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Speaker 1 (00:10):
Alright, how's
everybody doing?
I'm sorry that I didn't do anepisode last week, but it's
because I actually recentlyjoined a rugby league a couple
weeks ago and last week justkind of got away from me.
Oh, mike, have you ever playedrugby before?
Nope, never even watched it.
Then what made you want to doit?
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All right?
Well, I was at a bar and acouple dudes walked in.
We got to talking and they werejust like hey, we're always
looking for people to join thetown rugby team and you kind of
look like you'd be able to play,so why don't you come on by to
our practice?
So I was like you know what?
Fuck it?
Why not?
What else do I have to lose?
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So I went and I had a lot morefun than I thought.
I would have met a great groupof people.
So I figured I'd stick with itand I just have no idea what I'm
doing.
But that's just par for thecourse, especially when it comes
to my life in general.
But I've been trying to watchand learn as much as possible
because we actually have a gamecoming up and, unlike my
personal life, I don't want tobe a total embarrassment out
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there on the field.
So if anybody has any tips orpointers for me to know, I'm all
ears.
You can shoot me an email tolnbemedia at gmailcom if you
guys want to help me out.
So that's what I got going onin my life currently and I hope
you guys are all living yourbest lives.
Since we last talked, actuallyspeaking of in the last episode,
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I talked about Lent and theidea of struggle, which sounds
noble in theory, until peoplestart confusing it with being a
wingman at the bar.
And I don't mean the type ofstruggle where you fall on the
sword so your friend can getwith the hottie while you
distract sid the slot.
That's not sacrifice, that'sjust poor judgment in too many
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vodka crayons.
I'm going to bet with tenswaking up with twos, the
sacrifices that we make for ourfriends.
No, I'm talking about actualstruggle, like the emotional,
the physical, the spiritual kind, the kind that'll leave a mark,
the kind that'll beat you downuntil the juice of life is
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squeezed out of you and you'rejust a pulp a traumatized
smoothie, if you will where nowyou gotta rebuild and come out
stronger.
On the other side, life is chaos, and I don't mean it's chaotic
in the sense that you datesomeone who breaks up with you
every three weeks due to beinginsecure, or so they can go and
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work on themselves to strengthenthe relationship.
That's just called manipulation.
And you're better than that.
Know your own self-worth.
You gotta be strong enough toknow that that person is just
toxic.
Just fucking call them out thenext time.
Next time they pull that shitwhere it's just like oh, I just
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think we need some time apart,because distance makes the heart
grow fonder and all that shit.
You know what you gotta saywhen they pull that shit?
Just be like you know whatactually strengthened this
relationship if you wereactually out of it.
Because deep down, they comeback because they know that they
can't get anyone better, butthey're just trying to tear you
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down to their level so that wayyou'll feel insecure.
And now my the turntables.
And they're the ones thatultimately gain the power, when
you were the one that initiallyhad it.
So stop being so stupid andpretending.
This idea that no pain, no gain.
It's all part of my growth arc,when you easily could have just
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stepped away from it.
You know what that's like.
That's like if you go play intraffic and each time you said,
nah, car won't hit me and thenyou end up shocked that one did
every single time Like.
Struggle isn't built from yourown stupidity.
I've said it before on thispodcast.
I'll say it again you don't putyourself in a bad situation and
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if you come to realize that aonce safe situation isn't so
safe anymore, just removeyourself.
Struggle isn't always loud andit isn't always dramatic.
Sometimes it's quiet, sometimesit's a little bit confusing,
and sometimes you know it'squiet.
Sometimes it's a little bitconfusing and sometimes you know
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it's just fucking weird.
Sometimes something justhappens and you go what in the
hell was that?
Am I supposed to learnsomething here, or did I just
become a sims character and justglitch the fuck out like what
is going on?
Actually, no joke, you guyswant to hear a glitch story.
I got a fucking glitch storyand I swear to god with every
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fiber of my being this is a truestory and it truly is a like
what the fuck?
Moment.
So I'm seven years old, I'm atschool, it's during recess, I'm
in like second grade, I'm on themonkey bars minding my own
business, probably pretending tobe spider-man or some shit.
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I don't know, I was a weird kid, whatever.
Get past it.
So I proved to myself that I'mnot Spider-Man in that moment,
because I slip and I fall, and Ifall fucking hard, like I
actually blacked out for afraction of a second, and then
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all of a sudden my eyes open up,I get up and time feels very
slow, like I have no idea howlong this all went down, for,
honestly, from my perspectiveand from what I remember, it
felt like this whole scenariowas like 45 seconds, definitely
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no longer than a minute tops.
But I get up, right, and Idon't feel hurt, right.
And then I take a couple stepsbut I also realize that nobody
can see me Because, keep in mind, we're also at recess.
There's a bunch of kids runningaround me, but yet nobody's
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interacting with me.
So now I'm like, oh shit, nobodycan see me.
Maybe they can hear me.
So I just start screaming atthe top of my lungs just to see
if anyone could hear me.
But the messed up part was Icouldn't even hear myself and I
knew I was screaming because Icould feel it, but there was
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just no sound coming out.
Come to think of it, thereactually wasn't sound at all.
Period like I saw peopleplaying.
I obviously I'm on a playground, so kids are probably screaming
and yelling, but I actuallydidn't hear shit.
So there's just no sound period, just silence.
And then there's me juststanding there, like you ever
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just see, like a baby, empty cry, just eyes tight, mouth open,
like a fish, just no sound iscoming out.
So now I'm in a like truly likewhat the fuck state right, like,
oh shit, did I fall so hardthat I knocked myself invisible?
I literally just thought I wasspider-man.
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Maybe I became invisible man, Idon't fucking know.
Know, but I gotta be honest, ifthat's what invisibility is
like, that is a low key,underrated superpower, like I
mean, at that time in thatexperience it really wasn't the
greatest because I didn't knowwhat I was truly experiencing.
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But I'm telling you, man, giventhe right circumstances, it
could be pretty peaceful.
So now I'm actually juststanding there, confused, right,
like well, I guess this is justmy life now, and I'm kind of
panicking because, like who thefuck wouldn't?
You're seven years old, nobodycan see you, you can't speak,
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you can't hear anything.
If there's any time to panic,it would be then.
So I'm like looking around,just being like what the hell's
going on, and I turn around andI legitimately see my body just
chilling on the ground and I'mjust like, well, if I'm over
here, what the fuck am I alsodoing over there?
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Like I must have hit the matrixor some shit.
But weirdly, once I saw myself,I went from this like total
panic to almost having thissense of calm, like all right,
well, you know what, let's goover and investigate.
So I take a few steps towardsmy body and boom, all of sudden
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I just wake up.
I'm staring back at the monkeybars laying on my back again
like nothing had ever happened.
I didn't have any pain, Ididn't have a headache, no
bruises, just snapped right backinto simulation.
So, like any other kid, I waslike, huh, all right, that was
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kind of weird.
But all right, back to recess.
Who's up for some tag?
No reflection, no processing,just eh, you know, I think I'm
fine story of my life, thoughhonestly, the hell was that,
don't know.
All right, carry on.
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And this is why I say that itcouldn't have lasted that long
and why I'm thinking it was likea minute tops, when in
actuality the whole thingprobably could have lasted three
seconds, because none of theother kids around even seemed to
notice that I had fallen, likewhen I got back up.
I'm not even joking when I saythis.
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I swear to god, the teacher wasthe only person that knew that
I even fell or had this incident, because as soon as I get up
and I start running around as ifI literally didn't just die on
the playground, she sees me andshe calls me over and, after
giving me a quick inspection, Ithink she determined that I was
fine.
It's just like all right, goplay.
Like I think she determinedthat I was fine.
I was just like all right, goplay, I think.
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Honestly, I just remember herstaring into my eyes and she was
probably just checking to makesure that I didn't have any
signs of a concussion.
But even she was just like whatthe fuck just happened to this
kid?
But I didn't have any signs ofinjury or anything.
So she was like all right,probably fine.
Kids are kind of like tattoos,they're.
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So she was like all right,probably fine.
Like kids are kind of liketattoos.
You know, they're a little bitmore resilient than you think.
So I don't know, maybe that'swhy I don't panic when I lose
stuff now, like if I lose mykeys or my wallet, I'm just like
you know it'll turn up.
I literally lost my entire bodyand even that came back.
You think if I lose my phone ormy wallet I'm really going to
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give a shit.
So yeah, if you lose something,just relax.
It's probably fine, unless it'syour soul, but even then maybe
you'll respond.
It's kind of like how lifeworks, right, you hit the ground
, you wake up and you carry on.
But I will say, just rememberthat if you're already at rock
bottom, you may as well justkeep digging, because the deeper
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you go, eventually you'reeither hit water or gold, and I
feel like that's the freakingmotto that casinos run on.
But it's weird.
Man Like I will randomly thinkabout this experience, which I
can only classify as anout-of-body experience.
But it really was like reallybizarre, because most people's
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out-of-body experiences, fromwhat I've read, like nicky sixes
, where he was levitating andsaw a light meanwhile.
I didn't get anything cool likethat.
Like honestly, my out-of-bodyexperience I felt like was kind
of a waste.
I'm like just walking around aplayground trying to get some
kids to notice me.
Pause, I was seven.
This isn't in the current stateof affairs.
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I was seven, everybody holdyour horses.
But I don't know, I feel like,uh, maybe it's because we're in
lent right now, but I've justbeen thinking about that
experience a little bit more andwhat it's meant like was god
trying to prove something to methat souls are real and there is
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something beyond this physicalworld.
Why didn't he need to show me alight, like I've heard in other
people's stories?
Is it because I never reallyneeded proof that he was real?
Is it to show that, even when Ifeel lost either in life or in
faith, that God's always lookingout for me and I'll always find
my way back?
I really don't know what thatexperience was supposed to tell
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me.
But after all this talk aboutsouls and spiritual confusion,
let's talk about a band that haselements of questioning some
faith.
You know what?
Let's bring back that segmentwhere I talk about artists that
I like, that you guys might notknow.
I mean, personally, I'veactually listened to this band
for a while now, but they havegained kind of a cultish
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following, so you might know whothey are, but honestly, they
are just too good for me toignore, especially since they're
also about to release a newalbum I think in may that I'm
actually super stoked, for it'sa band called sleep token and
the concept behind them is wild.
All of the members are maskedand anonymous, except for the
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lead singer, who's known asVessel.
All the other members of theband just go by numbers like two
, three, four, five.
I want to say I actually don'tknow how many members are in
this band, but all of theirmusic is technically worship.
It's not Christian, it's notsatanic, but it's worship for
this mysterious entity calledsleep, and that's literally what
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they call it.
It's called sleep and the wholeidea is that this entity came
to vessel through a dream tospread like its message through
music.
And if he does it, then he'sgoing to become super popular
and famous, which the band hasultimately become.
But right now they're like allover the map and they're just
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interesting because they'remetal, but they have pop
elements and beats and they havepiano ballads and it's just
some of the most melodic andheavy and most beautiful music
that you could ever hear, alljust for an entity that everyone
knows about.
But everybody has differentinterpretations on what it could
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be and honestly, that feels waymore relatable than most of the
worship music that I've heard,because most days I don't even
feel like I'm singingconfidently to a God that I
fully understand.
Like most days, it feels likeI'm just trying to a God that I
fully understand.
Like most days, it feels likeI'm just trying to get some
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message across through static,and to me that's what Sleep
Token represents.
I'm not saying that I believethat this entity, sleep, is God.
I believe that God is God.
I'm just saying I like whatSleep Token's music represents.
It's beauty and breakdowns allin the same breath.
It's faith for the confused andit kind of mirrors what I've
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felt ever since I was seven andfloating outside of my body like
a ghost with bad timing.
I didn't get a message, Ididn't get clarity, I didn't get
a burning bush, but I feltsomething.
And I, I didn't get clarity, Ididn't get a burning bush, but I
felt something and I've neverreally let that go.
And Sleep Token does that Like.
Their music to me feels likeit's a prayer that doesn't know
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who it's for, but at the sametime they represent the same
things that I'm going throughwith, all of the unknowns in my
life, and I don't know what thatmoment when I was seven meant.
Maybe I don't know what I'mdoing now with my career or my
podcast, or why those guyshappen to come into the bar that
I was at, asked me to playrugby.
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But I'm still here, I'm stillasking questions, I'm still
digging, and whether I find goldwater or just another sleep
token vinyl on the floor, I'mgood with that, because those
are all positive things and ifyou guys want to do a positive
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Thank you guys, so much forlistening and supporting.
I'll try not to get killed inrugby and we'll catch up next
time.
Thank you.