December 18, 2023 • 13 mins
Ready to step into someone else's shoes and experience their journey towards self-discovery? Join me, Marilyn, as I share my ride from leaving a corporate job, embracing the risks of being a 1099 (not a W2).This episode is a heart-to-heart chat about learning my genuine worth, refusing to let others dim my light, and deciding to focus on my multiple income sources.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello everyone and welcome back to this Is Me
podcast, and I am your girl,marilyn, so I'm just going to
jump right into it.
I received a message regardingone of the podcasts I posted
regarding the new job as thebusiness development manager
that I got, and I didn't submita resume.
Go back and listen to thepodcast for all the details.
(00:21):
And then I quickly realizedthat I have not given you guys
an update, because y'all allknow there's always something
going on in my life, honey,because you know what I am
curating the life that I wantfor me.
Whatever is meant to be will be, and I just have to listen to
God in my gut.
So I'm no longer at that job.
I was only there for about twomonths, no hard feelings.
(00:44):
However, I've just come to therealization that I am a 1099 and
not a W2.
And I'm finding myself andmeeting new employers and
today's day and age because,again, I was at a job for almost
16 years that employers justwant more for less.
(01:06):
Two, they think that becausethey pay you, they own you.
And three, I am a light.
I am a light and I will not letanybody take my light for their
own benefit.
So, yeah, so I just realizedthat it's just better that I
(01:30):
just continue to pour intomyself.
I mean, I have all of theseways to make some income and I
just needed to focus on that.
I am going to go back to realestate full time.
I have my side hustles with mycollaborations.
I'm bringing my candles back.
I have my journal that isavailable on Amazon.
(01:51):
Please go ahead and support andpurchase that journal.
I will be releasing another oneat the end of January and, um,
everything else it'll workitself out.
Am I scared?
Hell, yeah, I'm scared.
Shit, I got four mouths to feedand just disclaimer.
The two little ones are homeand Lord, lord, lord, lord, my
(02:13):
prayer is just to give mestrength because it is a lot.
It is like having twins.
But yeah, listen, I just.
I just realized that I have avision.
You know, I know what I'm goodat, I know what my worth is, and
you're going to get pushed backand that's okay.
You know you can't tell anybody, don't have your own vision.
(02:37):
But I'm just the type that letme just help you clean it up and
you're going to have somedifferences and you know what I
really have the differences inmy own businesses.
I mean, I do have my LLC andit's just time to build and not
let fear hold me back anymore.
And for those of you who havebeen following me all of these
years, you guys know I have beenat this for over 10 years.
(03:00):
It's just so crazy to me and Idon't feel like, oh my God, it's
been 10 years, I've wasted orI'm not where I want to be, but
in those 10 years I've beenthrough a lot of shit.
The journey was rough.
Do you hear him?
I feel like he hears talking,so he's exaggerates it.
(03:23):
I don't know if you hear himcoughing in the background, but
it's been rough.
But you know what.
That's.
What makes life exciting isgoing through the journey, going
through the trials andtribulations, going through the
mistakes, because only then areyou able to learn yourself,
you're really able to learn whatit is that you want.
(03:46):
And if you find yourself backto point A, where you started,
then you know that that's whereyou're meant to be.
And for me it's been a journeybetween living in Atlanta,
coming back, the car accident,finding my ex-husband, having
two kids, having this beautifulwedding, to getting divorced, to
(04:07):
getting back on my feet, togoing through these jobs and
just realizing that you are nolonger going to allow anyone to
have control of your life, butyou.
And I think that is the lessonhere that once I started taking
control of my life, thateverything and anything and
anything of AXR has beenhappening at its appointed time,
(04:31):
I just can't get in my own way.
And for a long time I've alwaysbeen like I don't know what I
want.
I don't know what I want, whatam I going to do?
I'm going to suck it, all right.
I just had to make sure he wasokay because he didn't stop
coughing.
And for a long time I wasalways like what do I want to do
(04:51):
?
What do I want to do?
And I realized that that wasn'tmy job to figure out the answer
.
My job and main focus was tocontinue to work on myself
mentally, physically, internally, all around me and then those
answers will come, those answersthat you have questions to will
(05:16):
be answered.
But if you do not work onyourself, then you do not know
where your direct, yourdirection is, where you're going
.
And let me tell you somethingTruly, truly, focusing on
working on yourself is a lot ofwork.
(05:36):
To what you eat, to what youput in your body, to the people
that you keep around, to yourphysicality, to making sure you
get the proper exercise beingevery time you leave.
While I leave my door, I amfighting a spiritual warfare.
(05:58):
It is like I am fighting demons, because with the good comes
the bad, right.
And it's like when you're sohappy and shit is gonna come,
something else is coming rightbehind it, right?
Oh, I saw this yesterday.
A coach was talking to a girl, abasketball coach, and she's
(06:22):
like it's never good.
You guys are waiting for it toget easier.
And this hit home for mebecause I'm guilty of that.
I was like, oh my God, please,just one day of easy.
But there's no such thing asone day of easy if I'm asking
for so much.
So she said you guys arewaiting for it to get easier,
school to get easier, basketballto get easier, life to get
(06:42):
easier.
It's never going to get easier.
You just have to get better athandling it harder.
And it's like damn, that shouldmake so much sense.
I have to continue to getstronger, continue to work on
myself.
So any shit that gets thrown atme, I already have the tools
(07:03):
and I'm stronger and have thestrength to fight that shit off
because, baby, I have beenthrough some shit and I am still
standing.
So, if you are with me, giveyourself a round of applause,
because only the strong survive,and this too shall pass.
And another difficult part isto.
(07:23):
We're so accustomed to lookingat the bad and what's not
working out in the negative, butjust a little shift as to the
things that have worked out.
And the more you think aboutthe things that have worked out,
it starts to trump on the shitthat has not worked out.
So, yes, again, I just want tosay thank you for the continued
(07:48):
support.
Oh, I went to a networking event.
I need to really start writingthings down when I'm going to
talk, because sometimes I feelI'm all over the place, but
that's why I think you love meso much.
So I went to this networkingthing yesterday and here comes a
little minion.
I have two.
Yes, my love.
Okay, I can't get it.
You got, okay, I'll be rightthere, okay.
(08:09):
Okay, thank you, I'll be rightback, you'll All right.
So I went to this networkingevent yesterday because, baby,
I'm trying to go to everynetworking event I can find or I
get invited to, because I gotnothing but time.
Well, not a lot of time, butyou know what I mean.
Network makes the net worth.
In any event, a motivationalspeaker was there by the name of
James Dixon.
(08:30):
Unfortunately, I was not ableto.
I missed his speech.
However, we kind of just raninto each other and we were just
chopping it up and stuff likethat and I'm like you know I'm
sorry I missed it.
I heard this speech was great.
He's like yeah, I just, I justfrom London and all this and
layovers.
You know, he's like I'm just soexhausted.
I'm like man with beingexhausted and you still spoke so
(08:56):
well from what I heard.
He's like, yeah, because whenyou do what you love and you do
what you're calling and whatyour purpose is, it's not hard
at all.
And I'm like you know how is itas a motivational speaker,
because I I'll put myself in thecategory of motivational
(09:16):
speaker I'm like, yeah, I'm justso exhausted and I'm like I'm
just so exhausted and I'm likethose days where you don't feel
motivated and you know you'rejust tired and drained and just
lost, like you know, when theday where life is life-ing do
you feel like a fraud being amotivator, and he's like at
(09:37):
times, but then I get a phonecall quickly or an email quickly
or a comment quickly thereafterand it just reminds me why I do
what I do.
So it's basically like anenergy exchange.
So what he puts out, you know,comes back into him.
I'm like, damn, that's how Ifeel exactly, because this
(09:58):
morning laying in the bed, I'mjust like, oh, my God, all right
, what are we going to do today?
Am I going to handle this?
You know, the bills forChristmas is coming, the bills
is next month and all right.
And then I open up my Instagramand I get this beautiful
message about my podcast and howit just resonated and it's like
(10:18):
, man, this is what he wastalking about.
And it's like I quicklyreminded myself that I can't
focus on tomorrow, I can't focuson the next day, I can't focus
on next month.
I just have to focus on today,this minute, the next hour, the
next hour after that.
I have to focus on today andthat is my advice to you,
(10:41):
because I was just focusing onokay, this morning.
This morning I'm going to pray,I'm going to work out.
Be intentional.
I've used that word a lot.
I've used that word a lot thisyear.
Be intentional with what you dowith who you speak with, with
what you eat.
Being intentional will alwayscome back and there will be a
(11:03):
reward at the end of it.
So it's hard, I'm telling youall it's hard, but if you want
to enjoy this life, if you wantto enjoy the precious time that
we have left on this earth, ifyou want to like be done with
(11:24):
stress, anxiety and allowing forpeople to control your emotions
, I'm telling you, I'm promisingyou, continue to work on
yourself, because that is a truechallenge, not life.
The true challenge is becomingthe best version of yourself.
So, as always, thank you forthe continued support.
(11:48):
Also like share, subscribe.
My downloads are going up.
The following's are going up.
I really appreciate y'all.
I started this podcast.
I think it was 2021, the end of2021, sometime we're going into
2024, and you all know I'vealways loved radio.
(12:08):
I've had a passion for it, andyou all are the one that keep me
going.
My journal is available onAmazon.
Just click the link.
It's available.
My hand poured candles made byme will be available soon on.
I am Marilyn Mcom.
I am currently working on thatand giving it a lit facelift so
(12:31):
it'll be easy for you guys tonavigate.
It'll also be available on myTikTok shop.
Just head over to my TikTok.
I am Marilyn Mcom and thank you.
I love you guys so much asalways.
I will talk to you soon.
You want to come say bye, comeBye, bye, bye, I love you.
(12:57):
Bye, bye, talk into the mic,bye, I love you.
I love you.
Hello everyone and welcome back to this Is Me
podcast, and I am your girl,marilyn, so I'm just going to
jump right into it.
I received a message regardingone of the podcasts I posted
regarding the new job as thebusiness development manager
that I got, and I didn't submita resume.
Go back and listen to thepodcast for all the details.
(00:21):
And then I quickly realizedthat I have not given you guys
an update, because y'all allknow there's always something
going on in my life, honey,because you know what I am
curating the life that I wantfor me.
Whatever is meant to be will be, and I just have to listen to
God in my gut.
So I'm no longer at that job.
I was only there for about twomonths, no hard feelings.
(00:44):
However, I've just come to therealization that I am a 1099 and
not a W2.
And I'm finding myself andmeeting new employers and
today's day and age because,again, I was at a job for almost
16 years that employers justwant more for less.
(01:06):
Two, they think that becausethey pay you, they own you.
And three, I am a light.
I am a light and I will not letanybody take my light for their
own benefit.
So, yeah, so I just realizedthat it's just better that I
(01:30):
just continue to pour intomyself.
I mean, I have all of theseways to make some income and I
just needed to focus on that.
I am going to go back to realestate full time.
I have my side hustles with mycollaborations.
I'm bringing my candles back.
I have my journal that isavailable on Amazon.
(01:51):
Please go ahead and support andpurchase that journal.
I will be releasing another oneat the end of January and, um,
everything else it'll workitself out.
Am I scared?
Hell, yeah, I'm scared.
Shit, I got four mouths to feedand just disclaimer.
The two little ones are homeand Lord, lord, lord, lord, my
(02:13):
prayer is just to give mestrength because it is a lot.
It is like having twins.
But yeah, listen, I just.
I just realized that I have avision.
You know, I know what I'm goodat, I know what my worth is, and
you're going to get pushed backand that's okay.
You know you can't tell anybody, don't have your own vision.
(02:37):
But I'm just the type that letme just help you clean it up and
you're going to have somedifferences and you know what I
really have the differences inmy own businesses.
I mean, I do have my LLC andit's just time to build and not
let fear hold me back anymore.
And for those of you who havebeen following me all of these
years, you guys know I have beenat this for over 10 years.
(03:00):
It's just so crazy to me and Idon't feel like, oh my God, it's
been 10 years, I've wasted orI'm not where I want to be, but
in those 10 years I've beenthrough a lot of shit.
The journey was rough.
Do you hear him?
I feel like he hears talking,so he's exaggerates it.
(03:23):
I don't know if you hear himcoughing in the background, but
it's been rough.
But you know what.
That's.
What makes life exciting isgoing through the journey, going
through the trials andtribulations, going through the
mistakes, because only then areyou able to learn yourself,
you're really able to learn whatit is that you want.
(03:46):
And if you find yourself backto point A, where you started,
then you know that that's whereyou're meant to be.
And for me it's been a journeybetween living in Atlanta,
coming back, the car accident,finding my ex-husband, having
two kids, having this beautifulwedding, to getting divorced, to
(04:07):
getting back on my feet, togoing through these jobs and
just realizing that you are nolonger going to allow anyone to
have control of your life, butyou.
And I think that is the lessonhere that once I started taking
control of my life, thateverything and anything and
anything of AXR has beenhappening at its appointed time,
(04:31):
I just can't get in my own way.
And for a long time I've alwaysbeen like I don't know what I
want.
I don't know what I want, whatam I going to do?
I'm going to suck it, all right.
I just had to make sure he wasokay because he didn't stop
coughing.
And for a long time I wasalways like what do I want to do
(04:51):
?
What do I want to do?
And I realized that that wasn'tmy job to figure out the answer
.
My job and main focus was tocontinue to work on myself
mentally, physically, internally, all around me and then those
answers will come, those answersthat you have questions to will
(05:16):
be answered.
But if you do not work onyourself, then you do not know
where your direct, yourdirection is, where you're going
.
And let me tell you somethingTruly, truly, focusing on
working on yourself is a lot ofwork.
(05:36):
To what you eat, to what youput in your body, to the people
that you keep around, to yourphysicality, to making sure you
get the proper exercise beingevery time you leave.
While I leave my door, I amfighting a spiritual warfare.
(05:58):
It is like I am fighting demons, because with the good comes
the bad, right.
And it's like when you're sohappy and shit is gonna come,
something else is coming rightbehind it, right?
Oh, I saw this yesterday.
A coach was talking to a girl, abasketball coach, and she's
(06:22):
like it's never good.
You guys are waiting for it toget easier.
And this hit home for mebecause I'm guilty of that.
I was like, oh my God, please,just one day of easy.
But there's no such thing asone day of easy if I'm asking
for so much.
So she said you guys arewaiting for it to get easier,
school to get easier, basketballto get easier, life to get
(06:42):
easier.
It's never going to get easier.
You just have to get better athandling it harder.
And it's like damn, that shouldmake so much sense.
I have to continue to getstronger, continue to work on
myself.
So any shit that gets thrown atme, I already have the tools
(07:03):
and I'm stronger and have thestrength to fight that shit off
because, baby, I have beenthrough some shit and I am still
standing.
So, if you are with me, giveyourself a round of applause,
because only the strong survive,and this too shall pass.
And another difficult part isto.
(07:23):
We're so accustomed to lookingat the bad and what's not
working out in the negative, butjust a little shift as to the
things that have worked out.
And the more you think aboutthe things that have worked out,
it starts to trump on the shitthat has not worked out.
So, yes, again, I just want tosay thank you for the continued
(07:48):
support.
Oh, I went to a networking event.
I need to really start writingthings down when I'm going to
talk, because sometimes I feelI'm all over the place, but
that's why I think you love meso much.
So I went to this networkingthing yesterday and here comes a
little minion.
I have two.
Yes, my love.
Okay, I can't get it.
You got, okay, I'll be rightthere, okay.
(08:09):
Okay, thank you, I'll be rightback, you'll All right.
So I went to this networkingevent yesterday because, baby,
I'm trying to go to everynetworking event I can find or I
get invited to, because I gotnothing but time.
Well, not a lot of time, butyou know what I mean.
Network makes the net worth.
In any event, a motivationalspeaker was there by the name of
James Dixon.
(08:30):
Unfortunately, I was not ableto.
I missed his speech.
However, we kind of just raninto each other and we were just
chopping it up and stuff likethat and I'm like you know I'm
sorry I missed it.
I heard this speech was great.
He's like yeah, I just, I justfrom London and all this and
layovers.
You know, he's like I'm just soexhausted.
I'm like man with beingexhausted and you still spoke so
(08:56):
well from what I heard.
He's like, yeah, because whenyou do what you love and you do
what you're calling and whatyour purpose is, it's not hard
at all.
And I'm like you know how is itas a motivational speaker,
because I I'll put myself in thecategory of motivational
(09:16):
speaker I'm like, yeah, I'm justso exhausted and I'm like I'm
just so exhausted and I'm likethose days where you don't feel
motivated and you know you'rejust tired and drained and just
lost, like you know, when theday where life is life-ing do
you feel like a fraud being amotivator, and he's like at
(09:37):
times, but then I get a phonecall quickly or an email quickly
or a comment quickly thereafterand it just reminds me why I do
what I do.
So it's basically like anenergy exchange.
So what he puts out, you know,comes back into him.
I'm like, damn, that's how Ifeel exactly, because this
(09:58):
morning laying in the bed, I'mjust like, oh, my God, all right
, what are we going to do today?
Am I going to handle this?
You know, the bills forChristmas is coming, the bills
is next month and all right.
And then I open up my Instagramand I get this beautiful
message about my podcast and howit just resonated and it's like
(10:18):
, man, this is what he wastalking about.
And it's like I quicklyreminded myself that I can't
focus on tomorrow, I can't focuson the next day, I can't focus
on next month.
I just have to focus on today,this minute, the next hour, the
next hour after that.
I have to focus on today andthat is my advice to you,
(10:41):
because I was just focusing onokay, this morning.
This morning I'm going to pray,I'm going to work out.
Be intentional.
I've used that word a lot.
I've used that word a lot thisyear.
Be intentional with what you dowith who you speak with, with
what you eat.
Being intentional will alwayscome back and there will be a
(11:03):
reward at the end of it.
So it's hard, I'm telling youall it's hard, but if you want
to enjoy this life, if you wantto enjoy the precious time that
we have left on this earth, ifyou want to like be done with
(11:24):
stress, anxiety and allowing forpeople to control your emotions
, I'm telling you, I'm promisingyou, continue to work on
yourself, because that is a truechallenge, not life.
The true challenge is becomingthe best version of yourself.
So, as always, thank you forthe continued support.
(11:48):
Also like share, subscribe.
My downloads are going up.
The following's are going up.
I really appreciate y'all.
I started this podcast.
I think it was 2021, the end of2021, sometime we're going into
2024, and you all know I'vealways loved radio.
(12:08):
I've had a passion for it, andyou all are the one that keep me
going.
My journal is available onAmazon.
Just click the link.
It's available.
My hand poured candles made byme will be available soon on.
I am Marilyn Mcom.
I am currently working on thatand giving it a lit facelift so
(12:31):
it'll be easy for you guys tonavigate.
It'll also be available on myTikTok shop.
Just head over to my TikTok.
I am Marilyn Mcom and thank you.
I love you guys so much asalways.
I will talk to you soon.
You want to come say bye, comeBye, bye, bye, I love you.
(12:57):
Bye, bye, talk into the mic,bye, I love you.
I love you.
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