Navigating Grief: Funerals, Family Drama, and Relationship Realities

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Bobby Frost (00:00):
Yo yo yo, it's your boy, bobby Frost, and Bobby
Frost Media presents Tri-Parency.
I am with the beautiful ladyCourtney Lynn I almost said just
Misty, because I'm alwayssaying hers first.
Yeah, I swear I had to catchmyself.
I'm in my.
That's why my eyes are closed.
I'm like, oh shit, I almostfucked up.
Yeah.
But yeah, we just just me andCourtney holding it down.

(00:20):
I ain't used to that, we andCourtney holding it down.
I know y'all ain't used to that, but we just holding it down.
Miss, you got a situation goingon and I just say get with it.

Courtney Lynn (00:30):
Yeah, that's it.
So what you been on, courtney,nothing really Just really
getting in the routine of thesekids going back to school, still
buying school shit, stillgetting shit together.
Gang started immediatelyHomecoming finna be next month,
so what's grade he in now 11?

(00:51):
Mm-hmm, so just I had to breakit.

So he one of them, kids that like to do everything
like a social butterfly, yeahlike me.

I went to every homecoming, every dance, sadie's
, any fucking thing.
I went to and I like it.
I like it because most boys arenot like that.
They don't, and he has on.
He ain't no boy to be like, Idon't know.
No, he know what suit he want,he know what he want to look
like, he want flyers, he wanteverything.
Yeah, I went to homecoming my10th grade year and my 12th

(01:29):
grade year.
Yeah, oh yeah, he went 9th,10th and this is 11, 11.

Uh, you know I don't know, man, you know what
I'm saying.

Like it, the last year I went because of senior
yeah but before then just I wentbecause I was just like but I
feel like when people don't go,I met a lot of dudes who didn't
go to prom, didn't go to shit,and be regretting it now it's
too late.

You don't got no memory I tell the little homies
that all the time you know it'sat the center, like listen, man,
yo y'all don't understand whatyou're missing, because you're
gonna have conversations aboutprom, homecoming, this and that,
and when the conversations comeup you just can't say shit
unless you're going to lie, tokick it because you ain't get
the experience.
You only get it once.
It's not like you get anotherprom.

(02:09):
You got four shots at ahomecoming.
It's only one prom.
So this is like, even just likeif you talking to a chick and
you might have been your firsttime, you know what I'm saying
y'all getting together or justyour first time.

Your parents might let you spend a night at
the hotel room or something.
Some kids don't even get theexperience to wear a suit, an
actual real suit and be likejust sharp and everybody else,
like not just Easter and thatwas when they was kids, but just
a young, grown adult in a suit.
Yeah, don't even know how toexperience that Even a grown man
be like.
I ain't never worn no suit.
today, Only time they wear asuit is a funeral court and they

(02:48):
be half-dressed in the court orsome shit like that and funeral
.
But if one of their homeboysget married, they be so excited
putting on a suit.

You already have you know what, but you got to
think about that.
If you ain't, I like suits, butyou got to have an occasion to
wear it.

Wear it too, and that's the thing you should get
the experience in your wholehigh school year Early, yeah, I
ain't been on shit.

I'm just happy, man , I'm finally out that funky-ass
cast.
I had three of them, was itthree or four?
I can't remember.
It was either three or four ofthem.
Now I'm in the boot and, to behonest, I'm not supposed to be
driving with the boot or cash,but I'd rather stay in the cash
driving because this boot, thisbitch bulky as hell.

(03:31):
It'd be hard just fuck thedrive.
I drive like I drive a stickshift I know how.
So I'll use my left foot tobrake and my other foot to
accelerate.
That's been it.
And finishing off this uhcollege, and that's it back in
class.
You know I'm saying so.
I went there, I just got tookout when I got hurt.
I couldn't finish my film classup.

So that was it.

So yeah, man, we're gonna get into the topic.
I'm gonna let you talk aboutthe little rich homie.
We're gonna touch on that realquick um which part just are
dying, or dying and peoplecoming out that's that's.
That's the part I really don'tknow too much.

Okay, I'm talking funny because I got retainers
at the top of my teeth, but Forthe most part, for the trial.
He was just brought up, hisname was just brought up in the
trial With Woody and Thug orwhatever, and Shit, he overdosed
, like I don't know if it's acoincidence or somebody sold him
some bad shit, but he overdosed, like I don't know if it's a

(04:27):
coincidence or somebody sold himsome bad shit, but yeah, he
overdosed.
Um, anywho, but which we allsee in everybody's cities, not
just ours but everybody else,when people die, all the hoes
come out, all the pictures comeout, all the text messages come
out, all the I love you's andI'ma miss you's, all I love yous
and I'ma miss yous.
And I mean, I guess if hedidn't have respect for his

(04:50):
relationships, it's kind of likewhy should the chicks have
respect for it?
But it's like if you was asecret and didn't post pictures
and didn't do nothing when hewas alive, keep that same energy
when he did, I get you, I getit, I get it, I get it.
Like now that he did, it waslike, oh, y'all so in love and
you posting pictures and granted, like I want to say,

(05:10):
overshadowing his baby mama, butit's like she can't even grieve
in peace.

Cause here come one bitch, two bitches, three
bitches, four bitches, Like yeah, that that's funny, man, that
you say that, because I thoughtabout that a while ago.
I was just thinking likebecause I seen a meme about it
and I'm like, so I'm going toask you, how would you feel if
your nigga you know what I'msaying nigga baby mama, or it

(05:35):
could be a nigga.
You could be his baby mama, youcould be wife, whatever you
could tell me each different?

if it's a difference was I had.
I can say I was one of thosechicks who my friend, um, I was
talking to wayne.
He died during the pandemicyeah me.
He was talking for a long timeand I never post pictures of him
and it wasn't because of him.
He didn't care if I posted thepictures.
It was for my whole safety,like it wasn't.
I didn't want people to knowwho I was talking to.

(06:02):
So it wasn't like he told menot to post pictures of a woman.
He got a girl or whatever thecase may be.
It was none of that.
But every time we took apicture together he thought it
was already on social media.
He would go straight to Snaplooking like why you ain't post
a picture.
So it was never like I couldn'tpost no picture of him because
of him.
It was because I didn't want myniggas to know who the fuck I

(06:23):
was talking to, because I wassingle to everybody, but that
was my nigga in my eyes.
So when he died I did startposting pictures of him because
I'm hurt.
That was my nigga, but itwasn't to the fact like I
couldn't post pictures of him.
I just didn't because we bothwere single and I was still well
.
I really wasn't messing withnobody, but I was still talking
to people and I ain't wantpeople to know.
People knew, but it was like Iwasn't finna confirm it for them

(06:45):
, but you weren't politickingyeah, like people saw us, we was
everywhere.
People know we fucked with eachother, but I did not post
pictures because I couldn't.
I just didn't.
But for the people who do postpictures after a motherfucker
die and they couldn't that's adifferent.
I don't know.
I don't know what to say aboutit.
I don't have no words on itbecause I can't understand it.

(07:08):
It's like be a secret, you as asecret, then be a secret now.

So I don't know and for me, I'm like you know I was
, I always wanted that, becausethat's, that's a toughie to me.

I'm like but I know I would be hurt if I'm the
bitch that's crying.

That's what that's that's why I asked you that,
like if I was the bitch that'scrying.

That's why I asked you that If I was the
bitch that was crying everybodyknow this is my baby daddy, this
is who I was with Granted, if Iknow our relationship be on
rocky terms every other month,type shit or whatever the fuck
like that but I'd be goddamn theday that he died, the day that
he announces that they announcedthat he's dead.
A bitch, come with text message.
Bitches come with videos ofkissing on her.

(07:47):
They out everywhere or whateverlike that.
I'll just denounce myrelationship with the nigga.
I don't even got no kids withthis nigga.
I don't know him Because thatshit is embarrassment.
That is like secondhandembarrassment.
I'm already probably knowingabout this bitch, you know,
knowing about her.
But now this bitch all over theinternet and her name is more
seen in the internet than myname.
Yeah, I don't even have no kidswith this nigga.

That's crazy that's embarrassing, I get it.
It's funny, man, because Ialways thought about that.
Like you know, I'm saying likedamn, how would that go?
I ain't never seen it happen,like where I've been a part of
it.
You know somebody close and ithappened.
You know I'm saying the closestI've seen with a situation like
that.
But I didn't go to funerals.
That's why I'm saying I get tosee it, because I, after my um,

(08:32):
my granddad, died when I was inthe um eighth grade.
I didn't want to go to myfuneral that literally by the
time I turned 14 I had been toliterally like 12 funerals.
I got raised by my so a lot oftheir cousins and friends was,
you know, dying of, you know,getting up at age, strokes and
heart attacks, shit like that.
So like every year I went tolike at least one funeral,

(08:53):
sometimes two times.
I just got tired of going tofunerals.
Like you say, suits that'swhere my suits came from.
I always had to get a new suitfor a funeral Because I'm
growing boy, I'm growing, so I'mgrowing out the suits.
So I just didn't want to go, nomore.
I had just lost you know whatI'm saying my granddad.
On top of losing my granddad,my niece had passed and I'm like
I don't want to go to no morefunerals.

(09:14):
And then, lo and behold, acouple years later, my mom died.
So, but I remember.
Rest in peace, my nigga Lenny.
I just remember, you know whatI'm saying.
A couple of my older homiessaying like yeah, he brought, he
brought them out, he broughtthe females out yeah and I was
just and I heard a couple thingsgoing on.
I'm just, I'm sitting laughingbecause I didn't get to see
nobody reaction.
You get what I'm saying?

(09:34):
So I could only imagine,because I didn't go to Like,
when you sit up in thatmotherfucking.

You don't have no control over you, because you
can't.

So do you keep grieving at the funeral or do
you just get mad and do youstart some shit?

I just feel like the woman in that situation.
If you know you dealing with awhore, your nigga's a whore,
whether you done called him,seen shit in his phone, like
that's always going to play inthe back of a woman's mind.
I don't know about nobodyelse's, but in mine, if my nigga
died I'm waiting, like I amfucking waiting, like because if

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a bitch come forth I'm alreadywaiting.
That's it, that's what I'masking.

I know it's hard to say because you ain't going to
have the emotion of youhypothetically talking about it,
but that's what I'm saying.
Like if it happened to you, doyou keep mourning, do you fight
with the chick, do you say shegot to get the fuck out?
Like how do you?
Well, what's the protocol,etiquette for that?

But this is why I always double back with saying
like I never want to date anigga that long to where I'm
being special guest in nobody'sobituary.
Because if I ain't this niggawife like you, single for real,
like if you not nobody's fuckingwife, you're actually single,
he, her, I mean she, hisgirlfriend, just as well as you.

(10:52):
Now if I'm a wife and a bitchcome through like I have every
right to this funeral, everyfucking right.
I put this shit together.
I'm the one who doing theinsurance shit.
I'm nah.
I would have you got to get thefuck out.
Security friends, my friendswill already know get this bitch
, get this bitch out of here.
But a girlfriend, what can youreally do?
You just his baby mama, youain't do shit.

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His mama put the funeraltogether.
Like what the fuck?
Like you have no title tonothing for real, but a baby
mama title.
So if a girl do come in herecrying and the family really
fuck with you or whatever, likethat, I mean, well, that's an
argument, but if the familydon't put her out or whatever,
then what you—.

So that's why I'm asking Do you stay there, do you
leave?

I'm already embarrassed.

So you just ride it out.

I guess Shit you laughing.
I don't fucking know.
I know I probably would havefought a bitch at a funeral.
That's why I asked, because Iknow, chris, according to you,
I've been to fight a bitch butmy friends probably would have
handled it for me.

Because you're already in emotion, Because
you're losing, you know thatcould be the love of your life.

My friends would have already seen it coming as
soon as if I'm crying because aperson at a funeral, your head
is not even, you're not eventhinking straight.
You're just there For me when Ilose somebody, I'm not even, I
don't know what the fuck isgoing on around me.
So it's, I would say, it's upto my, it's my friend's job to
be peeping everything and seeeverything, because once the we
girls, we know who the fuckmotherfuckers say your nigga.

that mess with that ain't even on the radar.

Okay, but when she doing too much crying at
this motherfucking casket, theyshould already be like who the
fuck is this bitch, and that'swhy I think you know, Go ahead
and escort her to the left.

I don't know nothing other than maybe not
even a wedding.
I don't know nothing, probablymore sacred than you know, a
funeral, this, a funeral.
This the last time you're goingto actually see this person's
body.
So you don't want nothing goingcrazy.

I just feel like the bitch should have gone to
the, what you call that.

The wake.

Yeah, take your ass to the wake.
Where did you come to thefuneral for?
Do your mourning at the wake?

Because I can say like I feel like if the roles
were reversed, I'm with you.
What you just said, roles werethat Like if if let's say, uh,
we just get, we got together andsay we together for a couple of
months and you pass, I'm hurt Acouple months.

(13:14):
No, I'm saying a couple months.
What I'm saying like say wedidn't move together yet.
We could have been dating for ayear.
We ain't moved together.
I feel like that.
And then say six months toeight months, you got feelings
at that time.

If you really been locking in and you feeling
like building a future.
But I feel like eight months orsix months, bitches, is still
lingering around, kind of likebecause y'all still really
getting to know each other.
Whether eight months sound likea long time.

But even with that being said, like even with that,
it's still the thing.
If this a person that y'alldidn't start, really you feeling
like you really like them, notyou still in this, can something
else go wrong.
You feeling like, yeah, it'sgoing that way, and then you see
somebody else hovering, cryinghard, and you was like shit, you

(14:03):
know by person three weeks intodating.

Who the fuck is this bitch?

yeah, and that's what I'm saying.
Like you gotta think, becauseI'm I can't put myself in
emotions, but that's why I saidhypothetically like you're
losing the person you care aboutor love, and to you grieving
like a motherfucker to seeanother motherfucker start
grieving.
She hurt, just like you and sodo you have the composure to be
like.

I don't.

Ain't nothing wrong with that.
That's what I'm saying.

I don't have the composure For me.

I wouldn't escort nobody, even if you know what
I'm saying husband to wife.
I wouldn't escort nobody.
What I am going to do is andthat's just me I'm going to walk
out.

I'm going to tell you, likefucker, that's what's
going to make the no, because Ifeel like a bitch Bitches is
known to try to play in abitch's face.
You're not going to be like, ohyeah, I went to that funeral
and did my big one.
She ain't say shit.
I don't know.
You're going to be telling thisstory like I shouldn't have
went to that motherfuckingfuneral because she did me the
fuck in.
You're not going to come to thefuneral.
Come to the funeral and sityour ass in the back or the
middle, whatever.

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Pay your respects and walk thefuck on.
All that, crying all over thecasket, making it known, taking
pictures, all that shit.
That shit can get your asswhooped.

I'm going to ask you from that point, just saying
, if you was talking to a guyand y'all hadn't got serious and
you didn't know who or he wastalking to, and all that shit
like that, and then you realizelike wait, this nigga was in a
relationship well, if we weretalking and it didn't get that
serious, I probably wouldn't goto the funeral because it wasn't
that serious.

Like oh damn, it's been a few niggas I didn't
talk to out here and they didn'tdie and it's like, okay, I
don't go to no wake or nofuneral because it wasn't that
deep.
Like I don't wish death onnobody.
But if we were cool, I'll go tothe wake and that be that and
I'm not going to no funeral.
I'm not a funeral going,motherfucker, unless I fuck with
you.
Like I don't see how people hopfuneral to funeral.

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Oh, I went to school with thatnigga in fifth grade, ain't
grade, ain't seen them.
Then motherfuckers goes tofunerals, I don't.
So if I go to your funeral, Ifuck with you.

I literally fuck with you, but I'll go to the
wake and I'm not finna, it ain'tthat deep.
People just be wanting to beseen and like that's what I'm
laughing about, because, likethe other thing I'm thinking
about, it's a couple thingsgoing on because of the topic.
It's just a funny topic to me,not the death funny part, but
just how shit can go.
So, like what if, like I knew,a lot of older cats used to have
secondary families?

that both families didn't know each other
about, but they respect.
It was the respecting.

So, like in that situation, what if you know you
think you fucking with a nigga,you not knowing that you think
y'all together and you notknowing he got more history with
this person that they've beentogether with and y'all don't
know about each other?

Okay, I think before the funeral.
That's when everybody startedfiguring out because, granted,
if y'all not married, everybodyis going to the mother house,
granny house, whoever house thatyou gather at, so that's where
motherfuckers would startmeeting at before the funeral.

So and then, like in that situation, like if it is
a situation like that, how doyou handle that?
Like you thought y'all was in arelationship and you don't know
, y'all my daughter's there'sanother one, my daughter's
godmama just left the funeral.

I forgot the nigga name who just passed.
He was kind of like a big nigga, I don't know.
I think he had a heart attackor some shit.
His bitch and the baby came Hisgirl.

His wife was there.
Wait, a bitch and and a baby.
No, it wasn't a baby, it was ateenager.
Wait, you saying it was a wifethere, then another chick and A
teenager.

Okay, basically, like that's my daddy, they
coming to pay, they fuckingrespects.
Like I been going over To themama house, like that's the baby
mama and the child.
I been going to the mama house.
Like it wasn't the mama houseBitch, that was my house she was
coming to.
Like she wasn't there then orshe was because her family in
the tunnel.
Like she did stop by, we justdidn't tell you to keep you know

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I'm saying keep you down, keepthe static down motherfuckers,
motherfuckers, be popping themotherfuckers.
Be doing what the fuck they bedoing like.
Because I feel like if you didhave a baby by somebody, what
bringing a baby to me gonna do?
He dead what you think I'mfinna, take over.

I was about to say that movie Fences you watch
Fences, you never watch Fences.
Yeah, it's a funny part ofFences man where a dog died and
he found out that she kind ofknew it was another chick on the
side but didn't know the otherchick on the side had a kid what
you want me to do with thisbaby, and she brought the baby
to her and she raised it.

The baby, the daddy, dead.
Go on now what you think I'mgoing to do.
If you kept this baby a secretfrom me this year, kept this
child away from me for thesemany years, keep it a secret
more years because he ain't here.
Whatever agreement y'all had,that was y'all and it's dead.
So I ain't taking noresponsibility, because if you

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was a Not a spiteful bitch, youwould've came to me, you and him
.
I got a baby.
This is that Whatever, buty'all hid it from me, keep
hiding it.
He dead.

You know Cause niggas, niggas get messy too,
like I.
Like I said, if I was messingwith a chick and you know, side
nigga, whatever, just say I.
I like I said, if I was messingwith a chick and you know, side
nigga or whatever, just say Iwasn't.
I didn't know if I was a mainnigga or not.
I probably, like you said,depending on how deep we are,
depending on if I go to thefuneral and if we deep enough to
go to the funeral again, likeyou said, if I'm over to the

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parents house and the familyhouse, you know it gotta be deep
, deep.
You know what I'm saying.
It's some chicks that I knew inthe past that I wouldn't
necessarily go over the houseunless I get invited over,
mm-hmm, and I would be like youknow what I'm saying If I did.
Hey, how y'all doing.

I'm not going nowhere, I'm not invited to.
Yeah, that's why.

I'm saying invited have never lost nobody except
for my baby mom, and again, Ididn't go to the funeral, so
nobody else I knew that I fuckedwith died.
You know, I'll say anybody everfucked with.

I feel like the family almost got to kind of
like lean on me type of shit,like that's how strong our
relationship got to be, likeeverybody like running through
court and like this, likeeverybody know, like this is my
nigga, he was my, like I was his, he was mine, type of shit.
But that goes to show I willnever be a motherfucker bitch
for years If I ain't on no will,no life insurance policy.

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I'm not doing years with nonigga to be special guest or
another bitch get put on specialguest on obituary.

Yeah, that's tough, I can't do it.
You don't even want theobituary, no more.

Nope.
So I just rather not even.
I mean, you don't know when amotherfucker gonna die.
Granted, you can be a year anda half in, you don't know this
nigga gonna die.
But I'm just saying for bitcheswho hang out for age.
Now, if I was 20, no, I didn'twant to get married then, but at
this big age that we're at, I'mnot giving a nigga six, seven

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years of my fucking life to be aspecial friend.

And then you got the social media part about it
too.
I know that's embarrassing.

You're grieving again, and then you look up and
such and such, talking about howthey felt that they show on
pictures, videos of this niggajust on you, like he, on you,
like he kissing the bitch.

Like do you get mad at the nigga?
They in public.

Yeah.
Even though he dead, I be goingto see him like bitch, Wake the
fuck up.
We got some shit to talk about.

Wake the fuck up that got to be tough too, you
got to be.

you going to be all type of emotions.
You going to be mad, mad asfuck.
To be like fuck him.
Then you're going to be cryingbecause that's your kid's daddy
or that was just the love ofyour life, that was your nigga,
who you stay with, wake up with,do everything with.

And it's like nigga , you done played in my face
this whole time.

Yeah, that's tough man Then, like you said,
because you feel embarrassed.

Nope, I just deactivate my page.

That's the best way, I think, to handle you At
this point.
I haven't seen no blogs orpictures.
I only saw one picture, twopictures of him, rich Army Quan
and his baby mama Only two.
But social media has floodedwith the Erika Banks chick and
all the other two chicks comingout.
Who the fuck is Rich ArmyQuan's girlfriend?

(22:01):
Because it's flooded with thesebitches.
It's news.
Who is this bitch?
This bitch, this bitch?
So it's like she gettingoutshadowed.

They say the dead don't know what the living doing
.
But that'd be crazy.
You have to sit back and watchthat shit, like boy.
You see that shit going downthere.
Boy, I'm glad never heardniggas doing it, because you
know niggas usually gonna try tohold theirs in.
That's why I said like if I wasin a situation like that and I

(22:31):
seen a nigga doing too much,yeah, I'm gonna.
Because again, now I know someniggas gonna.
They gonna go ahead and flipthem up over.
They're gonna get the roll inthat man.
Me, on the other hand, I'mgonna walk out.
You're gonna know how I feel.
Everybody gonna.
I ain't gonna disrupt it, butmy I, you know my presence
leaving gonna show you I'mdisrupting it because I'm just
gonna leave up like, yeah,that's it, you know but how I'm

(22:53):
gonna be the bad person when thebitch is playing like doing the
most to me, like y'all shouldalready know like get hurt
before I get mad because youknow I'm saying not playing
devil advocate.

That's why now I'm supposed to Right, because
why?
Who?
Just literally like I havenever been to a funeral and a
motherfucker just hystericalcrying oh, that's my baby,
that's the but bitch.
Come on now.

And you know, like I said, the devil advocate, mr
Uzi Player.
But like you said on the end,you don't know how deep they
connection was or how deep shethought her connection was and
it probably was.

But just like I said, if it was a secret, then
be a secret.
Now I ain't telling you youcan't come pay your respects.
Let me not see you, like I beennot seeing you, I been not
feeling your presence.
So now that he dead, you wantto make yourself known Like you
could have been in the backsomewhere or in the front.
I wouldn't have had no fuckingclue.
Yeah, who you was.
Grieve like I am.

You don't see me on top of the casket, taking me
with you and shit I'm going tohave to ask some more females
that I know this question right,Because that's funny too.
So when the funeral come, dofemales be looking to see if a
motherfucker crying too hard.

I guess I ain't never been put in that situation
, that's why you laughing?
I've never been put in thatsituation.
Like I said, view his body, butit ain't had nothing to do with
his baby mama because he wasn'twith her for real or whatever.
Like that Me and him wasfucking with each other tough,
but when he died we stoppedfucking.
We better stop fucking witheach other before he died.

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But that was still my nigga.
So it wasn't like he was.
Oh, we were still fucking, wewere still doing this.
Me and him had been broke up orwhatever you want to call it,
months before the pandemic orwhatever.
So it was like that was stillmy nigga.
I was hurt, crying, like thatwas somebody.
Like stay the night, wake up,take a shower, go to work, make
this man lunch for work, cookfor him.

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Like he did the same shit, likethat was my nigga.
But I just went to the awakeLike I was hurt.
I'm going to go to the funeralbecause I can't see nobody I
love.
I can't see nobody I love, likethat.
So that shit was hard for me.
Like funerals ain't something Ido unless I fuck with you and I
couldn't see a nigga that Ilove dead.
Yeah, like he was a good niggaand COVID took you out, like

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COVID.

You know, I'm just thinking about it because,
granddad, it was during thepandemic, you know what I'm
saying.
They passed around the sametime.
And just not thinking aboutlaughing because my grandmother
already passed, you know whatI'm saying.
But I'm just thinking like,damn, how would I have felt if I
would have seen some old ladycoming at a motherfucker during
the month?
I'd be like, hey man, who isyou man?
And I can't trip.

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See, that's the type of personI can't.
If granddad had some shit onthe side I ain't know nothing
about, and some chick came in,this motherfucker With her son,
they best not cry as far as.
Can't get mad.

As far as kids, or being a daughter or a younger
daughter or a kid, I would wantto talk to the person, cause
now I want to know the memoriesyou had with them, like it's
like like a never-ending story.
I want to know my granddad ormom or dad.
What was they like with you?
Tell me some stories.

Yeah, saying that is crazy man, because speaking
on that, not getting toosidetracked, my granddad passed
and shit, long story short, justthrowing it in there real quick
.
Granddad passed and whatnot.
For a couple like a year I keptgetting some from uh, fidelity
investments yeah, it's a pension, yeah so peep game I'm the

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third, my son the fourth, my dad, for whatever reason, he's the
second.
I don't know why he said don'tsay junior.
I never understood that, Inever really asked about it, but
I'm like what's the differencebetween a second and a junior?
Is that just because they saythe same thing?

I mean, is he a second?
Yeah, A junior.
Is he the same as that first,middle and last?

Yes, His shit.
Just say second, never sayjunior.
Why?

I don't know.
I mean it's the same thing,Same.

You know what I'm hear her.
So when the mail come in thecrib, you know I'm saying on
russell at the crib.
You know I'm saying I would gocheck on the mail and shit.
I my I know it's my mailbecause it's all my shit always
got the suffix the third onthere.
I always write my shit likethat.
I thought it was cool when Iwas a kid writing that shit that
had an roman.
That was just me, you feel me.
So I never checked the shit.
You know I'm saying I'mthinking it's pop shit.
You know I ain't checking thisshit.

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So then one day he told me likethis can't be for me, this got
to be for you okay so I read himlike nah, nigga, this ain't for
me.
I don't have no pension, not thejob I work at we don't have a
pension.
Like no, that's not.
I got a 401k but I don't have apen.
So, long story short, neverfuck with it, right, never

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touched it.
So one day, you know, I'msaying talking to my lady, and
I'm like I'm gonna check it outjust to see what the fuck it is.
You know, I don't know howwhat's in there, what's?

you know, I'm gonna check it out, you can roll
it over so this is what happens.

Even though I was raised like by my grandparents
you know I what I'm saying mygranddad and my grandmother you
know what I'm saying but I wasnever under their custody, so,
like when my grandmother passed,when I did the funeral, the
fucked up part about it was mygranddad just told me to do
everything.
I even had to make the decisionof pulling the plug Like that
shit was the hardest to this day.

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That's still the hardest I everhad to do.
So that was my first time goingthrough that shit, going
through the parlors and all thatshit.
I was in a fucked up mind state.
So people never tell you aboutwills and make sure all your
shit together.
You know what I'm saying and Iain't saying people, I'm saying
like, if that's not what yourenvironment grew up on or
conditioned you on, you knowprogram training you on.

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So when she he was on herinsurance, you feel me, and so
when she passed it was easy togo do what he do, but when he
passed she was on for hisbeneficiary.
There was no other beneficiary.

Right.

Mine is pandemic right, so you know everything
fucked up in a pandemic courtsare closed.
When I tell you this shit gaveme the flux trying to do his
shit.
Right, and I wasn't trying tobe, you know, rude or nothing.

It's the next of kin if nobody really is on the
beneficiary and she's dead right.
So it'd be like his brother orsomething like that.

Nope, it'd go to your kids.
But if you got multiple kids,see, it used to be back, the
oldest got everything.

Yeah, the oldest.

That's not how it works, no more.

It's both of y'all right.

No, it goes to all of the kids.
So you know, my granny had 11kids.

Oh, okay, so they split it up between all 11 of
them.

So now you got to mind this pandemic, right, this
northern pandemic.
So now I'm trying to get peoplesignatures.
Mm-hmm, I had wouldn't send hersignature, so everything got
stopped because they wouldn't doit without the signature.
So I fast forward all that shitand I have to pay out of pocket
from a lot of the shit,especially with Graceland.

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I had to pay out the pocket allthe way through.
So go back to the pensionsituation.
So I finally checked thepension out Again.
My granddad raised me.
So my granddad was you know,you always hear me say something
to my granddad I had a homeboy.
My homeboy quit Like man.
You talking about your granddadman, you got to have high
regard.
So yeah, I just don't say itbecause it's a cliche Like he

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taught me a lot because hedidn't sway shit.
You could be his son.
No-transcript, a fool at.
I'm gonna call you out right inthere.

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Let you know you fucking up,ain't nobody gonna fuck over you
, but I'm gonna let you knowright then, there, you fucking
up, I ain't gonna you like mostpeople.
That's how they do, shit.
They do shit.
I'm going to ride or die withyou.
We'll talk about it later.
My granddad's going to ride ordie with you.
But he's going to tell youright then and there too, no,
you're fucking up.
This is where you're making anass out of yourself and me.
I'm going to let you know.

So I checked the shit and I like well, yeah, you
have to.

It's a couple things you have to go get and
I'm they like, yeah, you gottago, not not like that's it's a
death certificate, what's?
It's a some you have to go froma gift from the irs.
It's a number thing you have togo get and, of course, you have
to know social security numberso I would have to go through
probate court now.
Now I was assuming that myaunties and uncles would have
been more so, like not knockingthem or nothing like that.
Love them all, but they didn'treally come around, my

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granddaddy heavy like, superheavy, like you would think they
would.
They didn't.
Now, maybe that happenedbecause you have your own life
going on and shit like that.
I get it.

So I said, just going to use the money to fix
this house up?
No, nobody even got to know youhad the money, here go, my
thing.

I did have a family member saying if that was me,
wouldn't nobody knew shit.
I would have just forged thatshit and went on about your
business.
I'm like, nah, man, I'mthinking like damn, if y'all
ain't been fucking with me heavybefore, like what?
So man, do you know money again?
Courtney thinking, thinkingbetter of my family than when I

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oh man, yeah, it made me look atmy, a couple of my aunties
completely different when I saycompletely different, completely
different.

He left it to me.
That's mine.

I'm like yo.
I'm like y'all know, if it waslike he wanted y'all to have
that shit, he would have toldy'all like y'all, y'all didn't.
Did y'all anybody put somemoney for it when he was barony?
Fuck, no, y'all did put thesignatures on there so they can
give us the chart.
And what happened was the uh,the um funeral home knew how to
do um, where they just tookeverybody percentage and the

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percentage of my auntie thatdidn't do it.
That's just still in limboBecause she kind of offered
rockers a little bit and hershit's still in limbo.
But the rest of them, they paidfor that, for the funeral, but
the burial, everything I saidGraceland, cemetery they're like
no, if you don't got all sevenin the right documentation,
we're not doing that.
So I had to pay, I had to payout.

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So that's why I didn't thinkthey was going to trip.
I'm like, wait a minute, noneof y'all gave me a dime on my
granddaddy and that's why Ithought about the burial.
I thought that my grandma wouldpass.
So when she passed I got aburial plot right next door.
They can have their shittogether.
I'm like y'all didn't give menone of the casket, the clothes

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and nothing I'm like's crazy andyou get to see like Wild shit
when somebody die.
You get to see other sides Ofother people like Money changes
everybody.
Like, yeah, like, damn Like, andI'm, I'm in complete opposite.
Like.

They wouldn't do a fuck thing.
I got.

My family member told me, like nigga you tripping
, I wouldn't have told nobody.
Shout out to Forrest themmotherfucking sisters.
That got that shit and went onabout my business I wasn't, they
wouldn't know a fucking thingand I'm like, damn, that's crazy
that y'all would do that.
And just now it's the sit stillholding up, still still hold up,
and I don't trip about it.
But I'm like damn, it's crazyhow you see it different when a
motherfucker die.
You know, I'm saying like, fromall aspects, like I said like

(33:42):
say me and you, you know I'msaying relationship cordon and
we could have been kicking itfor years.
You get what I'm saying Yeartwo, whatever, and you die.
I'm not going to be in thisbitch like, yeah, I feel like I
should have the life insurancepolicy because she that's going
to tell her kids, dog, whoevershe got in the beneficiary, I
don't want a piece of it.
Like, no, you good, yeah,that's the kids.

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If we was married, I'm stillgoing to be like you know what?
Yeah, man, get this to the kids.
Now, if we've been together for, let's say, 20 years and shit
like that, that might be alittle different.
I'm still going to look out forthe kids, but it might be a
little different.
But like we've been together acouple years two, three, four
years I'm like you get what I'msaying.
Basically, most of the lifeinsurance policy was paid before

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I got around.
I'm not no money hungry typeperson.

I just my mama had always taught me her and my
stepdad was.
They was married twice.
Damn that guy.
That's real love.
They divorced because she foundout he had a baby when they
took their taxes when they wasmarried.
I was the youngest, but he camein my life when I was two.

How old was the baby?
I don't know.
I only asked because.

I want to know what's around your age.
No, I don't know.
I never asked that part of it.

You ain't never met the baby.

Well, she's 30-something now.
That's what I'm saying, girl.
I mean I met her when I waslate 20s.

She cool.

She just she raised.
I don't know she's a littleweird, but she cool.
She ain't have shit to do withwhat my stepdaddy did.
She cool that's my sister.
It wasn't when I was two, buthe been in my life since I was
two.
I think I was a teenager whenthey got divorced, got back
married again.
I was still a teenager,divorced in my 20s, then broke

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up for a while.
She moved to Finland.
He moved back with her.
So they wasn't married again.
They just was companionship,just staying with each other.

That's real love, though let me give a clap for
that cause.

That's real love he never changed his, he never
changed his beneficiary.
He never did that.
But my mama did, like me and mysisters was always like on her
shit, or I was always like onher shit, or I was always the
person on her.
But, needless to say, my mamaalways told me to keep up with
your shit, whether it's 10 yearsor something later.
Like men don't do it either.

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Because my daddy didn't, likethey don't think ahead.
Like that, like, okay, this wasyour, because my daddy was
still married to his wife.
She was a crackhead, all typeof shit.
But you, with all these otherdifferent women, you ain't even
put your kids to be yourbeneficiary.
Because you don't even thinkahead.
Now you die dead.
Now this crackhead get everyfucking thing.
Like don't give your kids shit,don't give not even her kids.

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Nothing Like nothing.

Y'all always asked that.

We ain't, yeah, get nothing, not a dime.
So she would always tell me,like, make sure always be with
your lawyer because she worksfor GM.
So you know they got their GMlawyers, or whatever the case
may be, stay close to them.
Your will update them bitchesevery so often.
And your insurance policy?
Update your insurance policy.

Yeah, I learned all that shit.
Those are very important.

So you won't have to go through getting 12
signatures from different peopleor some shit like that.

Like, just update your shit frequently that's why
I said, like you know me, my myview on marriage.
Like people just get mad at mewhen I'll be on marriage like I,
I know, marriage ain't nothingbut to me but a paper or a piece
of paper.

it's not, it's, it's security for real.

Yeah, because I'm like if I fuck with you heavy
like that and we ain't got to goget a marriage, but I'm going
to put you on all my listen girl, you on this, you on that, if
it's somebody.

I trust and we building something like kids,
first because right now Cordrayis, which is too young, so it's
like my aunt, and then Cordray,and then they get a certain
piece of they get a certainpercentages at certain different
ages they're not gonna get thewhole money.
They're gonna get certain, youknow, but people got to keep up

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on that shit.
Besides keeping up on it,people got to get it because,
like, please get life insuranceyeah, please.

Because, like you just said, like I figured that
out, shit dealing with mygrandmother and now I'm just
feeling shit out dealing with my, with my granddad passing.
This shit just happened thisyear, like it's like that.
Well, last year it fucked me up, like seeing my couple of my
aunties act like that.
I'm like damn, they ain't thinkabout you.
I'm like, wow, you know whatI'm saying.
They want they shit.
Yeah, like I could see if y'allwas this motherfucker like you

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know really, so nothing got toyou.
No.

Yeah, because it's supposed to be his siblings
.

Yeah, I mean yeah, his kids.

You know what I got raised by my granddad from
two all the way up, because theyprobably just feel like you
ain't even this kid.

She said the shit.
She said he, acting like it gotback to me.
He acting like he a kid.

I'm like he your kid, or you acting like yeah,
I'm like now, this is the funnypart.

Like y'all already know how my grandma and my
granny felt about me.
I'm not saying this to besaying it.
I was the only kid my granddadraised all the way up Cause him
and my, my other, my grandmotherthat passed.
They divorced, not divorced,but they separated and they
stayed in Detroit.
He stayed down here.
He got all my other grandmother, grandmother, I know, you know

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what I'm saying.
So like yeah, like nudists andshit, I'm like damn.
So when I got back to me Iheard that shit, I'm like one of
the kids.
I'm like y'all didn't.
Even now, I ain't saying all my, I ain't you know all of them,
but it was a couple that didcome check on him periodically.
Then you know what I'm saying.

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I got, I got an auntie thatcome through, this bitch, you
know, swing up in Flint andwouldn't check on my granddad.
She come kick it.
See, I hate those types.

Yeah, sure, what a passion you will pull up on
your favorite.

Sibling or whatever, or some ofyour siblings, but she didn't't
kick it with my dad or my mom's, like that.
You get what I'm saying andthey pass.
I ain't looking for shit.
I didn't fuck with you.

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Like that's the shit that youknow.
Throw me off with the wholewhen they person die.
Like don't come around just toleech or don't start causing
chaos just to leech, causingchaos just to leech.
If you didn't fuck with amotherfucker, you didn't fuck
with a motherfucker.

That's how they, when my grand I'm not saying my
granddad, my stepdad died.
He died a year before my mama,2002, 22.
He, like I, said they wasn'tmarried, but his shit was still
the same from when they weren'tmarried years ago.
So he was in the hospital.

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He was getting sick.
He was getting sick, so we puthim in the hospital so he could
get his shit together.
Dave, my mama being my mamathinking she calling me because
you are his mother still and youare his sister, Like he's sick,
he's in the hospital, whatever.
So I've been taking care ofthem since the pandemic because
they had a stroke on the sameday.
So my mama dropped him off atthe hospital.

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He had a stroke.
By the time she went home, shehad a stroke.
So I'm taking care of two peoplewho fucking had a stroke During
this pandemic and we gotfucking COVID.
So I'm still working, I'mtrying to give them COVID and
take care of these twomotherfuckers.
She ended up telling his momand his sister, which is in,
that don't fuck with him, don'tcall him, no, nothing, that he's
in the hospital.

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So you know, then only twopeople can come see you Once two
people is on the list to seeyou, that's it.
So they came down here andvisited him, took our name off
the thing, pulled that I'm hissister, I'm his next of kin, I'm
his mama.
So we ain't got shit to say.
Like, even though we take careof him, he stay with us.

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It's like that trumps overeverything.
So they took him, put him in anursing home.
My name was still on everything.
I was his.
What you call them people whenyou make decisions for their
health or whatever.
I forgot what that is, but Iwas on it as an advocate.
Yeah, health advocate orwhatever.
So they took him to the homeand when he came to the hospital

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they automatically called meBecause I didn't know what home
they took him to.
They wouldn't answer our calls,they wouldn't do nothing.
So they tried to be spiteful tomy mom on all these different
types of shit.
So, fast forward, he died.
My mama and him had a burialplot At Flint Memorial.
They didn't have this burial.
Both of them had their burialplots Probably Since, since I
don't know when they you knowOld people they take care of

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that shit early they already gota plot, all that type of shit
they bury him at Grace Line.
They doing all this shit AtGrace Line, trying to keep my
mama Out the loop for everything.
Now here's a snack.
They can't even pay for itbecause my mom's insurance.

Yeah, you can't get through it.

She got to get the signature, she got to do
everything.
So now y'all got to come kissmy mom's ass because y'all
thought y'all was going to getsome money.
He ain't got no fucking money,but the insurance from GM.
So now y'all got to come findmy mom and get the signatures
for this and do that.
I said I wouldn't sign shit forthem.
Your mom was a good person.

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So she signed it.
They paid for the funeral andnow he at Graceline.
So now my mama Fast forward tomy mama passing she at Flint
Memorial With another burialplot.

Plot next door.
That's empty.

Like I can't stand All the people.

It ain't just, it's just people like I got to it,
fucked me up when people thinkthere's money involved.

They do wow they want to put their hands on in
and play I'm, this, is his mama,I'm his sister, I'm next to Ken
and this is why I'm so like.
I have never in my life been solike an advocate for marriage.
I mean that sounds bad, cuzthat's what you're supposed to
do, that's what we grew upthinking supposed to get married
.
Blah, blah, blah.
But shit.
People always say it's a pieceof paper.

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That piece of paper means sofucking much.
That's what.
When I say this, courtney, itholds so much weight, people
don't even fucking know.

No, when I say this , people think I be lying.
When I say it's nothing but Abusiness arrangement, yeah,
that's what a marriage really is.
It's a business arrangement,like that's what it is, but it
will fuck you If you don't haveit.

You cannot whether I, if me and you were
married, say if I didn't fuck onmy family at all, just whatever
reasons it was, I've been withyou and your family, like y'all
are my fucking family, right,but we're not married.
Now, here it is, I'm dead.
They know I got money.
Now here go my family talkingabout oh, that's my daughter,
this is my sister, you, you, you, not nothing for real.

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Like everything she got goes tome.
That's.
That's like a slap in the facefor you and your family who
brought me in and took care ofme and held me shit that's how I
felt.

That's why, you know, I felt to this day about
when my granddad I'm like Iremember, and my granddad a
prideful person like he wouldn'tlet me even fix certain shit in
the house because he justwouldn't do it if he had the
money to do it.
I I can't do it.
But I seen him as he got olderin his last year, before that
COVID shit hit.
You know like what's he callthat shit man?
Is it glaucoma?

What in your eyes ?
Yeah, yeah, glaucoma.

So he used to fuck around so much man, a strong
dude, so a lot hurt on me.
And then I'd go over there andtry to check on him.
he'd laugh at me like therewasn't nothing wrong with me so
I didn't know he was really howblind he was getting.
I used to think he was givingmy son the letters and shit to
read because my son was reading.
Yeah, no, he couldn't read, hereally couldn't see it.
So when I finally he was scaredto get his eyes operated.

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He started.
I remember Dr Sainz said likehe going to see better as soon
as we cut it and then he's gotto heal up and get in a little
big ass glasses.
He was like boy, I can see, Ican see better.
So his spirits went up.

You feel what I'm saying, but I remember, men and
older men, especially older men, are scared to go to the doctor
.

Yeah, and I know why.
Because now you feel like it'sgoing to be something so bad
that you know.

But you waited so long, so long, to where it's
always going to be so badbecause of the weight.

That's what happened to my granddad Because,
like when he had the stroke, hehad a stroke when I was in
eighth grade, going to ninthgrade and that's when I got in
the streets.
That's neither here nor there,but you know he was bedridden,
mouth was twisted.
He really worked hard to gethis shit back right.
He wanted people that came backfrom that stroke and you
couldn't tell his mouth wastwisted, took him a minute, but
he worked hard through physicaltherapy.

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After he came out of physicaltherapy he still was doing the
same shit and he got back.
You know, decent.
But with all that being said,he then he has kidneys, had
problem.
He always got to dialysis, some and my grandma was always
taking them t-splots, and thenmy grandma died, did all this.
My granddaddy didn't drive.
I ain't never seen mygranddaddy drive a car Damn
Never.
So like that's what hit me themost.

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I'm like, damn, like, where wasy'all at then?
Like some of you, you know whatI'm saying.
He kind of broke down to me,not crying, but just broke down
to me when I was taking him togo get the surgery done.
He told me, like that's whatthe goddamn saying.
I got all these grown ass kidsand you got to call off and work
to come take me.
I, jones, was serious like shit.
I'm glad I didn't.
I had a reason to tell thesemotherfuckers.

I had to go to work.
That's how I was when mystepdad.
They stayed in Finland, butsince then my mama took him to
Hurley.
All his doctor's appointmentswas in Flint.
When she had a stroke, mysister called the ambulance and
took her to Genesis.
So all his doctors andneurologists were out in Flint,
hers is in Grand Blanc.

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So, and neurology out in Flint,hers is in Grand Blanc.
So I'm trying to work, takethem to the doctor's
appointments, his in Flint, hersin Grand Blanc or Flint.

He's trying to figure it out.

And my whole life consisted of that for a whole
fucking year, trying to get themback to health.
My mama got back right.
He never got back right.
So it was like he ended uphaving a catheter just started
declining, declining, decliningand that led to his death.
But it was like that shit isfucking tough.
And his family wasn't around.
My mama called basically likewhat is we going to do?

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Because she's older too, shecan't take care of no grown man.
That's stubborn.

That's the thing about old men.

Yeah, something go wrong, i'm'm all right, I can
do it and this, this and that.
So it's like she don't want tocall me because she know I'm
gonna make him go to thehospital or whatever.
So she doing what he say, likedon't call me, so he will pull
his catheter out, his catheterout will probably be out for
days, or whatever the case, theydon't want to call me because
I'll make his ass go to thehospital he don't want to go to
the hospital.
Go for baby girl so it's likewhere was everybody at?

yeah, man, that's.
That's why I said, like thatfuneral when somebody died, it's
crazy, man, like that, really,like to this day I can say it,
don't?
You know?
I'm saying an episode, like Isaid, like one of my aunties I
had in high regards you knowwhat I'm saying and just fucked
me up like damn, like really,and that's about that's why I
went back.
What I said, like you talking,and we just got together and
then you passed, even if wemarried we've been married for

(48:40):
two years and we've beentogether for three why would I
not feel like I'm going to takethe majority of the money when
you've been paying for this lifeinsurance shit with your kids?
They get it.
They can get it.
I'm a man, i'ma hold a housedown or all that shit without it
.
That's just me thinking.
You know, for me being me, I'mnot into no money type shit.
So it was just crazy, man.

(49:01):
It's like when my mama died Tothis, I don't know what my mama
got, what she had, what happenedwith her If she had insurance
she didn't have.
I didn't go to the funeral, ohdamn.
So you know what?
Because my mom didn't raise me,so it was like I had a nice
relationship with my mom.

It could have been way better, but you know
what I'm saying how can you beso entitled to something like I
don't even fuck with people.
Like it goes to show I knowthis is off topic like you know,
like certain people, birthdayscome around, people throw stuff,
they go out of town or someshit fuck with you like that.
Why would I be mad you didn'tinvite me to go on any of these
trips or go to your birthdaydinner or something.

(49:39):
Like some people really do befeeling entitled like damn bitch
.
You could have invited me andit's like why would she invite
me?
I don't fuck with her.
Like I barely call her like Idon't even fuck with her kids.
Like why would somebody calllike why do people feel like
they entitled or something whenyou don't fuck with me?

that's my thing.
That's why I'm saying, like youknow, mary, we separate it.
Won't, won't, won't, and say wenever get a divorce.
Well, if she get to fuckingwith somebody else and she end
up passing, I'm not looking toget none of that shit.
Even though we didn't like saywe don't get a divorce, I could
I've seen that happen.

No, that's how.
What happened with my daddy?

I'm saying't seen that happen before.
I'm not the type of personthat's going to be like well, my
name on this bitch.
I'm about to no.

Well, I feel like that's where the communication
from, because if me, knowing thetype of person I am not, as
soon as we break up or whateverthe fuck the case, maybe I'm
going out there changing andshit, but it's like, of course,

(50:40):
we've been married for so manyyears, you're my kid's father,
whether I start talking tosomebody or not, and obviously I
didn't marry them.
I would have that connection tobe like you're still on my
beneficiary.

I know you're going to take care of the kids.
That's all that matters.

So that's why you're still on my shit.
But just losing sight likelosing sight to change it and do
this type of shit is likethat's madly insane and people
do it like before we got married.

You know I said I said that's it because you know
I'm like we talked about itbecause my grandmother had
passed.
You feel me, I'm like if youwould have ended up dying before
we got married, the money wouldhave went to the kids.
That's what I would have seenit.
They would have split.
Now of course I would have.
They wouldn't have been oldenough to do nothing with it yet
.

Yeah, I would have put it in place for them,
but I wouldn't ask for a cent,even though we have been
together for years speaking ofthat, um tracy braxton divorced
her um tony braxton sister well,not divorced, she um died, left
all her fucking money to herson, all of it, all of it.

(51:42):
So I've been married to you allthese years.
You done played in my face somany years.
You done did all this type ofshit, but I still had the last
laugh at the end because when Idied you thought you was gonna
get something.
Nope, all my money and umwhatever she had went to her
fucking son.

See me and you, Corey.
We on the same page with this.
This is why I'm taking out theepisode and I hope the viewers
get it too.
Fuck with me the same way youfuck with me before I hit the
ground.

Yep.

There's no reason for you to change up anything
once I hit the ground.
I'm going to keep it the sameway.
Like I ain't paid enough to saylike if we had issues, real
issues or something like wedidn't talk.
You can't come try to say yourpiece and fix it while I'm in
the grave or in the cast.
That's cool, I don't have anissue with that.
But all that acting like we wasthis and we wasn't that go for

(52:33):
females, friends, family memberswho don't don't not keep it the
same way.

No, it definitely had to be the same.
Yeah, keep it the same way thememories I did have with you, I
mean them, the memories.
I can't shake those, don'tdon't.
I'm not finna knock on nobodyelse's parade though.

No, if I said, if I'm fucking with a chick man you
know I was a side nigga shehadn't anybody else more special
I'm not about to act a fool atthis fucking wedding I mean
funeral.
No, why, why would I do that?
I'm not about to do that.

I won't even go.
Like I said, when I said me andWayne was talking being
together, we were done talkingto each other for months.
I'm not finna go to that man'sfuneral.
He probably talking to somebodyelse.
I was talking to somebody.

Yeah, I'm not showing up.

unless I get invited, I'm not going to show
up acting a fool or whateverlike that, like I could have
Granted.
I don't like funerals.
That was the only reason why Ididn't go, because I don't like
funerals.
And to see a nigga I love in acasket but went to the weight
showed my respect.
That was that everybody knewlike who I was, but he could be

(53:37):
talking to somebody else andthat the bitch could be feeling
in love.

So I'm not finna be on that bitch like, oh my god
no, if I'm invited and it's notby a messy family member like if
the mom messy or you know whatI'm saying, I know they on some
shit because they don't like theother person, you ain't gonna
put me in the middle of that.
But if y'all you know what I'msaying, it's actually genuine,
like yeah, we know you couldlike, if one of my baby mamas
pass, I'm not automaticallygoing to the funeral.
That's just me.

(54:00):
I got one.
I ain't going, period.

Why wouldn't you go out with your kids?

That's neither here nor there.
I ain't going regardless.
You know what?

I'm saying Not her.
I'm saying why wouldn't youshow your kids?

period, because this is my thing again, you know
what I'm saying.
So like I'm not going to showup, just to show up, you know
that's me that's not just a showup.

This is my kid's mother.

You know what I'm saying?
Listen, this is me.
If I'm invited, I'm invited.
Now, if my daughter invite meand say, Dad, I want you to come
, that's completely different.
And she say, Dad, I need youthere.

Yeah, I don't want to see nobody like that,
but I'll go to the family house.
I'm not going to wait to beinvited to the family house.
We have kids.

That's it.
I'm going to go to the familyhouse bring flowers.
I'm going to bring food.

do whatever I got to do Because, like you said,
if she married or whatever thecase may be, it's still love
with the dude.
You Granted we did spend sometime with each other.
I got memories with this person.
Whether I hate thismotherfucker in real life or not
, I still got to do my part formy kid, regardless.

(55:05):
My kid can't send food, my kidcan't go get flowers, my kid
can't do shit.
I do it for my kid.

That's why I said that's different.

To show my kids how to do shit, because if they
don't see a role model doingthat shit, your kid going to
always show up to people'shouses, whether they dead or
alive, with nothing in theirhand.

And listen, I'm going to sound about this dude.
They can call me petty or not.
I got to be in my motherfuckingdie.
My daughter ain't know whattime it is.
Hey, she's not allowed.
I'll have to cover thatmotherfucker.
I'll hop off this casket.

I mean, that's the relationship that I have.
That's the relationship.
Don't bring your ass in thisbitch.

I'm coming out the casket.
You're going to see some shitlike Thriller.

Yeah, but I try to teach my kids shit like when
his.
We only went to one kid funeral, which it was my friend's son
funeral, so that was the onlyreason why I let him go and I
went.
But so many kids is dying likethey getting immune to this shit
so like they don't know likethey're supposed to show up to

(56:05):
somebody.

House with shit yeah if it ain't nothing like a
little cake or something right,like something you show up to
somebody house with somethingtissue, water, something and
it's really just etiquette.
That's the proper etiquette forit.

But if they don't never see it because you don't
do it, it's like they don't know.

You just knocked it , they don't know.
So yeah, that's what I tookfrom.
This is where we at However youfuck with somebody, however
your relationship was, yourterms was while they was living.
That's exactly how you shouldcarry on.

Carry it out.

Carry it out.
Ain't no reason to be trying tochange up now, making no big
scenes.
Ain't no reason to be trying toget entitled to no money.
Stay off social media Grieve.
Grieve on your own.
Grieve with the people who knewwho y'all was.
Grieve with them.
Ain't nothing wrong with that.
I'm with it 100%.
So we wrapping up what you beenlistening to Court.

Um, what have I been listening to?
Um, boston Richie, I don't knowwhy.

That's crazy.
You said that.

I um I ain't gonna say I don't know why.
Um put it on Pandora and justlisten to Boston Richie.
I don't know if I like hisvoice, his sound or what it is
the song sounded like.

The only reason why I said it's crazy is because I
wasn't going to say I wasbumping.
But I was at my dog crib theother last weekend and we was
just chilling and the music wasplaying and I'm like, yeah,
somebody was like, yeah, thatnigga a rat.
And I'm like I don't reallylisten to his music so I didn't
know anything about it.
Like music sound cool.
Average hood trap shit.
Going on drill trap music typeshit.

(57:39):
And I'm like I don't reallylisten to him, I don't know.

But I'm like, yeah, but I don't really not
like him, neither so I'm likecool.

I'm like alright, a couple songs I had.
They was cool.
I listened to them withCurrency.
He got this, probably one ofhis best.
Like I tell people all the timeI don't smoke weed, but that's
my favorite rapper all the timeand people are like how, you
don't smoke weed.
I just said I just been fuckingwith this nigga for years.
He just dropped the TonightShow.
It's a sequel, that shit nice,like again it roll out and vibe.

(58:08):
You can just sit back and vibeto it.
You know and say shit like that.

So that's been it , so where can?

they catch you at.

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