WHEN ONE JOURNEY ENDS, ANOTHER BEGINS.

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Looking back at Season 1 of The Journey, I reflect on how my teenage experiences in the South shaped my approach to relationships and the valuable lessons I learned along the way.

• Offering a sincere apology to an old friend whose girlfriend I developed feelings for while he was incarcerated
• Revealing my strategic befriending of Alexa's younger brother through video games to get closer to her
• Experiencing culture shock at the way white families interacted with each other compared to my upbringing
• Orchestrating my breakup with Tori by setting up a situation where another guy would kiss her
• Discovering years later that Tori and I were actually using each other for different reasons all along
• Explaining why I couldn't graduate with my class despite breaking up with Tori

Thank you all for sticking with me throughout Season 1. Season 2 will be coming soon with more stories and experiences. Spread the word, hit that notification bell, and I'll see you next season.

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Thank you everyone for coming back to my last
episode of Season 1, the Journey.
Well, I know for some of youit's been a wild ride.
I hope you've been liking it.
I know some by the comments.
Most of you you know maybey'all pimps and y'all some true
players.
I guess the stuff that I wasdoing was pretty simple, but the

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only thing I want to say aboutthat is remember you're talking
about a teenage and a teenagetime going after things that
didn't happen in the Southduring my time.
Ok, so where things get morecomplex as my stories continue,
yes, but remember my storiescoming from a mind of a 16 year

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old child.
But my game start to pick upeven more after high school and
then further on.
So for those that you know inmy comments oh man, that ain't
nothing.
I mean what you did, man.
Man, I had three or four womenat one time, you know, tossing
around.
I mean kudos to you.

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I mean you sound like you older, you sound like you're not 15
and 16 years old and I mean Ijust want you guys to just think
about it.
I'm a teenager.
Okay, anyway, for those that islistening and stay listening,
thank you, I really appreciatethat and look even for the ones

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that don't like it, and but tokeep listening.
I appreciate you too.
I really do.
Ok, this episode is going towrap up all the things with
Alexa and Tori and me finishingschool and so on.
I'm just going to use this timejust to go ahead and just try

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to settle some stuff up, butbefore then I need to do
something.
I would like to do an apologyto a friend of mine that I
haven't saw in a long time, butthis shit been staying on my
mind for a while.
Just let me explain, okay, seethrough my neighborhood, which

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you heard a lot of.
There was rules in ourneighborhood.
If someone went to jail, wedidn't play on their girlfriends
, wives.
If something happened, we tookcare of them.
We didn't prey on them, meaningthat we didn't run over there
saying, well, at least I'mhelping you out, I need some
pussy.

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That was against the fuckingrules, bro, and we took that
shit serious.
Even if we knew someone in ourneighborhood that separated with
a girl, we still that fuckinggirl is off limits.
You get what I'm saying Fuckingoff limits.
You get what I'm saying Fuckingoff limits.
Okay, during the hype of myclub time that was after high

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school, me and the get alonggang had finally found our first
club.
I don't know, was it a teenageclub, I don't know, but they
sold alcohol there.
So right after high school wefound this club and it was
called Scandal and me and theget along gang used to go to
this motherfucker every Saturday.
And man, we didn't.

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I don't think we ever missed aSaturday.
Ok, but there's one particulartime a friend of mine he was
older than me but he was from myneighborhood.
He ran with my uncle, dan, andhis brothers.
He still was from ourneighborhood.
So I'm saying well, he came upto me and asked to talk to me

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outside.
So me and him walked outside.
Now I'm like what's up, man?
What's going on?
Well, he went on to say to meman, look, in the morning I got
to turn myself into jail and Iremember saying man for what?
But he really didn't explain tome, like I guess he didn't want

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me to know.
So I didn't, I didn't askanymore.
He said man, I need a favor foryou.
I say anything, what can I dofor you?
He said man, I need you to hangwith my girl while I'm locked
up.
I'm like what are you talkingabout?
Man, I never met his girl.
I didn't even know who he wasfucking with at the time, I
didn't know.
Okay, he was like bro, I justneed you to look out for while

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I'm locked up, man, he said, Idon't trust many people, I trust
you and I don't trust nobodyelse.
I just need you to keep herbusy, you know, go out with her,
do stuff with her, whatever youknow.
Yada, yada, yada.
And I say, man, shit, dog,that's a lot to ask Now at this
time.
I really wasn't fucking withnobody.
I wasn't, I was a single dude,ok, so I was like man, well, I

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give you my number.
Man, you give it a hug.
Yada, yada, yada.
But this nigga did way betterthan that.
I have to give the nigga mynumber.
When we went back into the clubhe introduced me to his girl and
pushed us together and me andher started like dancing, and I

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guess he must have told heralready about me or what his
plan was, because she didn'tpull away.
She danced with me, okay.
Next thing, you know, he wasgone.
When I mean gone, he was gone,me and her didn't even notice at
first what I mean like she fitinside of me like a glove.

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What I mean is like I didn'tknow who this female was.
I never met her a day in mylife, but we fit it together for
some way somehow.
I mean it was weird, but we fitit.
It's like a hand in a glove, iswhat I'm trying to say, type of
fit.
Well, by the time we and hergot finished dancing it might've

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been hours later he was nowhereto be found and we haven't.
We didn't see him until maybeafter about a year, or maybe
longer than a year, maybe alittle after a year.
Ok, we didn't see him to them.
But let me tell you whathappened in between that year
and a half.
Ok, me and her was inseparable.

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When I'm telling you that, wedid everything together, y'all
everything.
Ok, I purposely didn't find nogirlfriend during this time.
Me and her hung so much ain't.
No girl would ever accept ourrelationship, man, we just hung,
we went out together, we wentto eat together, if you could

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think it.
We did it.
Okay, she also had a sister anda brother.
Okay, I think she was theyoungest.
But, man, I even fell in lovewith her sister and brother,
cause they accepted me and theydidn't even know who I was.
But me and her hung so muchthat they accepted me Like I was

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part of the fucking family.
I never been loved so much Ihaven't.
I had loved the whole situation.
When me and her went places, weheld hands.
We held hands.
Now I could say it was becauseI was protecting her.
When we would go to the clubsshe would lean on me Like my

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back would be against the wall.
She would lean on me so nobodyelse wouldn't think that she was
single.
I would tell you I wasprotecting her.
I would tell you that.
But you know I could say it.
I remember this one time I hadthis Ford Escort.
I was going to her house.

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I saw this fine ass girl.
I'm a booty watcher y'all.
If some girl pass me up with anass, I'm gonna find a way to
look at it, okay.
So I put my head over myshoulder to look at this fine
girl walking across the street.
Now in my vision I could stillsee the car in front of me and I
thought that car had pulled offbecause I saw it move.
But in all reality the carnever went nowhere, it didn't

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fully get out of the way.
So by the time I got finishedlooking at her ass, I rammed
that car in the back.
Yeah Well, during that time, meand a couple of buddies we had
went out that night and a coupleof my friends was like you know
, man, this girl looking at you,won't you go and talk to you?
No, we're going to need a ridehome, since your ass wrecked the

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car.
Well, that girl had became mylittle boy's mama.
Look, that's.
That's another story foranother time.
Ok, let's get back on thesubject.
Anyway, like I said, we washanging a lot.
Ok, sometimes from going outwe're getting in pretty late.
So we'll go back by herapartment Once again.

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Her brother and her sister andher share the apartment together
.
Ok, so we will go back to thisapartment and it'd be pretty
late, I mean in the morning manfive, six in the morning and I
used to go sleep on the sofanight, maybe.
After some time she was likeyou know, you could sleep in the
bed with me, and I'm like, oh,I'm good on the sofa.

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That went on for a little bit.
All right, cool.
Now, after so long, she was onceagain would say hey, you know,
you could sleep in the bed withme and I'm like all right, cool,
you know, you know shit likesister and brother, right, you
know shit like sister andbrother, right.
So when I got upstairs and wentin her room and went to sleep

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she used to, you know.
She said to me not the firsttime, but it happened quite a
few times that we slept in thesame bed together.
Nothing, ever happened, nothing, nothing happened, okay.
But she tells me well, ifyou're uncomfortable, you could
take your pants off and yourshirts off, it's okay.
And I'm like, huh now, I ain'tnever took my motherfucking

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pants off, shirt off, for nowoman, unless I'm about to get
some.
I ain't never, never did that aday in my motherfucking life.
If my pants came off and myshirt came off, the pussy was
next.
That's, that's, that's how itwent.
It went in that fucking orderpants, shirt, pussy.
That's what always went.
But this time it never happened.

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I stayed on the edge of the bedbecause, man, I'll root.
Man, I'm not, I'm not, I'm notdoing nothing with this girl.
This is my boy, old lady, I'mnot doing a goddamn thing with
her.
Okay, that was, that was all inmy mind, okay.
So we kept doing the same thingover and over and over.
I mean, man, we would go to themall together.

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I cannot address how much me andthis girl spent so much time
together.
We had got so comfortable witheach other.
It was just like, I mean shit,like we could complete each
other's sentences.
I mean, man, it's like everyday we was together, okay, and I
remember this one particulartime that we came into the house

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and I don't think we was outdrinking or nothing, I just
think we went out to eat.
We was hanging out during theday and we went back to her
apartment and there was a guysitting in there talking to her
sister.
Right, I'm going to say hisname because I know he wouldn't
mind and he's no longer with us.
His name was Craig, ok, but meand Craig did not talk that time

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.
It was like what's up, what'sup?
You know how brothers do what'sup.
And I went straight up thestairs and went to bed with her.
So I never knew how much thisguy was going to play in my life
.
Later on he taught me a lot,but it's not about him at this
point in time, but y'all willhear about this guy, craig, okay

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, he started me on a wholenother journey blew my fucking
mind, okay.
Anyway, there was one particularday that me and her had went
out and, man, it felt like adifferent day.
It really did.
It felt different.

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I remember this day.
It just felt gloomy, depressive, rainy.
It was just a fucked up day,right, but we still went and we
did stuff together and, man,it's hard for me not to keep
saying that all her family stuffthat she did with her family, I
was right there, right, there,right.

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But this one gloomy day, we wentup the stairs and went to go to
bed.
I took my pants off, took myshirt off, okay, I kept getting
tugged on, right, and I'm likeman, fuck, I'm sleeping.
And I got tugged on again and Iopened my eyes.
Well, it was him, it was my boy.
I had about what I'm saying.
I got no shirt, no pants, no,nothing.

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I stood up and we hugged eachother.
He hugged me and I'm like man,I'm glad you're out, man, I'm
telling you, man, I miss you.
Man, whatever could have beensaid to let him know, man, I'm
glad you're out, whatever.
But I didn't realize, once hegot out, I was no more needed.

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Now, like I said, me and thisgirl never slept together.
So I'm not apologizing for mesleeping with her.
I know what you dirtymotherfuckers were thinking.
I know what y'all were thinkingyou fuck your boy or lady.
No, I didn't.
That's not why I'm apologizing.
What I am going to apologize isis that I think I fell in love

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with her.
I really did, and I know y'all,like nigga, you don't love
nobody, not at this time.
Right, I get it.
I get it, but it was aforbidden person that I
shouldn't.
I don't know, man, it's hardfor me to explain A lot of it
was, but, bro, I spent a lot oftime with him.

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I loved everything about him.
I just thought this dude wasthe luckiest motherfucker in the
world, bro.
I mean, man, I loved the feet,I loved the hair, I loved the
smell, everything you could sayabout this girl.
Man, I think I loved her and Ididn't know that until we
stopped hanging.
We all of a sudden, justimagine just hanging with a

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person for a year and a half,every day, every hour, on the
hour.
You wake up with each other andthen all of a sudden, boom,
she's gone.
Just think about that for asecond To spend that much time

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with a person and then, all of asudden, from every day to no
day, and so when time went on, Imean a couple of days after he
got out of jail, I didn't seeher.
I didn't talk to her.
I didn't do nothing.
Now was talk to her, I didn'tdo nothing.
Now was it to a point that Iloved her or I loved being
around her.
I just can't explain Any whichway I could say is that it

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hurted me in a way.
Yeah, I would see him and hertogether, like we would go to
this other club.
Step Brothers and them twowould be together.
And man, remember what I'msaying.
This dude trust me so much.
He saw me in the bed huddle upwith his girlfriend with no
pants and no shirt, and he'sstill in the club.

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Pick me up and say man, Iappreciate what the shit you did
for me.
Man, good, looking out.
Not one time he asked me did Isleep with her?
Because I had to realize thathe's such an OG.
He knew who he was fucking with.

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He knew he was fucking with areal one.
Okay, because they got somefake motherfuckers out there,
but he know he was fucking witha real one.
Now, once again motherfuckersout there, but he know he was
fucking with a real one.
Now, once again, I can't helpthe way I feel, because I spent
all that time with her, thatwhen I saw her she hugged me and
shit, come to find out anyway.
She kept like she'll call meevery time she couldn't find him

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.
I don't know exactly everythingthat was going on with him, but
the only time I would hear fromher after that is like he stole
her car.
He was in the neighborhood orhe.
You know it was some bullshitthat he was doing to her and I
can still remember from thattime I was like this dude don't

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know how lucky he really is andI imagine myself in his shoes
and man, and I smile and I laughand I'm like shit, I wish I
could have been there and Iain't never wish that.
I could have never been anothernigga.
I ain't never, never wished it,but I was jealous of him.
I'm not going to lie, and Idon't think he ever knew it.

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I don't think, see, it wasbigger than just her.
It was her.
But it was also what came withher, and that means her family,
her sister, her brother.
Her brother had friends andthey had girlfriends and I knew
all of them and, man, we hungaround playing games and all
kinds of activities that we didtogether.

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I mean, I just, and all of asudden, poof that shit gone.
So I'm going to end that rightnow and I'm going to go ahead
and still go on and say Iapologize, because I know we
didn't sleep together, but mecatching Philo for it, I felt
like that shit was wrong too,because he was my nigga, he was
my dog, okay, so right now, nowI'm not gonna say your name or

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her name, but I must you knowwho I'm saying.
If you hear you know who I'mspeaking of.
I apologize, bro.
I couldn't help but to feel theway I felt, even though you
know.
All right, let's get back tothis journey.
Okay, I know a lot of time wentby that I spoke of Alexa.
Alexa was my unicorn, my newunicorn after Tori.

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So I was trying to figure outthe way to get Alexa at the time
, but she was in an upper gradethan mine, so she graduated way
before I did.
I ain't going to say way, but ayear before I did.
Okay, but at this time mynarrative with Alexa have
changed because she at first Iwanted to just fuck her because

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she was that white girl.
She had thick legs, nice ass,you know.
But time done passed, you knowI done been fucking y'all.
I'm the man.
I mean, I hate to say it likethat, but I'm the man.
So fucking alexa, you know itwas a whole different thing now.

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It's not just I want to fuckher because she's a white girl.
I wanted to fuck her nowbecause I just wanted to.
A lot of things changed, soI've been spending time with
Alexa at her house.
Okay, okay, let me explain.
I got to take you back some,okay, okay, back in school I
searched high and low to find away to get closer to Alexa, and

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the more and more I searched Ikept coming up empty.
Closer to Alexa, and the moreand more I searched I kept
coming up empty, until one day Ifound out that she had a
brother, a younger brother,under me.
Like if I was in 11, he was inthe 10.
Okay, so me and her brother,even till today, is still
friends.
Remember what I said in my lastpodcast not to hurt anyone is

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that if you my friend today, youmight have been a part of a
plan for me to get some pussy.
And if we are still friendstoday, that says a lot because I
feel a whole lot different.
If you my friend till today,that means I love you.
I mean, if you got my numberand I call you, we go out, we go
drinking you.
I mean, if you got my numberand I call you, we go out, we go
drinking.
Shit done change because mylife, done change.

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Okay.
Anyway, I talked to her brotherthe other day and he said it
was okay for me to use his realname.
So I am.
His name is Brian, okay.
So I found out that her youngerbrother, brian, was in a lower
class than mine and I had tofind a way to get close to him.

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So as I kept going throughoutthe day to find out what classes
he was in and point out who heis, I put my private eyes on
point.
I told my private eyes hey look, man, alexa Wright don't have a
smaller brother.
I need to find out who he is.

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Well, man, my little privateeyes, they started asking around
, asking questions you know whatI mean and they came back to me
and they pointed him out.
Oh, there he go, okay.
So they pointed Brian out to meand I say, oh, okay, okay,
thank y'all.
Brian out to me and I say, oh,ok, ok, thank you, man, I
appreciate that.
So now it was up to me to figurehow to get close to Brian,

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right?
So I looked at him.
I saw him come out for lunchevery once in a while and I
would just pay attention to him.
You know he had to look.
You know what the hell cut withwhen white people put that bowl
on your head and you and yousnip around Bowl cut, the bowl
cut.
Oh shit, I almost forgot thebowl cut.
Okay, he had one of them.

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Little bowl cuts and stuff,like you know, always carry
little books in his hands andshit sitting on benches and
tables eating his food.
So I'm doing my research andI'm like, hmm, how can I get
closer?
How can I get closer?
He already know the story, okay.
So I noticed that he got theselittle stickers on his folder

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and I'm like shit, okay, okay.
And I got to.
You know, I'm so far away.
I remember taking steps closerto him just to pass him up to
see what those stickers wasabout, because stickers don't
work for me.
See, stickers back in thosedays show the person personality
.
If you went in a person roomand they got posters of Pamela

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Anderson on their wall and allwomen, it says a lot about a
motherfucker.
You know what I mean.
So that's the same thing withstickers.
If stickers is on people bookor on their book covers because
we had to use book covers backin our days, you know we
couldn't fuck the books up, sopeople used to love to decorate
those things or their lockers.
Right, have things hanging outtheir locker.

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You could tell a lot by aperson's locker, ok.
So if somebody got stickers anddecoration all over their stuff
, you could figure out some shit, right.
So the one sticker that I sawon brian folder was a mario
brother sticker.
So that, let me know, rightthen.
And now he's a gamer.

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Right now he has some morestickers that I had to look up.
I had to go and search, you knowthis little symbol with a knife
and all this.
Come to find out there wasLegend of Zelda.
Oh yeah, see, in the 90s, youknow, let me pause for a second
In the 90s we had the bestfucking games.
I'm going to tell you like that, we had fucking the best games.

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Ok, if you play in a game today.
That's like a great, great game.
I bet you it might have startedin the 90s.
I mean, we had shit like SuperMario Brothers, donkey Kong.
I mean, bro, there's one gamethat me and him played so much
was called Contra, where it wastwo shooting games.
And man, when I tell you, man,we would go to war together.

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We started to go to wartogether.
I guess I'm jumping.
But anyway, yeah, we becameclose because I figured a way to
get in on him doing video games.
And see, at this fucking time,there was no sharing, meaning we
couldn't play at home.
There wasn't no Internet thatwe could share the Internet to

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play at home.
See, before, back in our days,back in our days, we would have
to go, walk to people's housesto play the game.
We used to bring our ownjoystick.
I remember I used to have thiscase that I carried my Nintendo
joystick in and bring it bypeople's houses because I needed
my special one, because youcouldn't just play with

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anybody's joystick, because theshit could be loose.
You know it might not have thatright feeling.
So we used to carry our ownjoystick and a case around not
to mess it up and then plug ourshit into their game or they'll
come to my house with their shit.
So we was real serious when itcame to that fucking gaming.
Gaming was the shit.
But me and Brian, man, Iremember that's how we connected

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.
So next thing, you know, youknow, got to remember, I still
got that image, god damn it.
I still got that image.
I am who, I am okay, and by metalking to brian, brian, you
know, to me like, oh shit, hewant to be my friend but we
connecting with this game andshit that he, you know, it
wasn't even about that.
I was actually having fun withthis dude because, bruh, I

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couldn't go in the hood talkingabout some super mario brother.
I couldn't go in the hoodtalking about some super mario
brother.
I couldn't go in the fuckinghood talking about donkey kong
and shit like that.
You know, them niggas werethugs.
So I really had fun with brianand anyway, okay, let me get
back on track.
Anyway, I used to meet up atbrian house and used to play the
game with him, but we used tosit up until his mama would come

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in the room and, man, let mejust tell you, this is the first
time y'all I got to go herewith you and Brian.
I'm sorry if I'm going toembarrass you right now, but
this was the first time that Iactually saw or heard a white
dude damn near curse this mamaout.
When I say this shit was wild,this shit was wild.

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His mama came in there and totell him he got to eat.
He screamed back at his mamaLike mama, we ain't hungry yet.
And I'm like, oh shit.
I mean he said it in a tonelike he was going to fuck his
mama up and I didn't know whatwas going on.
I'm like, dude, you can't dothat.
Oh man, come on, man, she's acunt.

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I'm like, huh, bro, it fuckedme up when I heard this shit.
Okay, and it just wouldn't stopthere.
It's like Alexa would come inthere and slam the door and the
mom like Alexa, can I help youwith anything?
I mean, if there was a problem,alexa would be like Ma, stay

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out of my damn business and slamher door.
I mean, bro, it was some wildshit that I saw kids talk to
their parents and it was quiteokay that the parent didn't even
.
I mean, I would have got somegoddamn fist down my damn throat
if I did some shit like that.
But to me, brian's mom and dadwere some cool people, you know.

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See, back then, if white peoplelet you in their house as a
black man and treat you good, Imean shit, man, they some good
people they is.
Now it could have been back inthose days that little white
boys that was always shut up ina room playing video game was
considered weird, right?

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So maybe they, as was justhappy that Brian had a friend.
Yeah, maybe they were justhappy because that little weird
motherfucker didn't have nofriends.
That little weird motherfuckerdidn't have no friends.
Okay, anyway, all right.
So, yeah, that's how I startedhanging around Alexa.
It was because of Brian, okay.
So some times went on, righttime just kept going, and there

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was time I would try to speak toAlexa like hey, how you doing,
man?
Alexa would just look at melike I was like ugh and just
walk away.
I mean, man, I just imaginethat she would be this evil.
I mean, bro, the more and moretime I spent by Brian House, the
more and more I felt like thisis an evil bitch man.

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Like what's going on that shecan't even say hey to a
motherfucker?
Right, I'm like man.
So I just know that this shitwas going to be difficult.
This shit is going to be reallyhard.
So was I going to give up?
Nah, not me.
The bitch damn near got tofucking smack the shit out of me
and tell me to get my black assout, the fucker out of her

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house before I stopped.
So I'm going to figure thisshit out.
That was just how my mindclicked right.
While me and Brian would beplaying the video game, I used
to say man, I got to go use therestroom.
Now, alexa room was right nextto the goddamn restroom and you
could hear her talking on thephone.
She had her own landline and Idon't know, like sometimes she's

(28:22):
talking to a friend or it'll beher boyfriend, and I started to
distinguish the two, like ifshe was talking to a friend or a
boyfriend.
I did that much research on herand analyzed her voice.
So I knew that if she was onthere with a high pitched voice,
she was talking to herboyfriend.
If she was being calm and likewhy is he doing it?

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He's, she's really letting hervoice travel.
She was talking to a friend,okay, but her boyfriend wouldn't
.
Always on the up and up, someshit was going on.
I needed to find out what thatwas, because that's my key in.
As time went on, I started tolearn Alexis very well.
I started understanding themood that she was always being.

(29:06):
It's like if she was in a happymood, a sad mood, an okay mood.
All that I learned.
And there was only one personthat was controlling her mood
for that day, and that's withher boyfriend.
So I started waiting on thatbad mood.

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When she go around the houseslamming doors, cursing out her
brother, hollering at her mom,just all in rage, right.
And there's one particular timeI was there when she was doing
it she just kept giving thatlike aggravation noise, right,
and y'all just don't understand.

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I don't know who is y'all, buteverybody just wouldn't
understand in her situation,which we would not understand,
because only one person got youpissed and that's him.
Okay.
And but this one particulartime she sat on the sofa.
I know I couldn't say much toher because she was already

(30:09):
fucking mad, so I wasn't goingto stray it too much on her.
So I fixed a bowl of ice creamand put it on the table next to
her and she looked at me and Ijust left.
I left that day.
All I did was gave her the bowlof ice cream, looked at her and
then I left.

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As the week kept going on, I hadcalled Juan just to have some
of the stuff over that, whatI've been going through and
what's my next challenge was Iwasn't talking to Juan every day
, but we was keeping in touch,you know.
So I was just letting him knowmy next challenge and we had
came up with a conclusion likewhat was really happening with

(30:52):
her boyfriend.
And this is what we came upwith.
Ok, he's about two years old.
That means he'd been in collegetwo years before her, meaning
that he got his own social life.
He done built a whole notherlife without Alexa, and Alexa is
still earning for thatattention.
And but he's not giving her allthat attention because he

(31:15):
probably done met somebody orhis friends.
They don't match with eachother, meaning that the girls
that he's with or the guys thathe with, well, alexa is still
too immature for that crowd.
She's an embarrassment to himand especially if I had to guess
which I really don't knowbecause I really didn't know the

(31:37):
guy he had his eyes on someoneelse.
That was more intellect in hismind that's more intellect than
her.
And so he didn't know.
Because you know, us guys, wedon't know how to end shit.
We don't know how to end shit.
We'll text your ass and say,hey, it's over with.
So we don't know how to endshit.
We don't know how to end shit.
We'll text your ass and say,hey, it's over with.
You know, so we don't know howto end shit.

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And so he just kept on hangingon.
And every time she's beggingfor that more attention and he's
saying, yes, I'm going to giveyou more attention Really he's
not and she's getting morefrustrated and mad.
So that never stopped.
Every day she walked around mad.
If it wasn't every day, it wasevery other day.

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Ok, she would just go around thehouse and you could tell when
she in that bad mood, becauseshe would just be screaming Like
she would just open the doorwith me and her brother and just
started yelling.
I mean, y'all two are justwasting y'all life away with
that video game.
I mean she would just be offthe chain.
I guess that the thing that meand Juan came up with.

(32:43):
I think we hit it right on thenail.
We were just guessing and wejust came up with that and it
was an educated guess.
We was right.
Okay, her old man just didn'tgive her the time that she
wanted.
So now all I gotta do is put myplan in order, right?
So this is what I did, y'allknowing that she was in her room

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and I noticed when she get upand go to the bathroom or leave
out the room Well, this time Ileft her brother door halfway
cracked.
So when I noticed that she wasabout to leave because the first
thing you do she's laying inher bed and you hear footsteps
walking towards the door so Iknow, okay, she's about to leave

(33:31):
out of her room.
So as soon as she leave out ofher room and I hear that door
open, I just started talkingreal loudly to her brother about
Tori, and what I said was man,I think Tori might be seeing
someone else.
See, that's what the attentiongrabber.
I knew she wasn't going to walkpast that door.

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Once she heard that, I know shewas going to stop to listen
that door.
Once she heard that, I knew shewas going to stop to listen.
Well, I was hoping so right Now.
Remember what I say she's olderthan me, so I don't think my
popularity means shit.
But I do know one thing If shedon't know about my popularity,
that she knew about myinterracial relationship with
Tory.
I mean, come on, man, that shitwas all around the school.

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I mean, we was like practicallyat the time, the only one.
They got more.
You know at the end, but youknow in the beginning it was
just me and her.
So I was just spread likewildfire.
So I know she knows that.
Ok, I went on to say I dobelieve Tori is spending time
with somebody else because she'snot showing me no attention.

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Well, y'all know why I say thatbecause basically she's not
getting no attention for herwhole man.
So she need to.
We need to be in the same boat.
Ok, and her brother was likewhat make you think that Tori
loves you?
And her brother was like whatmake you think that Tori loves
you?
And I'm like I thought so.
But I think at this point intime I've been earning for her

(34:59):
attention and it seems like I'mnot getting it.
Like she'll tell me that we canspend some time together.
Now, this whole time I'm lying.
But I just needed the sister tohear that, and so that put a
bug in her ear and she went backto her room because I heard her
slam the door and, man, I gavea little evil grin because now I

(35:22):
got her wheels a turning.
Now, on those days where it wasjust a normal day and I'm not
going to say normal, like shewas just bright, happy, but one
of those so-so days when she inthat so-so mood, you know what I
mean.
So she was watching a programon tv and I got tired of playing

(35:42):
the game, wouldn't interest inno damn game.
Anyway, I went set on the sofanext to like with my hands both
of my hands holding my face,watching the program she was
watching and she was laughingand I was laughing at this
program.
Can't remember the goddamnprogram, but we both were

(36:04):
laughing at it.
We both, at this time, was inthe same situation, meaning that
I was sitting there taking up alittle time with her and I was
enjoying the time.
So as I get up to leave, Imentioned it I'm like man, I
really enjoyed myself watchingthe program with you.

(36:26):
Thank you for watching it.
And she didn't say nothing.
I left, okay, so time and timekept rolling Y'all I'm trying to
get it over with, to get toother things, but time and time
was going on, me and her startedtalking a little more.
Nothing crazy, just, hey.
You know she ain't treating melike a goddamn peasant.

(36:49):
That she she was doing before.
She wasn't doing it.
She was actually raisingconversations up with me and
just talking to me On those baddays, on the moody days, like
you know.
I remember one time I wasoutside smoking a cigarette.
Yeah, I was smoking.
She must have had one of thembad moods, he must have really

(37:09):
set her off right.
And she comes and say, can Ihave one of those?
I was like, oh sure, and I gaveher a cigarette.
She's caught.
She wasn't no damn smoker, shewas an athletic girl in school,
she didn't, you know anyway.
So she started choking and Ipatted her on the back and she
was saying what's wrong with you?
And I already knew the mood shewas in and she thinking I was

(37:33):
clueless, so I would just comeup before she say anything about
Tori and how I felt.
And she was really sentimentalto it and she was like you know
what, we'll be.
Ok, like that.
Even though she never explainedto me shit about her boyfriend,
I knew what she meant.
Ok, all right, let's get off ofthat boyfriend.

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I knew what she meant.
Okay, all right, let's get offof that and let's go into
something else.
Right, quick, me and Tori, howwe actually deported from each
other.
It's about time to let this go,okay?
So remember when I told youthat Mr Collins told me that I
would not graduate if I wasstill dating Tori, and I
couldn't do that because my momwent out and she spent a lot of

(38:18):
money on a class ring and timewas coming close and I had to
get rid of Tori in a way.
Ok, there was a guy that wasvery interesting in Tori.
He was a black guy too.
You know, I ain't going to sayhe was my arch enemy, but I

(38:39):
didn't like the motherfucker.
He ain't like me.
Okay, so we never competed.
I don't think it was that typeof thing, but he was.
I can say it now.
He was a good looking guy, wellbuilt, and you know, any girl
probably would have liked him,you know.

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So I done saw him and Tory talkplenty of times I have.
But I don't know.
I don't think shit everhappened.
I don't know.
That's just in my mind.
I didn't think shit everhappened.
But I put all that shit aside,y'all, I did.
You, you gotta hear me out.
I put all that shit To side totalk to this man.

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And it was at lunch One day andI was sitting right next to him
and I said, hey, dawg, I needto holler at you.
And he, looking at me likenigga, what the fuck you want
with me?
Nigga.
Like saying, like nigga, youknow, I don't even like your
fucking ass.
And that was cool.
That was cool.
I was like, look, just hear meout.
And he was like what you got,bro?
What the fuck do you want?

(39:42):
Right?
I went on to say that tomorrowis Kinsa Senior Day, right?
Let me explain.
Maybe some of y'all didn't gothrough this.
Well, grace King had this thingcalled Kiss a Senior.
You'll wear a badge just sayingthat, hey, I'm a senior and
people writing under you not afreshman, maybe juniors, you

(40:05):
know will come up to you andgive you a kiss on the jaw,
right?
It was no freaky-dicky shit,just on the jaw little peck and
kiss the senior day.
Okay, let me go back, all right.
So I say, look, man, tomorrow iskiss the senior day.
I need you to kiss Tori for me,but when she goes to hand you

(40:26):
her cheek, I need you to hit thelips.
And so this motherfucker lookedat me and say dude, what I say,
dog, I need you to kiss her onher lips and I want to be there
to see it.
He said wait, wait, let me getthis right, dog, you want me to
kiss your girl on themotherfucking lips?

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I say yeah.
He said dude, do you want me toget suspended from school from
kissing this girl?
Man, who the fuck you think Iam?
Yeah, he say dude, do you wantme to get suspended from school
From kissing this girl?
Man who the fuck you think I am?
Man, you trying to set me thefuck up?
And I went on to tell him Wait,hold on, dog, hold on, chill
out, chill out.
Nigga, I'm not trying to setyou up.
This is what I need you to do.
You're not going to getsuspended, man, don't worry

(41:10):
about it.
Just let me handle it.
You know, I said but this iswhat I need for you to do Now,
remember, I don't want to keepbringing up popularity, but Tory
had it too, okay.
So this dude in his mindstarted clicking, clicking,
clicking, like yeah, yeah, yeah,you know what, you know what?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, motherfucker,I'd do it.

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I mean, he wanted to try tocrush me as much as he wanted.
I know he was going to go forit, right, let me set the scene
up for you.
See, I had to set this shit up,perfect, right Now.
I knew Alexa was coming to theschool to check her brother out
so he could go by his dad forthe weekend.
You know, I don't know if Imentioned the mama and the daddy

(41:55):
was not together, they weredivorced, okay.
But I knew Alexa, at a certaintime, was going to come pick up
her little brother and I had tomake sure Alexa see the shit
that was going to go down withmy archenemy and Tori.
So Alexa was coming out of 30D.

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What 30D does was the office.
Okay, I know everybody with theGrace King, they know what 30D
is.
That's the office, okay.
So when she came out of theoffice and she turned my way, I
started talking to her littlebrother, like you know, maybe
about the game or something.
But she came like 10 minutesearly, the bell haven't even

(42:38):
rung yet.
So I had to bullshit her littlebrother by talking to him and
she sat there peacefully justwaiting for him to finish and
then bing, bing, bing, bing.
10 minutes later the bell rung.
So here come my arch enemy andhere come tori coming towards
each other.
Now I'm stopped talking to herbrother and she noticed by in my

(43:03):
eyes that something was wrong.
So at the time alexa turnedaround and she looked back and
that when it all happened, myarchenemy sat there and kissed
Tori on the lips.
So I turned around and startedwalking away from them, right?
So I started going down thestairs, heading to my car.

(43:26):
You know, pretty upset and I'macting like I'm mad, angry and
shit bother me.
And Alexa actually came afterme, right.
So once she got to the car andsay, look, look, are you OK?
I'm like, I'm fine, I'm fine,just let me go, just let me go.
And I left, I just left, man.

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I remember driving home that daytoo.
It didn't look like Lori evenpulled away.
It didn't even look like that.
You know, she didn't mind, likeyou know, I kind of sat there
like it lasted a little bit.
It didn't like she didn't pushhim away and smack the shit out
of him and none of that shit.
So I remember thinking aboutthat shit, man.

(44:10):
It kind of hurted me a littlebit that she didn't even try to
even pull away.
I mean, I tried to talk tomyself, say maybe I left too
fast, maybe I turned around toofast, and maybe she did.
But you know, she had to knowthat people saw it happen and
they was going to get back to me.
Man, when I remember, if I canremember this shit correctly, I

(44:34):
remember talking to her and Idon't even think she even
mentioned it, you know, but itwas.
You know, I had to mention itbecause it was time for us to
separate, it was time for us tobreak up, so I had to bring it
up.
I remember y'all, I had tobring that shit up.
Ok, I remember being in my roomtrying to rehearse the shit,
like what the fuck I'm going tosay?

(44:56):
I mean, I had to play the shitoff real good, you know.
So I mean, after about 15minutes I'm like got to buck
myself up.
You know I'm flexing in themirror, all right, all right.
So here we go.
So what's up, man?

(45:23):
Don't fucking hate me, man.
You know I saw that fuckingbullshit that went on.
What, come on, man?
He kissed you.
Man, look like kissed him, andyou sure didn't do nothing about
it if he did, it looked likeyou enjoyed the motherfucking
shit, bro, man, fuck that man, Iain't got time for that
bullshit.

(45:43):
Man, you know who the fuck I am.
You don't disrespect me likethat.
I would never do you no shitlike that man.
I mean, man, you my heart, Ilove you and this, the way you
do me, do me, man.
This is some fucked up shit,man.
All the shit that we don't wentthrough and this is what you do
me.
This is what you do me, right,right, man, you know what man

(46:03):
got time for this shit man, fuck, yeah, that was me slamming
down the phone.
You know like I was damn nearangry and mad and and, bro, I do
admit that I was a little man.
I mean man, that's my girl man,I ain't like that dude man at
all, a little bit man.
I couldn't stand to see themtwo kiss.

(46:24):
Even though I know I set it up,it still hurt me in a way.
So I'm going to get back withAlexa, you know, right now, and
I'll get back on Tori.
It's some things I will see atthe end of this podcast about
Tori that I have found out.
Ok, but anyway, let's get backto Alexa.

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I stayed away around from herhouse for a couple of days,
right?
So at the time I was missing,she was always asking her
brother how Ken doing?
He would call me and ask me man, you all right, you okay, you
know talking to me.
And man, my sister asked aboutyou too.
Man, want to know you, okay,are you all right At this time,
man, everything's going just asplanned.

(47:08):
This is something that I neededto happen.
I remember I stayed away maybeabout a week and then I went
back over to play the game withthe little brother and I
remember that her mom gave me ahug and then she did too, so
that let me know they'd beentalking about it.
You know that what had happenedto me?

(47:29):
As the day was winding down andwe getting finished playing the
game, I'm picking up my joystick, putting it back in the case.
And you know, like I say, Iknow there was a lot of sympathy
for me in that house and peoplewonder if I was going to be OK
and how my feeling of my heartbeen broken.
So I remember leaving out thedoor and I go, oh shit, and

(47:53):
Alexis is like what?
I, what I'm like, man, I hadbought these two tickets for
this party and man, I forgotthat.
Yeah, oh man, I ain't gonna beable to go.
I'm not going by myself,because you know, me and Tori
separated.
How about you take thesetickets for you to go?
Now, let me break this down.
It it could have went eitherway, right, she could have took

(48:16):
her old man or she could havewent with me, but it still was
going to work out.
See, with these tickets here, Ialready did enough homework to
know that her old man was goingto be there in the first place.
Okay, I had you know what.
I'm'm gonna tell you how I foundthis out.
Well, my boy Juan, we wound upfollowing him one time and, yes,

(48:41):
just like I said, there wasanother girl that was involved
in his life.
So we went to this place calledUncle Harry's and Uncle Harry's
off of Magazine Street in NewOrleans.
Well, it ain't like y'all care.
Anyway, we went in there andit's a college type of bar and

(49:02):
we went in there and man, nextthing, you know, we was me and
Juan bought some shots.
I got pretty cool, you know,with old man up in there buying
shots, and man next thing, shots, shots, shots, shots, shots,
and we taking it to the head.
And next thing you know, theystarted talking about this party
.
Anyway, the party was costing Xamount of dollars to get in.

(49:26):
And, man, you should come.
Man, both of y'all should comeand just hang out.
Man, we love you guys.
You know, when you're drunk,motherfuckers say anything.
So that's how I found out aboutthe party.
Okay, let's get back to it.
Like I was saying, the shitcould have went either way.
She could have went with herboyfriend, but guess what?

(49:46):
He would have destroyed herhopes because he would have said
no, because he was going withthat other chick that he
interested in, or she could gowith me.
Either way, my plan was goingto work out.
Yeah, I know, it's some punkshit, it's all good, y'all, you
know, pussy over everything.
That's how I felt back then.
I'm sorry, okay.

(50:14):
Anyway, she did decide to gowith me because she had all that
sympathy in her heart for me,because what had happened with
me and Tori?
So she said, yeah, we could goas friends and have fun.
And I'm like, yeah, yeah, okay,all right, yeah, we could just
go, have fun, I come back and Iscoop you up later on and we
could go to this party and shewas like, okay, now, remember,
she don't know, her old man isgoing to be there.
So, like an evil genius that Ithought I was, I was rubbing my

(50:38):
finger.
You know what?
I didn't even think about thepeople I was hurting.
I only thought about one thing,and that was pussy and man.
That was a bad trait I had manonce again, I'm sorry.
Now we got there, okay, all Isaw were white boys all around
with these white sheets aroundthem.

(50:59):
I don't know if there was nakedunderneath that or not, or they
had underwear, I wasn't prettysure.
But back then I didn't knowwhat to call that.
You know, I know today iscalled toga party, but back then
I didn't know what the fuck wasgoing on.
So I wind up just saying, man,what the fuck, what a while.
They got these white sheets on,kind of goddamn, look like the

(51:22):
KKK without the mask.
And I'm like, ok, as I'msupposed to be here, as I'm
being pranked.
You know I didn't know what wasgoing on.
But what the hell, what's thehell?
I still had to run that planright.
Me and Alexa finally walked inthat front door and, man, they

(51:43):
had some fucking party going on.
When I say you smell weed, youhad beer in a tub full of ice, I
mean, it was off the chain.
Well, all you heard was theloud music.
You could barely hear anybody.
And we just kept walking around, you know.
And she was like okay, you wantto chill right here?

(52:04):
And I'm like, no, let's justkeep walking.
And man, I had to find a wholeman.
So we just kept on walking andI grabbed her by the arm,
sometimes gripped her hand tomake sure she was still
following me, and ding, ding,ding, ding.
I see him.
He's over there in the corner.

(52:25):
And, just like I said, he wasover there hugged up with that
girl.
Now I paused for a minutebecause I wanted to kind of make
it feel like an accident thatwe walked over by him.
So I had to come up withsomething else.
Like man, I can't just walkover there and talk about some
hay, whatever you know.
So it took a minute.

(52:45):
After about five minutes I sawher old man walk over by the
table where they had this punchbowl, and I'm like, let's get
some punch.
So we walked over there and Isay, what's up?
And he looked at me like oh man, man, you the guy.
I'm like, yeah, what's up, man,I'm good man.

(53:06):
The next, all of a sudden, alexawalks up and said how y'all two
know each other.
I say, well, I was at UncleHarry's the other day and, you
know, this guy was here partyingwith his girlfriend, his
girlfriend.
And I'm like, yeah, what's hername, bro?
And he goes I don't know whatyou're talking about.

(53:28):
And I'm like you know the girlwith the dirty brown hair, you
know with the freckles.
And he goes man, I don't, Idon't know what I'm talking
about.
And Alexis say, well, that's myboyfriend.
And I say, what?
Your boyfriend, this is yourboyfriend.
He was like, yeah, I'm like, ohshit.

(53:49):
And I paused for a minute rightwhen my eyes are big, like, oh
my God, did I just?
Did I just?
I was like, well, maybe notyour girlfriend, maybe it was
just a friend.
I'm sorry, your friend, howyour friend doing so?
I could see the girl from adistance, still chilling by
herself, waiting on him to comeback.

(54:10):
So I had to start a littlecommotion.
You know, I had.
I had to start a littlecommotion.
Well, I was like man, I'm sosorry, man, I didn't mean to
motion.
Well, I was like man, I'm sosorry, man, I didn't mean to.
You know, I didn't know you anda alexa, I, I apologize what?
And so alexa started to get alittle louder why are you here?
Why you didn't tell me you wascoming.

(54:32):
I mean, the everybody startedto make a little circle, right?
So the girl with the frecklescame over and say what is going
on?
And Alexa was like who is you?
Well, I'm such and such andthis is my boyfriend.
Oh, how he's supposed to beyour boyfriend when he's my

(54:53):
boyfriend?
And I remember this part realclear.
That girl with the freckleslooked at Alexa Boyfriend and
say who is this little girl?
Oh, alexa got pissed off,little girl.
She say, yeah, how old?
You have to be 18?
, 19?

(55:14):
And right.
And Alexa, well, I say Alexa,let's go, let's go, let's go,
don't worry.
And she say I don't understandhow you called in him your
boyfriend when we've beentogether for three years.
She was like, no, well, we'vebeen together for a year and a
half, like that.
And alexa boyfriend was justsitting there and she, then he

(55:37):
goes can we talk?
Can we talk to alexa?
He was saying that to alexa.
Look, we need to talk, we needto talk like that.
And alexa was like talk, talkabout what now?
I don't know what happenedafter that, because they did
went off by themselves.
Okay, all I know if I had tomake an assumption, he went

(55:57):
ahead and let her down easy tolet her know that they wasn't
together no more, because shewas teared up, she was crying
and I basically grabbed her andwe walked out and I put her in
the car.
Once we got to the car, Iremember Alexa saying what is
wrong with me?
Why is I'm crying?

(56:18):
Why is I care for an asshole?
And I remember her looking atme like what is wrong with me
that he left me for her.
Look at me and look at her.
I mean, is there a problem withme?
And I remember just trying toyou know, soothe her saying

(56:40):
you're beautiful, alexa.
I mean any guy would be luckyto have you.
You know he's just an asshole.
Like you say, he's an asshole.
You know, some guys just don'tknow what they have until they
lose it.
I mean I'm sitting here, mangiving it to her right.
All I replied was well, just letme get you home to your house.

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And she was like no, kent, Ireally don't feel like going
home right now because all I'mgonna do is just go in that room
and cry I don't want to go home.
I'm like, well, I could call mypeople up and see where they at
and you come, hang out a littlebit.
So that's what I did.
Found out where they were atwhen we went there.
So I was trying to make herfeel better, which I know I

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couldn't because you know shejust went through this shit.
But we got there and we startedto have a little fun.
She was dancing, she was tryingto, you know, drink her care
away and I kept saying, ok, alex, too much drinking, ok.
And I kept saying, ok, alex,too much, drinking, ok.
So I went ahead and grabbedthat last drink.
She had put it down on thecounter and we left.

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And I got home and she openedup the door.
I made sure she got up to herroom as we was walking up the
stairs I think we were making alot of noise at the time, trying
to get her up there by herbeing intoxicated of noise at
the time, trying to get her upthere by her being intoxicated.
So the way that the houselayout was, it was a mama room,
her brother room, then her roomat the end of the hallway.

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So her mom heard us and shecame out of her room asking if
everything is okay.
I replied yes, ma'am, just gota little intoxicated.
I'm gonna just put her in herroom and make sure she's good
and I'm going to leave.
And Alexa, in front of her mamagoes no, no, no, I don't feel
like being alone, I really don't.
Can you stay?

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Well, I put Alexa in her roomand then I came out and
explained to her mom what hadhappened at the party, that her
boyfriend broke up with her andhe was with another girl.
And she went on to say my poorbaby.
And I'm like, okay, I'm goingto just check on her and then I
could be gone.
She said no, no, ken, if shedon't want to be alone, don't

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leave her alone.
And I'm like, okay, all right.
She said do you have to go home?
I said no, ma'am, I don't haveto go home.
So she was like OK, you canstay.
I'm like OK.
So I went back in the Alexaroom.
Now on my mind I'm like oh shit,oh shit, mama, damn near cosign
for me to get the pussy.
I mean, that's what I'm sayingRight.

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So I went in there and I tookher shoes off and I say Alexa,
are you comfortable?
Do you need me to, you know,and put your pajamas on or
whatever, whatever?
And she was like um, yeah,let's do that.
And as I got her pants off, shefelt backwards and she's, you

(59:31):
know, like she kind of likepassed out and I'm like, well,
shit, I mean I should I try tofuck her when she's trying to
pass out or whatever.
So I just laid next to her.
As I laid next to her, she kindof rolled towards me and man,
man, man, I'm sorry y'all, thebreath was rolling.

(59:54):
I can remember that her breathwas kicking.
I was like, oh no, no, herbreath is stinking.
So I remember looking at theceiling and looking up and man,
I kept saying man, but the pussyI mean the pussy ain't got no
smell though.
Huh, I mean, can I get past thestinky breath?

(01:00:15):
And I was like, you know, likeevil side got got on that other
side and like, ken, you couldfuck her.
What are you talking about herbreath?
And then the good side of mewas like man, she is drunk, ken.
I mean, do you really want tofuck somebody that's drunk and I
mean her breath funky.
And then my bad side was likeshut, shut up.

(01:00:37):
Good side, I'm telling you hecould get the pussy right now.
Fuck the breath, get some ofthis pussy.
You know me, y'all.
I went with the bad side, right, I'm like, yeah, yeah, I got to
get some of this pussy.
But let me tell you whathappened next.
Okay, as she jumped up and satup, she threw up in her room

(01:00:59):
y'all, and man I'm talking aboutshe hurled, she was, and man,
it was like three of them in arow.
Man, I got the fuck out ofthere.
Ain't no fucking way I wasgoing to fuck her, knowing she
done fucking threw up.
Ain't that kind of pussy in theworld, y'all.
So I left.

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Okay, let me try to wrap thisup pretty quick.
So me and alexa, we became close.
You know two damaged people.
I lost mine, she lost hers andwe started to go out a little
more.
You know, just as friends, butthat popularity of mine with
other women and other friendsthat she saw me like francknate

(01:01:45):
with everybody, you know.
So she would just be sittingaround or she'll come and dance
with everyone, or one of mygo-get-em, you know my go-getter
tammy.
You know she'll go get her andbring her to the floor and we'll
just dance.
So she started to see how myyou know image was.
She started to see that I wasloved, like this dude probably

(01:02:09):
could have anybody, right, andwe used to always make these
little jokes about us, you know,calling us two damaged people.
And she goes well, it seemedlike you can have anybody you
want.
And I'm like what make you saythat?
She's like these girls be allover you.
And I'm like, yeah, but youknow I'm not ready for that.

(01:02:30):
And she's like well, you know,like I said, tori, tori was
beautiful, y'all.
So Tori already set a mark forme that you know what beautiful
was.
So now, alexa was fine, shewasn't beautiful as Tori, no.
So it was some things that Torimight've been like saying, well

(01:02:52):
, maybe I'm not pretty enoughfor this dude here.
But long story, short thingswent on.
She saw the popularity.
One day I was over, you know,playing a game with her brother
and she asked me to come here.
It was late at night.
Okay, mom in the room, brotherwrapping things up, I'm getting

(01:03:12):
ready to leave.
She say, ken, before you leave,can you come here?
And I'm like what's up?
I get to her room and she saidyou like this?
Man, you should have seen whatthe fuck this girl had on right,
this Teddy thing.
It must have been fromVictoria's Secret.
And she had this smell on her,this lotion that she had on that

(01:03:36):
Victoria's Secret lotion orsomething.
And she was like I had boughtthis from, you know, her
boyfriend, but it, you know, henever got to see it.
So I mean, do you like this?
And I'm like I couldn't eventalk y'all.
I was like I love it, I love it, you know.
And she saw that and shethought that was pretty funny.

(01:04:00):
She called me cute.
Well, she walks over and sheclosed the door and things
happen, y'all Things happen.
We wind up having sex that night.
We wind up having sex a fewmore times after that.
We are cool to the day.
We are cool with each other.
Today we haven't had sex in along time.

(01:04:20):
They've been, you know.
But you know it was sometimesthat you know we'll be in and
out of relationships and me andher would have sex or just hang
out Like if I see her right now,it's cool as a fan, right, she
gonna hug me.
I mean she's going gonna dab me, whatever it is, we just cool,

(01:04:41):
right.
All right, let's just get backto Tori a little bit.
Y'all I'm glad y'all hung inthis far.
This is a long one, I know, but,tori, you remember this
beginning me and tori beginningwas about me using her to fuck
other white girls, but to cometo find out she was using me too

(01:05:04):
.
Yeah, really, she was.
Tori was factual, we were thesame people.
I actually think that she had asex addiction too, with black
guys Not me, when I'm tellingyou hardcore black guys like I
was her starter kid.

(01:05:25):
Right, I was that starter blackdude.
That just was the starter.
But she wanted thugs.
You know she wanted I'm goingto nigger with gold teats in
their mouth.
She wanted nigger with pantshanging off their ass.
I mean she wanted thugs y'all.
I mean I could tell you whathappened after school, okay, oh

(01:05:47):
yeah, let me explain aboutschool, right quick.
Well, I didn't graduate with myclass.
I had to finish my education atDelgado Community College
because Mr Collins got me anyway.
Even though we separated me andTori, he still got me.
He just couldn't, you know, letit go.

(01:06:08):
Even though we wasn't together,he could not let it go.
He wound up getting me on somebogus shit as an ice cream y'all
, like they used to sell theselittle ice cream bars at school.
Well, he going to say I stoleone without paying for it and it
wasn't true.
But he wind up expelling me forthat, like you know, expelling

(01:06:34):
me to a point that I couldn'tgraduate with my class.
So he wind up getting me.
Okay, I had to finish myeducation at Delgado Community
College.
I didn't go back to Grace Kingafter that, I didn't All right
Back to Tori.
Well, my phone rung after school, maybe about a year later, and

(01:06:56):
it was Tori and Tori asked meri,asked me, hey, how you doing?
And she kind of felt like shewas depressed and I'm like, oh,
I'm doing fine, how you doing,tori?
And we talked for a little bitright, nothing, nothing bad,
just a good little talk, how youbeen shoo, shooing, okay, I
hung up the phone and maybeabout 20 minutes later my phone

(01:07:19):
rung and there was some dude man, some, some, some, some fucking
dude on the other end sayinghey, bro, what's up with this?
Your number in my girl phoneand I say who the fuck is this?
He said, man, this is such andsuch man.
Who the fuck is you?
Why my fucking girl calling you?
I'm like what fucking girl youtalking about, nigga?

(01:07:41):
Bro, he wind up saying Toriname.
I say who?
He say Tori.
And I was like man, what areyou talking about, dude?
He say why is she calling youor you calling her?
Man?
Two to two.
I didn't want her to get introuble.
So I put this shit togetherfast and I say well, I called

(01:08:02):
her and he said, bro, look, I'mgoing to tell you, I'm going to
say it one time, nigga.
I said dog, don't threaten me,my nigga.
He said, bro, do I all respectmy nigga, don't call my girl.
I don't like you fucking withno dudes.
Dog.
I was like what he was like,yeah, dog.
So, look, bro, do respect mynigga.

(01:08:29):
I'm telling you this dog, donot call my girl a fucking again
.
That's it, bro.
When I tell you, you know, blackjust wasn't good enough.
She had to go all the way out,nigga, she had to leave black
alone and go straight tothugging.
You know what I'm saying?
So I wasn't good enough, likemy dick wasn't big enough.
She had to go further, she hadto get deeper.
No, look, I'm not mad.
I respect the shit out of her.

(01:08:50):
You know I worried about her,you know, for a while, and when
I saw her one time I was workingand she was at this Burger King
, she was so afraid to say heyto me because I believe that she
was with the boy's sister andand she didn't even like she,

(01:09:14):
looked right at me, wouldn'teven talk to me.
Okay, all right, that was oneepisode.
Now another episode that me andher saw later is remember the
guy craig I say rest in peacethat I walked in um my girl, the
girl house, and he was sittingon the sofa talking to her
sister.
You know, well, I, me and himhad became close and he had some

(01:09:36):
people working for him.
Well, there's one dude man.
This dude was from um shit Iforgot.
Well, he had goals in his mouth, real thugging nigga man.
You could barely understandwhat this motherfucker was
talking about.
Having the time, you couldn'teven understand him when he
spoke.
And he walks in man, you knowthugging, and guess who he was

(01:09:57):
with tori, I mean, you know toriran out the house.
I kind of went after her to talkto her and my partner actually
explained to him.
You know, we had a lot of dealwith in high school and, and,
and nothing, nothing, nothingafter that, and and I ain't seen
ever since.
I don't see, I ain't seen herever since.
I do remember seeing one of ourmutual friends Facebook, and I

(01:10:23):
believe she has a daughter nowfrom somebody.
Anyway, that's all I have tosay with that.
Okay, this is the end.
Y'all.
Thank y'all for listening to myjourney, but this is the end of
season one.
Woo, feel like a milestone man,Feel like a milestone.
Season two is going to be awhole lot better.
Like I said, I was going to tryto go to video on season two,

(01:10:46):
but it's some more shit I justhave to work out.
I think I'm going to just stayaudio for right now until I work
some shit out.
I got to get better, man.
I just got to get better.
Look, I do have a fan messagethat y'all can write me at any
time.
I will get it through y'allpodcast.
It should have something thatsay fan mail.
And look, I even got a themesong now that I worked on and

(01:11:10):
got it all finished.
So season two is going to begoing to be good.
Y'all, thank y'all for stickingwith me.
Spread the word, man, I needfor people to get.
I need to get more subscribers.
You know I'm trying to work onthese endorsements to sponsors

(01:11:31):
and stuff like that.
I might have to startinterrupting my podcast by
shooting out a little sponsor.
We all know we got to get paidin this in some type of way.
Not saying that I have sponsorsright now, but I have talked to
one or two people.
Hope that don't disturb peoplefrom coming back.

(01:11:52):
Man, man, this has been a ride.
I hope y'all enjoyed thisjourney.
I mean it's been a pleasure.
I hope y'all enjoyed thisjourney.
I mean it's been a pleasure.
I hope a lot of peopleunderstand that.
You know the past me ain't thefuture me, you know.
I hope that I could succeed inthis podcast where I could have

(01:12:13):
a hundred million thousandfucking subscribers.
You know, if y'all could justspread the word thank you, god
bless.
And look, I'm going to take alittle time out to get this
season two going.
I might miss a week or two toput anything out.
Bear with me.

(01:12:34):
Hit that check mark so y'allcould get notification every
time I drop something because itmight not be on time.
I'm going to try to get better,okay, because the podcast
season two, it ain't going to beas long as my journey each
episode.
You know the journey wasbetween 40 minutes to an hour,
you know.
So thank y'all once again.

(01:12:57):
Come back for season two, okay,y'all.
See y'all later.