December 30, 2020 • 25 mins
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Michelle Remington (01:20):
Have you ever asked yourself? Am I
enough? If that's something thatresonates with you right now, if
you feel that right now, thenthis episode is for you. This is
something it's a concept. It's athought it's a fear, a worry
(01:41):
that so many people go throughmen and women, everybody seals
this at some point in theirlife? Am I enough? And today,
we're going to begin a dive intobiblical affirmations. Because
(02:04):
this is an affirmation that alot of people use, I am enough.
And this is something you know,I've talked about affirmations
previously on my shows, and thisis something really important
because affirmations are a truththat you're supposed to be
(02:25):
speaking into your life. Andthat's why we want to be very
intentional about theaffirmations that we speak into
our life and remind ourselves ofbecause we're rewriting a
conversation and negativeconversation that's been going
on in our minds. So sit back,get you some coffee, tea, it's
(02:49):
time to have that talk.
Worth It! Intro (02:51):
Welcome to worth it. The podcast where we
answer anxiety, deflate fear andshut down shame, because ain't
no woman got time for that youwere made to thrive. My mission
is to help you get deeply rootedwith God and reclaim your weapon
that the enemy of God has beenusing against you. After going
to battle for my own mind. Threeyears ago, I realized that there
(03:13):
is a war going on for our minds.
A battle that begins with how wethink since you have much more
control than you realize. Witheach episode, you'll learn how
to fight back and become moreconfident and the truth that God
already knows. You are worth it.
I'm Michelle Remington,Christian mindset coach, thought
(03:34):
strategist and warrior Mama.
Grab your sword daughter of theking, it's time to unleash your
inner warrior princess.
Michelle Remington (03:48):
Welcome back. You beautiful warrior
woman you are warrior man.
There's there's men that listento this podcast as well. And
today is going to be aninteresting episode. And I just
want you to come to thisepisode. Because we're dealing
(04:09):
with the thought of Am I enough,come to it with an open mind
knowing that you are loved bythe Almighty God that created
everything that knows you betterthan you know yourself. And this
is something that I've actuallyrecently dealt with in myself
(04:36):
this was this was something thatthe Lord brought about in me and
helped me to deal with and youknow what, since I've dealt with
it, I have felt so much joy andliberation, freedom and I want
you to have this same thing.
(05:00):
You're gonna find a lot as I gothrough this podcast that I'm
still going through my healingprocess. Some of that damage was
done by other people, some ofthat damage was done by myself.
And I want to share that withyou because I know that we're
all going through something. Andwe all have these kinds of
(05:24):
thoughts in these kinds ofconversations in our minds. So
my purpose is to bless you.
Mental Health Disclaimer (05:31):
Before we dive in, I do want to say
that I am not a mental healthprofessional. I'm simply sharing
from my experience withdepression, the strategies and
steps that helped me. So firstand foremost, I want you to know
that you are not alone. Reachout to friends and family, tell
them how you're feeling. Don'tbe afraid to ask for help. The
(05:54):
world is so much better with youin it. If you need help, or
resources, or just moreinformation for yourself or for
someone else, I encourage you toreach out to the National
Suicide Prevention hotline,their phone number is
1-800-273-8255. That's1-800-273-8255.
Michelle Remington (06:22):
As you know, life can be super crazy,
especially this last year,trying to deal with everything
in life on top of a pandemic,and all of that everything that
comes with that. And at times,it feels like I have always
(06:45):
struggled with trying to balancefamily, relationships home and
work. And as a woman and afollower of Jesus, I thought
that I had to be up to code as agodly woman, a perfect proverbs
31 woman, balancing it all,effortlessly, and being a
(07:08):
flawless example to all. Soundfamiliar? Sound impossible.
That's because we're human.
Now I'm pretty sure that mostwomen have felt the pressure at
one time or another, to beeverything to everyone. I mean,
even First Corinthians 9 (07:28):
22 says, I have become all things
to all men, that I might, by allmeans safe. So we have that word
in our mind. So it creates anexpectation. But that scripture
can be easily misunderstood. Wethink that as believers, we need
(07:53):
to do everything in our power tobe the best Christian so that we
can make it to heaven. And don'tget me wrong. I am a passionate
believer. There's nothing wrongwith trying to do your best by
what God's word says. Butoftentimes, what happens is that
(08:14):
Christians get taken advantageof while they are trying to do
their best for God. So they endup thinking that being put out
means you are selflesslyserving. And there's so much of
a push to work to get the worksout there. And sometimes the
(08:36):
attitude is that you may feelburnt out and stressed, but just
pray for God to help you, you'llmake it through.
There's so much focus on doinggood works, that your
relationship with God starts tosuffer, and eventually becomes
damaged. See, it's backwards.
It's a it's a backwards way ofgoing about because we're
(08:59):
supposed to be doing those worksfor God. And it's not by those
works only that were saved byGod. But a lot of times, we get
hyper focused on that. Now James
26 clears it up for us. For asthe body without the spirit is
(09:21):
dead. So Faith without works isdead also. Simply put, we need
both.
You enter into a relationshipwith God through your spirit.
And as you gain a betterunderstanding of who God is,
your faith grows, as youunderstand and experience God
(09:44):
more. Then he began to showworks because if your faith in
God, your old ways, don't matchup with the conviction and
integrity of the person that youare becoming. You can't act in
your old ways you're not thatperson anymore. Your motives and
(10:04):
your attitudes have changed. Butoftentimes, we get so focused on
showing the fruits of our newway of living. We're excited, we
want to get involved in everychurch event. We want to share
our faith. We want to show theworld that we are living for
God, and we want to show themthat living for God is amazing.
(10:29):
And that we don't want them tomiss out. And there's nothing
wrong with those things. Yet,having broken through the
darkness of the soil, what Godbrought us from, we're still
only a sprout, there's a lotmore growing to be done. And I'm
(10:50):
sure you've seen how in your ownzealousness, we can get in our
own way, and hinder our growth.
I've lost count of the timesthat I have tripped over myself,
or completely blocked myselffrom getting to where God wanted
me to be. Now, your relationshipwith God may be suffering.
(11:13):
Because you're focusing on yourworks, you start to become
spiritually malnourished. Andyour spirit is fed by God's
Spirit.
This is where I found myself. Iwas giving and giving and giving
(11:36):
and giving and giving. And asGod was working through me, and
in me, my focus was off. And Istarted doubting myself, my
journey, and even God, all thisfocus on trying to be the best
(12:00):
version of myself, for God, tomeet the potential that I
thought that he had for me whenI really just needed to just put
myself in God's hands, and stopthere. See, I didn't realize how
(12:22):
I had inched closer and closerto my vision in the mirror of
who I was molding myself to be.
I had chosen certain words andphrases of affirmation that
resonated with my deepestinsecurities.
(12:42):
But they would never heal thewounds that were so easily
agitated. I would get sofrustrated with myself like I
I'm doing, I'm doing everything,you know, like all these mental
health things, I'm doing these,I'm praying to God, and I'm
still missing something, thosewounds still got easily
(13:06):
agitated. And I was justspinning and spinning and
spinning and it felt like Iwasn't getting any getting
anywhere. And I realized thatthose words would only ever be a
band aid. I would eventually getfrustrated at their refusal to
heal.
(13:26):
That's where I found myself andsome of those wounds. Some of
those biggest fears were that Iwas not worthy. Not valuable,
and would never be enough.
which, frankly, lead to avicious thought cycle of you're
a worthless piece of trash. Thatwill never be enough. Have you
(13:48):
ever talked to yourself likethat? That is a double edged
serrated sword straight throughthe gut. Nobody knows how to
hurt you better than you arerepeat that nobody knows how to
hurt you better than you. Why dowe do that? Like I was literally
(14:13):
taking turns with the enemy ofGod beating myself up with those
words. It nearly made me end mylife. Nevertheless, as Paul
says, nevertheless, God had beenat work in me and redeeming what
I attempted to destroy.
(14:41):
God has helped me see that Iwill never be enough. that's a
that's a hard thing to hear atfirst, but let's follow it up
with some truth. I will never beenough for myself, my husband,
my family or my friends. I willnever be enough for myself
(15:02):
because I need more than me. Ineed God. And I can't be God to
myself. I've been on a journeyof personal growth for a few
years now. And recently, I foundmyself getting frustrated. I
haven't been meeting my ownexpectations. And I've noticed
(15:24):
that I've regressed into certainbehaviors and thoughts. But most
of all, I've been frustratedbecause I felt like I have never
been accepted by the world, myfamily, my church, my friends,
just being real honest here.
This is what led me to a feelingof not being enough or, more
(15:45):
appropriately, this feeling ofnot being enough, is what led me
to feel like I wasn't accepted.
I wasn't loved. I wasn't valued.
And this like cuts to the coreof humanity versus living with
God. Who is I tried to be, ithasn't been the real me, it's
(16:08):
been this ideal of who I couldpossibly be. But no real vision
or plan to get there. So thispseudo me has led my thoughts,
my decisions, my actions. Upuntil now, I haven't noticed
because pseudo me, was part ofmy rescue team. When I was held
captive in the dungeon of mymind, I had basically kind of
(16:33):
been using it as a crutch, tobuild myself up and tell myself
I am enough, I am valued, I amloved. And I am valued, I am
loved are true things. But I wasusing them in the wrong way. I
was thinking of them andpositioning them in the wrong
(16:56):
way.
So now God has prepared me tolevel up and pseudo me is no
longer needed. Gods like, Okay,you've been using this as a
crutch for a long time. But ifyou're going to level up and go
further with me and reach thepotential that I've created you
for, you got to let this thinggo. That's how I've been
(17:20):
standing in my own way. I don'tknow if this resonates with you.
If you're still listening, I'mguessing it probably does. And I
pray that Jesus is speaking toyou right now.
Now, if you would ask me a weekago, if I was enough, I would
have emphatically gone into aspiel about how it's all
(17:42):
society's fault that women feellike they are not enough
unrealistic expectations are toblame. And if you would have
looked me in the eyes and saidthat you are not good enough, it
would have been a trigger thatspun me into the darkness of my
in securities. Yet today, withina matter of minutes, God showed
me that those in securities wererooted in the thought that I had
(18:09):
to be enough for me, and I wastrying to be God to myself.
That's deep. In you may need tolisten to this episode, you may
need to simmer on this. Andabsolutely take that time to do
(18:29):
that. Take that time. Take thisto prayer like God, this is
something that like it, you'llknow if it's resonating in you,
you'll know that this issomething that God's trying to
speak to you on. But it's tough.
It's really hard. Because thoseinsecurities, dig deep. They go
(18:50):
deep into you, but in a moment,in a moment's time, as how good
God is in a moment's time. Godset me free from that. And now
it's upward and onward.
I pray that for you, I pray thatyou'd have that same experience,
(19:15):
because there's so many thingsholding us back and a lot of
times it's ourselves. And I amjust amazed that in a matter of
minutes, God showed me that Iwill never be enough. No, it
sounds completely insane. I amvery okay with that. I'm like,
(19:39):
Praise Jesus. He set me free. Heset me free. And I tell you
right now, and what's beenhappening since I had this
moment with God and he he did itin the most beautiful time. It
was during Hanukkah. It goes atime to rededicate yourself,
(20:02):
rededicate your temple back toGod. So is a very beautiful time
for God to do this. Ever sincethen Joy has been returning to
me, because I got out of my ownway. And I focused my attention
back on the real center of myuniverse. Jesus is the real
(20:25):
Center, the real son.
It's like all those years agowhen I called out to God, in my
darkest moment, I was so hyperfocused on myself that I was the
biggest planet in this solarsystem. And the sun, Jesus was
just a faraway star, but I couldstill see his light. So I called
(20:47):
out to him. And then my orbitdrew closer to Jesus, it gave me
balanced to my previouslywobbling solar system that was
so close to collapse. Jesusbrought balance and stability to
my life, the more I focused onhim, and drew close to him.
(21:13):
Throughout my journey with God,I have gone through, we'll call
it several orbits of growth,drawing closer at times,
gravitating away, at times, allthe while still trying to
maintain balance between me andGod. There's a reason that
(21:33):
doesn't sound right. Because asGod's creation, we can never be
equal with God, He will alwaysbe our father, our Creator, we
can never be those things, tothe uncreated one, the one that
created you.
(21:54):
So I know, in today's world, avery, very prevalent affirmation
that a lot of people seek afteris, I am enough. And that's why
we're starting to break downthese affirmations. Because
these affirmations I mean, theBible speaks about affirmations,
(22:17):
and letting the word affirm you.
And so what that means forbelievers like ourselves is that
those affirmations should berooted in God's word. That's why
we're breaking this down. And Iknow it's a, it's a sensitive
one. It's a challenging one. ButI'm following the leading of God
(22:39):
here. And this one of the mostdamaging, there is freedom in
being who God created you to be.
And the truth in that is thatyou're not meant to be enough
for everyone in your life,you're not meant to be enough
(23:01):
for yourself.
As you probably know, when youtry to be your own source of
inspiration, and life, you canonly do so much, you don't have
the rest to give. And when itcomes to being enough for other
people, you only know what youknow, of those people. You don't
(23:24):
know them, like God knows them.
God is the only one that knowsevery single person on this
earth, the most intimately,deeply better than they know
themselves. God is the only one,the only one kind of like, if
you look at the story of Joe,the enemy of God thought he knew
that job would be trade God, butGod saw his heart, and God sees
(23:45):
your heart.
So if I could give you a wordfrom the Lord, from a sister
from a humble daughter of theking, is that you will never be
enough. And you weren't meant tobe you were just meant to be
you. You are meant to be thebeautiful child that God created
(24:11):
with love. Such immense lovethat we cannot even fathom it.
So I don't know what you've beengoing through. I don't know
where you are right now. But Goddoes. So I want to encourage you
to make some time with Godtoday. And every day. Get to
(24:34):
know the Almighty God whocreated you so that you can get
to know yourself better.
Understanding that once you setout on that journey with God,
that relationship with God, he'sgoing to have to do some work to
be able to begin to reveal toyou the beauty of how He created
you. But don't worry His work isperfect. His work is always
(25:01):
love, love, and he will neverleave you nor forsake you. You
can always turn to him he's onlyever a word away.
Thank you for joining me on thisepisode of worth it. If this
episode has blessed you in someway, I invite you to leave a
(25:21):
review and make sure that yousubscribe to this podcast for
more encouraging content. Untilnext time, remember you are
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Have you ever tried to build your own website?
I know it's an absolutenightmare, especially with the
coding and the WordPress. Andyou've got to learn these
things. And then there'splugins, all that fun stuff. But
let me tell you, I just gotdone. building my website,
Michelle Remington calm, and Ihave never had so much fun
(00:21):
building a website, you can havethis same experience. It's
called instabuilder.com. And letme tell you, this is a super
smooth drag and drop builderthat offers premium designs,
mobile responsive pages, appintegrations, it's highly
customizable. And you can notonly build your own website, you
(00:45):
can build funnels, storefronts,membership sites, booking sites,
and so much more. And as I saidearlier, no coding, no
WordPress, you get analytics andtracking priority support.
There's a back office CRM,storage, email, and hosting, all
included with instabuilder.
Check out my website, if youwant to see what it looks like.
(01:07):
And when you're ready to startyour 14 day free trial, head on
over to instabuilder.com that'sinstabuilder.com.
Michelle Remington (01:20):
Have you ever asked yourself? Am I
enough? If that's something thatresonates with you right now, if
you feel that right now, thenthis episode is for you. This is
something it's a concept. It's athought it's a fear, a worry
(01:41):
that so many people go throughmen and women, everybody seals
this at some point in theirlife? Am I enough? And today,
we're going to begin a dive intobiblical affirmations. Because
(02:04):
this is an affirmation that alot of people use, I am enough.
And this is something you know,I've talked about affirmations
previously on my shows, and thisis something really important
because affirmations are a truththat you're supposed to be
(02:25):
speaking into your life. Andthat's why we want to be very
intentional about theaffirmations that we speak into
our life and remind ourselves ofbecause we're rewriting a
conversation and negativeconversation that's been going
on in our minds. So sit back,get you some coffee, tea, it's
(02:49):
time to have that talk.
Worth It! Intro (02:51):
Welcome to worth it. The podcast where we
answer anxiety, deflate fear andshut down shame, because ain't
no woman got time for that youwere made to thrive. My mission
is to help you get deeply rootedwith God and reclaim your weapon
that the enemy of God has beenusing against you. After going
to battle for my own mind. Threeyears ago, I realized that there
(03:13):
is a war going on for our minds.
A battle that begins with how wethink since you have much more
control than you realize. Witheach episode, you'll learn how
to fight back and become moreconfident and the truth that God
already knows. You are worth it.
I'm Michelle Remington,Christian mindset coach, thought
(03:34):
strategist and warrior Mama.
Grab your sword daughter of theking, it's time to unleash your
inner warrior princess.
Michelle Remington (03:48):
Welcome back. You beautiful warrior
woman you are warrior man.
There's there's men that listento this podcast as well. And
today is going to be aninteresting episode. And I just
want you to come to thisepisode. Because we're dealing
(04:09):
with the thought of Am I enough,come to it with an open mind
knowing that you are loved bythe Almighty God that created
everything that knows you betterthan you know yourself. And this
is something that I've actuallyrecently dealt with in myself
(04:36):
this was this was something thatthe Lord brought about in me and
helped me to deal with and youknow what, since I've dealt with
it, I have felt so much joy andliberation, freedom and I want
you to have this same thing.
(05:00):
You're gonna find a lot as I gothrough this podcast that I'm
still going through my healingprocess. Some of that damage was
done by other people, some ofthat damage was done by myself.
And I want to share that withyou because I know that we're
all going through something. Andwe all have these kinds of
(05:24):
thoughts in these kinds ofconversations in our minds. So
my purpose is to bless you.
Mental Health Disclaimer (05:31):
Before we dive in, I do want to say
that I am not a mental healthprofessional. I'm simply sharing
from my experience withdepression, the strategies and
steps that helped me. So firstand foremost, I want you to know
that you are not alone. Reachout to friends and family, tell
them how you're feeling. Don'tbe afraid to ask for help. The
(05:54):
world is so much better with youin it. If you need help, or
resources, or just moreinformation for yourself or for
someone else, I encourage you toreach out to the National
Suicide Prevention hotline,their phone number is
1-800-273-8255. That's1-800-273-8255.
Michelle Remington (06:22):
As you know, life can be super crazy,
especially this last year,trying to deal with everything
in life on top of a pandemic,and all of that everything that
comes with that. And at times,it feels like I have always
(06:45):
struggled with trying to balancefamily, relationships home and
work. And as a woman and afollower of Jesus, I thought
that I had to be up to code as agodly woman, a perfect proverbs
31 woman, balancing it all,effortlessly, and being a
(07:08):
flawless example to all. Soundfamiliar? Sound impossible.
That's because we're human.
Now I'm pretty sure that mostwomen have felt the pressure at
one time or another, to beeverything to everyone. I mean,
even First Corinthians 9 (07:28):
22 says, I have become all things
to all men, that I might, by allmeans safe. So we have that word
in our mind. So it creates anexpectation. But that scripture
can be easily misunderstood. Wethink that as believers, we need
(07:53):
to do everything in our power tobe the best Christian so that we
can make it to heaven. And don'tget me wrong. I am a passionate
believer. There's nothing wrongwith trying to do your best by
what God's word says. Butoftentimes, what happens is that
(08:14):
Christians get taken advantageof while they are trying to do
their best for God. So they endup thinking that being put out
means you are selflesslyserving. And there's so much of
a push to work to get the worksout there. And sometimes the
(08:36):
attitude is that you may feelburnt out and stressed, but just
pray for God to help you, you'llmake it through.
There's so much focus on doinggood works, that your
relationship with God starts tosuffer, and eventually becomes
damaged. See, it's backwards.
It's a it's a backwards way ofgoing about because we're
(08:59):
supposed to be doing those worksfor God. And it's not by those
works only that were saved byGod. But a lot of times, we get
hyper focused on that. Now James
26 clears it up for us. For asthe body without the spirit is
(09:21):
dead. So Faith without works isdead also. Simply put, we need
both.
You enter into a relationshipwith God through your spirit.
And as you gain a betterunderstanding of who God is,
your faith grows, as youunderstand and experience God
(09:44):
more. Then he began to showworks because if your faith in
God, your old ways, don't matchup with the conviction and
integrity of the person that youare becoming. You can't act in
your old ways you're not thatperson anymore. Your motives and
(10:04):
your attitudes have changed. Butoftentimes, we get so focused on
showing the fruits of our newway of living. We're excited, we
want to get involved in everychurch event. We want to share
our faith. We want to show theworld that we are living for
God, and we want to show themthat living for God is amazing.
(10:29):
And that we don't want them tomiss out. And there's nothing
wrong with those things. Yet,having broken through the
darkness of the soil, what Godbrought us from, we're still
only a sprout, there's a lotmore growing to be done. And I'm
(10:50):
sure you've seen how in your ownzealousness, we can get in our
own way, and hinder our growth.
I've lost count of the timesthat I have tripped over myself,
or completely blocked myselffrom getting to where God wanted
me to be. Now, your relationshipwith God may be suffering.
(11:13):
Because you're focusing on yourworks, you start to become
spiritually malnourished. Andyour spirit is fed by God's
Spirit.
This is where I found myself. Iwas giving and giving and giving
(11:36):
and giving and giving. And asGod was working through me, and
in me, my focus was off. And Istarted doubting myself, my
journey, and even God, all thisfocus on trying to be the best
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version of myself, for God, tomeet the potential that I
thought that he had for me whenI really just needed to just put
myself in God's hands, and stopthere. See, I didn't realize how
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I had inched closer and closerto my vision in the mirror of
who I was molding myself to be.
I had chosen certain words andphrases of affirmation that
resonated with my deepestinsecurities.
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But they would never heal thewounds that were so easily
agitated. I would get sofrustrated with myself like I
I'm doing, I'm doing everything,you know, like all these mental
health things, I'm doing these,I'm praying to God, and I'm
still missing something, thosewounds still got easily
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agitated. And I was justspinning and spinning and
spinning and it felt like Iwasn't getting any getting
anywhere. And I realized thatthose words would only ever be a
band aid. I would eventually getfrustrated at their refusal to
heal.
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That's where I found myself andsome of those wounds. Some of
those biggest fears were that Iwas not worthy. Not valuable,
and would never be enough.
which, frankly, lead to avicious thought cycle of you're
a worthless piece of trash. Thatwill never be enough. Have you
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ever talked to yourself likethat? That is a double edged
serrated sword straight throughthe gut. Nobody knows how to
hurt you better than you arerepeat that nobody knows how to
hurt you better than you. Why dowe do that? Like I was literally
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taking turns with the enemy ofGod beating myself up with those
words. It nearly made me end mylife. Nevertheless, as Paul
says, nevertheless, God had beenat work in me and redeeming what
I attempted to destroy.
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God has helped me see that Iwill never be enough. that's a
that's a hard thing to hear atfirst, but let's follow it up
with some truth. I will never beenough for myself, my husband,
my family or my friends. I willnever be enough for myself
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because I need more than me. Ineed God. And I can't be God to
myself. I've been on a journeyof personal growth for a few
years now. And recently, I foundmyself getting frustrated. I
haven't been meeting my ownexpectations. And I've noticed
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that I've regressed into certainbehaviors and thoughts. But most
of all, I've been frustratedbecause I felt like I have never
been accepted by the world, myfamily, my church, my friends,
just being real honest here.
This is what led me to a feelingof not being enough or, more
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appropriately, this feeling ofnot being enough, is what led me
to feel like I wasn't accepted.
I wasn't loved. I wasn't valued.
And this like cuts to the coreof humanity versus living with
God. Who is I tried to be, ithasn't been the real me, it's
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been this ideal of who I couldpossibly be. But no real vision
or plan to get there. So thispseudo me has led my thoughts,
my decisions, my actions. Upuntil now, I haven't noticed
because pseudo me, was part ofmy rescue team. When I was held
captive in the dungeon of mymind, I had basically kind of
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been using it as a crutch, tobuild myself up and tell myself
I am enough, I am valued, I amloved. And I am valued, I am
loved are true things. But I wasusing them in the wrong way. I
was thinking of them andpositioning them in the wrong
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way.
So now God has prepared me tolevel up and pseudo me is no
longer needed. Gods like, Okay,you've been using this as a
crutch for a long time. But ifyou're going to level up and go
further with me and reach thepotential that I've created you
for, you got to let this thinggo. That's how I've been
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standing in my own way. I don'tknow if this resonates with you.
If you're still listening, I'mguessing it probably does. And I
pray that Jesus is speaking toyou right now.
Now, if you would ask me a weekago, if I was enough, I would
have emphatically gone into aspiel about how it's all
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society's fault that women feellike they are not enough
unrealistic expectations are toblame. And if you would have
looked me in the eyes and saidthat you are not good enough, it
would have been a trigger thatspun me into the darkness of my
in securities. Yet today, withina matter of minutes, God showed
me that those in securities wererooted in the thought that I had
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to be enough for me, and I wastrying to be God to myself.
That's deep. In you may need tolisten to this episode, you may
need to simmer on this. Andabsolutely take that time to do
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that. Take that time. Take thisto prayer like God, this is
something that like it, you'llknow if it's resonating in you,
you'll know that this issomething that God's trying to
speak to you on. But it's tough.
It's really hard. Because thoseinsecurities, dig deep. They go
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deep into you, but in a moment,in a moment's time, as how good
God is in a moment's time. Godset me free from that. And now
it's upward and onward.
I pray that for you, I pray thatyou'd have that same experience,
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because there's so many thingsholding us back and a lot of
times it's ourselves. And I amjust amazed that in a matter of
minutes, God showed me that Iwill never be enough. No, it
sounds completely insane. I amvery okay with that. I'm like,
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Praise Jesus. He set me free. Heset me free. And I tell you
right now, and what's beenhappening since I had this
moment with God and he he did itin the most beautiful time. It
was during Hanukkah. It goes atime to rededicate yourself,
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rededicate your temple back toGod. So is a very beautiful time
for God to do this. Ever sincethen Joy has been returning to
me, because I got out of my ownway. And I focused my attention
back on the real center of myuniverse. Jesus is the real
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Center, the real son.
It's like all those years agowhen I called out to God, in my
darkest moment, I was so hyperfocused on myself that I was the
biggest planet in this solarsystem. And the sun, Jesus was
just a faraway star, but I couldstill see his light. So I called
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out to him. And then my orbitdrew closer to Jesus, it gave me
balanced to my previouslywobbling solar system that was
so close to collapse. Jesusbrought balance and stability to
my life, the more I focused onhim, and drew close to him.
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Throughout my journey with God,I have gone through, we'll call
it several orbits of growth,drawing closer at times,
gravitating away, at times, allthe while still trying to
maintain balance between me andGod. There's a reason that
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doesn't sound right. Because asGod's creation, we can never be
equal with God, He will alwaysbe our father, our Creator, we
can never be those things, tothe uncreated one, the one that
created you.
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So I know, in today's world, avery, very prevalent affirmation
that a lot of people seek afteris, I am enough. And that's why
we're starting to break downthese affirmations. Because
these affirmations I mean, theBible speaks about affirmations,
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and letting the word affirm you.
And so what that means forbelievers like ourselves is that
those affirmations should berooted in God's word. That's why
we're breaking this down. And Iknow it's a, it's a sensitive
one. It's a challenging one. ButI'm following the leading of God
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here. And this one of the mostdamaging, there is freedom in
being who God created you to be.
And the truth in that is thatyou're not meant to be enough
for everyone in your life,you're not meant to be enough
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for yourself.
As you probably know, when youtry to be your own source of
inspiration, and life, you canonly do so much, you don't have
the rest to give. And when itcomes to being enough for other
people, you only know what youknow, of those people. You don't
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know them, like God knows them.
God is the only one that knowsevery single person on this
earth, the most intimately,deeply better than they know
themselves. God is the only one,the only one kind of like, if
you look at the story of Joe,the enemy of God thought he knew
that job would be trade God, butGod saw his heart, and God sees
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your heart.
So if I could give you a wordfrom the Lord, from a sister
from a humble daughter of theking, is that you will never be
enough. And you weren't meant tobe you were just meant to be
you. You are meant to be thebeautiful child that God created
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with love. Such immense lovethat we cannot even fathom it.
So I don't know what you've beengoing through. I don't know
where you are right now. But Goddoes. So I want to encourage you
to make some time with Godtoday. And every day. Get to
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know the Almighty God whocreated you so that you can get
to know yourself better.
Understanding that once you setout on that journey with God,
that relationship with God, he'sgoing to have to do some work to
be able to begin to reveal toyou the beauty of how He created
you. But don't worry His work isperfect. His work is always
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love, love, and he will neverleave you nor forsake you. You
can always turn to him he's onlyever a word away.
Thank you for joining me on thisepisode of worth it. If this
episode has blessed you in someway, I invite you to leave a
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review and make sure that yousubscribe to this podcast for
more encouraging content. Untilnext time, remember you are
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