June 11, 2024 • 19 mins
Feeling stuck or overwhelmed by life's challenges? Discover how transforming your perception of obstacles can spark profound personal growth. This episode, inspired by books like "Healing Your Inner Child" and "The Mountain Is You," reveals how rethinking difficulties as opportunities for learning can lead to meaningful change. Hear about my journey with internal dialogue exercises and how they helped me overcome loneliness and feelings of stagnation. We also touch on the significance of discipline, drawing insights from Ryan Holiday's "Discipline is Destiny," and discuss the continuous process of shedding outdated versions of ourselves for a more evolved, resilient mindset.
Breaking free from the chains of past habits and identities can be a daunting journey, but it's one worth taking. In this candid account, I share my struggles with loneliness and a pornography addiction post-breakup, the physical and emotional wake-up calls that spurred me to quit, and the subsequent boost in creativity and productivity. Learn how innovative AI tools played a role in my recovery and creative resurgence, leading to the development of a mystery thriller and a recovery manual. Additionally, we explore the profound influence of music on our emotions, the importance of mindful content consumption, and the pivotal role of community and connection in personal transformation.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello everybody.
Hello, how are you doing so?
Today I want to talk aboutsomething that I have definitely
been struggling with, and I'msure a lot of us are.
It's obstacles and how tohandle them.
The biggest one recently thatI've come to realize with
obstacles is understanding howthe obstacle affects your
(00:21):
personal growth.
Because when you look at it asit's a hindrance, then well,
yeah, it kind of is.
But if you look at it as you'reneeding to change, you're
needing to let go of an oldmindset, then it suddenly is
becoming a learning lesson, anda really valuable lesson.
(00:42):
I've really been struggling withthe idea of loneliness and
being stuck, but I realize it'snot that I am lonely or stuck.
My old ego, my old way ofthinking, believes what I'm
doing, no matter what, I willstay single.
I will stay stuck at where I'mat, stuck helping other people
(01:07):
succeed in their business, butnever building one for myself.
I had to sit down.
One day I literally went andbought myself a breakfast at a
local cafe and had an internaldialogue.
Um, there's a really cool book,really.
Um, healing your inner child.
Um, it's like a green coverwith like white chalk drawings
(01:30):
and a little like dick figurekid.
I don't remember the author'sname, but uh, the main thing she
teaches is write with yourdominant hand the question and
then give you the pen or have aseparate pen in your
non-dominant hand and have areply.
There's a lot of rules intothis.
I mean, it's not complicated.
It's like don't bully thenon-dominant hand for its
(01:50):
writing and punctuation, don'tbe mean to it, don't correct it
in a rude way, kind of thing,because in essence you're kind
of talking to your younger self,because all the nerves in that
hand haven't aged or grown.
So what I've learned is when Iwas doing it, I would take my
dominant hand, ask the question,and then I would listen to the
(02:11):
voice still voice in my head.
And I just came to a point I'mlike, oh, okay, a little voice
that goes hi, hi, how are you?
My name is josh.
When I think he talks like this, it sounds a little like a
little kid from Boston.
But so when I heard that voiceI'm like, oh, ok, little Josh is
saying something.
So I bought myself a breakfastand we had a conversation as I'm
(02:34):
eating my matcha supreme platefor 12 bucks.
Oh, it was so good.
But that's when I realized I'mlike wow, he told me.
He said no, this is the bestjob you've ever had, the best
boss you've ever had.
You're just not willing to seeit that way.
You're looking at it from whenyou worked night shift and that
(02:56):
job growth in that company wereslim to none, because I was the
only one willing during COVID toscrub shit off a toilet for
like $15.50 an hour at night.
But now I'm with my uncle.
(03:16):
I also have, I'm getting betterat managing my time, but now I
have free time.
I'm waking up early in themorning, going to the gym mostly
for myself, but health too andso that's what little Josh was
telling me.
He said this is the best jobever.
You're a I'm paying off.
He's like you're paying off allyour credit cards, you have a
lot of money left over, you livewith mom and dad and they let
(03:39):
you live here and they'rehelping you with your car.
Like this is the best situationpossible for you.
So and that's when I realized Ineed to regularly evaluate and
adjust my mindset.
The leverage that obstacles arepositivity, a chance to shed
the ego, the past ego, the.
The hard part of letting go ofthe past, ego though it's,
(04:03):
you've built an identity aroundit.
But that's not really you,though.
That is an old version of you.
It's like software there'salways updates.
So that's software, version 1.3.
But now you're going to 1.4.
Not that big of a difference,but it is 4.
Not that big of a difference,but it is.
(04:24):
But if you do a couple more ofthose, even if it's micro
iterations like 1.003, and youjust keep doing that, then 1.004
.
That's still growth.
Now it's going to take longerto hit two, but it's growth.
And that's when I realized,especially when I was reading
(04:46):
all the different literature,like the most recent book I
finished is the Mountain.
Is you I don't remember theauthor offhand, I know it's like
maybe Brianna Weiss orsomething.
Yeah, something like that.
I highly recommend it because Ithink she says in her book is
similar to what I'm saying isthe thing that brings you
(05:07):
frustration, where every timeyou hit an obstacle you're
thinking God, it's inevitable.
This night you in essence haveto let go of it.
It's like the mindset of okay,if I can, can't go around, I
can't go over or under.
How do I do it?
Well, the fourth option orfifth option is break through it
(05:28):
.
So it's making your mind expandand that's where that book
especially was helpful andthat's made me realize like man,
obstacles, like the moment yousit there and you clench your
fist or you, you mockingly thinkin your head, oh you freaking
idiot kind of thing, um,dismissing ideas it's.
(05:51):
You're not evolving, you'restaying stagnant, and the
adaptability and evolution isimportant.
Another book I'm working ongetting through is discipline,
isine is Destiny by Ryan Holiday.
That one's really cool.
He's the one that inspired meto start going to the gym in the
morning, because that's otherthan the last week of obstacles
that came up.
It didn't allow me to getproper rest and go to the gym.
(06:15):
But I'm readjusting theschedule now.
Uh, I really.
That's where I realized I'mlike I don't have a sense of
control.
So I'm gonna do this, I'm gonnabring me a sense of control and
I still need to finish the bookand I am uh.
But another one I'm justreading.
I bought it at barnes nobleangel paperback book um
meditations by marcus aurelius,and then Seneca and Petitas
(06:40):
they're books too.
That one's really nice, yeah,especially the reading.
I mean I'm not becoming somediehard Stoic, but adopting some
of the Stoic ideas in myevolutions and my updates.
It's actually really nice.
(07:03):
It's also helped me with myrecovery and identity shift when
using pornography as of todayI'm recording this I hit my time
frame, so I am 31 days clean,and you know, the biggest one
for me is realizing it's justletting it go.
I was using constantly in thepast because I felt like I
(07:23):
wasn't worthy of a woman.
So I had to do this because atleast I could imagine a
girlfriend kind of thing couldtie into a bit of
self-fulfilling prophecy, butI'll talk about that in a minute
.
But the hardness that came fromthat, though, was I did it
since I was 12.
(07:44):
I'm 31 now, giving it up Almost20 years.
It was a hard identity shift toget rid of.
For me it was especially when Ifirst broke it off with my ex.
I really just got the superhornies.
I was lonely, desperate,needing dopamine from all the
(08:05):
pain.
And then I had a few incidencesearly 2024 where I got hit in
the head on my birthday and hadto go to ER and get some staples
in my head.
And then I also, two monthslater to the day, fell off a
ladder and cracked my face openand had to go to the doctors and
get stitched up.
So that's especially when Irealized it's kind of weird to
(08:28):
say out loud, but when I waswatching a certain porn, on the
first fall I was tricking myselfand saying, oh, I'm going to
use dopamine to ease the pain,it's okay, it's like a free
Tylenol kind of thing and it'smore fun.
I went on Pornhub and I found avideo.
(08:48):
My favorite, formerly favoriteporn actress was Natasha Nice
and I was like, wow, she haslike a um, like a fertility
goddess figure and uh.
But I was really confused.
I was watching it and likegoing and going and she, um,
(09:12):
essentially did it with tranniesand I literally heard like my
brain split in half when I came,like I was screaming at myself.
I actually went for a walk inthe hills nearby and was just
like what the fuck did you justdo?
What the fuck did you just do,kind of thing.
That's especially when Istarted de-escalating.
(09:33):
The other one was when Istarted using AI porn.
That was one hell of a trip.
Oh my gosh.
The ability to create whateveryou want, however you want it.
I feel so bad for futuregenerations of men and women.
That's going to be a brutal oneto get out of because I mean,
why should you give it up kindof thing.
(09:54):
But, um, it was, I think it waslike March 11th or something
like that.
Yeah, um, I, essentially myparents went out for a concert.
I said, okay, feel free,indulge, have fun and, uh, binge
(10:14):
as hard as you want, but fromthis day on we are not using.
So I didn't.
I think it was like climax,like six ish.
Um, that that's where the weekwas a hell of a week of a
withdraw.
But, um, sleepless nights arereal, by the way, if anyone
tells you it's not true, oh,that's bullshit.
Um, but um, the biggest.
Once I gave that up, I made acontract with myself and gave
(10:37):
that up, my identity shifted andsuddenly my creativity
increased.
Now I still have a problem withactually typing and writing
stories, but this is where Iactually it was back in november
, I think it was after I brokeit off with my ex, a couple
months after I broke it off andthen but it was still while I
was in therapy with my therapist, christian student training um
(11:03):
is when I bought this 50unlimited transcribing,
unlimited um, note proof with AI, started writing my stories
more consistent.
After the second break with AIEagle break, by the way, not
just literal break, and that'swhen I realized I was like, oh
(11:24):
my God, I can write stories now.
I've studied the structure.
Well, I'm still struggling withpacing, but I'm getting better.
Um, but like, the narrativesand the emotional twists and the
drama and controversies keepyou hooked and reading.
I already knew that I justcouldn't write it.
Whatever it is, when you put mein front of a keyboard, I can't
(11:45):
.
It's like hunt and peck.
I know how to type normal withall 10 fingers, but when it
comes to creativity, it's likehunt and peck.
I know I had a type normal withall 10 fingers, but when it
comes to creativity, it's likehunt and peck.
I feel like I'm like afive-year-old again, which could
be another reason why I need towrite like that.
But, um, and I think I will onthe in my free time, as I think
about it out loud now, oh mycreativity, oh my gosh, has gone
through the roof.
(12:06):
And now, especially with thisone prompt, I figured out it can
generate almost 3 000 words.
I can spell out the whole scenewith everything.
I was listening, and it willrewrite it and fill in
everything I need.
And it's so great.
I'm like, oh my god, I canactually like, wow, look, this
is exactly what I was thinkingkind of thing.
(12:28):
This is exactly what I saw whenI was writing this.
The whole bullet points out soI'm working on a mystery
thriller, definitelypsychological, but there's also
cult, and the main character hisname is Marcus Blackwood.
He's a former military PI.
(12:53):
He starts off kind of noir withmusic and all that, and then
essentially Fiona Sinclair, Ibelieve, is her name yeah, Fiona
Sinclair and she comes inpresenting all the ideas to him
and like we're having trouble,people are being kidnapped, but
(13:13):
also there's this dangerousmagical artifact kind of thing,
and so they all go out.
There's a little bit ofspiciness in the middle.
Actually, I'm not sure if I'mgoing to do that, though I've
talked to I've gotten mixedreviews on that, but yeah, so
I'm working on that.
But I'm also working on mymanual for recovery and honestly
(13:35):
it's the same thing.
I figured out how to write anonfiction prompt.
Surprisingly, it's hard forChatGPT to write nonfiction.
I figured out a prompt for that.
I also figured out an editortoo.
Figured out a prompt for that.
I also figured out an editortoo.
So I have a bunch of thesereally powerful um prompts for
(13:57):
speech to note, but uh.
So yeah, I'm now, I feel, happylike today.
Part of the reason this isflowing a little bit better is I
actually told my ideas ofspeech to note and it's given me
an outline.
Um, but, uh, I'm excited forall this.
I've been dreaming and talkingabout this for years, since like
11 or 12.
But now I'm actually doing it.
(14:19):
I'm going to get it done.
Now I want to go intoself-fulfilling prophecies.
For self-fulfilling propheciesit's a very quirky thing because
there's no science behind it,but everyone knows it does exist
, but you can't inherently proveit.
My personal belief is why Idon't really post on social
(14:40):
media, why I don't reallyinteract with social media,
especially TikTok's, the worstof them all.
But is, whatever you consumeyou become.
Think about that.
Whatever you consume you become.
So I I can give you a reallygood example.
Actually, when I was in highschool, um, I used to listen to
(15:04):
slipknot, disturbed a coupleother, really aggressive, angry,
and I was the living embodimentof those songs.
I was angry, fighting, startingshit.
Relatively recently well, atleast that I can consciously
(15:26):
track I've slowly been turningoff my music and I only listen
to happy ambient music now, or,um, if it is lyrics.
Uh, what I'm doing is, um,based off the, what you consume,
you become is listening tomanifestations that I create,
mostly with speech.
To note um, and the biggest one.
(15:48):
So I then I have found thisreally cool audio sound like
Nirvana waves or whatever on astock photo place that gave
stock audio also.
Um, so that's another one Ilisten on repeat because I've
because of that.
If whatever you listen, youbecome, so it says I am
successful in the present tense.
(16:08):
I am a very creative writer thatdoesn't have any blocks.
My ideas flow freely and areevergreen or brainwashing, but
it's working.
I'm much more creative, I'mmuch more confident.
The one I'm more recentlyworking on is manifesting a girl
(16:30):
because I refuse to use datingapps.
That's another one.
If you use dating apps,especially as a man, but I know
it's really bad for women too.
For the ladies listening, youhave a different problem.
You have all the fish in thesea that want you and most of
them are just shit.
That for the ladies listening,you have a different problem.
You have all the fish in thesea that want you and most of
them are just shit, that kind ofthing.
(16:52):
And then there's the men whothere's a misproportionate
amount of men wanting thislittle pool of women.
Yeah, but it'll destroy yourself-esteem, self-confidence,
everything.
I think it was your brain onporn that told me most, if not
all, users.
Um, on dating apps areavoidance.
That right, there was like holyshit, that explains everything.
(17:16):
It's not inherently that I'mbad, you would just get the
avoidance.
But also he mentioned hecouldn't really correlate it,
but he said more than likelythey're also narcissistic.
I sat there and I'm like, oh myGod, that explains my last
three X's and the horrifyingstuff I went through Weird ass
stories, oh my God, I could goon a whole tangent with that.
(17:38):
But that's why I won't usedating apps.
So I'm working on amanifestation and I believe it's
working.
I have to believe it.
If you're interested in that, bythe way, if you made it this
far in the description, you canactually click a link and text
my podcast.
You can actually text me and ifyou leave your number, I might
(17:58):
even text you back on my GoogleVoice number.
You never know, just saying onmy google voice number.
Uh, you never know, just sayingso.
If you have any critiques,ideas or just want to put me on
blast, go for it.
I want to really use thatfeature.
So, but music especially.
I forgot which book I wasreading, but essentially music
bypasses everything and it getsyou in a hypnotic state which
(18:23):
goes back to where I was as ayoung man in high school, where
it says I was an angry,rebellious person.
Well, yeah, I was hypnoticallykind of reconditioned to become
that.
So it's be very careful on whatyou consume.
And yeah, that's about it.
Have a good one, everyone.
If you questions, comments, ifyou want to text me I really
(18:47):
want someone to text me.
I've been having a conversationwith myself.
But have a good one and tillnext time, stay safe, my friend.
Hello everybody.
Hello, how are you doing so?
Today I want to talk aboutsomething that I have definitely
been struggling with, and I'msure a lot of us are.
It's obstacles and how tohandle them.
The biggest one recently thatI've come to realize with
obstacles is understanding howthe obstacle affects your
(00:21):
personal growth.
Because when you look at it asit's a hindrance, then well,
yeah, it kind of is.
But if you look at it as you'reneeding to change, you're
needing to let go of an oldmindset, then it suddenly is
becoming a learning lesson, anda really valuable lesson.
(00:42):
I've really been struggling withthe idea of loneliness and
being stuck, but I realize it'snot that I am lonely or stuck.
My old ego, my old way ofthinking, believes what I'm
doing, no matter what, I willstay single.
I will stay stuck at where I'mat, stuck helping other people
(01:07):
succeed in their business, butnever building one for myself.
I had to sit down.
One day I literally went andbought myself a breakfast at a
local cafe and had an internaldialogue.
Um, there's a really cool book,really.
Um, healing your inner child.
Um, it's like a green coverwith like white chalk drawings
(01:30):
and a little like dick figurekid.
I don't remember the author'sname, but uh, the main thing she
teaches is write with yourdominant hand the question and
then give you the pen or have aseparate pen in your
non-dominant hand and have areply.
There's a lot of rules intothis.
I mean, it's not complicated.
It's like don't bully thenon-dominant hand for its
(01:50):
writing and punctuation, don'tbe mean to it, don't correct it
in a rude way, kind of thing,because in essence you're kind
of talking to your younger self,because all the nerves in that
hand haven't aged or grown.
So what I've learned is when Iwas doing it, I would take my
dominant hand, ask the question,and then I would listen to the
(02:11):
voice still voice in my head.
And I just came to a point I'mlike, oh, okay, a little voice
that goes hi, hi, how are you?
My name is josh.
When I think he talks like this, it sounds a little like a
little kid from Boston.
But so when I heard that voiceI'm like, oh, ok, little Josh is
saying something.
So I bought myself a breakfastand we had a conversation as I'm
(02:34):
eating my matcha supreme platefor 12 bucks.
Oh, it was so good.
But that's when I realized I'mlike wow, he told me.
He said no, this is the bestjob you've ever had, the best
boss you've ever had.
You're just not willing to seeit that way.
You're looking at it from whenyou worked night shift and that
(02:56):
job growth in that company wereslim to none, because I was the
only one willing during COVID toscrub shit off a toilet for
like $15.50 an hour at night.
But now I'm with my uncle.
(03:16):
I also have, I'm getting betterat managing my time, but now I
have free time.
I'm waking up early in themorning, going to the gym mostly
for myself, but health too andso that's what little Josh was
telling me.
He said this is the best jobever.
You're a I'm paying off.
He's like you're paying off allyour credit cards, you have a
lot of money left over, you livewith mom and dad and they let
(03:39):
you live here and they'rehelping you with your car.
Like this is the best situationpossible for you.
So and that's when I realized Ineed to regularly evaluate and
adjust my mindset.
The leverage that obstacles arepositivity, a chance to shed
the ego, the past ego, the.
The hard part of letting go ofthe past, ego though it's,
(04:03):
you've built an identity aroundit.
But that's not really you,though.
That is an old version of you.
It's like software there'salways updates.
So that's software, version 1.3.
But now you're going to 1.4.
Not that big of a difference,but it is 4.
Not that big of a difference,but it is.
(04:24):
But if you do a couple more ofthose, even if it's micro
iterations like 1.003, and youjust keep doing that, then 1.004
.
That's still growth.
Now it's going to take longerto hit two, but it's growth.
And that's when I realized,especially when I was reading
(04:46):
all the different literature,like the most recent book I
finished is the Mountain.
Is you I don't remember theauthor offhand, I know it's like
maybe Brianna Weiss orsomething.
Yeah, something like that.
I highly recommend it because Ithink she says in her book is
similar to what I'm saying isthe thing that brings you
(05:07):
frustration, where every timeyou hit an obstacle you're
thinking God, it's inevitable.
This night you in essence haveto let go of it.
It's like the mindset of okay,if I can, can't go around, I
can't go over or under.
How do I do it?
Well, the fourth option orfifth option is break through it
(05:28):
.
So it's making your mind expandand that's where that book
especially was helpful andthat's made me realize like man,
obstacles, like the moment yousit there and you clench your
fist or you, you mockingly thinkin your head, oh you freaking
idiot kind of thing, um,dismissing ideas it's.
(05:51):
You're not evolving, you'restaying stagnant, and the
adaptability and evolution isimportant.
Another book I'm working ongetting through is discipline,
isine is Destiny by Ryan Holiday.
That one's really cool.
He's the one that inspired meto start going to the gym in the
morning, because that's otherthan the last week of obstacles
that came up.
It didn't allow me to getproper rest and go to the gym.
(06:15):
But I'm readjusting theschedule now.
Uh, I really.
That's where I realized I'mlike I don't have a sense of
control.
So I'm gonna do this, I'm gonnabring me a sense of control and
I still need to finish the bookand I am uh.
But another one I'm justreading.
I bought it at barnes nobleangel paperback book um
meditations by marcus aurelius,and then Seneca and Petitas
(06:40):
they're books too.
That one's really nice, yeah,especially the reading.
I mean I'm not becoming somediehard Stoic, but adopting some
of the Stoic ideas in myevolutions and my updates.
It's actually really nice.
(07:03):
It's also helped me with myrecovery and identity shift when
using pornography as of todayI'm recording this I hit my time
frame, so I am 31 days clean,and you know, the biggest one
for me is realizing it's justletting it go.
I was using constantly in thepast because I felt like I
(07:23):
wasn't worthy of a woman.
So I had to do this because atleast I could imagine a
girlfriend kind of thing couldtie into a bit of
self-fulfilling prophecy, butI'll talk about that in a minute
.
But the hardness that came fromthat, though, was I did it
since I was 12.
(07:44):
I'm 31 now, giving it up Almost20 years.
It was a hard identity shift toget rid of.
For me it was especially when Ifirst broke it off with my ex.
I really just got the superhornies.
I was lonely, desperate,needing dopamine from all the
(08:05):
pain.
And then I had a few incidencesearly 2024 where I got hit in
the head on my birthday and hadto go to ER and get some staples
in my head.
And then I also, two monthslater to the day, fell off a
ladder and cracked my face openand had to go to the doctors and
get stitched up.
So that's especially when Irealized it's kind of weird to
(08:28):
say out loud, but when I waswatching a certain porn, on the
first fall I was tricking myselfand saying, oh, I'm going to
use dopamine to ease the pain,it's okay, it's like a free
Tylenol kind of thing and it'smore fun.
I went on Pornhub and I found avideo.
(08:48):
My favorite, formerly favoriteporn actress was Natasha Nice
and I was like, wow, she haslike a um, like a fertility
goddess figure and uh.
But I was really confused.
I was watching it and likegoing and going and she, um,
(09:12):
essentially did it with tranniesand I literally heard like my
brain split in half when I came,like I was screaming at myself.
I actually went for a walk inthe hills nearby and was just
like what the fuck did you justdo?
What the fuck did you just do,kind of thing.
That's especially when Istarted de-escalating.
(09:33):
The other one was when Istarted using AI porn.
That was one hell of a trip.
Oh my gosh.
The ability to create whateveryou want, however you want it.
I feel so bad for futuregenerations of men and women.
That's going to be a brutal oneto get out of because I mean,
why should you give it up kindof thing.
(09:54):
But, um, it was, I think it waslike March 11th or something
like that.
Yeah, um, I, essentially myparents went out for a concert.
I said, okay, feel free,indulge, have fun and, uh, binge
(10:14):
as hard as you want, but fromthis day on we are not using.
So I didn't.
I think it was like climax,like six ish.
Um, that that's where the weekwas a hell of a week of a
withdraw.
But, um, sleepless nights arereal, by the way, if anyone
tells you it's not true, oh,that's bullshit.
Um, but um, the biggest.
Once I gave that up, I made acontract with myself and gave
(10:37):
that up, my identity shifted andsuddenly my creativity
increased.
Now I still have a problem withactually typing and writing
stories, but this is where Iactually it was back in november
, I think it was after I brokeit off with my ex, a couple
months after I broke it off andthen but it was still while I
was in therapy with my therapist, christian student training um
(11:03):
is when I bought this 50unlimited transcribing,
unlimited um, note proof with AI, started writing my stories
more consistent.
After the second break with AIEagle break, by the way, not
just literal break, and that'swhen I realized I was like, oh
(11:24):
my God, I can write stories now.
I've studied the structure.
Well, I'm still struggling withpacing, but I'm getting better.
Um, but like, the narrativesand the emotional twists and the
drama and controversies keepyou hooked and reading.
I already knew that I justcouldn't write it.
Whatever it is, when you put mein front of a keyboard, I can't
(11:45):
.
It's like hunt and peck.
I know how to type normal withall 10 fingers, but when it
comes to creativity, it's likehunt and peck.
I know I had a type normal withall 10 fingers, but when it
comes to creativity, it's likehunt and peck.
I feel like I'm like afive-year-old again, which could
be another reason why I need towrite like that.
But, um, and I think I will onthe in my free time, as I think
about it out loud now, oh mycreativity, oh my gosh, has gone
through the roof.
(12:06):
And now, especially with thisone prompt, I figured out it can
generate almost 3 000 words.
I can spell out the whole scenewith everything.
I was listening, and it willrewrite it and fill in
everything I need.
And it's so great.
I'm like, oh my god, I canactually like, wow, look, this
is exactly what I was thinkingkind of thing.
(12:28):
This is exactly what I saw whenI was writing this.
The whole bullet points out soI'm working on a mystery
thriller, definitelypsychological, but there's also
cult, and the main character hisname is Marcus Blackwood.
He's a former military PI.
(12:53):
He starts off kind of noir withmusic and all that, and then
essentially Fiona Sinclair, Ibelieve, is her name yeah, Fiona
Sinclair and she comes inpresenting all the ideas to him
and like we're having trouble,people are being kidnapped, but
(13:13):
also there's this dangerousmagical artifact kind of thing,
and so they all go out.
There's a little bit ofspiciness in the middle.
Actually, I'm not sure if I'mgoing to do that, though I've
talked to I've gotten mixedreviews on that, but yeah, so
I'm working on that.
But I'm also working on mymanual for recovery and honestly
(13:35):
it's the same thing.
I figured out how to write anonfiction prompt.
Surprisingly, it's hard forChatGPT to write nonfiction.
I figured out a prompt for that.
I also figured out an editortoo.
Figured out a prompt for that.
I also figured out an editortoo.
So I have a bunch of thesereally powerful um prompts for
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speech to note, but uh.
So yeah, I'm now, I feel, happylike today.
Part of the reason this isflowing a little bit better is I
actually told my ideas ofspeech to note and it's given me
an outline.
Um, but, uh, I'm excited forall this.
I've been dreaming and talkingabout this for years, since like
11 or 12.
But now I'm actually doing it.
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I'm going to get it done.
Now I want to go intoself-fulfilling prophecies.
For self-fulfilling propheciesit's a very quirky thing because
there's no science behind it,but everyone knows it does exist
, but you can't inherently proveit.
My personal belief is why Idon't really post on social
(14:40):
media, why I don't reallyinteract with social media,
especially TikTok's, the worstof them all.
But is, whatever you consumeyou become.
Think about that.
Whatever you consume you become.
So I I can give you a reallygood example.
Actually, when I was in highschool, um, I used to listen to
(15:04):
slipknot, disturbed a coupleother, really aggressive, angry,
and I was the living embodimentof those songs.
I was angry, fighting, startingshit.
Relatively recently well, atleast that I can consciously
(15:26):
track I've slowly been turningoff my music and I only listen
to happy ambient music now, or,um, if it is lyrics.
Uh, what I'm doing is, um,based off the, what you consume,
you become is listening tomanifestations that I create,
mostly with speech.
To note um, and the biggest one.
(15:48):
So I then I have found thisreally cool audio sound like
Nirvana waves or whatever on astock photo place that gave
stock audio also.
Um, so that's another one Ilisten on repeat because I've
because of that.
If whatever you listen, youbecome, so it says I am
successful in the present tense.
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I am a very creative writer thatdoesn't have any blocks.
My ideas flow freely and areevergreen or brainwashing, but
it's working.
I'm much more creative, I'mmuch more confident.
The one I'm more recentlyworking on is manifesting a girl
(16:30):
because I refuse to use datingapps.
That's another one.
If you use dating apps,especially as a man, but I know
it's really bad for women too.
For the ladies listening, youhave a different problem.
You have all the fish in thesea that want you and most of
them are just shit.
That for the ladies listening,you have a different problem.
You have all the fish in thesea that want you and most of
them are just shit, that kind ofthing.
(16:52):
And then there's the men whothere's a misproportionate
amount of men wanting thislittle pool of women.
Yeah, but it'll destroy yourself-esteem, self-confidence,
everything.
I think it was your brain onporn that told me most, if not
all, users.
Um, on dating apps areavoidance.
That right, there was like holyshit, that explains everything.
(17:16):
It's not inherently that I'mbad, you would just get the
avoidance.
But also he mentioned hecouldn't really correlate it,
but he said more than likelythey're also narcissistic.
I sat there and I'm like, oh myGod, that explains my last
three X's and the horrifyingstuff I went through Weird ass
stories, oh my God, I could goon a whole tangent with that.
(17:38):
But that's why I won't usedating apps.
So I'm working on amanifestation and I believe it's
working.
I have to believe it.
If you're interested in that, bythe way, if you made it this
far in the description, you canactually click a link and text
my podcast.
You can actually text me and ifyou leave your number, I might
(17:58):
even text you back on my GoogleVoice number.
You never know, just saying onmy google voice number.
Uh, you never know, just sayingso.
If you have any critiques,ideas or just want to put me on
blast, go for it.
I want to really use thatfeature.
So, but music especially.
I forgot which book I wasreading, but essentially music
bypasses everything and it getsyou in a hypnotic state which
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goes back to where I was as ayoung man in high school, where
it says I was an angry,rebellious person.
Well, yeah, I was hypnoticallykind of reconditioned to become
that.
So it's be very careful on whatyou consume.
And yeah, that's about it.
Have a good one, everyone.
If you questions, comments, ifyou want to text me I really
(18:47):
want someone to text me.
I've been having a conversationwith myself.
But have a good one and tillnext time, stay safe, my friend.
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