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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to the
Catholic Sobriety Podcast, the
go-to resource for women seekingto have a deeper understanding
of the role alcohol plays intheir lives, women who are
looking to drink less or not atall for any reason.
I am your host, christi Walker.
I'm a wife, mom and ajoy-filled Catholic, and I am
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the Catholic Sobriety Coach, andI am so glad you're here.
Today's episode is one that Iknow many of you have wrestled
with, maybe in prayer, maybe insilence, maybe it's in your
journal, and the question isthis is moderation really
possible for me?
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Now, if you've ever askedyourself that with hope, with
hesitation or with a little bitof fear, you are definitely not
alone.
So many Catholic women come tome asking this question with a
deep longing and just as muchuncertainty.
So in this episode we are goingto explore what moderation
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actually means and what itdoesn't, why it works for some
people and not for others, howyour brain, your habits and your
soul all play a role, how todiscern, honestly and
prayerfully, what path God iscalling you to, prayerfully,
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what path God is calling you to,and the essential role that
coaching and community play inhelping you actually live that
out.
By the end of this episode, Ihope you'll have some clarity
not a label, not a rule, but adeeper understanding of what
freedom could look like for you.
So let's go ahead and dive in.
First, let's get clear on whatwe even mean when we say
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moderation, because it's a wordthat gets tossed around a lot
and it can mean very differentthings to different people.
For some people, moderationmight mean only drinking on the
weekends.
For others, it's capping it atone or two glasses per sitting.
Someone might place a boundarysaying that they will never
drink alone or when they'refeeling emotional.
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Some people avoid drinkingaround their kids, and then
others like to save it forspecial occasions.
Now, if you've ever createdthose kinds of boundaries,
that's something that so many ofus do.
We all do it with a variety ofthings and, honestly, they can
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seem really reasonable at firstglance.
But here's the question that Iwant you to gently consider Are
you defining moderation foryourself, or is moderation
subtly defining you?
Now here's what I mean.
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For many women I coach,moderation starts out as an
empowered decision, and I amcompletely on board with it,
because I believe in looking andgetting curious and having
awareness around your decisionsto drink or not drink.
But for some it can slowly turninto a new version of the same
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old cycle.
Pretty soon you start settingrules and then you make
exceptions.
You're breaking trust withyourself.
Then there's the self-talk, therationalization, the back and
forth, and before you know it,you're actually not really sure
what counts as success anymore.
I hear things like this so often.
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Somebody might say I said I'donly drink on Fridays, but I was
so stressed out on Thursday soI poured a glass early.
Another person might say Imeant to have one, but my
husband refilled my glass beforeI had finished, and so now I
had two.
And then another thing I'veheard is I was doing well for a
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few weeks, but then I had arough day and all my rules just
went out the window.
All my rules just went out thewindow.
Now here's the important truthyou are not weak.
You are human.
But it might be a sign thatmoderation isn't working at
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least not in the way that it'scurrently being approached for
your nervous system, your brainwiring or, quite honestly, your
spiritual walk.
But that doesn't mean that youneed to jump straight into
absolutes.
In fact, I want to encourageyou to take a totally different
approach.
That's curiosity, testing,observation and giving yourself
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grace.
Instead, instead of asking canI moderate?
As a black or white question,with all the pressure behind it,
try asking questions like thiswhat happens when I do this?
How does this pattern feel inmy body, my soul, my thoughts?
Or the morning after?
My thoughts are the morningafter.
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What do I notice when I take abreak completely?
Where does peace show up andwhere does anxiety creep in?
See, when you shift into amindset of testing, instead of
proving, everything changes.
You are no longer trying tocontrol the outcome.
You are simply paying attention.
You're noticing what's true,not what you wish were true.
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And that's where real freedomis, that's where it lives.
Not in perfect performance, butin honest discovery.
Not in perfect performance, butin honest discovery.
Moderation might very well bepossible for you, or it might
not.
And the only way to know thisis to observe without shame,
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reflect with the Holy Spirit andbe willing to follow the truth,
even if it's uncomfortable atfirst.
And let me tell you, it will beuncomfortable at first if it's
uncomfortable at first.
And let me tell you, it will beuncomfortable at first.
So, if you've tried to moderateand it's felt messy or
confusing or completelyexhausting.
I want you to know that's not asign of failure.
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That's actually a sign thatyour soul is craving clarity.
And the best way to find thatis through curiosity,
experimentation and support, butnot self-judgment or shame.
Let's talk neuroscience for amoment.
You know I love this.
Now.
Moderation is more thanwillpower.
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It involves habit loops,dopamine patterns and deeply
ingrained coping mechanisms.
When you drink even just one,your brain releases dopamine,
your feel-good, reward-seekingchemical and over time your
brain learns that alcohol is ashortcut to relief, reward or
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rest.
This pattern can besubconscious, but powerful.
Now here's the tricky part Forsome women, even a small amount
of alcohol reactivates thatdesire for more.
So let's say you've decided thatyou're only going to drink I
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don't know, maybe Saturdays, andyou drink on Saturdays and you
actually drink what you plannedfor Saturday and that you know
felt really good and felt like agood amount for Saturday, and
that you know felt really goodand felt like a good amount.
But then Sunday comes aroundand you notice that you're
actually craving alcohol and youhadn't craved it like all week
while you weren't drinking it,but then you had it on Saturday
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and, like I said, you completelystuck to your plan, but you're
craving it now, on Sunday.
That's what I'm talking aboutwhen I say that even a small
amount can reactivate thatdesire for more.
I'm like that with sugar.
I can go for months withoutsugar, but the minute I have it
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my brain is like we are eatingall the sugar.
So and I do have sugar, and Ijust know that it's just going
to be a little bit of chaos thenext day I'm going to want it,
but I have to remind myself no,you planned for this day and
this amount, and now it's adifferent day and we're not
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doing that today.
So it does take some training,it does take some practice and
just kind of telling yourselflike we're not going to keep
doing this.
But it's not because you don'thave the willpower, it's just
the way that that craving loopworks.
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The other thing that can happenis you might be alcohol-free for
five days a week, but if yourbrain knows that a glass is
coming on Friday, you couldstill be living with the
anticipation, negotiation andinternal chatter that kind of
comes along with it and thatcreates mental noise where
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you're technically drinking less, but alcohol still holds way
too much mental real estate.
So I want you to ask yourselfthis do I feel peaceful in my
moderation or just control?
Because peace and control arenot the same thing.
One comes from the spirit andone comes from fear.
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Now, since we're talking aboutthe spirit, I want to pause here
and speak to your soul for amoment.
Now, this journey isn't aboutlabeling yourself.
I very much do not want you tolabel yourself.
I don't want you to labelyourself as a social drinker,
gray area drinker, normaldrinker.
Alcoholic Labels might behelpful for some, but I just
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find the more we repeat them,the more they become part of our
identity and they are not youridentity.
Okay, you are a daughter of God.
That is your identity.
Your worth is not tied to yourdrinking history or your success
in moderating, but you are alsocalled to walk in truth and
discernment requires.
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So here's what I ask my clientsto consider when asking is
moderation possible for me?
One question is have I beenable to moderate consistently
without feeling like I'm white,knuckling it, or without regret?
Am I able to choose to drink ornot drink with peace?
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The other thing you might askis does drinking, even
moderately, lead me closer orfarther from the person I want
to be or the person that I knowGod is calling me to be.
And then the third is am Iusing moderation as a way to
avoid the harder, deeper healingthat God may be calling me into
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?
Like, are you afraid of lettinggo?
Are you afraid of opening yourhands and letting something go?
And if so, where's that comingfrom?
That last one is a big one, Iknow, and sometimes we can cling
to moderation, not because it'sworking, but because sobriety
feels too permanent or too scaryor too unknown.
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But what if sobriety wasn't apunishment but instead a promise
of freedom?
What if it wasn't a finish line, but it was actually a doorway?
Now let me be clear aboutsomething really important I am
not anti-moderation.
There are women that I workwith who, after a dedicated
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season of full abstinence wherethey took time to heal their
bodies, renew their minds anddeepen their spiritual walk,
have found their way into aversion of moderation that's
peaceful, prayerful and alignedwith their values.
But here's what those women allhave in common They've done
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deep inner work.
They've brought their woundsbefore the Lord and invited him
to restore what the world haddulled or distorted.
They've learned how to sit withdiscomfort instead of escaping
it.
They've identified the whybehind their drinking and they
no longer need it to numb,distract or perform.
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They have tools, real tools, toregulate their nervous systems,
to respond with grace andrecognize old thought patterns
so they can capture that thoughtand reframe it in a way that
gets them the results that theyactually want.
Because here's something weneed to talk about honestly
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Ongoing compulsive orsituational drinking is almost
always a sign of inner healingthat needs to take place.
Whether that's dealing withunforgiveness, past trauma,
chronic stress, unmet needs,grief, resentment, loneliness or
spiritual dryness, alcoholbecomes a quick fix that masks
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the real wounds.
It's just a band-aid.
It numbs what actually needs tobe noticed and it quiets what
God might be trying to speakinto.
So when someone asks me ismoderation possible for me?
I want to offer them a deeper,more important question have you
healed the part of you that'sreaching for the glass in the
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first place?
Because the truth is,moderation might be possible,
but the bigger question is is itpeaceful, is it honest, is it
holy and is it worth it Ifmoderation keeps you in chaos,
if it's mental gymnastics inyour brain all the time, if it
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costs you your clarity, yourenergy, your presence with your
children and your husband, yourprayer life, your sense of
freedom, if it keeps you frombelieving that you are a beloved
daughter of God and if it keepsa part of your identity
tethered to a pattern that youknow deep down is holding you
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back, then I ask you, with loveand not shame, is that really
moderation or is it justmaintenance of a deeper wound?
Because, sister, sobriety, realsoul, deep sobriety and
moderation is not about neverdrinking again.
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It's about walking into thekind of peace that alcohol
cannot imitate.
It's about waking up with cleareyes and no regret, showing up
for your calling with joy andenergy, feeling your feelings,
not trying to flee from them,being emotionally available to
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the people you love most, andhearing the voice of God in
prayer, unclouded by anxiety ordistraction.
Reducing or eliminating alcoholis not a punishment, it's not
an exile and it is notdeprivation.
It's completely the opposite.
It's actually presence, it'speace, it's healing, it's you
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showing up for use, keeping yourpromises whole, awake and free.
So, wherever you are in yourjourney, whether moderation has
worked or whether you're stillclinging to hope that it might
be, let today be an invitationto go deeper, to ask not just
what's possible but what's truewhat's needed, and if you don't
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have the answers for that yet,you're not alone.
That's actually what my SacredSobriety Lab is for.
It's to help you do this workwith grace, guidance and a
community.
So, my friend, as you sit herewith this question, is
moderation possible for me?
Question is moderation possiblefor me?
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I invite you to also ask whatkind of life do I truly want to
build?
Because your life is tooprecious, your soul is too
sacred and your purpose is toourgent to stay stuck in cycles
of stress and shame.
If you're feeling stirred rightnow, if something in you is
whispering, I want to livedifferently.
I want you to know this.
You don't have to figure it outalone.
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You can use the link in my shownotes to learn more or to book
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one-on-one and find out more.
Whatever you choose, don't staystuck in isolation.
Don't let fear keep youcircling the same questions.
Become part of a movement ofwomen reclaiming their clarity,
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their callings and theirwholeness, one sacred step at a
time.
Well, that does it for thisepisode of the Catholic Sobriety
Podcast.
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I look forward to speaking toyou next time and remember I am
here for you.
I am praying for you.