The Spiritual Warfare Behind Digital Harassment

Have you ever wondered why some people face relentless opposition? What if the attacks against you aren't random but strategic—targeting exactly what threatens darkness most?

Walking through my journey as a targeted individual, I've discovered something profound: opposition often mirrors the significance of your divine calling. The more important your purpose, the more intense the warfare becomes. This episode unpacks the threefold assault many believers face—spiritual, technological, and carnal—revealing how attacks manifest across all dimensions of our existence.

The spiritual realm is where it all begins. Before manifestation in your devices or through human agents, opposition originates in the unseen world. The enemy recognizes spiritual authority long before humans do, targeting what carries heavenly purpose. This explains why certain individuals face extraordinary persecution despite living quiet, purposeful lives. Your spirit provokes something in the spiritual realm, and technology has become the modern battlefield where this ancient warfare plays out.

Technology now serves as a silencing mechanism—a modern muzzle attempting to obstruct divine purpose. From network interference to digital surveillance, these aren't random glitches but coordinated efforts to prevent destiny from unfolding. Meanwhile, human agents (often unconsciously influenced) become instruments of carnal opposition through mockery, slander, and harassment.

The response? Discern what's divine versus distracting. Detach from anything obstructing your assignment. Declare your focus and authority daily. When opposition intensifies, don't retreat—it may be the strongest confirmation you're moving in the right direction.

If you're experiencing unusual opposition in your life, consider what purpose the enemy might be trying to prevent. Share your experiences in the comments, and remember: what was meant to silence you may become your most powerful testimony. The very attacks designed to destroy your purpose will ultimately validate it.

Ever felt like your darkest fears of being watched were actually true? Well, this powerful documentation pulls back the curtain on life as a targeted individual—where privacy becomes fiction and safety an illusion. This series stands as both documentation and resistance—a refusal to be silenced despite overwhelming odds. 

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Episode Transcript

Marie Destinee a La Grand (00:01):
Hello , welcome back to the Dire-Rie
of a Sane Black Woman.
This is Marie, I'm your hostand I will be sharing with you
my experiences as a targetedindividual who has been
cyber-stalked, harassed, amongmany other things and I use the

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term has been very looselybecause it's something that is
still ongoing every single day,morning, noon and night.
So today I wanted to talk aboutthe weight of opposition,
specifically the obstruction ofthe progress of the destined

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state.
What are you destined toaccomplish?
What is your calling?
What has God called you to do?
What is your purpose in life?
And that could be a spiritualpurpose, but it could just be,
um, you know what God has calledyou.
You know, as far as like, whatyour career is Right.
I believe that certain, certainprofessions have, like, divine

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callings because they play sucha special role in our community.
Doctors, lawyers imagine nothaving these people around.
Doctors, lawyers imagine nothaving these people around.
They play very key roles and Ithink you know, when we look at
a calling, there is thespiritual aspect of a calling,

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but there's also the not.
I guess the lay person also hasa calling right To make a
change, to make an impact insociety, and so one of the
things that we see throughoutthe Bible is that, typically,

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those who have a calling ontheir life typically face a lot
of opposition.
That is a definite sign ofdivine calling.
As Creflo Dollar would say, ifthe devil is not messing with
you, you ain't got nothing hewants.
And so I'm not saying that Ilike.

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I like the persecution and theoppression, but, um, I think you
know that's part of the calling, right, um so it, it is what it
is, um so, with that being said, um, when opposition

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intensifies spiritually,technologically and carnally.
So what I wanted to basicallylook at today is not just the
technological aspect of thesespiritual attacks.
Right, I wanted to also look atthe spiritual aspect, because

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things are done or basicallycome to fruition first in the
spiritual realm before they cometo fruition in the natural, and
so my perspective and my beliefis that these digital attacks,
these carnal attacks, are just amanifestation of something that

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was already done in thespiritual realm.
Right, and so, um, that'stwofold.
Right, there's a spiritualcalling.
I believe that God has aspiritual calling, a very
intense spiritual calling on mylife.
It's not something that I everthought that you know my life,
that would be kind of like mypath.

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I always believed in God, but Inever thought that I would ever
be like, have a spiritualcalling on my.
There's that.
And then you have, like, thedemonic realm, the

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principalities, which are alsoin the spiritual realm, and they
can see that calling.
They see that calling that youhave on your life, and so what
happens?
Then they try to obstruct theprogress of the destined state,
and they do that by influencingothers spiritually.
They can inhabit someone, orthey can just basically just

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inspire them to attack you,whether that's technologically
or by carnal means and I saycarnal means and that could be,
you know, through harassing youor what have you.
And I also use the term theycan inspire someone to harass
you, because sometimes peopleare not necessarily possessed by

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a demonic entity or a spirit,and sometimes they're not even,
I would say, bewitched.
I think sometimes they're justinspired by the enemy to do
something.
Sometimes they're just inspiredby the enemy to do something.
I remember when I first startedbecoming aware of these digital

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attacks and everything that washappening to me, and I remember
one pastor.
It was at a church that I usedto attend and he's a, he's a

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prophet, and so, um, he spoke tome and he said what he said
basically, what's happening,anywhere you go, it's going to
happen because, basically,whatever spirit is, whatever
spirit is um inspiring thosepeople or influencing them to
attack you, it's just going tojump into someone else and that
attack is going to happen again.
So it's just.
You know, I think there's anorder here.

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Um, we are spirit, soul andbody, and so, um, sometimes we
have to address things, um fromthe spiritual aspect first, to
address things um from thespiritual aspect first, and then
we can look at the, the naturalright, um, I don't think it's

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either.
Or um, we're super natural, sowe are super and natural, and so
we have to look at things fromboth the super and the natural
realm and um, the super and thenatural realm and um, with that
being said, um, you know, I, Ialso remember the pastor
mentioning to me and at thatpoint I, I had no idea it was
like I was being attacked ortargeted for spiritual reasons.

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He was just like oh, um, areyou being attacked because
you're a Christian or are youbeing targeted because, um,
you're a Christian?
And um, I, I don't.
I don't recall what my responsewas to that, um, I just know
that he had mentioned that to me, that, um, whatever is

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attacking you will follow uh,because it's the spirit that is
basically um influencing thesepeople to attack you.
And so, um, I think I waslooking um to him at that time.
I remember our conversationspecifically, um, I, I was

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actually in a program, in a umin a graduate program.
I went back for my secondmaster's um and um, I was, you
know, being attacked by um, thestudents um in the uh in the
program.
They were basically stalking me, um, harassing me and all of

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that Um.
And so I was thinking, well,you know, I just I don't want to
deal with this.
I am going to maybe either takea break for the semester or
enroll in a different program.
And so, after speaking to him,I actually decided to complete

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the program.
It was a very tough time because, imagine, at the time I was
working full-time, I was in afull-time graduate program at a
very prestigious university andI had to deal with all of this

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harassment, the psychologicalharassment, the cyber attacks
and all this other stuff.
So, and then, you know, thereare other things also, right,
there's other things that'shappening in my natural life as
well, and so it was just, it wasa lot, but I thank God for that

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, because I think that made me alot more resilient and prepared
me for the level of attacksthat I'm getting today, because
since that time I would say it'slike two plus years forward now
it has intensified.
And so when we look at theintensity of an opposition right

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.
So the theme here is that theintensity of an opposition often
mirrors the significance ofsomeone's assignment.
And, look, I'm not saying thatI'm like this special person or
whatever, because I know peopleare just going to try to twist

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my words and they're going tosay, oh, my gosh, she's so full
of herself, she's a narcissist,because, you know, that's the
buzzword that everyone isthrowing around these days.
But I'm just basically sharingmy experience and the pull that
I feel from God through divineinspiration and what the Holy

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Spirit has been basicallydownloading in my spirit, that I
do have a calling and that'swhy, um, I've had such a
difficult life.
You know, um, forget about thecyber harassment and attacks for
now, but, just like, my life asa whole has just been um,
tumultuous Right, um, tumultuousRight, and so, uh, with that

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being said, yeah, um, I dobelieve that God has a special
calling on my life.
Um, and that does not make me anarcissist for saying that.
And um, being confident orassertive doesn't make someone a
narcissist, um, and someonethat is resilient just because
I'm resilient doesn't make me anarcissist, okay, um, that's
just another form of gaslightingand victim blaming.

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Um.
So, in any event, I wanted tokind of look at the three fold
assault that is currentlyoccurring.
We have the spiritual realm,which I mentioned, which then
manifests into the technologicalaspects as well as the carnal

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aspects, which aren't random,right, it's very strategic and
is very is deeply revealing,right, um?
So, with that being said, let'slook at the spiritual realm,
right, so, in the spiritualrealm, we have warfare, we have

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oppression and, um, throughoppression and persecution, we
have, uh, different symptoms, um, that can basically manifest.
That can be confusion, or theenemies attempt to confuse you.
So distraction, um, anxiety,among many other things.

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And when we talk about spiritualwarfare, I just want to say
this as well right, there isspiritual warfare, or spiritual
things that we inherit rightThrough generations, because the
Bible talks about you know,certain things follow people for

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four generations.
So if your forefathers didsomething that you had nothing
to do with.
You may be basically reapingsome of these things, whether
that's good or bad, and you know.
But there are ways to kind ofovercome that spiritually

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through prayer and deliveranceyou can actually overcome that.
So there's that.
So I definitely know that Ihave generational um things that
I need to contend with and thatI'm still praying about, um,
you know, for full and completedeliverance, for um is spiritual

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warfare that basically you'refaced with.
That I want to say, to acertain extent is inevitable
because the enemy will try toattack you because they see that
you have a calling on yourself.
And there's also spiritualwarfare that, because of choices
that we make in life, um, weattract or we call on ourselves.

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And so I can say that myspiritual warfare encompasses
all three because, you know, Ihave the generational um warfare
.
I have the um warfare based onmy calling and then also warfare
based on mistakes, pastmistakes that I've made, whether

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they were, um, you know,unconscious mistakes, uh, just
based out of being naive or justdeliberately.
You know um sinning or um notdoing what I know that I should
be doing, um as, uh, you know,as a child of God.

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So, um, but thanks be to Godthat we have Jesus Christ, we
have the blood of Jesus, right,um, right, we see that in Romans
.
In Romans I believe it's achapter 7 and chapter 8.
I love those two chaptersbecause it really go.

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I mean the entire chapter ofRomans like it, even if we start
from Romans, chapter 5.
I won't be going into that studytoday, but, um, if you look at
it, romans just talks about how,um, romans seven talks about
people struggling with sin and,um, you know what can they do?
Uh, you know they do what theythey don't want to do and what

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they want to do they don't do.
And, like, you know who canbasically uh, save me from this,
this wretched, uh soul and thiswretched body?
And then so it's.
It goes into right, christbasically coming and dying on
the cross for us to fulfill thelaw, and so he hasn't come to

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abolish the law but to uphold it.
So thanks be to God for Christ,who died on the cross for me,
and through his cleansing blood,I can not only have the
absolved of my sins, but I canalso overcome, um, you know,
every attack that has been umthat I have been faced with, um

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today, and so now that brings meinto, that's the technological
aspect.
So, um, again, I said that, um,it first starts spiritually and
then it manifeststechnologically, and so, uh, the
enemy, and that that that's thedevil, just like a generic term

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.
Um, it has been affordedtechnology these days to
basically attack people, um, andmonitor them.
You no longer, you no longerneed, you no longer need a
monitoring spirit in thespiritual realm.
You don't need someone tomonitor someone spiritually, you

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can actually monitor themthrough technology.
And so that has advanced, um,the demonic activity, right?
Um, we even have, and and I'veseen that, and I don't even want
to label it as Christian,because if you're a Christian
and you're doing that, um, andyou're you're, you're, you're,

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you're, you're attributing it toGod, then I think we need to
kind of do some self-reflection.
And again, I'm not, I'm notfinger pointing here or anything
, but I just think that, youknow, sometimes we have to be
careful what we say, that Godtold us and when we know that
it's not God, right.

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So when we talk about, like,the surveillance and monitoring
spirits I've seen online peoplecoming online and that could be,
you know, new age people thatare posting things, whether
they're psychics or anythinglike that saying, oh, I'm seeing

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the cards, or saying this andthat, and I know it's bogus,
because they're using technologyto get that information.
It's not.
They're not getting it fromtheir spirit guide or whomever.
It's the technology that'sgiving them the information.
It's the group chats that'sgiving them the information.
And I've also seen that inquote unquote Christian circles,

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where people are labelingthemselves as prophets and
they're saying God told me, or Iheard the audible voice of God
and God told me this, or Idreamt, I had this dream and God
in the vision, this happenedand it's baloney.

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It's baloney.
They're getting it fromtechnology.
Technology is giving them theinformation.
The group chats that they're inis giving them the information
and they're trying to pass it onas prophecy or um a lit, a
legitimate reading.
And I'm not saying and that'snot to say that there isn't

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legitimate psychics or prophets,right, I believe that there are
legitimate people out therethat actually down, get
downloads from whatever spiritthat they're working with and
they they actually get realinformation.
But we have a lot ofcounterfeits, both in the
Christian realm and other realms, that are trying to pass as if

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they are so spirituallyconnected with God that God is
constantly downloadinginformation to them and they
hear God's audible voice on adaily basis when they know it's
technology, when they know it'stechnology and um, in that

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regard, I can also tie that inwith the spiritual aspect,
because I've seen that beweaponized against me Right.
Um, I've there.
There have been uh, specificchannels quote unquote Christian
channels, um that um quoteunquote prophesize the word of
God and that have been used um,you know, through technology,

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right, they're being fed thisinformation and the group chats
and the technology to basicallyso subliminal messages towards
me and um, so that's kind oflike the technological
manifestation as well as the,the carnal manifestation, which
is human betrayal, uh, betrayal,slander, um resistance,

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harassment, whether it besubliminal or not.
And then you know, thetechnological aspect is
basically um, these people arenow um, these people are now
empowered through technology tostalk, to monitor and to extract
information about you and theycan use that as digital sabotage

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, attempt to basically mock you,attempts to ridicule you.
You know there's um.
I don't want to say a propplacement, I'll say prop
placement, um, prop placement inum certain lives where people
will have certain things intheir background or they'll have
a certain mug with a certain,um you know, figure on it or you
know they'll be wearing aparticular hat or something Um,

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so just different things, tokind of basically again wink at
you and let you know, oh, I, Iknow something Um, or you know,
it's just kind of like an insidebut not so inside joke, uh sort
of thing, and so that's kind oflike an example.
But you know, I I digress Well,maybe not, because I thought it

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was pretty important not onlyto express the three different,
distinct realms that the assaultoccurs in, but also provide
devil through the spiritualrealm.
They have.
Um.
You can kind of say, okay, theyhave a right right.

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So, um, they have a legal rightbecause through, whether it's
um, through generational um, youknow iniquities, or through a
choice that you've made throughsin, or through um, your calling
Um.
Now, through your calling, Iwouldn't necessarily say they

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have like a legal right, butit's sometimes it's just part of
your process as God is pruningyou and preparing you for your
calling Um.
But, that being said, the, the,the, the, the, god is our ransom
right.
So God has ransomed us.
So whatever legal right that,uh, the enemy may be trying to

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claim in the spiritual realm, wehave the right to be free from
that, because God has ransomedus through the blood of Jesus
Christ, right?
So you know, if we repent andif we, um confess our sins and,
um, basically submit to God, um,he will deliver us.

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He will deliver us.
He is faithful to deliver us,and we know that we serve a
faithful God.
He doesn't treat us as our sinsdeserve and he's faithful to us
even when we're not faithful.
And the love of God covers amultitude of sin.
And we know that the blood ofJesus is powerful and that it

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speaks better words than theblood of Abel.
So, anything that can be cryingout against you, any evil altar
that can be crying out againstyou, the blood of Jesus is more
powerful than that.
So, with that being said, so, inthe spiritual realm, through

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spiritual manipulation, we seethat manifested through
technology, especially today.
Um, the enemy is usingtechnology to attack, um, you
know, christians to attack otherpeople, that other
non-Christians, right, just fortheir, whatever their purpose is
.
And it's strategic, it'sstrategic.

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So that brings me into theunseen war, right?
So Ephesians 6, 12 says itreminds us that our battle is
not against flesh and blood, so,but against principalities,

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powers and so forth.
Right.
We know we are all familiar ora lot of Christians, I would say
, are familiar with thisspecific scripture.
So, in terms of addressing theattacks, it's important to focus
on the spiritual aspect andmake sure that that's your
foundation.

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And so I've been leaning onprayer.
For me, my daily walk with Godhas been prayer.
Prayer has been my foundation,prayer has been my foundation.
I don't believe that I wouldstill be here, that I would
still be standing here today.
The resilience that I have isthrough the word of God, which

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is the sword of the spirit, andso I thank God for that.
That's how I've been basically.
You know, that's how I've been.
That's why I'm still here.
Essentially I've been um,that's why I'm still here,
essentially.
So, and through the spiritualrealm.
Sometimes, you know, attacks cancome as fatigue, isolation,

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fear, confusion.
The enemy targets what carriesauthority, which I said before,
and so, um, it's first starts inthe spiritual realm and then
you can kind of see it manifestin the natural right.
If you're someone that isalways um, on the go, you know

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you like to do things, you liketo work out, you like to go to
the gym, you're like very activeand um, you know you're very
goal oriented and all of asudden you just become very
lethargic and you feel like verytired and fatigued.
That's an indication ofspiritual attacks.

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Sometimes the enemy attacks youthat way.
It's an easy way to attack you,just by making you tired.
And then the other way thatthey try to attack you is
through isolation, right.
And so smearing, smear campaigns, trying to cause fear, right.

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So if they're harassing you andattacking you, so part of
creating fear is making youfearful to go out, agoraphobia
or you know any other type offear that you may have fear of
being um, exposed, right.
Fear of being um, whatever itis that they may have, um to try

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to uh, obstruct, uh, theprogress of the destined state.
But be to God that no weaponformed against me, no weapon
formed against us will prosperand that what the enemy meant
for bad God will turn into good.
And so the enemy, as Imentioned, part sometimes in the

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spiritual realm.
The enemy targets what carriesauthority, and I'm talking about
spiritual authority.
So if your presence stirs thespirit realm, your calling is
disruptive in the best way, andso you're going to be attacked.
And so what we're seeing here isa spiritual attack, or

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spiritual attacks manifested inthe natural.
And so, um we see in the Biblewhere God said Father, forgive
them, for they know not whatthey do.
Father, forgive them for theyknow not what they do Because a
lot of people, I believe, arebewitched, they're under some

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type of influence and it's justlike they can't really see that
what they're doing is wrong.
And so I do ask for God, I doask that God may have mercy on
the souls of every individualthat has been attacking me.

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May God have mercy on theirsouls, because I believe a lot
of them are under some type ofspiritual bewitchment and they
really they are.
They don't know what they doand I, I, they don't know what
they're doing.
And I also think that some ofthem are just um, they don't

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have purpose in life.
Um, they don't have purpose,they um, they're hurt.
You know the this there's's, youknow, obviously, the
colloquialism um hurting peoplehurt people and um you know for
you to basically your wholepurpose and goal in life is to

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attack someone morning, noon andnight.
Um to um, to attack theirdevices, to run smear campaigns,
to do social media challenges,to try to monetize on their pain
, to exploit um whatevervulnerabilities that they may
have, Um, that is, uh, it's sad,it's.

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It's it's for someone to, to,to, to basically um, to do that
and to basically feel likethat's what their purpose in
life is.
Um is sad to me, um, and and Ipray that God may have mercy on
on their souls.

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So, um, let's take a look attechnological app opposition.
We know that, as I mentionedbefore, it starts in the
spiritual realm and I kind ofwent through, like my
experiences, and you know, kindof um gave a very uh, meaty um
intro to that.
But technological opposition isa silencing signal, right, and

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it's a modern muzzle, it's aform to muzzle you.
So I can definitely say, inaddition to all of the attacks,
that I've been getting um forthe past three plus years, and I
only say I say the past threeplus years loosely, because

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that's when I I became um awarethat this was happening.
But I believe that this hasbeen going on for a lot longer
and God had revealed it to me inthe spiritual realm through
dreams and things like that andjust um, sometimes you can kind
of intuitively feel and you know, as a Christian, my intuition

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is like my spirit, the spiritthat lives in me, which is the
spirit of God.
Um, I knew that there was someform of monitoring or something
that was going on, and that Godalways shows me when things are
going to happen, but, um, Iguess I did not, uh, tune in,

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tune into it enough to kind ofget the divine direction as to
how I should address it.
And, um, so be it.
But all things work togetherfor the good of them that love
the Lord.
That being said, fast forward,so like thus far, that the cyber

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harassment, especially thispast year, has magnified and,
again, as I mentioned, this is aglobal attack, right.
So I have people in differentcountries all over the world
that don't even know me, thatare basically attacking me,
whether it's trying to tap intomy network or even, um, making

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posts and videos about me, right, and I don't know these people,
people and, um, and, mind you,I am a, I'm not a public figure.
At least, uh, I wasn't a publicfigure, I guess right now I, I
mean, I guess I am a quote,unquote public figure.

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I don't know if, if, if, I cansay that, but it's, it wasn't, I
didn't choose it, I did notchoose it.
I'm very, I'm someone that'svery reserved, I'm a very
private person.
I like my privacy.
Um, I don't.
Um, I really keep to myself.
And so I also know that thisattack was designed to basically

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turn my world upside down,because the enemy knows that I'm
a private person.
And so what better way to turneverything, or try to turn my
world upside down, by basicallybreaching my privacy, violating
my privacy and so forth.
So, um, since I've decided rightto basically create this

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docu-series document, what I'vebeen facing, you know, come out
here and you know, tell my truth, speak my truth.
There has been opposition,there has been opposition.
So, as if what has been goingon is not enough, the enemy is
basically trying to obstruct mywork.
They're trying to obstruct mywork, they're trying to obstruct

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my voice, they are attacking mydevices.
My neighbor who lives above me,he does not sleep because he
monitors me morning, noon andnight.
My computer crashes.
You know he's, he's trying to.
If I move with my device oneway, he'll move.
I can hear him move in thatdirection.

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I can feel the RF, the EMFwaves and all of that.
I can see it.
If I'm on the phone or if I,you know, trying to, they go
outside to try to basically tapinto my network.
Um, I started um, not only thepodcast, but, you know, I, you
know I'm now posting um, mypodcast on YouTube.

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They tried to attack my YouTubechannel, they, you know.
So it's it's a combination ofhuman agents and bots, right, so
it's like, um, it's combined.
Um, we have spiritual attacks,technological attacks, but
technological attacksfacilitated through bots and
other means, and then so youhave that.

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So you have a lot of differentthings, and imagine that, right,
I have a small platform, atleast for now.
I, I, I have a small platform,at least for now.
I don't think it's going tostay small.
I just, I believe that this isgoing to basically, um, uh, grow
into something very significant, not for my glory, but for

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God's glory.
Um, but they're trying tosilence me.
They are trying to silence me,um, through attacking my
technology, my character and soforth and so on.
Um, so they know that meactually coming out and
basically speaking my truth,showing my, my face.

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Um, basically saying look, I'mnot ashamed.
You're trying to shame me intooblivion.
You're trying to shame me intosilence.
You're trying to ruin myreputation.
No, I'm going to speak outabout it, I'm going to show my
face.
I was never ashamed.
I retreated as a form ofbasically it was a defense

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mechanism to basically preservemy sanity and try to preserve my
privacy as much as possible.
So, you know, the tech space,you know, has obviously become a
battlefield, because I know theenemy knows that the message
that God has, that the rhemaword that God will be speaking

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through me in coming days,months and years is going to be
piercing and that my platform isunder attack because the
message that you know, god hasfor me to share is, uh, too
potent to ignore and that, um,you know that's the, the opposer

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, the accuser of the brethren,the.
The last thing that they wouldwant to see is to me actually
come on here and speak my truthand say, hey, I know you're
monitoring me, I know you'reattacking my devices, what
you're doing is wrong and I'mgoing to speak my truth.
You can't shame me, you can'tharass me, you can't try to
anchor me to my past, becauseGod said in Psalms 103 that he

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has removed my sins from me asfar as the east is from the west
Right.
So, whether you try to bring upmy past, whether you try to
make up lies about me, whetheryou try to mix things, mix the
truth with lies.
That is not going to stop me.
You can't stop me, you can'toppose the progress of the

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destined state.
God, what God said will happen,will happen, period.
So now this brings me intocarnal opposition, which we kind
of gotten into before.
But carnal opposition isessentially human resistance,

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right?
So we first looked at um, thespiritual manifestation, um that
then manifested into thetechnological, um realm, and
then also, uh, carnal opposition, so, and they all work hand in
hand, right?
So, uh, the humans are beinginfluenced by the spiritual
realm and then also bytechnology, right?

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So we have an aspect of mindcontrol as well.
Right, they're being programmedto think whatever is being fed
to them through their feet.
And so now they have, like thisperspective that's been fed and
manipulated, um, by humanagents.
Like this perspective that'sbeen fed and manipulated by
human agents, right, so there'sthis story that they want to get
, there's this perception orpropaganda that they're trying

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to frame, and so, like, that'spart of the programming and
they're using technology to dothat, right, and so you know, as
far as, like, human resistanceright is, people may mock you,
they'll slander you, they'll tryto block opportunities.
You know they'll harass you,whether it's subliminal or

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explicit harassment, and so, youknow, sometimes flesh reacts to
the discomfort you know yourspirit provokes, so, like if
they feel that and they may noteven know right, consciously,
maybe subconsciously they know,but maybe subconsciously they

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know, but consciously they maynot even know why they're
provoked by me.
You don't know me, I never didanything to you, but you're
provoked by me.
Know me, I never did anythingto you, but you're provoked by
me.
My spirit provokes you, andthat's, that's an absence of
like all of this uh, propaganda,the slander, the smear campaign
that has been going on, becausenow people can say well, you

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know, um, we see that you saidthis, or we see that you have
this point of view, and so, um,for that reason, we have a
reason to attack you.
Or we think that you said this,or you subscribe to that, um,
you know school of thought ortheology, Um, so now we have a

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reason to attack.
You know I mean it.
It doesn't justify it because,um, at the end of the day,
whether what they're saying oris all true, partially true, um,
or just a complete lie, um, noone has the right to basically
harass someone, invade theirprivacy for their beliefs.

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Their privacy for their beliefs.
Especially, I haven't, I, II've never come directly to you
to say anything.
Um, I haven't said anything toyou personally that was
disrespectful.
Um, so I believe that peopleare entitled to believe what
they believe and do what theywhat they do, and so the fact

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that you're attacking someonethat you don't know um says a
lot and um, so it is what it is.
I mean, even Jesus facedbetrayal right From, and not
only from people that he didn'tknow, but even those that were
close to him.
Um, so carnal opposition oftenreveals spiritual discomfort in

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others.
And um, the other thing which Ididn't really go into as far as,
like, the spiritual attacks,and I, I I mainly went over um,
how in the spiritual realm, youknow the, the enemy can have

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like a legal right to basicallydo certain things to attack you.
But there's also um, and then Ijust went into straight into
how that's manifested throughtechnology, but also there are
spiritual attacks right.
So not just the legal right,but the spiritual attacks right
Someone might try to send a hexto you, towards you right To

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either make you sick, to affectyour finances, to cause anxiety,
to make you basically lethargicor sleepy, um, just different
things that they can try to sew.
And then when, when thoseattacks don't actually work

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directly through you, then theyuse other people to attack you.
So, when they can't get to youspiritually, uh, when they can't
get to you directly through, uh, when they can't get to you
directly through spiritual means, then they try to use others to
attack you, right?
And so then that starts tomanifest in um the natural,
whether that be throughtechnological means or or any

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other means.
And then you know, as we saw inum the story of Job, just
because all of this is happening, just because these attacks are
happening, and I've beenpraying, because I know that's
the other thing, well, god isnot answering her prayer, god

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hasn't heard her.
No, god is with me, god has notleft me.
The word of God says he willnever leave me, nor forsake me.
Yes, god says that he isfaithful to me, even when I'm
not faithful.
So the hand of God has not leftme.
And sometimes, um, you know,god allows things to happen, as

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you know, as a way to prune us,to make us, to sharpen us Right.
We go through the fire to bepurified, and so we have to be
patient with that process, andGod has been dealing with me
with that Um and just trustingin God and surrendering to God

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and knowing that, um, I am firstspirit, then soul, then body.
And so I I need to, and I havebeen trying to kind of reframe,
reframe my focus right To kindof see that, okay, this is

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happening Sometimes.
In a lot of instances, it's notthe person that's attacking me.
There's a spirit behind thatperson that's causing them to
attack me.
There's a spirit behind thatperson that's actually
influencing them to attack me.
There's a spirit behind thatperson that's actually
influencing them to attack me.
And so I mentioned that theseattacks are strategic, right.

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So the enemy is very strategicin attacking, um, especially a
believer, especially a calledone, especially someone that has
a calling on their life, andit's a form of distraction.
Distraction can be looked at asa silent assassin.

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So not every attack is loud,some are subtle, and so some are
just a way to basically get youoff track, to focus on this
versus what you need to focus on.
Remember when the disciples werein the boat and instead of
focusing on Jesus, they werelooking at the turmoil that was

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going on around them, and so, asa result of that, they began to
sink.
And so that is, that is areminder for me that I need to
keep my eyes on God, not on thepeople that are attacking me,
not on their devices, not on,you know, the, the, the
strategies or the tactics thatthey're using and just basically
ignore it.

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And so you know, because,essentially, the, the, the goal
here is to dilute my focus, tofeed doubt and to block intimacy
with God.
Right, Um, the.
The goal here is for me to um,make an idol out of my problem,
make an idol out of my situation, to make my problem a God,

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right, but we know that God isbigger than any problem and that
we serve El Shaddai, the Godwho is more than enough, the God
who is able to do exceedingly,abundantly, above all that we
can ask or think.
And so my focus is on God, andyou know I just pray that God
will always remind me, you know,when I seem to be shifting

(46:24):
focus or allowing these thingsto distract me, um, to basically
realign my focus.
And it's it's, it's simple.
Like you know, sometimes theenemy, when they can't get to
you, they try to distract you,right?
So now, you get distracted, youmake under pressure, you become
frantic and you make a wrongdecision, or you act out of

(46:46):
character, you become angry, andso forth.
And so we know that the enemygoes around like a roaring lion,
seeking who he may devour byany means necessary the by any
means necessary, obviously, Iinserted it that that's not part
of the scripture, but I'mparaphrasing here, right.

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And so the goal of the enemy isbasically to distract you, get
you to, um, you know, uh, stepout of character.
And we see this in Psalms 37,verse one to two, um, where God
says fret not yourself becauseof evildoers, for they shall
soon be cut down like the grassRight.

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And so God also talks about notto.
You know, god tells us not to beangry and don't allow the enemy
to provoke us, because then,you know, it's going to cause us
to sin.
So the goal of the enemy is toprovoke us into sin, retaliation

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, bitterness, or pride, or pride.
And so, um, oftentimes, um, ifI'm fasting or an intense prayer
, I can always see that thetactics of the enemy will
intensify.
They, they, they just, theyhate, they hate when I pray,
they hate it, they hate it.
They can't stand when I pray Um, so um I I also.

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That also is an indication thatGod is calling me to prayer
ministry too.
Um, because they, they hate,they hate me praying, they hate
it when I pray, um, I, I don'tknow.
I don't have the full pictureof what God is calling me to do,
but you know, I definitely knowthat God has a calling on my
life and you know, I definitelyknow that God has a calling on

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my life and you know, I'mdefinitely taking it one step at
a time, day by day, and youknow, by coming here, sharing my
story, sharing my experienceswith, with everyone.
So, again, the temptation tostep out of character is another
tactic, um that the enemy uses,and you know, basically, they

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want you to misrepresentyourself or your calling, and um
, staying in character is partof the spiritual warfare.
We know that when we talk aboutthe fruits of the spirit, the
fruits of the Holy Spirit, oneof the fruits is temperance, and
so God has given us temperance,and so sometimes we don't see

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the manifestation of a fruit orsome fruits, or all of the
fruits of the spirit, and so wehave to ask God to stir up those
fruits that is in us, right,because God has given us
everything, he has placedeverything in us before the
foundation of this world.
So it's in us, we have it, wejust have to stir it up.

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We have to stir it up and wehave to work our out our
salvation daily.
And so, you know, that is alsoa prayer for me, that God may
stir up my temperance and anyspiritual blessing or fruit of
the spirit that I'm not fullyusing May God stir it up in me

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and may God stir up integrity asit becomes my armor against all
of these attacks.
So what I wanted to say, thelast portion of this, is how

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opposition is as a mirror ofsomeone's calling.
So the more intense the warfareis, the more intense or the
higher the weight of someone'sassignment or calling is.

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So the threefold oppositionmirrors, you know, my
potentially, my threefold designspirit, soul and body, and also
the calling that God has for me.
I believe that and that doesnot make me narcissistic, ladies
and gentlemen, it's just.

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You know, god gives youdiscernment, god gives you
conviction about things.
Like I said, I was never someonethat wanted to be in the public
eye or to become a publicfigure.
I'm very reserved.
I wasn't trying to be aspiritual, definitely not like

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some spiritual leader, spiritualfigure, and I don't think that
I am right now.
I'm still going through myprocess but I believe that my
process, my experiences, candefinitely touch someone.
Just me coming on here andsharing it can touch someone,
either someone that has gonethrough something similar or

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that has gone through umpotentially the exact same thing
.
I don't know.
I haven't seen um any examplesof someone that's gone through
the exact same thing, but maybemaybe similar.
Maybe it can encourage them.
And um, I mean, christ did notcome for perfect people, um, he

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came for the broken.
He came to save the broken, thebroken hearted.
He came to save the sick, um,and so oftentimes we'll see um,
whether it be a church or um,you know uh, a spiritual leader,
or even um your your spiritualuh influencers online?

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Um, they often paint themselvesas well.
You know um, well, I'm not insin and therefore God is going
to bless me.
Or I'm not in sin and thereforethis, that and the third.
I'm not in sin and therefore,um, I don't have any spiritual

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attacks.
And that's not true, becauseit's not by works that any man
should boast.
So there is nothing that youcould do to deserve God's mercy
and grace.
We are all filthy rags beforeGod.
We all have sinned and fallenshort of the glory of God.
And God also says nothing canseparate us from the love of God

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which is in Christ Jesus, whichis in Christ Jesus, whether it
be sin, scandal, um, whatever itmay be, nothing can separate us
from God.
Nothing, right?
God is a restorer, he's aredeemer.
He came to redeem us, he cameto deliver us, and so that's

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what I want this platform to beNot only a platform where I can
share my experiences, but whereit can be an outlet for those
that are broken, those that arehurt, those that are going
through different attacks.
Maybe it's not the same kind ofattack that I'm facing, but just
to know that God is here.
God is not judging you becauseyou made a mistake.
God is not judging you becauseyou're not a quote unquote

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perfect Christian that lives asinless life.
No, god loves the backsliderright.
We um in the parable that Godleft the 99 to go and to go
after the one Right.
So that's the kind of shepherdthat we have, right?

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He doesn't will that anyoneshould be lost.
That is not God's will, um, andso, uh, you know that is.
Uh, that is the end of thissegment.
Um, I think, um, just to kindof close this out, um, the

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response to the threefoldattacks that I mentioned earlier
, which was spiritual,technological and human or
carnal attacks, is to basicallydiscern, detach and declare.
So, basically, what you'redoing here when you're
discerning, detaching anddeclaring, you're discerning

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what's divine versus what'sdistracting, you're detaching
from anything that doesn't serveyour assignment and you're
declaring your focus andauthority.
Daily, right, we have to workout our salvation, daily,
certain things, some peoplemight say well, man, she prays
too much.
She prays too much.
She prays every day.

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Do you wake up, do you eatevery day?
You know, do you?
The word of God and the prayerthat God has preserved, uh,
prescribed to us, says give us,lord, our daily bread.
Right, so our daily bread isdefinitely not just the food
that we eat, it is the word ofGod, it is communion with God,

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it is prayer, uh, you know, toGod and with God, it is um,
praising God, honoring him.
So, um, it's part ofmaintenance, right, um,
sometimes, we, we pray to get toa certain point, but it's also
part of maintenance.
If you go to the gym, right andum, you, you're, you may not see

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, most likely you're not goingto see results on the first day.
You have to kind of stick toyour workout, um, to your
regimen, to whatever it is thatyou're doing, so that you can
start to see results.
And then all um, ultimately,you're going to see results.
But what happens if you stopworking out and you stop doing

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what you did to see the resultsthat you were seeking?
Guess what?
Most likely you're going to endup back in the shape that you
were in before.
So, ladies and gentlemen, um, we, we can never pray too much.
We can never pray too much.
Um, I think you know, yes, yes,there's a, there's a point that

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you pray and you surrender andyou give it to god, but, um, I
don't think we can pray too much.
The enemy is constantlyattacking, right, the enemy is
always looking for an opening.
So the more we pray, the better.
I, I think, um, you know, thosethat are saying, um, you know,

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are trying to spin the narrativeof praying too much is also a
distraction or something todeter you from doing what you
need to do as a christian.
And, ladies and gentlemen, Ican feel, I can feel the waves.
I can feel the waves, I canfeel the EMF waves.
This is, this is what I have todeal with, those trying to

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obstruct the progress of thedestined state.
But oh to God, be the glory God.
Thank you, lord.
Um, I also will be sharing a few, a few excerpts from just kind
of like short recordings.
One is, I believe, like fiveminutes.

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Another is like oh, I just needto um, you know, I need to uh
record this.
So it was just basically anaudio diary of what I was
experiencing and me recording.
Um, you know what was happeningat that moment, so I'll also

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insert that into um this episode, so you can kind of um have it
to, to, to listen to when, tokind of see what I'm going
through.
But you know, thanks again forlistening.
Um, this is The Dire-Rie of aSane Black Woman with Marie.
Thank you, see you in the nextepisode.
Hi, this is audio one.

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Um, this is my audio diary.
Um is just a bonus track forthis episode, a reflection on
how I was feeling a couple ofdays ago.
I decided to record it asopposed to writing it in my
physical diary.
So, listen, I want to talkabout the obstruction of the

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progress of the destined state.
Lord, have mercy.
Imagine being cyber stalked,harasseded right Online, in
person, on the street, whereveryou go, at work, in church,

(01:00:05):
everywhere, in your home, whenyou sleep.
But the thing of it is, it'snot only a digital attack, it is
it's not only a digital attack.
We have to look at the biggerpicture, the spiritual aspect.
It's a spiritual attack.

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It's a spiritual attack thathas manifested into a digital
attack.
And we also know at leastChristians, we know that there's
a term called the prince of thepower of the air, and so that
can also be related totechnology, media and so forth.
And so now the prince of thepower of the air is attributed

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to the devil Um.
And so now there's, like thistechnological attack right, um,
through all these differentmeans that you have.
You have AI, you have umdifferent um algorithms and
different um large languagemodels and scripts and things
and tools that they use.
I'm not a tech person so I'mnot probably using the right

(01:01:16):
terminology, but I'm just tryingto express how I'm feeling
right now Um.
And then you have Python right,which is like some, uh, very
powerful tool that they use Umand they can, you know, program
it.
They use it for programming andscripts and things of that
nature.
And you have that.
And then, if we look in thespiritual realm, we have when we

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talk about um, the a Pythonspirit, or a constrictor spirit,
a spirit that basically triesto um, suck the life out of you.
And so that's basically what'shappening to me digitally now,
right, um, as a means tobasically stop me from doing

(01:02:03):
what God has for me to do, um tostop me from progressing.
And so I'm saying all this tosay um, and I will be going
deeper into it.
But every time I try to dosomething, even when I'm not
doing anything, but specificallywhen I'm trying to do something

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, not only are peoplecongregated outside of my house.
I have one neighbor who'sacross from me.
He opens the door.
You can kind of see um, youknow, sometimes his windows wide
open, sometimes, like I'mwondering, like, is he actually
recording me?
Like inside my house?
Like is he looking into mybathroom?
Like there's been incidencesthat makes me wonder, like, are

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they filming me inside mybathroom, literally?
Because, again, when we talkabout subliminal gestures and
and things that has happened, um, they're basically alluding to
the fact that they can tell whatI have in my bathroom or what's
going on.
And I mean I literally, um, notonly have curtains, I have a

(01:03:11):
towel in my, in my windows,basically just to make sure that
it is as OPEC as possible.
Um, that being said, there's theone that's above me, like
literally, when I go online,like he's there, he's running up
and down trying to figure out.

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Okay, I don't know if he has,like, certain devices and he's
coordinating with somebody.
He's on the phone.
I'm trying to get somebody onthe other line to help him to
hack into my system and to seewhat I'm doing and to surveil me
.
So that's the technologicalaspect.
And, look, I'm not exaggeratingwhen we talk about EMF waves

(01:03:51):
and everything, because imagine,all of these devices, it's not
just my neighbors, but aneighboring houses, people that
are driving by that are allbasically trying to target my
network.
So, guess what?
I'm going to feel the EMF waves.
I'm going to feel thedifference I can feel when there

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is like a lot of concentrateddevices that are trying to
trigger my devices.
Um, that being said, then wehave the spiritual aspect.
Right, like, let's go back tothe spiritual aspect Now.
I want to be very careful inhow I say this.

(01:04:34):
I want to be very careful inhow I say this, but I have to
say it.
Okay, um, I'm a Christian andthis is not an attack on any
other person's religion, butevery time I'm on my computer
I'm doing something that'simportant, whether it's um me on

(01:04:54):
an important call, whether it'sa call with tech support, if
I'm trying to do something likerecord my podcast, set up my
website or whatever.
There's someone above me andthey are very rhythmic with the
footsteps that they're doing andI don't know if it's a type of
ritual or if it's a type ofcursing that they're doing, but

(01:05:15):
they're like doing some withtheir feet and it's like, and I
can hear it.
And you know, they do thisrhythmic thing up above, right
above my head, and it's almostlike I don't know if they're
trying to curse me or they'retrying to uh struck what I'm
doing, but I bind it in Jesus'sname and I also noticed that

(01:05:41):
they always try to do it whenI'm not, like if I'm not paying
attention, like okay, I'm busy,or if I'm sleeping.
They wake up in the middle ofthe night to do it and I can
hear them doing it in like ontop of my head and so, like I
always try to basicallyimmediately say, I rebuke it, I,
you know, in the mighty name ofJesus, I, you know, return

(01:06:04):
whatever they're trying to doback to sender and Jesus's name.
But that's just the type ofspiritual attacks that I'm
basically faced with and that'sjust one example.
Right, I'm just saying here,this is a lot bigger than it's
not just digital.

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Let's just say that it'sbasically manifesting in a
digital form, but it isspiritual as well, right,
remember, in one of my episodes,I spoke about how a lot of the
people that are acting or thatare harassing me and things of

(01:06:46):
that nature, to a certain extentI'm not gonna say every single
person, but I feel like somepeople are basically influenced,
they're under the influence,they're bewitched by some type
of evil spirit or something likethat to basically do what
they're doing.
And so not everyone has theirblinders on, everyone is
basically just following thecrowd.

(01:07:08):
No one has, um, you know, thedecency to stand up and say wait
a minute, this is wrong, weshouldn't be tapping into this
person's network, we shouldn'tbe messing with this person's
information.
But, no, um, every singleperson, even in church.
Okay, I'll, I'll get, I'll gointo that church example.

(01:07:30):
Um, well, actually it'shappened to me a few times right
With with so quote unquotechurch people that are supposed
to be there to basically supportyou and things of that nature,
but that's not the purpose ofthis recording.
This is basically to go intothe spiritual aspect, because,

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as I was basically minding mybusiness, trying to, you know,
work on my website, all I canhear is and it's like a squeaky
sound, because they're doing itwith their feet, I assume, and
it's basically the person isabove me and so, um, I can hear

(01:08:12):
it and so it's.
It's the floor squeaking andit's a rhythmic thing that they
do with their feet, so it's sometype of I don't know what it is
.
For all intents and purposes, Ican only imagine that they're
trying to do some type of hex orcurse on me, because they
always do it when I'm not likepaying attention, or if I'm

(01:08:35):
sleeping, that's when they tryto do it In the middle of the
night, at three o'clock in themorning, at four o'clock in the
morning, when I'm sleeping, theywake up to do their, their
nonsense.
And so I'm here, I'm saying ithere Like I, I know you can hear
me, I know he can hear me.
I know what you're doing and Irebuke it in Jesus's name.

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All right, let's just startwith that.
This is audio two.
This is my digital slash audiodiary.
I was just reflecting andsomewhat venting, and somewhat
venting, you know, earlier thismorning, and this is just kind

(01:09:21):
of like the recording of how Iwas feeling at that moment.
This is just an extra bonustrack to this episode and I
inserted it towards the end.
I just want to say that thedevil is busy.
Woo Lord, I know that you havea purpose for me, because the

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way that the enemy is working toattack me, attack my devices,
they can't even go to sleep.
They are just monitoring memorning, noon and night.
It's crazy.
Monitoring me morning, noon andnight, it's crazy.
They're attacking my devices,causing my devices to crash

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Every time I'm working on mycomputer.
You know this one above me isjust basically running up and
down with his devices, trying tointercept my connection.
I pray that justice is served.
I am praying.
I know God is a just God.
May his, may my justice, shinelike the noonday sun.
May every single person,especially the person above me,

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be apprehended by the law forintercepting my devices
illegally.
I'm praying for divine justice,but I'm also praying for the
actual law, the book, the wholebook, to be thrown at every
perpetrator, especially the oneswho deliberately attack me on a

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daily basis, morning, noon andnight, those who cannot go to
sleep.
They're not only attacking mespiritually, trying to cast
spells on me while I'm sleeping,but they're attacking my
devices.
They are harassing me sexually,harassing me subliminally,
harassing me, using theirchildren to harass me, you know,

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trespassing on my property.
All these things is happening.
So they're attacking me in thenatural, carnally, spiritually
and also technologically.
I pray for divine justice.
I pray for divine justice.
I pray for divine justice inJesus's mighty name.

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They also tried to crash my.
I can't even like.
They're trying to attack everysingle thing that I'm doing.
But hallelujah God, you are.
You are more than able.
You are more more than able.
You will come through, you willcome through, you will come
through, you will come through,you will come through, you will

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come through.
Let them continue to do this,because they're digging a deeper
and a deeper and a deeper Trailfor them to be caught.
Instead of stopping, they'recontinuing.
So let them dig deeper so thatthey can be caught and so that

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it won't be undenied so that itwill be undeniable that they are
involved and that they werebeing malicious.
Thanks again for listening toThe Dire-Rie of a Sane Black
Woman and thank you for alsohanging out to listen to my
audio diaries.
I think I'll be doing more ofthose where I just kind of

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record things as they'rehappening in the moment and just
basically kind of bringing youinto you know my actual
experience, you know in realtime.
So, in any event, thanks againfor listening.
I will see you soon.
I hope that you come back andthat you share, like, share and

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spread the word about thisdocuseries.
Bye.