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Welcome to, this is my circus,the podcast where we embrace the
chaos and keep it real aboutparenting, pop culture, true
crime, and the books we can'tput down because let's be
honest, life is one big circusand we're just trying to survive
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So if you love unfilteredconversation, questionable
parenting hacks, and deep divesinto the things that keep us up
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at night, you're in the rightplace.
Buckle up, grab your popcorn,and let's get into the chaos.
Stephanie, I'm Meredith andwelcome to you.
This is my circus.
Hey Steph.
Hi.
I miss seeing you last week.
I know.
Feeling much better.
Good.
All better.
Just must have been just like alittle 24 hour thing.
Whatever happens to the best ofus.
Oh, at least it was only 24hours.
Yeah, it really wasn't even 24hours.
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It was what we're gonna call itthat, but it was just enough
time to mess up so many things.
Yeah, for sure.
This is such a busy time ofyear.
With the school ending and Yes.
Summer job.
Awesome.
Somebody called it Mayim becausethere's so much going on.
Especially, especially, well,no, not especially, but younger
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kids at school have so much,they have the field days and,
and different ceremonies and Iguess it feels like so much when
they're younger because parentsdon't have to go to those
things.
Mm-hmm.
I mean, parents have to go tothose things.
But then, you know, you've gotyour proms and your other, like
if you're in f, FFA or all theother things, you've got all
those awards, banquets andceremonies and baccalaureates
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coming up soon for graduation.
Yeah, I know.
So December.
Yeah.
Here we are.
Mm-hmm.
Here we are.
Plus teachers week and nursesweek.
Yeah.
All the things.
Thank you to both of thosegroups of people, because I
would never do either of those.
No, no.
Successfully, no.
I would do them, but I would notbe very good at them December's
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about halfway over.
Yeah.
So, yeah.
Well, we all know how my subbingwent for my, my short stint at
trying to sub I like that youput it out there though.
I like that you were like, well,it was a good year and a half.
Yeah, two years.
And I did it.
And again, I didn't mind it.
Right.
Other than.
You always had that one kid.
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Oh, of course.
Always the one.
But doing that literally made mehate children.
Isn't that crazy?
I used to love kids.
Yeah.
I used to love them.
I'd be like, oh yeah, kids coulddo no wrong.
Oh, that changed.
Children.
I'm very selective with the kidsthat I like, even still don't.
Now.
I am.
So one of Jackson's friends, hisname is Mackay, Mackay's the
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same age as Jackson, and he isgot a brother that's graduating,
Dylan probably knows themroundabout circles.
And their mom just had a baby.
Mm-hmm.
And he's adorable.
His name is Hakeem.
And I told her, I said, let mebabysit that baby.
I, I mean, I'll give him backobviously, but just can't
imagine having that big of a No,I mean, neither me, neither.
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Like, he's going to, he'sgraduating and going to USC
Beaufort.
So it's like total crazy.
I know she's more of a womanthan me.
I could not same, but I can'twait to keep him.
Listen.
She was like, are you serious?
I was like, yeah.
I said, if we didn't have a kid,by the time Dylan was two, like
another, another child.
Yeah.
That was it.
No, I know, I know.
Baby.
Make her was closed forbusiness.
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Shut down.
Shut down.
No, thank you.
Did you like that little, bearwalking on its hin legs?
I had seen that before and I waslike, oh, that's cute.
But then when you sent it withthe caption of me talking about
yourself, me trying to fight agrown man, it's this little
teeny tiny bear cub and walkingon aine legs, like trying to
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attack this lady's leg.
But it's like the most cutest itis ever.
It is.
And so yeah, I send it toMeredith thing.
Mm-hmm.
This is me.
Mm-hmm.
After a couple of drinksthinking I can fight a grown
man.
How about the one I'll sent youtoday, the baby otters?
Yes.
So we obviously have thatrelationship where we send stuff
back and forth, all day long.
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Videos, reels, all of it, allday, all day long.
I don't have that many people.
I do that with, you're one of mypeople.
That means you're officially oneof my people.
depends on the thing, on thememe, the reel, the whatever.
Depends on who I'm gonna send itto though.
Yeah.
Like, yeah.
Same stuff doesn't apply toeverybody.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
Or I would share it on my page.
Yeah.
Know your audience.
Know your audience.
Know your audience.
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Right.
Exactly.
That's a conversation I had withDylan.
Yeah.
When you're talking, you need toknow your audience.
Read the room.
Yes.
Absolutely.
That's, that's huge.
Well, what you been up to?
Really Nothing like I havenothing.
Nothing.
Your phone.
It's good now.
Oh yeah.
I can charge it again.
Yeah.
Yeah, it was like a week.
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I couldn't use the chargingcord.
Oh, you had to use the magneticone?
Yeah.
And you know how much of a painin the butt that is?
Yeah.
Especially when you're up allnight, you can't sleep and then
you, it's like on the littlecharging pad and like leaning
over, trying to watch.
And those cords like, I mean,I've got those too, and you can
switch the cords out, but mostof the ones I have that fit in
something like that are like thethree foot courts.
Yeah.
So it's like I'm hanging off thebed.
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Yeah.
Trying to, yeah.
A hundred percent agree.
Yeah.
Well, congratulations on your,thank you.
Yesterday I plugged it in justto see him.
Wait, what happened?
I'm like, let's just pray, CauseI wasn't even getting the sensor
of like, there's water.
Oh.
I mean, it was doing anything.
And then I took a little cloththat you get with like
eyeglasses or whatever.
Yeah.
And I stuck it around thecharger and I like shoved it in
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there thinking, well maybe some,there's something still in
there.
Yeah.
Oh yeah.
So after doing all that, um, Ifinally started getting the
message back that there's waterin the port.
And I'm like, well Elise, we'regetting a message now we're
getting something.
And then maybe like four hourslater I tried it again and it
workeded and it's been workingsince.
Knock on wood, knock on all thefake wood.
Good.
I wouldn't have thought ofputting the glasses thing in
there.
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Yeah.
Look at you being all ingeniouswith your.
It was not ingenious at all.
It was like desperation.
Like here, here I would go,taking a Q-tip, the fuzz would
get stuck up in there.
I'd try to get that out.
I'd put tweezers up there and itwould bend everything.
Yeah, yeah.
iPhone 16.
Here I come.
Well, I was like, oh, they'rehaving a deal right now.
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Yeah, they are.
They are.
Jackson needs a new phone.
I need to get'em a new phone.
I just hate the process.
I know.
I need to be a grownup.
Who wants to do that though?
Not me.
Funny meme I saw the other daythat said I'm an adult, but I
had a question and I, so Icalled my mom'cause she's a
supreme adult.
Absolutely.
Absolutely.
Oh mother.
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Happy late Mother's Day.
You too.
Thanks.
You got your cake?
I got my cake.
Was it delicious?
It was.
I made myself sick.
It was so good.
So, I ended up, so it was, itwas so funny.
No chocolate cake, whatever.
I told you I'm about to cry'cause I'm gonna last so hard.
I had told you that Brian had,that's not his thing.
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Ordering the cakes.
Yeah.
Okay.
So I was thinking single layersheet cake, right?
Mm-hmm.
Chocolate with white icing.
I said he doesn't really knowwhat he clicked when he was
ordering it.
Oh no.
It was, a double layer, quartersheet cake.
So it was a good, it was plentybig.
Yeah.
Enough.
I froze some for those days whenyou just need chocolate cake.
So double layer, don't know howthat happened and had pastel
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colored roses on it, which wasfine.
Just more icing, whatever.
And then like ocean waves aroundthe side.
I was like, babe, the, thewaves.
He was like, yeah, I don't know.
I was like, Hey, more icing.
No worries.
I was dying laughing.
Good job, Brian.
I know.
I'm so happy with it.
So, yeah, I did eat way toomuch.
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But I froze like half of it.
So, I cut it up in little piecesand put it in there so I can
just grab it when I need itbecause, you know, emergency
cake, that's gonna start being anew thing in my house.
Like seriously, it's, it's, it'scrucial emergency.
You know the vacuum seals andthey have Yeah, the little cups
now that, oh, do they have that?
Yeah.
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So it doesn't get squished.
That's a genius idea.
So the Diddy trial has started.
Oh my gosh.
Have you seen all the things?
I've seen some of them.
I'm glad you brought that up.
'cause I wanted to talk aboutthat today too.
First of all, have you heardthem talking about how terrible
he looks?
Yes.
Did you see a picture?
Yes.
He looks chunky and he looksold.
Yep.
Prison food is not his jam.
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Mm-hmm.
And somebody said on one ofthese, correspondent people I
was watching, not reallycorrespondents, they're not
official, whatever.
One of these talkers, one ofthese news correspondents, oh my
god.
Focus.
That they wondered if he wasdoing this on purpose.
I am wondering if that's evenhim.
It looks like somebody in a fatsuit.
I don't, I mean, I would, yeah.
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I wouldn't be surprised ifthat's not him.
You know, we need somebody, orthere needs to be somebody that
has the, um, like can do theface by face.
Mm-hmm.
And look at like the ears andlike the things that Yeah.
Can't change.
Like the bone str well, bonestructure can't change, but
facelift.
But you know what I'm saying,like, do the comparison.
He'll, he looks t if that's him,he looks terrible.
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Horrible.
I mean, I didn't expect him tolook good in prison, but No.
Well, again, we had said that Iwould not wanna be on the jury
neither, would you?
Correct.
But they did narrow down thejury to eight men and four
women, which I thought wasweird.
That is weird.
I think that obviously that wasmore due to the defense.
'cause I think men would be morewilling to look the other way
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with a lot of these things.
Yeah, I mean, I think if it wasa jury full of women and they
saw, I mean, just seeing theCassie video period Right.
It'd be like, yo Right.
Peace out.
Right.
Well, she did take the standyesterday.
Yesterday?
Or today?
Yeah, yesterday.
Yes.
Yesterday.
It might have been today.
I think it, it might havestarted yesterday.
It went into 20 for sure.
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When, and whenever she was Doyou have any dates on that?
Do you wanna that Well, yeah.
So the opening statements, thatwere made, prosecutors went in
hot saying, about the Cassievideo.
It's gonna be disturbing.
Yep.
Blah, blah, blah.
They did show the Cassie videotoo.
The jury.
Mm-hmm.
And then said how he exploitedher and forced her into drugs,
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forced her into the freak offparties, et cetera.
They did say that she admittedto initially consenting to the
freak off parties, but, if andwhen she said no, there was
extreme consequences.
Well, what I heard too was thatshe didn't know how to say no to
him.
'cause she was scared of therepercussions.
Yeah.
So, yeah, he definitelyconditioned her yeah., Now there
is a special place in hell forDiddy's defense attorneys
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because her opening statementsays, this is disgusting.
Mm-hmm.
And I hate this person.
Said in her opening statementthat the video was horrible,
dehumanizing, and terrible, butit was domestic violence, not
combs, forcing her into sex.
She also argued that all of thecombs sexual encounters were
entirely consensual and blamedthe charges on jealous exes and
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former employees wanting money.
Oh my goodness.
That was your opening statement.
That's disgusting.
Yeah.
Oh, then she ended it closedout.
Her opening statement with SeanCombs is a complicated man, but
this is not a complicated case.
This case is about voluntarychoices made by culpable adults
and consensual relationships.
No, I'm hoping that some ofthose men on that jury think
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about their sisters or theirmoms or their daughters or
whatever.
Yeah.
Or maybe just be a decent humanbeing.
Well, yeah, that might be, thatmight be, stretch.
so I did see today, there was aninterview with Bob Marley's
daughter.
Okay.
And she said she had met Diddymany times, I guess, and that
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yes, he did bad things and heneeds to pay the price for
those.
But she said that when she methim years ago, and he was very
open with her and like they, youknow, got onto like a really,
like deeper level, not likedating or anything like that,
just, you know, talking levelthat he said that, he doesn't
know anything different.
Like this is how he was raisedas like, oh, from the time he
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was like a baby, like in ritualsand in like all of these.
Really?
Yeah.
And that he was used as a humanaltar.
And this is before any of this,stuff has even came out in light
like this.
Like he wouldn't be making thisup to have a, like a set up of
defense.
Right.
Wow.
And he said how do you know ifyou have a soul?
Because I don't know.
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Wow.
That does not negate what he'sdone.
Right.
But I was like, oof.
Well, that just goes, you know,the cycles of abuse.
Yeah.
That, that happened.
He just did it on a huge scale.
Yeah.
So yesterday or whenever the,Cassie took the stand, whatever
they were talking about, hergiving her some of the things,
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the kids left.
Mm-hmm.
Did you see that?
Yeah.
They walked out, I think watchtwo girls.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Just because of the graphicnature of what, and I don't
blame'em.
Mm-hmm.
But I mean, that's, also, didyou see Jaguar Wright is there?
Yes.
Yes.
I'm glad she's still alive.
So am I.
That's when I can't wait for herto Yeah.
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Talk.
Give us, give us all of it.
All of it.
Mm-hmm.
All of it.
I'm interested to see how thistakes a turn.
Yeah.
They can't stream it'cause it'sa federal case.
Yes.
I found that too.
'cause we had talked about that.
We wanted it to be, but becauseit is federal and out state
thing.
Yep.
The cancering, they said itpossibly it'll take about eight
weeks is what I saw.
We'll see.
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I mean, there's no way to reallyknow that.
No, I think it's gonna be,unless they just, it's gonna be
a freaking mess.
It's just a mess.
We'll have some brief updates onthat if you guys have not looked
up the picture of him.
Ooh.
Look it up.
He is not, not going well forhim in there.
Speaking of complete trash,sorry.
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It's a good intro.
There is apparently like anongoing thing right now in St.
Louis, that uncovered like abunch of bodies and, and a
dude's, the guy's Clint Smith.
Have you heard this?
No, I, there's not much out onit right now, but, a girl was
watching a live stream and shewas like, commenting on it and
there were like 30 bodies havebeen found all women in,
children in St.
Louis.
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In St.
Louis.
Okay.
And then her husband is watchingwhatever news, and they're like,
so far nothing's been found, butlike she had was watching like
the live, live news and so itwas like they were covering up
already of this like, yeah.
I mean, when was the last timeyou heard of like a legit serial
killer?
Yeah, it's been a long time.
So that got me wondering, like,okay, if dude's a serial killer,
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he's got 30 bodies in his yard.
They don't tell anybody mm-hmm.
With stuff anymore.
They say they don't wanna causepanic.
Well, let me tell you, but, butI think the people have a right
to know.
And then to have it livestreaming for an hour and
saying, yep.
30th body or whatever it was.
Right, right.
And immediately after that, onthe next news clip or whatever,
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saying that they haven't foundanything or, is it.
One of those time travelingthings.
We talked about the glitches inthe matrix.
See maybe So, speaking of timetraveler stuff, Whoopi Goldberg
recently, I am not a fan.
Don't even like saying her name.
I can tell by your, you are noteither.
Not a fan of the view, but therewas a situation recently and I
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looked for the videos on thisand cannot find it where
something happened it on whenthey were recording and she
said, what is that?
Like something was walking andnobody else saw anything.
And then the recording justcontinued and there are no
videos that I can find of this.
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Oof.
Yeah, it's probably the devilcoming to get her'cause she's so
horrible.
I do not like her.
I don't either.
I don't like any of them.
Olivia?
No.
I liked her in Ghost when I wasvery young and I didn't know
better and since then Oh, andthat's the one where she's a
nun.
Oh, this is Jacked.
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Yes.
I love that movie.
Right.
And then we found out she's apiece of trash.
Mm-hmm.
This is the garbage app.
The garbage episode.
Yeah, I, I'm not a fan of, ofthat No.
And anything, I mean, it's totalnonsense.
Yeah.
Is, is correct.
Correct.
So did you see, wait, theAnnabelle doll?
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Yeah.
Did, did you know that they takeit out on on tours?
Why would you put that out inthe world?
That needs to stay locked up.
And then it's not even a doll,like from the movies.
It's a raggedy andn doll is thereal Annabelle doll.
It's a raggedy andn.
Okay.
And what do they take?
That's what they take.
That's what they take.
Okay.
They take in the movies.
It's like a doll.
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Okay.
Like, like a baby doll?
Yeah.
Not a raggedy.
It's like a Yeah.
A freaky looking doll.
Yeah.
It's not a Raggedy Inn doll.
But the real Annabelle isRaggedy Inn.
What, what, what, where do theytake you to like, I have
questions.
They do tours of like these likeparanormal tour whatevers.
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So last weekend or like May 8thor whatever, Annabel Dahl got
brought to the West Virginiapenitentiary, which is also one
of like a very haunted, I'm sureit is.
Right.
So, yeah.
Okay.
No, thank you.
And so it's supposed to be,there's like hundreds of
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hundreds of people have diedthere.
Um, I didn't know this, butapparently people are unhinged
enough to want to do experiencesin these places.
And the keepers of Annabelle,the Warrens occult museum, got
in on this and brought the, thekeepers of Annabelle.
That was, that was my little,oh, write up of it.
You did great.
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No, that was all me.
No, good job.
Good job.
Got it.
They, so they got in on this oneand brought the demon doll as
one of the featured experience.
Highlights.
I mean, I get it.
I don't.
I don't like stuff like that,but I'm not that one.
Right, right.
I mean, I'm gonna do a cornmaze, but I don't want anything
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to do with Annabelle.
But I can see, so we've been todifferent, like haunted trails
and stuff.
Yeah.
And they'll have special guests.
The Tiger King, one of the TigerKing guys was there.
Like, I could see that being adraw, but I don't want anything
to do with it.
I thought you were like, yeah,I'm in.
And I'm like, what are youtalking about?
No, no, no, no.
I could understand the marketingbehind it.
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Okay.
So I went to the website'causeI'm like, who wants to do this?
Like, I don't understand it.
What, what is this?
There's two different options.
Okay.
You can do the full weekendexperience, which is limited to
only 40 people.
And our full experience will runThursday night through Sunday
morning where we will spend timegetting to know one another
through a dinner, meet andgreet, host a couple of
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workshops, and then plan for ourovernight investigations in the
penitentiary.
No.
Um, on Friday and Saturdaynight, we will stay overnight at
the prison investigating variouslevels as well as doing
different experiments.
This also includes investigatingthe prison with the Warrens
Haunted Museum artifacts.
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Okay, let me say this.
No, I don't wanna spend thenight, but I would think that
seeing the prison, an old prisonwould be really cool.
I don't know.
I, I don't wanna bring anyspirits home with me.
Oh no, they're not coming withme.
Don't, I'm too full of Jesus forthere to be anything else.
I just don't want anythingattaching themselves.
No, but I just, the history, youknow, you know the nerd in me.
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I know, but I know.
Oh, no, no, no.
It's not coming with this.
I'm just wanna see the, yeah.
I need to be like blessed.
Mm-hmm.
Just talking about this.
So then they have one day passfor those who just wanted to
visit the location to see theitems and take pictures with
Annabel.
I don't wanna do that.
Why?
My questions are why?
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You know, we know people thatlove horror movies and stuff
enough that they would, I lovehorror movies.
Horror movies.
I don't want to go to one.
I don't want be You don't wannastard one.
I don't wanna be in one.
That's the making it can say onthe tv.
Did you see Blair Rich Project?
Yes.
I was so scared.
Were you?
I thought I was stupid.
Like it made me so madly wholeshaking.
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I think I was scared inanticipation of what was gonna
happen, and then it was soanticlimactic.
Yeah.
That's crazy though.
Mm-hmm.
I've been to some, to a hauntedtrail where the Michael Myers
guy was the real, Michael Myersguy was there, and you could
take pictures with him.
I mean, like, I get that that'sa human, just human.
Mm-hmm.
It's not the actual murderer.
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Right.
I get that.
Right.
I don't get a, a doll.
A ze demon doll.
And why you would No.
I would tour, uh, an old prison.
I mean, I wanna go see Alcatraz.
That's a huge thing.
Yeah.
The whole concept to me, freaksme out Yeah.
Of going with all the possesseditems.
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Yeah.
On purpose.
Well, I don't want to seepossessed items.
I just wanna see the items.
Like I don't, yeah.
Okay.
Do you wanna move on?
Mm-hmm.
Okay.
Well, we had talked about.
Vampires.
Yes.
Well, I've been watching the guythat you sent me, talking about
them being in the AppalachianMountains and stuff.
He's pretty interesting tointerview.
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He's, he's, oh my gosh.
Some of the stories he tells.
Mm-hmm.
Well I was, I don't know,scrolling and there's a girl
that does like spooky story timeor whatever, or people submit
their, like experiences and sheretells them.
Do you remember when I said MattRife was the experience?
Yes.
Experience.
That was great.
It was awesome.
That was one of first episodes,wasn't it?
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He wanted to experience Yeah.
Still kind mean He got weird.
I don't know.
Yeah.
Still hot.
Yeah.
I, they, I don't know.
Something about him coming.
Oh, well, I think he and hiswife split.
He wasn't married, was he?
I don't know.
I made that up.
Okay.
Okay, go back.
I got us totally off track.
Okay.
So she was doing a spooky, scarywhatever time, and this woman
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went to New Orleans mm-hmm.
For work conference or whatever.
And she doesn't like seeing thehotel.
So she got an Airbnb, the Airbnbhost told her if anybody knocks
on the door after whatever time,do not open it for anything.
Like don't open it.
And she was like, okay, well sheknows I'm single, like a ding
don ditch, or, or I'm, I'm awoman who run my head or a dude,
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whatever.
So she was doing her thing,whatever, It was like, like 11
or 12 o'clock or whatever itwas.
Late enough that like, you'reno, I don't know anybody coming
and whatever.
So she hears the very lightknock on the door, and she goes
to the door and she looks melike the people.
And she said it was the mostbeautiful man you have ever seen
in your entire life.
Beautiful sculpted face, blondehair, like blue eyes, just
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gorgeous.
And he's like, Hey, I'm sosorry.
I stayed here and I left myphone in the house.
You don't, you don't even haveto let me in.
I just, I'll tell you where itis.
And she's like, well, I haven'tseen anything here.
And he mumbled something and shecouldn't hear him, so she
cracked the door open he justsmiled at her and said, that's
all I needed.
And he walked away.
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So she was like, well, that wasweird.
And she closes the door.
I guess like you don't have toinvite them in as long as they
open the door.
I don't know.
So anyway, you're freaking out.
Like face.
I'm totally freaking out.
So that night at like during themorning, she wakes up out of her
sleep and is seeing a shadow,out of her window.
And then she saw, she said thatshe saw the man's face like in
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the window and she kept hearing,three knocks.
And so she calls the Airbnb hostthe next day and she's like, oh
my God, this is what happened.
And she said, well, did you openthe door?
And she said, yeah, I couldn'tunderstand him and I just
cracked it open.
I didn't let him in or anything.
I just cracked open the door.
And she's like, okay.
And she hung up.
So we think that he was avampire.
(23:17):
Mm-hmm.
And she said even after she leftNew Orleans, when she got home
three o'clock in the morning,she'll still hear a knocking
sometimes.
Yes.
Well, you know, they'reconnected now.
Mm-hmm.
And if he feeds off of her, it'seven worse.
Mm-hmm.
That is freaky.
Yeah.
That is, do we think this isreal?
I don't know.
I believe in all things, so I,that's why I don't wanna be take
(23:39):
a picture next to Annabell.
I believe in it.
I don't believe in the doll.
I do.
I believe it's possessed well.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,yeah, yeah.
You're right.
Right, right.
That is crazy.
Yeah.
She told her not to do it.
I know, but I would think thesame thing.
Totally would've, but likecontrol.
(24:00):
Like, can't they?
I think there has to be somekind of connection there.
Like when they do drink or whenthey have what?
Yeah.
I just, I'm like so fascinatedwith these like real life
stories mm-hmm.
With things that happen.
If y'all know anybody in NewOrleans that has all these real
life stories, please tell us,Steph, what are going to go,
what are we gonna do when we goand like, have our own real life
(24:21):
experience maybe.
And, and we'll go, I'm wearingelbow pads.
I'm gonna wear some of Jackson'sold, like bicycle elbow pads.
I'm gonna not look like atourist at all.
Be wrapped in bubble.
Pretty much Can just see myeyes.
Oh my gosh.
Okay.
(24:41):
Yeah.
I mean, I still wanna go.
Not gonna lie.
So why?
But, okay.
No, I mean, I think it'd be,yeah, I don't know.
I don't know if I wanna meet avampire or not.
Like I, I do.
Yeah.
I wanna meet like Carlisle fromTwilight.
Yeah.
And he's benign.
I mean, that's about as bananaas you can get.
Yeah.
We've probably already met onethink.
(25:04):
Yeah.
Oh, that'd be so cool.
Well, we'll never know.
Oh my goodness.
No, I'm thinking of erase ourmemory and I don't wanna know if
I, if you are and you're one ofmy friends, that's okay.
I'll accept it.
I do wanna know though.
I I mean, know I've have reallygood blood.
Me too.
Don't advertise it.
Lemme know.
(25:25):
I if we do it like a little bit,little portions, I'll give you a
couple shots.
You know, have mind control.
You're giving a shut, shut shut.
Just don't drain me.
Yeah.
Okay.
Okay.
And like if you're hurt, if, ifyou're my friend and you're a
vampire and you're hurt and youneed some of my magic blood,
I'll give you some of my magicblood.
Yeah.
(25:45):
Not directly from me.
I know.
Be like in a shot glass.
Yes.
Yes.
But that's like a limited.
Just letting y'all know, that'swhere I draw the line.
I will give you my blood in, in,in case if you need it, since
we're both o negative.
Yes, yes.
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do you get on the side of TikTokwhere they're talking about the
giants, the real giants andstuff like that and like some
they're made from like thefallen angels.
Who?
So it's crazy that you say thatbecause I was looking at
something today.
Okay.
And I wanted to do a little moredigging on it, and I didn't have
a chance, but it was this dudetalking about giants and all
(26:30):
this stuff.
And then he showed these treesthat works like bigger than the
sequoias out west.
Mm-hmm.
And, I need to dig in it somemore, but my face right now is
just like, you mind control.
So tell me what you found.
I see it a lot.
'Cause I'm on like the weirdside of TikTok.
Apparently you're a weird talk.
(26:53):
So a guy was talking about apodcast that he had listened to.
Mm-hmm.
Or he had watched and the gueston it was Nathan Reynolds.
And I wanna do a total deepdive.
I'm like fascinated at thispoint.
Okay.
But.
He was on the podcastConfessionals, and if you want
to look it up, it's episode 665,which I was like, whoa.
(27:15):
It was one number off.
I was holding my breath at thatlight.
Yeah.
So, um, the, on this podcast,Nathan claims.
His family is of bloodline fromthe fallen angels, and they can
trace it all the way back tohowever many wherevers he talks
about his upbringing andrecounts his harrowing childhood
(27:36):
with clandestine family claimingdescent from ancient Es.
He describes a childhood markedby ritual abuse, psychological
manipulation, and exposure tooccult practices, all aimed at
grooming him for the involvementin covert military operations
and secret societies.
Reynolds shares chillingexperiences including encounters
with entities like Dogman andbiblical creatures, and reveals
(27:58):
the dark history of vocationssuch as Lake Havasu City,
Arizona, which he alleges has asight for child exploitation in
occult rituals.
His narrative is one of survivaland redemption, shedd light on
hidden realms of the shadowyaspects of his past.
That's kooky.
He legit is like, yeah, my wholefamily, believes that they are
(28:19):
superior to any human.
How could you possibly tracethat?
I don't know, but holy moly.
You know, I'm of a branch of theBigfoot Sasquatches from the
fairy line.
Yeah.
I'm a so on branch best I cantrace, I could turn these, my
(28:44):
lineage back to tinker about,and I'm like, har, the
Hendersons over here.
Okay.
Yeah.
That is crazy though.
You are on weird talk.
I kind of like it though.
It's interesting.
Yeah.
I, I see the weirdest things.
But I'm there for it.
I, I think that, um, it's gotyour algorithm nailed down right
(29:06):
now.
So I have the podcast page,Uhhuh, and then I have my
regular page and it's, they'reso different.
Yeah.
Algorithms are so different.
So different.
Yeah.
That's probably a good thing.
So I get to go on one, see allthe weird things.
And most of your personalitiesare taken care of.
Right now my feet is all promstuff.
I guess.
I've, I've liked too many promthings and, a lot of Dylan's
(29:28):
truck.
but yeah, a lot of promtransition photos and stuff.
I haven't seen any any promstuff speaking of dress stuff, I
was helping Ashley at a wedding.
I don't remember when it allruns together.
And, I was complimenting thebride's dress.
It was beautiful.
It was, you know, app princessthing, all of the things.
And she was like, thank you.
(29:50):
And I was, you know, where didyou get it?
Making small talk.
And she told me she bought it atwhatever store.
And she said I was the first oneto pick this out.
I guess it was a new style.
And she said, they'll name itafter me.
And I was like, so it's like theCourtney or whatever.
Yeah.
I was like, oh.
And what's so great is thisgirl's not like super bougie,
you know, whatever.
(30:11):
She was just like a regularperson.
Like, I just liked the dress andI bought it, so now it's named.
I was like, what a flex.
What a flex.
You had a wedding dress namedafter me.
Right, right.
I loved wedding dress shopping.
I absolutely loved it.
I did not.
Okay.
Did you get the kind of dressthat you thought you would end
up with?
(30:31):
Yes.
Yeah.
But I tried on like a milliondifferent Yeah.
Dresses.
Yeah.
But yeah, I did love my dress.
Mm-hmm.
I love my dress too.
Do you still have your dress?
I do.
It's like it preserved in a boxthough.
Yeah.
But I've thought about taking itout and trying to see if I fit
into it.
It probably falls off of younow.
that was my tiniest I wasworking out like all the time
and living Yeah.
Back then.
(30:51):
Well, you know, after we havekids too, our bodies change
shape even if your weight isless or your, your shape
different.
Yeah.
It's just.
What happens now?
I'll never forget right beforeI, hi Jackson, and this is how
stupid I was.
So I was around my nephews alot, a lot, a lot.
So I was like, oh, I'm good.
Like I, my sister had'em, Ihelped raise them.
I was like, I got this a coupleweeks before Jackson was born, I
(31:16):
was like, my hips hurt.
Mm-hmm.
It's like, what in the world?
And I didn't go to any classes,I didn't read any books.
And I was like, my hips.
And this girl at worked, she wasfrom, long Island.
We called her our cranky Yankee.
She was great, but she just had,you know, a very northern
accent.
Mm-hmm.
And she was like, it's becauseyou are about to give birth.
(31:38):
You know, my accent is terrible.
But I was like, oh, well thatmakes sense.
That makes sense.
Yeah.
I really had, I had the easiestpregnancy in the entire world.
Easiest thing ever.
Yeah.
Yeah.
And good for you.
The last like three weeks, likeall I had, like my, my feet
swelled, like, yeah.
So full of water.
Mm-hmm.
But that was really like mybiggest complaint was, was just
(31:58):
my feet swelled.
I had a terrible pregnancy.
We'll talk about that one day.
Yeah.
We can go into all of our stuff.
Yeah.
Not all of it.
No, I don't have anything.
Not even, do you have anydelivery stories?
I had a C-section.
I mean, he went right.
To the nicu.
Yeah.
But, yeah.
Well, that was fun.
Talk our next episode.
(32:19):
We will not be talking about anykind of pregnancy or labor and
delivery situations.
So you wanna do, am I there?
Yep.
Because now I think I am.
All right, so it starts there.
Oh my God, I can't read this.
Seriously.
Is this seriously it?
You're not punking me?
(32:39):
No.
All right.
Here we go.
Am I the, a-hole for notattending my daughter's gender
reveal for her lizard?
All right.
This is literally really stupid,but she's really upset about it.
So my, I'm a 48-year-old.
Person.
Daughter 23 has a blue tonguekin, it's my stripper name.
(33:03):
Okay, lemme go.
Lemme start over.
Okay.
This is literally really stupid,but she's really upset about it.
So my 48 daughter, she's 23, hasa blue tongue s skin who she
heavily adores.
She jokingly refers to it as herdaughter.
I found it weird, but she saysit's because it's the closest
thing she'll have to a child.
(33:24):
And she feels a strong emotionalbond similar to a child.
She's decided to remain childfree for multiple reasons, and
I've been very supportive ofthis decision.
Well, she recently took her sskin to the vet for a checkup
and she was excited to find outher S skin's gender.
Afterwards I got a text askingif I'd come to her gender reveal
(33:46):
party she was having.
She explained it was just asmall get together with cake and
food for her friends.
She hasn't seen in a while withthe gender reveal being mostly a
joke and a way to make fun ofreal gender reveals.
Well, I didn't go, I didn't seea point.
It's just a lizard and I'm abusy person.
She later called me andexpressed, she was kind of sad.
(34:07):
I didn't come'cause it'd been awhile since I'd seen her, but
she understood I was busy.
I told her she couldn't actuallyexpect me to come to a gender
reveal for a lizard.
She said that it wasn't a realgender reveal.
That was more of a joke and itwas really just a small
gathering to catch up witheveryone.
I.
I told her if that was the case,she should have called it a
gathering because I'm not comingto a gender reveal unless it's
for a real granddaughter.
(34:28):
She got quiet for a minute andthen turned my words around,
claiming I wasn't supportive ofher decision to be child free.
I told her she can't possiblyexpect me to treat a lizard as a
granddaughter.
She said she didn't expect meto, but it was clear I didn't
respect her bond with her lizardand her decision.
This is, you've got to bepunking me.
She just wanted to see me and myreason for not coming was
(34:51):
hurtful.
I told her she was beingridiculous over a lizard.
She claimed it wasn't over thelizard and it was a gathering,
not even centered around thelizard, but I stick to by what I
said.
It's ridiculous to have ajittery feel for a lizard.
Stupid sk.
This is all off the rails.
She hung up and I got a messagefrom her best friend about how
(35:14):
I'm an a-hole for treating herthat way, but I don't think I'm
the a-hole for not wanting to goto a party for a lizard.
Question mark edit.
In the time I was away, I gotmany replies and it was a lot to
read through.
Let me clear a couple things up.
Number one, my issue is that shesaid the party was a gender
reveal.
If she had called it just aparty, I would've come.
But calling it a gender revealmakes it sound like it's for the
(35:35):
lizard and I'm not going to it,even if it's a joke.
What would you bring as apresent?
Crickets.
Or like I had to train yourdragon uh, wings.
Oh yeah.
Those are so cute.
Uhhuh adorable.
Yeah.
Okay.
Number two.
I don't know why it matters, butthe skin is a girl, which why I
said I'm not coming to a generalreveal unless it's for a real
(35:55):
granddaughter, even though Idon't agree.
Oh, sorry.
Number three, even though Idon't agree with my daughter for
being child free, I've beensupportive.
It only showed my frustration,the reason she's decided to be
child free.
Well, she's 23, first of all.
Yeah, if she claims she'sasexual, she just doesn't want
one.
She has emotional baggage andfeels unable to care for a real
(36:16):
child.
She fears pregnancy.
She has a carrier gene like me,and doesn't want to go through
what I did.
I had for miscarriages and ahighly defect child that died
after three months due to thegene.
Yes, there has been slighttension between us because I
think she just hasn't found theright man.
She never dated growing up, andher other fears are
unnecessarily exaggerated, butit's ultimately her decision and
(36:37):
I don't resent her.
I called BS on that same numberfour.
We hadn't seen each other inthree months.
I'm a single mother and we'vealways been close, which is why
she invited me with her friends.
I just don't wanna go to a partywith a lizard.
And if it wasn't for the lizard,she should have called it a
party instead of a genderreveal.
She's sticking to that one,isn't she?
Okay, so let's talk about this.
(36:59):
Yes.
I don't think she's the, a-hole,but there's a lot of issues, a
whole lot to unpack in this one.
I don't think she's an a-hole.
I don't think she's wrong, but Idon't think she's right.
Same.
there's a lot of, a lot ofhistory here Right.
That is not being told anddoesn't sound like if you hadn't
seen your daughter in threemonths and you're invited to go,
go is one of, if, if it's, youknow, if you don't have anything
(37:20):
else mm-hmm.
They sound like a hot mess?
Yeah.
I mean, she obviously says shehas emotional issues, there's a
lot going on, a lot going on,and I tend to think that the mom
has something to do with it.
Mm-hmm.
Okay.
So there's an update.
Okay.
But it's from the daughter'sbest friend finds the post and
replies.
Okay, so this is the next day?
Mm-hmm.
(37:40):
What's WA mean?
You're the a you're the A-hole.
Yeah.
Okay.
You're the a-hole.
And I'm surprised you had thegall to post this knowing she
frequents read it.
This is the best friend thattexted you.
You blocked my number.
Not that it matters, you know,it wasn't about the reveal.
It was an excuse to hold aparty.
We had fun without you.
The lizard had an adorable tinyparty hat That's that's cute.
(38:03):
And we had a Kate that said,it's a girl.
And we popped a glittery sparklyparty popper.
It got all over the walls andthe ceiling and our friend John.
And we started making jokes likeCall the MS for John.
And they do say gender revealsare dangerous.
Who knew But I'm sure she sentyou the video so you know what
you missed out on.
We made fun of it for the mostpart, and blasted the last of us
music since that's where Ellie'sname comes from.
(38:24):
Not because she wanted an excusefor her social anxiety.
I guess Allie is the lizard'sname.
Mm-hmm.
She struggled with her identityfor years and you're never
supportive.
When she was trying to figure itout, if she was a lesbian, you
sat her down for 30 minutes andexplained how it's normal to get
feelings confused, but peopleweren't meant to like the same
jitter.
It was probably just friendshipfeelings.
She was confusing.
(38:45):
You're part of the reason shenever explored her sexuality
further with your sex is naturaland you can't have a
relationship without sexComments knowing not only is she
mildly autistic and alreadystruggles to understand and
comprehend her emotions, butshe's also a victim of a
negative experience.
You know, she has a codependencyissue and living by herself has
(39:07):
been really difficult for her toovercome and Ellie has helped
immensely.
She was upset.
She didn't come when she wantedto see you because she adores
you and you didn't even call herfor Thanksgiving.
Oh, this mom is the A-hole.
She is.
I take it back.
I do too.
You are the a-hole.
All of these things.
You're a bad mom and not in thegood way.
(39:27):
No.
Yeah.
You've you've handled a lot ofthings poorly, mom.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
You are the a-hole, um, yeah,okay.
First of all, if daughter's gotall these issues that she's
admitted and she's aware of andshe's working on and coping
with, why would you want her tohave a child?
(39:51):
Because does it not sound likethe mom is just one of those,
parents that want, need to bethe center?
Yeah, I would like to seepictures though of the lizard
party hats.
And I like cake.
You should have invited me.
Meredith will come next time.
She'll be the standin mom.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
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in a quiet college town, LilaRidgefield husband goes missing.
(40:32):
Shortly after a student vanishespart of a string of mysterious
disappearances.
While a town panics and policesearch for answers, Lila Harbors
a dark secret.
She was a elastic to see herhusband's dead body, and now
it's missing.
As suspicion rises, the truthlurking beneath the town surface
may be more twisted than anyonesuspects.
(40:52):
So.
Different than what I thought itwas gonna be.
Yeah.
I started out all into thisbook.
Mm-hmm.
Like it grabbed me and I totallyfell off.
Really?
Yes.
I don't know if it's because Iwas late to get the book.
It took a while for it to beavailable for me, and then I was
listening to it on like 1.5.
Wow.
(41:13):
But, and then I got back intoit, but it lost me a little bit
there.
Uh, uh, like a quarter to half.
Okay.
And then I jumped back in.
Okay.
Great.
Um, what'd you think about it?
I didn't get bored at all.
I was in it from the start.
I think it definitely catchesyou from the beginning.
Yeah.
I think the author gave theperfect amount of information as
the story progressed.
Yeah.
(41:33):
It wasn't too much and youweren't sitting there wondering.
Right, right.
She did it very well.
She developed the story verywell.
Agreed.
It gave me Earl has to DieVibes.
Oh yeah.
Oh yeah.
Absolutely.
Did you see those, photo shootsof the Earl Has to die?
No.
Like, it's like the bestfriend's photo shoots where,
(41:53):
burying the dead body.
Oh, that's cute.
We're definitely doing some,some photo shoots year.
Yeah.
But yeah, so I love that it wasa lot of women supporting women
with the Yeah.
The neighbor seeing everythingthat happened and she's like,
girl, I got you.
Yeah.
You're good.
Yeah.
Well, even the detective, At theend she was like I'm not gonna
lose sleep over it.
Right, right.
(42:14):
A hundred percent.
But I love that the womandetective was the smart one.
Mm-hmm.
And everybody underestimated herexcept another woman.
Right.
Like, I'm not all into, like,women are smarter than men or
whatever, but it's always nicewhen you see a strong female
character who's not an assholestrong mm-hmm.
(42:35):
But just doing her job.
Yeah.
And, and doing it well.
And, and yeah.
Not like on a power trip.
Right.
I did not expect the ending.
Yeah.
I did not either at all.
Mm-hmm.
And there was like three twistsat the inch.
Yeah.
Well, but, but the whole time Iwas like, he's dead.
Yeah.
Like she killed him.
She said she did.
We know this fact one, lemmetake notes.
(42:57):
Yeah.
He's dead.
She checked his pulse.
He was dead.
Yeah.
And I was like, they got me.
Yeah.
Yeah.
100.
I did not.
Mm-hmm.
See it.
Okay.
Yeah.
So obviously spoilers, Okay.
Taken aback at the very end, weget a insight of how the
brothers became so creepy uhhuhand what they did to the mom.
(43:20):
With the hunting, wait, I spankspanked.
I did not spank anybody.
The wrong kind of book.
These aren't chili pepper books.
I must have, I must have spaced,spaced out.
What did they do to the mom?
Oh my gosh.
So when they were little, thedad, would get with a bunch of
(43:43):
rich people.
Mm-hmm.
And they would kidnap women,strip them naked, and then they
would hunt them in the woods.
Yeah.
I miss all that.
Really Maybe that, maybe that'swhy I wasn't as into the book as
I should have been.
They didn't tell it until theend.
Like when, okay.
Yeah.
I missed saw that, but that'scrazy.
Because she was like, did youguys kill your mom?
Was your mom?
Mm-hmm.
Like the first one because ofthe, I think it was like a
(44:05):
necklace or a bracelet.
Yeah.
That the a the initial on it.
Yeah.
And he was like, no.
And then he told how his dad andall of these like mega rich,
powerful people.
Oh yeah, no, I missed all that.
And he would bring the boys and,but her husband could never do
the kill.
Like he didn't have it in him todo it, to actually did the kill.
And so the brother was the onethat would always do the kill.
(44:29):
But when the mom found out whatwas going on, the dad took her
to the hunting woods and theydid that to her.
Yeah.
I missed all that.
And the boys were like 10, 11,like little when the dad started
bringing them hunting, as theycalled it.
(44:49):
Hunting.
Yeah.
But I feel like this is a realthing in like another country.
Like I feel like I've heard thisbefore.
I've seen several shows and I'veread other books where I
thought, well, maybe this is abook I've read.
Yeah.
Where that's a thing wherethey'll, it probably is.
Yeah.
Like you have enough money, youcan do whatever you want.
Well, and that's the thing, it'slike these people that are big
(45:11):
game hunters, and they're like,but the, the most quote fun
animal is gonna be one that canthink And Yeah.
Twisted, twisted, twisted.
Probably real thing.
So, yeah.
Um, I, that that woman has somehorrible luck in the mental Yes.
Because, yes.
So first her dad Yeah.
(45:31):
Who murders and does whatever toher best friend.
Right.
And then she shunned like herwhole life.
Right.
Then this, she marries dude whois a complete whack job.
Mm-hmm.
And also does inappropriatethings with young children.
Yeah.
Not young, but children.
Their children.
Yes.
Um, and then the psycho brother,that kills everybody.
(45:51):
I didn't get that vibe from thebrother though.
No.
I was, I was surprised withthat.
I was too.
But you know, like the true,like cuckoos Yeah.
You won't know.
Yeah.
And then the boyfriend who waswriting a story on her.
She can pick him.
She should buy a lottery ticket.
I, no, she's got bad luck, so.
(46:12):
Yeah, you're right.
You're right, you're right.
Um, yeah, she, she really did.
But I, back to the brother, atthe very beginning I was like,
they might end up together.
I thought he was obsessed withher.
Yeah.
But, and you know, obviously itchanges a little bit, but I was
like, okay, this, is this wherethis is gonna go?
Mm.
I didn't think that, I thought,unhelped the obsession.
(46:33):
Yeah.
Yeah.
And then I thought, well, whenthey said that he was stabbed
mm-hmm.
And then I was like, well, if heis like really obsessed with her
mm-hmm.
Maybe he did.
Yeah.
I dunno.
Yeah.
I liked it.
Yeah.
You obviously missed some.
I missed some important stuff.
Yeah, I was trying to listen toofast, I think, but I can't
(46:53):
believe I missed the T part.
I really can't, but I did.
I liked what I got.
Let me put it this way.
I would read this author again.
Yeah.
I liked it too.
Yeah.
What would you give it?
Well, the parts that I heard,I'd give it about an eight.
Okay.
Think it probably fine becauseit did lose me in that, in that
little, and I think it lost methe most when it started
introducing, the detective.
(47:14):
And so like, I just like, oh,too many people.
My little brain can't keep up.
But then, it went, it.
Wrapped everything backtogether.
Mm-hmm.
But yeah, about an eight.
Okay.
Like, give it like a nine, Ithink.
Yeah.
Because I didn't miss any, youdidn't listen to it on 3.5
speed.
Um, well, our next book is TheQuiet Girl by SF Casa.
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Okay.
When Alex arrives inProvincetown to patch things up
with his new wife, he finds anempty wine glass in the sink.
Her wedding rings on the deskand a string of questions in her
wake.
The police believe that Alex'swife simply left.
His marriage is crumbling beforeit truly begins.
But what Alex finds in theirempty cottage points him towards
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a totally different reality.
His wife has always carried asecret, and now she's
disappeared.
For the truth.
Alex comes across Layla, a youngwoman with information to share
who may hold the key toeverything his wife has kept
hidden.
A girl with a clear recollectionof her own past, a strange quiet
girl whose memories may breakthem all to find his wife.
Alex must face what Layla hasforgotten and the consequences
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are anything but quiet.
Mm.
I started this today.
Okay.
So far so good.
Cool.
Well, I think that wraps it upfor today.
It does.
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