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Welcome back to the
Glow Up Year.
I'm Meg, actress model and yourbehind-the-scenes bestie when
it comes to chasing dreams andbuilding something big.
After years of navigating theups and downs and the wild
in-betweens in the entertainmentworld, I'm stepping fully into
this next level chapter.
This podcast is your backstagepass to all the real stuff
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Auditions, photo shoots, mindsetshifts, script prep, career
curveballs, you name it.
I'm sharing it.
All the highs and the hardlessons in real time.
If you're ready to go all in onyour own, glow up and take some
brave steps and see what itreally looks like to grow in
this industry, grab yourfavorite drink, get cozy and
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let's dive in together.
So it's been a while, and it'sbeen a while because life has
been crazy.
It has been crazy in a not sogreat way and it has also been
crazy in a wonderful way.
And so here today I just wantto kind of catch up on what's
going on, what's new, what'shappening in this wildly long
break that I just took frompodcasting, which, believe me, I
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was not happy about.
I was looking forward to doingthis every week.
So excited doing this everyweek and every week because of
some of the commitments I'vetaken on this got put to the
back burner and I'm so happy andexcited to be here with you
today because we're back at it.
We're getting back in the flow,we're making some changes.
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It's gonna be great.
So let me catch up on what'sbeen going on over here in the
Glow Up your Land.
I went and I had a call back andI decided that while I was
there I wanted to take thisparticular experience of an
in-person audition and kind ofdo like a little bit of a
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experiment on myself.
I had decided ahead of timethat when I went in this door
like walked into the door to CPcasting, that I had it Like I
was going to go in there, I wasgoing to show them the it factor
.
I was just going to be happyand personable and stay neutral
and not get too nervous and notget too excited.
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I was just going to really stayneutral and present.
That was my whole goal of thisaudition.
It wasn't necessarily to bookthe job, but it was to help
myself continue to train mybrain in circumstances like this
to be better and better andbetter.
And in this instance I wantedto train my brain to go in there
and stay neutral and stayrelaxed and listen for the
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feedback and absorb it in andgive my best performance, really
like neutralize the nervescompletely.
And so I decided when I walkedin there that that's the state I
wanted to be in and that, to me, is the state of the it factor.
I walked into this room havingpre-decided that this was my
little mini experiment I wasdoing on myself in here.
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I was going to embody the itfactor and I was going to stay
neutral.
I was going to stay present, Iwas going to be charismatic.
Right before I went in there, Isaw a friend from a previous
job that I worked on and and Iwas like, hey, you're here too,
which was so amazing.
So I also got this bonusexperience of getting to catch
up with this friend.
And then I went in to the CPcasting waiting room and there
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was one other girl there andthen another one came in and the
one other girl there I wastrying to be really observant
and see, was there other peoplein that room that were embodying
the effect or what were theydoing, body language wise, like
what was going on, and justobserving the room and taking in
the room.
And there was one other girlthere and she was sitting on the
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couch and I really took note ofher behavior and I want to tell
you about what I witnessed inthat moment.
So this girl was in this brightpink sweater.
She looked gorgeous, by the way, like fantastic.
She looked.
The part that we were asked tobe dressed for looked very
easily, like she could book thejob.
But what was interesting toobserve was that her body
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language was really internal.
If you, if we're putting ourshoulders back, we're like
expansive, like in our chest andin our body and in our energy,
and she was like shouldersforward and very hunched in
nerves, just like that littlebit of like internal energy
instead of like outward energy.
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I observed that because I usedto be that way.
I used to be exactly the sameway and I didn't think any of
that mattered when it came tothe actual audition.
The longer I sat in the waitingroom, the more I realized how
nervous she was, because shewould go up and ask the
secretary, moderator person, youknow who's next?
What's going on, what's this?
Where are we at in the lineup,like, can I go to the bathroom?
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She was so just I could feelher energy was just a little
spastic and I realized sittingthere for myself that I wanted
to sit there still.
I wanted to sit there calm.
I wanted to engage with peoplewhen they wanted to engage with
me and when they didn't't, Iwould look at, look through my
script real quick because thiswas a teleprompter read.
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So I sat there and I decidedthat when my foot started to bob
that nope, we were going to bestill and we're going to be
present and we weren't going tohave any nervous energy and I
just continued to really breatheand embody that and take the
mental space and kind of workthrough it in this like 15
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minutes that I waited there tosit and go and to do my audition
and then when they called myname, I was so excited obviously
to get up and show theirperformance because I was
grounded and I was just excitedto go in there and give them the
best I got and hear somefeedback and then give them the
best I got again.
And so I walked into the roombig smile, greeted everybody
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with eye contact.
We did the first teleprompterread and the teleprompter was a
little bit too fast and I wasfelt like I was going through
the script a mile a minute, butI lost the last few lines.
I was a little embarrassed.
They were like oh, it's noproblem, we'll just change the
speed.
Well, then they lowered thespeed and it was so slow I felt
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like I was talking like this.
It was ridiculous.
And so then they got it back upto what was the normal speed.
And the coolest thing about thefeedback that I got was I
decided ahead of time that I wasgoing to focus on the positive
and not the negative.
So if I got some negativefeedback, I was going to hear it
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and I was going to accept it,but I wasn't going to let it
feed on me and I almost forgotthe feedback that I got back
almost instantly, because thenegative part of it, which
wasn't even really that negative, just kind of floated out of my
brain.
And so the feedback that I gotwas we like that you made
choices, but we're not sure ifthey were the right ones for
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this character.
But every read that you gave uswas good, different, it was
authentic, it showed that youwere directable, and that's, to
me, is fantastic feedback.
They thanked me for havingdriven all the way down from
Maine and it just felt like,even though I didn't end up at
the end of the day booking thejob.
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That audition was a huge winfor me, huge, huge, because I
made huge mindset progress and Iproved to myself that I can do
an in-person audition and stillremain in that neutral space.
I can like be the most presentin the work.
It was such a great experienceand, touching on that I also
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want to say here we are in March.
A quarter of the year has goneby.
This year I am doing quarterlyreviews on myself.
In a way, I have a businesslike separate, and then I'm
doing kind of a quarterly reviewon like at my acting business
and what's going on and whathappened and what were the good
things and what were the badthings of the quarter.
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And this is what I came up withfor my quarterly review.
I always start off with a listof what I came up with for my
quarterly review.
I always start off with a listof personal wins and business
wins for my first quarter and inmy first quarter these were my
wins I got a callback for anin-person audition and did well,
which I just told you the wholestory about.
I attended the model workshopand got some amazing digitals,
which I have the photos y'all,but we'll talk more about that
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later.
I started a podcast this podcasthere and I love doing it.
I'm so excited to do it everyweek.
I started working on brandingmaterials for my acting business
.
I lost a ton of weight and Ihonestly now finally feel like
myself, like who I've alwaysfelt, like I was inside, but I
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feel like that reflects on theoutside.
Now I just feel so much better,just in general, and physically
, mentally, emotionally, all ofthe things.
This is a big one, too.
I started actually liking theway I look on camera.
It used to be so hard for me towatch myself, but now I'm
actually liking the way I lookon camera.
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Whoa, that's so exciting.
Oh, we could do a whole episodeon just that.
I've written down some scriptideas because I want to shoot
some shorts this year on my ownWe'll talk more about that later
too and I've had many, manygreat auditions already this
year.
So those are my personal wins.
Well then, now I do a list oflessons that I learned in my
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first quarter of the year For myacting business.
I need to invest more time inthis.
I need to invest more time inthe podcast.
I want to invest more time inmy social media.
I want to invest more time injust myself and growth in this
business.
For some reason, this actingbusiness keeps getting pushed to
the back burner and I want thatto change in the second quarter
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of the year and I'm superexcited on some of the ways I
have to implement that.
I learned that I am way betterat modeling than I previously
thought, which makes me feel sogood to say, because I really
thought so low of my ability tomodel and I feel so confident.
Now I've decided that I want toinvest in an acting coach to
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help me with some accountabilityand practice, so I learned that
that was something that I wouldlike to do.
In quarter two, I also learnedthat I don't give myself enough
credit a lot of the time, andthat goes back to also realizing
that I was way better atmodeling than I previously
thought.
Sometimes I just literallydon't give myself enough credit
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for all of the hard work thatI've already put into this
career.
The last thing that I learnedfrom quarter one was that I
deserve to be celebrated all thetime, anytime, whenever I want.
I deserve to be celebrated allthe time, anytime, whenever I
want, I deserve to be celebrated.
So, looking ahead up till Juneof this year, what I would like
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to accomplish, I want toactually go and get new
headshots and new marketingmaterials.
I have already reached out to aphotographer but they didn't
respond, so I need to reach outagain.
I want to continue to fine-tunemy acting skills and work with
a coach.
That's something I want to lookahead and accomplish, and I
also want to rework my reel sothat I feel super proud of every
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clip.
I have a reel, but I don't loveit and I want to love it Also
for the rest of my review.
I also get clear on what I needto do to actually accomplish
those goals, those three nextgoals that I want for this next
quarter, and plan what I need todo if my progress gets derailed
for any reason.
And so I plan both of thosethings as well.
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And I also want to say that herewe are a quarter of the way
into the year and I have yet tobook an acting job or modeling
job, and that was not on my listof anything for the quarter,
and this is what I want to sayabout that.
I almost felt nervous to say tolike, say this, like should I
even put this out that I havenot booked anything in this
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first quarter.
This is my glow up year.
This is what this whole podcastis about.
It's about booking things andlearning how to redefine success
and sharing the journey withpeople.
But I wouldn't be serving youas my audience and I wouldn't be
serving myself if I wasn'thonest about this.
I haven't booked yet, but thatdoesn't derail my year.
That has not derailed my yearand it will not derail my year.
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It's okay to go a quarter, togo a six months and have not
booked something.
It's okay and I'm okay withthat.
I understand that this industryhas ups and downs and it's okay
for me to be on a not bookingstreak, because that means right
around the corner is the nextjob and the next opportunity to
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come, and I have had a fewthings fall through this year
too that have been pushed andhaven't come to fruition yet,
and that's's okay too.
So, with that being said, ifyou're in the same boat, it's
okay.
The next job is coming.
And I also want to talk about aquick mindset thing here.
I have worked on some shittyjobs.
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I have.
I've done student films that itwas just a film for the grade,
that they didn't really try.
I've done so many.
I've had bad experiences in myacting career.
I would rather go a quarter ortwo and not book a job and not
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have a bad experience, than bookthree gigs in that time being
and all of them be a terrible,horrible experience for me me.
So I'm always thinking and I'malways believing that the
universe is putting that nextbest job on the radar for me,
that if I didn't book in thatsix months it's because I
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wouldn't have booked somethingas incredible and as amazing as
the next job that I'm going tobook.
The last thing before we gotoday I got my digitals back,
y'all, and I'm ready to sharethem.
I got my digitals back and I'mready to share them with you.
If you want to see my photosfrom the model workshop, they're
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going to be in the show notesin the link below.
I am so excited to share these.
These came out freakingincredible.
I'm so proud of these.
I am going to be submitting toagencies with these soon.
I'm so stoked.
I can't wait to hear back.
Please check those out ifyou're interested.
They will be in the show notesbelow, guys.
They came out so fucking good,so fucking good, so fucking good
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.
That's it for today's episode ofthe glow up year.
Thanks for hanging out with me.
I'm seriously so excited tohave you along for this ride.
We are just getting started andthe best is yet to come.
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time.
Keep showing up, keep dreamingbigger and I'll catch you on the
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