August 23, 2024 • 43 mins
Losing a sister to cancer at 19 is a profound and life-altering experience, one that our guest bravely shares in this heartfelt episode. Through vivid recollections, we journey with them through the sacred final moments of their sister's life, the spiritual encounter that followed her passing, and the intricate dynamics of a family grappling with loss. Witness the mother's serene acceptance juxtaposed with the father's battle with alcoholism and violence, painting a complex picture of grief and familial relationships. This poignant narrative underscores the necessity of expressing sorrow and finding peace in the deepest of sorrows.
Have you ever wondered what lies beyond the golden portal of light often described in near-death experiences? Our guest offers an intimate account of their own near-death experience, which drastically altered their views on mortality and the continuum of consciousness. From a hospital bed to the ethereal realms and back, this experience not only brought a sense of fearlessness about death but also highlighted the eternal bond of love. These insights have been transformative in their professional life, deeply influencing their work in hospice and Alzheimer's care, and leading them to embrace shamanic healing practices.
Healing from profound grief and loss requires more than just time; it requires spiritual guidance and self-empowerment. This episode offers practical techniques for processing sorrow, such as visualization practices with golden and violet light, and introduces you to teachings from spiritual entities like White Buffalo and Rainbow Woman. We also discuss the healing power of storytelling and the crucial role of joy in elevating our spiritual and physical well-being. By learning to embrace joy, even in the face of darkness, we can find wholeness and growth, making this journey not just about surviving, but truly thriving.
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John Moir (00:00):
So I'm looking at early grief.
I want to know what your griefstory is.
Elisha Gabriell (00:03):
I was 19 years old.
I was living on the land inSanta Fe with a group of other
people.
We were all living in tents inSanta Fe.
My sister had been fightingcancer and going to doctor's
appointments for two years.
They were trying differentthings that didn't work.
Occasionally I would go homeand be with my family for a
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while and then I'd go back toSanta Fe again and my mom called
and said the doctors say thetime is coming very soon.
She is asking for you if youcould come home and be with her.
So I flew home and she was inour house, not the hospital.
Her bedroom was upstairs nextto mine and she was now bedbound
(00:52):
.
We had talked a lot about deathand spirituality.
She was not a spiritual personbut because I'm who I am, that's
where our conversations wentover the years and I would talk
to her about spiritual life anddeath and what she might expect,
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and she was fine with that.
On Christmas morning she passed.
My mom was sitting next to her.
We knew that the end was comingvery soon.
We were downstairs havingbreakfast and my mom came down
and said she just passed.
And my mom said she just openedher eyes.
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She hadn't opened her eyes forat least a day and a half.
She opened her eyes, looked atthe foot of her bed and smiled,
with her eyes sparkling atsomeone we couldn't see, and I
could feel the energy in theroom.
It was an intensely sacredmoment.
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I could feel the angels around.
It was a very sacred moment.
I thought she's just passed bythe way my parents had
programmed me and the culturehad programmed me my entire life
that death was the worst thingthat could happen to you.
You might get injured, but atleast you didn't die, at least
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you didn't leave your body andpass in the spirit.
And so I had that belief.
So I went.
You know what?
I'm going to go into meditationand pull my the spirit.
And so I had that belief.
So I went.
You know what I'm going to gointo meditation and pull my
sister back.
I'm going to save my sister.
I went down into my parents'bedroom and sat in easy pose,
legs crossed.
I went into meditation and Isaw her leaving in a flowing
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upward motion with a being oflight that seemed to be feminine
.
It could have been an angel.
There were no wings and manytimes angels don't show up with
wings but it was a being oflight that was feminine and
holding her in a light embraceas they went up the light.
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And I reached up mentally andgrabbed the hold of her ankles
to pull her back, because I wasgoing to save my sister, I
wasn't going to let death takemy sister.
And she looked down at me withher eyes sparkling with love and
said no, I want to go, and Iwent.
And she said, no, I want to goand I went.
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What?
My whole world was rocked here.
I am trying to save you and youwant to go.
And she said, yes, I want to go.
So I said okay, I accept that.
I put my hands together at myheart.
I'm going to likely tear up,but gosh darn it.
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I sang a song to her and if Ising it I'm going to break down
crying.
But I'll tell you the words andyou may have heard it.
It was from the yogaorganization that I was a part
of and it was May the long timesun shine upon you all love
surround you and the pure lightwithin you guide your way on,
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guide your way on, guide yourway on.
And I let go of her because Iknew that it was what her soul
was calling her to.
I knew her soul was calling herhome and I let go of her.
I went back to Santa Fe andthere is when I broke down and
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cried in my bed and just criedliterally on and off for hours
because I knew it wasn'tconstructive to repress feelings
and so I just let it out andcried for hours, actually even
manifested a sickness it waslike having the flu where I just
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felt sick and I know that wasmy spirit, the human part of me
grieving.
The higher part of mecompletely accepted that she had
moved into higher realms ofbeauty that we can't even
imagine, of love that is sopalpable and is 24-7.
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I know they don't have hoursthere, but it is eternal.
The love that you feel in thoserealms is intense and it is
palpable.
That you feel in those realmsis intense and it is palpable
and I was happy that she washaving that experience.
But the human part of me stillhad to grieve, so I think I only
cried that one time and Iprobably cried for two or three
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hours straight.
My mom believed she had gonesomewhere filled with love and
she was done with her suffering.
She was done with being in abed, done with hospitals and
doctors, and she was free.
John Moir (05:50):
I don't know about my dad.
Elisha Gabriell (05:52):
He never talked about it Shortly after that my
mom and dad parted ways.
My dad moved to Mexico andlived the rest of his life there
, had a very lovely passing inthe spirit.
My mom passed when she was 85or 86.
I can't quite remember, butthat was probably about five or
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six years ago.
I was happy for my mom that shecould be with my sister, if
that's what she chose.
John Moir (06:21):
But there's still a grieving when we lose our
parents or we're close to, isn'tthere?
Elisha Gabriell (06:28):
My father was a violent alcoholic.
He was in very intense Scorpio.
He'd go into rage with hisanger and he would beat us for
things that he did.
I had two sisters and he wouldknock things over in the night
when he drank.
He would spill things on thecarpets and then blame us
because he didn't remember doingit.
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He truly did not remember doingit, and because we wouldn't
admit to it he would beat us.
He would beat us, he would beatmy sisters until they started
crying and that to him showedsubmission.
So once they started crying andthat to him showed submission.
So once they started crying, hewould stop beating him.
But being the rebel in thefamily, I tuned into that and I
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went aha, he wants us to showsubmission, so I would never cry
.
I learned not to cry, to holdmy tears in, and I kept that for
the rest of my life.
When my baby died, it took melike a year and a half to cry
because I had trained myself tohold the tears back.
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It was a sign of submitting tosomeone that wanted to hurt.
John Moir (07:41):
Was it your first child?
Elisha Gabriell (07:42):
wanted to hurt.
Was it your first child?
No, she was my third.
My first child was my son.
Then I had my daughter.
She died of crib death at threeand a half months.
Then I had my next two sons.
After that, when she passed, Iwas what's the word?
I had become so much of myhigher self that I didn't cry
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when she passed, but Iunderstood that her soul was
immediately she's left.
I found her little clay body.
We had gone downstairs tomeditate and I had just nursed
her and laid her down on thesheepskin in the bedroom and
wrapped her with light blankets,as we always did back then I
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wrapped her and laid her down onthe sheepskin and we went down
for morning meditation and cameback two hours later and I went
to pick her up and I knew justfrom looking at her that she had
passed.
I was like looking at a dolllaying there, a living baby.
Her color was gone and she hadgone quick because her color was
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gray.
She literally was like a claydoll and I knew she had passed.
And there was a little bit ofliquid coming out of her mouth
and stuck to the sheepskin,which I think was the milk that
I had just nursed her.
So we picked her up and went tothe emergency room just in case
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and they said no, she is gone.
They wanted to do an autopsybecause I was not crying and
hysterical.
I'm a yogi, I can control myemotions most of the time and I
know when it's appropriate tolet them out and not let them
out.
And I wasn't going to cry inthe medical office.
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I would wait till I got home.
And then I got home and again,for me, death is such a
beautiful passing into a sacredrealm and that feeling of the
sacred was so intense around meand I knew that her soul had
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chosen to go home and to onlylet me have her for three and a
half months.
I was very angry at her soulthat she did that.
I felt like she tricked me.
I had beautiful little babyclothes for a little baby girl.
My breasts were full.
Bill felt mad at her soul thatshe had made that decision to go
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back into spirit.
Three and a half months.
I carried that anger for a verylong time.
I carried that anger for yearsbecause I didn't understand why
she would do that.
Finally, after about four orfive years, I came to the
conclusion.
I don't know why she did that.
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I probably won't in thislifetime, but I'm not going to
carry this anger because it justhurts me and it lowers my
frequency.
So I said to her in spirit Idon't know what your reasons for
doing that were, but whateverthey were, I knew they were good
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reasons.
Reasons they were chosenthrough spirit, through higher
consciousness.
They were chosen for me to growin my own way and to learn to
accept that death is a naturalpart of life.
And yet our culture views it asbeing the worst thing that could
ever happen to you.
And yet it's going to happen toevery single one of us.
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So maybe we need to change ourcultural expectations and I see
it happening already.
That was years ago, 30 yearsago, when there was a different.
That thing that death is theworst thing that could ever
happen to you was very prevalent.
Gradually, humanity has openedup and awakened.
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The culture has changedsomewhat it certainly isn't
accepting it 100% and there isstill that old paradigm that we
are moving away from andawakening to the deeper meanings
of the things that happen inour lives.
At that time, there was stillthe paradigm that death is the
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worst thing that could happen toyou.
I see society changing and Isee people having life
celebrations instead of the wordfuneral it's not even being
used as much as it was.
Word funeral it's not evenbeing used as much as it was.
My husband died and you'reinvited to the life celebration
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on August and then they havemoving pictures of him that they
had stored and it's a happiertime, while everybody is still
hugging each other.
They're tears of both joy andthey're tears of grieving.
At the same time, lifecelebrations are becoming much
more normal than they were whenI lost my sister and when I lost
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my baby.
John Moir (12:54):
In Weller's book the Wild Edge of Sorrow.
He talks about everything thatwe love we're going to lose,
whereas the general trend isthat everything I love, I'm
going to keep and, as you said,no, we're going to lose it.
And the sooner that we realizethat everything we love the job,
the car, the house is all goingto go, and then our dear loved
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ones, and eventually we'll belosing our own life here on this
planet the idea is that knowingyou're going to lose something
allows you to love it moredeeply and have greater
compassion and deeper capacityto love deeply.
You had a near-death experiencein 2018 that shaped your
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understanding of grief in thisritual journey that follows a
profound loss.
Can you want to unpack that alittle bit for us?
That?
Elisha Gabriell (13:45):
follows a profound loss, and you want to
unpack that a little bit for us.
I was having so much pain in mypelvic area.
I found out that I had aprolapsed uterus and the pain
got worse.
And it got worse and peoplewere commenting on it.
You don't look too good at work.
I went okay, I have to schedulesurgery.
I was hoping I could heal itnaturally, but that's not
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happening.
Okay, I have to schedulesurgery.
I was hoping I could heal itnaturally, but that's not
happening, so I have to schedulesurgery.
They put it off and put it offand put it off for so long I was
just absolutely miserable inphysical pain.
Finally, the day came when Icould have the surgery and I was
so happy that I was finallygoing to be out of pain and
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everybody in the hospital wasreally nice, and so I was in
recovery, hooked up to tubescoming out of the back of my
hands and everywhere they couldthink was a tube coming out of
it, and I had gone throughrecovery and now I was in my
hospital room where I would domost of the recovery really, and
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still hooked up to tubes, and Iwas lying there on the hospital
bed.
It was in a private room Idon't know why, probably they
didn't have anybody else to putin there but I was lying there
feeling very peaceful, on myback, arms down by my sides.
I was lying there on my backjust feeling deeply peaceful,
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and more and more deeplypeaceful by the second, and then
I noticed that my breathing wasbecoming longer, a longer
period between the breaths, andagain a little bit longer
between the breaths, again alittle bit longer between the
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breaths, and I said to myselfthis breathing is becoming
something I don't want to haveto focus on doing.
I'm happy, I'm good, I'm deeplypeaceful, I don't need to
breathe and I don't want tobreathe.
And in that very second I wasstanding in front of a golden
portal, and a golden portal ofgolden light that was just
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pouring forward to me, and Icould see beings in there.
There were probably four, maybefive, another person in the way
back, but they were beings thatwere made out of the golden
light and every one of them wasa shape that had a human shape,
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but not that I could see clothesor faces or anything like that,
and they were waiting for meand I knew they were waiting for
me, and one of them from thegroup came forward on the left
side to meet me and to welcomeme, and at that moment I knew
that it was my choice to go, orit was my choice to come back
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and to be able to give mymessages to the world through my
business.
And at that time I said tomyself I don't think I want to
go in.
And immediately, in that splitsecond, I was back in my
hospital bed with a nursebending over my belly and my
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chest, yelling breathe, becauseI think she saw my eyes flicker
when I came back into my body.
And so I did.
I took a breath and then Iresumed normal recovery in that
hospital bed.
And later they brought in amachine that was about three
foot tall and looked like R2-D2.
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It was just shaped like a dome,put it next to my bed, hooked
me up to my brain, hooked myfingertips up to it, and a
technician sat next to it forabout 40 minutes reading the
different things, and I knewthat my heart had stopped when I
said I don't want to breathe.
I don't need to breathe.
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In that time my heart stoppedand then I was instantly in
front of the golden portal oflight, and so they kept me an
extra two days in the hospitalto make sure my heart was
operating okay and it was backto completely fully functioning
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within hours.
He couldn't find a thing wrongwith my heart and I knew that I
had chosen to have thatexperience and I knew that I
literally could have gone if Iwanted to, but I chose not to
and I didn't think about itagain.
All I wanted to do is go home.
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I want to get out of here, Iwant to go home.
And so the next day they saidokay, we're going to release you
.
So I was walking in the halls toget my balance back and to feel
like I could walk, and becauseI still had the hysterectomy and
was in a lot of pain fromsurgery, and I walked up to the
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nurse's station with my purseand I said my son's coming to
get me.
Can I go down to the frontentrance and wait for him so he
doesn't have to come up here?
And there were three nurses inthere and the one nurse said
that's the miracle woman.
And the other nurse said oh, isit?
And they both looked at me andthe other nurse replied she's
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not a miracle woman, she's amiracle being.
And I thought what are theytalking about?
They must be talking about whenmy heart stopped, but it didn't
occur to me to ask them whatare they talking about?
They must be talking about whenmy heart stopped, but it didn't
occur to me to ask them whatare you talking about?
I just wanted to hear can I go,can I get out of here?
And she said no, we'll get awheelchair for you and we'll
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take you down to the front.
And so they did.
And the next day is when Iremembered it and the memory
came all flooding back and Iwent oh my gosh, I had a
near-death experience.
I called my son and over thephone I was driving and I said
do you want to hear mynear-death experience I had?
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He said oh, mom, what?
What do you mean?
What do you mean?
You had a near-death experience.
So I told him and he just wentwhoa, you could have died.
I went yeah, I could have, andit would have been a joyful
experience.
I would have been home in therealms of light, in the realms
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of golden light.
That's my soul, family that Isaid no to.
And then later, as timeunfolded, I knew that they
already knew I was going to sayno, and that's why I didn't see
them with any kind of clothes,or I didn't see their bodies in
detail.
All I saw was a human shape,just radiating.
John Moir (20:53):
With regards to grief , how did that affect your
understanding of grief?
I get just to listen to yourstory and I can imagine how it
affects your spiritual journeythat follows such a profound
loss, because you've been thereand seen that.
You know it wasn't made up.
There's a difference betweenmaking a story and having an
experience.
Elisha Gabriell (21:13):
Yep, good experience and I had so many
people tell me about theirnear-death experiences, which is
why I decided to put thispresentation together Journey of
Life, because and then I wasable to share the basic of that
with my hospice clients, becausethe 30 years I've been doing
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Alzheimer's care, a lot of thatwas hospice, a lot of it wasn't
Maybe 30% hospice out of 70% ofpeople and I could help them
from a place of knowing thatthis isn't a journey of light.
You have a dense frequency hereand as you pass into light,
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that light grows stronger andstronger and the feeling of love
grows stronger and stronger andtakes over your entire
consciousness.
So death is a transition fromdense frequency and doing your
best in every moment and beingto be the best person you can in
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every moment to becoming alight being that has known love
that you can never imagine theamount of love that is there
when you're here in 3D reality.
So that took my fear of deathcompletely away.
I didn't really have much tobegin with, but no grief within
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that context at all.
I had a small experience when Iwas here.
When I was here, maybe 10months ago, I was so filled with
love and walked into my kitchenand just every single thing I
looked at, love poured out frommy heart.
For what I was looking at, Iimmediately came the response
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everything that you have lovewill greet you when you pass.
Everything that you have lovedwill greet you when you pass.
And that they meant everything.
They meant the trees in yourbackyard that you have really
sincerely loved will.
A sense of that love will bethere when you pass.
And because I was picturing mepassing into spirit and my
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little toaster sitting therejumping up and down with joy,
that I had asked and could bewith some and I went no, it's
not that, it's your toasterthat's going to be sitting there
, but the love that you had forthat toaster will come back to
you, exactly as you lovedeverything.
It will come back to you and itwill be there waiting for you
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when you pass.
John Moir (23:56):
I just want to talk a little bit now about your
shamanic healing practices.
I'm wondering what drew you toshamanism to begin with?
Elisha Gabriell (24:06):
I remember three where I was a Native
American, one, where I was aMexican healer, one where I was
a man in Mexico and the earthwas very red wherever that was.
I don't know the geography ofMexico real well, but somebody
told me oh, that's the so-and-soregion and that's what I
believe.
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I carried it into this.
I knew I was a healer from thetime I was 19 and my sister was
dying from cancer and I would.
When she was in the hospital, Iwould put my hands over where
it hurt and the pain would goaway.
And the only problem I foundwith that is I couldn't stand
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there with my hands over herforever and my arms would get
tired after 10 minutes and Ididn't know what to do about
that.
But it was because I didn'tknow what to do that.
But it was because I didn'tknow what to do.
I had to accept it and I had toaccept that.
I took her physical.
I helped her pass with much,much less physical pain than she
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would have if I hadn't donethat, Because I was in a yoga
organization that taughteverybody is a healer.
Just have to believe it and 17years old, I was doing healings
on people and continued doingthat and shifted that hands-on
thing to help people to healthemselves by releasing the
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limiting beliefs and by movinginto that place of the divine I
am.
I am perfect, I am whole, I ammagnificent, and that's what I
do now is help people to acceptthat and teach them how to heal
themselves.
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And I lead them through asimple process.
John Moir (25:55):
Yeah.
Elisha Gabriell (25:55):
I had spirit teachers appear to me teach me
the healing because they alreadyknew that I knew I was a healer
.
But my first book, whiteBuffalo and the Rainbow Warrior,
details all the spirit beingsthat came to me in meditation
and took me places and taught methings about life and sacred
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earth awareness and um had a.
Well, that was my first teacherwas white buffalo and um
brought other teachers in spiritof the hawk and old coyote
woman and um rainbow woman cameto me and talked to me about the
color frequencies and thefrequencies of the rainbow that
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get faster and faster as theystart out slow with the red and
move up through the rainbow andby the time you get up to purple
it's a very fast and highfrequency.
John Moir (26:48):
All right.
So the non-traditional teachers, while receiving manic patients
, were through it teachers whilereceiving manic patients were,
through it, the um role of agrief and spiritual
transformations.
Uh, how do you guide others whoare grieving to find meaning?
Elisha Gabriell (27:05):
I teach them transformation through and I
just speak as a friend like apractice play.
Your has now entered a beautythat we can barely wrap our
minds around it, and it is alsohuman to grieve.
So let yourself allow yourselfto cry, allow yourself to grieve
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the loss that has a physicalbeing and presence in your life.
You have lost the physicalpresence of that person and it's
natural and normal to noticethat loss and to feel sad about
it.
So let yourself grieve that.
One of the ways that they'reshowing me right now is allowing
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the grieving through the giftof water.
You can imagine and this is whatI do at the day when I'm with a
client I'll stand under awaterfall of golden light and
I'll just lead you through itreally, really quickly.
I have a certain place in myhouse that I stand and I go.
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Stand under that and I intendto have a beautiful golden
shower of light that cleansesevery cell of my body and takes
away the dense energy, becausegrieving and sorrow are a lower
frequency energy.
There is something that we wantto transform not transform but
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to release and so imagine beingunder a golden shower of rain, a
rain of beautiful golden light,and then let violet light into
that slowly until it justbecomes pure, radiant, powerful
violet light that completelyengulfs you and comes down from
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the heavens and runs downthrough your legs and your feet
into the heart of the earthmother and is then transformed
back into golden light that canboth heal the earth mother and
that she can use for whateverpurposes she has that can be to
enlighten.
John Moir (29:18):
How do you help people who cannot visualize to
create this in their mind side?
Elisha Gabriell (29:24):
Well, I just talk to them because they think
something horrible has happenedto their loved ones.
So my job is to show them thatthere is more beauty in the
spirit realms than we can everimagine here.
And I do that by telling otherstories of other people.
I tell them my stories of myexperiences.
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And that way, like you say,people learn differently, but
everybody learns through stories.
That's why we watch somethingon YouTube and we're transfixed
by it and we think we can do ittoo, because we're hearing of
someone else's experience,someone else's story.
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So that's my main.
Storytelling is my main way oflifting them, taking them out of
the dense darkness and liftingthem up to their own heart
center and helping them toawaken their heart center again.
And within the heart you canfind joy.
So, joy is the frequency thatyou want to get into when you
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can.
And if that's impossible foryou right away, then you find
the next upgraded thought andyou focus on that and you let
yourself become that.
You let that energy frequencyfill you.
When you're in another place,you raise it up.
Another frequency.
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You don't have to go from hereto here, you just take it one I
like the words baby steps andyou heal in baby steps.
You're back on track with yourlife and then some little thing
triggers you and that wave fromthe ocean comes pouring in over
you again and you feel thatgrief anew.
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But usually it's a lessfrequency if you've done the
work on yourself and if yourealize that, yes, it's very
normal and natural to grieve thephysical presence of someone,
of being close to the heart ofsomeone.
But you can also talk to aperson after they've left their
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body.
If there's grief that you havebecause you never got to say
goodbye, you never made it tothe hospital in time.
They know that in the higher,they already know that.
But it can help you to expressthat to them.
You can imagine them sitting ina chair in your kitchen and
you're talking to them.
You can imagine them just in alittle bit higher frequency than
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you are right now and they'relistening to you.
They are there and express yoursadness, express that you
forgive them for what they didand that you forgive your part
in it as well, because everydance takes a back and forth
between two people.
John Moir (32:20):
So, Alicia, what about people who express their
grief in a more traditional way,in a sense of how they express
their grief?
I'm thinking of those ones thatare deep grievers, whose pain
is tremendous?
I would always say stay withyou, because there's still part
of the journey that one needs tocomplete which is going even
deeper into that dark place.
That is where ourtransformations begin.
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So everybody's going to ask howdo I get out of that place?
I don't understand light andfrequencies and so on.
What's your response?
Elisha Gabriell (32:52):
Yeah, within the darkest, dark is a spark of
light.
Quantum physicists right noware just starting to work with a
concept that they call darklight in it, and sometimes you
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have to go down into that depthof darkness to find that spark
of light.
And if you go down deep intothat with the intention, you
have to set your intention.
Intention, whenever you'redoing any kind of work with
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yourself, is very important.
So to set the intention, youwill go into the deepest grief
that you ever felt before andwhen you find that spark of
light, just simply acknowledgeit.
Go on with your grievingprocess and do that whenever you
have the opportunity, when youare by yourself, when you have a
private moment and you can godeep within yourself because you
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need privacy, usually to gointo that level of darkness.
But always know that the darkcontains a spark of light and
you can use that to bring thehealing to yourself.
The next time you go down intothat deep well of darkness,
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remember that little spark wasthere waiting for you and you
can see that spark has grownjust a little bit because you've
healed yourself simply by goinginto the dark.
You are now finding the lightwithin your own being, within
your own heart and that lightwill always symbolize love For
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someone that is grieving thatdeeply they loved very deeply.
And so when you find that sparkof light within the grieving,
you are honoring your loved one,you are honoring the love that
you had between you.
You don't have to stay in adeep well of grief.
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You can come out little bit bylittle bit in that spark of love
that you remember and that youexperience with your loved one,
whether it was a baby, whetherit was your sister, whether it
was your life partner of 50years.
You can heal yourself throughlove, and love is really the
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only way of healing yourself, byallowing the light of love back
into your life and honoringthat within you, and that will
slowly raise your frequency, bitby bit, and you'll acknowledge
that, oh, I don't feel as bad asI did a month ago, but you will
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always carry that spark of lovewith you.
You will always honor thatwithin your heart.
John Moir (35:53):
We're just about out of time.
I'm really curious about yourwork as a heart alchemist and
joy facilitator.
I'm curious what do you mean bythat?
Elisha Gabriell (36:05):
Well, joy is one of the highest frequencies
of source that exists andbecause we have finite minds, we
try to like to understand thevast unlimitedness of source,
and I like to compare it to arainbow of the lower frequencies
at the bottom expanding intothe higher frequencies, of a
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faster moving frequency, ahigher and faster and finer
frequency of life, faster andfiner frequency of life, and
those same frequencies arecontained within the totality of
source.
There are lower frequenciesbecause source expresses
everything, god expresseseverything and God within
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everything.
Everything that exists is Godexpressing in form.
Everything that exists is Godexpressing in form.
And so again, I like to compareit to a divine white light
frequency.
We can't see with our humaneyes, but it still has those
same frequencies.
The lower frequencies express,the medium frequencies express
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and the higher frequenciesexpress.
Joy is like a band of lightwithin the higher frequencies of
God, within the higherfrequencies of the divine
creator, and joy is a very fastmoving frequency.
So we can use joy to speed upour own beings.
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The cells in our own bodyrespond and transform with the
frequency of joy, and that meansjoy is the fast track through
ascension.
Joy is the train you want to geton.
Animals express joy.
Cats lay in the sun.
We feel that presence of joy.
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A horse enjoys the feeling ofbeing physical.
The horse has that vibrant,strong, just that.
They run just to feel that joyof their physical presence and
what they are capable of doing.
Joy is the train you want to geton.
How do you do that?
Well, you focus on beauty allaround you.
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You focus, you stop and youlook at one flower outside of a
shop.
You look at the beauty of thatone broom and flowers express
joy and you can take that in.
I will stop so often, andespecially on my morning, so
I'll just end with remember lifeis meant to be lived with joy
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because we're human beings.
We also have frequencies and wecan go into those lower
frequencies and through those wecan, with our intention, we can
raise that frequency up andthat's how we grow.
We grow through going into thedarkness and coming back into
light with new solutions, newunderstandings of who we are and
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of the power we have to becomewhole and full.
So I'm looking at early grief.
I want to know what your griefstory is.
Elisha Gabriell (00:03):
I was 19 years old.
I was living on the land inSanta Fe with a group of other
people.
We were all living in tents inSanta Fe.
My sister had been fightingcancer and going to doctor's
appointments for two years.
They were trying differentthings that didn't work.
Occasionally I would go homeand be with my family for a
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while and then I'd go back toSanta Fe again and my mom called
and said the doctors say thetime is coming very soon.
She is asking for you if youcould come home and be with her.
So I flew home and she was inour house, not the hospital.
Her bedroom was upstairs nextto mine and she was now bedbound
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.
We had talked a lot about deathand spirituality.
She was not a spiritual personbut because I'm who I am, that's
where our conversations wentover the years and I would talk
to her about spiritual life anddeath and what she might expect,
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and she was fine with that.
On Christmas morning she passed.
My mom was sitting next to her.
We knew that the end was comingvery soon.
We were downstairs havingbreakfast and my mom came down
and said she just passed.
And my mom said she just openedher eyes.
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She hadn't opened her eyes forat least a day and a half.
She opened her eyes, looked atthe foot of her bed and smiled,
with her eyes sparkling atsomeone we couldn't see, and I
could feel the energy in theroom.
It was an intensely sacredmoment.
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I could feel the angels around.
It was a very sacred moment.
I thought she's just passed bythe way my parents had
programmed me and the culturehad programmed me my entire life
that death was the worst thingthat could happen to you.
You might get injured, but atleast you didn't die, at least
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you didn't leave your body andpass in the spirit.
And so I had that belief.
So I went.
You know what?
I'm going to go into meditationand pull my the spirit.
And so I had that belief.
So I went.
You know what I'm going to gointo meditation and pull my
sister back.
I'm going to save my sister.
I went down into my parents'bedroom and sat in easy pose,
legs crossed.
I went into meditation and Isaw her leaving in a flowing
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upward motion with a being oflight that seemed to be feminine
.
It could have been an angel.
There were no wings and manytimes angels don't show up with
wings but it was a being oflight that was feminine and
holding her in a light embraceas they went up the light.
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And I reached up mentally andgrabbed the hold of her ankles
to pull her back, because I wasgoing to save my sister, I
wasn't going to let death takemy sister.
And she looked down at me withher eyes sparkling with love and
said no, I want to go, and Iwent.
And she said, no, I want to goand I went.
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What?
My whole world was rocked here.
I am trying to save you and youwant to go.
And she said, yes, I want to go.
So I said okay, I accept that.
I put my hands together at myheart.
I'm going to likely tear up,but gosh darn it.
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I sang a song to her and if Ising it I'm going to break down
crying.
But I'll tell you the words andyou may have heard it.
It was from the yogaorganization that I was a part
of and it was May the long timesun shine upon you all love
surround you and the pure lightwithin you guide your way on,
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guide your way on, guide yourway on.
And I let go of her because Iknew that it was what her soul
was calling her to.
I knew her soul was calling herhome and I let go of her.
I went back to Santa Fe andthere is when I broke down and
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cried in my bed and just criedliterally on and off for hours
because I knew it wasn'tconstructive to repress feelings
and so I just let it out andcried for hours, actually even
manifested a sickness it waslike having the flu where I just
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felt sick and I know that wasmy spirit, the human part of me
grieving.
The higher part of mecompletely accepted that she had
moved into higher realms ofbeauty that we can't even
imagine, of love that is sopalpable and is 24-7.
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I know they don't have hoursthere, but it is eternal.
The love that you feel in thoserealms is intense and it is
palpable.
That you feel in those realmsis intense and it is palpable
and I was happy that she washaving that experience.
But the human part of me stillhad to grieve, so I think I only
cried that one time and Iprobably cried for two or three
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hours straight.
My mom believed she had gonesomewhere filled with love and
she was done with her suffering.
She was done with being in abed, done with hospitals and
doctors, and she was free.
John Moir (05:50):
I don't know about my dad.
Elisha Gabriell (05:52):
He never talked about it Shortly after that my
mom and dad parted ways.
My dad moved to Mexico andlived the rest of his life there
, had a very lovely passing inthe spirit.
My mom passed when she was 85or 86.
I can't quite remember, butthat was probably about five or
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six years ago.
I was happy for my mom that shecould be with my sister, if
that's what she chose.
John Moir (06:21):
But there's still a grieving when we lose our
parents or we're close to, isn'tthere?
Elisha Gabriell (06:28):
My father was a violent alcoholic.
He was in very intense Scorpio.
He'd go into rage with hisanger and he would beat us for
things that he did.
I had two sisters and he wouldknock things over in the night
when he drank.
He would spill things on thecarpets and then blame us
because he didn't remember doingit.
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He truly did not remember doingit, and because we wouldn't
admit to it he would beat us.
He would beat us, he would beatmy sisters until they started
crying and that to him showedsubmission.
So once they started crying andthat to him showed submission.
So once they started crying, hewould stop beating him.
But being the rebel in thefamily, I tuned into that and I
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went aha, he wants us to showsubmission, so I would never cry
.
I learned not to cry, to holdmy tears in, and I kept that for
the rest of my life.
When my baby died, it took melike a year and a half to cry
because I had trained myself tohold the tears back.
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It was a sign of submitting tosomeone that wanted to hurt.
John Moir (07:41):
Was it your first child?
Elisha Gabriell (07:42):
wanted to hurt.
Was it your first child?
No, she was my third.
My first child was my son.
Then I had my daughter.
She died of crib death at threeand a half months.
Then I had my next two sons.
After that, when she passed, Iwas what's the word?
I had become so much of myhigher self that I didn't cry
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when she passed, but Iunderstood that her soul was
immediately she's left.
I found her little clay body.
We had gone downstairs tomeditate and I had just nursed
her and laid her down on thesheepskin in the bedroom and
wrapped her with light blankets,as we always did back then I
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wrapped her and laid her down onthe sheepskin and we went down
for morning meditation and cameback two hours later and I went
to pick her up and I knew justfrom looking at her that she had
passed.
I was like looking at a dolllaying there, a living baby.
Her color was gone and she hadgone quick because her color was
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gray.
She literally was like a claydoll and I knew she had passed.
And there was a little bit ofliquid coming out of her mouth
and stuck to the sheepskin,which I think was the milk that
I had just nursed her.
So we picked her up and went tothe emergency room just in case
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and they said no, she is gone.
They wanted to do an autopsybecause I was not crying and
hysterical.
I'm a yogi, I can control myemotions most of the time and I
know when it's appropriate tolet them out and not let them
out.
And I wasn't going to cry inthe medical office.
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I would wait till I got home.
And then I got home and again,for me, death is such a
beautiful passing into a sacredrealm and that feeling of the
sacred was so intense around meand I knew that her soul had
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chosen to go home and to onlylet me have her for three and a
half months.
I was very angry at her soulthat she did that.
I felt like she tricked me.
I had beautiful little babyclothes for a little baby girl.
My breasts were full.
Bill felt mad at her soul thatshe had made that decision to go
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back into spirit.
Three and a half months.
I carried that anger for a verylong time.
I carried that anger for yearsbecause I didn't understand why
she would do that.
Finally, after about four orfive years, I came to the
conclusion.
I don't know why she did that.
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I probably won't in thislifetime, but I'm not going to
carry this anger because it justhurts me and it lowers my
frequency.
So I said to her in spirit Idon't know what your reasons for
doing that were, but whateverthey were, I knew they were good
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reasons.
Reasons they were chosenthrough spirit, through higher
consciousness.
They were chosen for me to growin my own way and to learn to
accept that death is a naturalpart of life.
And yet our culture views it asbeing the worst thing that could
ever happen to you.
And yet it's going to happen toevery single one of us.
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So maybe we need to change ourcultural expectations and I see
it happening already.
That was years ago, 30 yearsago, when there was a different.
That thing that death is theworst thing that could ever
happen to you was very prevalent.
Gradually, humanity has openedup and awakened.
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The culture has changedsomewhat it certainly isn't
accepting it 100% and there isstill that old paradigm that we
are moving away from andawakening to the deeper meanings
of the things that happen inour lives.
At that time, there was stillthe paradigm that death is the
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worst thing that could happen toyou.
I see society changing and Isee people having life
celebrations instead of the wordfuneral it's not even being
used as much as it was.
Word funeral it's not evenbeing used as much as it was.
My husband died and you'reinvited to the life celebration
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on August and then they havemoving pictures of him that they
had stored and it's a happiertime, while everybody is still
hugging each other.
They're tears of both joy andthey're tears of grieving.
At the same time, lifecelebrations are becoming much
more normal than they were whenI lost my sister and when I lost
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my baby.
John Moir (12:54):
In Weller's book the Wild Edge of Sorrow.
He talks about everything thatwe love we're going to lose,
whereas the general trend isthat everything I love, I'm
going to keep and, as you said,no, we're going to lose it.
And the sooner that we realizethat everything we love the job,
the car, the house is all goingto go, and then our dear loved
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ones, and eventually we'll belosing our own life here on this
planet the idea is that knowingyou're going to lose something
allows you to love it moredeeply and have greater
compassion and deeper capacityto love deeply.
You had a near-death experiencein 2018 that shaped your
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understanding of grief in thisritual journey that follows a
profound loss.
Can you want to unpack that alittle bit for us?
That?
Elisha Gabriell (13:45):
follows a profound loss, and you want to
unpack that a little bit for us.
I was having so much pain in mypelvic area.
I found out that I had aprolapsed uterus and the pain
got worse.
And it got worse and peoplewere commenting on it.
You don't look too good at work.
I went okay, I have to schedulesurgery.
I was hoping I could heal itnaturally, but that's not
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happening.
Okay, I have to schedulesurgery.
I was hoping I could heal itnaturally, but that's not
happening, so I have to schedulesurgery.
They put it off and put it offand put it off for so long I was
just absolutely miserable inphysical pain.
Finally, the day came when Icould have the surgery and I was
so happy that I was finallygoing to be out of pain and
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everybody in the hospital wasreally nice, and so I was in
recovery, hooked up to tubescoming out of the back of my
hands and everywhere they couldthink was a tube coming out of
it, and I had gone throughrecovery and now I was in my
hospital room where I would domost of the recovery really, and
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still hooked up to tubes, and Iwas lying there on the hospital
bed.
It was in a private room Idon't know why, probably they
didn't have anybody else to putin there but I was lying there
feeling very peaceful, on myback, arms down by my sides.
I was lying there on my backjust feeling deeply peaceful,
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and more and more deeplypeaceful by the second, and then
I noticed that my breathing wasbecoming longer, a longer
period between the breaths, andagain a little bit longer
between the breaths, again alittle bit longer between the
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breaths, and I said to myselfthis breathing is becoming
something I don't want to haveto focus on doing.
I'm happy, I'm good, I'm deeplypeaceful, I don't need to
breathe and I don't want tobreathe.
And in that very second I wasstanding in front of a golden
portal, and a golden portal ofgolden light that was just
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pouring forward to me, and Icould see beings in there.
There were probably four, maybefive, another person in the way
back, but they were beings thatwere made out of the golden
light and every one of them wasa shape that had a human shape,
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but not that I could see clothesor faces or anything like that,
and they were waiting for meand I knew they were waiting for
me, and one of them from thegroup came forward on the left
side to meet me and to welcomeme, and at that moment I knew
that it was my choice to go, orit was my choice to come back
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and to be able to give mymessages to the world through my
business.
And at that time I said tomyself I don't think I want to
go in.
And immediately, in that splitsecond, I was back in my
hospital bed with a nursebending over my belly and my
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chest, yelling breathe, becauseI think she saw my eyes flicker
when I came back into my body.
And so I did.
I took a breath and then Iresumed normal recovery in that
hospital bed.
And later they brought in amachine that was about three
foot tall and looked like R2-D2.
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It was just shaped like a dome,put it next to my bed, hooked
me up to my brain, hooked myfingertips up to it, and a
technician sat next to it forabout 40 minutes reading the
different things, and I knewthat my heart had stopped when I
said I don't want to breathe.
I don't need to breathe.
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In that time my heart stoppedand then I was instantly in
front of the golden portal oflight, and so they kept me an
extra two days in the hospitalto make sure my heart was
operating okay and it was backto completely fully functioning
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within hours.
He couldn't find a thing wrongwith my heart and I knew that I
had chosen to have thatexperience and I knew that I
literally could have gone if Iwanted to, but I chose not to
and I didn't think about itagain.
All I wanted to do is go home.
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I want to get out of here, Iwant to go home.
And so the next day they saidokay, we're going to release you
.
So I was walking in the halls toget my balance back and to feel
like I could walk, and becauseI still had the hysterectomy and
was in a lot of pain fromsurgery, and I walked up to the
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nurse's station with my purseand I said my son's coming to
get me.
Can I go down to the frontentrance and wait for him so he
doesn't have to come up here?
And there were three nurses inthere and the one nurse said
that's the miracle woman.
And the other nurse said oh, isit?
And they both looked at me andthe other nurse replied she's
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not a miracle woman, she's amiracle being.
And I thought what are theytalking about?
They must be talking about whenmy heart stopped, but it didn't
occur to me to ask them whatare they talking about?
They must be talking about whenmy heart stopped, but it didn't
occur to me to ask them whatare you talking about?
I just wanted to hear can I go,can I get out of here?
And she said no, we'll get awheelchair for you and we'll
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take you down to the front.
And so they did.
And the next day is when Iremembered it and the memory
came all flooding back and Iwent oh my gosh, I had a
near-death experience.
I called my son and over thephone I was driving and I said
do you want to hear mynear-death experience I had?
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He said oh, mom, what?
What do you mean?
What do you mean?
You had a near-death experience.
So I told him and he just wentwhoa, you could have died.
I went yeah, I could have, andit would have been a joyful
experience.
I would have been home in therealms of light, in the realms
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of golden light.
That's my soul, family that Isaid no to.
And then later, as timeunfolded, I knew that they
already knew I was going to sayno, and that's why I didn't see
them with any kind of clothes,or I didn't see their bodies in
detail.
All I saw was a human shape,just radiating.
John Moir (20:53):
With regards to grief , how did that affect your
understanding of grief?
I get just to listen to yourstory and I can imagine how it
affects your spiritual journeythat follows such a profound
loss, because you've been thereand seen that.
You know it wasn't made up.
There's a difference betweenmaking a story and having an
experience.
Elisha Gabriell (21:13):
Yep, good experience and I had so many
people tell me about theirnear-death experiences, which is
why I decided to put thispresentation together Journey of
Life, because and then I wasable to share the basic of that
with my hospice clients, becausethe 30 years I've been doing
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Alzheimer's care, a lot of thatwas hospice, a lot of it wasn't
Maybe 30% hospice out of 70% ofpeople and I could help them
from a place of knowing thatthis isn't a journey of light.
You have a dense frequency hereand as you pass into light,
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that light grows stronger andstronger and the feeling of love
grows stronger and stronger andtakes over your entire
consciousness.
So death is a transition fromdense frequency and doing your
best in every moment and beingto be the best person you can in
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every moment to becoming alight being that has known love
that you can never imagine theamount of love that is there
when you're here in 3D reality.
So that took my fear of deathcompletely away.
I didn't really have much tobegin with, but no grief within
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that context at all.
I had a small experience when Iwas here.
When I was here, maybe 10months ago, I was so filled with
love and walked into my kitchenand just every single thing I
looked at, love poured out frommy heart.
For what I was looking at, Iimmediately came the response
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everything that you have lovewill greet you when you pass.
Everything that you have lovedwill greet you when you pass.
And that they meant everything.
They meant the trees in yourbackyard that you have really
sincerely loved will.
A sense of that love will bethere when you pass.
And because I was picturing mepassing into spirit and my
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little toaster sitting therejumping up and down with joy,
that I had asked and could bewith some and I went no, it's
not that, it's your toasterthat's going to be sitting there
, but the love that you had forthat toaster will come back to
you, exactly as you lovedeverything.
It will come back to you and itwill be there waiting for you
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when you pass.
John Moir (23:56):
I just want to talk a little bit now about your
shamanic healing practices.
I'm wondering what drew you toshamanism to begin with?
Elisha Gabriell (24:06):
I remember three where I was a Native
American, one, where I was aMexican healer, one where I was
a man in Mexico and the earthwas very red wherever that was.
I don't know the geography ofMexico real well, but somebody
told me oh, that's the so-and-soregion and that's what I
believe.
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I carried it into this.
I knew I was a healer from thetime I was 19 and my sister was
dying from cancer and I would.
When she was in the hospital, Iwould put my hands over where
it hurt and the pain would goaway.
And the only problem I foundwith that is I couldn't stand
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there with my hands over herforever and my arms would get
tired after 10 minutes and Ididn't know what to do about
that.
But it was because I didn'tknow what to do that.
But it was because I didn'tknow what to do.
I had to accept it and I had toaccept that.
I took her physical.
I helped her pass with much,much less physical pain than she
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would have if I hadn't donethat, Because I was in a yoga
organization that taughteverybody is a healer.
Just have to believe it and 17years old, I was doing healings
on people and continued doingthat and shifted that hands-on
thing to help people to healthemselves by releasing the
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limiting beliefs and by movinginto that place of the divine I
am.
I am perfect, I am whole, I ammagnificent, and that's what I
do now is help people to acceptthat and teach them how to heal
themselves.
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And I lead them through asimple process.
John Moir (25:55):
Yeah.
Elisha Gabriell (25:55):
I had spirit teachers appear to me teach me
the healing because they alreadyknew that I knew I was a healer
.
But my first book, whiteBuffalo and the Rainbow Warrior,
details all the spirit beingsthat came to me in meditation
and took me places and taught methings about life and sacred
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earth awareness and um had a.
Well, that was my first teacherwas white buffalo and um
brought other teachers in spiritof the hawk and old coyote
woman and um rainbow woman cameto me and talked to me about the
color frequencies and thefrequencies of the rainbow that
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get faster and faster as theystart out slow with the red and
move up through the rainbow andby the time you get up to purple
it's a very fast and highfrequency.
John Moir (26:48):
All right.
So the non-traditional teachers, while receiving manic patients
, were through it teachers whilereceiving manic patients were,
through it, the um role of agrief and spiritual
transformations.
Uh, how do you guide others whoare grieving to find meaning?
Elisha Gabriell (27:05):
I teach them transformation through and I
just speak as a friend like apractice play.
Your has now entered a beautythat we can barely wrap our
minds around it, and it is alsohuman to grieve.
So let yourself allow yourselfto cry, allow yourself to grieve
(27:25):
the loss that has a physicalbeing and presence in your life.
You have lost the physicalpresence of that person and it's
natural and normal to noticethat loss and to feel sad about
it.
So let yourself grieve that.
One of the ways that they'reshowing me right now is allowing
(27:51):
the grieving through the giftof water.
You can imagine and this is whatI do at the day when I'm with a
client I'll stand under awaterfall of golden light and
I'll just lead you through itreally, really quickly.
I have a certain place in myhouse that I stand and I go.
(28:12):
Stand under that and I intendto have a beautiful golden
shower of light that cleansesevery cell of my body and takes
away the dense energy, becausegrieving and sorrow are a lower
frequency energy.
There is something that we wantto transform not transform but
(28:34):
to release and so imagine beingunder a golden shower of rain, a
rain of beautiful golden light,and then let violet light into
that slowly until it justbecomes pure, radiant, powerful
violet light that completelyengulfs you and comes down from
(28:58):
the heavens and runs downthrough your legs and your feet
into the heart of the earthmother and is then transformed
back into golden light that canboth heal the earth mother and
that she can use for whateverpurposes she has that can be to
enlighten.
John Moir (29:18):
How do you help people who cannot visualize to
create this in their mind side?
Elisha Gabriell (29:24):
Well, I just talk to them because they think
something horrible has happenedto their loved ones.
So my job is to show them thatthere is more beauty in the
spirit realms than we can everimagine here.
And I do that by telling otherstories of other people.
I tell them my stories of myexperiences.
(29:46):
And that way, like you say,people learn differently, but
everybody learns through stories.
That's why we watch somethingon YouTube and we're transfixed
by it and we think we can do ittoo, because we're hearing of
someone else's experience,someone else's story.
(30:07):
So that's my main.
Storytelling is my main way oflifting them, taking them out of
the dense darkness and liftingthem up to their own heart
center and helping them toawaken their heart center again.
And within the heart you canfind joy.
So, joy is the frequency thatyou want to get into when you
(30:33):
can.
And if that's impossible foryou right away, then you find
the next upgraded thought andyou focus on that and you let
yourself become that.
You let that energy frequencyfill you.
When you're in another place,you raise it up.
Another frequency.
(30:54):
You don't have to go from hereto here, you just take it one I
like the words baby steps andyou heal in baby steps.
You're back on track with yourlife and then some little thing
triggers you and that wave fromthe ocean comes pouring in over
you again and you feel thatgrief anew.
(31:15):
But usually it's a lessfrequency if you've done the
work on yourself and if yourealize that, yes, it's very
normal and natural to grieve thephysical presence of someone,
of being close to the heart ofsomeone.
But you can also talk to aperson after they've left their
(31:38):
body.
If there's grief that you havebecause you never got to say
goodbye, you never made it tothe hospital in time.
They know that in the higher,they already know that.
But it can help you to expressthat to them.
You can imagine them sitting ina chair in your kitchen and
you're talking to them.
You can imagine them just in alittle bit higher frequency than
(31:59):
you are right now and they'relistening to you.
They are there and express yoursadness, express that you
forgive them for what they didand that you forgive your part
in it as well, because everydance takes a back and forth
between two people.
John Moir (32:20):
So, Alicia, what about people who express their
grief in a more traditional way,in a sense of how they express
their grief?
I'm thinking of those ones thatare deep grievers, whose pain
is tremendous?
I would always say stay withyou, because there's still part
of the journey that one needs tocomplete which is going even
deeper into that dark place.
That is where ourtransformations begin.
(32:42):
So everybody's going to ask howdo I get out of that place?
I don't understand light andfrequencies and so on.
What's your response?
Elisha Gabriell (32:52):
Yeah, within the darkest, dark is a spark of
light.
Quantum physicists right noware just starting to work with a
concept that they call darklight in it, and sometimes you
(33:13):
have to go down into that depthof darkness to find that spark
of light.
And if you go down deep intothat with the intention, you
have to set your intention.
Intention, whenever you'redoing any kind of work with
(33:35):
yourself, is very important.
So to set the intention, youwill go into the deepest grief
that you ever felt before andwhen you find that spark of
light, just simply acknowledgeit.
Go on with your grievingprocess and do that whenever you
have the opportunity, when youare by yourself, when you have a
private moment and you can godeep within yourself because you
(33:59):
need privacy, usually to gointo that level of darkness.
But always know that the darkcontains a spark of light and
you can use that to bring thehealing to yourself.
The next time you go down intothat deep well of darkness,
(34:19):
remember that little spark wasthere waiting for you and you
can see that spark has grownjust a little bit because you've
healed yourself simply by goinginto the dark.
You are now finding the lightwithin your own being, within
your own heart and that lightwill always symbolize love For
(34:41):
someone that is grieving thatdeeply they loved very deeply.
And so when you find that sparkof light within the grieving,
you are honoring your loved one,you are honoring the love that
you had between you.
You don't have to stay in adeep well of grief.
(35:02):
You can come out little bit bylittle bit in that spark of love
that you remember and that youexperience with your loved one,
whether it was a baby, whetherit was your sister, whether it
was your life partner of 50years.
You can heal yourself throughlove, and love is really the
(35:24):
only way of healing yourself, byallowing the light of love back
into your life and honoringthat within you, and that will
slowly raise your frequency, bitby bit, and you'll acknowledge
that, oh, I don't feel as bad asI did a month ago, but you will
(35:47):
always carry that spark of lovewith you.
You will always honor thatwithin your heart.
John Moir (35:53):
We're just about out of time.
I'm really curious about yourwork as a heart alchemist and
joy facilitator.
I'm curious what do you mean bythat?
Elisha Gabriell (36:05):
Well, joy is one of the highest frequencies
of source that exists andbecause we have finite minds, we
try to like to understand thevast unlimitedness of source,
and I like to compare it to arainbow of the lower frequencies
at the bottom expanding intothe higher frequencies, of a
(36:29):
faster moving frequency, ahigher and faster and finer
frequency of life, faster andfiner frequency of life, and
those same frequencies arecontained within the totality of
source.
There are lower frequenciesbecause source expresses
everything, god expresseseverything and God within
(36:51):
everything.
Everything that exists is Godexpressing in form.
Everything that exists is Godexpressing in form.
And so again, I like to compareit to a divine white light
frequency.
We can't see with our humaneyes, but it still has those
same frequencies.
The lower frequencies express,the medium frequencies express
(37:11):
and the higher frequenciesexpress.
Joy is like a band of lightwithin the higher frequencies of
God, within the higherfrequencies of the divine
creator, and joy is a very fastmoving frequency.
So we can use joy to speed upour own beings.
(37:31):
The cells in our own bodyrespond and transform with the
frequency of joy, and that meansjoy is the fast track through
ascension.
Joy is the train you want to geton.
Animals express joy.
Cats lay in the sun.
We feel that presence of joy.
(37:54):
A horse enjoys the feeling ofbeing physical.
The horse has that vibrant,strong, just that.
They run just to feel that joyof their physical presence and
what they are capable of doing.
Joy is the train you want to geton.
How do you do that?
Well, you focus on beauty allaround you.
(38:15):
You focus, you stop and youlook at one flower outside of a
shop.
You look at the beauty of thatone broom and flowers express
joy and you can take that in.
I will stop so often, andespecially on my morning, so
I'll just end with remember lifeis meant to be lived with joy
(38:41):
because we're human beings.
We also have frequencies and wecan go into those lower
frequencies and through those wecan, with our intention, we can
raise that frequency up andthat's how we grow.
We grow through going into thedarkness and coming back into
light with new solutions, newunderstandings of who we are and
(39:05):
of the power we have to becomewhole and full.
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