April 4, 2025 • 19 mins
Mike runs his mouth about literally nothing but living day to day, feeling directionless, and how job hunting and dating are basically the same thing. He shares a rugby metaphor for resilience, thoughts on faith when it feels like God’s ghosting him, and why bartending might be his next big move. It’s a beautiful mess—just like life.
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Mike (00:07):
Alright, what's going on everybody?
You know I've been told thatone of my biggest issues is that
I tend to live day to day and Idon't really think about my
future.
But, like, honestly, at thispoint in my life, why is that
such a bad thing?
Like, how the hell am Isupposed to plan for the future
(00:28):
when I can't even seem to getthe gift that is the present
when it comes to my current lifeand I know that I'm not the
only one out there who feelslike they're either getting a
bit ahead or getting kicked init but with my life, the only
ballplay I'm getting is fromrugby right now.
So not ideal, but I know Ican't be the only one out there
(00:51):
feeling this way either.
Just being in this constantstate, feeling like they have so
much going on, there's no realdirection, not even knowing
where to start, and then, onceyou even start thinking about
where to start, it's exhausting,so you just go, fuck it.
We'll circle off back to thistomorrow and it's just a
never-ending cycle.
It's funny, you see, thesememes of like my friends are
(01:14):
getting married, my friends arehaving kids, and I'm just
sitting there like well, youknow, at least my socks have a
matching pair?
I don't know.
I just have been thinking a lotlately about this stage of my
life and for me, I think, ithits a little harder because I'm
a triplet and I see how muchfarther ahead that I feel my
(01:35):
siblings are in life rather thanwhere I am.
Because there's no bettercontrol group than your siblings
, right.
Like we're all the same age.
We were raised by the samepeople in the same manner.
We experienced the ages of 0 to18 together, plus, in my
situation, I also went tocollege with one of my siblings.
So like there is no bettercontrol group for me than also
(01:59):
looking at my siblings lives,right, and I'm looking ahead at
them and I'm just like okay, soone of my sisters is married,
with the kid on the way.
Thank you guys, thank you.
I am looking forward to beingan uncle.
It's going to be cool.
But my other sister is a fewmonths away from having her
wedding too, so both of mysiblings are moving on with
(02:22):
their lives.
And then there's just me no girl, no job, just a podcast that I
can barely hold together once aweek, and even that sometimes
feels like a group project thatI forgot to sign up for.
So it's not like I'm not tryinglike.
When it comes to either findinga job or trying to find a
(02:44):
girlfriend and, trust me, I'vebeen on interviews for both.
Because let's be real here,first dates are basically
interviews.
Instead of clicking apply,you're just swiping right and
you're hoping to get a messageback confirming interest.
Then you go through a couplerounds of conversation call that
the screening process and ifthat goes well, you meet in
(03:05):
person rounds two or three, andafter that maybe you land it,
maybe you get that shot to givea back shot, I don't know.
But even then, both jobs andrelationships have a three to
six month probationary period,and that's when they're checking
for red flags.
They're wondering if they canfix you or if they need to cut
(03:28):
their losses, because it's awaste of time and money to keep
this person around and you knowwhat.
Speaking of dating, on datingapps, I just saw this the other
day with a girl who used thewhat's it like dating me prompt,
and her answer to that waslistening to your favorite song
on repeat.
All right, yeah, as if myfavorite song doesn't change
(03:50):
with every week.
And, honestly, you listen to asong long enough for enough
times.
You just end up getting sick ofit, like how many times have
you also heard somebody butcherdon't stop believing on karaoke
night?
So many times then?
Now you want to slam your headinto the dash every time it
comes on while you're driving.
But you used to love that songat some point, right, I don't
(04:10):
know.
Meanwhile I have trouble justgetting past the talking stage
anyways, as if I'm not so easyto get sick of myself.
So who the fuck am I to talk?
But it's weird seeing mysister's lives and my friend's
lives all seeming to moveforward, where they're all
getting married or having kidsor at least moving up in their
careers, and I'm just in thisether of space, both in my head
(04:34):
and in my life, not knowingwhere I am, seeming to move
backwards as life continues tomove forwards.
But then, when it comes to jobinterviews or dates that I've
gone on, maybe nothing hasworked out because I just
haven't truly found the rightfit and I'm just also trying to
make something happen just forthe sake of making it happen.
(04:54):
I don't know, maybe I'm justtrying to force something that
isn't like there for me, I don'tknow, like with the jobs that
I'm applying to and stuff.
Like my unemployment runs outsoon and I'm having this come to
Jesus moment of okay, like I'vebeen applying to jobs in
marketing, even though I hatemarketing, but it's the only
thing on my resume and nothing'scome out of it and I'm
(05:17):
seriously starting to run out oftime.
So what the fuck do I do?
Because I need a job and I justkind of had this realization
that the only job that I knowthat I have ever truly liked was
working as a bartender.
Like you make drinks, yousocialize, and it's one of the
(05:37):
most interactive jobs that youcan have the conversations, the
different personalities ofpeople.
Like my grandfather used toalways say that he loved his job
because he was always workingwith people and people are the
most interesting thing that youcan observe or interact with and
that's what makes that job sodifferent every day.
(06:00):
Because I like a job where it'snot the same thing every day.
Because I get bored.
Um, even when I was in like acorporate setting or an office
setting, all I was doing everyday was just looking at metrics,
looking at analytics, pullingreports, talking to people about
the reports.
Like talking with the samefrigging people every day.
(06:22):
Like you just get stuck in a rutwhen it comes to the mundane
and it just becomes this soulsucking boredom.
Like, yeah, even when it comesto bartending, right, you could
say that that's mundane becauseyou're mixing drinks and you're
serving people all day, everyday.
But what makes it not mundaneis the spectrum of different
(06:45):
people.
That is what makes it soentertaining, because you have
no idea who's gonna come in.
I mean, you have your regulars,so obviously, like, you're
gonna have some consistency whenit comes to the people, but you
also have no idea who's gonnawalk in through those doors or
the conversations that you'regonna have and the jokes that
are gonna be made, or theinsights that you might gain
(07:08):
from who you talk to, orwhatever.
Like, like, it is always adifferent day.
You're not always just havingthe same conversation about
reports or metrics or quotas andbullshit.
You get to actually have somefucking fun.
So I don't know.
(07:31):
It's not necessarily a career inthe traditional sense, but
given the fact that I've beenapplying to jobs when it comes
to what I was doing with whitecollar work, I feel like this is
the only thing I could possiblyseem to get right now, and I
need a job one way or another.
(07:51):
So I you know what fuck it.
Why not?
Why not just try and changecareers, do something a little
different and see where thattakes me?
Because I need to changesomewhere in my life and I think
that's what I'm going to do.
Like, honestly, you know, I wastalking about going to
Nashville at one point in myNashville episode, maybe moving
(08:12):
down there.
That's never been off the table, and I remember talking to some
of the bartenders down theretalking about how much money
they could make.
Cost of living is so muchcheaper down there rather than
up here in Connecticut.
So who the fuck knows?
So maybe once I gain some legitexperience experience maybe
that's when I plan my move tonashville and I bartend.
(08:33):
I don't know.
All I know is right now I don'thave anything figured out and
I'm a year out from no longerbeing in my 20s.
So shouldn't I have somefucking sense of what's going on
?
Like?
My life is basically just onebeautiful disaster after another
, kind of just like every womanthat I tend to attract and maybe
that's not coincidence because,trust me, I am a disaster.
(08:56):
But listen, I'm just sayingthere's some truth to the
stereotype that traumatizedwomen are great in bed.
I'm not endorsing it, I'm justsaying I don't make the rules.
I just accidentally dated theentire committee.
But it is facts that daddyissues just equal elite head
game.
(09:16):
That's just math.
And you know what part of me,if I ever have a daughter, is of
course going to try and be themost loving, present and
supportive father I can be,because I don't want her ending
up on a pole.
But another part of me, thepart of me that's still a dude,
feels like that.
If I miss a recital here orthere, maybe I'm just investing
(09:36):
in my future son and law’shappiness too.
Balance people.
It's all about balance, uh.
But there is this unspokenformula that lack of paternal
attention turns into extremeeffort.
That comes from substituting adick for a toothbrush.
Because what do men love?
(09:57):
They love three things headsandwiches and putting their
head in a sandwich.
So if she's got some unresolvedtrauma and a panini press, you
you're golden pony boy.
As if women would want to hearsome dude with mommy issues
mansplaining their psyche, as ifhe thinks he knows everything
just because he sleeps around tofill the void that was left
(10:19):
from her.
Wait, so I guess that alsoexplains women with daddy issues
.
Look at me realizing my ownstupidity with daddy issues.
Look at me realizing my ownstupidity.
Guys, I am just a blindsquirrel that not only can't
find a nut, but I also have atendency to fall off the branch
before I know it's secure.
But you know, what women don'tdo is they don't write a three
(10:41):
paragraph text, all in theessence of validating the
question of did I do somethingwrong just because bro didn't
receive a response in sevenminutes.
And now it's just a matter offighting the own insecurities
that men might have.
And then we end up juststarting a podcast thinking that
we know the answers to all thisshit.
(11:01):
Hashtag guilty.
So yeah, both sides got aproblem.
I attract emotional hurricanes,but I'm also not out here
pretending to be some highground.
Considering I am well below sealevel.
I'm more like a bar napkin.
I'm so torn and asking myselfhow I'm still holding myself
(11:22):
together at the end of the day,which was just like me and my
first ever rugby game last week.
Holy shit, I am not good atrugby.
I only played in the last 10minutes because at this point in
my rugby career, I'm a totalliability and the one chance
that I even had an opportunityto do something.
(11:44):
My one job could have been tocatch a ball on a kickoff.
So when this ball is comingtowards me, I took a step or two
towards it, but then all of asudden I thought the guy in
front of me said that he had it,so I backed off and then it
just goes in between us in noman's land.
And that was when I'm like shit, that's still a live ball and
it takes a bad bounce, goesbehind me, but I go to try and
(12:09):
recover it.
And in that moment was when Irealized how bonnie blue might
have fell after that thousandperson train run, because two
dudes just ran at me full speedand I just got fucking wrecked.
Oh, but you know what I ownthat fuck up.
Like I should have communicatedfor that ball a little bit
(12:31):
better.
And I took the punishment formy mistake and instead of being
like, oh, that sucked, I wentover to my teammate and said you
know what, buddy, like that wasmy bad, that's on me.
And I'm honestly now lookingforward to the next practice
Because I'm not going to cowerdown for looking like an idiot
in that moment.
Dude, I look like an idiot allthe time.
(12:51):
Anyone listening to thispodcast knows that by now, or
you should know that by now.
Hell, even in this episode Iprobably proved that.
So like, so what if I took afucking hit?
You take one hit in a contactsport, knowing what you signed
up for, and then you're gonnabow out from it?
No, that's some bitch shit.
(13:12):
You take the hit, you get up,you learn from it or, if
anything, you just betterprepare for the next time that
you're in that situation like inthat moment I, low-key,
realized that that hit was justa small little metaphor for life
.
At all stages of it You'regoing to be in uncomfortable
(13:33):
situations and you're going totake hits that you don't want to
take.
But to me that's all kind ofthe process of trying to figure
out where you are or what youwant to be.
And you won't figure that outunless you keep showing up and
you just keep trying to improveby taking those hits.
And they say that it's in thetimes when you take the shots
(13:55):
that hit the hardest, is whenGod is also testing you the most
.
It's when you don't think thathe sees what you're dealing with
and you're just sitting upthere like, hey, bro, like kinda
need you right now?
Where the hell are you?
And it's in those moments wherepriests and pastors, or whoever
they'll start saying shit likeoh, it's in these times of not
(14:17):
knowing if God sees you is whenyou gotta keep the faith,
because that's when he's testingyou to know your loyalty
towards him.
And that just sounds ridiculousto me, if I'm being completely
honest, because I know somepretty lucky ass atheists out
there, so I don't know if Ifully believe that God only
serves those who serve him.
(14:39):
Like to me, especially when I'mdown, being able to still have
faith when God seems todisappear isn't just a sign of
testing loyalty towards him, butit's also a sign of strength,
because it's a matter of holdingon.
Like if you're doing a deadhang, how long is it until you
need to let go?
But you know what Having faithis like, having that cushion
(15:03):
beneath you, knowing that it'sgoing to be okay when you do
actually fall, like every timethat you hold on to that bar,
you also seem to be able to hanga little bit longer each time,
and that's growth.
It's a matter of how long youcan hang on with each new
challenge, and the longer thatyou hold on, the stronger you
(15:25):
become, and you can't just giveup and let go because you got to
fight for every second that youcan.
You are mentally and physicallystronger than you think, and
it's not until you're trulygrasping that God's grace washes
over you, and that goes foratheists too.
An all loving parent will stillhelp a child regardless of
(15:47):
mistake, and that also includeswhen they tend to sway or stray
away.
But that's also not to say thatyou won't be punished for it at
some point, and that's why Ithink it's said that there's no
challenge that God can give thatyou can't handle, because he's
not also testing your faith tohim, but your strength within
yourself.
(16:07):
Maybe that's also why I tend tonot really think about my future
, because I'm truly just tryingto navigate my way through the
present day, like if I don'thave answers for tomorrow.
I can't even fathom thinkingabout five years from now.
You never know what couldhappen or what.
You'll be Hell if.
I know if trying to changecareers to bartending is a smart
move.
I don't know if playing rugbyis a smart move.
I don't know if me thinking ofmoving to a whole new state
(16:30):
while on the precipice of beingan uncle and moving farther away
from my family is a smart move.
But while I question all ofthese things, you also need to
be aware of when you're alsobeing heard.
Like last week I mentioned thatI was asking questions to a God
that I felt that kept his phoneon silent and I wasn't being
heard or seen.
(16:50):
But then the other day I wentfor a run One because I was in a
funk and two, I'm also justtrying to keep in shape for
rugby and on the run there wasthis kid on a scooter who
started picking up speed next tome as I was running alongside
him and they kept looking at meand I was just like, oh, like,
(17:14):
oh, shit, this kid wants to race, so I end up racing this kid,
and in that moment it was just asmall little win because it
also reminded me that, yeah, youknow what I am being seen and
that little childlike joys ofplaying games and having fun is
all around us.
We just need to be aware ofwhen it's happening, even when
we're facing a shit storm of atime.
It's also not about the directwin, even though I smoked that
kid.
It's about the fact that lifealso showed up to play even for
(17:38):
a second, and maybe that meansthat you're still in the game
too, even though you might bedown 28 to 3 at the half.
So, yeah, I'm, I'm in the thickof it.
Life feels like it's runningdrills on me and I'm just trying
to stay on my feet.
I don't have all the answersHell, I don't even know the
questions half the time but I'mshowing up, I'm talking to God,
(18:01):
even when it feels like I'mleaving voicemails.
I'm listening for signs, evenif the only thing I hear is the
sound of a rugby boot steppingover my head and I don't know
what's next.
I don't know what I'm doing,but I'm trying, I'm asking, I'm
showing up, and that's all I canask for you guys too.
That's the only advice I cangive you guys is to keep trying,
(18:23):
keep asking, keep showing up,and if you're still here
listening, then maybe youactually are doing that.
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(18:46):
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Alright, guys, I hope you allhave a fantastic week and I will
catch up with you next time.
Alright, what's going on everybody?
You know I've been told thatone of my biggest issues is that
I tend to live day to day and Idon't really think about my
future.
But, like, honestly, at thispoint in my life, why is that
such a bad thing?
Like, how the hell am Isupposed to plan for the future
(00:28):
when I can't even seem to getthe gift that is the present
when it comes to my current lifeand I know that I'm not the
only one out there who feelslike they're either getting a
bit ahead or getting kicked init but with my life, the only
ballplay I'm getting is fromrugby right now.
So not ideal, but I know Ican't be the only one out there
(00:51):
feeling this way either.
Just being in this constantstate, feeling like they have so
much going on, there's no realdirection, not even knowing
where to start, and then, onceyou even start thinking about
where to start, it's exhausting,so you just go, fuck it.
We'll circle off back to thistomorrow and it's just a
never-ending cycle.
It's funny, you see, thesememes of like my friends are
(01:14):
getting married, my friends arehaving kids, and I'm just
sitting there like well, youknow, at least my socks have a
matching pair?
I don't know.
I just have been thinking a lotlately about this stage of my
life and for me, I think, ithits a little harder because I'm
a triplet and I see how muchfarther ahead that I feel my
(01:35):
siblings are in life rather thanwhere I am.
Because there's no bettercontrol group than your siblings
, right.
Like we're all the same age.
We were raised by the samepeople in the same manner.
We experienced the ages of 0 to18 together, plus, in my
situation, I also went tocollege with one of my siblings.
So like there is no bettercontrol group for me than also
(01:59):
looking at my siblings lives,right, and I'm looking ahead at
them and I'm just like okay, soone of my sisters is married,
with the kid on the way.
Thank you guys, thank you.
I am looking forward to beingan uncle.
It's going to be cool.
But my other sister is a fewmonths away from having her
wedding too, so both of mysiblings are moving on with
(02:22):
their lives.
And then there's just me no girl, no job, just a podcast that I
can barely hold together once aweek, and even that sometimes
feels like a group project thatI forgot to sign up for.
So it's not like I'm not tryinglike.
When it comes to either findinga job or trying to find a
(02:44):
girlfriend and, trust me, I'vebeen on interviews for both.
Because let's be real here,first dates are basically
interviews.
Instead of clicking apply,you're just swiping right and
you're hoping to get a messageback confirming interest.
Then you go through a couplerounds of conversation call that
the screening process and ifthat goes well, you meet in
(03:05):
person rounds two or three, andafter that maybe you land it,
maybe you get that shot to givea back shot, I don't know.
But even then, both jobs andrelationships have a three to
six month probationary period,and that's when they're checking
for red flags.
They're wondering if they canfix you or if they need to cut
(03:28):
their losses, because it's awaste of time and money to keep
this person around and you knowwhat.
Speaking of dating, on datingapps, I just saw this the other
day with a girl who used thewhat's it like dating me prompt,
and her answer to that waslistening to your favorite song
on repeat.
All right, yeah, as if myfavorite song doesn't change
(03:50):
with every week.
And, honestly, you listen to asong long enough for enough
times.
You just end up getting sick ofit, like how many times have
you also heard somebody butcherdon't stop believing on karaoke
night?
So many times then?
Now you want to slam your headinto the dash every time it
comes on while you're driving.
But you used to love that songat some point, right, I don't
(04:10):
know.
Meanwhile I have trouble justgetting past the talking stage
anyways, as if I'm not so easyto get sick of myself.
So who the fuck am I to talk?
But it's weird seeing mysister's lives and my friend's
lives all seeming to moveforward, where they're all
getting married or having kidsor at least moving up in their
careers, and I'm just in thisether of space, both in my head
(04:34):
and in my life, not knowingwhere I am, seeming to move
backwards as life continues tomove forwards.
But then, when it comes to jobinterviews or dates that I've
gone on, maybe nothing hasworked out because I just
haven't truly found the rightfit and I'm just also trying to
make something happen just forthe sake of making it happen.
(04:54):
I don't know, maybe I'm justtrying to force something that
isn't like there for me, I don'tknow, like with the jobs that
I'm applying to and stuff.
Like my unemployment runs outsoon and I'm having this come to
Jesus moment of okay, like I'vebeen applying to jobs in
marketing, even though I hatemarketing, but it's the only
thing on my resume and nothing'scome out of it and I'm
(05:17):
seriously starting to run out oftime.
So what the fuck do I do?
Because I need a job and I justkind of had this realization
that the only job that I knowthat I have ever truly liked was
working as a bartender.
Like you make drinks, yousocialize, and it's one of the
(05:37):
most interactive jobs that youcan have the conversations, the
different personalities ofpeople.
Like my grandfather used toalways say that he loved his job
because he was always workingwith people and people are the
most interesting thing that youcan observe or interact with and
that's what makes that job sodifferent every day.
(06:00):
Because I like a job where it'snot the same thing every day.
Because I get bored.
Um, even when I was in like acorporate setting or an office
setting, all I was doing everyday was just looking at metrics,
looking at analytics, pullingreports, talking to people about
the reports.
Like talking with the samefrigging people every day.
(06:22):
Like you just get stuck in a rutwhen it comes to the mundane
and it just becomes this soulsucking boredom.
Like, yeah, even when it comesto bartending, right, you could
say that that's mundane becauseyou're mixing drinks and you're
serving people all day, everyday.
But what makes it not mundaneis the spectrum of different
(06:45):
people.
That is what makes it soentertaining, because you have
no idea who's gonna come in.
I mean, you have your regulars,so obviously, like, you're
gonna have some consistency whenit comes to the people, but you
also have no idea who's gonnawalk in through those doors or
the conversations that you'regonna have and the jokes that
are gonna be made, or theinsights that you might gain
(07:08):
from who you talk to, orwhatever.
Like, like, it is always adifferent day.
You're not always just havingthe same conversation about
reports or metrics or quotas andbullshit.
You get to actually have somefucking fun.
So I don't know.
(07:31):
It's not necessarily a career inthe traditional sense, but
given the fact that I've beenapplying to jobs when it comes
to what I was doing with whitecollar work, I feel like this is
the only thing I could possiblyseem to get right now, and I
need a job one way or another.
(07:51):
So I you know what fuck it.
Why not?
Why not just try and changecareers, do something a little
different and see where thattakes me?
Because I need to changesomewhere in my life and I think
that's what I'm going to do.
Like, honestly, you know, I wastalking about going to
Nashville at one point in myNashville episode, maybe moving
(08:12):
down there.
That's never been off the table, and I remember talking to some
of the bartenders down theretalking about how much money
they could make.
Cost of living is so muchcheaper down there rather than
up here in Connecticut.
So who the fuck knows?
So maybe once I gain some legitexperience experience maybe
that's when I plan my move tonashville and I bartend.
(08:33):
I don't know.
All I know is right now I don'thave anything figured out and
I'm a year out from no longerbeing in my 20s.
So shouldn't I have somefucking sense of what's going on
?
Like?
My life is basically just onebeautiful disaster after another
, kind of just like every womanthat I tend to attract and maybe
that's not coincidence because,trust me, I am a disaster.
(08:56):
But listen, I'm just sayingthere's some truth to the
stereotype that traumatizedwomen are great in bed.
I'm not endorsing it, I'm justsaying I don't make the rules.
I just accidentally dated theentire committee.
But it is facts that daddyissues just equal elite head
game.
(09:16):
That's just math.
And you know what part of me,if I ever have a daughter, is of
course going to try and be themost loving, present and
supportive father I can be,because I don't want her ending
up on a pole.
But another part of me, thepart of me that's still a dude,
feels like that.
If I miss a recital here orthere, maybe I'm just investing
(09:36):
in my future son and law’shappiness too.
Balance people.
It's all about balance, uh.
But there is this unspokenformula that lack of paternal
attention turns into extremeeffort.
That comes from substituting adick for a toothbrush.
Because what do men love?
(09:57):
They love three things headsandwiches and putting their
head in a sandwich.
So if she's got some unresolvedtrauma and a panini press, you
you're golden pony boy.
As if women would want to hearsome dude with mommy issues
mansplaining their psyche, as ifhe thinks he knows everything
just because he sleeps around tofill the void that was left
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from her.
Wait, so I guess that alsoexplains women with daddy issues
.
Look at me realizing my ownstupidity with daddy issues.
Look at me realizing my ownstupidity.
Guys, I am just a blindsquirrel that not only can't
find a nut, but I also have atendency to fall off the branch
before I know it's secure.
But you know, what women don'tdo is they don't write a three
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paragraph text, all in theessence of validating the
question of did I do somethingwrong just because bro didn't
receive a response in sevenminutes.
And now it's just a matter offighting the own insecurities
that men might have.
And then we end up juststarting a podcast thinking that
we know the answers to all thisshit.
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Hashtag guilty.
So yeah, both sides got aproblem.
I attract emotional hurricanes,but I'm also not out here
pretending to be some highground.
Considering I am well below sealevel.
I'm more like a bar napkin.
I'm so torn and asking myselfhow I'm still holding myself
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together at the end of the day,which was just like me and my
first ever rugby game last week.
Holy shit, I am not good atrugby.
I only played in the last 10minutes because at this point in
my rugby career, I'm a totalliability and the one chance
that I even had an opportunityto do something.
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My one job could have been tocatch a ball on a kickoff.
So when this ball is comingtowards me, I took a step or two
towards it, but then all of asudden I thought the guy in
front of me said that he had it,so I backed off and then it
just goes in between us in noman's land.
And that was when I'm like shit, that's still a live ball and
it takes a bad bounce, goesbehind me, but I go to try and
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recover it.
And in that moment was when Irealized how bonnie blue might
have fell after that thousandperson train run, because two
dudes just ran at me full speedand I just got fucking wrecked.
Oh, but you know what I ownthat fuck up.
Like I should have communicatedfor that ball a little bit
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better.
And I took the punishment formy mistake and instead of being
like, oh, that sucked, I wentover to my teammate and said you
know what, buddy, like that wasmy bad, that's on me.
And I'm honestly now lookingforward to the next practice
Because I'm not going to cowerdown for looking like an idiot
in that moment.
Dude, I look like an idiot allthe time.
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Anyone listening to thispodcast knows that by now, or
you should know that by now.
Hell, even in this episode Iprobably proved that.
So like, so what if I took afucking hit?
You take one hit in a contactsport, knowing what you signed
up for, and then you're gonnabow out from it?
No, that's some bitch shit.
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You take the hit, you get up,you learn from it or, if
anything, you just betterprepare for the next time that
you're in that situation like inthat moment I, low-key,
realized that that hit was justa small little metaphor for life
.
At all stages of it You'regoing to be in uncomfortable
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situations and you're going totake hits that you don't want to
take.
But to me that's all kind ofthe process of trying to figure
out where you are or what youwant to be.
And you won't figure that outunless you keep showing up and
you just keep trying to improveby taking those hits.
And they say that it's in thetimes when you take the shots
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that hit the hardest, is whenGod is also testing you the most
.
It's when you don't think thathe sees what you're dealing with
and you're just sitting upthere like, hey, bro, like kinda
need you right now?
Where the hell are you?
And it's in those moments wherepriests and pastors, or whoever
they'll start saying shit likeoh, it's in these times of not
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knowing if God sees you is whenyou gotta keep the faith,
because that's when he's testingyou to know your loyalty
towards him.
And that just sounds ridiculousto me, if I'm being completely
honest, because I know somepretty lucky ass atheists out
there, so I don't know if Ifully believe that God only
serves those who serve him.
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Like to me, especially when I'mdown, being able to still have
faith when God seems todisappear isn't just a sign of
testing loyalty towards him, butit's also a sign of strength,
because it's a matter of holdingon.
Like if you're doing a deadhang, how long is it until you
need to let go?
But you know what Having faithis like, having that cushion
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beneath you, knowing that it'sgoing to be okay when you do
actually fall, like every timethat you hold on to that bar,
you also seem to be able to hanga little bit longer each time,
and that's growth.
It's a matter of how long youcan hang on with each new
challenge, and the longer thatyou hold on, the stronger you
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become, and you can't just giveup and let go because you got to
fight for every second that youcan.
You are mentally and physicallystronger than you think, and
it's not until you're trulygrasping that God's grace washes
over you, and that goes foratheists too.
An all loving parent will stillhelp a child regardless of
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mistake, and that also includeswhen they tend to sway or stray
away.
But that's also not to say thatyou won't be punished for it at
some point, and that's why Ithink it's said that there's no
challenge that God can give thatyou can't handle, because he's
not also testing your faith tohim, but your strength within
yourself.
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Maybe that's also why I tend tonot really think about my future
, because I'm truly just tryingto navigate my way through the
present day, like if I don'thave answers for tomorrow.
I can't even fathom thinkingabout five years from now.
You never know what couldhappen or what.
You'll be Hell if.
I know if trying to changecareers to bartending is a smart
move.
I don't know if playing rugbyis a smart move.
I don't know if me thinking ofmoving to a whole new state
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while on the precipice of beingan uncle and moving farther away
from my family is a smart move.
But while I question all ofthese things, you also need to
be aware of when you're alsobeing heard.
Like last week I mentioned thatI was asking questions to a God
that I felt that kept his phoneon silent and I wasn't being
heard or seen.
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But then the other day I wentfor a run One because I was in a
funk and two, I'm also justtrying to keep in shape for
rugby and on the run there wasthis kid on a scooter who
started picking up speed next tome as I was running alongside
him and they kept looking at meand I was just like, oh, like,
(17:14):
oh, shit, this kid wants to race, so I end up racing this kid,
and in that moment it was just asmall little win because it
also reminded me that, yeah, youknow what I am being seen and
that little childlike joys ofplaying games and having fun is
all around us.
We just need to be aware ofwhen it's happening, even when
we're facing a shit storm of atime.
It's also not about the directwin, even though I smoked that
kid.
It's about the fact that lifealso showed up to play even for
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a second, and maybe that meansthat you're still in the game
too, even though you might bedown 28 to 3 at the half.
So, yeah, I'm, I'm in the thickof it.
Life feels like it's runningdrills on me and I'm just trying
to stay on my feet.
I don't have all the answersHell, I don't even know the
questions half the time but I'mshowing up, I'm talking to God,
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even when it feels like I'mleaving voicemails.
I'm listening for signs, evenif the only thing I hear is the
sound of a rugby boot steppingover my head and I don't know
what's next.
I don't know what I'm doing,but I'm trying, I'm asking, I'm
showing up, and that's all I canask for you guys too.
That's the only advice I cangive you guys is to keep trying,
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keep asking, keep showing up,and if you're still here
listening, then maybe youactually are doing that.
And if you are still listening,feel free to share the pod.
Follow me on my socials.
You can find me @thelnbepodcast on TikTok and Instagram.
Please continue to rate,comment and subscribe to help
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And if you want to write in,feel free to send me an email to
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lnbemedia@ gmail.
com.
Alright, guys, I hope you allhave a fantastic week and I will
catch up with you next time.
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