The Initiand Project

The Initiand Project

Figuring shit out. Using this as a platform to investigate and clarify my thoughts. Interested in the nature of existence and consciousness. Exploring the works of great thinkers. Seeking self transformation.

Episodes

December 18, 2022 62 mins
A couple of years ago I wrote myself some notes. Ideas, suggestions, questions, and all that shit. Here I revisit those notes and discuss how they've impacted my life, where I've made progress and where I've continued fuck up over and over and over and over and over and over.

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Dostoevsky writes from the perspective of  a man trapped in a psychological labyrinth of his own making. The narrator describes his walls to you in vivid detail, even describing to you why his cage is much nicer than yours. 

I read excerpts of the first section of the book, examine the perspective of the narrator, relate to his misery and try to justify day-to-day life in the face of the inevitable death of the universe. 

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February 5, 2022 52 mins

Sometimes, when you eat a shitload of acid, it gives you advice. This is some shit the acid told me. The amount of sense it makes may vary.

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February 5, 2022 17 mins

Confronting the fact that I'm in love with all these demons. Trying to decide which parts of me I keep and which parts of me get the axe. 

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This is the first step in the Initiand Project. 

Listen as I overcome the anxiety and embarrassment that prevents me from creating. It's not good, but it's here. 

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