The Authentic Gay Man Podcast

The Authentic Gay Man Podcast

Coach Maddox, host of The Authentic Gay Man Podcast, reveals why so many gay men experience loneliness and isolation and the steps they can take, so they can create deep meaningful friendships that help them experience a profound sense of belonging and community. If you have ever felt like you were on the outside looking in, you’re not alone. It's a common theme among gay men. Maybe you are wondering what it means to be an Authentic Gay Man? Maddox engages his guests in honest and raw conversations, concerning topics that gay men rarely speak about. When we are able to get real with ourselves, it enables us to get real with others. That creates emotional intimacy…something we often fear and crave at the same time. Discover how to become more authentic and vulnerable, so you are magnetic to the people you engage with. Tune into each episode for a raw, candid, and uncensored exploration into the challenges of being an Authentic Gay Man. If you’re interested in gaining insights into your own challenges by hearing vulnerable stories of other gay men and if you aspire to be an Authentic Gay Man, this is the podcast for you.

Episodes

September 26, 2022 72 min

Paul J Williams tells a story about how he tried alcohol, pot, cocaine, and ecstasy.  Each was not his thing and he walked away.  But, a perfect storm presented itself the first time he used crystal meth, while engaging is sex.  In that moment it calmed his shame of being gay, gay sex, being sexually abused, and his fear of being inadequate.  This went on for years until the final play of the perfect storm was an attempted suicide....

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Alex Benedict's most challenging event in life was his family falling apart as a result of his mother's suicide.  He had a brother and sister that he was estranged from for over 20 years.  His sister's tragic death to lung cancer brought he and his brother back together, with a very unexpected outcome.  If pride is hijacking your happiness by preventing you from forgiving, this episode is for you.

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David Beers returns for his second guest appearance.  This time, with an epilogue story of a major life transformation that he experienced, since we recorded the first episode.  After a lifetime of struggling to be his most authentic self, David, spontaneously, stepped into his power and spoke his truth on the stage at a United Methodist Conference.  He speaks of how this experience has already manifested obvious changes and opport...

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My guest, Taylor Brorby, got outed to his parents, in his mid 20s, by an aunt.  It came very unexpected and caught Taylor completely off guard.  His parents were not amused. Taylor went through about 3 years of torment until he finally severed contact with his parents, admitting that they had become abusive.  His journey is that of triumph in the wake of a very painful experience.  Taylor's story is very inspiring, filled with ...

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My guest, Jon Carl Lewis, was raised in an evangelical religion and received early messages that being gay was definitely not OK.  For 10 years, starting at puberty, Jon Carl did everything he could do to "pray the gay away".  When that failed, in his early 20's, he entered into conversation therapy.  His personal recounting of this experience blew my mind.  At age 56, his journey with reconciling his love for Jesus and...

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Kyle Elliott had a variety of social masks that he wore in his professional life.  He had his career and his coaching side hustle and he had been under the impression that his personal life was not relevant to his professional life.  But, when he stepped through his fears, doubts, and anxieties and began to remove the social masks and allow his followers and clients to see him for who he really is, he was surprised at the outcome. ...

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Please note that this conversation includes explicit talk about various aspects of sexual behavior.  

I experienced this conversation about SEX as extraordinary!  My guests, Mike Iamele, Jon Carl Lewis, and Tony Scott each shared such wonderful and diverse perspectives.  This was truly a collaborative exploration.

If you are weary of "locker room talk", but find genuine and open conversations around sex to be very challenging...

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Don McCarthy remembers a time when he struggled with his own authenticity.  He put everyone before himself and couldn't feel or express his own feelings.  After working for many years to put self-care in place, he thought that issue was behind him.  Then, his elderly mother had a fall and caregiving provided him with an even deeper and more challenging opportunity to grasp and learn self-care.  One of the "aha" moments ...

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My guest, Berend McKenzie, grew up in a home with adoptive parents that taught him to lie at an early age, in order to make the family look good.  When his lies didn't measure up, he was physically abused.  Berend experienced his life as so painful that he made his first unsuccessful suicide attempt, while in the third grade.  He set the house on fire with the intention of jumping into the fire.  Later, to numb himself from the...

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Jeremy Long's story starts with a family that didn't know how to validate or love him.  He intentionally mimicked one of the characters in "Queer As Folk", when he was only 16.  An addiction to drugs and all the chaos that went along with it, landed Jeremy in rehab, not once, but twice before he had his transformational moment.  Jeremy finally told himself the truth. When we remove the blockade, the Universe can wor...

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My Guest, Anthony Meek, shares his story of how his inability to connect and honor his most authentic self, paved the way for an energy of desperation.  That desperation attracted a lengthy string of one-right-after-the-other crisis, to include a partner in poor health that had a severe addiction.  After 14 years of caregiving and ongoing crisis, Anthony had his "AHA" moment when he knew he had to step into full authenticit...

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My Guest, Tyler Boyle came out a little later in life.  He shares his unique perspective on the rude awakening of what he thought gay life was going to be like, after coming out... and what it really was.  While coming out stories are abundant in our community, "after coming out" stories are definitely underrated.  He speaks on how feeling like "the other" was such a big part of his experience.  If you haven't y...

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My guests Travis Stock and Bryan Kosarek couldn't have been better partners to dive deep into this topic.  We discuss the continuum from conscious masculinity to performative masculinity and everything in between.  Masculinity as an external way of being and also as an unseen energy that is in all of us, even if we aren't aware of it.  We also discuss the interplay of masculine and feminine energy.  I found the conversation...

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Rob was infected with HIV over 30 years ago by his narcissistic and abusive first partner. He shares the story of going from victim to owning his part in that experience. This, layered with a long list of illnesses, will definitely make you feel grateful for whatever you have endured. Rob's message of positivity and never giving up has proved to be most valuable to him as his doctors now tell him he is the healthiest he has bee...

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Grant Miller shares his story of being diagnosed with HIV and AIDS in the early 80s, being told he had about 6 months to live.  As he talked about the negative stigma and rejection that went along with being HIV+, combined with a non-supportive family, his story brought tears to my eyes twice during our conversation.  He talks about a time when he really believed he had nothing to live for, yet there was the small quiet voice i...

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If you have a story that you don't fit in much of anywhere, this episode is the ticket.  My guest, David Beers, shares his story of a family, a school,  and a town where he didn't fit in.  On top of that, his experiences include childhood emotional, mental, physical, and sexual abuse.  As an adult he married a woman, had a child, divorced, remarried and finally came to his moment when he couldn't hide the real him any l...

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While we don't talk about this much, the percentage of gay men that have been sexually abused or assaulted is very high.  My guest, Darren Sage, shares losing his virginity at age 24, when his boyfriend plied him with alcohol and forced himself on Darren.  That trauma has had a lasting effect on Darren's ability to engage in sex or any type of relationship, romantic or plutonic.  Darren and I unpack how the coping mechanism...

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My guest, Brad Shreve, has had a lot of challenges in life starting with internalized homophobia, a broken marriage after coming out, sexual addiction, alcohol, drugs, domestic abuse, homelessness, time in a psych ward, and a long struggle after recovery. Just as it seemed life was coming together, he spiraled out of control to where he could barely function, only to be diagnosed with bipolar disorder.  He claims it was one of the ...

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Mike Iamele shares an incredible story of how a life-threatening illness brought him to, not only the love of his life, but also, his true purpose in life.  His story telling abilities are remarkable and I found myself covered in goosebumps and totally speechless multiple times.  Mike's story clearly demonstrates how our greatest challenge in life can end up being our biggest gift.  If you want to experience a feel-good story, ...

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After a lifetime of creating art, Paul Lorenz puts himself out there in a more bold way that ever before.  As a result of the pandemic, Paul's art took a 180 degree turn when he decided to exhibit very provocative images of himself at age 60.  He went from painting to self-photography that would include a long period of deep reflection.  If you struggle with putting yourself out into the world, Paul's inspiring story may be...

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