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Straut Media. All right, I'mlooking at that camera. M. But
yeah, it's just like the firsttime. I'm actually early. Oh yeah,
I got a good story, someof it nights M. Vivaldi's into
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club interesting. Oh oh ah,I guess I guess the film cruise here
today. M. Seriously, nobodytold me fuck well out of one of
the shittiest days in the shittiest weeksin the shittiest fucking year, almost halfway
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done. I don't get paid enoughto do this shit. Hey, your
little Poops definitely been a while.You may be wondering where Poops and the
crew have been for. Oh,I don't know when was the last one?
Six months? Fucking christ? Soyeah, last time was about six
months ago. What happened the poopiesfinally bounced to Fiji, never to be
heard from again. Did he getcarried away constructing Uncle Bucker's buttfucker dungeon or
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perhaps something else. We'll get backto that in about two entire episodes.
In the meantime, here's his conversationwith doctor Drew Pinsky or doctor Drew for
short. You know about him,right, Doctor Drew, the guy that's
popped in on Teen Moms several guestappearances on lots of shows and hosted shows
like Celebrity Rehab, co host ofthe show love Line with Adam Carolla for
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for twenty years, maybe others,but more on that soon with the sex
and addiction treatment expert himself. Butthis might not be all about drugs,
kink, snipples and dicks. Solet's find out now, pink cloud,
you're on the pink Cloud down.Yeah, I don't even know what that
means. Put your hands together.That was taken to poop and the cops
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rolled up, so mid poop hadto pinch it off. The shittiest podcast
in the world, are you guys? Welcome back to the Shittiest podcast ever.
It's been a while since I've producedor been on the podcast, but
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we have the legendary doctor Drew Pinski. Privileged to be here. I've always
wanted to be on the shittiest podcast, at least not the second shittiest.
It is the first most shittiest podcast. Congratulations, Thank you, thank you,
and thanks for coming here and makingtime out of your data. I
don't live too farm here, Ilive in Pasadena, so all right,
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you've got Knoxville to come all overhere. You certainly get me right,
no problem. Yeah, yeah,that's awesome. Yeah, actually is my
first time being early? You saidthat, and I was impressed. Is
that for me? Or is thataccident? That's not accident. Um,
it's just because I'm sober now,congratulations, thank you? Yeah, how's
that going good? I'm like thirtythree or thirty four days. So for
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you, Steve helping you. Steveactually helped me here and got me a
scholarship into a rehab. Oh goodfor you. Man. He finally wanted
to get sober before. I wasjust doing it to please people. Yeah.
I know, you gotta want todo it. You're wasting your time
otherwise. But but people do notand I know, and people do not
know that three days a big deal. Yeah, it's it's not easier to
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do this. Yeah, they callit the pink cloud. Pink cloud.
Let's check the dictionary, my imaginarydictionary. Huh. As it turns out,
the only thing from Webster that comesup as cloud pink nown a grayish
yellowish pink that is redder and slightlystronger than irish move. Isn't that from
the painting show that puts everyone tosleep? Painting Show that puts everyone to
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sleep. I mean, Bob Rosswriter, you mean Bob Ross. Let's
really visit that in a little bit. You're on the pink cloud. Now,
yeah, I don't even know whatthat means. It means. It
means that you feel so good.It may not be feeling the way you
were feeling, and you're so hopefulbecause there is so much hope in the
program and stuff, but in it, you know, life is a certain
thing and there's always shitty days ahead. Yeah, people fall off of that
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pink cloud and it's sort of surprisingto them, like they're gonna be like
this rest of their life. Butwhat I will tell you, the pink
cloud is a a peak at what'scoming. Well, he will actually be
happier than the pink cloud. Ifthat's good. That's good. Yeah,
because like I get my feelings arecoming back and like my emotions, Yeah,
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welcome. It's like, yeah,the real world finally hit me.
And I'm like, oh shit,but yeah aa, I've been doing aa
a lot good. Yeah. Igo to meetings Monday, Tuesday, Thursday,
Friday's good. I got you gozoom or do you actually go?
No? Actually go? Good foryou man, sponsor yet, Yeah,
I gotta sponsor. Dude, you'redoing yeah yeah, shout out, shout
out Clifton. He's my a sponsor. He's an og he's been he's been
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through it all and he's yeah,you want to be with the winners,
the people who know the yeah,shot up speed, I've done it all.
Like I was like, wow,dude, you gotta you got a
story. But yeah, and thatyou witch you after you need to understand
is it? That's where you wouldgo? It just goes. It's a
progressive thing, right, and somepeople need to go there, right,
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Yeah you don't. Yeah, Idefinitely have the disease. It's a thing,
right, it's a thing. It'sa bad story. I actually was
like, no, I'm not analcoholic, you know, of course,
and that's the first step in meetingyou're powerless, you know. Well,
it's it's you know what happens inthis first year god willing uh is that
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you'll have more and more light bulbsgoing off like oh shit, oh yeah
was that too? Oh my god? I did enough for real because my
girlfriend Hannah, she was the onethat like said I needed help. You
know, you better get some helpor you're gonna lose me. I didn't
want to lose her. Good,she's an angel. Very listen. People
don't you Typically they can, butthey don't. Typically just wake up one
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day and I gotta get over.It's usually the law losses people around them
they care about. You know,you lose your kids or your spouse,
or you just lose things. Itcauses you to lose stuff. Yeah,
And the thing about the disease isthat it's a distortion of motivation. So
the way your brain works is yourbrain thinks those things aren't as important as
using and that's of course a distortion. Yeah. It was definitely just a
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good job, Hannah, well doneand early is early really an exceptional thing
for him? Really a big deal? Okay, good, Yeah, he
knows good. That's good. Lasttime I showed up here, m I
stopped in the parking lot and thenI ate some seven to eleven hot dog
before and the drugs were really agetting to me then and then um yeah,
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I pretty much parked and called Ryanand said, hey, I can't
do this podcast. You know,I got it. I might throw up
or I was just like scared actuallyto come in here and do it with
drugs what's interesting watching you and listeningto you. I can see in your
eyes the pain that the admitting theat and contending with that how fully that
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is you know. Yeah. Actually, my producers he didn't even know I
was on drugs and I just toldhim today and he's like, oh my
gosh, this producer, Yeah,he's a lot better. Right. Well,
I'm no producer. They sometimes popin maybe rage face a bit,
but you have an expert right there, poops. Yeah, oh man.
Yeah, and don't you know,let hit let his recovery be his own
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journey. You know, it's notany of yours. It's his, and
he's got to do it the wayhe does it. Whatever that's going to
be. Yeah, I mean thetwelve steps help a lot. It's uncanny.
Yeah, hopefully fellowship and the communityand a Yeah, I have a
whole group meeting, the whole meetingthat I go to Where you live.
I'm in Huntington Beach right now,So you do no meetings out there in
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Orange County? Yeah, like umin Newport Beach. Newport is a huge
recovery community. Yeah, fish outof Water. Oh yeah, so so
is that at Hogue? Is thatheld at Hogue? Or of church or
something or no, it's just upin this room. Okay, yeah,
but assume where they all. Newporthas got lots of sobriety, lots of
good sobriety. Yeah, it's crazy. Like there's some people in there that
have Like I'll listen to them.I'm like, whoa, I wasn't even
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that bad, you know, butI take. I take, like I
just take. But you're gonna know, yeah, you gotta you gotta look
for the similarities, not the differenceexactly. Know what I can tell you,
if somebody works with this thing alot, you would have gone there.
You still may need to go there. I don't know. I hope
not, because it's very dangerous.Yeah, Like, I definitely have cravings
and I just gotta like really likework on those, you know. So
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let me talk to you about cravings. So is this what you wanted to
talk about today? Was? Okay? So it's because I can talk about
this all day. So cravings Alot is made of cravings in my world
and medicine. I actually thinks cravingsare very good thing because it's it's your
disease, letting you know it's rightthere. Yeah, and you better do
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something, or those cravings gonna takeover the people that I worry about,
the ones that have no cravings andhave they feel like they have their shit
together, because of course they don't. And so that's a distortion. And
to be humble and craving and youknow a little bit in pain, that's
where you should be right now.Yeah, that's where you should be.
Because I had a couple of testsum our recovery program. They took us
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to the Ducks game and that waslike the first time I've ever been to
a sporting Yeah, bro, itwas talking to me. It grew eyes
and started talking to me. Iwas like, no, don't do it.
Do you have a good time anyway? Yeah? I had a good
time talking. Yeah, and Ifreaking had my self controlled kicked in and
I and I didn't freaking drink outof soda and a pizza. Good and
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the and the mechanism is to talkabout it with your sober peers, people
that have had sobriety, because ifyou talk about it with people that have
not that much sobriety, you'll goout together. Yeah. I can't do
that, Like I'm in a hundredpercent you know, think God Stevo helped
me out and got me into agood program and good. He is the
man, dude, he is theman. He's that dude. That dude.
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It was way down the road andI used to talk to him about
it. There's a famous couple offamous appearances on Adam Carolla's old talk show
on Comedy Central where we broke atable, a glass table and pushed Adam
over and so you were seeing thatvideo he was live even and I was
like, dude, you know,when you're ready and he and he goes,
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hey, man, a guy,you know, dude, and he
said, when I'm ready, Iwill do it. Yeah, you don't
have to keep talking to me aboutthis because I when I know I'm ready,
I'm gonna go all the way tothe mat. And I'm like whatever,
you know. Yeah Yeah, Andthat dude when it came time went
just had just brilliant, just sointo it and never looked back. Wow.
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Yeah, he had to take itall the way there. Yeah.
He's such an inspiration for me becausehe told me, like I was in
San CLEMANI and I went to thismeeting because I did his self d talks
for ten Day's Boy and then Ifreaking relapsed on New Year's sure, yeah,
and then I freaking I was ThenI was just like I need help.
Yeah, so I reached out toStevo. I went to this AA
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meeting at Ryan Scheckler's in Saint ClementiAnd that was the night I freaking decided
that I wanted it. You're good, it's good, and yeah, they're
all super stoked. We'll go seeyou in ninety days. I go,
I only wanted thirty days. Butit's so it's such a blessing in disguise
because I got this opportunity and Ijust want to take so much advantage of
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it. And I'm learning so muchthat the boat. You're super emotional,
dude, and oh yeah, andI see that also the joy in your
eyes at the recovery part y rightnow, I see the pain of misery.
Yeah, he's super emotional. Right, this guy's got emotionally and I
love that. I like that.But I see the joy in the recovery,
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and I see the pain of miserythat the disease cost you. Yeah,
it was it was hard, youknow, Like it was just like
I was rock bottom and I waslike, this is like I need help.
You know, and it's like Igot the help that I needed,
and it's like where you grew up. I grew up in Carlsbad, so
not far from Yeah, I wasat the surf shop, like skipping school.
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I'd wait for my dad would dropme off. I'd wait for him
to leave, and then I'd ridemy beach cruiser back down the hill to
the beach, and then I wentto the surf shop. Was I was
like, yeah, of course,oh the weed. We were smoking bong
rips out of this little plastic freakingwater bottle underneath the miniram time. At
that time, I was like sixteenfifteen, Yeah, fifteen to sixteen.
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So yeah, the best times,you know, because me and my friends
were like we got to get stonebefore we surf. It was like a
mission to get our little nug beforewe go surf, Like we wouldn't go
surf without it, of course.And then and then that's just what I
did my whole life. I workedup in Humble on the weed farms.
I was a trimmer. Oh boy, So I would tell my daughter's a
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year recovering from weed. Oh wow, way down the road with it and
destroyed her life. And yeah,I mean, I'd was so lazy and
then like just like not even likeinterest in any like type of work.
Yeah. It's weird, isn't that. Yeah, Like I became a trimmer
so I could smoke weed and justfuck off all day, you know,
and then you make maybe one hundredand fifty bucks a day. Then you
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got a grocery shopping and all thisstuff. But yeah, and then I'd
try to save my money. I'dhave like three three thousand dollars and October
would come around and my goal wasto be in Hawaii before my birthday.
And my birthday's October twenty first,so I would fly out right before my
birthday, get to Hawaii, andbefore you know it, I'm broke in
Hawaii because you spent so much.Yeah yeah, and the food there's expensive,
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livings expensive. And then I'd haveto find a job there, and
then it was pretty much just likepretty much just like I remember this one
job I had as this local guywho had this big property and he just
made us like do all the likehardest work ever. So I was out
there freaking cut down cane grass,pulling up ship from the ground, and
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just you know, just crazy,crazy jobs. But I'm good for you
surviving and you know, being industrialit definitely made me stronger, like as
a human definitely. But yeah,do you ever contemplate going back to school
or anything like that? So school, No, I wasn't the best at
school because we were high all thetime. Who the hell knows. Yeah,
yeah, So I got in troublemy junior year and my dad's like,
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you need to go back to yourmom's in Missouri. What's your mom
doing to Missouri? My mom remarriedwhen I was in third grade and my
stepdad's family lived there. Just sowild to go from Carl's Bad to Missouri.
Well, I was in before Carl'sBad, it was Missouri, and
then before Missouri was a riverside soI was born in Redland's Hospital. Wow,
so my mom remarried. We endedup moving out to Missouri to my
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stepdad's um, mom and dad's house. Well, it wasn't a house,
it was a trailer. So there'slike five us in the trailer, Me,
my brother, my little brother.And then they finally like found jobs
and like, I was so proudof my mom. Though. We moved
into a house finally, but Iremember we moved into a farmhouse and it
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was four hundred bucks a month.And I remember my my stepdad, which
he is my dad. He prettymuch raised me, and back and forth
with my my real dad. Butyeah, I remember they're arguing over the
rent and it was four hundred bucks. And at the time, also little
I didn't even like notice, youknow, I didn't realize like it was
a struggle for him, of course, But it was fun like growing up
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on the farm. Like I hadthis this big barn and I'd climb the
silo and see how high I couldget, and my mom would be like,
get down from there. I'm like, look, mom, I'm at
the top. You know, she'slike having a heart attack. Yeah.
Yeah. And then we'd have thischicken coop that was all rusted out,
and I'd run on top of thechicken coop and try not to fall through.
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Yeah. And then yeah, itwas just a a maniac. I
was a maniac. I remember Igot diagnosed with ADHD when I was in
kindergarten. Yeah, and so themaniac and the ADHD, those are all
markers for the addictive biology, that'sall the same stuff. Yeah. Once
I found the bad drugs, well, I was gonna say also, kids
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that have ADHD find weed especially helpful. Yeah, it was. I'd be
so like, yeah, just likeI don't know, just so like so
much energy, and then I'd smokeweed and I just feel like calm again,
you know. So I was alwayslike trying to find that calmness.
Wow, looks like we've covered alot of ground. When we get back,
we'll continue our shitty conversation on howPoop's got his name and became part
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of the team alongside Stevo and JohnnyKnoxville. But first, a word from
today's sponsor. Welcome back. Maybeyou want to hear about Poopy's literal shitty
origin story. Maybe not, butyour call more on that. Right now,
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how'd you get with these guys withthe Johnny and Steve O? And
you call, oh, yeah,that's a funny story. Um so,
my friends in Carl's Bad there prosurfers Ricky Whitlock and Adam knox It's um
there, it's right when Laguna Beachcame out the reality TV show, right,
so they knew a couple of producersand they were filming a sizzle in
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Carl's Bad at the surf shop forit and they the producers asked them,
you got any like crazy friends,I'll do any stunts or anything. And
I remember getting the phone call likePoopies, come over to this shop,
like they they told me something.So I ran over, met him at
the beach that I grew up at, and before you know it, I'm
like sending it down this like movingcart down this hill. And yeah,
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and one of the producers was TripTaylor. Oh my gosh. Yeah,
so I met him when I waslike sixteen the groom you yeah, yeah,
yeah, my friends from um So, Poopies is funny story. It's
kind of a full circle. Ihope I'm not okay because please. Yeah,
it's kind of a full circle.I'm guessing what it has to do
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with. I'm just guess. Yeah, there's definitely poop involved. Um So,
we were watching Jackass when it firstcame out. The TV show shot
MTV. Yeah every Friday night.Hold. I was like sixteen sixteen,
yeah, yeah, fifteen sixteen.I was in Carl's Bad became the surf
rat, and my friends were likethought it was funny, but I thought
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it was like really funny, LikeI was more into it than my friends,
and that night, you know,when you're at like a friend's house
having a sleepover. We got Igot all excited. I was like,
I want to do something stupid tomorrow. So that day came. The next
day came and I totally forgot Isaid that, and then my friend's like,
you said you're gonna do something stupidtoday, and I was like,
oh shit, And like at thattime, it was more in time.
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I had a poop. So myfriend goes, oh, dude, you
should go out in the intersect andtake a poop in the intersection. So
I went out there. I wentthrough my friend's closet, found a grilla
mask from last year's Halloween, puton the grill of mass, put on
the gloves, and I went intothe intersection. I took a poop in
the intersection. I'll do it.Not the Peter Parker spider bite story we
were looking for, but we'll takeit. Yeah. But it was so
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funny because I was so nervous beforethat. I went out to the intersection.
We're on the sidewalk for like tenminutes, and the neighbors called the
cops because you were loitering. Yeah, they with like five of my friends.
So there's like six kids out therewaiting on the corner like they know
something's up. So though these days, shitting in the middle of the street,
it's not so unusual. See itall over the place. He got
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taken a ship at the beer today, like they told him to get the
freak out of there. But yeah, so I went out into the street
and I was taken a poop andthe cops rolled up so mid poop had
to pinch it off. I freakingfreaking try to I hide my mask and
gloves. My friends like hopped itsfence and got away and I was stuck
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there, Dude, I was stuck. They got me. So that was
the first time I've ever been arrested. Oh what was the public or something?
Yeah, in decent exposure and yeah, some other things. But back
before that, yeah yeah, soum yeah, So I remember I was
in the back of the cop carand then my friends went back to the
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my friend Charlie Stevens house, grabbedthe beach cruisers and ride by by me
in the beach cruiser. Well,I'm in the cop car and they're all
laughing. All poopies got arrested.H you know, they're all laughing.
And then the next day at school, that's when it really happened. That's
when it really hit me. They'relike, this kid pooped in the street,
you know, and like no onethought it was funny, you know.
So then it turned into I shippedmy pants. You know how those
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rumors start in scores of course,so distorted. Yeah, so it was
like, oh, this is thekid shit his pants, you know.
And then my friends like didn't meanforward to stick, but it stuck.
And every time I got called poopiesthey would laugh. So twenty years later,
yeah, seriously, it just occurredto me. Do you guys know
Chad goes deep? You look alook that up online and you need to
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interview those two guys. Okay,they are your doppelgangers. Okay, yes,
I love that. And they rageand they are into surfing. Oh
cool, yeah, surfing. Theygo to the city council meetings. Oh
I see those kids. Yes,I know. I actually watched that video
the other day. My friend putit on. They tan their taint and
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things like that. Yeah. Yeah, they're like trying to they like describe
the surf boards to the to thejudge and the jury. Yeah, the
city council I would love to dothat with them when they'd be perfect for
you. Yeah, that'd be awesome. We need to get them on.
But yeah, so that's how Igot my nickname, and yeah, ever
since then, and then I triedto go to Hawaii to get rid of
it, yeah, and it followedme there. Would you were ashamed of
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it? I was. I hatedit. Oh you know, people laughed
a lot with it. It wassort of all making fun of you.
Yeah, for sure. I wasdefinitely making fun a lot for a fifteen
year old kid to hand. Yeah, my friends were dicks, man.
Oh, I guess it is aboutdicks after all. Like I would have
to fight every one of my friendsor like my friends with dick is pretty
much our dicks. Pretty much whatevery fifty year old mail can say death
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right. Yeah. But I wasreally the really one that, like you
were the burn of the joke.Yeah, and I remember, dude,
it never went away. And Itried to go to Hawaii and I was
like, yeah, I got ridof my nickname, like I mean roducing
myself as Sean nown like. Andthen one of my friends flew over for
for a surf contest and he goes, no, his name's Poopies, Like,
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do not call him Sean. Hisname's Poopies. And they're like what
And then like next thing, youknow, everyone's calling me Poopies in Hawaii.
They just you lean into it atsome point. Yeah, I had
to accept it, like acceptance,you know, we talk a lot about
that in AA, but being beingPoopies process of accepting. Yeah, so
that was fun. But I likethat. I like that it's one of
your steps. Yeah. Yeah.I actually shared at the AA meeting,
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like my story about acceptance and howto accept my nickname Poopies that go over.
They were laughing. Yeah, they'relaughing. They loved it. Yeah,
it's been a it's been a journeyfor old Pooh here. But there's
a Poopies and there's a Sean,you know what I mean. So now
it'd be great to integrate the two. Yeah, that's sort of part of
the recovery process is bringing all thoseparts yourself. They're sort of fragmented,
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bringing them together and something. Okay, yeah, I'll try to do.
You can indulge one or the other, right, but you need to be
able to be whole at some point. Okay, Yeah, definitely, because
people won't even like, I won'teven respond to Sean. It's they're call
me Sean, but I don't.I'm not. It's so brainwashing into my
name in my brain that my name'spoopies. I don't even like hear Sean,
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so people be like Sean. Butnow it's like getting a little better
where people are calling me Sean.You know, they just call you Sean
at the meetings. Um, theytry to I say hi, I'm Sean.
I'm an alcoholic. They poop.Well that's good, that's all together.
Yeah, definitely. But yeah,I'm very blessed to be where I'm
at now. I'm blessed for myfriends. We make an effort in the
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It's interesting a lot of people invarious stages of addiction, and people in
media especially they have addiction, alwayshave some sort of name that's not their
own. It's weird. It's crazyhow often that is. And it's it's
just it's just routine and characters,and people use that as kind of being
a character as they become like acartoon to other people. But it's yeah,
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yeah, it's not a great placeto be because then they'll treat you
like a cartoon too. Exactly exactly. You don't get the respect you really
deserve, right and you can youcan own that cartoon party yourself. But
so so we we always make abig effort to call people by their name.
Yeah, that's yeah, it cutsthrough a little bit. It kind
of cuts through some of the bullshit. Yeah, it does, because that
is my name, you know,it's my first certificate name. That's when
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my mom gave me that name.But and you were Sean before you were
Poopies, you know. And yeah, and Poopies is a piece of Sean.
But if you push that out thereis all that you are. That's
a defense you're defending again for sure, because I'm always afraid of like,
you know, like them saying,oh, Poopies, his name is Poopies
because he's a piece of shit,you know. And I want to be
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the best man I can, youknow, and like I have such a
big heart, and I love helpingpeople, and like I kill at opportunities
for that. In sobriety cool,Yeah, that's that's I've already been helping
a couple of people's in a coupleof kids in the house. This kid's
like eighteen and he's in the inthe house and ah, he's so lost,
and I'm like the oldest one.I'm thirty six and they're all like
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twenty eighteen through twenty five that Ilive with five other individuals. It's it's
you'll you'll see that when they're younger, they tend to kind of it's like,
dude, do your chores, bro, it's so easy to struggle they
do, and it's just like soelementary stuff like oh, you didn't do
his chores, or like they justI don't know, they're lazy. They're
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used to their parents doing all theirstuff for them. No, it's you
bring up a really interesting topic.I've been thinking more lately about the fact
that that younger people with addiction todayneeds some kind of almost boot campy style
experience with the usual things, likesomething that really asks because it's we're in
a time right now when we don'task anything of people with addiction or mental
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illness. We don't ask anything.Yeah, I see, and you have
to ask them to start to dostuff so they can regain their life.
But make your bed there, dothese things and just do them, and
why because it's good for you haveto be able to do that. Actually
have a routine now and I havebetter hygiene. I'm like brushing my teeth
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at night in the morning and thenlike making my lunch. I haven't made
a lunch and who knows how long. So for anybody listening, that might
seem like what huh, But no, that's how it goes, like able
to have us your license up todate and things like that. Yet out
Luckily I got a good lawyer.Yeah, and he's been taking care of
all of my my tickets. BecauseI had a motorcycle and I was going
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like one tin on the freeway ona death wish on drugs and I'd get
pulled over and I had no morecycle license, no registration for the bike,
no insurance, and I wouldn't evenhave my driver's license on me.
So there's four No. Luckily,my lawyer knows the judge. But they
didn't that. But when you werestopped, they didn't just get in the
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car. No, Luckily they would. Luckily they did it. They would
either like tell me to call afriend to come pick you up, or
they'd tow my bike and say geta ride home, So I'd have to
uber home a lot. But yeah, I remember, how many times do
you do this, bro, Igot my I had three motor cycles.
They all got towed. Dude,you were so lucky to be alive.
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I know. I'd be going throughthe big diesel things and the cars right
there, and I'd be like woo, just like this much of a gap
and I'd be like whoo woo woom. I see those guys blow past me.
Oh my gosh, d in thevarious freeways out there. Yeah,
and I always think, oh shit, this guy's gonna be dead, and
so yeah, so bad for him. I felt. I didn't I don't
care, you know, do whatyou're gonna do. But this is beyond
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dangerous. Yeah, it was tooAnd I had no idea, like like
how to ride a motorcycle. Butit's like, clearly you didn't. My
kids, Yeah, somehow, becauseI've always seen those guys and I was
like, I'm going to do thatone day, you know, And I
finally got the chance to and itwas it was like the biggest adrenaline rush
ever. Yeah, you're gonna needsome kind of outlet. So surfing's my
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outlet. Okay, surfing. Iput the motorcycle away. I actually they're
still in the toe. Yeah,I'm pretty good. I don't like to
like no no I but I meanclaim stuff. But I was a little
bit of a beach kid when Iwas young too. Yeah, I know
where are you from. Well,I'm from Pasadena, but I spent a
lot of time in Laguna and newPortland time was younger down I love Laguna,
me too, love it. Yeah. I actually guarded a beach down
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there for a couple summers. Ohno way, yeah nice. It was
best constantly it was a it wasa breaking beach break too, with all
the two it was well, weweren't exclusively sure. We had we had
serious break at this beach. Andand I could tell when people walked onto
the sand who I was gonna haveto sell? No, immediately the tourist
comes in, definitely, they're tryingto get their selfie though they just sell
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me back then, but I wouldjust they would just walking. I just
sucked out immediately and then then gettingthe rip and here we go. Yeah.
Yeah, well that's cool. You'rea lifeguard, I know. That's
also the best job I ever hadby far. Yeah. You get to
go hang out the beach all day. And I was very I'm very was
very skilled in the water, likevery skilled. Yeah, you have to
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be. Yeah, And now I'mlike, how did I do that?
I can't do it at all?You could still do it still? Well,
I went, I went riding abike kind of No, I got
shoulders and they can't hold my breathas well. Yeah, definitely. Um,
you know, I could just handleanything off a cliff and big the
surfoy in fact, I liked itbigger yeah same, same, And and
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I just recently did a reality showcalled Special Forces. I've been seeing that,
so I was in that. Iwas in there. Yes, I
seen you. I was checking outyour Instagram. And whenever they threw us
in the red sea or in thewater, and I'm like, God,
thank you, thank you, becauseyeah, yeah I was in the sand,
it was like, shit, No, that's an awesome show. I've
watched. The trailer just got pickedup. Yeah, are you guys just
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aired it? We just it justaired. It's got two more episodes to
go. Um, and I don'tknow if they're gonna do another season.
So I got very sick out therein the dead of the heat. Got
really heat got me. Yeah,it's on Fox. It's on Fox at
nine o'clock on Wednesdays. Did youwatch everybody the jackass world will love this
shit? Yeah? I was seeingclips on your Instagram. I'm like,
(30:53):
whoa, this is pretty nartly sobeyond ary. When we were doing it,
I was thinking I was into it. I liked during it. I
was thinking, oh my god,this is the best television They've never no
one's ever recorded television like this,A and B. I kept thinking,
I don't think they can do thisagain. It's too dangerous. So you're
you're the doctor for I was oneof the recruits. So you're the celebritycruit.
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Yeah, yeah, awesome. Yeah, it didn't didn't go soone for
me, but but I but Igot very close with the fifteen other people
and we're all dear friends. That'sawesome. As they kept telling us,
you're gonna be bonded through pain,and we were awesome. You get really
bonded about for sure. Where theyalso burned there too. Is everybody sober,
you know, if they could nothave been, nobody had the Let
(31:37):
me think, I don't think anybodyhad addictive stuff, and you certainly couldn't
have recently been using and get throughthis thing. Yeah, yeah, you
die. They were dying because I'veseen the English dude like talking. He's
like, once they come into thosewalls, they're in mind the us.
Yeah, yeah, if you die, it's just nature's way of saying you
failed. I can't wait to watchit. I'm gonna watch it when I
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get home. Well, I don'tlast too long, so I don't don't.
If it's the first episode, yousort of see about all I'm going
to do. But I jumped outof a helicopter backwards. It was very
gnarly. Damn. Yeah. Igot towed by a helicopter with my water
skis one time. Yeah, theKey West, going way faster than you
imagine I imagine. Yeah, itwas pretty cool too, because they bring
me up and then dropped me backdown. You had, you had you
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had a wait a minute, doyou have a what do you call it
a wind sale or something? No? You were just straight up up and
down, straight up, holding onhard. Yeah, and I'd put my
toes up and then go land andI'm like yeah, and then they pulled
me up again. I felt likea superhero. Skis you to do with
just water skis? With water skis, I felt like a superheroes. Yeah.
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Well, yeah, I was nota young man anymore, so I
know I gotta get it in whileI'm still young. Yeah, I'm trying
to do it all while I'm stillyoung. And still it's good. Not
in a wheelchair yet, so that'sgood. And don't get your off in
a wheelchair. Try to use yourjudgment now not yeah, not going one
hundred and town on the one ten. Yeah, I was really scared on
the motorcycle. Which freeways did yougo? I was going from to LA
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four or five or five five?Oh down there? Would you get up
here? It's all get up heretoo, And I'd be like through going
through traffic, it's like stop traffic, going like thirty and I was like,
um, hopefully they don't pull outin front of me. It is
my We sound like an episode ofthe Californians now from SNL. Thank you
(33:30):
for laughing at this, but butit really But you know, we changed
lanes a lot on the freeways here, and my my constant, my nightmare
is that I'm going to pull intoone of you guys because I you know,
you check back, you know,you look down the lane. I
try to do that. I tryto sit I try to look for those
guys, but they come fast sometimes. Yeah. So what I did?
(33:51):
I take my muffler off show SuperLoud Rabbit, So splitting the lanes for
those of you. Yeah, soI was flitting the lanes a lot,
even when I shouldn't be. Iwas like, oh, look at this,
look at this gap. I'm gladyou did it. I'm glad you're
here. Yeah, I'm done withthat. I'm done with that. Thank
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you. See, we we gotsomething here right progress. You had that
trailer, do you remember, oh, the sprinter van. Yeah, yeah,
trailer. No, I just hada sprinter van, a Mercedes sprinter
van. Oh yeah, someone loanedit to me. I don't know what's
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wrong with them. Yeah, dude. So I was like, here's my
debit card, here's the deposit.They're like, okay, you're good to
go. I was like, what, I got it? But yeah,
they let me take it to Vegasand um yeah, I was that thing
goes fast. Yeah. They're likefive thousand pounds too. Yeah, dude,
Oh my gosh, I thought therewas gonna tip at this one moment.
Yeah, I put it. Iput the producer and Ryan in the
(34:55):
van and remind me not to getin a car with him. Well,
now I'm good. I came tosaying, yeah, let's see pass.
Yeah, this is my first timeactually driving again after yeah, oh yeah
you ubered back home. Yeah,he hubered back home. Yeah, I'm
sorry. I'm so sorry. Sothat's another thing. When you get to
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the man's step, you can seeexactly what's that step? Eight? Eight?
Eight, yeah, eight, it'seight, and teach you something about
that. Um, don't be ina hurry to do that, because early
on it's it's hard to to.It's really not just an apology. It's
also cleaning up your mess. Sowhatever the you know, you have to
(35:37):
clean up your side of the street, whatever you've caused, provide you don't
hurt somebody else or hurt yourself.You gotta make things good, you gotta
make things right. To apologize,of course, Yeah, it's gonna be
a list, for surely. There'sa lot. There's a lot that I
yeah right now, no, no, no, So I see you're so
such an emotional guyancing incredible. Goodfor you, But I see the guilt
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shame you're sinking already. That isno business here right now. Okay,
guilt and shame stop it. That'sthat's your illness. It makes you do
shit you wouldn't otherwise do. Yeah, for sure, stop it. Guilt
and shame will your disease will hearthat and want to take you out,
right, So it has no usehere. Yeah, that's so true.
Yeah, it works on everything,everything good and everything bad in your brain.
Your disease will take advantage of.Yeah, because they said, don't
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be the pity party, don't getin the pity party. And any part
of that is just to keep yougoing and get out of that ship so
you don't sink into it. Butbut also your disease will use it as
justification, right, going back out. Yeah, the thing is gnarly.
So I'm trying to build this foundation, get my rebards, like building the
house. My sponsor said, reallyis, isn't it. Yeah, brains
heal, slow, take your time, slowbriety, we call that, yeah,
(36:45):
slowbriety. I remember I got diagnosedwhen I was in kindergarten. I
was taking nine riddle of it aday. So you know, people worry
about you. Certainly have, there'sno doubt about that. But stop.
But but that's an asset, right, it's not strictly a liability, right,
We medicated a lot, we pathologizeit a lot, but you know,
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in your thirties, man, thisis an asset. You got energy.
You can do something good for you, but don't worry that the medication
somehow hurt you in some way.Yeah, during the age of eighteen.
So the adolescent and a child brainis actually different than an adult brain.
I don't like adults taking the ADHDtree because it's not good for you if
(37:27):
you have addiction. I was worriedabout that because I would always tell people
I've been taking reals kindergarten, youknow, But I'm glad that didn't.
Really it really does. And I'velooked at that. When I first started
happening, I thought, oh mygod, where's fucking these kids up?
And I've looked at that literature verycarefully, and it's fine. That's awesome,
but it's not fine when you're twentytwo. It'll just yeah, yeah,
I was in fourth grade. Goodbecause and there are things you can
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do if things get bad. Now, this something called clantitine or intunive and
things like that that you can takethat are safe for ADHD. But I
just rather you learn to manage itand use your assets accordingly. Yeah,
yeah, definitely, I definitely havebeen doing it. So I've been.
I've been so proud of myself.Should be. Yeah, it's hard.
I want to emphasize this fe Itis really hard. You don't know unless
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you've been where he's been, howhard it is. Yeah, it's just
so much biology and stuff stacked againststaying sober. It's just everything stacked against
you. You got to fight yourway into it. Yeah, and I
and I can do stuff without strugglingwith it now. Before it was such
a struggle just to do anything.And yeah, so like it would take
(38:36):
me an hour for a shower orlike something. Then I'd be late,
you know. I was always late, and I'd be rushing in traffic,
almost killing myself with my truck.I told my truck knotted off, fucking
ran into the wall, kicked itopen, like terminator, took my ebike
out of the back, rode myebike off the freeway, left that at
(38:58):
the hotel, lost my e bike. Sponsor, Yeah, called it uber,
went home. Yeah, it wascrazy, and then I thought like,
oh, it was fine. Ijust told him my truck, you
know, like everyone told us hertruck, you know, But no,
so so let me be clear toyour audience. We're not gonna take poopies
away from you. He's not gonnabe not poopies because he's sober. He's
(39:20):
gonna be not dead poopies for onething. Yeah, and he's gonna be
able to use all that that's stillhim in ways that are you know,
serve him and her focused. Andyou'll still do all that shit. I'm
sure. Yeah, I'm sure youwant to do in such a way that
you die. Yeah. It wasso weird because like now I feel like
myself again, you know, Iactually do feel like, hey, man,
if they do that Special Forces again, you'd be you'd be stuff or
(39:45):
you'd be awesome up out any day. Yeah, you'd be really good in
it. Obvi was stubbed. Yeah, actually got hopefully a TV show coming
out called What Not to Do.Yeah. It's like, um, all
these survival situations and I have ToryMarcelli from MythBusters. Oh yes, of
(40:05):
course, yeah, Toy, andit's me and him. It's great.
So he's gonna explain what you shoulddo in the situation. Then I come
in and I show you what notto do in the situation. It's good
so yeah, I can't wait forthat to happen. So, yeah,
it's good. That's what I've beenworking on. There's that unis that's you
know, focused, contained, yeah, deployed. Yeah, it's so it's
so awesome because like everything's like,I don't know, it's just like everything's
(40:30):
working out, like every day getsbetter. Well, that's the miracle.
Sobriety, right, and you're onthe pink cloud. Now it's not always
going to be like that. Yeah, And I don't want to take that
away from you, but it mightbe way for a while. Oh,
looks like Urban Dictionary came through witha definition pink cloud twelve step recovery jargon
referring to someone knew who talks abouthow great life is now that they're sober,
(40:52):
usually meaning that the person is outof touch with reality. Well,
don't rag on poops that bad,But this does have sixty nine downloads.
Nice, but you know, lifehas struggles, will come. Yeah,
it's crazy. Could be a muchbetter position to handle it. And by
the way, the ship becomes partof the richness of living rather than just
the ship. Yeah right, yeah, I'm like I'm the captain of my
(41:14):
own ship. So I definitely gotto listen. And you know what's about
your situation I think is you aresuch an emotional it's such a big heart.
As you say, you are suchan emotional person that that will provide
constant richness and guidance for you ifyou listen to it, if you hear
it, yeah, you know whatI mean. No, I definitely hear
it, definitely. Yeah, Andyou got to hear also the little voice
(41:36):
that says, don't do that,and maybe that's not good for you to
do. That's that's my freaking guttelling me. You know, that's your
guts exactly what it is. Soyou got your heart and your gut and
you're hooked up to it now.And people don't appreciate how much this stuff
is part of our experience, rightand who we are. And yeah,
I should listen. I should havelistened to my gut from fucking day one.
(41:57):
Yeah, but when you're using,you can't. Yeah, you guy,
he was your your disease. Takeagain, We'll take over all that.
It takes it over and goes,hey, you're got selling you to
use use? Yeah, it wasit was crazy. It was crazy.
I thought nothing was wrong with me, you know, and I hit it
so well too, and then finallyit's just like everything just fell apart.
My friends started avoiding me, likeI wasn't surfing. I was just freaking.
(42:20):
I ended up living. You needto, um, look at all
that and be hopeful that that's allyou have to do. Yeah, definitely,
I'm lucky I'm not dead or injail, right like that, that's
hopefully enough for you. Yeah itwas enough. That was enough for me.
Like I was like, okay,I've had my fun. Time to
(42:42):
get to the real world more fun. Yeah, I have been having more
fun. Actually, yeah, I'mso actually experience yeah exactly. Like today
I was driving through um the fouroh five, and I've seen the city
of la actually like like Admi likeadmired it. Yeah. I didn't just
(43:06):
fly by it and go fuck off, you know. Yeah, I was
like, wow, that's a beautifulcity. And how is your sleep?
It's been great? Dam Um Noyou will, No, I haven't you
will. I had it and don'tbe afraid of those those are good.
Okay. Yeah, I had adream last night, though I don't know
where I was. I must havebeen in London or something, and I
was with my friends from Hawaii andthey had a paintball gun and I was
(43:28):
running from him and they're trying toshoot me with the paintball gun. And
they finally found me and just litme up with the paintball gun. And
I woke up and it was dawn, and I go, oh, I
gotta go surfing. So yeah,it's been good. Oh yeah, it
was kind of cool. I waslike hiding like under people and stuff,
and I don't know how they weren'tgetting shot, but I was getting shot
(43:51):
out. It was weird getting chased. Yeah, I was getting chased.
Yeah, I was cool. Andthen I like try to hide and they
found me. I was like,I hope in this one cabinet up and
there's all it was like full editionsor something and I couldn't hide it and
then here they come boom. Itwas a very real dream. Yeah,
the dreams tend to be very vividat this stage of the game. Yeah,
it's it can be upsetting too.They can be troubling, but there
(44:13):
it's all good. It's all workingthrough, it's all reminding you of things.
It's yeah, I've been actually goingto bed at nine thirty ten.
Sort of dreams become almost rehearsals atthis stage of the game should be like,
you'll find out what does it feellike if I use? Because your
dreams will take you there. No, no, I just have this one
memory that I think about. I'mnot gonna I'll tell you after the podcast,
(44:35):
but it's really bad. Okay,well, okay, I'll say it
looks like we've unpacked a lot fromPoopy's origin to how it used to be
that asshole, that asshole revving theirship up at two am down the freeway.
Come on, Poops, when we'reback from another break, we'll talk
about how Poops got down bad andfinally got on his turnaround. But first,
(45:02):
welcome back, little Poops. Nowlet's lift the script a bit and
get into what makes this the Shittiestpodcast A special episode. Yeah, so
at the very end of it,all of the hole using, I was
in Santa Anna. Somehow I letthis guy take my U haul. Well
(45:22):
I didn't really let him. Igave him the keys to go sleep in
because I modified it. Had abad a couch and everything had like a
propane tank with the torch thing wasmy heater and light. And I let
him like get the keys because Iwas at my friend's house and he was
like, I'm not I'm not hangingout anymore, Like I'm gonna go to
(45:42):
bed, Okay, go to bed. And then in the morning time,
my friend had to go to workand the U haul was gone. It's
your home. That was my home. My home was gone. So I
had my dog and just me,and I was like trying to call him.
He wasn't answering. I couldn't getahold of him. I thought he
stole my U haul. So Icalled the cops, reported stolen, and
they go, dude, you gavehim the keys. Oh wow, that's
(46:07):
not a stolen vehicle. Wow.So they couldn't do anything, and they
go, here's a homeless shelter number. So they gave me a homeless shelter
number. And then I remember thatday I was freaking out the gas station
and I didn't have a phone chargerand I didn't have any money because my
phone was dead. I only haddigital wallet, so I had to get
my phone charger to get money tofreaking get water or beer. First thought
(46:31):
was beer, alcohol, I needalcohol. So I remember bombing change at
the gas station and my UM apparatusfell out of my pocket and broke,
and I was like, that's asign. That is the sign to stop,
you know, you need help.So was at your bottom right there?
(46:52):
Yeah that was an right then.Yeah, I was like, oh
my gosh, my apparatus just broke, Like I have no money and I'm
still begging for money. So Ihave that memory of me begging for money
at the gas station. She's interesting. Our addiction takes you to homelessness every
time. Yeah. Yeah, withoutmy U haul, I was homeless where
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you were homeless with the U haultwo. Yeah, it was actually that
wasn't my home. People people usethese youth miss, Oh we're living the
van life. You're fucking homeless.Yeah yeah. I was like, yeah,
the vamily's great. So I startedfinding all these van life spots.
Was homeless. Yeah yeah, they'rejust yeah lost people man, and yeah,
(47:35):
and I thought it was all right, you know, but usually that
with that, with that happens,they're getting enough money from their families to
keep that ship going. So theteams are enabling them by giving them enough
to keep them right, Yeah,I'm going or whatever. Yeah. I
remember I blew with you so muchmoney, man, so sad was now
you seem to shame to telling thatstory about the apparatus and all this stuff.
Is that the whole story? Isthere more? Um, that's pretty
(47:55):
much the rock bottom. And thenI finally got eight bucks to buy phone
charge you're missing. Usually people startto sell themselves for sex or start thinking
about that or nothing. Because luckilyI got a hold of my friend and
he goes, bro, I gotyour U haul taking all your stuff out
because I had to return to theU haul. It has been two months
I've had it, and I onlytold him I was supposed to have it
(48:19):
for three days. Yeah, sothe U Haul's calling me, hey,
you gotta return this now. Soand my friend had it. So luckily,
um, he had the U haulguy's number so that he was talking
with the U haul two. Sohe dropped it off up in Sacramento.
My U haul returned it, tookall my stuff out for him. He
put it in his Denali and drovethe Nalie back from Sacramento picked me up
(48:44):
in Santa Anna that day. Well, he wasn't a friend. He was
some crazy guy that was controlling me. Oh shit, yeah, oh well
this is the part I was lookingfor. Yeah, so I was in.
He was controlling me because we're goingup to get his van so I
can return the U haul and livein one of his vans that he supposedly
(49:05):
was going to sell to me.So he ended up picking up his Denali
puts all my clothes and stuff inthere. This is where it gets good.
Puts all my clothes in there,comes picks me up. We stopped
by Santa Cruz and where I waslike, dude, I just want to
get home, like I ran outof my drugs. I just want to
get home, you know. Sohe drove the whole way when I was
freaking going through withdrawals. No,no, he wasn't he. I never
(49:31):
used with him once. Okay,so I don't know what he was on.
But he thought there was a productionfilm in him. He said he
made up the movie the Fockers becauseall these guys are filming him and he
calls them fuckers, you fockers.So he was mentally ill, I think,
yeah, So we finally get backto talking fast. Yeah, he'd
(49:52):
like freestyle rap and stuff. Soyeah, I think he was. Man.
I knew he was mentally ill,and then I was like, fuck,
when I get myself into you know, so I was like, just
get me home. You know,he's stopped and by all these houses.
Like we went to the hospital tosee some lady that he knew, and
then we went to this other ladythat he knew, and she had a
huge mansion and she ended up tellingus, you guys gotta go. So
(50:16):
he was making his stops while tryingto get me home, but I was
so out of it, like Ijust wanted to fucking die at that time,
Like I felt like shit. Andso we finally get home to Carlsbad.
You know, that night, hebecause he parked his van in the
parking lot in Carlsbad village, sohe kind of like said, here's the
(50:37):
Denali. I'm gonna sleep in myvan. You can sleep in the Dnali.
And then when I wake up,his van was right next to his
Denali. Of course, right,it's his it's his car, you know.
But in my like messed up mind, I thought he was gonna give
me the Dnali because at first he'slike, no, you can have the
van that I have in Carlsbad,Like, let me go get the Nali.
(50:59):
You can have the van. Soall of a sudden, now I'm
in. I'm under his control nowbecause I'm sleeping in his car. So
we rolled up to the beach atState Beach and that's my local surf shop,
and the guy was still fucking followingme around, you know, like
he thought I was his buddy.I was trying to get out of it.
So I call it my friend,Brandon Glade, and I go,
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Brandon, you gotta come fucking saveme right now. So he pulls up
to the beach, he goes,poopies, just throw all your shit into
my truck and the back of mytruck. Don't even try to fold it
or anything. Just get all yourship put in the back of my truck.
And that's when I went into selfdetalks. That guy follow you to
any of that stuff? Um,yeah, Brandon Glade. Oh the other
(51:42):
guy, Oh no, who knowswhere he's at right now. His name's
Jesse James. Yeah, that's hisreal name, and he's he's very crazy.
Um, people think he's the JesseJames from the Motorcycle Show, right
he thinks he is. Oh dude. He was like telling me, Yeah,
there's people filming us right now andthey upload it like and make a
(52:02):
movie. I'm like, dude,this is gnarly. Bro. This guy's
crazy. I'm like, where thefilmer's at. He goes, they're in
the cars. You can you cansee him. Oh no, dude,
I don't see anyone filming us.Yeah, because they know, you know,
they're we're looking at him. Andthen he'd be like, we were
in Santa Cruz this one time,super crazy, super crazy um position I
(52:23):
was in and he goes, hestarts yelling at everyone like like, get
out of the freaking scene. Youguys are in the scene. Oh my
gosh. And then he thought they'reall actors in his movie. I mean,
he could be schizophrenic too. It'syeah, yeah, things are all
treatable. It kills me that thepeople are allowed to ruin their lives and
(52:44):
to hurt themselves. Yeah, itwas so crazy. There's a whole production
filming them. He thought he's makingmovies. He'll end up help us too.
Yeah for sure. Well he livesin the van, you know.
Yeah. But yeah, so Iknew I had to it out of that
situation, you know, So Icalled my body and I remember, think
about it. If you hadn't beenclear, I mean detoxing, you might
(53:06):
have just who knows what? Oh, yeah, who knows. I've fallen
to his freaking whatever trap whatever?Yeah, who knows? Yeah, dude,
it's crazy. And then he waslike, you guys aren't getting your
invoices today, like he was ona good one. But yeah, it
was. It was. That wasthe last of it all. And then
I went into Selfty Talks and thenI got help from Stevo and I'm thirty
(53:29):
five days sober. I'm so gladyou're here. Yeah, thanks, me
too, mean too, Yeah youshould be. Yeah, I'm sure you're
all as delight more delighted. Youknow what I do. It's a it's
the real deal. It's the miracle. Yeah, I feel so much better.
Like emotions now, I see,I see them, they flash,
they come, they come across andsee my eyes watering. Well that's just
your eyes watering. I see that. I see the feelings in your eyes.
(53:51):
Yeah, yeah, it was.I was on a fucking bad one.
They say a good one, butit was a bad one. It
was a bad one. Yeah,it had to be what it had to
be. Yeah, probably more nightmareswill emerge and you'll start thinking of other
shit. Jesus. Yeah, formy viewers, out there. I'm sorry,
guys, but why because they neverI don't think they knew I had
a problem. Maybe some of themdid, but some of them didn't.
(54:14):
You know, Well, like Itold you, Like I told you,
when you're just putting the cartoon characterup front, they don't care. You
need to be a person out ofthem. Yeah. I like you a
lot more that trust me. Yeah, I love you all the subscribers.
I love you guys. And yeah, the merge is out, and I
promise he's not going to change.Don't worries this is It's just gonna be
Sean Poopies, Sean poopies, Mac. Yeah, it's right. But yeah,
(54:38):
life's getting better every day. Man. I just want to follow the
AA steps and work on myself anddo what I gotta do to get very
simple through this. Yeah. Yeah, I'm just I'm really glad you came
on too. I'm so glad tosee you. What. I'm glad it's
now and not before. Yeah,you would have left you not We're probably
(55:00):
would left, but I would havebeen worried. You would have definitely knew
I was on something. Yeah,that's what happens to me, man,
I know, and I was Iwould probably be in denial. Well,
and so it's gonna be like thedance at Me and Steve used to do.
It's like, dude, if you'reever ever interested, Yeah, no,
I'm so. I'm so blessed tohave you here for sure anytime.
Probably cool. Thank you, Thankyou so much. Um, I think
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that wraps it up for me anddoctor Drew, thank you so much.
Thank you, and then really meetyou. Let's go surfing sometime. Yeah,
rot you back in the water.Yeah, I know I need to
get out there. I need todo it. You're right, Carl's Bad's
got some some decent break. Wellwe can go serve. We got to
do it. Yeah, let's doit. We'll take you to the wedge.
No, I'm joking. Well that'sthe kind of beach I guarded something
(55:43):
like that. Yeah, the shotbreakinglaguna with a shotbreak with with you know,
with the wedge. Yeah. Yeah, I think I know what wave
you're talking about. It's a littlesecret wave. Yeah we won't say it,
but I'll be in trouble. Butyeah, there's a little soft wave
in Huntington Beach Pier. Oh yeah, you can get you on the soft
top, all right, fair enough. I don't way the soft Let's get
(56:05):
you on the soft top first thenno, but thank you so much,
Doc, and um, we'll seeyou guys next time on the Shittiest Podcast
Ever. Love you all and yeah, this is my story. Thank you.
Well that about does it for thisshitty episode. Thanks for watching,
listening, whatever shitty way you're gettingthis until next time. Push it real
(56:28):
good, dollalla Bill, y'all notget the fuck out of my house.
The Shittiest Podcast is produced by theWorld's Worst people, Tyler Nielsen, Bryan
Tillotson, Frank Driscoll and narrated byMe the Narrator. Special thanks to the
straw Hut team
Straut Media. All right, I'mlooking at that camera. M. But
yeah, it's just like the firsttime. I'm actually early. Oh yeah,
I got a good story, someof it nights M. Vivaldi's into
(00:22):
club interesting. Oh oh ah,I guess I guess the film cruise here
today. M. Seriously, nobodytold me fuck well out of one of
the shittiest days in the shittiest weeksin the shittiest fucking year, almost halfway
(00:45):
done. I don't get paid enoughto do this shit. Hey, your
little Poops definitely been a while.You may be wondering where Poops and the
crew have been for. Oh,I don't know when was the last one?
Six months? Fucking christ? Soyeah, last time was about six
months ago. What happened the poopiesfinally bounced to Fiji, never to be
heard from again. Did he getcarried away constructing Uncle Bucker's buttfucker dungeon or
(01:07):
perhaps something else. We'll get backto that in about two entire episodes.
In the meantime, here's his conversationwith doctor Drew Pinsky or doctor Drew for
short. You know about him,right, Doctor Drew, the guy that's
popped in on Teen Moms several guestappearances on lots of shows and hosted shows
like Celebrity Rehab, co host ofthe show love Line with Adam Carolla for
(01:29):
for twenty years, maybe others,but more on that soon with the sex
and addiction treatment expert himself. Butthis might not be all about drugs,
kink, snipples and dicks. Solet's find out now, pink cloud,
you're on the pink Cloud down.Yeah, I don't even know what that
means. Put your hands together.That was taken to poop and the cops
(01:53):
rolled up, so mid poop hadto pinch it off. The shittiest podcast
in the world, are you guys? Welcome back to the Shittiest podcast ever.
It's been a while since I've producedor been on the podcast, but
(02:15):
we have the legendary doctor Drew Pinski. Privileged to be here. I've always
wanted to be on the shittiest podcast, at least not the second shittiest.
It is the first most shittiest podcast. Congratulations, Thank you, thank you,
and thanks for coming here and makingtime out of your data. I
don't live too farm here, Ilive in Pasadena, so all right,
(02:36):
you've got Knoxville to come all overhere. You certainly get me right,
no problem. Yeah, yeah,that's awesome. Yeah, actually is my
first time being early? You saidthat, and I was impressed. Is
that for me? Or is thataccident? That's not accident. Um,
it's just because I'm sober now,congratulations, thank you? Yeah, how's
that going good? I'm like thirtythree or thirty four days. So for
(02:58):
you, Steve helping you. Steveactually helped me here and got me a
scholarship into a rehab. Oh goodfor you. Man. He finally wanted
to get sober before. I wasjust doing it to please people. Yeah.
I know, you gotta want todo it. You're wasting your time
otherwise. But but people do notand I know, and people do not
know that three days a big deal. Yeah, it's it's not easier to
(03:20):
do this. Yeah, they callit the pink cloud. Pink cloud.
Let's check the dictionary, my imaginarydictionary. Huh. As it turns out,
the only thing from Webster that comesup as cloud pink nown a grayish
yellowish pink that is redder and slightlystronger than irish move. Isn't that from
the painting show that puts everyone tosleep? Painting Show that puts everyone to
(03:42):
sleep. I mean, Bob Rosswriter, you mean Bob Ross. Let's
really visit that in a little bit. You're on the pink cloud. Now,
yeah, I don't even know whatthat means. It means. It
means that you feel so good.It may not be feeling the way you
were feeling, and you're so hopefulbecause there is so much hope in the
program and stuff, but in it, you know, life is a certain
thing and there's always shitty days ahead. Yeah, people fall off of that
(04:05):
pink cloud and it's sort of surprisingto them, like they're gonna be like
this rest of their life. Butwhat I will tell you, the pink
cloud is a a peak at what'scoming. Well, he will actually be
happier than the pink cloud. Ifthat's good. That's good. Yeah,
because like I get my feelings arecoming back and like my emotions, Yeah,
(04:25):
welcome. It's like, yeah,the real world finally hit me.
And I'm like, oh shit,but yeah aa, I've been doing aa
a lot good. Yeah. Igo to meetings Monday, Tuesday, Thursday,
Friday's good. I got you gozoom or do you actually go?
No? Actually go? Good foryou man, sponsor yet, Yeah,
I gotta sponsor. Dude, you'redoing yeah yeah, shout out, shout
out Clifton. He's my a sponsor. He's an og he's been he's been
(04:48):
through it all and he's yeah,you want to be with the winners,
the people who know the yeah,shot up speed, I've done it all.
Like I was like, wow,dude, you gotta you got a
story. But yeah, and thatyou witch you after you need to understand
is it? That's where you wouldgo? It just goes. It's a
progressive thing, right, and somepeople need to go there, right,
(05:09):
Yeah you don't. Yeah, Idefinitely have the disease. It's a thing,
right, it's a thing. It'sa bad story. I actually was
like, no, I'm not analcoholic, you know, of course,
and that's the first step in meetingyou're powerless, you know. Well,
it's it's you know what happens inthis first year god willing uh is that
(05:30):
you'll have more and more light bulbsgoing off like oh shit, oh yeah
was that too? Oh my god? I did enough for real because my
girlfriend Hannah, she was the onethat like said I needed help. You
know, you better get some helpor you're gonna lose me. I didn't
want to lose her. Good,she's an angel. Very listen. People
don't you Typically they can, butthey don't. Typically just wake up one
(05:53):
day and I gotta get over.It's usually the law losses people around them
they care about. You know,you lose your kids or your spouse,
or you just lose things. Itcauses you to lose stuff. Yeah,
And the thing about the disease isthat it's a distortion of motivation. So
the way your brain works is yourbrain thinks those things aren't as important as
using and that's of course a distortion. Yeah. It was definitely just a
(06:15):
good job, Hannah, well doneand early is early really an exceptional thing
for him? Really a big deal? Okay, good, Yeah, he
knows good. That's good. Lasttime I showed up here, m I
stopped in the parking lot and thenI ate some seven to eleven hot dog
before and the drugs were really agetting to me then and then um yeah,
(06:39):
I pretty much parked and called Ryanand said, hey, I can't
do this podcast. You know,I got it. I might throw up
or I was just like scared actuallyto come in here and do it with
drugs what's interesting watching you and listeningto you. I can see in your
eyes the pain that the admitting theat and contending with that how fully that
(07:01):
is you know. Yeah. Actually, my producers he didn't even know I
was on drugs and I just toldhim today and he's like, oh my
gosh, this producer, Yeah,he's a lot better. Right. Well,
I'm no producer. They sometimes popin maybe rage face a bit,
but you have an expert right there, poops. Yeah, oh man.
Yeah, and don't you know,let hit let his recovery be his own
(07:25):
journey. You know, it's notany of yours. It's his, and
he's got to do it the wayhe does it. Whatever that's going to
be. Yeah, I mean thetwelve steps help a lot. It's uncanny.
Yeah, hopefully fellowship and the communityand a Yeah, I have a
whole group meeting, the whole meetingthat I go to Where you live.
I'm in Huntington Beach right now,So you do no meetings out there in
(07:46):
Orange County? Yeah, like umin Newport Beach. Newport is a huge
recovery community. Yeah, fish outof Water. Oh yeah, so so
is that at Hogue? Is thatheld at Hogue? Or of church or
something or no, it's just upin this room. Okay, yeah,
but assume where they all. Newporthas got lots of sobriety, lots of
good sobriety. Yeah, it's crazy. Like there's some people in there that
have Like I'll listen to them.I'm like, whoa, I wasn't even
(08:09):
that bad, you know, butI take. I take, like I
just take. But you're gonna know, yeah, you gotta you gotta look
for the similarities, not the differenceexactly. Know what I can tell you,
if somebody works with this thing alot, you would have gone there.
You still may need to go there. I don't know. I hope
not, because it's very dangerous.Yeah, Like, I definitely have cravings
and I just gotta like really likework on those, you know. So
(08:31):
let me talk to you about cravings. So is this what you wanted to
talk about today? Was? Okay? So it's because I can talk about
this all day. So cravings Alot is made of cravings in my world
and medicine. I actually thinks cravingsare very good thing because it's it's your
disease, letting you know it's rightthere. Yeah, and you better do
(08:52):
something, or those cravings gonna takeover the people that I worry about,
the ones that have no cravings andhave they feel like they have their shit
together, because of course they don't. And so that's a distortion. And
to be humble and craving and youknow a little bit in pain, that's
where you should be right now.Yeah, that's where you should be.
Because I had a couple of testsum our recovery program. They took us
(09:15):
to the Ducks game and that waslike the first time I've ever been to
a sporting Yeah, bro, itwas talking to me. It grew eyes
and started talking to me. Iwas like, no, don't do it.
Do you have a good time anyway? Yeah? I had a good
time talking. Yeah, and Ifreaking had my self controlled kicked in and
I and I didn't freaking drink outof soda and a pizza. Good and
(09:37):
the and the mechanism is to talkabout it with your sober peers, people
that have had sobriety, because ifyou talk about it with people that have
not that much sobriety, you'll goout together. Yeah. I can't do
that, Like I'm in a hundredpercent you know, think God Stevo helped
me out and got me into agood program and good. He is the
man, dude, he is theman. He's that dude. That dude.
(09:58):
It was way down the road andI used to talk to him about
it. There's a famous couple offamous appearances on Adam Carolla's old talk show
on Comedy Central where we broke atable, a glass table and pushed Adam
over and so you were seeing thatvideo he was live even and I was
like, dude, you know,when you're ready and he and he goes,
(10:20):
hey, man, a guy,you know, dude, and he
said, when I'm ready, Iwill do it. Yeah, you don't
have to keep talking to me aboutthis because I when I know I'm ready,
I'm gonna go all the way tothe mat. And I'm like whatever,
you know. Yeah Yeah, Andthat dude when it came time went
just had just brilliant, just sointo it and never looked back. Wow.
(10:43):
Yeah, he had to take itall the way there. Yeah.
He's such an inspiration for me becausehe told me, like I was in
San CLEMANI and I went to thismeeting because I did his self d talks
for ten Day's Boy and then Ifreaking relapsed on New Year's sure, yeah,
and then I freaking I was ThenI was just like I need help.
Yeah, so I reached out toStevo. I went to this AA
(11:03):
meeting at Ryan Scheckler's in Saint ClementiAnd that was the night I freaking decided
that I wanted it. You're good, it's good, and yeah, they're
all super stoked. We'll go seeyou in ninety days. I go,
I only wanted thirty days. Butit's so it's such a blessing in disguise
because I got this opportunity and Ijust want to take so much advantage of
(11:26):
it. And I'm learning so muchthat the boat. You're super emotional,
dude, and oh yeah, andI see that also the joy in your
eyes at the recovery part y rightnow, I see the pain of misery.
Yeah, he's super emotional. Right, this guy's got emotionally and I
love that. I like that.But I see the joy in the recovery,
(11:46):
and I see the pain of miserythat the disease cost you. Yeah,
it was it was hard, youknow, Like it was just like
I was rock bottom and I waslike, this is like I need help.
You know, and it's like Igot the help that I needed,
and it's like where you grew up. I grew up in Carlsbad, so
not far from Yeah, I wasat the surf shop, like skipping school.
(12:07):
I'd wait for my dad would dropme off. I'd wait for him
to leave, and then I'd ridemy beach cruiser back down the hill to
the beach, and then I wentto the surf shop. Was I was
like, yeah, of course,oh the weed. We were smoking bong
rips out of this little plastic freakingwater bottle underneath the miniram time. At
that time, I was like sixteenfifteen, Yeah, fifteen to sixteen.
(12:31):
So yeah, the best times,you know, because me and my friends
were like we got to get stonebefore we surf. It was like a
mission to get our little nug beforewe go surf, Like we wouldn't go
surf without it, of course.And then and then that's just what I
did my whole life. I workedup in Humble on the weed farms.
I was a trimmer. Oh boy, So I would tell my daughter's a
(12:54):
year recovering from weed. Oh wow, way down the road with it and
destroyed her life. And yeah,I mean, I'd was so lazy and
then like just like not even likeinterest in any like type of work.
Yeah. It's weird, isn't that. Yeah, Like I became a trimmer
so I could smoke weed and justfuck off all day, you know,
and then you make maybe one hundredand fifty bucks a day. Then you
(13:18):
got a grocery shopping and all thisstuff. But yeah, and then I'd
try to save my money. I'dhave like three three thousand dollars and October
would come around and my goal wasto be in Hawaii before my birthday.
And my birthday's October twenty first,so I would fly out right before my
birthday, get to Hawaii, andbefore you know it, I'm broke in
Hawaii because you spent so much.Yeah yeah, and the food there's expensive,
(13:43):
livings expensive. And then I'd haveto find a job there, and
then it was pretty much just likepretty much just like I remember this one
job I had as this local guywho had this big property and he just
made us like do all the likehardest work ever. So I was out
there freaking cut down cane grass,pulling up ship from the ground, and
(14:05):
just you know, just crazy,crazy jobs. But I'm good for you
surviving and you know, being industrialit definitely made me stronger, like as
a human definitely. But yeah,do you ever contemplate going back to school
or anything like that? So school, No, I wasn't the best at
school because we were high all thetime. Who the hell knows. Yeah,
yeah, So I got in troublemy junior year and my dad's like,
(14:28):
you need to go back to yourmom's in Missouri. What's your mom
doing to Missouri? My mom remarriedwhen I was in third grade and my
stepdad's family lived there. Just sowild to go from Carl's Bad to Missouri.
Well, I was in before Carl'sBad, it was Missouri, and
then before Missouri was a riverside soI was born in Redland's Hospital. Wow,
so my mom remarried. We endedup moving out to Missouri to my
(14:52):
stepdad's um, mom and dad's house. Well, it wasn't a house,
it was a trailer. So there'slike five us in the trailer, Me,
my brother, my little brother.And then they finally like found jobs
and like, I was so proudof my mom. Though. We moved
into a house finally, but Iremember we moved into a farmhouse and it
(15:13):
was four hundred bucks a month.And I remember my my stepdad, which
he is my dad. He prettymuch raised me, and back and forth
with my my real dad. Butyeah, I remember they're arguing over the
rent and it was four hundred bucks. And at the time, also little
I didn't even like notice, youknow, I didn't realize like it was
a struggle for him, of course, But it was fun like growing up
(15:35):
on the farm. Like I hadthis this big barn and I'd climb the
silo and see how high I couldget, and my mom would be like,
get down from there. I'm like, look, mom, I'm at
the top. You know, she'slike having a heart attack. Yeah.
Yeah. And then we'd have thischicken coop that was all rusted out,
and I'd run on top of thechicken coop and try not to fall through.
(15:56):
Yeah. And then yeah, itwas just a a maniac. I
was a maniac. I remember Igot diagnosed with ADHD when I was in
kindergarten. Yeah, and so themaniac and the ADHD, those are all
markers for the addictive biology, that'sall the same stuff. Yeah. Once
I found the bad drugs, well, I was gonna say also, kids
(16:18):
that have ADHD find weed especially helpful. Yeah, it was. I'd be
so like, yeah, just likeI don't know, just so like so
much energy, and then I'd smokeweed and I just feel like calm again,
you know. So I was alwayslike trying to find that calmness.
Wow, looks like we've covered alot of ground. When we get back,
we'll continue our shitty conversation on howPoop's got his name and became part
(16:41):
of the team alongside Stevo and JohnnyKnoxville. But first, a word from
today's sponsor. Welcome back. Maybeyou want to hear about Poopy's literal shitty
origin story. Maybe not, butyour call more on that. Right now,
(17:03):
how'd you get with these guys withthe Johnny and Steve O? And
you call, oh, yeah,that's a funny story. Um so,
my friends in Carl's Bad there prosurfers Ricky Whitlock and Adam knox It's um
there, it's right when Laguna Beachcame out the reality TV show, right,
so they knew a couple of producersand they were filming a sizzle in
(17:25):
Carl's Bad at the surf shop forit and they the producers asked them,
you got any like crazy friends,I'll do any stunts or anything. And
I remember getting the phone call likePoopies, come over to this shop,
like they they told me something.So I ran over, met him at
the beach that I grew up at, and before you know it, I'm
like sending it down this like movingcart down this hill. And yeah,
(17:48):
and one of the producers was TripTaylor. Oh my gosh. Yeah,
so I met him when I waslike sixteen the groom you yeah, yeah,
yeah, my friends from um So, Poopies is funny story. It's
kind of a full circle. Ihope I'm not okay because please. Yeah,
it's kind of a full circle.I'm guessing what it has to do
(18:10):
with. I'm just guess. Yeah, there's definitely poop involved. Um So,
we were watching Jackass when it firstcame out. The TV show shot
MTV. Yeah every Friday night.Hold. I was like sixteen sixteen,
yeah, yeah, fifteen sixteen.I was in Carl's Bad became the surf
rat, and my friends were likethought it was funny, but I thought
(18:33):
it was like really funny, LikeI was more into it than my friends,
and that night, you know,when you're at like a friend's house
having a sleepover. We got Igot all excited. I was like,
I want to do something stupid tomorrow. So that day came. The next
day came and I totally forgot Isaid that, and then my friend's like,
you said you're gonna do something stupidtoday, and I was like,
oh shit, And like at thattime, it was more in time.
(18:56):
I had a poop. So myfriend goes, oh, dude, you
should go out in the intersect andtake a poop in the intersection. So
I went out there. I wentthrough my friend's closet, found a grilla
mask from last year's Halloween, puton the grill of mass, put on
the gloves, and I went intothe intersection. I took a poop in
the intersection. I'll do it.Not the Peter Parker spider bite story we
were looking for, but we'll takeit. Yeah. But it was so
(19:18):
funny because I was so nervous beforethat. I went out to the intersection.
We're on the sidewalk for like tenminutes, and the neighbors called the
cops because you were loitering. Yeah, they with like five of my friends.
So there's like six kids out therewaiting on the corner like they know
something's up. So though these days, shitting in the middle of the street,
it's not so unusual. See itall over the place. He got
(19:42):
taken a ship at the beer today, like they told him to get the
freak out of there. But yeah, so I went out into the street
and I was taken a poop andthe cops rolled up so mid poop had
to pinch it off. I freakingfreaking try to I hide my mask and
gloves. My friends like hopped itsfence and got away and I was stuck
(20:03):
there, Dude, I was stuck. They got me. So that was
the first time I've ever been arrested. Oh what was the public or something?
Yeah, in decent exposure and yeah, some other things. But back
before that, yeah yeah, soum yeah, So I remember I was
in the back of the cop carand then my friends went back to the
(20:25):
my friend Charlie Stevens house, grabbedthe beach cruisers and ride by by me
in the beach cruiser. Well,I'm in the cop car and they're all
laughing. All poopies got arrested.H you know, they're all laughing.
And then the next day at school, that's when it really happened. That's
when it really hit me. They'relike, this kid pooped in the street,
you know, and like no onethought it was funny, you know.
So then it turned into I shippedmy pants. You know how those
(20:51):
rumors start in scores of course,so distorted. Yeah, so it was
like, oh, this is thekid shit his pants, you know.
And then my friends like didn't meanforward to stick, but it stuck.
And every time I got called poopiesthey would laugh. So twenty years later,
yeah, seriously, it just occurredto me. Do you guys know
Chad goes deep? You look alook that up online and you need to
(21:14):
interview those two guys. Okay,they are your doppelgangers. Okay, yes,
I love that. And they rageand they are into surfing. Oh
cool, yeah, surfing. Theygo to the city council meetings. Oh
I see those kids. Yes,I know. I actually watched that video
the other day. My friend putit on. They tan their taint and
(21:36):
things like that. Yeah. Yeah, they're like trying to they like describe
the surf boards to the to thejudge and the jury. Yeah, the
city council I would love to dothat with them when they'd be perfect for
you. Yeah, that'd be awesome. We need to get them on.
But yeah, so that's how Igot my nickname, and yeah, ever
since then, and then I triedto go to Hawaii to get rid of
it, yeah, and it followedme there. Would you were ashamed of
(22:00):
it? I was. I hatedit. Oh you know, people laughed
a lot with it. It wassort of all making fun of you.
Yeah, for sure. I wasdefinitely making fun a lot for a fifteen
year old kid to hand. Yeah, my friends were dicks, man.
Oh, I guess it is aboutdicks after all. Like I would have
to fight every one of my friendsor like my friends with dick is pretty
much our dicks. Pretty much whatevery fifty year old mail can say death
(22:22):
right. Yeah. But I wasreally the really one that, like you
were the burn of the joke.Yeah, and I remember, dude,
it never went away. And Itried to go to Hawaii and I was
like, yeah, I got ridof my nickname, like I mean roducing
myself as Sean nown like. Andthen one of my friends flew over for
for a surf contest and he goes, no, his name's Poopies, Like,
(22:45):
do not call him Sean. Hisname's Poopies. And they're like what
And then like next thing, youknow, everyone's calling me Poopies in Hawaii.
They just you lean into it atsome point. Yeah, I had
to accept it, like acceptance,you know, we talk a lot about
that in AA, but being beingPoopies process of accepting. Yeah, so
that was fun. But I likethat. I like that it's one of
your steps. Yeah. Yeah.I actually shared at the AA meeting,
(23:08):
like my story about acceptance and howto accept my nickname Poopies that go over.
They were laughing. Yeah, they'relaughing. They loved it. Yeah,
it's been a it's been a journeyfor old Pooh here. But there's
a Poopies and there's a Sean,you know what I mean. So now
it'd be great to integrate the two. Yeah, that's sort of part of
the recovery process is bringing all thoseparts yourself. They're sort of fragmented,
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bringing them together and something. Okay, yeah, I'll try to do.
You can indulge one or the other, right, but you need to be
able to be whole at some point. Okay, Yeah, definitely, because
people won't even like, I won'teven respond to Sean. It's they're call
me Sean, but I don't.I'm not. It's so brainwashing into my
name in my brain that my name'spoopies. I don't even like hear Sean,
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so people be like Sean. Butnow it's like getting a little better
where people are calling me Sean.You know, they just call you Sean
at the meetings. Um, theytry to I say hi, I'm Sean.
I'm an alcoholic. They poop.Well that's good, that's all together.
Yeah, definitely. But yeah,I'm very blessed to be where I'm
at now. I'm blessed for myfriends. We make an effort in the
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It's interesting a lot of people invarious stages of addiction, and people in
media especially they have addiction, alwayshave some sort of name that's not their
own. It's weird. It's crazyhow often that is. And it's it's
just it's just routine and characters,and people use that as kind of being
a character as they become like acartoon to other people. But it's yeah,
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yeah, it's not a great placeto be because then they'll treat you
like a cartoon too. Exactly exactly. You don't get the respect you really
deserve, right and you can youcan own that cartoon party yourself. But
so so we we always make abig effort to call people by their name.
Yeah, that's yeah, it cutsthrough a little bit. It kind
of cuts through some of the bullshit. Yeah, it does, because that
is my name, you know,it's my first certificate name. That's when
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my mom gave me that name.But and you were Sean before you were
Poopies, you know. And yeah, and Poopies is a piece of Sean.
But if you push that out thereis all that you are. That's
a defense you're defending again for sure, because I'm always afraid of like,
you know, like them saying,oh, Poopies, his name is Poopies
because he's a piece of shit,you know. And I want to be
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the best man I can, youknow, and like I have such a
big heart, and I love helpingpeople, and like I kill at opportunities
for that. In sobriety cool,Yeah, that's that's I've already been helping
a couple of people's in a coupleof kids in the house. This kid's
like eighteen and he's in the inthe house and ah, he's so lost,
and I'm like the oldest one.I'm thirty six and they're all like
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twenty eighteen through twenty five that Ilive with five other individuals. It's it's
you'll you'll see that when they're younger, they tend to kind of it's like,
dude, do your chores, bro, it's so easy to struggle they
do, and it's just like soelementary stuff like oh, you didn't do
his chores, or like they justI don't know, they're lazy. They're
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used to their parents doing all theirstuff for them. No, it's you
bring up a really interesting topic.I've been thinking more lately about the fact
that that younger people with addiction todayneeds some kind of almost boot campy style
experience with the usual things, likesomething that really asks because it's we're in
a time right now when we don'task anything of people with addiction or mental
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illness. We don't ask anything.Yeah, I see, and you have
to ask them to start to dostuff so they can regain their life.
But make your bed there, dothese things and just do them, and
why because it's good for you haveto be able to do that. Actually
have a routine now and I havebetter hygiene. I'm like brushing my teeth
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at night in the morning and thenlike making my lunch. I haven't made
a lunch and who knows how long. So for anybody listening, that might
seem like what huh, But no, that's how it goes, like able
to have us your license up todate and things like that. Yet out
Luckily I got a good lawyer.Yeah, and he's been taking care of
all of my my tickets. BecauseI had a motorcycle and I was going
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like one tin on the freeway ona death wish on drugs and I'd get
pulled over and I had no morecycle license, no registration for the bike,
no insurance, and I wouldn't evenhave my driver's license on me.
So there's four No. Luckily,my lawyer knows the judge. But they
didn't that. But when you werestopped, they didn't just get in the
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car. No, Luckily they would. Luckily they did it. They would
either like tell me to call afriend to come pick you up, or
they'd tow my bike and say geta ride home, So I'd have to
uber home a lot. But yeah, I remember, how many times do
you do this, bro, Igot my I had three motor cycles.
They all got towed. Dude,you were so lucky to be alive.
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I know. I'd be going throughthe big diesel things and the cars right
there, and I'd be like woo, just like this much of a gap
and I'd be like whoo woo woom. I see those guys blow past me.
Oh my gosh, d in thevarious freeways out there. Yeah,
and I always think, oh shit, this guy's gonna be dead, and
so yeah, so bad for him. I felt. I didn't I don't
care, you know, do whatyou're gonna do. But this is beyond
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dangerous. Yeah, it was tooAnd I had no idea, like like
how to ride a motorcycle. Butit's like, clearly you didn't. My
kids, Yeah, somehow, becauseI've always seen those guys and I was
like, I'm going to do thatone day, you know, And I
finally got the chance to and itwas it was like the biggest adrenaline rush
ever. Yeah, you're gonna needsome kind of outlet. So surfing's my
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outlet. Okay, surfing. Iput the motorcycle away. I actually they're
still in the toe. Yeah,I'm pretty good. I don't like to
like no no I but I meanclaim stuff. But I was a little
bit of a beach kid when Iwas young too. Yeah, I know
where are you from. Well,I'm from Pasadena, but I spent a
lot of time in Laguna and newPortland time was younger down I love Laguna,
me too, love it. Yeah. I actually guarded a beach down
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there for a couple summers. Ohno way, yeah nice. It was
best constantly it was a it wasa breaking beach break too, with all
the two it was well, weweren't exclusively sure. We had we had
serious break at this beach. Andand I could tell when people walked onto
the sand who I was gonna haveto sell? No, immediately the tourist
comes in, definitely, they're tryingto get their selfie though they just sell
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me back then, but I wouldjust they would just walking. I just
sucked out immediately and then then gettingthe rip and here we go. Yeah.
Yeah, well that's cool. You'rea lifeguard, I know. That's
also the best job I ever hadby far. Yeah. You get to
go hang out the beach all day. And I was very I'm very was
very skilled in the water, likevery skilled. Yeah, you have to
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be. Yeah, And now I'mlike, how did I do that?
I can't do it at all?You could still do it still? Well,
I went, I went riding abike kind of No, I got
shoulders and they can't hold my breathas well. Yeah, definitely. Um,
you know, I could just handleanything off a cliff and big the
surfoy in fact, I liked itbigger yeah same, same, And and
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I just recently did a reality showcalled Special Forces. I've been seeing that,
so I was in that. Iwas in there. Yes, I
seen you. I was checking outyour Instagram. And whenever they threw us
in the red sea or in thewater, and I'm like, God,
thank you, thank you, becauseyeah, yeah I was in the sand,
it was like, shit, No, that's an awesome show. I've
watched. The trailer just got pickedup. Yeah, are you guys just
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aired it? We just it justaired. It's got two more episodes to
go. Um, and I don'tknow if they're gonna do another season.
So I got very sick out therein the dead of the heat. Got
really heat got me. Yeah,it's on Fox. It's on Fox at
nine o'clock on Wednesdays. Did youwatch everybody the jackass world will love this
shit? Yeah? I was seeingclips on your Instagram. I'm like,
(30:53):
whoa, this is pretty nartly sobeyond ary. When we were doing it,
I was thinking I was into it. I liked during it. I
was thinking, oh my god,this is the best television They've never no
one's ever recorded television like this,A and B. I kept thinking,
I don't think they can do thisagain. It's too dangerous. So you're
you're the doctor for I was oneof the recruits. So you're the celebritycruit.
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Yeah, yeah, awesome. Yeah, it didn't didn't go soone for
me, but but I but Igot very close with the fifteen other people
and we're all dear friends. That'sawesome. As they kept telling us,
you're gonna be bonded through pain,and we were awesome. You get really
bonded about for sure. Where theyalso burned there too. Is everybody sober,
you know, if they could nothave been, nobody had the Let
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me think, I don't think anybodyhad addictive stuff, and you certainly couldn't
have recently been using and get throughthis thing. Yeah, yeah, you
die. They were dying because I'veseen the English dude like talking. He's
like, once they come into thosewalls, they're in mind the us.
Yeah, yeah, if you die, it's just nature's way of saying you
failed. I can't wait to watchit. I'm gonna watch it when I
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get home. Well, I don'tlast too long, so I don't don't.
If it's the first episode, yousort of see about all I'm going
to do. But I jumped outof a helicopter backwards. It was very
gnarly. Damn. Yeah. Igot towed by a helicopter with my water
skis one time. Yeah, theKey West, going way faster than you
imagine I imagine. Yeah, itwas pretty cool too, because they bring
me up and then dropped me backdown. You had, you had you
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had a wait a minute, doyou have a what do you call it
a wind sale or something? No? You were just straight up up and
down, straight up, holding onhard. Yeah, and I'd put my
toes up and then go land andI'm like yeah, and then they pulled
me up again. I felt likea superhero. Skis you to do with
just water skis? With water skis, I felt like a superheroes. Yeah.
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Well, yeah, I was nota young man anymore, so I
know I gotta get it in whileI'm still young. Yeah, I'm trying
to do it all while I'm stillyoung. And still it's good. Not
in a wheelchair yet, so that'sgood. And don't get your off in
a wheelchair. Try to use yourjudgment now not yeah, not going one
hundred and town on the one ten. Yeah, I was really scared on
the motorcycle. Which freeways did yougo? I was going from to LA
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four or five or five five?Oh down there? Would you get up
here? It's all get up heretoo, And I'd be like through going
through traffic, it's like stop traffic, going like thirty and I was like,
um, hopefully they don't pull outin front of me. It is
my We sound like an episode ofthe Californians now from SNL. Thank you
(33:30):
for laughing at this, but butit really But you know, we changed
lanes a lot on the freeways here, and my my constant, my nightmare
is that I'm going to pull intoone of you guys because I you know,
you check back, you know,you look down the lane. I
try to do that. I tryto sit I try to look for those
guys, but they come fast sometimes. Yeah. So what I did?
(33:51):
I take my muffler off show SuperLoud Rabbit, So splitting the lanes for
those of you. Yeah, soI was flitting the lanes a lot,
even when I shouldn't be. Iwas like, oh, look at this,
look at this gap. I'm gladyou did it. I'm glad you're
here. Yeah, I'm done withthat. I'm done with that. Thank
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you. See, we we gotsomething here right progress. You had that
trailer, do you remember, oh, the sprinter van. Yeah, yeah,
trailer. No, I just hada sprinter van, a Mercedes sprinter
van. Oh yeah, someone loanedit to me. I don't know what's
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wrong with them. Yeah, dude. So I was like, here's my
debit card, here's the deposit.They're like, okay, you're good to
go. I was like, what, I got it? But yeah,
they let me take it to Vegasand um yeah, I was that thing
goes fast. Yeah. They're likefive thousand pounds too. Yeah, dude,
Oh my gosh, I thought therewas gonna tip at this one moment.
Yeah, I put it. Iput the producer and Ryan in the
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van and remind me not to getin a car with him. Well,
now I'm good. I came tosaying, yeah, let's see pass.
Yeah, this is my first timeactually driving again after yeah, oh yeah
you ubered back home. Yeah,he hubered back home. Yeah, I'm
sorry. I'm so sorry. Sothat's another thing. When you get to
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the man's step, you can seeexactly what's that step? Eight? Eight?
Eight, yeah, eight, it'seight, and teach you something about
that. Um, don't be ina hurry to do that, because early
on it's it's hard to to.It's really not just an apology. It's
also cleaning up your mess. Sowhatever the you know, you have to
(35:37):
clean up your side of the street, whatever you've caused, provide you don't
hurt somebody else or hurt yourself.You gotta make things good, you gotta
make things right. To apologize,of course, Yeah, it's gonna be
a list, for surely. There'sa lot. There's a lot that I
yeah right now, no, no, no, So I see you're so
such an emotional guyancing incredible. Goodfor you, But I see the guilt
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shame you're sinking already. That isno business here right now. Okay,
guilt and shame stop it. That'sthat's your illness. It makes you do
shit you wouldn't otherwise do. Yeah, for sure, stop it. Guilt
and shame will your disease will hearthat and want to take you out,
right, So it has no usehere. Yeah, that's so true.
Yeah, it works on everything,everything good and everything bad in your brain.
Your disease will take advantage of.Yeah, because they said, don't
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be the pity party, don't getin the pity party. And any part
of that is just to keep yougoing and get out of that ship so
you don't sink into it. Butbut also your disease will use it as
justification, right, going back out. Yeah, the thing is gnarly.
So I'm trying to build this foundation, get my rebards, like building the
house. My sponsor said, reallyis, isn't it. Yeah, brains
heal, slow, take your time, slowbriety, we call that, yeah,
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slowbriety. I remember I got diagnosedwhen I was in kindergarten. I
was taking nine riddle of it aday. So you know, people worry
about you. Certainly have, there'sno doubt about that. But stop.
But but that's an asset, right, it's not strictly a liability, right,
We medicated a lot, we pathologizeit a lot, but you know,
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in your thirties, man, thisis an asset. You got energy.
You can do something good for you, but don't worry that the medication
somehow hurt you in some way.Yeah, during the age of eighteen.
So the adolescent and a child brainis actually different than an adult brain.
I don't like adults taking the ADHDtree because it's not good for you if
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you have addiction. I was worriedabout that because I would always tell people
I've been taking reals kindergarten, youknow, But I'm glad that didn't.
Really it really does. And I'velooked at that. When I first started
happening, I thought, oh mygod, where's fucking these kids up?
And I've looked at that literature verycarefully, and it's fine. That's awesome,
but it's not fine when you're twentytwo. It'll just yeah, yeah,
I was in fourth grade. Goodbecause and there are things you can
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do if things get bad. Now, this something called clantitine or intunive and
things like that that you can takethat are safe for ADHD. But I
just rather you learn to manage itand use your assets accordingly. Yeah,
yeah, definitely, I definitely havebeen doing it. So I've been.
I've been so proud of myself.Should be. Yeah, it's hard.
I want to emphasize this fe Itis really hard. You don't know unless
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you've been where he's been, howhard it is. Yeah, it's just
so much biology and stuff stacked againststaying sober. It's just everything stacked against
you. You got to fight yourway into it. Yeah, and I
and I can do stuff without strugglingwith it now. Before it was such
a struggle just to do anything.And yeah, so like it would take
(38:36):
me an hour for a shower orlike something. Then I'd be late,
you know. I was always late, and I'd be rushing in traffic,
almost killing myself with my truck.I told my truck knotted off, fucking
ran into the wall, kicked itopen, like terminator, took my ebike
out of the back, rode myebike off the freeway, left that at
(38:58):
the hotel, lost my e bike. Sponsor, Yeah, called it uber,
went home. Yeah, it wascrazy, and then I thought like,
oh, it was fine. Ijust told him my truck, you
know, like everyone told us hertruck, you know, But no,
so so let me be clear toyour audience. We're not gonna take poopies
away from you. He's not gonnabe not poopies because he's sober. He's
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gonna be not dead poopies for onething. Yeah, and he's gonna be
able to use all that that's stillhim in ways that are you know,
serve him and her focused. Andyou'll still do all that shit. I'm
sure. Yeah, I'm sure youwant to do in such a way that
you die. Yeah. It wasso weird because like now I feel like
myself again, you know, Iactually do feel like, hey, man,
if they do that Special Forces again, you'd be you'd be stuff or
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you'd be awesome up out any day. Yeah, you'd be really good in
it. Obvi was stubbed. Yeah, actually got hopefully a TV show coming
out called What Not to Do.Yeah. It's like, um, all
these survival situations and I have ToryMarcelli from MythBusters. Oh yes, of
(40:05):
course, yeah, Toy, andit's me and him. It's great.
So he's gonna explain what you shoulddo in the situation. Then I come
in and I show you what notto do in the situation. It's good
so yeah, I can't wait forthat to happen. So, yeah,
it's good. That's what I've beenworking on. There's that unis that's you
know, focused, contained, yeah, deployed. Yeah, it's so it's
so awesome because like everything's like,I don't know, it's just like everything's
(40:30):
working out, like every day getsbetter. Well, that's the miracle.
Sobriety, right, and you're onthe pink cloud. Now it's not always
going to be like that. Yeah, And I don't want to take that
away from you, but it mightbe way for a while. Oh,
looks like Urban Dictionary came through witha definition pink cloud twelve step recovery jargon
referring to someone knew who talks abouthow great life is now that they're sober,
(40:52):
usually meaning that the person is outof touch with reality. Well,
don't rag on poops that bad,But this does have sixty nine downloads.
Nice, but you know, lifehas struggles, will come. Yeah,
it's crazy. Could be a muchbetter position to handle it. And by
the way, the ship becomes partof the richness of living rather than just
the ship. Yeah right, yeah, I'm like I'm the captain of my
(41:14):
own ship. So I definitely gotto listen. And you know what's about
your situation I think is you aresuch an emotional it's such a big heart.
As you say, you are suchan emotional person that that will provide
constant richness and guidance for you ifyou listen to it, if you hear
it, yeah, you know whatI mean. No, I definitely hear
it, definitely. Yeah, Andyou got to hear also the little voice
(41:36):
that says, don't do that,and maybe that's not good for you to
do. That's that's my freaking guttelling me. You know, that's your
guts exactly what it is. Soyou got your heart and your gut and
you're hooked up to it now.And people don't appreciate how much this stuff
is part of our experience, rightand who we are. And yeah,
I should listen. I should havelistened to my gut from fucking day one.
(41:57):
Yeah, but when you're using,you can't. Yeah, you guy,
he was your your disease. Takeagain, We'll take over all that.
It takes it over and goes,hey, you're got selling you to
use use? Yeah, it wasit was crazy. It was crazy.
I thought nothing was wrong with me, you know, and I hit it
so well too, and then finallyit's just like everything just fell apart.
My friends started avoiding me, likeI wasn't surfing. I was just freaking.
(42:20):
I ended up living. You needto, um, look at all
that and be hopeful that that's allyou have to do. Yeah, definitely,
I'm lucky I'm not dead or injail, right like that, that's
hopefully enough for you. Yeah itwas enough. That was enough for me.
Like I was like, okay,I've had my fun. Time to
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get to the real world more fun. Yeah, I have been having more
fun. Actually, yeah, I'mso actually experience yeah exactly. Like today
I was driving through um the fouroh five, and I've seen the city
of la actually like like Admi likeadmired it. Yeah. I didn't just
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fly by it and go fuck off, you know. Yeah, I was
like, wow, that's a beautifulcity. And how is your sleep?
It's been great? Dam Um Noyou will, No, I haven't you
will. I had it and don'tbe afraid of those those are good.
Okay. Yeah, I had adream last night, though I don't know
where I was. I must havebeen in London or something, and I
was with my friends from Hawaii andthey had a paintball gun and I was
(43:28):
running from him and they're trying toshoot me with the paintball gun. And
they finally found me and just litme up with the paintball gun. And
I woke up and it was dawn, and I go, oh, I
gotta go surfing. So yeah,it's been good. Oh yeah, it
was kind of cool. I waslike hiding like under people and stuff,
and I don't know how they weren'tgetting shot, but I was getting shot
(43:51):
out. It was weird getting chased. Yeah, I was getting chased.
Yeah, I was cool. Andthen I like try to hide and they
found me. I was like,I hope in this one cabinet up and
there's all it was like full editionsor something and I couldn't hide it and
then here they come boom. Itwas a very real dream. Yeah,
the dreams tend to be very vividat this stage of the game. Yeah,
it's it can be upsetting too.They can be troubling, but there
(44:13):
it's all good. It's all workingthrough, it's all reminding you of things.
It's yeah, I've been actually goingto bed at nine thirty ten.
Sort of dreams become almost rehearsals atthis stage of the game should be like,
you'll find out what does it feellike if I use? Because your
dreams will take you there. No, no, I just have this one
memory that I think about. I'mnot gonna I'll tell you after the podcast,
(44:35):
but it's really bad. Okay,well, okay, I'll say it
looks like we've unpacked a lot fromPoopy's origin to how it used to be
that asshole, that asshole revving theirship up at two am down the freeway.
Come on, Poops, when we'reback from another break, we'll talk
about how Poops got down bad andfinally got on his turnaround. But first,
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welcome back, little Poops. Nowlet's lift the script a bit and
get into what makes this the Shittiestpodcast A special episode. Yeah, so
at the very end of it,all of the hole using, I was
in Santa Anna. Somehow I letthis guy take my U haul. Well
(45:22):
I didn't really let him. Igave him the keys to go sleep in
because I modified it. Had abad a couch and everything had like a
propane tank with the torch thing wasmy heater and light. And I let
him like get the keys because Iwas at my friend's house and he was
like, I'm not I'm not hangingout anymore, Like I'm gonna go to
(45:42):
bed, Okay, go to bed. And then in the morning time,
my friend had to go to workand the U haul was gone. It's
your home. That was my home. My home was gone. So I
had my dog and just me,and I was like trying to call him.
He wasn't answering. I couldn't getahold of him. I thought he
stole my U haul. So Icalled the cops, reported stolen, and
they go, dude, you gavehim the keys. Oh wow, that's
(46:07):
not a stolen vehicle. Wow.So they couldn't do anything, and they
go, here's a homeless shelter number. So they gave me a homeless shelter
number. And then I remember thatday I was freaking out the gas station
and I didn't have a phone chargerand I didn't have any money because my
phone was dead. I only haddigital wallet, so I had to get
my phone charger to get money tofreaking get water or beer. First thought
(46:31):
was beer, alcohol, I needalcohol. So I remember bombing change at
the gas station and my UM apparatusfell out of my pocket and broke,
and I was like, that's asign. That is the sign to stop,
you know, you need help.So was at your bottom right there?
(46:52):
Yeah that was an right then.Yeah, I was like, oh
my gosh, my apparatus just broke, Like I have no money and I'm
still begging for money. So Ihave that memory of me begging for money
at the gas station. She's interesting. Our addiction takes you to homelessness every
time. Yeah. Yeah, withoutmy U haul, I was homeless where
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you were homeless with the U haultwo. Yeah, it was actually that
wasn't my home. People people usethese youth miss, Oh we're living the
van life. You're fucking homeless.Yeah yeah. I was like, yeah,
the vamily's great. So I startedfinding all these van life spots.
Was homeless. Yeah yeah, they'rejust yeah lost people man, and yeah,
(47:35):
and I thought it was all right, you know, but usually that
with that, with that happens,they're getting enough money from their families to
keep that ship going. So theteams are enabling them by giving them enough
to keep them right, Yeah,I'm going or whatever. Yeah. I
remember I blew with you so muchmoney, man, so sad was now
you seem to shame to telling thatstory about the apparatus and all this stuff.
Is that the whole story? Isthere more? Um, that's pretty
(47:55):
much the rock bottom. And thenI finally got eight bucks to buy phone
charge you're missing. Usually people startto sell themselves for sex or start thinking
about that or nothing. Because luckilyI got a hold of my friend and
he goes, bro, I gotyour U haul taking all your stuff out
because I had to return to theU haul. It has been two months
I've had it, and I onlytold him I was supposed to have it
(48:19):
for three days. Yeah, sothe U Haul's calling me, hey,
you gotta return this now. Soand my friend had it. So luckily,
um, he had the U haulguy's number so that he was talking
with the U haul two. Sohe dropped it off up in Sacramento.
My U haul returned it, tookall my stuff out for him. He
put it in his Denali and drovethe Nalie back from Sacramento picked me up
(48:44):
in Santa Anna that day. Well, he wasn't a friend. He was
some crazy guy that was controlling me. Oh shit, yeah, oh well
this is the part I was lookingfor. Yeah, so I was in.
He was controlling me because we're goingup to get his van so I
can return the U haul and livein one of his vans that he supposedly
(49:05):
was going to sell to me.So he ended up picking up his Denali
puts all my clothes and stuff inthere. This is where it gets good.
Puts all my clothes in there,comes picks me up. We stopped
by Santa Cruz and where I waslike, dude, I just want to
get home, like I ran outof my drugs. I just want to
get home, you know. Sohe drove the whole way when I was
freaking going through withdrawals. No,no, he wasn't he. I never
(49:31):
used with him once. Okay,so I don't know what he was on.
But he thought there was a productionfilm in him. He said he
made up the movie the Fockers becauseall these guys are filming him and he
calls them fuckers, you fockers.So he was mentally ill, I think,
yeah, So we finally get backto talking fast. Yeah, he'd
(49:52):
like freestyle rap and stuff. Soyeah, I think he was. Man.
I knew he was mentally ill,and then I was like, fuck,
when I get myself into you know, so I was like, just
get me home. You know,he's stopped and by all these houses.
Like we went to the hospital tosee some lady that he knew, and
then we went to this other ladythat he knew, and she had a
huge mansion and she ended up tellingus, you guys gotta go. So
(50:16):
he was making his stops while tryingto get me home, but I was
so out of it, like Ijust wanted to fucking die at that time,
Like I felt like shit. Andso we finally get home to Carlsbad.
You know, that night, hebecause he parked his van in the
parking lot in Carlsbad village, sohe kind of like said, here's the
(50:37):
Denali. I'm gonna sleep in myvan. You can sleep in the Dnali.
And then when I wake up,his van was right next to his
Denali. Of course, right,it's his it's his car, you know.
But in my like messed up mind, I thought he was gonna give
me the Dnali because at first he'slike, no, you can have the
van that I have in Carlsbad,Like, let me go get the Nali.
(50:59):
You can have the van. Soall of a sudden, now I'm
in. I'm under his control nowbecause I'm sleeping in his car. So
we rolled up to the beach atState Beach and that's my local surf shop,
and the guy was still fucking followingme around, you know, like
he thought I was his buddy.I was trying to get out of it.
So I call it my friend,Brandon Glade, and I go,
(51:21):
Brandon, you gotta come fucking saveme right now. So he pulls up
to the beach, he goes,poopies, just throw all your shit into
my truck and the back of mytruck. Don't even try to fold it
or anything. Just get all yourship put in the back of my truck.
And that's when I went into selfdetalks. That guy follow you to
any of that stuff? Um,yeah, Brandon Glade. Oh the other
(51:42):
guy, Oh no, who knowswhere he's at right now. His name's
Jesse James. Yeah, that's hisreal name, and he's he's very crazy.
Um, people think he's the JesseJames from the Motorcycle Show, right
he thinks he is. Oh dude. He was like telling me, Yeah,
there's people filming us right now andthey upload it like and make a
(52:02):
movie. I'm like, dude,this is gnarly. Bro. This guy's
crazy. I'm like, where thefilmer's at. He goes, they're in
the cars. You can you cansee him. Oh no, dude,
I don't see anyone filming us.Yeah, because they know, you know,
they're we're looking at him. Andthen he'd be like, we were
in Santa Cruz this one time,super crazy, super crazy um position I
(52:23):
was in and he goes, hestarts yelling at everyone like like, get
out of the freaking scene. Youguys are in the scene. Oh my
gosh. And then he thought they'reall actors in his movie. I mean,
he could be schizophrenic too. It'syeah, yeah, things are all
treatable. It kills me that thepeople are allowed to ruin their lives and
(52:44):
to hurt themselves. Yeah, itwas so crazy. There's a whole production
filming them. He thought he's makingmovies. He'll end up help us too.
Yeah for sure. Well he livesin the van, you know.
Yeah. But yeah, so Iknew I had to it out of that
situation, you know, So Icalled my body and I remember, think
about it. If you hadn't beenclear, I mean detoxing, you might
(53:06):
have just who knows what? Oh, yeah, who knows. I've fallen
to his freaking whatever trap whatever?Yeah, who knows? Yeah, dude,
it's crazy. And then he waslike, you guys aren't getting your
invoices today, like he was ona good one. But yeah, it
was. It was. That wasthe last of it all. And then
I went into Selfty Talks and thenI got help from Stevo and I'm thirty
(53:29):
five days sober. I'm so gladyou're here. Yeah, thanks, me
too, mean too, Yeah youshould be. Yeah, I'm sure you're
all as delight more delighted. Youknow what I do. It's a it's
the real deal. It's the miracle. Yeah, I feel so much better.
Like emotions now, I see,I see them, they flash,
they come, they come across andsee my eyes watering. Well that's just
your eyes watering. I see that. I see the feelings in your eyes.
(53:51):
Yeah, yeah, it was.I was on a fucking bad one.
They say a good one, butit was a bad one. It
was a bad one. Yeah,it had to be what it had to
be. Yeah, probably more nightmareswill emerge and you'll start thinking of other
shit. Jesus. Yeah, formy viewers, out there. I'm sorry,
guys, but why because they neverI don't think they knew I had
a problem. Maybe some of themdid, but some of them didn't.
(54:14):
You know, Well, like Itold you, Like I told you,
when you're just putting the cartoon characterup front, they don't care. You
need to be a person out ofthem. Yeah. I like you a
lot more that trust me. Yeah, I love you all the subscribers.
I love you guys. And yeah, the merge is out, and I
promise he's not going to change.Don't worries this is It's just gonna be
Sean Poopies, Sean poopies, Mac. Yeah, it's right. But yeah,
(54:38):
life's getting better every day. Man. I just want to follow the
AA steps and work on myself anddo what I gotta do to get very
simple through this. Yeah. Yeah, I'm just I'm really glad you came
on too. I'm so glad tosee you. What. I'm glad it's
now and not before. Yeah,you would have left you not We're probably
(55:00):
would left, but I would havebeen worried. You would have definitely knew
I was on something. Yeah,that's what happens to me, man,
I know, and I was Iwould probably be in denial. Well,
and so it's gonna be like thedance at Me and Steve used to do.
It's like, dude, if you'reever ever interested, Yeah, no,
I'm so. I'm so blessed tohave you here for sure anytime.
Probably cool. Thank you, Thankyou so much. Um, I think
(55:21):
that wraps it up for me anddoctor Drew, thank you so much.
Thank you, and then really meetyou. Let's go surfing sometime. Yeah,
rot you back in the water.Yeah, I know I need to
get out there. I need todo it. You're right, Carl's Bad's
got some some decent break. Wellwe can go serve. We got to
do it. Yeah, let's doit. We'll take you to the wedge.
No, I'm joking. Well that'sthe kind of beach I guarded something
(55:43):
like that. Yeah, the shotbreakinglaguna with a shotbreak with with you know,
with the wedge. Yeah. Yeah, I think I know what wave
you're talking about. It's a littlesecret wave. Yeah we won't say it,
but I'll be in trouble. Butyeah, there's a little soft wave
in Huntington Beach Pier. Oh yeah, you can get you on the soft
top, all right, fair enough. I don't way the soft Let's get
(56:05):
you on the soft top first thenno, but thank you so much,
Doc, and um, we'll seeyou guys next time on the Shittiest Podcast
Ever. Love you all and yeah, this is my story. Thank you.
Well that about does it for thisshitty episode. Thanks for watching,
listening, whatever shitty way you're gettingthis until next time. Push it real
(56:28):
good, dollalla Bill, y'all notget the fuck out of my house.
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