What's The Matter With Me? Podcast
Hey everybody my name is John, I’m 45, disabled wheelchair user, husband, parent, community radio DJ, small business owner, podcaster with multiple sclerosis and trigeminal neuralgia. I made the What’s The Matter With Me? podcast to share what I’m going through.
Episodes
October 8, 2025 • 24 mins
Saying My Age — Conversation With My Brain — Mortal Husk (Canto XIII) — Fell Against The House — A Place For Us, By Us — Argumentative Life — New Hope For Patients With MS and Other Neurological Disorders — My Son's Resolution
Shout outs
To Rocky, Sandman, Jersey Girl
A Place For Us, By Us
‘A Place for Us, By Us’: San Francisco’s Disability Cultural Center Breaks New Ground
KQED Story about a first-in-the-nation...
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September 5, 2025 • 23 mins
The iconic line, "It's alive! It's alive!"
is spoken by Dr. Henry Frankenstein (played by Colin Clive) in the 1931 film Frankenstein. This famous line is actually an addition to Mary Shelley's original novel, where the creator reacts with horror and flees from his creation.
Birthdays
Mom, Freddie Mercury, Gordon Harrison Hull
Put It On The List (House shows)
Polka band, Ghast,
Bard with lyre
we need a ba...
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August 29, 2025 • 5 mins
Is this thing on?
Seeing what still works.
This Week's Selfie
00:00:16 - Is This Thing On
00:00:35 - Ghost On Sabbatical
00:01:34 - Advanced Visualizing
00:02:27 - Maybe
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March 19, 2025 • 32 mins
Boom (explosive)
Everybody in the house say What's The Matter With Me? Podcast! Doesn't really roll exactly? In "The Tamis," we've started down a road and we aren't looking back behind us. The episode finds us rolling the chair around Berkeley, thinking molecular gastronomy and cooking while disabled.
Shoutouts
To The Sandman, Etan Rechra, Tall John and Rocky
Cal Performances Scene
Ladysmith Black Mambazo
creeped...
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March 2, 2025 • 30 mins
Whoomp! (Here It Is)
Party on, party people: let me hear you touch the ground! In "Cooking," What's The Matter With Me? Podcast has all the pots on, the gas is burning and we're ready to go. This episode touches on cooking through limitations, self-imposed or otherwise (like a disability), with a trip to the military-industrial grocery store we know and love as Target, cooking @christinatosi with the kids and watching @majordomo...
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February 21, 2025 • 14 mins
In the Season 9 Premiere, "The UN-ghost REVEALED" I return from ghosting the podcast since last year! I'm back and older than before! Various topics, no theme, chaotic dishevelment, dishevelry.
Respect Due Canadians
Did you see the game? Shout outs to our Canadian listeners, especially long-running ones from Edmonton like Sean Wingrave, shout outs to the Edmonton Oilers
Driving all morning
Just to miss my physi...
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June 19, 2024 • 32 mins
Low Anxiety, Going Places
In this episode, I give a shoutout to Kevin for Montana info, share insights from Andrew Pulrang's Disability Thinking, and discuss prepping Dax Pierson interview questions. I also talk about my kids' haircuts, our neighborhood, music, therapy, hospital visits, and my recent solo trips and poetry publications.
Shout Outs
Shout outs to Kevin. thanks for the info about Montana. Kevin does comic ...
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June 5, 2024
In the latest "What's the Matter with Me?" podcast, John updates on his improved sleep with a sleep apnea device, newfound independence loading his wheelchair, upcoming Montana trip, and reflections on anxiety. He also mentions his kids' interest in the viral "Skibidi Toilet" videos.
A Toilet For The Ages
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrlkXOxlvCk
I asked my son about skibidi toilet, and he replied:
It's gone viral....
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May 21, 2024 • 30 mins
Compulsive behavior sequences are keeping me up at night, precluding a good night's sleep
I'm driven from bed, get dressed, go outside to calm down, and eventually get back in bed. Out-of-control thoughts about the various trauma I'm going through overwhelm me, and soon I'm driven from bed again.
Searched up 'strategy to stop repetitive behavior compulsive' at 130am:
Sleep anxiety is a feeling of stress or fear about goin...
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May 14, 2024 • 30 mins
Getting through anxiety one day at a time, one step at a time, putting myself out there. Slogging through.
In the news
Paris Promised the Olympics Would Be Accessible. The Clock Is Ticking.
Article: Paris Promised The Olympics Would Be Accessible
The city, which put inclusivity at the center of its bid, has improved access for people with disabilities, but with the opening ceremony about 12 weeks away, obstacles rem...
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May 7, 2024 • 25 mins
In "Anxiety Medication Strategy Session," changing opinions on music, bouts of anxiety, recent publication in Identity Theory and Disturb the Universe, family life changes, increased mobility, and resumption of some duties.
Last Old Guy Or First New Guy?
Recently, I read a tweet by flea, and I was forced to reconsider:
https://twitter.com/flea333/status/1774601328502898936
https://youtu.be/QEgalcH_-b4?si=q7ZD6rdC4Zhf...
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April 23, 2024 • 18 mins
Featuring updates on Hoppin Hot Sauce inventory, newly published writing, recuperation from surgery, the year's first barbecue, and a new family pet.
Sandman Knows Kale
Shout outs to the Sandman, who wrote in about kale and he knows more about kale than I ever will. He works with kale as a kaleologist.
Extra Hot Shortage
Buy Extra Hot Hoppin Hot Sauce from Amazon as we will be out of stock on Extra Hot in the near term,...
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April 16, 2024 • 39 mins
Period of Change
Undergoing a period of change: I had surgery, I got published and I went on vacation. Plenty of new music reviews in this episode.
A word
What's The Matter With Me? Podcast is sponsored by Hoppin Hot Sauce. Order it on Amazon.
JWH Live!
Writings By John Winfield Hoppin is live, because my editor said I needed a writer's website. I think it's pretty nifty..
Selfie Edict
Subscribers get the s...
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March 25, 2024 • 9 mins
In "Drugged Out," a short episode featuring wine delivery, toilet paper shortage and trigeminal neuralgia pain medication.
Long Time
Subscribers get the selfie for as long as we all shall live. It's a lifetime subscription
Green fluid
Cuts in my hands have been getting infected and filling with green goop
In Our Cups
We got the wine delivery, man, and the wine deliveryman was in his 20s, maybe his mid-20s, and...
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March 19, 2024 • 22 mins
In "Spring Concert," an incidental return to Dry Marchuary, a chapbook's worth of poetry and the school's Spring Concert.
From chaos comes order
One way to enjoy Hoppin Hot Sauce is "On Pasta".
In the midst of near-total chaos, small rituals ground us, nourishing both body and soul.
"On Pasta" at HoppinHotSauce.com
Shout outs
Shout outs to schwabino kickin fatal aikido kung fu karate they bout to find your body...
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March 11, 2024 • 16 mins
In “I Drove,” getting reacquainted with driving, where did kale come from and borscht out the wazoo.
Iconic trio
At Breakfast is a great time to have Hoppin Hot Sauce.
Just like the iconic trios of Larry, Curly, and Moe, or black, white, and grey, or even the Roman numerals I, II and III, eggs, English muffins and Hoppin Hot Sauce form an unforgettable trio that’s sure to become a favorite in your kitchen.
Sho...
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March 5, 2024 • 31 mins
In "Buying A Used Wheelchair," breaking my wheelchair and buying a new one on Craigslist, more record shopping, cooking borscht and getting accepted for publication.
Every week we order pizza from the place in town. On the day after, for lunch I eat cold pizza with Hoppin Hot Sauce on it.(Hoppin Hot Sauce jingle)
Those who say don't know & who know don't say
Buying a used wheelchair selfie
Subscribers get the selfie and...
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February 27, 2024 • 23 mins
In "Swift Correction," Taylor Swift wrote all the songs, hoping everything's okay, and a sprained knee. But first, I'm programming robots to do my bidding! I can feel it-- success is near at hand.
Automaton I
I spent all day working on an automation to send posts created on the Hoppin Hot Sauce blog out to the mailing list automatically. Automations help multiply my actions which is important so I can conserve energy and avoi...
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February 20, 2024 • 27 mins
In "Wheelchair Dig," a dinner party, shout outs and a family trip to the record store.
Amidst discussions on music finds, including Eminem and Taylor Swift covers, touching on the disappearance of People's Park, radio's outreach to marginalized communities, and the place of 'inspirational' content in disability culture.
Canvas for hot sauce
We had our neighbors over for dinner last night and we made pulled pork sandwiches...
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February 13, 2024 • 22 mins
In "The Music Episode:" "Let's Paint TV," Ludacris color story meme, and keeping the kids in their rooms by tuning in to Day Of Noise on KZSU.
When life gives you shoes.. make shoeanade
The new shoes that I got in the last episode are working out. They're made by a company called Drew
I swear it's true
Semi-transparent guitarist playing a record store "in store" gig with red paint scrawled all over its face
This...
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