The Fox and the Phoenix

In this first of two episodes, Julie chats with Savannah about the profound "first time" that one sees their true femme self in the mirror... that first fateful time when the reflection in the mirror stops being just a biological male and starts being the more authentic and grounded female spirit. Julie and Savannah read listener letters and comment about how often there are commonalities to the catalysts to discovering ones femme ...

In this episode, Savannah discussed with Julie the struggles she is experiencing in the aftermath of her breakup with her long-time partner, Judy (as revealed in ep 261). In light of the breakup, Savannah worries that she is not as credible as she should be because as an author, advocate, podcaster, and speaker, she should have been able to make the relationship work. The discussion goes into the territory of one's intent, sincerit...

In this episode, both Savannah and Julie separately interview Judy. In these interviews, they discuss the trials and tribulations , the ups and downs of being in a long-term relationship with a crossdresser and gender-expansive person. And while love was always present, the drive in syncing with a person of this breed is sometimes not enough to keep the relationship together. So, in this way, Judy and Savannah are saying their good...

In this episode, Savannah lets Julie in on a little secret. That admission involves revealing herself to more members of her immediate family through a text chat. Stemming from a sad and regretful remembrance on the anniversary of Savannah's father's passing, Savannah decided afterward to reveal herself to sisters and nieces and nephews that there was more to Chuck than just Chuck. Savannah turned that heavy regret of feeling unabl...

In this episode, Julie asks Savannah to talk about the probably-already-cooling news about Bryon Noem, the husband of the former Director of Homeland Security, Kristi Noem. Bryon was outed by leaked photographs of him wearing a massive breast form and pink hot pants as he paid to converse with online personalities who also had exaggerated feminine features. What happens when a political figure who spouts hatred to the LGBTQIA+ comm...

In this episode, Savannah asks Julie one of the most foundational questions people in the queer community tend to hear or strive to find an answer to, "I wish someone would have told me...". From the fact that our younger selves would rarely listen to advice from the future because they would not have the world experience to understand the advice or warnings, to using that understanding gained through a lifetime of experience to ma...

In this episode, Julie talks to Savannah about social media and its effects on how we, as gender-expansive people, use the digital platforms as a benchmark to find external validation. From the cycling of posting and the wait for the dopamine high, to dressing for performance versus authenticity, to looking for external reactions versus just dressing for one's own sake, to using social media as a amplifier, the end result is to rec...

In this episode, Savannah lets Julie in on a bit of an experiment... one where Savannah has been testing to see at what point of her presentation she feels complete in her feminine persona. Does Savannah only come out when the wig is finally donned? When undressing, at what point does Savannah disappear and Chuck returns? If Chuck and Savannah are integrated from a mental perspective, why is there the application of one specific ph...

In this episode, Savannah and Julie regal the listeners with another riveting tale of danger and adventure, of heart ache and heart's song, of sleepless days and endless nights, of red eye flights and the meowing of cats. Savannah and Julie retell their adventures attending this year's Keystone Conference in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania.

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In this episode, Savannah shares a reel from Instagram with Julie, forwarded to Savannah by a close friend of the podcast. In the reel, the influencer talks about how most human beings are simply ordinary and average in their looks. Sure, there are some wh might be considered as fugly and others who seemed to have achieved Adonis and super-model status. Yet, the vast majority of people live somewhere in the middle in terms of their...

In this second of two episodes, Julie and Savannah read your listener letters! This time, Julie reached out and asked the question, "What didn't you know about or what didn't THEY tell you?" before or as you embarked on their transgender journey. From the difficulties of dating in a post-transition world, to the switch from clothing being euphoric to the transition being euphoric, from surprise reactions at home when bedroom play a...

In this first of two episodes, Julie and Savannah read your listener letters! This time, Julie reached out and asked the question, "What didn't you know about or what didn't THEY tell you?" before or as you embarked on their transgender journey. From the difficulties of dating in a post-transition world, to the switch from clothing being euphoric to the transition being euphoric, from surprise reactions at home when bedroom play an...

In this episode, Julie and Savannah talk about the upcoming Keystone Conference in Harrisburg, PA, and how difficult it can sometimes be for some attendees (returning or first-timers) to be able to "show up" in a more extroverted fashion to get dressed up, meet people, and make connections. The conference can be overwhelming just by the sheer number of attendees and can be daunting as so many sisters are returning and meeting up wi...

In this episode, Julie and Savannah chat about an important topic as it applies to gender-expansive men and their cis-female partners or spouses. So many crossdressing men hide in the shadows, revert to closeting their feminine behavior after sharing their queerdom to their partners. When partners are told, so many emotions are felt and so much understanding and support is needed for both parties. What happens when the novelty wear...

In this episode, Savannah reads a letter to Julie about late-blooming male-to-female crossdresser Olivia who has come to the realization that their feminine side might want to create a wish list for herself. The idea of giving herself permission to want something for her feminine side is new and seemingly a novel concept. Is this typical for a late-blooming CD? Is it too near adjacent to the Pink Fog? Using a wishlist list is a per...

In this episode, Savannah reads two wonderful email letters to Julie. Recently, Savannah received a correspondence from a bi-gender MTF girlie named Jennifer who hails from Belgium! The content is so poignant and powerful that a summary here could never do it justice! Listen in for an eloquent pair of letters from a gender-expansive person coming to love themselves, share with their family, and find comfort beyond the trials and tr...

In this second of two episodes, Julie asks Savannah about the journey she and other gender-expansive persons have experienced from a tender age of 5-years-old, to the draw to the feminine, to the resulting shame and guilt one might experience during their secretive discovery of self, to accepting and fianlly becoming expansive in a still-gender-rigid world. Savannah and Julie talk frankly and emotionally about a life with some regr...

In this first of two episodes, Julie asks Savannah about the journey she and other gender-expansive persons have experienced from a tender age of 5-years-old, to the draw to the feminine, to the resulting shame and guilt one might experience during their secretive discovery of self, to accepting and fianlly becoming expansive in a still-gender-rigid world. Savannah and Julie talk frankly and emotionally about a life with some regre...

In this episode, Savannah chats with Julie about cis-female and gender-expansive MTF boyfriends or husbands where the genetic woman of the relationship prefers their male partner's feminine identity in many ways over when the male partner is presenting in his own AGAB biology. Why is it that so many gender-expansive partners exhibit personality traits that are more attractive to their partners than when presenting in male mode? Fro...