100. We Celebrate Reaching Episode 100!

It's been five years of making content together. Through all of our many life changes and all of our growth we consistently brought ourselves back to this space we've created and today we have reached 100 episodes officially. This calls for a celebration, and you are welcome to join us in this episode! We love and thank you for all of your support from the beginning!

Episode Transcript

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He likes tests big. Juicy tests.
Pardon. What if I do?
I don't know, but that's your prerogative.

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This is show for me and my Bros are tap into our emotions.
It's cool if you want a bowl, noeagle allowed.
This is a place with a mango andfree our minds abroad and
stretch out the window hot topics whatever is on your hurry
in your mind, if that makes sense.
Speak about whatever. No judgment, let it flow.
Just like under what bread you get on my drift.

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A point of view for my lens, history and glimpse.
No feeling saying what it is undescripted.
No need to watch what you said. It's the truth verb bro.
Therapy is the meds. I said this is the pro therapy
show. I said this is the pro therapy
show. This is the pro therapy show.

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This is the pro therapy. Anywho, episode 100 fucking Hey

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we got good ass food Young Phillips here.
Tacos pizza. Episode 100.
What's up, Young Phillips? The return return in the Mac we.
Should. Call.
We should call. Ryan, Philly.

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Philly. Bring him up, bring him up, see
if he answers. Live, live on the air.
Episode 100 It's Your Boy Big A.Coming at you, I don't know what

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that is, but I don't like it. You ain't fucking with big AI.
Don't like it? You don't like big A?
No, come on man did. You put that caption on
Instagram or did your kids put fat daddy?

(02:40):
I did it. You put fat daddy Big A.
Fat Daddy, you don't like that? He likes fat daddy.
What? What is happening?
Yeah, I'm dying. All right.

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Yep. Thanks.
Yo, young Phillip is making career upgrades.
This man is a delivery driver now.
I hate it. I agree.
You hate it. I hate.
It no, there's some cases where I'm just miserable.
Why? I love being out there all by

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myself. No, no one to fucking bother me.
No boss to answer to. No, especially when you ignore
their. He like calls.
And texts. He likes he likes structure.
You like structure. I, I Yeah.

(03:44):
Yeah, we talked that, but apparently he knows shit.
It was funny, bro. Are we allowed to talk about it?
Are we cool? Yeah, we could be vague a little
in terms of recording wise or. You know what's funny about
that? Because you called me that day
because you was anxious about the thing and and I told you, I

(04:07):
said, oh whatever, don't worry. But homeboy will probably call
or text you and whatever. And then I guess he did.
Does does texting text messages make you anxious?
In general, yeah, No. Why say that?

(04:28):
Because they make me anxious. They make you.
Oh, it depends. Because you don't know what the
context of what you're reading is like.
If it's like in a certain tone, there's always just
miscommunication during texts. Is there like I'm projecting
here right? You I'm projecting right?
This is absolutely an issue of mine right?
But I'm trying to see if like you relate to it or not.

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Is there like a certain amount of text messages, like the
little text bubble on your phoneover messages, right?
Is there a number that once it reaches that number like you're
not going to answer anyone? In general.
Yeah, you know what I'm saying? Yeah, once I get 3 messages, I
don't look at my phone until I want to look at it.

(05:13):
Right. Is it over?
Like, are you avoiding an overwhelming feeling of some
sort? No, it's just too much.
Like I'm not about to answer allthat shit.
That's not even like an overwhelming feeling.
It's just like I if I get like 3messages back-to-back, I'm like
all right, I'll see you in threehours.
Like I'm checked out for the next 6.

(05:37):
Like good luck. Anyone else who gets caught in
the crossfire like I'm sucks to suck?
But it depends. It's like, do I have to, I think
about it, like, do I have to respond in general to like just
statements, you know, I mean, like you said, we're recording
Friday night. I already felt like I
acknowledged it, right? I don't be responding to none of

(06:01):
that shit. My boss, my boss be made yo, we
get like a group, a new group chat.
Like every week he makes a new group chat and says some dumb
shit in there. I never respond to none of that
shit. I'm like, I probably got like
300 group chats in my phone. This my fucking boss made.
Yeah, half of them who got people in it that ain't even
work there no more. The old.

(06:24):
Group. Why can't we just keep one group
chat and then kick them motherfuckers out?
And they leave. Get on team chat or whatever the
fuck. It's crazy do.
You want something to. Say, oh, I have. 210 messages on
my. But wait.
Any of y'all text me I will answer straight.
Away I have 100. And I got how much I got.

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Read that out loud. 222 I. Have 228 OH. 2/28.
I have 110 on red. 110 OK, so. Read this next one out loud.
Read that number out loud 3. Thousand wait 3324.
How many what it what app? Discord.
That's how many notifications I have on discord.

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I haven't. Answered so I don't want to.
It's not like I'm not answering anyone.
It's not like oh the people thatare close to you I'm not
responding. It's dumb shit like spam
sometimes, like set end statements.
Oh yeah. Yeah, it's not like I'm sitting
there like I'm ghosting 110 people.
Right, right now, I'll get you. I'll get you.

(07:28):
That's when you start just heartemoji, heart emoji, heart emoji.
You just like, like everything. Yeah, like, oh, I responded now.
Yeah, I, I, I, I've realized that I, I get anxious, but I
know that I don't know exactly how to word it, like describe it
in words, but I know that it's connected to my ADHD and it's

(07:52):
from being overwhelmed, like my attention span being
overwhelmed. And then I get anxious.
And then like I'll tell myself like, all right, I'll just, I'll
just take 10 minutes in, in about an hour and just go
through and answer all these andthen I'll put my phone away.

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It's very overwhelming, so that's my problem.
So I was wondering if like if anyone else dealt with that?
Jokes aside, me joke, joking aside, me like he, he ha ha.
And aside, yeah, the big reason why if I get like, let's just go
back to like 3 messages in a rowand then I'll stop responding

(08:35):
for like hours is because like Iwant to get especially like if
it's like more than just like, like, hey, how are you being 3
messages? Like if it's like 3 messages,
I'll let that shit go for like 3hours or however many hours or
my whole work shift. My work shift could be like 9
hours. I'll wait until the end of my

(08:56):
worship. Yeah.
Because I like to give like honest, thoughtful responses and
I want to give people the time Ifeel like they're owed.
And if like they're sending me amessage and it's like has any,
any depth, it could be very little, but if it has some kind

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of depth to it, like it actuallymatters on some kind of level, I
want to give it the time that itdeserves.
And I know I'm not going to be able to do that in like
whatever, like quick response, like bullshit.
So I just won't respond until like, I can actually have the
time, like when my work day is over to like, sit down and like

(09:39):
give like a full response or give like a voice note response
and like address every single thing that they talked about.
And sometimes I make the accident of like opening the
message and it'll be like, oh, fuck, now it's going to say red.
So I'll just like shoot him a message.
Like, yo, I'll respond to this later when I'm like, don't
worry. And then that's it.

(10:00):
Yeah, that's the real. I feel like it's rude not to
like give like a full what? I'll vouch for you on that too,
because you I I was helping you a lot on your fucking PC or
whatever, and then you just randomly hit me up two weeks
later being like, sorry, I didn't respond to you on like on
a game, not even like on text message.

(10:20):
I'm on a game right on the league, the league chat.
Do you remember? Hey, I felt like like you
thought I was thinking about it for the last two weeks, like.
Yeah, I felt bad. Like those things don't sit in
my mind every day. And it's so crazy because like,
I'll think about it every day and I'll be like, man, I'm such
a piece of shit. Like they're probably thinking

(10:42):
like I can't believe he didn't respond to me today.
Like I helped this dude and it'sbeen like 6 days since he he
hasn't said a single thing and like every day I'll be thinking
about it and it's like I. Don't think of it like that.
I I can't help but think that's how my mind.
I, I didn't think of like just about, I don't think of it like
that in terms. I thought the conversation ended

(11:03):
to the point where it needed to be.
And yeah, it is what it is. You don't got to say what?
What do you got to say? Goodbye.
Goodnight. I don't know.
Maybe. I did it.
Maybe I did it for my own ego then at that point, but like, it
genuinely felt more like like no, like I owed like I owed you
that. What like thank you or
something? Yeah.
And like the fact that I hadn't gotten around to like give you

(11:26):
like a proper thank you for yourhelp, like ate me up over that
time period to the point where Iwas, I finally had the time and
I'm like, it's not even had the time.
It's like whatever that is, thatADHD thing where like you get so
many things in front of you thatlike it feels like you have a
long laundry list of tasks that you have to accomplish before

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you can get to this other task. Like these things were there
first. So like unless you check off all
these things before this other thing, like you can't do this
other thing. Is that what you're saying you?
Feel like. Shut the fuck up, I already.
No, no, no, don't talk me to shut the fuck up.
You feel anxious bro. You.
Tell me you feel anxious. Let's put a time out here,

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please, if we can. All right, let's put a time out
here. Right, he's about to fucking
roast me. No, no, no, no.
It's OK because I have nothing but grace in my heart.
OK, It's OK. But I do want to put this on
wax. But I had this conversation last
night, right? This is it, Right?
I'm I'm. Getting psychoanalyzed.
No, no, no, no. But listen in the most funny,

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comedic way, right? I'm tired of being told now and
then sitting there thinking like, Oh well, don't just feel
familiar. I'm talking to my homie last
night, right? And we're talking about how even
when we can sleep, we won't sleep because, like, we feel

(12:55):
like we, we got to be doing something.
Right mood, right mood. So I tell him.
I said sleep that I I said you're anxious, man.
And he's like, no, I don't, I don't deal with that.
And I'm like, I'm like, OK, I'm like what I'm learning about
myself is that I'm, I'm being anxious, right?

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No, that's not what he's dealingwith.
OK. This is the theme.
Lately I've been working on somestuff with myself, right?
Because like, there's a lot of shit that I just never had
empathy for that I realized thatI'm dealing with.
Shout out to Bill Burr because he called it out on the latest
comedy album. OK, right.

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So I'm like, all right, let me, let me, let me dive in, right?
I look on my medical and my medical card, try to see who I
can talk to and whatnot. And like, let me, let me, let me
try to work out a couple things,right?
And what I'm learning is that there's certain shit about me

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and it's coming from me being anxious.
I never knew that I had social anxiety.
I definitely have social anxiety.
And then I realized that like these things that I'm feeling
and going through when I have togo grocery shopping, it's like,
oh dude, you're dealing with, you're just anxious, right?

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So now I got some tools to deal with that and you're doing
fucking great, right? And then another thing, why is
it that you won't give your, your, yourself the time to rest,
right? Because you're feeling guilty,
you feel anxious, you feel like you need to be doing something.
Getting anything even on you have so much shit to do.
You're being anxious, right? And then it's like, why don't
you answer people back? Like even though you can, oh,

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it's because you're being anxious, you just feel anxious,
right? And so I'm learning this about
myself and then I see and like my friends and shit, I'm like,
oh, all right, so let me tell them that they might be just
being anxious, but I can't tell them how they feel, right?
So I can just suggest to them and say, this is what I'm going
through. Can you relate to that or not?

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And motherfuckers would tell me all day long like no, no, no,
no, no, no, no, no. And then turn right around and
see what I said. Why can't we be real?
It's all right. I know you're not not being
real. I'm being facetious.
That's funny. But yeah, that's funny you
fucking said that. Thank you.
But anyway, we kind of, we kind of wrapped to a different point

(15:31):
because that wasn't the originalpoint that I had made.
It was I. Need another beer on that one.
Because the original point was the conversation.
This this guy, though I'm not no, no left the room.
This man the walked up left got out of here crazy.

(15:58):
It's more about. Yeah, I'm so glad that's all
wax. Yo no, let's have a listening
party when this episode. Sure sure, because like it was 2
separate points. The original point is a true
point and it doesn't have to do with anxiety.

(16:20):
It's a real point of I think people are owed time in a in a
relationship, in friendships, inwhatever.
I'm a rude person and not a goodperson, good friend.
If I'm just, if they're taking time to give me an in depth
emotional whatever, like response or messages, and then

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I'm just replying back like, yeah, that's crazy man.
Because I don't have time because I'm at work and like I'm
doing something else in the in the moment and I can't set aside
the whatever, like 20 minutes that it probably would take me
to read their responses, their messages.

(17:06):
Think about it like really like sit with it and then give them a
meaningful response back, which I feel like they're owed.
That's completely separate from like the the anxiety point that
came later. Like both can exist in their own
separate spaces. I agree.

(17:27):
That's why it gets to that, yeah.
And I I I know that's valid and I know that both can be true at
the same time. And.
I'm I'm happy that both is true at the same time.
Yeah. I know your first point is
valid. I know that you mean that.

(17:48):
I believe that for sure. I don't think that first point
has anything to do with anxiety.I agreed.
Okay, agreed. Like you said, both can be true
and happen at different times orat the same time or.
Yeah, they definitely could happen.
And out of both. Yep, you know what I mean.
Yeah, I know, like, but see, like I say that to say like,

(18:08):
because when I made that second point, I, the reason I said shut
the fuck up is because I knew you were going to try to
conflate it with what I was justsaying.
It's like, no, like I'm expressing the anxiety I'm
feeling in that point because I understand when I feel anxiety.
Yeah, like that's why I'm expressing the feeling of
anxiety in that second point is because I'm saying it's
different than this other feeling.

(18:31):
Solid, solid he's. Fucking he's just so happy you
got me to say this shit. You don't even give a fuck about
nothing no more. Caught him on a point, I caught
him on a point or something. No, no, he's.
Being. Goofy.
It's just life is a beautiful dance, man.
If you let it. If you let it be, it can be a

(18:52):
beautiful dance. That's all.
That's all. Yeah, ma'am, and I love it.
And I didn't bring any of this up because you didn't answer me
back on my text messages. I was talking.
I was just talking about that damn tracker.
Like I never responded to you or.

(19:13):
No, you, you. No, you called me.
Right, right. Yeah.
You called me. Yeah.
Yeah. And you were concerned about it.
And then I was like, yo, homie'sgoing to call or text you.
And I guess he did call and textyou, but you missed it.
That's all. What that art balls?
Yeah, yeah. Yeah, I called him instantly,

(19:34):
like about it. Did he?
Did he answer? Yeah.
Yo the community. I got yelled at about this today
too. About what?
About basically what you said, communication.
Oh, I was about to say, right. No, so that's why I thought you
knew something better. Oh no, no, no.
So it was over. Like not responding fast enough

(19:56):
to him. No, this is see this is sick.
This is a sick way how like modern day society has just
allowed capitalism to encroach on like abusing its workforce.
Because like, cell phones didn'tfucking exist.
Like you had a house phone. That's the only phone number

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your company had to be able to reach you if you weren't home or
you weren't specifically on call.
And most places couldn't requireyou to be on call because like,
if they required you to be on call, it was like a serious job.
Like a really serious job if youwere on call like a fucking
doctor or some shit. Like it wasn't just fucking Tom

(20:43):
who works at fucking McDonald's who needed to be able to answer
his house phone at any hour of the night.
Like you know what I mean? Like it's fucking.
But now because we all have cellphones, the companies are and
are just allowed to fucking be able to request us to be able to
respond to them. Like fuck out of here.

(21:04):
When did that? Just like everyone just accepted
that shit. It's like you go, that's like
one of the things I learned whenI got the cell phone.
Like I put off getting a cell phone for so long.
Like you know that. And it's like when you start
applying for jobs, this is like 9 years ago.

(21:25):
Everyone was like wanted a cell phone number to be able to
contact you. I'm like, I don't fucking have a
cell phone number. And it's like, well, how are we
supposed to get a hold of you? It's like fucking I have a
schedule, get a hold of me when I'm at my fucking job.
Like that's real. It's crazy.
Like what the fuck do you mean? How are you supposed to get a

(21:47):
hold of me? I think this is what we deal.
With in our our friendships too.And maybe even like how what
sparked this conversation is kind of like this, this realm of
instantaneous. Everyone feels entitled.
Yeah, like because everything's so instant, so like we've we've
actually like been warped into this shit so deep now that like

(22:11):
it's it's expected of each otherto be able to me neither
honestly. And maybe that goes to being
feeling anxious about it really.But yeah, that's, that's a
problem. That is a problem that like some
people expect a instant answer or a super quick answer.

(22:36):
And then the ones who don't you,you put yourself through the
anxiety of like if you're answering people or whatever.
I don't know. But I think I think the one part
where like just to be fair, sometimes in a conversation,
even if it does feel stupid, like especially when it comes to

(22:59):
like. Sounds like a lack of oversight.
Confirmation, confirmation is sometimes needed just for the
sake of like being at ease, especially if you're like in
charge or something, right? I'm not talking about him or
that job. I'm talking, let's just talk
about birth therapy, right? So like I asked you, yo, you

(23:22):
busy Friday night? You say, no, I'm not busy.
All right. So my statement is we're
thinking about recording Friday night, right?
No answer. Cool.
You already told me you weren't busy that day and I told you
what the possibilities are, right?
So then like couple days go by, I text you again, confirmation,

(23:45):
we're definitely recording Friday night.
No answer, right? So like, although in your mind
you've already answered what youneeded to answer and you have
you have, right? But now I'm over here having
anxiety like because you didn't confirm back to me right until

(24:09):
when? Until I until 4:00 today.
Two hours. Before recording.
You know what I'm saying? So like you did, you're right,
You did. You answered the questions that
needed to be answered. You said what needed to be said.
But that whole confirmation thing, sometimes that's needed
just for the ease of the person who's like orchestrating the
business, you know what I mean? But apart from?

(24:31):
That right? But sometimes shit happens,
right? Yeah, yeah, yeah.
For. Sure.
And I feel like like in terms oflike, let's say, oh, you cancel.
I don't know. I feel like people do get like
upset if someone, let's say if you're throwing up like a party
or whatever and one person doesn't show up and you're like
super upset they didn't show up.And be like making fun of like

(24:52):
showing jabs at them, not showing up the whole time,
right? You're sitting there throwing
jabs. They didn't show up, right.
Even though it's like, what if they had a really important
thing they were doing? I'm more important, yo-yo.
We all feel entitled to our. Like Speaking of not showing are
you? I'm important.

(25:12):
Speaking of not showing up the parties bro you missed a fire
ass party. Oh, the one with the the crazy.
You stormtrooper missed a fire ass party, yeah?
I forget what I was. Doing is it a stormtrooper or is
it Mandalorian? Mandalorian.
Honestly, Debongalorian. Bro, I think I I think I had

(25:34):
some I I probably did miss a crazy party I'm sure.
It's a good time. You definitely did, but I had
some good times too, so you know.
Oh. I, I feel like you don't hold it
against someone else's time. Like, you know, like let me say
I've I've been inviting a certain friend that showed up
there, right? They were there that night.

(25:56):
Yeah, they, they weren't there for long.
I'm not going to sit there and be like, upset.
Wow, they didn't stay for long. You know, maybe I had shit to
do. Maybe you have a job the next
day. Maybe you have like, important
shit. Yeah, I think of everyone else's
like, I don't know, I feel like I stink.
Yo, do you feel anxious telling people no, I can't make your
shit, I can't make your gig? Yeah, you'd rather.

(26:18):
Would you rather ignore a motherfucker than actually be
like, yo appreciate the invite but I can't?
Make a game. I have a recent story.
Actually, I actually have a recent one now.
That should sometimes it helps me.
Deeply what? Having to tell someone like yo.
I don't like there is. There was an instance this
weekend I was invited to you remember, you said or he used to

(26:43):
work with us. You used to be in charge of him
if you remember the dude. Yeah, Yeah, yeah, yeah, right.
Follow he. Probably won't listen, but
invited me to his birthday bonfire and I'm like, and I'm
like, yeah, I'll be there. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
And. Knowing damn well you already go

(27:04):
fucked up. That's crazy.
That's the. One, I'm not busting your child.
That's I'm really. But I'm like, right.
And it's, you're not really close to them as much anymore,
but they're feeling like that closeness with you.
So you're like, and then like they just randomly ask you, hey,
can you bring some chips or something?
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I keep saying.

(27:24):
Do. You feel it.
Do you feel the cringe of that like that?
Yeah. And then you see the group chat
and you have someone blocked in it that you clearly don't want
to interact with ever again. Ever again.
Someone I had a huge falling outwith.
Yeah, I like, I didn't open the group chat, like the group chat
of the people that are going. I that turned me off so hard and

(27:49):
I didn't have any far to say be like, hey, I don't want to make
it because I don't want to interact with.
It's like I was like, hey, I can't make it like the day of.
But that's OK. Feel like that would have been
more. That's OK, that would have been
chill to just like, say that. Though, yeah, but this is more
about what's going on internallythan with the actual.
But you set yourself up. OK, maybe I'm wrong.

(28:10):
Did you, did you not just set yourself up to be anxious and
set yourself up for failure, butjust by saying you're going to
go to this thing and just you could just from the beginning?
Yes, Nah. Yes, Yes, Mr. Rational Mind.
Yes and no. No, listen, there's a reason why
I'm saying this, right? Because normally I'll just say I
don't know if I could go. It's the same.
That's my compromise. There's this, this thing is the

(28:32):
but what, what the point is of this and why we have to be real
about it? Like the ones of us who deal
with it and like actually start addressing it is because it's
irrational, right? It's like this.
It's like, bro, why are you going through all the shit
you're going through with your mouth, right?
It's like, why don't you just take care of your teeth?

(28:53):
How hard is it to just brush your teeth when you deal with
the mental shit that that you deal with, right?
How hard is it to go wash your ass?
It's not that hard. It's actually very easy to do.
You can just go do it, right? But like, this whole realm of
anxiousness is not rational. And yes, we'll do it.
We do it to ourselves. We put ourselves in that

(29:14):
situation. We, we shape and course the
situation into what it is, and then we fucking suffer
internally. Let me tell you something that I
do, right? This is what I'll do.
I'll feel how you'll feel. Someone don't invite me to
something right? And I'll go.
In my mind, I'll go. I'm going to say yes now and be

(29:36):
like, yeah, yeah, yeah, fire, let's go, right?
And then I'll figure out a way to get out of it in the next two
weeks before it happens. But then I forget about it
because I get caught up in life.And then it's the night before
and they're like, yo, tomorrow, da da da.
And I'm like, fuck, I never cancelled.

(29:57):
I was supposed to get out of this thing.
I do that shit to myself a lot. And it's like that's crazy.
I'm judging both of y'all so hard.
Right, sorry, it's. Hard because it's like I'm not
trying to throw hate towards them as a person.
It's just like, I just like, I don't know, maybe I should throw
hate. I love honesty too.
We're not. We're not.

(30:17):
Now you're going in with the intent to deceive.
Maybe. No, I was convinced.
The day of I'm like, I'll show up.
I'll see, but that's not what hejust described.
He just described like, he'll belike, I'll accept because I know
I'm going to find out a way in the next two weeks just to
cancel anyways. It's like, so your intent

(30:38):
already going in is to deceive amotherfucker?
Yeah. But he didn't.
Maybe, but he didn't. He did it, but not because he
didn't walk. On you have those feelings
sometimes like this, like. Not to see like I just, I skip
all that and I compromise with myself by saying like, I don't
know if I can make it. I'll let you know at a later

(31:00):
date. And then if it just gets to like
the night before, I'd be like, yeah, I can't make it.
But like, at least I'm not like because I feel guilt, the guilt,
like I can't do the guilt, the guilt of being like, yeah, I'm a
go and I know that I'm not gonnago.
I can't do that. I can't do that to me.
That'll fucking beat me up too much.

(31:21):
Like so I compromise with like, I don't know.
Because I don't know, like sometimes I'd be feeling it like
that day I might feel it be like, yeah, man, I really want
to go. And then two days later I'd be
like, I don't know if I want to go.
And then like 3 days go by, I'm like, oh, I'm really excited.
And then like another day we'll go by and but like, and now I'm
dreading it. And now I'm like, I really don't

(31:42):
want to go anymore. I don't know.
And then like I'll go and I'll be like, oh, this is great.
Yeah, but what is the differencebetween sitting there and being
like, I'll go for you, right? And then the difference between
I don't want to go because you have a piece of shit friend,
right? And I don't want to be around
them. Like is that no, but if they're
cool, they should respect. Like if you don't get along with
somebody, they should respect the fact that like I is cool,

(32:05):
maybe in another time or like a a different like whatever.
Like I don't I don't think it's is it really?
Do people really take it that personal?
No, but that's the point, and I don't know if people do.
You're catching that. People do.
I'm a dumbass. Probably not.
That's the point. Like, this has less to do with
like the actual people and situation and like these things

(32:27):
are internal battles that we're losing to ourselves.
This has everything to do with my internal struggle that that
that I succumb to really. This isn't an internal battle.
Is this one of those things where like you're?

(32:51):
Because I think both are true. Ironically.
It's just like an I've, to me, it just seems like one of those
situations. Like, yeah, I don't think you as
a person, like the essence of what it means to deceive.
You're not trying to do that. The essence, like your ACT is

(33:11):
still deceiving, right? But like the, the weight that
deceiving carries, it's not the intent.
The intent. Maybe I shouldn't have said the
intent is to deceive because youare deceiving.
But like, the intent isn't to deceive, it's like the intent is

(33:32):
to to. Survive the.
Pressures to survive. Of yeah, survival mode is yeah,
yeah, yeah for sure. Also it does vary on person too

(33:52):
because like my brother asked me, hey you want to go bowling
with a tour and friends Like I don't know, I don't know.
No. There's, there's, there's
honesty between certain people, like you said, you just don't
want to like because you have that closeness with that certain
someone's. Like I don't fucking know if I
want to go personally. It's I think.
I think just being introverted probably tends to just put, I'll

(34:18):
say, us into that kind of mode in general.
I think all three of us can probably relate to that feeling
of just being like being invitedto places in me and like, I
don't know, like what I like, but like low key like, for
example, like I still do it sometimes even ways.

(34:39):
Like he'll ask you if I want to do something and I'll go.
I don't know. And like I know that if I go,
I'll have a good time. It's not that like I don't think
I'll have a good time. It's like I just genuinely feel
like I find so much comfort and like the introverted nature of

(35:02):
just like my solitude that like this idea of like stepping out
of that in a moment where like I'm not fully ready and embraced
to like go and do that thing throws me off.

(35:26):
I think I do a lot better when Imake plans, even though I don't
like planning. And what I mean by that is like
I'm in the living room the otherday, right?
I'm in the living room and I'm like, my mom's like, oh, I need
to do this, exercising this and that, whatever, whatever.

(35:49):
And I'm like, all right, tomorrow or whenever I get done
work from now until like January, if you're home and you
want to go jogging in the State Park, I'll go jogging with you.

(36:15):
She's like, I won't have time until school's over this and
that and the other. And I'm like, all right, the
ship has sailed. Like, yeah, you've missed the
opportunity window. And she's like, what do you
wait? What do you mean I missed the
opportunity window? And I'm like, well, I'm not

(36:36):
going to want to do it anymore. Now.
Like, you had a chance there where like I now in that moment
was like, ready to be do something that I normally
wouldn't do and be like extroverted in myself and like
put myself in a situation where I normally am not in.
And like, since you weren't ready to jump on board, like

(36:59):
you're probably never going to catch me again in that moment
for a long time, where if you'rethe one who comes to me, most
likely I won't want to go, not out of spite, not of any reason.
It's like just the chances of mewanting to like, like on your
time, like when you're ready. Yeah.
No, because I have to prep in mymind to be ready to go do the

(37:22):
thing. Like before I go to work.
I'm planning on how I'm going togo to work the night before,
before I even go to bed and getting myself mentally ready
for my day the following day. Like if, if I'm going, if we're
going to do something, I need toknow like a week or two weeks in
advance. Like you got to plan that shit.

(37:44):
You can't just come up to me like the day of and be like,
hey, you want to do this thing? I'm like, I haven't had even
time to like mentally prepare myfucking day.
I can't fucking go somewhere. You want to go somewhere?
No way, no shot. Relatable.

(38:05):
Yeah. Yeah, I'm really sorry but I
have to pee so bad. Oh my God, piss therapy.
When I come back, Spiderman. Spiderman.
Spiderman. I don't know the context of
that. You you seemed like you wanted
to say something when I had mentioned.

(38:25):
When I was in there, I was like,I feel that so.
Bad. Yeah.
Like I feel like I, it's like I'm introverted.
I don't want to go nowhere when people come to me but like if I
can plan. I'm so introverted I don't like
making but but when I make the plan.
Yeah, like, but when I make the plan, like I'm down, like, like
I'm ready to do the thing, like I felt.

(38:45):
That it's just saying it's. Real.
It's so real. I was like damn I hate come up
with but when I do. Yeah, yeah, no, that's just, I'm
like excited for that shit. Like, shit, yeah, that's real.
That's super real. Introverts will get that.
Yeah. There's too many.

(39:10):
I don't know if it's like the variables or like what it is.
The variety. Huh.
With a variety of food. No, the like the variables and
like what what might occur when you're not making them, but like
I'm trying to diagnose what causes that because like, OK,
you were gone, but me and him were sharing the sentiment of
like when when we make the plan like, oh, we're excited for it

(39:35):
like. We hate making plans, yeah.
We hate making plan and we don'twant to like you come to this
last second plan like good luck.Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
No, it's really got to take likea God.
It's almost like conquering a fear, but it's not a fear.
You're like conquering like a, awall.

(39:56):
It's not a fear, it's a wall. It's like there's like this
barrier that's like preventing you from like going anywhere.
It's like, no, you're going to stay right here and you somehow
have to like, convince yourself you can go through this wall.
To like go do things and unless you're like ready to go through

(40:18):
the wall, you're not going through that wall like you're
staying right where the fuck youare.
I have more fun when someone else makes plans and invites me
to it because there's like a like an element of letting go
with it. Like I don't have to like, be
anchored, right? I agree with that too, though it

(40:38):
is more fun. But when it comes to making
plans, I find myself, I get so overstimulating, stimulated and
like I'm like, I got to get the plans together.
Got a rush. I feel like so rushed, like I'm
rushing myself. I'm so overstimulated.

(40:58):
And then when it's all said and done, like the excitement of the
thing doesn't match the stimulation and it's just like I
all it just never feels good. I never, it never feels good
like, but it comes from being sooverstimulated in the planning
and then it doesn't, it doesn't meet that expectation.

(41:20):
And I'm like all that stimulation.
I like when it eases. Down this just eases down it's
not like it doesn't meet the expectation it's just like the
expectation was there yeah and I'm like whatever it didn't hit
there let's just chill yeah yeah, yeah, that's.
Relief in a sense, right? It is relief.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. What about Spider Man?

(41:43):
Spider man OH. Wait, wait, wait.
We are recording, right? Yeah, right.
You. Yeah.
How? How long have we?
Been like almost an hour. OK, Yeah, like yo.
It's been a fire. I wasn't expecting that, but
that was a fire conversation. Y'all think so, right?
Yeah, I, I wanted to say, like the fun thing is like real, like

(42:05):
it's so hard to get myself to like do the thing where like the
be spontaneous, I guess is what you would call that.
Yeah. And just be like, yeah, let's
like do like if you come to me with a thing, I'd be like, Oh
yeah, like sure, like let's do it.

(42:27):
And sometimes I do. But like many times when I do do
it, it's me like telling myself like, just do it.
Like you'll enjoy it. I know you don't want to do it.
I know you would rather be like,just like in a little ball and,

(42:49):
like, sleep in your room and, like, let the day go by.
Well, like, you should go do this thing.
You'll enjoy it. And like, we'll go and do the
thing. I'll have a great time.
And then I'll be like, oh, it was really nice.
I'm really happy I did that. I'll get home and be like, yeah,
it was such a great day. And it's like, why is it so hard
for me to get myself to just do that?

(43:10):
Yeah, like, why? It's always a challenge and
obstacle. And I can't get through that
challenge and obstacle. I can't get through that wall.
So I just tell them, yeah, I'll be there.
I'm glad we can relate, Spider Man, the customers, our

(43:35):
customers for our main job, right, Because you've been on
the road. Lately, No.
They're calling me Spider Man. So like when they're trying to
tell me about the other driver who's been coming there, right,
Spider man, and it's been multiple customers, they go, I
don't know this Spider man and Iwas at I'll say their name

(43:59):
because they're beloved. I was at Eastern Shore and I
guess you went there with Josue and I got a funny story about
Josue. I'll tell you in a second, But I
went there with Josue and they said it and I was like, yo,
that's like the 10th fucking time a customer said I don't
know Spider man and I told him you're.

(44:19):
Like I said, spider man. No, I said.
What's funny is what? What's really funny about this
is I know exactly who you're talking about.
This, this man's love for SpiderMan radiates.
Apparently I don't know if they say it because of the tat but I

(44:40):
I feel like I wore a venom shirt.
There's no, there's gotta be thetattoo man.
But maybe but but. You have a giant he spider on
your arm. He has the.
Vibe. He has this giant spider on his
arm. Can we can we go woo woo for a
second? Oh yeah, go.
Ahead, pretend world, right imagination.
And customers said that. I'm being, you're being, I'm

(45:03):
very exaggerating. A lot of more than one.
I'm just curious, like what? All I'm saying is if he robbed a
bank and there was like, yo, like give us a sketch on like
who was the guy? They would be like, well, he had
a big spider tattoo on his arm would be like, what are the
first things they said? That's all I'm saying.

(45:25):
Yeah, fuck. Woo woo world.
OK, woo woo world. If young Phillip came to us
tomorrow and was like, listen, Iknow it sounds crazy.
I know it sounds crazy as. Shit.
It's so random to me because I'mmy friend you met at the party
gave me Spider Man comics to read.
I'm not. I'm listen, I'm in Woo woo land.

(45:46):
Keep going. Yeah, yeah.
He comes to us tomorrow and he'slike, listen, I know this sounds
crazy as shit, right? But.
Just like Tobey Maguire, right? And he's like, I'm Spider Man.
Yeah, right. Look at him.

(46:08):
Spider I'd I'd look at you and say why the fuck have we not
been filming this for TikTok? That's crazy.
Man Spider Man. We could just say it's like
video off. Peter Parker vibes.
Never. I've never heard this by the
way. He gives off Peter.
Parker never heard this. So a customer never fucking be
like yo spider man like. Peter.
Parker might call you it now. That's crazy.

(46:29):
What's crazy? Just he's just here and you tell
me that like I've never heard that, Peter.
I've been getting a lot of compliments by customers though.
Yeah, they love you. Actually, young Philip, I don't
know if I'm overstepping or not,but fuck it.
He's beloved. You are.
You're so beloved that customers, not just one,

(46:53):
multiple customers, have called into the office just to say how
much of A delight that you are. I know that I because there is
one no. You say thank you, thank you.
No, I know. I just no, I know.
I know that guy bro. I know it wrong.
No. I want to tell you, I want to

(47:13):
tell you the story of like. Never give him a smile, dude.
No, I want to tell you the storyof like how we're.
About to and now tell you were getting a raise, it's off the
table. Can I, can I tell you something?
Can I tell you something? Yeah, I I felt I stopped at this
customer. I was miserable the whole
fucking time I was there and I felt like I didn't give that
energy. I was pissed off in the sense

(47:34):
because it was kind of like, whydon't you park over here?
One of their. Where was it?
I'll cut it out. Where was it?
You know what's funny? They fucking called and said how
much of A delight you were. That's The funny thing here.
So I went to. I parked like somewhere first
time. First time I'm at this place.
And. I see this manager Walker, you
know, you could have parked here, right?

(47:55):
It's a different dude than I sawat the end, right?
And you just told me what to do.I'm like, all right, just do
everything. And I did, I guess I did
something that every other driver doesn't apparently do
there. They're like, we organize it.
I'm like, I already organized it.
That's that's what they love. And he's like, really?

(48:15):
And I thought I was about to geteither the hate hate call from
the one manager that was kind ofbeing an kind of an asshole to
me at first about like how like I was parking doing extra shit,
or I'm like, maybe I'll get the loved one from the other one
that was appreciative of me organizing.
Yeah, so you got the. Love, I guess I got the loved
one because I was fucking coin flip.

(48:35):
I'm like dude, because I felt like I was kind of miserable
doing that and then at the end Iwas relieved when that when I
left and been like, hey, I organized it.
You know, it's all here. It's my first time, whatever.
Yeah. So, you know, yeah.
But it's, it's, it's weird to have like you had a miserable
experience and then all of a sudden be like, hey, he was such

(48:57):
a delight. So it's like.
Yeah, they love you. Dude, because in general it's
like even though I'm having a miserable experience, why take
it? Out on anyone.
In the end, Spider Man's crazy though.
What I wanted to tell you about my, my, my partner, her Sway.
His name is Her Sway, which is afire name.
That is a sick name. So I usually do the drive in.

(49:25):
He takes care of the paperwork. So sometimes we got to call
customers or whatever, right? He'll call a customer and he'll
be like, hey, hey, this is who this is Jose from Let's do
Lenin's right? I'll bleep that out, but and he

(49:46):
kept doing that, right? And I'm like, he gets off the
phone. I'm like, do you keep telling
people that your name is Jose? And he's like, yeah, it's just
easier to do that. A lot easier.
He's like, it's easier for me tojust tell them my name is Jose.
And then when I see them in person, if I feel like it, I can

(50:08):
correct them and be like, it's really hosts way.
But I say Jose because people can't pronounce it.
And I'm like, damn, dawg, That'slike, that's some grace.
That's some grace, right? I have another friend who has a
very unique name. I fucking love it.

(50:28):
And it took me a while to be able to pronounce it myself.
And I could tell that they go through it.
But man, I remember the first time we had to have a
conversation and I had to say their name to them and I
couldn't pronounce it. So I tried to, like, avoid it,
find a way of like avoiding it going around the Bush.
And they stopped me. They stopped the conversation.

(50:51):
They said, ah, say my name. And I'm sitting there trying to
say it, and they pronounce it out for me.
And then I'm like, OK. And they're like, they would not
let the conversation go on untilyou address me.
By the way, my name is said. But it was respect, Respect.
You know what I mean? We know.
I I never had a problem with thename after that conversation

(51:12):
ever. Oh, yeah, You know what I mean?
Yeah. So to hear him be like, oh, no,
I ain't that big of a deal. I just tell them a name that's
not even my name. And it's just easier that way.
We get like, damn. Anyway, that's all That was, the
crazy story. I worked.
I worked with someone or had to work with someone that had a

(51:33):
name that was difficult to pronounce, and I could tell they
Americanized it. It was the way everyone was
saying it and the way it was weird too, because that at first
she told me what her name was. And I'm like looking at the name
and she's saying it to me. And I'm like, that's really your

(51:55):
name. And she's like, yeah, I'm like,
your name is I'm just sitting there like, OK, so how do I, I'm
like, I'm gonna say this like 10times so I can like, get
comfortable saying it. And this whole time I'm thinking

(52:16):
in my mind like there's no way this is her name.
You confront her. At the end of the 10th time, I
was like, is this the Americanized version of your
name? Like what's the Spanish version
of your name? And I was like, does this is the

(52:36):
Spanish version of your name? And then I said the rest of her
name, like with the rolls. Yeah.
And she was like, yeah, that's how you say it.
I'm like, why did you just tell me that was your name?
Like, I would just be saying your name like this.
Like you have me saying this, this like jacked up American
version. It sounds all weird.
Like your name isn't your name literally wasn't designed to be

(52:58):
said like this in American. It's like a a very specific kind
of Spanish name. Like you got me sounding crazy
over here saying some American shit.
Yeah, what would you if people do that, if she just looked at
you and was like, because you'rewhite, bro.
She was crying. I don't know.
I don't know what I would do. She was cracking up though.

(53:19):
She was. She was laughing her ass off.
Respect. Jesus.
I think she was kind of shook. I think she wasn't expecting.
Me like. No how to enunciate her name?
Yeah, yeah. No, that that means something.
That means something. But people definitely do that.
It's really like very common. I, I mean fucking, I've dealt

(53:44):
with it my whole life with my last names.
I don't even bother correcting people.
I think of it like the videos oflike the clueless white guy
orders perfect Chinese. I think the that's oh, that
woman expected you. She's like, what?
You ever seen those? Videos.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, That'd be me, like ordering my Mexican food.

(54:05):
It's just like people like, huh.What?
Boys be perfect, perfect Spanishlike.
Oh man. Yo, did you guys, did you guys
watch Jimmy Kimmel's return? No, I missed that.

(54:28):
I saw who'd you had. You saw the return.
You saw the return. Do you have Gavin Newsom on?
I think for the return no. If you did, I didn't get that
far. Celebrity is like his normal
shit. I yeah, I just.
Heard he was supposed to have Gavin Newsom for his return or
maybe you missed that. I I watched the like the 20
minute monologue. That's what was his.
What was his what? I'm assuming you're.

(54:50):
About to get to it. It's a little viral right now,
I'm not going to lie. Yeah, no, it was, it was good
and it was emotional. I'm going to be real.
I cried. I was, I was with my partner.
So I was like trying to like hide that I was crying.
But it was such a good fucking monologue.
And the best part of it, though,the best part of it, he was

(55:11):
like, Disney wants me to make a statement and right, so he pulls
out a piece of paper and he's like, this is the statement,
like this is the we compromise. And this is the statement that
Disney wants to make. And he goes to renew your
subscriptions. You go to the settings and this

(55:31):
just in the settings and you canresubscribe.
It was just to Disney. Plus.
Yeah, to Disney Plus. Because they lost so much money,
yeah. Because they lost so much money.
We're starting to, I don't know how.
No, they lost. He lost millions in like what,
2? Days no, it's actually like
closer to like 7 billion or something I.
Think but like in two days though it was.

(55:51):
Like A7 Bill, I think. Yeah, they lost a lot of money.
They lost a lot of money in thatin in that in that little bit of
time, but. See Trump's response to that.
Well, Trump's response to that was an admission of guilt on the

(56:13):
government side that basically they were pressuring them.
Yeah. If if you pay attention to what
he wrote, he's basically admitting like.
The FCC won't let me be or let me be me.
I just think it's crazy that nevermind, let me not make that
joke. Everyone getting cancelled out

(56:34):
here. I don't need to be nice.
Goodness gracious, I'm, I'm, I was happy, happy to see him
back. I just wonder like if there was
a talk show host that was like when JFK got assassinated and

(56:55):
they said that sick individual. I just wonder if like anyone was
like but what if the individual that sick was the government?
Yeah, a lot of people did for many decades.
There's there's whole fucking knock.

(57:16):
Everything off the shelf. There's whole fucking books
about it, actually. Motherfucker's been saying it
for a long time. Shit.
Look at these books. These books Jesus Christ.

(57:38):
Well, my life if if you've ever paid attention to any of my
opinions on this show, yeah, my long standing opinion has always
been like, I don't I don't thinkpeople have the right to take
other people's lives. Yeah, has been my like long
stand. I just don't think that's, yeah,
that's not. That being said, if I ever get

(58:04):
framed for killing anybody, y'all know that wasn't me.
I don't believe in that shit. How much time are we at?
An hour and 20. Damn.
And you're cutting out a bit tooanyways.
Am I? Yeah, right.
You said a certain section. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah. Plug my phone in right there.

(58:24):
I don't. Know yo, I got a story.
The light in the mood, Yeah. Let me know whenever you're
ready to wrap up, young Philip. You let us know.
We get end on on on on this light note if you want.
You want to end on this one. Whatever y'all want to do.

(58:45):
What time is it? Yeah, let's let's do one more
topic. What the fuck did see bro?
I, I write notes to myself and I'm like, when I write the note,
I'm like, there's no way I like can forget what the fuck it's
talking about. And then I look at it, I'm like

(59:06):
reading it says $92.00 clean slate.
Can't help you? No idea, but yeah.
So my mom, my mom cooked up somestuff the other night in the in
the kitchen and we're sitting out eating, watching some Star

(59:28):
Trek. And my brother comes out into
the kitchen and he's like testing the food while we're all
sitting when me her sitting there eating, watching Star Trek
and he's like looking around. He's like, what sauce is this?

(59:51):
And my mom like leans over to me.
She was like, quick, tell me thename for the sauce.
Like give me a name for the sauce.
And I go it's come, come sauce because my mom added cream
cheese to the sauce because she said it was too spicy.
And I like made like this, like white sauce.

(01:00:12):
I said it's come come sauce. She said, yeah, it's come, come
sauce. This man's like.
This man like pulls out the recycling bin and opens up the
trash can. He's like looking through the
recycling bin in the trash can. He's like, where's the
container? Like trying to find the
container. And we, we just keep telling him

(01:00:36):
it's come, come sauce. He's like, he's like, all right,
but where's the container? Like I want to see the package.
Like show me. She's like, she's like, there's
no package. I made it myself.
I'm fucking dead, yo. I'm like, yo.

(01:00:57):
But I was, I was, I thought, because the moment he got, the
moment this kid pulled out the recycling bin and started like
looking through the recycling bin, I started laughing so
fucking hard because it's just this idea in my head.
Like I didn't know like at that point whether or not he just
didn't believe us or if he was like really looking for a
package inside the trash. I said gum, gum sauce on it.

(01:01:21):
But I felt like I was going to fucking throw up.
I was laughing so fucking hard. And I just kind of sit like I
got done laughing and I'm like, I'm so happy I'm alive.
Like there's like these little moments like that where you're
just like, dude, being alive is so great.
Like you just say dumb shit and laugh at people and like it's so
harmless, but it's so funny. Like, and we were all in and oh,

(01:01:45):
he was fucking fuming, dude. He wanted to know what the sauce
was so bad he going to be. He wanted to know what do.
You have like dietary restrictions or.
Something no, it was just reallygood.
Like my mom, my mom really knocked it out the part she made
a really good saw. So like unintentionally.
I can't imagine a sauce being sogood I'm just scavenging through

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the recycling bin it. Was damn good.
No, it had nothing to do with the taste of the shit and the
more they probably were fucking with him, the anger he probably
was getting like he needed. To We were laughing, working so
hard in the living room. Your mom, she was cracking and
she's like, yes, then come, come.

(01:02:30):
Fucking mom, man. I swear.
I swear she is a comedian. I know she won't accept that.
I swear she fucking. Has the best stand up comedian.
Bro she's so good. She's so good.
She would be a legend. She would be like if she could
figure it out, she would be a legend in a different life.

(01:02:56):
I just more and more as the years go by.
I'm like your mom. You're so funny.
Like, you're really just so funny and there's really like a
layer of like, nonchalant. Yeah, she don't.
I don't even think she realizes that.
She's just like, yeah, it's like, I think it's a part of the
Estonian humor ish. Like almost like you, I think

(01:03:19):
you can kind of see a little bitof it in RE Maddie, but like I
think he does like RE Maddie does this thing with his comedy
where like he definitely emphasizes a lot.

(01:03:40):
So like, people understand the jokes being made where like my
mom doesn't do that. Like she just like throws it out
there and it's almost like givesyou whiplash.
You're just like, hold on, what the fuck did you just say?

(01:04:02):
You're just never expecting it. Damn, $92.00 clean slate.
What the fuck was I? Damn.
Oh wow, I don't remember what the fuck that was about.
Damn yo. I don't what you were going to

(01:04:31):
say something? Good.
I just can't like remember. I was just going to say, I can't
remember the last time I'd like really been to a concert until
that recent one and it just reminded me like I don't think
I've ever really been to like a concert concert.

(01:04:53):
Damn though. For like a band, I'm pretty sure
that was my first one. Like I've been for like operas.
Far I use a. Band.
But that's that's different thanseeing a band.
What operas? Yeah, I'd say.

(01:05:16):
That shit was fire. Sleep token live is fucking
amazing. You got any stories, Phillip for
episode 100? Nope.
Any Bing bongs? No, no.

(01:05:38):
Nothing else that comes at top of my head, you know?
You haven't been on this episode.
You haven't been on the on the pod for.
Like, for like 20 episodes, yeah.
You don't got a single story to share with us.
Not one interesting thing, one goofy moment, one insane moment
of your life, one one out of this world interaction that you

(01:06:02):
just did not fucking anticipate.I can't think of any right now,
Doug. Yo, I got these.
We just, it's like the 26th like3 days ago, four days ago
actually, everyone on like social media and take TikTok and

(01:06:22):
everything was like wigging out.Yeah, today's the 26th, right?
Yeah, like 4 days ago, everyone on TikTok and Instagram and all
these fucking, they're all like the rapture's going to happen on
the 23rd. The rapture's going to happen on
the 23rd. And I fucking, I fucking yo,

(01:06:43):
I'm, I'm such a fucking, I'm such a goofball, bro.
I have these earrings I got fromfrom Spirit Halloween and
they're these red admission tickets and it says admit one
and hell and big capital letterson the side and I I made sure I
woke up and got them bitches ready because I was like, I went

(01:07:04):
into work. I'm like, I'm gonna let these
motherfuckers know like you ain't get saved.
Like you stuck here with us. No rapture for you.
You saw that shit? Yeah.

(01:07:25):
I like the I like the things I saw on TikTok.
It was like people was like, give me your house.
Oh the rapture. I'll take your house.
Please. You don't need it anymore.
It's just sad, man. That's like the.
That's like the. I love how much people get a

(01:07:46):
kick out of it. Like rational people.
Yeah, you guys have a field day with it.
And you know what? Fuck it.
You deserve too. For being healthy, rational
human beings. You have, fuck it, you get a
field day, man. And boy do you guys have a field
day with it. Boy.
In reality, like this is some ofthe most tragic sides to Colts

(01:08:08):
and and I stayed unplugged from it this time around because like
I know, like I've been through it myself personally and I know
like the extremities of like 1'smind and the shit is fucking I
have a bit. I actually have a bit about

(01:08:29):
this. I told you, I've said it on
birth therapy before, like early, early, early days when
when I thought that I was taughtgrowing up that there was going
to be a rapture on a certain day.
And then that day came and it was, it was a very mentally
turmoil day for me. It was bad bro.

(01:08:54):
Give me like a little piece of it.
I'll make it a short story. I I was a a Family Radio kid.
Either one of you familiar with Family Radio Harold Camping in
the 90s? Maybe, I think I know now.
Harold Camping. He was a, he was a, a Calvinist

(01:09:15):
Evan radio evangelical guy, right?
And he had a radio station out of Oakland, CA called Family
Radio, right? And it was like Calvinist reform
type of theology. OK, basically like Christian
shit, but so deep past the past free will, like basically like

(01:09:40):
there's no free will. Like everything's predetermined,
Like everything is what it is, right?
And the first time he told everyone, all of his followers
that Jesus was coming back in like 1994.
And the real tragedy for it was that like, people believed him

(01:10:05):
and like, people fucking gave away their retirement plans.
They sold their houses and gave their houses away thinking Jesus
was coming back. And then nothing happened.
And so many people were just like, in terrible situations.
And like, sure, we can blame it on their own stupidity if we

(01:10:27):
really want to. Or we can understand like how
deep fucking cults go and like how much vulnerable people are
taken advantage of. And he was wrong about it.
And then he went back to the drawing board and he came up
with a new date. And that new date was May 21st,

(01:10:48):
2011. And why that one is the most
significant to me was because that was the one that was beaten
to me. That was going to happen growing
up as a child. So in my mind, even when I
floated in and out of the faith in the back of my mind, that was

(01:11:08):
always a deadline. Like I told myself like I wanted
I was a teenager. So like, I wanted to have fun.
I wanted to party and get pussy and do drugs and have a good
time. Yeah.
But I had to get my shit together before May 21st, 2011.
And I remember that day came andI was living in North Carolina

(01:11:31):
with my second wife, but we weren't married yet.
I was actually still married to my first wife.
So technically I was living in alot of sin.
And I remember that whole day, like I was just in such mental
anguish about it. Like, dude, I was on Google.

(01:11:52):
All this is before AI. I'm on Google all day long.
Like trying to logically talk myself out of a mind fuck right?
I'm like, this doesn't make sense because if the rapture's
going to happen today, right? And it May 21st, today's May
21st. But wait, in China, it was May
21st, 12 hours ago. So it's already May 21st.

(01:12:14):
So now I'm Googling like what time Time zone is Jesus coming
back in? You know what I mean?
Like May 21st, but what time? Zone.
Which country? What, you know what I mean?
Like, and the whole time I'm doing this to myself, everyone
that loves me is laughing at me.Like what the fuck is wrong with
you kid? Jesus is not coming back today.

(01:12:36):
And I kept trying to tell them, I'm like, I know you're right in
my heart, I know you're right, but the sky is blue.
If your father beat the shit outof you and told you every day
that the sky was green, even when you had the chance to
address the fact that the sky isblue, in the back of your mind
you're wired to say, no, it's green.

(01:13:03):
I love the the comedic relief ofthe universe, right?
Because I drove myself so fucking crazy this day.
I'm sitting in a Golden Corral in Greenville, NC having dinner,
right? Because all my Google searches
came up with it was happening at6:00 PM May 21st in the American

(01:13:28):
East Coast time zone, right? I'm sitting in Golden Corral and
the whole time trying to play itoff.
Looking at the time 550-2555 558.
Hey, I'm eating a salad. I remember, I remember at 6:00
bro, this loud horn noise came from the kitchen.

(01:14:00):
That probably means nothing to you.
The Horns will play, yeah. I I the Book of Revelations
right bro? As at 6:00, dawg, that noise
came from the kitchen and everyone at the table said that

(01:14:20):
like I dropped my fork and like my mouth dropped and that like
all the color in my body just left.
Like they like I was just like pale and like everyone was
staring at me seriously for likea minute.
It felt like a whole minute and like I fucking like my heart

(01:14:44):
came out of my asshole. And then the minute goes by and
the noise stops, and then everyone at the table starts
laughing at me because they all knew what I was feeling on the
inside. Somebody in that kitchen was
pulling a fucking prank on your ass bro.
That shit, man, the powers of the imagination, it's fucking

(01:15:11):
wild. What the What the fuck is wrong
with you? I'm gonna call you out.
Do it? What's wrong with me?
About what? What's wrong with you, this
motherfucker? I've had to.
I've had to endure years now we're in 2025.

(01:15:32):
We're 100 episodes into bro therapy right.
I've had to listen to this dude yap about how fucked up Colts
are like I don't fuck with colt shit colt colt, colt, colt,
colt, colt. And this motherfucker for like
last like week and a half, two weeks has been talking about

(01:15:53):
this Viking cult that keeps trying to recruit him.
They. Do.
And he's like he fucking on Sunday he goes the Viking cult
tried to recruit me again today,starting to feel like it's fate.
I'm like, if this motherfucker folds, I'm a fucking lose my
mind. I have not had to sit through
100 episodes of this guy fuckinggoing off about cults for him to

(01:16:17):
just one day be like, you know what bro?
I'm going to join a fucking Viking cult bro.
You know what, it's time. It's Vikings, man.
Get. The fuck out of here.
Young Phillip, I could be a Viking, right?
Yeah, are. You going to be a Viking?
Yeah. You look, you look like a.
You're not joining a cult. You know if you.

(01:16:39):
Join a cult. I'm fucking bro.
Therapy's cancelled. Damn bro, put like the makeup
here, right? You know, like, yeah.
No. Bro therapy with your Viking
cult friends you. Got to hide the tats though.
Right. The the the more no, the tats I
think is what does it for me. The more important question here

(01:17:02):
is, and it's always been my point all along, brother, what
would make me acceptable to a cult?
Acceptable. Yeah, yeah.
What would make me like accept that and and and be and be drawn
into that? What makes people do that?

(01:17:26):
Well, you were already in one, so it's probably just familiar.
Yeah, no, no, that's that's the part that makes me like I say,
cult to be funny and people laugh at it.
Romanticizing it almost like on a subconscious level.
I'm the only person who calls ita cult.
They don't think that they're a cult.
They're probably a cult. They're a cult for sure.

(01:17:48):
For sure. Because for sure, yeah.
We got to be honest about it. It is.
It is. Absolutely to say there are
cult. But why would someone do that?
Well, maybe like, I don't know, like, that's nice.
Isn't that nice When people are like, this is the problem.
This really is like I'm being funny, but this really is the.
When you're when you're fans of a band, it's kind of culty.

(01:18:10):
When, if you're lonely or if you're someone who feels
alienated for whatever reason, and then you have a group of
people who seem like they have areally good time together, come
out of their way and like constantly like invite you into

(01:18:31):
their fold, right? That's where it happens.
That's where it happens. But this shit's funny, right?
Because there's this little cafethat I go to.
I like it a lot. It's new.
It's it's around here, but very new, like just opened a few

(01:18:52):
months ago. They're still trying to.
Figure they told me about it. I have actually and now I
invited you and your mom twice all.
Right, I'll come with you. So I really like this place.
It's a really chill place, right?
But and mother and daughter and it's like their passion project

(01:19:13):
because they both still have to have a day job, you know what I
mean? And I know that they're really
trying to figure this thing out,you know what I mean?
And whatever. I don't know what kind of
challenges that brings, but I enjoy it and I enjoy the like, I
can go down there when the cult isn't around and get some
solitude. And but on Sundays, there's this

(01:19:38):
group of Renaissance actors who like to get together and like to
practice and enact their Viking lawyer.
And you know what I look like? And like if I'm going out for

(01:19:58):
some solitude to a cafe by myself, like, you know, like, my
style is cool bum. My style is, is he homeless?
You know my style, you know whatI mean?
Like. I don't know if I'd say yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, all right, but.
And like I have a man bun and like I've been having it in

(01:20:23):
braids and like I, I wear lots of beads and silver jewelry and
I got lots of tattoos and I wearcut off shirts.
Retired drug dealer Vibe. Right.
So every time these guys see me,I don't say nothing to them.

(01:20:43):
They go, one of them, one of them will come over to me and be
like, hey man, you got a lot of Viking vibes to you.
You got a lot of Viking energy. And like I try to have a
conversation with them and everything and I know it's
coming. And it's like, hey, we're here
every Sunday. If you want to come join us,
actually come join us now. Come talk to us, come hang out.
Let's let me show you what we do.

(01:21:04):
Like you should come hang out with us.
You got them Viking and vibes whatever.
They have energy that I'm tryingto light.
They're called polite to them and shit.
The cold energy, bro. They're trying to indoctrinate
you. They're like, yo, you got it,
You got it. Yeah, it's very that special
thing other people don't have. You could come be one of us.

(01:21:25):
You got it. It's that evangelical energy.
And that's why I call it a colt.And it happened like once or
twice, right. And then you're special.
You're different. This past.
Yeah. Yeah, we're all special.
This past Sunday, I go Right. And the typical guys didn't come
over. Yeah, right.
They sounded girly. They were none of that.

(01:21:48):
They. Come on, that's where the fuck
it up. They need to be sending the hot
Viking babes. Facts.
They're not going to get none. This time they were in the cafe,
but in the other room, and I knew they were in there.
And I'm like, I'm going to try to slip in here and get my, my,
my sweet tea and get out. And like, I knew they were in
there. And I, like, my whole goal was

(01:22:10):
to get in and get out, right? And most of them didn't see me.
But there's one guy who I've never seen before.
He saw me. Right.
So I put my order in. I'm gonna fucking lose my mind.
And I turn around and he's standing behind me.
Oh. That's creepy.
And I and I, I'm thinking in my head, I'm like, here we go, you.

(01:22:33):
Go hey man, you shouldn't sneak up on people like that.
I turn around and say, hey man, what's up?
He goes. I noticed you when you walked
in. You got Viking energy to you.
Oh, there it go. And I said, I said brother.
I said brother. Your your friends already said

(01:22:54):
this to me twice already. I know I got a lot of like
energy. He's like, yeah, yeah.
You should come join us and come.
Yeah. Appreciate it.
Gotcha. Appreciate it.
Thank you. I got the fuck up out of there
and that's when I texted you. I'm like, it has to be fate now.
Like they just keep doing it. Yeah, next time you got to be

(01:23:16):
like, yeah, actually my Viking energy is the kind of Viking
energy that killed all of your Vikings, because that's what
Vikings did. I fucking took your bitches all.
That's my Viking energy. I should find a way to play
that. Definitely.

(01:23:36):
That'd be hilarious. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
How's your Lord going to fit in with our Lord?
Well, like I'm like. I'm the Viking.
I'm the. Women that pillage.
Kill you all and take your bitches.
I took your women and killed everyone in your village.
I'm sorry. Jesus Christ I think I messaged

(01:24:00):
you. I said they're fucking playing
Viking and you can't even pillage anymore.
Like what's the fucking point? You missed the best time to be a
Viking. I want to end on That's fucking
funny. I want to end on shout out that
12 year old that the what is that the governor?

(01:24:23):
Yeah, the governor's debate, debate.
I forget the word they use for that kind of debate.
There's a word for it. I can't think of it.
I'm sorry. I can't think of it.
But yeah, they it was the governor debate.
And then he asked, he asked him,He asked the what's the do you
know dude's name off the top of your head?

(01:24:43):
The dude? He asked.
Yeah. Jack Sidaret Sidarelli.
Sidarelli. Sidarelli.
I'll rock with it. Yeah, I think it's Jack
Sidarelli. Sidarelli.
And he's going against Mikey. Sure.

(01:25:04):
Cheryl. Mikey, Cheryl.
And he said. He's voting for Mikey, by the
way. He said.
How do you how do you plan in restoring the public's faith in
government when one of your, oneof our politicians, one of the

(01:25:27):
politicians have already been locked?
Up and his colleague. For for corruption, Yep.
Republican Bob Mendez. And dude went to fist bump him.
Yep. And the kid, the 12, the 12 year
old didn't fist bump him back. And then later they did an

(01:25:50):
interview with them and he said the reason he didn't fist bump
them was so that he could remainbipartisan.
Fire. Yeah, there's hope after all.
Yeah, yeah. There's hope, there's there's
people out here, young people asking the top.
You notice how both sides in that situation try to course
that into something. Yeah, of course.

(01:26:13):
You know, and it's like, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah.
I wouldn't have gave her a fist bump either.
Like bipartisan. Did you see that?
The blonde girl. Who he's running against.
Yeah, yeah. Mike, you search Cheryl.
Do you see that? The White House?

(01:26:36):
Yeah. Doxed.
Yes. Her and her family and her
parents and everything. Yeah.
And they only redacted the Social Security numbers of her
superiors. Yep, I did see that not only
doxed it, but doxed it by givingthat information to.

(01:27:01):
Her opponent? Her.
Opponent. Yeah.
And that's, that's fucking horrific.
That's absolutely. Insane, insane.
And it's not even just her stufflike it's I'm pretty sure it was
her and her parents. I think I could no.
You're right, you're right. Everything home address,
everything like. Her fucking Social Security

(01:27:26):
number. Yeah, everything.
It's like what? Like just inexcusable.
It's so insane. I don't even.
I can't even like. I don't even dial.
It's so, it's so insane. It's like, how do we even get
words to like, put it, put it into context, Like it's just

(01:27:48):
unprecedented. It's unreal.
I, I told my mom today, I'm like, I, I don't know what
timeline, how we ended up. You know that's a fucking
veteran. It is crazy.
Isn't it illegal to do that? Yeah, that goes without saying.
But like, she's not film. I love Phil, You know I love

(01:28:11):
Phil Murphy. He's a businessman.
He came from gold. Goldman Sachs, right?
Jack Sidarelli, Fucking businessman.
All these people are businessmen.
She's not a businessman. She's a fucking veteran.
She served the country. She fought in very serious
operations. Like she's a fucking, she was a

(01:28:32):
helicopter pilot, she served thecountry and now and now she
she's she's serving with, with civil service and like, that's
so fucking bananas. That's so bananas that you
would, you would dox her in thatway.
By why are you giving her military records to anyone?

(01:28:55):
Why are you giving? Why is the White House giving a,
a candidate for governorship themilitary records of their
opponent? Opponent.
What is that? That's so fucking bananas.
That's so bananas. And, and, and a lot like the Bob
Mendez thing. He got 11 years, by the way.

(01:29:17):
No one would know that because they don't fucking report on it
ever. But no one really is even paying
attention to it or cares and that's fucking bananas.
That's crazy. I'm voting for her.
I'm definitely voting for her. I I've only found one issue that
like I'm not so hot about. But outside of that everything

(01:29:37):
else is on on par for for for mybeliefs and values.
I'm definitely voting for her. It's like if your goal was to
make people want to vote for someone more like you.
Definitely made people feel bad.That's fucking crazy.
It's just I don't. And you know what's crazy?
Because it makes you go, What's your intention, right?

(01:30:00):
Like you want people to know where this person let like I'm
sorry, I'm not trying to go downa dark rabbit hole, but it's
like, what's your intention? With the look, I don't even want
to go here. Speculating, yeah.
But with the climate of everything, with what's just.
Happening so dangerous to do that.
Like why would you ever do that?We, like you've mentioned in the

(01:30:22):
beginning of this episode, like we've literally in the past 10
years, how many congressional people have been murdered?
And then like just she's obviously winning.
She's at 49%, he's at 41%. And then you, you literally like
people are literally trying to kill Congress and you fucking

(01:30:47):
docks her information like in the worst way.
Her Social Security number 2 is fucking crazy, man.
He I was telling my homie last night about this, right?
And I'm like, what's what's crazy is that everything that
he's actually running on I actually agree with.

(01:31:07):
I actually agree with. If we're the things he's running
on, I agree with. Here's the problem.
Trump has showed us since January that you can say that
you're going to run on XYZ and then once you get office not do

(01:31:29):
XYZ right. We're not supposed to be in any
wars. All the wars are supposed to be
done here. We are in the worst off
situation when it comes to the wars in the world than we were a
few months ago. So you can't trust that he's
going to do everything that he says he's going to do because

(01:31:51):
they very blatantly have showed that.
They'll tell you yes, I'll do this and then not do it.
I've seen files. That's another good point.
This is what he's running on. He's running on not taxing our
seniors anymore, not taxing their Social Security.

(01:32:13):
I'm for that. Who wouldn't be for that?
Yeah, I'm for that. Let's stop taxing the fuck out
of our our seniors, right? I'm for it.
Another thing he he's running on, he wants to cap property
taxes at 1% of the property value like Pennsylvania has
done. Oh God it would be fucking life
saving because this state is. The state increases the property

(01:32:36):
tax like every year It's. Like an.
Insane amount it's like goes up and.
It's going up more. I'm for that, I'm for that.
He had some good ideas about howmaybe we can like start.
It's so crazy to say that this is still happening in 2025, but
ideas that that maybe desegregate our school systems.

(01:33:03):
But like I said, it sounds great, but we know that you
won't do it, especially when you're as close to Trump as you
are. Everything she's running on, I
support everything. The only part that bothers me
and I'm just putting out there for full transparency, I am a
father of a gender fluid child. I'm not too hot on.

(01:33:27):
She has some programs that she'sgoing to try to push within the
school districts, some policies concerning transgender children.
And for me personally, how did Isay this?
I know the intentions are well and good, but for me personally

(01:33:49):
and my family, we really would just much rather the government
mind their business and let us handle.
As they should. Our our family business.
But to be fair, I understand that I might be a minority to
that topic and that maybe more gender fluid children and their
parents do need the programs that she wants to introduce.

(01:34:10):
I'm willing to accept that. But I'm just being honest and
saying that when the government talks about these types of
programs, it does worry me because I I don't like the
government being in my family business too much.
And that's the one and only thing that I'm like, ah, I'm

(01:34:31):
concerned about that part. Everything else, that's where
my, that's where my support lies.
Definitely with her. I'm definitely voting for her.
I love that I live in a left-leaning state, even though
I'm not really always left-leaning myself.
I love that shit. I love that every left-leaning
state in the country stood up and did the right thing with all

(01:34:57):
this bullshit that's going on. I've always said all along, I'm
sorry that I'm going on this rant.
I've always said all along, like, why are we more mad at the
man for fucking shit up than we are at the states who are filing
suit and kissing his ass? When we have all the
left-leaning states who are standing up and standing on
their values and saying, OK, well, if you're not going to do

(01:35:18):
the right thing, at least we're still going to do the right
thing. And I love that.
I love that New Jersey is that way.
I love that we pay more into thefederal government than they
ever fucking help us with in return.
We're like one of three states that do that.
US, California, there's a third one.
I can't think of it right now. I love that shit and I want that

(01:35:38):
to continue. I want that to continue and
that's not going to continue under fucking right wing
leadership right now in rant. You mentioned something about
like something you're not duringall that you said something you
won't see or in regards I think it was to the dude that's locked

(01:35:59):
up. Oh, Bob Mendez, Yeah.
And I wanted to point out something, this can be the end
and something that I'm going to shoot your way and see if you've
seen it at all, because it's pretty much not getting talked
about. And for obvious reasons, you
could probably figure out why ithasn't been talked about.

(01:36:21):
You don't see anything about it.You know that like, Italy's been
shut down for a few days now. Nope.
Yep, because the whole country of Italy decided like on to such
a level that the entire country is shut down, that they're

(01:36:43):
protesting the Palestinian genocide fire.
So they're like, we're going to stop operating as a country and
everyone just like literally like dockworkers school to
everyone. Everyone is like we're not doing
anything. We're all going on strike.

(01:37:04):
The whole country's on strike because of it.
But like you won't, no news outlet is covering.
No one's covering. And it's, I mean, obviously we
all know why they're not covering it.
They don't want people getting any bright ideas.
Don't worry that they don't wantto see, they don't want people
to see that like people can literally shut down a whole

(01:37:27):
country by themselves by just bydoing the thing that you said
that we we talked about, that you mentioned, we had a great
conversation about that. I forget which episode that
might have been about refusing to participate.
Yeah, yeah. As a form of protest.

(01:37:49):
Yeah. Literally just shutting down a
whole country. You don't have to peaceful
protest. Don't do anything.
Everyone just collectively agrees.
Agreed. No violence.
I don't think so. I mean, I'm sure.
Come on. No, I'm not talking about what
overall. Yeah, overall, overall is.

(01:38:10):
There's a reason why I ask because like, my algorithm is
flooded with the fact that Gen. Z put it into their government.
They burnt down Parliament. The one Nepal, Yeah, that
happened recently, yeah. And it's like.
And then elected the new leader on Discord.

(01:38:32):
I mean I I'm not hating. They took matters, but we've had
this discussion too that like young kids is just going to be
like, we got no future. Like, you guys aren't giving
them anything to look forward to.
Like you I say you people aren'tgiving them anything.
Boomers, are you the ones in power?
Yeah. You are not giving young people

(01:38:53):
things to look forward to. When they realize it and they're
fed up, they're going to do something.
Yeah, They're young enough. And haven't.
It's been. I saw a comment or like, a video
about it. It's like boomers want you to
have kids because it politicallycastrates you.
Like you're no longer able to like participate in real

(01:39:17):
discourse in any meaningful capacity because like now you
have like bills and responsibilities and you're you
have to think about other people's lives that rely on you.
So like the government always wants you to have kids because
it politically castrates you. We should get into that

(01:39:38):
sometime. That's a good talk right there.
That's a good talk. It's interesting that the
violent side of things in the world is being flooded into my
algorithm. But the nonviolent versions of
it, the ones that actually work,right?
Because we really know that the only form of revolt that
actually is effective is a is a,is a yes, but a fiscal 1A

(01:40:07):
financial. 1A financial one, Yeah, OK.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. So it's just interesting that
they they're showing the violentone and not the nonviolent one
because like, of course. Like every violent, they can
weaponize it against you. Yeah.
And it's like in my support in support of what they did in

(01:40:29):
Nepal. Well, the the general intent,
yes, I love saying like I don't want to participate in this
government no more and like there's a better way and like
we're going to do that, but I feel like.
They tried to control their use of the Internet.
Yeah. Social media they said.

(01:40:51):
No more social media. People are like fuck out of
here. What do you mean?
I think we we're all in support of something like that until
something like that turns into aJanuary 6 and they were like.

(01:41:12):
Oh, I looked at it like a prohibition thing.
It's like you took people's addiction away.
That that was a conversation. You had to deal with the
backlash of taking all these addicts thing away from them and
now they had all this manicness of losing their addiction.
That's a good. Point and needed to put the

(01:41:33):
energy somewhere like y'all did that to yourselves.
Basically that was like startinga fire.
Y'all started a fire. Literally.
The government started its own fire.
We got it in in this episode. I want to talk about this in the

(01:41:55):
future. I definitely want to talk about
this in the future. OK, this is a whole, because
that's a good point. Though I thought you were about
to go somewhere with it. No, no.
You were like, we got to end this episode and then you
started talking a little. I got like you like dumb.
No, we got to end this. She said we got to end this
episode, then start talking. Now we got to end this shit.

(01:42:16):
We got to end this shit. Yeah, Yeah.
Now, now we've made you suffer long enough.
You'll. Say suffer I'm.
Sure, this is a good conversation.
I got a full belly man, you justget tired.
Yo, tonight's been blessed all. Thank you so much for the food.
Thank you for the pizza, thank you for the tacos, the beer.
Fuck, it's been good. Episode 100 to be more hyped or

(01:42:38):
was it just too chilled? Me and twin talked a lot about
this actually and we both realized that like you could say
it better probably over a stem you we just.
You were, you were prepping too much where I was like.
We made it too big of a thing that we weren't actually going
to do it like we were going to do it.

(01:42:59):
It just we weren't getting to doing it.
Yeah, the anticipation of like, wanting it to be something
bigger than like letting it be its own thing.
Yeah. You got to just let things be
their thing. I've.
Always like I really don't like that I've missed like

(01:43:23):
opportunities to celebrate on the podcast.
Like it's always a hindsight thing where it's like, oh fuck,
that episode should have been a Christmas episode or that
episode should have been an Easter episode.
Like damn, like just a little bit more preparing for that and
we could have made that happen or whatever.
So like I always have regrets inhindsight like about those types

(01:43:45):
of things. But then when like we plan to do
something a a particular episodeor like a special thing, the the
preparation in my mind becomes so overwhelming.
Like, I don't know, it just getswacky for me.

(01:44:05):
And this is good. This is I like.
This the pizza and this. Is a celebration.
This is a celebration. The return of young Philip was
enough, too. This is motherfucker.
Yeah, Ryan's going to hear this shit and be like.
What the fuck? He's going to come on episode
101, he's going to be like. That wasn't a special plan.

(01:44:26):
I kept asking him, by the way. Hey, I'll come in for episode
100. Hey, I'll come in for episode.
I kept asking. Asking Ryan or asking him him?
Yep. But made it happen.
But this is probably realistically like what episode

(01:44:47):
of one O 6 or something if you count bonuses or fucking recess
or. All the ones, yeah.
Like we we got at least I mean over 4.
You don't even want to count theone on ones you got some.
We saw about like the recesses and all the things that are all
the unlabeled, yeah. All the one on ones.
One on ones, but if you don't even count 1 on ones, right,

(01:45:08):
it's like probably not even 100,right?
Damn, you know what I was thinking about One O ones lately
because like the whole point of me starting my own podcast was
because I wanted to have one on ones with people right outside
of like the bro therapy set up. And I remember when I used to do

(01:45:30):
the one on ones on bro therapy and they maybe I was just trying
to force something that wasn't meant to happen under that, that
that production. But I never had good feelings
about the one on ones. Like I had good.
I never had good feelings about them after they were done.

(01:45:51):
And the one that I think about the most is Captain Dad Pool.
You remember that? The religious dude.
And yeah, I hate that guy. I will go on wax and say that
shit. I'm so childish.
How I feel is childish. But I do, I have such a bone

(01:46:11):
with him because I feel like I feel like he was rude to me on
that episode. Really.
Yeah. I I feel like I could tell.
I got to read I because I I feellike we talked about this but I
don't even remember anymore whatI said with the discussion.
Around you guys were there, you and Ryan, but you didn't
participate in it. It was really just me and him

(01:46:34):
talking, but I don't know. Yeah, it was.
It was a long time ago. Yeah, it was actually, no, it
was because it was episode no, like episode 33 was with
history. Dude.
You remember we talked about hima lot, right?
Which like that was that was a whole another thing.

(01:46:55):
Too, I just feel like people aren't.
I don't understand that got. I want people to be more real.
I feel like people like, feel a certain way and then they hide
it and then it just makes thingsweird.
At the end of that, if you listen, just listen to like the
last two minutes of the Captain Dad Pool episode.

(01:47:16):
At the end he's like. He said it was episode 30.
I think 33. 33 is the producer lays unexpected surprise on us.
What were you? Do you?
Do you put in the by you used to?
Not Dan Casella. Was the one around like 33
somewhere around there The president of you?
Started then you started titling.

(01:47:37):
You didn't title the episodes until like 37?
Yeah, that was that was a contribution from twin, the way
we titled the episode Dan Costello.
But that and Captain Dad Pool was like, it was somewhere
around the early 30s too, actually, no, at the end he was

(01:47:57):
like, I don't know, the way he said like he was like, is there
anything else you guys want to talk about?
Because I'm tired, like done with basically he was just like,
all right, can we be done with this?
And like I was still like. And then I had questions.
For him. I had questions for him and like

(01:48:18):
the questions that were asking, he was just like, not prepared
to answer. Although he has the ability to
like all the education, yeah, hehas the education to expand on
those things, but he was just not fucking rocking.
It was weird. It was weird.
And I was just like, why would you even come on someone's

(01:48:41):
episode just to be rude? Episode 30 you had Dan Casella,
right? Episode 30, Dan Casella, That's
the historic society guy. My thing with that was that was
actually a great episode. I I thought it was.
Amazing. Well, I thought all of our
episodes have been great. They were regardless.

(01:49:03):
That 1 I think what, what upset me about that episode is it was
a misunderstanding of what people were going to get.
A lot of people who typically don't listen to bro therapy
listen to that episode because of who it was and because it was

(01:49:24):
supposed to be a history based episode and it was for the most
part ah. But what people didn't like was
the bro therapy layer to it. And so it's just a
misunderstanding really because.Two genres don't click.
Yeah, it was like. No, they can click.

(01:49:47):
It was like rule. Against it.
The the biggest complaint about that episode was you guys didn't
even talk about history for the 1st 40 minutes and we didn't.
We bullshitted, but that's bro therapy.
So like, it wasn't nothing wrong.
We were doing what we do, so we bullshitted.
We were talking about fucking Pokémon and mafia and Goodfell,

(01:50:08):
our fucking Sopranos and shit. We were smoking a blunt.
We were talking about shit like that for like the first 40
minutes. So all the history people were
like. The.
The, the, the two complaints were, the two complaints were it
was supposed to be a history podcast and we didn't get to the
history till later. And then the second thing was,

(01:50:32):
oh, you and your Co, you and your Co host say the F word a
lot. You guys like say the F word
every sentence. Wow, suck my Dick.
I wanted to hear history. I don't like these stoners.
My bad, suck my fucking Dick. Episode 34 was the one you were

(01:50:52):
talking about. Also Captain Dadfool, 86.
Yeah, I thought he was rude. I thought he was very rude.
But Speaking of January 6th, he's in the National Guard and
he was part of the team that he was in.
He got stationed in DC. He had to, he had to guard the
capital after January 6th. I remember that, like, there was

(01:51:15):
like, that week or two or a couple of days in between the
original insurrection. And then, like, there was like,
the Internet lore about, like, something else is about to pop
off. We're just waiting for fucking
Daddy Q to tell us when he was protecting the capital during
that period. Yeah.
So, and that had to suck, man, if I could have some empathy for

(01:51:37):
him, although he was a rude Jackass.
Thank you for your service. Yeah, thank you, man.
That. Genuinely.
Because he lives, he lives like somewhere in like upstate
Pennsylvania or upstate New Yorkand like, he literally was right
there. Like that had to be awful to be
so close but so far away from your family.

(01:51:59):
Like you're so close to like in a time of that kind of turmoil
in the country, I can imagine that a man wants nothing more
than to be with his family to make sure that they're safe and
to like be with them. And here you had to be a state
away for some bullshit and bullshit in the sense of like,

(01:52:19):
it should have never happened. And, and and that's got to suck.
That's got to suck. And uncertainty.
Uncertainty of things two anyway.
Episode 100. Oh no, I had a couple.
Wow, sorry. You got stuff to say A.
Little bit like you want to. Be a little.
A little slight special for 100.Yeah, some of your favorite

(01:52:41):
episodes. Some of my.
Favorite episodes? Yeah, yeah.
Do you have a handful little Mount Rushmore of your favorite
episode Mount? Rushmore.
I do you want to go I'm. Not prepared.
That is tough. I I do actually.
Yeah, just just a cute little 100 special.

(01:53:02):
For number 1, episode number one, who, which wasn't really
episode #1, it was actually episode #2.
It's because the intro. Right.
It wasn't because of the intro, it was because episode 1 the
audio quality was so bad that wereleased the episode on our
launch date and and twin hit me up and he's like, bro, like I

(01:53:26):
know we like we've been waiting for this day.
I know this is the launch date. I know like we put so much into
this, but like the quality is that bad that I think we should
fucking can it and just start off with episode 2.
And that's what we did. So episode 1 came out that

(01:53:48):
night. There's probably like 5 people
that I know about who hit play. The episode came out, they hit
play, they were listening to theepisode, and while they were
listening to the episode, we decided delete that shit, RIP it

(01:54:08):
down, and that will start off with episode 2.
So those people who hit play, when we ripped it down, they got
to continue listening to the episode because they were
already listening to it. So there's like 5 people and
they're the only 5 people who have heard the official first
episode of Bro Therapy. Outside of those people, no

(01:54:31):
one's ever heard. Are you including yourselves in
that too, or you're talking about the five viewers?
The five viewers, yeah. So 8 if you count me Twin and
Ryan, no, we were talking about Tupac, we talked about hip hop,
we talked about Nickelodeon that.
Was Ryan even on yet? Yeah, yeah, Ryan was on it.
Ryan was on it. So episode 2 is actually the

(01:54:53):
official first episode of Bro Therapy on Spotify, and that is
the most listened to episode to date.
Something creeped up. It's one of my most favorite
episodes. I learned a lot about myself.
I learned a lot about. You.

(01:55:14):
I know my favorite. Never mind.
I know, my favorite. It was good.
And the car and we didn't know enough about each other, so the
conversations were a little bit more inquisitive.
Yeah, yeah. And like the debates were
realer. We're just like.
We've changed a lot since then. It was good, man.

(01:55:36):
That was a good ass episode. Those topics in that fucking
first studio, man, the conversations.
We had a lot of cartoon conversations, a lot of music
conversations. Yeah, man, that, that that first
episode is a favorite. Episode 10 is another favorite.

(01:55:58):
That one, it was me twin and my sister at her house.
That was the first time that twin, actually.
That was a beautiful one. Opened up about his father and
his experience with that is a very touching episode for me.
Always will be one of my favorite favorite ones.

(01:56:20):
Episode 16 is another classic. That was when Ryan came back and
me and Ryan just had a real vulnerable moment with each
other. Right on the pod.
Man, that's probably one of my most favorite episodes.
Let me think. Anyone's from recent time?

(01:56:55):
Damn bro, it's. Taking part?
There's too. Many the most.
Popular one of recent, I don't know if you want to say recent
49 the AI one the AI. That one might just be getting
yeah, because AI is a keyword I.Think artificial intelligence
was the kicker? Probably.

(01:57:16):
I don't know. This guy, do you have a favorite
episode? Favorites.
In terms of what I this guy has peed like 6 times old man.
Bladder. And he's like, Chris is crazy

(01:57:38):
the amount of times this man is run away to go piss. 54 box
office numbers writers strike heated hip hop debates.
That's when you guys were odd about hip hop debates.

(01:57:58):
Like it was just him going on about probably Jay ZI think I if
I remember correctly. There was one we did recently
that like we recorded it. I don't know if like we recorded
it, like recorded an episode or if me and him were just having a

(01:58:20):
heart to heart, like deep. I think me and him were just
having a deep conversation with each other and it was raining
outside. I don't think we were recording,
remember in like that storm withlike the around that time we had
those tornado warnings this yearjust like a couple months ago.
We were on the porch. Yeah.
And like, the light was out. You were like talking about God.

(01:58:41):
The trees opened up and it's like there was like all this
light all of a sudden, like shining down and like, I'm like,
yo, he hears you because you were, you were.
I think you were going off aboutthe gospel or some shit.
Yeah, Yeah. And it's like.
It was funny, we were recording.I don't think we were.
I think we were just like shooting this shit.
Yo, I that reminded me of this child not child teenage story

(01:59:04):
real quick. I'll make it so quick.
I'll make it so quick so. Quick.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So.
I'm hanging with homies, right? Yeah, we're, we're outside in a
cul-de-sac and we're smoking cigarettes, right?
We're like 1819, right? And these are my we were
Christian friends, but like Christian siggies, we were kind
of like. The one Jesus likes.
Like yes. Facts, facts, 100%.

(01:59:28):
And we were sitting there right now we're in Swedesboro and
right across the river Delaware River from Swedesboro is Marcus
Hook, which is the Sunoco refineries over in Delaware.
Right. Yeah.
And in 2009, the refinery blew up, boom, that night.

(01:59:49):
And we're sitting out there, right?
And we're having a deep conversation.
We're all like 1819. Do we go off to college?
I already had a kid. Do I get married?
What are we doing with our lives?
What does God want from us? Like all those conversations
having a vulnerable moment, right?
And as we're talking about God, it's like 9:00 at night.
The whole sky lights up. No sound.

(02:00:12):
The whole sky lights up as if the sun came out.
Yeah, in the middle of the night.
In the middle of the night for acouple seconds, you guys.
Were like dude we just get naked.
And then it got dark again and we're like staring at each other
and was like, where did that light come from?
And like 20 seconds later we just hit oh shit no way.

(02:00:34):
And we're staring at each other like what the fuck is going on?
Like we're having this conversation about God and the
universe and then the light, thefucking skylights off.
Is there a video? Of that explosion.
I don't know. I have to look that up.
I look that would. Be crazy.
I look that up. Another favorite time with

(02:00:54):
episodes, bro. And I don't really think that
this is something that could be like recreated because it wasn't
met. It just happened.
But those 3 or 4 episodes that we recorded here when when You
like first came on board and Jazzy would come and you'd have
her cackling in the background. Those were really good.

(02:01:15):
I really liked. Those those were good episodes.
Bro, those were really. Nice.
And in fact. In fact, really I remember I was
like, I would call you and afterlistening back to the episodes,
cuz me and you talk about the episodes, I'll be at work and
I'll listen to them while I'm inthe freezer and then I'll get
done and then I'll message you or call you and talk about it.

(02:01:36):
And I specifically would tell you how much depth and life
having jazzy in the back laughing while we're all just
like talking about shit like added to the podcast.
It's. Like a whole aesthetic.
Yeah, it was a vibe. It was no, but it like adds like
a whole layer of that. Like in like when you're
building music and like working on music, it's like this like 3

(02:02:00):
dimensional football, like the sound stage.
And it's like, it turns like this two-dimensional
conversation into like a three-dimensional.
Experience yeah, I think you're right when you say adds depth to
it has a lot of depth to it. Those are pie.
They they I can't even think of things that we talked about

(02:02:21):
specifically. I just remember that like we
were doing clips, Jazzy added a whole aesthetic to the
experience. Like we were.
It was more, it felt like a bigger team, so it felt like
more people involved. And I actually have on my
playlist. Was it Mets to the odes or to

(02:02:44):
the Mets or to the Mets you? Have the I have it.
Or whatever you remember the night.
Core memories, man, I'll never. Forget it, I have a voicemail
pins. Just don't think you just.
Hear And even now I'm driving, bro, and I'll put my playlist on
shuffle and that song will come on and I'll think of that night
we were sitting out there in your car.

(02:03:06):
Me, you jazzy twin fucking superstoned tacos core memories dog.
I'll never. Forget that ever in my life.
It was like, really? We went to the Taco truck or
something. The Taco truck, Yeah.
Taco truck. Yeah, yeah, I had a couple
cookies. Remember we ate Yogi cookies.
That was during that same time was.

(02:03:26):
It the same it. Was we were doing the food
reviews? There's.
A lot of food reviews. All the cookies Blackbird local.
Yeah, yeah, Coors Cups. Coors Cups.
Is this sponsors? No.
I stopped doing the sponsors. It was cool.
Course Gus was bombed though. She's still.
Rocking. All of them are bombed.
Real shout outs, she's still rocking.

(02:03:47):
Real shout outs, black bird. Logo my other one is I texted it
too. It was 97 right?
Corporate empathy. I was getting ruined at a
Cartwright. Corporate empathy, Yeah.
What is? Do you remember anything
specific that you liked? About that I'm just talking
about corporate shit. Like in terms of like I don't
understand how these corporate worker empathy was the title of

(02:04:09):
the episode. Social Water and Holes,
Nostalgic Mall Trips was the episode title.
Yeah, that was a good. Time were you were you were you
did everyone. I wasn't there.
I was about to say you weren't. No in 97.
Damn, you liked that one? I texted.
It didn't. I texted.
It he did he was like good job boys on that one Yeah, I

(02:04:29):
remember that I. Was like, yeah, I got real into
that. Like on a fucking like I told
you, like, like I emphasized earlier about how sometimes I
put on podcasts in terms of tuneout a long car ride and I was
feeling sick that day and I was getting real.
And I'm like relating to it, youknow, like that.
Absolutely, Yeah. 597. Oh yeah bro.

(02:04:51):
See 97. See a recent one.
Very recent. Yeah, man.
Very recent and it was not. It was not even like a search
out. It just played.
Just rarely played. Oh, then it was met.
Right. Episode 61, Which one was that?

(02:05:12):
Do you believe in soul mates? Do you believe in love?
That's one of my personal, one of my personal favorites.
Are you? Vulnerable in that one, I
forget. I'm I try to be vulnerable and
all that episodes I. Think.
Super vulnerable. Now you were.
Following. I I just wanted the episodes

(02:05:35):
like I I'll recommend to people sometimes where I'm just like,
if you want to know how like deep I can be.
That sounds so corny, but like, like if you think I'm corny now,
maybe that's a better way. I'll be like, if you think I'm

(02:05:56):
corny now, you should go listen to this episode and like you'll
get a way deeper understanding of like how corny I really AM.
I also did like setting up the girl therapy Christmas last one.
Yeah, it. Was the Charlie Brown just five
at the end of it were just. I fucked with that.

(02:06:16):
And and what brought that memoryup was also like, what's your
screensaver when you call him? Is it that fucking logo?
Yeah. The Christmas one I made.
Yeah. That's crazy.
That's that's his contact. Yeah, he has the fucking
Christmas fucking photo like. That's.

(02:06:37):
Odd for his contact. No, that's for my contact.
Yeah, when you call me, this is what comes up.
Yeah. You didn't know that?
No. Yeah, dude.
This is your contact photo bro. Like a photo, it's just.
Yeah, it's like the photo. It's just like an edit.

(02:06:57):
Yeah, it's yeah, it's the it's like his computer computer
screen. Yeah, it's not even, fuck, it's
not even a like a PNG. I'm looking at.
I looked at the fucking I'm likethat looks nothing like the logo
I saw. Him pull up on the screen.
What the fuck? What Let me yeah, yeah, yeah,

(02:07:20):
yeah, yeah, yeah. The final I have the I have the
mid progress pic and I was like,you know what that's going to be
Ace's contact photo. Contact photo for you.
That's great, added the Christmas hats.
They look good, don't they? Yeah, man, you did.
You did a good job with that. You did such a good job that

(02:07:41):
I've made it. His contact from.
The fucking in progress and I'm in the finish.
Touch this one. Good times.
Man episode 100. Sad rap.

(02:08:04):
I guess so. It's been real fellows.
Yeah. Reminisce.
Love you guys.