know, and I know there's the whole
kind of like enough pain inducesthe endorphin high, which then
can be like pain relief and alsofeel really good and kind of
euphoric, and it was just a verycleansing experience.
So yeah, no that really kind ofwild.
Speaker 1 (26:53):
Yeah, that makes complete sense.
You know, I think about a lotof my intense attraction and
desire for like oral sex.
Things is a lot has a lot to dowith that.
It's regulating to my systemand so like I totally get like
if you have you know, I think oflike a mode, like.
I think of emotions as likeblocks that you have to grab and
like move into the right place.
(27:14):
It's very difficult to do thatwhen they're intangible, so any
activity that kind of likeconnects them to something that
you can like physicallyunderstand is easy and like in
getting myself out of like theChristian church mindset of like
rules, of being like pain isalways bad and pain is a bad
thing and, you know, never hurtsomebody, which is accurate,
don't actually hurt peopleunless they want to be like.
(27:36):
One of the ways that got me tobeing more comfortable with
delivering pain to other peoplewas like delivering pain to
other people was realizing thatlike this is giving them a
tangible way of grabbing anemotional block and like being
able to like understand it andfeel like exactly what you said
making an external version of ofan internal feeling.
Again, not suggesting copingmechanisms.
Please don't use that as yourbase coping mechanism for
whatever emotions you're dealingwith.
(27:57):
Go to go see therapists,therapies incredible, everybody
do it, but no, that makescomplete sense.
And like whatever you find thathelps regulate your system
that's not harmful to yourselfand other people.
Speaker 3 (28:06):
Please explore safely , often vigorously, if you need
to yeah, safely and consensuallywith yourself and other people.
I think regulating is a niceword for it.
There's just a way to.
But, yeah, I love the idea oflike being able to grab a hold
of it and like do something withit.
Whether that's yeah is that Ifeel like there's also a lot of
you know, very, very big linksbetween emotions and like you
(28:27):
feel it in your actual body, andso sometimes you have to do
things with your actual body inorder to like, even if it's it's
regulated, or get it out or youknow you know it, around people
keep saying that King processesregulate their nervous system,
and every time they say that I'mlike, yeah, it regulates their
nervous system.
Speaker 2 (28:44):
And then I'm like, what the fuck does that mean?
And I'm trying to relate itright now to something like is
it like the equivalent of goingto be tired and waking up
refreshed?
Speaker 1 (28:53):
how do you feel after you do yoga and you haven't
done it for a while?
like you're yoga instructor, sothat's probably, it's probably
low in the system.
Okay.
So for me, like for example,I'm in time out right now, so
that means I have not engaged inoral sex since the beginning of
the month and what I can tellmy body once is the I'm piling
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on.
Different stresses, differentthings in life are stressing me
out which makes me clench moreand makes me various activities
of different stress.
It gets easier for me to getanxious, irritated.
It's harder for me to think,but things like that.
Then usually if I get a prettytherapeutic amount of being able
to deliver oral sex to someone,because it is the same
repetitive task, because theconfirmation and affirmation of
(29:38):
like Tosen, you're doing a goodjob, how it feels, tack to leave
the oral fixation of it all,all of those things at once,
resets a lot of those nervoussystem reactions.
Afterwards I'm like, okay, Ican think easier, my body is not
clenching as much, I am moreconfident in my choices of
decisions I can make better.
Speaker 2 (29:59):
So it's like it's stress relief Stress relief.
Speaker 1 (30:02):
Yeah, I could put it as stress relief.
I like to say regulating,because instead of just stress
relief, because there's likemasturbating is considered
stress relief, but it doesn'tput my nervous system back to
normal, it just kind of like isa momentary fix for it, and so I
guess if I need to regulateregularly, it's momentary.
But yeah, stress relief isanother way to put it.
Speaker 3 (30:26):
I think I sort of feel the same way about sex in
general.
So I feel like, in particular,things like impact I don't
necessarily do on a very regularbasis, but having a regular sex
life for me and alsomasturbating regularly also just
helps me feel better in my ownbody.
I know if I've gone a while andobviously this is with consent
(30:47):
and partners and all sorts ofstuff, all the caveats but for
me, having regular sex for mejust helps me feel better in my
body, helps me feel morerefreshed, more centered, calmer
, more happier in my own skin.
So I wonder if it's that samekind of thing of just not both
stress release and also just a.
(31:07):
For me it feels all in the samecategory of eating and drinking
water as part of just a regularbody system that when it's in
regular practice and things feelgood, it helps make the rest of
my life better.
So maybe it's the same kind ofthing.
Speaker 1 (31:20):
Oh, I think that's the other part of saying stress
relief, instead of dysregulatein, is dehydration is a
dysregulated state, right, andthen drinking water will
regulate that system again,anxiety is a dysregulated state
and whatever the various formsof relief in that thing is well
regulated.
And so lots of sex things for mepersonally, because it's one of
(31:42):
the few things I also have avisceral reaction to.
So, like you know, I'm autistic, but well, I guess I haven't
been tested, but I have twoautistic children.
So like what it's likely that Iam, and you know I resonate
with a lot of the things of thatnature, and so because of that,
most decisions and happeningsof the world are usually some
form of fashion scripted for me.
So usually things happen, theyrun through a process in my head
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and then I decide the reactionto it.
This is one of the few thingsthat are like this were
reactions to stuff, and sothat's why it's like regulating
to my system and I seek it allthe time.
I'm also a regular masturbator.
I did spend been quite sometime that I haven't like
masturbated every day.
That rarely, rarely don'tmasturbate every day.
Speaker 2 (32:21):
You masturbate every day.
Speaker 1 (32:22):
Probably twice a day, I would say.
I would say on average.
Speaker 2 (32:25):
What?
Even if you have, even if youhave sex, oh, yeah, I've.
Speaker 1 (32:28):
I've had sex four times in one day easily.
And so like I said, it's likeit's.
It's like drinking water for me.
Like it's.
You know, one of the the, thebeast gets angry and wants to
get out of the cage, the moreand more horny.
Speaker 3 (32:40):
I am.
Speaker 1 (32:42):
And so, or the longer in between me climaxing.
So it's just easiest for me tolike masturbating regularly.
I've been smart though I yeah,I'd probably say I masturbate
twice a day, Like I'vemasturbated three times a day.
Speaker 3 (32:53):
It's probably going to be four after this Okay, at
least once, sometimes, sometimestwice for me, yeah.
Speaker 2 (32:59):
A day.
Yep, I'm going to startmasturbating more.
Speaker 1 (33:02):
I highly recommend it .
Speaker 3 (33:05):
Like I think it's a great time, but you know, I feel
like it does, definitely.
Speaker 2 (33:08):
Do you masturbate because you feel aroused or just
because you want to?
Speaker 3 (33:12):
Both, both there's some kinds of words.
Speaker 4 (33:14):
Always.
Speaker 3 (33:16):
It's like I've got a, I've got an itch to scratch and
I've just like I saw somethingreally hot.
Or my partner has been textingme like dirty things all day and
I want to do that.
Or or sometimes it's, you know,before bed.
When I wake up first thing inthe morning, you know if I've
got like a little time beforeyou know I need to start work
and my head's hot.
She's just sitting right there,you know.
Start the day with a greatorgasm and then I just like wake
up, refresh and start my dayand feel clear minded and yeah,
(33:37):
so it's a little bit of both.
Speaker 1 (33:39):
Yeah, okay, I'd say the same.
It's like it's either because,like I am familiar with the draw
from my attention, so like I'm,I work from home and so and I
code, so it's like I kind ofneed very detailed focus and I
could tell that like I'm losingthe focus because I need to
masturbate.
Speaker 2 (33:56):
Wait, is it because you're aroused and it's
distracting, like you keepthinking about sex, or just
because you're like dysregulatedand you need to like focus?
So you go masturbate and thatfix?
Speaker 1 (34:05):
Yeah, I would say it's like at this point it's
early stages of arouseddistracted.
Like I'm familiar enough withmy body system that I can tell
me like, ah, the horny cloud iscoming and I, and like the, the
the horny are, I get, the harderit is to like get back to where
I need to be at.
So it's like if I can catch itright when it's pooling, I'm
(34:25):
just like, okay, knock it out,let's get back to work.
But I mean, like today has beenyou know, I knew I was going to
talk to the end of this evening.
Very close to Jason to think ofDeanna is that video.
So I was like no it is justright there on my computer Now
I'm thinking about it, rightthere and, you know, in the
quick folder, in the quickfolder.
So just right there.
Pin on the side of my windowsexplorer.
(34:45):
It's just looking at me.
Oh my God, it's pinned to ohyeah, yeah, I have a folder
that's right in there.
This is the quick folder andyou are.
You are right there, good to go.
Speaker 4 (34:56):
It's, it's, it's so good.
Speaker 1 (34:58):
I was like you know, I don't show people's videos to
other people for that, but veryoften, like this is a custom
that I request all the time,like I bought this from other
only fans, creators and otherpeople Like I've accepted it as
payment for services.
Like I'm just like you can giveme cash you don't have cash and
anything else Like you can if,like we've talked about it, I've
had sexy interaction before.
I'm not like people aren'tasking me to play gigs at clubs
(35:20):
and I'm just like, well, youdon't have to pay me, you can
send me that custom.
But very often I'm just like,if you're curious about what it
is that I like and how it goes,this is perfect and would show
them your video.
But I haven't done that becauseI wouldn't ask you first before
I do that.
But I was just like this, thisis, this is the blueprint that
works perfectly.
Speaker 3 (35:41):
Well, you start, you, I can stay on a very official
record that you have.
You have permission to share itas much as you like.
It's like that turns me on too.
I was like I've always toldlike partners where I'm just
like you can also just showpeople my nude photos and I just
want to hear the reactions,like I just want to know, like
what they think, just want tohear the.
Speaker 2 (35:57):
yeah yeah, like you're the one person who's like
, here's a nude photo Also showme.
Speaker 3 (36:02):
Exactly, please, yeah , feel like listen.
I get to do that, you know justshow your friends yeah.
Speaker 1 (36:08):
Man, my one of my early kinky.
One of my early kinkyadventures in the live journal
doing come tributes for people.
Speaker 2 (36:16):
What does it come?
Speaker 1 (36:17):
tribute.
So in the live journal days,that was, they would link to
photos of themselves in variousforms of sexiness.
You would print that photo outand you would ejaculate onto it,
and then you would send them aphoto of you having ejaculated
to the photo that you haveprinted out of them as a tribute
to them.
Speaker 2 (36:35):
I mean like this I'm sorry, I missed this entire
phase of the internet.
I received no come tributes.
Speaker 1 (36:42):
I mean, the phase isn't over.
Speaker 3 (36:46):
Like I was saying it's still a thing.
Maybe just I was on livejournal at the time, but I was,
you know, being like good, very,very good little Baptist girl
at the time and not getting cometributes.
I do get those on, only fans,though.
Very occasionally someone wouldbe like can I send you a video
of me getting off to you?
Or like you know, if someonesends me like a very detailed,
like, oh my God, I saw thisphoto that you posted the other
day and I just did you know XYZ,and sometimes I'm sneak a
(37:08):
little discount and just be likeI was so hot.
So, though, I think I'm gonnabe like.
Speaker 1 (37:12):
I'm gonna be like.
I'm gonna be like.
I'm gonna be like.
I think.
Speaker 2 (37:14):
I've sent you three over the years.
Now You're so hot, you takethis yeah.
Speaker 1 (37:19):
But the the come tributes now are a little bit
more high tech.
Speaker 3 (37:24):
Slightly more high tech, maybe less on printer
paper and more.
Speaker 1 (37:28):
Yeah, I got two cameras, One of my favorite.
Speaker 3 (37:31):
Yes, oh, there you go , yeah, and I can do a full
thing.
Let's say, one of my veryfavorite photos that I have is
an ex that basically came ontoan iPad with a photo that I had
sent him, and it's still one ofmy, just like it's so good.
Speaker 2 (37:43):
I have an appropriate response to sent to nude photo,
receiving nude photo or a sexyphoto.
I have never gotten anappropriate response from
sending a sexy photo.
It's always like I don't know.
Men don't know what the fuck tosay.
It's so weird, Like they wantit and then they get in there
like thanks, oh really Cricket.
Speaker 1 (37:59):
Oh yeah, that's a shame.
Speaker 2 (38:07):
I've stopped sending them as a result and I'll like,
if I'm dating somebody and youall give all that you know, I'll
do it once and see what theirresponse is and if it is
inadequate I won't do it again.
Speaker 1 (38:16):
Yeah, no, that's, I don't know.
It feels like I can't evenimagine being like getting a new
phone, be like thanks the end.
Speaker 2 (38:27):
I mean, nobody said thanks, but I'll get like a
maybe, like an oh baby, andthat's it.
Speaker 3 (38:31):
And that's it.
Oh yeah, you know.
One more response.
Speaker 2 (38:35):
No, hot, okay, they should, they should Cool.
Speaker 3 (38:41):
And I feel like they should be in return, like
worshiping the ground you walkon and singing your praises and
being like, okay, great, but canI have some more?
Because that was really hot andyou are just like blowing my
mind with it.
You know obviously much sexierversion than what I'm saying off
the cuff, but yeah.
Speaker 2 (38:56):
I'm glad you are, though, because I think many
people need to hear theappropriate response to
receiving a nude or sexy photo.
Speaker 1 (39:02):
Listen.
Look, I understand.
Not knowing what, not beingable to know what to do.
A great response Peoplereceiving the nude photos who
want to respond in a lovelyfashion.
Here's a great line Steal it,you can have it.
Oh my God, that was soincredible.
I would.
What can I do to repay you forthis bounty that you have
brought me?
You can use that exact phrasehow can I repay you for this
(39:27):
bounty that you have brought me?
Write it down, copy, paste it,send it when you get the
response.
Do that, okay.
Speaker 3 (39:34):
Yes, yeah, I had someone that I was dating back
in I guess like 2019, and itsort of fizzled because, like we
had, we were, we had reallygood conversation in person.
But anytime in between, when weweren't seeing each other, I'd
try to like send sexy photos orlike try to, you know, dirty
talk or whatever, and it justlike would just hit the dirt
every time.
(39:54):
Just would not.
It would be the same sort ofthing.
The response.
Just be, like, yeah, just belike, ooh, baby, and that and
that, nothing.
And I'm like, okay, but likecan we versus?
Now I will sing the praises ofmy current partners, who not
only just tell me how much of afucking queen that I am and how
much they adore my body, butthen also will be like can I
have some more?
What can I?
You know again?
How can we, again, in their ownform, offering bounty to you,
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know, their own repayment forthe that is a great response.
Speaker 2 (40:20):
How can I please get more of that?
Yeah, can I please have?
Speaker 3 (40:23):
some more like please have some more, because you are
so incredibly hot.
Speaker 2 (40:26):
Please, I would love yeah, here's my semen upon the
floor.
Speaker 1 (40:31):
You did that yes yep all appropriate responses and
effort and appreciation is alsovery, very valuable.
Like you know, right Casey'svoice is very sexy to me if oh
thank you, I literally forgotwhat I was talking about.
Okay, I got it like there's anepisode of no, it's the
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recording that we have at theend of that comes at the end of
the podcast.
That has a bone in it and whatand like.
So I have a recording that islike a chunk of, like Casey's
bones to do that that I cut,looped the best ones next to
each other and has have used asmaster 28 for a while, and I've
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let Casey know about this for achunk of the time.
For a chunk of the time, I waslike requested to like inform
Casey, like how, when I relievemyself to it, especially right
after I made it, it was a highvolume and I was just like,
because we know like we havelike I know you didn't know,
yeah, I did.
Well, it's like you know, I, Idon't want to, I don't want to
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feel uncomfortable and like wedon't, we are like, we're like
just over the line of like we'renot like we have sexual
interactions.
We like, we're aware of you'reaware of my attraction to you
sexually, and so I was like I'mnot going to send this five
times today.
That's, that's, that's probablybad, that's probably bad.
Let me not, let me not, let menot say let me not mark up all
(42:03):
you five times this.
I listened to this recording.
Speaker 2 (42:07):
I mean this is a appropriate response to
receiving sexy materials.
Speaker 1 (42:11):
It is an appreciation effort is good.
Like you know, there's there'sanother person in the pink
community who does really goodlike audio, like.
They just have a skill set forlike doing like jackoff
instructions and being like Iwant to see come on to like
making audios of it, and theyreally like doing it, and so
we're in a rhythm.
They're like they will surpriseme with it on snapchat and I
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will, within 15 minutes,whatever I'm doing, be like I
came here it is and so I lovelike, if you if you, if you
surprise me with toaster and Iwant you to come things, it will
be immediate.
Speaker 3 (42:47):
So you know, and I've made videos of it and and this
is impressive because, well, Imean, they're gone during the
day and so, like, a lot of mymath reading happens like in the
time frame of like eight tothree when I just am working at
my desk and so, but yeah, Iwould say that the how me and my
long-distance partner are islike he gets really excited when
he sees the spoiler in uh, indiscord, because you can
basically flag flag photos orvideos or whatever in discord in
(43:09):
case it's lewd.
So it's not gonna like just popup with like a nude photo.
So he was, you know, tells melike his it's butterflies
whenever he sees the spoiler tagand I like I like doing that
the surprise mutes for sure.
Yeah, also, I will say on thatnote, like it's okay if you
don't know the right words ormaybe you don't feel good at
dirty talking or maybe you don'tquite know what to say, but,
like tosem is saying, enthusiasmand effort goes a long way.
(43:31):
So even if you don't feel likeyou're like I don't know what to
say I don't know if they'veprobably heard it a million
times or I don't know what toyou know, just try the bounty
line and then just try it andwork on it and I feel like
enthusiasm goes.
So so so far, at least in myexperience, yeah, doesn't that
really does right by the book.
Just the enthusiasm andexcitement works every time.
Speaker 1 (43:49):
You know, like you know, lyrical, literary ability
is not the key to successfuldirty talk.
The key to sexual dirty.
Successful dirty talk iscommitment and enthusiasm.
Right so it's.
It's just that's true ofeverything, exactly, yes, I was
like thinking there's anotherway that I like to describe it
like how to dirty talk well isthe same thing as like musically
(44:10):
accompanying well, and that iseasier for people understand.
I was like if I was playingpiano for somebody and that to
sing a song and the way I wasdoing it was like, oh, I hope
this is the exist, gonna be theright chord, and I know maybe it
shouldn't, and just if I wasdoing that they're gonna have a
lot worse time than if I wasjust like bam, we're doing it
and so and it will matter likewe'll figure it out if I'm like
(44:32):
definitively saying somethingand that's enough information to
them to do something that givesenough information to me and
you'll find your way.
Just be okay with like thefirst 10 exchanges being clunky
as long as it's likeenthusiastic and committed.
After that you'll find eachother's rhythm.
So just you know, haul off andbeing there and be like your
butt makes my heart so big andmy and my pants so big.
(44:53):
I really love it like that's,you know, not the best writing,
it's like you can.
Speaker 2 (44:58):
Good starting place.
Speaker 1 (44:59):
It's better than oh baby it's better than, oh baby,
in silence and crickets yeah,yeah, oh, baby hello yeah, and
describe in another dirty talkthing that's the help that was
super helpful early on in thegame.
Describe what you want to doand detail the body part
connections right the easy.
So what do you?
mean instead of being like I waslike, oh, you're really hot, I
want to fuck, you say I was likeI want to put my hands, your
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hands, whatever part of theirbody you want to connect with.
I want to put my hands on yourshoulder and then put you, your
body, on the bed and I want tograb your hips and slide them
into my hips and feel me growharder in between your legs
until I hear you just hit thesensory things, just like pick a
sensory thing, pick body parts,put them together the way that
(45:43):
you want.
So if you're like, instead ofsaying I want to fuck you, just
detail the body part connectionsand the sounds and touches you
want to hear.
That'll take you so far, yeah.
Speaker 3 (45:53):
I would add on to that.
Speaker 1 (45:55):
I love that lesson.
Speaker 3 (45:56):
Yeah, that's perfect.
And also I love when peoplenotice things about like the
photos or videos I send.
So like you're so hot, I wantto fuck.
You was like great, that's likelevel one.
But if you go, I really lovelike the way your ass is curved
and like, or you know, I reallylove the way you rolled your
eyes back when you came reallyhard, or I really love that bone
that you made, or I noticedthat I can see, you know, I can
(46:19):
see that, yes, specifics.
If you notice like a little, alittle detail and I'm like
paying attention and and then Iget a sense of like what really
turns you on, then if I knowthat like that pose really turns
you on, really like my ass inparticular, then I can like lean
into that and then it excitesyou more and then it excites me
more.
So, yeah, I would say just add alittle detail to you, even just
.
I feel like that's good datingadvice.
If you're just like you thinksomeone's really beautiful, just
(46:40):
be like.
You know, casey, your eyebrowsare like gorgeous I've just been
noticing them and your hair isreally beautiful tonight.
I feel like that's better thanyou know.
Just some generic compliment soyou can add that in the dirty
talk to you.
Speaker 2 (46:51):
Yeah yeah, yeah, I love this.
This is great so we're learningwe, we're learning.
We are at about an hour.
Is there anything, deanna, thatyou feel like compelled to say
or would like to leave everybodywith?
Speaker 3 (47:05):
no, in particular other than just know know is an
okay answer to yeah, I wouldjust love to impart the like
just don't be afraid to explorestuff, don't be afraid to try
new things if you have like alittle inkling that something
might be kind of hot or personmight be kind of hot, or like a
thing you haven't tried, or like.
That's one of the mostrewarding experiences of my
adult life is just being able totry like foods I didn't used to
(47:27):
like, or new, new sexual thingsthat I find really hot, or new
things that I can say to turnpeople on, or you know.
And I feel like that justsummarizes a bunch of what we
talked about.
So that's all I would say yeah,yeah, and also anyone listening
you look really hot today.
Speaker 2 (47:42):
Oh, sexy face.
You all just got a compliment.
Oh, where can we find you?
Speaker 3 (47:48):
on.
Speaker 2 (47:48):
OnlyFans.
What's your handle?
Speaker 3 (47:50):
My OnlyFans handle is Ms Eldridge, so MS and then
Eldridge and, if you like,ELDRITCH everybody.
Yes yes, and if you are onTwitter at all and or like Magic
the Gathering at all, you canalso find me by the same handle
on Twitter.
So fabulous, come find me, comegive me come tribute.
Speaker 1 (48:08):
Come find me the truth that you put on your phone
exactly just come over here Ihighly recommend it, highly
recommend it, well, well done 70out of 10.
Speaker 2 (48:18):
100 out of 10.
Thank you, thank you.
Speaker 1 (48:24):
Yeah, no, I don't know anything.
Ann, thank you for coming onfor being the first guest of
season two and for saying, yes,I know you and I have talked
about it for a while.
Speaker 2 (48:33):
Thank you.
Speaker 1 (48:34):
I'm glad we chatted.
Speaker 2 (48:35):
And for all the sexy beasts out there, remember we do
have a patreon, please.
Littlerenngadefilmscom is ourwebsite and we have a form there
.
If you follow all of thebreadcrumb trails you can get to
the talkdrogymy form.
You can fill it out.
If you want a specific kink ortopic discussed, if you know of
a guest that might be good, orif you yourself think you would
(48:56):
make a good guest or anythingthat we can put anything you
want on the form and I will readit.
And what else I don't know,maybe that's it Not me getting
Speaker 3 (49:06):
ideas for that.
Speaker 1 (49:06):
Maybe that's it Get all your case your best.
I also recommend getting Caseyto say things to you.
It's a great time yeah on theform.
Speaker 2 (49:15):
you can put requests for me to say sexy things in my
sexy voice and I'll do it.
I'll do it for you, amazing.
Speaker 3 (49:21):
Audience.
Speaker 2 (49:22):
Anywho, thank you for tuning in to episode two of
season two of talkdirty to me.
Until next time, let's all talkreal dirty to one another and
when somebody sends you anythingsexy, respond with commitment
and enthusiasm.
Speaker 4 (49:38):
Later I'll use sexy beasts.
Bye, bye.
Talkdirty to me is a podcast bylittle renegade films.
It stars Sarah Marie, currie,casey, sammie Casey.
Why don't you sound real sexywhile you do it, do I?
No, why don't you?
Oh, why don't I?
Yeah, like you remember how youread your synopsis and yeah,
you want me to do it like that.
Yes, okay, genius, okay.
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Talkdirty to me is a podcast bylittle renegade films.
It stars Sarah Marie Currie,casey, sammie, tosen Alifaso and
Stephanie Smith, with silentcontributions by Taylor Novak.
Title and closing themes byTosen Alifaso.
Follow us on the social mediasat talkdirtytomepod and for more
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of our offerings, go tolittlerenegadefilmscom.
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