May 28, 2025 • 46 mins
In this episode of The Talking Taboo with Tara podcast, Tara delves into a candid conversation about relationships, personal goals, and life experiences. The discussion explores the guest's decision to prioritize his bucket list and personal freedom over entering new relationships. Topics include working for oneself, the challenges of engaging in sales, and the influence of successful role models. The conversation also touches on the pain of past relationships, dealing with rejection, and the complexities of dating in modern times. Personal beliefs about love, companionship, and independence are explored, revealing contrasting perspectives on life's ultimate purpose and the desire for meaningful connections while maintaining personal growth and aspirations.
0:00 Introduction to The Talking Taboo with Tara
00:36 Bucket List and Working for Yourself
03:35 Travel Dreams and Snowbird Lifestyle
05:29 Relationship Woes and Personal Stories
17:37 Dating Disappointments and Communication Issues
25:09 Lies and Relationships
25:59 Compulsive Liars
27:53 Exes and Boundaries
30:09 Simp Culture
31:25 OnlyFans and Validation
34:11 Approaching Relationships
43:54 Travel Dreams and Life Goals
46:20 Podcast Conclusion
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(00:02):
Welcome to The Talking Taboowith Tara podcast, where Tara
presents the unfilteredinterviews with guests about
today's taboo topics.
And now here's your host, Ms.
Tara.
Tara (00:16):
So you're hell spent on not ever being in another
relationship.
Not ever again.
Someday.
Someday.
But I just feel like
it's,
it's just best for me to, not do it now.
Until I accomplish my bucketlist.
You know what I mean?
What is your bucket list?
(00:37):
You've been talking about yourbucket list.
I don't have much of one.
It's just really You saidtraveling.
Well,
because that's my number one, my bucket list is working
for myself, which I'm doing.
You're already doing that.
Yeah.
I had a boss of five years.
I do my own thing and I preferit that way.
Right.
Whatever headache comes along with the business, it's my
problem.
Nobody else's.
Right.
If I got a bitch or something, I tell'em myself,
what the fuck was I thinking?
(00:57):
I like that problem.
Handle it.
Well
handle.
That's a good problem.
It is a good problem.
I don't want someone elsebelittling me less than the
human on the time clock becauseevery, I can't stand having
timeclock.
Yeah.
Whoever's on a time clock.
Would you do what you do for onehour?
For what?
You get an hour?
Fuck no.
You know,
think about it.
So really, you know you're worthmore than what you're getting an
(01:21):
hour, right?
You're Yeah.
Essentially.
Absolutely.
So I've always been about peacerate, like I wanna get paid for
the jobs that I'm doing.
Cause if I can get'em donequick, get paid the same, be
gone
Right.
And it's done
right,
then I feel like what's wrong with that?
And,
and my line of business is sales.
If I don't sell nothing, I ain'tmaking nothing.
So, right.
The motivation there is just get that show going.
(01:43):
Get the people in, warm'em upand put it out there.
Okay.
So you sell some legal cracks.
Fuck it.
List number one, work foryourself.
Check.
Fuck.
Yeah.
Yeah, me too.
I highly recommend it.
Take a chance.
People take a fucking chance.
Listen, a millionaire told methis.
This is a guy, this guy don'tlook like he's, he just looks
(02:03):
like a, he's been hanging out atthe country golf club for a
couple decades and he is gotchecker pants and a fat ass.
This guy looks like a fuckingsubstitute teacher driving a
badass V 10.
Specked out.
Fucking viper, Burt, orangecolored Viper.
Damn that roared.
(02:25):
You've heard a fe, a 10 cylinderengines roar,
you know?
Mm-hmm.
And this motherfucker comes upand they're like, what do you
do?
I've seen you several times.
Not just this car.
I've seen you in other cars.
I've seen you Maserati, and theyall yours.
Or do you work for a dealershipand you're just taking these to
get service done?
Oh no, these are all mine.
These are all mine.
(02:46):
I'm like, I said, look, I liketo ask people questions when
they're where I want to be.
He said, always a source whereyou're getting your information.
If you're getting advice fromsomebody, consider the source.
And I tried to read into that.
What do you mean consider asource?
Who's telling it to you?
(03:06):
Mm-hmm.
Is he a fucking loser trying to give you successful
advice?
Are you gonna take successfuladvice from a fucking opioid
addict?
Doesn't make no sense.
So you got somebody who'salready where you wanna be,
that's who you listen to.
And I feel like that'scontagious.
If you get yourself around thosepeople, then you can absolutely
evolve
to that,
to that world.
You get put in advantages thatyou know you might not have
(03:29):
before so yeah.
Yeah.
So bucket list number one.
Check.
Yep.
What's the other bucket list?
What's you said?
Traveling.
Yeah.
I wanna see some more places Iwanna go.
Some, I wanna be a strangersomewhere, hit California
coastline for a while, and Iwanna come back here through the
spring and the summer.
(03:50):
Be a snow, a permanent snowbirdfor a while, I guess I have a
life in different places andit's been like that my whole
life anyway.
And
maybe this,
maybe this makes it easy on me,
I guess.
cause I've lived.
I've had a driver's license inthree states, Arizona,
California, Ohio.
I've lived in all three of thosestates multiple times.
(04:12):
And then I like the diversity ofchange and I learned later on
what,
what a snowbird was.
And I'm like, I get it, man.
I get it.
If these senior citizens canfucking do it.
And they, they, there's peoplewho are retired that go across
the country and they stay inArizona, most likely Arizona and
Nevada.
(04:32):
It's cheaper to, it's like thesame cost as being here.
There's no difference when youhit California, that all
changes, but, oh, yeah.
And I've been to Arizona, notto,
not,
not Nevada, Arizona.
Flagstaff's expensive.
Flagstaff is'cause that's acollege, mountain country.
It's high country in Arizona.
Mm-hmm.
It's like a little piece of Colorado chilling in the
middle of the desert.
Right.
I've been there.
I
(04:53):
I've know Payson.
Sedona.
I've hit all those places.
Me too.
Puff
puff pass.
Buff puff pass.
I don't wanna fucking hear that.
You know how long you held thatthing in your thing?
This girl was in her new cartalking to me for a half hour
holding the blunt.
Said she this, she said,
puff,
puff pass.
(05:15):
I'm trying to get high overhere.
Now people, if you're having tolisten to this and she don't
edit this out.
You don't have to consider thisto be all men's thoughts.
There is men that's looking forlove out there.
I just had a friend.
Let's bring him up.
I feel like he deserves itbecause he's a great guy,
(05:35):
lifelong friend and like family.
Not blood related, but likefamily.
His wife just
left him,
left him a couple days ago.
Johnson, if anybody wants to beanti relationship, it should be
this fellow.
By now he's cheat death twiceback in the late nineties.
He went under a fucking semitrailer while it was moving.
(05:58):
Jesus.
He got plowed by a semi-truck,chopped the whole top of his car
off.
He ducked in time, stayed alive.
He got cancer.
They cut a piece out of hisneck.
He survived that cancer.
Never came back.
He's had two wives, both ofthem, shit on him a few years
(06:18):
ago.
This girl that he met was adialysis nurse, I believe it
was, saying she couldn't havekids, you know, and then lied to
him.
She got knocked up and hefucking told her he didn't want
to have kids.
Okay?
He fucking told her he didn'twant to have kids.
He already has a kid that's 17and 18.
(06:39):
He just got out of childsupport.
Okay?
He's free, right?
And then this bimbo blondesaying she can't get pregnant.
Johnson knocks her right up thesame night.
She told everybody she couldn'tget pregnant that the 4th of
July party.
What?
So now he's got a, I think he'sfive or six now.
Good kid.
(06:59):
But his, he's already had grownkids, so now he's back into the
cycle again.
Paying child support 12 years.
And then he meets this girlMisty.
I don't throw last names outthere.
He just got married to her twoyears ago.
I was so happy for him.
I'm like, you know,
as much as you've been shit on this woman's an angel in
your life, and this is me sayingthis.
(07:21):
Remember all the bullshit I justsaid for the past few hour?
Yeah.
Yep.
I still show support to people.
It's still in my head.
Listen, I still show support topeople who are finding that and
successful with it.
Congrats to'em.
It doesn't work out foreverybody.
I have burning proof.
You want to go to the cemetery?
(07:42):
Is every fucking headstone havea lover that died with them?
Is there,
is there not tombstones out there?
Where they're out there layingand they died?
Single.
My grandmother died.
Single.
My current grandmother's gonnadie single.
Both my grandfather's who's deaddied single.
Oh my God.
You're manifesting this shit.
(08:02):
My dad married somebody.
You're manifesting dying single.
I'm not manifesting it.
I'm just, why can't youunderstand what I'm trying to
tell you?
I do understand.
Not everybody gets this.
Not everybody's entitled to loveand happy ending.
Go to the graveyard and look atthe tombstones.
(08:22):
'cause every one of'em have apartner that's either going to
be laid next to him.
No.
Or got to.
No.
See what I mean?
The end of life tells youeverything.
How life's all about.
You were born alone.
You're gonna die alone.
You're born the same way.
You're going out, you'reshitting in diapers.
You have no fucking hair left inyour head, and you got no teeth
and you're gibberish, br.
That's all you say.
When we're born and die, we'regoing in the same way.
(08:44):
We came out dumb and
like
a baby has to be taken care of and nobody's gonna be
there.
And of course I was selfish tonot have kids.
So when I die, it's just, thereain't gonna be nobody there.
You know why I don't give afuck?
'cause I ain't gonna realizethat I'm gonna be dying.
(09:05):
What do I give a shit?
I don't care if anybody's therewhen I'm dying.
I don't give a fuck.
They're like, oh, that's a weirdthing to say.
It's like, well, what good areyou gonna do me?
I'm fucking dying, man.
You know you still gotta gohome.
These nurses and doctors arejust keeping me drugged up until
I'm outta here.
I probably don't even knowyou're here.
(09:25):
You see what I'm saying?
Life is bullshit.
Life is a fucking joke.
All it
is is a trick.
Until we get to the next life tosee, ask, what the fuck was that
all about?
Everything that everybody had togo through, not just me.
I gotta share this life the same24 hours with everybody else.
(09:46):
I can't stand you.
Well,
this is this all about, I can't fucking stand you because
oh my God, I can't fucking standto you.
You're right.
It sucks to be right.
I don't like being right.
Oh, I can't fucking stand youright now.
I want to be dumb and not beable to have this in my head.
I want to go by with whateverybody thinks is gonna happen
(10:06):
in the end.
I think differently than you dothough.
I know.
It's fantasy, honey.
I have faith.
That's fantasy.
It's not fantasy.
It's faith.
It's hope.
It's something you don't have.
I do.
Yeah.
I'm happy you do.
I'm glad you're happy I do.
Giving yourself something tolook forward to.
(10:27):
Of course I am.
And you might find it.
I am gonna find it.
Yeah, because that's what kindof positive thinking I have.
I mean, mine's it's positivetoo.
It's just, oh shit.
(12:03):
Uh, a p.
(12:58):
Hey, Mr.
Positive, Mr.
Positivity over here.
Well,
listen.
That was funny though.
It was very funny'cause that'sthe most bullshit I've ever
seen.
Come out your mouth.
Here, hit this.
It's not negative, it's justfacts.
(13:18):
Why call yourself this you don'tagree with you.
Just call it negative'causesomebody wants to say, you call
yourself a realist.
And really it's negativity.
If you think
more positive,
more positive things will happen.
I think making more positive isthinking about myself.
If you manifest.
Being with someone, you will bewith someone.
If you manifest being alone,
(13:40):
you will manifest,
you will end up alone.
I mean,
and I've been doing it right all along.
Yeah.
You have, you sure have props toyou.
Positivity.
Oh Lord, help me now.
Let's get a little morerealistic here.
(14:02):
Oh boy.
I'm not opposed.
How much more realistic could weget?
Well, uh,
okay, let's break.
Break it down for me.
No, I someday it would be niceto have a relationship.
That'd be nice.
Huh?
I said maybe,
you know,
maybe just someday.
Yeah.
Okay.
(14:22):
Well,
when that someday does come, you need to open up.
Let that, what am I missing?
That on that person Know thatyou're interested in that
person.
I think
if, if,
if the right.
That
that's why they call it the right person.
If the right person came along,that's what I'm saying.
Maybe make a change To me, itjust, not in the near future.
(14:43):
I just don't see that happening.
That's fine.
But when you do find the rightperson, you need to open up When
I do, yeah.
I'll open up.
But I'm not gonna be stupid andjust go head first.
That's something we all weretalking about.
Well,
we both agreed on that things.
Yeah.
We are old enough now that we'renot,
(15:03):
you know,
we've been in those rushed relationships.
Yeah.
Even if I found my dream girl, Ithink I told you this story with
the one that supposedly crushedme.
Whatever.
Supposedly, dude.
She did.
Dude.
You,
you haven't been in a whole nother relationship since
then, have you?
Yeah.
Oh, sure, sure have.
Okay.
But sure I have love.
Yeah.
(15:23):
Love, like you loved her.
Last time I was in, I fell inlove with somebody and it was
short-lived.
But I was having like real hard,like real time.
Whew.
I'm getting lovesick here.
I'm not hungry.
I'm happy.
My heart's full.
That's a fucking great feeling.
But love's like an opioid.
(15:44):
If you don't keep feeding thatshit that high, the withdrawal
sucks.
Aw.
And there kills you, right?
Yeah.
You're a woman, you know this.
Yeah.
Emotions more and more.
Aw.
See, I'm not all fucking Mr.
I don't understand love oranything's.
You're not Mr.
I'm hardass You finally gonna,no, I think that love is
(16:06):
addicting.
It's great, but you do have todot a lot of i's and cross a lot
of t's to make that work.
And there's a lot of criteria.
And no, not a hundred percent.
Everything's gonna be perfect.
You have to understand likethere's no such thing as
absolute perfection.
But a, perfect ideal old personwould be more correct if you're
(16:29):
gonna describe that.
Anyway, she was, but she wasyoung.
She was, 11 years younger thanme.
She was 28.
I did a seven year younger thanme.
I just 40 or something.
I don't like the younger ones.
Younger, I don't.
I have to teach'em.
And, i'm good with the youngerguys.
(16:49):
I'm going for older now.
I don't think
she was,
she was younger, but she wasn't like super young.
She was almost 30 at the time.
You know,
I was one, I was 39, she was 28.
I've done whole, that's not ahuge separation.
I've done the whole 5, 6, 7, 8,not 10 year gap.
I'm good.
I'm looking for someone my ageor around my age.
I want my age or younger.
(17:10):
Preferably
I want my age
I just young ho and they,
you know,
decent shape for their age or something.
I don't know.
No, I've dealt with all theyoung fucking idiots.
I mean,
I've.
This one has its own businessand cars and everything else.
(17:31):
Are you turned off by the guysyou're talking to?
Like recently?
Oh, yeah.
Still not meeting nobody.
Cool.
I completely shut down.
What makes you shut down?
I don't mention the dick pics.
We know that's an automatic killit and guys don't do that shit.
I already told you not to dothat.
Right.
I shut down.
They'll say,
well,
Sean, man, didn't you show, tara sneak peek?
No.
And when I did this on the show,oh.
(17:54):
And he was like, oh, I saw it.
No, I did not.
But I just, I was, I'm turnedoff.
I not looking.
I stopped looking.
It sucks to have so manyoptions, doesn't it?
It's not the options.
(18:14):
'cause options are okay, butnone of them are compatible or
connect or can hold aconversation.
Really?
Yeah.
Through text or like on thephone?
Yeah, through text.
You guys,
I mean,
do you ever, I've given a couple of my phone number and
still it's the same bullshit.
How,
how are you?
Good.
How are you?
Where are you from?
(18:35):
Ohio.
You?
Oh, I hate that stage I justwanna get past that.
I'm over it.
Yeah.
I've already shut down.
I quit doing it.
I already quit.
Like I'm done.
I did it for
like
two weeks.
Oh.
Even got stood up.
Got went out to meet someone andwent to meet them.
Oh, I'm on my way.
(18:55):
I'll be there.
I don't know if they showed upand tried to pretend they were
somebody else walked around thebar.
I don't know.
I could have swore I saw them,but I sat there for
like
15 minutes.
I was like, yeah, I'm good.
I'm gone.
So I got up and I left.
Was this like it recently?
Yeah.
So like after that I was like,I'm done.
(19:18):
Being stood up, I feel is
kind of
in the same neighborhood as ghosted, isn't it?
Oh, I think it's worse.
Isn't it worse?
Yes.
I think it's worse.
'cause like you worked all day,you may have had to get fixed up
or something to meet somebody.
Oh yeah.
I was looking cute.
Yeah.
And then you go out there andmotherfucker just don't show up
and then ghost you stood up andthen ghosted.
See, the fucked up thing is, Ithink that did show up.
(19:39):
I think he did show up and Ithink that the person was using
a different photo because thismotherfucker was staring me hard
and that person did not looknothing like their photo
catfish.
Why do people fucking do knowwhat though?
Do that though?
I, the person looked better thanthe fucking photo.
(20:00):
Oh yeah.
Some people say I look better inperson, but similar to the
photo, because I guarantee yourgirls that saw'em, those
pictures,
like, I mean,
I could have swore it was that person.
Yeah.
But then it was like, maybe not.
But then I'm like, damn, youlook better in person than your
(20:22):
photo.
Which I look better in person.
I feel I look better in personthan my photos.
I feel like I do.
People was like, I'm like somefat dude or something, but I,
yeah, I think they showed up andjust didn't approach me or
whatever.
I don't fucking know.
But I got up and left.
I only sat there for
like
15,
(20:43):
well,
I waited for
like
10 minutes out in the car and then went inside, got a
drink and sat there for another15 minutes.
I was like, it's 30 minutes andthen you're gonna text me like
seven minutes after I leave theplace.
Yeah.
And say that you're still 22minutes out.
(21:04):
And the date was for 1245 and Iwas gonna be a couple minutes
late, so I showed up at 1255.
I was 10 minutes late and hereit is.
1222 And you're still sayingyou're gonna be late.
Like
if you didn't wanna show, don't show.
If you wanted to see if it wasreally me, walk in the fucking
restaurant and see, you see itobviously was me, but why would
(21:26):
you stand me up?
I don't know why people do that.
Why would a dude stand in anycheckup?
I don't know.
It hurt.
I don't know.
Why can't people just go tohalls?
Just, it hurt my feelings.
I'm not gonna lie.
It hurt my feelings really bad.
Yeah.
And I came home cried and wentto bed and I You think you were
(21:50):
gonna
like
that person you thought?
No, it was just the being letdown.
'cause I've been let down somuch in my life.
Like you said, I was gonna say,welcome to my life.
Welcome to a lot of life.
Everything you say.
A lot of it's fucking true.
But it's the negative side.
It's the negative way ofthinking in my eyes.
(22:10):
And I am more positive.
Just'cause you don't likehearing it don't mean it ain't
the truth.
I listened to it, didn't I?
There's no, doesn't mean I just,'cause I don't wanna hear it
doesn't mean I'm not gonnalisten.
I listened.
But I also think you thought benegative and you, when you are,
I think a different way than youdo, I think a positive more way.
(22:31):
I feel you.
Once again, you're consideringit a positive and negative thing
other than a preference.
It's not a negative thing.
If I've had a shitty experienceall my life.
So if I listen, I'm almost 46,right?
I'm older than you, but I afucking year.
Still a Craig, but I've still,that don't do shit now.
I've still had all the badexperiences.
(22:52):
I've still got shit on just lastweekend.
But you still want a partner.
But I still wanna meet somebodythat's fucking literally.
Do you just like the thought ofit?
Do you just No.
In love with the fact of beingin love.
I think a woman does that a lot.
No, it's not a movie.
No.
It's, it's,
(23:13):
it's maintenance.
It's stuff you got to work onall the time.
Ah, yeah.
There's compromise yeah.
What happens when you get intoit and you think this is the
greatest age?
It's called communication.
Not everybody's great at that.
I know.
I am.
I hate when people can'tcommunicate.
That just sucks so bad.
That's a deal breaker too.
(23:33):
Somebody can't communicate andtell you what's on their mind
and how they feel God and whatbothers them.
Oh God.
Yeah.
Oh God.
I have no problem telling peoplehow I feel.
God.
Yeah.
Why people hate that about me,because I tell them how I feel.
I felt
the, the,
the most recent girl I was seeing, it was like that.
And it was just like, they'rejust there and that's it.
I'm blunt, I'm brass.
(23:53):
I have no problem telling peoplehow I feel.
And they don't like that.
And sometimes that's a badquality.
Sometimes they say about mebecause I'm too blunt.
So mates, yes.
That's fantasy too way.
I'm sorry.
There's no such thing.
Sorry.
You feel that way.
Prove me wrong.
(24:13):
How can I prove you wrong?
Exactly.
I can prove you wrong, but youcan't prove me wrong.
So sorry.
And the only thing you'll reachin the drawer is the negative
button.
That's okay.
You can press it if you want.
It's not, but there's no suchfucking thing.
(24:33):
Who,
who says you're entitled to a a soulmate.
I, because Everybody's born withone.
Really?
Who isn't?
Yeah.
Well,
don't fucking know.
You've almost lived all yourlife.
Exactly where the fuck they atsome meet'em before.
Maybe your soulmate has, whenthey're young, they're fucking
dead.
That's who your soulmate is.
Could be.
You're in another life.
But I don't think so.
I still feel'em.
(24:53):
It ain't here.
I still feel'em.
I don't feel her.
I ain't say, I don't even, Idon't feel anything and I can't
help that.
I still feel mine.
I've told so much shit.
And you want to hear you, yousay, what I said was bullshit
was funny by the way.
I was laughing.
But what, what are you talkingabout?
(25:13):
I'm not singling out, but I saywomen'cause I date women,
but women have lied so much soof men.
I've heard so much bullshit.
So have I.
And it's like you get so immune and it's, it don't even
bother you anymore.
It's just
like,
you think it's funny.
You've heard it all before.
Yeah.
You've, there's nothing new.
Anybody gets somebody like you,you're the only one I ever this
(25:34):
with or felt this way with orsee, I don't sh I never stopped
shaking about you.
That's your husband.
Does he know this?
You know,
I'm like, come on man.
Actions speak louder than words.
I got an ex from six years agowho still contacts me also,
who's currently pregnant.
And I congratulated her becauseonce again, not a bad
connection.
(25:55):
She likes me.
She loves my family too.
They all liked her too.
She's a good person.
Couldn't trust the fuck out ofher.
Lied, lied,
lied.
Compulsive liar.
I hate a compulsive liar.
She was
just,
just that.
See, I hate a liar too.
I'd rather tell the truth.
She's in, she inbox.
She,
I got,
I got the messages.
Prove it.
I got the messages right.
Now what does she want the fuck?
(26:16):
No.
No, she's not.
But she talks about when we didfuck though.
And then she's calling the fuck,she's horny the bitch to the
park.
That cut my ass.
There was like a wooden benchand there was like a nail kind
of protruding out the back ofthe nail.
Mm-hmm.
While she was on her butt with her legs up.
I was getting a, the bench wasjust perfect height where I can
get some good leverage,
you know,
and it fucked like
(26:36):
the,
the butt bone up top above,
um,
the hole, whatever.
Well,
the nail caught that and she
yelled,
yelled up and Yelp.
And I went, backed out, pulledout of her and everything.
I'm like, whoa, what happened?
So she started bleeding from hertailbone.
Mm-hmm.
Where that nail clipped her.
Yeah.
We were,
you know,
essentially going back and forth.
Bam.
It snagged just right.
(26:58):
She's
like,
oh, we gotta stop.
I'm
sorry,
sorry.
And then she's like reaching forher ass and there's like blood
on her finger and I'm like, ohmy God, what the fuck happened?
So we got her phone light andlooked down.
There was a nail sticking out ofthe board, just the, not the
sharp part, but the part youhammered down.
It was coming up out of thewood, right?
The flat part.
So the head of the nail, we weretalking about that, stuff like
(27:18):
that.
And then,
you know,
I teased her, she said,
you know,
she's six months along.
I'm like,
well
it ain't mine.
She's
like,
duh or something like that ain't fucking yours.
But
uh,
she still says she has feelings for me and she thinks
about me.
And I'm like, you shouldn't bedoing that.
You have a man, you have a manhelping, taking care of you,
(27:39):
your dad and the kid that'sabout to be born.
You're still texting me.
You did this shit while you werewith me and I told you you did
this and you said you didn't,but you're doing it now.
And I'm on the other end of it.
And this is what I'm talkingabout.
There's no, I have no girl thatI wish I could go back to.
I have nobody that I miss.
(28:00):
Nobody.
I want me either.
It's,
it's crazy man.
Me either.
I don't want none of my exes.
I don't want any of them back.
That's the reason why they'retheir ex.
But I became friends with somany of'em and I don't want'em
back because they wanna fuck.
I don't know.
Maybe
they do,
they do.
You know,
some of it I just wouldn't make.
The only reason why a girl gonnacall you up outta the blue for
(28:21):
no reason is to fuck no.
Okay.
I wish that was the case.
But no, not always.
90% of the time you're full ofshit.
Whatever.
Don't always mean they want tofuck.
They're just flirting.
(28:43):
They're getting validation.
They're flirting and attention.
That's all it is.
Yeah.
They're flirting with you to seeif they can get the dick.
Read between the lines therebuddy.
No, I'm not stupid creep twinwhites.
I wish other women were here.
When you're saying that, they'dbe like, oh, I'm not like that.
That's as soon as they would saythat immediately.
Oh my God.
There's too many of'em.
(29:04):
There's too many of'em.
Like,
I'm just not like that.
Oh, I'm just flirting with himto fucking get his dick card and
not wanna fucking him.
No, I don't think so.
I don't, everybody's sexuallymotivated as you are.
Okay.
I promise you that.
Some girls didn't give a fuckless.
I like sex and there's guy and Idon't wanna single out to guys.
'cause there's a lot of guysthat don't like sex too.
(29:24):
Yeah, there's, there was thishot black girl and black girls
are not really my flavor, butthis is what I wanted.
Okay.
And I'm like, she's justconstantly telling me that her
fucking, she comes on her man,she gets butt ass naked, lights,
candles and
you know,
gets her legs up to the couch and stuff.
And just, she said, I got, I putit all out there for him.
He don't wanna fuck, he justsits down and checks his emails
(29:47):
and he's gay.
That's what I told her becauseshe's a pretty black girl's.
Like she's light's skinned andshe's very model like he's gay.
Like girl, you're beautiful.
Like he's gay is a$2 bill.
And I'm not even simp.
And I'll just tell you'cause I'myour friend and I work with you
and you're nice.
I hate that word.
What?
Simp?
Yeah.
I hate a simp.
I You keep using the wordthough, but go ahead.
Fucking hate him, man.
(30:08):
I hate a simp.
Every simp needs punched in thejoint.
What is a simp?
That's a guy who gives women
over
over amount of attention that's not deserved and they
don't get it back.
It's never reciprocated.
Mm.
One sided love.
It's that guy that's, oh, you'reso beautiful.
You're so special.
Oh my God.
(30:29):
I just wanna be your friend.
I can't be with a guy like that.
Fuck off dude.
I can't,
I can't be with a guy like that.
I don't want,
it's, it's,
it's guys that pump women egos up.
Only fan type shit.
Like,
look in the comments of these only fan girls that are on
there and it's, they're allsaying how amazing they are.
How special?
I'm like, you don't even knowthis bitch.
She's probably hateful inpublic.
She's taking pictures andposing.
(30:50):
To get money and views andfollowers.
She don't give a fuck about yourass.
There's 15 other Matthews sayingthe same thing on this comment
section.
I hate a simp.
And boy, if you say something toone of these motherfuckers,
they're gonna tell you backwhat?
You can't get pussy.
(31:11):
I'm like, no, you're not gettinglate either.
'cause you're sipping.
There's 1500 guys just likeyourself doing the same thing.
Give it a rest, bro.
Calm down.
I just don't like, I'm not, Idon't support.
Only fan girls can't stand thatshit.
Probably the biggest red flagever.
Well,
good thing I'm not on OnlyFans my pages.
(31:33):
Yes you.
You'll be marketable.
'cause if you're not out thereshowing your ass everywhere my
page is out there.
My, my podcast, but not my ass.
But you're not in a whitebikini.
That's wet.
No, I'm in.
Okay, so But you are in a classylook.
Yeah.
At best you were laying down andhad something fancy on.
(31:54):
Right.
Okay,
well
that's sophisticated.
Sexy.
Okay, that's sophisticated.
No, they're bourgeois picturesnow.
Hi.
I am happen to be 18.
I haven't had cock before, butNo, just wait for the right one.
Oh, lemme show you my pussy.
Just a second.
Back up.
Oh
no, no, no,
no.
You don't even see any nippleson mine.
Mine are classy and there's allthese little young can't see
broccoli heads fucking forming astraight line just to compliment
(32:15):
somebody.
But again, mine, they're only topromote my podcast.
I don't have anything nude onthere.
I don't have any videos oranything like that.
Yeah.
'cause you want somethingserious.
Yeah.
I'm not doing none of that.
Real men don't want that shitnow women think no.
See, women think a lot of timesI have options.
They'll say they have so manyoptions and it's no you don't.
(32:36):
No, I don't think you do.
Because a lot of these menmaking you think and they're
validating you and you're goingalong to pump your ego up in the
back of their heads.
They're just trying to get someand they'll wait months for it.
They'll wait a long time for it.
As a matter of fact, it's notvery practical for opposite sex
to be friends.
True friends.
(32:56):
No, like I said, you're right.
I have a lot of chick friendsfrom my past.
Again, you are correct, myfriend.
They're still the fuck too, justlike you said.
Yeah.
You just wanna fuck.
Hell yeah, they do.
I know.
Yeah.
You can't be friends with theopposite sex.
No, not truly.
No.
Not unless they're gay.
To a limited extent.
I'm not unless they're gay.
Uh,
all my chick friends that are my considered chick friends
for life, I don't see on aregular basis go.
(33:17):
But do you fucked them?
There you go.
No.
Never fucked Misty.
Never fucked Michelle.
Never.
Fuck Sarah.
These are girls that I told youOh, okay.
That you grew up with.
Okay.
That's right.
That's right.
That you, okay, I see whatyou're saying.
These are my nonstick dickfriends.
Okay.
Okay.
This are the ones I justwouldn't do to break.
'cause we're just too goodfriends.
It's just Well, that, and theyfucked all your friends.
(33:39):
Exactly.
They fucked up.
They're not getting nowhere.
So it's a pride thing.
And just not gonna be that guythat watched everybody run
through that person.
They had a op, they had theirchance.
Okay.
You had most of my life chance,but,
right.
So,
the minute I'm dissed by somebody,
I'm, I'm,
(33:59):
I'm just, I'm going the other fucking direction.
I don't, I'm not, I don't trytoo hard.
I'm not,
I'm not that person.
I don't like rejection either.
Do you even put yourself outthere though?
What Is putting yourself outthere?
Help me with this?
'cause probably not.
Oh, I know you don't, but Igotta hear your explanation to
(34:20):
see what you're saying.
Oh, I know you don't.
I
kind of
do.
If you mean by going to bars andbeing seen by the public or
something like that.
Now I know you do that.
That's putting yourself outthere right now.
Are you letting these femalesknow that you're single, and
that you're interested in them?
No.
That's why.
Fuck, you can't even get aconversation like that going in
most cases.
(34:45):
We've already, we discussed thistoo.
Men don't really wanna go up towomen and start talking to'em.
I feel like if I'm gonna meetsomebody and when I do meet
somebody, it's always by chance.
That's awful funny.
'cause I met you and talked toyou.
You met me by chance too.
How was it?
By chance?
Wow.
'cause you was by chance rightnext to me.
Oh, so it happened by chance.
It ain't because you came andsat to me'cause you was in
(35:07):
interested or that I came into.
You did the same to you.
I happened to be sitting there.
You needed a drink, you came up,you got that drink and the band
was super fucking loud.
So I barely heard anything yousaid.
You remember there was a bigloud band playing Pink Floyd and
other shit?
Yeah, I remember bits andpieces.
That was a badass night.
That was a good band.
They had that night.
So yeah, that was jamming out oranything.
(35:27):
And then when the band was overwith, that's when you're like,
you said something, I don'tknow.
Are you gonna talk to me or you?
So you said something to anaggressive state.
I don't know what you said.
Aggressive.
I am aggressive.
Yes.
I said, so are you gonna talk tome or what?
Yeah.
I'm like, what do you mean?
Am I gonna talk to you?
What?
I never talked to you before.
(35:48):
No, shit.
That's the whole point.
Well,
do you see how that worked out by chance though?
No.
That's not by chance.
That's me making a move on youbecause you wouldn't talk to me.
Well,
I think more women should have to.
Don't argue with me on that one.
You know damn well if it's afair playing field, women should
be approaching men.
I can't help that.
Women are not approaching women.
(36:09):
Women should be approaching men.
I can't help that.
I do.
The women's success rate's gonnabe much higher anyway, because I
approach men.
You're gonna make that man feellike he's the best thing ever.
You know why?
'cause you could've choseanybody else, but you went to
him.
There's a huge difference.
Huge difference.
Okay.
And when you, when I walked inthat bar, do not think I scanned
(36:31):
around that bar.
And yeah, I needed a drink.
I needed a seat.
I still don't understand yourpoint.
The seats were taken all the wayaround us.
That was your only spot.
Once again, it was by chance.
By chance.
You think you don't think it wasfate?
Well,
how could it be fate?
What have we done since then?
(36:53):
I'm just asking if you don'tthink it was fake.
Wow.
Fate, man.
What have we done since then?
Yeah.
I don't know.
A year and a half later youcontacted me, asked me how I'm
doing.
I said, I'm cool.
You wanna come and hang out andgo on a podcast was perfect.
I mean,
that's friendship.
Yeah.
Hell yeah.
I'm like, then why not?
So you don't think it was fatethat I met you that night?
(37:15):
You think it was coincidence?
Maybe the podcast was the fate.
That's a good fate.
I'm okay with it, but still you.
You're silly man.
I'm telling.
No, I'm not silly.
Yeah you are.
No I'm not.
You're crazy.
(37:35):
But I like you say no.
So you don't even make the firstmove.
I know that I like mutual moves.
No.
You like the woman to make thefirst move.
You've already told me that.
You've said that kinda,
(37:57):
I mean,
you've said that'cause you say you don't know when to make
the first move, so you alwaysrely on the woman to make the
first move.
So you rely on the woman to do alot of things first.
No,
kind of,
and that's really for the woman's safety.
Honestly, that's
kind of,
that's something I had to do because of experiences making
(38:18):
first moves.
You know,
some women could, the rejection thing
and,
and I shouldn't be holding my younger dating life against
what today, but in the past,like if you make a move and they
just fucking, what are youdoing?
Women like to lead men on,especially when you're young.
So those are bad experiences.
(38:40):
And I'll be damned if somebodypushes me off after fucking
leave me on forever.
I'm like,
well, you're fucking gone.
I should have figured that out along time ago that you were just
gonna push me off and reject meand make me think you liked me
all this time.
Have you had a guy do that toyou?
You've never been let on?
(39:01):
Of course I have.
Okay, so you can't be looking atme like you're confused.
I'm over here thinking that'swhy I'm looking at you.
Like I'm confused, but yeah,it's just that, that thing I
just, that lead you on and justwhen you think it's a good time
to go ahead and just plant oneon her and just kiss her, you
know, and you don't get theresponse that you were hoping
(39:23):
for.
So I got rewired a little bitand I go with the, the mutual
you.
This is how it works.
Usually this is the way I likehow it works.
Please explain,
body language.
Mm-hmm.
Body language is better than words.
(39:44):
Any day when somebody makes anexcuse to be close to you.
That's how it usually unfolds,isn't it?
You get somebody and they justfind ways to talk close to you.
They,
they're talking close to you or they're leaning towards
you.
They just
kind of
rub your shoulder for a second.
(40:04):
They just do these micro moves.
Quick hugs.
I'm gonna go to the bathroomreal quick.
You want a drink?
Alright, cool.
And you do this little flirt hugand you roll off and they laugh.
Like,
that was weird but cute.
Right?
Yeah, that's what I'm talking about.
Natural organic connection.
It just, that's someone flirtingwith you.
It just hap, that's fun to me.
(40:24):
I like that.
So again, you want someone toengage the flirting.
I want a mutual.
You want listen though, mutual.
It's both ways.
I'm leaning in, she's leaningin.
We like each other.
We're finding out that we'reattracted to each other.
At least.
Jesus.
Tara, poor Tara.
(40:49):
We gotta find Tara.
Man, guys.
No, Tara will find her own man.
It'll come.
All the fellas listening.
All this number.
Terry's about to give you yournumber.
Don't you fucking dare.
It's, I'll edit it out.
Fuck you.
No.
Okay.
Oh, do you know it by heart?
No.
No, you don't.
I was about to say, I say day.
I want to hear it.
Let me see if you know it byheart.
(41:12):
Yeah, I didn't think so
well,
I'm blocked and I haven't used that number a lot, guys, so
you can't blame me.
Just like when it came to thispodcast, you blocked me front
and I don't even know why Ithink I was a creep or I called
you or something.
Do you think I was gonna callyou or did you have a girlfriend
or something?
Is that why you blocked me?
(41:34):
I don't even remember, honestly,because I know you haven't
blocked.
I said you got mad at me forsome reason and was like, I got
mad at you.
Probably got a little dick andhung up.
I didn't say that to you.
I know.
I would never say that I'mmessing.
Hold on.
Why did we quit talking?
I thought you knew that I hadjust broke up with my ex and I
think that you knew I neededtime to get over him, is what I
(41:55):
thought, but I don't know.
Hmm.
Yeah, I wish I had the messages from like before.
(42:17):
I don't remember we missed a lotof sex talk on that podcast, but
it was still cool.
Find what you thinks cool out ofit.
Whenever we think it's shitty,it's actually turns out really
good.
A lot about relationships.
Yeah.
Your take on it.
My take on it.
I think having the podcast andbeing able to expand outside of
(42:39):
sex.
Yeah.
That's what taboo and talk aboutthese viral people can relate to
what we're saying.
That's the whole point of medoing this, what he said was
true and I'm, and she's agreewith him,
right.
And she's fucking sitting there agreeing with You're
right.
Right.
And then I can't stand you, but you're right.
But the ladies,
but the ladies can see where you're coming from too.
Yeah.
So nobody's truly 100% right orwrong.
(43:00):
We both have our points.
Right?
There are opinions.
Opinions are like assholes.
Everybody's got them.
This should be a lesson toeverybody.
That life experience can changeyour perception.
Yes.
On things it can.
And you can't help it.
You know, it sucks.
And
if you, if you've,
if you've lived a
rough,
rough road, you have to pick the path where you feel
like you're gonna be stable themost.
(43:20):
If I fall in love with somebodyand it doesn't work out, my
world's fucking crushed.
And then that's gonna interferewith my career when I'm trying
to do.
And be more independent, where Ican live completely by myself
and not have to be rentingfucking rooms.
How there, how we have so muchin common.
It's not even fucking funny.
Huh?
Nothing.
Go ahead.
No.
What would you say?
I said we have so much incommon.
It's not funny.
(43:42):
We do, but we don't, we have thesame goals.
No, we don't.
You're looking for somebody.
I'm not.
How is that the same?
Are you talking aboutfundamental goals?
Like
Yeah.
Fundamental goals.
Yeah.
Working and traveling, livinglife.
Going, yeah.
Around the world.
How do you
Well,
I guess you could, I've always wanted that get old
enough to where you probablycould pull it off.
(44:02):
Right?
They are have watch your house while you're going, or
like, I mean,
you homeschool.
I wanted a camper because Iwanted a camper.
I wanted to live, literally liveon the road and travel and work
on the road.
And I've, that's a dream ofmine.
It's always been a dream ofmine.
Yeah.
I just feel like it's a lifewhere you really could just live
(44:22):
deeper.
It's a fucking life, man.
Can you imagine?
Have more spending money.
Oh my God.
Eliminate all your bills.
You rv you to camp sites.
I've already, I've had a camper.
I tried to do it, but I couldn'tdo it on my own because I'm a
woman.
I needed a man.
You're afraid to.
No, I needed a man because Icouldn't hitch the thing.
(44:44):
I couldn't,
i didn't have the truck.
I couldn't hitch the trailer.
There was just so many thingsthat I needed a man for.
I could teach you all that.
Well,
I've moved people across country several times.
I'm used to driving.
I could drive big vehicles,towing vehicles too, so I know
how to use the, car dollies andtrailers.
(45:05):
I had a camper and I sold it.
You can do it.
If I showed you one time, you'dfigure it out, backing it up.
All that shit.
That is a pain in the dick.
I mean,
that takes a little practice, but I don't wanna do
it by myself.
I want to do it with somebody.
Yeah, there's, why would I wannado it by myself?
It's boring by yourself.
(45:25):
I want to share it withsomebody.
I want to go to that new beachand walk on that beach and watch
that sunset or sunrise in themorning with that person.
That's what I want.
You get in your camper and it'slike having a house.
It is the house.
Get your fuck on right in theparking lot and never know
that's fucking
right.
And you can fucking in all 50 states.
(45:46):
Yeah.
I mean,
my god, life goals,
like, yeah, that's pretty muchit.
Oh my God, that's the fuckingdrink.
Few drinks here and there,smoked my weed, talk about
things I did in my life.
It's crazy.
And that's that I never thoughtI'd be doing this and that.
I've had i've got to have thosemoments in my life so far where
(46:10):
I've got to travel and I've gotto go places Me too.
And freeze for a moment and justtake it in and go, man, my feet
have been everywhere.
I've stepped on so manydifferent terrains thanks for
listening to today's podcast.
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Tara (00:16):
So you're hell spent on not ever being in another
relationship.
Not ever again.
Someday.
Someday.
But I just feel like
it's,
it's just best for me to, not do it now.
Until I accomplish my bucketlist.
You know what I mean?
What is your bucket list?
(00:37):
You've been talking about yourbucket list.
I don't have much of one.
It's just really You saidtraveling.
Well,
because that's my number one, my bucket list is working
for myself, which I'm doing.
You're already doing that.
Yeah.
I had a boss of five years.
I do my own thing and I preferit that way.
Right.
Whatever headache comes along with the business, it's my
problem.
Nobody else's.
Right.
If I got a bitch or something, I tell'em myself,
what the fuck was I thinking?
(00:57):
I like that problem.
Handle it.
Well
handle.
That's a good problem.
It is a good problem.
I don't want someone elsebelittling me less than the
human on the time clock becauseevery, I can't stand having
timeclock.
Yeah.
Whoever's on a time clock.
Would you do what you do for onehour?
For what?
You get an hour?
Fuck no.
You know,
think about it.
So really, you know you're worthmore than what you're getting an
(01:21):
hour, right?
You're Yeah.
Essentially.
Absolutely.
So I've always been about peacerate, like I wanna get paid for
the jobs that I'm doing.
Cause if I can get'em donequick, get paid the same, be
gone
Right.
And it's done
right,
then I feel like what's wrong with that?
And,
and my line of business is sales.
If I don't sell nothing, I ain'tmaking nothing.
So, right.
The motivation there is just get that show going.
(01:43):
Get the people in, warm'em upand put it out there.
Okay.
So you sell some legal cracks.
Fuck it.
List number one, work foryourself.
Check.
Fuck.
Yeah.
Yeah, me too.
I highly recommend it.
Take a chance.
People take a fucking chance.
Listen, a millionaire told methis.
This is a guy, this guy don'tlook like he's, he just looks
(02:03):
like a, he's been hanging out atthe country golf club for a
couple decades and he is gotchecker pants and a fat ass.
This guy looks like a fuckingsubstitute teacher driving a
badass V 10.
Specked out.
Fucking viper, Burt, orangecolored Viper.
Damn that roared.
(02:25):
You've heard a fe, a 10 cylinderengines roar,
you know?
Mm-hmm.
And this motherfucker comes upand they're like, what do you
do?
I've seen you several times.
Not just this car.
I've seen you in other cars.
I've seen you Maserati, and theyall yours.
Or do you work for a dealershipand you're just taking these to
get service done?
Oh no, these are all mine.
These are all mine.
(02:46):
I'm like, I said, look, I liketo ask people questions when
they're where I want to be.
He said, always a source whereyou're getting your information.
If you're getting advice fromsomebody, consider the source.
And I tried to read into that.
What do you mean consider asource?
Who's telling it to you?
(03:06):
Mm-hmm.
Is he a fucking loser trying to give you successful
advice?
Are you gonna take successfuladvice from a fucking opioid
addict?
Doesn't make no sense.
So you got somebody who'salready where you wanna be,
that's who you listen to.
And I feel like that'scontagious.
If you get yourself around thosepeople, then you can absolutely
evolve
to that,
to that world.
You get put in advantages thatyou know you might not have
(03:29):
before so yeah.
Yeah.
So bucket list number one.
Check.
Yep.
What's the other bucket list?
What's you said?
Traveling.
Yeah.
I wanna see some more places Iwanna go.
Some, I wanna be a strangersomewhere, hit California
coastline for a while, and Iwanna come back here through the
spring and the summer.
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Be a snow, a permanent snowbirdfor a while, I guess I have a
life in different places andit's been like that my whole
life anyway.
And
maybe this,
maybe this makes it easy on me,
I guess.
cause I've lived.
I've had a driver's license inthree states, Arizona,
California, Ohio.
I've lived in all three of thosestates multiple times.
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And then I like the diversity ofchange and I learned later on
what,
what a snowbird was.
And I'm like, I get it, man.
I get it.
If these senior citizens canfucking do it.
And they, they, there's peoplewho are retired that go across
the country and they stay inArizona, most likely Arizona and
Nevada.
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It's cheaper to, it's like thesame cost as being here.
There's no difference when youhit California, that all
changes, but, oh, yeah.
And I've been to Arizona, notto,
not,
not Nevada, Arizona.
Flagstaff's expensive.
Flagstaff is'cause that's acollege, mountain country.
It's high country in Arizona.
Mm-hmm.
It's like a little piece of Colorado chilling in the
middle of the desert.
Right.
I've been there.
I
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I've know Payson.
Sedona.
I've hit all those places.
Me too.
Puff
puff pass.
Buff puff pass.
I don't wanna fucking hear that.
You know how long you held thatthing in your thing?
This girl was in her new cartalking to me for a half hour
holding the blunt.
Said she this, she said,
puff,
puff pass.
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I'm trying to get high overhere.
Now people, if you're having tolisten to this and she don't
edit this out.
You don't have to consider thisto be all men's thoughts.
There is men that's looking forlove out there.
I just had a friend.
Let's bring him up.
I feel like he deserves itbecause he's a great guy,
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lifelong friend and like family.
Not blood related, but likefamily.
His wife just
left him,
left him a couple days ago.
Johnson, if anybody wants to beanti relationship, it should be
this fellow.
By now he's cheat death twiceback in the late nineties.
He went under a fucking semitrailer while it was moving.
(05:58):
Jesus.
He got plowed by a semi-truck,chopped the whole top of his car
off.
He ducked in time, stayed alive.
He got cancer.
They cut a piece out of hisneck.
He survived that cancer.
Never came back.
He's had two wives, both ofthem, shit on him a few years
(06:18):
ago.
This girl that he met was adialysis nurse, I believe it
was, saying she couldn't havekids, you know, and then lied to
him.
She got knocked up and hefucking told her he didn't want
to have kids.
Okay?
He fucking told her he didn'twant to have kids.
He already has a kid that's 17and 18.
(06:39):
He just got out of childsupport.
Okay?
He's free, right?
And then this bimbo blondesaying she can't get pregnant.
Johnson knocks her right up thesame night.
She told everybody she couldn'tget pregnant that the 4th of
July party.
What?
So now he's got a, I think he'sfive or six now.
Good kid.
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But his, he's already had grownkids, so now he's back into the
cycle again.
Paying child support 12 years.
And then he meets this girlMisty.
I don't throw last names outthere.
He just got married to her twoyears ago.
I was so happy for him.
I'm like, you know,
as much as you've been shit on this woman's an angel in
your life, and this is me sayingthis.
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Remember all the bullshit I justsaid for the past few hour?
Yeah.
Yep.
I still show support to people.
It's still in my head.
Listen, I still show support topeople who are finding that and
successful with it.
Congrats to'em.
It doesn't work out foreverybody.
I have burning proof.
You want to go to the cemetery?
(07:42):
Is every fucking headstone havea lover that died with them?
Is there,
is there not tombstones out there?
Where they're out there layingand they died?
Single.
My grandmother died.
Single.
My current grandmother's gonnadie single.
Both my grandfather's who's deaddied single.
Oh my God.
You're manifesting this shit.
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My dad married somebody.
You're manifesting dying single.
I'm not manifesting it.
I'm just, why can't youunderstand what I'm trying to
tell you?
I do understand.
Not everybody gets this.
Not everybody's entitled to loveand happy ending.
Go to the graveyard and look atthe tombstones.
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'cause every one of'em have apartner that's either going to
be laid next to him.
No.
Or got to.
No.
See what I mean?
The end of life tells youeverything.
How life's all about.
You were born alone.
You're gonna die alone.
You're born the same way.
You're going out, you'reshitting in diapers.
You have no fucking hair left inyour head, and you got no teeth
and you're gibberish, br.
That's all you say.
When we're born and die, we'regoing in the same way.
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We came out dumb and
like
a baby has to be taken care of and nobody's gonna be
there.
And of course I was selfish tonot have kids.
So when I die, it's just, thereain't gonna be nobody there.
You know why I don't give afuck?
'cause I ain't gonna realizethat I'm gonna be dying.
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What do I give a shit?
I don't care if anybody's therewhen I'm dying.
I don't give a fuck.
They're like, oh, that's a weirdthing to say.
It's like, well, what good areyou gonna do me?
I'm fucking dying, man.
You know you still gotta gohome.
These nurses and doctors arejust keeping me drugged up until
I'm outta here.
I probably don't even knowyou're here.
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You see what I'm saying?
Life is bullshit.
Life is a fucking joke.
All it
is is a trick.
Until we get to the next life tosee, ask, what the fuck was that
all about?
Everything that everybody had togo through, not just me.
I gotta share this life the same24 hours with everybody else.
(09:46):
I can't stand you.
Well,
this is this all about, I can't fucking stand you because
oh my God, I can't fucking standto you.
You're right.
It sucks to be right.
I don't like being right.
Oh, I can't fucking stand youright now.
I want to be dumb and not beable to have this in my head.
I want to go by with whateverybody thinks is gonna happen
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in the end.
I think differently than you dothough.
I know.
It's fantasy, honey.
I have faith.
That's fantasy.
It's not fantasy.
It's faith.
It's hope.
It's something you don't have.
I do.
Yeah.
I'm happy you do.
I'm glad you're happy I do.
Giving yourself something tolook forward to.
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Of course I am.
And you might find it.
I am gonna find it.
Yeah, because that's what kindof positive thinking I have.
I mean, mine's it's positivetoo.
It's just, oh shit.
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Uh, a p.
(12:58):
Hey, Mr.
Positive, Mr.
Positivity over here.
Well,
listen.
That was funny though.
It was very funny'cause that'sthe most bullshit I've ever
seen.
Come out your mouth.
Here, hit this.
It's not negative, it's justfacts.
(13:18):
Why call yourself this you don'tagree with you.
Just call it negative'causesomebody wants to say, you call
yourself a realist.
And really it's negativity.
If you think
more positive,
more positive things will happen.
I think making more positive isthinking about myself.
If you manifest.
Being with someone, you will bewith someone.
If you manifest being alone,
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you will manifest,
you will end up alone.
I mean,
and I've been doing it right all along.
Yeah.
You have, you sure have props toyou.
Positivity.
Oh Lord, help me now.
Let's get a little morerealistic here.
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Oh boy.
I'm not opposed.
How much more realistic could weget?
Well, uh,
okay, let's break.
Break it down for me.
No, I someday it would be niceto have a relationship.
That'd be nice.
Huh?
I said maybe,
you know,
maybe just someday.
Yeah.
Okay.
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Well,
when that someday does come, you need to open up.
Let that, what am I missing?
That on that person Know thatyou're interested in that
person.
I think
if, if,
if the right.
That
that's why they call it the right person.
If the right person came along,that's what I'm saying.
Maybe make a change To me, itjust, not in the near future.
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I just don't see that happening.
That's fine.
But when you do find the rightperson, you need to open up When
I do, yeah.
I'll open up.
But I'm not gonna be stupid andjust go head first.
That's something we all weretalking about.
Well,
we both agreed on that things.
Yeah.
We are old enough now that we'renot,
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you know,
we've been in those rushed relationships.
Yeah.
Even if I found my dream girl, Ithink I told you this story with
the one that supposedly crushedme.
Whatever.
Supposedly, dude.
She did.
Dude.
You,
you haven't been in a whole nother relationship since
then, have you?
Yeah.
Oh, sure, sure have.
Okay.
But sure I have love.
Yeah.
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Love, like you loved her.
Last time I was in, I fell inlove with somebody and it was
short-lived.
But I was having like real hard,like real time.
Whew.
I'm getting lovesick here.
I'm not hungry.
I'm happy.
My heart's full.
That's a fucking great feeling.
But love's like an opioid.
(15:44):
If you don't keep feeding thatshit that high, the withdrawal
sucks.
Aw.
And there kills you, right?
Yeah.
You're a woman, you know this.
Yeah.
Emotions more and more.
Aw.
See, I'm not all fucking Mr.
I don't understand love oranything's.
You're not Mr.
I'm hardass You finally gonna,no, I think that love is
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addicting.
It's great, but you do have todot a lot of i's and cross a lot
of t's to make that work.
And there's a lot of criteria.
And no, not a hundred percent.
Everything's gonna be perfect.
You have to understand likethere's no such thing as
absolute perfection.
But a, perfect ideal old personwould be more correct if you're
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gonna describe that.
Anyway, she was, but she wasyoung.
She was, 11 years younger thanme.
She was 28.
I did a seven year younger thanme.
I just 40 or something.
I don't like the younger ones.
Younger, I don't.
I have to teach'em.
And, i'm good with the youngerguys.
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I'm going for older now.
I don't think
she was,
she was younger, but she wasn't like super young.
She was almost 30 at the time.
You know,
I was one, I was 39, she was 28.
I've done whole, that's not ahuge separation.
I've done the whole 5, 6, 7, 8,not 10 year gap.
I'm good.
I'm looking for someone my ageor around my age.
I want my age or younger.
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Preferably
I want my age
I just young ho and they,
you know,
decent shape for their age or something.
I don't know.
No, I've dealt with all theyoung fucking idiots.
I mean,
I've.
This one has its own businessand cars and everything else.
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Are you turned off by the guysyou're talking to?
Like recently?
Oh, yeah.
Still not meeting nobody.
Cool.
I completely shut down.
What makes you shut down?
I don't mention the dick pics.
We know that's an automatic killit and guys don't do that shit.
I already told you not to dothat.
Right.
I shut down.
They'll say,
well,
Sean, man, didn't you show, tara sneak peek?
No.
And when I did this on the show,oh.
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And he was like, oh, I saw it.
No, I did not.
But I just, I was, I'm turnedoff.
I not looking.
I stopped looking.
It sucks to have so manyoptions, doesn't it?
It's not the options.
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'cause options are okay, butnone of them are compatible or
connect or can hold aconversation.
Really?
Yeah.
Through text or like on thephone?
Yeah, through text.
You guys,
I mean,
do you ever, I've given a couple of my phone number and
still it's the same bullshit.
How,
how are you?
Good.
How are you?
Where are you from?
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Ohio.
You?
Oh, I hate that stage I justwanna get past that.
I'm over it.
Yeah.
I've already shut down.
I quit doing it.
I already quit.
Like I'm done.
I did it for
like
two weeks.
Oh.
Even got stood up.
Got went out to meet someone andwent to meet them.
Oh, I'm on my way.
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I'll be there.
I don't know if they showed upand tried to pretend they were
somebody else walked around thebar.
I don't know.
I could have swore I saw them,but I sat there for
like
15 minutes.
I was like, yeah, I'm good.
I'm gone.
So I got up and I left.
Was this like it recently?
Yeah.
So like after that I was like,I'm done.
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Being stood up, I feel is
kind of
in the same neighborhood as ghosted, isn't it?
Oh, I think it's worse.
Isn't it worse?
Yes.
I think it's worse.
'cause like you worked all day,you may have had to get fixed up
or something to meet somebody.
Oh yeah.
I was looking cute.
Yeah.
And then you go out there andmotherfucker just don't show up
and then ghost you stood up andthen ghosted.
See, the fucked up thing is, Ithink that did show up.
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I think he did show up and Ithink that the person was using
a different photo because thismotherfucker was staring me hard
and that person did not looknothing like their photo
catfish.
Why do people fucking do knowwhat though?
Do that though?
I, the person looked better thanthe fucking photo.
(20:00):
Oh yeah.
Some people say I look better inperson, but similar to the
photo, because I guarantee yourgirls that saw'em, those
pictures,
like, I mean,
I could have swore it was that person.
Yeah.
But then it was like, maybe not.
But then I'm like, damn, youlook better in person than your
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photo.
Which I look better in person.
I feel I look better in personthan my photos.
I feel like I do.
People was like, I'm like somefat dude or something, but I,
yeah, I think they showed up andjust didn't approach me or
whatever.
I don't fucking know.
But I got up and left.
I only sat there for
like
15,
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well,
I waited for
like
10 minutes out in the car and then went inside, got a
drink and sat there for another15 minutes.
I was like, it's 30 minutes andthen you're gonna text me like
seven minutes after I leave theplace.
Yeah.
And say that you're still 22minutes out.
(21:04):
And the date was for 1245 and Iwas gonna be a couple minutes
late, so I showed up at 1255.
I was 10 minutes late and hereit is.
1222 And you're still sayingyou're gonna be late.
Like
if you didn't wanna show, don't show.
If you wanted to see if it wasreally me, walk in the fucking
restaurant and see, you see itobviously was me, but why would
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you stand me up?
I don't know why people do that.
Why would a dude stand in anycheckup?
I don't know.
It hurt.
I don't know.
Why can't people just go tohalls?
Just, it hurt my feelings.
I'm not gonna lie.
It hurt my feelings really bad.
Yeah.
And I came home cried and wentto bed and I You think you were
(21:50):
gonna
like
that person you thought?
No, it was just the being letdown.
'cause I've been let down somuch in my life.
Like you said, I was gonna say,welcome to my life.
Welcome to a lot of life.
Everything you say.
A lot of it's fucking true.
But it's the negative side.
It's the negative way ofthinking in my eyes.
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And I am more positive.
Just'cause you don't likehearing it don't mean it ain't
the truth.
I listened to it, didn't I?
There's no, doesn't mean I just,'cause I don't wanna hear it
doesn't mean I'm not gonnalisten.
I listened.
But I also think you thought benegative and you, when you are,
I think a different way than youdo, I think a positive more way.
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I feel you.
Once again, you're consideringit a positive and negative thing
other than a preference.
It's not a negative thing.
If I've had a shitty experienceall my life.
So if I listen, I'm almost 46,right?
I'm older than you, but I afucking year.
Still a Craig, but I've still,that don't do shit now.
I've still had all the badexperiences.
(22:52):
I've still got shit on just lastweekend.
But you still want a partner.
But I still wanna meet somebodythat's fucking literally.
Do you just like the thought ofit?
Do you just No.
In love with the fact of beingin love.
I think a woman does that a lot.
No, it's not a movie.
No.
It's, it's,
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it's maintenance.
It's stuff you got to work onall the time.
Ah, yeah.
There's compromise yeah.
What happens when you get intoit and you think this is the
greatest age?
It's called communication.
Not everybody's great at that.
I know.
I am.
I hate when people can'tcommunicate.
That just sucks so bad.
That's a deal breaker too.
(23:33):
Somebody can't communicate andtell you what's on their mind
and how they feel God and whatbothers them.
Oh God.
Yeah.
Oh God.
I have no problem telling peoplehow I feel.
God.
Yeah.
Why people hate that about me,because I tell them how I feel.
I felt
the, the,
the most recent girl I was seeing, it was like that.
And it was just like, they'rejust there and that's it.
I'm blunt, I'm brass.
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I have no problem telling peoplehow I feel.
And they don't like that.
And sometimes that's a badquality.
Sometimes they say about mebecause I'm too blunt.
So mates, yes.
That's fantasy too way.
I'm sorry.
There's no such thing.
Sorry.
You feel that way.
Prove me wrong.
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How can I prove you wrong?
Exactly.
I can prove you wrong, but youcan't prove me wrong.
So sorry.
And the only thing you'll reachin the drawer is the negative
button.
That's okay.
You can press it if you want.
It's not, but there's no suchfucking thing.
(24:33):
Who,
who says you're entitled to a a soulmate.
I, because Everybody's born withone.
Really?
Who isn't?
Yeah.
Well,
don't fucking know.
You've almost lived all yourlife.
Exactly where the fuck they atsome meet'em before.
Maybe your soulmate has, whenthey're young, they're fucking
dead.
That's who your soulmate is.
Could be.
You're in another life.
But I don't think so.
I still feel'em.
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It ain't here.
I still feel'em.
I don't feel her.
I ain't say, I don't even, Idon't feel anything and I can't
help that.
I still feel mine.
I've told so much shit.
And you want to hear you, yousay, what I said was bullshit
was funny by the way.
I was laughing.
But what, what are you talkingabout?
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I'm not singling out, but I saywomen'cause I date women,
but women have lied so much soof men.
I've heard so much bullshit.
So have I.
And it's like you get so immune and it's, it don't even
bother you anymore.
It's just
like,
you think it's funny.
You've heard it all before.
Yeah.
You've, there's nothing new.
Anybody gets somebody like you,you're the only one I ever this
(25:34):
with or felt this way with orsee, I don't sh I never stopped
shaking about you.
That's your husband.
Does he know this?
You know,
I'm like, come on man.
Actions speak louder than words.
I got an ex from six years agowho still contacts me also,
who's currently pregnant.
And I congratulated her becauseonce again, not a bad
connection.
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She likes me.
She loves my family too.
They all liked her too.
She's a good person.
Couldn't trust the fuck out ofher.
Lied, lied,
lied.
Compulsive liar.
I hate a compulsive liar.
She was
just,
just that.
See, I hate a liar too.
I'd rather tell the truth.
She's in, she inbox.
She,
I got,
I got the messages.
Prove it.
I got the messages right.
Now what does she want the fuck?
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No.
No, she's not.
But she talks about when we didfuck though.
And then she's calling the fuck,she's horny the bitch to the
park.
That cut my ass.
There was like a wooden benchand there was like a nail kind
of protruding out the back ofthe nail.
Mm-hmm.
While she was on her butt with her legs up.
I was getting a, the bench wasjust perfect height where I can
get some good leverage,
you know,
and it fucked like
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the,
the butt bone up top above,
um,
the hole, whatever.
Well,
the nail caught that and she
yelled,
yelled up and Yelp.
And I went, backed out, pulledout of her and everything.
I'm like, whoa, what happened?
So she started bleeding from hertailbone.
Mm-hmm.
Where that nail clipped her.
Yeah.
We were,
you know,
essentially going back and forth.
Bam.
It snagged just right.
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She's
like,
oh, we gotta stop.
I'm
sorry,
sorry.
And then she's like reaching forher ass and there's like blood
on her finger and I'm like, ohmy God, what the fuck happened?
So we got her phone light andlooked down.
There was a nail sticking out ofthe board, just the, not the
sharp part, but the part youhammered down.
It was coming up out of thewood, right?
The flat part.
So the head of the nail, we weretalking about that, stuff like
(27:18):
that.
And then,
you know,
I teased her, she said,
you know,
she's six months along.
I'm like,
well
it ain't mine.
She's
like,
duh or something like that ain't fucking yours.
But
uh,
she still says she has feelings for me and she thinks
about me.
And I'm like, you shouldn't bedoing that.
You have a man, you have a manhelping, taking care of you,
(27:39):
your dad and the kid that'sabout to be born.
You're still texting me.
You did this shit while you werewith me and I told you you did
this and you said you didn't,but you're doing it now.
And I'm on the other end of it.
And this is what I'm talkingabout.
There's no, I have no girl thatI wish I could go back to.
I have nobody that I miss.
(28:00):
Nobody.
I want me either.
It's,
it's crazy man.
Me either.
I don't want none of my exes.
I don't want any of them back.
That's the reason why they'retheir ex.
But I became friends with somany of'em and I don't want'em
back because they wanna fuck.
I don't know.
Maybe
they do,
they do.
You know,
some of it I just wouldn't make.
The only reason why a girl gonnacall you up outta the blue for
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no reason is to fuck no.
Okay.
I wish that was the case.
But no, not always.
90% of the time you're full ofshit.
Whatever.
Don't always mean they want tofuck.
They're just flirting.
(28:43):
They're getting validation.
They're flirting and attention.
That's all it is.
Yeah.
They're flirting with you to seeif they can get the dick.
Read between the lines therebuddy.
No, I'm not stupid creep twinwhites.
I wish other women were here.
When you're saying that, they'dbe like, oh, I'm not like that.
That's as soon as they would saythat immediately.
Oh my God.
There's too many of'em.
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There's too many of'em.
Like,
I'm just not like that.
Oh, I'm just flirting with himto fucking get his dick card and
not wanna fucking him.
No, I don't think so.
I don't, everybody's sexuallymotivated as you are.
Okay.
I promise you that.
Some girls didn't give a fuckless.
I like sex and there's guy and Idon't wanna single out to guys.
'cause there's a lot of guysthat don't like sex too.
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Yeah, there's, there was thishot black girl and black girls
are not really my flavor, butthis is what I wanted.
Okay.
And I'm like, she's justconstantly telling me that her
fucking, she comes on her man,she gets butt ass naked, lights,
candles and
you know,
gets her legs up to the couch and stuff.
And just, she said, I got, I putit all out there for him.
He don't wanna fuck, he justsits down and checks his emails
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and he's gay.
That's what I told her becauseshe's a pretty black girl's.
Like she's light's skinned andshe's very model like he's gay.
Like girl, you're beautiful.
Like he's gay is a$2 bill.
And I'm not even simp.
And I'll just tell you'cause I'myour friend and I work with you
and you're nice.
I hate that word.
What?
Simp?
Yeah.
I hate a simp.
I You keep using the wordthough, but go ahead.
Fucking hate him, man.
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I hate a simp.
Every simp needs punched in thejoint.
What is a simp?
That's a guy who gives women
over
over amount of attention that's not deserved and they
don't get it back.
It's never reciprocated.
Mm.
One sided love.
It's that guy that's, oh, you'reso beautiful.
You're so special.
Oh my God.
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I just wanna be your friend.
I can't be with a guy like that.
Fuck off dude.
I can't,
I can't be with a guy like that.
I don't want,
it's, it's,
it's guys that pump women egos up.
Only fan type shit.
Like,
look in the comments of these only fan girls that are on
there and it's, they're allsaying how amazing they are.
How special?
I'm like, you don't even knowthis bitch.
She's probably hateful inpublic.
She's taking pictures andposing.
(30:50):
To get money and views andfollowers.
She don't give a fuck about yourass.
There's 15 other Matthews sayingthe same thing on this comment
section.
I hate a simp.
And boy, if you say something toone of these motherfuckers,
they're gonna tell you backwhat?
You can't get pussy.
(31:11):
I'm like, no, you're not gettinglate either.
'cause you're sipping.
There's 1500 guys just likeyourself doing the same thing.
Give it a rest, bro.
Calm down.
I just don't like, I'm not, Idon't support.
Only fan girls can't stand thatshit.
Probably the biggest red flagever.
Well,
good thing I'm not on OnlyFans my pages.
(31:33):
Yes you.
You'll be marketable.
'cause if you're not out thereshowing your ass everywhere my
page is out there.
My, my podcast, but not my ass.
But you're not in a whitebikini.
That's wet.
No, I'm in.
Okay, so But you are in a classylook.
Yeah.
At best you were laying down andhad something fancy on.
(31:54):
Right.
Okay,
well
that's sophisticated.
Sexy.
Okay, that's sophisticated.
No, they're bourgeois picturesnow.
Hi.
I am happen to be 18.
I haven't had cock before, butNo, just wait for the right one.
Oh, lemme show you my pussy.
Just a second.
Back up.
Oh
no, no, no,
no.
You don't even see any nippleson mine.
Mine are classy and there's allthese little young can't see
broccoli heads fucking forming astraight line just to compliment
(32:15):
somebody.
But again, mine, they're only topromote my podcast.
I don't have anything nude onthere.
I don't have any videos oranything like that.
Yeah.
'cause you want somethingserious.
Yeah.
I'm not doing none of that.
Real men don't want that shitnow women think no.
See, women think a lot of timesI have options.
They'll say they have so manyoptions and it's no you don't.
(32:36):
No, I don't think you do.
Because a lot of these menmaking you think and they're
validating you and you're goingalong to pump your ego up in the
back of their heads.
They're just trying to get someand they'll wait months for it.
They'll wait a long time for it.
As a matter of fact, it's notvery practical for opposite sex
to be friends.
True friends.
(32:56):
No, like I said, you're right.
I have a lot of chick friendsfrom my past.
Again, you are correct, myfriend.
They're still the fuck too, justlike you said.
Yeah.
You just wanna fuck.
Hell yeah, they do.
I know.
Yeah.
You can't be friends with theopposite sex.
No, not truly.
No.
Not unless they're gay.
To a limited extent.
I'm not unless they're gay.
Uh,
all my chick friends that are my considered chick friends
for life, I don't see on aregular basis go.
(33:17):
But do you fucked them?
There you go.
No.
Never fucked Misty.
Never fucked Michelle.
Never.
Fuck Sarah.
These are girls that I told youOh, okay.
That you grew up with.
Okay.
That's right.
That's right.
That you, okay, I see whatyou're saying.
These are my nonstick dickfriends.
Okay.
Okay.
This are the ones I justwouldn't do to break.
'cause we're just too goodfriends.
It's just Well, that, and theyfucked all your friends.
(33:39):
Exactly.
They fucked up.
They're not getting nowhere.
So it's a pride thing.
And just not gonna be that guythat watched everybody run
through that person.
They had a op, they had theirchance.
Okay.
You had most of my life chance,but,
right.
So,
the minute I'm dissed by somebody,
I'm, I'm,
(33:59):
I'm just, I'm going the other fucking direction.
I don't, I'm not, I don't trytoo hard.
I'm not,
I'm not that person.
I don't like rejection either.
Do you even put yourself outthere though?
What Is putting yourself outthere?
Help me with this?
'cause probably not.
Oh, I know you don't, but Igotta hear your explanation to
(34:20):
see what you're saying.
Oh, I know you don't.
I
kind of
do.
If you mean by going to bars andbeing seen by the public or
something like that.
Now I know you do that.
That's putting yourself outthere right now.
Are you letting these femalesknow that you're single, and
that you're interested in them?
No.
That's why.
Fuck, you can't even get aconversation like that going in
most cases.
(34:45):
We've already, we discussed thistoo.
Men don't really wanna go up towomen and start talking to'em.
I feel like if I'm gonna meetsomebody and when I do meet
somebody, it's always by chance.
That's awful funny.
'cause I met you and talked toyou.
You met me by chance too.
How was it?
By chance?
Wow.
'cause you was by chance rightnext to me.
Oh, so it happened by chance.
It ain't because you came andsat to me'cause you was in
(35:07):
interested or that I came into.
You did the same to you.
I happened to be sitting there.
You needed a drink, you came up,you got that drink and the band
was super fucking loud.
So I barely heard anything yousaid.
You remember there was a bigloud band playing Pink Floyd and
other shit?
Yeah, I remember bits andpieces.
That was a badass night.
That was a good band.
They had that night.
So yeah, that was jamming out oranything.
(35:27):
And then when the band was overwith, that's when you're like,
you said something, I don'tknow.
Are you gonna talk to me or you?
So you said something to anaggressive state.
I don't know what you said.
Aggressive.
I am aggressive.
Yes.
I said, so are you gonna talk tome or what?
Yeah.
I'm like, what do you mean?
Am I gonna talk to you?
What?
I never talked to you before.
(35:48):
No, shit.
That's the whole point.
Well,
do you see how that worked out by chance though?
No.
That's not by chance.
That's me making a move on youbecause you wouldn't talk to me.
Well,
I think more women should have to.
Don't argue with me on that one.
You know damn well if it's afair playing field, women should
be approaching men.
I can't help that.
Women are not approaching women.
(36:09):
Women should be approaching men.
I can't help that.
I do.
The women's success rate's gonnabe much higher anyway, because I
approach men.
You're gonna make that man feellike he's the best thing ever.
You know why?
'cause you could've choseanybody else, but you went to
him.
There's a huge difference.
Huge difference.
Okay.
And when you, when I walked inthat bar, do not think I scanned
(36:31):
around that bar.
And yeah, I needed a drink.
I needed a seat.
I still don't understand yourpoint.
The seats were taken all the wayaround us.
That was your only spot.
Once again, it was by chance.
By chance.
You think you don't think it wasfate?
Well,
how could it be fate?
What have we done since then?
(36:53):
I'm just asking if you don'tthink it was fake.
Wow.
Fate, man.
What have we done since then?
Yeah.
I don't know.
A year and a half later youcontacted me, asked me how I'm
doing.
I said, I'm cool.
You wanna come and hang out andgo on a podcast was perfect.
I mean,
that's friendship.
Yeah.
Hell yeah.
I'm like, then why not?
So you don't think it was fatethat I met you that night?
(37:15):
You think it was coincidence?
Maybe the podcast was the fate.
That's a good fate.
I'm okay with it, but still you.
You're silly man.
I'm telling.
No, I'm not silly.
Yeah you are.
No I'm not.
You're crazy.
(37:35):
But I like you say no.
So you don't even make the firstmove.
I know that I like mutual moves.
No.
You like the woman to make thefirst move.
You've already told me that.
You've said that kinda,
(37:57):
I mean,
you've said that'cause you say you don't know when to make
the first move, so you alwaysrely on the woman to make the
first move.
So you rely on the woman to do alot of things first.
No,
kind of,
and that's really for the woman's safety.
Honestly, that's
kind of,
that's something I had to do because of experiences making
(38:18):
first moves.
You know,
some women could, the rejection thing
and,
and I shouldn't be holding my younger dating life against
what today, but in the past,like if you make a move and they
just fucking, what are youdoing?
Women like to lead men on,especially when you're young.
So those are bad experiences.
(38:40):
And I'll be damned if somebodypushes me off after fucking
leave me on forever.
I'm like,
well, you're fucking gone.
I should have figured that out along time ago that you were just
gonna push me off and reject meand make me think you liked me
all this time.
Have you had a guy do that toyou?
You've never been let on?
(39:01):
Of course I have.
Okay, so you can't be looking atme like you're confused.
I'm over here thinking that'swhy I'm looking at you.
Like I'm confused, but yeah,it's just that, that thing I
just, that lead you on and justwhen you think it's a good time
to go ahead and just plant oneon her and just kiss her, you
know, and you don't get theresponse that you were hoping
(39:23):
for.
So I got rewired a little bitand I go with the, the mutual
you.
This is how it works.
Usually this is the way I likehow it works.
Please explain,
body language.
Mm-hmm.
Body language is better than words.
(39:44):
Any day when somebody makes anexcuse to be close to you.
That's how it usually unfolds,isn't it?
You get somebody and they justfind ways to talk close to you.
They,
they're talking close to you or they're leaning towards
you.
They just
kind of
rub your shoulder for a second.
(40:04):
They just do these micro moves.
Quick hugs.
I'm gonna go to the bathroomreal quick.
You want a drink?
Alright, cool.
And you do this little flirt hugand you roll off and they laugh.
Like,
that was weird but cute.
Right?
Yeah, that's what I'm talking about.
Natural organic connection.
It just, that's someone flirtingwith you.
It just hap, that's fun to me.
(40:24):
I like that.
So again, you want someone toengage the flirting.
I want a mutual.
You want listen though, mutual.
It's both ways.
I'm leaning in, she's leaningin.
We like each other.
We're finding out that we'reattracted to each other.
At least.
Jesus.
Tara, poor Tara.
(40:49):
We gotta find Tara.
Man, guys.
No, Tara will find her own man.
It'll come.
All the fellas listening.
All this number.
Terry's about to give you yournumber.
Don't you fucking dare.
It's, I'll edit it out.
Fuck you.
No.
Okay.
Oh, do you know it by heart?
No.
No, you don't.
I was about to say, I say day.
I want to hear it.
Let me see if you know it byheart.
(41:12):
Yeah, I didn't think so
well,
I'm blocked and I haven't used that number a lot, guys, so
you can't blame me.
Just like when it came to thispodcast, you blocked me front
and I don't even know why Ithink I was a creep or I called
you or something.
Do you think I was gonna callyou or did you have a girlfriend
or something?
Is that why you blocked me?
(41:34):
I don't even remember, honestly,because I know you haven't
blocked.
I said you got mad at me forsome reason and was like, I got
mad at you.
Probably got a little dick andhung up.
I didn't say that to you.
I know.
I would never say that I'mmessing.
Hold on.
Why did we quit talking?
I thought you knew that I hadjust broke up with my ex and I
think that you knew I neededtime to get over him, is what I
(41:55):
thought, but I don't know.
Hmm.
Yeah, I wish I had the messages from like before.
(42:17):
I don't remember we missed a lotof sex talk on that podcast, but
it was still cool.
Find what you thinks cool out ofit.
Whenever we think it's shitty,it's actually turns out really
good.
A lot about relationships.
Yeah.
Your take on it.
My take on it.
I think having the podcast andbeing able to expand outside of
(42:39):
sex.
Yeah.
That's what taboo and talk aboutthese viral people can relate to
what we're saying.
That's the whole point of medoing this, what he said was
true and I'm, and she's agreewith him,
right.
And she's fucking sitting there agreeing with You're
right.
Right.
And then I can't stand you, but you're right.
But the ladies,
but the ladies can see where you're coming from too.
Yeah.
So nobody's truly 100% right orwrong.
(43:00):
We both have our points.
Right?
There are opinions.
Opinions are like assholes.
Everybody's got them.
This should be a lesson toeverybody.
That life experience can changeyour perception.
Yes.
On things it can.
And you can't help it.
You know, it sucks.
And
if you, if you've,
if you've lived a
rough,
rough road, you have to pick the path where you feel
like you're gonna be stable themost.
(43:20):
If I fall in love with somebodyand it doesn't work out, my
world's fucking crushed.
And then that's gonna interferewith my career when I'm trying
to do.
And be more independent, where Ican live completely by myself
and not have to be rentingfucking rooms.
How there, how we have so muchin common.
It's not even fucking funny.
Huh?
Nothing.
Go ahead.
No.
What would you say?
I said we have so much incommon.
It's not funny.
(43:42):
We do, but we don't, we have thesame goals.
No, we don't.
You're looking for somebody.
I'm not.
How is that the same?
Are you talking aboutfundamental goals?
Like
Yeah.
Fundamental goals.
Yeah.
Working and traveling, livinglife.
Going, yeah.
Around the world.
How do you
Well,
I guess you could, I've always wanted that get old
enough to where you probablycould pull it off.
(44:02):
Right?
They are have watch your house while you're going, or
like, I mean,
you homeschool.
I wanted a camper because Iwanted a camper.
I wanted to live, literally liveon the road and travel and work
on the road.
And I've, that's a dream ofmine.
It's always been a dream ofmine.
Yeah.
I just feel like it's a lifewhere you really could just live
(44:22):
deeper.
It's a fucking life, man.
Can you imagine?
Have more spending money.
Oh my God.
Eliminate all your bills.
You rv you to camp sites.
I've already, I've had a camper.
I tried to do it, but I couldn'tdo it on my own because I'm a
woman.
I needed a man.
You're afraid to.
No, I needed a man because Icouldn't hitch the thing.
(44:44):
I couldn't,
i didn't have the truck.
I couldn't hitch the trailer.
There was just so many thingsthat I needed a man for.
I could teach you all that.
Well,
I've moved people across country several times.
I'm used to driving.
I could drive big vehicles,towing vehicles too, so I know
how to use the, car dollies andtrailers.
(45:05):
I had a camper and I sold it.
You can do it.
If I showed you one time, you'dfigure it out, backing it up.
All that shit.
That is a pain in the dick.
I mean,
that takes a little practice, but I don't wanna do
it by myself.
I want to do it with somebody.
Yeah, there's, why would I wannado it by myself?
It's boring by yourself.
(45:25):
I want to share it withsomebody.
I want to go to that new beachand walk on that beach and watch
that sunset or sunrise in themorning with that person.
That's what I want.
You get in your camper and it'slike having a house.
It is the house.
Get your fuck on right in theparking lot and never know
that's fucking
right.
And you can fucking in all 50 states.
(45:46):
Yeah.
I mean,
my god, life goals,
like, yeah, that's pretty muchit.
Oh my God, that's the fuckingdrink.
Few drinks here and there,smoked my weed, talk about
things I did in my life.
It's crazy.
And that's that I never thoughtI'd be doing this and that.
I've had i've got to have thosemoments in my life so far where
(46:10):
I've got to travel and I've gotto go places Me too.
And freeze for a moment and justtake it in and go, man, my feet
have been everywhere.
I've stepped on so manydifferent terrains thanks for
listening to today's podcast.
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