November 21, 2023 • 60 mins
Emotions is crazy to to control, but after some of the displays of emotional outlashes that were witnessed last week, we'd thought this would be the perfect time to help our young men be better in tune with their emotions. In this episode, we discussed the importance of self-awareness & bettering your emotional receptiveness by understanding everyone's emotions & yourself. We had some good laughs telling our life experiences on this one, so we hope that it reaches you well & improve your outlook on emotions! Thank you for tuning in! We always love & appreciate the support! Lowkey might have to start a gofundme new mic fund for LukeDaGreatest lmaoo. The issue is HIS MIC IS TOO DAMN GOOD. That why I have a double voice lol his mic is crazy. But anywho, as our situation improves, so does our content! We're one month down, & we got hella more to go! Stay blessed & always protect your mental! ***NEWS FLASH LMFAOOOO*** At the end of our show, we unveiled our official merchandise store! Visit https://thehealingclubpodcast.bigcartel.com/ now & get 10% off your first purchase using the code: ALLHEALSNOFEELS. Apply this code at check-out to save on merch from your favorite podcast on mental health awareness!
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What's going on everyone? Thank you for tuning in. This is the Gila Core Podcast Episode
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4. We have made it to a mark. My name is Sean. And I'm Luke the Greatest, the one and only.
The one and only. Damn, a whole month of us. Crazy. We like we, I told you I was coming.
Four weeks. God damn it. Four weeks. Four episodes. We might come up to 12 episodes,
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have a season. Off and off season. But let's go ahead and get started.
So before we do get started, if you know anybody, you always got to do this. If you know anybody
that's hurting out there. And if you yourself is hurting, I would please reach out to that
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suicide awareness hotline. There is a hotline for those that are going through tough times.
I keep forgetting it. I'm going to say it's 899. It's like 899. Yes, it's literally three digits
that you can call or text. Yeah, definitely. If you're going through some reach out, some text,
call them if you want to. It's confidential. You're not going to put your business out there. So
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reach out. We care about you. 988, that is the number. But this is the time, I guess this is
the era in which you can speak out and let people know that you're hurting because it ain't no wrong
in seeking help. And that's why we're here. That is why the Healing Club Podcast is here.
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To help you heal hopefully our life experiences and our healing journeys can also open some paths
for you. And with that being said, heal on. I'll tell you what though, bro. You want to know who's
definitely healed? Who? The Detroit Lions. Yes, we are. The eight and two Detroit Lions. I think
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that fan base and that team have healed quite enough and are enjoying the fruits of their labor
as we speak. Big Lions, big Detroit. We winners. That's crazy. We winners, guys.
The city of Detroit is definitely smiling again. I almost want to cry, bro. I remember those days
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of 0 and 16. Those days were tough. I was crying. They were rough. But now look at it, it's 8 and 2,
bro. 8 and 2? Yeah, 8 and 2, bro. 8 and 2. Second in the conference. Damn, number one in
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y'all division for sure. Beating out the Packers for what, the first time? Yeah, we don't care
about them cheeseheads. Them cheeseheads, beating out the Packers, beating out the
Vikings too. Oh yeah, the Bears are done for us. So yeah, that's the division that's for the Lions.
And once again, let me say this. I didn't like Jerry Gough at first, but
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after giving him some time and, you know, I take that statement back. I love Jerry Gough.
Dan Campbell and Jerry Gough. I like Jerry Gough.
That was a fire ass team. I think I said it before. Amon Ra, Sam Laporta,
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Jerry Gough, Jameer Gibbs. The defense was crazy too with Aiden Hutchinson.
Man, y'all used to have, what was it? Darius Slick. Yeah, we used to have Darius Slick.
That would have been different though. Darius Slick was so there. That would have been too much,
too much pressure. No, that shit would have been different. Sorry y'all, we boozed it a little bit.
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But A and two Lions, that's the craziest game I've ever seen. We almost lost to Chicago, but
we got our shit together. My boy Justin Fields first came back. I didn't get to see his stats though,
but I heard he gave y'all some trouble. You can see by the score. It was like 31 to like 26,
something like that. Bro, it stayed close the whole game. Yeah, they was on our ass.
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We held our own though, cuz we held our own. Luckily for the Hawkins fan, they didn't get a
chance to lose yesterday. So that's a plus. Y'all gotta pass. I told him earlier, I said,
that's good for your cholesterol, bro. Cause the Falcons be stressing you out.
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I ain't gotta see them getting dogged out by the Titans or the Vikings. That's a good weekend.
But shit, no, fuck man. Fuck about this. They don't piss me off. Hey, they piss me off. That
division is supposed to be ours for the taking. Because our only competition is Derek Carr
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and Baker Mayfield. We already did our thing against the Bucks and the Panthers.
It's good old Baker Mayfield. Put that man, Derek Carr, bro. I mean,
honestly this year, the NFC South is a shitty division with the Saints being ahead with a
five and five record, I think, or five and six. I don't know if they even won yesterday.
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Fuck the Saints, the Ains, the New Orleans Ains. New Orleans Ains. That's the first time I heard
that. You a real hater, bro. I ain't never heard that one before. I don't like none of them teams, bro.
What the bucks? Oh man, the Panthers ain't gonna have no motion.
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Speaking about the Panthers,
what you think about Bryce Young, their number one pick between him and CJ Stroud?
Did you think the Panthers chose wrong? Because honestly,
about the Panthers- CJ Stroud is where?
He's a Houston Texas quarterback. Yeah, okay.
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So between those two, either one of those could have won number one. But everyone said it was
the safer pick to get Bryce Young because he was a more pro ready quarterback.
How would they know that? That's what I'm saying.
If he didn't play in the pros. Yeah, like how do y'all assess that?
And going back to Kenny Pickett, not going back, we're gonna pick up Kenny Pickett because
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they picked up Kenny Pickett, number one first pick for the Steelers. They picked him
up because he was the most pro ready quarterback in the game.
That doesn't make sense. That's what I'm saying.
How are you ready for the pros? Tell them, bro.
He's just as ready for the pros as much as the next quarterback that's in the draft.
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Bro, I would like to see these NFL analysts, like gray sheets, bro. They be coming up with
them both absurd stats and guidelines. Pro rated? You have to be in the pros, bro,
to be pro rated. And then just like history, bro, what you're seeing good quarterbacks
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in college, right? Like, oh, when he gets to the NFL, they're gonna take over.
Shit, as soon as they get to the NFL. So it's like you can't even really,
you know, you can be good in college, but you won't, you might not be that good in NFL.
Yeah, you can't, you can't assess, you can't assess a quarterback's readiness.
Exactly. For something he hasn't performed in before, you know, it was like, he's good.
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Yeah. At the end of the day, they're grading these players at these combines
without QB pressure, without like open field, just one receiver down there,
you're grading how good his throw was with a one-on-one situation. You can't,
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you know what I mean, right? No, I get what you're saying.
Like these, these combines for these quarterbacks are so stupid. It's like, it's like me taking
a snap at the door and down the ball down the field because no one's going to tackle me.
It's the combine. You can, you can assess everyone's arm at that point. So can they play
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with that arm? Yeah, the quarterbacks are good, right? Obviously you in the combines because
you're talented, but you can't really judge it until like they're in the game and you know,
you got all these, uh, intangibles. Yeah. It's so much that goes into the game.
Like how they graded Zach Wilson, bro, how they graded Zach Wilson in the combine, because he
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blew the combine out of the water. He did the same. That's why he became the, you know, the
number two, the number two draft pick. Yeah. The QB, like the QB right behind Trevor Lawrence,
he's supposed to be that guy because how they graded him in the combine, you know, he looked
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at, you know, he looked, he looked spectacular in the combine. The combine ain't shit for
quarterbacks, bro. You can't, but because like a quarterback, like we all know a quarterback can
throw the ball. Yeah, obviously. Yeah. What is, what is their decision making skills, bro?
And how can they handle all of that pressure? You know what I'm saying? Yeah. You got to include
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the crowd. You got to be a grown man. You know, especially genusl defenses, you know, they
intimidating, bro. You know, especially like players that they going against that they've
been watching since they was like teens or kids or whatever. Now they going against, that's a lot
of pressure, bro. So yeah. You were, you were playing, you were playing with college kids.
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Now you were growing men who didn't, who have that experience with all these different
quarterbacks. So it's like, they pick you apart, bro. They make a living off of it too. Yeah.
Millions of dollars and you think they sweet. Oh, yeah. Oh, and then like, so was Tom Brady pro
rated when he came up? Cause he didn't even start when he came out, he was bent. He was, he was,
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he was what the fifth, sixth round pick? Dude, I don't know. He, he was barely on the team, dog.
He was, bro. Drew Bessel, I forgot he was starting back then. Tom Brady wasn't a kid back then.
That's great. Then he doesn't want to all Superbowl. Yeah. But I ain't gonna say that.
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Say they, they want all the Superbowls, I guess fair and square. But it's still that pro rated
thing. Like, okay. Yeah. That said, you can't, I don't think you can assess a college QB quarterback
office readiness for the pros. No, you can't bro. Face office, you know, his, his, his combined
performance or so like that. Or, or they get it from, you know, they get it from study data
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that they just study it from all these games. Like computer algorithms and all that dumb shit.
And, and I guess that's dog. Advanced analytics is crazy because advanced analytics is a reason why,
why Bryce Young was drafted over CJ Stroud. CJ Stroud, I knew he could play football when he
almost when he almost beat Georgia. Ohio State almost beat Georgia bro. Yeah. He almost beat
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them. They had you scared. I was like, not again, George. Don't let me down. Y'all gonna do this
again. Nah, CJ Stroud that nigga. He real, he is a pistol. Bryce Young bro and even CJ bro,
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you got to give them time. Like, you know, you got to give them time before you can really be like,
oh, they, they're not that good or they good, you know. Oh, I'm biased. CJ, I mean, not CJ,
Bryce on the Panthers. I'm sorry for him. Okay. I'm gonna give them some time before I have something to say.
But I'll give them this. They, they did trade away all their weapons. They had DJ Moro bro.
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Yeah, they did. The Panthers is naked right now. The Panthers said, I don't need shit.
And then after CMC, CMC going now. It's like, what's crazy is I don't think he got really anything back in the turn.
I don't know. That you can see right now because the Panthers are ass. They're probably about to do a
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little rebuild. They have to. They got to start with the coats. They got to start with that because
that is the reason why price is probably failing. How do you trade away all your best receivers
and expect Bryce Young to make the other receivers look good? I don't think that's how that works.
I think you do need some skills. Yeah, bro. They, they trade away DJ more because they thought,
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they thought Bryce Young was going to, you know, instead of the receivers working,
he'll work for the receivers. Nah, that nigga been throwing picks every game.
No fucking pro DBs eating him up. He got highlights off his ass.
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I'm surprised. I mean, that's all going. Oh, let it go. Like, like getting emotional,
like nigga in the NBA, like, like, like dream on, for example, some of Mr. Headlock, Mr. Mr.
Choke them out. That was a funny game, bro. Like I get, you know, you want to stand up for your
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teammate. You know, you want to be there, but Rudy was like breaking it up, like, you know, trying
to separate them. And the fact that Rudy, he wasn't even in the art education. Drey Marran from the
whole other side of the court to choke out Rudy, who had nothing to do with it. It's like, damn,
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was you holding the grudge bro? I'm about to get you out of here in a stretcher.
All because he wanted to get a little emotional and wanted to do whatever to Rudy. That was
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crazy. Them niggas got busy before, before the ball, before a point got scored from them.
That was funny. Another, another, another good, another good example of people who's going
hella emotional. I sent you that clip with Senator Mullen. Oh my God, bro. I'm talking about,
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bro, these ain't no way. These are politicians. Our leaders, yo, our leaders. When I watched this
shit, I was like, ain't no way. He was really trying to scrap with that man. Like I get it,
you know, you want to confront a guy who's threatening you or whatever, right? But it's
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a time and a place, bro. Live TV in front of the nation, bro. It's not a good time.
Or a good place. He got both of those wrong. What's crazy is he picked that time to read out all of
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the insults from the other dude. Yeah, he did. He picked that time and he picked that time to stand
on business too. He said the other dude was like, we can go, we can go anytime, anyplace.
And the Senator was like, this is a time, this is a place. You want to run your mouth. We can do it
right. Exactly right. Like, I know you fucking lying, bro. Like, ain't no way, bro. You a Senator,
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bro. Right. Bernie Sanders had to say, oh, hold on. You're trying to alleviate the twist.
I didn't even know Bernie Sanders was still kicking it, honestly.
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When I think of Bernie, I think of that meme. You know that meme, they supposed Bernie
and the little coat everywhere randomly. Bro, one thing about America, they got you on a meme.
That shit is eternal. You could have been funny for the last time. Oh, God. Yeah. Oh, God.
One thing about a meme, that shit don't die out. I still be laughing at news back in 2013.
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That ain't the golden age. For Vine, it was. Vine was a hell of a time.
Vine was lit. It just died. Why did it die? Did IG come out after Vine?
No, IG bought them, I think. Somebody bought them and didn't do anything with it and let it die.
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Because Vine was lit. It was popping. Vine could have kept going. I want to say,
IG bought it, did their own video service and just let Vine die out. They just bought out
the competition. Yeah. They killed the competition. Literally. I want to say that's illegal. Is it
still a app? Huh, Vine? Damn. I can't even tell you what it looks like anymore. Do they even still
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have those Vine videos on YouTube? They probably do. They probably still got the classic videos on
there. Vines are eternal, bro. I feel like, yeah. Yeah, man. Vines could have kept being something,
but I think Instagram bought them out and let them die. I want to say Rockefeller did the same shit
back then, too. Probably. Fucking Monopoly. Yeah. That shit is against the law. You can't do that.
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I mean, they still run this motherfucking low key. Hey, we ain't going to run a Monopoly on podcasts,
but we're going to run this shit. Bro, it's been a lot of... I want to say,
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I hate to call it an emotion, but it's a lot of overreaction lately. I feel like it's very
uncharacteristic, especially from... I just showed you that video of those two college coaches.
Yeah. I forgot the teams. I think CN and... I'm sorry, V? I forgot. Yeah. One team won by 72,
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the other team won by 72. When they shook hands, I can't believe the coach that won
last out on the coast that lost were like that. Because he was playing hard to the end. Yeah.
I get it. Playing that press defense at the end of the game when you already lost.
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Awesome. But you're mad about that? You want. Yeah. I feel like when we let our emotions...
I want to say take control of us because we are men. We're grown ass men. I'm pretty sure emotions
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don't take over us, but I guess they can overwhelm us and make us do crazy things. Like lash out?
Yeah. Lash out. You won the game. Why would you lash out at a coach that just lost again?
What I'm trying to get at is when we get emotional, we forget the big picture.
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Yeah. You're blinded by rage or whatever that emotion is. Yeah. And you use that rage
to just nitpick on every little thing that bothers you. Like, I ain't going to lie. My last two years
in the Navy, I wasn't emotional as hell. I took everything personal, but really the only thing
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that I wanted them to do was stop sending me on these fucking deaths. Stop sending me the fucking
Clanton, the St. Clement today. Please. Stop sending me the fucking Nevada. I'm not trying to go. I
bet I was trying to go see my moms. Yeah. Bro, this is a crazy situation. You remember when I
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go use some names. Bro, go ahead. But that whole 2020 fuss? What was it? 2019? No, it was 2021 when
we came back. That's what I'm saying. That whole year, bro, was stress, bro. Like, emotional damage.
You're telling me, bro. I had to finish the year out with them fuckers. But I was gone.
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And they were long gone and didn't look back. I was out. Bro, I came back in the office. I came
back from St. Clementi Island. That nigga was gone. As soon as I got my money, I was gone.
I was looking for my friends. I didn't have no friends for that kid. I was like, yeah, this is
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the time for me to get out. But I'm telling you, I was so emotional because they kept doing these
dumbest shit. You remember Cornell? Yeah. Well, I got sent to fucking Fowl in Nevada because
Cornell was the only other available AC. This is me trying to submit my lead chip. My lead chip
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is with my lead request. It's with, I want to say, Warren Hart. And
no, he approved it. It went up to the AMO. The AMO denied my shit saying he has to go to St.
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Clementi. No, not St. Clementi. He has to go to Fowl in Nevada. That's when I figured out I was
going on debt. I'm like, why the fuck am I going to St. Clementi? I got to leave shit in, bro.
And you know what was crazy? They didn't need to build a server.
So you didn't even need to go. I really did not need to go because they could just reach back.
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All they needed was Cornell to cut the maps in the morning.
But the senior chief that was in charge of that debt, he was like, he called me out by name.
I want Daniels. What? I'm trying to fucking go on leave.
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Oh, oh my gosh, bro. I was trying to go see my brother on her birthday and everything, bro.
At the time, my dad had a broken ankle too. I was really thinking about family at that time and
really needed to go see them. Especially that I haven't celebrated my mom's birthday with her
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since I joined the Navy. 10 years. I ain't in the Navy no more and I still haven't celebrated
her birthday with her. Like in 10 years. 10 years. You got next year. I do got next year.
Definitely got next year. But if they were to do some shit like that to you, you would get a little
emotional too. And I'm not going to lie, but we built on it. It just didn't stop. It did not stop.
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I thought it was going to stop right then and there. Now send your ass back to St. Clementi
Island again. Yeah. That sucked, bro. That's shitty. Nah, it was just crazy that it was just
on my ass. I was the only one that was there. And I think that's what really happened. I'm
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pissed. It's literally eight other people. Y'all niggas keep on leaving me alone.
I said, I want Daniels. Called you out by name. Call me out by name, bro. I want Daniels. I need
Daniels. No the fuck you don't, bro. And how did it make me emotional? Bro, that shit just kept
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piling on. I'll say this. Don't bottle up your emotions. I'm glad this is the era for us to
reach out and talk to people because this is one of those things that you should reach out and talk
to somebody you know if you are being overwhelmed emotionally. That shit's tough. So how I try to,
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I guess, alleviate my emotions is I figure like an emotional lash out, it's like an overreaction.
You didn't think to make those decisions. Whereas what a reaction is with your emotions intact
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and you had the time to think about your decisions. There's a reaction and an overreaction.
And yeah, I really think overreaction and emotional lash outs go hand in hand. They are one and the
same. For sure. But, nah bro. Definitely very emotional the last few years. Wow, that shit was
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definitely emotional. One thing I do, well, you know, since we was in the military,
like over time the longer you in, you know, the thicker your skin get, right? And yeah, you will
get essentially not everybody. A lot of asshole people in there. So those of y'all who is about
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to go to boot camp or whatever, you better have some thick ass skin. Especially in boot camp.
They gonna get on your ass. Yeah. They gonna get on your ass in boot camp. Just thinking of boot camp,
that shit was emotional, bro. That's a good one. Oh my God, bro. Because, nigga, listen, bro.
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I had a high top fade, nigga. Right? And I got a haircut before I went to boot camp.
Nigga, it was crispy. Like a beer all edged up. Yes, sir. You know what I'm saying? I had a
tin strap then. I didn't have one. I just had a tin strap. It was all edged up. Whatever. And I
came in that bitch crispy. I had some J's. I was so jean. I had a little Ralph Lauren polo on, bro.
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Right. And I get it. Yeah. I get in that bitch. Nigga, that motherfucker gave me some clothes.
Right. I was like, all right, put your clothes in this box. I'm like, okay, cool. Then you put on
your little boot camp. You know, done by sweats or whatever. Then they balled my shit. My hair,
cuz. Backwards. Nigga, against the grain, bro. And mind you, I'm stuck. I ain't never seen myself
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look like that, bro. Like, that was the first time I actually seen like my actual head shakes.
Like, you'd be like, oh, I think I thought my hair was shaped like an apple the whole time, bro.
Until your shit bald, you can see like the lumps, like the grooves in your hair. It's like the fuck.
And mind you, so I'm fucked up about that. You know, filling my hair like, what the fuck?
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Nigga, I'm looking at all these other bald head niggas and putting them with me down the hallway.
Oh, God. When you went lying, and you just see motherfuckers coming down bald as hell, you're like, huh?
What the fuck happened? You see them coming with long ass hair with like Triple H or some shit.
Yeah, you're like, what the fuck happened to you? They did it after that, nigga.
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When my clothes was in the box, nigga, they had me put my address on that bitch and they sent that
bitch home. I'm like, damn. I'm not gonna wear your camp right after I get out.
I'm stuck in this bitch, huh? It's a wrap. I had to really contemplate like, damn, did I make the right decision?
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I remember they had us staying up all night that day because we got there at midnight.
Yes, bro. Yes, bro. I think it's just standing up, bro.
At five in the morning standing up.
I'm about to fuck his ass.
Tired as fuck, bro.
Didn't even have the time to feel emotional at that time because we were so fucking tired.
Oh, God.
No, but when I sat down at eight, I thought, I was like, I'm trying to go fuck home.
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This is the shit. This is the piece of shit.
Oh, God.
I was crying.
This is ass, bro. I thought, we had this one dude, I forget his name, right? But we had already got
our little RDCs or our drill sergeants, right? So they yell at us or whatever. They make us stand on
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the tow line. So essentially, we just make this rectangle because we all standing outside our
fucking beds or racks or whatever. The chief asked, he was like, all right, which one of you guys want
to go home? You having a hard time? You don't think this is for you? Blah, blah, blah. Now is the time
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to ask, bro. This one kid, bro. Oh, my God. He's like short. He's like a little nerdy, like,
whatever, glasses and shit, thick ass lenses. He was like, me, chief, I want to go home.
And he was like, all right, I understand. Go ahead, pack your rack, pack your bags, get all that,
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get your stuff ready and stand right here in the middle, right in the middle of all of us.
Right. So we watching them pack his shit, right. And the whole time I was thinking, I'm like, damn,
we can go. I'm about to raise my hands too. I'm about to get the fuck up out this bitch.
And so he get out of his shit pack and he got his C-bag and all his shit. He's standing in the center
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of the floor. And the chief was like, recruit, you all ready to go? And he was like, yes, chief.
The chief was like, well, that's too fucking bad. Go unpack your shit and get on the toilet.
You send a sign up and it's about. Bro was going in, homie was like crying. Faces are red and shit.
Oh, shit. That shit was so bold, bro. And he started, he made homie do pushups. And then,
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you know, the floor, it was like that shiny tile light and he was slipping in his own sweat, bro,
doing his pushups. It was so bold, bro. It was so bold. He was going to push up so he sweat.
He was sweating, bro. He kept slipping in his sweat, bro. That shit was bold as fuck. Oh,
I feel so bad, bro. I'm just hearing about it. Yeah.
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Control your emotions because not all situations are like that. I just can see me and Lucas,
man, Luke, the greatest got out all right.
Just stay quiet. Do what you're supposed to do for eight weeks. That's all you gotta do.
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Do what you're supposed to do for eight weeks so you're done. For real. And everything that you
saw not to do, that shit, that shit gonna happen right then and there. Like, you'll pay, you'll
bread, all that shit. You'll be strange. You just got to get through the eight weeks. They really
make you go through it though. Oh, God. They'll do all kinds of emotions. But let's see, the emotions
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I really felt, I really felt like anxiety, like I was really anxious. Well, I have a little anxiety
problem. I guess it's hereditary within the family. I just could not wait to get the fuck out,
man. Like every day. Yeah. You're like antsy and shit. Yeah, I'm trying to get out now.
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That's why I can't do the deployment, bro, because the second I'm on a boat,
I'm trying to get off it. I feel you. I feel you 100%. When you go in and you look back and you
just see San Diego just get smaller and smaller, you're like, fuck. And like, this was literally
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your choice. We was on the Nimitz for 10 months. It was at the point where I didn't think we was
coming back. I swear to God. Holy shit. Oh, bro. You remember Broome? Oh, yeah, I remember.
Bro, I'm gonna let you tell your story. Let me get this one quick. So we in the cafeteria, bro.
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Right. It's like month and nine or like eight and a half or some shit like that.
We had just had talked to fucking, was it Mike Pence or whatever. Whoever was vice president.
Whoever the vice president was. And he told us that we wasn't coming home or some shit.
Pretty much we got another like two month extension or some shit. Yeah, they sent us
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to Somali. I remember that. Yeah. And so it's me, Broome, somebody else. I forget,
but we was eating chow. And you ate in that long ass line, take you fucking two hours to get some
shitty food. And it was like biscuits and gravy or some shit. Right. The shit was gross. Oh God,
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the shit was gross. Right. So, Broome, I get my Miley decent or whatever, whatever. I wasn't
gonna eat it. I was gonna eat some cereal and some chips. That's my dinner. And Broome get his shit.
He comes to the table and the shit rocking. Right. Oh, nigga, this nigga, they didn't get
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this nigga biscuit and gravy. His shit was like biscuit and like water. When the ship
leaned, bro, the biscuit like went with it. And all of a sudden, Broome seen,
I forgot our CS name. He was a CS2. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So he was like, Hey, Bro, man, they gave me
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this. Yeah, they gave me this trash food. You mind? You know what I'm saying? You know, you can look
out for me. Go get me some nuts real quick. You know, he like, yeah, I got you, bro. Well,
take room plate, go to the back to hug Broome up. Come back with some shit worse than the shit that
Broome had. And listen, bro. So Broome just sitting at the table, just looking at his plate like this.
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And I'm looking at him and he getting mad, bro. He getting mad. And all of a sudden he just stand up.
Man, I'm tired of this shit, bro. Every day I got to eat this shitty ass food. We just got to extend
it, bro. Like everybody in the cafeteria was like, Oh, shit. It Broome. Loud, bro. Just stood up and
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got the yelling, bro. Yelling, bro. Oh, man. It wasn't funny then, but. Yeah. Shout out to Broome,
dog. It's my homie. They served me a couple of biscuits at the like, hockey park.
Oh, God. Rice be like ice. You'd be like, what the fuck is this? It'd be either ice or pudding.
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Oh, God.
Then you ask the cook, like, what is this? I don't know. You'd be like, why you kick this shit?
They've been, right? So for people like, it's on a boat. We got to work 24-7. There is no sleep.
So the niggas that work at like midnight, they get that ass meal. They get mid-racks.
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Some niggas get whatever gross food is left over.
I remember them niggas gave me four pieces of wings. Two of them were cooked.
You remember Thanksgiving, bro? They put that raw ass pig on your plate.
Oh, my God. I was emotional at that time. I was like, what?
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I was crying. I said, let me get a piece of your finest pig.
This thing could put a whole hoof on my plate. They said, here you go. I said, get this shit.
I wasn't moving either. I thought it was funny.
Oh, my God.
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It was funny, bro, because the dude thought it was so funny. But Sean didn't think it was funny at
all. And look, he was holding up the line. They said, homie, you got to up this plate.
Sean repeated the same thing like four or five times. Can you get this off my plate?
Can you get this off my plate? Can you get this off my plate?
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It was a whole fucking leg just hanging off this fucking plate, dog.
Bro, the pig, it was so undone. It looked like they just chopped that motherfucker off, too.
Man, they put pig lid on this plate, dog.
They did that spell Christmas. Like a Merry Christmas to me.
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That was Christmas?
That was Christmas. They did this on Christmas.
They did it to make it more stressful. We were supposed to come home right before Christmas or
something. So we had just got to send it again. That shit was bad, bro. Oh, my God.
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No, right after that Christmas dinner, my friends came home and said, good luck at Somali.
Right? Oh, God. I thought they could keep going. That's what they said.
And it's out there for a half a month, dog. Holy shit. Somali, what?
That shit crazy.
That shit was crazy, dog. At that point, I had ran out of emotions to the fucking show.
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Oh, God. Everybody was like, bro, by like months, like eight, bro, motherfuckers was like
in zombie mode. Just like autopilot, bro.
Like you can sense the apathy.
I ain't shit else to talk about, bro. Like, you know what I mean?
Yeah. No, like literally after that extension, niggas really did start talking on that shit.
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Yeah. My fucking bet no whether we get extended or not. Hey, I bet we get extended.
How much you want to bet? Like, why are we betting on this? We need to hope for this.
Like, we need to hope. My bet.
That was a rough ass time, dog.
That was a rough ass time. I literally ran out of emotions, bro.
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Like, I don't even know if that was a good thing to just get a little help.
Actually speaking to that, bro. I'll say this.
I got a drink on his boots. And that bull.
Yes, sir. But we drunk. Sorry.
But look, right after that deployment, you know, I was getting out.
Yeah. Yeah. Show that show.
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Right. And, bro, I had to go through like months of therapy, bro.
That ass.
Yeah. For real. For like, because I had like usually, you know, you come home from,
you know, my first deployment I came home from, it was like barely seven months.
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Yeah.
And I came home, I was happy as shit. It felt good. This one was fucking 10 months.
Like, I didn't feel shit. Like nothing, bro. And mind you, this was a COVID cruise. So
we was on this ship for 10 months. You know, usually you might get off here and there in
another country, you know, might be able to go out and tie out and chill. This was 10 months straight in the water, bro.
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Imagine this. Imagine being stuck on a metal floating surface with 5,000 other people on it.
Half of those people will try to shit on you every day.
Dead ass, bro.
Imagine being stuck in that kind of environment.
And you should also do you, you wake up, right? You eat, you go work for 12 hours.
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You eat, work out if you want to go to bed for 12 hours, bro. It's a cycle for 10 months, bro.
So put it like this, bro. Wake up, eat breakfast, move your couch around for 12 hours, eat again,
and go to sleep. Do that shit for 10 months. See how you feel.
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Every day.
Every day.
Monday to fucking Monday, bro.
That is your routine every fucking day.
Oh shit. Every day is Monday.
Yeah.
Every day is Monday, bro.
Yeah. Monday through Monday. You said it right.
Monday through fucking Monday, dog.
You said it right, bro. That is your routine.
But yeah, I did, I had to go to therapy for a few months.
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And it was because the lady was trying to get me to like, you know, talk about my experience or
whatever, you know, trying to like trigger some emotions or whatever. I couldn't feel none, bro.
I was like, I don't even, I can't explain. I was numb or some shit like that. And what she did was
right to kind of like help me. Like instead of having me like talk about shit, she just had me
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have me like write out. Like I go see her for like an hour and a whole hour she would have me just
writing out my experience, like that deployment experience. Then all of a sudden it would like
start triggering shit. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Like breaking. Yeah. Kicking the door open
or whatever. So that's a-
It's like you're going to do it all over again.
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Yeah. So that's a good way, low key, to like kind of handle your emotions. You're going through
some shit, you know, write this shit now. Cause in a way it's like venting without talking,
you know what I mean?
Bro, I am a big advocate on people reaching out. So like I 100% agree with you. And
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I'm also a big supporter of people reaching out earlier rather than later like I did. So I felt
like I should have reached out and talked to somebody after deployment, but I talked to
somebody after I smoked some weed in the military. Yeah. That's when I started talking to somebody
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because at that point when you were feeling the numbness, when I came back from San Clemente,
I was, dog, I was numb as a brick.
I'm telling you, bro.
No feeling like Sean, like they told me, oh Daniel, I'm out. I felt, I felt happy, dog.
I was like, oh shit, I'm getting out.
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Yeah.
Because, dog, I really felt like I was stuck in that contract. If I had stayed,
I would have gone on another deployment and I don't think I would have made it to that one.
No, I'll tell you that right now.
I will be dead ass with you, bro. If I went on another deployment,
I probably would not come back and that's real. I'll be like that, bro.
That's what I said.
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Good.
I said, I said, there's no way I'm going back on that boat.
No, I feel you on that, Sean, 100%.
Right in and there, I killed my feelings. I killed all sense of responsibility in myself
and I said, fuck it.
And then on top of like the far as that numb shoots, I can kind of like explain
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just a little bit more.
Yeah, please.
Like I was like, we went home, the Palm post leave or whatever, Palm period.
We went home and bro, like my family and friends, they just happy as fuck to see me, bro.
But you was whatever still.
But I was numb, bro. Of course, I smiled, I laughed and all of that, bro.
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But on the inside, bro, it was just like blank, bro.
Yeah.
I don't know. It was just a weird, that was a weird experience, bro.
I had like a, what they call like a facade on for like a few months, bro.
Yeah, I feel you.
Like, like you don't know what emotions to feel.
That's it, bro.
Yeah.
You're like, this is fucking bullshit.
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Yeah.
In the end, you just feel mad.
Yeah.
That, no, that's like, you have to, you have to get into the type of your emotions.
You have to know yourself.
You have to be aware.
Really? Yeah.
I think self-awareness is so big.
Yeah.
I'll tell you this right now, bro. Like I was, I'm from that time, bro.
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Like I graduated in 2013.
Like we, we, we didn't, like we were saying whatever.
It is definitely a different time from back then than what it is now because we was not sensitive.
So me coming into the military with that kind of mindset, I'm, I'm already saying whatever's under the,
I'm using the F word.
Rhymes with departed.
Calling, calling people, they are worried rhymes with departed.
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Like I did not, I was not aware of people's emotions around me as well.
I knew that was like later on, I knew that wasn't right.
But back then I thought, you know, it was just words.
I'm just, I'm just forcing it be like that.
It's kind of, you know, really, you know, really what you're doing until like the shit happened to you.
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Yeah.
Then you kind of like get that little wide screen view to like kind of, you know.
I say, I say when I turned 26 and 27 was when I became like aware of people that, you know, that are around me.
And that's when I started to be mindful of what I said.
I'm gonna go live because I used to see some watch shit.
No filter.
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It is zero.
It was zero.
Folks are going to be like, then I got over it.
Then I got over it, but I feel like this is something you can learn before you get that age and it's self-awareness.
It's literally being, you know, aware of your surroundings, aware of yourself, aware of who you are, you know, and what you're capable of.
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Not for sure.
You know, like what can you do with your anger or, you know, like what's going to make me feel happy?
Yeah.
What am I going to do if I feel stressed out?
Because some people still travel around this world lost.
And I was like that for a good while until, like I said, until I turned like 26 or 27.
I actually gave it some thought, you know, sat down, looked in the mirror.
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Yes.
There's a lot of things you can do to kind of trust you like for anger.
Like for me, it was back when I used to really be in a jail.
I just ain't been in jail for a minute. I need to get back in there, bitch.
I'm getting a life hope.
I'm still paying that 24 hour membership.
I ain't showed up one day.
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They just gave me free money for me, but.
I'm back.
You were kissing my shit while you said that.
Bro, my apartment got a Peloton. Why am I trying to go to another jail?
I just got lost in words and I just thought about that like, damn, I'll show a little panties, motherfuckers, 25.
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I have much money a month.
I know.
And I ain't even going.
I'll cancel two memberships tomorrow.
But fuck. What was I about to say?
You remember what I was about to say?
What was we just talking about?
I just got lost, bro.
We're still on emotions, bro.
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Just some tips, right?
Like far as like like maybe you feel angry or maybe you felt like sad, right?
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I'm talking like real emotional shit, right?
And this is getting heavy.
You know, one thing you can do, bro, is meditate.
I had actually did a speech on that in my communication class.
It was like six, seven minute long speech, bro.
But essentially what you do is like you don't need any tools or, you know, nothing like that.
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You really just need like a safe area, like a living room, maybe a bedroom, somewhere quiet.
You know what I'm saying? And then you just need yourself, bro.
And you just sit down or lay down or however you want to sit, bro.
Close your eyes, bro.
You know, focus on, you know, that triggering point that got you feeling however you're feeling.
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You know, you take some deep breaths and then you pretty much just try to air it out, bro.
Like just dissolve it right then and there.
Don't let it eat you up.
You know what I'm saying?
Or if you feel like that's not working, then reach out.
Send a text, bro.
899-988-988.
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Hold on.
I really want to get this right, bro.
I don't know why 988.
988-988-988.
Send a text, bro.
They're going to hit you back.
Shit, you don't even have to reach out to those people if you don't really want to.
At the end of the day, you have family.
You have your mom and dad.
You have, you know, if you have brothers and sisters, you have aunties or uncles.
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Shit.
You may even have your best friend that you call a bro.
That's your family, ain't it?
Oh, my God.
Everyone has someone to talk to because I'm pretty sure you said in this first episode,
humans are social creatures.
Oh, yeah.
We made these.
We made you be alone, bro.
Sitting alone.
Figuring some shit out.
I've been doing some editing, though.
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With shrooms.
You haven't been stuck on a bed, bro.
I'll be traveling.
Oh, the mushrooms don't taste good, though.
You got to eat it with a PB&J sandwich.
I've been hearing so many scary stories about those.
No, shrooms are definitely an experience if you ever get the chance.
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I love it.
I'll tell you this right now.
That shit is disgusting.
I heard some stories.
Some dude got abducted.
I don't know what to say.
When you're doing fucking, like, hallucinogens or whatever it is, you got to have a clear
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mind.
You wasn't going to shit out yourself.
It's the same as alcohol, bro.
You know what alcohol is actually a depressant?
If you're drinking alcohol at a depressant time, it's not a good idea.
If you're drinking that Casamigo for you, and you want someone to go with you, that's
not going to happen.
What did he say?
That is the opposite of progressive.
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That is the opposite of progression.
That is not progressive at all.
You're not building anything.
Definitely drinking is a big thing in your life.
I'm glad due to the constitutions of my body, I have no other choice.
I stop drinking a lot because every time I drink, I throw up now.
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I'm probably going to drink.
I'm probably going to throw up after this massage.
We don't fucking drink every day.
I'm a smoker.
I might take an edible, like a little 10 milligram edible and jump on call of duty.
Luke the greatest beyond life.
Life has so much to offer.
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Why are you trying to depress yourself with a depressant?
No, dead ass though.
Life has so much to offer.
That's when I realized as well when I turned 26, when I gained self-awareness, I was like,
damn, life has so much, bro.
I'm still capable of doing all these great things in life because I'm still young and
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shit too.
I kind of realized myself at a good age.
Thanks to this podcast, you could use our lessons and probably find yourself sooner
rather than later, save yourself some heartaches, some emotional stress.
I see that right now, bro.
Definitely to my people in the military, stay strong because we was there.
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We was definitely there.
For sure.
I was in Iraq.
Like what?
We was there after ISIS burned that one pilot.
It was on the news.
It was a pilot from Jordan.
ISIS shot that nigga down and burned him in his village.
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In a cage.
That's why we got sent to Iraq so we could pick up people before that happened.
That's crazy.
We actually responded to a call too in Iraq one time.
Some CIA guys got shot down.
We got there before ISIS got there.
2016, baby.
Good times.
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Heroes, goddamn heroes.
I was just pushing paper.
I was just making logbook entries.
We had a basketball goal in the hangar so I shot on that a couple of times.
Contribution is contribution.
Contribution.
I got my danger pain and everything too.
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I'm not going to lie, bro.
A lot of other people probably went through some stressful situations because the Marines,
I saw the Marines had landed there a week before they got hit by mortars.
Damn.
I know a lot of people, like a lot of other branches out there who were under stressful situations.
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But not the Germans.
The Germans brought a restaurant and beer with them.
Deadass, bro.
They had set up a 10th German restaurant in Iraq.
And they were serving beer all the time.
We didn't pay by any means necessary.
It made me look at the German military, bro.
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I started looking at all the other militaries too because it was the first time I seen Royal Navy.
I seen their beers.
I'm like, why are we the only niggas with no beers?
I see you not, bro.
When we was in Iraq, we was literally the only niggas with no beers.
The Army niggas had beers too.
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I'm pissed off.
My CO said, well, you know where you come from.
You're the US Navy.
We shave every day.
Who the fuck we don't?
We got shave shits.
We got those shave shits.
We do not shave every day.
I definitely don't.
I stopped shaving.
When did I stop shaving?
I stopped shaving at a...
I think I stopped shaving two years before I got out.
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I stopped shaving after a year I was in.
My fucking face was bumping up like a fucking zombie at work.
Went to see Doc.
I said, hey, Luke, my shit fucked up.
They said, all right, here.
You ain't got to shave no more.
Say good luck.
No, I literally did not give a fuck when I was there.
I remember I walked into Venus Control one time with earrings on.
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Guess who called me?
First person to catch me.
Joey.
My man...
Joey Casaneda.
Joey Casaneda caught my...
Good old Warren.
He said, shit, that's it.
I already knew what happened.
Warren was a shit though, bro.
I fucked with Warren.
I fucked with Warren.
Warren was...
Dude, that's my dog, man.
If there was anyone cool with Warren, I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
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I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
If there was anyone cool with Warren, I don't think there was, bro.
Because Warren was...
Yeah.
He looked out for you, bro.
Warren was solid, bro.
Warren Cas.
Shout out to Joey Casaneda.
Oh, God.
Thank you for your service.
He retired.
He retired.
Yeah, for sure.
Thank you, man.
He really did look out for all the real ones.
He called me a superstar.
You know damn well I'm one of those superstars.
First edit though, he put it right on paper.
Superstar.
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I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
This is the last story going out, he had me under a stressful situation.
Yeah.
When he was MMCO.
When he was the maintenance material control officer.
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So remember that server didn't work when we first got on the boat.
Yeah, that was a struggle.
So he said, that server gonna work or someone's getting fired.
Suppose he gonna fire.
I'm trying to figure out.
But it was enough to light a fire into my ass and get to work it.
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I worked a couple sleep was nice because I thought I was going to lose my job.
For every job I had, you can't fire no one from the Navy.
I'm on a contract. What?
I think I'm going to finesse my ass.
Finesse that up though.
Yep, the server was running. We're doing good.
Yeah. Nah, that was definitely some emotional times.
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But hey, that was it for us though.
Before we go, I do want to mention for all of our Healing Club podcast fans, all out there, all our pro healers, all our progressors, we got an online story that we're launching today.
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The URL is going to be thehealinclubpodcast.bigcartel.com.
On there we have five pieces of merchandise.
Very dope. I designed them myself.
Them says it's clean. We got some nice stuff.
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I'm getting some. Yes, I am.
Yes, sir. We get geared up. We get into gear.
We got a T-shirt, we got a hoodie, we got a wine glass on there.
If you want to rep your favorite podcast on mental health, we appreciate you.
With that being said, good night.
Take care.
Take care and we will see you all next week.
What's going on everyone? Thank you for tuning in. This is the Gila Core Podcast Episode
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4. We have made it to a mark. My name is Sean. And I'm Luke the Greatest, the one and only.
The one and only. Damn, a whole month of us. Crazy. We like we, I told you I was coming.
Four weeks. God damn it. Four weeks. Four episodes. We might come up to 12 episodes,
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have a season. Off and off season. But let's go ahead and get started.
So before we do get started, if you know anybody, you always got to do this. If you know anybody
that's hurting out there. And if you yourself is hurting, I would please reach out to that
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suicide awareness hotline. There is a hotline for those that are going through tough times.
I keep forgetting it. I'm going to say it's 899. It's like 899. Yes, it's literally three digits
that you can call or text. Yeah, definitely. If you're going through some reach out, some text,
call them if you want to. It's confidential. You're not going to put your business out there. So
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reach out. We care about you. 988, that is the number. But this is the time, I guess this is
the era in which you can speak out and let people know that you're hurting because it ain't no wrong
in seeking help. And that's why we're here. That is why the Healing Club Podcast is here.
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To help you heal hopefully our life experiences and our healing journeys can also open some paths
for you. And with that being said, heal on. I'll tell you what though, bro. You want to know who's
definitely healed? Who? The Detroit Lions. Yes, we are. The eight and two Detroit Lions. I think
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that fan base and that team have healed quite enough and are enjoying the fruits of their labor
as we speak. Big Lions, big Detroit. We winners. That's crazy. We winners, guys.
The city of Detroit is definitely smiling again. I almost want to cry, bro. I remember those days
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of 0 and 16. Those days were tough. I was crying. They were rough. But now look at it, it's 8 and 2,
bro. 8 and 2? Yeah, 8 and 2, bro. 8 and 2. Second in the conference. Damn, number one in
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y'all division for sure. Beating out the Packers for what, the first time? Yeah, we don't care
about them cheeseheads. Them cheeseheads, beating out the Packers, beating out the
Vikings too. Oh yeah, the Bears are done for us. So yeah, that's the division that's for the Lions.
And once again, let me say this. I didn't like Jerry Gough at first, but
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after giving him some time and, you know, I take that statement back. I love Jerry Gough.
Dan Campbell and Jerry Gough. I like Jerry Gough.
That was a fire ass team. I think I said it before. Amon Ra, Sam Laporta,
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Jerry Gough, Jameer Gibbs. The defense was crazy too with Aiden Hutchinson.
Man, y'all used to have, what was it? Darius Slick. Yeah, we used to have Darius Slick.
That would have been different though. Darius Slick was so there. That would have been too much,
too much pressure. No, that shit would have been different. Sorry y'all, we boozed it a little bit.
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But A and two Lions, that's the craziest game I've ever seen. We almost lost to Chicago, but
we got our shit together. My boy Justin Fields first came back. I didn't get to see his stats though,
but I heard he gave y'all some trouble. You can see by the score. It was like 31 to like 26,
something like that. Bro, it stayed close the whole game. Yeah, they was on our ass.
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We held our own though, cuz we held our own. Luckily for the Hawkins fan, they didn't get a
chance to lose yesterday. So that's a plus. Y'all gotta pass. I told him earlier, I said,
that's good for your cholesterol, bro. Cause the Falcons be stressing you out.
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I ain't gotta see them getting dogged out by the Titans or the Vikings. That's a good weekend.
But shit, no, fuck man. Fuck about this. They don't piss me off. Hey, they piss me off. That
division is supposed to be ours for the taking. Because our only competition is Derek Carr
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and Baker Mayfield. We already did our thing against the Bucks and the Panthers.
It's good old Baker Mayfield. Put that man, Derek Carr, bro. I mean,
honestly this year, the NFC South is a shitty division with the Saints being ahead with a
five and five record, I think, or five and six. I don't know if they even won yesterday.
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Fuck the Saints, the Ains, the New Orleans Ains. New Orleans Ains. That's the first time I heard
that. You a real hater, bro. I ain't never heard that one before. I don't like none of them teams, bro.
What the bucks? Oh man, the Panthers ain't gonna have no motion.
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Speaking about the Panthers,
what you think about Bryce Young, their number one pick between him and CJ Stroud?
Did you think the Panthers chose wrong? Because honestly,
about the Panthers- CJ Stroud is where?
He's a Houston Texas quarterback. Yeah, okay.
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So between those two, either one of those could have won number one. But everyone said it was
the safer pick to get Bryce Young because he was a more pro ready quarterback.
How would they know that? That's what I'm saying.
If he didn't play in the pros. Yeah, like how do y'all assess that?
And going back to Kenny Pickett, not going back, we're gonna pick up Kenny Pickett because
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they picked up Kenny Pickett, number one first pick for the Steelers. They picked him
up because he was the most pro ready quarterback in the game.
That doesn't make sense. That's what I'm saying.
How are you ready for the pros? Tell them, bro.
He's just as ready for the pros as much as the next quarterback that's in the draft.
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Bro, I would like to see these NFL analysts, like gray sheets, bro. They be coming up with
them both absurd stats and guidelines. Pro rated? You have to be in the pros, bro,
to be pro rated. And then just like history, bro, what you're seeing good quarterbacks
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in college, right? Like, oh, when he gets to the NFL, they're gonna take over.
Shit, as soon as they get to the NFL. So it's like you can't even really,
you know, you can be good in college, but you won't, you might not be that good in NFL.
Yeah, you can't, you can't assess, you can't assess a quarterback's readiness.
Exactly. For something he hasn't performed in before, you know, it was like, he's good.
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Yeah. At the end of the day, they're grading these players at these combines
without QB pressure, without like open field, just one receiver down there,
you're grading how good his throw was with a one-on-one situation. You can't,
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you know what I mean, right? No, I get what you're saying.
Like these, these combines for these quarterbacks are so stupid. It's like, it's like me taking
a snap at the door and down the ball down the field because no one's going to tackle me.
It's the combine. You can, you can assess everyone's arm at that point. So can they play
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with that arm? Yeah, the quarterbacks are good, right? Obviously you in the combines because
you're talented, but you can't really judge it until like they're in the game and you know,
you got all these, uh, intangibles. Yeah. It's so much that goes into the game.
Like how they graded Zach Wilson, bro, how they graded Zach Wilson in the combine, because he
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blew the combine out of the water. He did the same. That's why he became the, you know, the
number two, the number two draft pick. Yeah. The QB, like the QB right behind Trevor Lawrence,
he's supposed to be that guy because how they graded him in the combine, you know, he looked
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at, you know, he looked, he looked spectacular in the combine. The combine ain't shit for
quarterbacks, bro. You can't, but because like a quarterback, like we all know a quarterback can
throw the ball. Yeah, obviously. Yeah. What is, what is their decision making skills, bro?
And how can they handle all of that pressure? You know what I'm saying? Yeah. You got to include
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the crowd. You got to be a grown man. You know, especially genusl defenses, you know, they
intimidating, bro. You know, especially like players that they going against that they've
been watching since they was like teens or kids or whatever. Now they going against, that's a lot
of pressure, bro. So yeah. You were, you were playing, you were playing with college kids.
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Now you were growing men who didn't, who have that experience with all these different
quarterbacks. So it's like, they pick you apart, bro. They make a living off of it too. Yeah.
Millions of dollars and you think they sweet. Oh, yeah. Oh, and then like, so was Tom Brady pro
rated when he came up? Cause he didn't even start when he came out, he was bent. He was, he was,
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he was what the fifth, sixth round pick? Dude, I don't know. He, he was barely on the team, dog.
He was, bro. Drew Bessel, I forgot he was starting back then. Tom Brady wasn't a kid back then.
That's great. Then he doesn't want to all Superbowl. Yeah. But I ain't gonna say that.
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Say they, they want all the Superbowls, I guess fair and square. But it's still that pro rated
thing. Like, okay. Yeah. That said, you can't, I don't think you can assess a college QB quarterback
office readiness for the pros. No, you can't bro. Face office, you know, his, his, his combined
performance or so like that. Or, or they get it from, you know, they get it from study data
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that they just study it from all these games. Like computer algorithms and all that dumb shit.
And, and I guess that's dog. Advanced analytics is crazy because advanced analytics is a reason why,
why Bryce Young was drafted over CJ Stroud. CJ Stroud, I knew he could play football when he
almost when he almost beat Georgia. Ohio State almost beat Georgia bro. Yeah. He almost beat
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them. They had you scared. I was like, not again, George. Don't let me down. Y'all gonna do this
again. Nah, CJ Stroud that nigga. He real, he is a pistol. Bryce Young bro and even CJ bro,
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you got to give them time. Like, you know, you got to give them time before you can really be like,
oh, they, they're not that good or they good, you know. Oh, I'm biased. CJ, I mean, not CJ,
Bryce on the Panthers. I'm sorry for him. Okay. I'm gonna give them some time before I have something to say.
But I'll give them this. They, they did trade away all their weapons. They had DJ Moro bro.
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Yeah, they did. The Panthers is naked right now. The Panthers said, I don't need shit.
And then after CMC, CMC going now. It's like, what's crazy is I don't think he got really anything back in the turn.
I don't know. That you can see right now because the Panthers are ass. They're probably about to do a
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little rebuild. They have to. They got to start with the coats. They got to start with that because
that is the reason why price is probably failing. How do you trade away all your best receivers
and expect Bryce Young to make the other receivers look good? I don't think that's how that works.
I think you do need some skills. Yeah, bro. They, they trade away DJ more because they thought,
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they thought Bryce Young was going to, you know, instead of the receivers working,
he'll work for the receivers. Nah, that nigga been throwing picks every game.
No fucking pro DBs eating him up. He got highlights off his ass.
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I'm surprised. I mean, that's all going. Oh, let it go. Like, like getting emotional,
like nigga in the NBA, like, like, like dream on, for example, some of Mr. Headlock, Mr. Mr.
Choke them out. That was a funny game, bro. Like I get, you know, you want to stand up for your
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teammate. You know, you want to be there, but Rudy was like breaking it up, like, you know, trying
to separate them. And the fact that Rudy, he wasn't even in the art education. Drey Marran from the
whole other side of the court to choke out Rudy, who had nothing to do with it. It's like, damn,
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was you holding the grudge bro? I'm about to get you out of here in a stretcher.
All because he wanted to get a little emotional and wanted to do whatever to Rudy. That was
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crazy. Them niggas got busy before, before the ball, before a point got scored from them.
That was funny. Another, another, another good, another good example of people who's going
hella emotional. I sent you that clip with Senator Mullen. Oh my God, bro. I'm talking about,
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bro, these ain't no way. These are politicians. Our leaders, yo, our leaders. When I watched this
shit, I was like, ain't no way. He was really trying to scrap with that man. Like I get it,
you know, you want to confront a guy who's threatening you or whatever, right? But it's
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a time and a place, bro. Live TV in front of the nation, bro. It's not a good time.
Or a good place. He got both of those wrong. What's crazy is he picked that time to read out all of
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the insults from the other dude. Yeah, he did. He picked that time and he picked that time to stand
on business too. He said the other dude was like, we can go, we can go anytime, anyplace.
And the Senator was like, this is a time, this is a place. You want to run your mouth. We can do it
right. Exactly right. Like, I know you fucking lying, bro. Like, ain't no way, bro. You a Senator,
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bro. Right. Bernie Sanders had to say, oh, hold on. You're trying to alleviate the twist.
I didn't even know Bernie Sanders was still kicking it, honestly.
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When I think of Bernie, I think of that meme. You know that meme, they supposed Bernie
and the little coat everywhere randomly. Bro, one thing about America, they got you on a meme.
That shit is eternal. You could have been funny for the last time. Oh, God. Yeah. Oh, God.
One thing about a meme, that shit don't die out. I still be laughing at news back in 2013.
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That ain't the golden age. For Vine, it was. Vine was a hell of a time.
Vine was lit. It just died. Why did it die? Did IG come out after Vine?
No, IG bought them, I think. Somebody bought them and didn't do anything with it and let it die.
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Because Vine was lit. It was popping. Vine could have kept going. I want to say,
IG bought it, did their own video service and just let Vine die out. They just bought out
the competition. Yeah. They killed the competition. Literally. I want to say that's illegal. Is it
still a app? Huh, Vine? Damn. I can't even tell you what it looks like anymore. Do they even still
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have those Vine videos on YouTube? They probably do. They probably still got the classic videos on
there. Vines are eternal, bro. I feel like, yeah. Yeah, man. Vines could have kept being something,
but I think Instagram bought them out and let them die. I want to say Rockefeller did the same shit
back then, too. Probably. Fucking Monopoly. Yeah. That shit is against the law. You can't do that.
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I mean, they still run this motherfucking low key. Hey, we ain't going to run a Monopoly on podcasts,
but we're going to run this shit. Bro, it's been a lot of... I want to say,
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I hate to call it an emotion, but it's a lot of overreaction lately. I feel like it's very
uncharacteristic, especially from... I just showed you that video of those two college coaches.
Yeah. I forgot the teams. I think CN and... I'm sorry, V? I forgot. Yeah. One team won by 72,
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the other team won by 72. When they shook hands, I can't believe the coach that won
last out on the coast that lost were like that. Because he was playing hard to the end. Yeah.
I get it. Playing that press defense at the end of the game when you already lost.
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Awesome. But you're mad about that? You want. Yeah. I feel like when we let our emotions...
I want to say take control of us because we are men. We're grown ass men. I'm pretty sure emotions
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don't take over us, but I guess they can overwhelm us and make us do crazy things. Like lash out?
Yeah. Lash out. You won the game. Why would you lash out at a coach that just lost again?
What I'm trying to get at is when we get emotional, we forget the big picture.
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Yeah. You're blinded by rage or whatever that emotion is. Yeah. And you use that rage
to just nitpick on every little thing that bothers you. Like, I ain't going to lie. My last two years
in the Navy, I wasn't emotional as hell. I took everything personal, but really the only thing
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that I wanted them to do was stop sending me on these fucking deaths. Stop sending me the fucking
Clanton, the St. Clement today. Please. Stop sending me the fucking Nevada. I'm not trying to go. I
bet I was trying to go see my moms. Yeah. Bro, this is a crazy situation. You remember when I
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go use some names. Bro, go ahead. But that whole 2020 fuss? What was it? 2019? No, it was 2021 when
we came back. That's what I'm saying. That whole year, bro, was stress, bro. Like, emotional damage.
You're telling me, bro. I had to finish the year out with them fuckers. But I was gone.
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And they were long gone and didn't look back. I was out. Bro, I came back in the office. I came
back from St. Clementi Island. That nigga was gone. As soon as I got my money, I was gone.
I was looking for my friends. I didn't have no friends for that kid. I was like, yeah, this is
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the time for me to get out. But I'm telling you, I was so emotional because they kept doing these
dumbest shit. You remember Cornell? Yeah. Well, I got sent to fucking Fowl in Nevada because
Cornell was the only other available AC. This is me trying to submit my lead chip. My lead chip
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is with my lead request. It's with, I want to say, Warren Hart. And
no, he approved it. It went up to the AMO. The AMO denied my shit saying he has to go to St.
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Clementi. No, not St. Clementi. He has to go to Fowl in Nevada. That's when I figured out I was
going on debt. I'm like, why the fuck am I going to St. Clementi? I got to leave shit in, bro.
And you know what was crazy? They didn't need to build a server.
So you didn't even need to go. I really did not need to go because they could just reach back.
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All they needed was Cornell to cut the maps in the morning.
But the senior chief that was in charge of that debt, he was like, he called me out by name.
I want Daniels. What? I'm trying to fucking go on leave.
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Oh, oh my gosh, bro. I was trying to go see my brother on her birthday and everything, bro.
At the time, my dad had a broken ankle too. I was really thinking about family at that time and
really needed to go see them. Especially that I haven't celebrated my mom's birthday with her
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since I joined the Navy. 10 years. I ain't in the Navy no more and I still haven't celebrated
her birthday with her. Like in 10 years. 10 years. You got next year. I do got next year.
Definitely got next year. But if they were to do some shit like that to you, you would get a little
emotional too. And I'm not going to lie, but we built on it. It just didn't stop. It did not stop.
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I thought it was going to stop right then and there. Now send your ass back to St. Clementi
Island again. Yeah. That sucked, bro. That's shitty. Nah, it was just crazy that it was just
on my ass. I was the only one that was there. And I think that's what really happened. I'm
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pissed. It's literally eight other people. Y'all niggas keep on leaving me alone.
I said, I want Daniels. Called you out by name. Call me out by name, bro. I want Daniels. I need
Daniels. No the fuck you don't, bro. And how did it make me emotional? Bro, that shit just kept
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piling on. I'll say this. Don't bottle up your emotions. I'm glad this is the era for us to
reach out and talk to people because this is one of those things that you should reach out and talk
to somebody you know if you are being overwhelmed emotionally. That shit's tough. So how I try to,
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I guess, alleviate my emotions is I figure like an emotional lash out, it's like an overreaction.
You didn't think to make those decisions. Whereas what a reaction is with your emotions intact
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and you had the time to think about your decisions. There's a reaction and an overreaction.
And yeah, I really think overreaction and emotional lash outs go hand in hand. They are one and the
same. For sure. But, nah bro. Definitely very emotional the last few years. Wow, that shit was
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definitely emotional. One thing I do, well, you know, since we was in the military,
like over time the longer you in, you know, the thicker your skin get, right? And yeah, you will
get essentially not everybody. A lot of asshole people in there. So those of y'all who is about
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to go to boot camp or whatever, you better have some thick ass skin. Especially in boot camp.
They gonna get on your ass. Yeah. They gonna get on your ass in boot camp. Just thinking of boot camp,
that shit was emotional, bro. That's a good one. Oh my God, bro. Because, nigga, listen, bro.
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I had a high top fade, nigga. Right? And I got a haircut before I went to boot camp.
Nigga, it was crispy. Like a beer all edged up. Yes, sir. You know what I'm saying? I had a
tin strap then. I didn't have one. I just had a tin strap. It was all edged up. Whatever. And I
came in that bitch crispy. I had some J's. I was so jean. I had a little Ralph Lauren polo on, bro.
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Right. And I get it. Yeah. I get in that bitch. Nigga, that motherfucker gave me some clothes.
Right. I was like, all right, put your clothes in this box. I'm like, okay, cool. Then you put on
your little boot camp. You know, done by sweats or whatever. Then they balled my shit. My hair,
cuz. Backwards. Nigga, against the grain, bro. And mind you, I'm stuck. I ain't never seen myself
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look like that, bro. Like, that was the first time I actually seen like my actual head shakes.
Like, you'd be like, oh, I think I thought my hair was shaped like an apple the whole time, bro.
Until your shit bald, you can see like the lumps, like the grooves in your hair. It's like the fuck.
And mind you, so I'm fucked up about that. You know, filling my hair like, what the fuck?
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Nigga, I'm looking at all these other bald head niggas and putting them with me down the hallway.
Oh, God. When you went lying, and you just see motherfuckers coming down bald as hell, you're like, huh?
What the fuck happened? You see them coming with long ass hair with like Triple H or some shit.
Yeah, you're like, what the fuck happened to you? They did it after that, nigga.
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When my clothes was in the box, nigga, they had me put my address on that bitch and they sent that
bitch home. I'm like, damn. I'm not gonna wear your camp right after I get out.
I'm stuck in this bitch, huh? It's a wrap. I had to really contemplate like, damn, did I make the right decision?
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I remember they had us staying up all night that day because we got there at midnight.
Yes, bro. Yes, bro. I think it's just standing up, bro.
At five in the morning standing up.
I'm about to fuck his ass.
Tired as fuck, bro.
Didn't even have the time to feel emotional at that time because we were so fucking tired.
Oh, God.
No, but when I sat down at eight, I thought, I was like, I'm trying to go fuck home.
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This is the shit. This is the piece of shit.
Oh, God.
I was crying.
This is ass, bro. I thought, we had this one dude, I forget his name, right? But we had already got
our little RDCs or our drill sergeants, right? So they yell at us or whatever. They make us stand on
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the tow line. So essentially, we just make this rectangle because we all standing outside our
fucking beds or racks or whatever. The chief asked, he was like, all right, which one of you guys want
to go home? You having a hard time? You don't think this is for you? Blah, blah, blah. Now is the time
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to ask, bro. This one kid, bro. Oh, my God. He's like short. He's like a little nerdy, like,
whatever, glasses and shit, thick ass lenses. He was like, me, chief, I want to go home.
And he was like, all right, I understand. Go ahead, pack your rack, pack your bags, get all that,
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get your stuff ready and stand right here in the middle, right in the middle of all of us.
Right. So we watching them pack his shit, right. And the whole time I was thinking, I'm like, damn,
we can go. I'm about to raise my hands too. I'm about to get the fuck up out this bitch.
And so he get out of his shit pack and he got his C-bag and all his shit. He's standing in the center
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of the floor. And the chief was like, recruit, you all ready to go? And he was like, yes, chief.
The chief was like, well, that's too fucking bad. Go unpack your shit and get on the toilet.
You send a sign up and it's about. Bro was going in, homie was like crying. Faces are red and shit.
Oh, shit. That shit was so bold, bro. And he started, he made homie do pushups. And then,
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you know, the floor, it was like that shiny tile light and he was slipping in his own sweat, bro,
doing his pushups. It was so bold, bro. It was so bold. He was going to push up so he sweat.
He was sweating, bro. He kept slipping in his sweat, bro. That shit was bold as fuck. Oh,
I feel so bad, bro. I'm just hearing about it. Yeah.
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Control your emotions because not all situations are like that. I just can see me and Lucas,
man, Luke, the greatest got out all right.
Just stay quiet. Do what you're supposed to do for eight weeks. That's all you gotta do.
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Do what you're supposed to do for eight weeks so you're done. For real. And everything that you
saw not to do, that shit, that shit gonna happen right then and there. Like, you'll pay, you'll
bread, all that shit. You'll be strange. You just got to get through the eight weeks. They really
make you go through it though. Oh, God. They'll do all kinds of emotions. But let's see, the emotions
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I really felt, I really felt like anxiety, like I was really anxious. Well, I have a little anxiety
problem. I guess it's hereditary within the family. I just could not wait to get the fuck out,
man. Like every day. Yeah. You're like antsy and shit. Yeah, I'm trying to get out now.
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That's why I can't do the deployment, bro, because the second I'm on a boat,
I'm trying to get off it. I feel you. I feel you 100%. When you go in and you look back and you
just see San Diego just get smaller and smaller, you're like, fuck. And like, this was literally
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your choice. We was on the Nimitz for 10 months. It was at the point where I didn't think we was
coming back. I swear to God. Holy shit. Oh, bro. You remember Broome? Oh, yeah, I remember.
Bro, I'm gonna let you tell your story. Let me get this one quick. So we in the cafeteria, bro.
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Right. It's like month and nine or like eight and a half or some shit like that.
We had just had talked to fucking, was it Mike Pence or whatever. Whoever was vice president.
Whoever the vice president was. And he told us that we wasn't coming home or some shit.
Pretty much we got another like two month extension or some shit. Yeah, they sent us
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to Somali. I remember that. Yeah. And so it's me, Broome, somebody else. I forget,
but we was eating chow. And you ate in that long ass line, take you fucking two hours to get some
shitty food. And it was like biscuits and gravy or some shit. Right. The shit was gross. Oh God,
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the shit was gross. Right. So, Broome, I get my Miley decent or whatever, whatever. I wasn't
gonna eat it. I was gonna eat some cereal and some chips. That's my dinner. And Broome get his shit.
He comes to the table and the shit rocking. Right. Oh, nigga, this nigga, they didn't get
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this nigga biscuit and gravy. His shit was like biscuit and like water. When the ship
leaned, bro, the biscuit like went with it. And all of a sudden, Broome seen,
I forgot our CS name. He was a CS2. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So he was like, Hey, Bro, man, they gave me
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this. Yeah, they gave me this trash food. You mind? You know what I'm saying? You know, you can look
out for me. Go get me some nuts real quick. You know, he like, yeah, I got you, bro. Well,
take room plate, go to the back to hug Broome up. Come back with some shit worse than the shit that
Broome had. And listen, bro. So Broome just sitting at the table, just looking at his plate like this.
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And I'm looking at him and he getting mad, bro. He getting mad. And all of a sudden he just stand up.
Man, I'm tired of this shit, bro. Every day I got to eat this shitty ass food. We just got to extend
it, bro. Like everybody in the cafeteria was like, Oh, shit. It Broome. Loud, bro. Just stood up and
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got the yelling, bro. Yelling, bro. Oh, man. It wasn't funny then, but. Yeah. Shout out to Broome,
dog. It's my homie. They served me a couple of biscuits at the like, hockey park.
Oh, God. Rice be like ice. You'd be like, what the fuck is this? It'd be either ice or pudding.
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Oh, God.
Then you ask the cook, like, what is this? I don't know. You'd be like, why you kick this shit?
They've been, right? So for people like, it's on a boat. We got to work 24-7. There is no sleep.
So the niggas that work at like midnight, they get that ass meal. They get mid-racks.
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Some niggas get whatever gross food is left over.
I remember them niggas gave me four pieces of wings. Two of them were cooked.
You remember Thanksgiving, bro? They put that raw ass pig on your plate.
Oh, my God. I was emotional at that time. I was like, what?
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I was crying. I said, let me get a piece of your finest pig.
This thing could put a whole hoof on my plate. They said, here you go. I said, get this shit.
I wasn't moving either. I thought it was funny.
Oh, my God.
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It was funny, bro, because the dude thought it was so funny. But Sean didn't think it was funny at
all. And look, he was holding up the line. They said, homie, you got to up this plate.
Sean repeated the same thing like four or five times. Can you get this off my plate?
Can you get this off my plate? Can you get this off my plate?
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It was a whole fucking leg just hanging off this fucking plate, dog.
Bro, the pig, it was so undone. It looked like they just chopped that motherfucker off, too.
Man, they put pig lid on this plate, dog.
They did that spell Christmas. Like a Merry Christmas to me.
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That was Christmas?
That was Christmas. They did this on Christmas.
They did it to make it more stressful. We were supposed to come home right before Christmas or
something. So we had just got to send it again. That shit was bad, bro. Oh, my God.
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No, right after that Christmas dinner, my friends came home and said, good luck at Somali.
Right? Oh, God. I thought they could keep going. That's what they said.
And it's out there for a half a month, dog. Holy shit. Somali, what?
That shit crazy.
That shit was crazy, dog. At that point, I had ran out of emotions to the fucking show.
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Oh, God. Everybody was like, bro, by like months, like eight, bro, motherfuckers was like
in zombie mode. Just like autopilot, bro.
Like you can sense the apathy.
I ain't shit else to talk about, bro. Like, you know what I mean?
Yeah. No, like literally after that extension, niggas really did start talking on that shit.
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Yeah. My fucking bet no whether we get extended or not. Hey, I bet we get extended.
How much you want to bet? Like, why are we betting on this? We need to hope for this.
Like, we need to hope. My bet.
That was a rough ass time, dog.
That was a rough ass time. I literally ran out of emotions, bro.
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Like, I don't even know if that was a good thing to just get a little help.
Actually speaking to that, bro. I'll say this.
I got a drink on his boots. And that bull.
Yes, sir. But we drunk. Sorry.
But look, right after that deployment, you know, I was getting out.
Yeah. Yeah. Show that show.
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Right. And, bro, I had to go through like months of therapy, bro.
That ass.
Yeah. For real. For like, because I had like usually, you know, you come home from,
you know, my first deployment I came home from, it was like barely seven months.
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Yeah.
And I came home, I was happy as shit. It felt good. This one was fucking 10 months.
Like, I didn't feel shit. Like nothing, bro. And mind you, this was a COVID cruise. So
we was on this ship for 10 months. You know, usually you might get off here and there in
another country, you know, might be able to go out and tie out and chill. This was 10 months straight in the water, bro.
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Imagine this. Imagine being stuck on a metal floating surface with 5,000 other people on it.
Half of those people will try to shit on you every day.
Dead ass, bro.
Imagine being stuck in that kind of environment.
And you should also do you, you wake up, right? You eat, you go work for 12 hours.
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You eat, work out if you want to go to bed for 12 hours, bro. It's a cycle for 10 months, bro.
So put it like this, bro. Wake up, eat breakfast, move your couch around for 12 hours, eat again,
and go to sleep. Do that shit for 10 months. See how you feel.
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Every day.
Every day.
Monday to fucking Monday, bro.
That is your routine every fucking day.
Oh shit. Every day is Monday.
Yeah.
Every day is Monday, bro.
Yeah. Monday through Monday. You said it right.
Monday through fucking Monday, dog.
You said it right, bro. That is your routine.
But yeah, I did, I had to go to therapy for a few months.
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And it was because the lady was trying to get me to like, you know, talk about my experience or
whatever, you know, trying to like trigger some emotions or whatever. I couldn't feel none, bro.
I was like, I don't even, I can't explain. I was numb or some shit like that. And what she did was
right to kind of like help me. Like instead of having me like talk about shit, she just had me
(43:23):
have me like write out. Like I go see her for like an hour and a whole hour she would have me just
writing out my experience, like that deployment experience. Then all of a sudden it would like
start triggering shit. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Like breaking. Yeah. Kicking the door open
or whatever. So that's a-
It's like you're going to do it all over again.
(43:44):
Yeah. So that's a good way, low key, to like kind of handle your emotions. You're going through
some shit, you know, write this shit now. Cause in a way it's like venting without talking,
you know what I mean?
Bro, I am a big advocate on people reaching out. So like I 100% agree with you. And
(44:06):
I'm also a big supporter of people reaching out earlier rather than later like I did. So I felt
like I should have reached out and talked to somebody after deployment, but I talked to
somebody after I smoked some weed in the military. Yeah. That's when I started talking to somebody
(44:27):
because at that point when you were feeling the numbness, when I came back from San Clemente,
I was, dog, I was numb as a brick.
I'm telling you, bro.
No feeling like Sean, like they told me, oh Daniel, I'm out. I felt, I felt happy, dog.
I was like, oh shit, I'm getting out.
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Yeah.
Because, dog, I really felt like I was stuck in that contract. If I had stayed,
I would have gone on another deployment and I don't think I would have made it to that one.
No, I'll tell you that right now.
I will be dead ass with you, bro. If I went on another deployment,
I probably would not come back and that's real. I'll be like that, bro.
That's what I said.
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Good.
I said, I said, there's no way I'm going back on that boat.
No, I feel you on that, Sean, 100%.
Right in and there, I killed my feelings. I killed all sense of responsibility in myself
and I said, fuck it.
And then on top of like the far as that numb shoots, I can kind of like explain
(45:29):
just a little bit more.
Yeah, please.
Like I was like, we went home, the Palm post leave or whatever, Palm period.
We went home and bro, like my family and friends, they just happy as fuck to see me, bro.
But you was whatever still.
But I was numb, bro. Of course, I smiled, I laughed and all of that, bro.
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But on the inside, bro, it was just like blank, bro.
Yeah.
I don't know. It was just a weird, that was a weird experience, bro.
I had like a, what they call like a facade on for like a few months, bro.
Yeah, I feel you.
Like, like you don't know what emotions to feel.
That's it, bro.
Yeah.
You're like, this is fucking bullshit.
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Yeah.
In the end, you just feel mad.
Yeah.
That, no, that's like, you have to, you have to get into the type of your emotions.
You have to know yourself.
You have to be aware.
Really? Yeah.
I think self-awareness is so big.
Yeah.
I'll tell you this right now, bro. Like I was, I'm from that time, bro.
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Like I graduated in 2013.
Like we, we, we didn't, like we were saying whatever.
It is definitely a different time from back then than what it is now because we was not sensitive.
So me coming into the military with that kind of mindset, I'm, I'm already saying whatever's under the,
I'm using the F word.
Rhymes with departed.
Calling, calling people, they are worried rhymes with departed.
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Like I did not, I was not aware of people's emotions around me as well.
I knew that was like later on, I knew that wasn't right.
But back then I thought, you know, it was just words.
I'm just, I'm just forcing it be like that.
It's kind of, you know, really, you know, really what you're doing until like the shit happened to you.
(47:21):
Yeah.
Then you kind of like get that little wide screen view to like kind of, you know.
I say, I say when I turned 26 and 27 was when I became like aware of people that, you know, that are around me.
And that's when I started to be mindful of what I said.
I'm gonna go live because I used to see some watch shit.
No filter.
(47:42):
It is zero.
It was zero.
Folks are going to be like, then I got over it.
Then I got over it, but I feel like this is something you can learn before you get that age and it's self-awareness.
It's literally being, you know, aware of your surroundings, aware of yourself, aware of who you are, you know, and what you're capable of.
(48:06):
Not for sure.
You know, like what can you do with your anger or, you know, like what's going to make me feel happy?
Yeah.
What am I going to do if I feel stressed out?
Because some people still travel around this world lost.
And I was like that for a good while until, like I said, until I turned like 26 or 27.
I actually gave it some thought, you know, sat down, looked in the mirror.
(48:30):
Yes.
There's a lot of things you can do to kind of trust you like for anger.
Like for me, it was back when I used to really be in a jail.
I just ain't been in jail for a minute. I need to get back in there, bitch.
I'm getting a life hope.
I'm still paying that 24 hour membership.
I ain't showed up one day.
(48:51):
They just gave me free money for me, but.
I'm back.
You were kissing my shit while you said that.
Bro, my apartment got a Peloton. Why am I trying to go to another jail?
I just got lost in words and I just thought about that like, damn, I'll show a little panties, motherfuckers, 25.
(49:12):
I have much money a month.
I know.
And I ain't even going.
I'll cancel two memberships tomorrow.
But fuck. What was I about to say?
You remember what I was about to say?
What was we just talking about?
I just got lost, bro.
We're still on emotions, bro.
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Just some tips, right?
Like far as like like maybe you feel angry or maybe you felt like sad, right?
(49:39):
I'm talking like real emotional shit, right?
And this is getting heavy.
You know, one thing you can do, bro, is meditate.
I had actually did a speech on that in my communication class.
It was like six, seven minute long speech, bro.
But essentially what you do is like you don't need any tools or, you know, nothing like that.
(50:00):
You really just need like a safe area, like a living room, maybe a bedroom, somewhere quiet.
You know what I'm saying? And then you just need yourself, bro.
And you just sit down or lay down or however you want to sit, bro.
Close your eyes, bro.
You know, focus on, you know, that triggering point that got you feeling however you're feeling.
(50:21):
You know, you take some deep breaths and then you pretty much just try to air it out, bro.
Like just dissolve it right then and there.
Don't let it eat you up.
You know what I'm saying?
Or if you feel like that's not working, then reach out.
Send a text, bro.
899-988-988.
(50:42):
Hold on.
I really want to get this right, bro.
I don't know why 988.
988-988-988.
Send a text, bro.
They're going to hit you back.
Shit, you don't even have to reach out to those people if you don't really want to.
At the end of the day, you have family.
You have your mom and dad.
You have, you know, if you have brothers and sisters, you have aunties or uncles.
(51:07):
Shit.
You may even have your best friend that you call a bro.
That's your family, ain't it?
Oh, my God.
Everyone has someone to talk to because I'm pretty sure you said in this first episode,
humans are social creatures.
Oh, yeah.
We made these.
We made you be alone, bro.
Sitting alone.
Figuring some shit out.
I've been doing some editing, though.
(51:28):
With shrooms.
You haven't been stuck on a bed, bro.
I'll be traveling.
Oh, the mushrooms don't taste good, though.
You got to eat it with a PB&J sandwich.
I've been hearing so many scary stories about those.
No, shrooms are definitely an experience if you ever get the chance.
(51:50):
I love it.
I'll tell you this right now.
That shit is disgusting.
I heard some stories.
Some dude got abducted.
I don't know what to say.
When you're doing fucking, like, hallucinogens or whatever it is, you got to have a clear
(52:11):
mind.
You wasn't going to shit out yourself.
It's the same as alcohol, bro.
You know what alcohol is actually a depressant?
If you're drinking alcohol at a depressant time, it's not a good idea.
If you're drinking that Casamigo for you, and you want someone to go with you, that's
not going to happen.
What did he say?
That is the opposite of progressive.
(52:33):
That is the opposite of progression.
That is not progressive at all.
You're not building anything.
Definitely drinking is a big thing in your life.
I'm glad due to the constitutions of my body, I have no other choice.
I stop drinking a lot because every time I drink, I throw up now.
(52:56):
I'm probably going to drink.
I'm probably going to throw up after this massage.
We don't fucking drink every day.
I'm a smoker.
I might take an edible, like a little 10 milligram edible and jump on call of duty.
Luke the greatest beyond life.
Life has so much to offer.
(53:17):
Why are you trying to depress yourself with a depressant?
No, dead ass though.
Life has so much to offer.
That's when I realized as well when I turned 26, when I gained self-awareness, I was like,
damn, life has so much, bro.
I'm still capable of doing all these great things in life because I'm still young and
(53:42):
shit too.
I kind of realized myself at a good age.
Thanks to this podcast, you could use our lessons and probably find yourself sooner
rather than later, save yourself some heartaches, some emotional stress.
I see that right now, bro.
Definitely to my people in the military, stay strong because we was there.
(54:07):
We was definitely there.
For sure.
I was in Iraq.
Like what?
We was there after ISIS burned that one pilot.
It was on the news.
It was a pilot from Jordan.
ISIS shot that nigga down and burned him in his village.
(54:29):
In a cage.
That's why we got sent to Iraq so we could pick up people before that happened.
That's crazy.
We actually responded to a call too in Iraq one time.
Some CIA guys got shot down.
We got there before ISIS got there.
2016, baby.
Good times.
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Heroes, goddamn heroes.
I was just pushing paper.
I was just making logbook entries.
We had a basketball goal in the hangar so I shot on that a couple of times.
Contribution is contribution.
Contribution.
I got my danger pain and everything too.
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I'm not going to lie, bro.
A lot of other people probably went through some stressful situations because the Marines,
I saw the Marines had landed there a week before they got hit by mortars.
Damn.
I know a lot of people, like a lot of other branches out there who were under stressful situations.
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But not the Germans.
The Germans brought a restaurant and beer with them.
Deadass, bro.
They had set up a 10th German restaurant in Iraq.
And they were serving beer all the time.
We didn't pay by any means necessary.
It made me look at the German military, bro.
(55:56):
I started looking at all the other militaries too because it was the first time I seen Royal Navy.
I seen their beers.
I'm like, why are we the only niggas with no beers?
I see you not, bro.
When we was in Iraq, we was literally the only niggas with no beers.
The Army niggas had beers too.
(56:17):
I'm pissed off.
My CO said, well, you know where you come from.
You're the US Navy.
We shave every day.
Who the fuck we don't?
We got shave shits.
We got those shave shits.
We do not shave every day.
I definitely don't.
I stopped shaving.
When did I stop shaving?
I stopped shaving at a...
I think I stopped shaving two years before I got out.
(56:39):
I stopped shaving after a year I was in.
My fucking face was bumping up like a fucking zombie at work.
Went to see Doc.
I said, hey, Luke, my shit fucked up.
They said, all right, here.
You ain't got to shave no more.
Say good luck.
No, I literally did not give a fuck when I was there.
I remember I walked into Venus Control one time with earrings on.
(57:03):
Guess who called me?
First person to catch me.
Joey.
My man...
Joey Casaneda.
Joey Casaneda caught my...
Good old Warren.
He said, shit, that's it.
I already knew what happened.
Warren was a shit though, bro.
I fucked with Warren.
I fucked with Warren.
Warren was...
Dude, that's my dog, man.
If there was anyone cool with Warren, I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
(57:24):
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
I don't give a fuck.
If there was anyone cool with Warren, I don't think there was, bro.
Because Warren was...
Yeah.
He looked out for you, bro.
Warren was solid, bro.
Warren Cas.
Shout out to Joey Casaneda.
Oh, God.
Thank you for your service.
He retired.
He retired.
Yeah, for sure.
Thank you, man.
He really did look out for all the real ones.
He called me a superstar.
You know damn well I'm one of those superstars.
First edit though, he put it right on paper.
Superstar.
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I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
This is the last story going out, he had me under a stressful situation.
Yeah.
When he was MMCO.
When he was the maintenance material control officer.
(58:08):
So remember that server didn't work when we first got on the boat.
Yeah, that was a struggle.
So he said, that server gonna work or someone's getting fired.
Suppose he gonna fire.
I'm trying to figure out.
But it was enough to light a fire into my ass and get to work it.
(58:30):
I worked a couple sleep was nice because I thought I was going to lose my job.
For every job I had, you can't fire no one from the Navy.
I'm on a contract. What?
I think I'm going to finesse my ass.
Finesse that up though.
Yep, the server was running. We're doing good.
Yeah. Nah, that was definitely some emotional times.
(58:51):
But hey, that was it for us though.
Before we go, I do want to mention for all of our Healing Club podcast fans, all out there, all our pro healers, all our progressors, we got an online story that we're launching today.
(59:13):
The URL is going to be thehealinclubpodcast.bigcartel.com.
On there we have five pieces of merchandise.
Very dope. I designed them myself.
Them says it's clean. We got some nice stuff.
(59:34):
I'm getting some. Yes, I am.
Yes, sir. We get geared up. We get into gear.
We got a T-shirt, we got a hoodie, we got a wine glass on there.
If you want to rep your favorite podcast on mental health, we appreciate you.
With that being said, good night.
Take care.
Take care and we will see you all next week.
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