EPISODE 31 - IS THAT HOW YOU FEEL?

OMG....WE HELD NOTHING BACK!!!! TUNE IN YALL!!!!! MY FAVES KEV AND ZAN BROUGHT THE SPILL! -MRS. WILSON

Episode Transcript

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Y'all got y'all fans. Okay,try not to put them in front of
the right on the table, cansee it right on you. Hey world,

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Welcome to the Spill Podcast, yourfavorite podcast, feature in your favorite
podcast. Host me your girl,Missus Wilson. Hey Spillers, Welcome back
to episode thirty one. This ismy final episode before our summer break and
before season three, so we hadto save the best for last. Remember

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I told you all my two werethey agreed on the podcast was that May
March April. Anyway, they're agreedto come back to do a part two
of our conversation. I don't evenremember what we talked about it, I
remember it was so good. Ijust had to have them back, and
I'm so excited to have them backin the building. Both of my good,
good, good, good good friends. I've known Kevin over twenty years

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since probably two thousand and two thousandand one, and I've know Xandra since
like ninety six ninety Seven'm probably youngerlonger than you know, further back than
that. But anyway, these aremy people, These are my hearts,
these are my friends friends. Butbump bum, how many of us have
them? Friends from ones weekend dependon? Hey, friends, these are

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my friends. Hey x Andre,Hey keV. They just talking about Hey
girl, if you don't get thatmicrophone and put it in your face.
Oh, y'all see hers on YouTube. I'm talking about staying away from it.
Yeah, hey friend, you saidreally good, but they didn't hear
to you. Hey. Yeah,look she was trying to stay away from

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I'm like, it's good. I'mtalking about trying to stay away from it.
Hey, keV? What going on? So excited? Y'all? Are
veack? Are y'all excited? Areyour nervous? It's a little warm at
summertime now. I have adjusted theair, but we got the ring light
anyway, y'all know it's gonna bea little warm, but I got you.
I hope the fan in the waterdo y'all just oh yeah, I

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hope the little drinks don't hit theblood a little fast. Mine died because
I had one before y'all came.I'm just gonna be on this, I
said, And I had one withmy husband. It's Memorial Day weekend.
My husband's forty six birthdays less thantwenty four hours. So we've just been
kind of well, I've been tryingto turn him up, y'all. He's
so his daughter's just leaving. Shewas like, my daddy, act like

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an old man, I said,and do because where they do that at.
Anyway, I'm super excited that youall are back. I'm super excit
that y'all are part of the lastepisode before season three because spiller is we
want won a summer break. ButI do need y'all to make sure every
week, you know, a coupleof times going a week. If so,

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just go to a throwback episode andlisten to the old episode. Season
three is gonna be bombed, andI'm pretty sure they'll be back, y'all,
y'all come back. Okay. I'mtrying to get Kevin to start this
podcast that he brought up. Iain't gonna tell y'all yet. I'm just
gonna let him do it. ButI think he needs be good Andrew like,

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even if we're not on it,I just want to be just there.
Look, I just cu I needto I need it in my life
because I know so anyway, I'mgoing to pray for that personally because I'm
like a podcast girl now and thatthat, yeah, that that'll just do
something to me. So I needyou to get it together. Okay,
you got a little Sama a coupleof months. Yeah, that'll that'll be

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so okay anyway, So spillers,you know what time it is. This
is the time of the episode wherewe are intentional and we tune in with
our mental health to make sure thatwe are good. And if we are
not good, this is the timethat we are able to actually identify and
comprehend and admit and acknowledge that we'renot good, and then we'll say something

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so that someone can help us dosomething about it. So stop, pause
for the cast, do whatever itis that you need to do to take
a mental break, do a mentalcheck in. It's now I want to
call it a mental love check inbecause I feel like mental health is self
love a part of self love aswell. And make sure making sure that

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you're good mentally and emotionally, that'sa part of loving yourself, right,
So stop for the cause, pausefor the cause. Identify with your emotions,
how are you doing? Okay?And then, of course in the
podcast room, especially when we haveguests, our guests always have to check
in. This is NAMI, This, this is National Awareness Mental Hellness,
Mental hellness internationally month, so wetry to make sure that everybody is good,

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especially in the month of May.We're gonna do that anyway, but
this is a month where we actuallyhighlighted and we put emphasis on it.
So we're gonna start with my girls. She ain't here looking good. She
glowing them cheekbones. Baby, theyup there and they're smile and wasted slim
that eh. In fact, myfriend is bid anyway, friends mentally,

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how are you? I'm wonderful,hallelujah, she said, amen, amend
it's a long time coming up,so you're good. Good good kids.
Friend got a nine to five.She workeed a nine to five in years.

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She has her own business, let'smake that clear. But she got
her a little some extra she's doingon the side, and she ain't.
She ain't called me y'all and said, uh, what you're doing. When
Andrew Collins say what you're doing,oh, I know it's gonna be something,
and my friend, yeah, withpeople, working with people, that's

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how I'm excited. So it's notgood. Yay kids, But I learned
how to Okay, I ain't finon my nerves that part, that part,
and I'm still learning it because Ibe ready to box baby go all
the way through that. But I'mgetting to the point to where I'm like,
yeah, she's got to be growntoo, and it's just gonna get
a little worse the boxing. Yeah, the boxing will getting to hear that

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all the time from like friends thathave older kids, like, oh girl,
I was like, it's got toget up, no, ma'am.
Oh wow crazy. Yeah, I'mfinna, I'm finna die my gray hair
back black and you're rocking. That'ssounding people, Well it look good.

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It looked good on you. Friend. I'm just saying cause like you can
literally see the saltn Papper, butyour face is every bit of fifteen Kevin
in my line, your skin,your features, And I ain't even trying
to be no hater, but Ipromise. I was literally watching somebody our
age a couple of days ago andwas like, yeah, I'm gonna start

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doing some collegen supplements or some college. I was like, oh my god.
I had to figure out, likewe was one probably the same year
or a year before or after,why are we doing college? And yeah,
you you have the face of likea fifteen year old, like baby,
the skin, the cheeks. Theit's popping goals. The real she

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get carted anyway, it don't matterhell to liquor store if she gonna get
some wine. I used to,but now I'm like, and it's got
to be the ground telling you.It's maybe it's the black that don'g crack
for me. Babe, you diethat great baby, They hang on,
they gonna think you got a fakeid and white. Yeah, I ain't

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got chance. Well you look good, thank you, Kevin. You got
a little soft that beer too overhere looking, yes, but you look
good. That's the thing. AndI need people to really like. And
I hate to sometimes I feel likeI'm coming off as cocky or something,

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but I honestly feel like some ofus eighties babies, And I'm gonna be
clear, like it's evident the onesthat hadn't dabbed in drugs or just let
alcohol take them down through there orwhatever, Like we just don't look like
we are forty. We don't looklike we're forty. Baby, We're forty
and fine like in real life.And you look good, brother, So

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how are you mentally? I'm good? You know, saying no a lot
is therapeutic. That part he now, Like I literally just had a family
member to ask me to do somethingfor them, and I'm like, I'm
not even one of your immediate familymembers, So why are you calling me
available? I said no, Isaid no, I'm good. And the

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thing about it is I don't haveto give an explanation like no, it's
a complete answer. That's it,Like that is the complete sentence. That's
like, is a complete sentence?That is it? Again? No,
And like I get happier, startshowing, Like I had a FAI member
that was like, so, Kevi, can you take me somewhere? I

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was like, no, Well,what are you doing your game? Get
somebody else to do it? Ohmy god? Not what are you doing
to what I do? That isIt's like I was like, I'm sitting
on my couch. I don't wantto leave my house. I'm at peace.
Like I'm sitting on my couch watchingGolden Girls. I beg you fair,

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I don't feel like ripping and runninga lot of times when people feel
like you don't have kids, soyou don't have this or that going on,
they you ain't gonnaing else to dobut to do for me and everybody
else. I'm like that's what itis. Like I don't have any children.
Yeah, so yes, everybody's like, oh, he's got you know,
unlimited fun day. You know whatI mean. He worked for the

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staate like he got Kevin, LikeI worked hard for me to enjoy my
money. So you don't have totake care of me. Yeah, that
part, that part I don't blownand I don't borrow. So I read
I read a meme the other dayand said, I'm not where I'm not,
I'm not where I want to be, but I'm not calling, borrowing

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or stealing for where I want tobe. And I appreciated that so much
and I was like, oh,thank you God, Like that was literally
an AHA moment for me because I'mnot calling my mama or my aunties or
my grandma's or my friends or family, say hey, can you do this?
Can I worth this? Can Iyou know? But I'm like you
sometimes that hell know in your spirit, like you gotta put emphasis on it,

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and in order to protect your pieceand to be where you need to
be mentally, it's okay to sayno. I was telling one of my
friends that I have a friend,Honey, I ain't even gotta call her
name and she got a twin.They know I tell her so much.
You're too names. Tell them people, hell no, I don't care they
from the church. I don't carewhere they from. Tell them no,
get somebody else to do it,Like God didn't. He gave us time

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to do, and he makes usavailable to do, but he don't give
us our time to do all giveall our time to No. It's okay
to say no. Yeah, yeah, But like I saw me the other
day that said, no, matterhow side this story is, tell them
hell no, no. What's allerparents say? If you ain't got a

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piece of y'all home, it's aproblem. Like na, that's that's my
sanctuary. I need a little piecethere, and I still be struggling when
you live with people, don't matterwho. There's your spouse, your children.
You might have a little some sumevery now and then. But at
least that you know that's your sanctuary. And even if you got to go
in your room by yourself, youknow you'll get some type of peace.
So yeah, I love that.Hell no is good. Well, spill
has always been well with me.I ain't been a therapy in about four

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weeks, which is good because Iwas seeing that baby. From November up
until April May, I was seeingnot the show probably weekly a couple times
twice a week, but I hadn'tbeen in about four weeks. Of course,
we're still We do our checkups andthen I do my own mental checkups
to make sure I'm good. Butthus far all is well. I'm like

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Kevin, I've gotten a hell noin my spirit. I'm like Xander.
I have an almost seventeen year oldwho I thank God for and is amazing,
but she's still a teenager at theend of the day. And I
have decided that no, I'm notyou not gonna still rob my joy or
my peace because you moody or youfeeling no. Hell no, you know
what I'm saying. So I havegotten there to my spirit, and I

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have also gotten a hell note inmy sphere for her too, because and
my husband kind of had to putme onto that. You know what I'm
saying, as long as you keepbeing that crutch, you know what I'm
saying, it's gonna it's you justmaking it worse. You're creating the monster.
That's his favorite word. Yes,oh oh, several times you don't
tell me you like, yeah,because it does that. It does that

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to the end messes them up,Like no, like what what does that
mean? Spell that for me?Explain that Yeah is going through there right
now with her daughter, and Ithink that she graduated from college and all
that kind of stuff, but thethings that she does for her children is
crippling them. Yep. The thingabout it is they tell you that if
you raise your kids, you canlove your grandkids, but if you call

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your kids, raise your grandkids fast. Because the thing about it is,
it's like that now I'm like,you're going you're paying thousands of thousands of
dollars for your son's baby or yourdaughter's graduation, and I'm like, invest
that money into something because that's apicnic in the backyard. Is just because
that's silly to me. I literallyhad this thought, and we're gonna move

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on because we're gonna get straight intoit. But I was like, I'm
not doing all that for no promand for no graduation. Like I've seen
people the book, like they havebig sindofs and good the dress is that's
the send off, you know whatI'm saying, Like the dress, the
hair and the makeup, Like whythe hell is y'all paying for all this

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to entertain other people. And Inever really thought about that y'all until my
wedding. So we were blessed.Thank God for my parents. Shout out
to y'all. And my husband hepulled out his bankroll too to pay for
the wedding. You know what I'msaying, Like, I literally just picked
out stuff, and at the endof the day, my husband's like,
we ain't do nothing but pay fora whole bunch of nimms to sit back

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watch and you just entertained the wholedown care if your marriage work or not.
You know what I'm saying. He'slike, and black folk got to
get out of it, like whydid you invest in? I was singing
about that because I and we broughtthat up because for my fortieth birthday,
I wanted to have a tea partyand I wanted to just make it ready.
Come, don't have to worry aboutnothing, and just he's like,
Nick, it's your birthdays, evenif somebody needs to throw it for you.

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You need to have a dinner likeyou've been doing. But when it's
not gonna be paying a thousand dollarsfor food, two thousand for decorations and
and it makes sense. Yeah,we should still do like a tea Okay,
yeah, I think we'll do atea thing. Yeah, yeah,
we'll do a like a theme brunched. I'll consider that, but I'm not
paying me. I'm not. Iliterally just changed my mind on that because

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I was I'll probably do like drinktea, drink, you know, people
drink something. I'm probably sponsored todo something like that, but I'm not
what I was yes for the teaSo I think that because I did.
I was like, I want todo a tea themeed fortieth and he was
like, no, you who tohelp paying for you? Nah? He

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said, we're not finna be wenot finna keep doing it, and he's
And it made sense. And man, I was looking at a lot of
the prom the kids that went toprom this year, and I was looking
at the sendaways that their families werehaving for them, and I promised.
I had just said, Will mckins, you're gonna have people here from
out of town next year. You'rewe're probably gonna go girls after had a
little barbecue, little throw something onthe grill. Listen, because what is

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all these people doing and I'm notdoing that baby, I'm moment on.
Hall said she spends sixteen thousand dollarson her daughter's prom. See that's stupid,
stupid, and baby probably ain't gota scholarship or nothing for college.
See pretty dress, Like you said, we even got at a limit on
the dress because who they're going topay four or five hundred dollars. No,

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ma'am, no for you to wearit for two hours. Listen,
I get I get tired of itbecause cause you don't pay. Yeah,
yeah, and I know I knowsomebody that had two addresses this year.
Boys are good, Yeah, butgonna have to do the same because you
know then say well you yeah,well you gotta bless you, baby mine.
I already know we didn't already havethat conversation. I and I and

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I would love to and I haveit to do it like it's I promise
you we're good, but I justdon't feel like it's worth it, you
know what I'm saying. And thennow I'm like, even with my wedding,
I'm just like, with seeing whatmy parents did, I gotta start
preparing for that, you know whatI'm saying. So you want us to
spend all this on this bomb,or do we need to be saving up
in this wedding because it's coming boyfriendbecause she don't have a boyfriend and she

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and she's already established that she's probablygoing to go to prim by herself,
so we're gonna But she said thatshe didn't want I even asked. I
was like, pool, you like, if we didn't have the send off
and all the decorations at home andstuff like, would that affect you?
And she was like no, likeshe's literally an introvert, like she yeah,
she different, and she like,I don't nobody even gotta be here,

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Like I don't even want to renta car, like I can clean
my car up. My car isgood. That part did. Now my
uncle running me a grande. Ihad a granddad. Boys, don't y'all
at some fire if I didn't,but my uncle, my daddy gave my
uncle some money. Baby, andI got in their grand zam and draw
that grand zam like it was abing baby. Now they get old school

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Rowes was his Nigga vintage called whocan match that? Nobody? I just
say, but I think about itis y'all got season d's. I'm like,
oh my god, y'all barely graduatedby y'all got prom is and d
you're not going to prom. Promis a privilege, not a right.
Now. I do have a friendthat did say that she did not her
son did not go to prom.She told him, well, he worked,

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and she was like, I mean, if he wanted to go,
he could have went. He couldhave saved this money for his suits,
he could have did all that.She was like, but he was barely
making it. And she said sheliterally didn't know until probably four or five
weeks before the graduation that he wasgonna actually graduate. She's like, I
didn't notice that stuff. He's creditsand stuff like, no, why would
I spend all this money? Andshe and she did and he didn't go

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and like his his thought is thismy MoMA's supposed to go. But she
was like, no, I'm supposedto do all that if you hand in
your business. But if I don'teven know if you're gonna graduate or not,
I'm not wasting my money, Likewhy would I pay for And that's
true because I've seen it happen.I'm a witness that so much has been
done for prom, even graduation pictures, and then find out literally a week

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before graduation. Wait, like,what were we doing you? What?
Like, so you gotta go tosummer school. It ain't even you gotta
go a whole semester some school likethat. Witness the credits. Oh no,

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Well, if you just gotta docreadit recovery, like a credit recovery
where you can go summer school andget it done. Yes, but if
you have to, like a semester, go back and do a semester of
high school is something? No,they're not. Yeah, and do it.
It makes sense, Yeah, itmakes sense, but they do let
you do. If you just gota couple of credits where you can knock
out over the summer break, theywill still let you walk. Yeah,

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but they'll hold your diploma until youcompletely So even if you decide you're gonna
walk and I'll go to summer school, you not gonna get no diploma.
They not gonna give it to you. So anyway, I'm glad. All
is well with you all. ThankGod, all is well with me?
Spillers, If all is not well, say something so that we can do
something. Mental health is wealth,and in order to be completely wealthy,

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you have to be mentally healthy okay, and it's mental health Awareness Month.
I spoke on that couple the beginningof this month, the first episode.
Just make sure you're taking care ofyour mental health, making sure you're taking
time aside for yourself, make surethat you are breathing alone time. Whatever
it is that you have to dofor you to make sure you good mentally,

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do it and don't feel bad.It's not you being selfish. It's
you making sure you good. Youdon't want to be spazzing out because you're
mad as hell is somebody else somethingelse? Nah, take care of you
sis and bruh and make sure you'rewell. Did y'all want to add something
to that? Y'all good? Allright? She said, don't let them
stress you up. Don't Yeah,she said, don't let them strish you're

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like, look at my friend Iloved. I have friends now, Okay,
feelings and we are moving on,all right, speelers, We are

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are moving on. Normally, spillerswill do a skill trend where we'll talk
about the things that are trending inthe culture or whatever this week were not
doing it, and we move itright on to topic time because I'm just

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trying to get the people to understandand just but for real, I was
so not appalled about the Diddy's situation, Like I literally was not, because
I'm one of those people that asmuch as I love Beyonce, I know

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that Beyonce is human, and Iknow that Beyonce has issues, and I
know Beyonce does things and think thingsthat nobody probably would ever know. So
when things happen, I would notput it past her as much as she's
one of the people that I love. The same with Patti LaBelle, the
same with Kim Tarna. Those arepeople that I love, but I also
know that they are human, youknow what I'm saying. So when this

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budydo came out of Dindy, likeit just did not surprise me. I
had when Cassie first did her lawsuitand he was so quick to respond and
to adhere It's almost like bow down, like whatever you want to mess I
got you. You want thirty melike I gotcha thirty five. Just shut
up, Like the way his response, Like I just wasn't surprised. So

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what I'm talking about, spillers isif you guys aren't aware. A couple
of weeks ago, there was avideo put out by Seeing In. You
know, they trying to say,now that's Seeing In and releasing somebody bout
it from them, and they SeeingIn put a video out of it.
Anyway, Seeing In released the videoof an incident from twenty fifteen where Diddy
was physically attacking and antagonizing his thengirlfriend partner Cassie. These are all celebrities,

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and y'all know spellers. We don'tdo tea on the podcast. However,
this is a conversation I just wantedto have and break down with some
people that I know have may nothave been in any physical abusive relationships,
that has been in relationships, andthey are people that are shadows in.
They are people. But I'm tryingnot to put our business out there,
and I dang, it's the truthbecause listen to Kevin Baby, it's Kevin

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to tail Baby. I don't flipsome tables. But anyway, I wanted
to have a conversation with people thatI know have experienced something, you know
what I'm saying to where we cankind of identify and discern people that ain't
worth for Dayton from the You knowwhat I'm saying from the get go.
So anyway, let's get right intoit. I saw the video when I

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saw Cassie's lawsuit, and I'm nosyas hell. I'm just the nosy person.
I love history, I love socialstudies. Anybody can tell you,
I'm just a nosy. I wantto know dead happen, Why y'all had
to treat the black people like that, what happened, where the black people
come from? What time long wouldbe here when the first people in Like,
I'm that type of nosy, likeI need to know the details of
what happened. And I don't castjudgments. I don't give my opinions.

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I just like to feel how Ifeel about a situation. But I promise
I'm not the type to give anopinion on it because that ain't what That's
them, and that's how I feelwith them. With Cassie and Diddy,
I feel like that's them. WhenCassie first came out. You know what
I'm saying a few months ago,like this is what I was going through
all those years. I wasn't surprisedone of the main reasons I wasn't surprised
is because I was one of thegirls in the early two thousand who was

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watching making the band. I wasone of the girls in the early two
thousands who noticed Aubrey O'Day who hatedP. Diddy. I knew that that
girl hated that man for a reason. I watched how the other girls of
Dentity came bowed down to him.They agreed with what she said privately,

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but publicly they didn't want no partsbecause they didn't want the Master or the
boss to be mad at them,and they didn't want him to put him
the way he was treating them her. They didn't want the same. So
I saw a lot of stuff like, oh, I don't like him.
So I'm just gonna be honest.I've never been a fan of P Diddy,
Puff Daddy Diddy, Love, MisterLove Love Jones. I ain't never

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been a fan, and I'm justgonna be honest. His music, the
entertainment, bad Boy, little KimMace once well, when they had they
little short sting, Yeah, Iwas there, Mary Jay, I was
there, Faith I was there,But I just even with Pu with Biggie,
I was like m M, likethat ain't right. I'm like,
Sugar Knight, you don't want tomanage all in the video dancing all in

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the video. I had a susman I was like, yeah, because
that is a little weird. Butanyway, I have never just been a
fan, So when I signed,I just wasn't surprised. I wasn't like,
oh my god, no, Ipromise I wasn't. I really wasn't.
When the video first came out,I want you all to explain like

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your emotion or your response at themoment, and then we're gonna get into
trying to just dissect a little bitwhy a person would act like that.
So how did y'all like when videothe when case and when Cassie first,
I guess suit them or whatever thecase may be. Allegedly all this stuff
is alleged. How did you allfeel like you I just wasn't surprised,

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Like these are celebrities, but likewe were talking about earlier, we put
these people on pedestals to where wefeel like they can do no wrong,
only they knock them down. Whenwe found out the thirty that part,
that part they literally are just likeyou, right, they just have means
and different things. That's it.That's it. But when I saw the

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video, it didn't really have aneffect on me because I was like,
he's a human being. We seeuncles and cousins and dad uncles I saw,
even at sixty seven years old,whooping on their wives and stuff and
the girlfriends. Like I saw oneof my uncles grab a girl about her
neck and beat like I'm talking about, push her up against the cabinet and

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they walked out hand and then thatpoint. So my thing about it is,
I'm like, I'm so when Isaw it, I was like,
and then when it when it firstcame out, when Cassie was like,
oh he did this to me.The people that were on Diddy's side,
lets me know that you don't evencheck the pedophiles in your face that part.
So that's why in your family.So that's the reason why people don't

(29:30):
come for yes, right, thisis why it took us so long to
come for because what you've done tillp did is you put him on a
god level. You put him onan idol, yes idol, and you've
put him at a level where hecan do no wrong. Kind of like
Trump supporters maybe forty five. Gotthat he got them supporters, baby,

(29:51):
Okay, they did was trying todo that. But you're a black man
in America. That part you youain't got that much power. But you
ain't got at some point we're gonnabe wait, they'll definitely turn on you.
Yeah. Yeah, well I wasgonna say, yeah, it didn't
shock me at all because, likeyou said, on Danny Kane, like

(30:14):
people, he showed his hand likehe when he goes on the poetry.
To me, I don't trust anybodythat has lack of compassion. You know
what I'm saying. When you caneasily tear somebody down, whether it's for
money, camera time, whatever,it just if it's in you, I
don't put none passion. Yeah.So let's to piggyback off of what you

(30:37):
said when they brought up him beingaround like Justin Bieber when he was a
child. My issue is with allthose kinds of situations leaving your child with
just any I don't care how muchmoney. I'm not leaving my child period
at all. It can't be therethat part. So yeah, all that

(30:59):
just yeah, and that was justlike an interview spirit very demonic because like
now his pictures and stuff like.Now everybody's like he got demonic eyes.
Look at his eye. I've alwaysnoticed his eyes and his eyebrows. And
I'm not saying that he's a demonicperson, but it's not warm you know
people, normal people. Well justI'm not saying y'all get what I'm saying.

(31:22):
But whenever you have a dark likewhen people look at you and your
face and your the eyes and areais dark like, that says a lot
and from I promise you a longtime. But the girl I was like,
why is his eyebrows like that?Why his eyes timing? And then
he got the big old stick poofylike the like the for real like the
slave masters and stuff like his.Anyway, that's neither here nor there to

(31:45):
me. This is my opinion,But I was listening to ussher. He
did an interview about how he wentto the Diddy parties as a child,
and they asked him would you letany of your kids go? And he
said, hell no. I'm justsaying like, for you to experience this
stuff young and then become adult andadult and know that something is wrong,

(32:06):
know that that's not right, likethat's weird. Yeah, exactly, Yes,
he'd been us for years, foryears, and y'all know who Kep
Tavin Campbell is. Can we talkThat man had the biggest hit in America
for months, for weeks, Ithink for a couple of years it was
number one, and now it doesn'tsmith the block. So he's back the

(32:29):
song that's popping out. But hewent ghost for a long time and nobody
ever knew why he went ghosts Andnow as a grown fifty something plus man,
he's coming out like, this iswhat I had to deal with in
the industry. But then when hewas talking about if people wanted hearing it
because they was just trying to getthat money, like he ain't talking about
none, let's get this money.Naw. This is my mental health,

(32:49):
this is my health, this isme, this is what's been done to
me. And I feel like thatgoes on so much like Zani said a
few minutes ago, that power trip, like you said a few man,
and it's go that idolatry, whenwe're idolizing things and people that we shouldn't.
We let so much slide, welet so much go. You ain't
doing that in your family and inyour home. If you know somebody putophiling,

(33:13):
messing with cheering, especially your cheeringor somebody in your family. You
ain't saying nothing about it, Sowhy you're letting it work alligiedly? Why
are you letting people with a littlestatus, a little power get away with
How y'all feel about that? Justhearing if you and I ain't really no
P. Diddy fan, But likeI said, I watched the little documentary

(33:36):
Okay, okay, the documentary theydid on to be Yeah, yeah,
I heard that P Diddy every timehe speaks of himself is like god,
you know what I'm saying, Likehe just up and so here it is
you having to be humble, losingall this. That's what happens when you're
not humble, when you put yourselfabove people, you mistreat people. Eventually

(34:02):
you don't know when you're gonna getbrought all the way down. Like to
your it looked smoked out. Literallyapology literally it was a horrible. First
of all, I wasn't an apology. Literally, they gave me narcissism.
And it didn't give me apology becauseit was almost like you know who you
did what you did to and legallyhe can't take her name allegedly, So

(34:27):
I get that, but at leasthe could have said it was to everyone
that I've heard that I've offended,and that he ain't say he I was
tread. I missed that I hadto go to the I I I I
I. Where's the sincerity in that? I That's what I'm saying. That
part or mistreat people. And shewasn't the only one. It was every

(34:50):
woman allegedly that he had dealt withor was dealing with before list listen,
that woman was trying to tell ussomething a long time. They say allegedly
that she's speaking from the grave.That's the alleged And then I want to
bring up there real quick before Iforget, because Son's son allegedly put out
a mixtape and allegedly wanted to seeall of this stuff because he really couldn't

(35:13):
believe about his daddy. And nowthat evidence is coming out, sun Son
is kind of looking crazy now.And so that's another thing that I want
to talk about too, how wekind of put our kids in these situations
to where when we're not honest withthem and they project whatever it is that
we're and kids are going to be, especially if you love your parents,
and you have good relationship with yourparents, you're gonna be defensive for your

(35:35):
mamm and daddy. My mama saidshe didn't do that. My daddy said
he didn't. That's what we're goingto do. I'm like that now,
you know what I'm saying, Like, you can't tell me none about monis
No not I and I know,or charge senior or reach your gunner,
No, tell you somebody about y'allpeople. But I man, that's what
we do. But when we're nothonest with our kids, and our kids
kind of tired of people putting usdown and saying stuff, they're going to

(35:59):
come to our defense. But ifthey're coming to our defense and we've been
wrong and we've been honest with them, and then when the shit hit the
fans, you're looking crazy and like, what explanation do you have for your
children? You know, like whatyou want? Willson will hit like will
daughter? Like, I'm just saying, we have to be careful too about

(36:21):
the honesty and the conversations that we'rehaving with our children, because even if
that was our lifestyle. Let mego here. Let you know, Mama
was dremping, Daddy was drimping.I had some little you know what I'm
saying. Maybe some stuff come outsoon or later, but that's not who
I am. That's that was justthe situation. Yeah, you know,
because my kids, if you asksome one, lesson that they Mama pushed

(36:43):
into today's little spears is what's donein the dark gonna come to the light.
And so especially now that they're older, very honest, like, I
don't care. I mean, becauseit is what it is. I can't
take it back. Some stuff yougon't hear. Mama was crazy, Oh
okay, And I mean it's justand it could be a lesson for them.

(37:07):
You know, they can avoid itor maybe not, but you're not
gonna be able to throw for one, throw my story in my face.
That part, that part, Buttwo, I don't need nobody else to
tell you something. So I mean, that's his fault conversations, but parents

(37:28):
don't want to admit sometimes. Andanother thing too is sometimes we're great parents,
but we're lousy friends, spouses.You get what I'm saying. We
can be a great parent, butsometimes we're lousy to other areas where spouses
and have to learn about my ownparents. My dad was a great dad,
but he was a lousy spouse.You get what I'm saying. He
cheated on my mom, and hedid all kinds of ship. He had

(37:49):
women coming up to her, damnjob, all kinds of ship. He
was a great day. But hehas we have to realize that before me,
he was this man. Yeah,you know what I mean. So
you know what I mean. Soit was probably this man before he had
me. Yeah, you know whatI'm saying. Took up through a whole
bunch of yes. And it's boundaries, you know what I'm saying. It's

(38:09):
boundaries when you are a great parentand a great friend. You know what
I'm saying, You have to youjust got to know those boundaries you do.
And he's he's told me that,he said, Kevin, I honestly,
I messed up. He was like, I'm not even gonna lie.
He was like, your mama probablywas the best thing that happened to me.
He know it, said I didn'tknow it. He said, that's

(38:31):
why he never got a divorce.And it just makes me feel better to
come to you know the truth,like and when you let when you finally
like I had that within the pastcouple of days, like with their dad,
Okay, we're just gonna say it. Now. As an adult,

(38:52):
I know how to control my responseand my reaction. You know, some
things might have been wrong on thatend, but it's my response and how
I react. When I was younger, I didn't have it. Yeah,
yeah, self control, but youlearned that. That's something that you learn.

(39:14):
That's something that you learn because Iwouldn't want to lose. I wouldn't
want to lose up like where we'regoing, Yeah, I want to lose
this money. I would treat people. I would make sure that I give.
Yeah, I wouldn't have any typeof people around me that would actually
jeopardize this. And it's crazy becausethat's and I try to teach my daughter

(39:34):
that now, you know what I'msaying, Like the it's biblically and it's
a golden rule. It's the lifegolden golden rule. It is better to
give than received, you know,be good swords of everything that you have,
of your time, of your space, of your energy, of your
finances, of your talents. Likeit's good to be really good stwarts of
that be Like really, I guesswe're intentional about teaching our children and projecting

(40:02):
that it's good to be good towhat you have and the lessons that you've
learned, then I think it'll begood. I think you were saying something
earlier, Axandrea. You was like, sometimes, you know, you tell
your kids things and events so theycan learn. Either they gonna learn or
maybe they won't. And that's biblicallyas well, like a lot of times
God puts us through trials and tribulationso it can be testimonies for other people.

(40:24):
Sometimes they'll actually learn. Like sometimeswe can help our people, our
children generations under us, nieces andnephews, we can block them from those
curses or those issues or those situations. But sometimes what the old sing or
hard head makes us off, youknow, sometimes they just got to go
through it. It doesn't matter howmuch we tell them, what we say

(40:45):
or what And I feel like unfortunatelyin the industry when you're celebrity and stuff
like that, because I'll be lookingat these kids now have the hell how
you rich? And you're still stupid? You know, I say, like,
you know you it's situations that youare in or that kids are and
it's and I'm and I'm not beingjudgmental spill spillers, but a lot of

(41:09):
times, like when I see themfalling, falling into addiction and stuff like
that, it's just kind of hardfor me to just be empathetic. I
do. I am empathetic for them, you know what I'm saying, and
I have to talk myself down,like girl, you on know the hood
that you're like, you need toshut up because it could be like they
still a human I do. Youknow, That's how I get down to

(41:31):
really be empathetic for them. Butfor people that are believers or people that
don't don't know any better, theyjust trying to figure out, like how
the hell you got all this moneyand you're struggling no way that you're struggling
on drugs or mentally, you knowwhat I'm saying, Because people really do
feel like money can fix everything andthey can learn a lot of times in

(42:00):
those situations when you going to drugsand stuff, it's to mask mass things,
masks messed up people in your life. You know a lot of those
parents they have these kids, theylike a job. The kids are like
job, you know, like ameal TI and whether their parents or not

(42:22):
that like you said earlier, they'rehuman. A lot of people when they
come to money, they become theworst people ever, like horrible, horrible
people, and in order to dealwith them because your parents and y'all remember
a lot of kids was one ofthe what do you call that when you
separate yourself. Yeah, like emancurpatethemselves, just want to be grown.

(42:45):
Yeah, sometimes but sometimes the paperwork. But sometimes some kids have to
because I know somebody that had to. You know what I'm saying. They
like they were at a point wherethey were like, look, I got

(43:06):
to take care of me now,you know what I'm saying. They not
doing it how I want them todo. All my parents and not hear
how I need them to be now. I just I gotta do it.
And I've known it to be done. And the situation was almost successful,
Like it was done. They're growndoing their own thing now. But sometimes
you know that has to happen.But a lot of times when we are

(43:27):
looking into these and it's not eventhat we're looking into these celebrities situations and
issues. It's public. It's everywhereyou go. It's on t You can
turn the damn David mirror and hetalking about the David don't aboutn't want to
hear about it. It tell usabout the community party, Like it's everywhere.
It's on the news, it's onTV, it's on your phones,
it's on social media, so youwhen you're seeing it, so you don't

(43:52):
have an opinion about it, youknow what I'm saying. And like people
I don't know speaking of talk aboutit. We probably is go, probably
are. I'm not good with namesat all, Okay, but the lady,
the goblin lady, uh, thewhite girl that bleach bun, bleach

(44:14):
Bun. I'm like, we weren'tgonna say her name now, we ain't
giving that here for that much credit. But he doesn't go. Crocket James
mcary was the girl we need.Yeah, yeah, yeah, okay,
yeah, Rockey went in. Crocketwent in to pocket. Like that's the
second time I've just been like,did y'all see the one with the people

(44:35):
in the airport though, the ladyin the airport it's a new video.
Girl came out yesterday. It wasthe lady in the airport. She was
like, hey up, bad beachbleach bun. She said you don't like
that, do you? And shelaughed. I said, Lord, I
hate to be there, petty,but'll girl, yeah think about it,
and she said it. She saidshe did first. They weren't even necessary

(44:58):
like hers weren't even that visible.The only difference between us and you is
you got blonde eyelashes and we gotdark. Racist. There was literally racist,
like your eyelashes may be blocking yourwhat Her eyelashes weren't even big like
regular black girls like our l a. She's her alashes were classy and normal.

(45:21):
That's what they come. Oh mygod. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
yesterday she told me something she wasdoing. Yeah, just like I
just got my left I was like, girl, that's not supposed to be
like the're supposed to. They're supposedto hurt that party. The lashes these
days, Uh, that's part anda lot of times, like individuals have

(45:44):
to be done. Yeah. Theycannot be heavy. They can't be heavy,
they can't be long, they can'tbe thick like mine. Like mine
might be a little loosener because Iyou know, the preacher was preaching to
me today and I had some tearsflow, So they may be a little
loose, but I on like heavy, long, thick. Just give me
a nice little fluff with a nicelittle you know what I'm saying. I'm

(46:07):
good, but out of extra something. I got to be able to see
where I'm going. I got tobe able to look up and still be
able to see through whatever I'm lookingup. Anyway, that's need to hear
nothing there Homegirl. Crockett went inBlonde, Bad Built. I'm just trying
to understand, literally, like Ineed to understand it. And if IBLE

(46:29):
say that and all that, Ididn't get to understanding and get understanding.
She said, clarification. That's itclarification because who you're talking to she was
right behind it. She was likefrom New York. She was like,
thank you. And then one ofthe other ones, the men, he
was like, wait what was like, wait a minute, that's even more

(46:53):
for you, So why should shesay anyway, that's that's neither here or
there? And it is. Butyeah, that's too funny because that I
was just like, but the thingabout it is is that a lot of
times people can take my thing aboutit is anything I did, I'm ready

(47:16):
to take. You gotta be readyto you gotta be ready to take.
Like for me, I'm not thetype of person where I'm like, I
feel like I should be immune tosomething black. I'm immune something black.
Gay man like, if I goto a comedy show you're talking about gay
people, I'm going to laugh myass because again that's just I mean,
it's funny, you know what Imean. Like there's a there's a line

(47:38):
between funny and disrespect that part thatpart times sometimes people disrespect. And even
with the Gary Owen situation, youknow what I mean, Like, I
never really felt like he was funny. I just felt like he just built
his his career because he had alife, right, That's it, And
just be honest, that's all hiscomedy was about, was about race.

(47:59):
So I'm like, if my thingabout it is like all Lavell Crawford is
way more funny because that's literally lifecan be funny. Life can be hard,
but if you can make it funny. Yeah. And I like that
you brought that up too, becauseI feel like, like you said that
thin line, it's important no offenseto any comedians their race or whatever.

(48:20):
But I feel like if you areof a particular race and most of your
comedy skits or your your comedic whateveris based on your experiences from this race
or whatever, you feel like you'reokay to do that because you're connected to
their race. You're not, it'snot okay, so get let go.
And that's the same for the situationwe've been talking about with Daddy Love but

(48:43):
whatever his name is. Yeah,you got power, but that's all you
have. You have power to putpeople in positions that they weren't before.
But that don't mean that it's okayfor you to mistreat them. That don't
mean that it's okay for you tonot be empathetic or to just And I
feel like this has been going onso long. I'm happy that it's coming
to the forefront. And he's notthe only one. That's so many other

(49:06):
people that stuff about to come outabout. But for people to be so
surprised, that's what's annoying to me. And then for the celebrities to be
coming out now apologizing because they didn'tbelieve Cassie or the situation. And first,
first of all, I was listeningto the Breakfast Club and I think
charlemagnea God was like, Yeah,it's okay to have your opinion, but

(49:28):
it don't mean that you have tobe vocal about your opinion, especially when
you really don't know the details ofthe situation. And so when the celebrities
were coming up apologizing. He calledit bluff. He was like, that's
bull stuff, Like, why y'alleven saying something. Y'all don't know what
this brother got going on. Halfy'all don't really been a random so you
really can't put it past So youknow, you know what I'm saying.
You know you can't put it pastthem. And you didn't think that it

(49:51):
was proof. But he said itmight not have been proven the nineteen hundreds.
He chatted. He said, itmight not have been proven the nineties,
but in the two thousand cameras everywhere, there's going to be some type
of a lot of stuff. Now, so now you're showing the type of
person in your character because now yougot to come back and apologize. And
that's what we said. He said, I don't want to have to come
back and apologize for nothing, soI just shut up. I just shut

(50:13):
the hell up and just say shame, shame, shame. You know,
so around you know, yes,money, yes, crazy, how much
power money has and how much somepeople just want to be in the line.
I'm like, want to be attachedto him. Yeah, just like
you said, I didn't even mykids with no grown that part that's stupid

(50:34):
child with nobody. If I can'tgo and be a part of their life,
I'm going to be there every stepwhere we're going. That part,
like right through in the studio likethis, that part ain't doing nothing.
Like when he was talking to JustinBieber and he was like, I don't
have custody of them whatever their part. He allegedly said, he's like before
the next quarter, and Justin waslike like his you know him China and

(50:58):
brace was it was so uncomfortable,you know what I'm saying, Like,
And then you see videos and stuffafterwards that they're coming up with they like,
p didd he was hugging them.Allegedly was hugging Justin b Bread making
sure he didn't have cameras on them. And then if you look at the
video, you're like, yeah,he was kind of touching them or electric
wires of microphones and the way hewas touching them. It makes you kind

(51:20):
of question it, but it alsomakes you think back, like, well,
what the hell was his parents thinking? Like how did the parents think
that that was okay? You don'twant your child to be in like you
really to sacrifice your child, Imean, think about the Tina Turner situation.
We love Tina Turner, but hermother was toxic baby talking his hair.

(51:40):
Honey, Okay, I'm like sheliterally you knew that this man was
abusing. You literally told this manwhere you was to put her in even
more, Dama, that money,he literally could have murdered her that day.
That money didn't care. You didn'tcare because he was taking care of
you. And that's sad and Ijust and that's something that we have to

(52:00):
grow out of. Like it's likewhenever you are willing to sacrifice your child
for your game, not only doesit shows a lie for you, but
it's not gonna last. It's notgoing to last. It's karma. Like
you read what you saw and yousacrificing somebody that doesn't know any better,
and you know your child don't knowany better. They're just listening to what

(52:22):
their parents or trying to whatever you'vegotten him to do. That's what they're
doing. It's gonna come back.It's going to come back. And I
often think about p d D's relationshipwith his parents, and I say that
because allegedly it's been known that hisdad was killed when he was what three

(52:44):
years old, and he wears achain with him and his father. But
when his daddy was in these Harlemstreets or wherever he's from, allegedly he
was the truth dot com like playno games, blah blah blah. You
know what I'm saying, hand abusiness to whoever. However, And I
wonder if you know, sometimes theysay that we have we inherit things,

(53:07):
but people don't really talk about whatwe inherit in our DNA. Yeah,
you know what I'm saying. SoI wonder if that is something that he
inherited in his DNA that he justnever really had any control of and nobody
ever really tried to control it forhim. And I say that because I
just just even the way he treatshis mama, like just watching the the

(53:30):
past reality shows and little video clips. You know what I'm saying. It's
like mama like no her place.But I'm the type of mama like Nigga.
At the end of the day,I'm your mama. Find you somebody
to play with. I wouldn't careif you had a trillion dollars. It's
because of me that you got it, you know what I'm saying. So
you need to humble yourself to me, because had I not had you,

(53:52):
you wouldn't be in this position.If I can't say nothing else, I
can say that, I can sayI gave birth to you. So because
because of that, you're able toinherit it whatever God blessed you with.
You know what I'm saying. Sodo y'all went through that part when I
was pregnant with you, when Ifirst had you, when with the raising
you like, I'm just saying,so, do you all think that we

(54:15):
likes we inherit DNA? But doyou all think that it's something that we
really don't know that we have inheritedmaybe until it's too late, or is
it something that we probably or peopleor appearance or somebody can identify at an
early age and be like uhh,like you got that, Let's go ahead

(54:35):
nip it in the bud. Now, even with mental health that has passed
down, that is DNA, Likethat is DNA because like I have anxiety
because my mother had anxiety, youknow what I mean? And then the
way I grew up only enhanced thatanxiety. But let's see, let's answer
this. Did our mothers acknowledge noor identify that the anxiety. I ain't

(54:59):
never been aware. It's never beena word. And I've told her that.
I literally told her, I said, Mom, you suffer from anxiety.
You don't want to admit it.But I remember being like twelve years
old and we would go to familyfunctions and somebody would just start talking loud
and she would be like, let'sgo, let's go, we gotta go,
we gotta get out of here.And I'm like, Mom, that
is a flight or flight response.Literally, that is literally anxiety. You're

(55:21):
doing a flight response right now.You have anxiety. Like even on her
wedding night, like even after thereception, they said she was in the
bed because she was so nervous aboutmarrying my dad. She had webs all
over her face. That is literallya chemical imbalance that you have that you
need to deal with, you knowwhat I mean. God puts therapists on

(55:43):
this earth for you wise you knowwhat I mean. They're therefore, Yeah,
they're here for a reason because alot of times we need to talk
to somebody without a biased opinion.A lot of times when you talk to
family members, they're telling you whatcan benefit Then oh, don't do that,
because it's benefiting them. When Itold my nephew to take his butt

(56:05):
to the military, and everybody elsehe don't want to do that. That
was for their benefit, not his. And he ended up in trouble and
not here on papers. But mything of that is he can go to
the military, you know what I'msaying. And he pulled me to the
side of the family picnicains today hewas like the look of disappointment on his
face because I was the one who'sfrom the ninth to the twelfth grade.

(56:27):
Let's get this homework done. Let'sget this stuff done. Okay, you
need these shoes, you need theseclothes. I'm not buying you no Georgian's.
I'm gonna buy you some new balances. I'm gonna buy you a new
Nike. But listen, we're gonnado this. And then when he one
week after high school, you gota feeling the job. But again it
was people in this instead of himreaching out to somebody, a guidance counselor,

(56:47):
because your dad is in jail,so you need some therapy, right,
you don't have your dad. Thatis somebody that is vital to your
figure. Yeah, that is vitalto who you are. Now. I
can step in as much I wantyou, but I am not your father.
You need your father and your lifefathers are needed. And so I
was like, everybody, he don'twant to do that. That's not what

(57:09):
you that's your benefit, everybody else, everybody else. You guys want to
live in a five block radius therest of your preach preach youosed to be
five hundred miles away. And thatpart exposed and and and that's so true
when everybody else wants something and you'renot. Instead of speaking what's good for

(57:29):
them or telling them go the waywhat you want to go, pick your
desires and you choose or do what'sright. We want to do what we
can try to do to keep ourhands on them so they can be in
arms length when it's really like ruiningthem. You sure you want to go
that far away from Yes, getthe hell away at the end of the
day. And I I'm tired ofschool. I don't want to. I

(57:51):
get tired of a lot of stuff. That part, But you moved based
off for how I felt a lotof things, Babe, y'all be I'll
be here up in jail if Imoved out the way I felt that far
a lot of people would be without. Yeah, so who cares? Yeah
tired? Yeah, okay, becausey'all got it easy and just get started.

(58:16):
Literally Webster's Dictionary, y'all along thatpart. Rely, whenever you wanted
to research something in the library,you had to go and pull out one
of those million drawers. Had togo. We didn't have uh the map
people, we had map quest.You had to type it in on the

(58:36):
computer and print out the directions ifyou had a computer that could print out.
If not, you had to learnthe four thirties and the igh thirties
and the sixty five's in the northand the south, in the east and
the west. That's what we learnedbecause I remember living in Tennessee, baby
and driving. All I knew wasgo for the east, for the west,
for the east, for the west. When you get to forty west,

(58:57):
get to the mis you go throughthe east thirty west when you get
to it, Like Lily, soand that is so true, that's so
true. Like we can't we andI try to teach my baby that now
I got even move. We've hada whole situation today, Mom, We're
gonna do this little sugar free summer. So I brought the modes and I
need you to go get the dairyand the Greek yogurt in the cookies and

(59:21):
greams. You just spent twenty sevendollars in Chick fil A last night.
Why ain't gonna get it. I'mjust saying, like, yeah, no,
I bind you somebody to play withit. Sis. If you think
I'm gonna spend all my money onwhat we need here when we need it,
and you gonna get your little paycheck and you finished spend it up,
baby, you got the wrong mama. No, ma'am. Absolutely none

(59:43):
had this issue with gas. Iain't had no gas and I had to
and y'all know I got her counton my phone. So I pulls up
the app and I literally calls offall fast food or stort junk stuff.
This is why you don't have nogas. So if you get some gas
for me, I'm gonna cash appyou and you're going to cash have me
back, and if you don't,I'm going to transfer for from your account

(01:00:07):
to mine. Like that's just whatwe're gonna do, because it's about being
responsible, you know what I'm saying. And I feel like like now,
like even in this situation with celebrities. You know what I'm saying. We
coddle our kids so much. Wedon't hold him accountable. We let stuff
slide. I really believe that anyadults raised any kids, and if you

(01:00:31):
got you gotta be hard on themjust a little bit because and I tell
my baby all that all the time. Baby, the way that the Lord
operates, and I know I'm oneof his favorites. Baby, he can
just tell me today or tell thegonna say yea, let me go ahead,
bring you home tomorrow, and Ican be young. What the hell
you gonna do? I'm gone deadand gone you. You've been so cold

(01:00:52):
depending on me and so that youdon't know what to do. I want
to at least be able to leavelife lessons and experiences and you know,
just responsibility. I want you tobe able to pick up the ball and
go from there that you know thatyou're gonna be okay with I mean,
instead of turning the drugs, becausethat's what a lot of them do.
You're going straight to drugs and liquorand then you're finna be dead with me

(01:01:15):
in a couple of months. No, yeah, okay, So listen,
I think as far as what wewere talking about, whether it could come
from, you know, hereditarium.Yeah, I think it could be a
little bit of both. Because goingback to TMC documentary, he was doing

(01:01:38):
an interview and he was saying thathis daddy was a hustler, which had
to come from stories that he didn'theard about him, right, or my
daddy, And that's why I gotthe hustle mentality from because my daddy was.
So I feel like some kids canput their parents, especially that aren't

(01:02:00):
around or those that have passed,you know, at this like imaginary,
like what they heard they would beif they were here, you know what
I'm saying, trying to make themprep Yeah, like, oh well,
so I feel like some of hisactions are of what he feels like his

(01:02:22):
daddy would have been, you know. But still at the same time,
I know for sure the line canpass on because what you ain't even why
are you lying like that? Right? And I got a cousin like that,
uh like a trigger? Yeah,it's a trigger. Yeah, yeah,

(01:02:45):
like I gotta get I got acousin like that. He just like
his dad. We'll tell you thesky perfectly. Guy. I'm sitting right
here looking at the sky. He'dbe like, I'm on my way to
be sitting on this couch and gotno intention of leading, or his daddy
be like, hey, Kivin,oh yeah, you remember. I was
like that happened in nineteen seventy ninefive Kevin. Then they came you got

(01:03:10):
the poor put the whole bottle.That is that's crazy. But we don't
hold we don't we don't hold celebritiesto the same standard. And I'm gonna
say this, and I hope Idon't get in trouble for it. That's
my favorite work. I don't likewhen black people, and this is just

(01:03:30):
me, I don't like when blackpeople say that they don't like the LGBTQ
community, the black lgbt Q,but then they'll go and support Michael Core's
you know, and you know,like, don't get me started. All
white gay men you wearing I'm talkingabout I know none about him and watchingout

(01:03:52):
wind the f work, oh thework. And I'm with with and and
that's another thing with even with withDaddy Love allegedly you know what I'm saying,
like you you got everybody is nowcoming out talking about all these these

(01:04:12):
different situations you've put them in towhere men were involved, and that's what
you like. Now. One thingI can say, I have never heard
him really speak down on the lgbq T community. Did I say,
l g B, come on,help me know l g B T q
Q right, so be can tellyou. And but he I have never

(01:04:45):
heard him really speak down on themor say anything negative. But I've never
heard him speak up considering the lifestylethat he supposedly lives. And I have
a problem with that. Also,not saying that you're supposed to be at
here. I love I, butif you know that you support someone or
something, because maybe come June first, my love wind shirt is gonna be

(01:05:08):
all period. Because I have peoplevery close and dear to me, you
know what I'm saying, Family friendslike I have that, and I feel,
I honestly feel like God loves everybody, like he knew the type of
people we was gonna be before weeven thought of We formed us, before
we were even in the womb.So before you was even in the womb,
when he was writing down who wasgonna be born, he already knew

(01:05:30):
I'm gonna make that one game,and make that one game. This is
how they gonna be you know,it's that part like, yeah, they're
all close. Yeah, who somebodyis attracted? I told you, and
I told somebody that. I waslike, so let me ask you this.
What makes you straight? I said, because according to you, I

(01:05:53):
just haven't had the right woman.So you haven't had the right men.
But I mean, that's not howattraction works. Yeah, that's the whole
number. That's that's Joe, that'sin Joe. Now, that's all your
poecast. It's all right, listen, it's ticket, it'srew. We're gonna

(01:06:15):
stay on him so he can getthat started because I need that podcast and
my life, Oh John would beso perfect. Listen. If you feel
like you got somebody else you wantto bring the coming, y'all can come
right here and means are will bethe audience and we'll be in the back.
We ain't got you got three microphonessee yourself the twenty Yep, you

(01:06:38):
gotta come it up now. Weain't hit no more polity and no break
and we're putting that in your spiritbecause we need you to do. It's
coming up this Saturday. Yep.If you got three microphones, you got
a whole systemat album. That's it. That's it. Lit's see. So

(01:06:58):
that was our question. I wastrying to help us to understand that sometimes
we are inherited with things, andwe are inherited with things in our DNA.
So one of the reasons Daddy Lovewhatever his name is, allegedly may
have been projecting the abuse mentally,verbally, physically the way that he has

(01:07:19):
because even though he didn't know this, his dad allegedly really because you're three
four when your dad now, youreally don't your memories are going to be
faint if you have any, youknow, you the Lord may have just
given you just a little bit justso you can say you had that,
but you really don't have any,and you didn't grow up. And that's
all he said. He was ahustler. And then Okay, I I

(01:07:43):
feel like I was gonna be judgmentalwhat I was gonna say about the mom,
But I ain't gonna say nothing.But she been quiet, she been
quite, She mama been mama,been quiet. She's the type person when
the FBI come looking for child literallynot mine, not mine. He just
gave me a million dollars for mybirthday, not mine. I've been quiet

(01:08:08):
too, Miami. Oh yeah,well, it's allegedly that she has followed
him and deleted all of their pictures. So I think that video kind of
made her like, now wait aminute, because you know she was real,
but she was serious about him,like she didn't play when it came
to him, like, and Iloved her podcast Korsha, please like I

(01:08:30):
love everything. I love Karsha period. I ain't nobody gonna give me a
whole Miami. I'm not. Ilove Karsha. I just love her.
I feel like she's real. Shedid she a hood girl. I'm a
hood girl. You know what I'msaying. It got a little sense that
I went to school, got acouple of degrees. She had to do
all that, but she got bags. I'm trying to get her bags and
she's she don't try to change nothingup nothing. I love Karesha. That

(01:08:54):
that part. I've been fluent outand I say that all the time,
like every time, every time myengagement anniversary come up, that's the first
thing I say. Baby. Augusttwenty nineteen, I got flew out.
The baby got fluid out in heput a ring on it and then flew
me out a few times before theend. Will flew me out or fly
me out now when I want to. So I'm just saying I love everything

(01:09:17):
Koresha, but I have noticed thatit was almost like a like Cariesha like
new like like I love him,but look at her baby daddy allegedly sad.
You know what I'm saying, Yougot a whole who a food fool
and ain't never been missed type offood and then you messing with this mogul
who like this, like I cansee why that make us scratch your head

(01:09:38):
like I iron now you got toomuch money and too many holes to be
excuse my language feelings, but I'mjust saying he had he had access to
too many women to just pick oneinto physically dog like that on camera.
Now, boy, no one,but I'm saying on camera the other one.
Everybody, baby mama, first,baby mama coming out right. Know

(01:10:00):
it was cameras in the hotel.They bought the they bought the video.
Why we're just singing dollars allegedly allegedlybecause your your shut down. Yeah,
and they don't make me that part. Yeah, I want to be in
that space. So I watched andthen it turns out, yeah, I

(01:10:21):
can't do it. Yeah, Butallegedly, allegedly the hotel in l A
that that happened that they bought allbecause it's it's camp. It's footage from
the opposite side, allegedly in thehallway too, So the elevator is all

(01:10:42):
that CNN put out, But there'sallegedly footage from the opposite side as well
when it happened. But I guessshe called she was trying to do a
team turn of move and thought hewas sleeping some chilling that's why he came
out in the town. But allegedlythey purchased the footage from the hotel and
didn't think that it was gonna bebrought up again. But Baby, one

(01:11:03):
of them workers knew that it wasgonna it was gonna have you, baby,
and and stold it to CNN.Baby sold it to CNN. If
you used to go see baby inCNN put it, I say, yeah,
put it out as they should have. And I wish it would have
happened then, But things happened whenthey're supposed to happen. Things. She's

(01:11:27):
good and she said she oh,blessed, blessed, blessed, and was
so young ayday. She she stoletrigger. She been going in. But
she she has been saying this yellfor years. When I say, when
he first told her he didn't wantto be and want her a part of

(01:11:48):
that, I'll watch you in thegroup. When he first told her,
she was like cool, like,I know you don't want me in a
group because I'm gonna say what ain'tnobody else gonna say they need to be
said, And the other girls wantedit to be said. But if you
look, I'm telling y'all that's howlong I have been. I followed,
like, that's why when I sawthis, I was like, man,

(01:12:10):
when she first came out and saidthat this was happening, and I knew
when all these different women that thisman. When Jal didn't go back after
the club shooting like and they weresaying that he had something to do with
it, and then he came.The lady came out and said she saw
him with the gun and shoot her. She said, I saw it,
and she told that, and theywas trying to get her to shut up,
but she would never shut up.Now they want her to talk about

(01:12:30):
it. It's like when I wastrying to talk about it, then y'all
want to hear me, jes dangerdangerous. I don't know, like Jaguar's
been bringing up people protect yeah,because the reason why dangerous and literally just

(01:12:55):
but that's what they say. Sheshe had so much connection to the industry
and her stories are not fabricated.And that's why that part and that's why
allegedly Cat Williams has been so closeto her, like making sure she good.
You need money, what you needlike yeah, cats, Yeah,

(01:13:15):
he been like that forever and that'swhat That's one celebrity I do like.
Again, he's human and I'm notputting nothing past him, but I feel
like he's been one of the mosttransparent ones from day one, and I
feel like he has to taken alot of losses. You said earlier,
pick up your own cross and beyour own cross. I feel like he's
taking so many losses, you knowwhat I'm saying, because he decided like,

(01:13:40):
nah, it's not pride for me, it's not clout for me,
it's not I don't need y'all toknow I'm gonna start, because I know
I'm anna start. I know whoseI am and I'm not willing to sacrifice
my soul just to prove you knowwhat I'm saying. And I feel like
that's why, like his comeback nowis just it's so great and it's so
amazing because he's been himself and hehadn't straight for from that. And I

(01:14:00):
feel like a lot of people needto be that. I feel like a
lot of celebrities be quiet. Youknow what I'm saying, shut up,
And I'm okay with that too.Like the Carters, y'all know our foods
with the Carters. A lot ofpeople, I mean our foods with the
Carters. I don't know what thecards get going on. The card is
human. I don't put nothing pastthem, but I know they be quiet.

(01:14:23):
But a lot of people be rightthe part their part. And that's
what I'm saying. And said thatthought I want to her songs. You
gotta sound the NBA to be Indianabe around me like none disclosure, you
not saying nothing. I don't careif I see if a glass of wine,
won't nobody know that we had theconversation like and dude, you got

(01:14:45):
to do you know what I'm saying. They do, But I'm just saying
they still human at the end ofthe day. I'm putting any if something
come out tomorrow, I just belike, well, I appreciate their artistry,
but I don't put nothing fast,you know what I'm saying, So
it doesn't past nobody. But apreacher told me that a long time ago.
He said, I would not allowpeople to put me on a pedal

(01:15:05):
stal only to knock me down whenthey find out that I'm human that part,
because I am human that part.And I told a family member she
keeps switching churches because the past orsomething. I'm like, listen, these
are human beings going to go throughthings, just like you go through things.
I don't get that you think thatthey're different from you. They may

(01:15:27):
be help to you a different standard, but they're still human. And then
we put them on a pedestal likewe're supposed to treat Yeah, we're supposed
to honor them and make sure thatour pastors are taking care of and all
of that, but we still,at the end of the day, have
to know that they human beings too. Period. And I say that often,
especially with our generation, because Ifeel like that's one of the reasons
why a lot of us don't goto church, pay don't do community things.

(01:15:49):
I had a lady in the church. And I've been in church all
my life, even when I wasin Tennessee. Baby running the streets.
Baby can't tell me a fine babybe drunken, tell but I'm at church
Sunday Marton, like literally that that'sjust what I've been doing. But I
had a lady tell me recently,somebody that I really look up to and

(01:16:11):
I love. She was like,they human like you. Baby, you
need to take your focus off themand put your focus on God. She
said, your focus on the wrongthing. You You got an attitude with
them, an attitude with such andsuch at the church, and blah blah
blah. Nay, you don't wantto come to church, or you don't
want to participate what you're doing foryou, She was like, you're losing
you because at the end of theday, that mean you're idolizing them.

(01:16:32):
That's who you're worshiping. Baby.When she told me that, I said,
ain don't ever and almost my almostforty years of life, my mama
has always shared stuff like that,but it took somebody else to tell me
you don't. You don't go tochurch, or you don't do community things
or things in your sorority, oryour job, or with your child,
or your husband or your children oryour family. You don't do them for

(01:16:57):
them. You do them for God. You do then because you have the
ability to do what you're capable ofdoing, and it's doing it and it's
pleasing in God's sight. Whenever youput people in a way and you get
mad and say, I'm not doingit because I don't like them. I'm
not doing it because they did thisand said this. You you the problem.
Their part beautiful and baby it's beautiful. But baby, it's hard.

(01:17:18):
I say all the time, Baby, I don't know what the Lord decided
to do when he made us workwith his people have to do stuff is
because it's people growth children the hardest. Yeah. And I'm like, just
like I just posted the other dayhalftime, I don't be wanting to speak

(01:17:40):
to y'all, ugly ad. Ido not want to speak because you ugly
on the inside and outside. Yougot an attitude, you man, for
no reason. I did nothing toyou, Nobody did nothing to you.
You just ugly as hell. Sonow I don't be wanting to speak.
And you funny acting in you sometimeand you think and you think she said,
because I can't because I'm somebody knowup for a hussard whatever you call

(01:18:01):
him in I'm speaking because I knowbetter, hey, and I keep you
moving. And I be mad ashell half the time when I say them,
haze, but God is making mebetter. But I need people to
understand that. People don't be speakingto y'all uglas side of time because we
want to, because y'all be people, be ugly to hell, and I
ain't. I'm not perfect, butI'm so the same on Facebook in person,

(01:18:24):
and half the time I'm gonna reachfor her and you're ugly at gonna
act like, no, don't dothat, ugly, do not do that,
oh higger struggle, you cannot bemean and ugly like. And then
sometimes it be the old ones likehey, you own that, like what
the hell? Like y'all all bemad at her, but I like hey,

(01:18:45):
like she was like, well,why you didn't invite me to my
part? Because I don't want yourenergy there that part. And then y'all
and people expect you to always youthink I'm like I'm supposed to or you
I'm obligated to. I'm telling y'all, and it's so hard That's why I
say I keep my peas to myself. I promise I do. I really
do. My little close circle thatknows zangia'n say what I'm saying. But

(01:19:10):
for the most part, I'm not, especially on social media. I'm never
overly opinionated or never post how Ifeel about anything. It be so much
stuff going on all day every day, people gonna talk about it. You
will hear me say what I feelor want to say on the podcast,
but you will never see it onsocial media. But I try not to
be like that because I don't wantto come off as judgmental or mean or
none of that, you know whatI'm saying. And then I just want

(01:19:33):
people to understand it's okay to havean opinion, just like a butthole.
Everybody got them. It's all rightthat we have them, you know what
I'm saying. But I just don'tlike mean people. I don't like mean
girls. I don't like me andwomen. I don't like me cheering.
I don't like people that think theybetter and I had I've been having a
home on myself, even at restaurantslately, Like I be mad at her

(01:19:56):
because I'll be like, first ofall a, why the hell is you
so rude? And get unblo Andthen as soon as I I say that,
that part and as soon as Ibe able to say that, but
like, okay, well to youdon't know what they had to go through.
You don't know who was at thetable before you. I'm telling you,
I just had this experience and spentwell over two hundred dollars a couple
of days ago in a little rockrestaurant, and I was like, these

(01:20:16):
people mean, like, why thehell? Like, first of all,
the restaurant hies. So anybody thatcome and it's over anyway, I can
say so much. But anybody thatcomes in here, the people that you
hire, needs to be the mostfriendly. Yes, because first of all,
we don't have to pay what we'repaying for this foolishness at the end
of the day, and for anexperience. When I go to a certain

(01:20:40):
restaurant in Hot Springs, you betterbelieve I'm going to over till the reason
why because everybody there is so kind, good, welcome in. How are
you? Let's sit you down,what do you need? You guys need
anything, I'll be right back.You know. Oh I'm so sorry.
Like this table to listen that restaurantBlue Monkey grill in let me tee.

(01:21:03):
I absolutely love that. Yeah,the customer ser see because I got a
variety of things. The drink spylike it's just and they're like eleven dollars
for a fishbowl drink, and thenwe try and we're getting fish bowl drinks
a little ur for seventeen dollars,twenty one dollars. I bought one of

(01:21:25):
Friday Night for nineteen dollars. Igot the receipt to prove it. And
I don't even think a shot wasin it. And you barely want to
service. I got away my handfor you. It comes to, oh
I hadn't had that one. Iget the monkey something Yeah monkey, Okay,
Well I'm excited. That's one that'swe're going because I've never been heard.
I've heard of Roberts or Robbie's orsomething in beating Brian, I'm going,

(01:21:48):
we're going, uh this week.Apparently it's a it's a it's supposed
to be like a really good loungewith really good drinks and food and a
variety of food. And my husbandloves seafood. I'm a chicken, catfish
girl, chicken. The Negro theshrimp, he off the lobster, the
crab let. He won't just giveme some little fish chicken. I'm good,

(01:22:10):
but it's supposed to be really reallygood, and the ambiance is good,
and I'm excited about going. Butwe're saying all this spill is to
say, like behind here, I'llblowing us to say me too, girl.
And this review I went anonymous becausethis is the popular one that people
go to. And this was mysecond time going, and both times I

(01:22:32):
spent over one hundred dollars. Likeit ain't the first time I was by
myself and spent one hundred dollars juston two drinks, a meal, and
a couple of sides. You knowwhat I'm saying. This time, I
took my child and my husband fortheir birthday dinner and let them get whatever
they wanted, and of course Ihad to give me a drink. And
I was just like, madam,paid two this drink. I don't taste

(01:22:54):
taste this because I know I don't. I don't taste it. Listen,
I'm not okay. I can't standbeing around people back I always that is
the Yeah, it is annoying ifit has to be done. Yeah,
you gotta do what you gotta do. And then I think with one of
with one of those, it dependson where you are, Like if you're

(01:23:15):
in a restaurant where they expects theprices, the prices need to meet the
expectation. That's all I'm gonna say. Like if I come in there and
I want a martini the six ounces, and my six ounce martini's twenty dollars,
y'all, I need to taste somethinginstead of is damn sir, and
it's sour little thing you put inthere. I need to taste something else.

(01:23:36):
I don't want to taste that.If I have to pay for a
meat and how my side I gottapay. I'm just saying I need to
hire a professional, because my thingabout it is that'll be real. And
I be watching because we sat bythe partist time and I was like,
that's a whole school, Like thatis a skill set, and then you

(01:24:00):
need to that is a whole skillset. These people don't be going to
school. They just behind them andthen they had a little steps. They
have it written down. One answeris one one and they just want you.
One of the girls looking at thepaper, Yeah, you go to
school. Yeah you know, youknow, yeah, well this is good.

(01:24:26):
Did you'll want to get something elseout? This is my therapy sometimes.
Okay, okay, this is theopinion. The word I was gonna
call you about oh Lord, whatabout? And I say oh Lord?
I say oh Lord because Whenxander calls, that causes for a conversation. Keep

(01:24:48):
going, because you know, wedidn't have this conversation lately. Sororities.
So about the lady that was pretendingto be adult, how did that work?
Like how she was having to putit out friends, people weren't checking
her credentials. So as a asa I am a sorority, I am

(01:25:10):
in a sorority. I'm a proudmember of the Alpha Kappa Alpha sorority incorporates
anyway, a lot of times nowadayswe don't. There are certain things that
we can do to kind of verifysorows and frats, the same thing with
fraternities and sororities. But we're inthe twenty first like like we're we're in

(01:25:33):
time to where we probably really ain'tgotta do all that we normally would have
to do back then or even now, we still have to do it to
kind of verify your credentials. Ifyou say that you're a sorow or something
that you have paraphern theia certain things, then you know, we kind of
you know, I am a kindof I'm not friendly. I'm friendly,

(01:25:54):
let me take that back, butI'm not when they say, hey so,
I be like I sor but I'mnot gonna come up and be like
I got blah blah blah, bahblah. Sometimes you do have sorrowers that
all say, hey so, whichchapter where you initiated a work year or
what? And that is the thethat's the real honest thing to do.
However, it's the time of fakeness. If I could just put it in

(01:26:17):
Layman's terms, like people can prettymuch be who they want to be or
say who they want to say,and you can print anything of social media,
like if people really don't go toI literally have a friend to this
day that is a D nine memberin a different sorority, and she said

(01:26:38):
that somebody from their hometown was sayingso long that she was a part of
a sorority, and it had gottenout there that she had never been initiated
and never been a part of sorority, but had been going to all of
these different events. But in orderfor you to be active, like that's
one thing. You ask them ifthey're active or not, and if they
say that they're not active, thenthem kind of be the ones you'll be

(01:26:59):
like, Okay, but if youhad in order to be active, whether
you pledged twenty years ago, fiveyears ago, a year ago, you're
gonna have a car. I showy'all when we get off, I show
y'all my financial card we get off. But if they're not active, them
the ones you kind of be.Like now where you say, if they
don't have line sisters or people,they may have pledged with them. You
know what I'm saying. You kindof scratch your head. But it's it's

(01:27:20):
it's a little deeper than what peoplereally think. But it's easier also than
what people really think. Like it'seasy to say, like if you wanted
to walk around and say that youwas something people, you just put a
pair of My friend because when wewere nineteen, he went into the Greek
store University of Mall and bought aKappa shirt and we were in the marrow
and this Kappa came down. I'mtalking about dark Kenned Waves time, so

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he said, I said, hewalked towards you. I said, that's
a cap. I said, youain't got nothing to do with it.
So he walked up to me,he said, so bad. Hey,
hey Fred. Yeah, yeah,he's like, where you please, he
said, and my friend got Yeah, I just let me tell you.
Yeah, absolutely, he said.Listen, I get it, Yeah,

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he said, I get it.He said, But if you don't take
this shirt off right now, yeah, it's gonna be a problem. Yeah.
I'm on the second part of them. And I'm like, yeah,
and you still and you still havesome like that. That's why I said.
It's some that actually goes up toyou, whether it's sororities or fraternities,
and they'll ask you your credentials.Because sometimes it's just sometimes people spirits

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move them to do that, youknow what I'm saying. Sometimes if you
aren't going with me, you're justlike you But you know you ain't that,
you know what I'm saying. Buthey, it is what it is,
you know for me, like Ihave wanted to be a part of
a certain fraternity, but the timingand the things and it was actually supposed
to happen, And yeah, I'mnot gonna give up. I'm still gonna

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be paraphilia that part. It's athing. I'm part of that fraternity.
It's I get a chance. Yeah, that's what I am. Not that
is so weird. It's a respectthing. It's a respect thing, and
it's it's it's an honorable thing.Like you know, you just got to
put some respect on it, youknow what I'm saying. But people are

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weird like that girl. You'd besurprised maybe that part you got to live
at it. Yeah, like likeshe's active or whatever in a position out
there in the public. Foot Cloud. I don't understand people who live about
credientials. Anyway. I had aboss cloud for Cloud. She literally lied

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about having a master's in public health. Foot Cloud h and the reason and
the reason for that is because sheprobably was hired without having to prove anything.
So now that I you know,back in the day day, like
back in the day day, Iremember going on an interview in twenty eleven,
I had to have a dang collegedegree, Like can you bring your

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degree up? Because they weren't goingchecking for the credits and the transcripts and
all that. You had to bringyour degree up. With the official stamp.
You know what I'm saying. Now, you can just say you had
whatever whatever, and you can makeitscript and some do, some do,
some do, but some don't.And then it's it's just easy access to

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everything. You can see my letterof being in my sorority, you know
what I'm saying, and you cango online. You can literally have it
on your phone and go online andcreate the entire thing. Now, it's
just that easy, you know whatI'm saying. But but that just goes
to shows like how are you mentallythat you want to be? And then

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now like even with fraternities and worthies, they're greet their graduate opportunities. So
if you weren't able to do itwhen you were physically in college, you
can do it now. So whythe hell would you lie and play about
it? Like? Just do itanything else before? Wrap it up?
Well, thank y'all. I'm lookingfor it to y'all coming And September October

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is because when I say, missusWilson about a break, baby, the
break is about to be real.And this is my spill encouragement. Normally
I just go deep deep, butthis time spill is I want you all
to take the time. Do youlove on you, just think about you,

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put you first, mental health,whatever it is. I don't care
if it's a drink in the garage, in the living room with the TV
on and your feet kicked up,a hot bath, a hot shower,
an hour at the park by yourself, even a weekend away, whatever it
is. Do you take some timefor you, Spellers, spend this summer

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getting closer with you, learning you, loving you, being the best you
so that you can be the bestyou for everybody else, not that you
be in it for everybody else,but everybody else will get a good version
of you, because our bad versionsare always like the best versions. I
know that part because I know myattitude. I know I just be out

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here struggling, but I'm trying todo better, and I have been doing
better, and I'm excited that I'vebeen doing better, and that's because I
love my hot bats. I willturn on some reality TV, and my
husband don't like reality TV, buthe'll tell you the baby put the reality
reality TV on with a camera.Let her be that. She's just trying
to just calm down. So dowhatever it is that you have to do

(01:32:32):
for you. Okay, Xandra andKevin. I love y'all so very much.
I hate the child to missus spillers, but we're really about to kind
of continue this conversation for a littlebit. But anyway, thank y'all for
coming. I appreciate y'all, anduntil next time, spillers, this is
missus Wilson and I am signing old