August 7, 2025 • 40 mins
This week is a solo where I talk about authenticity, what that means, and the Aquarius Full Moon that’s coming this week.
Authenticity is a daily practice of embracing who we truly are rather than who we think we should be. We explore how meditation, body awareness, and challenging our conditioned responses can help us shed external narratives and connect with our authentic selves.
In this episode, I talk about:
- What does authenticity mean to you?
- Embracing our duality
- Your SQ in the Venus sequence and how it shows up
- Narratives from childhood
- Peeling back the layers of conditioning
- Gate 55
- Aquarius Full Moon
- Your gifts
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Welcome to the Rochelle Christiane podcast.
I'm Rochelle, your host.
I'm here to help you come backto your body, take charge of
your emotions and live life onyour terms.
This podcast is a space for raw, real conversations about what
it means to trust yourself, leanto your power and create a life
that feels aligned and alive.
We'll explore human design,astrology and other tools to
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help you understand your uniqueenergy.
More importantly, though, we'regoing to talk about what it
means to actually live andembody these aspects.
So each week, I'm going toshare stories, lessons, guidance
to help you navigate life'schallenges and really own your
magic.
So if you're ready to step up,take control and show up as the
most authentic version of you,let's begin.
Welcome back to the podcast.
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Today, I have a big topic that Iwant to talk about, and that
really is authenticity.
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What's been coming up for me alot over the last I mean for so
long, but really specificallythe last six months is just like
how to be authentic, because Ithink so many of us are chasing.
We all want to be authentic,right, but I think sometimes
it's this really curated, likeperfected version of ourselves,
and I believe authenticity isactually really messy.
It's really raw, it's reallyvulnerable and what I found to
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be true for myself.
So this podcast is gonna beabout authenticity and it's also
gonna be about the full moonand I'm gonna wrap it up in like
a pretty bow by the end of thisepisode.
What I found to be true formyself over the last, you know,
however long is that being myauthentic self is accepting
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myself in all ways.
Right, we all have duality, weall have lightness, we all have
darkness.
We all have things aboutourselves that we don't maybe
want to share on social media,right?
I think that we see people onsocial media and we see this
healing perfected.
Not everyone, of course.
There are some people who showup very raw and very vulnerable,
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but I think the majority of usare showing the side of us
that's healing and maybe not theside of us that's healing and
maybe not the side of us that'sactually really messy, and I try
to show both sides of it.
But also, I'm a six line and Ihave a Leo moon rising, and so
there is a part of me that wantsto be on the other side before
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I share things so that I canlook like the role model and I'm
air quoting that I'm also athird line, right?
So my life is trial and error.
There are a lot of messy things.
There are a lot of messy things.
There are a lot of parts ofmyself that I am facing and not
necessarily I don't want to saythat I don't like, because I've
done a lot of work around justaccepting and loving all parts
of me.
But there are still codependentparts of me, right, there are
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still selfish parts of me.
There are still parts of methat you know as a parent.
Sometimes it's like I don'twant to listen to what the kids
have to say, right, like thereare parts of me that I'm not,
that I don't like, right, I canlove all parts of me and not
like all parts of me, but Ithink that authenticity is being
with yourself and acceptingyourself in all ways, in all
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ways that show up.
And so I've been doingmeditations twice a day, so
every morning and every night,and if I can do a third one,
I'll drop it in there.
I haven't done a third one in awhile, but for sure the morning
and the evening ones.
And what I've noticed that it'sdoing is it's making me very
conscious of my thoughtsthroughout the day.
It's making me very consciousof my moods throughout the day.
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It has stabilized me in themost beautiful way.
But I notice when I'm out ofsync.
I notice when I'm in a lowvibration, low frequency thought
or quality of thought.
I notice when I'm feelingjealousy, when I'm feeling anger
, like they're not explosiveemotions anymore, they're very
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regulated because I have thetools now to just breathe and
pause and be calm in that.
But because it's created somuch awareness, I'm seeing it a
lot more right.
I'm noticing a lot more of thethoughts that happen day to day
and it's easier to reroute thoseand accept those.
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And I think the key piece is anacceptance where it's like okay.
I witnessed myself feeling this.
I don't necessarily like it,but it's also okay, right.
It's a part of the processagain, because we all have
shadow, we all have lightnessand it's in every shadow that
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there is a gift for us if we'rereally opening ourselves to do
the work.
And it's not to live in shadowwork and it's not to live in
positivity.
And I think there are so manyconfusing messages.
When you get on social media,when you're working with
different coaches, of coursewe're all teaching what's true
for us and I do believe thatpeople will be drawn to our
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truth.
As a coach, right, there are,of course, universal truths, but
it can be really confusing whenwe look around of, like, well,
we really need to be doing theshadow work, or you really need
to be in the positivity oraffirmations work, or mood
boards work, or you know, thisworks, whatever there are.
Again, I think certain thingsthat do work, like meditation
through the ages has been one ofthose things that works.
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I think moving your bodythrough the ages is one of those
things that works.
I think sleep through the agesis one of those things that
works.
So there are certain thingsthat do work.
Right, but, like coming back tothat authenticity piece, I feel
like again, like being with andaccepting the thing in the
moment, because we're alsoconstantly changing, constantly
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evolving right.
The version of you tomorrowmight be drastically different
than the version of you rightnow, because we have free will,
we have free choice.
If we're really showing up anddoing the work and choosing
something different, that willchange the course of our life,
who we are, right, and so thereare all these different ways.
So it's like, and I also thinkthat when we look back to our
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childhood, that zero to sevenyear age range and more so zero
to 21,.
The Venus sequence cyclesthrough these massive three year
cycles in our life, but that 0to 7-year age range there are
certain narratives that we tookon because in that age range we
are literally, I feel, like pureunconditional love.
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We are walking around in atheta brainwave state.
We are very innocent and ofcourse there are exceptions to
the rule.
There are some children thathave been forced to grow up
quicker than they should have orcould have.
But I do think that there is anelement of you know in that age
range when they say, like allyou need is love.
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I truly believe that's sort ofthe core need at that age range,
obviously other than like food,you know water, stuff like that
, but love is definitely upthere.
And when I think about that soevery time I do a meditation,
every time I drop in, every timeI do work on me being capable
or competent or, you know,finding my shadows, there's
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always this one specific memorythat comes up for me.
And I know my mom listens tothis sometimes so she doesn't
mind me sharing the story, butwhen we used to live in Canada.
My mom was driving from Canadato New Jersey and she got in a
car accident in the mountainsand I remember just being woken
up in the middle of the night mydad, like was, took us to the
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neighbor's house because he hadto go wherever she was to get
her, and I remember the next daythat she came home before she
had left.
You know, my parents havealways done this, where they
travel somewhere and they bringus back like a gift or something
you know that says like theplace, the very minimum right,
like the place that they went,or something like that.
So they've always like justgotten us little things wherever
they went.
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And so my mom came back.
I remember she was on the couch.
She had like a broken leg,broken ribs, like she was, you
know.
Obviously she had been in a caraccident.
It was very obvious and I thinkI was like maybe four,
something like that, and Iremember like being concerned
and scared and I asked oh, didyou bring us anything?
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Because that was just.
She said she was going to.
And I think that in my childlikeinnocent brain I was scared and
that was kind of like the thingthat I said and I remember like
getting yelled at and I and youknow, obviously in hindsight my
four-year-old brain could notunderstand what was happening.
Right, I'm sure I could feel it, but I couldn't understand it,
I couldn't intellectualize it, Icouldn't like comprehend the
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situation.
Of course, as an adult, I lookback and I'm like, wow, my mom
went through like massive trauma.
My dad was woken up in themiddle of the night and had to
drive and get her.
He was probably exhausted,concerned, like doctor's bills,
like there's so much that goesalong with that in the adult
world.
But my four-year-old selfdidn't understand that.
And I just remember like askingthat and getting yelled at, and
I don't remember if they said Iwas selfish, but something along
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those lines.
But I remember sitting outsideon the like sidewalk, just like
crying and thinking like what ahorrible person I was, right, I
was so selfish, how could I haveasked that?
And I think that that'ssomething I've carried on
throughout my life, where it'slike when I speak my truth or I
speak my voice or I speak up,there's this internal thing in
me that's like but you're wrong,like why would you think that
that's bad, that's selfish,right?
And it's something I've reallyhad to rewire to be like no,
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like my voice, like is actuallyreally beautiful, right, like my
thoughts and the way I operateis actually really beautiful.
And if we're doing the blamegame on astrology, I'm air
quoting, it's just a joke.
But if we're doing the likeastrology thing, you know my sun
, my midheaven and my mercuryare in Taurus, right, and so in
the 10th house, so public facing, there's just so much of me
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that is in the material worldand so those things are
important to me.
And, of course, like, we canlook at it as selfish, but
that's just the narrative I'vetaken on.
So I say all this to say that Ithink that sometimes there are
certain narratives, certainbeliefs that we hold about
ourselves that were put there bysomeone else Well-intentioned,
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right, like some people are notwell-intentioned.
But generally, when we'relooking at our childhood, from
zero to seven years, our parentsare doing the best that they
can with what they have, and Idon't think any parent makes a
comment thinking, oh, I hopethat I fuck my kid up when
they're an adult.
Like, of course, not right.
There are things that I'm sureI've said to my kids that
they're going to be 25, 30 andrealize like, wow, I didn't
realize.
That comment stuck with me andthat's why I've been this way my
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entire life, and so how I'mbringing this into the
authenticity piece is that Ithink that honoring being
authentic.
It can be confusing to know,like, who we are sometimes
because we're layered withconditioning.
But I think the authenticitypiece comes in when I say
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something and I get that feelingof like, oh, did I say
something wrong?
Did I do something wrong?
Am I going to be looked at asselfish for thinking this Like,
oh my gosh, I just shared athought.
Being with that and owning thatis being authentic, right, this
morning we were late to school,so school started yesterday.
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I'm recording this.
On Tuesday School startedyesterday for my kids Super
early, I know, but schoolstarted yesterday and the
drop-off line is insane.
Like my kids were like 15minutes late both days, through
no fault of our own, granted, ifwe had been there at seven when
the line started, we probablywould have been further along in
the line and maybe theywouldn't have been late.
But that's a whole thing foranother story.
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But I told my kids we have toleave the house by 6.50 this
morning.
They're getting ready, I'mgetting ready and I forgot my
son's lunch, because last yearhe got lunches at school and I
just haven't set it up yet.
And so he's packing lunchesthis week.
And so at 6.50 and I see himget the pan out and I'm like,
what are you doing?
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We have to go.
And he's like I need my lunch.
And I was like, oh shit.
So then I'm scrambling to makehim his lunch.
He wanted a grilled cheese.
So we're doing that, we'repacking snacks, we're doing all
the things.
We didn't leave the house tillseven o'clock, which was fine.
Again, we were.
We got there on a normal schoolday and so we're on the way to
school.
And I was like, and we get inthe line, and I was like, oh man
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, you guys are going to be solate again.
And my son was like, well,whose fault was it?
And I was like, why don't weall take responsibility for our
own parts in it, right, notproject and not blame and not
point the finger?
Like I take responsibility forthe fact that I did not pack you
lunch, and that is on me.
Why don't you takeresponsibility for the fact that
you waited till the last minuteto get dressed?
Because you were in your roomhiding and watching the iPad,
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right, and my daughter was justlike in her room waiting for us
to shout her name because shegets up at five o'clock in the
morning and just gets readybecause she does makeup and
everything like that.
So I was like why don't we justlike all take responsibility
for a part of this?
He was like, okay, so it's likebeing authentic.
I think in that moment where itwould have been easy for me to
be like, well, you forgot aboutyour lunch, right, and we're
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doing the Venus sequence insideyour sacred, unraveling
membership space and your SQ isyour spiritual quotient, which
is this space of, like,unconditional love.
Right, when you layer your genekeys profile on the body, the
SQ is at the heart, right?
So this is literally the heartof the gene keys and it's about
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unconditional love.
It's innocence, it's that zeroto seven year age range.
There technically is no shadowassociated with it because it is
pure innocence.
But for me, that gate is gate55.
Gene key 55 is my SQ, myspiritual quotient.
It's such a beautiful gate andI am understanding the magnitude
and significance of it in mylife.
But it's always fun to likerevisit these things.
But so the shadow and typicallythe shadow of whatever gate you
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hold in the, in the sphere ofyour sq.
That shadow was placed there bysomeone else and it's not to be
victiming about it, it's not tobe projecting about it, but
because it is that zero to sevenyear age range, the shadow of
that gate typically shows upthrough conditioning, through
the narrative of someone else.
And so gate 55 shadow isvictimization, and the gift and
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city are in freedom.
And so it's like, again, thisidea of authenticity and I'm
going to wrap this into the fullmoon shortly but this idea of
authenticity, it's like whatwe're all seeking.
Authenticity and authenticityis actually holds a higher
frequency than love.
I think it's like 40 timeshigher than love.
So when you're being authentic,like it is felt right and again
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, authenticity is not a polished, perfect, curated version of
you, it's all of you in all waysright.
And so when I think about theshadow of victimization, I see
that like I will be honest, Isee that a lot in my life, right
, even in abusive relationships.
I didn't own my part in it, Iaccepted bad behavior, I chose
to be in that, I chose, you know, like I had no self-worth, and
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I'm not saying I chose to beabused or I chose to be
mistreated Like I don't wish onanyone I think you know that's a
whole other conversation but Ichose to not see the red flags.
I didn't have self-worth enoughto believe that I could be
treated better, right and so,but in those moments I very much
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played the victim.
Well, you're doing this to me,it's your fault, you this, you
that I'm the victim, I'm thesurvivor, I'm this, I'm all
these things right.
Like I remember going throughtherapy and they kept saying
that like you're the survivorand something about that didn't
sit right.
And I completely understand,you know, in certain situations,
like you are a survivor andthat's a very strong thing to
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have, but there was somethingabout it to me that didn't feel
aligned to like my experience orlike what I was going through
or like the mindset that Iwanted to take on, I guess, if
that makes sense, but it wasvery for me.
You know, now doing this workand now understanding this
victim, victimization shadow andwhat that means, I can see how
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I always played that in justprojecting of like someone else,
like well, you're doing this oryou would, you're doing that,
it's like I'm not perfect, right, and so it's like almost, when
you're in that victim mindset,it's kind of like.
It's almost like you'reprojecting like a like you're
perfect, you're right andeverything is everybody else's
fault.
And I always say that to my son, cause he's the, he's the, he's
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, he's big on projecting, andthat's what I always say.
I'm like, just takeresponsibility.
Like it's fine.
No, nobody's gonna get madRight, and if they do, that's on
more on them than you.
But I say all that to say that,like owning that, in the example
of us going to the car thismorning, I could have been like
well, you forgot to pack yourlunch, or you forgot to remind
me, or you decided to makegrilled cheese that took too
long, or you did this, or youleft it for me to like whatever.
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It would have been so easy thatvictimization, it would have
been so easy to do that.
But like no, let's just takeresponsibility.
And so, again, going back tothe authenticity piece, it's
like having awareness in themoments of when my instinct, my
go-to, my pattern, myconditioning is to fall into
that, but being able to pausefor a second and be like no, I'm
going to choose something else.
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I'm aware that that's thenarrative that wants to come out
.
I'm aware that that's thepattern that wants to come out,
but I'm going to choosesomething different.
And how this really like allwraps up into the full moon is
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because our full moon is inAquarius on Saturday, and I love
Aquarius.
It's an air sign, it's a fixedair sign, but I really feel like
you know, aquarius holds thearchetype of the rebel.
It wants freedom, it'sinnovation, it's technology,
it's the collective, and Ireally think Aquarius is
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rebellious because it's an actof rebellion to be authentic in
a world that does not value it.
And so this full moon is goingto be really potent in asking
and calling for authenticity.
I was talking about it onsocial media and somebody
commented was like oh well, it'sthe year of the snake, we're
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all shedding.
And I was like, well, I forgotabout that, but it's true, right
, we're in the year of the snake.
This is all about shedding.
And it's funny because, like, Idon't remember what last year
was, but last year felt like acoming home to my softening into
myself, if that makes sense.
I felt more feminine.
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I kind of released themasculine energy a little bit.
I felt more myself in my body.
I stopped going to the gym sointensely.
Actually, I kind of just, I wasexhausted for half the year.
I was managing a restaurant andI was working late but then
still having to get up and getthe kids to school in the
morning.
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My mental health really, reallysuffered last year because I
wasn't getting enough sleep andI was always tired and um.
But at the same time I feltlike a softening into myself and
acceptance of myself and, uh, aclearer vision of, like, what I
valued and what I wanted withmy life.
And this year definitelydefinitely feels like a shedding
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, like a massive shedding.
It's crazy, but it is likecoming to this piece of
authenticity.
Right, brene Brown saysauthenticity, and I'm rating
this because I don't want to getit wrong.
Authenticity is the dailypractice of letting go of who we
think we're supposed to be andembracing who we are right and
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embracing who we are right.
Authenticity is not fixed.
Right, it's fluid.
We're constantly changing.
Think about the moon and ouremotions.
Right, it's honoring who youare.
And I will add on to that what Ifeel like my lesson lately too
has been, is like noticingthrough these daily meditations
that I've been doing rightthrough tuning into my body,
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I've always been very body aware, like hyper aware of my body,
but like really noticing when,like, let's say, when those
patterns come up or whensomebody wants to do something
and I actually don't want to,really noticing in my body that
the resistance and the ease.
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And there was a practice in Ibelieve it was the heart mass
solution book that I'm reading,and it's literally just a check
at the end of the day.
And I highly recommend this ifyou're still trying to tune into
your body, just to check at theend of the day what was energy
giving and what took energy fromyou.
Because when you really startto tune into your body, right,
like let me read this quoteagain Authenticity is the daily
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practice of letting go of who wethink we're supposed to be and
embracing who we are.
So again, there's so manypatterns and narratives that
we've taken on that we think weare that person and you will
know when it is a conditionedresponse, when it is a pattern,
when it is an outdated narrative.
Because if you really tune intoyour body, your body will tell
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you right, it's all energy, it'sall frequency.
Our body holds the answers, ourbody holds the score.
Our emotions when we thinkthey're random, our emotions are
spirit speaking through us.
Now I think that we need toregulate our emotions right.
If they're getting completelyout of hand, that's one thing.
If they're ruling your life andyou can't function because
you're just like overly in yourmind and in your emotions, and
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that's also something that weneed to pay attention to and
work on.
And you know, over the last Iguess, like month, right, that
I've been like really like doingthese daily meditations twice a
day.
That has been the most amazingthing for me is just having
these practices that regulate meand I just feel so calm and
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able to.
In moments where I feel likethere's one person in my life
that I often get reallyemotional around, right, or when
they say things, I really takeit personally.
You know, energetics it'swhatever, it is what it is.
And I noticed the last timethis person said something, I
noticed myself taking itpersonally and I was like, okay,
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I have no idea if that's whatthey meant by that, right, like
I noticed myself telling myselfthe story about what that
comment meant, right, and then Ijust had to remember like the
four agreements is something Itell myself all the time Assume
nothing, take nothing personally, do your best.
And oh my gosh, what is thelast one?
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Assume nothing, take nothingpersonally.
Do your own.
Be impeccable with your words.
And so it's because I'm hookedon to a specific narrative that
I have no idea if that isactually their narrative.
They actually said somethingincredibly kind and I felt
rejected, like because I hadthis looping story that well, if
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you, if you, if you cared andif you wanted to show up for me
the way I want you to show upfor me, you would have said this
and instead you said that.
So it feels like you'rerejecting what I.
So it's just like I noticedthat happening and I had to like
giggle about it and I justbreathe into my heart and I let
it go.
I was like that's just silly,like this person's actually
being incredibly kind right now,can I?
I just take the compliment Likewhy do I have to make it this
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whole big story about them notwanting me or rejecting a part
of me or like whatever?
So it is unhooking from thesein in that moment, me honoring
that I was triggered, mehonoring that feeling and then
like working through it.
That to me, felt authentic andI felt like so much better after
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that in that situation, right?
So it's like noticing the partsof you that are the conditioned
responses, the patterns, thepieces that aren't yours, right?
Who you think you're supposedto be like is this.
This is why Venus has beendoing so much lately,
specifically last week, right?
But Venus is going to beconjunct, jupiter in Cancer on
the 12th and this is a hugeopportunity to be doing this
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work Because, like, reallygetting clear on your values,
like is this yours or is thissomeone else's?
And that's so much of what,like, these transits are going
to be like.
The full moon is happening againon Saturday, the 9th, at 2 55
am, central standard time inaquarius.
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The sun is in leo.
Mercury is in leo.
Mercury is opposite pluto, sothis is like mercury is
retrograde in leo, asking us tobe our most most authentic,
creative, expressive self.
Gemini, or sorry, uranus, isearly stages, like one, like,
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literally, the amount of planetsright now.
Let me pull it up, I had thispulled up on my phone the amount
of planets that are at earlydegrees of their sign right now
Pluto two degrees.
Saturn, neptune one degree ofAries.
We have Uranus one degree ofGemries.
We have uranus one degree ofgemini.
We have mercury four degrees ofleo, we have mars, one degree
of libra.
Like it's crazy, these earlydegrees are like beginning
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phases, initiatory phases.
There's so much energy rightnow like I just feel like
timeline like shattering.
There's so much opportunity.
Right now it's like who?
Who are you really?
Let go like get so clear and inyour body about the bullshit
that's not actually yours.
Who are you right?
Who are you expected to be?
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Are you behaving because youthink that's who you're supposed
to be right?
Like I said something earlierabout like not being not feeling
successful, but it's like whosestandard of success am I
comparing myself to?
Right?
Like I zero doubt in my mindI'm going to get where I want to
be.
I've done the work, I've put inthe time.
I continue to show up like I'mdoing.
I'm air quitting, I'm doing allthe things, and so I have no
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doubt that, because I'm sopassionate about it, I continue
to show up for it.
Like I have no doubt I'm goingto be successful in my version
of that.
For it, like I have no doubtI'm going to be successful in my
version of that.
But in the grand scheme of life, when, if I want to be the
victim right and like break itdown to like the actual facts.
I'm air quoting all of this.
If you're not watching onYouTube, you're just listening
to it.
Like no, I'm not successfulaccording to someone else's
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standard of success.
And, of course, there are partsof my life that I don't feel
successful in right now.
Like I'm not going to sit hereand be like I'm perfect and my
life is so successful.
No, like there are so manythings that I still want to
accomplish.
But the thing like I was aboutto slap my hands but I was like
that would be really loud.
Obviously I'm getting heatedabout this.
But the thing it's like can Ibe okay with being me, with
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being who I am and what stage Iam in my life in my current
circumstances?
That would be so easy sometimesto play the victim and to be
woe is me and just like feellike shit about it.
Like the last month that I'vebeen meditating I'm going to
keep saying it that I've beenlike actually implementing twice
a day these meditations likehas changed my internal world.
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To be like, okay, I don't needto sit here and shame myself for
not being this yet.
Like I'm actually okay withmyself, right, and like, again
noticing when I have moments ofbitterness and jealousy and
resentment and like whatever,and being able to like, breathe
in and like, just loosen it up alittle bit and like, okay,
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that's me being authentic rightnow, right, like that might be
somebody else's narrative, butI'm creating awareness around it
, right.
And so, with all of thishappening especially, there's a
grand trine between Uranus, marsand Pluto, like we're changing
the way that we're thinking.
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Pluto is like, again, uranus inGemini is going to radically
change the way that we perceive,because your thoughts, your
perception is your reality,right?
So it's like Uranus is going toradically change the way that
we perceive things and it'sgoing to radically change our
realities, whatever that meansfor you.
Trines are supportive.
But this grand trine, right,pluto and Aquarius this is like
again, authenticity, right,freedom, innovation.
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Like we can only be thesethings and bring these things
out to the world when we'retruly being authentic.
And that means like.
And that means like not caringwhat other people think or say,
like we have to cut out thenoise if we want to like put it
out there.
But the thing with Pluto isPluto is a slow moving planet
and so what it does is anythingthat's not meant to be.
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So if we're looking forauthenticity, any piece of you
that's not authentic, justslowly, over the course of Pluto
being an Aquarius, it's goingto make it more and more
uncomfortable that you can'tignore it, right.
And Mars and Libra.
Like Mars doesn't like to be inLibra, mars rules Aries, so
it's this fiery.
You know, mars is like ourimmature expression I always
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think about, like the toddlerkind of just like pulling a fit,
saying what it wants.
It doesn't get its way and it'slike blah.
Libra is so focused onrelationships, right, and so I
think there's, you know, beautyand shadow in everything.
So I think the beautiful thingabout this is it might make us
feel a little bit morepassionate about our
relationships, maybe morefocused on doing the work in our
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relationships, but of course,we might also find us being more
passive, aggressive in ourrelationships, maybe feeling
stagnant in our relationships.
So this is all supporting us inlike these areas to like anchor
in and just be like, okay,what's not working, where do I
need to realign my values?
Like what, what's shift ishappening in my mind?
Like how am I changing the wayI'm perceiving things?
Like what parts of me aren'tworking?
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Like, just like really sheddingand releasing that, and I think
that's just such an importantpiece to like all of this right
Again.
Like Pluto and Aquarius, I feellike, too, there is this also
piece of like again, becauseAquarius represents the
collective as well, likeindividual versus the collective
.
So it's like, again going backto that piece of like, is this
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mine, is this my standard, isthis who I am, or is this
something I've outsourced?
Or is this something that'sbeen expected of me, right?
Uranus and Gemini is disruptingthe way that we think, right,
are you going to let yourselfevolve with it or are we going
to like contract into, likethese little beliefs, right?
And then again that Mars andLibra.
It's like actions, boundariesAre they aligned?
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And, of course, libra is alwaysfocused on relationships, right
?
Neptune and Saturn delusion,dreams, boundaries, structure
all in Aries Like.
This is such a powerful time inthe astrology, and so it's like
get curious, right, like whenthese things come up for you,
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when these, if you startnoticing, like if you start
doing the journaling at night,the what's giving you energy,
what's taking away energy, ifyou just start noticing in every
day when something feelsrestrictive or not good, instead
of jumping to shame or to blameor to guilt, like, those might
naturally be the first thingsthat come up.
But like, maybe stop and getcurious, right, get curious
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about where it's coming fromagain, being in your body,
allowing your body to speakright, like, what does the yes
feel like?
What does the no feel like?
What does something fear-basedfeel like?
What does something love basedfeel like?
What is self-sabotaging Like?
I notice that all the time.
When I'm self-sabotaging now andI know it's self-sabotaging
because it feels so familiar,it's like it's uncomfortable but
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it feels like home, if thatmakes sense.
Where it's like, okay, well,it's just easy to avoid, you
know, because like and then Ican make 10 000 excuses right,
where it's actually like, facingthe fear and stepping through
it and richard rudd talks aboutwith the sq in the in the venus
sequence, it's like chasing yourbliss, he says, isn't what we
think that it is or what itsounds like.
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Chasing your bliss is actuallygoing through the suffering to
transmute that, to come out onthe other side in joy, in bliss.
Chasing your bliss means goingthrough the fear and discomfort
because the thing on the otherside of that is actually the
thing that you want.
There's always a shadow held insomething we really want.
There's always a narrative orsome reason why we shouldn't or
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couldn't or can't, or we're notcapable or whatever it is.
But, like you know, when thatthing is that like that you
really want to do.
And I was listening to a podcastand they were talking about
like their greatest gifts andlike how they knew to like
cultivate it and like how youstep into that energy.
And there's two pieces of thisthat I want to say.
I think that oftentimes ourgifts are so natural to us that
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we don't see them as gifts.
Like, if you think about humandesign and think about your
defined centers, we really don'tlike focus on that that often
because it's so innate within us, right, like for me, I have a
defined throat and there's somuch in my charts and my
astrology and everything thathas to do with like my voice and
speaking and being authentic inthat way.
And also that is what I've heldthe biggest shadow around my
entire life.
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When I said something, I feltlike I was wrong, I said the
wrong thing, I didn't say enoughthings, I was too quiet, I was
too this, I was too that, but italways rooted down to my throat
.
I remember being in I was.
I remember being in an abusiverelationship and like the
inability to speak because itactually wasn't safe for me to
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speak, like I like my throatliterally would hurt.
I can feel it like physicallywhen someone says something and
I want to respond and I don't, Ican feel it's just it gets
trapped here energetically.
I can feel it Right.
And so, like, this podcasthealed me in so many ways.
Social media in that sense oflike making content, showing up,
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speaking my voice, coachingpeople, being a teacher, like
those have healed me in so manyways that I can't even explain,
because my voice was my biggestshadow throughout my entire life
and I've learned it's one of mybiggest gifts, right, using it.
But what I feel like the shadowtaught me was to listen right,
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because, like listening, activelistening, it's not just about
talking, right, it's aboutactive listening so I can hear,
hear what people say, and Ithink that gives me a superpower
, right.
And so, again, it's like Idon't know where that kind of
went from, but I don't know if Ican't remember if I was talking
about Uranus or something, butanyway, being in that
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authenticity of like, yeah,noticing what your gifts are,
because oftentimes they are sonatural that you don't notice
them Like they're just, they arewhat they are.
And also, a lot of our giftscome through.
Oh, that's what I was talkingabout, the Venus sequence.
Some of our gifts come throughlike immense pain and shadow and
suffering.
And the other thing that I lovedthat he said when he was
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talking about following yourbliss.
He said ecstasy is sadness andjoy, making love inside of us,
and I love that.
I love it Because, like, whenyou think about creativity,
right, creativity like pure,whether it's painting, whether
it's drawing, poems, movie, likedancing, something like art and
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creativity often come from outof a place of melancholy, right,
and it's this place wheresadness has festered and joy
comes in and we're coming outthe other side of it.
That's where I find like I'mmost creative is when I'm coming
out of a low and it just feelslike I feel a full body, like my
spirit and my soul are in it,right, and so, like that's the
beauty of like creativity islike coming from that place,
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right, and you know, the lastpiece around this, too, is like,
sometimes, when we wantsomething, we're resisting it
because it's like I need to beauthentic, I need to be myself.
But it's like, if you just like, release that and surrender
which I know is such a hard wordsometimes but surrender and
just like, let it be right, likeit's not always going to be
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pretty, it's not always going tobe curated, it's not always
going to be perfect Right, it'smessy, it's chaotic, but it's
also beautiful.
Like authenticity is magnetic.
So I just feel like that's somuch of what the lesson is this
week I mean more than this week,but with this full moon, these
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are like really greatreflections and if you want to
join, I'm doing a full moon callAugust, at Thursday, when this
episode comes out.
So, if you're listening to thisbefore 1 PM central standard
time, dm me on Instagram uh,tiktok, wherever you find me and
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join us.
Um, or join your sacredunraveling.
The calls are part of yoursacred unraveling.
You can join that or you can doa one-off full moon call.
But the questions that I wouldleave you with, just in
reflection of everything, likeall this authenticity that we're
talking about, where are younot being honest with yourself?
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Right, like, where are youbeing honest and where are you
not being honest?
What are you afraid of, like?
What are you afraid of whatpeople will think of you,
especially those shadow parts,right?
Like what keeps you fromaccepting it from yourself?
Is it what people would thinkabout you?
Right?
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Where are you beingperformative and where are you
actually being authentic?
So that is.
I'm sure I have more to say, butwe're gonna, we're gonna leave
it here.
So if you've listened, Iappreciate it so much, let me
know on Instagram what youthought, share.
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hope this was supportive andwill help you move through some
of the energy that's coming uparound this full moon and will
help you move through some ofthe energy that's coming up
around this full moon.
Yeah, and meditate, meditate.
I put off for the longest timeto like actually make it part of
my daily practice, and I waslistening to or I was on a, I
was scrolling, scrolling onInstagram, but I saw this
interview.
I can't remember who theinterviewee was, but he was
interviewing young Pueblo, youngPablo, and he was asking him
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something about relationships.
He was like, do you subscribeto the whole thing Like, or do
you subscribe to the like?
Love isn't enough thing?
And he was talking about himand his wife.
Long story short.
He was like we were just likealways pulled towards each other
, but we would have to takebreaks.
And it was like oil and water,right.
And he was like that.
He was like I finally resignedto the fact that, like, I love
this woman so much that I wasjust going to be with her and be
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miserable because, like, wecould not, we didn't have the
skills to like, actually theskills and the tools to move
through it.
But he said, when they startedmeditating, it like changed the
game for them.
And what I'm noticing too, justlike, like I said, my mental
health, my emotional health,like all of it I feel so much
more grounded.
Um, since I've been meditating,like, implementing the tools,
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and you know, I don't know ifit's 21 days to build a habit or
60 days, there's differentthings that have different
things, but something like thatand it's definitely becoming a
routine habit.
So, anyway, again, I hope thisepisode is helpful.
Follow me in all the places,all the ways you can work with
me, all the stuff.
Everything you need to know isdown in the show notes.
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Um, I appreciate you so muchfor being here, for listening,
whether you're listening to thison youtube or on spotify, apple
, wherever.
Um, I appreciate it and I'll beback next week with another
episode for you.
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Today, I have a big topic that Iwant to talk about, and that
really is authenticity.
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What's been coming up for me alot over the last I mean for so
long, but really specificallythe last six months is just like
how to be authentic, because Ithink so many of us are chasing.
We all want to be authentic,right, but I think sometimes
it's this really curated, likeperfected version of ourselves,
and I believe authenticity isactually really messy.
It's really raw, it's reallyvulnerable and what I found to
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be true for myself.
So this podcast is gonna beabout authenticity and it's also
gonna be about the full moonand I'm gonna wrap it up in like
a pretty bow by the end of thisepisode.
What I found to be true formyself over the last, you know,
however long is that being myauthentic self is accepting
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myself in all ways.
Right, we all have duality, weall have lightness, we all have
darkness.
We all have things aboutourselves that we don't maybe
want to share on social media,right?
I think that we see people onsocial media and we see this
healing perfected.
Not everyone, of course.
There are some people who showup very raw and very vulnerable,
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but I think the majority of usare showing the side of us
that's healing and maybe not theside of us that's healing and
maybe not the side of us that'sactually really messy, and I try
to show both sides of it.
But also, I'm a six line and Ihave a Leo moon rising, and so
there is a part of me that wantsto be on the other side before
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I share things so that I canlook like the role model and I'm
air quoting that I'm also athird line, right?
So my life is trial and error.
There are a lot of messy things.
There are a lot of messy things.
There are a lot of parts ofmyself that I am facing and not
necessarily I don't want to saythat I don't like, because I've
done a lot of work around justaccepting and loving all parts
of me.
But there are still codependentparts of me, right, there are
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still selfish parts of me.
There are still parts of methat you know as a parent.
Sometimes it's like I don'twant to listen to what the kids
have to say, right, like thereare parts of me that I'm not,
that I don't like, right, I canlove all parts of me and not
like all parts of me, but Ithink that authenticity is being
with yourself and acceptingyourself in all ways, in all
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ways that show up.
And so I've been doingmeditations twice a day, so
every morning and every night,and if I can do a third one,
I'll drop it in there.
I haven't done a third one in awhile, but for sure the morning
and the evening ones.
And what I've noticed that it'sdoing is it's making me very
conscious of my thoughtsthroughout the day.
It's making me very consciousof my moods throughout the day.
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It has stabilized me in themost beautiful way.
But I notice when I'm out ofsync.
I notice when I'm in a lowvibration, low frequency thought
or quality of thought.
I notice when I'm feelingjealousy, when I'm feeling anger
, like they're not explosiveemotions anymore, they're very
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regulated because I have thetools now to just breathe and
pause and be calm in that.
But because it's created somuch awareness, I'm seeing it a
lot more right.
I'm noticing a lot more of thethoughts that happen day to day
and it's easier to reroute thoseand accept those.
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And I think the key piece is anacceptance where it's like okay.
I witnessed myself feeling this.
I don't necessarily like it,but it's also okay, right.
It's a part of the processagain, because we all have
shadow, we all have lightnessand it's in every shadow that
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there is a gift for us if we'rereally opening ourselves to do
the work.
And it's not to live in shadowwork and it's not to live in
positivity.
And I think there are so manyconfusing messages.
When you get on social media,when you're working with
different coaches, of coursewe're all teaching what's true
for us and I do believe thatpeople will be drawn to our
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truth.
As a coach, right, there are,of course, universal truths, but
it can be really confusing whenwe look around of, like, well,
we really need to be doing theshadow work, or you really need
to be in the positivity oraffirmations work, or mood
boards work, or you know, thisworks, whatever there are.
Again, I think certain thingsthat do work, like meditation
through the ages has been one ofthose things that works.
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I think moving your bodythrough the ages is one of those
things that works.
I think sleep through the agesis one of those things that
works.
So there are certain thingsthat do work.
Right, but, like coming back tothat authenticity piece, I feel
like again, like being with andaccepting the thing in the
moment, because we're alsoconstantly changing, constantly
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evolving right.
The version of you tomorrowmight be drastically different
than the version of you rightnow, because we have free will,
we have free choice.
If we're really showing up anddoing the work and choosing
something different, that willchange the course of our life,
who we are, right, and so thereare all these different ways.
So it's like, and I also thinkthat when we look back to our
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childhood, that zero to sevenyear age range and more so zero
to 21,.
The Venus sequence cyclesthrough these massive three year
cycles in our life, but that 0to 7-year age range there are
certain narratives that we tookon because in that age range we
are literally, I feel, like pureunconditional love.
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We are walking around in atheta brainwave state.
We are very innocent and ofcourse there are exceptions to
the rule.
There are some children thathave been forced to grow up
quicker than they should have orcould have.
But I do think that there is anelement of you know in that age
range when they say, like allyou need is love.
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I truly believe that's sort ofthe core need at that age range,
obviously other than like food,you know water, stuff like that
, but love is definitely upthere.
And when I think about that soevery time I do a meditation,
every time I drop in, every timeI do work on me being capable
or competent or, you know,finding my shadows, there's
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always this one specific memorythat comes up for me.
And I know my mom listens tothis sometimes so she doesn't
mind me sharing the story, butwhen we used to live in Canada.
My mom was driving from Canadato New Jersey and she got in a
car accident in the mountainsand I remember just being woken
up in the middle of the night mydad, like was, took us to the
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neighbor's house because he hadto go wherever she was to get
her, and I remember the next daythat she came home before she
had left.
You know, my parents havealways done this, where they
travel somewhere and they bringus back like a gift or something
you know that says like theplace, the very minimum right,
like the place that they went,or something like that.
So they've always like justgotten us little things wherever
they went.
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And so my mom came back.
I remember she was on the couch.
She had like a broken leg,broken ribs, like she was, you
know.
Obviously she had been in a caraccident.
It was very obvious and I thinkI was like maybe four,
something like that, and Iremember like being concerned
and scared and I asked oh, didyou bring us anything?
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Because that was just.
She said she was going to.
And I think that in my childlikeinnocent brain I was scared and
that was kind of like the thingthat I said and I remember like
getting yelled at and I and youknow, obviously in hindsight my
four-year-old brain could notunderstand what was happening.
Right, I'm sure I could feel it, but I couldn't understand it,
I couldn't intellectualize it, Icouldn't like comprehend the
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situation.
Of course, as an adult, I lookback and I'm like, wow, my mom
went through like massive trauma.
My dad was woken up in themiddle of the night and had to
drive and get her.
He was probably exhausted,concerned, like doctor's bills,
like there's so much that goesalong with that in the adult
world.
But my four-year-old selfdidn't understand that.
And I just remember like askingthat and getting yelled at, and
I don't remember if they said Iwas selfish, but something along
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those lines.
But I remember sitting outsideon the like sidewalk, just like
crying and thinking like what ahorrible person I was, right, I
was so selfish, how could I haveasked that?
And I think that that'ssomething I've carried on
throughout my life, where it'slike when I speak my truth or I
speak my voice or I speak up,there's this internal thing in
me that's like but you're wrong,like why would you think that
that's bad, that's selfish,right?
And it's something I've reallyhad to rewire to be like no,
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like my voice, like is actuallyreally beautiful, right, like my
thoughts and the way I operateis actually really beautiful.
And if we're doing the blamegame on astrology, I'm air
quoting, it's just a joke.
But if we're doing the likeastrology thing, you know my sun
, my midheaven and my mercuryare in Taurus, right, and so in
the 10th house, so public facing, there's just so much of me
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that is in the material worldand so those things are
important to me.
And, of course, like, we canlook at it as selfish, but
that's just the narrative I'vetaken on.
So I say all this to say that Ithink that sometimes there are
certain narratives, certainbeliefs that we hold about
ourselves that were put there bysomeone else Well-intentioned,
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right, like some people are notwell-intentioned.
But generally, when we'relooking at our childhood, from
zero to seven years, our parentsare doing the best that they
can with what they have, and Idon't think any parent makes a
comment thinking, oh, I hopethat I fuck my kid up when
they're an adult.
Like, of course, not right.
There are things that I'm sureI've said to my kids that
they're going to be 25, 30 andrealize like, wow, I didn't
realize.
That comment stuck with me andthat's why I've been this way my
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entire life, and so how I'mbringing this into the
authenticity piece is that Ithink that honoring being
authentic.
It can be confusing to know,like, who we are sometimes
because we're layered withconditioning.
But I think the authenticitypiece comes in when I say
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something and I get that feelingof like, oh, did I say
something wrong?
Did I do something wrong?
Am I going to be looked at asselfish for thinking this Like,
oh my gosh, I just shared athought.
Being with that and owning thatis being authentic, right, this
morning we were late to school,so school started yesterday.
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I'm recording this.
On Tuesday School startedyesterday for my kids Super
early, I know, but schoolstarted yesterday and the
drop-off line is insane.
Like my kids were like 15minutes late both days, through
no fault of our own, granted, ifwe had been there at seven when
the line started, we probablywould have been further along in
the line and maybe theywouldn't have been late.
But that's a whole thing foranother story.
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But I told my kids we have toleave the house by 6.50 this
morning.
They're getting ready, I'mgetting ready and I forgot my
son's lunch, because last yearhe got lunches at school and I
just haven't set it up yet.
And so he's packing lunchesthis week.
And so at 6.50 and I see himget the pan out and I'm like,
what are you doing?
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We have to go.
And he's like I need my lunch.
And I was like, oh shit.
So then I'm scrambling to makehim his lunch.
He wanted a grilled cheese.
So we're doing that, we'repacking snacks, we're doing all
the things.
We didn't leave the house tillseven o'clock, which was fine.
Again, we were.
We got there on a normal schoolday and so we're on the way to
school.
And I was like, and we get inthe line, and I was like, oh man
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, you guys are going to be solate again.
And my son was like, well,whose fault was it?
And I was like, why don't weall take responsibility for our
own parts in it, right, notproject and not blame and not
point the finger?
Like I take responsibility forthe fact that I did not pack you
lunch, and that is on me.
Why don't you takeresponsibility for the fact that
you waited till the last minuteto get dressed?
Because you were in your roomhiding and watching the iPad,
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right, and my daughter was justlike in her room waiting for us
to shout her name because shegets up at five o'clock in the
morning and just gets readybecause she does makeup and
everything like that.
So I was like why don't we justlike all take responsibility
for a part of this?
He was like, okay, so it's likebeing authentic.
I think in that moment where itwould have been easy for me to
be like, well, you forgot aboutyour lunch, right, and we're
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doing the Venus sequence insideyour sacred, unraveling
membership space and your SQ isyour spiritual quotient, which
is this space of, like,unconditional love.
Right, when you layer your genekeys profile on the body, the
SQ is at the heart, right?
So this is literally the heartof the gene keys and it's about
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unconditional love.
It's innocence, it's that zeroto seven year age range.
There technically is no shadowassociated with it because it is
pure innocence.
But for me, that gate is gate55.
Gene key 55 is my SQ, myspiritual quotient.
It's such a beautiful gate andI am understanding the magnitude
and significance of it in mylife.
But it's always fun to likerevisit these things.
But so the shadow and typicallythe shadow of whatever gate you
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hold in the, in the sphere ofyour sq.
That shadow was placed there bysomeone else and it's not to be
victiming about it, it's not tobe projecting about it, but
because it is that zero to sevenyear age range, the shadow of
that gate typically shows upthrough conditioning, through
the narrative of someone else.
And so gate 55 shadow isvictimization, and the gift and
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city are in freedom.
And so it's like, again, thisidea of authenticity and I'm
going to wrap this into the fullmoon shortly but this idea of
authenticity, it's like whatwe're all seeking.
Authenticity and authenticityis actually holds a higher
frequency than love.
I think it's like 40 timeshigher than love.
So when you're being authentic,like it is felt right and again
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, authenticity is not a polished, perfect, curated version of
you, it's all of you in all waysright.
And so when I think about theshadow of victimization, I see
that like I will be honest, Isee that a lot in my life, right
, even in abusive relationships.
I didn't own my part in it, Iaccepted bad behavior, I chose
to be in that, I chose, you know, like I had no self-worth, and
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I'm not saying I chose to beabused or I chose to be
mistreated Like I don't wish onanyone I think you know that's a
whole other conversation but Ichose to not see the red flags.
I didn't have self-worth enoughto believe that I could be
treated better, right and so,but in those moments I very much
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played the victim.
Well, you're doing this to me,it's your fault, you this, you
that I'm the victim, I'm thesurvivor, I'm this, I'm all
these things right.
Like I remember going throughtherapy and they kept saying
that like you're the survivorand something about that didn't
sit right.
And I completely understand,you know, in certain situations,
like you are a survivor andthat's a very strong thing to
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have, but there was somethingabout it to me that didn't feel
aligned to like my experience orlike what I was going through
or like the mindset that Iwanted to take on, I guess, if
that makes sense, but it wasvery for me.
You know, now doing this workand now understanding this
victim, victimization shadow andwhat that means, I can see how
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I always played that in justprojecting of like someone else,
like well, you're doing this oryou would, you're doing that,
it's like I'm not perfect, right, and so it's like almost, when
you're in that victim mindset,it's kind of like.
It's almost like you'reprojecting like a like you're
perfect, you're right andeverything is everybody else's
fault.
And I always say that to my son, cause he's the, he's the, he's
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, he's big on projecting, andthat's what I always say.
I'm like, just takeresponsibility.
Like it's fine.
No, nobody's gonna get madRight, and if they do, that's on
more on them than you.
But I say all that to say that,like owning that, in the example
of us going to the car thismorning, I could have been like
well, you forgot to pack yourlunch, or you forgot to remind
me, or you decided to makegrilled cheese that took too
long, or you did this, or youleft it for me to like whatever.
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It would have been so easy thatvictimization, it would have
been so easy to do that.
But like no, let's just takeresponsibility.
And so, again, going back tothe authenticity piece, it's
like having awareness in themoments of when my instinct, my
go-to, my pattern, myconditioning is to fall into
that, but being able to pausefor a second and be like no, I'm
going to choose something else.
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I'm aware that that's thenarrative that wants to come out
.
I'm aware that that's thepattern that wants to come out,
but I'm going to choosesomething different.
And how this really like allwraps up into the full moon is
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because our full moon is inAquarius on Saturday, and I love
Aquarius.
It's an air sign, it's a fixedair sign, but I really feel like
you know, aquarius holds thearchetype of the rebel.
It wants freedom, it'sinnovation, it's technology,
it's the collective, and Ireally think Aquarius is
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rebellious because it's an actof rebellion to be authentic in
a world that does not value it.
And so this full moon is goingto be really potent in asking
and calling for authenticity.
I was talking about it onsocial media and somebody
commented was like oh well, it'sthe year of the snake, we're
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all shedding.
And I was like, well, I forgotabout that, but it's true, right
, we're in the year of the snake.
This is all about shedding.
And it's funny because, like, Idon't remember what last year
was, but last year felt like acoming home to my softening into
myself, if that makes sense.
I felt more feminine.
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I kind of released themasculine energy a little bit.
I felt more myself in my body.
I stopped going to the gym sointensely.
Actually, I kind of just, I wasexhausted for half the year.
I was managing a restaurant andI was working late but then
still having to get up and getthe kids to school in the
morning.
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My mental health really, reallysuffered last year because I
wasn't getting enough sleep andI was always tired and um.
But at the same time I feltlike a softening into myself and
acceptance of myself and, uh, aclearer vision of, like, what I
valued and what I wanted withmy life.
And this year definitelydefinitely feels like a shedding
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, like a massive shedding.
It's crazy, but it is likecoming to this piece of
authenticity.
Right, brene Brown saysauthenticity, and I'm rating
this because I don't want to getit wrong.
Authenticity is the dailypractice of letting go of who we
think we're supposed to be andembracing who we are right and
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embracing who we are right.
Authenticity is not fixed.
Right, it's fluid.
We're constantly changing.
Think about the moon and ouremotions.
Right, it's honoring who youare.
And I will add on to that what Ifeel like my lesson lately too
has been, is like noticingthrough these daily meditations
that I've been doing rightthrough tuning into my body,
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I've always been very body aware, like hyper aware of my body,
but like really noticing when,like, let's say, when those
patterns come up or whensomebody wants to do something
and I actually don't want to,really noticing in my body that
the resistance and the ease.
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And there was a practice in Ibelieve it was the heart mass
solution book that I'm reading,and it's literally just a check
at the end of the day.
And I highly recommend this ifyou're still trying to tune into
your body, just to check at theend of the day what was energy
giving and what took energy fromyou.
Because when you really startto tune into your body, right,
like let me read this quoteagain Authenticity is the daily
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practice of letting go of who wethink we're supposed to be and
embracing who we are.
So again, there's so manypatterns and narratives that
we've taken on that we think weare that person and you will
know when it is a conditionedresponse, when it is a pattern,
when it is an outdated narrative.
Because if you really tune intoyour body, your body will tell
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you right, it's all energy, it'sall frequency.
Our body holds the answers, ourbody holds the score.
Our emotions when we thinkthey're random, our emotions are
spirit speaking through us.
Now I think that we need toregulate our emotions right.
If they're getting completelyout of hand, that's one thing.
If they're ruling your life andyou can't function because
you're just like overly in yourmind and in your emotions, and
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that's also something that weneed to pay attention to and
work on.
And you know, over the last Iguess, like month, right, that
I've been like really like doingthese daily meditations twice a
day.
That has been the most amazingthing for me is just having
these practices that regulate meand I just feel so calm and
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able to.
In moments where I feel likethere's one person in my life
that I often get reallyemotional around, right, or when
they say things, I really takeit personally.
You know, energetics it'swhatever, it is what it is.
And I noticed the last timethis person said something, I
noticed myself taking itpersonally and I was like, okay,
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I have no idea if that's whatthey meant by that, right, like
I noticed myself telling myselfthe story about what that
comment meant, right, and then Ijust had to remember like the
four agreements is something Itell myself all the time Assume
nothing, take nothing personally, do your best.
And oh my gosh, what is thelast one?
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Assume nothing, take nothingpersonally.
Do your own.
Be impeccable with your words.
And so it's because I'm hookedon to a specific narrative that
I have no idea if that isactually their narrative.
They actually said somethingincredibly kind and I felt
rejected, like because I hadthis looping story that well, if
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you, if you, if you cared andif you wanted to show up for me
the way I want you to show upfor me, you would have said this
and instead you said that.
So it feels like you'rerejecting what I.
So it's just like I noticedthat happening and I had to like
giggle about it and I justbreathe into my heart and I let
it go.
I was like that's just silly,like this person's actually
being incredibly kind right now,can I?
I just take the compliment Likewhy do I have to make it this
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whole big story about them notwanting me or rejecting a part
of me or like whatever?
So it is unhooking from thesein in that moment, me honoring
that I was triggered, mehonoring that feeling and then
like working through it.
That to me, felt authentic andI felt like so much better after
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that in that situation, right?
So it's like noticing the partsof you that are the conditioned
responses, the patterns, thepieces that aren't yours, right?
Who you think you're supposedto be like is this.
This is why Venus has beendoing so much lately,
specifically last week, right?
But Venus is going to beconjunct, jupiter in Cancer on
the 12th and this is a hugeopportunity to be doing this
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work Because, like, reallygetting clear on your values,
like is this yours or is thissomeone else's?
And that's so much of what,like, these transits are going
to be like.
The full moon is happening againon Saturday, the 9th, at 2 55
am, central standard time inaquarius.
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The sun is in leo.
Mercury is in leo.
Mercury is opposite pluto, sothis is like mercury is
retrograde in leo, asking us tobe our most most authentic,
creative, expressive self.
Gemini, or sorry, uranus, isearly stages, like one, like,
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literally, the amount of planetsright now.
Let me pull it up, I had thispulled up on my phone the amount
of planets that are at earlydegrees of their sign right now
Pluto two degrees.
Saturn, neptune one degree ofAries.
We have Uranus one degree ofGemries.
We have uranus one degree ofgemini.
We have mercury four degrees ofleo, we have mars, one degree
of libra.
Like it's crazy, these earlydegrees are like beginning
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phases, initiatory phases.
There's so much energy rightnow like I just feel like
timeline like shattering.
There's so much opportunity.
Right now it's like who?
Who are you really?
Let go like get so clear and inyour body about the bullshit
that's not actually yours.
Who are you right?
Who are you expected to be?
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Are you behaving because youthink that's who you're supposed
to be right?
Like I said something earlierabout like not being not feeling
successful, but it's like whosestandard of success am I
comparing myself to?
Right?
Like I zero doubt in my mindI'm going to get where I want to
be.
I've done the work, I've put inthe time.
I continue to show up like I'mdoing.
I'm air quitting, I'm doing allthe things, and so I have no
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doubt that, because I'm sopassionate about it, I continue
to show up for it.
Like I have no doubt I'm goingto be successful in my version
of that.
For it, like I have no doubtI'm going to be successful in my
version of that.
But in the grand scheme of life, when, if I want to be the
victim right and like break itdown to like the actual facts.
I'm air quoting all of this.
If you're not watching onYouTube, you're just listening
to it.
Like no, I'm not successfulaccording to someone else's
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standard of success.
And, of course, there are partsof my life that I don't feel
successful in right now.
Like I'm not going to sit hereand be like I'm perfect and my
life is so successful.
No, like there are so manythings that I still want to
accomplish.
But the thing like I was aboutto slap my hands but I was like
that would be really loud.
Obviously I'm getting heatedabout this.
But the thing it's like can Ibe okay with being me, with
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being who I am and what stage Iam in my life in my current
circumstances?
That would be so easy sometimesto play the victim and to be
woe is me and just like feellike shit about it.
Like the last month that I'vebeen meditating I'm going to
keep saying it that I've beenlike actually implementing twice
a day these meditations likehas changed my internal world.
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To be like, okay, I don't needto sit here and shame myself for
not being this yet.
Like I'm actually okay withmyself, right, and like, again
noticing when I have moments ofbitterness and jealousy and
resentment and like whatever,and being able to like, breathe
in and like, just loosen it up alittle bit and like, okay,
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that's me being authentic rightnow, right, like that might be
somebody else's narrative, butI'm creating awareness around it
, right.
And so, with all of thishappening especially, there's a
grand trine between Uranus, marsand Pluto, like we're changing
the way that we're thinking.
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Pluto is like, again, uranus inGemini is going to radically
change the way that we perceive,because your thoughts, your
perception is your reality,right?
So it's like Uranus is going toradically change the way that
we perceive things and it'sgoing to radically change our
realities, whatever that meansfor you.
Trines are supportive.
But this grand trine, right,pluto and Aquarius this is like
again, authenticity, right,freedom, innovation.
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Like we can only be thesethings and bring these things
out to the world when we'retruly being authentic.
And that means like.
And that means like not caringwhat other people think or say,
like we have to cut out thenoise if we want to like put it
out there.
But the thing with Pluto isPluto is a slow moving planet
and so what it does is anythingthat's not meant to be.
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So if we're looking forauthenticity, any piece of you
that's not authentic, justslowly, over the course of Pluto
being an Aquarius, it's goingto make it more and more
uncomfortable that you can'tignore it, right.
And Mars and Libra.
Like Mars doesn't like to be inLibra, mars rules Aries, so
it's this fiery.
You know, mars is like ourimmature expression I always
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think about, like the toddlerkind of just like pulling a fit,
saying what it wants.
It doesn't get its way and it'slike blah.
Libra is so focused onrelationships, right, and so I
think there's, you know, beautyand shadow in everything.
So I think the beautiful thingabout this is it might make us
feel a little bit morepassionate about our
relationships, maybe morefocused on doing the work in our
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relationships, but of course,we might also find us being more
passive, aggressive in ourrelationships, maybe feeling
stagnant in our relationships.
So this is all supporting us inlike these areas to like anchor
in and just be like, okay,what's not working, where do I
need to realign my values?
Like what, what's shift ishappening in my mind?
Like how am I changing the wayI'm perceiving things?
Like what parts of me aren'tworking?
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Like, just like really sheddingand releasing that, and I think
that's just such an importantpiece to like all of this right
Again.
Like Pluto and Aquarius, I feellike, too, there is this also
piece of like again, becauseAquarius represents the
collective as well, likeindividual versus the collective
.
So it's like, again going backto that piece of like, is this
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mine, is this my standard, isthis who I am, or is this
something I've outsourced?
Or is this something that'sbeen expected of me, right?
Uranus and Gemini is disruptingthe way that we think, right,
are you going to let yourselfevolve with it or are we going
to like contract into, likethese little beliefs, right?
And then again that Mars andLibra.
It's like actions, boundariesAre they aligned?
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And, of course, libra is alwaysfocused on relationships, right
?
Neptune and Saturn delusion,dreams, boundaries, structure
all in Aries Like.
This is such a powerful time inthe astrology, and so it's like
get curious, right, like whenthese things come up for you,
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when these, if you startnoticing, like if you start
doing the journaling at night,the what's giving you energy,
what's taking away energy, ifyou just start noticing in every
day when something feelsrestrictive or not good, instead
of jumping to shame or to blameor to guilt, like, those might
naturally be the first thingsthat come up.
But like, maybe stop and getcurious, right, get curious
(31:17):
about where it's coming fromagain, being in your body,
allowing your body to speakright, like, what does the yes
feel like?
What does the no feel like?
What does something fear-basedfeel like?
What does something love basedfeel like?
What is self-sabotaging Like?
I notice that all the time.
When I'm self-sabotaging now andI know it's self-sabotaging
because it feels so familiar,it's like it's uncomfortable but
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it feels like home, if thatmakes sense.
Where it's like, okay, well,it's just easy to avoid, you
know, because like and then Ican make 10 000 excuses right,
where it's actually like, facingthe fear and stepping through
it and richard rudd talks aboutwith the sq in the in the venus
sequence, it's like chasing yourbliss, he says, isn't what we
think that it is or what itsounds like.
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Chasing your bliss is actuallygoing through the suffering to
transmute that, to come out onthe other side in joy, in bliss.
Chasing your bliss means goingthrough the fear and discomfort
because the thing on the otherside of that is actually the
thing that you want.
There's always a shadow held insomething we really want.
There's always a narrative orsome reason why we shouldn't or
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couldn't or can't, or we're notcapable or whatever it is.
But, like you know, when thatthing is that like that you
really want to do.
And I was listening to a podcastand they were talking about
like their greatest gifts andlike how they knew to like
cultivate it and like how youstep into that energy.
And there's two pieces of thisthat I want to say.
I think that oftentimes ourgifts are so natural to us that
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we don't see them as gifts.
Like, if you think about humandesign and think about your
defined centers, we really don'tlike focus on that that often
because it's so innate within us, right, like for me, I have a
defined throat and there's somuch in my charts and my
astrology and everything thathas to do with like my voice and
speaking and being authentic inthat way.
And also that is what I've heldthe biggest shadow around my
entire life.
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When I said something, I feltlike I was wrong, I said the
wrong thing, I didn't say enoughthings, I was too quiet, I was
too this, I was too that, but italways rooted down to my throat
.
I remember being in I was.
I remember being in an abusiverelationship and like the
inability to speak because itactually wasn't safe for me to
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speak, like I like my throatliterally would hurt.
I can feel it like physicallywhen someone says something and
I want to respond and I don't, Ican feel it's just it gets
trapped here energetically.
I can feel it Right.
And so, like, this podcasthealed me in so many ways.
Social media in that sense oflike making content, showing up,
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speaking my voice, coachingpeople, being a teacher, like
those have healed me in so manyways that I can't even explain,
because my voice was my biggestshadow throughout my entire life
and I've learned it's one of mybiggest gifts, right, using it.
But what I feel like the shadowtaught me was to listen right,
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because, like listening, activelistening, it's not just about
talking, right, it's aboutactive listening so I can hear,
hear what people say, and Ithink that gives me a superpower
, right.
And so, again, it's like Idon't know where that kind of
went from, but I don't know if Ican't remember if I was talking
about Uranus or something, butanyway, being in that
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authenticity of like, yeah,noticing what your gifts are,
because oftentimes they are sonatural that you don't notice
them Like they're just, they arewhat they are.
And also, a lot of our giftscome through.
Oh, that's what I was talkingabout, the Venus sequence.
Some of our gifts come throughlike immense pain and shadow and
suffering.
And the other thing that I lovedthat he said when he was
(35:02):
talking about following yourbliss.
He said ecstasy is sadness andjoy, making love inside of us,
and I love that.
I love it Because, like, whenyou think about creativity,
right, creativity like pure,whether it's painting, whether
it's drawing, poems, movie, likedancing, something like art and
(35:25):
creativity often come from outof a place of melancholy, right,
and it's this place wheresadness has festered and joy
comes in and we're coming outthe other side of it.
That's where I find like I'mmost creative is when I'm coming
out of a low and it just feelslike I feel a full body, like my
spirit and my soul are in it,right, and so, like that's the
beauty of like creativity islike coming from that place,
(35:48):
right, and you know, the lastpiece around this, too, is like,
sometimes, when we wantsomething, we're resisting it
because it's like I need to beauthentic, I need to be myself.
But it's like, if you just like, release that and surrender
which I know is such a hard wordsometimes but surrender and
just like, let it be right, likeit's not always going to be
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pretty, it's not always going tobe curated, it's not always
going to be perfect Right, it'smessy, it's chaotic, but it's
also beautiful.
Like authenticity is magnetic.
So I just feel like that's somuch of what the lesson is this
week I mean more than this week,but with this full moon, these
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are like really greatreflections and if you want to
join, I'm doing a full moon callAugust, at Thursday, when this
episode comes out.
So, if you're listening to thisbefore 1 PM central standard
time, dm me on Instagram uh,tiktok, wherever you find me and
(36:53):
join us.
Um, or join your sacredunraveling.
The calls are part of yoursacred unraveling.
You can join that or you can doa one-off full moon call.
But the questions that I wouldleave you with, just in
reflection of everything, likeall this authenticity that we're
talking about, where are younot being honest with yourself?
(37:16):
Right, like, where are youbeing honest and where are you
not being honest?
What are you afraid of, like?
What are you afraid of whatpeople will think of you,
especially those shadow parts,right?
Like what keeps you fromaccepting it from yourself?
Is it what people would thinkabout you?
Right?
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Where are you beingperformative and where are you
actually being authentic?
So that is.
I'm sure I have more to say, butwe're gonna, we're gonna leave
it here.
So if you've listened, Iappreciate it so much, let me
know on Instagram what youthought, share.
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Don't forget to tag me, followme on Instagram If you don't
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You can find me on YouTube,substack.
Everything you need to know isdown in the show notes and I
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hope this was supportive andwill help you move through some
of the energy that's coming uparound this full moon and will
help you move through some ofthe energy that's coming up
around this full moon.
Yeah, and meditate, meditate.
I put off for the longest timeto like actually make it part of
my daily practice, and I waslistening to or I was on a, I
was scrolling, scrolling onInstagram, but I saw this
interview.
I can't remember who theinterviewee was, but he was
interviewing young Pueblo, youngPablo, and he was asking him
(38:42):
something about relationships.
He was like, do you subscribeto the whole thing Like, or do
you subscribe to the like?
Love isn't enough thing?
And he was talking about himand his wife.
Long story short.
He was like we were just likealways pulled towards each other
, but we would have to takebreaks.
And it was like oil and water,right.
And he was like that.
He was like I finally resignedto the fact that, like, I love
this woman so much that I wasjust going to be with her and be
(39:03):
miserable because, like, wecould not, we didn't have the
skills to like, actually theskills and the tools to move
through it.
But he said, when they startedmeditating, it like changed the
game for them.
And what I'm noticing too, justlike, like I said, my mental
health, my emotional health,like all of it I feel so much
more grounded.
Um, since I've been meditating,like, implementing the tools,
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and you know, I don't know ifit's 21 days to build a habit or
60 days, there's differentthings that have different
things, but something like thatand it's definitely becoming a
routine habit.
So, anyway, again, I hope thisepisode is helpful.
Follow me in all the places,all the ways you can work with
me, all the stuff.
Everything you need to know isdown in the show notes.
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Um, I appreciate you so muchfor being here, for listening,
whether you're listening to thison youtube or on spotify, apple
, wherever.
Um, I appreciate it and I'll beback next week with another
episode for you.
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