October 20, 2025 • 42 mins
On this episode I will be talking about a demon that was feeding off of my hatred for years and how I struggle to do this podcast. This is a true account of some of my life that will help you see the demon inside.
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a week. Hello my demon Insiders, and
welcome back to The Demon Inside.
I'm your host, John Venom, and today we are going to be talking
about The Demon Inside and JamesPorter.
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That's right, this is going to be a show about me.
Now the reason I'm doing this isbecause I have been affected by
demons pretty much my whole lifeand I'm not losing my mind and
I'm not seeing demons everywhereand I'm not hallucinating and
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I'm not taking drugs or anythinglike that.
I'm a sound mind and body. But again, as I've told you
before, as a spiritual person, I've seen things and I'm going
to explain a lot of things and I'm going to talk to you about
what caused me to believe in demons.
Now, if you're a true crime fan,there's some stuff that's going
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to be OK talking to you guys about, you know, like past
things that I've done. But for the most part, this is
going to be like more of a spiritual.
I'm not going to be a religious jealous, whatever.
Like, I'm not going to preach toyou, but I am going to tell you
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how I got to be who I am now. And I've talked to people about
my life and some have said I should do it on my show.
So here is my truth. In 1990, I in 89, actually I
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graduated high school and joinedthe military.
And in 90, I left for the Philippines.
This would would have been rightafter May.
So it was June when I was there.I had a couple of occurrences.
Now let me tell you, before then, when I was growing up, I
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believed in demons, I believed in spirits.
I believed in a lot of things that people wouldn't believe.
I've seen ghosts, I've heard them speak, I've seen demons in
the presence of evil. I know a lot of people don't
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believe in stuff like this, especially as a kid because you
know, the kids imaginations. When we stop believing, it
doesn't mean that it doesn't exist.
And for me, I had to accept whatwas real because it happened on
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a daily occurrence. me and I canonly speak for me.
And I know my siblings have toldme, my mother has told me, even
though they tried to say it didn't happen.
But when they're honest with me,they say it did.
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We grew up in a house with a hardcore Catholic foundation,
but my father was an alcoholic who liked to abuse my mom and us
as kids. My mother, traditionally she was
a strong woman, but in that timeshe was supposed to give in to
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her husband. They didn't believe in divorce,
they didn't believe in separation.
So we had to endure everything that happened to us.
And for me, I got it a little bit extra because my father
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never thought I was his. Even though my mother was a very
devoted wife, she never had sex with any other man.
But my father was a womanizer, and since he would cheat, he
thought that she would cheat even though she never left the
house. How could she, you know?
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So for me, growing up, my fatherwas only my provider.
There wasn't a real connection. There wasn't fatherly advice,
things like that. And it, you know, and it's OK
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with me now as an adult, I have no ill will towards my father
and he passed away a while back.So when I joined the military,
there was a couple of incidents and I can't bring those up
because it's a very touchy thing.
But up until that point, up until I joined the military,
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everything that was evil to me was the things that I couldn't
see but I could feel, I could sense.
I could. I knew when there was things in
my room. I knew when they were invading
my dreams. I knew when they would mess with
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me. And so I didn't know how to
control. It's a big thing now everybody,
everybody and anybody says they do it.
But back, this was back in the in early 90s, eighties, you
know, when I was a kid, it was in the 70s, nobody talked about
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seeing ghosts, nobody talked about hearing ghosts.
There was hardly any mention of spirituality or or anything like
that. So when I was in the military,
like I said, I started seeing seeing evil in people and it was
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new to me. While I was going through that I
was going through my own problems with my ex-wife.
I've only been married once and been divorced once.
It wasn't that I didn't have opportunities to get married,
but I was so hurt from my first marriage because she took my
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child that I never wanted to be with a woman that wanted a child
because I was afraid I would lose my child again.
But five years after we got divorced, I became a single dad
because she gave up my daughter and gave her to me.
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If that wouldn't have happened, my life would wouldn't have
changed for the better. And I'm going to talk to you
about what happened within thosefive years that I didn't have my
kid, when I lost, when I got divorced, my ex-wife the next
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day remarried and they moved andI didn't know where they were.
I couldn't find them, uh, for three months.
And I felt lost. I was young, I was heartbroken.
I was beat up and I was mad. And I had a hatred.
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And that hatred led me to the church that I've always been to.
And I stood in front of the altar.
Like I said, I'm Catholic. And I stood in front of the
altar where the cross is with Jesus Christ.
And I was so upset. I told God that I hated him.
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I told God to forget about me. I told God I didn't want
anything to do with them anymore.
I think at that time God showed me what life would be without
him, and at that time something decided to ride along with me.
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And I'll explain that during that time, I had decided that I
wanted to kill myself. I felt like there was no other
way to live my life except to kill myself.
Now, being a hardcore Catholic, I couldn't do it because I would
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automatically go to hell. So I found a loophole.
Or at least, you know, I thoughtI was thinking I found a
loophole. I mean, give me a break.
I was 20, OK? I decided that I was going to go
to clubs, to places where I could get in trouble and
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somebody would hate me so much that they would kill me.
This led me on a road to pure evil hatred.
I hated the world, I hated my life, I hated people.
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I didn't want anything to do with anybody except cause pain.
I slept around with women, I broke up marriages, I did
everything I could. And to me right now that I'm
talking about, it sounds like what a demon would do, which is
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why I think I saw the demon thatwas in me.
He wasn't possessing me, he was just with me.
And I'll explain that here in a minute.
So during that time, like I said, I met a lot of people that
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were considered evil, that had been in and out of prisons.
I had met a lot of gang members,motorcycle gang members.
I don't want to pinpoint anyone because I don't want any
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repercussions to come back to meand I don't want to spill any of
the secrets or anything. But let's just say this.
I used to hang out with a guy inMexico, and we're talking Mexico
in. I would go through Laredo and
then I would go to Boys Boys Town and I would hang out with a
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certain guy who let's say was associated and I would hang out
with him so much that I've, I saw a lot of things with him.
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Let's just say that after a couple of years of doing that,
that's when the cartel war started and he told me not to go
back to Mexico anymore. And I didn't.
I stayed in Texas, but I was still creating havoc.
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So any chance that I got, I would hurt anyone.
And I'm going to be honest with you guys.
I would talk to, let's say, because I was a bartender, and
if there was a woman with her husband and they're sitting at a
booth, I would go up to them and, you know, give them drinks
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or whatever. And then I would go back to my
bar. And when the woman would get up
to go to the bathroom, I would go up to the guy and ask him,
hey, is that your wife or your girlfriend?
Now, here in San Antonio, uh, we're a very machismo city.
Like, you don't talk to a man's wife or girlfriend.
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You don't approach a man's wife or girlfriend.
You approach the man if you wantto ask him something about his
woman, 'cause if not, it's disrespectful.
So what I would do sometimes is I would go and talk to the guy
and say, hey, is that your wife,your husband?
They would be like, yeah, what the fuck?
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And I would be like, hey bro, I'm sorry, but I saw her in here
with another guy. That was enough for the guy to
start fighting with his wife andeventually he would leave and I
would pick her up. In my head I had convinced
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myself that if they were faithful, trusting, loving
couple, then he would have trusted enough that I was lying
instead of thinking she was. He was trusting a stranger
instead of his wife or girlfriend that he loved.
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That's how I used to justify manipulating people and lying to
people. So while I was on this, it
lasted a few years and one day Iwas at a bar, I was drinking.
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I get picked up by a woman. I go outside to the parking lot
and her husband's waiting for me.
Now this isn't your typical thing, but the husband wanted me
to have sex with her while he watched and I didn't care about
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it. I said sure.
He even paid for the hotel room.This was a couple that thought
that they were in charge of me. By the end of the night, they
were scared of me and they were out of control.
I had all the control and half the time I didn't even know what
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the fuck I was doing. But it was me.
I'm not trying to deny it. I'm not trying to put, you know,
any type of whatever into it. I admit I did it and I am so
sorry for that. But if it wasn't for that night,
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I walked into the bathroom aftertheir fear in the eyes after
their they were really afraid ofme.
I walked into the bathroom and Iwashed my face off and in the
mirror I see on my chest like a portal and in the middle of that
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portal as a demon or or at leastthat's what I called it because
it was ugly. And it was sitting and it looked
to me as if it was laughing and it didn't feel like it was in
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control. It felt like it was feeding off
of what I was doing. And at that minute, I knew that
I had hit my lowest. And if I was feeding a demon,
then I was even lower than a demon was because he didn't have
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to do anything. He didn't have to talk in my
ear. He didn't have to, you know,
oppress me, obsess me. He didn't have to do nothing.
I did it all on my own. And I and I take full
responsibility for that. But that day it changed me and I
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started going back to church andand I'm not a a religious person
by all means, because I've had my incidents with people that
say they're of the cloth or people that say that they're
preachers or pastors or whateverthey want to call themselves
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because all men sin for me. Don't don't, you know, don't get
me wrong, I don't, I don't want you to change your philosophies.
I don't want to change your lifeor anything.
You believe who you believe you,you.
If you feel comforted, that's you.
Personally, I've been in situations with priests that and
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I wasn't molested, don't get me wrong, but where they did
something wrong that I thought they should have been doing
something right. And I realized that these are
just men with flaws like everybody else.
So I started following the Bible.
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I started reading it for myself and I started believing that
anyone who reads the Bible, you're going to get different
messages from it every time you read it.
And not only that, but you're also going to get different
messages than what people preachabout.
I suggest reading the Bible for yourself.
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You get something different every time.
You never stop learning. Please listen to that.
You never stop learning. You'll continue continually be
learning in life. So this is what I'm telling you
when I saw that demon and I didn't think like, I've never
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told anybody about it. I, I recently opened up about it
to two people. 1 was my sister and the second one was a police
officer here in Live Oak. Now he said something to me that
really opened my eyes. He asked me, why do you think
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you saw that demon? And I had never really thought
about it. I always thought maybe it just
forgot to hide from me. But he told me this and it
really opened my eyes. He said, don't you think that
God let you see that demon, ThatGod opened your eyes so that you
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can see what you were doing? So after I started my
spirituality, I started recovering my life.
Now recently I've been doing this show and this is for me.
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This is those demons that wantedme from the beginning, the one
that was sitting in my chest coming back to stop me from
talking on this show. Now there's some things that I'm
going to talk about that I've probably talked about before,
and I know I've said them before, but I'm going to say it
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for people that don't remember or don't have never listened,
but I do security for different companies.
I have a security company and I had employees up until COVID,
and COVID affected everybody. It even affected the demons,
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believe it or not. There's patterns where the
demons stop in 2020. So now I was working, keeping
homeless people away from a building.
And there was a guy there and I have seen him before and he's
kind of a angry person. And I, you know, would expect
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him to cuss me out to to say things about me.
And, and it doesn't bother me. The thing that bothered me was
when he was walking away, he said Hell, Satan.
This was the first time I had ever heard that.
And he said it twice. Hell, Satan.
Hell, Satan, I didn't think muchof it, you know, And so a week
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goes by, there's a different homeless man.
And this is there's a black man that I had seen a lot of times
and we talked several times and he would always, you know, just
get up and walk away. And the only reason I'm, I'm
saying that he was a black guy is because, and no offense,
guys, honestly, white people I can see saying hell Satan,
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because a lot of these crimes, whenever there's somebody that
is a devil worshipper, it's always a white kid.
And I feel so bad for that. But I've never heard black
people talk about Satan in any kind of way, you know?
And so this guy when he was walking away and he was very
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quiet and said thank you and walked off.
But then he said hail Satan, hell, Satan.
And it got, it kind of freaked me out.
And if you listen to my shows back in the day, you'll hear me
talk about it because it really did affect me.
It really did freak me out and it almost made me want to stop
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doing the show. So then some time goes by and my
brother's best friend who was the sweetest, nicest guy ever.
This guy wouldn't hurt a family.I hear that he broke down a door
to his house to get to his wife and he was trying to kill her.
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The police were there when he was trying to break down the
door and they tased him two or three times and the Taser had no
effect on him and then they ended up shooting him and
killing him. These are the podcasts that I do
things like that. That freaked me out because that
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was hitting closer to home for me.
Now recently, I in my spare time, if somebody asks and it's
got to be something that I can do.
OK, let me explain investigations.
I'm an investigator and I don't usually take cases from just
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anybody. I don't take cheating wife
cheating husbands Man, that breaks my heart.
I hate that. I hate when I find that a woman
is cheating on her husband or I find that a man is cheating on
his wife. I do not do cheating wife
cheating husband cases period. But I do cold case files.
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If a family reaches out, I do missing persons.
If a family reaches out, I do cases that the police have
already filed. Not a crime, because I try to
find a crime that's involved in it.
And I'll be honest with you. If there is not a crime, I'm
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going to tell the family that the police are right.
If there is, I'm going to say there is.
You know, I'm very truthful about what I do.
So I got a call from a friend who wanted me to look into some
cases that they believed was a serial killer.
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Now this person has been drowning people in a lake, and
I'm just going to say that. And also they came to my
hometown, that serial killer anddrowned somebody in a lake.
So while I'm trying to find a pattern for that, and I'm not
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talking about the show, I'm not talking about spirituality.
I'm talking about a real true killer.
And I'm trying to find the casesthat fit a pattern because some
of them are accidental drownings, some of them are not.
And the ones that I believe are certain ones belong to 1 serial
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killer. And there's another one.
The belong belongs to a second one.
Now keep in mind those cases arereal.
My other cases that I do on thisshow are real.
But I find the spirituality. There was a crime that my friend
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sent me a message about. A guy tried to drive his car
into the lake here in San Antonio.
It's called Woodlawn Lake. I've done shows where a parent
has tried to drive into the ocean.
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I've done shows where a person or I'm going to do a show where
a person drives off a Cliff. Now this guy, this woman that
drove into the ocean, you know, they said she looked possessed.
This guy tries to drive into thelake and doesn't make it in,
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gets out of his car. The police start asking him, are
you OK? Are you OK?
He gets out, takes out a knife, starts charging her and she
shoots them dead. What are the chances of me
looking into a serial killer that drowns people And now
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there's a guy that tries to drive his car into the lake,
gets out, doesn't answer any questions, goes straight to the
police and gets shot dead? I've done shows like that
before. Guys, we're talking.
This lake from where I live is probably a good 5 minutes away.
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Now if that's not enough, I havethese when I'm talking to
somebody that is spiritual that I know is a believer in God.
Just like right now I'm trying to talk to you.
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My mouth dries up to the point where I cannot talk anymore.
This happened 2 days ago. Alright let me let me go back to
to four days ago. There was a homeless man who
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came by my property and he was throwing rocks in the middle of
the road and I didn't want him throwing rocks at my property.
So I was following him at a gooddistance and not, you know,
provoking him or nothing, just keeping an eye on him.
When he crossed the street to myproperty, I got out of my car.
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I walked up to him. I asked him if he was OK.
I'm never rude, never mean, never say a bad word about
anybody. I asked him if he was OK.
He said no, he had lost his phone, he was acting erratic.
He is mentally not well and I can tell that, and he's a
homeless guy. But he mentioned God.
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So what I did when he mentioned God, I said let's pray.
And I don't ever do this, guys. Honestly, I don't even know
where that came from because I don't know how to do prayers out
of the blue. You know, like there's a lot of
good Christians that they can pray on the spot about, you
know, anything. I can't do that, but I did.
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And he gave me a hug, and he walked off, and he was fine.
OK. This was on a Saturday.
Then I saw him again day before last, which was Sunday.
Thursday, he was walking by, andsomething told me to get out of
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the car and go talk to him, which I did.
And I asked him if everything was going good.
And he said, yeah, you know, it's OK, It's better now.
He goes, I'm not, you know, feeling like I was.
He goes, I really thank you for the prayer.
He actually remembered. And I don't know what it was in
me. And I've told you before maybe
that I wear a rosary around my neck.
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And it's not that I'm praying tothe rosary, but it it's a
reminder around my neck of my faith because sometimes I
forget, to be honest with you. And it's not like I go out and
party and have fun and I forget.It's like whenever I do these
shows, something clouds my mind and I forget.
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So my rosary is a constant reminder of my faith in God and
that God is there. So when I approached them and we
were talking, I don't know what it was that, OK, let me tell
you, it was God, plain and simple.
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God had not told me, but it was like a feeling that I needed to
give him my rosary. So I gave it to him straight off
the bat. I swear to you, this was my
protection. This was my everything.
This was part of me. And it just, I was giving it to
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him in my mind. I was thinking, you're giving up
your protection. Don't, don't do that.
What are you doing? But I felt like I had to.
And I did. And I gave it to him and I he
put it around his neck and I putit next to his skin under his
shirt. And I told him do not take that
off now. He thanked me, we hugged.
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We were both crying. It was it was it was nuts, OK?
We're both crying, you know, I told him to be safe.
You know, I love you, brother. You know, you need something.
I'm here. He was crying.
He was telling me thank you. I was saying you're a person.
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Remember that. And don't ever feel alone.
So that was on Thursday. OK, we're on Saturday right now.
I'm sorry because we're doing this podcast, but Thursday, that
happened Friday. Now before I jump to Friday,
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Thursday, as soon as I gave him my rosary, I got online on my
phone and I was looking to buy anew rosary And I, I just kept
flipping through everything and everything and everything and I
couldn't find anything that spoke to me.
And I was like, Jesus, please, Lord, you know, I need a rosary.
My daughter lent me hers that I had given her and I wanted to
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give it back to her because it'sbeen good to her and I don't
want to keep her unsafe, but I need it as well.
And I started asking God that same night, you know, I need to
find a rosary. And then all of a sudden I just,
I stopped. So comes Friday, which is the
next day, I get to work, a friend calls me from New Mexico
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and we start talking. And then out of the blue, he
offered me a rosary. And I said, what?
He goes, yeah, I have a rosary here, do you want it?
And I said, dude, send me a picture.
And he sent me the picture and Isaw it and I immediately new
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that's my rosary. I need that rosary, that's mine.
Can you send it to me? He said, yeah, of course,
brother. And I told him the story of what
was going on. And he said, oh, my God, he
goes, wow, God works fast. I said, yeah, he does.
Now, while I'm trying to tell you this story because he sent
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it to me, I haven't got it yet. I'll be receiving it in this
week. I've been talking to him and to
another friend of mine about this situations and things and
God and spirituality and while I'm talking to you as well, my
mouth has been going dry as fuck.
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Like I couldn't talk to my friend Joe without drinking
water. I'm can't talk to you guys right
now without drinking water. I don't know what it is.
And I'm thinking, whatever it is, it's trying to shut me up
because it doesn't want me to talk about this.
And that's why I'm telling you about this, because I think the
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more that people hear about it, the less it's going to try to
shut me up because I've already told the world.
I was telling my friend earlier before he left from work.
My mouth had gotten so dry that my tongue was sticking to the
top of the roof of my mouth. That's how dry my mouth got.
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And he was looking at me like, dude, your, you, your mouth
looks so fucking dry. He goes your, your lips look
like they're cracking. And I said, you know what?
It's whatever. Doesn't want me to talk to you
about this. And he agreed.
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And he's like, look, James, justgo get water.
I'm going to I'm going to go ahead and go home.
He goes, this is, you know, wow.So as I drove away from him, my
my tongue, my mouth, everything got back to normal.
And that's when I thought, you know what, guys, I need to tell
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you these stories. I need to tell you about my
life. I need to tell you about what
I'm going through to do this show for you guys because I'm
learning Jesus, I'm learning a lot, and God is just pouring
knowledge and I want to pour knowledge to everybody else.
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Like I said, this was about me, this was about my life.
This is about my truth. This is what I feel like I have
to talk about, and I'm not trying to change anybody's mind.
I'm not trying to talk anybody out of anything.
I'm not trying to pitch that, oh, everybody's going to hell or
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everybody's going to heaven or whatever.
I don't know. All I'm telling you is from my
point of view, what happened in my life, where I'm coming from,
why I do the show and why I believe in demons.
And the reason I'm doing it now is because I told you my name.
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Yes, John Venom is my name for this podcast, but my real name
is James Porter. And when my friend suggested to
do a show on myself, 'cause she's like, how would you like
it if somebody said the demon inside James Porter?
Since that time, it's been weighing on my mind, weighing on
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my mind. And now I, I thought, you know
what, now's the time to tell you.
I want to tell you the things that I have been going through
to do this podcast because whether you believe in evil or
demons or whatever, I've had a lot of things giving me
warnings, guys. And now I have something that's
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trying to shut me up. Now that I've told you the story
of everything, my mouth is not dry anymore.
I mean, I've been drinking water.
Don't get me wrong, I've been drinking water, but it's still
been dry up until this point because I'm done.
I'm done talking to you about this, about the spirituality,
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about God, about the gifts, about everything that's going
on. I just want to thank you guys
for listening. I hope you do listen to this
one. This is something that I needed
to do for myself and I'm glad you guys listened to it.
I hope it makes sense, and I hope I talk to you and I hope
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everything in your life is goingwell.
Because right now, I mean, we'rein a spiritual battle, not like
Michael Yugagu, but it's always affecting every single one of
us. And we have to keep our guard up
because these things will come in and they'll feed off of
whatever you give them. And you sure as hell don't want
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to wake up in the morning in a hotel with a couple that is
afraid of you. Go into the bathroom and look at
yourself and a demon that's sitting there laughing because
he's enjoying every little thingthat you're doing to people.
Thanks for listening guys. I'll talk to y'all next week.
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a week. Hello my demon Insiders, and
welcome back to The Demon Inside.
I'm your host, John Venom, and today we are going to be talking
about The Demon Inside and JamesPorter.
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That's right, this is going to be a show about me.
Now the reason I'm doing this isbecause I have been affected by
demons pretty much my whole lifeand I'm not losing my mind and
I'm not seeing demons everywhereand I'm not hallucinating and
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I'm not taking drugs or anythinglike that.
I'm a sound mind and body. But again, as I've told you
before, as a spiritual person, I've seen things and I'm going
to explain a lot of things and I'm going to talk to you about
what caused me to believe in demons.
Now, if you're a true crime fan,there's some stuff that's going
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to be OK talking to you guys about, you know, like past
things that I've done. But for the most part, this is
going to be like more of a spiritual.
I'm not going to be a religious jealous, whatever.
Like, I'm not going to preach toyou, but I am going to tell you
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how I got to be who I am now. And I've talked to people about
my life and some have said I should do it on my show.
So here is my truth. In 1990, I in 89, actually I
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graduated high school and joinedthe military.
And in 90, I left for the Philippines.
This would would have been rightafter May.
So it was June when I was there.I had a couple of occurrences.
Now let me tell you, before then, when I was growing up, I
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believed in demons, I believed in spirits.
I believed in a lot of things that people wouldn't believe.
I've seen ghosts, I've heard them speak, I've seen demons in
the presence of evil. I know a lot of people don't
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believe in stuff like this, especially as a kid because you
know, the kids imaginations. When we stop believing, it
doesn't mean that it doesn't exist.
And for me, I had to accept whatwas real because it happened on
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a daily occurrence. me and I canonly speak for me.
And I know my siblings have toldme, my mother has told me, even
though they tried to say it didn't happen.
But when they're honest with me,they say it did.
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We grew up in a house with a hardcore Catholic foundation,
but my father was an alcoholic who liked to abuse my mom and us
as kids. My mother, traditionally she was
a strong woman, but in that timeshe was supposed to give in to
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her husband. They didn't believe in divorce,
they didn't believe in separation.
So we had to endure everything that happened to us.
And for me, I got it a little bit extra because my father
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never thought I was his. Even though my mother was a very
devoted wife, she never had sex with any other man.
But my father was a womanizer, and since he would cheat, he
thought that she would cheat even though she never left the
house. How could she, you know?
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So for me, growing up, my fatherwas only my provider.
There wasn't a real connection. There wasn't fatherly advice,
things like that. And it, you know, and it's OK
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with me now as an adult, I have no ill will towards my father
and he passed away a while back.So when I joined the military,
there was a couple of incidents and I can't bring those up
because it's a very touchy thing.
But up until that point, up until I joined the military,
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everything that was evil to me was the things that I couldn't
see but I could feel, I could sense.
I could. I knew when there was things in
my room. I knew when they were invading
my dreams. I knew when they would mess with
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me. And so I didn't know how to
control. It's a big thing now everybody,
everybody and anybody says they do it.
But back, this was back in the in early 90s, eighties, you
know, when I was a kid, it was in the 70s, nobody talked about
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seeing ghosts, nobody talked about hearing ghosts.
There was hardly any mention of spirituality or or anything like
that. So when I was in the military,
like I said, I started seeing seeing evil in people and it was
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new to me. While I was going through that I
was going through my own problems with my ex-wife.
I've only been married once and been divorced once.
It wasn't that I didn't have opportunities to get married,
but I was so hurt from my first marriage because she took my
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child that I never wanted to be with a woman that wanted a child
because I was afraid I would lose my child again.
But five years after we got divorced, I became a single dad
because she gave up my daughter and gave her to me.
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If that wouldn't have happened, my life would wouldn't have
changed for the better. And I'm going to talk to you
about what happened within thosefive years that I didn't have my
kid, when I lost, when I got divorced, my ex-wife the next
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day remarried and they moved andI didn't know where they were.
I couldn't find them, uh, for three months.
And I felt lost. I was young, I was heartbroken.
I was beat up and I was mad. And I had a hatred.
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And that hatred led me to the church that I've always been to.
And I stood in front of the altar.
Like I said, I'm Catholic. And I stood in front of the
altar where the cross is with Jesus Christ.
And I was so upset. I told God that I hated him.
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I told God to forget about me. I told God I didn't want
anything to do with them anymore.
I think at that time God showed me what life would be without
him, and at that time something decided to ride along with me.
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And I'll explain that during that time, I had decided that I
wanted to kill myself. I felt like there was no other
way to live my life except to kill myself.
Now, being a hardcore Catholic, I couldn't do it because I would
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automatically go to hell. So I found a loophole.
Or at least, you know, I thoughtI was thinking I found a
loophole. I mean, give me a break.
I was 20, OK? I decided that I was going to go
to clubs, to places where I could get in trouble and
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somebody would hate me so much that they would kill me.
This led me on a road to pure evil hatred.
I hated the world, I hated my life, I hated people.
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I didn't want anything to do with anybody except cause pain.
I slept around with women, I broke up marriages, I did
everything I could. And to me right now that I'm
talking about, it sounds like what a demon would do, which is
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why I think I saw the demon thatwas in me.
He wasn't possessing me, he was just with me.
And I'll explain that here in a minute.
So during that time, like I said, I met a lot of people that
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were considered evil, that had been in and out of prisons.
I had met a lot of gang members,motorcycle gang members.
I don't want to pinpoint anyone because I don't want any
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repercussions to come back to meand I don't want to spill any of
the secrets or anything. But let's just say this.
I used to hang out with a guy inMexico, and we're talking Mexico
in. I would go through Laredo and
then I would go to Boys Boys Town and I would hang out with a
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certain guy who let's say was associated and I would hang out
with him so much that I've, I saw a lot of things with him.
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Let's just say that after a couple of years of doing that,
that's when the cartel war started and he told me not to go
back to Mexico anymore. And I didn't.
I stayed in Texas, but I was still creating havoc.
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So any chance that I got, I would hurt anyone.
And I'm going to be honest with you guys.
I would talk to, let's say, because I was a bartender, and
if there was a woman with her husband and they're sitting at a
booth, I would go up to them and, you know, give them drinks
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or whatever. And then I would go back to my
bar. And when the woman would get up
to go to the bathroom, I would go up to the guy and ask him,
hey, is that your wife or your girlfriend?
Now, here in San Antonio, uh, we're a very machismo city.
Like, you don't talk to a man's wife or girlfriend.
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You don't approach a man's wife or girlfriend.
You approach the man if you wantto ask him something about his
woman, 'cause if not, it's disrespectful.
So what I would do sometimes is I would go and talk to the guy
and say, hey, is that your wife,your husband?
They would be like, yeah, what the fuck?
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And I would be like, hey bro, I'm sorry, but I saw her in here
with another guy. That was enough for the guy to
start fighting with his wife andeventually he would leave and I
would pick her up. In my head I had convinced
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myself that if they were faithful, trusting, loving
couple, then he would have trusted enough that I was lying
instead of thinking she was. He was trusting a stranger
instead of his wife or girlfriend that he loved.
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That's how I used to justify manipulating people and lying to
people. So while I was on this, it
lasted a few years and one day Iwas at a bar, I was drinking.
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I get picked up by a woman. I go outside to the parking lot
and her husband's waiting for me.
Now this isn't your typical thing, but the husband wanted me
to have sex with her while he watched and I didn't care about
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it. I said sure.
He even paid for the hotel room.This was a couple that thought
that they were in charge of me. By the end of the night, they
were scared of me and they were out of control.
I had all the control and half the time I didn't even know what
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the fuck I was doing. But it was me.
I'm not trying to deny it. I'm not trying to put, you know,
any type of whatever into it. I admit I did it and I am so
sorry for that. But if it wasn't for that night,
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I walked into the bathroom aftertheir fear in the eyes after
their they were really afraid ofme.
I walked into the bathroom and Iwashed my face off and in the
mirror I see on my chest like a portal and in the middle of that
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portal as a demon or or at leastthat's what I called it because
it was ugly. And it was sitting and it looked
to me as if it was laughing and it didn't feel like it was in
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control. It felt like it was feeding off
of what I was doing. And at that minute, I knew that
I had hit my lowest. And if I was feeding a demon,
then I was even lower than a demon was because he didn't have
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to do anything. He didn't have to talk in my
ear. He didn't have to, you know,
oppress me, obsess me. He didn't have to do nothing.
I did it all on my own. And I and I take full
responsibility for that. But that day it changed me and I
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started going back to church andand I'm not a a religious person
by all means, because I've had my incidents with people that
say they're of the cloth or people that say that they're
preachers or pastors or whateverthey want to call themselves
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because all men sin for me. Don't don't, you know, don't get
me wrong, I don't, I don't want you to change your philosophies.
I don't want to change your lifeor anything.
You believe who you believe you,you.
If you feel comforted, that's you.
Personally, I've been in situations with priests that and
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I wasn't molested, don't get me wrong, but where they did
something wrong that I thought they should have been doing
something right. And I realized that these are
just men with flaws like everybody else.
So I started following the Bible.
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I started reading it for myself and I started believing that
anyone who reads the Bible, you're going to get different
messages from it every time you read it.
And not only that, but you're also going to get different
messages than what people preachabout.
I suggest reading the Bible for yourself.
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You get something different every time.
You never stop learning. Please listen to that.
You never stop learning. You'll continue continually be
learning in life. So this is what I'm telling you
when I saw that demon and I didn't think like, I've never
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told anybody about it. I, I recently opened up about it
to two people. 1 was my sister and the second one was a police
officer here in Live Oak. Now he said something to me that
really opened my eyes. He asked me, why do you think
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you saw that demon? And I had never really thought
about it. I always thought maybe it just
forgot to hide from me. But he told me this and it
really opened my eyes. He said, don't you think that
God let you see that demon, ThatGod opened your eyes so that you
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can see what you were doing? So after I started my
spirituality, I started recovering my life.
Now recently I've been doing this show and this is for me.
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This is those demons that wantedme from the beginning, the one
that was sitting in my chest coming back to stop me from
talking on this show. Now there's some things that I'm
going to talk about that I've probably talked about before,
and I know I've said them before, but I'm going to say it
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for people that don't remember or don't have never listened,
but I do security for different companies.
I have a security company and I had employees up until COVID,
and COVID affected everybody. It even affected the demons,
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believe it or not. There's patterns where the
demons stop in 2020. So now I was working, keeping
homeless people away from a building.
And there was a guy there and I have seen him before and he's
kind of a angry person. And I, you know, would expect
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him to cuss me out to to say things about me.
And, and it doesn't bother me. The thing that bothered me was
when he was walking away, he said Hell, Satan.
This was the first time I had ever heard that.
And he said it twice. Hell, Satan.
Hell, Satan, I didn't think muchof it, you know, And so a week
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goes by, there's a different homeless man.
And this is there's a black man that I had seen a lot of times
and we talked several times and he would always, you know, just
get up and walk away. And the only reason I'm, I'm
saying that he was a black guy is because, and no offense,
guys, honestly, white people I can see saying hell Satan,
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because a lot of these crimes, whenever there's somebody that
is a devil worshipper, it's always a white kid.
And I feel so bad for that. But I've never heard black
people talk about Satan in any kind of way, you know?
And so this guy when he was walking away and he was very
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quiet and said thank you and walked off.
But then he said hail Satan, hell, Satan.
And it got, it kind of freaked me out.
And if you listen to my shows back in the day, you'll hear me
talk about it because it really did affect me.
It really did freak me out and it almost made me want to stop
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doing the show. So then some time goes by and my
brother's best friend who was the sweetest, nicest guy ever.
This guy wouldn't hurt a family.I hear that he broke down a door
to his house to get to his wife and he was trying to kill her.
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The police were there when he was trying to break down the
door and they tased him two or three times and the Taser had no
effect on him and then they ended up shooting him and
killing him. These are the podcasts that I do
things like that. That freaked me out because that
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was hitting closer to home for me.
Now recently, I in my spare time, if somebody asks and it's
got to be something that I can do.
OK, let me explain investigations.
I'm an investigator and I don't usually take cases from just
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anybody. I don't take cheating wife
cheating husbands Man, that breaks my heart.
I hate that. I hate when I find that a woman
is cheating on her husband or I find that a man is cheating on
his wife. I do not do cheating wife
cheating husband cases period. But I do cold case files.
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If a family reaches out, I do missing persons.
If a family reaches out, I do cases that the police have
already filed. Not a crime, because I try to
find a crime that's involved in it.
And I'll be honest with you. If there is not a crime, I'm
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going to tell the family that the police are right.
If there is, I'm going to say there is.
You know, I'm very truthful about what I do.
So I got a call from a friend who wanted me to look into some
cases that they believed was a serial killer.
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Now this person has been drowning people in a lake, and
I'm just going to say that. And also they came to my
hometown, that serial killer anddrowned somebody in a lake.
So while I'm trying to find a pattern for that, and I'm not
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talking about the show, I'm not talking about spirituality.
I'm talking about a real true killer.
And I'm trying to find the casesthat fit a pattern because some
of them are accidental drownings, some of them are not.
And the ones that I believe are certain ones belong to 1 serial
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killer. And there's another one.
The belong belongs to a second one.
Now keep in mind those cases arereal.
My other cases that I do on thisshow are real.
But I find the spirituality. There was a crime that my friend
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sent me a message about. A guy tried to drive his car
into the lake here in San Antonio.
It's called Woodlawn Lake. I've done shows where a parent
has tried to drive into the ocean.
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I've done shows where a person or I'm going to do a show where
a person drives off a Cliff. Now this guy, this woman that
drove into the ocean, you know, they said she looked possessed.
This guy tries to drive into thelake and doesn't make it in,
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gets out of his car. The police start asking him, are
you OK? Are you OK?
He gets out, takes out a knife, starts charging her and she
shoots them dead. What are the chances of me
looking into a serial killer that drowns people And now
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there's a guy that tries to drive his car into the lake,
gets out, doesn't answer any questions, goes straight to the
police and gets shot dead? I've done shows like that
before. Guys, we're talking.
This lake from where I live is probably a good 5 minutes away.
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Now if that's not enough, I havethese when I'm talking to
somebody that is spiritual that I know is a believer in God.
Just like right now I'm trying to talk to you.
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My mouth dries up to the point where I cannot talk anymore.
This happened 2 days ago. Alright let me let me go back to
to four days ago. There was a homeless man who
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came by my property and he was throwing rocks in the middle of
the road and I didn't want him throwing rocks at my property.
So I was following him at a gooddistance and not, you know,
provoking him or nothing, just keeping an eye on him.
When he crossed the street to myproperty, I got out of my car.
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I walked up to him. I asked him if he was OK.
I'm never rude, never mean, never say a bad word about
anybody. I asked him if he was OK.
He said no, he had lost his phone, he was acting erratic.
He is mentally not well and I can tell that, and he's a
homeless guy. But he mentioned God.
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So what I did when he mentioned God, I said let's pray.
And I don't ever do this, guys. Honestly, I don't even know
where that came from because I don't know how to do prayers out
of the blue. You know, like there's a lot of
good Christians that they can pray on the spot about, you
know, anything. I can't do that, but I did.
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And he gave me a hug, and he walked off, and he was fine.
OK. This was on a Saturday.
Then I saw him again day before last, which was Sunday.
Thursday, he was walking by, andsomething told me to get out of
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the car and go talk to him, which I did.
And I asked him if everything was going good.
And he said, yeah, you know, it's OK, It's better now.
He goes, I'm not, you know, feeling like I was.
He goes, I really thank you for the prayer.
He actually remembered. And I don't know what it was in
me. And I've told you before maybe
that I wear a rosary around my neck.
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And it's not that I'm praying tothe rosary, but it it's a
reminder around my neck of my faith because sometimes I
forget, to be honest with you. And it's not like I go out and
party and have fun and I forget.It's like whenever I do these
shows, something clouds my mind and I forget.
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So my rosary is a constant reminder of my faith in God and
that God is there. So when I approached them and we
were talking, I don't know what it was that, OK, let me tell
you, it was God, plain and simple.
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God had not told me, but it was like a feeling that I needed to
give him my rosary. So I gave it to him straight off
the bat. I swear to you, this was my
protection. This was my everything.
This was part of me. And it just, I was giving it to
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him in my mind. I was thinking, you're giving up
your protection. Don't, don't do that.
What are you doing? But I felt like I had to.
And I did. And I gave it to him and I he
put it around his neck and I putit next to his skin under his
shirt. And I told him do not take that
off now. He thanked me, we hugged.
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We were both crying. It was it was it was nuts, OK?
We're both crying, you know, I told him to be safe.
You know, I love you, brother. You know, you need something.
I'm here. He was crying.
He was telling me thank you. I was saying you're a person.
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Remember that. And don't ever feel alone.
So that was on Thursday. OK, we're on Saturday right now.
I'm sorry because we're doing this podcast, but Thursday, that
happened Friday. Now before I jump to Friday,
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Thursday, as soon as I gave him my rosary, I got online on my
phone and I was looking to buy anew rosary And I, I just kept
flipping through everything and everything and everything and I
couldn't find anything that spoke to me.
And I was like, Jesus, please, Lord, you know, I need a rosary.
My daughter lent me hers that I had given her and I wanted to
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give it back to her because it'sbeen good to her and I don't
want to keep her unsafe, but I need it as well.
And I started asking God that same night, you know, I need to
find a rosary. And then all of a sudden I just,
I stopped. So comes Friday, which is the
next day, I get to work, a friend calls me from New Mexico
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and we start talking. And then out of the blue, he
offered me a rosary. And I said, what?
He goes, yeah, I have a rosary here, do you want it?
And I said, dude, send me a picture.
And he sent me the picture and Isaw it and I immediately new
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that's my rosary. I need that rosary, that's mine.
Can you send it to me? He said, yeah, of course,
brother. And I told him the story of what
was going on. And he said, oh, my God, he
goes, wow, God works fast. I said, yeah, he does.
Now, while I'm trying to tell you this story because he sent
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it to me, I haven't got it yet. I'll be receiving it in this
week. I've been talking to him and to
another friend of mine about this situations and things and
God and spirituality and while I'm talking to you as well, my
mouth has been going dry as fuck.
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Like I couldn't talk to my friend Joe without drinking
water. I'm can't talk to you guys right
now without drinking water. I don't know what it is.
And I'm thinking, whatever it is, it's trying to shut me up
because it doesn't want me to talk about this.
And that's why I'm telling you about this, because I think the
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more that people hear about it, the less it's going to try to
shut me up because I've already told the world.
I was telling my friend earlier before he left from work.
My mouth had gotten so dry that my tongue was sticking to the
top of the roof of my mouth. That's how dry my mouth got.
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And he was looking at me like, dude, your, you, your mouth
looks so fucking dry. He goes your, your lips look
like they're cracking. And I said, you know what?
It's whatever. Doesn't want me to talk to you
about this. And he agreed.
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And he's like, look, James, justgo get water.
I'm going to I'm going to go ahead and go home.
He goes, this is, you know, wow.So as I drove away from him, my
my tongue, my mouth, everything got back to normal.
And that's when I thought, you know what, guys, I need to tell
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you these stories. I need to tell you about my
life. I need to tell you about what
I'm going through to do this show for you guys because I'm
learning Jesus, I'm learning a lot, and God is just pouring
knowledge and I want to pour knowledge to everybody else.
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Like I said, this was about me, this was about my life.
This is about my truth. This is what I feel like I have
to talk about, and I'm not trying to change anybody's mind.
I'm not trying to talk anybody out of anything.
I'm not trying to pitch that, oh, everybody's going to hell or
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everybody's going to heaven or whatever.
I don't know. All I'm telling you is from my
point of view, what happened in my life, where I'm coming from,
why I do the show and why I believe in demons.
And the reason I'm doing it now is because I told you my name.
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Yes, John Venom is my name for this podcast, but my real name
is James Porter. And when my friend suggested to
do a show on myself, 'cause she's like, how would you like
it if somebody said the demon inside James Porter?
Since that time, it's been weighing on my mind, weighing on
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my mind. And now I, I thought, you know
what, now's the time to tell you.
I want to tell you the things that I have been going through
to do this podcast because whether you believe in evil or
demons or whatever, I've had a lot of things giving me
warnings, guys. And now I have something that's
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trying to shut me up. Now that I've told you the story
of everything, my mouth is not dry anymore.
I mean, I've been drinking water.
Don't get me wrong, I've been drinking water, but it's still
been dry up until this point because I'm done.
I'm done talking to you about this, about the spirituality,
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about God, about the gifts, about everything that's going
on. I just want to thank you guys
for listening. I hope you do listen to this
one. This is something that I needed
to do for myself and I'm glad you guys listened to it.
I hope it makes sense, and I hope I talk to you and I hope
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everything in your life is goingwell.
Because right now, I mean, we'rein a spiritual battle, not like
Michael Yugagu, but it's always affecting every single one of
us. And we have to keep our guard up
because these things will come in and they'll feed off of
whatever you give them. And you sure as hell don't want
(40:40):
to wake up in the morning in a hotel with a couple that is
afraid of you. Go into the bathroom and look at
yourself and a demon that's sitting there laughing because
he's enjoying every little thingthat you're doing to people.
Thanks for listening guys. I'll talk to y'all next week.
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