September 16, 2024 • 15 mins
Ever found yourself yearning for old dreams and ambitions, even after committing to a new path? Join me on the SoulFuel Podcast as I openly share my personal journey of resisting the pull of former aspirations in film and music. Witness the struggle and the triumph as I prioritize my divine calling as a pastor, husband, and father. Through my story, I reflect on the importance of aligning our roles with our faith and finding harmony between pursuing creative passions and nurturing a spiritually healthy and family-focused life. This episode serves as a heartfelt reminder to stay true to our divine callings and resist the allure of past identities and external temptations.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
I can't look at life from my old views cause it hurts
too much to walk in my oldshoes.
The word of God is my go-towhen I go through the valley of
shadow and death.
Holy Ghost move.
Need him to flow through thisnostalgic soul tune to let you
know don't just go through, butgrow too.
So many things he gotta showyou as he produce fruit of the
(00:21):
spirit.
So be fueled by the soul fuel.
Speaker 2 (00:26):
What's going on everybody?
Welcome to another episode ofthe soul field podcast, the pit
stop for your soul to be fueledfor your journey in life, as you
do it with christ.
I'm your host.
Willie robbins iii, aka pastor,will listen.
Feel so good to be back.
I owe you all so much.
I want to appreciate all of thelisteners that are listening to
(00:46):
the pod right now.
You know this has been a newthing for me, because it's a
little weird to talk to a camerawith no audience.
I'm so used to doing this witha live crowd.
But you know what I think thisis good the more that I do it,
the more I get comfortable withit, and I think that I am
(01:08):
getting better, as long as Istay consistent.
So, with that being said, itmakes me think about something
that it doesn't.
It doesn't haunt me, but I makesure that I'm keeping it buried
(01:31):
.
What are you talking about?
No, no, like, really, listenlike I.
I got it.
I got to keep it.
I got to keep it buried.
Let me sit up like like, let mebe proper.
I got to keep it buried.
Let me sit up like like, let mebe proper, I got to keep it
buried.
Like all the way buried.
I can't come back to life.
(01:52):
I cannot resurrect the dead.
What are you talking about?
I'm talking about the old meResisting the old me me
resisting the old me.
We know what the apostle paulsays in corinthians.
He says for if any man be inchrist, he is a new creature.
(02:14):
Old things are passed away andjesus says before paul even says
anything, jesus says that youwill have temptation right, and
these temptations are thingsthat could definitely lead you
into sin.
But what is it about thosetemptations and the old me?
(02:38):
Well, the temptation of beingmotivated by seeing people who
are not good at what I wouldlike to be doing succeed, being
motivated in the wrong way.
This is why one of the reasonswhy, to this day, I don't spend
too much time on Instagram,because you know, I'm happy for
(02:59):
everybody.
I'm glad everybody is doingwhat they love to do.
However, I always feel like andI shouldn't say always, because
I'm not on Instagram like thatbut when I get on, if I'm
looking long enough, I'll seepeople who are doing what I
thought I was supposed to bedoing and it'll just put me in
(03:20):
this mindset of why can't I doit?
And then I'm always checked byHoly Spirit.
Holy Spirit says you alreadyknow what you've been called to
do.
You already know what you'vebeen called to do, so there's no
need for you to sit there andwaddle in care for that thing,
(03:47):
that thing of wanting success,wanting wanting, wanting to be
known for film.
You know, there's a lot ofthings I believe, a lot of
things that I would love to bedoing, things that I feel like I
should have been doing, andsometimes Instagram reminds me
(04:07):
of not what I failed to do, butit reminds me of what I've
actually been called to do.
I do believe I've been called topastor people.
Um, firstly, I do believe I'vebeen called to be a husband to
my wife and be a father to mychildren, and then there's the
(04:35):
pastor thing.
And then there is still my lovefor film and music.
Music and film, whichever order, but seeing people be
successful at those things, whenyou are kind of held to not
necessarily a way of living or alifestyle, but you're held to
(04:58):
your priorities and it's not abad thing.
Again, that's what is temptingabout the things on Instagram is
it's not just the success, thedrive and the thing that the way
that I used to be Right thatgoes along, as it wasn't my work
ethic, it wasn't the projectsthat I was doing them with, it
(05:22):
was my mindset behind it,because I know, when I get into
third, fourth, fifth gear andworking on a project, I lose the
sight of family.
I use the sight of needing totake care of my children, take
care of my wife.
Do the things that I need to doas a family man right?
(05:44):
Do the things that I need to doas a as a as a family man right
?
And even faith.
I feel like faith kind of gotdampened when I got off into
film, being tired of church.
In around 2018, 2019, finallymoving to California, this was a
(06:06):
piece uh, this was, this wasthe old me, even though I was
saved.
I consider myself saved and Iwas still a minister, been a
minister or been an elder since2012, been preaching since what?
20, 2010.
So you know that's neither herenor there, but my point is, in
my growth I had to understandthat, while I still have a gift
(06:27):
to do music, I have a gift to dofilm.
I have, I still have anobligation and I cannot let my
drive that I used to have fromthe old me return, because so
many other things comes withthat and it's like when you open
a can of worms, on one endyou're opening up something else
(06:49):
and you don't even see it.
So this episode is about mereminding you and reminding
myself to stay away from the oldself.
Now, how will I go about?
What will I do?
Films and what I'll do music?
(07:09):
Of course I'm not done makingmovies.
I'm not done making.
I haven't really even gotstarted again with the new me
right I?
The last short film I've done is2021.
Is was in 2021.
I did calling and that kind ofburns me up.
And then that's why I said,when I know the last project
that I did by myself, I put out,um, and I'm not doing anything.
(07:35):
Now it's been what?
Three years?
It's unacceptable.
It's unacceptable in in my lineof thinking and in my timeline
of doing things.
It's very unacceptable.
I'm used to cranking outprojects and always writing and
just putting it out, doing it,incorporating people, and part
of the issue is me being inDallas, me switching up the
(07:58):
location.
I don't have the actors that Idepend on that I was dependent
on back in Nashville.
I don't have the actors that Idepend on that I was dependent
on back in Nashville.
I don't have the actors that Icould call.
Even when I was in LA, Iestablished a rapport with with
uh, some people that would justcome out for me, um, but I don't
have that here in Dallas, andit's not that I can't get it, I
believe that it's there.
(08:19):
There are a few people that arewaiting to work with me, and
now I just feel a littlestagnant.
I know that it's my fault, Iknow that I have to get out and
do it.
I have to go ahead and do it,and the challenge is all in my
mind to get back, to prevent, tonot get back to the old self,
(08:42):
the old grind.
I believe that there's a way togrind healthier.
Right, there's a way to hustlehealthier.
And when I say healthier, Idon't mean physically, I mean
mentally and spiritually,because when you really have a
relationship with the Lord, youreally have to consider that
over everything, because it'sGod over everything else.
(09:04):
And so, with that being said, Ijust want to hit you with this
scripture about you know,voiding, avoiding the old self.
Uh, paul says this in Galatians,chapter four, verse nine, and
the NIV says but now that youknow God, or rather are known by
God, how is it that you areturning back to those weak and
(09:27):
miserable forces?
Do you wish to be enslaved bythem all over again.
Do you wish to be enslaved bythem all over again?
Do you wish to be enslaved bythe miserable forces?
Which the miserable forces isbeing a slave to sin?
Right?
So many people are looking forthe outward sin.
(09:47):
So many people are looking forthe, the, the, whatever.
They consider sin as such, aslike smoking, drinking, turning
up, partying, um, crashing out.
You know all of these things,but one of the biggest things
that I had to realize in my walkwith Christ is that sin can be
(10:09):
just disobedience.
It always starts withdisobedience, because it's
disobedience at the.
It could be disobedience at thesmallest level, still
disobedience, and it's sin.
So, as I'm one who stillpreaches that we can live a life
that is free of sin, we stillwill face the challenges and we
(10:30):
still will face the temptations.
I spoke a little bit abouttemptations.
Now.
The reason why temptations willbe there, will always be there,
is because we will always facechallenges in life, that we will
try to put our hand in the mixand come up with the solution
ourselves instead of giving itto God.
Right?
(10:50):
And if we are always puttingour hand in the mix, we will
never trust him like we say wedo, it'll just be a habitual
activity of going to church,worshiping or connecting online
to whatever church service weconnect to, with no real
connection.
It's almost like it reminds meof my, my children, my, my
(11:13):
daughters, like as old as theyare, like 10 and 8, right.
10 and 8 like they were 11, 11and 8, right, am I right?
I'd be getting that wrong.
My daughters they're growing upso fast but they even still
play with fake phones.
Right, they play with paperphones, they create their phones
(11:34):
and, um, they talk on them andthey play on them.
Right.
But that's how we are.
When we say we know god and thenwe turn around and we be led
off by temptations and becauseof the trials and tributes and
the challenges that we face inin life, we start only
mentioning him as a souvenirinstead of and as a trophy,
(12:04):
instead of looking at him likeas, as our actual heavenly
father, like he really watchesus.
He really, he really wants usto love him, he really wants us
to draw close to him.
But we don't do that because weare being um, we're not being
honest and I and, and we have tobe honest and I just want to
(12:28):
keep it real, like I just, youknow that's even in my preaching
.
I preach what I preach notbecause it sounds good, not
because it's the and I just wantto be known to be a truth
teller.
No, I speak what I speakbecause that's what the spirit
gives me to say and I by allmeans am held to the same
measure in which I preach andteach, right.
(12:52):
So I'm going to say we got tocontinue to water down those
temptations.
We gotta make sure that we aregoing in the opposite direction
of temptation, making sure thatwe're aware of the old self not
coming back right, because he,he don't have to come back.
The old willy, the old will isno more.
(13:13):
And I wasn't like, I wasn't liketerrible, but I just know that
I lacked in a lot of places andI know that I've changed so much
.
I'm just I'm not willing to goback to that mindset of
forgetting everything just so Ican chase a dream.
I'm in dallas now.
The time to really do that wasin la, and when and when I was
(13:35):
in LA, I was a better man, right.
But Nashville was my hometown,it was one of the.
It's why I had to leave, that'swhy I had to get out Because I
was focused on one end, but Iwas just slacking slacking as a
husband, slacking as a father.
You know family time was, andyou know it's better, it's
(14:00):
better.
I just have to make sure that Ifind a way to make film work.
I want to incorporate it in ourchurch.
I want to incorporate it ineverything.
I'm trying to get better withYouTube.
I'm trying to get better withthis podcast thing.
I have to do better with mytime management, because that
(14:22):
was a series that we talkedabout in our church Time
management.
I'm on it.
I even asked ChatGPT to give mea schedule, a content creating
schedule, and I got it.
Now I have to hook up theprinter and print it out and I
need to post it so I can see itand do these things on a regular
(14:42):
, just as I do it with scripturesticky notes.
I write notes, I read you haveto be, you have to do things
that are practical, and sothat's all I wanted to say to
you today.
I wanted to make sure that yougot another episode too, and I
want to make sure that I won'tbe caught lacking.
(15:03):
No more Again.
This has been another episodeof the SoulFuel podcast.
Remember to like, share,subscribe.
Share this with a friend, afamily member, whoever needs to
hear it, to let them know that,hey, you have to continue to
keep resisting the old self.
Submit yourself to God, resistthe devil and he'll flee from
(15:25):
you.
All right, I'll see you thenext time.
Soul Fuel Podcast.
Peace.
I can't look at life from my old views cause it hurts
too much to walk in my oldshoes.
The word of God is my go-towhen I go through the valley of
shadow and death.
Holy Ghost move.
Need him to flow through thisnostalgic soul tune to let you
know don't just go through, butgrow too.
So many things he gotta showyou as he produce fruit of the
(00:21):
spirit.
So be fueled by the soul fuel.
Speaker 2 (00:26):
What's going on everybody?
Welcome to another episode ofthe soul field podcast, the pit
stop for your soul to be fueledfor your journey in life, as you
do it with christ.
I'm your host.
Willie robbins iii, aka pastor,will listen.
Feel so good to be back.
I owe you all so much.
I want to appreciate all of thelisteners that are listening to
(00:46):
the pod right now.
You know this has been a newthing for me, because it's a
little weird to talk to a camerawith no audience.
I'm so used to doing this witha live crowd.
But you know what I think thisis good the more that I do it,
the more I get comfortable withit, and I think that I am
(01:08):
getting better, as long as Istay consistent.
So, with that being said, itmakes me think about something
that it doesn't.
It doesn't haunt me, but I makesure that I'm keeping it buried
(01:31):
.
What are you talking about?
No, no, like, really, listenlike I.
I got it.
I got to keep it.
I got to keep it buried.
Let me sit up like like, let mebe proper.
I got to keep it buried.
Let me sit up like like, let mebe proper, I got to keep it
buried.
Like all the way buried.
I can't come back to life.
(01:52):
I cannot resurrect the dead.
What are you talking about?
I'm talking about the old meResisting the old me me
resisting the old me.
We know what the apostle paulsays in corinthians.
He says for if any man be inchrist, he is a new creature.
(02:14):
Old things are passed away andjesus says before paul even says
anything, jesus says that youwill have temptation right, and
these temptations are thingsthat could definitely lead you
into sin.
But what is it about thosetemptations and the old me?
(02:38):
Well, the temptation of beingmotivated by seeing people who
are not good at what I wouldlike to be doing succeed, being
motivated in the wrong way.
This is why one of the reasonswhy, to this day, I don't spend
too much time on Instagram,because you know, I'm happy for
(02:59):
everybody.
I'm glad everybody is doingwhat they love to do.
However, I always feel like andI shouldn't say always, because
I'm not on Instagram like thatbut when I get on, if I'm
looking long enough, I'll seepeople who are doing what I
thought I was supposed to bedoing and it'll just put me in
(03:20):
this mindset of why can't I doit?
And then I'm always checked byHoly Spirit.
Holy Spirit says you alreadyknow what you've been called to
do.
You already know what you'vebeen called to do, so there's no
need for you to sit there andwaddle in care for that thing,
(03:47):
that thing of wanting success,wanting wanting, wanting to be
known for film.
You know, there's a lot ofthings I believe, a lot of
things that I would love to bedoing, things that I feel like I
should have been doing, andsometimes Instagram reminds me
(04:07):
of not what I failed to do, butit reminds me of what I've
actually been called to do.
I do believe I've been called topastor people.
Um, firstly, I do believe I'vebeen called to be a husband to
my wife and be a father to mychildren, and then there's the
(04:35):
pastor thing.
And then there is still my lovefor film and music.
Music and film, whichever order, but seeing people be
successful at those things, whenyou are kind of held to not
necessarily a way of living or alifestyle, but you're held to
(04:58):
your priorities and it's not abad thing.
Again, that's what is temptingabout the things on Instagram is
it's not just the success, thedrive and the thing that the way
that I used to be Right thatgoes along, as it wasn't my work
ethic, it wasn't the projectsthat I was doing them with, it
(05:22):
was my mindset behind it,because I know, when I get into
third, fourth, fifth gear andworking on a project, I lose the
sight of family.
I use the sight of needing totake care of my children, take
care of my wife.
Do the things that I need to doas a family man right?
(05:44):
Do the things that I need to doas a as a as a family man right
?
And even faith.
I feel like faith kind of gotdampened when I got off into
film, being tired of church.
In around 2018, 2019, finallymoving to California, this was a
(06:06):
piece uh, this was, this wasthe old me, even though I was
saved.
I consider myself saved and Iwas still a minister, been a
minister or been an elder since2012, been preaching since what?
20, 2010.
So you know that's neither herenor there, but my point is, in
my growth I had to understandthat, while I still have a gift
(06:27):
to do music, I have a gift to dofilm.
I have, I still have anobligation and I cannot let my
drive that I used to have fromthe old me return, because so
many other things comes withthat and it's like when you open
a can of worms, on one endyou're opening up something else
(06:49):
and you don't even see it.
So this episode is about mereminding you and reminding
myself to stay away from the oldself.
Now, how will I go about?
What will I do?
Films and what I'll do music?
(07:09):
Of course I'm not done makingmovies.
I'm not done making.
I haven't really even gotstarted again with the new me
right I?
The last short film I've done is2021.
Is was in 2021.
I did calling and that kind ofburns me up.
And then that's why I said,when I know the last project
that I did by myself, I put out,um, and I'm not doing anything.
(07:35):
Now it's been what?
Three years?
It's unacceptable.
It's unacceptable in in my lineof thinking and in my timeline
of doing things.
It's very unacceptable.
I'm used to cranking outprojects and always writing and
just putting it out, doing it,incorporating people, and part
of the issue is me being inDallas, me switching up the
(07:58):
location.
I don't have the actors that Idepend on that I was dependent
on back in Nashville.
I don't have the actors that Idepend on that I was dependent
on back in Nashville.
I don't have the actors that Icould call.
Even when I was in LA, Iestablished a rapport with with
uh, some people that would justcome out for me, um, but I don't
have that here in Dallas, andit's not that I can't get it, I
believe that it's there.
(08:19):
There are a few people that arewaiting to work with me, and
now I just feel a littlestagnant.
I know that it's my fault, Iknow that I have to get out and
do it.
I have to go ahead and do it,and the challenge is all in my
mind to get back, to prevent, tonot get back to the old self,
(08:42):
the old grind.
I believe that there's a way togrind healthier.
Right, there's a way to hustlehealthier.
And when I say healthier, Idon't mean physically, I mean
mentally and spiritually,because when you really have a
relationship with the Lord, youreally have to consider that
over everything, because it'sGod over everything else.
(09:04):
And so, with that being said, Ijust want to hit you with this
scripture about you know,voiding, avoiding the old self.
Uh, paul says this in Galatians,chapter four, verse nine, and
the NIV says but now that youknow God, or rather are known by
God, how is it that you areturning back to those weak and
(09:27):
miserable forces?
Do you wish to be enslaved bythem all over again.
Do you wish to be enslaved bythem all over again?
Do you wish to be enslaved bythe miserable forces?
Which the miserable forces isbeing a slave to sin?
Right?
So many people are looking forthe outward sin.
(09:47):
So many people are looking forthe, the, the, whatever.
They consider sin as such, aslike smoking, drinking, turning
up, partying, um, crashing out.
You know all of these things,but one of the biggest things
that I had to realize in my walkwith Christ is that sin can be
(10:09):
just disobedience.
It always starts withdisobedience, because it's
disobedience at the.
It could be disobedience at thesmallest level, still
disobedience, and it's sin.
So, as I'm one who stillpreaches that we can live a life
that is free of sin, we stillwill face the challenges and we
(10:30):
still will face the temptations.
I spoke a little bit abouttemptations.
Now.
The reason why temptations willbe there, will always be there,
is because we will always facechallenges in life, that we will
try to put our hand in the mixand come up with the solution
ourselves instead of giving itto God.
Right?
(10:50):
And if we are always puttingour hand in the mix, we will
never trust him like we say wedo, it'll just be a habitual
activity of going to church,worshiping or connecting online
to whatever church service weconnect to, with no real
connection.
It's almost like it reminds meof my, my children, my, my
(11:13):
daughters, like as old as theyare, like 10 and 8, right.
10 and 8 like they were 11, 11and 8, right, am I right?
I'd be getting that wrong.
My daughters they're growing upso fast but they even still
play with fake phones.
Right, they play with paperphones, they create their phones
(11:34):
and, um, they talk on them andthey play on them.
Right.
But that's how we are.
When we say we know god and thenwe turn around and we be led
off by temptations and becauseof the trials and tributes and
the challenges that we face inin life, we start only
mentioning him as a souvenirinstead of and as a trophy,
(12:04):
instead of looking at him likeas, as our actual heavenly
father, like he really watchesus.
He really, he really wants usto love him, he really wants us
to draw close to him.
But we don't do that because weare being um, we're not being
honest and I and, and we have tobe honest and I just want to
(12:28):
keep it real, like I just, youknow that's even in my preaching
.
I preach what I preach notbecause it sounds good, not
because it's the and I just wantto be known to be a truth
teller.
No, I speak what I speakbecause that's what the spirit
gives me to say and I by allmeans am held to the same
measure in which I preach andteach, right.
(12:52):
So I'm going to say we got tocontinue to water down those
temptations.
We gotta make sure that we aregoing in the opposite direction
of temptation, making sure thatwe're aware of the old self not
coming back right, because he,he don't have to come back.
The old willy, the old will isno more.
(13:13):
And I wasn't like, I wasn't liketerrible, but I just know that
I lacked in a lot of places andI know that I've changed so much
.
I'm just I'm not willing to goback to that mindset of
forgetting everything just so Ican chase a dream.
I'm in dallas now.
The time to really do that wasin la, and when and when I was
(13:35):
in LA, I was a better man, right.
But Nashville was my hometown,it was one of the.
It's why I had to leave, that'swhy I had to get out Because I
was focused on one end, but Iwas just slacking slacking as a
husband, slacking as a father.
You know family time was, andyou know it's better, it's
(14:00):
better.
I just have to make sure that Ifind a way to make film work.
I want to incorporate it in ourchurch.
I want to incorporate it ineverything.
I'm trying to get better withYouTube.
I'm trying to get better withthis podcast thing.
I have to do better with mytime management, because that
(14:22):
was a series that we talkedabout in our church Time
management.
I'm on it.
I even asked ChatGPT to give mea schedule, a content creating
schedule, and I got it.
Now I have to hook up theprinter and print it out and I
need to post it so I can see itand do these things on a regular
(14:42):
, just as I do it with scripturesticky notes.
I write notes, I read you haveto be, you have to do things
that are practical, and sothat's all I wanted to say to
you today.
I wanted to make sure that yougot another episode too, and I
want to make sure that I won'tbe caught lacking.
(15:03):
No more Again.
This has been another episodeof the SoulFuel podcast.
Remember to like, share,subscribe.
Share this with a friend, afamily member, whoever needs to
hear it, to let them know that,hey, you have to continue to
keep resisting the old self.
Submit yourself to God, resistthe devil and he'll flee from
(15:25):
you.
All right, I'll see you thenext time.
Soul Fuel Podcast.
Peace.
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Does hearing about a true crime case always leave you scouring the internet for the truth behind the story? Dive into your next mystery with Crime Junkie. Every Monday, join your host Ashley Flowers as she unravels all the details of infamous and underreported true crime cases with her best friend Brit Prawat. From cold cases to missing persons and heroes in our community who seek justice, Crime Junkie is your destination for theories and stories you won’t hear anywhere else. Whether you're a seasoned true crime enthusiast or new to the genre, you'll find yourself on the edge of your seat awaiting a new episode every Monday. If you can never get enough true crime... Congratulations, you’ve found your people. Follow to join a community of Crime Junkies! Crime Junkie is presented by audiochuck Media Company.