June 30, 2025 • 38 mins
What happens when the walls we build to protect ourselves become the very barriers that keep us from living fully? In this deeply moving exploration of emotional fortresses, I take you on a journey through the invisible architecture we construct around our hearts after experiencing trauma, rejection, or betrayal.
These walls—built brick by brick through painful experiences—once kept us safe when the world felt dangerous and unpredictable. For those who've survived narcissistic relationships or childhood trauma, these protective barriers were essential survival tools. But what happens when these same walls begin to block not just pain, but connection, intimacy, and growth?
Drawing from my experience as both a mental health professional and someone who's walked through the darkest valleys of trauma recovery, I share personal stories of dismantling my own walls after devastating betrayal. Through powerful metaphors of castles with high stone walls and gardens enclosed by forgotten fences, I illustrate how we can gently, compassionately begin the process of opening ourselves again—not by tearing everything down at once, but by removing just one stone at a time.
You'll discover practical guidance for recognizing your own walls, understanding when they've stopped serving their purpose, and approaching them with the four essential tools: courage, compassion, forgiveness, and grace. The journey isn't about exposing yourself to further harm, but about discerning when protection has become prison.
For anyone who resonates with thoughts like "I'll never trust again," "I'm better off alone," or "love always ends in pain," this episode offers a heartfelt invitation to consider the possibility of something more. Through guided embodiment practices and affirming meditations, I'll walk alongside you in this sacred work of reclaiming your capacity for connection while honoring the walls that once saved you.
When you're ready to transform protection into presence and fear into freedom, this conversation will meet you exactly where you are—with gentleness, wisdom, and profound understanding of what it means to heal.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Welcome to Season 4 of the Undetected Narcissist
Podcast.
Your host, angela Meyer, ishere to bring you clarity if you
are stuck in confusion,self-doubt or feel lost, without
a sense of direction.
This podcast is extremelydifferent because Angela comes
from a place of wisdom,compassion and has been able to
forgive the unforgivable.
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She's a mental healthprofessional, trauma-informed
human consciousness guide andempowerment strategist.
She knows one can't truly healand recover when one is stuck in
hate, anger and fear.
One must rise above it, findmeaning, understanding,
compassion for oneself and thetoxic people within our lives.
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This season is aboutself-empowerment,
self-realizations andtransformation.
There is always a blog postsupporting this information, so
please visitundetectednarcissistcom so get
ready to learn about yourself,others and find a way to truly
live and thrive.
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Once again, enjoy the show.
Speaker 2 (01:09):
Hello everyone and welcome to another episode of
the Undetected Narcissist.
I like to have a little humorhere.
Okay, I know we talk aboutserious topics all the time and
this one is really important andthis one I don't think anyone
else is talking about.
But today I'm talking about itthe walls we build.
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So I want to talk about theinvisible walls we build around
ourselves.
These walls aren't there whenwe're born.
They are constructed slowly,shaped by our life experiences.
Each one is a survivalmechanism, a way to keep
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ourselves safe, sane andstanding in the face of pain.
Some walls are built to keepothers out.
Others exist to protect ourvaluable hearts from repeated
harm and some, paradoxically,help us tolerate the intolerable
.
Built in environments whereabuse is a daily dose, we learn
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to endure.
Walls serve an essentialpurpose they keep us safe.
They are our first line ofdefense when the world feels too
overwhelming, too painful ortoo unsafe.
But over time, something canhappen.
We forget.
These walls are there.
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We built them in the past tosurvive, but now they quietly
shape our present and futurewithout our conscious awareness.
And make no mistake, our wallsinfluence not just our happiness
but our entire reality.
Dismantling a wall is no smallthing it can feel terrifying.
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Why?
Because behind every wall isthe unknown.
We ask ourselves who would I bewithout this armor?
Will life be safe if I takethis down, if I let someone in
again, I'm just opening the doorto another heartbreak.
Can you feel the subtle terrorof fear?
Can you feel the subtle terrorof fear woven through those
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questions?
That fear is natural, it'shuman.
So today I want to walk withyou through this landscape of
protection and pain.
Together we will explore why webuild walls, how and when to
recognize when they stop servingus, how to recognize the walls
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you've built and how todismantle them with courage,
compassion, forgiveness andgrace.
So let's begin the walls webuild.
Why do we build walls?
Walls?
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They're internal, energetic,emotional, are often survival
mechanisms.
Why we build walls is oneprotection.
We build them in response totrauma, rejection, abandonment,
extreme shame, abuse, bullyingor betrayal.
They become shields that keeppain out.
Some walls can be made ofbricks, stone, metal, wood or
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paper.
These walls we build can havelayers upon layers.
When we start paring out ourwalls, entrance and explore the
world again, or try to meet newpeople and explore the world
again.
Or try to meet new people, somepeople or our environment can
trigger the wall's emergencyalarms, pulling you back into
fear and building another wallto feel safe and protected again
, believing that the world isnot a safe place when in reality
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, there are safe places withinand around us.
The voice of fear can hold usback or we discover that our
environment is still unstableand unhealthy.
Another reason why we buildwalls is control.
Our walls help us feel andthink that we are managing chaos
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or uncertainty by narrowing thescope of what we allow in.
This is the key point what weallow in.
This can also include notallowing the good stuff, because
fear, second guessing, yourselfbeingiggered or another
person's opinion can cloud yourbetter judgment.
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Fear can whisper into your earand heart and keep someone at a
distance, even when this personhas zero intention or desire to
hurt or harm you.
The voice of fear will alwayshold us back from leaping into
courage to try something new orgive a person a second chance.
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Another reason why we buildthese walls is identity.
Sometimes our walls become partof who we think we are.
These are some thoughts wemight believe.
I don't trust people.
I'm better off alone.
Love always ends in pain.
I see this often in my practicewith clients.
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Some people do not know whothey would be without their
walls, because their walls havebeen a substantial part of their
lives growing up.
Therefore, there is the fear ofthe unknown, and accessing the
courage to change can beterrifying for some people.
So, to avoid the pain, theystay single alone and get a pet.
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There is a little humor here,but we see it all the time like
the jokes about the crazy catlady.
In 3D consciousness, these wallsare essential tools for
navigating the dualistic, oftenunsafe world.
Why we are wired to survive,our bodies need sleep at night.
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Therefore, a wall is built tobring a sense of comfort, safety
and protection from the harshreality.
We walk around with our walls,suspicious of others, suspicious
of their intentions or motives.
Struggling with the inabilityto trust others is commonplace,
because you know disappointmentcan linger around any corner.
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You can become cold, distant,closed off from others,
hypervigilant, guarded,depressed and lonely.
Life can appear bleak, crueland hopeless.
In 5D consciousness, these samewalls become limitations that
block intimacy, connection,creativity and divine flow.
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Now I know this was true for me.
I had built a massive wallaround my heart when it came to
marriage and intimacy.
It took a great deal of trust,courage, patience and compassion
for myself and my futurepartner.
I often had to show myselfgrace when bumping up against my
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wall.
Self-acceptance, compassion andforgiveness were my saving
grace, because I wanted toremove all my walls, but parts
of me were skeptical and fearful.
Plus, I like to say that wehave walls with doors.
Sometimes we can step outsideour walls and explore the world
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around us.
So when I felt comfortableexploring intimate connections
again, I would open my door andalong the journey, I would ask
myself these questions Can Itrust, can I truly trust this
person?
Are their intentions pure orare they trying to love, bomb me
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again like my ex?
Can and will this personrespect my boundaries?
Is it safe to speak my truthwith this person?
Am I capable of beingvulnerable with this person?
Can this person be vulnerablewith me?
Has this person learned thelessons from their past life
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experiences and partners?
What steps did this person taketo recover and heal from their
past experiences?
Or are they stuck in blame orvictim mentality?
Am I ready to open up my heartto be loved again?
Am I capable of receiving lovefrom another person or am I
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still too afraid?
How does my body respond tothis person?
Has my body been sending mesignals that make me feel safe
or give me the ick?
If I get the ick, is that thevoice of fear talking?
Or am I being too judgmentaltowards this person?
Can anyone relate?
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These are excellent questionsfor self-discovery and
self-reflection.
I know it is hard to stop and gowithin.
Doing this work is not easy.
It is uncomfortable to be stuckat a crossroad because we have
many questions that will open orshut the door.
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These questions must beanswered and the only one who
can answer them is you.
For example, you like someonebut your wall pops up out of
nowhere like a gopher burrowingunderneath the ground during the
most intimate and personalmoments.
It throws you off guard becauseyou do not want to offend the
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person, but there's your walland the other person can sense
and feel it.
For example, let's say theymove in for a kiss and
immediately your body pulls back.
This is your wall saying loudand clear Back off.
I'm not ready for this.
Can I trust you?
You violated my personal spacewithout my permission.
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How dare you kiss me or try totake advantage of me?
I do not kiss on the first date, dude.
That is why I say askpermission for a kiss.
Stop thinking it is okay toinvade a person's personal space
without consent.
Why do you ask for a kiss?
Well, you are letting that wallknow your intentions.
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The wall and the personstanding outside the doorway
will think this.
Thought Should I leave the dooropen or closed?
Thought Should I leave the dooropen or closed?
Everyone has their own uniquepain story of love, betrayal,
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sadness, rejection, abandonment,shame, trauma and abuse.
That person might notunderstand your past, because
your past is now impacting yourpresent and your future.
How do you explain yourselfwithout feeling shame, guilt or
remorse?
Someone say there's no need forexplanations, but there is.
The universe and your soul areforcing you to grow and expand.
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Find and use your voice.
If you genuinely have feelingsfor this new person, tell them
up front that you do not kiss onthe first date and when you
feel the moment is right forboth of us, please ask
permission first.
If they don't respect yourboundaries, then they're not the
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right person for you.
Okay, plain and simple.
So think of it this way Beforeyou met your narcissistic person
, you were most likely in thedark.
I sure was.
I didn't know about gaslighting, projections, stonewalling,
lobolamine baiting and all thoseother games.
Therefore, I took theirbehaviors personally.
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Once I knew who and what I wasdealing with, I realized it had
nothing to do with me but them.
That is why we must heal beforeentering another romantic
relationship or friendship.
We do not want our past andwalls to cloud or influence our
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present and future happiness.
Before we go further, I want youto remember this truth.
We are spiritual beings havinga human experience.
Our soul does not take sides.
It is neutral.
It doesn't label things as goodor bad, right or wrong.
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To the soul, every lifeexperience is simply information
, an opportunity to either growor remain stuck.
And whether we like it or not,life is our greatest teacher.
That is why we are here onearth to learn, and those
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lessons they never stop.
But here's the challenge Ourhumanity resists dismantling the
walls.
It's the part of us that wantsto cling to judgment, certainty
and justice.
That's what makes it so hard tolet go.
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We want justice.
There is this unhealthy desirewhere we want someone to pay.
We want the pain to matterbecause we matter.
If you've read my book, youknow why.
I sought justice and yet Inever got it.
I had to make peace with that.
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It was one of the most brutaltruths I've ever had to accept.
But once I stopped fighting itand I embraced the soul's view,
I understood something deeper.
My soul didn't just want peace,it wanted expansion.
It wanted me to bring thiswisdom to you.
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I had to dismantle my walls,not just for myself, but for you
, so you could one day recognizeyour own walls and maybe, just
maybe, learn how to gently takethem down too.
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Now, why and when do our wallsstop serving us?
Walls become outdated when theconditions that created them no
longer exist, but we continue tooperate from that old survival
pattern.
Time and time again, I metpeople either in a podcast
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interview or face to face.
Everyone complains about theirwalls.
When they become outdated.
Each person recognizes theirwalls, but they do not know how
to dismantle them so they canstill feel safe and secure with
others and the outside world.
Our walls begin to cost morethan they protect Isolation,
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disconnection, emotionalnumbness and spiritual
stagnation.
Now this is what I am talkingabout.
I like to call it thetransition phase.
I tried dating again and I justfelt emotionally numb inside.
I like the person, but I couldnot and would not allow myself
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to fall in love again.
I wanted to feel again so badly, but my heart was not in it.
It was so frustrating and itwas not fair to use another
person, so I stayed single foryears until I was ready to let
someone into my heart.
Our souls also begin to nudgeus towards wholeness,
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vulnerability and expansion, andthe walls stand in the way of
that evolution.
Walls are meant to be temporaryscaffoldings, not permanent
architecture.
When growth calls, what onceserved becomes a prison.
How to recognize your own walls?
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Encouragement for generalself-inquiry.
Now, going within can be scary,I get it.
At some point I was forced to gowithin myself and look hard at
my walls.
I was coasting by in life okay,with my walls, but my heart and
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soul were nudging me towholeness.
After all, I was working withclients on being vulnerable.
I needed to start taking my ownadvice.
I might have stayed the same ifmy soul and heart were not
nudging me to change.
Most people do.
Yet I knew in my heart and soulthat experience with narcissism
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had a purpose to serve thegreater good of humanity.
Therefore, I had to be braveand face my walls individually.
I had to ask myself thesequestions what do I
automatically push away?
Is it love, support, praise,affection, people, happiness,
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feedback?
Where do I feel stuck or small,no matter how much I try to
change externally?
Do I have beliefs that soundlike absolutes, like I'll never
trust again?
People always leave.
I have to do it all alone.
And where do I feel resistanceor tightness in my body?
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When specific topics, people oremotions arise, walls often show
up as hyper-independence,perfectionism, over-intextualize
you just overthink emotionalshutdown, feeling threatened in
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a state of shock or disbelief,feeling a lack of control, shame
and the shutdown spiral.
Response personal spaceviolations, unresolved childhood
traumas, boundaries pushed ordisrespected, unstable
environment, history of abuse,history of domestic violence,
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direct and indirect traumatriggers, judgment or spiritual
bypassing.
My walls forced me to confrontthe why factor, because each
wall had a lesson to teach me,such as setting healthy
boundaries.
Stop making excuses forpeople's destructive behaviors
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and harsh words.
Learning to speak my truth.
Stop dating takers and startmeeting people who give and
receive.
Start to care less about whatother people think about me.
Learn to accept and love myselffirst.
Slow down and notice the redflags.
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Discover the art of listening.
Trust your gut and the vibe youget about certain people.
Trust your gut and the vibe youget about, certain people stop
doubting and start believing inmyself again.
Know my worth and value.
Actions do speak louder thanwords now.
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How to dismantle walls withcourage, compassion, forgiveness
and grace.
I have said it before and Iwill repeat it All the tools we
need are within 4D humanconsciousness.
That is why Divine Love gave methese tools, wisdom and
teachings, not just for me, butfor you.
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The charts are free.
Anyone can use them help todiscover your 3D set point and
how to climb out of the darknessand into the light.
I actually put these images onthis website for free as well,
or you can go to Master theUpper Rooms, but it's posted
there.
Here's the first step.
You've got to have courage.
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Recognize that taking down thewalls is an act of sacred
bravery.
What lessons has each walltaught me that were lacking from
the 4D human consciousnesschart?
Was it self-confidence,self-respect, self-belief,
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self-acceptance, self-compassionor boundaries?
Who do I need to remove thetoxic people from my life
because they bring me down intothe 3D thought patterns and
beliefs.
When you recognize the lessonsbehind the wall's purpose, thank
it and bless it.
It did once serve a positivepurpose and gratitude is
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essential.
Affirm it's safe to let love in, or I don't need to protect
myself from a wound that'salready healed.
Begin small.
Allow one trusted person, onemoment of softness, one tear you
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didn't wipe away.
Remember it's a journey and aslow process, not a race.
The number two of how todismantle your walls is
compassion.
Don't shame the wall.
It protected you when nothingelse could Thank it and bless it
for its service.
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Before you release it,understand that your wall was
once the best choice you couldmake.
So stop beating yourself upwhen your wall appears
unexpectedly.
The next part, the third part,is forgiveness and how to
dismantle your walls, forgivingthe parts of you that believed
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you weren't safe.
If you need to do some innerchild healing, do it.
Parts therapy and inner childhealing are essential because we
all have wounded parts withinus that still operate within our
subconscious mind, impactingour present and future reality.
That is why integration andwholeness are essential to
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healing oneself.
Forgive those who contributedto the need for the wall,
without condemning the harm.
Listen to or read the episodehow to Forgive the Unforgivable.
Forgiveness is the spiritualsledgehammer that softens the
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mortar between the bricks.
The mortar between the bricksand the last one is grace.
Grace allows us to surrendercontrol and allow divine timing
to lead.
This has been my saving gracefor over 30 years.
Learning to release all controland surrender to an invisible
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higher power can be terrifying,yet each time I have done so,
miracles have happened.
Grace holds us when we're tooafraid to move and guides us
when we're finally ready to open.
Learn to call upon grace anddivine intervention, ask for
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their support and guidance.
Through grace, we are remindedthat healing doesn't need to be
perfect.
It only needs to be honest.
Now I need to be transparenthere.
Many of us believe our own lies.
We deny the truth because weare trying to avoid shame, guilt
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and all those negative thoughtpatterns and emotions stuck in
3D human consciousness.
So we avoid it at all cost.
Yet when it comes toself-transformation and
liberation, we must face ourdemons, the parts of us stuck in
the shadows.
Some call it shadow work.
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So let me share a story, and Ishould give a trigger warning,
because it entails child abuse.
When I started to do EMDR traumatherapy, I quickly learned that
there was a part of me that wasscared of me and scared for me
to know what happened to us whenwe were between four and six
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years of age, all I could seewas darkness and these two sad,
glowing eyes looking back at me.
She had so much shame, guilt,heartache and disbelief.
As I peeled away the layers andwalls, I got to the main memory
that played repeatedly for over40 years.
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It was a complete shock to mysystem, because that is when I
saw my death.
Yep, I died when I was four anda half years old at the hands
of my older brother.
It was terrifying and confusing.
I thought I was imaginingthings, but I was not.
As the memory unfolded, Ilearned the who, what, where and
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why.
But our creator sent me backbecause I had a purpose here on
earth and it was just a selfishgift that I discovered during a
Life Between Lives session, whenall the hidden memories were
unraveled.
It tore me apart.
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I felt broken inside and couldnot believe a person we would
call a parent or family membercould abuse a child in the
manner I was abused.
That is when everything startedto make sense.
The cruelty, anger, hatred andabuse I survived were locked
away for a good reason, so Icould survive, but something
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inside of me wanted answers andwanted to heal.
Deep down inside.
I longed to be whole again andthis part stuck in the shadows
needed me.
I could no longer ignore it orlock it back up.
I had to be a mature adult,love myself enough to face my
painful past, be willing tolearn the lessons and purpose
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for those walls and transform mylife for the greater good of
the whole of me.
There is that saying whatdoesn't kill you makes you
stronger.
I am a warrior of love becauseeverything I do comes from that
place of unconditional love.
Now I share the wisdom I havelearned with you.
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There's this really cool imagethat I do have on the blog post
that I want to just read what itsays Buddhists are not aiming
for a heaven.
Buddhists do not believe in Godas the almighty decider.
Buddhists believe that it isyour mind that decides
everything.
So actually in Buddhism, youare your own master, and the
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whole teachings in Buddhism isreally how to master that
mastership.
That's what Master of the UpperRooms is all about.
Now you know me.
I'm going to shift gears hereand share two metaphor stories
about our walls.
Here's the first one the castle, the queen and her walls.
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Once upon a time, a queen ruleda great kingdom.
Long ago, enemies stormed hergates, took what was sacred and
left her heart shattered.
In the aftermath, she orderedthe construction of a mighty
stone wall around her castle,high, thick and impenetrable.
No one could get in.
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The walls kept her safe,keeping danger out, but it also
kept out joy, love, touch andsong.
Over time.
No one could reach her, not thekind villagers, wild roses or
starlight.
She told herself I am safe, butshe was not free.
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Years passed, the enemies neverreturned.
The world outside changed, butthe queen did not.
She walked her empty halls insilence, believing solitude was
strength, until one day sheheard a child laughing beyond
the wall, free, full of wonder,joy and excitement.
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The sound stirred somethingancient and almost forgotten
inside her.
The sound stirred somethingancient and almost forgotten
inside her, something soft,tender and alive, just waiting
to be set free again.
She climbed the tallest towerand looked down at the stone
barriers she had built, and shewhispered, not to anyone but
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herself what if the wall is nolonger saving me?
What if it's silencing me?
With trembling hands and royalcourage, she descended from her
tower, approached the walls andremoved one single stone, just
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one, but it was enough.
A breeze kissed her cheek.
The scent of lilacs found herand with it the memory of a time
before the fortress, when shehad ruled not from fear but from
love.
She did not tear down the wholewall on one day, but every
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stone she removed became aprayer one day.
But every stone she removedbecame a prayer, a return and a
liberation In a blink of an eye.
She remembered she was nevermeant to live behind the wall.
She was meant to rise beyond it.
Love that one.
Now here's the next one theGarden, the Fence of Forgotten
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Growth.
Here's the next one the Garden,the Fence of Forgotten Growth.
In a quiet meadow stood a lush,hidden garden.
It was once wild and full ofwonder, planted by a child who
dreamed with stars in her eyes.
The garden grew with laughter,secrets whispered to bees and
barefoot dances under moonlight.
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But then came a storm, one ofthose life storms that tear
things apart before you're oldenough to understand why.
So the child built a fence, notto punish the world but to
protect the garden.
She told herself.
Nothing will harm what I loveagain.
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The fence stood firm and for atime it was good.
But seasons passed, year afteryear, the child grew and the
world waited.
Yet the garden stayed sealedInside, the various flowers
began to wilt from lack ofsunlight, the soil dried, the
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butterflies stopped coming andstill the grown woman now walked
.
The garden path would not openthe gate.
She had forgotten how.
One morning she noticedsomething new.
A rebellious and alive vine hadcrept over the fence, blooming
with vibrant gold petals.
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As she drew closer, she couldsmell the perfume, scent and the
magic within this rebelliousvine.
She saw the willpower andcourage it had within to reach
the blue sky above.
The garden was trying to expandbeyond its boundaries.
Instead of slowly witheringaway, the garden wanted to live.
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It was tired of being trappedbehind this old, outdated fence.
All this wisdom and truthflooded her consciousness.
She placed her hand on the oldgate and felt the ache of time.
How much had been lost, not tocruelty but to fear.
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And then she heard the wordsrise from within her this fence
protected me when I was small,but now it only shrinks what
wants to grow.
She opened the gate and itcreaked like a soul, remembering
how to sing.
In came the rays of sunlight,as gentle as a feather, the
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breeze and the scent of freshflowers came in In divine timing
.
In came people who knew how towalk gently.
Then, as her heart swelled withgratitude, in came laughter
hers this time and the gate, oh,the garden, began to breathe
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again.
So I created this closing heartand embodiment practice.
We can all do right now.
Take a moment, wherever you are,to let the stories settle, let
the castle, the garden, findtheir echoes within you.
Close your eyes, if you're able, place a hand over your heart,
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maybe even both.
Let yourself ask gently,honestly where have I built
walls around myself?
Where have I kept out what I nolonger, what I now long to let
in?
Like?
What am I keeping out that Ilong to let in?
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What Is it time to open thegate, to remove just one stone?
No judgment, no rush, justawareness.
This is sacred work, brave work.
Now take in a deep breath, letit fill not just your lungs but
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the locked rooms inside of you,and as you exhale, release one
once ounce of protection.
Just release just an ounce ofprotection you no longer need.
Just breathe it out.
You don't have to tear downyour walls all at once, remember
, dear one.
You have to meet them with love.
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Your walls, the wall, was builtout of love, to protect you and
keep you safe.
So say thank you, thank you,thank you, as if you were saying
goodbye to an old, belovedfriend.
You part in love, compassion,forgiveness and grace.
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There is an affirmation toanchor in.
If you like, you can repeatthis silently out loud, or just
listen.
I honor the walls I built tosurvive.
I choose now to live, not justto protect.
With courage and compassion, Ilet light in Within my heart and
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soul.
I am safe to expand.
Now is the time to permitmyself to explore my world and
environment.
It is time I am safe to love.
My heart and soul say to me Iam free to grow.
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Final words there is no shamein having built walls.
I'm the master of walls and mywalls have been my excellent
teacher who inspired this blogpost and podcast.
But there is a profoundliberation in realizing you no
longer need them.
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That is why I have created aguided meditation that's going
to be called Dismantling theWalls we Build.
The style is gentle,heart-opening and
trauma-informed.
So, whether you're in the tower, at the garden gate or holding
the first brick in your hand,you are not alone.
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You are already healing.
You are already healing andlove love is already on the
other side, waiting for you toopen the way until next time and
love and light.
Angela Meyer, carrie Logan bye.
Welcome to Season 4 of the Undetected Narcissist
Podcast.
Your host, angela Meyer, ishere to bring you clarity if you
are stuck in confusion,self-doubt or feel lost, without
a sense of direction.
This podcast is extremelydifferent because Angela comes
from a place of wisdom,compassion and has been able to
forgive the unforgivable.
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She's a mental healthprofessional, trauma-informed
human consciousness guide andempowerment strategist.
She knows one can't truly healand recover when one is stuck in
hate, anger and fear.
One must rise above it, findmeaning, understanding,
compassion for oneself and thetoxic people within our lives.
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This season is aboutself-empowerment,
self-realizations andtransformation.
There is always a blog postsupporting this information, so
please visitundetectednarcissistcom so get
ready to learn about yourself,others and find a way to truly
live and thrive.
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Once again, enjoy the show.
Speaker 2 (01:09):
Hello everyone and welcome to another episode of
the Undetected Narcissist.
I like to have a little humorhere.
Okay, I know we talk aboutserious topics all the time and
this one is really important andthis one I don't think anyone
else is talking about.
But today I'm talking about itthe walls we build.
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So I want to talk about theinvisible walls we build around
ourselves.
These walls aren't there whenwe're born.
They are constructed slowly,shaped by our life experiences.
Each one is a survivalmechanism, a way to keep
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ourselves safe, sane andstanding in the face of pain.
Some walls are built to keepothers out.
Others exist to protect ourvaluable hearts from repeated
harm and some, paradoxically,help us tolerate the intolerable
.
Built in environments whereabuse is a daily dose, we learn
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to endure.
Walls serve an essentialpurpose they keep us safe.
They are our first line ofdefense when the world feels too
overwhelming, too painful ortoo unsafe.
But over time, something canhappen.
We forget.
These walls are there.
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We built them in the past tosurvive, but now they quietly
shape our present and futurewithout our conscious awareness.
And make no mistake, our wallsinfluence not just our happiness
but our entire reality.
Dismantling a wall is no smallthing it can feel terrifying.
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Why?
Because behind every wall isthe unknown.
We ask ourselves who would I bewithout this armor?
Will life be safe if I takethis down, if I let someone in
again, I'm just opening the doorto another heartbreak.
Can you feel the subtle terrorof fear?
Can you feel the subtle terrorof fear woven through those
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questions?
That fear is natural, it'shuman.
So today I want to walk withyou through this landscape of
protection and pain.
Together we will explore why webuild walls, how and when to
recognize when they stop servingus, how to recognize the walls
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you've built and how todismantle them with courage,
compassion, forgiveness andgrace.
So let's begin the walls webuild.
Why do we build walls?
Walls?
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They're internal, energetic,emotional, are often survival
mechanisms.
Why we build walls is oneprotection.
We build them in response totrauma, rejection, abandonment,
extreme shame, abuse, bullyingor betrayal.
They become shields that keeppain out.
Some walls can be made ofbricks, stone, metal, wood or
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paper.
These walls we build can havelayers upon layers.
When we start paring out ourwalls, entrance and explore the
world again, or try to meet newpeople and explore the world
again.
Or try to meet new people, somepeople or our environment can
trigger the wall's emergencyalarms, pulling you back into
fear and building another wallto feel safe and protected again
, believing that the world isnot a safe place when in reality
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, there are safe places withinand around us.
The voice of fear can hold usback or we discover that our
environment is still unstableand unhealthy.
Another reason why we buildwalls is control.
Our walls help us feel andthink that we are managing chaos
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or uncertainty by narrowing thescope of what we allow in.
This is the key point what weallow in.
This can also include notallowing the good stuff, because
fear, second guessing, yourselfbeingiggered or another
person's opinion can cloud yourbetter judgment.
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Fear can whisper into your earand heart and keep someone at a
distance, even when this personhas zero intention or desire to
hurt or harm you.
The voice of fear will alwayshold us back from leaping into
courage to try something new orgive a person a second chance.
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Another reason why we buildthese walls is identity.
Sometimes our walls become partof who we think we are.
These are some thoughts wemight believe.
I don't trust people.
I'm better off alone.
Love always ends in pain.
I see this often in my practicewith clients.
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Some people do not know whothey would be without their
walls, because their walls havebeen a substantial part of their
lives growing up.
Therefore, there is the fear ofthe unknown, and accessing the
courage to change can beterrifying for some people.
So, to avoid the pain, theystay single alone and get a pet.
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There is a little humor here,but we see it all the time like
the jokes about the crazy catlady.
In 3D consciousness, these wallsare essential tools for
navigating the dualistic, oftenunsafe world.
Why we are wired to survive,our bodies need sleep at night.
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Therefore, a wall is built tobring a sense of comfort, safety
and protection from the harshreality.
We walk around with our walls,suspicious of others, suspicious
of their intentions or motives.
Struggling with the inabilityto trust others is commonplace,
because you know disappointmentcan linger around any corner.
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You can become cold, distant,closed off from others,
hypervigilant, guarded,depressed and lonely.
Life can appear bleak, crueland hopeless.
In 5D consciousness, these samewalls become limitations that
block intimacy, connection,creativity and divine flow.
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Now I know this was true for me.
I had built a massive wallaround my heart when it came to
marriage and intimacy.
It took a great deal of trust,courage, patience and compassion
for myself and my futurepartner.
I often had to show myselfgrace when bumping up against my
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wall.
Self-acceptance, compassion andforgiveness were my saving
grace, because I wanted toremove all my walls, but parts
of me were skeptical and fearful.
Plus, I like to say that wehave walls with doors.
Sometimes we can step outsideour walls and explore the world
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around us.
So when I felt comfortableexploring intimate connections
again, I would open my door andalong the journey, I would ask
myself these questions Can Itrust, can I truly trust this
person?
Are their intentions pure orare they trying to love, bomb me
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again like my ex?
Can and will this personrespect my boundaries?
Is it safe to speak my truthwith this person?
Am I capable of beingvulnerable with this person?
Can this person be vulnerablewith me?
Has this person learned thelessons from their past life
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experiences and partners?
What steps did this person taketo recover and heal from their
past experiences?
Or are they stuck in blame orvictim mentality?
Am I ready to open up my heartto be loved again?
Am I capable of receiving lovefrom another person or am I
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still too afraid?
How does my body respond tothis person?
Has my body been sending mesignals that make me feel safe
or give me the ick?
If I get the ick, is that thevoice of fear talking?
Or am I being too judgmentaltowards this person?
Can anyone relate?
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These are excellent questionsfor self-discovery and
self-reflection.
I know it is hard to stop and gowithin.
Doing this work is not easy.
It is uncomfortable to be stuckat a crossroad because we have
many questions that will open orshut the door.
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These questions must beanswered and the only one who
can answer them is you.
For example, you like someonebut your wall pops up out of
nowhere like a gopher burrowingunderneath the ground during the
most intimate and personalmoments.
It throws you off guard becauseyou do not want to offend the
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person, but there's your walland the other person can sense
and feel it.
For example, let's say theymove in for a kiss and
immediately your body pulls back.
This is your wall saying loudand clear Back off.
I'm not ready for this.
Can I trust you?
You violated my personal spacewithout my permission.
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How dare you kiss me or try totake advantage of me?
I do not kiss on the first date, dude.
That is why I say askpermission for a kiss.
Stop thinking it is okay toinvade a person's personal space
without consent.
Why do you ask for a kiss?
Well, you are letting that wallknow your intentions.
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The wall and the personstanding outside the doorway
will think this.
Thought Should I leave the dooropen or closed?
Thought Should I leave the dooropen or closed?
Everyone has their own uniquepain story of love, betrayal,
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sadness, rejection, abandonment,shame, trauma and abuse.
That person might notunderstand your past, because
your past is now impacting yourpresent and your future.
How do you explain yourselfwithout feeling shame, guilt or
remorse?
Someone say there's no need forexplanations, but there is.
The universe and your soul areforcing you to grow and expand.
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Find and use your voice.
If you genuinely have feelingsfor this new person, tell them
up front that you do not kiss onthe first date and when you
feel the moment is right forboth of us, please ask
permission first.
If they don't respect yourboundaries, then they're not the
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right person for you.
Okay, plain and simple.
So think of it this way Beforeyou met your narcissistic person
, you were most likely in thedark.
I sure was.
I didn't know about gaslighting, projections, stonewalling,
lobolamine baiting and all thoseother games.
Therefore, I took theirbehaviors personally.
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Once I knew who and what I wasdealing with, I realized it had
nothing to do with me but them.
That is why we must heal beforeentering another romantic
relationship or friendship.
We do not want our past andwalls to cloud or influence our
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present and future happiness.
Before we go further, I want youto remember this truth.
We are spiritual beings havinga human experience.
Our soul does not take sides.
It is neutral.
It doesn't label things as goodor bad, right or wrong.
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To the soul, every lifeexperience is simply information
, an opportunity to either growor remain stuck.
And whether we like it or not,life is our greatest teacher.
That is why we are here onearth to learn, and those
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lessons they never stop.
But here's the challenge Ourhumanity resists dismantling the
walls.
It's the part of us that wantsto cling to judgment, certainty
and justice.
That's what makes it so hard tolet go.
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We want justice.
There is this unhealthy desirewhere we want someone to pay.
We want the pain to matterbecause we matter.
If you've read my book, youknow why.
I sought justice and yet Inever got it.
I had to make peace with that.
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It was one of the most brutaltruths I've ever had to accept.
But once I stopped fighting itand I embraced the soul's view,
I understood something deeper.
My soul didn't just want peace,it wanted expansion.
It wanted me to bring thiswisdom to you.
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I had to dismantle my walls,not just for myself, but for you
, so you could one day recognizeyour own walls and maybe, just
maybe, learn how to gently takethem down too.
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Now, why and when do our wallsstop serving us?
Walls become outdated when theconditions that created them no
longer exist, but we continue tooperate from that old survival
pattern.
Time and time again, I metpeople either in a podcast
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interview or face to face.
Everyone complains about theirwalls.
When they become outdated.
Each person recognizes theirwalls, but they do not know how
to dismantle them so they canstill feel safe and secure with
others and the outside world.
Our walls begin to cost morethan they protect Isolation,
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disconnection, emotionalnumbness and spiritual
stagnation.
Now this is what I am talkingabout.
I like to call it thetransition phase.
I tried dating again and I justfelt emotionally numb inside.
I like the person, but I couldnot and would not allow myself
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to fall in love again.
I wanted to feel again so badly, but my heart was not in it.
It was so frustrating and itwas not fair to use another
person, so I stayed single foryears until I was ready to let
someone into my heart.
Our souls also begin to nudgeus towards wholeness,
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vulnerability and expansion, andthe walls stand in the way of
that evolution.
Walls are meant to be temporaryscaffoldings, not permanent
architecture.
When growth calls, what onceserved becomes a prison.
How to recognize your own walls?
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Encouragement for generalself-inquiry.
Now, going within can be scary,I get it.
At some point I was forced to gowithin myself and look hard at
my walls.
I was coasting by in life okay,with my walls, but my heart and
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soul were nudging me towholeness.
After all, I was working withclients on being vulnerable.
I needed to start taking my ownadvice.
I might have stayed the same ifmy soul and heart were not
nudging me to change.
Most people do.
Yet I knew in my heart and soulthat experience with narcissism
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had a purpose to serve thegreater good of humanity.
Therefore, I had to be braveand face my walls individually.
I had to ask myself thesequestions what do I
automatically push away?
Is it love, support, praise,affection, people, happiness,
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feedback?
Where do I feel stuck or small,no matter how much I try to
change externally?
Do I have beliefs that soundlike absolutes, like I'll never
trust again?
People always leave.
I have to do it all alone.
And where do I feel resistanceor tightness in my body?
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When specific topics, people oremotions arise, walls often show
up as hyper-independence,perfectionism, over-intextualize
you just overthink emotionalshutdown, feeling threatened in
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a state of shock or disbelief,feeling a lack of control, shame
and the shutdown spiral.
Response personal spaceviolations, unresolved childhood
traumas, boundaries pushed ordisrespected, unstable
environment, history of abuse,history of domestic violence,
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direct and indirect traumatriggers, judgment or spiritual
bypassing.
My walls forced me to confrontthe why factor, because each
wall had a lesson to teach me,such as setting healthy
boundaries.
Stop making excuses forpeople's destructive behaviors
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and harsh words.
Learning to speak my truth.
Stop dating takers and startmeeting people who give and
receive.
Start to care less about whatother people think about me.
Learn to accept and love myselffirst.
Slow down and notice the redflags.
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Discover the art of listening.
Trust your gut and the vibe youget about certain people.
Trust your gut and the vibe youget about, certain people stop
doubting and start believing inmyself again.
Know my worth and value.
Actions do speak louder thanwords now.
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How to dismantle walls withcourage, compassion, forgiveness
and grace.
I have said it before and Iwill repeat it All the tools we
need are within 4D humanconsciousness.
That is why Divine Love gave methese tools, wisdom and
teachings, not just for me, butfor you.
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The charts are free.
Anyone can use them help todiscover your 3D set point and
how to climb out of the darknessand into the light.
I actually put these images onthis website for free as well,
or you can go to Master theUpper Rooms, but it's posted
there.
Here's the first step.
You've got to have courage.
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Recognize that taking down thewalls is an act of sacred
bravery.
What lessons has each walltaught me that were lacking from
the 4D human consciousnesschart?
Was it self-confidence,self-respect, self-belief,
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self-acceptance, self-compassionor boundaries?
Who do I need to remove thetoxic people from my life
because they bring me down intothe 3D thought patterns and
beliefs.
When you recognize the lessonsbehind the wall's purpose, thank
it and bless it.
It did once serve a positivepurpose and gratitude is
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essential.
Affirm it's safe to let love in, or I don't need to protect
myself from a wound that'salready healed.
Begin small.
Allow one trusted person, onemoment of softness, one tear you
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didn't wipe away.
Remember it's a journey and aslow process, not a race.
The number two of how todismantle your walls is
compassion.
Don't shame the wall.
It protected you when nothingelse could Thank it and bless it
for its service.
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Before you release it,understand that your wall was
once the best choice you couldmake.
So stop beating yourself upwhen your wall appears
unexpectedly.
The next part, the third part,is forgiveness and how to
dismantle your walls, forgivingthe parts of you that believed
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you weren't safe.
If you need to do some innerchild healing, do it.
Parts therapy and inner childhealing are essential because we
all have wounded parts withinus that still operate within our
subconscious mind, impactingour present and future reality.
That is why integration andwholeness are essential to
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healing oneself.
Forgive those who contributedto the need for the wall,
without condemning the harm.
Listen to or read the episodehow to Forgive the Unforgivable.
Forgiveness is the spiritualsledgehammer that softens the
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mortar between the bricks.
The mortar between the bricksand the last one is grace.
Grace allows us to surrendercontrol and allow divine timing
to lead.
This has been my saving gracefor over 30 years.
Learning to release all controland surrender to an invisible
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higher power can be terrifying,yet each time I have done so,
miracles have happened.
Grace holds us when we're tooafraid to move and guides us
when we're finally ready to open.
Learn to call upon grace anddivine intervention, ask for
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their support and guidance.
Through grace, we are remindedthat healing doesn't need to be
perfect.
It only needs to be honest.
Now I need to be transparenthere.
Many of us believe our own lies.
We deny the truth because weare trying to avoid shame, guilt
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and all those negative thoughtpatterns and emotions stuck in
3D human consciousness.
So we avoid it at all cost.
Yet when it comes toself-transformation and
liberation, we must face ourdemons, the parts of us stuck in
the shadows.
Some call it shadow work.
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So let me share a story, and Ishould give a trigger warning,
because it entails child abuse.
When I started to do EMDR traumatherapy, I quickly learned that
there was a part of me that wasscared of me and scared for me
to know what happened to us whenwe were between four and six
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years of age, all I could seewas darkness and these two sad,
glowing eyes looking back at me.
She had so much shame, guilt,heartache and disbelief.
As I peeled away the layers andwalls, I got to the main memory
that played repeatedly for over40 years.
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It was a complete shock to mysystem, because that is when I
saw my death.
Yep, I died when I was four anda half years old at the hands
of my older brother.
It was terrifying and confusing.
I thought I was imaginingthings, but I was not.
As the memory unfolded, Ilearned the who, what, where and
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why.
But our creator sent me backbecause I had a purpose here on
earth and it was just a selfishgift that I discovered during a
Life Between Lives session, whenall the hidden memories were
unraveled.
It tore me apart.
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I felt broken inside and couldnot believe a person we would
call a parent or family membercould abuse a child in the
manner I was abused.
That is when everything startedto make sense.
The cruelty, anger, hatred andabuse I survived were locked
away for a good reason, so Icould survive, but something
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inside of me wanted answers andwanted to heal.
Deep down inside.
I longed to be whole again andthis part stuck in the shadows
needed me.
I could no longer ignore it orlock it back up.
I had to be a mature adult,love myself enough to face my
painful past, be willing tolearn the lessons and purpose
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for those walls and transform mylife for the greater good of
the whole of me.
There is that saying whatdoesn't kill you makes you
stronger.
I am a warrior of love becauseeverything I do comes from that
place of unconditional love.
Now I share the wisdom I havelearned with you.
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There's this really cool imagethat I do have on the blog post
that I want to just read what itsays Buddhists are not aiming
for a heaven.
Buddhists do not believe in Godas the almighty decider.
Buddhists believe that it isyour mind that decides
everything.
So actually in Buddhism, youare your own master, and the
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whole teachings in Buddhism isreally how to master that
mastership.
That's what Master of the UpperRooms is all about.
Now you know me.
I'm going to shift gears hereand share two metaphor stories
about our walls.
Here's the first one the castle, the queen and her walls.
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Once upon a time, a queen ruleda great kingdom.
Long ago, enemies stormed hergates, took what was sacred and
left her heart shattered.
In the aftermath, she orderedthe construction of a mighty
stone wall around her castle,high, thick and impenetrable.
No one could get in.
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The walls kept her safe,keeping danger out, but it also
kept out joy, love, touch andsong.
Over time.
No one could reach her, not thekind villagers, wild roses or
starlight.
She told herself I am safe, butshe was not free.
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Years passed, the enemies neverreturned.
The world outside changed, butthe queen did not.
She walked her empty halls insilence, believing solitude was
strength, until one day sheheard a child laughing beyond
the wall, free, full of wonder,joy and excitement.
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The sound stirred somethingancient and almost forgotten
inside her.
The sound stirred somethingancient and almost forgotten
inside her, something soft,tender and alive, just waiting
to be set free again.
She climbed the tallest towerand looked down at the stone
barriers she had built, and shewhispered, not to anyone but
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herself what if the wall is nolonger saving me?
What if it's silencing me?
With trembling hands and royalcourage, she descended from her
tower, approached the walls andremoved one single stone, just
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one, but it was enough.
A breeze kissed her cheek.
The scent of lilacs found herand with it the memory of a time
before the fortress, when shehad ruled not from fear but from
love.
She did not tear down the wholewall on one day, but every
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stone she removed became aprayer one day.
But every stone she removedbecame a prayer, a return and a
liberation In a blink of an eye.
She remembered she was nevermeant to live behind the wall.
She was meant to rise beyond it.
Love that one.
Now here's the next one theGarden, the Fence of Forgotten
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Growth.
Here's the next one the Garden,the Fence of Forgotten Growth.
In a quiet meadow stood a lush,hidden garden.
It was once wild and full ofwonder, planted by a child who
dreamed with stars in her eyes.
The garden grew with laughter,secrets whispered to bees and
barefoot dances under moonlight.
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But then came a storm, one ofthose life storms that tear
things apart before you're oldenough to understand why.
So the child built a fence, notto punish the world but to
protect the garden.
She told herself.
Nothing will harm what I loveagain.
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The fence stood firm and for atime it was good.
But seasons passed, year afteryear, the child grew and the
world waited.
Yet the garden stayed sealedInside, the various flowers
began to wilt from lack ofsunlight, the soil dried, the
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butterflies stopped coming andstill the grown woman now walked
.
The garden path would not openthe gate.
She had forgotten how.
One morning she noticedsomething new.
A rebellious and alive vine hadcrept over the fence, blooming
with vibrant gold petals.
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As she drew closer, she couldsmell the perfume, scent and the
magic within this rebelliousvine.
She saw the willpower andcourage it had within to reach
the blue sky above.
The garden was trying to expandbeyond its boundaries.
Instead of slowly witheringaway, the garden wanted to live.
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It was tired of being trappedbehind this old, outdated fence.
All this wisdom and truthflooded her consciousness.
She placed her hand on the oldgate and felt the ache of time.
How much had been lost, not tocruelty but to fear.
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And then she heard the wordsrise from within her this fence
protected me when I was small,but now it only shrinks what
wants to grow.
She opened the gate and itcreaked like a soul, remembering
how to sing.
In came the rays of sunlight,as gentle as a feather, the
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breeze and the scent of freshflowers came in In divine timing
.
In came people who knew how towalk gently.
Then, as her heart swelled withgratitude, in came laughter
hers this time and the gate, oh,the garden, began to breathe
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again.
So I created this closing heartand embodiment practice.
We can all do right now.
Take a moment, wherever you are,to let the stories settle, let
the castle, the garden, findtheir echoes within you.
Close your eyes, if you're able, place a hand over your heart,
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maybe even both.
Let yourself ask gently,honestly where have I built
walls around myself?
Where have I kept out what I nolonger, what I now long to let
in?
Like?
What am I keeping out that Ilong to let in?
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What Is it time to open thegate, to remove just one stone?
No judgment, no rush, justawareness.
This is sacred work, brave work.
Now take in a deep breath, letit fill not just your lungs but
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the locked rooms inside of you,and as you exhale, release one
once ounce of protection.
Just release just an ounce ofprotection you no longer need.
Just breathe it out.
You don't have to tear downyour walls all at once, remember
, dear one.
You have to meet them with love.
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Your walls, the wall, was builtout of love, to protect you and
keep you safe.
So say thank you, thank you,thank you, as if you were saying
goodbye to an old, belovedfriend.
You part in love, compassion,forgiveness and grace.
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There is an affirmation toanchor in.
If you like, you can repeatthis silently out loud, or just
listen.
I honor the walls I built tosurvive.
I choose now to live, not justto protect.
With courage and compassion, Ilet light in Within my heart and
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soul.
I am safe to expand.
Now is the time to permitmyself to explore my world and
environment.
It is time I am safe to love.
My heart and soul say to me Iam free to grow.
(37:45):
Final words there is no shamein having built walls.
I'm the master of walls and mywalls have been my excellent
teacher who inspired this blogpost and podcast.
But there is a profoundliberation in realizing you no
longer need them.
(38:05):
That is why I have created aguided meditation that's going
to be called Dismantling theWalls we Build.
The style is gentle,heart-opening and
trauma-informed.
So, whether you're in the tower, at the garden gate or holding
the first brick in your hand,you are not alone.
(38:27):
You are already healing.
You are already healing andlove love is already on the
other side, waiting for you toopen the way until next time and
love and light.
Angela Meyer, carrie Logan bye.
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