May 7, 2025 • 44 mins
In this episode of 'The Talking Taboo with Tara' podcast, Tara and her guest Sean engage in a candid conversation about various aspects of modern dating and sexual experiences. They discuss topics like one-night stands, the importance of using protection, proper condom disposal, and concerns regarding sexually transmitted infections. The discussion also ventures into personal stories about dealing with infidelity, relationship dynamics, substance abuse, and family histories with drugs. Sean shares his experiences with ghosting, reminisces about youthful crushes and lost opportunities, and touches upon his hesitations about falling in love again. The conversation is raw, revealing, and offers a deep dive into complex personal histories and societal issues related to sex and relationships.
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Welcome to The Talking Taboowith Tara podcast, where Tara
presents the unfilteredinterviews with guests about
today's taboo topics.
And now here's your host, Ms.
Tara.
Tara (00:18):
Welcome back everybody.
Today we have Sean with usagain.
Welcome back.
Sean.
Sean.
What's going on everybody?
Hi, how are you?
Hi.
You've been doing good.
We are doing good.
As a matter of fact, welcomeeverybody to the Talking Taboo
with Tara.
Taboo Tara in the house as thehost.
There he is.
Welcome back, everybody.
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Today we've got quite a fewsubjects we're gonna talk about
and see where it goes.
Yeah.
One night stands.
How do you feel about'em?
It depends.
If I'm feeling it, that's how Ifeel about it.
You just wipe it off with atissue and go on with the next
one.
No, I'm kidding.
No, you're not.
That was for the show.
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That wasn't for real.
That was for the show.
Pretty much that's what it is.
But yeah.
Something like One Night Standswe've all had'em.
I've had'em.
Yeah.
It's not the full end All Cureall.
No, it's not the fullsatisfaction.
It was fun.
You get a rush from somebodyliking you and digging you.
You, and most likely this stuffhappens from a bar scene or a
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dating app or whatever.
And it's not something when I goto date, it's not something I'm
looking forward to or trying toget it, depending on who it is,
how fast the connection went,it's if the situation was right
and go for it.
But if you're asking what Ithink about it, definitely be
careful out there.
If you don't plan on coming backand you're just, you guys just
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gonna smash for a night, havefun.
so basically you're saying ifyou only have sex chemistry, go
for it.
But if you have a connection,don't no.
I'm using the reference asprotection.
If you're gonna just banksomebody one time and be gone,
don't go bare back.
That's a good tip.
If you're gonna do it, be safe,be smart enough to take one with
you.
Shit does happen.
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Let's, we can't act I'm not likethat.
We all do things that we're allnot like sometimes, so it's just
best to cover it up, man.
Absolutely.
Now that means whatever, whenyou do use your condom, that's
a, I have that, I have aquestion.
It's merging into another topic.
Of course.
Yeah.
Do you tie your condom up afteryou're done with it?
Or do you just drop it?
Or do you just drop it in thetrash can?
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Do you flush it?
I flush it in the toilet.
You do flush it?
Yeah.
Do you take it off?
Do you let your girl take itoff?
I take it off, I take it to thebathroom with me while it's
hanging on the Johnson still.
There's like that, yeah.
So why is that a questionthough?
I'm just curious about it.
Where I've been doing someresearch.
Okay.
And it was on this Reddit postthat this guy thinks that his
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girlfriend got pregnant by usinghis using the condom.
Oh, now I see where you're goingwith this.
'cause I would even think alongthose lines.
Yeah.
That's shady.
Okay.
I've had a guy ask me beforewhat I've done with the condom
and I'm like, dude, I flushedit.
It was laying on the floor.
It was disgusting.
Why would you leave it laying inmy floor?
No.
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That's not how I roll.
So I picked it up and I threw itaway.
And I think that he thought thatI might, want to push it back
inside out into you orsomething.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I don't know if the, I don'tknow if that's stuff's gonna
work anymore.
Maybe'cause of the contraceptivethat's on it.
The, as soon as the air hits,it's like a fucking, like us
landing on Mars.
How is that?
Because when they jack off intoa cup, when you're using that,
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you capping it off when you'redone though.
Yeah.
But it still air hits it.
That makes no sense.
Now I know in condoms there is acontraceptive that, that's
inside'em that kills thespermicide.
Yeah.
Spermicide.
That's what it's called.
Yes.
I like those.
I always felt safer with thoseif I was the one, whatever.
Most of the time, if I'mbareback and I gotta know the
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person, or I'm planning on doingmore and just sticking with that
person, whether it be for aperiod of time or longer,
whatever, there's just, thoseare the boundaries I'm talking
about.
If something like that, it'sgonna go down, then I'd rather,
if there's no protection, justforeplay it out.
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That's safe.
Guys, think about that, ladiesand gentlemen.
Is it though, it's, it gets it'sfun floor playing it out.
Is it safe though?
Because if that person hasherpes and they have an outbreak
and you go down on them, you'regonna have herpes on your mouth.
That's true.
That's oral sex.
So you guys probably shouldn'tdo any of that.
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Any transfusional activities sopeople be on the lookout for any
warts, bumps, anything thatdoesn't look normal When you've
watched porn, you've seen cleanpussy.
That's what it should look like.
Yeah.
Yeah.
If it's got anything out of theordinary run.
Put your pants on, get up andrun that.
That's women and men don't eventake chances on ingrown hairs, I
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guess now, huh?
I got scars on my waist fromingrown hairs.
I've got some, I've got some mytoo.
You can take finger bump.
It's just a mark.
It's like a black dot.
Somebody took a marker anddotted yours.
I've got one too on my pussy.
That's funny that you said that.
This thing fucking reoccurs inthe same spot.
So I know it's not that I'vebeen tested because of a scare,
like about four or five yearsago, Uhhuh.
I didn't know what was going on,so I went and got tested.
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I went to the public healthdepartment.
Yeah.
It was free.
It was free.
So I was like, look man, I got,I said, I got this going on.
It fucking hurts.
Sometimes it pops up and thengoes away.
So I'm scared did I fuck upsomewhere down the line?
Did I get a herp?
I'm like, this is gonna destroymy life, and they ran
everything.
No, you don't have anything.
Like you got it.
Ingrown hair, stop shaving witha razor down there.
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That might be the best thing.
So I use like a separate pair ofclippers with a comb on it.
Uhhuh, so I don't skin it down.
There you go.
So now it's just scars andthere's no current ingrown.
Oh, that sucks ass.
I have some now.
You can fool people with that.
Yeah.
And they'll be like what isthat?
But you could tell us a scarfrom a wart or herpes, like
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herpes is a cluster of a bunchof open source.
This is what I've seen.
I've never seen'em before.
This is what I've seen in books.
And if you have seen before,you've probably got No.
In books.
I've never seen them in reallife.
I don't have, I don't haveanything.
There's two types.
I heard there's one that you canget rid of.
Yeah.
And there's one that's stuckwith it for life.
Yeah.
A and B, herpes A and B.
Yeah.
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So one's in your blood systemand the other one you just,
yeah, we all have it.
It's just right when you, Idon't know exactly how you get
it other than having sexclearly.
But food, hepatitis B is throughfood Hepatitis.
Hepatitis B is through food orsomeone that C and C's like
blood transition.
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Yep.
My, my father died of thehepatitis C most of that was
probably prison tattoos andheroin.
Both sides had dirty needles.
Your dad used heroin?
Bought it.
He used it while he was aseller.
He was a baller selling it.
And then he became the user andthen was doing odd jobs for not
gonna mention gang members fromthe Mexican side and the white
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biker sides doing jobs for themso that way he could get product
to sell, but he just kept usingit too.
Cocaine, heroin, stuff likethat.
My dad was a drug dealer too.
Yeah.
And then he started using hisown product.
That's what happens.
Yeah.
I know I've grew up with a lotof people that are good people,
but they're shady people.
'cause the business, they're inUhhuh what was in, I've watched
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somebody go from gold, Daytonwheels on their cars with the
hydraulics and systems to beinglike teeth.
Every other tooth is gone.
And can't make fucking sense.
They're slobbering, they got badhygiene, they're sweating for no
reason.
It's not even hot enough out.
I tried to tell people that.
I'm like, dude, I've watchedpeople go from the baller to the
user.
I've seen it many times.
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I have too many fucking times.
A real dealer just don't use thesupply ever.
Just a sense of that.
Yeah.
If you're a dealer, I think, Ifeel like it's an evil act.
You know what you're doing topeople, right?
And you're making a killing offit.
Yeah.
A, if it wasn't for the drugdealers back in the early
nineties, America wouldn't bewhat it is right now because of
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all the recession.
Drug dealers is what kept us upin the nineties.
All the crack sales.
You didn't know that.
That's not what kept thiscountry together.
It had kept it going.
I know that.
That, that's funny.
When they say crime doesn't pay'cause it certainly does that.
Fuck it.
Don't, yeah, it certainly does.
The government has the drugsbrought in and they get a part
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of it.
They have to.
That's why they love convictedpeople.
I don't care if it's smallcrimes, big crimes.
The law processes you you'reslated like a fucking item in
the warehouse.
You got a number when you'reborn and they give you another
number when you go to prison.
Fortunately for me, I never sawa prison, but never scared
straight or visiting my dad.
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So yeah, I have walked throughprison gates before, but Right,
me too.
Not for the wrong purpose.
Yeah.
My dad would never let me go seehim, but I saw him when he was
in jail, but when he went toprison, he wouldn't let me come
see him.
He didn't want me to see himthere, did your dad ever get
cleaned?
Yeah, he eventually did.
He did 2007.
He got out, got paroled.
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He didn't know how to use thecomputer very well.
But he got parole in oh seven.
We went and seen him and stufflike that and hooked him up with
the internet and got him POFwith plenty of fish dating site
and he found his fucking wife onthere.
Really?
Shit.
They were together like 10 yearsand then he passed away and just
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fell over.
Oh wow.
So your dad is no longer with usthen?
No, he's been gone since 2016, Ibelieve.
It's been a while now.
I didn't see much of himthroughout life, and outta
prison.
Didn't a lot of, yeah, I didn'thave a lot of meat on the bone.
That, and he just never, wantedto replace any time.
He didn't really have nothing tosay.
Didn't have no, no care in theworld for me.
He just, I think he liked my mommore than me.
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But they were never married.
They never had a longrelationship.
He got in trouble shortly afterI was born.
So Ohio, the reason for me beinghere is'cause my mom, she's from
here and all my family relatednow.
I spent pretty much a littleover half my life here too,
going back and forth and it'sjust'cause of my dad's patterns.
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What I'm telling you now is whatwe kept knocking me back here
for a while.
They didn't want me there.
'cause oh, he's, you're gonnaget in trouble.
Because that's, we gotta keephim la Huh?
It's San Francisco, la close toit.
San Diego or San Diego.
We're next to la We're only likean hour south.
Hour some change, honestly.
So they thought you were gonnaget what wrapped up in the
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gangs?
Yeah, because everybody seemedto live in the gang territory.
But I'm like some of the blacksheep.
But everybody likes me, but theyknow I'm a son of my dad.
They know him more than me.
So in recent times, they see meoften when I go out there, I'm
just like, the better version ofwe better polished version of my
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dad.
I'm not out there getting inserious shit.
I just, I don't want that life.
I just don't want it.
That's good.
You're not supposed to want it.
He was all about it.
Half his life was dedicated toit.
He had 18 years behind bars.
A total rap sheet that wasn't inone setting.
As long as one setting wasprobably nine years.
But before that it was probablythree or four years here and
there.
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So just different shit.
Breaking and entering robberies.
Drug sales, violent crimes.
The very last one he had was, hewas an enforcer.
That's what he was.
People would pay him regardlessif he was affiliated with
another gang.
So if io io some random streetclick out there, we'll use MS 13
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since everybody's heard of them.
But that's probably not who hedid.
Maybe he did, but obviously I'mnot gonna say they don't a
station.
But let's just say it's an X, y,Z gang or whatever, and they're
not even affiliated.
They'd pay him to click that.
Really?
You owe money, you get your doorkicked in, or you get stopped
sitting in your car and there'sa gun to your cheek.
So and so said they need thisand you haven't paid, you know
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why I'm here, oh, so he would,okay, I got it now.
That's what an enforcer is.
Yeah.
He's the one that collected themoney for, he's veto coming to
your door with a pistol.
You know what I mean?
That's, I don't need to talkmuch.
This is what you owe me.
This is what I'm here to get.
Not I'm busting kneecaps thefreeway's right over there.
I really hate to do that.
I'd rather just get the money.
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That's basically, I, it's almostlike I'm living through'em at
the moment.
But that's how he did hisbusiness.
That's what got him in trouble.
Just it's not worth it, man.
No, not these days.
Shit, that was before the ringcameras on people's doors and
cell phones.
A little easier to pull shitlike that off it now, you can
get caught so easily.
Everybody's got a camera.
Oh, fuck yeah.
There's so many cameras.
Everybody does.
You're not getting away withshit anymore.
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Not really you always get can'tfuckers.
Nope.
And they got the cameras nowwhole.
Yeah.
Now they got the body camerasand they can't take your weed
and say, oh, I didn't take hisweed.
'cause that's how they did meback in the day.
They would always take my shit,pull it out, walk on it.
Fuck.
Huh.
Make stomp it out and shit.
They well in chill vista.
Fuck California.
They did?
No, here they steal my weed andtake it and smoke it.
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Make me stomp it out where the,really, and Cali and Chula
Vista.
Me and my friend were packing abowl and the cops there looked
like fucking SWAT enforcement.
It's crazy.
Damn.
They rolled up on us and theyfound it.
They shook it out on the grass.
I was like, I want you to stepon it.
So I fucking did a fake stop.
I used the tip of my footinstead of going heel down, went
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like this and didn't hit a bud.
He left.
Went on the fucking corner.
We just stood there and madesure he didn't wrap back around
to see what we do.
We're fucking flashlight on theground, picking up the big buds.
Got the biggest bud you can get.
'cause all the little crumb shitjust went wherever.
I remember those fucking days.
Now it's legal there too.
So I've got three or fourdifferent marijuana charges in
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California from like early twothousands.
I have like nineties six here.
I've got more, I've probably gothundreds here.
Huh?
Between marijuana paraphernaliaI think I got six altogether.
Like I got a long record when itcomes to weed, like unreal.
I think it's all expungable now.
It's like they don't count now.
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Really?
That would be nice.
Automatic, basically automaticexpungement.
In other words, whatever you hadin the past, it's just null and
void because it's legal.
If it came up, it's we can'thold that against him.
It's no longer legal.
Yeah.
So you have what they call aautomatic expungement.
Okay.
Uhhuh.
That sounds nice.
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Yeah.
They decriminalized it beforethey legalized pot here in this
county.
Really?
Yeah.
So they went ahead anddecriminalize it.
If you get caught with weed,they're just not even gonna
write you a ticket.
That's awesome.
They don't prosecute.
They didn't.
That was before thelegalization.
They did that.
I don't know if you rememberthat or not.
No.
So the city of Columbus wouldjust, if they found it on you,
they hand it back to you as ifit was legal.
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They're just looking for theparaphernalia.
Can you do it in your vehicle?
That's, if you can hide that,then you're good.
But I know the trick.
What do you mean?
Like I wrote blunts.
I don't have papers.
It's that means if you lit it,then it's paraphernalia.
If it's freshly rolled and youhaven't lit it, then it's not
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Oh, so you can freshly roll themand not like them.
Somebody had told me that if youhave a bowl of resin in it,
that's paraphernalia.
That's always paraphernalia.
They got me for papers forparaphernalia that you buy at
the fucking gas station.
Yeah.
And a cellophane.
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Back in the day when I smokedcigarettes, I had a cellophane.
The very bottom had two buds init.
They got me for paraphernaliaand motherfucking weed, like
agram of weed.
They got, they charged me withagram of weed.
I would get by with that beforethey illegalized it or before
they legalized it.
I would separate myparaphernalia from my buds or I
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would just put the buds in therewith it.
There's a simple trick to this.
Okay.
Does everybody know about this?
Draw string bags that are small.
They're like, looks likeeyeglass cases or silk bags.
Yeah.
You pull the string and it's gota loop.
You take that loop and you openthe hood of your car.
And there's this hose.
As long as you're not byanywhere hot in the engine, you
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can just wrap it around that andpull it through the loop and you
got a bag just dangling underthe hood.
So if they ever go searching foryour shit, no matter what they
smell, they're never gonna lookunder your fucking hood.
Your engine.
Most dealers wouldn't put itthere anyway.
cause like products like cocaineor all this pow drugs, powder
drugs, they melt under heat sonobody's putting shit there.
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So mainly they won't go there.
So I got by with that for years.
Did you really?
They put dogs on my fucking car.
Dog would act weird for asecond, but they just couldn't
find it like, you gonna tear mycar down because you smell a
little bit of weed.
No.
Have a nice day that was a nicetrick.
I've never heard a cop say, popyour hood.
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No.
They ask if they can search yourcar and look through your trunk
and your seats and glove boxesand everywhere else they can
find the door panels.
They're not looking under thehood of your car.
Ever put your paraphernaliathere with glass, it can handle
the heat.
True.
I don't like bulls though.
I never have.
Mean you do it with yourpre-rolls stick.
Come in a container and do thesame thing.
Get by with it.
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So how do you feel aboutghosting people?
So you were talking to'em andeverything was going fine then
all of a sudden, no morecontact, no more communication,
no more nothing.
That fucking happens all thetime anyway.
Really?
With hell.
Oh, the motherfucking time.
That's just normal course fordating.
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That's normal course.
That to men and women.
I don't know why people do it,but ghosting is I never talking
to them ever again.
If I do that, it's because Itruly ain't feeling them and I'm
not even trying to fuck.
Damn.
That's when I do that.
And if they piss me off.
But if they're nice, let's,'cause I'm a realist.
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I'm more of a humble guy.
Not everybody might not be likethat, but you'd have to really
fucking throw me off to make medo that.
Not want to talk to somebodyever again.
Like literally, I would at leastsay, it's not, I don't feel you
like that.
I'm, we're just probably betteroff as friends.
That would be me today.
If somebody does that, it meansthey don't have the balls to say
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that.
Exactly.
You see what I mean?
That I can't stand that.
Or they're keyboard warriors andwe'll break up with you over the
motherfucking text instead ofbeing a man and calling you or
saying, look, I don't think thisis gonna work.
I don't think that we'recompatible or we want different
things, whatever the case maybe.
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I just don't see why it's sohard to open your fucking mouth
and speak.
'cause people are coward thesedays.
They're socially awkward andthey don't know how to act.
They don't know how to conductthat.
Yeah.
But our generation is not likethat.
But our, but we're talking aboutour generation, but we're, our
generation is saying we're badabout ghosting people.
Like we're bad about it or thenew generation's bad.
We are.
Why are we bad at it?
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We really, we did it like, Ithink we are the ones that came
up with it, to be honest.
Generation Z or X?
No, generation Z.
I would, I'm so glad I'm not oneof them.
Okay.
That's millennials.
I under, no, millennials arepeople in their low thirties,
late twenties.
Gen Z are your children rightnow?
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They're Gen Z.
Oh, okay.
See, we're X, we're at the endof X.
We're X we're at the, we're thelast generation Xes and then it
rolls into millennials.
So we're ex millennialsbasically is what we are.
I'm just two weeks fading outtax going the millennial.
Yeah.
It's weird.
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How is that?
I don't know.
They have a.
I'm marking a year mark forthat.
For when it's the newgeneration.
It doesn't for when it's thenew, yes.
I don't know what it is.
It's not the eighties, thenineties, the two thousands.
I think it's every 10 years,isn't it?
That changes the right butgenerational pattern.
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So like sixties, seventies,eighties, nineties, two
thousands.
That's the millennials.
So yeah, every 10 years theycome up with a, yeah, we're
almost due for another one.
Alpha, beta.
That's gonna be the new ones.
God forbid, after Generation Z.
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It's generation, alpha, beta,Charlie, all that.
I feel sorry for the world fromthis point on because well,
we're old and these idiots aregonna be the ones sticking
needles in our arms.
'cause they don't have no commonsense.
They're getting dumber.
It's just crazy.
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They are.
They are fucking ignorant.
Our kids are getting dumbed downbecause of the school system.
You got ai, you want the fuck,since Google, you got all the
answers.
You don't need to know anythinganymore.
If I had this technology, I'd bethat student.
Everybody loved.
You know why?
'cause you told me to go homeand do my homework.
You didn't say I couldn't cheat.
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That's the leading part tocheating on fucking schoolwork
is taking it home.
Nobody sees you do it.
You don't know if your parentshelped you with it.
You don't know if you wentonline to do it.
It's all there.
Now.
You can take a picture of yourhomework and put it on AI and
it'll solve all the problems onthat sheet.
Are you kidding me?
Absolutely.
And show the work or just giveyou the answers.
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AI's fucking wicked.
I can have them.
I know.
I use AI to edit.
Yeah, you could just tell it todo the things like just make me
a Excel spreadsheet to Yeah.
Somewhat.
I can tell, I can micromanageit, but when it's all said and
done, I have to listen to it andsee what still sounds right and
don't sound right.
I still have to pick and choosewhat to edit out and what not
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to.
But it does get rid of pauses.
It does get rid of filler words.
It does get rid of gaps.
Like it gets rid of all kinds ofshit.
I fucking love it.
It's badass.
It is.
It is the new, it is the newshit.
So you literally, these days youdon't even have to think for
yourself.
It's just, you don't have to,you gotta think for yourself.
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What, how many times wipe yourass.
I don't wipe my ass.
I use it a day.
Huh.
Uhuh uhhuh.
You do a thing that sprays yourbutt.
Oh, and then I wipe after itsprays my ass.
Fuck.
Yeah.
I know.
My shit's clean.
How does that do?
How does that work?
Is it feel good?
It'cause up in there squirt,like it shoots up in your
asshole and cleans the insideoutside.
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Ain't that one of the oldestforms of before toilet paper?
Pretty much.
I guess the kings and queensused to use'em.
I, when I saw a bidet, I did notknow how to use it, but a bide
toilet seat, I know how to use.
'cause I still sit there over abidet.
You don't sit down, you justover top of it.
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Like you, you walk, you stand upover it.
Yeah.
You stand up over top of it.
A real bidet.
You stand over top of it or yousquat over it or whatnot.
And then.
The bidet that I have is atoilet seat bidet and it comes
out the toilet seat.
And it aims for your puss oryour asshole?
It goes both places.
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So I, yes, I rinse myself everytime I get done.
Use in the bathroom, I'm clean.
Like clean.
That's crazy.
Yeah.
I don't like smelling like urineanyway.
And I hate toilet paper.
It leaves all kinds of shitbehind on me.
Like when I wipe the white ballsand shit, ugh.
I'm good.
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Like when I wash my ass Ialways, every once a blue moon,
'cause I get up in there with myhands.
Oh, you stick a finger up inthere and clean it?
No, on the outside of myasshole.
I'm not going up in Oh, you'renot going up in No.
Okay.
No.
Maybe to an extent.
Just a tiny bit.
Just, you know you wanna getthat shit clean as fuck.
Yeah.
Clean.
Yeah.
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That's the whole point ofwashing.
When you're having sex withsomebody for the first time, do
you think it's always awkward?
Yeah, kinda.
It isn't it?
You gotta learn somebody alittle bit.
Yeah, it is always awkward.
I don't know why they might rideyou funny at first'cause you
can't figure out how to, somegirls like their legs don't go
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all the way up so they can sitdown a little further.
You know that part?
Yeah.
Where you gotta take your kneeslike it's for the girl anyway,
because I'm tall.
Yeah, I know exactly what you'resaying.
Yeah.
To get your angle and shit.
Yeah.
That's awkward.
And then getting on top two,there's once a blue moon.
A girl's ha tying her legsbehind me to where I can't
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really get up in there like Ishould, the legs are almost down
all the way.
Almost doing cowgirl, doing abutterfly on her back.
Oh.
I don't know what you're talkingabout.
It's you have to show me, show.
I didn't mean like that, but,all right.
Hold on guys.
We're about to get her legs inthe stir up.
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Okay.
So legs are up at the end of theshow.
She's gonna get me a happyending on the show.
Okay?
So explain it to me.
Legs up.
There's no legs up.
And what I'm talking about thenwhat are you talking about?
Legs straight down.
Oh, her.
I imagine her guys don't spreadtheir legs.
Jesus.
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If a girl, okay, instead ofgoing back, she's going like
this flat.
Okay.
He gets inside and she's wrappedbehind his fucking thighs.
Oh, she's just taking his ass upstraight, pushing him in.
I do that all the fucking time.
Don't do that.
Why?
The guy can't fucking do histhing like that?
He's not supposed to.
I'm taking control at that time.
Look at me like I'm crazy.
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I don't know.
I didn't like the thing whereyou say you lay your hips on
somebody and just, I don't, whatdo I don't remember saying
anything like that.
You sat there, said, you saidwhen you're doing missionary.
'cause I was complaining aboutmen laying on top of me, uhhuh,
and you were saying my hips aregonna be on you.
And I'm like, what do you meanyour hips?
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I'm like, oh yeah, you're dead.
Fuck.
That's right.
You gotta lay on the person to.
You don't remember thisconversation?
I do.
Yeah, I do.
But you just, I, your wholepicture of thought process is
nowhere what I'm talking about.
Probably not.
You sat him on a guy laying hisweight on you.
And then I tell you, my hip, inother words, I'm up like a pit
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bull where my bo upper body isnot crushing yours, but my hip
is definitely on yours.
Oh, okay.
Yeah.
You still gotta get on yourknees.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So you can get all the way up inthere.
Yeah.
Do you have sex or have you everhad sex with food?
Hell no.
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What kind of food does peoplefuck?
Like the American Pie?
That's what I gave in my mind.
Yeah.
Actually today I heard a guylisten to this shit on Reddit
guy.
This, one of the stories was onReddit that he had two jars of
peanut butter.
Okay.
Uhhuh one jar was for him to eatout of.
And the other jar, I'm justgetting the heck, go ahead.
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The other jar was for him tostick his penis in for his
girlfriend to suck the peanutbutter off of in the apartment
that they lived in.
They exclusively have, everybodyhas their own cabinet.
Everybody has their own shelf inthe fridge, blah, blah, blah.
This one guy kept getting in hisfucking food and he had a red X
on it, and it said extreme orsomething, like this is used for
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extreme stuff.
Yeah.
And it had a red X and it waslabeled, but it was in his
cabinet.
And dude got into his cabinetand ate some of the X peanut
butter instead of the otherpeanut butter.
And dude was like, am I theasshole for telling him that he
just ate my dick peanut butter?
Or am I the asshole for nottelling him?
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Imagine if he busted in it, no.
Just to stick his dick in ithard.
Just so there's enough peanutbutter on there that so his girl
has something lick on.
Oh, okay.
And suck on like a dog.
That's gross.
That's not a bucket list ofmine.
People.
You're not end into food andsex.
Not at all.
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I've had the whipped creamlooked off me and stuff.
Yeah.
That's cool.
That's a lesser of the chocolatesyrups.
Too sticky.
It's messy as fuck.
Unless you're heading straightto the shower after some dirty
shit, then.
Cool.
I hate when somebody wipes mysweat off.
That pisses me off.
You hate, I hate it when someonetakes a towel and wipes the
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sweat off of you when you'rehaving sex.
You had to include towel.
You know how you females do it?
You take your palms right ontheir forehead and because
you're about to drop on us, it'sonly sweat, but you're about to
drip it on us.
What about that towel you saidyou had?
Usually I have a towel when I'mhaving sex.
Yeah.
So to catch the cu when it'scoming out of me, but I'm not
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taking my hand and wiping yourforehead.
I'm using a towel.
The fuck?
Ew.
Oh.
It's, it gets sweaty.
I know that It gets sweaty, itgets hot.
When it starts dripping on me, Igotta stop.
That's why I try to mediate thespeed a little bit.
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'cause I hate sweating toocrazy.
I used to, like I said on acouple episodes before, you're
like, fast sex.
I used to think about that's howyou had to do it all the time.
Remember when we were talkingabout being younger?
You thought the deeper, theharder, the rougher fuck that,
that girl's gonna fucking loveyou for life.
You're gonna fucking prank herin half is what you're gonna do.
Make, and I said, that's whatyou had to do.
But no.
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These days it's about artistryand knowing to get your partner
just fill'em out.
Yeah.
Getting them in their body.
Yeah.
That might be the fun part, withsomebody new is finding out
their trigger and then you couldtell that you did, they make
that reaction like, okay, thatmust be it.
That must be doing somethingright.
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So it's something I like.
Yeah.
'cause I think for the peoplelistening, you can't judge sex
from somebody that you just bangonce.
No.
Do you have a time it might getseasoned better?
Yeah.
I think through that experienceit does get better.
It'll hit a ceiling.
Of course it hits the best itcan get and that's the end of
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it.
What it tears to what?
Seriously.
You really feel that way?
Wow.
Sucks to be you, dude.
Everything.
Always.
It sucks to me.
It sucks to be everybody then.
No.
'cause in whenever I've, it'salways gotten better.
Are you kidding me?
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It's never plateaued.
Sex life.
No.
My sex life has always gottenbetter and better with each
partner.
It's gotten better with eachpartner.
Yeah.
And it seems like the longer I'mwith that person, the better it
gets and the more feelings andemotions that are attached to
it.
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If there is, what do you mean?
If you mean if, what do I'm notwith'em just to fuck'em.
I'm Exactly.
If you have the feelings, thenyes, it can get better.
Oh, if y'all are in love andstuff, the hardest thing to find
these days.
Oh, what I came to find out, itwas one, one sided.
Oh, that sucks.
Yeah.
So you were enjoying yourself.
This person was like, I'm right,I'm nuts.
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No, they weren't enjoyingthemselves too.
It's just they were cheating onme the whole time.
I used to use a sex buddy as aobviously for sex, but not to
see him once I wanna see him.
I like my sex partners to berepeats.
Yeah.
I always had, I think that's thebest way, to expect you've got
already crack the ice and it'snot weird to grab their ass out
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of nowhere now.
You know what I mean?
You got to that point, okay.
How I've ended up with my sexbuddies is that we dated at one
point and it didn't work out.
We both went our separate ways,but we were really good in bed
together.
We had great chemistry in bedsix with your ex.
But when he would meet somebodyor I would meet somebody, we
would break it off and tell himlike, look, we're seeing someone
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right now, so we're not gonnahave sex anymore.
But once that other person wassingle again, or if we, when we
both got single again, then wewould start fucking again.
And that's just how it worked.
Like we were open and honestwith each other.
I'm seeing this person, I can'tfuck with you right now.
And that's how it worked foryears with him and I, and his
name was Will, will Guthrie.
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I had exes like that too.
20 years.
Fucking later.
Ex-girlfriend from middle schoolcome around in my thirties, bang
it out.
Okay.
Seriously.
Yeah.
20 years later, these bitchesare hitting you up saying, let's
fuck.
I'm 30, 30 years later.
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And it's the girls that I hadcrushes on back in the day that
would never give me a chance.
20, 30 years down the line, evenup to this day, they've hit me
up, not outright saying, do youwant to fuck they want to date.
That's what they wanna do.
They wanna see, Hey, I shouldhave picked you, motherfucker.
I'm going towards 50 in fouryears.
It's too late now that I agesbetter than the assholes you
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had.
And you ain't that cheerleaderno more.
And you ain't popular no more.
And you ain't skinny no more.
And you're not skinny no more.
And you're in the fucking realworld now.
You want to call me?
Yep.
I haven't gave you any of mychance.
None.
I won't.
This is my satisfaction.
And hey, it's too late.
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You had your time.
I'm having my time now.
My time's on the backend.
Being older, I was alwaysattractive.
I was always attractive, likefor a dude, and in my teenage
years and twenties and stuff.
But women were mean.
They didn't give a fuck.
How could you look?
It was who had more power.
They wanted the older guy, theguy that was more established
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and stuff.
That's natural for a female towant an older guy.
It's just how they're wired.
You know what I mean?
That's how I was too.
So that all goes into the sayingthat women are more attractive
to the power they have, or maybethey care about how smart they
are or their physique could playa role personality and stuff
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like that.
But for the most part, in thattime, men remember how shitty
they were treated because theywere just a year or two younger.
And that guy had the car, and Ididn't have one quite yet.
I was 17, no, we remember thatshit man.
We fucking remember that shit.
You wouldn't think you couldjust come back later on.
It's all good.
You took, you fucking dissed meon my best years and your best
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years and it's over now andyou're getting old and I'm
getting old now.
You want to fucking peace whenit's, you can't have any fun no
more.
You gave up your best years tothese idiots and her name.
I'll tell your name.
Her name's Misty, but I ain'tsaying the last name, but her
name's Misty and she knows it'cause she's apologized for it.
It's not like she's trying tohide it.
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She knows she fucked up.
Oh, she apologized to you forit?
Yeah, she's been trying to getme back past couple years.
But I mean she, she is, onceagain, you don't hear me ever
talking shit too much aboutgirls.
I know.
Once again, this is someone elseI have nothing bad to say about.
'cause she is my bestgirlfriend, like as a girl.
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She's my best friend because shewas my first childhood friend.
When I was in the single ditch,it was elementary school, rode
the bus together, us friends.
She always dated my friends.
And she got knocked up by somedude who was 18.
She was 15.
What?
And then they got together, hebeat the shit out of her and
then they had another kid andthen he died from heroin of an
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overdose.
And then she married his bestfriend.
They just got divorced after 15years.
Here she is.
Hit me up.
Oh, you want to, you liked me,huh?
You That girl was my fuckingcrush growing up.
It's chasing me today.
And I diss her, in the in yearsI waited for an opportunity like
that.
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Oh, you get smart.
Too late.
I'm just like, it's just notgonna happen.
I don't see you like that.
You're not attracted to her atall.
Not even physically.
I don't even wanna fuck what?
Nope.
Really?
Wow.
Your whole appearance, yourwhole.
Demeanor and everything to like,Nope.
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No.
Can't, man, I just, I wanted Shebroke you.
Yeah, man.
That it's a childhood thing, butshe's my friend still.
I'm still it's a double-edgedsword because this is my best
chick friend.
I'm always gonna be a friend ofher for the rest of life.
I think that if she needed myhelp with something, I'd
definitely do it.
I gave her the advice to leaveher current husband.
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'cause that guy just really wasvulgar towards her.
He disrespected her in front offamily.
She, he treated like dog shit.
She deserves somebody good.
It's just not gonna be me.
It's somebody good, but not me.
I don't, I honestly, it, if shewould've aged a little better
and took care of herself alittle more, I think that I
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could have forgave some of it.
But I think I would've had alittle jealousy or insecurities
that she dated three of myfriends.
And I remember back in the day,all the talk behind the scenes,
the locker room talk that we hadand how she fucks and what she
want and will do.
I already knew all this stufffrom my friends.
Oh, my.
She dated in middle school.
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Okay.
This is middle school.
She dated my friend eric panother friend of mine, Aaron,
another my friend like Tony.
And then I was friend withJason, the one she was with for
20 years.
I know all of her relationshipsshe's ever had.
She's only had four men in herentire life.
That's it.
She don't know nothing likethat.
That's another thing.
(38:05):
She wouldn't know what tofucking do if I put the freak
mode on her.
She'd fall in love.
She'd be hooked.
Yeah.
She'd fall in love.
She done.
She'd like, yeah.
Her fucking 20, that theex-husband of hers that's 20
years older than her, didn'trock her pussy.
There's no way.
Look as you would be over herebeing confident and cocky.
I could rock this bitch's world,but I would flip her fucking,
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I'm not going to, no.
She dissed me all my life.
I hated it.
I had dealt with same shit I wascalled, could've been the
notebook story.
It could've been oh, look atyou.
You from Nancy.
Yeah, I know about that.
I love that.
That movie is good.
I have a heart.
I just choose not to use it.
Why?
Because I just don't, I don't, Ihave a hard time these days
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getting emotionally connected.
I don't believe in it.
There's so much phoniness in theworld.
I just can't get myself there.
Can't do it.
I You can't fall in love withsomebody.
I don't know what it would take.
I really don't know what itwould take.
I feel bad saying that.
I do.
I feel bad saying that.
I feel like I can either be arobbing myself of something or
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someone making someone else missout because I both Yeah, you
just can't choose who you fallin love with.
That's, I don't want it to workthat way anyway.
I don't wanna be like, I wannafall in love with that person.
'cause the pussy's good.
Are you fucking kidding?
What?
There's a lot of good pussy outthere.
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Most pussy's, so pretty decent.
Okay.
So this bitch broke you?
I come every time bad.
Okay.
She fucked you up?
No.
No, she didn't.
No.
Not Mr.
She didn't.
I was still one.
Oh, before that.
Okay.
That you had other episode Italked about your heart out to
Yeah.
She fucked it.
The one that you was ready tohave kids with and Mary and
(39:52):
everything.
She fucked you up so bad.
Yeah.
Like you're like, I'm nevergonna fall in love again.
Ever.
I could have been fixed easilythough throughout the years, but
I had a bad run since then.
What do you mean?
I got it's just everybody I metwas like you said they ghost
you.
Because there, there's always areason the ex came back around.
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Or they got insecure or theysaid they got scared and ran
off.
I hate when someone does that.
I've had girls in my past thatcame through and I could see
myself with them, get excited,maybe tell my friends, maybe I
tell my mom even.
I met somebody cool.
And I feel like we got a lot ofchemistry going on.
This could go somewhere.
And then I gotta be that dumbass when they ask.
Have you heard from that girl?
How's it going?
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I hadn't heard from her.
Oh.
How long has it been?
It's been about 10 days.
Guess she wasn't interested.
Okay, now when that fuckingfades off, hold up.
You know what the ghoster does?
They come back around two weekslater.
That's not a ghoster.
A ghoster is someone that leavesand never comes back.
Okay, pause.
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Okay, now I remember.
Comes back.
Now I re a ghost.
Being ghosted means you neverhear or talk to that person ever
again.
Like you were dating them, youwere with them, and all of a
sudden, boom, they disappear.
And you no longer see or talk tothem ever again.
Can be ghosting, be on the backend where you've seen'em for a
while.
Ghost st.
And they disappear.
Ghost, yes, that's ghosting, butghost.
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It is completely gone.
Okay.
Yeah.
There's two different, twodifferent phrases, two different
meanings.
I wouldn't say that I've beenghosted a whole lot in my life.
I've had either someone justdisappear outta nowhere or for
one, I gotta bring her up.
I gotta bring this girl up.
I wanna know.
Inquire months.
Wanna know.
Let's hear it.
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I wouldn't date her, but I wouldwant to date her.
I can't trust her for the lifeof me.
I don't talk to her anymore.
I haven't talked to her in twoyears.
Why can't you trust her?
'cause she's fucking loose.
She's a big flirt.
She's a fucking huge flirt.
Cutest little thing ever.
Oh my God.
I just at least wanted to fuckher once.
That's just wanted to know whatit was like.
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You know what I mean?
But.
Almost happened and she wasattracted to me.
I mean me, she always went outtaher way to flirt with me with
her fucking man when her manwould go to the bathroom, she's
flirt.
So that's what you mean by looseis she was flirting with you
when she had another man?
Yeah.
Yeah.
She, I knew a shot why she waswith Bun.
Bun was a little Asian guy.
He's real cocky.
He was cocky to me but alwayscalled me his boy.
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I don't, it took him a while togive her shit for acting the way
she was towards me and I justwouldn't want to be that guy
that she was doing those thingsto.
If it was the other way around,I'd just be pissed.
They would tell.
But I'd go to this bar and Hanwhen I lived out here, the pub
not far from down the, I don'tknow why we didn't run in
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sooner.
Into each other.
Sooner.
Yeah.
I'm surprised.
It's not far from where we hungout, down the street further
towards 62.
Yeah, I know where the pub is.
Go ahead.
So she became like my chickfriend.
And I always respect when dudeshave a chick, a lot of times you
get jealous, insecure, whateveryou want to call it.
Fuck.
That happened all the time and Ilaugh every time.
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I'm just like, dude, I, if Iwanted your girl, I could have
had a way before you had her.
I very toxic with each other.
She's biting my cock through myjeans.
Oh my.
And giggling and playing aroundand biting again and puts her
boob in my mouth, this, that andthe other.
I'm like, oh my God, this isfinally happening.
And then she's follow me to thehouse.
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And I'm like, what to you andbun's apartment?
We can't do that.
She's pulls her shirt up again.
Shows me her titties, gets backin her fucking car and tanks
off.
Oh yes, we do.
And expects me to follow herhome so we can fuck at her
house.
Where her boyfriend's there.
I'm like, this ain't gonna workout.
No.
I started thinking they wereswingers there for a minute.
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I've had a few encounters Icould've sworn swingers were
trying to get me somewhere andmaking it sound like it's a
joke.
I think I thought swingers do itto fill someone out.
They'll make like small talkjokes.
Welcome to The Talking Taboowith Tara podcast, where Tara
presents the unfilteredinterviews with guests about
today's taboo topics.
And now here's your host, Ms.
Tara.
Tara (00:18):
Welcome back everybody.
Today we have Sean with usagain.
Welcome back.
Sean.
Sean.
What's going on everybody?
Hi, how are you?
Hi.
You've been doing good.
We are doing good.
As a matter of fact, welcomeeverybody to the Talking Taboo
with Tara.
Taboo Tara in the house as thehost.
There he is.
Welcome back, everybody.
(00:38):
Today we've got quite a fewsubjects we're gonna talk about
and see where it goes.
Yeah.
One night stands.
How do you feel about'em?
It depends.
If I'm feeling it, that's how Ifeel about it.
You just wipe it off with atissue and go on with the next
one.
No, I'm kidding.
No, you're not.
That was for the show.
(00:58):
That wasn't for real.
That was for the show.
Pretty much that's what it is.
But yeah.
Something like One Night Standswe've all had'em.
I've had'em.
Yeah.
It's not the full end All Cureall.
No, it's not the fullsatisfaction.
It was fun.
You get a rush from somebodyliking you and digging you.
You, and most likely this stuffhappens from a bar scene or a
(01:20):
dating app or whatever.
And it's not something when I goto date, it's not something I'm
looking forward to or trying toget it, depending on who it is,
how fast the connection went,it's if the situation was right
and go for it.
But if you're asking what Ithink about it, definitely be
careful out there.
If you don't plan on coming backand you're just, you guys just
(01:43):
gonna smash for a night, havefun.
so basically you're saying ifyou only have sex chemistry, go
for it.
But if you have a connection,don't no.
I'm using the reference asprotection.
If you're gonna just banksomebody one time and be gone,
don't go bare back.
That's a good tip.
If you're gonna do it, be safe,be smart enough to take one with
you.
Shit does happen.
(02:03):
Let's, we can't act I'm not likethat.
We all do things that we're allnot like sometimes, so it's just
best to cover it up, man.
Absolutely.
Now that means whatever, whenyou do use your condom, that's
a, I have that, I have aquestion.
It's merging into another topic.
Of course.
Yeah.
Do you tie your condom up afteryou're done with it?
Or do you just drop it?
Or do you just drop it in thetrash can?
(02:23):
Do you flush it?
I flush it in the toilet.
You do flush it?
Yeah.
Do you take it off?
Do you let your girl take itoff?
I take it off, I take it to thebathroom with me while it's
hanging on the Johnson still.
There's like that, yeah.
So why is that a questionthough?
I'm just curious about it.
Where I've been doing someresearch.
Okay.
And it was on this Reddit postthat this guy thinks that his
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girlfriend got pregnant by usinghis using the condom.
Oh, now I see where you're goingwith this.
'cause I would even think alongthose lines.
Yeah.
That's shady.
Okay.
I've had a guy ask me beforewhat I've done with the condom
and I'm like, dude, I flushedit.
It was laying on the floor.
It was disgusting.
Why would you leave it laying inmy floor?
No.
(03:09):
That's not how I roll.
So I picked it up and I threw itaway.
And I think that he thought thatI might, want to push it back
inside out into you orsomething.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I don't know if the, I don'tknow if that's stuff's gonna
work anymore.
Maybe'cause of the contraceptivethat's on it.
The, as soon as the air hits,it's like a fucking, like us
landing on Mars.
How is that?
Because when they jack off intoa cup, when you're using that,
(03:33):
you capping it off when you'redone though.
Yeah.
But it still air hits it.
That makes no sense.
Now I know in condoms there is acontraceptive that, that's
inside'em that kills thespermicide.
Yeah.
Spermicide.
That's what it's called.
Yes.
I like those.
I always felt safer with thoseif I was the one, whatever.
Most of the time, if I'mbareback and I gotta know the
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person, or I'm planning on doingmore and just sticking with that
person, whether it be for aperiod of time or longer,
whatever, there's just, thoseare the boundaries I'm talking
about.
If something like that, it'sgonna go down, then I'd rather,
if there's no protection, justforeplay it out.
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That's safe.
Guys, think about that, ladiesand gentlemen.
Is it though, it's, it gets it'sfun floor playing it out.
Is it safe though?
Because if that person hasherpes and they have an outbreak
and you go down on them, you'regonna have herpes on your mouth.
That's true.
That's oral sex.
So you guys probably shouldn'tdo any of that.
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Any transfusional activities sopeople be on the lookout for any
warts, bumps, anything thatdoesn't look normal When you've
watched porn, you've seen cleanpussy.
That's what it should look like.
Yeah.
Yeah.
If it's got anything out of theordinary run.
Put your pants on, get up andrun that.
That's women and men don't eventake chances on ingrown hairs, I
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guess now, huh?
I got scars on my waist fromingrown hairs.
I've got some, I've got some mytoo.
You can take finger bump.
It's just a mark.
It's like a black dot.
Somebody took a marker anddotted yours.
I've got one too on my pussy.
That's funny that you said that.
This thing fucking reoccurs inthe same spot.
So I know it's not that I'vebeen tested because of a scare,
like about four or five yearsago, Uhhuh.
I didn't know what was going on,so I went and got tested.
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I went to the public healthdepartment.
Yeah.
It was free.
It was free.
So I was like, look man, I got,I said, I got this going on.
It fucking hurts.
Sometimes it pops up and thengoes away.
So I'm scared did I fuck upsomewhere down the line?
Did I get a herp?
I'm like, this is gonna destroymy life, and they ran
everything.
No, you don't have anything.
Like you got it.
Ingrown hair, stop shaving witha razor down there.
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That might be the best thing.
So I use like a separate pair ofclippers with a comb on it.
Uhhuh, so I don't skin it down.
There you go.
So now it's just scars andthere's no current ingrown.
Oh, that sucks ass.
I have some now.
You can fool people with that.
Yeah.
And they'll be like what isthat?
But you could tell us a scarfrom a wart or herpes, like
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herpes is a cluster of a bunchof open source.
This is what I've seen.
I've never seen'em before.
This is what I've seen in books.
And if you have seen before,you've probably got No.
In books.
I've never seen them in reallife.
I don't have, I don't haveanything.
There's two types.
I heard there's one that you canget rid of.
Yeah.
And there's one that's stuckwith it for life.
Yeah.
A and B, herpes A and B.
Yeah.
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So one's in your blood systemand the other one you just,
yeah, we all have it.
It's just right when you, Idon't know exactly how you get
it other than having sexclearly.
But food, hepatitis B is throughfood Hepatitis.
Hepatitis B is through food orsomeone that C and C's like
blood transition.
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Yep.
My, my father died of thehepatitis C most of that was
probably prison tattoos andheroin.
Both sides had dirty needles.
Your dad used heroin?
Bought it.
He used it while he was aseller.
He was a baller selling it.
And then he became the user andthen was doing odd jobs for not
gonna mention gang members fromthe Mexican side and the white
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biker sides doing jobs for themso that way he could get product
to sell, but he just kept usingit too.
Cocaine, heroin, stuff likethat.
My dad was a drug dealer too.
Yeah.
And then he started using hisown product.
That's what happens.
Yeah.
I know I've grew up with a lotof people that are good people,
but they're shady people.
'cause the business, they're inUhhuh what was in, I've watched
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somebody go from gold, Daytonwheels on their cars with the
hydraulics and systems to beinglike teeth.
Every other tooth is gone.
And can't make fucking sense.
They're slobbering, they got badhygiene, they're sweating for no
reason.
It's not even hot enough out.
I tried to tell people that.
I'm like, dude, I've watchedpeople go from the baller to the
user.
I've seen it many times.
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I have too many fucking times.
A real dealer just don't use thesupply ever.
Just a sense of that.
Yeah.
If you're a dealer, I think, Ifeel like it's an evil act.
You know what you're doing topeople, right?
And you're making a killing offit.
Yeah.
A, if it wasn't for the drugdealers back in the early
nineties, America wouldn't bewhat it is right now because of
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all the recession.
Drug dealers is what kept us upin the nineties.
All the crack sales.
You didn't know that.
That's not what kept thiscountry together.
It had kept it going.
I know that.
That, that's funny.
When they say crime doesn't pay'cause it certainly does that.
Fuck it.
Don't, yeah, it certainly does.
The government has the drugsbrought in and they get a part
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of it.
They have to.
That's why they love convictedpeople.
I don't care if it's smallcrimes, big crimes.
The law processes you you'reslated like a fucking item in
the warehouse.
You got a number when you'reborn and they give you another
number when you go to prison.
Fortunately for me, I never sawa prison, but never scared
straight or visiting my dad.
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So yeah, I have walked throughprison gates before, but Right,
me too.
Not for the wrong purpose.
Yeah.
My dad would never let me go seehim, but I saw him when he was
in jail, but when he went toprison, he wouldn't let me come
see him.
He didn't want me to see himthere, did your dad ever get
cleaned?
Yeah, he eventually did.
He did 2007.
He got out, got paroled.
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He didn't know how to use thecomputer very well.
But he got parole in oh seven.
We went and seen him and stufflike that and hooked him up with
the internet and got him POFwith plenty of fish dating site
and he found his fucking wife onthere.
Really?
Shit.
They were together like 10 yearsand then he passed away and just
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fell over.
Oh wow.
So your dad is no longer with usthen?
No, he's been gone since 2016, Ibelieve.
It's been a while now.
I didn't see much of himthroughout life, and outta
prison.
Didn't a lot of, yeah, I didn'thave a lot of meat on the bone.
That, and he just never, wantedto replace any time.
He didn't really have nothing tosay.
Didn't have no, no care in theworld for me.
He just, I think he liked my mommore than me.
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But they were never married.
They never had a longrelationship.
He got in trouble shortly afterI was born.
So Ohio, the reason for me beinghere is'cause my mom, she's from
here and all my family relatednow.
I spent pretty much a littleover half my life here too,
going back and forth and it'sjust'cause of my dad's patterns.
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What I'm telling you now is whatwe kept knocking me back here
for a while.
They didn't want me there.
'cause oh, he's, you're gonnaget in trouble.
Because that's, we gotta keephim la Huh?
It's San Francisco, la close toit.
San Diego or San Diego.
We're next to la We're only likean hour south.
Hour some change, honestly.
So they thought you were gonnaget what wrapped up in the
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gangs?
Yeah, because everybody seemedto live in the gang territory.
But I'm like some of the blacksheep.
But everybody likes me, but theyknow I'm a son of my dad.
They know him more than me.
So in recent times, they see meoften when I go out there, I'm
just like, the better version ofwe better polished version of my
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dad.
I'm not out there getting inserious shit.
I just, I don't want that life.
I just don't want it.
That's good.
You're not supposed to want it.
He was all about it.
Half his life was dedicated toit.
He had 18 years behind bars.
A total rap sheet that wasn't inone setting.
As long as one setting wasprobably nine years.
But before that it was probablythree or four years here and
there.
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So just different shit.
Breaking and entering robberies.
Drug sales, violent crimes.
The very last one he had was, hewas an enforcer.
That's what he was.
People would pay him regardlessif he was affiliated with
another gang.
So if io io some random streetclick out there, we'll use MS 13
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since everybody's heard of them.
But that's probably not who hedid.
Maybe he did, but obviously I'mnot gonna say they don't a
station.
But let's just say it's an X, y,Z gang or whatever, and they're
not even affiliated.
They'd pay him to click that.
Really?
You owe money, you get your doorkicked in, or you get stopped
sitting in your car and there'sa gun to your cheek.
So and so said they need thisand you haven't paid, you know
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why I'm here, oh, so he would,okay, I got it now.
That's what an enforcer is.
Yeah.
He's the one that collected themoney for, he's veto coming to
your door with a pistol.
You know what I mean?
That's, I don't need to talkmuch.
This is what you owe me.
This is what I'm here to get.
Not I'm busting kneecaps thefreeway's right over there.
I really hate to do that.
I'd rather just get the money.
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That's basically, I, it's almostlike I'm living through'em at
the moment.
But that's how he did hisbusiness.
That's what got him in trouble.
Just it's not worth it, man.
No, not these days.
Shit, that was before the ringcameras on people's doors and
cell phones.
A little easier to pull shitlike that off it now, you can
get caught so easily.
Everybody's got a camera.
Oh, fuck yeah.
There's so many cameras.
Everybody does.
You're not getting away withshit anymore.
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Not really you always get can'tfuckers.
Nope.
And they got the cameras nowwhole.
Yeah.
Now they got the body camerasand they can't take your weed
and say, oh, I didn't take hisweed.
'cause that's how they did meback in the day.
They would always take my shit,pull it out, walk on it.
Fuck.
Huh.
Make stomp it out and shit.
They well in chill vista.
Fuck California.
They did?
No, here they steal my weed andtake it and smoke it.
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Make me stomp it out where the,really, and Cali and Chula
Vista.
Me and my friend were packing abowl and the cops there looked
like fucking SWAT enforcement.
It's crazy.
Damn.
They rolled up on us and theyfound it.
They shook it out on the grass.
I was like, I want you to stepon it.
So I fucking did a fake stop.
I used the tip of my footinstead of going heel down, went
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like this and didn't hit a bud.
He left.
Went on the fucking corner.
We just stood there and madesure he didn't wrap back around
to see what we do.
We're fucking flashlight on theground, picking up the big buds.
Got the biggest bud you can get.
'cause all the little crumb shitjust went wherever.
I remember those fucking days.
Now it's legal there too.
So I've got three or fourdifferent marijuana charges in
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California from like early twothousands.
I have like nineties six here.
I've got more, I've probably gothundreds here.
Huh?
Between marijuana paraphernaliaI think I got six altogether.
Like I got a long record when itcomes to weed, like unreal.
I think it's all expungable now.
It's like they don't count now.
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Really?
That would be nice.
Automatic, basically automaticexpungement.
In other words, whatever you hadin the past, it's just null and
void because it's legal.
If it came up, it's we can'thold that against him.
It's no longer legal.
Yeah.
So you have what they call aautomatic expungement.
Okay.
Uhhuh.
That sounds nice.
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Yeah.
They decriminalized it beforethey legalized pot here in this
county.
Really?
Yeah.
So they went ahead anddecriminalize it.
If you get caught with weed,they're just not even gonna
write you a ticket.
That's awesome.
They don't prosecute.
They didn't.
That was before thelegalization.
They did that.
I don't know if you rememberthat or not.
No.
So the city of Columbus wouldjust, if they found it on you,
they hand it back to you as ifit was legal.
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They're just looking for theparaphernalia.
Can you do it in your vehicle?
That's, if you can hide that,then you're good.
But I know the trick.
What do you mean?
Like I wrote blunts.
I don't have papers.
It's that means if you lit it,then it's paraphernalia.
If it's freshly rolled and youhaven't lit it, then it's not
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Oh, so you can freshly roll themand not like them.
Somebody had told me that if youhave a bowl of resin in it,
that's paraphernalia.
That's always paraphernalia.
They got me for papers forparaphernalia that you buy at
the fucking gas station.
Yeah.
And a cellophane.
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Back in the day when I smokedcigarettes, I had a cellophane.
The very bottom had two buds init.
They got me for paraphernaliaand motherfucking weed, like
agram of weed.
They got, they charged me withagram of weed.
I would get by with that beforethey illegalized it or before
they legalized it.
I would separate myparaphernalia from my buds or I
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would just put the buds in therewith it.
There's a simple trick to this.
Okay.
Does everybody know about this?
Draw string bags that are small.
They're like, looks likeeyeglass cases or silk bags.
Yeah.
You pull the string and it's gota loop.
You take that loop and you openthe hood of your car.
And there's this hose.
As long as you're not byanywhere hot in the engine, you
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can just wrap it around that andpull it through the loop and you
got a bag just dangling underthe hood.
So if they ever go searching foryour shit, no matter what they
smell, they're never gonna lookunder your fucking hood.
Your engine.
Most dealers wouldn't put itthere anyway.
cause like products like cocaineor all this pow drugs, powder
drugs, they melt under heat sonobody's putting shit there.
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So mainly they won't go there.
So I got by with that for years.
Did you really?
They put dogs on my fucking car.
Dog would act weird for asecond, but they just couldn't
find it like, you gonna tear mycar down because you smell a
little bit of weed.
No.
Have a nice day that was a nicetrick.
I've never heard a cop say, popyour hood.
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No.
They ask if they can search yourcar and look through your trunk
and your seats and glove boxesand everywhere else they can
find the door panels.
They're not looking under thehood of your car.
Ever put your paraphernaliathere with glass, it can handle
the heat.
True.
I don't like bulls though.
I never have.
Mean you do it with yourpre-rolls stick.
Come in a container and do thesame thing.
Get by with it.
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So how do you feel aboutghosting people?
So you were talking to'em andeverything was going fine then
all of a sudden, no morecontact, no more communication,
no more nothing.
That fucking happens all thetime anyway.
Really?
With hell.
Oh, the motherfucking time.
That's just normal course fordating.
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That's normal course.
That to men and women.
I don't know why people do it,but ghosting is I never talking
to them ever again.
If I do that, it's because Itruly ain't feeling them and I'm
not even trying to fuck.
Damn.
That's when I do that.
And if they piss me off.
But if they're nice, let's,'cause I'm a realist.
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I'm more of a humble guy.
Not everybody might not be likethat, but you'd have to really
fucking throw me off to make medo that.
Not want to talk to somebodyever again.
Like literally, I would at leastsay, it's not, I don't feel you
like that.
I'm, we're just probably betteroff as friends.
That would be me today.
If somebody does that, it meansthey don't have the balls to say
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that.
Exactly.
You see what I mean?
That I can't stand that.
Or they're keyboard warriors andwe'll break up with you over the
motherfucking text instead ofbeing a man and calling you or
saying, look, I don't think thisis gonna work.
I don't think that we'recompatible or we want different
things, whatever the case maybe.
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I just don't see why it's sohard to open your fucking mouth
and speak.
'cause people are coward thesedays.
They're socially awkward andthey don't know how to act.
They don't know how to conductthat.
Yeah.
But our generation is not likethat.
But our, but we're talking aboutour generation, but we're, our
generation is saying we're badabout ghosting people.
Like we're bad about it or thenew generation's bad.
We are.
Why are we bad at it?
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We really, we did it like, Ithink we are the ones that came
up with it, to be honest.
Generation Z or X?
No, generation Z.
I would, I'm so glad I'm not oneof them.
Okay.
That's millennials.
I under, no, millennials arepeople in their low thirties,
late twenties.
Gen Z are your children rightnow?
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They're Gen Z.
Oh, okay.
See, we're X, we're at the endof X.
We're X we're at the, we're thelast generation Xes and then it
rolls into millennials.
So we're ex millennialsbasically is what we are.
I'm just two weeks fading outtax going the millennial.
Yeah.
It's weird.
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How is that?
I don't know.
They have a.
I'm marking a year mark forthat.
For when it's the newgeneration.
It doesn't for when it's thenew, yes.
I don't know what it is.
It's not the eighties, thenineties, the two thousands.
I think it's every 10 years,isn't it?
That changes the right butgenerational pattern.
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So like sixties, seventies,eighties, nineties, two
thousands.
That's the millennials.
So yeah, every 10 years theycome up with a, yeah, we're
almost due for another one.
Alpha, beta.
That's gonna be the new ones.
God forbid, after Generation Z.
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It's generation, alpha, beta,Charlie, all that.
I feel sorry for the world fromthis point on because well,
we're old and these idiots aregonna be the ones sticking
needles in our arms.
'cause they don't have no commonsense.
They're getting dumber.
It's just crazy.
(20:58):
They are.
They are fucking ignorant.
Our kids are getting dumbed downbecause of the school system.
You got ai, you want the fuck,since Google, you got all the
answers.
You don't need to know anythinganymore.
If I had this technology, I'd bethat student.
Everybody loved.
You know why?
'cause you told me to go homeand do my homework.
You didn't say I couldn't cheat.
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That's the leading part tocheating on fucking schoolwork
is taking it home.
Nobody sees you do it.
You don't know if your parentshelped you with it.
You don't know if you wentonline to do it.
It's all there.
Now.
You can take a picture of yourhomework and put it on AI and
it'll solve all the problems onthat sheet.
Are you kidding me?
Absolutely.
And show the work or just giveyou the answers.
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AI's fucking wicked.
I can have them.
I know.
I use AI to edit.
Yeah, you could just tell it todo the things like just make me
a Excel spreadsheet to Yeah.
Somewhat.
I can tell, I can micromanageit, but when it's all said and
done, I have to listen to it andsee what still sounds right and
don't sound right.
I still have to pick and choosewhat to edit out and what not
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to.
But it does get rid of pauses.
It does get rid of filler words.
It does get rid of gaps.
Like it gets rid of all kinds ofshit.
I fucking love it.
It's badass.
It is.
It is the new, it is the newshit.
So you literally, these days youdon't even have to think for
yourself.
It's just, you don't have to,you gotta think for yourself.
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What, how many times wipe yourass.
I don't wipe my ass.
I use it a day.
Huh.
Uhuh uhhuh.
You do a thing that sprays yourbutt.
Oh, and then I wipe after itsprays my ass.
Fuck.
Yeah.
I know.
My shit's clean.
How does that do?
How does that work?
Is it feel good?
It'cause up in there squirt,like it shoots up in your
asshole and cleans the insideoutside.
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Ain't that one of the oldestforms of before toilet paper?
Pretty much.
I guess the kings and queensused to use'em.
I, when I saw a bidet, I did notknow how to use it, but a bide
toilet seat, I know how to use.
'cause I still sit there over abidet.
You don't sit down, you justover top of it.
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Like you, you walk, you stand upover it.
Yeah.
You stand up over top of it.
A real bidet.
You stand over top of it or yousquat over it or whatnot.
And then.
The bidet that I have is atoilet seat bidet and it comes
out the toilet seat.
And it aims for your puss oryour asshole?
It goes both places.
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So I, yes, I rinse myself everytime I get done.
Use in the bathroom, I'm clean.
Like clean.
That's crazy.
Yeah.
I don't like smelling like urineanyway.
And I hate toilet paper.
It leaves all kinds of shitbehind on me.
Like when I wipe the white ballsand shit, ugh.
I'm good.
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Like when I wash my ass Ialways, every once a blue moon,
'cause I get up in there with myhands.
Oh, you stick a finger up inthere and clean it?
No, on the outside of myasshole.
I'm not going up in Oh, you'renot going up in No.
Okay.
No.
Maybe to an extent.
Just a tiny bit.
Just, you know you wanna getthat shit clean as fuck.
Yeah.
Clean.
Yeah.
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That's the whole point ofwashing.
When you're having sex withsomebody for the first time, do
you think it's always awkward?
Yeah, kinda.
It isn't it?
You gotta learn somebody alittle bit.
Yeah, it is always awkward.
I don't know why they might rideyou funny at first'cause you
can't figure out how to, somegirls like their legs don't go
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all the way up so they can sitdown a little further.
You know that part?
Yeah.
Where you gotta take your kneeslike it's for the girl anyway,
because I'm tall.
Yeah, I know exactly what you'resaying.
Yeah.
To get your angle and shit.
Yeah.
That's awkward.
And then getting on top two,there's once a blue moon.
A girl's ha tying her legsbehind me to where I can't
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really get up in there like Ishould, the legs are almost down
all the way.
Almost doing cowgirl, doing abutterfly on her back.
Oh.
I don't know what you're talkingabout.
It's you have to show me, show.
I didn't mean like that, but,all right.
Hold on guys.
We're about to get her legs inthe stir up.
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Okay.
So legs are up at the end of theshow.
She's gonna get me a happyending on the show.
Okay?
So explain it to me.
Legs up.
There's no legs up.
And what I'm talking about thenwhat are you talking about?
Legs straight down.
Oh, her.
I imagine her guys don't spreadtheir legs.
Jesus.
(25:32):
If a girl, okay, instead ofgoing back, she's going like
this flat.
Okay.
He gets inside and she's wrappedbehind his fucking thighs.
Oh, she's just taking his ass upstraight, pushing him in.
I do that all the fucking time.
Don't do that.
Why?
The guy can't fucking do histhing like that?
He's not supposed to.
I'm taking control at that time.
Look at me like I'm crazy.
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I don't know.
I didn't like the thing whereyou say you lay your hips on
somebody and just, I don't, whatdo I don't remember saying
anything like that.
You sat there, said, you saidwhen you're doing missionary.
'cause I was complaining aboutmen laying on top of me, uhhuh,
and you were saying my hips aregonna be on you.
And I'm like, what do you meanyour hips?
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I'm like, oh yeah, you're dead.
Fuck.
That's right.
You gotta lay on the person to.
You don't remember thisconversation?
I do.
Yeah, I do.
But you just, I, your wholepicture of thought process is
nowhere what I'm talking about.
Probably not.
You sat him on a guy laying hisweight on you.
And then I tell you, my hip, inother words, I'm up like a pit
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bull where my bo upper body isnot crushing yours, but my hip
is definitely on yours.
Oh, okay.
Yeah.
You still gotta get on yourknees.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So you can get all the way up inthere.
Yeah.
Do you have sex or have you everhad sex with food?
Hell no.
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What kind of food does peoplefuck?
Like the American Pie?
That's what I gave in my mind.
Yeah.
Actually today I heard a guylisten to this shit on Reddit
guy.
This, one of the stories was onReddit that he had two jars of
peanut butter.
Okay.
Uhhuh one jar was for him to eatout of.
And the other jar, I'm justgetting the heck, go ahead.
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The other jar was for him tostick his penis in for his
girlfriend to suck the peanutbutter off of in the apartment
that they lived in.
They exclusively have, everybodyhas their own cabinet.
Everybody has their own shelf inthe fridge, blah, blah, blah.
This one guy kept getting in hisfucking food and he had a red X
on it, and it said extreme orsomething, like this is used for
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extreme stuff.
Yeah.
And it had a red X and it waslabeled, but it was in his
cabinet.
And dude got into his cabinetand ate some of the X peanut
butter instead of the otherpeanut butter.
And dude was like, am I theasshole for telling him that he
just ate my dick peanut butter?
Or am I the asshole for nottelling him?
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Imagine if he busted in it, no.
Just to stick his dick in ithard.
Just so there's enough peanutbutter on there that so his girl
has something lick on.
Oh, okay.
And suck on like a dog.
That's gross.
That's not a bucket list ofmine.
People.
You're not end into food andsex.
Not at all.
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I've had the whipped creamlooked off me and stuff.
Yeah.
That's cool.
That's a lesser of the chocolatesyrups.
Too sticky.
It's messy as fuck.
Unless you're heading straightto the shower after some dirty
shit, then.
Cool.
I hate when somebody wipes mysweat off.
That pisses me off.
You hate, I hate it when someonetakes a towel and wipes the
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sweat off of you when you'rehaving sex.
You had to include towel.
You know how you females do it?
You take your palms right ontheir forehead and because
you're about to drop on us, it'sonly sweat, but you're about to
drip it on us.
What about that towel you saidyou had?
Usually I have a towel when I'mhaving sex.
Yeah.
So to catch the cu when it'scoming out of me, but I'm not
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taking my hand and wiping yourforehead.
I'm using a towel.
The fuck?
Ew.
Oh.
It's, it gets sweaty.
I know that It gets sweaty, itgets hot.
When it starts dripping on me, Igotta stop.
That's why I try to mediate thespeed a little bit.
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'cause I hate sweating toocrazy.
I used to, like I said on acouple episodes before, you're
like, fast sex.
I used to think about that's howyou had to do it all the time.
Remember when we were talkingabout being younger?
You thought the deeper, theharder, the rougher fuck that,
that girl's gonna fucking loveyou for life.
You're gonna fucking prank herin half is what you're gonna do.
Make, and I said, that's whatyou had to do.
But no.
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These days it's about artistryand knowing to get your partner
just fill'em out.
Yeah.
Getting them in their body.
Yeah.
That might be the fun part, withsomebody new is finding out
their trigger and then you couldtell that you did, they make
that reaction like, okay, thatmust be it.
That must be doing somethingright.
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So it's something I like.
Yeah.
'cause I think for the peoplelistening, you can't judge sex
from somebody that you just bangonce.
No.
Do you have a time it might getseasoned better?
Yeah.
I think through that experienceit does get better.
It'll hit a ceiling.
Of course it hits the best itcan get and that's the end of
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it.
What it tears to what?
Seriously.
You really feel that way?
Wow.
Sucks to be you, dude.
Everything.
Always.
It sucks to me.
It sucks to be everybody then.
No.
'cause in whenever I've, it'salways gotten better.
Are you kidding me?
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It's never plateaued.
Sex life.
No.
My sex life has always gottenbetter and better with each
partner.
It's gotten better with eachpartner.
Yeah.
And it seems like the longer I'mwith that person, the better it
gets and the more feelings andemotions that are attached to
it.
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If there is, what do you mean?
If you mean if, what do I'm notwith'em just to fuck'em.
I'm Exactly.
If you have the feelings, thenyes, it can get better.
Oh, if y'all are in love andstuff, the hardest thing to find
these days.
Oh, what I came to find out, itwas one, one sided.
Oh, that sucks.
Yeah.
So you were enjoying yourself.
This person was like, I'm right,I'm nuts.
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No, they weren't enjoyingthemselves too.
It's just they were cheating onme the whole time.
I used to use a sex buddy as aobviously for sex, but not to
see him once I wanna see him.
I like my sex partners to berepeats.
Yeah.
I always had, I think that's thebest way, to expect you've got
already crack the ice and it'snot weird to grab their ass out
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of nowhere now.
You know what I mean?
You got to that point, okay.
How I've ended up with my sexbuddies is that we dated at one
point and it didn't work out.
We both went our separate ways,but we were really good in bed
together.
We had great chemistry in bedsix with your ex.
But when he would meet somebodyor I would meet somebody, we
would break it off and tell himlike, look, we're seeing someone
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right now, so we're not gonnahave sex anymore.
But once that other person wassingle again, or if we, when we
both got single again, then wewould start fucking again.
And that's just how it worked.
Like we were open and honestwith each other.
I'm seeing this person, I can'tfuck with you right now.
And that's how it worked foryears with him and I, and his
name was Will, will Guthrie.
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I had exes like that too.
20 years.
Fucking later.
Ex-girlfriend from middle schoolcome around in my thirties, bang
it out.
Okay.
Seriously.
Yeah.
20 years later, these bitchesare hitting you up saying, let's
fuck.
I'm 30, 30 years later.
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And it's the girls that I hadcrushes on back in the day that
would never give me a chance.
20, 30 years down the line, evenup to this day, they've hit me
up, not outright saying, do youwant to fuck they want to date.
That's what they wanna do.
They wanna see, Hey, I shouldhave picked you, motherfucker.
I'm going towards 50 in fouryears.
It's too late now that I agesbetter than the assholes you
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had.
And you ain't that cheerleaderno more.
And you ain't popular no more.
And you ain't skinny no more.
And you're not skinny no more.
And you're in the fucking realworld now.
You want to call me?
Yep.
I haven't gave you any of mychance.
None.
I won't.
This is my satisfaction.
And hey, it's too late.
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You had your time.
I'm having my time now.
My time's on the backend.
Being older, I was alwaysattractive.
I was always attractive, likefor a dude, and in my teenage
years and twenties and stuff.
But women were mean.
They didn't give a fuck.
How could you look?
It was who had more power.
They wanted the older guy, theguy that was more established
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and stuff.
That's natural for a female towant an older guy.
It's just how they're wired.
You know what I mean?
That's how I was too.
So that all goes into the sayingthat women are more attractive
to the power they have, or maybethey care about how smart they
are or their physique could playa role personality and stuff
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like that.
But for the most part, in thattime, men remember how shitty
they were treated because theywere just a year or two younger.
And that guy had the car, and Ididn't have one quite yet.
I was 17, no, we remember thatshit man.
We fucking remember that shit.
You wouldn't think you couldjust come back later on.
It's all good.
You took, you fucking dissed meon my best years and your best
(34:54):
years and it's over now andyou're getting old and I'm
getting old now.
You want to fucking peace whenit's, you can't have any fun no
more.
You gave up your best years tothese idiots and her name.
I'll tell your name.
Her name's Misty, but I ain'tsaying the last name, but her
name's Misty and she knows it'cause she's apologized for it.
It's not like she's trying tohide it.
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She knows she fucked up.
Oh, she apologized to you forit?
Yeah, she's been trying to getme back past couple years.
But I mean she, she is, onceagain, you don't hear me ever
talking shit too much aboutgirls.
I know.
Once again, this is someone elseI have nothing bad to say about.
'cause she is my bestgirlfriend, like as a girl.
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She's my best friend because shewas my first childhood friend.
When I was in the single ditch,it was elementary school, rode
the bus together, us friends.
She always dated my friends.
And she got knocked up by somedude who was 18.
She was 15.
What?
And then they got together, hebeat the shit out of her and
then they had another kid andthen he died from heroin of an
(35:57):
overdose.
And then she married his bestfriend.
They just got divorced after 15years.
Here she is.
Hit me up.
Oh, you want to, you liked me,huh?
You That girl was my fuckingcrush growing up.
It's chasing me today.
And I diss her, in the in yearsI waited for an opportunity like
that.
(36:19):
Oh, you get smart.
Too late.
I'm just like, it's just notgonna happen.
I don't see you like that.
You're not attracted to her atall.
Not even physically.
I don't even wanna fuck what?
Nope.
Really?
Wow.
Your whole appearance, yourwhole.
Demeanor and everything to like,Nope.
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No.
Can't, man, I just, I wanted Shebroke you.
Yeah, man.
That it's a childhood thing, butshe's my friend still.
I'm still it's a double-edgedsword because this is my best
chick friend.
I'm always gonna be a friend ofher for the rest of life.
I think that if she needed myhelp with something, I'd
definitely do it.
I gave her the advice to leaveher current husband.
(37:03):
'cause that guy just really wasvulgar towards her.
He disrespected her in front offamily.
She, he treated like dog shit.
She deserves somebody good.
It's just not gonna be me.
It's somebody good, but not me.
I don't, I honestly, it, if shewould've aged a little better
and took care of herself alittle more, I think that I
(37:23):
could have forgave some of it.
But I think I would've had alittle jealousy or insecurities
that she dated three of myfriends.
And I remember back in the day,all the talk behind the scenes,
the locker room talk that we hadand how she fucks and what she
want and will do.
I already knew all this stufffrom my friends.
Oh, my.
She dated in middle school.
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Okay.
This is middle school.
She dated my friend eric panother friend of mine, Aaron,
another my friend like Tony.
And then I was friend withJason, the one she was with for
20 years.
I know all of her relationshipsshe's ever had.
She's only had four men in herentire life.
That's it.
She don't know nothing likethat.
That's another thing.
(38:05):
She wouldn't know what tofucking do if I put the freak
mode on her.
She'd fall in love.
She'd be hooked.
Yeah.
She'd fall in love.
She done.
She'd like, yeah.
Her fucking 20, that theex-husband of hers that's 20
years older than her, didn'trock her pussy.
There's no way.
Look as you would be over herebeing confident and cocky.
I could rock this bitch's world,but I would flip her fucking,
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I'm not going to, no.
She dissed me all my life.
I hated it.
I had dealt with same shit I wascalled, could've been the
notebook story.
It could've been oh, look atyou.
You from Nancy.
Yeah, I know about that.
I love that.
That movie is good.
I have a heart.
I just choose not to use it.
Why?
Because I just don't, I don't, Ihave a hard time these days
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getting emotionally connected.
I don't believe in it.
There's so much phoniness in theworld.
I just can't get myself there.
Can't do it.
I You can't fall in love withsomebody.
I don't know what it would take.
I really don't know what itwould take.
I feel bad saying that.
I do.
I feel bad saying that.
I feel like I can either be arobbing myself of something or
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someone making someone else missout because I both Yeah, you
just can't choose who you fallin love with.
That's, I don't want it to workthat way anyway.
I don't wanna be like, I wannafall in love with that person.
'cause the pussy's good.
Are you fucking kidding?
What?
There's a lot of good pussy outthere.
(39:31):
Most pussy's, so pretty decent.
Okay.
So this bitch broke you?
I come every time bad.
Okay.
She fucked you up?
No.
No, she didn't.
No.
Not Mr.
She didn't.
I was still one.
Oh, before that.
Okay.
That you had other episode Italked about your heart out to
Yeah.
She fucked it.
The one that you was ready tohave kids with and Mary and
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everything.
She fucked you up so bad.
Yeah.
Like you're like, I'm nevergonna fall in love again.
Ever.
I could have been fixed easilythough throughout the years, but
I had a bad run since then.
What do you mean?
I got it's just everybody I metwas like you said they ghost
you.
Because there, there's always areason the ex came back around.
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Or they got insecure or theysaid they got scared and ran
off.
I hate when someone does that.
I've had girls in my past thatcame through and I could see
myself with them, get excited,maybe tell my friends, maybe I
tell my mom even.
I met somebody cool.
And I feel like we got a lot ofchemistry going on.
This could go somewhere.
And then I gotta be that dumbass when they ask.
Have you heard from that girl?
How's it going?
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I hadn't heard from her.
Oh.
How long has it been?
It's been about 10 days.
Guess she wasn't interested.
Okay, now when that fuckingfades off, hold up.
You know what the ghoster does?
They come back around two weekslater.
That's not a ghoster.
A ghoster is someone that leavesand never comes back.
Okay, pause.
(40:56):
Okay, now I remember.
Comes back.
Now I re a ghost.
Being ghosted means you neverhear or talk to that person ever
again.
Like you were dating them, youwere with them, and all of a
sudden, boom, they disappear.
And you no longer see or talk tothem ever again.
Can be ghosting, be on the backend where you've seen'em for a
while.
Ghost st.
And they disappear.
Ghost, yes, that's ghosting, butghost.
(41:17):
It is completely gone.
Okay.
Yeah.
There's two different, twodifferent phrases, two different
meanings.
I wouldn't say that I've beenghosted a whole lot in my life.
I've had either someone justdisappear outta nowhere or for
one, I gotta bring her up.
I gotta bring this girl up.
I wanna know.
Inquire months.
Wanna know.
Let's hear it.
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I wouldn't date her, but I wouldwant to date her.
I can't trust her for the lifeof me.
I don't talk to her anymore.
I haven't talked to her in twoyears.
Why can't you trust her?
'cause she's fucking loose.
She's a big flirt.
She's a fucking huge flirt.
Cutest little thing ever.
Oh my God.
I just at least wanted to fuckher once.
That's just wanted to know whatit was like.
(41:58):
You know what I mean?
But.
Almost happened and she wasattracted to me.
I mean me, she always went outtaher way to flirt with me with
her fucking man when her manwould go to the bathroom, she's
flirt.
So that's what you mean by looseis she was flirting with you
when she had another man?
Yeah.
Yeah.
She, I knew a shot why she waswith Bun.
Bun was a little Asian guy.
He's real cocky.
He was cocky to me but alwayscalled me his boy.
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I don't, it took him a while togive her shit for acting the way
she was towards me and I justwouldn't want to be that guy
that she was doing those thingsto.
If it was the other way around,I'd just be pissed.
They would tell.
But I'd go to this bar and Hanwhen I lived out here, the pub
not far from down the, I don'tknow why we didn't run in
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sooner.
Into each other.
Sooner.
Yeah.
I'm surprised.
It's not far from where we hungout, down the street further
towards 62.
Yeah, I know where the pub is.
Go ahead.
So she became like my chickfriend.
And I always respect when dudeshave a chick, a lot of times you
get jealous, insecure, whateveryou want to call it.
Fuck.
That happened all the time and Ilaugh every time.
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I'm just like, dude, I, if Iwanted your girl, I could have
had a way before you had her.
I very toxic with each other.
She's biting my cock through myjeans.
Oh my.
And giggling and playing aroundand biting again and puts her
boob in my mouth, this, that andthe other.
I'm like, oh my God, this isfinally happening.
And then she's follow me to thehouse.
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And I'm like, what to you andbun's apartment?
We can't do that.
She's pulls her shirt up again.
Shows me her titties, gets backin her fucking car and tanks
off.
Oh yes, we do.
And expects me to follow herhome so we can fuck at her
house.
Where her boyfriend's there.
I'm like, this ain't gonna workout.
No.
I started thinking they wereswingers there for a minute.
(43:48):
I've had a few encounters Icould've sworn swingers were
trying to get me somewhere andmaking it sound like it's a
joke.
I think I thought swingers do itto fill someone out.
They'll make like small talkjokes.
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