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January 8, 2024 • 30 mins

When life threw a curveball at my holiday cheer with unexpected apartment renovations, I learned a valuable lesson in the power of perspective. This episode is a raw and authentic reflection on the importance of gratitude, even when things don't go according to plan. Listen as I recount the ups and downs, sharing how I turned it into an opportunity for personal growth. By adopting a mindset of resilience and rewriting my internal dialogue through journaling, I've discovered a path to a more positive self-concept. This candid conversation sheds light on the crucial role our thoughts and media consumption play in shaping our spirit and actions.

Embarking on the journey of podcasting was no easy feat, but by changing my thoughts and taking intentional action, the path to success became clearer. In this heart-to-heart, I share practical tips for steering your mindset toward progress, from journaling to voice recording, and the significance of a joyful media diet. As we reconvene with our vibrant 'melanin unicorn' community, I extend an invitation to share in the excitement and optimism for what lies ahead. It's a new year brimming with possibilities, and together, we'll celebrate our collective achievements and growth. Join me as we continue to create a space filled with love, safety, and affirmation, reminding each other of our inherent value every step of the way.

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Kerry (00:00):
Hello and welcome to the Melanin Unicorn Podcast.
I'm your host, kerry, and firstlet me wish everyone a blessed,
abundant and amazing new year,2024, plus more.
That is our intention for thisyear.
So for my current listeners,welcome back.

(00:24):
For my new listeners, welcome.
We have a lot to discuss becauseI feel like I've been missing
an action, and I really wasn't.
It was just a lot of stuffgoing on and I couldn't record.
But we'll get into that furtheras we start our next episode.

(00:45):
I look forward to seeing youall, or, better yet, hearing you
all.
So let's start the show.
Here we are in a new year, morein 2024.

(01:08):
So the last time we had anepisode was Thanksgiving, and I
dropped a quick one wishingeveryone a blessed and safe
Thanksgiving.
So after that, I was informedthat they were going to come
into my apartment to do somework and I said, okay, you know,

(01:32):
that's fine, because workneeded to be done.
But then it took way longerthan it should have.
And let me tell you something Iwasn't annoyed, because when
you become annoyed or you becomeaggravated, you, you throw your

(01:57):
own self off.
And so what I had to do?
Because it was chaos, it wassome, it was just, it was chaos
going on up in here.
One of the workers got sick sohe was out for like over a week,
so that pushed the work backeven further.

(02:19):
And my apartment, everythingwas pretty much in the middle of
the floor.
There was a, there was paint,there were trees, there was tarp
, everywhere.
I had to have two wallsliterally like broken Because

(02:41):
there was damage.
So then you had to take intoeffect the dust, the plaster and
just everything else.
Right, but the one thing that Iwould not do is become
frustrated.
I didn't get angry, I didn'tget upset, I just I just sat in

(03:11):
gratitude and thankfulnessbecause, again, the work needed
to be done and I knew havingthat posture of gratitude and
thankfulness would really makethe transition and everything

(03:31):
that was happening in theapartment go smoother.
And they kept my spirit intact.
Right, because when you areaggravated in, in, in, in, in,
in Pidstall and all of thoseother negative emotions, it

(03:52):
really disrupts your spirit, andI didn't want my spirit
disrupted Right Now.
I'm a huge Christmas girl.
This was a big deal growing upin my home when we were younger,
and so we carry on thattradition now as adults.

(04:14):
But because everything wasgoing on in the apartment and
with the delays, we couldn'tdecorate, we couldn't decorate,
we couldn't put up the trees, wecouldn't replace our mat with
our Christmas mat, we couldn'tput up the lights.
And again, what would or shouldhave aggravated me and pissed

(04:43):
me off and make me annoyed?
I wasn't, because again, Ichose gratitude and I chose
thankfulness.
So again, in that posture, itkept me in a very beautiful

(05:04):
space.
And I say all of that to saythis how you respond to things,
because how you respond actuallystarts in your mind first.
So if in your mind you are yourpistol, if you're aggravated,

(05:29):
you're angry, you're bitter,unforgiving, whatever, whatever
that emotion is, it plays itselfthrough your voice, it comes
out, it comes out in youractions.

(05:50):
I once had an English teacherin high school, mr Neville, god
rest his soul.
I remember very clearly hetelling our class that the way
you speak is the way you write.
That thing was so powerful tome because if you are angry and

(06:19):
upset, or your language maybethere was just a lot of cursing
or just negative things justpouring out of your mouth that
would reflect in your writing.
I take it back.

(06:41):
If those things are within you,that will reflect in how you
react to people.
That reflects in your spirit.
So we need to learn and it is alearning process of changing

(07:04):
our self concept about ourselves.
We must learn to become muchmore positive, no matter the
circumstance, no matter thesituation, because it really

(07:33):
will affect your outcome.
It will affect how you moveforward.
Now we all say that we wantthis great life and we want to
do this and we want to do thatand we want to have this and we

(07:54):
want to have that.
But until you change your selfconcept, until you change who
you are, until you change howyou think, how you feel, how you
behave, how you move forward,things will pretty much stay the

(08:18):
same for you.
Journaling is very big for mebecause when you are writing,
you can put pen to paper yourthoughts and your feelings and

(08:38):
whatever else is going on withinyour life, right, how you're
feeling.
And when you see those things,then you can begin to change
your story.
Then you can begin to write anew story about yourself and
about who you are and who youare becoming.

(09:01):
And again, this is notsomething that will happen
overnight or a snap of yourfinger, but change if you want
it, if you desire it, it willcome.
Your concept can change withinfive days.

(09:25):
Your new story can change aboutyourself within seven days.
But you have to put the effortforward.
You have to change your mindabout a lot of things.
You have to start ingestingnegativity, and the negativity

(09:50):
that I'm speaking about is thenews, social media, the gossip.
Be the just on and on Cyclemedia cycle that is 24 hours a
day, 365 days out of the year.

(10:12):
Because what you, what youbring into your spirit, it
changes you, right it, it willcause you.
If you're already, if you'realready battling with things,
and then you're ingesting thenegativity of social media, all

(10:33):
it does is amplify within youwhat's already there.
But if you want to change, youhave to change what you take in.
That means you cannot beconsuming the news all day,

(10:54):
every day.
You can't be, whether it iswatching it or reading it.
You can't do it.
The same thing with socialmedia.
If, if your social media isFull of negativity, there is

(11:17):
gossiping, there is a maligning,there is just viciousness.
You have to, you have to cutthat out.
Because if you say you wantchange but you're still
ingesting, you're still takingin those things, you're not

(11:42):
gonna change and Then you'regonna be bemoaning, saying I
don't understand why mysituation isn't changing.
But that's why because we arenot Making the effort to change
those things.
And you have to change thosethings in your life if you want

(12:11):
to have a new life.
You want to have a new storyabout yourself.
So when I say that I havechanged my posture, and I have a
posture of gratitude, I have aposture of gratefulness, I have

(12:33):
a posture of thankfulness.
That's what I mean.
I have also had to to change thethings that I was ingesting
With, whether it be the news,social media, things that I was
reading, because all thosethings play a big part in how we

(13:02):
show up.
So, for example, I used to lovethose crime shows right on the
ID channel.
You know, I just love them.
Any chance I got to watch them,I would watch them just like
binge watch and things like that.

(13:23):
But what started happening and Ididn't notice it at first was
my subconscious, and then mysubconscious Started to form
these ideologies within me,basically saying that people

(13:47):
can't be trusted, that everybodyis suspect and you, you have to
be on your guard around people,especially new people, and and
the same thing with my datingyou know, everybody, every man,

(14:08):
was a suspect, and it wasbecause of what I was watching
and, unbeknownst to me, those,those ideologies were forming in
my mind and I had to just likesnap out of it.

(14:29):
One day I Said, oh no, we can't, we can't watch this, this,
this anymore, because you haveliterally like Built a Fort Knox
around you of people, becauseyou're watching everybody, right

(14:56):
, everybody is a suspect.
Now, that's not to say that youdon't watch People.
That's not to say that youdon't taking your surroundings,
and that is not to say that Ifyou get that feeling in your gut
or, for me, the Holy Spirit andthose warning bells are going

(15:21):
off, then you get out of dodge.
I'm not talking about that.
I'm talking about, again, thethings that we Ingest, we the
things that we take in, and so Ihad to stop watching things
like that.

(15:41):
And so then I had to curate mywatching, things that I was
watching, things that made mehappy, things that brought me
joy, things that made me laugh.
The same thing with socialmedia, things that made me happy
, things that bring me joy.

(16:01):
The same thing with reading.
The very same thing, thingsthat make me happy, things that
bring me joy.
And so the curation was key.
The curation was the beginning.
The second thing was getting amindset coach who really helped

(16:26):
me to begin to change my mindset, begin to change my story about
myself, begin helping me changemy self concept about myself.
And so that's where thejournaling came in, and that's
what I mean when your thoughts,if you get them on paper, you

(16:49):
can see live and in living colorwhat it is that you are
thinking about yourself.
Because once you begin tochange that, then it becomes
more, you become more aware, youbecome more self aware, and and

(17:17):
so then you'll know how to stopthe spiraling, this meaning you
know how to stop your thoughtsfrom just traveling off into the
atmosphere of negativity and ofthe things that you have within

(17:39):
you.
So that was really big.
So during that, that time when Icouldn't record, I had to still
have joy.
I couldn't get pissed off, Icouldn't get aggravated.

(18:01):
I was using and this is aperfect example.
So I was using my podcast.
When I first started, I wasusing Audacity and Audacity
worked well.
It worked really, really well.

(18:22):
But then I don't know whathappened.
I would record and and then itwould just start getting wonky.
It would make my recordingssound super fast, like I was
running, like I was the flash orsomething, and then I would
delete it and start all over andthe same thing would be

(18:45):
happening, and then the thecontrols would be jumping and in
and fizzling in and out, andthen I was on Google trying to
find like a solution, becausethat's what I was using, that's

(19:06):
that's what I had, and I and Iwas just like, well, this is all
I have.
But then I remember, no, no,sis, that's not all you have.
You have another program, adobeEdition, which I never use.
But because I was so set ontrying to keep using Audacity

(19:30):
that I was getting frustratedbecause it just was not working.
And so then, instead of thegratitude and the thankfulness,
I was becoming pissed off.
And then I started thinkingagain catch your, catch your
thoughts.
Well, maybe I shouldn't bedoing podcasting, maybe this

(19:51):
isn't for me, maybe this was amistake and caught those
spiraling thoughts before theycan go any further, and said,
okay, this is what we're goingto do.
We are going to learn AdobeAudition and that's the program

(20:13):
that we're going to use goingforward.
Because it makes no sense thatI'm struggling trying to get
Audacity to work and it's notworking.
And you know what?
Sometimes you have to pivot,and who knows, maybe it was God
telling me no, I don't want youto use Audacity anymore.

(20:36):
I want you to move over toAdobe Audition, and you're going
to learn how to use it, andthen that's what you're going to
be using going forward torecord your podcast.
And so that's what I did.
I learned how to do how to useAdobe Audition and this is which

(20:57):
is what I'm using to recordright now, and this is what I'm
going to be using moving forward, and that's it.
And now, instead of me beingagitated and having these
thoughts spiral that, oh, maybethis isn't for me, you know, now

(21:18):
I'm just like no, this is foryou.
You are doing what you'resupposed to be doing.
You are doing what you weredoing, what you're called to do,
and that's how we're moving.
So more in 2024, for not onlyfor myself, but for each and

(21:41):
every one of you that islistening, listening to me we're
moving forward.
If we want, if we want greatthings to happen and to come
into our lives, our wholethought process has to change.

(22:01):
If we, if we are looking for,if we are claiming abundance, if
we are claiming blessings, ifwe are claiming, you know,
promotions, if we are claimingthat we are going to rise to the

(22:22):
top, we have to change ourthoughts.
That starts first.
Changing your thoughts startsfirst.
That's what we have to do,first and foremost.
Start journaling.
If you don't want to write,start making voice recordings on

(22:45):
your phone, both smartphones,android and Apple.
They have a video recorder.
You can start just recordingAgain.
That's that.
So you have the journaling, youhave the voice recording.
Create your social media.

(23:08):
Start watching videos or readingposts that are positive and
uplifting and that are ablessing to you.
Again, things that you'rewatching on TV.
Curate your viewing experience.
Start watching things that makeyou happy, bring you joy.

(23:33):
You will start to see thechange within you and then you
will start.
You will begin to repel thosethings that once had you feeling
negative, those things thatonce had you spiraling.

(23:55):
Change and curate your viewingexperience and your reading
experience.
That's another thing.
What are you reading If you'renot reading?
Things that are uplifting andpositive?
Change your reading experience.

(24:16):
Ask people about books that areuplifting, books that are a
blessing.
Hop on Goodreads.
There are plenty of people thatare on Goodreads and they
suggest great books, and so youcould start there.

(24:39):
You know, also, if there'sthings that you want to do this
year, start making strides to doit and perfect.
Don't strive for that, don'tstrive for perfection, just

(25:03):
start.
I delayed starting a podcast Ifyou've heard the first few
episodes, how I just didn'tthink that I had what it took to
even do a podcast.
Who would want to listen to me?

(25:24):
Who would want to justsubscribe or follow me?
And I had to.
Again those spiral of thoughts.
I had to put that aside.
Then, in recording a podcast,sometimes you would hear noise.
You would hear cars going by,because I have a great big

(25:46):
window that faces the front ofmy bedroom and so you would hear
the cars.
So I got this bright idea Atleast I thought I thought it was
a bright idea oh, I'll recordlate in the night, I'll record

(26:06):
around 12, one o'clock in themorning.
That did not work because thosecars were still going by and
it's a pretty quiet street, butyou would have the motor cars
going by and making all of thisnoise and then I would stop and
then I would start to record andthen I was just wasting time.
Wasting time because I'm tryingto be perfect and I was just

(26:32):
like no.
So what I did do was Irearranged my desk and pushed it
away from the window up againstthe wall and then you can hear
it makes the outside noise lessprominent.

(26:57):
So I was just like figure itout.
You got to pivot, you got tomake changes, you got to just
move and do what needs to bedone.
Think and then do, and that'sit.
And that's what I did.

(27:19):
I rearranged, changed and movedforward.
And that's what I'm calling youto do Rearrange, change, move
forward, rearrange, change, moveforward.
That's the call.
That's the call More in 2024.

(27:41):
That's what we're doing.
And, on that note, thank you forreceiving me back.
It's great to be back, it'sgreat to be amongst the
community, and I look forward tomore recordings.

(28:03):
I look forward to more peopletuning in, I look forward to
just building this podcast andwelcoming more melanin unicorns,
because that's what we are,that's who we are.

(28:23):
And on that note, I'm going toend right here and I want to
wish again everyone an abundant,blessed and amazing new year.

(28:44):
This is going to be your year.
This is going to be your year,this is going to be my year when
we take off into thestratosphere of greatness and I
look forward to you sharing yourstories with me, just how

(29:06):
amazing you're doing, and I lookforward to sharing my story, my
stories, with you on howamazing I'm doing.
So, on that note, I will bidyou adieu and I will see you on
the next episode.
Have a great day, wherever youare, be safe, and remember you

(29:35):
are loved, you are kind, you areamazing, you are an uplifter,
you are beautiful and you areloving, and you are safe.
Have a great one, everyone.
I'll speak with you soon.
Bye.
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