Episode 12: Squandered & Shamed - Jan 12, 2023

Hey mates, it's January 12th. Today's not been that great of a day. I've been in a grumpy mood and I ate my feelings throughout the day.

I was thinking about what I wanted to talk about today. Because obviously, I was not accountable in any way today. So I guess today is as good a time as any to talk about some of the past stuff that I'm working my way through and what I'd done previously.

You may have heard me mention that I can't drink carbonated beverages. That's because I had surgery. Gastric sleeve surgery to be specific. When we had a certain insurance, the gastric sleeve surgery was available. So were the others, like gastric bypass. I chose the gastric sleeve surgery. So in 2015, after going through all the hoops, I had the surgery.

In less than a year, I had went from my heaviest I'd ever been and had lost 100 pounds. I was eating better, because my stomach could only hold so much food. It was only supposed to hold 2-3 ounces of food at the time.

At the time.

Unfortunately, I hit that plateau most people who have weight loss surgery hit. I was exercising, but not enough. I was eating, but slowly changing the good habits I had developed. I started sliding backwards. Bad habits started taking over And eventually...  I just slid. It was slow... but I started gaining that weight back.  My stomach pouch expanded. I could hold more food... which meant I was eating more. Which meant I was gaining more weight. And so it continued.... continues.

It's one of the reason I am doing my best to meal prep. Make my meal preps the size I need them to be, not the size that I would normally eat. There used to be a way to reset the pouch, but only drinking protein shakes for a few days...  and only protein shakes.  I'm not sure if I can do that... but it may be an option.

I don't want people to think that I thought surgery was the easy option... because it definitely wasn't. It was life changing. I had that opportunity... and I squandered it, and it's something I have to think about and work with every day of my life now. 

So, this accountability project... everything... is really important to me. To get me going back to how I was. There's more to this story, but that's for another day.

Thanks for listening mates. You can find me on Instagram at https://www.instagram.com/weightmatepodcast/ or you can email me at weightmatepodcast at gmail dot com