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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello?
Hello.
Hello.
Welcome back to Y a mentalhealth.
My name is ale floes and we'regonna be talking about beauty,
fashion, concentrating mentalhealth.
So I am 25.
My name is Alejandra, but I goby ale.
Um, and I am living inMilwaukee.
I am a content creator onInstagram, where I talk about
(00:21):
all things, beauty fashion, uh,specifically midsize to plus
size style.
And I do talk a lot aboutpositivity, um, mainly self love
, um, some affirmations, um, andwhere I talk a lot about where
I'm open about depression aswell with my depression
Speaker 2 (00:38):
On your official page, it says that you talk a
lot about midsize and plus size.
What does that mean to you?
Speaker 1 (00:44):
So midsize and plus size is like a very difficult
topic to talk about just becausea lot of people don't know what
is considered midsize becausemidsize plus size is very hard
to fashion size.
Um, because wherever, whereveryou go, um, if you're looking
for specific size, go with thatsize at another shop, it's like
(01:05):
a completely different size.
Like if you're looking for a 14,you're looking for a 14, but at
that place you're in 18.
Like it is, it does bring down alot.
I just, I just wanna share mystyle.
You know, if somebody canresonate with my size, my style,
then they could be like, okay,well, if she's, if she could
wear that, I could wear that
Speaker 2 (01:23):
In today's world.
It seems like we really needpositivity.
And so you spread a lot of thatin your post.
So could you tell me more abouthow you spread that positivity
and how it kind of came to be?
Speaker 1 (01:35):
Um, I spread it because, um, I was dealing with
a lot of depression and so Inever got to see on social media
about depression and it justbrought down and I felt
literally alone just recentlyjust after COVID happened.
Um, is where I feel like a lotof people opened up because I
mean, during that time everybodywas home and nobody was going
(01:56):
out.
Right.
Um, of course your depression'sgonna go down when I saw that
people were more opening up, I'mlike, dang, like I'm feeling
kind of the same way, so I'm notalone.
Like, you know, let me, let metalk to somebody who can I talk
to about it?
Like, that's where too, like whocan I talk to about it?
I mean, I never talked to myparents about it.
I never even talked about withmy partner.
Mm-hmm um, justbecause I felt like, like, oh,
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what are gonna, what are theygonna think about me now?
Yeah,
Speaker 2 (02:21):
Of course.
You know?
Yeah.
It's
Speaker 1 (02:22):
Difficult.
Um, so after opening up onsocial media, that's when
everybody's like, oh my God,like, I'm the same way.
I'm like, you know, that to meis amazing to think like, you
know, we could somehow resonateand like, share, like, you know,
this is what I'm going through.
Like, you know, just opening upabout it.
And, um, that is when I waslike, you know what, this is
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what I'm gonna be doing.
I wanna make people feel likeliterally they're not alone.
Speaker 2 (02:50):
Exactly.
Yeah.
Is it really difficult to staypositive in those moments?
Because I feel as if, when, whenwe were going through that COVID
pandemic and kind of still are,it seemed like a lot of people
just kind of fell into a spiraland it kind of, it kind of
forced people to not talk aboutwhat they were dealing with.
And so we became into this kindof world where depression,
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anxiety, and mental healthneeded to be talked more.
And now that we're kind ofcoming out of it, it seems like
people are opening up more aboutit.
Do you feel as if we are movingin that kind of direction or do
you feel as if we're stilltaking that step back and mental
health isn't going where it is?
Speaker 1 (03:29):
Um, a hundred percent.
I feel like it's been opening upa lot more.
I've been seeing a lot on, um,Instagram now.
It just makes me feel so, sogood that it's been opening up a
lot in the beauty industry.
Like I've been seeing a lot oflike makeup brands who like, who
are talking about mental health.
Mm-hmm,specifically rare beauty.
That is actually one of myfavorite brands that I actually
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use, but also Selena's storyabout mental health.
Um, I think that's reallyamazing and I'm really proud how
far social media has come towhere everybody can now open up.
Right.
And not feel bad about it.
Speaker 2 (04:05):
Right.
And I feel like a part of thatplays, um, a really important
role because the more thatpeople open up about their
mental health, the more thatpeople become comfortable
talking about it.
And then we can go into asociety where we can talk about
depression.
We can talk about our anxietyand we can honestly help people
become not only better selves,but we can also stop, uh,
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suicide rates because it feelslike we're stuck in this society
where we can't talk about thingslike that.
And I believe in beauty, itbecomes kind of difficult,
right?
Because it feels like there'sthis face that everybody puts on
that there's nothing going onbehind it, that we all don't
have a story, or we all don'thave something that we're
dealing with.
And I think one thing I'velearned especially is that you
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never know what someone's goingthrough.
Speaker 1 (04:49):
Right.
Speaker 2 (04:50):
And so I think that plays also an important part
where perfectionism comes wheremakeup and beauty is something
that needs to be perfect.
Do you feel as if perfectionismplays a part in your life, or is
this something that you don'tregularly deal with?
Speaker 1 (05:05):
Of course when I apply the makeup, like obviously
I want it to be perfect.
Right.
Um, I know I would always get alot of compliments about like,
oh my God, your makeup looksgood, blah, blah, blah.
You know, there's people outthere that are like, oh, I can't
do makeup like that.
And things like that.
And I mean, it, it takespractice for sure.
I mean, to this day, I stilldon't know what I'm doing.
(05:25):
I feel like that's howeverybody is right with makeup.
Cause I try to do it one way andit comes out completely
different, which is okay.
um, but when it comes tocontent, creating mm-hmm
any for anything,whether you're all influencer or
whatever, it does strain a lotin you.
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But it does like, because I feellike there's like so much you
have to do behind camera.
Right.
A lot of people don't thinkabout it.
I know for me, when I firststarted creating, I'm like,
like, dang, you have to do alot.
um, and a lot of peopledon't know, like for those that
just like looking at post, youknow?
Exactly.
And yeah.
Speaker 2 (06:06):
So you talked a lot about rare beauty and how Selena
has this incredible story and asa brand ambassador, what is
important to you?
Is it the story?
Is it the product?
What really sticks out to youwhen a company reaches out to
you?
Speaker 1 (06:19):
I like looking for like, when it comes to makeup, I
like that it has to be pro tofree mm-hmm um, um,
and if I could resonate withtheir story behind the brand,
that's a huge plus, um, whateverI share it's mainly because I
truly love it.
I truly believe in it.
It's not just because, oh,they're gonna offer me free
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products.
Yeah, exactly.
Let me take'em.
No, it's because I really liketheir product or I really like
their story.
Speaker 2 (06:47):
Nice.
And Celina's story sticks out toyou the most, the most?
Is there any reason why?
Well,
Speaker 1 (06:52):
I liked her as an artist before.
Okay.
Um, I like watching her and herDisney movies show.
Yeah, of course.
Um, and you know, when shebecame a singer, I'm like, oh my
God.
Like, you know, I love hersongs.
And then when she opened thisbeauty brand, I'm like, oh my
God.
And when she talked about mentalhealth, like I never knew about
her story.
Of course.
Like, no one's gonna know aboutlike, especially someone famous
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or like her, you know, I thinkshe connected so many people,
um, like act like, how do I sayit?
Like, like everybody loved her.
Right.
I loved her mm-hmmbut it was like a, a better
connection knowing that she alsowas going through something kind
of like, like us or, you know?
Yeah.
So that's, that's a big plus forme
Speaker 2 (07:35):
In your posts, you are, you emphasize a lot of
things and that's awesome thatyou can, uh, figure out what
your niche is, but what do youreally want to get behind when
you connect with the people thatwatch your posts?
Do you want to get behind acertain message?
Is there a certain thing thatyou want to say to them or is it
kind of just, you're very openabout how you're feeling?
Speaker 1 (07:57):
I mean, I am very open about what I'm feeling.
Um, I, like I said, I share alot more on my stories than I do
on my post.
Um, however, I am, um, startingto talk more on my post, um,
that way for those that are notlooking at my stories yeah.
That can relate to posts mainly.
I mean, I want people to come onmy page and just feel better and
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feel good.
Yeah.
No matter what they're goingthrough at that moment.
And if you could resonate withme, if you could be like, oh my
God, like, she's just like mefor whatever.
Um, you know, that's then I didmy, my job, like, you know, I
want them to feel good.
Um, so
Speaker 2 (08:32):
Yeah.
So what do you enjoy most aboutmaking content?
Speaker 1 (08:36):
When we drive around mm-hmm I do
actually look around to seelike, oh, I could take pictures
here.
I mean, I love being creativeabout it.
Right.
Of course.
Um, and I do have ideas, whetherit's from like Pinterest or just
from Instagram itself, mm-hmm.
Um, but I just love beingcreative my own way.
Um, that's awesome.
And speaking it through myposts.
Speaker 2 (08:55):
So I have a really big issue with overthinking and
it's something that I've beentrying to deal with.
And it seems like with skinbeauty and fashion overthinking
can play a really importantpart.
How do you overcome that and howdo you get out of your own
Speaker 1 (09:08):
Head?
So when I edit my real, so likemy video footage, um, I mean, I
love that's like one of myfavorite things to do is like
edit my videos.
I do get frustrated at timesmm-hmm.
Um, but I just, if it it's notperfect, I just post it anyway,
because I know in the end I'mgonna go back and be like, wow,
like, look how far I've come.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
Right, exactly.
Speaker 1 (09:28):
Um, and that is actually one of my favorite
things, because I also look backfrom like a year ago and I'm
like, right, dang.
I changed so much.
like, it's reallyawesome.
Speaker 2 (09:37):
Especially from like your first reel to where you are
now.
Like I've learned so much
Speaker 1 (09:41):
From there.
So cringe sometimes like, oh, Imade it like that.
yeah.
Speaker 2 (09:46):
Sometimes you've gotta be CR right?
Yeah.
Yeah.
What are some negative momentsthat you've realized being in
the industry?
Speaker 1 (09:53):
Um, so I guess like whenever I see somebody post or
even a beauty brand, when theypost something with like perfect
skin.
Speaker 2 (10:01):
Right.
Speaker 1 (10:02):
And I don't, I mean, I have acne scars, mm-hmm
, um, acne,whatever.
Um, and I'm like, it, it bringsme down cuz I don't see a person
just like me and I wanna seethat.
Yeah.
The only way I see it is fromactually other creators, you
know, mm-hmm and Imean, I hope to see in the Fu I
mean, I don't really see it thatmuch, but I hope to see like
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with bigger brands that can useP um, people that have like acne
so that way they could reach tothose type of people.
Right.
Um, and it would make me feelbetter about my, about me, about
myself, about my skin.
Speaker 2 (10:37):
I feel like this plays such an important role, a
part in social media too,because in social media, you
don't see the acne scars.
You don't see what people dealwith.
The scars, whether, I mean, Ihave acne scars too, and I
don't, I've never seen likemale, like influencers have acne
scars and it feels as if that'sthe
Speaker 1 (10:53):
Thing.
Speaker 2 (10:53):
Yeah.
We're stuck as, um, we, maleswould love to have perfect skin
or I would personally would loveno acting or anything.
But I went through a reallydifficult time where I was
popping it and not realizingwhat kind of issues that it
comes with it.
Do you believe in with the maleside of beauty and everything
that goes on, do you believethat's not talked about enough
as well?
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Or
Speaker 1 (11:14):
Yeah.
You know what?
I don't see it off.
I do not see it at all at all,to be honest.
Um, I mean, yeah.
There's like those famousYouTubers who are makeup artists
of course.
Um, and you know, I see them,but I, I have not seen, like,
I've never seen it on my page,you know, sometimes on explore
page, you would see it.
I mean, yeah, I see it, but Ifeel like there needs to be
more.
Speaker 2 (11:33):
Yeah, I totally agree.
Yeah.
Especially with male, we are notsure like what skin, what's the
skincare routine, I think justsplash water and soap on your
face and that's all that ittakes.
Yeah.
But that's something that Ireally hope we, uh, get to push
forward too, so that it's notstigmatized as, oh, he takes
care of his skin.
Oh, he's just some pretty boy orsomething like that, but I
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totally get where you're comingfrom.
So again, Y a is really, wereally focused on the mental
health side of it.
Uh, if you could talk a littlebit more about your mental
health and what you've dealtwith and how far it you've
pushed yourself, not only tomaybe overcome your depression
and anxiety, but if it'ssomething that you feel
comfortable now talking about.
Speaker 1 (12:10):
Yeah.
So it didn't really push my, itdidn't really come in until it
was like, of course duringCOVID.
Um, but I think too, during thetime that I was in where I was
at, I just was unhappy of whereI was.
Mm-hmm um, I movedto Texas, okay.
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To live with my mom.
I mean, I missed her, so ofcourse I wanted to see her, but
I decided to go back to school.
Um, but even school let'sschool.
I hated school.
I didn't know what I wanted todo for me.
I didn't know what I wanted todo in my life, to be honest, but
I just went to school because myfamily said I had to go to
school.
Right.
So that's what I did.
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I did get a degree.
It did take longer than itshould, but at least I have one.
Um, but you know, my family waslike, well, you gotta decide
what you need to do.
Right.
You know?
So I'm like, okay, I'll go backto school, but I'll go live with
my mom.
So that's when I went to Texas.
Yes.
I loved the weather.
I loved the environment.
Like I loved being at the beach,but for whatever reason, I was
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just not happy.
Yeah.
Um, and I was there for a yearand a half mm-hmm
almost two.
Um, but it really broke me downbecause I was like in my head,
like, like, do I wanna finishschool?
I don't even wanna do thisanymore.
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You know, I, I miss myboyfriend.
Yeah.
Um, I miss my friends, I missedmy other family.
Right.
Like, you know, and yeah.
I had my brother, I had my momwho I'm like, who I'm like super
close with.
Um, but for whatever reason, itjust didn't, it didn't feel well
for me.
Right.
So that's when I didn't open upto anybody until somebody opened
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up to me.
Wow.
So when they opened it up to me,that's when I'm like, I was kind
of talking to them and that'swhen I realized like, okay, I
could actually talk to thisperson about it.
Yeah.
So that's when I talked to thatperson and that person said,
Hey, you need to talk, you needto do whatever you need to do.
If you need to leave, if youneed to move.
Yeah.
Do it for you.
You're, you're literally therebecause of, for somebody else,
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you know?
Yeah.
And it kind of made me like, butI don't wanna break my mom's
heart, you know?
And no, no one ever does.
I love, but no, I was like, youknow what?
And that's when, um, I actuallyopened up to my, to my, uh,
boyfriend at the time who is nowmy fiance.
But, um, that's when I finallyopened up to him and said, Hey,
you know, I've been feeling likethis and, and actually told them
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in person he came to visit.
Um, and he did say, he's like,you know what?
I, I felt something, but I, Ididn't know.
I just never said anything.
And, um, he's also the person,like he didn't understand, which
you know is okay.
Um, I opened up to whatever hecould understand and he right.
And he does whatever he can evennow, like he does whatever he
needs to do, whether, you know,if he needs, if he wants, if he
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needs me or if he needs to letme sleep, like he'll do it.
But he also tries to get me up.
That's awesome.
You know, and yeah, I need that.
And he tries to go make me gooutside.
You know, sometimes I do.
Sometimes I don't, I'm like, no,I don't want to, like, I'm gonna
stay here.
But you know, he does whateverhe can to, you know, make me
feel good, but
Speaker 2 (15:18):
I totally
Speaker 1 (15:18):
Get that.
But yeah, when I opened up, um,that's where I'm like, wow,
like, you know, I could actuallytalk to somebody and that's why
I told my mom and she also feltbad.
And I'm like, oh, I'm so sorry.
You know, but this is how I'vebeen feeling.
I, I need to leave.
I'm sorry that I have to.
And she understood that.
I mean, it was a very hardprocess, but, um, so yeah,
that's when I moved toMilwaukee, lived with my
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boyfriend a year later here Iam.
I'm still trying to figure out,um, a way to deal with my
depression because yeah, everynow and then I get depressed for
whatever reason.
Um, and I do little thingseither.
I pick up my book that I'mreading, I read, watch my
favorite movies, watch newshows.
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Um, but yeah, I just try to dodifferent things to help me feel
better about,
Speaker 2 (16:06):
It sounds like you finally found like the things
that really help your mentalhealth.
And again, that's something thatlike all of us have to go into
this like deep journey to findwhat helps us.
Speaker 1 (16:15):
And, and it does take a long time.
Right?
It does a lot people.
It's a process.
Think that it'll take like, oh,it'll take like a week.
Oh, it'll take a month.
No, it might even take a year.
It may even take two.
Yeah.
You know, but you just have tofigure out a way how you could
deal it with it your own way.
Speaker 2 (16:30):
Exactly.
And so I think we're gonna wrapthis up on our last question.
And what you said is reallyimportant because when someone's
just beginning their mentalhealth journey, or just
beginning whatever journey thatthey're starting to go on, what
advice and tips would you givesomeone who's going on a beauty
fashion and content creation,like, um, journey.
(16:52):
What is some advice that youwould give and maybe some tips
that you personally have felthave really helped you,
Speaker 1 (16:57):
Uh, for content creating.
I mean, if you wanna createcontent, I mean, just do it, you
know?
Yeah.
I mean, even if it's not perfectpost it anyways, because like I
said, in the end, you're gonnalook back and you're gonna see
how far you've come.
Right.
I mean, till this day I lookback, I'm like, dang, I post
that like, is that how I did mymakeup or whatever?
Yeah.
Um, that's how I dress, but justdo it.
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Um, and I know I'm stilllearning too.
Like I'm still learning how toreach out to brands.
I'm still learning how to likesend emails, you know, things
like that.
Yeah.
And the way how I learned isresearch YouTube.
I even follow people.
I follow people who are alsogoing to the same or going
through the same thing.
Mm-hmm and alreadyat that point where, you know,
they're doing this full time.
(17:39):
Yeah.
And, um, so just do it and alsojust look for somebody who you
analyze.
Um, because once you look atthem and they could also like
share their input, I mean,that's where I, you know,
learned too.
Speaker 2 (17:55):
YouTube university is one of the best places to go to
get your true education.
honestly.
So we really appreciate youcoming on again.
Yeah.
No problem.
Talking about your mentalhealth, expressing how you feel
and giving people advice andtips on how they can become
better.
Uh, we just wanna remind, wannaremind our audience out there,
please, please, please.
Remember you are now alone andwe are gonna catch you on the
next episode.
Thanks for again, for coming on.
Speaker 1 (18:16):
Thank you.
Hello?
Hello.
Hello.
Welcome back to Y a mentalhealth.
My name is ale floes and we'regonna be talking about beauty,
fashion, concentrating mentalhealth.
So I am 25.
My name is Alejandra, but I goby ale.
Um, and I am living inMilwaukee.
I am a content creator onInstagram, where I talk about
(00:21):
all things, beauty fashion, uh,specifically midsize to plus
size style.
And I do talk a lot aboutpositivity, um, mainly self love
, um, some affirmations, um, andwhere I talk a lot about where
I'm open about depression aswell with my depression
Speaker 2 (00:38):
On your official page, it says that you talk a
lot about midsize and plus size.
What does that mean to you?
Speaker 1 (00:44):
So midsize and plus size is like a very difficult
topic to talk about just becausea lot of people don't know what
is considered midsize becausemidsize plus size is very hard
to fashion size.
Um, because wherever, whereveryou go, um, if you're looking
for specific size, go with thatsize at another shop, it's like
(01:05):
a completely different size.
Like if you're looking for a 14,you're looking for a 14, but at
that place you're in 18.
Like it is, it does bring down alot.
I just, I just wanna share mystyle.
You know, if somebody canresonate with my size, my style,
then they could be like, okay,well, if she's, if she could
wear that, I could wear that
Speaker 2 (01:23):
In today's world.
It seems like we really needpositivity.
And so you spread a lot of thatin your post.
So could you tell me more abouthow you spread that positivity
and how it kind of came to be?
Speaker 1 (01:35):
Um, I spread it because, um, I was dealing with
a lot of depression and so Inever got to see on social media
about depression and it justbrought down and I felt
literally alone just recentlyjust after COVID happened.
Um, is where I feel like a lotof people opened up because I
mean, during that time everybodywas home and nobody was going
(01:56):
out.
Right.
Um, of course your depression'sgonna go down when I saw that
people were more opening up, I'mlike, dang, like I'm feeling
kind of the same way, so I'm notalone.
Like, you know, let me, let metalk to somebody who can I talk
to about it?
Like, that's where too, like whocan I talk to about it?
I mean, I never talked to myparents about it.
I never even talked about withmy partner.
Mm-hmm
(02:18):
what are gonna, what are theygonna think about me now?
Yeah,
Speaker 2 (02:21):
Of course.
You know?
Yeah.
It's
Speaker 1 (02:22):
Difficult.
Um, so after opening up onsocial media, that's when
everybody's like, oh my God,like, I'm the same way.
I'm like, you know, that to meis amazing to think like, you
know, we could somehow resonateand like, share, like, you know,
this is what I'm going through.
Like, you know, just opening upabout it.
And, um, that is when I waslike, you know what, this is
(02:45):
what I'm gonna be doing.
I wanna make people feel likeliterally they're not alone.
Speaker 2 (02:50):
Exactly.
Yeah.
Is it really difficult to staypositive in those moments?
Because I feel as if, when, whenwe were going through that COVID
pandemic and kind of still are,it seemed like a lot of people
just kind of fell into a spiraland it kind of, it kind of
forced people to not talk aboutwhat they were dealing with.
And so we became into this kindof world where depression,
(03:13):
anxiety, and mental healthneeded to be talked more.
And now that we're kind ofcoming out of it, it seems like
people are opening up more aboutit.
Do you feel as if we are movingin that kind of direction or do
you feel as if we're stilltaking that step back and mental
health isn't going where it is?
Speaker 1 (03:29):
Um, a hundred percent.
I feel like it's been opening upa lot more.
I've been seeing a lot on, um,Instagram now.
It just makes me feel so, sogood that it's been opening up a
lot in the beauty industry.
Like I've been seeing a lot oflike makeup brands who like, who
are talking about mental health.
Mm-hmm,
That is actually one of myfavorite brands that I actually
(03:52):
use, but also Selena's storyabout mental health.
Um, I think that's reallyamazing and I'm really proud how
far social media has come towhere everybody can now open up.
Right.
And not feel bad about it.
Speaker 2 (04:05):
Right.
And I feel like a part of thatplays, um, a really important
role because the more thatpeople open up about their
mental health, the more thatpeople become comfortable
talking about it.
And then we can go into asociety where we can talk about
depression.
We can talk about our anxietyand we can honestly help people
become not only better selves,but we can also stop, uh,
(04:26):
suicide rates because it feelslike we're stuck in this society
where we can't talk about thingslike that.
And I believe in beauty, itbecomes kind of difficult,
right?
Because it feels like there'sthis face that everybody puts on
that there's nothing going onbehind it, that we all don't
have a story, or we all don'thave something that we're
dealing with.
And I think one thing I'velearned especially is that you
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never know what someone's goingthrough.
Speaker 1 (04:49):
Right.
Speaker 2 (04:50):
And so I think that plays also an important part
where perfectionism comes wheremakeup and beauty is something
that needs to be perfect.
Do you feel as if perfectionismplays a part in your life, or is
this something that you don'tregularly deal with?
Speaker 1 (05:05):
Of course when I apply the makeup, like obviously
I want it to be perfect.
Right.
Um, I know I would always get alot of compliments about like,
oh my God, your makeup looksgood, blah, blah, blah.
You know, there's people outthere that are like, oh, I can't
do makeup like that.
And things like that.
And I mean, it, it takespractice for sure.
I mean, to this day, I stilldon't know what I'm doing.
(05:25):
Cause I try to do it one way andit comes out completely
different, which is okay.
whatever, it does strain a lotin you.
(05:46):
But it does like, because I feellike there's like so much you
have to do behind camera.
Right.
A lot of people don't thinkabout it.
I know for me, when I firststarted creating, I'm like,
like, dang, you have to do alot.
just like looking at post, youknow?
Exactly.
And yeah.
Speaker 2 (06:06):
So you talked a lot about rare beauty and how Selena
has this incredible story and asa brand ambassador, what is
important to you?
Is it the story?
Is it the product?
What really sticks out to youwhen a company reaches out to
you?
Speaker 1 (06:19):
I like looking for like, when it comes to makeup, I
like that it has to be pro tofree mm-hmm
and if I could resonate withtheir story behind the brand,
that's a huge plus, um, whateverI share it's mainly because I
truly love it.
I truly believe in it.
It's not just because, oh,they're gonna offer me free
(06:40):
products.
Yeah, exactly.
Let me take'em.
No, it's because I really liketheir product or I really like
their story.
Speaker 2 (06:47):
Nice.
And Celina's story sticks out toyou the most, the most?
Is there any reason why?
Well,
Speaker 1 (06:52):
I liked her as an artist before.
Okay.
Um, I like watching her and herDisney movies show.
Yeah, of course.
Um, and you know, when shebecame a singer, I'm like, oh my
God.
Like, you know, I love hersongs.
And then when she opened thisbeauty brand, I'm like, oh my
God.
And when she talked about mentalhealth, like I never knew about
her story.
Of course.
Like, no one's gonna know aboutlike, especially someone famous
(07:13):
or like her, you know, I thinkshe connected so many people,
um, like act like, how do I sayit?
Like, like everybody loved her.
Right.
I loved her mm-hmm
connection knowing that she alsowas going through something kind
of like, like us or, you know?
Yeah.
So that's, that's a big plus forme
Speaker 2 (07:35):
In your posts, you are, you emphasize a lot of
things and that's awesome thatyou can, uh, figure out what
your niche is, but what do youreally want to get behind when
you connect with the people thatwatch your posts?
Do you want to get behind acertain message?
Is there a certain thing thatyou want to say to them or is it
kind of just, you're very openabout how you're feeling?
Speaker 1 (07:57):
I mean, I am very open about what I'm feeling.
Um, I, like I said, I share alot more on my stories than I do
on my post.
Um, however, I am, um, startingto talk more on my post, um,
that way for those that are notlooking at my stories yeah.
That can relate to posts mainly.
I mean, I want people to come onmy page and just feel better and
(08:17):
feel good.
Yeah.
No matter what they're goingthrough at that moment.
And if you could resonate withme, if you could be like, oh my
God, like, she's just like mefor whatever.
Um, you know, that's then I didmy, my job, like, you know, I
want them to feel good.
Um, so
Speaker 2 (08:32):
Yeah.
So what do you enjoy most aboutmaking content?
Speaker 1 (08:36):
When we drive around mm-hmm
actually look around to seelike, oh, I could take pictures
here.
I mean, I love being creativeabout it.
Right.
Of course.
Um, and I do have ideas, whetherit's from like Pinterest or just
from Instagram itself, mm-hmm
Um, but I just love beingcreative my own way.
Um, that's awesome.
And speaking it through myposts.
Speaker 2 (08:55):
So I have a really big issue with overthinking and
it's something that I've beentrying to deal with.
And it seems like with skinbeauty and fashion overthinking
can play a really importantpart.
How do you overcome that and howdo you get out of your own
Speaker 1 (09:08):
Head?
So when I edit my real, so likemy video footage, um, I mean, I
love that's like one of myfavorite things to do is like
edit my videos.
I do get frustrated at timesmm-hmm
Um, but I just, if it it's notperfect, I just post it anyway,
because I know in the end I'mgonna go back and be like, wow,
like, look how far I've come.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
Right, exactly.
Speaker 1 (09:28):
Um, and that is actually one of my favorite
things, because I also look backfrom like a year ago and I'm
like, right, dang.
I changed so much.
Speaker 2 (09:37):
Especially from like your first reel to where you are
now.
Like I've learned so much
Speaker 1 (09:41):
From there.
So cringe sometimes like, oh, Imade it like that.
Speaker 2 (09:46):
Sometimes you've gotta be CR right?
Yeah.
Yeah.
What are some negative momentsthat you've realized being in
the industry?
Speaker 1 (09:53):
Um, so I guess like whenever I see somebody post or
even a beauty brand, when theypost something with like perfect
skin.
Speaker 2 (10:01):
Right.
Speaker 1 (10:02):
And I don't, I mean, I have acne scars, mm-hmm
Um, and I'm like, it, it bringsme down cuz I don't see a person
just like me and I wanna seethat.
Yeah.
The only way I see it is fromactually other creators, you
know, mm-hmm
mean, I don't really see it thatmuch, but I hope to see like
(10:23):
with bigger brands that can useP um, people that have like acne
so that way they could reach tothose type of people.
Right.
Um, and it would make me feelbetter about my, about me, about
myself, about my skin.
Speaker 2 (10:37):
I feel like this plays such an important role, a
part in social media too,because in social media, you
don't see the acne scars.
You don't see what people dealwith.
The scars, whether, I mean, Ihave acne scars too, and I
don't, I've never seen likemale, like influencers have acne
scars and it feels as if that'sthe
Speaker 1 (10:53):
Thing.
Speaker 2 (10:53):
Yeah.
We're stuck as, um, we, maleswould love to have perfect skin
or I would personally would loveno acting or anything.
But I went through a reallydifficult time where I was
popping it and not realizingwhat kind of issues that it
comes with it.
Do you believe in with the maleside of beauty and everything
that goes on, do you believethat's not talked about enough
as well?
(11:14):
Or
Speaker 1 (11:14):
Yeah.
You know what?
I don't see it off.
I do not see it at all at all,to be honest.
Um, I mean, yeah.
There's like those famousYouTubers who are makeup artists
of course.
Um, and you know, I see them,but I, I have not seen, like,
I've never seen it on my page,you know, sometimes on explore
page, you would see it.
I mean, yeah, I see it, but Ifeel like there needs to be
more.
Speaker 2 (11:33):
Yeah, I totally agree.
Yeah.
Especially with male, we are notsure like what skin, what's the
skincare routine, I think justsplash water and soap on your
face and that's all that ittakes.
Yeah.
But that's something that Ireally hope we, uh, get to push
forward too, so that it's notstigmatized as, oh, he takes
care of his skin.
Oh, he's just some pretty boy orsomething like that, but I
(11:53):
totally get where you're comingfrom.
So again, Y a is really, wereally focused on the mental
health side of it.
Uh, if you could talk a littlebit more about your mental
health and what you've dealtwith and how far it you've
pushed yourself, not only tomaybe overcome your depression
and anxiety, but if it'ssomething that you feel
comfortable now talking about.
Speaker 1 (12:10):
Yeah.
So it didn't really push my, itdidn't really come in until it
was like, of course duringCOVID.
Um, but I think too, during thetime that I was in where I was
at, I just was unhappy of whereI was.
Mm-hmm
(12:31):
To live with my mom.
I mean, I missed her, so ofcourse I wanted to see her, but
I decided to go back to school.
Um, but even school let's
I hated school.
I didn't know what I wanted todo for me.
I didn't know what I wanted todo in my life, to be honest, but
I just went to school because myfamily said I had to go to
school.
Right.
So that's what I did.
(12:51):
I did get a degree.
It did take longer than itshould, but at least I have one.
Um, but you know, my family waslike, well, you gotta decide
what you need to do.
Right.
You know?
So I'm like, okay, I'll go backto school, but I'll go live with
my mom.
So that's when I went to Texas.
Yes.
I loved the weather.
I loved the environment.
Like I loved being at the beach,but for whatever reason, I was
(13:12):
just not happy.
Yeah.
Um, and I was there for a yearand a half mm-hmm
almost two.
Um, but it really broke me downbecause I was like in my head,
like, like, do I wanna finishschool?
I don't even wanna do thisanymore.
(13:33):
You know, I, I miss myboyfriend.
Yeah.
Um, I miss my friends, I missedmy other family.
Right.
Like, you know, and yeah.
I had my brother, I had my momwho I'm like, who I'm like super
close with.
Um, but for whatever reason, itjust didn't, it didn't feel well
for me.
Right.
So that's when I didn't open upto anybody until somebody opened
(13:53):
up to me.
Wow.
So when they opened it up to me,that's when I'm like, I was kind
of talking to them and that'swhen I realized like, okay, I
could actually talk to thisperson about it.
Yeah.
So that's when I talked to thatperson and that person said,
Hey, you need to talk, you needto do whatever you need to do.
If you need to leave, if youneed to move.
Yeah.
Do it for you.
You're, you're literally therebecause of, for somebody else,
(14:14):
you know?
Yeah.
And it kind of made me like, butI don't wanna break my mom's
heart, you know?
And no, no one ever does.
I love, but no, I was like, youknow what?
And that's when, um, I actuallyopened up to my, to my, uh,
boyfriend at the time who is nowmy fiance
But, um, that's when I finallyopened up to him and said, Hey,
you know, I've been feeling likethis and, and actually told them
(14:36):
in person he came to visit.
Um, and he did say, he's like,you know what?
I, I felt something, but I, Ididn't know.
I just never said anything.
And, um, he's also the person,like he didn't understand, which
you know is okay.
Um, I opened up to whatever hecould understand and he right.
And he does whatever he can evennow, like he does whatever he
needs to do, whether, you know,if he needs, if he wants, if he
(14:59):
needs me or if he needs to letme sleep, like he'll do it.
But he also tries to get me up.
That's awesome.
You know, and yeah, I need that.
And he tries to go make me gooutside.
You know, sometimes I do.
Sometimes I don't, I'm like, no,I don't want to, like, I'm gonna
stay here.
But you know, he does whateverhe can to, you know, make me
feel good, but
Speaker 2 (15:18):
I totally
Speaker 1 (15:18):
Get that.
But yeah, when I opened up, um,that's where I'm like, wow,
like, you know, I could actuallytalk to somebody and that's why
I told my mom and she also feltbad.
And I'm like, oh, I'm so sorry.
You know, but this is how I'vebeen feeling.
I, I need to leave.
I'm sorry that I have to.
And she understood that.
I mean, it was a very hardprocess, but, um, so yeah,
that's when I moved toMilwaukee, lived with my
(15:40):
boyfriend a year later here Iam.
I'm still trying to figure out,um, a way to deal with my
depression because yeah, everynow and then I get depressed for
whatever reason.
Um, and I do little thingseither.
I pick up my book that I'mreading, I read, watch my
favorite movies, watch newshows.
(16:01):
Um, but yeah, I just try to dodifferent things to help me feel
better about,
Speaker 2 (16:06):
It sounds like you finally found like the things
that really help your mentalhealth.
And again, that's something thatlike all of us have to go into
this like deep journey to findwhat helps us.
Speaker 1 (16:15):
And, and it does take a long time.
Right?
It does a lot people.
It's a process.
Think that it'll take like, oh,it'll take like a week.
Oh, it'll take a month.
No, it might even take a year.
It may even take two.
Yeah.
You know, but you just have tofigure out a way how you could
deal it with it your own way.
Speaker 2 (16:30):
Exactly.
And so I think we're gonna wrapthis up on our last question.
And what you said is reallyimportant because when someone's
just beginning their mentalhealth journey, or just
beginning whatever journey thatthey're starting to go on, what
advice and tips would you givesomeone who's going on a beauty
fashion and content creation,like, um, journey.
(16:52):
What is some advice that youwould give and maybe some tips
that you personally have felthave really helped you,
Speaker 1 (16:57):
Uh, for content creating.
I mean, if you wanna createcontent, I mean, just do it, you
know?
Yeah.
I mean, even if it's not perfectpost it anyways, because like I
said, in the end, you're gonnalook back and you're gonna see
how far you've come.
Right.
I mean, till this day I lookback, I'm like, dang, I post
that like, is that how I did mymakeup or whatever?
Yeah.
Um, that's how I dress, but justdo it.
(17:19):
Um, and I know I'm stilllearning too.
Like I'm still learning how toreach out to brands.
I'm still learning how to likesend emails, you know, things
like that.
Yeah.
And the way how I learned isresearch YouTube.
I even follow people.
I follow people who are alsogoing to the same or going
through the same thing.
Mm-hmm
they're doing this full time.
(17:39):
Yeah.
And, um, so just do it and alsojust look for somebody who you
analyze.
Um, because once you look atthem and they could also like
share their input, I mean,that's where I, you know,
learned too.
Speaker 2 (17:55):
YouTube university is one of the best places to go to
get your true education.
So we really appreciate youcoming on again.
Yeah.
No problem.
Talking about your mentalhealth, expressing how you feel
and giving people advice andtips on how they can become
better.
Uh, we just wanna remind, wannaremind our audience out there,
please, please, please.
Remember you are now alone andwe are gonna catch you on the
next episode.
Thanks for again, for coming on.
Speaker 1 (18:16):
Thank you.
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