The Narcissism Decoder

Do you ever catch yourself withdrawing, lashing out, or dismissing someone you love when they don’t meet your expectations—and then wonder if it means you’re selfish, manipulative, or even “narcissistic”? In this episode we go beneath the surface of those labels to explore the unconscious patterns that drive these destructive behaviors. 

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Does your partner ever humiliate you in a way that makes you wonder—do they actually enjoy my pain?
Have you caught yourself lashing out, withdrawing, or dismissing someone you love… and then regretting it later?
Is the cruelty you feel in these moments really about sadism—or could something deeper be going on beneath the surface?

In this episode we dive into one of the most painful questions people ask: Why does the narci...

Warning- this is a deep dive into unconscious processes  

Why do you keep repeating the same destructive patterns, even when you finally have something good—a loving partner, a promotion at work, or even just care and attention? In this episode, we explore the hidden forces that make receiving goodness feel threatening, from envy and shame to the fear of humiliation. Using real-life examples, we uncover why people unconsciously push...

In this episode, we uncover how covert narcissistic parents quietly take over their children’s choices through guilt, victimhood, and subtle emotional control. You’ll learn how these hidden dynamics can unconsciously follow you into adult relationships, shape your inner voice, and most importantly what it takes to start reclaiming your independence.

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In this episode, we uncover how covert narcissism can quietly hijack your choices. What happens when a parent’s tears, guilt, or subtle manipulations make independence feel like betrayal? Through a powerful clinical example, we reveal the hidden inner logic that keeps adult children bound to their parent’s needs—and why separating isn’t just about moving out, but breaking free on an inner level.

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In this episode, we take a deep dive into the psychic world of narcissistic emptiness — why everyday tasks can feel overwhelming, how withdrawal serves as a protective defense, and why shutting down can feel safer than engaging. Tune in to discover how small moments of engagement can be fostered to help shift a life overshadowed by withdrawal toward meaningful connection and authentic presence 

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In this episode we dive into one of the most hidden struggles of healing from narcissism: why success doesn’t always feel like success. What if every new achievement, every step forward, only brings dread instead of relief? Together, we explore the deeper truth behind this paradox—the way grandiose fantasies once acted as armor against unbearable shame, fear of exposure, and early wounds of not being “enough.” Through a powerful cl...

In Part 2 of this conversation, we move from identifying narcissistic traits in a boss to navigating the complex relationship without losing yourself. Merry Brown raises the question so many people are afraid to ask: How do I get my narcissistic boss to meet expectations without abandoning my own boundaries and sanity? We explore the importance of mental differentiation and I unpack how narcissistic leaders often draw others into s...

Is My Partner a Narcissist? When You’re Blamed, Erased, or Treated Like the Enemy

 In this special 100th episode, we’re pulling back the curtain on  a  moment from one of my new Office Hours sessions — a space where listeners bring real-life stories of complex, often painful relationship dynamics. You’ll hear a raw example from someone questioning whether their spouse is narcissistic, and I’ll walk you through my psychodynamic take:...

 In this episode, we crack open a subtle but deeply toxic dynamic many professionals encounter: the narcissistic boss or coworker who deflects blame, rewrites reality, and leaves you questioning your own judgment.

I sit down with Merry Brown to explore what happens when someone has too little inner conflict but causes constant conflict with others. We explore how pathological denial operates in narcissistic personalities—what it pro...

We’re about to hit two huge milestones — Season 3 is just weeks away, and our 100th episode celebration is right around the corner! But before we launch into brand-new topics, fresh formats, and deeper dives into narcissism, I’m bringing back the most talked-about episode of the year. Healing Narcissism: If You Want to See Change — Start Here has sparked more downloads, shares, and “aha” moments than any other, and for good reason....

In this episode, Renee and I peel back the curtain on the intense emotional battle between shame and guilt. You’ll hear about how to feel guilt without collapsing into self-hatred. Using Frank’s story, we reveal the delicate work of helping someone hold onto guilt without spiraling into destructive shame. Learn why this subtle skill is the key to true healing and emotional integration.

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Is your apology really an apology—or just a way to ease your own shame? In this episode, Renee Swanson and I dive into the hidden emotions behind guilt, rage, and “false apologies” that keep us stuck. Discover why saying sorry isn’t always enough—and what it takes to break free from shame’s trap.

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Guilt is supposed to help us repair—but what happens when it turns into self-punishment? In this clip, Renee and I explore how guilt gets distorted, how it hides behind over-apologizing, withdrawal, or perfectionism—and how it can quietly undermine connection instead of restoring it.

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What if the reason you shut down, disappear, or attack yourself… isn’t weakness, but shame? In this clip with Renee Swanson, we uncover how shame hides behind perfectionism, silence, and even grandiosity—and why naming it is the first step to healing.

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In this episode, we look at the painful moment so many of us know too well: when you understand why you get angry, defensive, or shut down—and yet, you still do it. We examine this problem through the lens of one man’s story about a frustrating moment that spirals into rage and self-loathing. But understanding this isn’t the most important thing. We tackle the real question: what actually helps when knowing yourself isn’t enough? I...

Why do small letdowns—like a late reply or a minor change of plans—sometimes feel like a gut punch? This episode unpacks how everyday disappointments can stir up deep feelings of shame, rooted in early relational wounds. It’s not about the delay itself—it’s about what it awakens in you. If you've ever felt "too sensitive" or overreactive in relationships, this might be the real reason why.

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Why do toxic relationships feel impossible to leave? In this episode, Dr. Nae and I explore trauma bonds—how narcissistic abuse uses love bombing, control, and betrayal to trap partners. We reveal why hope for change keeps the cycle alive and what true healing looks like: creating a safe space for empowerment and growth. If toxic love has you stuck, this episode offers real insight and hope. 

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