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Ye.
Yeah.
It's your host Ray.
MoonShadow welcome to my show.
Where we laugh.
So go buy some real shit andfind a ways to get better.
On today's episode.
We talking about avoidance.
Avoiding the things you need todo to be better.
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This is episode 52.
A void.
Well, we speak in aboutavoidance.
Today's quoted a day.
Is a short one.
I was, it took me a while tofind one.
And then I was like, you knowwhat?
This is the one.
You can't find peace, bow voidin life.
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Bob Virginia Wolf.
Now.
Short.
But sort of point, and that'show I'm trying to make this
episode.
just got out of work.
So, you know what I'm saying?
Still at my polo.
You know, no.
Yeah.
Took a lot of cause.
For like forever, but I gotthrough it.
Right.
Because I showed up like episode51.
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I feel like this season is madpersonal.
Cause like I'm trying to thinkof my master plan.
And I'm trying to.
You know, find the right recipeso I can cook this filet.
Minjan.
I have this life that I can.
Wake up and have steak isshrimp.
You're saying, cause I'm wakingup at 12, but.
Yeah, my kids.
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Won't allow that.
So maybe when they're teenagersa week can wake up at 12
together, you know, And a goodboat to that.
Oh man, shout out the rain RIAA.
When I got home, they wassleeping.
So.
and get the chill with them asmuch, but they know that he
loves him.
Uh, back to the quota today.
I don't know.
I feel like.
The reason I made this episode.
Cause I don't be that present,like easy that I'm in the
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future.
I'm in the past.
I still haven't got out of that.
And.
I don't know.
I feel, I feel different.
I don't even feel like myself.
And it's been like that forawhile.
Like.
I'm just.
In other seasons, especiallyseason one.
I'm I knew who the fuck I wastwo.
I was arrived.
Three.
For hours on some new shit, butthis one.
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I feel loss.
You know what I'm saying?
Like, But, but the good thingis.
I'm trying to find my way.
It's not like I'm lost and I'mlike, fuck it.
You.
I'm just going to wait to.
Where does somebody pick me up?
You know what I'm saying?
Um, I'm digging in the trenches.
You know what I mean?
I'm trying.
Yeah, because life will pass youby a man.
Like I'm about to be 37 at theend of this month.
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And it's a lot of shit.
I didn't do.
When I had the time to do it.
And, you know, they always sayyou got time.
You know, don't let Gary V hearyou say that shit.
He'd be like, You get towhatever you want.
That was a horrible Gary Vimpression.
But, um, that's the thing thoughwith the age is the too young or
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too old, but.
Hey works for him.
But yeah, your life will pass.
You borrow man.
There's so many things.
That this world.
As Mr.
Buzzy.
As it can be.
It's a lot of shit you can do.
A lot of places you can travel.
A lot of people you can meet.
A lot of experiences you canhave.
Fucking concerts.
Fucking villas.
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Theme park six flags.
You name it.
We got it.
There's somewhere in the worldthat got it.
Uh, and if we don't got it, thenyou need the question.
What you looking for?
Because you was wiling.
Now, if you dig.
Yeah.
Like, if you can.
Find somewhere in this world.
So.
Yeah, one of the dive in deeperto the episode, we had to wrap
up the quote of the day.
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You really want to live life,you gotta live it.
It's the only way you can avoid.
Being who you really are.
Doing what you really want todo.
Cause you got to like questionlike yo if.
Can you really bring out yourbest stuff?
Hayden what you do.
Not happy with life.
You know what I'm saying?
From experience.
I can understand how life can.
Cause sometimes life.
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It's like that, that, thatrelief pitching the aid as
nasty.
Like just be throwing them curveballs.
And.
You know, sometimes you can hearone out the park, but sometimes
that shit just gonna just gocatch you.
Uh, the good thing is though,you know, As long as you can
adapt.
As long as you can move forward.
It's like, it's the only way,like, I remind myself all the
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time.
Like.
There's no one to talk tothere's no therapist.
there's only wrong You know,therapists and all and talking
to people where but Likeinitially you got to make the
step you got to make the moveYou know what i'm saying
everybody done Drop the causeYou going to fold the you go you
know what i'm saying are yougoing to I.
I.
got no Polk.
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i don't know shit about pogo butyou know what i'm saying you
feel that you you feel theanalogy right like you're going
to fall you go I'll Be likeplaque out four kings which
popping.
I was saying, Which I don't evenknow if that's a good call but i
should see see what i'm saying Iavoid it.
Not that i really did itpurposely avoided it but Like i
could have been learned pokeryou know It's something fun to
do You know what i'm saying takemy friend's money But I did have
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a friend back in the day Shoutout.
You know recipes to take Once hepassed i didn't want to gamble
like him passing over gambling Ididn't want to do it.
i was like 14, so i never playedcielo but the keyboard of bug
though I ain't never learned howto play it.
You know what i'm saying i justknow had crack had crack You
know what I'm saying?
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And i see my brother Be my boynino i think it was nino i don't
know He had a couple of friendsmy brother was young You know
what i'm saying Getting.
if I haven't made my point bythis, foreign in the episode
then.
Yeah, fucked up.
But when I, when I talk aboutavoidance, it's just like,
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you're aware that you have to dosomething and you continue.
To do the opposite.
Right.
Or.
Like you like you literallygoing to just wait for the
doctor to tell you that you needto work out.
Cause it's getting critical.
You know, are you going to waitto some type of cancer to stop
smoking or going to wait untilyou lose a job?
Because drugs.
You know what I mean?
Like.
Why not.
Why not like hook your life up.
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Stop, you know, stop avoidingshit.
And.
Make it, how you want it.
And I know it's easier said thandone.
Of course it takes a lot of hardwork, but.
Uh, give you keep avoiding it.
The hard work it's.
It's going to be harder.
No pun intended.
Well, yeah, Harward.
You can't avoid that.
Cause.
I mean, I get the whole worksmarter, not harder, but until
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you figure that out, you got abus show ass and then with
experience, I think that's wherethat smarter comes in.
Hey, if you do it from jumpstreet.
More power to you, but.
You got to build it.
Like you build everything else,like the way you are, the thing
that you know, how to do withouteven thinking about it is
because you then did it so much.
That's why repetition is soimportant.
When it comes to.
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avoided.
Like I understand why, like,There's a lot of reasons why.
We have always said, right.
Is.
Fear of rejection.
That shit is real.
Like.
You don't want to be told?
No, you don't want to tow that.
No, we don't want you.
And.
You put it off.
And keep avoiding it.
Which I'll have to use that wordfor the rest of the tape,
whereas the episode.
That's what the life rewardthat's that's who?
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Life rewards the bowl.
You know what I'm saying?
Um, lack of confidence.
Perfectionism I'll make you notdo what you gotta do to.
Uh, for like the worst one.
Cause you feel like.
You gotta be perfect.
And there's no such thing.
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If I could think back.
Whenever I just do shit withoutwaiting for a time to do it.
That's when I that's.
That's when I get it done.
When I'm like, nah, I gotta, Igotta, they gotta be on the
Tuesday at five o'clock.
And it, and they kind of becloudy out.
Oh man.
Yo.
You know, you know what I'mtalking about?
Like you just be putting shitoff when you should be putting
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on for your city on, on for yourcity.
When you voice it, there'sthere's that word again?
Uh, there are consequences.
Uh, go miss some opportunitiesthat you might not get again.
like M said, you got to loseyourself in the moment.
And then, you know what I'msaying?
That this thing that you don'tdo that.
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Is.
It will be as beneficial foryour life.
Like your life will benefit fromthis.
Like you going to be, but like,you're not going to stress the
things you stress.
Oh, you're not going to be happywith what you're not happy with
because.
You stepping into your light,you taking care of what needs to
be taken care of.
You're now waiting for somebodyto tell you.
That's the thing, man.
I feel like.
Sometimes we like waiting forsome type of sign, like.
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I'm telling you right now, Jesuscould come back.
And tell you what you need todo.
And you still going to wake uplate on Sunday, talking about
Jesus.
Yo my bad.
I woke up late, like.
You know what I'm saying?
They got to take more than itgot to take.
uh, no excuse attitude, like,like, like nothing.
I don't give a fuck if there's atornado.
I'm getting the work done underthe table.
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You know what I'm.
I'm saying like, This is theonly way.
And I'm speaking.
Because I've tried the other wayand that shit don't work at all.
It just, it seems like.
Uh, cycle of.
Disappointment.
But did this.
The truth is appointment.
Is that.
You knew you could have wentanother route you knew you could
have did it differently.
And, you know, you could havegot a different result.
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If you didn't pull certainthings off.
Well, speaking of that.
Yeah.
So.
You got to build thatresilience.
You know what I'm saying?
Like, Like the way you buildmuscle, like.
Well, I mentioned earlier.
Doing this so much that itbecomes part of you.
Now imagine.
And I use that word lightlybecause imagine could be, it
could become real, but imagine.
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The things you fought felt wereimpossible.
On now possible.
cause you showed yourself.
Uh, weigh in because of course.
What I noticed too, like thebest deals, any type, any type
of best situation always camefrom.
Like a spontaneous moment orlike, Something.
I had to do a lot of work in orsomething.
You know what I mean?
Like.
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Or something, not an expect togo that way, but I just went
anyway.
I remember one time, I don'twant to go show an apartment.
I was trying to get my boyJared, to do it.
And he say, yo, he, at the lastminute, he was like, you know
what, just go do it.
And I did that shit and I rentedthe apartment.
So.
If I never would have went, Inever would've known that I was
trying to avoid the, theappointments.
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I gotta go home.
Avoidance can be like, Somethingthat'll stop your growth.
You know what I mean?
Like imagine if the gardenerdidn't use water.
For those plants.
They didn't use the propersunlight, then take the proper
care.
Got that.
That'd be, uh, uh, That'd be afuck dusty ass guardian.
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So it's, you know, same, sametype of thing.
You know, nurture it, take careof it.
No.
And watch the beauty arise.
From the dirt.
You see that you see I'll puttogether that analogy.
Personally man, like.
There's things that I've avoidedfor like, Certain things I could
say that now, like 10 plusyears, sometimes.
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And.
Once you put something away,put, put something to the side.
For so long.
Like where you.
What do you think is going tohappen to make you want to say,
yo, you know what.
I'm a do it.
After 10 fucking years ofputting it to the side.
I'm not facing it.
I'm a do it.
And that's the thing, man, like,It's not easy.
Of course it's not easy.
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If it was easy, everybody woulddo it.
Like we.
You want to be entrepreneurs?
We've got the mindset ofemployees we think an hourly.
You know, and as people charging20,000, the full picture for,
for a website, you know what I'msaying?
Like, We're going on the crashso they can charge.
For the experience and time theyput into that craft.
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And I feel like this is likeanother episode.
Like I remember one time I did aprocrastination episode.
It's like the same thing,procrastinate and avoiding.
All in the same family.
But you never going to be.
The best at anything.
You never going to even giveyourself the chance to see who
you can really be.
From the deepest part, likepause.
You never, can you never goingto see who you really are?
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How can you really see who youreally are?
If you always play a safe.
you got to think about back inthe day, right?
even though they S you know,they set sail and started
fucking shit up, but think aboutit.
They didn't know a world pastthat land.
To them, the whole world wastheir land.
And it took somebody that waslike, yo, you know what.
I think there's more land on theother side of the water.
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Right.
Like.
I imagine they would have playeda safe.
We would have all, we would haveall stayed in one spot.
And I don't think the populationwould have been what it is
today.
Because we got to spread thefuck out.
Uh, soon, they're going to tryto send us to, to, to space.
Space sex.
Elan Musk.
Ah, man, look, and look.
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speaking of that, I just did avoiceover.
I love voiceovers.
I wish I could do that.
Well, as my regular, Well, I getmy income from.
or gave me wrong.
like my job is cool.
You know, it's not too much.
Labor's talking on the phone.
You know, saying the same thingon the podcast.
I can say different things.
I can bring up certain things Ican say, fuck, I can say bitch.
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I can't see down on the phone.
They were like certainsomethings at all.
My, my television.
I'm going to work.
I can't be like, yo whoa.
Sorry, I can't do shit about it.
Nah, I do like helping people.
So it is cool.
Well, yeah, this thing's out.
Then I need to get better,better at there that like I've
been putting to the side, can'tlet your past.
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You can't let.
Situations that didn't go right?
The turn you from, like.
Taking that chance again.
I know you heard stories wherelike, It took the thousands of
time.
800 time.
Not everybody.
Bill gates, even though go,everybody hate them right now,
but not, it's not like he showedhis plans that our first person,
they took him.
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It.
I think it was like about 300people.
Is that what you, man, sometimesit's putting in that work,
getting them numbers in.
out of Warren buffet, 500stocks, three, like five is the
one that makes them all atbreads.
So.
Uh, imagine that.
Uh, I was a great song back inthe day.
Well, I think I made my point.
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I don't think there's too muchto get into when it comes to.
Aye.
Avoiding like people can tellyou.
Stop taking your time.
Stop bullshitting.
You can see.
Uh, motivational speaker screamat you.
I'll say a I'm fucking tired ofdreaming.
I'm that?
Outside of dreaming, I'm tiredof hoping.
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I'm tired of imagining.
I'm tired of whole, like, all Isee was going to happen now I'm
ready to make shit happen.
Like.
And maybe I'm filling it rightnow because I'm in my bag right
now.
I'm in my podcast.
I'm talking my shit.
Eh, but.
You know, my kids.
I got two kids that arereflection of me, whatever.
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It's like, whatever I do.
I can't expect them not to doso.
I got to do.
Well, I need, I need to do whatneeds to be.
Right.
And that's why I got the show.
Sometimes I want to end theshow.
Because I don't know where to gowith it.
I don't know what to do anymorewhen it comes to it.
I don't know what to change,what the keep.
And.
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But science telling me.
Just keep going.
And eventually.
I'll find my way.
And so will you.
Everybody.
Got they gift, man.
Everybody got the purpose.
You got to find out what wasyours?
I want to think about a purpose,like, damn, what of your
purposes?
Like.
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To make burgers.
Like what of that was, that wasthat.
The stab you got.
But this is how you got to do myday.
You don't gotta make burgersfrom McDonald's.
What if.
You had your own Hamburg alive.
You know what I'm saying?
Wooo burgers.
Get the Muno Mac.
Get the big double.
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You know what I'm saying?
But I think like, Cause, uh, um,I saw John wick, right.
And they said, good luck.
A good dev camp comes after agood life.
And if you did.
If you lived your life.
Facing your fears.
Doing what you wanted.
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You know, while giving back andshowing love, but you know what
I mean?
Like you.
Take command of your life.
You don't let you didn't getstuck in the matrix.
When that time comes.
Yeah.
You'll be ready to go.
You know what I mean?
It is coming for all of us.
So let's not act like.
Like we going to get more.
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I mean, even though, you know,We don't know what happens in
the afterlife.
We could come back, but we'renot going to come back who you
are right now.
And that's a fact.
Once you lead his body.
If you go to heaven, you go toanother one, wherever you go.
You won't be this person again.
So why not just live it up?
People going to talk about youand then they gonna forget about
you.
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Unless you did sign the epic andyou can't do some epic being,
keeping it safe and not doingwhat the fuck you got to do and
not.
Sora for new Heights, gotta belike the Wright brothers.
They was like, Naive line.
It was like, oops.
Um, I meet you at JFK dope.
And that's horrible.
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But yeah, let's get into thatfinal same everybody to get into
that final sailors goat.
Trying to avoid the inevitablewe'll put experiences you can
potentially have at risk.
Life is short.
You should be spending it.
Being the best shoe you couldpossibly be.
Are you truly happy with theperson that you see in the
mirror?
If not, then it's time forreflection.
Stop avoiding things that needyour utmost attention.
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With your health.
Don't wait for the doctor, tellyou on the spot.
With your finances.
There's no reward unless youtake chances.
And instead of being mad aboutyour past, when I use it to your
advantage.
You could use it as a vantagepoint.
So, this is the part of yourmovie with an action begins.
You're the star.
That's your face on the cover ofthe billboard?
And as real shit.
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Oh man.
Um, I'll be you get what I wastrying to.
Get to you on this episode,just, just go do it.
Stop putting the Jim Wolf.
Start working at that job.
Get another job.
But start that career.
Opened up that bank account.
Get your license.
Stop being scared of drive.
And use that drive.
So prove yourself, right.
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'cause, you know, you could doit.
It's just.
Tom's that you didn't do it.
You remember the old, but youdon't remember the time that you
did do it and keep that in mind.
But if you've been rocking withme since the beginning, or this
is your first time, I doappreciate you.
I hope when you stop playing.
Life can be beautiful.
Thanks again for listening.
But until next time, peace.
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Love.
Ah,