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Yeah.
Is your host.
Raimundo welcome to my show,where we laugh.
Talk that shit.
And try to learn something to bebetter for the next day or the
next hour.
The next second, regardless, wejust trying to improve.
Uh, if we could do it togetheras a nation, that'll be great.
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But right now we stone withpeople that follow my show.
Ain't that many right now, but.
Uh, see it, Rome started withone building and look at them
now.
So as long as you don't stop.
Stacking up them bricks.
No drug dealer.
Shouldn't tender.
You be good.
But this is episode 55.
Who are you?
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And sometimes.
That comes to Tom in our lives,but we have to question who the
fuck we are.
Because of the decisions youmake.
And the things we deal with andthe people we wanted that we
deal with.
And the situations we findourselves in.
Sometimes who you are.
And who you think you are, isnot the same person.
So.
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I asked you.
Who are you?
But yeah, before we get intothat episode, let's get into the
quota today.
Found the good one.
to be yourself in the world.
That's constantly trying to makeyou something else is the
greatest accomplishment by RalphWaldo Emerson.
The world is always judging you.
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Commercials are telling you thatyou're not good enough.
Or you're not strong enough oryou're not skinny enough.
Um, our peers.
So as we all program, themajority of us are programmed
the same.
They do the same thing.
They'll judge you someone to saythat your shirt is ugly.
Right.
But they disrespect the mother,right.
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Or someone to make a commentabout.
Anything about you, right?
And they got some fucked up shitin their life.
Now that's not saying that noone can say nothing about you,
but, but how you say it.
Like you're better than someoneor.
You don't make mistakes.
To be calling out everybodyelse's mistakes.
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Even if you let's say you aperfect, who are you to tell
anybody about them?
And that's why this episode cameabout because.
I feel like.
Like everyone knows how I am.
Right.
And even people that meet me,new things, they know who I am.
So, obviously I'm not.
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Doing a good job of translatingwho I really am.
And that's why, because Ihaven't.
Got into that deep.
Uh, You know, when you, when youhave that good sense of self,
right?
Like you know who you are, youknow what you won't do, you know
what you won't accept?
And you know, what you won'tdeal with, but when you're.
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Getting pulled by so manydifferent directions and those
directions count on the decisionthat you got to make for
yourself.
That's when there's a problem.
And that's when I noticed.
Um, You can't hear what youdon't reveal.
And that's how I feel like.
You know, this weekend, I wentto New York and I was basing
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decisions.
On other people like.
I w I wanted the other people tosolve the problem for me,
because I didn't want to faceit.
And at the moment, I didn'tthink about it like that, but it
hit me when I got home.
I'm like, yo, why do I need.
Oh approval, or I need to knowthat for sure.
I'm doing the right thing.
Uh, one of my, one of mybrothers shout out the gene was
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like, yo.
Your word.
Means a lot to you.
So if you do something againstyour word is going to sit wrong
with you.
And.
You're not going to be happywith yourself.
And that's when I had the.
The realization of thinking,like how many times have I made
a decision?
Just trying to make sure I makethe right one.
And basing them on otherpeople's decisions.
And we all do that, but it gotme to the point like, yo Ray,
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who are you?
Who's Raimundo who's Ray.
Like what, what the fuck isgoing on?
And.
There's been times in my life.
I haven't been proud to be me.
And there's been times.
Which has been my best timeswhere I didn't give a fuck.
When nobody said, like, I wasliving.
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I was being me.
I've made the decision that Iwanted to make.
And.
That's the thing you got to livein doubt, which, uh, which of
the decisions cause.
You can blame other people, allyou want.
It's still on you.
I don't give a fuck.
It was like, I'll say like, youknow what I'm saying?
Like thunder fucked up yourcrib.
it's up to you to fix your crib.
God's not going to be like, oh,let me, let me get my insurance
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people over there.
Good.
My lightning bolt hit.
This season is kind of personaland working on my master plan
and this things that need to bein.
In place.
In order to make that plan.
Flourish, and it's not going tobe a perfect plan.
I'm going to have to change it.
You might have to change it.
the best thing we could do is betrue to ourselves.
I make decisions.
Yeah, we could get insight.
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But solely make the decisionthat's going to make you happy.
And even if it doesn't make youhappy and you ended up making
the wrong one.
Not you can't blame anybody, butyourself.
And I'm be honest is it's alwayseasy to blame yourself.
no, it's easy to blame otherpeople.
It's harder to blame yourselfThat resurrect that.
Realization that it was you.
Like it wasn't Tommy wasn'tEric.
It was here.
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Kimberly or Stephanie, it wasyou nigga.
It was fucking you like, youmade that decision.
And I feel like the best thingto do is to make the decisions
in live with demand and.
try and error this bitch outuntil you figure it out.
But.
If you're doing stuff based onbeing liked.
I just saw the ninja turtles.
Right.
I liked what they did with themovie.
They want to.
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I like how they based the movie,like spoiler alert, you haven't
seen it.
But not so crazy.
It's just, they want it to beaccepted.
So they felt like if they foughtcrime and they.
You know, Save the city that theworld would accept them.
And I just, I looked at that andI'm like, wow, we live in a
world that we just want.
We.
I just wouldn't be accepted,which is fine.
Cause.
Back in the day.
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You being accepted into thegroup.
Depending on your life.
Because I don't know.
There was too many people thatsurvived not being part of a
village.
It's like being dolo whenthere's an, there was animals
out there.
There was tribes, there was.
So you being part of a group.
You had an ag, right?
And if you didn't act right, youwas out that group to fend for
yourself.
You know, shit is rooted in us.
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But you have to end the quote.
Being yourself in the world.
That's trying to change you.
It's a beautiful thing.
So regardless of you don't havea lot of friends have a lot of
people don't like you, if you'retrue to you, fuck those people
in the ones that are there.
Love you for that is.
I noticed I meet people, thepeople I meet, the people that
tell her how it is, the peoplethat keep it up.
Buck that's the people Igravitate to the most because I
don't need that fake.
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Tell me what I want to hear so Icould feel better.
Like, yeah, I get the pressure.
I get anxiety, but I don't neednobody to bait me.
Be like, keep it straight.
The fuck.
A buck.
That's another thing, man.
Like I feel, I don't know, man,letting go of what, when you let
go of what people think or howyou look or whatever, and you
just being, you.
It changes the whole dynamic,like.
You have right now, I just wentoutside.
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I'm singing.
I ain't too proud about it, butI was, I was singing some
chocolate factory.
Say hi, Kelly.
Man was a musical genius.
I know he was a.
Uh, He's a criminal.
Like on the age, girls.
Um, he fucked up with that one.
But.
And I'm not, I'm not defendingthem.
I'm just saying.
There was, you know, next storyyou, he got molested, supposedly
when he was younger.
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Those things exposing kids tosex at an early age is.
Put some on a.
Fuck the blind to be.
Miserable.
Or they will live differentlyfor those who have it.
How many.
Women and men.
You notice they're not writingin the mind and then come to
find out.
Something happened in theirchildhood.
If I saw him pointing in theworld that don't give oh, in a
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world that don't give a fuckabout kids or this child
trafficking or this.
Wow.
Shit.
It's made me definitely acceptthe world.
Don't give a fuck about kids.
So we got to go best.
To empower our kids make theirstrong.
do the best we can to protectthem.
From this.
Big world.
That's out to get them.
Whether you conspiracy, there isa not.
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Look at the numbers.
a whole bunch of kids aremissing.
But let you call out a Jewishperson out.
They name they'll stopeverything, but they won't stop
everything for kids, but that'sa whole nother subject.
And I ain't got no problem withJews, people.
I got to bond with nobody.
Honestly, I was the kid that wasupset.
That racism was real.
Like I was one of those naive.
Oh, that's not real.
That's just, people don't wantto accept.
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No, that shit is real.
I'm getting treated differentlybecause of my race.
I hear it.
On these phone calls.
on customer service, that shitis still alive.
It's.
It's built inside of thecriminal justice system.
It's like, it's in it.
Like.
So you could be.
Someone of a different origin.
And because it's in the system,you act out.
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I'll have the system.
Has trained, useless.
You see.
Black cops, Spanish cops.
all types of cops doing dumbshit and it's because they
trained to do dumb shit.
Like.
I'm pretty sure they like, yoyou see one somebody DACA.
Uh, they're guilty.
They probably want to admitthat.
But, you know what I'm saying?
And then the stereotypes in.
your patterns, your background.
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Where you from automaticallymakes you guilty, but that's
just.
I got mentioned in my lastepisode, not like we came into
this world and it changed it.
Should've been like that.
We just became more aware andrealized that shit is wrong.
And we live in old Roy thattalks about resources and all
this extra, extra shit.
And all they do is.
Fuck up the earth.
The earth is fucked up.
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And the people taking care ofthe earth.
That's fucked up.
That's saying you fucked up.
They fucked up too.
Right.
Like, that's crazy.
What, all that said having senseof self.
And being proud of who you areproud of, what you have, what
you don't have, what you'restrong now, what you're weak at.
That's the most important thing,because somebody is always going
to have something to say.
Right.
Like there's people that aremiserable, that I'd rather focus
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on your life.
There's people that just like totalk about other people.
Well there's people that justfucking toxic.
And you can't let something thatthey say effect.
How you go about things causeyou don't want to look that way
or you don't want to.
Be looked at like that.
The Hudl.
Fuck, man.
Yeah.
You know what I noticed?
Can I read that, that shitright?
Kanye did that shit.
Uh, bill Clinton does some shit,everybody.
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This is the shit that comes apoint when nobody gives a fuck.
There comes a point where nobodyeven remembers.
So I feel like you should takethe chance being you get
embarrassed.
Get.
Whatever happens happens.
Cause they, nobody gonnaremember.
But staying true to you.
If you don't check people.
They're going to do it again.
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And at least if you get to thepoint where you got to put
hands, or you.
You know, you check them, checkthem, at least you give them
that warning conversation.
You, I used to always do that.
Like.
I even do that to this day.
Honestly, if I see that I canget to the point that I could
smack the shit out at you orlose my job or just get locked
up.
I'm just going to throw theconversation at you.
Like, yo, you keep talking to melike this, you keep doing that.
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let's see, what's going tohappen.
I don't like making threats.
I love just, if I feel it, I'mgonna do it.
And I always been the type to beworried about consequences.
Like.
Never wanted to get locked up.
I never wanted to kill anybody.
I never wanted to do no wildshit, but.
Like rolling up.
I could just remember, like, Itwas all about pleasing my dad.
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And then if my dad wasn'taround.
Uh, when she lived in Florida.
So when he wasn't around, Iwould try to gravitate to other
men that, um, I looked up to andI'll be just proven, proven.
And then I, I got older and I'mstill trying to prove shit to my
dad.
That's crazy.
I mean, I want to tell my kidsand my father would even tell me
you don't have to prove none tome.
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So my dad just wants me to behappy with life.
He wants me to just be able totake care of myself.
And not worry about me, whichwho don't want that.
I have kids, I wouldn't be ableto raise these kids, have them
take care of themselves so Icould chill and enjoy life and
not worry about them.
As far as like.
They're not fit to handle thisworld.
Like I want them to be able tohandle this world.
And you know what, babying them.
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I can baby them right now, manybabies, but once they get a
little older.
I got to give them a little bitof tough love.
Cause I don't, I don't want themto come out like, like me.
Yeah, my sense of self is allover the place.
Like I said, I realized thatsome of my decisions, some of
my, the things I do, I blessthem on.
Approval of other people in.
I've gotten in and out of that.
But I, it does stem from mychildhood.
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So whenever I.
Quote, unquote, get rid of it.
It always comes back because Ihaven't.
Got through those points becauseI'll tell you exactly what
happens to me.
When I want to do something.
And so on gives you the warning,right?
When you go, right.
I went and I thought I did whatI wanted to do, and then it
didn't work out.
So now I look at them.
To be like that.
You will.
Right.
So now then the next time I'm,I'm going to take, they were
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over my own.
But what I did think about isthat, you know what I followed
through with my word, it didn'twork out and I got a child
another way.
Because what could happen now,the next time you follow their
word, and this is the time thatyou should be listening to
yours.
You see what I'm saying?
So.
It varies.
Yo shit.
She does wild man being awareof.
What makes you uncomfortable?
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What makes you feel empowered?
What makes you.
Yeah, this is what makes you,you, who are you?
If you don't tell anybodynothing.
And no one knew about your lifeand there wasn't no social
media.
Would you still do the thingsthat you do?
Would you still try to loseweight?
Will you still buy all thoseclothes?
Would you buy all that jewelry?
Honestly, ask yourself thatquestion.
I love getting a haircut.
I love being clean.
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I love having fresh clothes.
Like that's separate fromanything else.
Like I've not cared, looked likea bomb ass for weeks months.
And I don't like the feeling.
Waking up seeing yourselflooking.
Like you just rolled over thebed and his fucking five o'clock
in the afternoon.
You.
That's not the life you want,man.
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That's definitely not the lifeyou want.
So let's get to the nitty grittyof the episode, right?
What makes you, you.
Well, one thing I know is yourhabits.
Everyone has habits.
Everyone has taken time to buildthese habits.
Now the habits.
That.
Sir, press some type of pain.
Some type of stress.
Those are the easiest ones,because this has, you have made
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this, your antidote.
Too.
All the poison.
That you come across.
And those habits, all the wordscause.
You know, after you've done themso many times now your automatic
response is that habit.
And habit is, is what youconstantly do is what you do in.
That tells me more about youthan what you say.
Right?
You can say this.
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But I see your habits make youdo this.
That's who I think you are.
What we do the most is who weare.
Thought podcast, 24 hours a day,seven days a week.
No one can tell me on not apodcast.
If I complain.
More than a compliment.
I'm a complainer.
And what I noticed in my job.
I don't really like my job likethat.
Keep it a buck, but the less Icomplained.
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I don't have.
The image of me hating it.
As soon as I sit some sit on mydesk, right.
I go and I think about thepositives and I'm here.
I'm there to sit eight hours.
To do.
The best job that I can possiblydo.
And I can only hope that mynumbers reflected, but they
don't always, but that's okay.
Cause that's all I can do.
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Is do the best that I can do.
And that's for everybody.
As long as, you know, you didthe best.
If you know, you could have didone call better.
If you know, you could have,okay, that's fine.
But just to make sure the nextday you don't make the same
mistake of not leaving it allout there.
You know what I'm saying?
But yeah, habits.
Now this is a book called atomichabits.
They have so many different.
Ways of building these habits.
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And one thing I like that Ithink will help you.
Is combining your habit.
With something you already do,right.
So have you watched TV?
Right.
And that's not the greatesthabit.
But you need to start.
Writing or something, whatever,if you can write, watch TV.
You can start building a habitof when you watch TV that you
write.
Now, this is a big question,right?
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A lot of people smoke weed, notas people that can smoke weed
and get stuff done.
And there's people that cansmoke weed and not get nothing
done.
And it's not for everybody.
There's people that can drink.
I even know functioning goldhas.
Right, right.
And I still go to work andeverything.
And.
And on Friday.
They, you know, they do thatthing.
I mean to each his own, ifyou're, if you're happy with
your life and you do thosethings cool.
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But.
Uh, Attaching the habit thatsomething you already do is
great.
I mean, there's some that wejust gotta like.
The bowl on Friday with it just,yo, give me that chain like yo,
you know what, give me thathabit.
And.
You see, after pushing yourselfafter.
So long, the habits that.
Didn't serve you well, We'lleventually die down and their
habits that you focus on themost.
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And you see the benefits.
You should be able to embrace itand continue to do that.
Cause.
Then you have an example and youonly see yourself, give yourself
an example.
If I continue with good habits.
What happened?
Now my, for my example,whenever.
I don't want to work out a time.
I didn't want to run.
When I ran, when I worked out,when I meditated, when I did
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yoga, my, I was five was moreflexible.
You know what I'm saying?
I wasn't on some.
You know what I'm saying?
Jean-Claude van Damme, butbloodsport, you know what I'm
saying?
You can.
And he's fucking doing a splitwith.
Two chairs, bugging.
So again, the point I'm tryingto make with that, if it works.
It's going to work.
Good habits.
Uh, harder to do.
But they have way more benefits.
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Now.
The bad habits.
They're great.
For the time being.
But they'll fuck you up in thefuture.
So.
so habit is something that makesyou, you, you know, What's that
saying?
Tell me who your friends are.
And I tell you who you are.
Another thing who you hang outwith is so important, right?
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Because if you a positive Goganperson and you hang out with a
person that.
Complaints and doesn't do shit.
It's only a matter of time.
I mean, don't get me wrong.
You can reflect off them whenthey see that.
What you do works or.
You catch yourself complainingand not doing shit either.
and that's just what it is.
If.
We both.
We from the hood one still sellsdrugs at a certain age.
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The other one's shot to.
You know, live a safe.
Life.
That he can build wealth andpass it down.
Can't hang out with a drug thatI don't give a fuck about gang
court.
Cause you're not both on thesame.
Yeah.
Both not on the same path.
Y'all probably were friendssince I was kids.
like, I always say you can chillwith people that are not on the
same.
Wavelength with you is thepeople you spend the majority of
your time with.
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So back in the day.
Hung out with people that madebread.
And all we talked about is breadand all we did was make bread.
Now you talk about how you don'tgot bread and you continue.
You putting that in the centerof your universe.
So.
Try to get around people that'slike positive in.
And always a shout out the EBCman.
Yo, no matter how shitty I felt.
When I was hanging around withmy people from high school.
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There.
Respect and there.
Aberration for me, or I won'teven know if I'll use
admiration, but.
They made me feel like.
I was the best.
Version of myself.
Now.
You know, I wish I could saythat with family families,
different man family.
I always remember.
How should I wasn't or.
I remember, like I'm not the topone in the family.
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Like.
Like, for example, one of mysiblings.
And one I'm the oldest, theother one.
I'm the middle.
but you are the weakest link.
Like all my siblings for themost part, they doing, they
dang.
I'm proud of them.
They are killing it.
And you know what I'm saying?
When.
When your people donate, thenyou want to do your thing too.
You know what I'm saying?
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And like I said, in my family,I'm the one that they expect the
shift from.
Right.
Like they got to worry if I'mgood.
There's people in my life that Iworry about because they don't
got they shit together.
Like I'm like, ah, this personmight need this on night on need
that.
Cause they always in the samepattern, not lately, I've been
in the same pattern.
Of.
Talking more than I.
Execute.
So now that you know, thatflight, that reputation lingers
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on me and.
They'll all say right.
Is, we don't think like that asyou, but I know like it's not
something that I think I know,cause I know me.
I have great sense of self.
My thing is.
My sense of self is tied to.
I guess being a Dick hair,right?
Cause.
When I realized when I, before Igot into, in touch with the
power of the word, like howstrong.
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The things you say, right.
You tell yourself, you can, youcan, if you tell yourself you
can't, your mind will look forreasons to show you why you
can't write.
Before I did that, I would.
Make the excuse of why was thisshit before any of my family
said it right.
And they'll laugh.
Like I heart rate.
Why you say that, but yeah, it'sgot a true.
What I'm saying?
I don't know what it is and Ihave to worry about it.
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Cause nobody barely nobody frommy family, this is some of our
podcasts.
So ain't nobody going to belike, yo, why'd you say that
about, but that's not true.
Ain't nobody listens to itanyway.
But yeah.
Who you hang out with yourbehaviors, right?
How you carry yourself.
You want to carry yourself?
Like a person you respect.
Right because there's people yourespect that you admire the way
they carry yourself, but how doyou carry yourself?
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Do you see how you really feel?
Do you do what you really wantto do?
Do you, involve in the behaviorsand actions of the person that
you really are, or.
Inspire to be.
When I was in therapy, one timewe did something called
behavioral therapy where.
My therapist would tell me ifyou didn't have.
Well, everyone knows.
Yeah, no.
No, I've got OCD, right?
If you didn't have OCD, whatwould you do?
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And I will be like, oh, I woulddo that.
And then I, and then I startedliving my life every time I
didn't want to do something.
I'm all right.
If I didn't feel like it wasbecause of this, what would I
do?
And I'll do it.
And your limits say someday.
We're recording as fuck.
you know, it was crazy, man.
Sometimes you can give yourselfthe best advice.
Like when I think about the.
Advice.
I give others.
And even the vice I give myselfthat I don't say out loud.
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It's pretty fucking good.
As in there, man.
It just.
I got to do more, to increasethat respect for myself.
You know what I mean?
Which is episode 54, checkingout if you have it's called
respect.
your behaviors, your more rules.
You're Coles, man.
And when I think about cold, Ithink about Brian.
But my brother, Brian.
You got certain Coles that hedon't fuck around with, but once
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it's cold, Is attached to money.
Chico forget about it.
He's going to be a billionaire.
my younger brother reminds me,like of me, like a motherfucker.
Like it's crazy.
Like.
They'll see him, I guess.
Seeing him.
Seeing myself.
It's how people see me.
They see this greatness.
But they waiting for me to stopplaying.
Now brothers young enough tochange that.
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I'm still young enough to changethat if I live to 90, right.
I'm 37.
I lived at all, which I just, Ijust had a birthday two weeks
ago.
I ain't even mentioned it in thelast episode.
Cause.
37.
That shit echoes echoes echoes37 7 7.
But your morals, the things youbelieve in.
Your dislikes in your likes.
You know, your strength, yourweaknesses.
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All these things play a majorrole.
Like.
It's just.
You're not just who you thinkyou are and that's the, so
there's a Drake line when hegoes, um, He said something
about like, like it's dope when.
You are who you think you are.
Think about that you are, whoyou think you are, who you think
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you are is who loft.
Fuck you are.
And it could be no, there'snothing.
Nobody can say that nobody coulddo.
That can change that.
Right.
Especially.
I mean, even if you have to usethat as a defense, whatever.
Oh, I.
All right.
You're telling me.
That I do this too much, butlook, you do this too much.
So who the fuck?
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Chit worry about what the fuckyou do?
Don't worry about me.
Don't let those people thatalways got a dependent of, you
got something to say about howyou do shit affect how you do
shit.
Because they not going to do itfor you.
It's easy to talk when you'renot in that situation.
Right.
So.
You know, it's cool to school toget help.
It's good to, good to givefeedback, but don't let somebody
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judge me or somebody saying someshit about you.
Read the rest.
What you going to do?
You know what I'm saying?
I be the type, right?
I'm not the best driver.
I've had a trauma with that.
I'm a driving.
It was my sister.
My ex at the time.
And her cousin.
And the whole roll, the wholeride.
They like.
(24:23):
Well, let your sister drive myyo 20 pharmacists 18 at the
time.
Right.
When I tell you that I'm 25,that was 25.
I was 37 to this day, to thisday.
I still don't like driving withcertain people in the call, but
you know what.
Because I made it my business tocare about what people think of
my driving.
Now.
There's going to be a time whenI'm not going to give a fuck.
(24:44):
I need to get somewhere.
I'm going to go.
You want to get in the car?
Cool.
If not, you can take the Uberlike.
Right.
Like our Rudy stopped goingplaces or stop.
Because I'm worried about mydriving or people.
So you think about how manyplaces that are the midst of
perfect memory.
Or great memory because I'mworried about what other people
are going to say about mydriving.
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And there's levels to this shit.
This is something that youdidn't do because you worried
about somebody saying somethingyou'll fuck that.
Because everybody got some shitthat they got to deal with and
always somebody there's alwaysgoing to be somebody to say,
have some shit to say when theyshit is fucked up too.
So fuck that.
Do you.
Cause.
No one can stop you from doingyou.
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They can stop you from fuckingwith them, but they can't stop
you from doing you.
And when you do you, you respectyourself.
And you respect.
Who you are.
And who you are.
Is.
A mix of habits, behaviors,dislikes, likes morals.
The things that you believe inthe things that you don't
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believe in.
The thing that inspire you, thethings that motivate you, the
things that.
Make you feel like shit, thethings that give you anxiety,
the things that make you feelstress.
The things that make you feelempowered.
The things that make you feelthe best.
Fuck it, man.
It's your world.
I love rain.
There's people that see rain andfucking hate their day.
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I, it, I love it.
I'd rather have the rain thanthe sunshine.
I've come to that truthfulmyself.
Now, when are you going to cometo truth about who you are?
Right.
This people that they have SP.
Um, They have all these dreams.
And they were about what peopleare going to say.
There's people that.
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You know, I mean, I feel likeyou shouldn't in this world.
If you're gay.
Trent, whatever you are, you canbe who you are.
It don't matter.
Like.
As long as you're happy withview.
As long as you're doing.
You.
And you can be proud of who youare.
But this was a great episode.
I hope it kicks in.
(26:48):
This episode was more for methan it was for you.
But it empowered the shit out ofme.
And sometimes I always talk.
I want to quit the show andlisten.
When, when my time comes, that'swhen I stopped podcasting.
So even if I take a break, evenif I, whatever I love this shit.
This is my shit.
One day.
I'm going to have.
(27:09):
Millions of people following.
Listening.
Where the people that I careabout the most.
Listen.
It won't matter.
Cause I got like that guy frommy job.
People can talk with me, talkabout me like they do about Tim
Dillon.
I'm on the way or they talkabout me like drink champs.
It's only a matter of time.
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Can I quit?
You can't stop somebody thatwon't quit.
Right.
But thank you for tuning intoday.
This was a great episode of thisis your first time listening to
you.
A regular degular.
Raimundo loves ya.
Third person can be doing that.
I fuck that.
I want to do that third person.
Yeah.
I'm saying.
I'm on my third person.
Shit.
(27:51):
So.
This all fit.
This is how I'm feeling rightnow.
This is how you should feelinside nigga.
Like you got shades on.
In the claw when you don't evenfucking need them, but you don't
give a fuck because that's yourprerogative word.
The Bobby Brown.
Ah, so next time.
Peace, love window.
Uh,
Yeah.
Is your host.
Raimundo welcome to my show,where we laugh.
Talk that shit.
And try to learn something to bebetter for the next day or the
next hour.
The next second, regardless, wejust trying to improve.
Uh, if we could do it togetheras a nation, that'll be great.
(00:43):
But right now we stone withpeople that follow my show.
Ain't that many right now, but.
Uh, see it, Rome started withone building and look at them
now.
So as long as you don't stop.
Stacking up them bricks.
No drug dealer.
Shouldn't tender.
You be good.
But this is episode 55.
Who are you?
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And sometimes.
That comes to Tom in our lives,but we have to question who the
fuck we are.
Because of the decisions youmake.
And the things we deal with andthe people we wanted that we
deal with.
And the situations we findourselves in.
Sometimes who you are.
And who you think you are, isnot the same person.
So.
(01:26):
I asked you.
Who are you?
But yeah, before we get intothat episode, let's get into the
quota today.
Found the good one.
to be yourself in the world.
That's constantly trying to makeyou something else is the
greatest accomplishment by RalphWaldo Emerson.
The world is always judging you.
(01:48):
Commercials are telling you thatyou're not good enough.
Or you're not strong enough oryou're not skinny enough.
Um, our peers.
So as we all program, themajority of us are programmed
the same.
They do the same thing.
They'll judge you someone to saythat your shirt is ugly.
Right.
But they disrespect the mother,right.
(02:09):
Or someone to make a commentabout.
Anything about you, right?
And they got some fucked up shitin their life.
Now that's not saying that noone can say nothing about you,
but, but how you say it.
Like you're better than someoneor.
You don't make mistakes.
To be calling out everybodyelse's mistakes.
(02:30):
Even if you let's say you aperfect, who are you to tell
anybody about them?
And that's why this episode cameabout because.
I feel like.
Like everyone knows how I am.
Right.
And even people that meet me,new things, they know who I am.
So, obviously I'm not.
(02:50):
Doing a good job of translatingwho I really am.
And that's why, because Ihaven't.
Got into that deep.
Uh, You know, when you, when youhave that good sense of self,
right?
Like you know who you are, youknow what you won't do, you know
what you won't accept?
And you know, what you won'tdeal with, but when you're.
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Getting pulled by so manydifferent directions and those
directions count on the decisionthat you got to make for
yourself.
That's when there's a problem.
And that's when I noticed.
Um, You can't hear what youdon't reveal.
And that's how I feel like.
You know, this weekend, I wentto New York and I was basing
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decisions.
On other people like.
I w I wanted the other people tosolve the problem for me,
because I didn't want to faceit.
And at the moment, I didn'tthink about it like that, but it
hit me when I got home.
I'm like, yo, why do I need.
Oh approval, or I need to knowthat for sure.
I'm doing the right thing.
Uh, one of my, one of mybrothers shout out the gene was
(03:56):
like, yo.
Your word.
Means a lot to you.
So if you do something againstyour word is going to sit wrong
with you.
And.
You're not going to be happywith yourself.
And that's when I had the.
The realization of thinking,like how many times have I made
a decision?
Just trying to make sure I makethe right one.
And basing them on otherpeople's decisions.
And we all do that, but it gotme to the point like, yo Ray,
(04:18):
who are you?
Who's Raimundo who's Ray.
Like what, what the fuck isgoing on?
And.
There's been times in my life.
I haven't been proud to be me.
And there's been times.
Which has been my best timeswhere I didn't give a fuck.
When nobody said, like, I wasliving.
(04:39):
I was being me.
I've made the decision that Iwanted to make.
And.
That's the thing you got to livein doubt, which, uh, which of
the decisions cause.
You can blame other people, allyou want.
It's still on you.
I don't give a fuck.
It was like, I'll say like, youknow what I'm saying?
Like thunder fucked up yourcrib.
it's up to you to fix your crib.
God's not going to be like, oh,let me, let me get my insurance
(05:01):
people over there.
Good.
My lightning bolt hit.
This season is kind of personaland working on my master plan
and this things that need to bein.
In place.
In order to make that plan.
Flourish, and it's not going tobe a perfect plan.
I'm going to have to change it.
You might have to change it.
the best thing we could do is betrue to ourselves.
I make decisions.
Yeah, we could get insight.
(05:22):
But solely make the decisionthat's going to make you happy.
And even if it doesn't make youhappy and you ended up making
the wrong one.
Not you can't blame anybody, butyourself.
And I'm be honest is it's alwayseasy to blame yourself.
no, it's easy to blame otherpeople.
It's harder to blame yourselfThat resurrect that.
Realization that it was you.
Like it wasn't Tommy wasn'tEric.
It was here.
(05:43):
Kimberly or Stephanie, it wasyou nigga.
It was fucking you like, youmade that decision.
And I feel like the best thingto do is to make the decisions
in live with demand and.
try and error this bitch outuntil you figure it out.
But.
If you're doing stuff based onbeing liked.
I just saw the ninja turtles.
Right.
I liked what they did with themovie.
They want to.
(06:04):
I like how they based the movie,like spoiler alert, you haven't
seen it.
But not so crazy.
It's just, they want it to beaccepted.
So they felt like if they foughtcrime and they.
You know, Save the city that theworld would accept them.
And I just, I looked at that andI'm like, wow, we live in a
world that we just want.
We.
I just wouldn't be accepted,which is fine.
Cause.
Back in the day.
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You being accepted into thegroup.
Depending on your life.
Because I don't know.
There was too many people thatsurvived not being part of a
village.
It's like being dolo whenthere's an, there was animals
out there.
There was tribes, there was.
So you being part of a group.
You had an ag, right?
And if you didn't act right, youwas out that group to fend for
yourself.
You know, shit is rooted in us.
(06:47):
But you have to end the quote.
Being yourself in the world.
That's trying to change you.
It's a beautiful thing.
So regardless of you don't havea lot of friends have a lot of
people don't like you, if you'retrue to you, fuck those people
in the ones that are there.
Love you for that is.
I noticed I meet people, thepeople I meet, the people that
tell her how it is, the peoplethat keep it up.
Buck that's the people Igravitate to the most because I
don't need that fake.
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Tell me what I want to hear so Icould feel better.
Like, yeah, I get the pressure.
I get anxiety, but I don't neednobody to bait me.
Be like, keep it straight.
The fuck.
A buck.
That's another thing, man.
Like I feel, I don't know, man,letting go of what, when you let
go of what people think or howyou look or whatever, and you
just being, you.
It changes the whole dynamic,like.
You have right now, I just wentoutside.
(07:30):
I'm singing.
I ain't too proud about it, butI was, I was singing some
chocolate factory.
Say hi, Kelly.
Man was a musical genius.
I know he was a.
Uh, He's a criminal.
Like on the age, girls.
Um, he fucked up with that one.
But.
And I'm not, I'm not defendingthem.
I'm just saying.
There was, you know, next storyyou, he got molested, supposedly
when he was younger.
(07:50):
Those things exposing kids tosex at an early age is.
Put some on a.
Fuck the blind to be.
Miserable.
Or they will live differentlyfor those who have it.
How many.
Women and men.
You notice they're not writingin the mind and then come to
find out.
Something happened in theirchildhood.
If I saw him pointing in theworld that don't give oh, in a
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world that don't give a fuckabout kids or this child
trafficking or this.
Wow.
Shit.
It's made me definitely acceptthe world.
Don't give a fuck about kids.
So we got to go best.
To empower our kids make theirstrong.
do the best we can to protectthem.
From this.
Big world.
That's out to get them.
Whether you conspiracy, there isa not.
(08:32):
Look at the numbers.
a whole bunch of kids aremissing.
But let you call out a Jewishperson out.
They name they'll stopeverything, but they won't stop
everything for kids, but that'sa whole nother subject.
And I ain't got no problem withJews, people.
I got to bond with nobody.
Honestly, I was the kid that wasupset.
That racism was real.
Like I was one of those naive.
Oh, that's not real.
That's just, people don't wantto accept.
(08:52):
No, that shit is real.
I'm getting treated differentlybecause of my race.
I hear it.
On these phone calls.
on customer service, that shitis still alive.
It's.
It's built inside of thecriminal justice system.
It's like, it's in it.
Like.
So you could be.
Someone of a different origin.
And because it's in the system,you act out.
(09:14):
I'll have the system.
Has trained, useless.
You see.
Black cops, Spanish cops.
all types of cops doing dumbshit and it's because they
trained to do dumb shit.
Like.
I'm pretty sure they like, yoyou see one somebody DACA.
Uh, they're guilty.
They probably want to admitthat.
But, you know what I'm saying?
And then the stereotypes in.
your patterns, your background.
(09:36):
Where you from automaticallymakes you guilty, but that's
just.
I got mentioned in my lastepisode, not like we came into
this world and it changed it.
Should've been like that.
We just became more aware andrealized that shit is wrong.
And we live in old Roy thattalks about resources and all
this extra, extra shit.
And all they do is.
Fuck up the earth.
The earth is fucked up.
(09:57):
And the people taking care ofthe earth.
That's fucked up.
That's saying you fucked up.
They fucked up too.
Right.
Like, that's crazy.
What, all that said having senseof self.
And being proud of who you areproud of, what you have, what
you don't have, what you'restrong now, what you're weak at.
That's the most important thing,because somebody is always going
to have something to say.
Right.
Like there's people that aremiserable, that I'd rather focus
(10:19):
on your life.
There's people that just like totalk about other people.
Well there's people that justfucking toxic.
And you can't let something thatthey say effect.
How you go about things causeyou don't want to look that way
or you don't want to.
Be looked at like that.
The Hudl.
Fuck, man.
Yeah.
You know what I noticed?
Can I read that, that shitright?
Kanye did that shit.
Uh, bill Clinton does some shit,everybody.
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This is the shit that comes apoint when nobody gives a fuck.
There comes a point where nobodyeven remembers.
So I feel like you should takethe chance being you get
embarrassed.
Get.
Whatever happens happens.
Cause they, nobody gonnaremember.
But staying true to you.
If you don't check people.
They're going to do it again.
(11:01):
And at least if you get to thepoint where you got to put
hands, or you.
You know, you check them, checkthem, at least you give them
that warning conversation.
You, I used to always do that.
Like.
I even do that to this day.
Honestly, if I see that I canget to the point that I could
smack the shit out at you orlose my job or just get locked
up.
I'm just going to throw theconversation at you.
Like, yo, you keep talking to melike this, you keep doing that.
(11:22):
let's see, what's going tohappen.
I don't like making threats.
I love just, if I feel it, I'mgonna do it.
And I always been the type to beworried about consequences.
Like.
Never wanted to get locked up.
I never wanted to kill anybody.
I never wanted to do no wildshit, but.
Like rolling up.
I could just remember, like, Itwas all about pleasing my dad.
(11:43):
And then if my dad wasn'taround.
Uh, when she lived in Florida.
So when he wasn't around, Iwould try to gravitate to other
men that, um, I looked up to andI'll be just proven, proven.
And then I, I got older and I'mstill trying to prove shit to my
dad.
That's crazy.
I mean, I want to tell my kidsand my father would even tell me
you don't have to prove none tome.
(12:03):
So my dad just wants me to behappy with life.
He wants me to just be able totake care of myself.
And not worry about me, whichwho don't want that.
I have kids, I wouldn't be ableto raise these kids, have them
take care of themselves so Icould chill and enjoy life and
not worry about them.
As far as like.
They're not fit to handle thisworld.
Like I want them to be able tohandle this world.
And you know what, babying them.
(12:25):
I can baby them right now, manybabies, but once they get a
little older.
I got to give them a little bitof tough love.
Cause I don't, I don't want themto come out like, like me.
Yeah, my sense of self is allover the place.
Like I said, I realized thatsome of my decisions, some of
my, the things I do, I blessthem on.
Approval of other people in.
I've gotten in and out of that.
But I, it does stem from mychildhood.
(12:46):
So whenever I.
Quote, unquote, get rid of it.
It always comes back because Ihaven't.
Got through those points becauseI'll tell you exactly what
happens to me.
When I want to do something.
And so on gives you the warning,right?
When you go, right.
I went and I thought I did whatI wanted to do, and then it
didn't work out.
So now I look at them.
To be like that.
You will.
Right.
So now then the next time I'm,I'm going to take, they were
(13:09):
over my own.
But what I did think about isthat, you know what I followed
through with my word, it didn'twork out and I got a child
another way.
Because what could happen now,the next time you follow their
word, and this is the time thatyou should be listening to
yours.
You see what I'm saying?
So.
It varies.
Yo shit.
She does wild man being awareof.
What makes you uncomfortable?
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What makes you feel empowered?
What makes you.
Yeah, this is what makes you,you, who are you?
If you don't tell anybodynothing.
And no one knew about your lifeand there wasn't no social
media.
Would you still do the thingsthat you do?
Would you still try to loseweight?
Will you still buy all thoseclothes?
Would you buy all that jewelry?
Honestly, ask yourself thatquestion.
I love getting a haircut.
I love being clean.
(13:50):
I love having fresh clothes.
Like that's separate fromanything else.
Like I've not cared, looked likea bomb ass for weeks months.
And I don't like the feeling.
Waking up seeing yourselflooking.
Like you just rolled over thebed and his fucking five o'clock
in the afternoon.
You.
That's not the life you want,man.
(14:10):
That's definitely not the lifeyou want.
So let's get to the nitty grittyof the episode, right?
What makes you, you.
Well, one thing I know is yourhabits.
Everyone has habits.
Everyone has taken time to buildthese habits.
Now the habits.
That.
Sir, press some type of pain.
Some type of stress.
Those are the easiest ones,because this has, you have made
(14:32):
this, your antidote.
Too.
All the poison.
That you come across.
And those habits, all the wordscause.
You know, after you've done themso many times now your automatic
response is that habit.
And habit is, is what youconstantly do is what you do in.
That tells me more about youthan what you say.
Right?
You can say this.
(14:53):
But I see your habits make youdo this.
That's who I think you are.
What we do the most is who weare.
Thought podcast, 24 hours a day,seven days a week.
No one can tell me on not apodcast.
If I complain.
More than a compliment.
I'm a complainer.
And what I noticed in my job.
I don't really like my job likethat.
Keep it a buck, but the less Icomplained.
(15:14):
I don't have.
The image of me hating it.
As soon as I sit some sit on mydesk, right.
I go and I think about thepositives and I'm here.
I'm there to sit eight hours.
To do.
The best job that I can possiblydo.
And I can only hope that mynumbers reflected, but they
don't always, but that's okay.
Cause that's all I can do.
(15:34):
Is do the best that I can do.
And that's for everybody.
As long as, you know, you didthe best.
If you know, you could have didone call better.
If you know, you could have,okay, that's fine.
But just to make sure the nextday you don't make the same
mistake of not leaving it allout there.
You know what I'm saying?
But yeah, habits.
Now this is a book called atomichabits.
They have so many different.
Ways of building these habits.
(15:56):
And one thing I like that Ithink will help you.
Is combining your habit.
With something you already do,right.
So have you watched TV?
Right.
And that's not the greatesthabit.
But you need to start.
Writing or something, whatever,if you can write, watch TV.
You can start building a habitof when you watch TV that you
write.
Now, this is a big question,right?
(16:16):
A lot of people smoke weed, notas people that can smoke weed
and get stuff done.
And there's people that cansmoke weed and not get nothing
done.
And it's not for everybody.
There's people that can drink.
I even know functioning goldhas.
Right, right.
And I still go to work andeverything.
And.
And on Friday.
They, you know, they do thatthing.
I mean to each his own, ifyou're, if you're happy with
your life and you do thosethings cool.
(16:36):
But.
Uh, Attaching the habit thatsomething you already do is
great.
I mean, there's some that wejust gotta like.
The bowl on Friday with it just,yo, give me that chain like yo,
you know what, give me thathabit.
And.
You see, after pushing yourselfafter.
So long, the habits that.
Didn't serve you well, We'lleventually die down and their
habits that you focus on themost.
(16:59):
And you see the benefits.
You should be able to embrace itand continue to do that.
Cause.
Then you have an example and youonly see yourself, give yourself
an example.
If I continue with good habits.
What happened?
Now my, for my example,whenever.
I don't want to work out a time.
I didn't want to run.
When I ran, when I worked out,when I meditated, when I did
(17:19):
yoga, my, I was five was moreflexible.
You know what I'm saying?
I wasn't on some.
You know what I'm saying?
Jean-Claude van Damme, butbloodsport, you know what I'm
saying?
You can.
And he's fucking doing a splitwith.
Two chairs, bugging.
So again, the point I'm tryingto make with that, if it works.
It's going to work.
Good habits.
Uh, harder to do.
But they have way more benefits.
(17:41):
Now.
The bad habits.
They're great.
For the time being.
But they'll fuck you up in thefuture.
So.
so habit is something that makesyou, you, you know, What's that
saying?
Tell me who your friends are.
And I tell you who you are.
Another thing who you hang outwith is so important, right?
(18:02):
Because if you a positive Goganperson and you hang out with a
person that.
Complaints and doesn't do shit.
It's only a matter of time.
I mean, don't get me wrong.
You can reflect off them whenthey see that.
What you do works or.
You catch yourself complainingand not doing shit either.
and that's just what it is.
If.
We both.
We from the hood one still sellsdrugs at a certain age.
(18:24):
The other one's shot to.
You know, live a safe.
Life.
That he can build wealth andpass it down.
Can't hang out with a drug thatI don't give a fuck about gang
court.
Cause you're not both on thesame.
Yeah.
Both not on the same path.
Y'all probably were friendssince I was kids.
like, I always say you can chillwith people that are not on the
same.
Wavelength with you is thepeople you spend the majority of
your time with.
(18:44):
So back in the day.
Hung out with people that madebread.
And all we talked about is breadand all we did was make bread.
Now you talk about how you don'tgot bread and you continue.
You putting that in the centerof your universe.
So.
Try to get around people that'slike positive in.
And always a shout out the EBCman.
Yo, no matter how shitty I felt.
When I was hanging around withmy people from high school.
(19:06):
There.
Respect and there.
Aberration for me, or I won'teven know if I'll use
admiration, but.
They made me feel like.
I was the best.
Version of myself.
Now.
You know, I wish I could saythat with family families,
different man family.
I always remember.
How should I wasn't or.
I remember, like I'm not the topone in the family.
(19:28):
Like.
Like, for example, one of mysiblings.
And one I'm the oldest, theother one.
I'm the middle.
but you are the weakest link.
Like all my siblings for themost part, they doing, they
dang.
I'm proud of them.
They are killing it.
And you know what I'm saying?
When.
When your people donate, thenyou want to do your thing too.
You know what I'm saying?
(19:49):
And like I said, in my family,I'm the one that they expect the
shift from.
Right.
Like they got to worry if I'mgood.
There's people in my life that Iworry about because they don't
got they shit together.
Like I'm like, ah, this personmight need this on night on need
that.
Cause they always in the samepattern, not lately, I've been
in the same pattern.
Of.
Talking more than I.
Execute.
So now that you know, thatflight, that reputation lingers
(20:10):
on me and.
They'll all say right.
Is, we don't think like that asyou, but I know like it's not
something that I think I know,cause I know me.
I have great sense of self.
My thing is.
My sense of self is tied to.
I guess being a Dick hair,right?
Cause.
When I realized when I, before Igot into, in touch with the
power of the word, like howstrong.
(20:31):
The things you say, right.
You tell yourself, you can, youcan, if you tell yourself you
can't, your mind will look forreasons to show you why you
can't write.
Before I did that, I would.
Make the excuse of why was thisshit before any of my family
said it right.
And they'll laugh.
Like I heart rate.
Why you say that, but yeah, it'sgot a true.
What I'm saying?
I don't know what it is and Ihave to worry about it.
(20:53):
Cause nobody barely nobody frommy family, this is some of our
podcasts.
So ain't nobody going to belike, yo, why'd you say that
about, but that's not true.
Ain't nobody listens to itanyway.
But yeah.
Who you hang out with yourbehaviors, right?
How you carry yourself.
You want to carry yourself?
Like a person you respect.
Right because there's people yourespect that you admire the way
they carry yourself, but how doyou carry yourself?
(21:14):
Do you see how you really feel?
Do you do what you really wantto do?
Do you, involve in the behaviorsand actions of the person that
you really are, or.
Inspire to be.
When I was in therapy, one timewe did something called
behavioral therapy where.
My therapist would tell me ifyou didn't have.
Well, everyone knows.
Yeah, no.
No, I've got OCD, right?
If you didn't have OCD, whatwould you do?
(21:35):
And I will be like, oh, I woulddo that.
And then I, and then I startedliving my life every time I
didn't want to do something.
I'm all right.
If I didn't feel like it wasbecause of this, what would I
do?
And I'll do it.
And your limits say someday.
We're recording as fuck.
you know, it was crazy, man.
Sometimes you can give yourselfthe best advice.
Like when I think about the.
Advice.
I give others.
And even the vice I give myselfthat I don't say out loud.
(21:55):
It's pretty fucking good.
As in there, man.
It just.
I got to do more, to increasethat respect for myself.
You know what I mean?
Which is episode 54, checkingout if you have it's called
respect.
your behaviors, your more rules.
You're Coles, man.
And when I think about cold, Ithink about Brian.
But my brother, Brian.
You got certain Coles that hedon't fuck around with, but once
(22:17):
it's cold, Is attached to money.
Chico forget about it.
He's going to be a billionaire.
my younger brother reminds me,like of me, like a motherfucker.
Like it's crazy.
Like.
They'll see him, I guess.
Seeing him.
Seeing myself.
It's how people see me.
They see this greatness.
But they waiting for me to stopplaying.
Now brothers young enough tochange that.
(22:39):
I'm still young enough to changethat if I live to 90, right.
I'm 37.
I lived at all, which I just, Ijust had a birthday two weeks
ago.
I ain't even mentioned it in thelast episode.
Cause.
37.
That shit echoes echoes echoes37 7 7.
But your morals, the things youbelieve in.
Your dislikes in your likes.
You know, your strength, yourweaknesses.
(23:00):
All these things play a majorrole.
Like.
It's just.
You're not just who you thinkyou are and that's the, so
there's a Drake line when hegoes, um, He said something
about like, like it's dope when.
You are who you think you are.
Think about that you are, whoyou think you are, who you think
(23:21):
you are is who loft.
Fuck you are.
And it could be no, there'snothing.
Nobody can say that nobody coulddo.
That can change that.
Right.
Especially.
I mean, even if you have to usethat as a defense, whatever.
Oh, I.
All right.
You're telling me.
That I do this too much, butlook, you do this too much.
So who the fuck?
(23:41):
Chit worry about what the fuckyou do?
Don't worry about me.
Don't let those people thatalways got a dependent of, you
got something to say about howyou do shit affect how you do
shit.
Because they not going to do itfor you.
It's easy to talk when you'renot in that situation.
Right.
So.
You know, it's cool to school toget help.
It's good to, good to givefeedback, but don't let somebody
(24:03):
judge me or somebody saying someshit about you.
Read the rest.
What you going to do?
You know what I'm saying?
I be the type, right?
I'm not the best driver.
I've had a trauma with that.
I'm a driving.
It was my sister.
My ex at the time.
And her cousin.
And the whole roll, the wholeride.
They like.
(24:23):
Well, let your sister drive myyo 20 pharmacists 18 at the
time.
Right.
When I tell you that I'm 25,that was 25.
I was 37 to this day, to thisday.
I still don't like driving withcertain people in the call, but
you know what.
Because I made it my business tocare about what people think of
my driving.
Now.
There's going to be a time whenI'm not going to give a fuck.
(24:44):
I need to get somewhere.
I'm going to go.
You want to get in the car?
Cool.
If not, you can take the Uberlike.
Right.
Like our Rudy stopped goingplaces or stop.
Because I'm worried about mydriving or people.
So you think about how manyplaces that are the midst of
perfect memory.
Or great memory because I'mworried about what other people
are going to say about mydriving.
(25:04):
And there's levels to this shit.
This is something that youdidn't do because you worried
about somebody saying somethingyou'll fuck that.
Because everybody got some shitthat they got to deal with and
always somebody there's alwaysgoing to be somebody to say,
have some shit to say when theyshit is fucked up too.
So fuck that.
Do you.
Cause.
No one can stop you from doingyou.
(25:25):
They can stop you from fuckingwith them, but they can't stop
you from doing you.
And when you do you, you respectyourself.
And you respect.
Who you are.
And who you are.
Is.
A mix of habits, behaviors,dislikes, likes morals.
The things that you believe inthe things that you don't
(25:46):
believe in.
The thing that inspire you, thethings that motivate you, the
things that.
Make you feel like shit, thethings that give you anxiety,
the things that make you feelstress.
The things that make you feelempowered.
The things that make you feelthe best.
Fuck it, man.
It's your world.
I love rain.
There's people that see rain andfucking hate their day.
(26:07):
I, it, I love it.
I'd rather have the rain thanthe sunshine.
I've come to that truthfulmyself.
Now, when are you going to cometo truth about who you are?
Right.
This people that they have SP.
Um, They have all these dreams.
And they were about what peopleare going to say.
There's people that.
(26:28):
You know, I mean, I feel likeyou shouldn't in this world.
If you're gay.
Trent, whatever you are, you canbe who you are.
It don't matter.
Like.
As long as you're happy withview.
As long as you're doing.
You.
And you can be proud of who youare.
But this was a great episode.
I hope it kicks in.
(26:48):
This episode was more for methan it was for you.
But it empowered the shit out ofme.
And sometimes I always talk.
I want to quit the show andlisten.
When, when my time comes, that'swhen I stopped podcasting.
So even if I take a break, evenif I, whatever I love this shit.
This is my shit.
One day.
I'm going to have.
(27:09):
Millions of people following.
Listening.
Where the people that I careabout the most.
Listen.
It won't matter.
Cause I got like that guy frommy job.
People can talk with me, talkabout me like they do about Tim
Dillon.
I'm on the way or they talkabout me like drink champs.
It's only a matter of time.
(27:30):
Can I quit?
You can't stop somebody thatwon't quit.
Right.
But thank you for tuning intoday.
This was a great episode of thisis your first time listening to
you.
A regular degular.
Raimundo loves ya.
Third person can be doing that.
I fuck that.
I want to do that third person.
Yeah.
I'm saying.
I'm on my third person.
Shit.
(27:51):
So.
This all fit.
This is how I'm feeling rightnow.
This is how you should feelinside nigga.
Like you got shades on.
In the claw when you don't evenfucking need them, but you don't
give a fuck because that's yourprerogative word.
The Bobby Brown.
Ah, so next time.
Peace, love window.
Uh,
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