June 4, 2024 • 29 mins
What happens when you step back from social media and prioritize your mental health? This episode is a raw and honest reflection on navigating 2021's rollercoaster of challenges and growth. I share my personal journey of overcoming the negativity that overwhelmed my digital interactions and turning towards a fitness regime that tested both my physical and emotional strength. This year, I learned to value self-improvement over financial gains and to embrace people for who they are in this digital age, setting the foundation for a more mindful and resilient 2022.
At the age of 21 or 22, I made a significant life decision to take a non-traditional path amidst financial and emotional hardships. From the unexpected breakdown of my car to turning to dancing for immediate funds, hyper-independence became my way to avoid burdening my parents while tackling loans for education and transportation. Despite facing criticism, I emphasize the importance of moving forward, investing in education, and questioning the motives of detractors who disagree with my choices.
As we transition into 2022, I delve into standing up for oneself amidst criticism, balancing authenticity in both personal and professional life, and protecting one’s own interests. I share my ongoing journey of challenging societal norms, embracing individuality, and recognizing the sleepless nights filled with possibilities. Grateful for my platform and growth, I candidly acknowledge my mistakes and learning experiences. I call for a focus on meaningful causes over trivial matters, urging listeners to prioritize genuine issues and commit to continuous self-improvement despite the criticisms that come our way.
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Lul Benzie (00:01):
all right, y'all it's.
It's been a while, all right,it ain't.
It ain't nothing I can say tolike.
I mean, it's a list of things.
I I'm I've been working sincethe last time I recorded, but I
want to go ahead and make this.
My recap for 2021 is december.
Um, the last time I have beenon here on you know quote
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unquote my podcast was back inMay and a lot of things has
happened between May andDecember of 2021.
I'm going to touch a lot ofbases on a lot of things because
I want to go ahead and just getwhoever's still watching me on
the same page At this point.
I've been inconsistent for ayear, but to me personally, I
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feel like it's worth it becauseI spent a lot of time working on
a lot of things that need to beworked on.
I'm still working becausethere's always room for growth,
but this year I really don'tthink I focused on.
You know, me personally, Ididn't focus on the dollar.
I mean a lot of y'all be likewell, you worked, you worked,
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yeah, I worked, I did, mostdefinitely did, I worked and I
bust my ass and I, you know, Idid what I had to do to get by
and I think that comparedbecause where I expected myself
to be this year and where I wasnot weighed a lot on me but at
the same time it was well needed.
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I also went back and actuallywatched some of my videos and my
podcasts and they're actuallyhard to watch, like they're very
cringy and they make my, my gutwrench, and I do not like
watching old videos of myself.
They are, you know, I don'tknow.
Over time I think I've gottentired of watching it, or not
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even tired, it's just all theoutsideness.
That's kind of why, leading onto the next point, me being very
closed off, in these last fewmonths of the year year I have
been more withdrawn from themedia, social media because,
once again, this is still fairlynew to me I'm I've been on
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social media heavy for probablyas long as I have been dancing.
So what?
Three, four years tops?
And even then I was not doingnot even that what I was doing.
It got to a point this yearwhere I wasn't really working or
doing a whole lot of collabingor anything like that, going,
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dealing with the outside worldyou know, covid and kind of like
really just not want to be inthat atmosphere.
A lot of stuff.
The social media just wasreally getting to be a lot and I
, in my head, I really justdidn't want to believe it.
I did not want to believe thatit is people out here that, you
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know, act like that.
I, just, in my head, Ipsychologically couldn't accept
that.
But then, excuse, excuse me, Ihad to accept the fact that
there's some crazy on there.
Now there's some out ofcharacters out of there, and I
do realize that social media isalso a prey, uh, a playground
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for, for people that are, youknow, predators or whatever.
But, yeah, baby, child, yes,sweetheart, um, yeah, we are not
going to do this.
This is not what I have signedup for, because, in my eyes, I
really wanted to be further incertain goals that I had.
But in order to get to thosegoals, I also have to become a
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better person.
At the end of the day, I'm notreally too beat up about it.
I'm not beat up about, you know, not getting where I need to be
or where I felt I needed to beand, if anything, I'm grateful
that I had time to correct andlearn and grow from some of the
things that have been going onin my life.
I even took it a step furtherthis year and started my fitness
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journey and a lot of peoplehave not gotten to see that
because I really took it toheart, like my fitness and my
health and my weight has alwaysbeen an ongoing issue, even as a
child, a young adult, youngadult, middle-aged or whatever.
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It's just been an issue and alot of people used to be like
you know you, confident, youmoving, yeah, but sometimes it
was just like they say that yourweight holds bad energy, like
it holds on to, you know,traumas.
In my personal opinion, theweight was legitimately holding
me down from letting go, like Ihad whole life, like the letting
the weight go was like barriers, letting barriers down, and
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people don't understand.
When you let your barriers andyour walls down, it's like a
floodgate.
Everything comes in and debris,the love, the negativity, the
hate, whatever it comes in.
And you know, a couple timesthis year I had to step back
because in that process ofworking out and really trying to
get to the root of the issuesthat I have and the issues that
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I have with other people, it waslike whoa, like it's a lot.
It was a lot for me and it waslike an ongoing battle, to the
point where I had to startreferring to the media as the
matrix, because it's real andit's not real.
It's real to an extent, butit's not.
You feel me, it is.
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In a way, it is because a lotof people have and done a lot of
bullshit on the Internet out ofspitefulness.
A lot of bullshit on theinternet like out of
spitefulness, like I really seepeople for, like now, going into
2022, I'm taking you for whatyou show me.
I'm no longer, you know, givingthe benefit of the doubt with
some people, because some peopleyou can, you can tell the ones
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that are really hurting or yougot some stuff going on.
You can tell when it's out of aperson character.
You can tell that.
And then sometimes you just gotto give some people some space.
Don't poke, don't prod, don'tsit there and, you know, beat
down on somebody, give them time, because that's what's going on
.
But for the rest of the peopleout here, chuck the deuces, skip
rocks, don't talk to me, excuseme, because at the end of the
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day, a lot of people have really, I've really had to step back
and work on my.
I'm going to say my argument ormy defense, because I've
literally just been like y'allwild, like I can't believe some
of y'all Y'all talking about howI act and how I be out here
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embarrassing.
Do y'all see what y'all bedoing on the internet now?
See busy?
I'm about to be 26 next year.
I don't have any children.
I don't have any husbands.
I don't have any boyfriends.
You know my personal life Ihave been keeping very I
wouldn't say very private, butreally private, because I don't
really post who I date or whoI'm dealing with.
Because once again I the traumasfrom my last relationship being
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on social media, like that was,I'm cool on that, like that
right, there was, you know thecake topple, like I'm cool on
that and it's not my cup of tea,like that one time was like go
ahead, and I, like you know itis what is, because the
experience with how people areso invested in other people's
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lives, then it becomesborderline, toxic, like because
it becomes so unhealthy and Iliterally would sit here and
watch people say and makeaccusations and things, and it
was just like it wasmind-boggling Because I couldn't
me me personally.
I'll go on the internet andI'll talk stuff.
Don't get me wrong, I do what Ido.
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Everybody gonna do what they do, everybody gonna voice their
opinion.
But some of the stuff y'all besaying may the Lord be with
y'all, because some of thethings that been saying to me
just made me, you know, reallybelieve that some of y'all are
going to hell, wherever the hellhell is or wherever the bad
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places.
Some of y'all are going thereon the first flight sorry to
tell y'all, because y'all somepeople to me in this world I
genuinely believe as long asyou're, you know, doing the best
that you can, you're being abetter person.
You know you doing the bestthat you can, you're being a
better person.
You know you're growing.
You're not hurting nobody,you're evolving as an individual
person.
I don't believe that you'redoing anything wrong.
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I tell people that I'm nothurting nobody, I'm not taking
from nobody and I'm not doinganything to put anybody in
harm's way.
And a lot of people come at melike, well, what about these
young girls and what aboutpeople that look up to you?
What you have to fail torealize is I sat down many years
ago and thought this throughlike I can literally sit here
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and paint you a description ofthe moment that I decided to
continue and do this type ofthing.
I was like what?
21 and a half, 22, and when Imade the decision it was after a
lingerie party.
I went to that um, that summerwhat was it?
29, what's that?
20, 2017, 2018, then about 2018, 2017, no, 2018, and, you know,
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stuff started getting hard.
I was trying to get over a deaththat I was dealing with that
winter and I was trying to be acollege student full-time and I
was trying to work and I wastrying to just enjoy my life all
at the same time and it was alot and it got to a point where
I wanted to maintain myindependency so bad that I was
willing to hustle to do what Ineeded to do.
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You know, I, in my eyes, I seenmy parents, what they had going
on as adults and I did not wantto burden them like I did not
want to bother them.
I didn't want to be a worry andI felt like in my head, I felt
like that was my fault.
I put myself in that positionbecause, excuse me, let me drink
water.
Excuse me, I missed my lip.
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I put myself.
I felt like, after so manytraumatic situations with
different individual people,about being put in that
situation, like being insituations that I put myself in
um, you can't see the quotationmark but put myself in.
I really was really hard onmyself with the independency
thing, to the point it becamewhat they call hyper
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independency, to the point whereI was fixated on not taking
help from people unless I feltlike I worked for it or I earned
it.
And it became bad to the pointwhere I turned up to dancing
because I needed helpimmediately and I've done
everything I could.
When you take out loans, outloans you didn't took out loans
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for school, you took loans outto have a car, you didn't took
loans out for a lot of thingsand you know it gets to a point
where something comes out ofnowhere.
My car broke down.
Keep in mind, I went and got mycar because I needed a car and
I really wanted a nice one, and,being young, you don't know
that you need to make sure thatyour car got a warranty.
People, they try to convince youthat a warranty is not needed
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to sell a car.
But, baby, if that mama got nowarranty, send it back.
Send it back, send it back tothe streets because, baby, they
sending you home with a lemon.
They send you home with a buggybaby, because as soon as you
drive that mountain off the road, as soon as you take that car
off, that lot that's longer you,that's your responsibility,
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that's your problem.
And people, I have had a lot ofcars, a lot of hand-me-down
cars, the um, the car that I gotmost recently has probably been
one of the newest used carsI've gotten and it came from a
car dealer.
It came from a rental place, soit's only had one owner and it
wasn't drove that much and forthe price that it was baby.
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I'm not complaining, I'm beingresponsible and doing what I
need to do survive because I'mnot going to sit out here and
live a lifestyle that I cannotafford.
I've, lately, have been takinga lot of things out of my life
because I need to really seewhat is meant to be there and
what is going to help and putmore energy and put more money
towards resources.
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So I'm going to invest more inmy education and more in my
knowledge and more in books andthings like that, and I've
started getting by my time back.
Back before I had a lot of timeand I didn't know what to do
with it because, once again,when you have a lot of issues
and a lot of traumas and a lotof pains going on, you can't,
you can't function, you can'tthink, you can't decide what's
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gonna be your next move and yourbest move.
If you you so congested and Iwas congested like I had to let
that go and in this year I havedone that in this year, compared
to last year.
I have done that in my previousvideos.
You can see that and and I'veused mama used my video as
evidence of the growth I havegrown a tremendous amount and
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I'm here to say that I'm happyand I'm proud of the growth that
I've had.
A lot of y'all don't agree withthe things that I've done and
the things that I do and, quitefrankly, you entitled to your
opinion.
You're entitled to it.
You are a full-blown correct.
So, with that being said, withyou being correct on what you
feel, that you feel, why are youstill here?
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Why are you still here?
I just want to know why are youstill here?
It doesn't psychologically makesense to me.
If you disagree, you don't likeme and you do not agree with
the way I have been formallymoving or how I have conducted
myself.
Why are you still here?
Because it's not like you a fan.
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Because I'm gonna tell youbefore it's people out here that
I do not like, that I will notfollow and I will not fuck with.
And that's just me.
Personally.
Now, sometimes I didn't end upin points where I've had
motherfuckers I have had badhistory with and I I have to
mentally squash that and allowmyself to move forward or
something, because at the end ofthe day, holding a grudge will
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will take you, take you to yourgray lights.
I'm not saying hold a grudge,it's.
It's all about what you allowand what you don't allow to have
control.
A lot of the traumas that Ihave experienced as a young
adult and a young teen has bledover into my adulthood and it's
going to take time and moremonths to unroot a lot of that I
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fully understand.
Now to the point where I had togo back and find out what I
enjoyed.
I couldn't even tell you what Ienjoyed because I spent so much
time focusing on the dollar,working, working, working,
working, because all I wanted todo was just work.
Yeah, you can work, but you canwork yourself to a grade.
I'm basically doing what I wasdoing a few years ago working
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all them jobs and working this,no break, no breath, no rest,
and running myself into theground and not understanding
that I will end up in the samesituation.
I was years ago and entire,worn out, worn out and exhausted
, you know, and I was just likeyou know what.
Let's, let's just, let's justwash my hands of this.
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Let's, let me get up and juststomach the fact that I could
come and do this.
I know I can do this, I know Ican record, I know I can speak,
I know I can talk, I know I cando a lot of things.
And the fact that I had toreally step back and really tell
myself what I can and what Ican't do is crazy.
I'm not even going to sit hereand be like I want to be on, no
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bragging or no condescendingthing, but it's the things out
here that I can achieve thatsome people cannot, and I'm just
going to say that because Ihave faith in myself.
I got to have faith in myselfbecause, at the end of the day,
a lot of y'all genuinely thinkit's cockiness.
I'm not cocky, okay, I have tospeak this into the existence.
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This is, this is like if arapper is rapping, if this actor
is acting, you have to speakthat into existence.
And it's so many times wherepeople speak some negativity on
my name and I and I focus somuch on the negativity because
I'm so traumatized by so manypeople shunning me and and and
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making me be quiet.
There's been so many timeswhere I have not had the
opportunity to fully andcompletely talk and express my
opinion or my thought or my orwhatever I got going on, because
some people don't feel like ohit, people feel how they feel
and people gonna do what they doat the end of the day.
And now, moving into 2022, yougot a problem me.
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You want to speak up.
I'm gonna let you speak.
I'm gonna be polite and I'mgonna let you speak.
All, all bs aside, all bullshitaside, I'm gonna let you speak,
but I'm gonna tell you likethis, and I'm gonna tell you
wholeheartedly and I'm going totell you confidently when it's
my time to speak just know youbetter, have your obituary and
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your casket ready, becausethat's how sharp these words is.
Okay, I don't go out of my wayto just argue with a mug just to
be arguing with you.
I don't know you.
Okay, you said something to methat made me want to respond.
Now I'll respond.
You had the right to commentand I had a right to respond.
Now you mad because I respondedback then.
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You shouldn't have commented.
Remember, you got the right tohave an opinion.
I got the right to respond.
Oh, you're supposed to be thebigger person.
Baby, my name is busy andbusyzie and Benzie's not in the
Bible and I'm not finna.
Be the bigger person.
This is 2022, and y'all stillwant people to sit here and be
the bigger person and lay asideand let stuff slide.
And no, some people need to besmacked upside their head like
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I'm not gonna cap to y'all.
Y'all letting so much shitslide.
Y'all let these motherfuckingpeddlers ride around this
motherfucker like it ain't.
I'm gonna say it like thatbecause, at the end of the day,
y'all letting a lot of stuffslide.
Y'all decide when y'all want tobe crusaders, when it benefits
y'all, or benefits y'allentertainment, or fulfill y'all
boredom, but when it come downto real issues and real problems
and things like that, y'alldon't even put the same energy
into it.
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Okay, I put the same energyinto both yin and yang.
There is a balance.
The same way I'm passionateabout arguing with y'all.
The same way I'm passionateabout getting to the top.
Everything is with balance andI'm learning that I'm not
perfect, I will never be perfect, and I have to sit there and
tell myself that I'm not perfectand I never will be perfect.
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But one thing I need y'all tounderstand is I'm not like
everybody else.
If you want to take it there,we can take it there.
We can do this formally.
You want to do this.
You want to do this casually orformally because, baby, we can
get it going.
I'm gonna tell you right nowI'm gonna get a people to show.
I have spent the last severalyears of my life studying so
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many people as an entertainer.
You have to.
I don't know about otherentertainers, I'm gonna speak on
myself.
You have to know what gets thecrowd going.
You have to know what keeps anattention.
You have to understand that.
What works for you.
You can't go around tellingthat man jokes and they like it
just don't work.
You have to find what workedfor you and this is what worked
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for me.
A lot of people don'tunderstand this work, work this
what worked for me, even at theclub.
The way I move works for me andeventually I will adapt and
change how I move.
But because certain things inthe world I don't want to deal
with, I don't want to talk tocertain people I don't want to
deal with, I don't want to talkto certain people, I don't want
to associate with certain people, I will continue to move and
swivel through the dimples theway I want to, because at the
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end of the day, you have toprotect and you have to move the
way that is beneficial to youand you have to make sure that
you're covering your butt.
And even if you're a goodperson, you have to understand
everybody's not like you and Ihad to learn that I everybody's
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not like you and I had to learn.
I had to keep me learning.
I'm still learning.
I'm going to continue to learnthat everybody is not like me.
You feel me, and things ain'tgonna always be perfect.
Everything is not always gonnaget the right response, and
that's okay.
I have to understand that'sokay.
I have to tell myself that thatis okay.
That is not the end of theworld, because I'm the type of
person that I I could say that Itake L's heavy, because I felt
like all my life I had to donothing but XL, like I had to do
nothing but above and beyond.
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And it even got to a pointwhere my best like my best
wasn't even my 100%.
It got to the point where I gotlazy with certain things.
It got to the point where I gotlazy with certain things.
Like people have to understandthat I literally was out here.
What people call their best wasmy lazy and and that's all it
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is to it.
It was.
It was just like it came to me.
Sometimes stuff come to me likethat and some people sometimes
they do it, sometimes they don't.
But I tell people when it comedown to me and conjuring up some
fire, some heat, some content,whatever I decide to put my
energy and time into, it takestime and it takes the vibe, it
takes the rhythm, it takes thesizzle, just like any actor, any
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story writer, anybody like that.
It takes time and I see myselfbeing great.
I see myself being somewherewhere I'm going to help people.
I see myself doing everythingthat I have spoke on and that I
dreamed about.
But what I'm going to telly'all is that if we were still
dealing with the same strugglesthat we were dealing with 5, 10,
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15, 20, 25, 30, 40 years agoand we're still dealing with the
same struggles and the sameissues and the same problems
that our grandparents and ourparents were trying to fight for
what make you think that Iain't doing the same thing?
Because it's not umprofessional, because it's not
seasoned and um um, publicly asociety acceptable?
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I'm I apologize, but I willnever be society acceptable.
I had renounced my society-nisma long time ago.
I'm able to go outside and walkaround and do business and talk
and still be around people, andpeople don't treat me the way
people treat me on the internetand people be like, well, they
don't know what you do.
It doesn't matter what you do,because, at the end of the day,
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you can tell a person that I'vebeen doing business with for six
years, you can tell a personI've been doing business with
for six years about what I do,and they will be like, okay,
that's the same way with myfamily, my family.
Once they understand what I hadgoing on and what my plans,
what my ideas, what my goalswere, they accepted it and they
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respected it, and then ain'teverybody cup of tea what I do.
I understand that.
I understand what some of y'allare saying, but at the end of
the day, I made the decisionsthat I made a long time ago and
I seem I'm an overthinker.
I think of of manypossibilities.
I have to be one step ahead ofeverything, and that's just me.
So, whatever y'all thinkingabout, what about the kids?
What about this?
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What about that?
What about this?
What about that?
I've already thought about itbecause I can't stop thinking.
It'd be times where I literallywill lay in bed for hours and
cannot sleep because I'moverthinking.
Y'all have to understand thereare so many possibilities of
life and movement that I gothrough on a daily basis.
Baby, I can write a book everyday if I wanted to, because
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that's how much I think.
So I want y'all to understand.
You know, I want to leteverybody know that I'm grateful
for everything I got.
I'm grateful for the platform Ihave learned to grow.
I am grateful for being able togo back and learn and make
mistakes and be able to moveforward on things like that,
because some people are not ableto do that.
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I apologize if I hurt some ofy'all feelings, but in the same
breath I don't give a fuck.
In the same breath I don't,because, at the end of the day,
some of y'all have done reallybad things in this world and
y'all think nobody knows andy'all think nobody has noticed.
Y'all some of y'all people outhere point out other people,
issues and flaws, because youare doing that same shit, you
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doing some bad stuff out here,and you want somebody else to
feel as bad as you withsweetheart.
You gotta understand what youdid in your deeds, in your life,
is your demons and your, yourties and your sins.
I'm dealing with mine.
I have dealt with mine.
I have accepted mine.
This is who I am.
I'm an outspoken individual thatis willing to do whatever to
sustain and guarantee my future.
I'm not playing with noindividual person in 2022, you
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cannot step to me if you're notstepping in my shoes to build
the blueprint that I'm using formy future.
What you have to understand isthis is a modern time.
Okay, we are.
I'm 25 years old.
I'll be 26 next year.
Y'all are still trying to usethe blueprints from decades ago.
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I am not.
I'm all about equality.
I'm all about everybody gettingtreated right.
I'm all about it.
I just want people tounderstand like I wish I could
fix the world.
I wish I could do world peace.
I wish I could help all thehomeless.
I wish I could save all thekids.
I wish I could give all thedogs and kids home.
I wish, but sorry, I can't, Ican't.
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You feel me, I can't, I can't,and that's just the truth.
I can't, I can't, and that'sjust the truth, I can't.
And people think that I want tosit there and deal with that
type of energy, and I'm not.
I'm not going to deal withnothing that I don't want to
deal with.
And, at the end of the day, ifyou, somebody or something is
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something I don't want to dealwith, I ain't going to deal with
that.
Especially some of y'all that beclaiming that y'all support me
and y'all love me.
Some of y'all throw money at meand then tell me to basically
get over how y'all treat me.
Y'all doing me how the systemis trying to do me, throw money
at me and tell me to get overwhatever they've done to me.
Y'all are no better than thesepredators out here going to the
courts, abusing people and thenpaying people off, telling them
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to get over it.
We got money.
Get over it.
Y'all ain't no better.
I'm here to tell y'all.
Before y'all check anybody onthe outside world, you need to
check yourself.
I've been checking myself for ayear and I'm still checking
myself.
I'm still getting better.
I'm still putting myself inpositions where I need to know
where I need to stand.
But before anybody else comeout here and think they're going
to step to me, make sure yougot your facts and your receipts
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, because I'm going to tell youright now you're not going to
win.
It's an endless and meaninglessargument with me, because there
are a thousand I can name off athousand things that require
your attention more than I do.
So please, before you sit hereand waste your energy, your time
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and your money on little Benzie, please, please sit down and
sit back and think of how manyorganizations, how many children
, how many homeless, how manyincarcerated people, how many
suffering people around you,around the world, require your
attention.
You have to understand I'm goodover here.
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There are people in the worldthat require you and you pay
attention to the wrong thing.
So I want y'all to know that,between me losing weight, me
getting my braces back, megrowing me mentally trying to be
better, me understanding mymistakes and my traumas and
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trying to move forward, on thatit's a lot.
It is a lot and especially ifyou've been doing it in the
public eye, it's it's a lotbecause in the public eye,
you're not allowed to makemistakes, you're not allowed to
relearn, you're not allowed tosay I fucked up and I apologize.
You're not allowed to, becausethey expect you to be perfect at
every time.
But what people fail to realizeis if y'all had a camera on
y'all 24-7, I guarantee youevery last dollar in my account
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that y'all would have beenfucked up, and that's just how
it is.
So I'm telling y'all right nowI'm excited for 2022.
I'm excited for the journeys,I'm excited for a lot of the
things that I got going on.
A lot of y'all don't understandthat I'm a business owner, I am
a gamer, I am an entertainer, Iam a sex worker, I'm a podcaster
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, I'm a cooker, I'm a cleaner,I'm a dancer, I'm whatever.
Because I wake up every day andI decide my destiny because I
have put myself in that positionto do so.
If I wake up tomorrow and Iwant to be a goddamn chef, so be
it.
I have the power and I have theopportunity to do so and I'm
going to do what I see is fit inmy life.
I have one life.
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I'm not guaranteed it tomorrow.
I'm not guaranteed it at all.
So, with that being said, I wishy'all the best.
I I wish y'all going to 2021with the best energy and the
best mindset and the besteverything, because that's what
I'm doing, because I once againhad to start over and relearn
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myself and, in this process, Ihad to reintroduce myself and I
want to let y'all know I am TheReal Lul Benz and I am coming
for everything that I work for.
It's a lot, but you understand,I have to.
I have to speak like I mean it.
I had to put enough energy init, like I mean it and I meant
that I'm coming through and I'mcoming to get what's mine.
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Don't worry about what else Igot going on, just understand,
just know I'm coming for what'smine.
I don't want nobody else, Ijust want what's mine.
Now, if the shoe fit, then wearit.
But I just want to tell y'all Iappreciate y'all.
Please check out my websiterasuncouture.
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I'm telling y'all I'm not.
With time comes greatness.
With greatness come time.
I'm telling you you ain't evengot to give me your time for the
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people that stuck around andgave me time.
Thank you so much.
I'm so grateful for y'all and Iwant y'all to know that I'm
grateful for y'all.
But please let me work because,understand, there's going to be
a thousand other people thatdon't like what I do and I'm
just making content that make mesmile.
Making my haters upset makes mesmile, so be it.
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So I'll see y'all on the nextpodcast.
I'm I'm glad to be back.
I'm, I'm glad to be back.
all right, y'all it's.
It's been a while, all right,it ain't.
It ain't nothing I can say tolike.
I mean, it's a list of things.
I I'm I've been working sincethe last time I recorded, but I
want to go ahead and make this.
My recap for 2021 is december.
Um, the last time I have beenon here on you know quote
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unquote my podcast was back inMay and a lot of things has
happened between May andDecember of 2021.
I'm going to touch a lot ofbases on a lot of things because
I want to go ahead and just getwhoever's still watching me on
the same page At this point.
I've been inconsistent for ayear, but to me personally, I
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feel like it's worth it becauseI spent a lot of time working on
a lot of things that need to beworked on.
I'm still working becausethere's always room for growth,
but this year I really don'tthink I focused on.
You know, me personally, Ididn't focus on the dollar.
I mean a lot of y'all be likewell, you worked, you worked,
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yeah, I worked, I did, mostdefinitely did, I worked and I
bust my ass and I, you know, Idid what I had to do to get by
and I think that comparedbecause where I expected myself
to be this year and where I wasnot weighed a lot on me but at
the same time it was well needed.
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I also went back and actuallywatched some of my videos and my
podcasts and they're actuallyhard to watch, like they're very
cringy and they make my, my gutwrench, and I do not like
watching old videos of myself.
They are, you know, I don'tknow.
Over time I think I've gottentired of watching it, or not
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even tired, it's just all theoutsideness.
That's kind of why, leading onto the next point, me being very
closed off, in these last fewmonths of the year year I have
been more withdrawn from themedia, social media because,
once again, this is still fairlynew to me I'm I've been on
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social media heavy for probablyas long as I have been dancing.
So what?
Three, four years tops?
And even then I was not doingnot even that what I was doing.
It got to a point this yearwhere I wasn't really working or
doing a whole lot of collabingor anything like that, going,
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dealing with the outside worldyou know, covid and kind of like
really just not want to be inthat atmosphere.
A lot of stuff.
The social media just wasreally getting to be a lot and I
, in my head, I really justdidn't want to believe it.
I did not want to believe thatit is people out here that, you
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know, act like that.
I, just, in my head, Ipsychologically couldn't accept
that.
But then, excuse, excuse me, Ihad to accept the fact that
there's some crazy on there.
Now there's some out ofcharacters out of there, and I
do realize that social media isalso a prey, uh, a playground
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for, for people that are, youknow, predators or whatever.
But, yeah, baby, child, yes,sweetheart, um, yeah, we are not
going to do this.
This is not what I have signedup for, because, in my eyes, I
really wanted to be further incertain goals that I had.
But in order to get to thosegoals, I also have to become a
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better person.
At the end of the day, I'm notreally too beat up about it.
I'm not beat up about, you know, not getting where I need to be
or where I felt I needed to beand, if anything, I'm grateful
that I had time to correct andlearn and grow from some of the
things that have been going onin my life.
I even took it a step furtherthis year and started my fitness
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journey and a lot of peoplehave not gotten to see that
because I really took it toheart, like my fitness and my
health and my weight has alwaysbeen an ongoing issue, even as a
child, a young adult, youngadult, middle-aged or whatever.
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It's just been an issue and alot of people used to be like
you know you, confident, youmoving, yeah, but sometimes it
was just like they say that yourweight holds bad energy, like
it holds on to, you know,traumas.
In my personal opinion, theweight was legitimately holding
me down from letting go, like Ihad whole life, like the letting
the weight go was like barriers, letting barriers down, and
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people don't understand.
When you let your barriers andyour walls down, it's like a
floodgate.
Everything comes in and debris,the love, the negativity, the
hate, whatever it comes in.
And you know, a couple timesthis year I had to step back
because in that process ofworking out and really trying to
get to the root of the issuesthat I have and the issues that
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I have with other people, it waslike whoa, like it's a lot.
It was a lot for me and it waslike an ongoing battle, to the
point where I had to startreferring to the media as the
matrix, because it's real andit's not real.
It's real to an extent, butit's not.
You feel me, it is.
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In a way, it is because a lotof people have and done a lot of
bullshit on the Internet out ofspitefulness.
A lot of bullshit on theinternet like out of
spitefulness, like I really seepeople for, like now, going into
2022, I'm taking you for whatyou show me.
I'm no longer, you know, givingthe benefit of the doubt with
some people, because some peopleyou can, you can tell the ones
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that are really hurting or yougot some stuff going on.
You can tell when it's out of aperson character.
You can tell that.
And then sometimes you just gotto give some people some space.
Don't poke, don't prod, don'tsit there and, you know, beat
down on somebody, give them time, because that's what's going on
.
But for the rest of the peopleout here, chuck the deuces, skip
rocks, don't talk to me, excuseme, because at the end of the
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day, a lot of people have really, I've really had to step back
and work on my.
I'm going to say my argument ormy defense, because I've
literally just been like y'allwild, like I can't believe some
of y'all Y'all talking about howI act and how I be out here
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embarrassing.
Do y'all see what y'all bedoing on the internet now?
See busy?
I'm about to be 26 next year.
I don't have any children.
I don't have any husbands.
I don't have any boyfriends.
You know my personal life Ihave been keeping very I
wouldn't say very private, butreally private, because I don't
really post who I date or whoI'm dealing with.
Because once again I the traumasfrom my last relationship being
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on social media, like that was,I'm cool on that, like that
right, there was, you know thecake topple, like I'm cool on
that and it's not my cup of tea,like that one time was like go
ahead, and I, like you know itis what is, because the
experience with how people areso invested in other people's
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lives, then it becomesborderline, toxic, like because
it becomes so unhealthy and Iliterally would sit here and
watch people say and makeaccusations and things, and it
was just like it wasmind-boggling Because I couldn't
me me personally.
I'll go on the internet andI'll talk stuff.
Don't get me wrong, I do what Ido.
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Everybody gonna do what they do, everybody gonna voice their
opinion.
But some of the stuff y'all besaying may the Lord be with
y'all, because some of thethings that been saying to me
just made me, you know, reallybelieve that some of y'all are
going to hell, wherever the hellhell is or wherever the bad
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places.
Some of y'all are going thereon the first flight sorry to
tell y'all, because y'all somepeople to me in this world I
genuinely believe as long asyou're, you know, doing the best
that you can, you're being abetter person.
You know you doing the bestthat you can, you're being a
better person.
You know you're growing.
You're not hurting nobody,you're evolving as an individual
person.
I don't believe that you'redoing anything wrong.
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I tell people that I'm nothurting nobody, I'm not taking
from nobody and I'm not doinganything to put anybody in
harm's way.
And a lot of people come at melike, well, what about these
young girls and what aboutpeople that look up to you?
What you have to fail torealize is I sat down many years
ago and thought this throughlike I can literally sit here
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and paint you a description ofthe moment that I decided to
continue and do this type ofthing.
I was like what?
21 and a half, 22, and when Imade the decision it was after a
lingerie party.
I went to that um, that summerwhat was it?
29, what's that?
20, 2017, 2018, then about 2018, 2017, no, 2018, and, you know,
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stuff started getting hard.
I was trying to get over a deaththat I was dealing with that
winter and I was trying to be acollege student full-time and I
was trying to work and I wastrying to just enjoy my life all
at the same time and it was alot and it got to a point where
I wanted to maintain myindependency so bad that I was
willing to hustle to do what Ineeded to do.
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You know, I, in my eyes, I seenmy parents, what they had going
on as adults and I did not wantto burden them like I did not
want to bother them.
I didn't want to be a worry andI felt like in my head, I felt
like that was my fault.
I put myself in that positionbecause, excuse me, let me drink
water.
Excuse me, I missed my lip.
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I put myself.
I felt like, after so manytraumatic situations with
different individual people,about being put in that
situation, like being insituations that I put myself in
um, you can't see the quotationmark but put myself in.
I really was really hard onmyself with the independency
thing, to the point it becamewhat they call hyper
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independency, to the point whereI was fixated on not taking
help from people unless I feltlike I worked for it or I earned
it.
And it became bad to the pointwhere I turned up to dancing
because I needed helpimmediately and I've done
everything I could.
When you take out loans, outloans you didn't took out loans
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for school, you took loans outto have a car, you didn't took
loans out for a lot of thingsand you know it gets to a point
where something comes out ofnowhere.
My car broke down.
Keep in mind, I went and got mycar because I needed a car and
I really wanted a nice one, and,being young, you don't know
that you need to make sure thatyour car got a warranty.
People, they try to convince youthat a warranty is not needed
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to sell a car.
But, baby, if that mama got nowarranty, send it back.
Send it back, send it back tothe streets because, baby, they
sending you home with a lemon.
They send you home with a buggybaby, because as soon as you
drive that mountain off the road, as soon as you take that car
off, that lot that's longer you,that's your responsibility,
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that's your problem.
And people, I have had a lot ofcars, a lot of hand-me-down
cars, the um, the car that I gotmost recently has probably been
one of the newest used carsI've gotten and it came from a
car dealer.
It came from a rental place, soit's only had one owner and it
wasn't drove that much and forthe price that it was baby.
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I'm not complaining, I'm beingresponsible and doing what I
need to do survive because I'mnot going to sit out here and
live a lifestyle that I cannotafford.
I've, lately, have been takinga lot of things out of my life
because I need to really seewhat is meant to be there and
what is going to help and putmore energy and put more money
towards resources.
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So I'm going to invest more inmy education and more in my
knowledge and more in books andthings like that, and I've
started getting by my time back.
Back before I had a lot of timeand I didn't know what to do
with it because, once again,when you have a lot of issues
and a lot of traumas and a lotof pains going on, you can't,
you can't function, you can'tthink, you can't decide what's
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gonna be your next move and yourbest move.
If you you so congested and Iwas congested like I had to let
that go and in this year I havedone that in this year, compared
to last year.
I have done that in my previousvideos.
You can see that and and I'veused mama used my video as
evidence of the growth I havegrown a tremendous amount and
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I'm here to say that I'm happyand I'm proud of the growth that
I've had.
A lot of y'all don't agree withthe things that I've done and
the things that I do and, quitefrankly, you entitled to your
opinion.
You're entitled to it.
You are a full-blown correct.
So, with that being said, withyou being correct on what you
feel, that you feel, why are youstill here?
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Why are you still here?
I just want to know why are youstill here?
It doesn't psychologically makesense to me.
If you disagree, you don't likeme and you do not agree with
the way I have been formallymoving or how I have conducted
myself.
Why are you still here?
Because it's not like you a fan.
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Because I'm gonna tell youbefore it's people out here that
I do not like, that I will notfollow and I will not fuck with.
And that's just me.
Personally.
Now, sometimes I didn't end upin points where I've had
motherfuckers I have had badhistory with and I I have to
mentally squash that and allowmyself to move forward or
something, because at the end ofthe day, holding a grudge will
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will take you, take you to yourgray lights.
I'm not saying hold a grudge,it's.
It's all about what you allowand what you don't allow to have
control.
A lot of the traumas that Ihave experienced as a young
adult and a young teen has bledover into my adulthood and it's
going to take time and moremonths to unroot a lot of that I
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fully understand.
Now to the point where I had togo back and find out what I
enjoyed.
I couldn't even tell you what Ienjoyed because I spent so much
time focusing on the dollar,working, working, working,
working, because all I wanted todo was just work.
Yeah, you can work, but you canwork yourself to a grade.
I'm basically doing what I wasdoing a few years ago working
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all them jobs and working this,no break, no breath, no rest,
and running myself into theground and not understanding
that I will end up in the samesituation.
I was years ago and entire,worn out, worn out and exhausted
, you know, and I was just likeyou know what.
Let's, let's just, let's justwash my hands of this.
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Let's, let me get up and juststomach the fact that I could
come and do this.
I know I can do this, I know Ican record, I know I can speak,
I know I can talk, I know I cando a lot of things.
And the fact that I had toreally step back and really tell
myself what I can and what Ican't do is crazy.
I'm not even going to sit hereand be like I want to be on, no
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bragging or no condescendingthing, but it's the things out
here that I can achieve thatsome people cannot, and I'm just
going to say that because Ihave faith in myself.
I got to have faith in myselfbecause, at the end of the day,
a lot of y'all genuinely thinkit's cockiness.
I'm not cocky, okay, I have tospeak this into the existence.
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This is, this is like if arapper is rapping, if this actor
is acting, you have to speakthat into existence.
And it's so many times wherepeople speak some negativity on
my name and I and I focus somuch on the negativity because
I'm so traumatized by so manypeople shunning me and and and
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making me be quiet.
There's been so many timeswhere I have not had the
opportunity to fully andcompletely talk and express my
opinion or my thought or my orwhatever I got going on, because
some people don't feel like ohit, people feel how they feel
and people gonna do what they doat the end of the day.
And now, moving into 2022, yougot a problem me.
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You want to speak up.
I'm gonna let you speak.
I'm gonna be polite and I'mgonna let you speak.
All, all bs aside, all bullshitaside, I'm gonna let you speak,
but I'm gonna tell you likethis, and I'm gonna tell you
wholeheartedly and I'm going totell you confidently when it's
my time to speak just know youbetter, have your obituary and
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your casket ready, becausethat's how sharp these words is.
Okay, I don't go out of my wayto just argue with a mug just to
be arguing with you.
I don't know you.
Okay, you said something to methat made me want to respond.
Now I'll respond.
You had the right to commentand I had a right to respond.
Now you mad because I respondedback then.
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You shouldn't have commented.
Remember, you got the right tohave an opinion.
I got the right to respond.
Oh, you're supposed to be thebigger person.
Baby, my name is busy andbusyzie and Benzie's not in the
Bible and I'm not finna.
Be the bigger person.
This is 2022, and y'all stillwant people to sit here and be
the bigger person and lay asideand let stuff slide.
And no, some people need to besmacked upside their head like
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I'm not gonna cap to y'all.
Y'all letting so much shitslide.
Y'all let these motherfuckingpeddlers ride around this
motherfucker like it ain't.
I'm gonna say it like thatbecause, at the end of the day,
y'all letting a lot of stuffslide.
Y'all decide when y'all want tobe crusaders, when it benefits
y'all, or benefits y'allentertainment, or fulfill y'all
boredom, but when it come downto real issues and real problems
and things like that, y'alldon't even put the same energy
into it.
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Okay, I put the same energyinto both yin and yang.
There is a balance.
The same way I'm passionateabout arguing with y'all.
The same way I'm passionateabout getting to the top.
Everything is with balance andI'm learning that I'm not
perfect, I will never be perfect, and I have to sit there and
tell myself that I'm not perfectand I never will be perfect.
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But one thing I need y'all tounderstand is I'm not like
everybody else.
If you want to take it there,we can take it there.
We can do this formally.
You want to do this.
You want to do this casually orformally because, baby, we can
get it going.
I'm gonna tell you right nowI'm gonna get a people to show.
I have spent the last severalyears of my life studying so
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many people as an entertainer.
You have to.
I don't know about otherentertainers, I'm gonna speak on
myself.
You have to know what gets thecrowd going.
You have to know what keeps anattention.
You have to understand that.
What works for you.
You can't go around tellingthat man jokes and they like it
just don't work.
You have to find what workedfor you and this is what worked
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for me.
A lot of people don'tunderstand this work, work this
what worked for me, even at theclub.
The way I move works for me andeventually I will adapt and
change how I move.
But because certain things inthe world I don't want to deal
with, I don't want to talk tocertain people I don't want to
deal with, I don't want to talkto certain people, I don't want
to associate with certain people, I will continue to move and
swivel through the dimples theway I want to, because at the
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end of the day, you have toprotect and you have to move the
way that is beneficial to youand you have to make sure that
you're covering your butt.
And even if you're a goodperson, you have to understand
everybody's not like you and Ihad to learn that I everybody's
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not like you and I had to learn.
I had to keep me learning.
I'm still learning.
I'm going to continue to learnthat everybody is not like me.
You feel me, and things ain'tgonna always be perfect.
Everything is not always gonnaget the right response, and
that's okay.
I have to understand that'sokay.
I have to tell myself that thatis okay.
That is not the end of theworld, because I'm the type of
person that I I could say that Itake L's heavy, because I felt
like all my life I had to donothing but XL, like I had to do
nothing but above and beyond.
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And it even got to a pointwhere my best like my best
wasn't even my 100%.
It got to the point where I gotlazy with certain things.
It got to the point where I gotlazy with certain things.
Like people have to understandthat I literally was out here.
What people call their best wasmy lazy and and that's all it
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is to it.
It was.
It was just like it came to me.
Sometimes stuff come to me likethat and some people sometimes
they do it, sometimes they don't.
But I tell people when it comedown to me and conjuring up some
fire, some heat, some content,whatever I decide to put my
energy and time into, it takestime and it takes the vibe, it
takes the rhythm, it takes thesizzle, just like any actor, any
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story writer, anybody like that.
It takes time and I see myselfbeing great.
I see myself being somewherewhere I'm going to help people.
I see myself doing everythingthat I have spoke on and that I
dreamed about.
But what I'm going to telly'all is that if we were still
dealing with the same strugglesthat we were dealing with 5, 10,
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15, 20, 25, 30, 40 years agoand we're still dealing with the
same struggles and the sameissues and the same problems
that our grandparents and ourparents were trying to fight for
what make you think that Iain't doing the same thing?
Because it's not umprofessional, because it's not
seasoned and um um, publicly asociety acceptable?
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I'm I apologize, but I willnever be society acceptable.
I had renounced my society-nisma long time ago.
I'm able to go outside and walkaround and do business and talk
and still be around people, andpeople don't treat me the way
people treat me on the internetand people be like, well, they
don't know what you do.
It doesn't matter what you do,because, at the end of the day,
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you can tell a person that I'vebeen doing business with for six
years, you can tell a personI've been doing business with
for six years about what I do,and they will be like, okay,
that's the same way with myfamily, my family.
Once they understand what I hadgoing on and what my plans,
what my ideas, what my goalswere, they accepted it and they
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respected it, and then ain'teverybody cup of tea what I do.
I understand that.
I understand what some of y'allare saying, but at the end of
the day, I made the decisionsthat I made a long time ago and
I seem I'm an overthinker.
I think of of manypossibilities.
I have to be one step ahead ofeverything, and that's just me.
So, whatever y'all thinkingabout, what about the kids?
What about this?
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What about that?
What about this?
What about that?
I've already thought about itbecause I can't stop thinking.
It'd be times where I literallywill lay in bed for hours and
cannot sleep because I'moverthinking.
Y'all have to understand thereare so many possibilities of
life and movement that I gothrough on a daily basis.
Baby, I can write a book everyday if I wanted to, because
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that's how much I think.
So I want y'all to understand.
You know, I want to leteverybody know that I'm grateful
for everything I got.
I'm grateful for the platform Ihave learned to grow.
I am grateful for being able togo back and learn and make
mistakes and be able to moveforward on things like that,
because some people are not ableto do that.
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I apologize if I hurt some ofy'all feelings, but in the same
breath I don't give a fuck.
In the same breath I don't,because, at the end of the day,
some of y'all have done reallybad things in this world and
y'all think nobody knows andy'all think nobody has noticed.
Y'all some of y'all people outhere point out other people,
issues and flaws, because youare doing that same shit, you
(23:38):
doing some bad stuff out here,and you want somebody else to
feel as bad as you withsweetheart.
You gotta understand what youdid in your deeds, in your life,
is your demons and your, yourties and your sins.
I'm dealing with mine.
I have dealt with mine.
I have accepted mine.
This is who I am.
I'm an outspoken individual thatis willing to do whatever to
sustain and guarantee my future.
I'm not playing with noindividual person in 2022, you
(24:03):
cannot step to me if you're notstepping in my shoes to build
the blueprint that I'm using formy future.
What you have to understand isthis is a modern time.
Okay, we are.
I'm 25 years old.
I'll be 26 next year.
Y'all are still trying to usethe blueprints from decades ago.
(24:23):
I am not.
I'm all about equality.
I'm all about everybody gettingtreated right.
I'm all about it.
I just want people tounderstand like I wish I could
fix the world.
I wish I could do world peace.
I wish I could help all thehomeless.
I wish I could save all thekids.
I wish I could give all thedogs and kids home.
I wish, but sorry, I can't, Ican't.
(24:45):
You feel me, I can't, I can't,and that's just the truth.
I can't, I can't, and that'sjust the truth, I can't.
And people think that I want tosit there and deal with that
type of energy, and I'm not.
I'm not going to deal withnothing that I don't want to
deal with.
And, at the end of the day, ifyou, somebody or something is
(25:08):
something I don't want to dealwith, I ain't going to deal with
that.
Especially some of y'all that beclaiming that y'all support me
and y'all love me.
Some of y'all throw money at meand then tell me to basically
get over how y'all treat me.
Y'all doing me how the systemis trying to do me, throw money
at me and tell me to get overwhatever they've done to me.
Y'all are no better than thesepredators out here going to the
courts, abusing people and thenpaying people off, telling them
(25:30):
to get over it.
We got money.
Get over it.
Y'all ain't no better.
I'm here to tell y'all.
Before y'all check anybody onthe outside world, you need to
check yourself.
I've been checking myself for ayear and I'm still checking
myself.
I'm still getting better.
I'm still putting myself inpositions where I need to know
where I need to stand.
But before anybody else comeout here and think they're going
to step to me, make sure yougot your facts and your receipts
(25:53):
, because I'm going to tell youright now you're not going to
win.
It's an endless and meaninglessargument with me, because there
are a thousand I can name off athousand things that require
your attention more than I do.
So please, before you sit hereand waste your energy, your time
(26:14):
and your money on little Benzie, please, please sit down and
sit back and think of how manyorganizations, how many children
, how many homeless, how manyincarcerated people, how many
suffering people around you,around the world, require your
attention.
You have to understand I'm goodover here.
(26:35):
There are people in the worldthat require you and you pay
attention to the wrong thing.
So I want y'all to know that,between me losing weight, me
getting my braces back, megrowing me mentally trying to be
better, me understanding mymistakes and my traumas and
(26:55):
trying to move forward, on thatit's a lot.
It is a lot and especially ifyou've been doing it in the
public eye, it's it's a lotbecause in the public eye,
you're not allowed to makemistakes, you're not allowed to
relearn, you're not allowed tosay I fucked up and I apologize.
You're not allowed to, becausethey expect you to be perfect at
every time.
But what people fail to realizeis if y'all had a camera on
y'all 24-7, I guarantee youevery last dollar in my account
(27:19):
that y'all would have beenfucked up, and that's just how
it is.
So I'm telling y'all right nowI'm excited for 2022.
I'm excited for the journeys,I'm excited for a lot of the
things that I got going on.
A lot of y'all don't understandthat I'm a business owner, I am
a gamer, I am an entertainer, Iam a sex worker, I'm a podcaster
(27:41):
, I'm a cooker, I'm a cleaner,I'm a dancer, I'm whatever.
Because I wake up every day andI decide my destiny because I
have put myself in that positionto do so.
If I wake up tomorrow and Iwant to be a goddamn chef, so be
it.
I have the power and I have theopportunity to do so and I'm
going to do what I see is fit inmy life.
I have one life.
(28:02):
I'm not guaranteed it tomorrow.
I'm not guaranteed it at all.
So, with that being said, I wishy'all the best.
I I wish y'all going to 2021with the best energy and the
best mindset and the besteverything, because that's what
I'm doing, because I once againhad to start over and relearn
(28:23):
myself and, in this process, Ihad to reintroduce myself and I
want to let y'all know I am TheReal Lul Benz and I am coming
for everything that I work for.
It's a lot, but you understand,I have to.
I have to speak like I mean it.
I had to put enough energy init, like I mean it and I meant
that I'm coming through and I'mcoming to get what's mine.
(28:44):
Don't worry about what else Igot going on, just understand,
just know I'm coming for what'smine.
I don't want nobody else, Ijust want what's mine.
Now, if the shoe fit, then wearit.
But I just want to tell y'all Iappreciate y'all.
Please check out my websiterasuncouture.
com www.
rasuncouture.
com.
LulBenzie www.
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lul benzie.
com.
And if you want to check outthe other podcast links, www.
lulbenzie.
com.
And if you want to check outthe other podcast links, www.
benzieshow.
com www.
benzieshow.
com.
Everything you need to know isgoing to be in the description
box below.
I'm telling y'all I'm not.
With time comes greatness.
With greatness come time.
I'm telling you you ain't evengot to give me your time for the
(29:28):
people that stuck around andgave me time.
Thank you so much.
I'm so grateful for y'all and Iwant y'all to know that I'm
grateful for y'all.
But please let me work because,understand, there's going to be
a thousand other people thatdon't like what I do and I'm
just making content that make mesmile.
Making my haters upset makes mesmile, so be it.
(29:49):
So I'll see y'all on the nextpodcast.
I'm I'm glad to be back.
I'm, I'm glad to be back.
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